It's the awake space with Lori Rivers, and this is episode 20
of Season 7. Can you believe it?
We're already into episode 20, unless I counted wrong, which I
do on occasion. I told you March was not going
to go out like a lamb, and it is not.
It is just not now. There's a reason I released the
2026 Preparations and Predictions video to $15 level
and up in March, because I just wanted people to kind of have a
heads up. And that's the same reason.
April, end of like night time, April first, early 20 the
second. Why?
Because I don't, I don't know, like is Alicia going to be
awake? Am I going to be asleep?
I don't know. I don't know, OK, But the first
part of the month, I'm releasing the 2026 preparations and
predictions to all patrons that the supporting level and up, OK?
Because April is another hack of a month.
And I told you the tide starts to shift in March and then it
really starts popping off in April.
And we do have that uncommonly good day on April 23rd.
I know what you're thinking. Could it be that it could, it
could be a million things. The thing is, is it's Venus
conjunct Uranus, and that is surprise, surprise, surprise.
And if you're a Gen. Xer, you know who that was, that
was Gummer Pyle. It is all about surprises, but
it's uncommonly good, especially earlier in the day when the moon
in Cancer is is making a sweet, sweet aspect to Venus and
Uranus. So it's it's an interesting time
to be alive and that's what we're going to talk about today
here on the awake Space. I'm going to talk about how to
know if the energy is the collectives or individuals
you've picked up or yours. OK.
We've been talking a lot about that in the Awake Space
community. And once again, I asked, hey
guys, is there anything you want me to cover on the podcast?
You know, I mean, obviously we got that full moon coming up and
I'll talk about that as well. The Libra full moon on April
1st. No, it's not an April Fool's
joke. And I highly suggest you don't
pull pranks because they will not go well.
Things will go wrong. It's an interesting day today,
March 30th. It is not a great day for the
Oompa Loompa in charge. OK, and for those of you who
think astrologers should be a political, I am not a political.
I'm actually non partisan because I don't like any of
them. But I am not a political and
there isn't an astrologer in history worth their salt.
That was a political. Part of our job is to assess
politics. OK, so and don't.
What about me? OK, I'm basically going to say
if you're mega, why are you listening anyway?
It's called the awake space. You hate woke stuff.
Let's do some some Ruby from Fifth Element be gone.
I have no time for you people. OK?
My family didn't fight a revolution and the Civil War and
we're suffragettes and fought for equality for this bullshit.
No, no and no. We weren't English.
We were kicked out of wherever we were from for being rabble
rousers. Basque.
Oh, I'm on when anyway, so it's an interesting week.
How do we know when it's the collective?
When we're picking up energy off of individuals around us and
when it's our stuff. And so I'm going to talk about
resonance consciousness and energy.
And it's good because the full moon is a doozy on Wednesday.
And then I'll give you a little heads up about what's coming up
in April. I can see the comments now.
Oh no, she's laughing. I am laughing.
So get your tea, get your coffee, get your matcha, get
your rebel, get your H2O. And whether we're driving to
work, taking the kids to school, enjoying spring break, getting
ready for Hoppity Hoppity Easter egg hunts, or Passover, or
whatever other holidays are on the horizon, we'll do it
together. I don't think it's it this
month, but you can start getting your hopes up.
Oh boy, what a time to be alive. So massive systemic change,
guys, is it includes everything. Every system, every government
system. You're like, yeah, who the fuck
the government? Yeah, well, it's inside of us
too, OK, Our beliefs, you know, the amount of people who misuse
terms because we stopped educating people on the meaning
of words. My Venus in Gemini is verklempt
and has been the we have to change our it's more than a
mindset change. We have to structurally change
from the inside out. I was doing a hot seat, which is
basically a group coaching where I support as many people as I
can in an hour's time, usually four or five.
And there's a large group of people and we're all supportive
together. We all learn, grow and share.
And this is something I do in Laurie's test lab.
And if you're an astrology crew that that's a benefit.
But anyway, I was urging people to come into the seat.
Hot seat is not like it's hot and it hurts.
It's more like the love seat because there's it's, you know,
I start out every single session with how can I support you?
Like that's not hard. And I understand being shy.
I am painfully shy. I know you wouldn't believe it,
but I am painfully shy. I could live in my room if it
had a kitchenette. I would never leave because I
already have. It's an en suite bedroom with my
own entrance, right? I moved in with my parents
because they're elderly. They live in the middle of
nowhere. I'm not necessarily caretaking.
I'm more observing and helping where I can.
OK, They don't need a lot of help yet.
It was more like I was tired of waiting for the phone call
because it was 1000 miles from where I was, right?
But I could stay there. And in fact, most of March I did
while they were gone. I had the house to myself.
I had the kitchen available. Not that the kitchen's ever
closed, but yeah, I could work in the kitchen.
Indeed. So I understand being an
introvert. Everything I create is actually
designed for introverts. The problem is is people tell
themselves stories, and one of those stories is I have anxiety.
I can't speak at you are talking to someone who as a small child,
even though I read early and I was really smart and I was
really fast at doing work, if a teacher called me and just
called on me. Lori, do you have the answer?
I would start to cry and that lasted till I was about 10 years
old. I would just cry because it came
as a shock. I hadn't raised my hand and I
would just breakdown, OK? I was not good at making friends
at all at all because in fact, my friends made me, if that
makes sense. In fact, almost always my
friends have made me. I've made very few friends, more
so in adulthood and later adulthood, it's just people
would be like, I like you. You're my friend now.
And I'd be like, OK, so I understand what it is to be
painfully shy, to have social anxiety, but we live in a world
that requires participation. And as someone who has a
disability, my eyeballs, for one, I know these glasses look
thin. They're very, very strong.
Very strong. And this eye is 100% blind.
The world does not sit around accommodating us.
We should fight for accommodation as much as we can
to make life a little more easy so we don't fall off cliffs or
walk in front of cars and things like that.
It would be nice to have ramps for access for those who need
those and proper fire exits and and standards.
But the world will and including the audience.
You will never understand the challenge of my vision because I
have glasses and you think those glasses help me see perfectly.
They do not. They help me see adequately to
function. It does not mean I do not still
suffer from low vision. Just because it corrects me to
be able to see clearly in one area does not mean there aren't
other challenges along. Now I'm not saying that to Wayne
or bitch or moan. I'm saying it because it's the
truth and the world does not accommodate me and nor do I
honestly expect it anymore. I just tell people I'm blind on
my left side. If I bump into them I'm like I'm
sorry I'm blind on that side. I did not.
I literally didn't see you there.
I've never had anybody bitch at me about it.
Never. And how can I drive?
Well, cars have safety features. I don't have to break my neck,
look and left anymore. It's pretty cool.
I still look, but safety features are good.
There's a little accommodation that made a big difference.
And we also have the audio on our Google Maps or whatever sat
NAV you're using, right? That's a really nice
accommodation. But in general, that's about it.
That's what we get, right? I put subtitles on for people
who need the subtitles, whether it's for language or because
they may have hearing challenges, whether they're
profoundly deaf or partially deaf.
My mom is partially deaf, having those help, and one of my
cousins is an ASL teacher. You know, we're all kinds of fun
in my family. The world does not accommodate
us. It does not sit there and
understand. And I'm not saying you have to
mimic being an extrovert. I couldn't do that if you paid
me. I can be fun in a small,
intimate gathering. You put me in a big crowd.
I will find a corner and I will sit and observe and I will know
where my exits are. I do not like crowded spaces.
Partly it's the energy. So yes, you do need to do
development and learn skills and energy work to help protect your
energy and practice good energetic hygiene.
But there are a lot of practitioners out there on a
high horse who do not understand.
Not everyone is made the same way.
As an astrologer, I can see how your energy works.
As an astrologer, I can see. Are you easily overwhelmed by
other people's energy? Are you better shielded by
nature? Are you more equipped to allow
energy to flow through you? Passover you, are you going to
have vivid dreams? Are you going to have a fight
and flight response? Are you going to feel that
energy physically? Are you going to just be really
emotional? You know, just like really sad,
really depressed out of the blue for no reason, right?
Those are all different ways. Some people might just smell
smoke or fire or, you know, when the collective's up and
sometimes you just feel blah, right?
Maybe you can't sleep. Maybe your nervous system gets
over stimulated and it's like you had a bucket of coffee.
I can see all of that in an astrology chart.
So when I hear these, you know, spiritual teachers or we'll put
that in their quotes or the psychic, the gifted, I'm like
please bitch. There have been times where the
energy is so thick. If you are a super highly
receptive person, even with training, a hematite pseudo
armor couldn't have blocked it because the world is going
through massive systemic change. It is a collective experience.
But why are you feeling the collective?
Even if you've really, really studied, you've practiced, you
have your your systems. Maybe like me, you've been
initiated into practices. And so if you've been doing it
right, why are you still feeling all these things?
Why are you still rundown even though you've been eating right,
you've been doing your cleansing rituals.
We know we're not going to ground, but coming to center,
meditating, meditating, doing our part.
So why? Because there's still a part of
you resonating with the collective.
I see it a lot. A lot of good people, a lot of
woke people are, you know, in righteous indignation right now.
You know, we're not a moral country anymore, honeys.
We never were. We're never a moral country.
We had moral aspirations, but we were never a moral country.
Otherwise there wouldn't have been a Trail of Tears, there
wouldn't have been plague blankets, there wouldn't have
been chattel slavery. If we were a moral country, that
wouldn't have been excused biblically, which was a very
important interpretation of the Bible as per what we see today.
Very poor interpretations. Don't get me started.
That would. We're just going to walk that
one back. So if you have been feeling
dysregulated, don't blame yourself.
Just don't. It's not going to be any easier
to ground as we move through April as Uranus moves into that
final degree of Taurus. Should be some big boda booms
with that. This week we have Mars in a sex
style with that Uranus. It's empowering the change we
are feeling our foundations eroded, actively being eroded.
So when people are up in fear, indignation, anger rate, it's
triggering and pinging that which is inside of you.
OK, you have a resonance with it.
Now you may be unconscious about the resonance.
Remember what I have been saying for years.
Virtue is your greatest shadow. The shadow is not bad.
It is a part of you that is less seen by you, right?
Remember, Peter Pan's shadow got away and Wendy had to sew it
back on to him. Because it's part of who you
are, but it is not who you are. It is not another set of
personalities. It is aspects of self we do not
like to examine. So we do things like, well, I
wouldn't do that, I wouldn't do that.
I'm a good girl, I'm a good boy. I'm one of the nice ones and
I'll show you how nice I am. A lot of the white saviour
complex comes from that space. It isn't I'll intended.
It is someone trying to show no, no, I'm a good guy, which is
selfish. It is.
I've been there, I've been there.
I'm not like them. I still benefit like them.
I may not be like them, but I still benefit.
Owning that is important. Back in 1990 when I was in
Abidjan, Ivory Coast for work and I saw what multinational
corporations did to that country, how they over utilize
their commodities, stole their goods basically for a pittance,
displaced people for factories that polluted the water table.
And I realized by virtue of birth, by breathing, I was part
of the problem. And boy did I disenfranchise
myself. It didn't help a single person
there for me to disenfranchise myself and certainly didn't help
my family. And it didn't help me.
It took a long time to repair that wound of awareness.
Waking up is hard work. The reason I call this the awake
space is it is for the awakened to find a safe Oasis.
But I'm going to treat you as if you're awake.
I am not going to put on kid gloves.
Especially now, at the end of Saturn's transit through Pisces,
my guidance says the time for warnings is over.
The time for warnings is over. Now it is time to take action
and build a substrata. You know the under the
foundation put the rebar in because we have to lay the
tracks for the future. A future I may never see.
It could be 200 years out. I'm not planting trees for the
shade for me, I'm planting them for the future.
For your grandchildren and great grandchildren and their
children, and we'll still have bills to pay.
But if all we do is sit in the resonance of other people's
stuff or our resonance with the collective, because we are still
part of the collective, we don't get out of that.
I I've had a bunch of people ask me about that, but why am I'm
doing the work? Why do I have to deal with it?
Oh, because we are all in it together.
We are a collective. We don't get to be above it.
It's like media. Mattel and I always laugh when
we put out predictions and they get us to.
I had a whole slew of tech stuff and when I had put it in my
what's in the headlines and I was like, oh, come on, That was
supposed to get everybody else except me, right?
Even Esther Hicks of the themed Abraham Hicks.
She'll be like Abraham. Can I be the exception?
Nobody gets to be the exception. We can face a new right.
It's not even a new reality right now.
It is a changing and reshaping of reality.
We can do that and still have a good day.
We can do that and muddle through.
We can have a shitty day and know if I go to sleep, I can
wake up and have a good chance of tomorrow being a lot better.
A lot better. OK, so how do you know when the
energy is yours? When it's the collectives or
when it's because you've been dealing with a client or you
were in the grocery store or your mother-in-law,
father-in-law, daughter-in-law, son-in-law came over or you
know, whoever it is? Well, wine.
Sometimes you can't. Sometimes you have to actively
take a step back and go. Is this really mine?
Do I?
I was in a good mood yesterday. Why do I feel like the world is
ending today? Is that really true for me?
Is it because I watch too much news?
Is it because I didn't look for any good news?
What would happen if I looked for some good news?
Because there has been good news.
And if that doesn't start to slowly release the tension, the
depression, the angst, then you're like, well, maybe I have
something I need to work on. Better make a therapy
appointment. There's nothing wrong with
therapy. Therapy is a good thing.
A couple weeks ago I felt the tug of depression and there was
no reason for it. Everything is going reasonably
well. In fact, in some ways I had the
life I fought very hard to have and I I have what I've always
wanted. For me it was really never about
the stuff. It was about relationships, it
was about family. For me, being of service and
having a life that feels meaningful.
That's what I always wanted. I get to do what I've always
wanted. I am a blessed woman.
But it wasn't just the doing. Now, some of it.
I had physical issues, hurt my thumbs and yes, all of my
fingernails popped off. Unfortunately, nail days Mondays
and recording days Sundays. So when I lose my nails, but
that's OK, they'll look pretty next week.
You can TuneIn to see what I do with them because I don't know
what I'm doing yet. But anyway.
But I was feeling the tug of depression and it took a minute.
It was like maybe a day and a half.
And then I went, Oh no, now my parents were out of town.
It was just me and Malcolm. Malcolm and I were doing fine.
There was no real stress. The news is is crazy, and I know
it's crazy. And I'm not really shocked by a
whole lot. I am a little shocked sometimes
by how stupid these men are and the women who support them, how
utterly stupid they are, especially as a specialist in
the region that is having the conflict right now.
I'm like, this couldn't be Dumber but OK.
But that that wouldn't cause depression.
And I had already started taking the supplements that are helping
my connective tissue, including the eye muscles.
That's helped a lot. But the tendons are healing up.
I've always been prone to tendonitis.
And so this is it's healing up. So I examined and I was like, Oh
no, I'm not going to deal with depression now.
I got to pull myself up. I'm not doing it.
I was there a long time ago and I will not do it again.
And so I really started feeling through and I was like, I think
it's world events and I don't remember what world event
happened. There's so much and there was
probably things going on that we don't hear about in the
mainstream media or haven't been reported on by citizen
journalists because they can't, you know, it could just be the
collective is feeling powerless and unable to make a difference
or a change. And that could be what I was
resonating with because there's times I look at it, I'm like, I
can't do anything about this, You know, it's, it's fucking
nuts. Fucking nuts.
I wish I could tell you when it will happen.
I can't, I can't tell you. Monday, March 30th and Tuesday,
March 31st all the way into about April 9th really sucked to
be him, really suck to be in so but modern medicine, you know, I
don't know what to tell you. Modern medicine is in the way,
but I don't think modern medicine is going to be to be
able to prevent a greater health conflict because I just don't
think his physicality can hold out.
You know, so as as my 2026 slide for the first week of April
says, if he is still president, he loses all support.
That's right. If he is still president in the
1st and 2nd week of April it and notice I didn't say he won't be.
I'm just saying if he is meaning there's a chance he may not be
and it could be physicality. I was speaking with a friend and
they were like, well, what are the chances of a 25th amendment?
I said the only way they get a 25th amendment is if he
literally strokes out so bad that he literally cannot pretend
to perform his duties. They're week ending Bernie at
this point. You know, Weekend at Bernie's,
he, he's not making the calls, he's putting his signature on
things and getting these Sharpies.
But that outcome shouldn't be governing your life.
It shouldn't. And you're like, but it does
govern my life because I'm impacted by it.
Actually, what's impacting you are the local politicians who
are goose stepping the Freedom Caucus.
They're impacting you. I've been saying it's time to
infiltrate instead of fight against.
I think we need to look at anyone who's in the
establishment with suspicion, and I've said that for a long
time. I am not a political, but I am
nonpartisan. I couldn't give a flying F about
either party. I think they've done, bought and
sold the Kool-aid and are trying to force us to drink it.
We have a great opportunity to make it through these times when
we can hold our energy, our consciousness.
And that's why I teach what I teach with the work by Lori
Rivers and Healing the Money Wound.
And that's coming soon. It's not about money per SE.
And and before I get to the next segment, this might be a little
long before I get to the next Sigma I want to address.
So I don't ever look at my reviews.
I just don't. I was taught a long time ago as
a writer, just don't look at your reviews.
Just don't. Not unless you're, you know,
into masochism. No kink shaming.
That's just not my it's not my game, OK?
But it came to my intention that people were saying that I was
telling people they just need to pull themselves up by their
bootstraps. Are you fucking kidding me?
So people who bothered to listen to this podcast took that away
from it. When I talk about being left
with nothing twice, once with two small children and my
experience of building a life over again, which honestly
prepared me to be of service now as everything is shifting and
changing, teaching people how to be adaptable.
Teaching people not just about mindset, but how to take action
within that mindset. You write affirmations on your
mirror in lipstick all day long. It will not change who you are
or how you think. In fact, your subconscious is
going to be calling bullshit on you every single time.
Now I think it was the love and light crowd who want to say hi
vibe all the day. And by the way, the universe is
love and light. But if you have ever truly
experienced a divine connection with either love or light, let
alone both. And ain't fuzzy and it ain't
warm. It's like a laser beam.
I was watching a video of a Hospice nurse talking about an
experience she had where she saw an energy being.
You know, some might describe it as an Angel.
And the word Angel means messenger, OK.
And she's the first person to describe what I saw and what
visited me when I was 29 years old, two small children back in
a country I hadn't lived in since I was 18.
My children grieving their life that they had no choice in
changing. And I couldn't find a job.
And I was following my guidance. I was doing the right thing.
And I, I had a cute little duplex like everything was
working out. But I was terrified because I
had these two little beings I had to support, right?
And it was looking spooky. It was looking spooky ooky.
And I had refused jobs that would keep me stuck.
I would TuneIn and I'd be like, I think this is going to get me
stuck. And I'd be like, don't take it.
I would hear it. Don't take it.
Be like, OK. And, and people around me,
especially some family members were like, don't be a slacker.
I'm like, I'm not a slacker, but I'm not going to get stuck.
That is not the example I want to give to my children.
And one night I was having an all out temper tantrum and
that's minimizing it. I was having a meltdown.
I was on the floor, I was screaming.
My kids were asleep, but I was on the floor.
I was screaming at the ceiling. You hate me, you hate me.
You hate me. I have done everything.
You've asked everything and you're punishing me.
I have children to take care of and I was banging my head on the
floor and the tears and the snot was running.
I'm pardoned for the gross bite that it was serious.
I'm sure my neighbors thought that's it.
She's gone over the edge and all of a sudden there was a flash of
this bluish white light in the left of my vision.
Now I wasn't 100% blind yet in this eye, but I couldn't really.
I could see light and it was a bluish white, almost like the
color of that light behind me just but it was huge and it was
big. And I turned and I looked like
that over my shoulder, just as I could hear a very deep voice
say, you are loved. And at that point I understood
the fear of God. I always wondered as a kid
because I was very religious. When I was a small child, I went
to a very lovely church, by the way, before evangelicalism
really took hold of places I would go.
And I was related to half the people there.
You know, my great grandmother had lots of cousins and
extendeds, and she's the one who took me and people treated me
like a little Princess. So I had a good experience.
I was very lucky in that. But I always wondered when I
read the Bible, why would they be afraid of God?
Jesus says God is love. Well, this being reached the
ceiling, and I didn't see wings and I didn't see the biblical
Angel with the eyes. It was just a really big kind of
humanoid block of light and energy.
And always being a skeptic and rational, I licked anyway.
Oh God, I've gone crazy, I've snapped.
I'm hallucinating. I'm hearing voices, I'm seeing
something. And I went to bed, completely
dismissing it. I went to bed and I woke up at
4:30 like I did every single morning.
So I could get an hour's worth of coffee in me.
And then I would get the kids up and get them fed breakfast and
get ready to go. And I would take them to my
friend's house up the road and then I would go out looking for
work. And as I'm standing at the
coffee pot with my trusty Mr. Coffee, it was 1999.
Don't judge me. And it's easy to show you.
So imagine I have my coffee cup here.
I'm about to take a sip and a man's hand is on my right side.
And it was a slender arm with the sleeves rolled up.
It was like a white shirt and the sleeves were like it rolled
at three quarter length like an old fashioned clerk, like a desk
clerk. And it was a tannish hand.
I did not look over my right hand shoulder.
By the way, all my doors were locked.
OK, I was a single mom. OK?
My doors were locked. There was no way for any other
human being to be there. And I could feel the warmth of
the hand. And a voice said, you are loved.
And then I looked and he was gone.
And I thought, you know, instead of looking for something today,
I'm actually going to call my therapist because I did have
one. And I'm going to call one of my
spiritual community members to get information about this
because he was very knowledgeable on these topics.
And I thought, that's it. I fucking lost it.
And so I called, I called Lewis, my therapist 1st and I said, I
really again, I think I need to be medicated.
I think I need to be institutionalized.
I have now seen and heard this. And he said that sounds kind of
like a positive message, Lori, I don't think that's a harm to
you. Like, even if it's not real, how
is that a harm to you? I'm like, because I'm seeing and
hearing things. This is crazy.
And he said, but you already can't see energy.
And you've acknowledged that I'm like, well, yeah, I can.
And I can see the energy around people.
I can see the energy around plants.
And yeah, I can. And he's like, OK, then why
can't you see it for you? Wow.
Just wow. And then I called my friend
Thomas and I said, do you think that was Jesus or just an Angel?
And he laughed so hard. He goes, you are literally the
only person on the planet who would consider angels second
rate, like, well, there's a hierarchy of things.
And he goes, it sounds like it was a messenger.
Are you willing to receive the message?
He said, Laurie, there are people who would give anything
for that. And I said, yeah, but I was
having a job moment. I was screaming at God.
He goes, but you believe so strongly.
Not many people believe like that.
Belief has a lot to do with things.
As much as I believed I could be punished for some unknown
reason. That's why I called it a job
moment. And I, it took me a long time.
I, I, I think I've shared this in community.
I don't think I've ever really told this story on the podcast.
If I have, it was a while ago. I used to be really nervous
about sharing those things because I have never intended to
have people follow me because of my natural abilities that I have
had to hone and develop. I wanted people to follow me
because I was offering something that helped empower them.
So yes, that was encouragement for me to keep going.
And by the way, that same day I got a call for a job interview
that ended up being one of the best jobs I ever had in my life,
working for someone else. And I ended up working at a
alcohol and drug free housing not-for-profit and that's how I
got introduced to acupuncture because they did drug treatment
using auricular acupuncture and all staff members got access to
free acupuncture and Chinese medicine or, you know, Eastern
medicine, which totally changed my world because I work very
well with Eastern medicine, specifically TCM.
So the universe works in amazing ways.
And arguing with God, yelling at God or the Goddess or whatever
you believe in the universe, whatever you believe in, I'm not
here to tell you what to believe.
I'm here to help you understand that what you believe matters.
But it's OK to have those arguments.
It's OK to scream. It's not fair.
But you also have to be open to receiving the support and the
the love and the light. And it can be blinding.
And no, my left eye didn't go blind because of that instant.
It's a genetic thing. So how do you know when it's you
or the collective? It's both.
If it's you, you'll know when you feel in.
You have to take a moment. You have to pause.
That's one of the things I teach in the work by Lori Rivers is
learning to observe without judgement, to step down.
How do I feel? What's my breathing like?
How do I want to feel? How do I want to feel?
Well, I don't want to feel like this.
OK, well what's the next best thing I can get to?
You know, what's one thing I can do right now to move me forward?
And that could be doing the laundry, it could be cleaning
out the car, it could be getting in the car and taking a drive or
going to the grocery store. I always bring up very mundane,
simple things because 90% of the time you're going to get told
take a bubble bath and bubble bath can do it too.
But sometimes you just need to get up and move your body to
shift to the next best thing so you can clear.
And understanding how to clear your energy is really important.
And I don't think I have a meditation on that in the
Patreon, but I will put one out this week.
OK, I will put out a guided meditation on clearing your
energy centers. All right, how's that for a
deal? And if you're in my community
and I don't have it out by Thursday, remind me because half
the time by the time I'm done recording the podcast, I'm like,
what the hell did I say? But I will put one out this week
to help you clear your own energy centers and then zip
yourself up for a little bit. You know it.
There's no perfect defense and there's no perfect way to be
spiritual. And there's no these, these
false parameters do a lot of damage.
This is what good people do. This is what bad people do.
These people are going to heaven.
These people are going to hell when we're making that right now
in our reality, because the universe is energy.
And again, this is my show and I'm going to proselytize my
understanding. And we get to work with energy
and manage our consciousness. So a lot of times, if you just
sit with yourself and you go, is that really mine?
The fact you're asking the question means there's probably
some kind of other you're resonating with.
You can't absorb what you don't resonate with, OK?
Just like you can't have an allergic reaction if you're not
allergic to something. So consider like when we take on
those energetical experiences or absorb it or are impacted by,
think of it like an allergic reaction to current world
events. Think of it like emotions are
contagious. We know that from Stanford
University. So it could just be we're really
open right now and we need to maybe tune down our receptivity
and maybe up our ability to transmit.
I was talking about that and the live stream that I mentioned
earlier on the podcast. If you go over to the Awake
Space, you can watch it. It's for members at all levels,
free and supporting and I talked about that.
All right, let's Speaking of, let's do some some shout outs to
our community and talk about some community news because as
always, the Awake Space members get first dibs on tickets to
classes. And in end of April, I'll be
teaching chart reading level 1. This will not make you a
professional astrologer, but if you're at the stage where you
recognize the symbols and you can find things in the chart,
but when you look at the whole thing, you're overwhelmed, this
is for you. And I teach you how to get
started and how to take notes and make sense and organize it.
And it's a huge mistake a lot of people do in learning astrology
is they don't bring a methodology to it or they
haven't been taught it. Maybe it's not a mistake, they
just didn't learn how. And so this is both a
traditional technique that I learned from my teachers, but
also from my experience on what will kind of streamline
information for you. So it's chart reading level 1.
And I will be releasing tickets this week.
And I'm also going to be having a group event of 10 people with
me where it's an astrological consultation in a group setting.
We did a trial run in March and it was freaking amazing.
So empowering. Think of it like a mastermind
process to move through problems and get support and and just get
those answers. So everybody brings like two or
three questions. I scheduled two hours.
I went a little over. I never short people on time.
I always go over. But anyway that I will be
releasing to patrons and then to clients and then to the public
because there's only 10 spots. If this is something people
really want, I'll probably open up maybe like two groups a month
for right now and I'll be opening up some one-on-one
readings. But the groups are nice because
a lot of times if you just have a question about moving, career,
things like that, I can answer that in like 15 minutes.
You don't need a whole hour, you know?
And so I was like, well, let's do up to 10 people and see how
it goes. It's a more affordable option
and it's a way that the people who'd really like to work with
me but really can't do the one on ones have an opportunity to
get in. But anyway, let's talk about the
people who support this podcast. I don't think it's it this
month, but you can start getting your hopes.
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All right, guys, I'm going to say if you've had trouble
accessing the community because it says your payment was
declined, if you've been using Apple, I'm going to be putting a
form out to free and paid members.
Please fill it out because it's going to go to Patreon.
I'm working with them to see what's going on.
OK? People have been having problems
and it's a technical issue. I'm I don't kick people.
You know, if you want to be there, great.
If you want to leave, great. I don't have a problem with
that. But I've had enough reports that
I'm throwing out a Google form to get for you guys on Tuesday.
So look for it. OK, Tuesday, look for it.
All righty. OK, let's move on to wind up and
talking about April. This is going to be a long
podcast, so I'll talk a little bit about April and I'll give an
overview of the full moon. If you want the full meal deal,
you can check it out in the Patreon.
I don't think it's it this month, but you can start getting
your hopes up. Well, my loves, Well, yeah,
April coming up and, and it's intense.
I know we're all tired of it being intense.
And I everybody's like, don't you have any good news?
Yes, I do. Humanity is going through an
initiation. Humanity is evolving.
That's good news. The getting through an
initiation can be a lot for the individuals as well as the
collective. As much as we said no one is
coming to save you, and a lot of us did in the spiritual
community, the energy community, the witchy community, the
mediums, the psychics, the readers.
We've all said it. Nobody's coming to save you
except you. You're coming to save you, and
that's good news. I've spent some time over the
last couple of weeks really assessing my goals, my hopes, my
aspirations, and even overviewing my accomplishments.
And yay technology. Yay technology.
Because this now 56 almost 57 year old woman has built
something with her own two hands, which no wonder my thumbs
gave out. It was literally a metaphor of
you have done what you can do to get you here.
It's time to reorder and restructure because you can't
carry more. You have to shift things, go to
the next space. Just like the warnings are over,
right? It's time to do something new
now. The podcast isn't going to end.
We are going to turn it up a notch.
That's what we're going to do. We're going to turn it up a
notch. I'm really excited about the
book and it is the first time I've had other really good
ideas, things I could have trademarked because they really
did have a value. But I was like, I don't want to
have to defend it because you have to defend a trademark.
And when you find yourself on the phone with someone and
they're saying, you know, you do have to defend it, but yours is
very defensible. I said I would cut someone for
this. This is a lifetime of work.
A lifetime. This isn't just a really good
idea I was able to leverage, It's a lifetime.
It's a journey. And no, I'm not OK with somebody
else. I've had people steal my work
many, many times. Even every two years, many, many
times. Take my ideas.
Take my language. There are people listening to
this podcast right now who copy my content on TikTok.
You could give me credit. It'd be nice.
I don't fight him. I don't send takedown notices.
I will over this because it's groundbreaking and it's world
changing and I want the integrity of the work to stand.
That's kind of where we're going into in April.
I'm thinking the song that just popped into my head, that's one
of the ways my guides actually work with me is they'll send me
songs and I got stand and deliver, Stand and deliver.
It's an old 80s song. Stand and deliver.
You got to stand for something, Stand for you.
Remember I talked about life not being a participation sport.
We have Mars moving into Aries in April.
It's time to show up. It doesn't have to be go big or
go home. It show up for what matters.
So let's take a look at the April astrology and I'll talk a
little bit about the full moon. But if you want the full meal
deal, you'll have to head over to the Awake Space community to
get that exclusive content because we're already sitting at
an hour. All right, let me get it and I'm
just going to read a little bit. April's all about all about
consolidating resources. It isn't about austerity.
It's looking at what you've got. You know, like when you have a
million subscriptions and you forget it and you need to
consolidate, put it all together, deal with it that way.
So it's looking at like, what are your duplicates?
What can you, what do you really need?
But it's about being conscious. And I'm not just talking about
money, OK? It's about like if things are in
cupboards or drawers, they cease to exist.
So when you consolidate resources, it's about, you know,
how many pairs of black hoodies do you need or sweatshirts,
right? So stability grows from
conscious structure. You reclaim energy or money
you've been leaking out in the world.
That's, that's what April's big idea is all about.
Again, at the $5 level, you guys are getting this whole video
that I recorded in 2025 as part of your membership Bunnies and
you, as long as you're a member, you can stream it on Patreon.
We start the month with the full moon on the first.
Pranks aren't going to go well at all.
Not at all. April 3rd we have Mercury train
Jupiter and Venus square Pluto. I think this could be some
really big leaks. I think this could be to do with
banking as well. The Sun is square Jupiter on the
5th and Mars is sextile Uranus on the 8th.
This is all very spicy energy. And then on the 9th Mars
ingresses into Aries. It's a wild month.
Mars and Neptune are going to catch up together.
That's in Aries. Such as a whole lot.
Although I think there could be a music release that is just
freaking like an anthem. Venus's sextile, Jupiter on the
13th, that could be some good stuff.
That could be some good stuff. That could be, it could be that
moneyed interest start pushing for change.
And then Mercury moves into Aries on the 14th and then we
have the Aries New Moon on April 27th at 27°.
So end of the sign, we've been having a lot of end of sign new
Moon. So it's like not a new project,
it's a current project that we're moving to completion
energy. And I'll talk about that more as
we go into there. It's wild.
I'm just gonna, I'll give you a little bit.
I'll give you a little teaser on this.
So April first starts with a bang in the international
banking sector. This could be a large loss by a
bank like Deutsche Bank or Credit Suisse, something like
that's one of the big, big banks.
Oregon, a private equity fund. Maybe BlackRock gets hit hard.
That'd be a shame. Could be issues with mortgages
or bond markets. If Donald Trump and notice the
language, if Donald Trump is still present.
Remember, I wrote this in June of 2025.
He is struggling with his health.
He has very little support left in the first week of April.
Early April also sees significant weather events with
cycling weather, big rain, erosion events and unseasonable
storms. Could be tropical storms, a
cyclone again lookout in the Southern hemisphere, or an early
hurricane. We could see whistleblowers or
leaks. Damning information comes out
about CEOs, corporations and politicians.
This could be the Epstein files, but it could be other things.
And then April 9th is a day of significance.
We could see acts of war, accidents, fire of significance,
civil unrest in more than one country.
USA and UK see people hit the streets or protest in some way,
violence in public spaces. The 9th and the 10th.
This could be political uprisings in more than one
country. I'm also looking at the Persian
Gulf states, the GCC states, Navy skirmishes in Asia or the
Indian Ocean or near it, issues with waterways of all kinds.
They might close down the Red Sea, you know, the hoodies might
do that. So it could be marine transport
is disrupted. We could see a stop in some ways
that will get us closer to ending things than anything
else. And remember again, I wrote
these in May and June of 2025. For 2026, we're going to see the
temperatures reach historic levels just like they did in
March. Heat indexes are off the charts.
We could see rolling brownouts or blackouts.
So if you live in a big city that is prone to that during hot
weather, please be advised and be prepared to manage through
that. Forewarned is forearmed.
But here I'll leave you with this.
This is not all that's on these slides, but a significant event
on April 23rd. This is good economic news,
could be in response to a new invention, a solution to a
current world problem, or better than expected crop yields in
certain countries. So and I had Ukraine there and
then the Venus conjunct Uranus in Gemini because it pops into
Gemini. But when Venus in Gemini is
conjunct Uranus in Gemini, we could see a love fest.
You know, it could be really cold.
It could be a protest that's really artistic or really vocal.
It could be like a concert or very verbal protest.
Signs will be on will be absolute fire, chef's kiss and
full of puns. We could also see a hacking or
hackathon that leads to something that benefits
humanity. So we'll see.
Maybe the hackers take something down, something harmful to us is
my question there. Anyway, if you want to know the
whole thing, you can get it as a patron at the $5 level and up.
Check it out. There's a lot more that there's
like 4 slides. 123, yeah, yeah. 444 slides for predictions for
April. Oh, what a time to be alive.
And the final slide after the four slides of predictions is
how to be prepared for April. And so it's a very, very active
month. Please be careful of falling for
propaganda. Don't just believe politicians
and what they say. They're going to use rhetoric.
They're going to use pretty words.
They're going to try to scare people.
They're going to use harsh words.
Leopards do not change their spots.
I get very concerned when people are like, oh, I'm confused.
I never liked Tucker Carlson, but he's making sense now.
And I like him. And I'm like, he's still the
same schmuck, OK? Don't fall for the good guy with
promises. Look at their history, a record
of action, and follow the money. You look at that at
opensecrets.org. Be prepared for big weather
systems. Get walkie talkies for family
members, especially those of you who may have power outages.
OK? Be prepared for school closures
due to political unrest or natural events.
This is global, it is not just in the United States.
But we could see them throw ice out in the communities again.
Again, I prefer my bourbon neat. Have games and books on hand
just in case of power outages. Make sure you've got stuff for
the the pets and the kids. And opinions are not facts.
Just remember that everybody's has an opinion, but opinions are
not fact. The well, I believe this.
That's great. You believe that it is not a
fact. That's why when people tell me I
don't believe in astrology, I'm like, that's great.
It's not a belief system. It's not about belief.
You don't have to believe in the moon to know it has a 29 day
cycle. You don't have to believe in the
orbit of the planets. You don't have to believe in
that. It happens and we have enough
data correlated to know essentially what the themes are
when these things happen. We know astrology's like 5000
years old and it's documented because astrologers could read
and write. I know it's not a big deal now.
It was a big dealio at the time. OK, And then I'm going to say
start working on discernment if you haven't already.
I'm building your bullshit meters.
And this, of course, was me talking about that last year in
2025. But if you haven't built your
bullshit meter, work on it. But yeah, April, April, the
weather's volatile. I think we're going to see some
very severe weather, especially in the Southeast, the United
States, the Gulf of Mexico, the Gulf of Mexico.
I think the Panama Canal could be looking at stuff, but there
is good stuff too. There is an uncommonly good day,
April 23rd. Don't try to guess.
I don't know it involves Uranus. It could come out of left field.
I think it's economic and we'll see.
We'll see what? Let's talk about that full moon.
I don't think it's it this month, but you can start getting
your hopes up. Well, the full moon is at 12° of
Libra. That's midway through the sign.
And it's, you know, Libra is not a passive energy.
I think it's a pretty spicy meatball.
I do. I think it's a pretty spicy
meatball and it doesn't really help out the dumpster.
That is especially before the full moon.
So when the moon's in Libra when it's around 8°, it challenges it
challenges the dumpsters Mercury and Mercury governs our brain.
He already has Saturn putting stress on that Mercury.
I think that's why he is talking out his ass worse than normal.
OK sharpies anyone? If I talk about Sharpies all the
time, would they give me $1000 pound?
Just kidding. Oh, God.
This is where we're at. You know, I knew it would be a
lot. In this time period, I could
have fathom how stupid it would be.
OK, I I can't predict that kind of stupid.
I just can't. I don't think that way.
God help us all, it is going to cause restructuring in this
country that is necessary. So we have that to look forward
to. But any who the full moon on a
personal level is really about looking where you're at, where
you sell yourself short, where you have over accommodated,
where you've given yourself away, where you've been more
worried about other people's feelings than how you feel.
A lot of that is displacement. And it's it's to not feel the
feelings. You know, I'm more worried about
this than I am about here. How do I know I have a Libra
moon? I have a Libra moon and I'm a
Cancer. So I'm made of feelings and I
don't like feeling them because they're very intense.
How's them apples? I've learned to, I built the
skills, but I was also very impacted by how everybody else
felt. So I didn't want to burden
people. Codependency.
It is a time to really, really investigate what is fair to you.
Are you being fair to you? Are you being fair to you?
We can blame that dirty rotten so and so for taking advantage.
We can blame that biatch for always being in your business.
We can blame so and so for never communicating and not listening
at all. Why are you participating?
And this isn't a pull yourself up by your bootstraps.
These are questions I ask myself.
How long do I want this to happen?
If this person is so disrespectful they will not have
a conversation? If they want me to play mind
reader, If they want me to understand what's they're going
through without taking account for what's going on in my life
or even asking about it, why am I frustrated with them?
You know, it's kind of like people who watch other content
creators get big and then they're jealous because their
content isn't popping up. Well, are you doing what that
person's doing? And why are you so worried about
what this other person's doing on social media?
Why aren't you paying attention to your own self?
Maybe your content needs to improve.
Maybe you need to do better hooks.
Maybe you need to film better, maybe you need to have a better
mic. Maybe, maybe, maybe, maybe, says
the lady who shows up in no makeup right up close because
she can't see on TikTok. Hey, in my defense, that last
video that I made was because I felt very sad.
This lady asked us from last week's podcast.
When I say the relationships that don't serve you, and she
said, well, does your only child dying count as a relationship no
longer serving you? Wow, man, my heart broke right
there. I was like, Oh no, honey, that's
not what I meant. And then I thought, that's a
really glib statement in a text. So I responded.
And if you guys saw it, I think a lot of people saw it and I
didn't care if any. I, I, I thought about it, I was
like, oh, I should go comb my hair and put makeup on it.
And I was like, no, I don't care who else sees it.
This is for her. This is personal because she had
a beautiful child who she lost tragically.
And I explained those relationships don't go away
because they no longer serve. That relationship serves for the
entirety of your existence because love doesn't die.
It just doesn't. Love is a constant.
Whether we can receive that love or or not is another story.
That's practice, right? Because unconditional love, when
you truly feel, universal love, when you truly let it in, it can
almost hurt if you're not ready for it because you have so much
scar tissue and it's breaking through that and it's something
else. Let me tell you, waking up isn't
easy. Staying awake is even harder.
But it's worth it. It's worth it.
We have an aversion to pain in our society, and I'm not saying
go around hurting yourselves at all, but we have an aversion to
natural processes. And pain serves a purpose for us
to transition into another state of being.
My thumbs, they were in pain. They are mildly so now I reused
them a little bit like I'm lying.
So I'm trying to be good, but the pain let me know.
Stop doing what you're doing. Stop doing what you're doing.
And the pain of loss is a little bit different.
We only grieve as deep as we love.
And therefore that grief is a blessing.
And I learned that in grieving my grandmother, who I did not
expect to grieve as deeply as I did, but I lived with her as a
child because we moved in to take care of my grandparents and
then I lived across the street. I idolized her and she played a
massive role in my life. And I had her till I was 41.
I had lost other elderly relatives in the past, some I
was very close to. It's only in the last couple of
years. I can talk to her or talk about
her. I talk to her all the time that
I could talk about her without my throat closing up because of
the pain of the loss of this constant.
The pain is from resisting the loss physically and not
acknowledging the actual love and the the phrase you only
love. You only grieve as deep as you
love came to me when I was living in Sedona in 2018 and I
was driving through a monsoon and it there was a break in the
rain and those, you know, amazing rainbows.
You've never seen a rainbow unless you've seen one in
Sedona. That's not hype.
It's something else. And as the rainbow came out
around this corner, I was driving, I heard my grandmother
say you only grieve as deep as you love, Lori.
And oh, my Lord, you grew you love so deeply.
And I had to pull my car over. And when we can release the
pain, we can let in the love because the love doesn't die.
And with this full moon in Libra, you got to love you.
You've got to love you. Where are you giving yourself
away? Where are you putting yourself
into the hands of oppression by thinking I got to put myself in
this box in order to be acceptable and be in partnership
with others? No, you don't.
The right people show up. Ended it on a high note.
Love you, love you, love you. If you want to know more about
this Full Moon Energy and how to use it to your advantage, tune
into the Patron Only podcast that is coming out Tuesday.
All right, I'm Lori Rivers, and I want to thank you for
listening and hate. If you enjoy the program, could
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Thank you. Have a great week.