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Welcome to the recovered, attic 
podcast. 

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Yes, we use the word recovered 
episode 1. 

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We talked about that. 
So some of you are here and 

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you're listening and I want to 
talk to our host, just sitting 

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right over here. 
Nuda podcasting doing that's 

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awesome dude. 
You've been doing like this. 

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My first the last two, we hit it
out of the park. 

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So the third one today, of 
course, our ego wants to say, we

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did amazing. 
We did great thousands of 

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people. 
Listening to us, probably the 

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best podcast and yeah, best 
ever, you know, Trump that seems

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like the best ever. 
He always puts his hands out 

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like this and does not that 
we're political enemy. 

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I always say, take the right, 
the left both wings and just 

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throw the whole bird out. 
Yeah, exactly. 

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Not affiliated with any 
political party and also, you 

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know, recovered addict podcast, 
of course a little controversial

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but we're not affiliated with 
any specific, Recovery Group 

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either. 
Right. 

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Yeah, 100%. 
We're here on our own trying to 

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practice spiritual principles as
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Walking down the only road we've
ever known like a Drifter. 

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So, one of the things that I 
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into the physical Dimension, the
emotional Dimension, and I want 

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to we're going to hit heavy. 
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On the spiritual Dimension just 
for the simple fact, is the 

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spiritual Dimension is where 
it's at, you know, they're 

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speaking of songs. 
He was like nine, 80s, hip-hop, 

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where it's at. 
I got two turntables and a 

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microphone. 
But you know where it's at that 

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135? 
Yeah. 

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At the big 50. 
But spiritual Dimension to us is

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the key to recovery. 
Absolutely. 

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Absolutely. 
We're also still in our module 

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1, understanding addiction, and 
now approaching that from the 

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spiritual Dimension. 
Mmm, what does that mean? 

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How am I understanding 
addiction? 

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Without a clear? 
Understanding of the problem, I 

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don't really have a clear 
Direction head in for a 

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solution. 
It's important that we as 

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recovered. 
Individuals. 

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Practicing a spiritual 
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Understand that I'm suffering 
from a spiritual malady. 

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There's something inside me. 
That is sick. 

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Otherwise, why would I need this
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okay, why would I have this 
delusional seeking this selfish,

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self-centered, run you over 
attitude, to get whatever it is,

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I want in order to be okay, 
nobody seeks anything unless 

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they believe the having of it is
going to make Make them better, 

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that's good. 
Yes. 

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Why would I see? 
Kenny, I'm not I'm not 

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intentionally trying to hurt 
myself. 

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Most people aren't unless your 
little psychotic. 

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Yeah. 
And then this can happen in 

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relationships where I need them,
so that I can feel better. 

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Absolutely. 
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I can be addicted to 
relationships. 

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That can be addicted to 
constantly having someone 

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around. 
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work. 
I have that. 

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Yeah. 
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Same same with me. 
I think, I think the 

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entrepreneurial part lends 
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Yeah. 
What through whole podcast on 

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that because I think I think 
that desire for and you had 

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talked about it. 
Last one was so good and help me

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out. 
Was that desire for more and 

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more and more. 
Well that can be a good thing 

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and it can be a bad thing for 
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And more donuts for me are more 
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I'm good enough. 
You know, all of that's the 

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same. 
You know, that mechanism in my 

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brain, it's all the same. 
It's all just gas. 

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Go do this, this is good for 
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Jason, where it's my ego talking
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you're better than everybody. 
ADI else, you work harder? 

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Yeah, you know, that app, that's
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I look pretty because I'm, I 
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Oh yeah, I'm running three 
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I'm running for businesses, but 
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I don't sleep my hair's falling 
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Yes, I have stress. 
Well, it's not those stress. 

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I mean, you're in the fitness 
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It's like those, you know, and 
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stuff. 
So it, you know, you have the 1%

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body type thing. 
But when you go on Instagram and

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you look at these fitness 
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are, you know, reluctantly done,
blood tests and stuff like that.

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And they find that inside a lot 
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That's bad. 
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Like it's super high 
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pressure, they may be taking 
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you know? 
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You know perform at Auntie 
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things so outside looks amazing.
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Instagram but then you see, you 
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see a thing of them in the 
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old, having a heart attack, you 
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So that's the thing that you 
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It's like the ego wants the 
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inside that's what you really 
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And that's what we're talking 
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My spiritual approach to 
navigating the world if I'm 

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hurting spiritually and I'm 
unaware of it, it's easy to have

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misguided Direction. 
Added ideas of what's going to 

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help because if I don't know any
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alcohol. 
Oh, this makes me feel better. 

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This must be, this must be the 
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know any better. 
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This relationship. 
This makes me feel better. 

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I have to have that in order to 
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unconscious behavior Can rewire 
my neocortex, the chemicals 

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produced in my brain. 
To be a normal part of life. 

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That's just the way I am 
conditions. 

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That's just how I'm going to go 
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I need this outside thing. 
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dangerous with the Instagram, 
very dangerous. 

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With the comparing constantly 
comparing my insides to somebody

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else's outsides. 
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than me. 
I feel horrible how I look and 

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people starve themselves or like
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taking whatever. 
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have to take start. 
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the big deal about the fitness 
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And yeah, they and they don't 
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done pre-contest but they 
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knowing know. 
I've been able to and I'm 

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grateful. 
I had this experience but I've 

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been on, I've competed in seven 
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bodybuilding shows. 
And when you take that level of 

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Fitness, we successfully, We 
take Health to an unhealthy 

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extreme. 
Yes, it's like, I've got two 

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speeds, I'm all or nothing. 
That's the way I drank. 

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That's why I'm going to be when 
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But really, super unhealthy 
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addictive. 
It appeals to people who have 

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addictive personality because 
all it takes is everything you 

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got. 
I'm going to dedicate 

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everything. 
I have to be looking at 

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particular way. 
So City getting blackout drunk. 

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I'm gonna go to the gym. 
Three times a day correct. 

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Correct. 
I'm going to burn my muscle 

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tissue. 
I'm working out so much and you 

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know that's a that's a 
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bodybuilding is a wild world. 
I was in that world for a lot of

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years now. 
I own my own personal training 

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business and I'm honored to take
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Yes. 
Through their own journey of 

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health and wellness. 
And you know what, you know, 

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we'd like to join. 
Peterson likes to talk about 

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Order and Chaos. 
A lot, it's the oldest oldest, 

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taoism type of one of the oldest
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It is and you have the yin-yang 
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order. 
And I'm 3% body fat on stage 

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looking lean and you look that 
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One day year, but I'm ready to 
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Ready to fall over my body is so
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I'm 400 pounds overweight. 
I don't even get off the couch 

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really, I can't even move my own
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I have Road Direction. 
I don't know how to treat my 

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metabolism. 
I don't know how to treat my 

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organs. 
I don't know how to take care of

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myself. 
So too much order and too much 

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chaos, both of those things are 
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The proper place for us is that 
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in the middle of that yin-yang 
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changes, we need order, we need 
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We can't have too much of either
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their own spiritual journey, 
their own fitness journey with 

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the with a fitness program is a 
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Well, you know when it when it 
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anything. 
And that physical Dimension that

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we talked about and then the 
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spiritual Dimension. 
And we say this in our module, 

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from a spiritual perspective, 
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misguided search for wholeness 
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That's inspiring. 
I love the Greek etymology of 

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perfection because you get, you 
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bodybuilding reference. 
You want to look perfect on 

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stage Or whatever. 
Whatever the reference. 

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Maybe I would have a perfect 
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Then I'll be okay. 
I want to have a perfect bank 

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account, then I'll be good. 
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word, perfect is whole never 
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let sparkling Sterling. 
So beautiful right Perfection 

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just meant whole if I'm coming 
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you know, we're this is going to
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We're going to talk a lot of 
spiritual principles. 

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I believe, strongly, I am not 
going to recover from any 

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addiction without a spiritual 
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Yes, 100%. 
I don't have a spiritual 

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solution. 
There's no chance for Recovery. 

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There's none because you can't 
white-knuckle something. 

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You can't will something into 
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deeply what's going on and it's 
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Mmm, very good. 
You know what I mean, at that 

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was, put up all over, you know, 
the Grease and stuff like that, 

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know, thyself, thy self, you 
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you know, mentally physically 
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know thyself and you see, you 
can't heal until, you know 

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yourself, very good, very good. 
So, if I know myself, if I know 

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that my identity is grounded in 
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God, conscious a present being 
from that space, I can be whole 

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That part of me is infinite that
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Source, that part of me is not 
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It's not subject to time. 
It's whole, it's already 

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perfect. 
Eckhart Tolle likes to say, be 

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what you already are. 
Mmm, that's so good. 

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You know, the whole? 
Yeah well so if I'm In a 

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conditioned pattern, we were 
just talking about this at the 

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gym, a destructive Loop of 
disillusionment. 

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A constructive destructive Loop 
of dishonesty of seeking outside

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things. 
In order to make me, okay, I'm 

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not aware that I'm whole, I'm 
definitely not being what I 

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already am. 
Yes, be what you already are. 

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You already are whole because 
you already have connection to 

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Source. 
Yeah, that's so good. 

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You don't I have $35 years of 
conditioning, right? 

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Worry about this money. 
Or I have whatever 20 years of 

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conditioning drinking, this 
substance makes you feel better.

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I'm just going to do what I know
works. 

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So we're very interested in 
Shifting. 

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The Paradigm here, we're very 
interested in getting to a place

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of complete willingness to do 
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And unfortunately I have to 
really go down the rabbit hole 

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with this misguided search in 
order to reach a bottom, you 

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know, recovery program say all 
the time the sufferer must hit 

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rock bottom. 
Yeah we and I like the word 

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misguided misguided search 
because it lends to, you know, I

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you know, and so you can go past
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that, you know, Star Wars is 
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hero's journey. 
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and understand it. 
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the hero having to meet the 
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know, somebody that is you know 
all knowing and you're going to 

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be like swept away and they're 
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to life in a bullet point format
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forever. 
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your mom, maybe the teacher. 
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Your dad and you see the things 
that your addiction is related 

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to the the things that you 
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relationship, with your parents,
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itself because what you've been 
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for wholeness or peace, what 
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we'll get into upper limits and 
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them I'm this You know, because 
if they were okay, if my parents

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were okay and they didn't raise 
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fine. 
I wouldn't be an alcoholic, or I

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wouldn't be a drug addict or I 
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Yeah, you know, whatever your 
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Just so, you know, probably more
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per se because I'm not like a 
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it's more like seeking wholeness
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then obviously like, Two year, I
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It's all blown up. 

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While I blow it up like that 
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You know, I just can't have that
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life. 
I gotta, I gotta have the chaos 

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upper limit problem. 
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want to get to this because you 
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other day, this whole idea of 
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options that you have when you, 
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and you slay the dragon. 
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I think this is really, really 
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At this moment because the 
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suffering? 
The teacher is your addiction. 

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Yeah, if that makes sense. 
Absolutely. 

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So you have to on the hero's 
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only be taught by that addiction
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that you know you have all the 
tools we always say you have all

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the tools in the power in you 
but when you're going to that 

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when you're going to that 
whatever type of dragging, it 

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may be in your life. 
What are the choices that you 

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have? 
Because I think this will get it

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was it, Jordan Pederson. 
Again that was talking about. 

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Yeah, yeah, go ahead and share. 
This is your appearance ends 

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analogy of, you know the hero, 
the Hero Journey and you know 

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it's important to say first that
I have hit a bottom. 

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Hmm I guess had a lot of 
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because my selfish destructive 
behavior is causing a lot of I'm

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getting a lot of consequences 
now. 

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Yeah. 
Like initially was fun. 

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Yes. 
I don't need a hero's journey. 

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When I'm just having a good time
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my life needs to change. 
I was presented with the 

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opportunity of recover, our die.
Hmm. 

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If you go down this path that's 
death. 

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I got very close to experiencing
that I got as close to 

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experiencing death from my 
destructive addiction. 

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As I ever want to get That 
presented me with willingness or

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a bottom to try and do something
different. 

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You know, what? 
In Jordan Peterson's, analogy of

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the hero's journey is there's 
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world. 
First type of hero is the type 

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of hero that goes out into the 
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Confronts, the dragon slays, the
dragon, and then comes back and 

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shares the spoils with the 
community. 

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Yes. 
And in our addiction that dragon

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is Diction that dragon that 
Wilderness that chaos, that, 

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that the Dark Knight. 
You know, that's, that's our 

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teacher. 
That's the dragon. 

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I had to be willing to go into 
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term, the destructive Dragon, we
slay. 

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The destructive dragon by 
shining laser point Awareness, 

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on the things that are kicking 
my ass. 

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Yes, being willing to do 
something different. 

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And start heading in that 
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And now we're presented with a 
beautiful opportunity to. 

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Now, share those gifts with the 
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The second type of hero is the 
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the tyrannical structure, the 
controlling leadership. 

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This would be pharaoh and Moses 
comes in to free his people that

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type of hero rips down. 
The tyrannical structure. 

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And is prepared to rebuild it. 
This is me and the structure of 

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my mind right conditioned, 
thinking I need that outside 

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thing in order to be okay. 
In me, it's 35 years old, if 

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we're going spiritual Dimension,
it's much older than that. 

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I'm carrying generational, and 
says, astral wounds hurts, 

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whatever it may be, right, Which
allows me to be the victim of 

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generational wounds hurts 
unconsciousness. 

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And then, I can just perpetuate 
the unconsciousness, and try and

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check out because this is too 
difficult to feel. 

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I want to feel something else. 
So confronting the tyrannical, 

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structure of my condition mind, 
my fear, my worried, my anger, 

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tearing that structure to the 
ground and being prepared to 

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rebuild it with spiritual 
principles. 

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Spiritual affirmations prayers, 
meditations. 

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This is the hero's journey. 
The best type of hero does both 

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those things. 
Yes. 

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Best type of hero slays the 
dragon, right? 

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And tears down the tyrannical 
structure. 

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Yeah, of the mind because the 
mind is the illusion. 

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Yeah, you believing in your 
emotion. 

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You believing in those thoughts.
They do and then allowing them 

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to control you to the point of, 
you know, because your mind your

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mind only knows the programming 
of, you know, for me 50 years. 

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So that's it from and we're even
talking about Like in the womb, 

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the things that your mom was 
saying, your dad, you catch all 

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that stuff. 
So, these Loops these thought 

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patterns Loops begin to form and
the next thing you know, you're 

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just running off this program. 
Jason Rigby's programs. 

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Pretty simple. 
What am I afraid of today? 

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How can fear manifests itself? 
Oh, I need to get really angry 

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at this person because I'm kind 
of fearful that they're going to

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take my job. 
Yeah. 

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Are, you know, I need to get 
angry at this because I'm 

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fearful that I'm going to lose 
my relationship. 

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You know the cool part about it 
is my fear. 

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Is it always comes true. 
When I really delve deep into 

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it, that's because you're a 
powerful manifest. 

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Yeah, I'm a Creator. 
You know, 

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it's amazing. 
It's powerful. 

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Our job in rebuilding that 
structure is now what do I want 

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to manifest? 
Do I want to be the victim? 

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Of my life or do I want to be 
the creator of my life and I 

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want to get into because I think
this is really important what 

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you talked about and this 
misguided search for wholeness 

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or peace. 
This part is really really 

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important. 
It's like what is wholeness and 

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peace look like for me. 
Hmm. 

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And can I define that with 
clarity You know, and I think 

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there's a lot of fog and you've 
mentioned this where you're kind

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of just walking around in the 
fog. 

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There's a lot of fog that's 
going on. 

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With understanding what 
wholeness and peace looks like 

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for me, you know? 
I know I'm an addict. 

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Yeah, I get that. 
Yes I know I have a problem with

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this this or this but I'm in 
this Falk like wholeness and 

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peace. 
I don't even know what that my 

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life is so chaotic I'm just 
living from moment to moment. 

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Try not to drink. 
Try not to do drugs. 

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I have no I don't even have a 
concept of what wholeness or 

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piece looks like how can someone
begin to establish that are 

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began to shift? 
If their thought process and go 

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towards that Clarity. 
Yeah, that's an excellent 

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question. 
That's what we want to dress in 

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in our modules as we go through 
the process here. 

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Like what is, what is wholeness 
and peace? 

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Look like to you. 
Well, understanding 

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understanding that whole means 
Without void without lack, 

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right? 
I don't need a particular thing 

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in order to be okay. 
I already am. 

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Okay? 
The whole idea of be what you 

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already are and then piece. 
This piece is so elusive. 

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His like Serenity. 
I don't know what the heck 

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Serenity means. 
What does that mean? 

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That means inner peace. 
That means on the inside. 

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I'm perfect the way I am and 
nothing external is gonna screw 

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with that. 
No, no. 

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I when we talked about this last
last class, you know, last 

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podcast, if I, if I can be 
independent from my outside 

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circumstances, I'm mastering my 
environment. 

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If I master in my environment, I
have emotional intelligence, 

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emotional challenges is the same
as Serenity is the same as inner

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peace. 
However, for a person who is 

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conditioned to live in chaos, 
who is walking through the fog 

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that inner peace is going to 
feel really weird. 

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Oh, yeah, Enterprise. 
And what the heck is this? 

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There's nothing. 
There's no fire. 

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I need to put out. 
There is nothing. 

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This is nothing. 
Crazy going. 

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Going on right now. 
That's going to feel weird at 

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first. 
Like I caught my boyfriend 

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cheating. 
So now I normally go do drugs or

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drink bottle. 
Yes. 

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And then cheap back and then 
cheap a yeah, whatever. 

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So so now I'm in like a halfway 
decent relationship. 

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Mmm, what do I do now? 
Yes, it's going to feel really 

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weird. 
Yes, it's a great opportunity 

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for an upper limit to sneak in 
upper limit problem. 

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I don't up and ulp. 
Ulp is what I experienced this 

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is from gay Hendrix and one of 
his books, the big leap and I 

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don't know how to experience 
this much. 

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Love abundance and success. 
My conditioning does not allow 

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me to experience this. 
Much love abundance and success.

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What can I do? 
Unconsciously the drop myself 

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back down to my normal state of 
existence, my normal pain and 

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suffering, the Comfort level. 
Yes, I'm comfortable with this, 

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much pain and suffering, right? 
I have 35 years of it, right? 

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All right. 
No. 

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So that's the rebuilding of the 
structure of my mind. 

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I like to think of it like for 
me, it's this way because we 

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battle this every summer and 
being like money, comes money, 

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worrying, all the time. 
So the thermostat that I have 

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out here, right? 
So I would like it to be at 71 

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72, it'd be great, but because 
I'm trying to save money with 

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the air conditioning, we live in
Albuquerque so it can get 90s 

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and high 90s and 80s. 
I'll put it to 76. 

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Now 76, I'm calm, I'm not very 
comfortable, but I know I'm 

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saving money. 
Yeah. 

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You know what I mean, 74. 
I'll compromise and do 74, you 

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know, just to make sure that 
I'm, you know, at that level but

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76 is like, I'm uncomfortably 
comfortable. 

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So this range from 72 to 76, you
know, 72 is making me worried, 

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I'm feeling good but it make it,
I'm worried constantly. 

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Yeah, so it's kind of an Inky 
hindrance. 

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But this is like a thermostat. 
Yeah. 

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And so when things go so well 
and so good like you get a 

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promotion at work? 
Oh, I need to cheat on my wife. 

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I've got I need to go. 
Yes, I'll go. 

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Bitch, I've gotten past that 
thermostat setting. 

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Yes, yes. 
I don't know how to handle this.

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Much love abundance and success.
I don't know how to handle inner

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peace, right. 
How do I handle Inner Peace. 

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So it's so, to getting back to 
your question about defining 

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wholeness to finding inner 
peace. 

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Both of those were tiptoeing in 
the same in the same. 

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Language here it. 
Perfect. 

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The way I am. 
I'm complete the way I am. 

456
00:24:41,500 --> 00:24:45,400
I'm there's not a void. 
I'm not in lack. 

457
00:24:45,400 --> 00:24:47,200
I don't need to seek something 
right now. 

458
00:24:47,700 --> 00:24:49,600
I'm whole. 
I have peace. 

459
00:24:49,800 --> 00:24:52,300
Both those things kind of walk 
hand in hand as you have those 

460
00:24:52,300 --> 00:24:56,300
things you are, you are all the 
time, completely whole and 

461
00:24:56,300 --> 00:24:59,400
completely piece and we're 
blowing people's minds right now

462
00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:00,400
because they don't understand 
that. 

463
00:25:00,400 --> 00:25:04,200
No, not make zero sense, right? 
That's why we're interested in 

464
00:25:04,200 --> 00:25:07,100
tearing down the old structure 
of my mind that says, I'm not 

465
00:25:07,800 --> 00:25:09,100
Hmm. 
You know what, in our in our 

466
00:25:09,100 --> 00:25:11,400
teaching, in our, in our a lot 
of the teachings that have been 

467
00:25:11,400 --> 00:25:13,900
exposed to, we always talk about
sex status and security. 

468
00:25:14,000 --> 00:25:16,100
Oh, I like this. 
Yeah, so sextus arrius. 

469
00:25:16,800 --> 00:25:19,500
I have a Miss. 
Well, let's remember here, I 

470
00:25:19,508 --> 00:25:24,000
have a misguided search for 
wholeness and peace in my 

471
00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:25,800
addiction, so I need to go to 
security. 

472
00:25:26,000 --> 00:25:28,400
Yes. 
So security always transfers for

473
00:25:28,400 --> 00:25:32,200
us into money. 
If I have the right money, then 

474
00:25:32,200 --> 00:25:35,000
I'll be okay, that outside thing
is going to make me. 

475
00:25:35,000 --> 00:25:39,100
Okay, so I'm chasing that sex If
I had the right relationship, if

476
00:25:39,100 --> 00:25:43,300
I have enough of the right type,
if it's if it's more, I'm 

477
00:25:43,300 --> 00:25:45,700
getting more. 
And if I want this person, I can

478
00:25:45,700 --> 00:25:47,400
conquer them. 
They want me back. 

479
00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:49,200
Yeah, I need them to want me 
back. 

480
00:25:49,500 --> 00:25:51,000
Exactly. 
Exactly. 

481
00:25:51,200 --> 00:25:56,300
Then I'll be okay. 
Hmm, status status is very, we 

482
00:25:56,300 --> 00:26:02,400
like to correlate status with 
Prestige Prestige is dangerous 

483
00:26:02,400 --> 00:26:06,300
for addicts because it serves 
the ego. 

484
00:26:06,500 --> 00:26:08,900
Hmm. 
To if it's taken to an extreme 

485
00:26:09,500 --> 00:26:11,700
Prestige is I want to be viewed 
as a leader. 

486
00:26:12,400 --> 00:26:14,500
Look at me, I actually know 
best. 

487
00:26:14,500 --> 00:26:16,200
The rest of you should follow 
me. 

488
00:26:16,300 --> 00:26:21,000
Look at my title, look at this 
all the time created so that's 

489
00:26:21,000 --> 00:26:23,100
status. 
Mmm problems. 

490
00:26:25,500 --> 00:26:31,200
I'm sex status and security. 
Usually, I mean, those are, 

491
00:26:31,200 --> 00:26:34,000
those are like big categories. 
Those are, those are no. 

492
00:26:34,000 --> 00:26:38,900
I like those categories but 
that's a understanding of what 

493
00:26:38,900 --> 00:26:43,900
I'm willing to Chase and seek in
order to be okay if I'm behaving

494
00:26:43,900 --> 00:26:48,600
in the delusion of my addiction,
a we need to wake up to the 

495
00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:51,900
delusion right? 
Be I want to I need to be 

496
00:26:51,900 --> 00:26:57,300
willing to seek a different type
of life. see, I need to have the

497
00:26:57,300 --> 00:27:03,700
realization that I have a 
god-sized hole in the middle of 

498
00:27:03,700 --> 00:27:07,300
me. 
From my destructive, addiction 

499
00:27:07,500 --> 00:27:10,300
behavior that has been going on 
for years. 

500
00:27:11,400 --> 00:27:16,300
And I'm using this sex status 
and security to try and fill 

501
00:27:16,300 --> 00:27:18,000
this hole up. 
Yeah. 

502
00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:21,500
And because it's not god-sized, 
it doesn't work. 

503
00:27:22,000 --> 00:27:25,000
I don't feel whole and I don't 
feel peace. 

504
00:27:25,100 --> 00:27:27,100
No, I mean, we have people who 
are listening the pockets right 

505
00:27:27,100 --> 00:27:29,800
now that maybe 
multi-millionaires, maybe have 

506
00:27:29,800 --> 00:27:32,300
you know, everything, the nice 
house, a nice car. 

507
00:27:32,400 --> 00:27:35,700
Yeah, and they're looking at it,
they're looking at it and I just

508
00:27:35,700 --> 00:27:37,900
kind of I've done that the 
first, you know, I went from 

509
00:27:37,900 --> 00:27:43,300
homeless to being successful and
like my first the first salary I

510
00:27:43,308 --> 00:27:46,600
got where it was like six 
figures years. 

511
00:27:46,600 --> 00:27:49,200
And years ago it was like six 
figures and I was like, holy 

512
00:27:49,200 --> 00:27:52,000
smokes I broke into like the 
100,000 Mark you know? 

513
00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:55,000
And I was like wow this is 
amazing and then I started 

514
00:27:55,000 --> 00:27:58,500
getting these big paychecks and 
then I was like, I don't, I 

515
00:27:58,500 --> 00:28:00,600
can't spend this much money, you
know? 

516
00:28:00,608 --> 00:28:03,500
I mean I could I mean I could be
stupid but I'm not stupid enough

517
00:28:03,500 --> 00:28:05,100
to go to. 
I'm not going to go the Louis 

518
00:28:05,100 --> 00:28:07,600
Vuitton store, you know, and 
pull my whole paycheck, you 

519
00:28:07,600 --> 00:28:11,700
know, that type of thing. 
And so I was like, well what can

520
00:28:11,700 --> 00:28:15,100
I do with my money? 
Like you're on making like money

521
00:28:15,100 --> 00:28:17,000
and at the time that was a lot 
of money to me being homeless 

522
00:28:17,000 --> 00:28:18,900
and then go into that. 
It's a lot of money that's 

523
00:28:18,900 --> 00:28:23,300
average wage probably for a lot 
of people but I was like, I 

524
00:28:23,308 --> 00:28:25,700
don't know what to do and then I
started making more of those 

525
00:28:25,700 --> 00:28:28,800
paychecks and then my income 
began to grow and then I was 

526
00:28:28,800 --> 00:28:31,100
like, this didn't make me feel 
better. 

527
00:28:31,600 --> 00:28:34,300
Mmm, Yeah, Yeah. 
Seeking the thing. 

528
00:28:34,400 --> 00:28:35,800
Yeah. 
I thought it would make me feel.

529
00:28:35,800 --> 00:28:38,100
I thought money would make me 
feel better, it's gonna fill up 

530
00:28:38,100 --> 00:28:39,700
this god-sized hole in the 
middle, right? 

531
00:28:39,700 --> 00:28:43,400
And then I'll be okay. 
I had the relationship, right? 

532
00:28:43,400 --> 00:28:46,200
I'll kill myself slaving three 
different jobs for different 

533
00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:49,300
jobs, making more money than I 
ever made in my work, in my life

534
00:28:49,700 --> 00:28:51,600
and I'm still uncomfortable on 
the inside. 

535
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:56,000
When am I willing to prioritize 
being whole? 

536
00:28:56,300 --> 00:28:59,200
When am I willing to prioritize 
having peace? 

537
00:29:00,700 --> 00:29:03,500
Am I making inner peace of 
priority in my life? 

538
00:29:04,700 --> 00:29:08,100
If so, what does that look like?
Yeah, that's the hard part. 

539
00:29:08,200 --> 00:29:10,500
It doesn't look like me chasing 
three different women. 

540
00:29:10,900 --> 00:29:15,000
No, then I'll be fine. 
It doesn't look like me slaving 

541
00:29:15,000 --> 00:29:18,700
for different jobs because then 
I'll be okay because I got the 

542
00:29:18,700 --> 00:29:21,000
thing. 
I got the for jobs, I still 

543
00:29:21,000 --> 00:29:27,500
wasn't okay. so, an 
understanding of I will not be 

544
00:29:27,500 --> 00:29:32,300
whole, I will not have inner 
peace from the world of form. 

545
00:29:32,400 --> 00:29:34,800
The world of form is not going 
to give that to me. 

546
00:29:35,100 --> 00:29:39,300
We're talking about here is the 
world of spirit, here we go. 

547
00:29:39,800 --> 00:29:43,600
The only thing that's going to 
be able to feel that spiritual 

548
00:29:43,600 --> 00:29:49,400
void, I need to stop looking for
outside things to make me okay 

549
00:29:49,400 --> 00:29:53,500
on the inside. 
So whenever we look at this 

550
00:29:53,500 --> 00:29:56,400
because the next part is it's a 
seeking of external solution. 

551
00:29:56,500 --> 00:29:59,600
To internal painter emptiness. 
So there's no such thing as an 

552
00:29:59,600 --> 00:30:02,800
external solution. 
The wording is, we need to 

553
00:30:03,000 --> 00:30:06,400
you're looking, that's a facade,
it's but I want to get into 

554
00:30:06,900 --> 00:30:09,800
combining this wholeness or 
peace with the seeking of 

555
00:30:09,800 --> 00:30:13,500
external Solutions because I 
have this emptiness and it may 

556
00:30:13,500 --> 00:30:16,100
not be paying per se. 
Some people may have a deep 

557
00:30:16,100 --> 00:30:20,000
pain, they use a bottle or drugs
or whatever, maybe they were, 

558
00:30:20,000 --> 00:30:22,700
you know, you know God forbid 
maybe they had something super 

559
00:30:22,700 --> 00:30:25,600
rific happened to them you know 
as a teenager or something like 

560
00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:29,100
that you have a lot of A lot of 
trauma, you know, whether it's 

561
00:30:29,100 --> 00:30:32,200
child abuse or, you know, being 
you know, raped or something 

562
00:30:32,200 --> 00:30:34,900
like that, super horrific. 
And so that's pain that you're 

563
00:30:34,900 --> 00:30:37,800
carrying around. 
I get that part, you know, as 

564
00:30:37,800 --> 00:30:41,600
far as understanding that deep 
pain and so you want to clear 

565
00:30:41,600 --> 00:30:45,500
that pain with alcohol drugs. 
You know, food, whatever it may 

566
00:30:45,500 --> 00:30:48,400
be. 
Yeah, but the emptiness that's 

567
00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:53,100
the part that gets me is like 
because I always battled 

568
00:30:53,100 --> 00:30:55,900
depression and I know my 
depression is self pity. 

569
00:30:56,500 --> 00:30:58,300
No. 
But that creates my depression 

570
00:30:58,300 --> 00:31:01,600
creates emptiness, you know, 
like this empty feeling where I 

571
00:31:01,600 --> 00:31:03,900
was like, oh I did get a big 
paycheck, but I don't feel 

572
00:31:03,900 --> 00:31:05,900
anything. 
Am I supposed to feel something?

573
00:31:06,400 --> 00:31:09,500
Or I'm at like one of my kids 
birthday party and I'm like 

574
00:31:09,500 --> 00:31:12,300
everybody's happy and laughing 
and I'm just sitting there like 

575
00:31:13,300 --> 00:31:16,300
this is my kid's birthday party.
Why am I not feeling any 

576
00:31:16,300 --> 00:31:18,500
emotion? 
Like towards I should feel like 

577
00:31:18,500 --> 00:31:20,300
happy and want to go cut the 
cake instead. 

578
00:31:20,300 --> 00:31:23,000
I just want to sit here and hold
a beer, you know and just kind 

579
00:31:23,000 --> 00:31:25,400
of watch everybody, you know and
I don't you know there's like 

580
00:31:25,500 --> 00:31:28,700
emptiness feeling. 
I think a lot of people are at 

581
00:31:28,700 --> 00:31:33,300
that empty stage and it's an 
excellent, it's an explanation 

582
00:31:34,100 --> 00:31:36,000
of not just seeking external 
Solutions, but it's an 

583
00:31:36,000 --> 00:31:39,900
explanation of not understanding
who you truly are, and I want to

584
00:31:39,900 --> 00:31:41,400
get into this. 
And I want you to kind of talk 

585
00:31:41,400 --> 00:31:43,600
about this. 
A little bit, is the 

586
00:31:43,600 --> 00:31:46,100
understanding of the spirit, the
higher self. 

587
00:31:46,400 --> 00:31:50,800
The god in you, maybe you can 
approach it in a way, kind of in

588
00:31:50,800 --> 00:31:53,800
a practical way. 
We're somebody could understand 

589
00:31:53,800 --> 00:31:56,300
who they really are. 
Like you, are you all right? 

590
00:31:56,500 --> 00:31:58,300
I love it now. 
Yes, now we're discussing my 

591
00:31:58,300 --> 00:32:00,900
identity. 
Yes, yes, yes, very easy to 

592
00:32:00,900 --> 00:32:04,400
identify with the world of form,
very easy to identify with my 

593
00:32:04,400 --> 00:32:06,300
paycheck. 
I got the six-figure paycheck, 

594
00:32:06,300 --> 00:32:08,400
that's who I am. 
Look at me, that's Prestige, 

595
00:32:09,100 --> 00:32:11,600
very easy to identify with my 
relationship. 

596
00:32:11,800 --> 00:32:13,800
Hmm. 
Look how gorgeous she is. 

597
00:32:13,800 --> 00:32:17,100
Look at, who's on my arm, what 
type of man do I have to be? 

598
00:32:17,100 --> 00:32:20,900
If she's on my arm, yes, very 
easy to identify relationship, 

599
00:32:21,200 --> 00:32:27,000
very, very easy to, to identify 
in the Old of form. 

600
00:32:27,100 --> 00:32:32,600
And if I'm lost in addiction and
simultaneously trying to 

601
00:32:32,600 --> 00:32:36,500
identify with the world of form,
usually, the world of form is 

602
00:32:36,500 --> 00:32:40,800
running away from me because I'm
behaving in such a selfish 

603
00:32:40,800 --> 00:32:43,400
destructive way. 
I'm losing the jobs. 

604
00:32:44,100 --> 00:32:50,400
So if my identity is my job and 
I lost the job, who am I If my 

605
00:32:50,400 --> 00:32:54,500
identity identity is my 
relationship and I lost the 

606
00:32:54,500 --> 00:32:56,800
relationship. 
Who Am I? 

607
00:32:56,808 --> 00:32:58,900
Who am I? 
Am I nobody should I kill 

608
00:32:58,900 --> 00:33:00,800
myself? 
That's where I went. 

609
00:33:01,300 --> 00:33:03,900
You know, I went thoughts of 
suicide because I lost the 

610
00:33:03,900 --> 00:33:06,100
relationship. 
That was my identity. 

611
00:33:06,400 --> 00:33:10,500
That's who I was. 
That's still delusional. 

612
00:33:12,100 --> 00:33:16,700
If my identity is based in 
transient things, I'm headed for

613
00:33:16,700 --> 00:33:19,400
trouble. 
The world of form is extremely 

614
00:33:19,400 --> 00:33:21,900
transient. 
Everything fluctuates jobs. 

615
00:33:21,900 --> 00:33:23,800
Come and go relationships, come 
and go. 

616
00:33:24,300 --> 00:33:25,800
None of that is going to be 
forever. 

617
00:33:26,000 --> 00:33:31,300
It's the destiny of all form to 
eventually, go away all for. 

618
00:33:32,500 --> 00:33:36,300
So what do we have left vertical
Dimension? 

619
00:33:36,600 --> 00:33:40,200
World of spirit Consciousness 
presence. 

620
00:33:42,200 --> 00:33:46,000
God Soul. 
Love eternity. 

621
00:33:46,000 --> 00:33:48,500
We use many terms because any 
one term limits it. 

622
00:33:48,500 --> 00:33:50,500
You remember from last one last 
class? 

623
00:33:53,300 --> 00:33:58,100
if my identity is grounded in my
consciousness, That's not going 

624
00:33:58,100 --> 00:34:00,200
anywhere. 
Yes, that's good. 

625
00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:02,400
That's not going anywhere. 
Rose things. 

626
00:34:02,400 --> 00:34:06,100
Those Eternal part that Eternal 
part of me that is formless. 

627
00:34:09,199 --> 00:34:12,500
Is not transient that with me 
forever. 

628
00:34:12,500 --> 00:34:17,900
So if my identity is grounded in
something that is forever, then 

629
00:34:17,900 --> 00:34:22,500
I'm On Solid Ground, then I can 
build from there and I can start

630
00:34:22,500 --> 00:34:26,800
to honor the world of form. 
It's important to have jobs, 

631
00:34:27,100 --> 00:34:28,900
it's important to have 
relationships. 

632
00:34:29,199 --> 00:34:33,100
It's important to be able to 
provide for my family, but if 

633
00:34:33,100 --> 00:34:38,100
those things are who I am, I'm 
really in a lot of trouble when 

634
00:34:38,100 --> 00:34:42,400
they start to change and shift 
and mold my kids today are 10, 6

635
00:34:42,400 --> 00:34:44,800
and 2. 
They are not going to need me in

636
00:34:44,800 --> 00:34:47,400
10 years, the same way they need
me now, right? 

637
00:34:47,400 --> 00:34:51,699
So my role as father, if that's 
my identity I'm in a lot of 

638
00:34:51,699 --> 00:34:53,100
trouble as soon as they don't 
need me. 

639
00:34:54,100 --> 00:34:59,100
I'm not gonna have more kids. 
I'm about to lose myself and I 

640
00:34:59,107 --> 00:35:01,800
don't want to have more kids. 
Yeah, yeah, exactly. 

641
00:35:01,800 --> 00:35:04,700
I also don't want to be 
dependent upon them in order to 

642
00:35:04,700 --> 00:35:06,600
be okay. 
That's the real issue I think. 

643
00:35:07,100 --> 00:35:08,200
Good. 
I think it's a really good 

644
00:35:08,200 --> 00:35:10,800
explanation. 
Now for me in this is a personal

645
00:35:10,800 --> 00:35:13,900
belief, you know, for me it's 
and I'm we're going to get real 

646
00:35:13,900 --> 00:35:18,200
scorcher but it's higher self. 
So you know what? 

647
00:35:18,200 --> 00:35:21,700
I once made sense to me is 
looking at whether you want to 

648
00:35:21,700 --> 00:35:23,400
call it, reincarnation or 
whatever it is. 

649
00:35:23,400 --> 00:35:26,200
And maybe there's people that 
don't believe that on here, but 

650
00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:30,200
I've had millions of meat suits 
and I'm evolving to my higher 

651
00:35:30,200 --> 00:35:32,400
self. 
But my higher self is in a whole

652
00:35:32,400 --> 00:35:36,600
different dimension. 
That is can does not bound by 

653
00:35:36,600 --> 00:35:38,300
time. 
I'm conscious, whatever you want

654
00:35:38,300 --> 00:35:40,800
to call it. 
And it's kind of lovingly or 

655
00:35:40,800 --> 00:35:43,100
God, you could look. 
You could say, it's God is 

656
00:35:43,100 --> 00:35:45,800
lovingly looking at me almost 
and I like to picture him 

657
00:35:45,800 --> 00:35:49,200
laughing at me, you know, with 
my struggles, because here's 

658
00:35:49,200 --> 00:35:52,400
this guy men's, men's years 
ahead or girl or whatever, 

659
00:35:52,400 --> 00:35:54,200
imagine I've had lots of 
different genders, you know, 

660
00:35:54,900 --> 00:35:56,800
going through my all my 
different meat suits. 

661
00:35:57,400 --> 00:36:00,000
But, and then looking and saying
really, you think this is such a

662
00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:02,800
hard struggle, you know, you 
know, a million meat suits ago, 

663
00:36:02,800 --> 00:36:06,400
you were in prison, you know, 
you got your head chopped off, 

664
00:36:06,700 --> 00:36:10,000
you know, Like, who knows what? 
Yeah, you know, so it puts it 

665
00:36:10,000 --> 00:36:14,300
into perspective and I like to 
look to my higher self for me 

666
00:36:14,300 --> 00:36:17,300
because now I now it's not such 
a big deal. 

667
00:36:17,900 --> 00:36:19,900
It's not just 50 years of 
programming. 

668
00:36:20,300 --> 00:36:22,900
This is something that I've been
experiencing and working through

669
00:36:22,900 --> 00:36:26,400
an evolving to a higher 
Consciousness, slowly over 

670
00:36:26,600 --> 00:36:28,700
millions of years, if that makes
sense. 

671
00:36:28,700 --> 00:36:30,600
So for me and it's just another 
way. 

672
00:36:30,600 --> 00:36:33,600
However, people want to believe 
it, we can do the Christian way,

673
00:36:34,500 --> 00:36:36,600
you know, where you have a holy 
spirit that lives in you, hmm. 

674
00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:40,000
You know, so whether you accept 
Jesus or, you know, God or 

675
00:36:40,000 --> 00:36:43,500
whatever it is, and then that 
allows Holy Spirit to live in 

676
00:36:43,500 --> 00:36:46,500
you and then you are not your 
old self anymore. 

677
00:36:47,000 --> 00:36:49,500
You know, you are a new 
creature, born through Christ, 

678
00:36:49,500 --> 00:36:51,700
you know, so Christ 
Consciousness, we could get into

679
00:36:51,700 --> 00:36:53,900
that. 
So you know, the Holy Spirit, 

680
00:36:53,900 --> 00:36:57,200
then you look to the holy spirit
to guide and direct you, you 

681
00:36:57,200 --> 00:36:59,200
know, in the things that you 
want to do to me, that's the 

682
00:36:59,207 --> 00:37:03,100
same as the higher self are 
looking to God, that higher 

683
00:37:03,100 --> 00:37:08,200
person, you are not join. 
The bottle in his hand. 

684
00:37:09,000 --> 00:37:11,300
As you are not. 
Dwayne blackout drunk with throw

685
00:37:11,300 --> 00:37:13,400
up on the side. 
Are you in the hospital? 

686
00:37:13,600 --> 00:37:14,400
And we'll get into those 
stories. 

687
00:37:14,400 --> 00:37:18,100
Some point, you are not. 
Any of those things has nothing 

688
00:37:18,100 --> 00:37:20,700
to do with me, has nothing to do
with my identity, right? 

689
00:37:20,800 --> 00:37:23,600
Those are things that happen to 
me as a result of my destructive

690
00:37:23,600 --> 00:37:25,800
behavior, my destructive 
addiction. 

691
00:37:26,300 --> 00:37:31,000
But yeah that God Consciousness 
that the Holy Spirit the 

692
00:37:31,000 --> 00:37:35,800
indwelling, I love it, that is 
what helps me rebuild the 

693
00:37:35,800 --> 00:37:39,500
structure of mine. 
My mind, how many millions of 

694
00:37:39,500 --> 00:37:44,400
times did I have the thought the
condition thought? 

695
00:37:45,500 --> 00:37:50,000
I need that to be okay. 
Oh worry worry worry about this 

696
00:37:50,000 --> 00:37:53,100
worry about this. 
It's millions of times that my 

697
00:37:53,100 --> 00:37:56,800
broad word Millions has fired 
these neurological wirings. 

698
00:37:57,100 --> 00:38:03,200
So we have to recondition the 
brain with neural plasticity in 

699
00:38:03,200 --> 00:38:05,200
the brain can change grow and 
evolve. 

700
00:38:05,200 --> 00:38:08,200
This is, this is just late 80s, 
you know, up until the late 80s 

701
00:38:08,400 --> 00:38:12,100
science told us. 
Don't drink the tequila if you 

702
00:38:12,100 --> 00:38:15,100
kill your brain cells, you'll 
never get them back and sign. 

703
00:38:15,300 --> 00:38:17,300
I found out that that's not 
true, right? 

704
00:38:17,400 --> 00:38:19,200
Scientists that are not 
interested in Spiritual 

705
00:38:19,200 --> 00:38:22,400
Development, they found out. 
No, you can have you can create 

706
00:38:22,400 --> 00:38:25,000
wire, you can create new 
neurological Pathways called 

707
00:38:25,000 --> 00:38:28,500
neuroplasticity takes place. 
In the neocortex, the new brain,

708
00:38:29,100 --> 00:38:33,200
and repetition makes that 
possible. 

709
00:38:34,500 --> 00:38:37,300
How many millions of times did I
have the worrisome thought? 

710
00:38:37,600 --> 00:38:39,900
Well, it's like, I've told you 
and we talked about this funny. 

711
00:38:40,500 --> 00:38:42,800
You're all new sales get created
like seven years. 

712
00:38:42,800 --> 00:38:51,000
Maybe seven years. 
Yeah, your entire body is almost

713
00:38:51,000 --> 00:38:54,800
two new people before your body 
doesn't know alcohol. 

714
00:38:54,900 --> 00:38:56,800
Correct? 
At seven years sober twice. 

715
00:38:56,800 --> 00:38:58,300
Now your body doesn't know 
alcohol. 

716
00:38:58,300 --> 00:39:02,100
Not a single cell in this body 
has experienced a drug or 

717
00:39:02,100 --> 00:39:04,000
alcohol or yeah. 
So, think about that. 

718
00:39:04,200 --> 00:39:08,000
At like it's so cool. 
It's like a new lease on life. 

719
00:39:08,000 --> 00:39:11,100
Exactly. 
You know like it and so you say 

720
00:39:11,100 --> 00:39:14,400
seven years sober your it's just
your programming in your mind, 

721
00:39:14,400 --> 00:39:17,300
that saying that you want that 
drug, you know what I mean? 

722
00:39:17,400 --> 00:39:20,600
Because nowhere in your body, is
there any drug? 

723
00:39:21,400 --> 00:39:26,200
Because our life and because my 
inner peace depend on me 

724
00:39:26,200 --> 00:39:30,000
changing, I'm willing to head 
down that path. 

725
00:39:30,000 --> 00:39:32,700
Yes I'm willing to find a new 
way of living. 

726
00:39:32,700 --> 00:39:36,600
I have to find a way to live 
without my whatever desired 

727
00:39:36,600 --> 00:39:41,000
substance is. 
At first initially, we do it 

728
00:39:41,000 --> 00:39:44,000
because our life depends on it. 
If I don't change, I'm going to 

729
00:39:44,000 --> 00:39:46,900
crash and burn. 
So defining the word Addiction 

730
00:39:48,000 --> 00:39:49,400
to me. 
I don't know like what our 

731
00:39:49,400 --> 00:39:51,100
material says. 
It's an addiction can lead to a 

732
00:39:51,100 --> 00:39:53,800
disconnection from ones true 
self and higher power. 

733
00:39:54,100 --> 00:39:57,300
Hmm addiction can lead to a 
disconnection, I'd love that 

734
00:39:57,300 --> 00:40:00,500
word. 
So let's Define addiction and 

735
00:40:00,500 --> 00:40:01,500
kisses. 
Your first time somebody 

736
00:40:01,500 --> 00:40:05,100
listening to this podcast, it's 
anything that takes you away 

737
00:40:05,100 --> 00:40:06,400
from. 
I like to say it's anything. 

738
00:40:06,400 --> 00:40:07,500
It takes me away from my 
herself. 

739
00:40:07,500 --> 00:40:08,700
It seemed that takes me away 
from God. 

740
00:40:08,700 --> 00:40:10,100
It's a then takes me away from 
Source. 

741
00:40:10,900 --> 00:40:15,800
Yeah, and if I, if I have a 
pattern of that Then that is an 

742
00:40:15,800 --> 00:40:20,000
addiction. 
If and my ego wants to take hold

743
00:40:20,000 --> 00:40:24,900
of that pattern and then run it 
Loops in my head and calls me to

744
00:40:25,100 --> 00:40:26,900
my Egos and fight with my higher
self. 

745
00:40:26,900 --> 00:40:29,000
Kind of, there's like this 
little, you know, that you 

746
00:40:29,000 --> 00:40:31,400
remember the old cartoons Porky 
the Pig. 

747
00:40:31,500 --> 00:40:33,800
Some of you may not remember 
this, but there was like this 

748
00:40:34,000 --> 00:40:36,200
devil and angel, the devil and 
the angel, and they're like 

749
00:40:36,200 --> 00:40:39,700
little pigs and they would tell 
them to do this or tell him to 

750
00:40:39,700 --> 00:40:41,200
do this. 
So I kind of look at my like my 

751
00:40:41,200 --> 00:40:44,100
ego and herself that way. 
You know, which is not 

752
00:40:44,100 --> 00:40:47,400
necessarily bad and good, you 
know, because it was so as above

753
00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:50,600
so below. 
But it's so funny whenever you 

754
00:40:50,600 --> 00:40:56,500
look at things that are taking 
you away from God, And then I'm 

755
00:40:56,500 --> 00:41:01,500
doing these things constantly. 
Well I have an addiction, the 

756
00:41:01,500 --> 00:41:05,800
dependence of yes this action, 
the dependence of this 

757
00:41:05,800 --> 00:41:08,100
substance. 
Yeah I have to do this in order 

758
00:41:08,100 --> 00:41:11,300
to be okay. 
I need to get approval from 

759
00:41:11,300 --> 00:41:15,600
women so that they like me so 
that I feel good about myself. 

760
00:41:16,300 --> 00:41:19,000
It's a very I'm manipulating 
common addiction. 

761
00:41:19,100 --> 00:41:23,500
Yeah. 
I'm manipulating Women to get 

762
00:41:23,800 --> 00:41:25,700
all your awesome. 
That's all I want to hear. 

763
00:41:25,800 --> 00:41:27,300
I'm just addicted to the 
approval. 

764
00:41:27,500 --> 00:41:28,600
The approval. 
Yes. 

765
00:41:28,600 --> 00:41:29,300
There we go. 
Yes. 

766
00:41:29,500 --> 00:41:32,200
And it looks best when it's 
pretty when it comes from 

767
00:41:32,200 --> 00:41:34,800
someone gorgeous, or someone 
that I admire. 

768
00:41:34,900 --> 00:41:37,200
Yeah, just I'm just looking for 
the approval. 

769
00:41:37,500 --> 00:41:40,400
I don't have self-worth. 
The addiction the delusion is I 

770
00:41:40,400 --> 00:41:43,600
don't have self-worth unless I 
get her attention. 

771
00:41:43,800 --> 00:41:46,100
Yeah. 
And I didn't realize this pretty

772
00:41:46,100 --> 00:41:47,400
heavily. 
I mean this was recent and I've 

773
00:41:47,400 --> 00:41:50,500
talked to you about this because
we share all we share all our 

774
00:41:50,600 --> 00:41:51,900
drama and problems. 
To each other. 

775
00:41:51,900 --> 00:41:54,300
But that we had some today that 
we talked about. 

776
00:41:54,300 --> 00:41:58,300
So it's this is continual, but 
it's so funny because you don't 

777
00:41:58,300 --> 00:42:02,200
realize you have this until you.
I had somebody that I respected 

778
00:42:02,600 --> 00:42:05,800
and they told me, they told 
another person that person told 

779
00:42:05,800 --> 00:42:12,600
me about my work and how bad my 
work is, in their opinion, that 

780
00:42:12,600 --> 00:42:16,100
tore me up for a week zala. 
I didn't sleep for like two days

781
00:42:16,200 --> 00:42:19,600
because this person I had 
respected, they didn't see my 

782
00:42:19,600 --> 00:42:22,700
value in. 
What I Gave you know. 

783
00:42:22,700 --> 00:42:25,500
So they thought I was like an 
amateur when I consider myself 

784
00:42:25,500 --> 00:42:29,300
an expert in my work. 
So I really had valued that 

785
00:42:29,300 --> 00:42:36,200
opinion of that person. 
You see the external solution to

786
00:42:36,200 --> 00:42:40,100
my internal pain or emptiness, 
wasn't there? 

787
00:42:40,200 --> 00:42:41,200
Yes. 
You see what I mean? 

788
00:42:41,200 --> 00:42:42,700
Get the approval. 
No, I did. 

789
00:42:42,700 --> 00:42:44,700
I needed the approval to feel 
good. 

790
00:42:44,700 --> 00:42:48,400
I want everyone to like me and 
then I don't know how to handle 

791
00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:50,900
the feeling of pain or 
emptiness. 

792
00:42:50,900 --> 00:42:53,900
Yes, it was the approval that 
got rid of the pain and empty. 

793
00:42:53,900 --> 00:42:56,000
Yes, that's what I'm addicted 
to. 

794
00:42:56,700 --> 00:42:58,100
Yeah, I love it. 
I love it. 

795
00:42:58,100 --> 00:43:00,500
Anything that I'm doing 
unconsciously in order to make 

796
00:43:00,500 --> 00:43:03,200
me feel okay because we need. 
To understand this. 

797
00:43:03,200 --> 00:43:06,600
So basically what we're saying 
is everybody has an addiction 

798
00:43:06,600 --> 00:43:11,500
yeah that's why the podcast God 
willing can be of service to so 

799
00:43:11,500 --> 00:43:13,500
many. 
Yes it's not just alcoholism, 

800
00:43:13,500 --> 00:43:15,500
it's not just sex, not just 
gambling. 

801
00:43:15,800 --> 00:43:20,400
It's my unconscious conditioned 
Behavior to be separate from. 

802
00:43:20,600 --> 00:43:22,700
Yes, I'm not Connected To 
Source. 

803
00:43:22,700 --> 00:43:25,800
I'm connected to Ego in that 
moment which makes me separate 

804
00:43:25,800 --> 00:43:30,200
from source and usually I'm 
blind in that behavior. 

805
00:43:30,900 --> 00:43:34,400
I need that thing and I'll run 
you over to get it. 

806
00:43:34,400 --> 00:43:36,100
Yeah, I'm not much but it's all 
I think about. 

807
00:43:36,100 --> 00:43:38,300
I love that quote, bro. 
We gotta get it Birch. 

808
00:43:38,500 --> 00:43:41,100
We gotta get like recover data 
quicker that on there, only 

809
00:43:41,100 --> 00:43:47,300
60,000 times a day, separate, 
separate, separate separate. 

810
00:43:47,800 --> 00:43:52,300
And, and my problem is the most 
important thing in the universe 

811
00:43:52,400 --> 00:43:55,400
in the universe. 
Yes, you vast Universe. 

812
00:43:56,500 --> 00:43:59,000
Yeah. 
Planets are Being read as we 

813
00:43:59,000 --> 00:44:04,000
speak and creating new galaxies.
But no, no, that's not 

814
00:44:04,000 --> 00:44:06,100
important. 
What's important is that this 

815
00:44:06,100 --> 00:44:09,100
person said some bad things 
about me to another person and 

816
00:44:09,100 --> 00:44:13,800
it destroyed me and that was 
nine months ago, ten months ago.

817
00:44:15,000 --> 00:44:19,000
And I remember that that person 
was a teacher and a catalyst for

818
00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:23,400
me to buckle down and say, what 
do I need to learn from this? 

819
00:44:23,600 --> 00:44:24,900
Absolutely. 
And we talked about it, you 

820
00:44:24,900 --> 00:44:28,000
know, 10, 15 times, you know, 
going over over and over again. 

821
00:44:28,100 --> 00:44:30,400
Then why am I seeking approval 
externally? 

822
00:44:30,800 --> 00:44:32,800
And I think that was so 
important what you said. 

823
00:44:33,000 --> 00:44:36,400
And it says this addiction can 
lead to addiction action from 

824
00:44:36,400 --> 00:44:39,400
ones true self in higher power, 
whatever that may mean to the 

825
00:44:39,400 --> 00:44:44,800
individual resulting in 
spiritual void and suffering, so

826
00:44:44,800 --> 00:44:47,700
talk about spiritual void and 
suffering. 

827
00:44:50,100 --> 00:44:54,600
With enough destructive Behavior
enough attack attachment to the 

828
00:44:54,600 --> 00:44:58,600
world of form enough action from
my ego. 

829
00:45:02,500 --> 00:45:07,000
I'm not touching spirit at all. 
So, the spiritual void. 

830
00:45:07,100 --> 00:45:08,900
I'm not. 
I'm not relying upon Spirit, I'm

831
00:45:08,900 --> 00:45:11,600
not relying upon higher self. 
I'm relying Upon A Bottle to 

832
00:45:11,600 --> 00:45:14,500
make me feel different. 
I know that that liquid will 

833
00:45:14,500 --> 00:45:21,000
work enough of that behavior. 
Becomes my almond only normal 

834
00:45:21,000 --> 00:45:25,000
way of living and yes I don't 
know any other way to get 

835
00:45:25,000 --> 00:45:27,200
through the day. 
I don't know any other way to 

836
00:45:27,200 --> 00:45:29,900
get approval, I'm going to 
manipulate. 

837
00:45:30,800 --> 00:45:35,100
So the spiritual void is I've 
lived long so long in this 

838
00:45:35,100 --> 00:45:40,300
unconscious destructive pattern.
I don't know any other way to 

839
00:45:40,300 --> 00:45:44,900
live. 
And then as a result of a the 

840
00:45:44,900 --> 00:45:49,100
destructive behavior that 
creates suffering, some of the 

841
00:45:49,300 --> 00:45:52,900
some of my favorite literature 
says we step on WE step on the 

842
00:45:52,900 --> 00:45:57,900
toes of our fellows and they 
retaliate, I'm behaving in a 

843
00:45:57,900 --> 00:46:00,900
selfish way and what do you 
expect? 

844
00:46:00,900 --> 00:46:03,300
Yeah, I don't know. 
I don't know any other way to 

845
00:46:03,300 --> 00:46:04,800
live. 
I'm gonna ask selfish to another

846
00:46:04,800 --> 00:46:06,700
selfish being. 
Yeah, somebody else is in their 

847
00:46:06,700 --> 00:46:09,400
ego and I'm going to be big time
in my ego and it's not going to 

848
00:46:09,400 --> 00:46:11,300
be okay, but I want them to be 
okay. 

849
00:46:11,300 --> 00:46:14,900
But Then they retaliate, of 
course, the world around me. 

850
00:46:14,900 --> 00:46:17,900
Yes, starts coming at me. 
You're not acting normal. 

851
00:46:18,300 --> 00:46:23,800
And Wayne it creates suffering 
my selfishness, my delusion, I 

852
00:46:23,800 --> 00:46:29,200
cannot see. 
Wait, wait, wait, you have human

853
00:46:29,200 --> 00:46:31,100
feelings too? 
No, no. 

854
00:46:31,100 --> 00:46:32,700
You couldn't possibly have human
emotions? 

855
00:46:32,700 --> 00:46:35,400
Well, my more important. 
The only one that has options 

856
00:46:40,500 --> 00:46:45,100
and I have to get my Hmm. 
So if that doesn't happen, I 

857
00:46:45,100 --> 00:46:50,600
take steps to make it happen and
then that pushes the world 

858
00:46:50,600 --> 00:46:55,500
around me away that disconnect 
from the world that disconnect 

859
00:46:55,500 --> 00:47:01,000
from source that disconnect 
from, you know, reality that 

860
00:47:01,000 --> 00:47:02,700
causes suffering. 
Yeah. 

861
00:47:02,700 --> 00:47:05,700
And this and and I like the 
Buddhist way of suffering. 

862
00:47:05,700 --> 00:47:06,900
You know. 
Understand Eckhart Tolle talks 

863
00:47:06,900 --> 00:47:09,100
about this too is suffering. 
He's just not being in the 

864
00:47:09,100 --> 00:47:11,300
present moment, love it. 
It's so simple. 

865
00:47:11,300 --> 00:47:14,200
Yeah. 
Yeah, so when I'm like in the 

866
00:47:14,200 --> 00:47:17,600
future thinking or in the past 
thinking when I'm suffering and 

867
00:47:17,600 --> 00:47:21,200
I guess that makes four that's 
I'm like a big monkey so that 

868
00:47:21,200 --> 00:47:22,800
helps my brain. 
Keep it simple. 

869
00:47:22,800 --> 00:47:25,200
Yeah, it's keep it simple. 
It's like, why are you feeling 

870
00:47:25,200 --> 00:47:26,500
self-pity and depression right 
now? 

871
00:47:26,500 --> 00:47:29,400
Jason is because you feel like 
you're suffering now. 

872
00:47:29,400 --> 00:47:31,600
Your separate. 
What are you dwelling on? 

873
00:47:31,600 --> 00:47:33,400
Oh, I'm doing on this past event
to happen. 

874
00:47:34,400 --> 00:47:37,500
I even when we were just talking
about the guy that I respected 

875
00:47:37,500 --> 00:47:39,700
that said, something bad about 
me, I even started to get an 

876
00:47:39,707 --> 00:47:43,000
emotion for that of Course. 
Yeah, you had to trigger an 

877
00:47:43,000 --> 00:47:45,300
energetic, response was a small 
motion, you know, and I can 

878
00:47:45,300 --> 00:47:48,700
catch it and know what, you know
that my values, not buy them or 

879
00:47:48,700 --> 00:47:49,600
whatever, you know. 
Yes. 

880
00:47:49,600 --> 00:47:52,200
Because you have a spiritual 
practice but it's so funny even 

881
00:47:52,200 --> 00:47:56,300
now, a little tweak of that 
emotion just started to, you 

882
00:47:56,300 --> 00:47:59,100
know, that little light of that 
of my ego just started to kind 

883
00:47:59,100 --> 00:48:01,900
of Pier itself through just by 
me talking about it. 

884
00:48:02,100 --> 00:48:06,600
Yeah, of course, the ego. 
Can only exist in the mind. 

885
00:48:07,800 --> 00:48:11,700
So, of course, I want to go. 
I have conditioned Behavior to 

886
00:48:11,700 --> 00:48:18,700
go into my mind and be in the 
past and being resentment or be 

887
00:48:18,700 --> 00:48:24,200
in the future and be in fear, 
the ego loves it, the Mind loves

888
00:48:24,200 --> 00:48:26,600
it because that's the only place
the ego can exist. 

889
00:48:27,800 --> 00:48:31,100
You caught it just now within 
the, within the 45 seconds. 

890
00:48:31,100 --> 00:48:37,400
We've been talking about this. 
I'm able to spot the thought. 

891
00:48:38,400 --> 00:48:40,200
Know that that's not real. 
That's not who I am. 

892
00:48:40,200 --> 00:48:43,700
It's just a thought. 
And then turn towards spiritual 

893
00:48:43,700 --> 00:48:46,600
solution which is Omni. 
We're space for that. 

894
00:48:46,600 --> 00:48:48,200
Thought we were just talking 
about this in the gym. 

895
00:48:48,200 --> 00:48:51,500
This is a helpful tool that I 
use when I'm present enough to 

896
00:48:51,500 --> 00:48:53,600
use it. 
That helps pull me back off the 

897
00:48:53,600 --> 00:48:56,300
ledge. 
And there are two, there are 

898
00:48:56,300 --> 00:49:00,300
three levels to every scenario 
level. 

899
00:49:00,300 --> 00:49:05,500
Number one is the situation. 
The situation is this individual

900
00:49:05,500 --> 00:49:11,700
slandered me behind my back. 
Level number two is my energetic

901
00:49:11,700 --> 00:49:18,200
response to the situation, 
anger, resentment fear. 

902
00:49:19,200 --> 00:49:22,700
Betrayal, the fear, the fear of 
not being good at fear of, not 

903
00:49:22,700 --> 00:49:24,100
being good enough. 
That's yeah, little, that's 

904
00:49:24,300 --> 00:49:30,100
excellent and more specific. 
So that's level number one, the 

905
00:49:30,100 --> 00:49:32,600
situation level. 
Number two is my energetic 

906
00:49:32,600 --> 00:49:35,700
response to the situation. 
That's as far as most human 

907
00:49:35,700 --> 00:49:42,800
beings ever get, especially if 
I'm in a delusional addiction. 

908
00:49:45,400 --> 00:49:47,500
Of course, I'm not going to take
responsibility and look any 

909
00:49:47,500 --> 00:49:50,700
further than that. 
Now, what's level number three? 

910
00:49:51,400 --> 00:49:55,800
Level number three is We like to
do big breath. 

911
00:49:57,300 --> 00:50:00,900
Be aware space for both those 
levels. 

912
00:50:01,500 --> 00:50:05,700
I'm the awareness that gets to 
see the anger, observe the 

913
00:50:05,700 --> 00:50:07,900
anger. 
I'm the awareness that gets to 

914
00:50:08,100 --> 00:50:10,900
observe the situation of the 
nerve the station basement. 

915
00:50:10,900 --> 00:50:13,800
Pulling yourself. 
Back in that moment if I can 

916
00:50:13,800 --> 00:50:18,700
separate from those two levels, 
that's Freedom, Mmm. 

917
00:50:18,700 --> 00:50:21,400
Yeah. 
Identity is not wrapped up in 

918
00:50:21,400 --> 00:50:25,300
the situation of this person 
slandering me, my identity is 

919
00:50:25,300 --> 00:50:28,300
not wrapped up in my Ocean of 
anger. 

920
00:50:28,700 --> 00:50:33,700
It's not who I am. 
I am the you wear space, or both

921
00:50:33,700 --> 00:50:37,200
those things that's Freedom, 
that's foundational, freedom. 

922
00:50:37,200 --> 00:50:40,600
I can build on Bedrock if I'm 
coming from the source. 

923
00:50:40,900 --> 00:50:43,900
So this is very, very practical 
in this going to help a lot of 

924
00:50:43,900 --> 00:50:45,500
people. 
So I want people to understand 

925
00:50:45,500 --> 00:50:48,300
this so you're in level 1 level 
2 that's where people exist. 

926
00:50:48,300 --> 00:50:50,600
Most people exist? 
That's all that's, yeah, that's 

927
00:50:50,600 --> 00:50:53,800
the ego. 
The world is real. 

928
00:50:54,000 --> 00:50:56,900
Most people don't know they're 
not. 

929
00:50:57,000 --> 00:51:00,500
Two thoughts. 
Yeah. 

930
00:51:00,500 --> 00:51:04,800
That that's thinking we're very 
interested in going Way Beyond 

931
00:51:04,800 --> 00:51:08,300
the thinking mind. 
So level 1 level 2. 

932
00:51:09,400 --> 00:51:11,600
I got the emotional response and
what we'll just play with my 

933
00:51:11,600 --> 00:51:14,300
thing. 
Okay what really trigger was an 

934
00:51:14,300 --> 00:51:17,600
upper limit problem is I'm not 
good enough so that that's my 

935
00:51:17,600 --> 00:51:20,200
trigger for just about 
everything so that's fear-based 

936
00:51:20,200 --> 00:51:23,200
of I'm not good enough. 
So this person triggered that. 

937
00:51:23,600 --> 00:51:26,500
So in this trigger I can 
identify with that emotion. 

938
00:51:27,500 --> 00:51:31,000
And say this is me, where that's
the level 2, that's where most 

939
00:51:31,000 --> 00:51:35,000
people stay at. 
So now I need to react to this 

940
00:51:35,500 --> 00:51:39,100
false sense of self. 
This it's not real but I'm I'm 

941
00:51:39,100 --> 00:51:41,500
pretending like it's real 
because that's my Matrix. 

942
00:51:41,800 --> 00:51:43,900
I just took the wrong pill, the 
blue pill or whatever the red 

943
00:51:43,900 --> 00:51:46,000
pill. 
And so now I'm acting in this, 

944
00:51:46,400 --> 00:51:50,800
I'm acting in this and so my 
reactions are going to be Well, 

945
00:51:50,800 --> 00:51:53,700
I'd like to find him. 
I mean like if I could fist 

946
00:51:53,700 --> 00:51:56,300
fight him, that would be great. 
You know, our let's do a dual, 

947
00:51:56,300 --> 00:51:58,000
you know, or something even, you
know what I mean? 

948
00:51:58,200 --> 00:52:01,000
That's kind of more of like, a 
male part of things, you know, a

949
00:52:01,008 --> 00:52:03,900
female maybe to like in the 
feminine nature, may be like to 

950
00:52:03,900 --> 00:52:07,400
withdrawal to be hurt. 
You know, which I experienced 

951
00:52:07,400 --> 00:52:09,200
all those things is fearful, I 
don't want to talk to that 

952
00:52:09,200 --> 00:52:13,000
person, you know, my fear is 
going to be in that Arena, so, 

953
00:52:14,700 --> 00:52:18,100
Taking that space. 
Would you were talking about a 

954
00:52:18,107 --> 00:52:22,000
so important and not identifying
with it and pulling yourself 

955
00:52:22,000 --> 00:52:23,700
back. 
And then just inaccurate only 

956
00:52:23,700 --> 00:52:25,000
talks about the being The 
Observer. 

957
00:52:25,100 --> 00:52:28,400
Yes, exactly. 
And what does that look like? 

958
00:52:28,700 --> 00:52:32,200
When you can take I'm at level 1
level 2 and I'm just I'm not 

959
00:52:32,200 --> 00:52:36,000
identifying with it I'm taking a
breath and I'm looking at that 

960
00:52:36,000 --> 00:52:38,200
emotion and you said something 
very powerful. 

961
00:52:38,200 --> 00:52:40,800
Don't you talk about it is 
that's not real, that's not 

962
00:52:40,800 --> 00:52:42,100
real. 
What is that? 

963
00:52:42,400 --> 00:52:45,200
That's a crazy thought. 
What is that? 

964
00:52:45,200 --> 00:52:47,000
That's just I'm dealing with 
some. 

965
00:52:48,700 --> 00:52:51,700
Plumbing issues at one of my 
investment properties currently 

966
00:52:52,100 --> 00:53:01,500
and it had, and has the power To
take over my identity. 

967
00:53:02,700 --> 00:53:08,800
Situation, ruptured pipes 
energetic response, Veer have to

968
00:53:08,800 --> 00:53:10,900
spend some money. 
I'm worried now. 

969
00:53:11,800 --> 00:53:17,500
Now, if I go down the rabbit 
hole, With the situation, if I 

970
00:53:17,500 --> 00:53:20,600
go down the rabbit hole with my 
fear. 

971
00:53:20,600 --> 00:53:23,000
So, let's Lose Myself. 
Yeah, will be a little bit 

972
00:53:23,000 --> 00:53:25,100
vulnerable because this is fun 
because I know you really well. 

973
00:53:25,400 --> 00:53:28,900
So, so going down the rabbit 
hole for you and this doesn't 

974
00:53:28,900 --> 00:53:31,600
appear to be bad with anybody. 
This is actually praised in the 

975
00:53:31,600 --> 00:53:33,800
world. 
You is saying I need to grin and

976
00:53:33,800 --> 00:53:37,400
Barrett, I need to go find 
another way where I can earn 

977
00:53:37,700 --> 00:53:39,500
thousands of dollars to fix the 
pipes. 

978
00:53:39,800 --> 00:53:45,100
So I'm going to as Abraham six 
at Hicks says, you know, our 

979
00:53:45,100 --> 00:53:46,600
Esther Hicks if you guys have 
Listen to her. 

980
00:53:46,600 --> 00:53:48,900
She's great. 
I'm going to paddle as hard as I

981
00:53:48,908 --> 00:53:51,300
can upstream and I'm going to 
do. 

982
00:53:51,300 --> 00:53:55,000
I am going to do this, and I'm 
going to work super hard. 

983
00:53:55,000 --> 00:53:58,900
I'm going to go kill myself, 
physically and work till 2:00 or

984
00:53:58,900 --> 00:54:00,700
3:00 or 4:00 in the morning. 
Yeah. 

985
00:54:00,800 --> 00:54:04,900
Just so I can make this even 
totally, that that's been my 

986
00:54:06,400 --> 00:54:09,300
literal experience. 
I would work at a restaurant 

987
00:54:09,900 --> 00:54:16,000
from 3 p.m. to 3 a.m. after 
doing a normal night. 

988
00:54:16,200 --> 00:54:19,200
Five on Fridays and Saturdays. 
What's not, even in your normal 

989
00:54:19,200 --> 00:54:22,800
95 because you're getting, 
you're getting, you're getting 

990
00:54:22,800 --> 00:54:27,600
there at 5 a.m. 5 a.m. in the 
gym and then all the way to 3 

991
00:54:27,600 --> 00:54:30,100
a.m. the next day. 
And then do that's not normal, 

992
00:54:30,200 --> 00:54:33,900
dude, almost 28 hours into days 
that. 

993
00:54:33,900 --> 00:54:36,400
Yeah, that's not. 
So I can sustainable. 

994
00:54:36,400 --> 00:54:40,600
If I have this outside money, 
mmm, then I'll be okay. 

995
00:54:41,100 --> 00:54:43,100
So it's part of my it was part 
of my delusion. 

996
00:54:43,300 --> 00:54:46,300
It was part of my seeking part 
of my addiction part of My 

997
00:54:46,300 --> 00:54:48,500
seeking outside thing to make 
me, okay? 

998
00:54:49,000 --> 00:54:52,400
And then and I always you've 
told me this and I was like 

999
00:54:52,400 --> 00:54:55,100
where's God in any of that now? 
And it's not there has not risen

1000
00:54:55,100 --> 00:54:57,600
all if I'm Connected To Source, 
I'm connected to infinite 

1001
00:54:57,600 --> 00:54:59,700
abundance. 
Yes, infinite abundance is. 

1002
00:54:59,700 --> 00:55:01,200
Can take care of me, no matter 
what. 

1003
00:55:01,800 --> 00:55:03,800
But coming from that place takes
practice. 

1004
00:55:04,100 --> 00:55:06,400
I'm very practiced at coming 
from Fear. 

1005
00:55:06,900 --> 00:55:09,200
I need to do something about 
this, then I'll work really hard

1006
00:55:09,200 --> 00:55:11,600
and make it happen. 
That's the that, like you said, 

1007
00:55:11,600 --> 00:55:14,000
it's praised in America, normal 
people say? 

1008
00:55:14,000 --> 00:55:16,000
Well, we'll get another job. 
Yeah. 

1009
00:55:16,100 --> 00:55:19,200
Just keep working instead of 
coming from Source coming from 

1010
00:55:19,200 --> 00:55:26,000
connectedness knowing that. 
I'm going to be okay regardless 

1011
00:55:26,000 --> 00:55:29,100
of these pipes. 
I'm going to be okay regardless 

1012
00:55:29,100 --> 00:55:31,500
of that extra job. 
I'm okay. 

1013
00:55:31,500 --> 00:55:35,400
Regardless of what my job is. 
Am I identified with my job or 

1014
00:55:35,400 --> 00:55:38,000
not? 
If not, I need to come from the 

1015
00:55:38,000 --> 00:55:42,800
place of source in order. 
To experience. 

1016
00:55:42,800 --> 00:55:44,700
Peace. 
Now somebody may be listening to

1017
00:55:44,700 --> 00:55:46,800
this and they're just sitting 
around all day on their couch 

1018
00:55:46,800 --> 00:55:49,800
and smoking weed or being 
paranoid and doing coke or, you 

1019
00:55:49,800 --> 00:55:53,000
know, drinking all the time and 
they're like, well, you know, I 

1020
00:55:53,000 --> 00:55:54,700
don't need to get a job, you 
know, or whatever. 

1021
00:55:54,700 --> 00:55:58,700
Know the thing that you need to 
do is be productive, you know. 

1022
00:55:58,700 --> 00:56:01,700
So there's this other side 
where, you know, you have the 

1023
00:56:01,700 --> 00:56:04,800
entrepreneurial type, you know, 
that archetype, you know, that's

1024
00:56:04,800 --> 00:56:06,300
going to grin and bear it and do
it. 

1025
00:56:06,300 --> 00:56:08,700
God's not involved in that. 
Then you have the other side of 

1026
00:56:08,700 --> 00:56:11,300
the person who's super lazy just
sitting around, you know, in 

1027
00:56:11,300 --> 00:56:13,000
some of Are listening to this 
are doing now. 

1028
00:56:13,000 --> 00:56:15,900
You're just sitting smoking weed
all day into Oblivion, you know.

1029
00:56:15,900 --> 00:56:19,700
And I see a lot of people that 
can function with weed. 

1030
00:56:20,100 --> 00:56:22,000
Yeah. 
But they have a major addiction 

1031
00:56:22,600 --> 00:56:23,600
to wheat. 
Yeah. 

1032
00:56:23,800 --> 00:56:27,800
It's same with alcohol. 
Yeah, I need to take to work. 

1033
00:56:27,800 --> 00:56:30,000
I need to do, you know, I have 
carried this pin with me. 

1034
00:56:30,100 --> 00:56:32,500
So, oh my God, I can't find my 
phone where dick to our phones. 

1035
00:56:32,700 --> 00:56:34,300
Oh my God, I can't find my pen 
or my phone. 

1036
00:56:34,500 --> 00:56:36,800
I need these two things and so 
I'm running into the bathroom 

1037
00:56:36,800 --> 00:56:39,800
smoking weed, I'm going outside 
and so I'm constantly you saw 

1038
00:56:39,800 --> 00:56:42,900
this in restaurant industry, I'm
just Lehi 24/7. 

1039
00:56:43,000 --> 00:56:44,300
Absolutely. 
All you did was replace 

1040
00:56:44,300 --> 00:56:48,900
alcoholism with weed is MM, you 
know you just became a drug 

1041
00:56:48,900 --> 00:56:49,500
addict. 
Yeah. 

1042
00:56:49,500 --> 00:56:53,100
And it's care is even more scary
now because they'll give you a 

1043
00:56:53,100 --> 00:56:56,500
card. 
No, legal legal, go for it. 

1044
00:56:56,500 --> 00:56:57,900
The same as alcohol have as much
as you want. 

1045
00:56:57,900 --> 00:56:59,400
You have PTSD. 
Here's more. 

1046
00:56:59,400 --> 00:57:02,800
Yeah, exactly. 
And if you know again we I like 

1047
00:57:02,800 --> 00:57:06,100
we like to prompt the question. 
Am I the victim of my life or 

1048
00:57:06,100 --> 00:57:09,300
my, the creator of my life that 
answer is simple for us? 

1049
00:57:09,300 --> 00:57:12,400
But that's because I'm 
interested in In making inner 

1050
00:57:12,400 --> 00:57:15,400
peace, a priority in my life, 
I'm interested in honoring the 

1051
00:57:15,400 --> 00:57:19,000
part of me that is whole, if I 
don't know any better I'm still 

1052
00:57:19,000 --> 00:57:23,500
behaving in a destructive 
close-minded, unconscious 

1053
00:57:23,600 --> 00:57:27,700
addicted way because that 
substance makes me feel 

1054
00:57:28,200 --> 00:57:30,400
different. 
I don't have to feel fear, but I

1055
00:57:30,408 --> 00:57:32,600
don't have to think I can check 
out. 

1056
00:57:32,600 --> 00:57:34,500
Yep. 
Yeah, so it doesn't really 

1057
00:57:34,500 --> 00:57:35,900
matter. 
What the substance is weed. 

1058
00:57:35,900 --> 00:57:41,100
Alcohol cocaine does matter, the
behavior is unconscious and 

1059
00:57:41,100 --> 00:57:43,700
really what We're discussing is 
being addicted to being in my 

1060
00:57:43,700 --> 00:57:47,800
own conscience. 
Hmm, I'm, I'm just addicted to 

1061
00:57:47,800 --> 00:57:49,800
living in that low level 
existence. 

1062
00:57:50,700 --> 00:57:52,400
I'm used to the feelings of 
fear. 

1063
00:57:52,500 --> 00:57:54,100
I'm used to the feelings of 
worry. 

1064
00:57:54,100 --> 00:57:57,200
I'm used to needing to check out
from those feelings. 

1065
00:57:57,900 --> 00:58:03,200
What can I do, anything? 
You got just give me more and 

1066
00:58:03,200 --> 00:58:05,900
and, and that's because like we 
were saying earlier to get back 

1067
00:58:05,900 --> 00:58:09,000
to, you know, the whole premise 
of this that's because I feel 

1068
00:58:09,000 --> 00:58:12,100
like I'm suffering Yeah, you're 
perceived suffering. 

1069
00:58:12,500 --> 00:58:15,200
Yeah, I feel like I'm suffering 
so I'm going to check out with 

1070
00:58:15,200 --> 00:58:17,700
this. 
Yes, you know, I've had a really

1071
00:58:17,700 --> 00:58:19,600
hard week, it's been really 
tough. 

1072
00:58:19,900 --> 00:58:23,100
I'm just going to lay around, 
you know, for two or three days,

1073
00:58:23,100 --> 00:58:26,600
eat really bad, junk food, and 
watch, Netflix and just binge, 

1074
00:58:27,100 --> 00:58:28,800
you don't know what that's okay.
Every once in a while, if you 

1075
00:58:28,800 --> 00:58:31,000
plan it and you figure it out, 
you know, sometimes I'll do 

1076
00:58:31,000 --> 00:58:34,100
that, you know, I mean there's 
healthy ways to that but if 

1077
00:58:34,100 --> 00:58:38,600
that's your way to cope is just 
smoking weed, then binging out 

1078
00:58:38,600 --> 00:58:40,300
on Netflix and hanging out on 
your phone. 

1079
00:58:40,400 --> 00:58:42,700
And you know for I mean I think 
they said the other day, the 

1080
00:58:42,700 --> 00:58:44,700
average 20 year old spends like 
eight hours on their phone or 

1081
00:58:44,707 --> 00:58:48,300
longer, you know, and then on 
Tick Tock it's like crazy the 

1082
00:58:48,300 --> 00:58:50,700
amount of hours that teenagers 
are spending on Tick-Tock. 

1083
00:58:50,900 --> 00:58:53,100
I mean, it's hours and hours and
hours, every single day. 

1084
00:58:53,500 --> 00:58:55,300
Well, you've created, there's an
addiction there. 

1085
00:58:56,200 --> 00:58:59,200
I'm not going to be whole or I 
won't have peace, or I'm 

1086
00:58:59,200 --> 00:59:01,300
suffering. 
If I don't have my phone lose it

1087
00:59:01,300 --> 00:59:03,100
without my phone. 
So that's an addiction, 

1088
00:59:03,200 --> 00:59:08,300
absolutely. 
And you know, Am I seeking 

1089
00:59:08,300 --> 00:59:11,600
responsibility or not? 
If I'm the victim of my life, 

1090
00:59:11,900 --> 00:59:15,900
then there's no way I'm willing 
to adopt responsibility for my 

1091
00:59:15,900 --> 00:59:17,800
life. 
It's your fault. 

1092
00:59:18,100 --> 00:59:20,500
If you were different, I would 
be okay if the government was 

1093
00:59:20,500 --> 00:59:22,700
different. 
I would be okay, if my parents 

1094
00:59:22,700 --> 00:59:25,400
were different, I would be okay.
If I had more money, I would be 

1095
00:59:25,400 --> 00:59:27,400
okay. 
I'm still just the victim of my 

1096
00:59:27,400 --> 00:59:32,600
life. that existence is 
low-level that, existence is 

1097
00:59:32,600 --> 00:59:38,500
unconscious and that creates my 
perceived suffering. 

1098
00:59:39,300 --> 00:59:41,600
So of course, I'll grab the 
phone in order to feel something

1099
00:59:41,600 --> 00:59:43,100
different. 
I don't know, any other better 

1100
00:59:43,100 --> 00:59:48,100
way to be Seeking spiritual 
principles, seeking 

1101
00:59:48,100 --> 00:59:52,400
responsibility presents me with 
a different approach to life. 

1102
00:59:52,600 --> 00:59:56,200
I no longer get to blame all of 
these outside things for how I'm

1103
00:59:56,200 --> 00:59:58,600
feeling on the inside. 
I have to take responsibility 

1104
00:59:58,600 --> 01:00:00,900
for what's going on on the 
inside of me. 

1105
01:00:01,200 --> 01:00:03,700
Whether I'm staying on the 
couch, watching Netflix, all day

1106
01:00:03,900 --> 01:00:06,400
or whether I'm working 80 hours 
a week. 

1107
01:00:07,500 --> 01:00:11,300
In order to be busy and not 
feel, I don't have to worry 

1108
01:00:11,300 --> 01:00:12,600
about my problems. 
I'm too busy. 

1109
01:00:13,300 --> 01:00:16,000
So that's again the yin-yang 
we're talking but it's the same 

1110
01:00:16,000 --> 01:00:17,600
thing. 
People don't understand this. 

1111
01:00:17,600 --> 01:00:21,800
The 80 hours a week is you doing
something to avoid correct. 

1112
01:00:21,900 --> 01:00:23,300
Boiling. 
What's really going on? 

1113
01:00:23,300 --> 01:00:25,900
Yeah, and then you have an 
excuse just like with any 

1114
01:00:25,900 --> 01:00:28,600
addiction is to say, well, don't
you see I'm suffering. 

1115
01:00:28,600 --> 01:00:32,800
I working 80 hours a week. 
You can understand your how 

1116
01:00:32,800 --> 01:00:35,800
important I am and all the 
things that I'm doing in this is

1117
01:00:36,100 --> 01:00:38,800
to support. 
Family support, whatever the 

1118
01:00:38,800 --> 01:00:40,400
things I'm doing for you. 
Yes. 

1119
01:00:40,400 --> 01:00:42,300
Yeah. 
Look at all the sacrifices. 

1120
01:00:42,300 --> 01:00:45,100
I've given you know, which 
nothing we do in our zone of 

1121
01:00:45,100 --> 01:00:47,400
genius and we'll get into zones.
Usually, but nothing we do in 

1122
01:00:47,408 --> 01:00:50,000
our zone of Genius to sacrifice.
No it's Joy. 

1123
01:00:50,000 --> 01:00:53,400
It's pure joy and just pure 
serving others as his pockets. 

1124
01:00:53,600 --> 01:00:56,800
So we've gone over an hour. 
So I want to we're going to do 

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recovery in this context of the 
spiritual Dimension will get 

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into that a little bit on the 
next episode and kind of get a 

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little bit more detailed in this
journey, but I do want to say 

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this before we close out. 
I'm joining and maybe you can 

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just talk real quickly to this 
if somebody such as podcasts. 

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And, you know, somebody maybe a 
year, like obviously I have an 

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addiction but you have five, ten
fifteen, twenty other friends 

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share this. 
Yeah, absolutely. 

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It's the number one thing you 
can do to help us. 

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We're not asking for any money 
or anything like that. 

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We want this word to get out and
we believe that this is the way 

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that you can cure your 
addiction. 

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Yeah, it's a beautiful platform 
that you you are very well 

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versed with Jason and not. 
It's an honor to get to be a 

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part of something like this. 
Especially in 2023, how many 

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people can receive a message or 
receive a solution to perhaps a 

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deadly illness? 
Yeah and you don't know by 

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sharing information. 
You don't know how what impact 

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that can happen. 
Somebody's life. 

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Yeah so you know like you shared
you told me today you shared the

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podcast who Spotify real quick. 
Mmm. 

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You know, we have Spotify video 
YouTube video where you know, we

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on Instagram video, we have it 
all reals and all that stuff and

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YouTube shorts. 
So, just taking the time to 

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share that with somebody. 
D can help change their life? 

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Yeah, you never know, you might 
be the first message or you 

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might be the first line of hope 
that someone needed in order to 

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save their life because you 
don't know. 

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And you've known this when 
you're an alcoholic, what that 

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person said to you how much it 
meant to them they do sets 

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something to you but it changed 
your life forever. 

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Yeah absolutely reshaped. 
My reality and a tool like this 

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might get to help someone in 
that way.