1 00:00:00,800 --> 00:00:04,560 We've been everywhere except the one place where freedom actually 2 00:00:04,560 --> 00:00:07,360 exists. And I turned into the type of 3 00:00:07,360 --> 00:00:11,120 individual that can bring peace to a crazy situation. 4 00:00:11,120 --> 00:00:14,320 If you accept it as if you had chosen it, what if you just 5 00:00:14,320 --> 00:00:16,400 chose it? This doesn't mean liking it. 6 00:00:16,480 --> 00:00:20,360 I cannot control tomorrow and yesterday's dead, but right now 7 00:00:20,480 --> 00:00:22,080 in this morning, you're not using. 8 00:00:22,440 --> 00:00:25,520 It's one of our favorite definitions of success, the 9 00:00:25,520 --> 00:00:30,480 normal, mundane, daily things that you do all the time. 10 00:00:30,520 --> 00:00:33,320 What if recovery isn't about building a better story? 11 00:00:33,880 --> 00:00:38,080 What if it's about waking up to what you are beyond the story? 12 00:00:44,440 --> 00:00:48,640 Every moment you spent craving, every second consumed by regret 13 00:00:48,640 --> 00:00:52,720 or anxiety about tomorrow? I want to tell each and every 14 00:00:52,720 --> 00:00:55,520 addict that's out there. You've been everywhere except 15 00:00:55,520 --> 00:00:58,520 the one place where freedom actually exists. 16 00:00:58,520 --> 00:01:02,320 You know where that place is. It's right here and right now, 17 00:01:02,880 --> 00:01:05,400 don't you think, Dwayne? Damn right, man, You're coming 18 00:01:05,400 --> 00:01:09,200 in, fought with the flames just right away, a low torch. 19 00:01:10,240 --> 00:01:11,240 I love it. I love it. 20 00:01:11,240 --> 00:01:14,880 We say when I have one leg in yesterday and another leg in 21 00:01:14,880 --> 00:01:17,480 tomorrow, I shit all over the present moment. 22 00:01:18,040 --> 00:01:21,640 And on recovery journey, we get to learn that I spend a lot of 23 00:01:21,640 --> 00:01:25,440 time in worry, frustration, irritability, discontent, and 24 00:01:25,440 --> 00:01:27,360 all that stuff is happening in my mind. 25 00:01:27,560 --> 00:01:30,840 I'm not honoring what's going on right in front of me and I'm not 26 00:01:30,840 --> 00:01:34,960 honoring the present moment. I have absolutely zero serenity 27 00:01:35,120 --> 00:01:37,600 because I'm worried about fighting with this person in the 28 00:01:37,600 --> 00:01:41,360 future, or I'm worried about picking up drugs in an hour or 29 00:01:41,360 --> 00:01:43,520 I'm worried about how am I going to make some money to get some 30 00:01:43,520 --> 00:01:45,760 liquor or I'm worried about stealing the liquor. 31 00:01:45,920 --> 00:01:49,520 I'm never ever in the present moment and I don't get to have 32 00:01:49,600 --> 00:01:52,640 any peace. I don't get to have any serenity 33 00:01:52,920 --> 00:01:54,960 and I'm constantly in fight or flight. 34 00:01:55,240 --> 00:01:58,360 And for an addict, that's just how we exist all the time. 35 00:01:58,400 --> 00:02:02,920 We're go constantly in trouble, constantly worry and we never 36 00:02:02,920 --> 00:02:06,080 get to touch real power. Real power lives in the present 37 00:02:06,080 --> 00:02:07,520 moment. It doesn't live anywhere else. 38 00:02:08,240 --> 00:02:10,199 Yeah, and I think a lot of people don't understand this. 39 00:02:10,199 --> 00:02:15,040 And Buddhism teaches this is the suffering is when you get out of 40 00:02:15,040 --> 00:02:18,160 that present moment. Suffering is when, because with 41 00:02:18,160 --> 00:02:21,560 addicts, you'll be like in the future when I'm 90 days sober or 42 00:02:21,560 --> 00:02:25,000 I'm two years sober. But that's not that. 43 00:02:25,000 --> 00:02:27,960 That's not, that's your suffering because you're saying 44 00:02:27,960 --> 00:02:30,720 I'm not good enough. I'm not there yet. 45 00:02:30,720 --> 00:02:33,200 God doesn't love me until I get to this certain area. 46 00:02:33,560 --> 00:02:37,080 And then it's also not buried in understanding your past trauma. 47 00:02:37,080 --> 00:02:39,400 Everybody gets into this. It's the future in the past, the 48 00:02:39,400 --> 00:02:42,680 future in the past. But what people don't realize, 49 00:02:42,680 --> 00:02:46,240 and it's this simple and this is so funny, bro, it's this simple. 50 00:02:46,480 --> 00:02:49,520 It is available to you in this breath. 51 00:02:50,480 --> 00:02:52,280 The breath I breathe right now. That's it. 52 00:02:53,400 --> 00:02:55,120 Very powerful. Very powerful bro. 53 00:02:55,320 --> 00:02:57,880 I've been listening to teaching recently and it says 1. 54 00:02:58,160 --> 00:03:01,080 Gentleman says 1. Conscious breath is a 55 00:03:01,080 --> 00:03:07,400 meditation, 11 conscious breath. If I can be present with my 56 00:03:07,400 --> 00:03:12,320 breath, with my consciousness for one moment, that is powerful 57 00:03:12,320 --> 00:03:15,440 enough to get me back to center. When we're talking about present 58 00:03:15,440 --> 00:03:19,280 moment practice or when we're talking about getting in contact 59 00:03:19,520 --> 00:03:22,960 with the power of the present moment, it's very important to 60 00:03:22,960 --> 00:03:24,880 also bring in a lot of acceptance. 61 00:03:25,120 --> 00:03:28,240 I think that might be laying the groundwork for present moment 62 00:03:28,240 --> 00:03:32,800 practice. If I am in resistance, if I'm 63 00:03:32,800 --> 00:03:37,320 resisting reality, resisting the present moment, I can't touch 64 00:03:37,320 --> 00:03:40,320 home base. I cannot get in contact with the 65 00:03:40,320 --> 00:03:43,800 power big enough to save my life, to heal my addiction, and 66 00:03:43,800 --> 00:03:46,720 to propel me in into a forward motion. 67 00:03:47,160 --> 00:03:50,600 Initially, there has to be an acceptance of the present 68 00:03:50,600 --> 00:03:52,120 moment. And it's good to analyze or it's 69 00:03:52,120 --> 00:03:55,160 good to look at acceptance and what that means for us. 70 00:03:55,440 --> 00:03:57,160 Excellent teachings on acceptance. 71 00:03:57,600 --> 00:03:59,360 Acceptance doesn't mean I like this. 72 00:03:59,960 --> 00:04:02,400 Acceptance doesn't mean I condone that behavior. 73 00:04:02,640 --> 00:04:05,280 Acceptance does not mean I'm OK with this. 74 00:04:05,480 --> 00:04:07,880 Acceptance doesn't mean yes, sign me up for that. 75 00:04:08,200 --> 00:04:11,800 Acceptance just means this is happening. 76 00:04:12,400 --> 00:04:16,800 I am not resisting on the isness of the situation. 77 00:04:17,160 --> 00:04:20,720 I heard another thing just this morning that really lit me on 78 00:04:20,720 --> 00:04:24,600 fire and it the gentleman said the ego loves complaining. 79 00:04:25,320 --> 00:04:28,640 Anytime you practice complaining, you're 80 00:04:28,640 --> 00:04:31,760 strengthening the ego. Because the only place I can 81 00:04:31,760 --> 00:04:35,760 complain is in my mind. And when I'm complaining what 82 00:04:35,760 --> 00:04:39,000 I'm really doing is saying this should be different, this should 83 00:04:39,000 --> 00:04:41,240 be different. So I have 0 acceptance. 84 00:04:41,640 --> 00:04:45,280 I'm resisting reality and I'm saying I don't like things the 85 00:04:45,280 --> 00:04:47,280 way they are. This should be different and 86 00:04:47,280 --> 00:04:49,240 that's not the same. That's not to say that we don't 87 00:04:49,240 --> 00:04:53,320 take action and that we don't build the future we want, but 88 00:04:53,320 --> 00:04:56,440 the the point we're trying to make in regards to acceptance is 89 00:04:56,760 --> 00:05:00,240 not resisting reality. When I can come to a place of 90 00:05:00,240 --> 00:05:04,520 this is happening, then I can get in contact with the 91 00:05:04,520 --> 00:05:08,440 appropriate power to take action to change my situation. 92 00:05:08,520 --> 00:05:13,000 I can take more empowered action instead of anger, instead of 93 00:05:13,000 --> 00:05:15,520 angry action instead of frustration, action instead of 94 00:05:15,520 --> 00:05:18,920 fearful action. I can take empowered action if I 95 00:05:18,920 --> 00:05:21,600 come from a place of acceptance. There was a gentleman who got 96 00:05:21,600 --> 00:05:27,720 put up on a cross and when he was up on the cross, he said to 97 00:05:27,720 --> 00:05:36,240 his father, thy will be done. He brought a deep acceptance to 98 00:05:36,240 --> 00:05:40,080 the depths of suffering. That's an archetypal story 99 00:05:40,080 --> 00:05:43,320 because it's the worst punishment for the most innocent 100 00:05:43,320 --> 00:05:45,600 person. You can't make it any worse. 101 00:05:45,600 --> 00:05:48,200 That's as bad as it gets. Christ on the cross. 102 00:05:48,520 --> 00:05:53,160 And he was able to bring a deep yes to the depths of suffering. 103 00:05:54,120 --> 00:05:59,720 And that's why the torture weapon in the western world is 104 00:05:59,720 --> 00:06:02,240 simultaneously the symbol for the divine. 105 00:06:02,520 --> 00:06:05,160 Every time we look at a cross, we know that means God. 106 00:06:05,760 --> 00:06:09,240 But that was the Romans worst form of torture. 107 00:06:09,560 --> 00:06:13,880 Why do we think that means God? Because of that statement, 108 00:06:13,880 --> 00:06:18,240 because of that deep acceptance, when I can bring a deep yes to 109 00:06:18,240 --> 00:06:22,280 this uncomfortable feeling, to this perceived suffering, that's 110 00:06:22,280 --> 00:06:24,920 when God can come in and do his magic. 111 00:06:25,080 --> 00:06:29,360 That's when we can be reborn. That's when we can start anew. 112 00:06:29,680 --> 00:06:33,800 I don't have a chance to start fresh unless I come from a place 113 00:06:33,800 --> 00:06:37,920 of acceptance first. And that's so beautiful, Dwayne. 114 00:06:38,520 --> 00:06:41,520 I was talking with a lady at the gas station the other day and 115 00:06:41,520 --> 00:06:45,120 she just got the job at the gas station and she was homeless. 116 00:06:45,240 --> 00:06:47,120 She was living car and working at the gas station. 117 00:06:47,120 --> 00:06:48,960 I was, she just brought it up to me. 118 00:06:48,960 --> 00:06:52,360 I just was there at the gas station getting gas and one of 119 00:06:52,360 --> 00:06:56,120 the things she said to me was she was talking about her past 120 00:06:56,120 --> 00:06:59,680 and how fucked up her past was. And then she's talking about the 121 00:06:59,680 --> 00:07:01,920 future and what's going to happen now that she got this 122 00:07:01,920 --> 00:07:04,760 job. And I began to think, especially 123 00:07:04,760 --> 00:07:09,040 for us addicts, the prison of time, this addiction that we 124 00:07:09,040 --> 00:07:13,160 have to time itself. And like you were saying, and 125 00:07:13,160 --> 00:07:16,440 and we always think of addictions with substances, but 126 00:07:16,440 --> 00:07:20,600 I think it, I think really for addicts, it's an addiction to 127 00:07:20,600 --> 00:07:25,280 living anywhere but now. And that's where most suffering 128 00:07:25,280 --> 00:07:28,360 comes from. It's from the mind or the ego's 129 00:07:28,360 --> 00:07:32,000 refusal to accept what is. And that's what Jesus, that's 130 00:07:32,000 --> 00:07:35,280 what you said with Jesus. And Matthew 634, Jesus said this 131 00:07:35,280 --> 00:07:38,120 great verse and he talked just about this. 132 00:07:38,160 --> 00:07:40,160 Jesus was talking about the present moment for anybody else 133 00:07:40,160 --> 00:07:42,520 was maybe Buddha was a little bit before him, I think. 134 00:07:42,520 --> 00:07:46,800 But Matthew 634, he said do not worry about tomorrow, for 135 00:07:46,800 --> 00:07:48,560 tomorrow will worry about itself. 136 00:07:48,920 --> 00:07:51,080 Each day has enough trouble of its own. 137 00:07:51,520 --> 00:07:54,600 So basically what he's saying, you're caught in this loop of 138 00:07:54,680 --> 00:07:57,640 past, you're caught in this loop of future. 139 00:07:58,680 --> 00:08:01,920 And then he turned around and he said the Kingdom of heaven is at 140 00:08:01,920 --> 00:08:05,680 hand. It's not later, it's not when 141 00:08:05,680 --> 00:08:09,600 you get better, when you're sober, when you get out of jail, 142 00:08:09,600 --> 00:08:12,160 none of that matters. He said the Kingdom of heaven is 143 00:08:12,160 --> 00:08:13,640 at hand. That means. 144 00:08:13,640 --> 00:08:16,480 And what Jesus was saying is it's in with reach now. 145 00:08:17,360 --> 00:08:18,920 You can have the Kingdom of heaven. 146 00:08:18,920 --> 00:08:22,400 You could be an addict, homeless right now listening to this 147 00:08:22,400 --> 00:08:25,080 podcast and we have a lot of you listen because you put comments 148 00:08:25,080 --> 00:08:29,040 out there saying that and the Kingdom of heaven, that power is 149 00:08:29,040 --> 00:08:30,960 ready and available for you right now. 150 00:08:31,760 --> 00:08:37,240 Yes, yes, man, just incredible. I recently have I was telling 151 00:08:37,240 --> 00:08:39,760 talking to you before we started the podcast, bro, I've recently 152 00:08:39,760 --> 00:08:42,400 tried to gone back to basics touch home base. 153 00:08:42,559 --> 00:08:47,000 I was operating in the ego big time and for addicts, for 154 00:08:47,000 --> 00:08:49,760 Alcoholics, that's the way we operate all the time. 155 00:08:50,080 --> 00:08:52,400 I'm constantly looking out for me. 156 00:08:52,520 --> 00:08:55,120 I'm practicing selfish and self-centered behavior. 157 00:08:55,360 --> 00:08:58,880 And then when things don't go my way, I have a problem. 158 00:08:59,000 --> 00:09:01,640 There's an issue, I'm upset, there's anger, there's 159 00:09:01,640 --> 00:09:04,560 frustration. So some of the back to basics 160 00:09:04,560 --> 00:09:08,440 teachings that I've been returning to are the power of 3. 161 00:09:08,840 --> 00:09:12,200 Watering the present moment in every scenario ever. 162 00:09:12,240 --> 00:09:14,480 We've talked about this, but it's worth bringing it back up. 163 00:09:14,840 --> 00:09:17,560 In every scenario ever, there are three components. 164 00:09:17,840 --> 00:09:21,840 Component #1 is the situation. What's the situation? 165 00:09:22,600 --> 00:09:24,360 I'm struggling with my addiction. 166 00:09:24,640 --> 00:09:27,080 I'm having a hard time stopping drinking. 167 00:09:27,360 --> 00:09:29,160 I drink whether I want to or not. 168 00:09:29,240 --> 00:09:34,840 Component #1 is the situation. Component #2 is my energetic 169 00:09:34,840 --> 00:09:37,000 response. What's my energetic response? 170 00:09:37,280 --> 00:09:43,080 Fear, frustration, resentment, anger, irritation, worry, worry. 171 00:09:43,400 --> 00:09:47,440 And for most people, especially addicts, they just bounce back 172 00:09:47,440 --> 00:09:50,520 and forth from 1:00 and 2:00. That's all they that's all they 173 00:09:50,520 --> 00:09:52,400 know. That's their entire reality. 174 00:09:52,600 --> 00:09:55,280 That's where their identity is bound. 175 00:09:55,600 --> 00:09:58,240 I'm the situation. I become an addict, I am an 176 00:09:58,240 --> 00:10:01,960 alcoholic, that's who I am. I become an employee at a gas 177 00:10:01,960 --> 00:10:06,280 station, that's who I am, or I'm angry, that's who I am. 178 00:10:06,280 --> 00:10:08,520 I'm frustration, I'm worried, that's who I am. 179 00:10:08,840 --> 00:10:12,080 And we need to get out of this horizontal dimension between 180 00:10:12,080 --> 00:10:16,240 1:00 and 2:00, and we need to enter the vertical dimension, 181 00:10:16,800 --> 00:10:21,240 which is situation or component #3 the vertical dimension. 182 00:10:21,240 --> 00:10:24,520 What's the vertical dimension? That's my consciousness, that's 183 00:10:24,520 --> 00:10:29,040 my aware presence. That's God, that's soul, that's 184 00:10:29,080 --> 00:10:31,680 eternity. That's the part of me that's not 185 00:10:31,680 --> 00:10:35,320 subject to birth or death. That's the part of me that is 186 00:10:35,320 --> 00:10:38,360 forever. That is also the part of me that 187 00:10:38,360 --> 00:10:47,880 can observe #1 and #2 So I want to bring out this third element, 188 00:10:47,880 --> 00:10:51,680 this third dimension of existence, and I want that 189 00:10:52,960 --> 00:10:56,680 vertical dimension to be where my identity is grounded. 190 00:10:57,320 --> 00:11:01,480 If my identity is grounded in universal source energy, if my 191 00:11:01,480 --> 00:11:06,840 identity is grounded in consciousness, spirit, soul, we 192 00:11:06,840 --> 00:11:09,680 use many terms because anyone term limits it. 193 00:11:09,680 --> 00:11:14,160 It's too big to be labeled. So we use many terms to help the 194 00:11:14,160 --> 00:11:17,360 human brain understand. But if that's where my identity 195 00:11:17,360 --> 00:11:19,680 is grounded, these things are eternal. 196 00:11:20,120 --> 00:11:23,760 They're not going anywhere. And so I that that's been the 197 00:11:23,760 --> 00:11:26,040 back to basics practice for me this last week. 198 00:11:26,040 --> 00:11:29,320 Brother, come back home. Remember who you are. 199 00:11:29,640 --> 00:11:33,360 Remember the flowering of consciousness inside of you. 200 00:11:33,680 --> 00:11:36,440 Do you have any ear peace at all? 201 00:11:36,560 --> 00:11:39,800 Are you as fast in inner peace ever throughout the day? 202 00:11:39,800 --> 00:11:42,040 Do you even know what serenity means? 203 00:11:42,440 --> 00:11:46,680 And had lost the present moment. I was constantly in fear, around 204 00:11:46,680 --> 00:11:49,160 business, around money, around solutions. 205 00:11:49,320 --> 00:11:53,080 And I had got out of solution. And when I came back home, back 206 00:11:53,080 --> 00:11:56,640 to vertical dimension, things just started falling in line. 207 00:11:56,920 --> 00:11:59,640 People and places were put in front of me. 208 00:11:59,800 --> 00:12:03,600 The vortex was open and God brought people to me, the 209 00:12:03,600 --> 00:12:06,640 appropriate help, the appropriate finances, It was all 210 00:12:06,640 --> 00:12:07,320 there. It was all there. 211 00:12:07,320 --> 00:12:08,920 I didn't even have to go look for it already. 212 00:12:08,920 --> 00:12:11,840 It just came to me. So I got out of resisting 213 00:12:11,840 --> 00:12:14,760 reality. Bouncing between 1:00 and 2:00, 214 00:12:15,120 --> 00:12:18,720 got into vertical dimension. And that's what you were talking 215 00:12:18,720 --> 00:12:20,360 about with that Sermon on the Mount. 216 00:12:20,640 --> 00:12:22,960 That's where heaven exists. Heaven it. 217 00:12:22,960 --> 00:12:25,440 The only time we get to experience heaven on earth is in 218 00:12:25,440 --> 00:12:27,480 the present moment. I guarantee you it's not going 219 00:12:27,480 --> 00:12:30,360 to be tomorrow. Yeah, and Eckhart Tolle says 220 00:12:30,360 --> 00:12:31,800 this. You were, we were talking about 221 00:12:31,800 --> 00:12:33,600 him off air. You've been listening to him and 222 00:12:33,600 --> 00:12:36,240 Oprah, and that's all free on YouTube, guys. 223 00:12:37,520 --> 00:12:40,600 It says that he said this. The past gives you an identity 224 00:12:41,280 --> 00:12:43,920 and the future holds the promise of salvation. 225 00:12:44,160 --> 00:12:47,000 Both are illusions. Yes. 226 00:12:47,000 --> 00:12:49,200 And this is what our addiction fed on. 227 00:12:49,200 --> 00:12:52,760 And it fed on. I'm going to escape the present 228 00:12:53,120 --> 00:12:55,560 because I'm going to promise myself tomorrow that I'm going 229 00:12:55,560 --> 00:12:58,120 to quit. So when you're doing this 230 00:12:58,160 --> 00:13:03,440 promise of quitting, you really in reality what you're doing is 231 00:13:03,440 --> 00:13:06,040 you're living not the heaven on earth, the hell on earth. 232 00:13:06,040 --> 00:13:08,520 And I want people to understand this because I think it's really 233 00:13:08,520 --> 00:13:10,720 important. When you were talking about 234 00:13:10,720 --> 00:13:13,120 inner peace, I listened to David Goggins the other day. 235 00:13:13,120 --> 00:13:16,000 He was talking to Andrew Huberman and it was so beautiful 236 00:13:16,000 --> 00:13:18,120 what he said. And we don't all have to be as 237 00:13:18,120 --> 00:13:20,520 crazy as David Goggins where he's running 100 mile races with 238 00:13:20,520 --> 00:13:21,880 broken ankles and all that stuff. 239 00:13:22,280 --> 00:13:24,080 But he said this and it was so profound, bro. 240 00:13:24,080 --> 00:13:29,000 He said most people live such comfortable lives, they've never 241 00:13:29,000 --> 00:13:31,840 experienced any type of hardship. 242 00:13:32,040 --> 00:13:36,280 And then overcoming the hardship and then getting it cracking 243 00:13:36,280 --> 00:13:38,320 open. And I believe that cracking open 244 00:13:38,320 --> 00:13:40,360 is that window of grace, if we want to call that. 245 00:13:41,080 --> 00:13:43,920 And he's, that's why people, he's, I talk to people all the 246 00:13:43,920 --> 00:13:45,640 time. They have millions of dollars in 247 00:13:45,640 --> 00:13:48,040 big houses and the list goes on and on. 248 00:13:48,400 --> 00:13:51,200 And they all are miserable. Because. 249 00:13:51,800 --> 00:13:54,640 The only thing I solved myself, he's like I was fat, I had 250 00:13:54,640 --> 00:13:56,240 issues. Everything else he goes. 251 00:13:56,240 --> 00:13:58,840 The only way I solved myself was going into the Navy Seals. 252 00:13:58,840 --> 00:14:03,520 And then from there I learned that the suffering is there for 253 00:14:03,520 --> 00:14:08,920 you to crack open disability. It's even in science, they call 254 00:14:08,920 --> 00:14:14,080 it DMN, the default mode network and our brain constantly. 255 00:14:14,080 --> 00:14:17,560 It's like a data stream because of fighter flight and all of 256 00:14:17,560 --> 00:14:20,240 those different things that we've had in our past, not our 257 00:14:20,240 --> 00:14:22,920 past, but in our ancestors past. It. 258 00:14:22,920 --> 00:14:26,240 Pulls us into this past, future thinking because that's what's 259 00:14:26,240 --> 00:14:28,560 good for survival. I need what happened in the 260 00:14:28,560 --> 00:14:30,000 past. I need to logically figure it 261 00:14:30,000 --> 00:14:32,520 out. OK, I almost just got ate by 262 00:14:32,520 --> 00:14:34,600 this bear. Now what do I need to do? 263 00:14:34,600 --> 00:14:36,280 OK, I need to do this, prepare for this. 264 00:14:36,720 --> 00:14:40,240 And then future thinking is, oh, OK, I need to make sure I let 265 00:14:40,240 --> 00:14:43,360 the tribe know there's a bear out here and it's attacking. 266 00:14:43,480 --> 00:14:44,640 It's attacked 3 people. Now. 267 00:14:44,680 --> 00:14:48,040 You know, this whole thing with tribal evolution and all that is 268 00:14:48,040 --> 00:14:50,760 what this is, and it's really interesting with the science. 269 00:14:50,760 --> 00:14:53,560 Studies show rumination. That's what they call it, and 270 00:14:53,560 --> 00:14:56,400 that's the past. What's interesting with 271 00:14:56,400 --> 00:14:59,400 neuroscience, they call constantly thinking about the 272 00:14:59,400 --> 00:15:01,520 future. The word they use for it is 273 00:15:01,520 --> 00:15:03,120 anxiety. And if you really. 274 00:15:03,120 --> 00:15:06,080 Think about that rumination of the past anxiety in the future. 275 00:15:06,560 --> 00:15:09,680 And they said that it literally shrinks the hippocampus. 276 00:15:11,200 --> 00:15:13,960 And when they've taken monks and you've heard about the study 277 00:15:13,960 --> 00:15:17,040 they've taken monks and you've done scans on their brain when 278 00:15:17,040 --> 00:15:20,760 they're in like deep meditation, and what they found is present 279 00:15:20,760 --> 00:15:25,200 moment awareness increases Gray matter densities, and it 280 00:15:25,200 --> 00:15:28,760 especially increases it in governing emotional regulation. 281 00:15:29,680 --> 00:15:31,200 So this is what you're talking about. 282 00:15:31,200 --> 00:15:33,360 You had a God moment in that moment where you're like, I 283 00:15:33,360 --> 00:15:34,560 don't have any inner peace about this. 284 00:15:34,560 --> 00:15:35,440 What the hell is going? On. 285 00:15:35,920 --> 00:15:38,240 And then you were able to slow down, get into the present 286 00:15:38,240 --> 00:15:40,360 moment awareness. You grabbed awareness of it. 287 00:15:40,920 --> 00:15:44,760 And then in that awareness, your brain started to begin to, as it 288 00:15:44,760 --> 00:15:47,120 does with the higher self. It always expands. 289 00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:48,720 It's just expanding consciousness. 290 00:15:48,720 --> 00:15:50,920 Like you said, I don't believe you can experience 291 00:15:50,920 --> 00:15:52,320 consciousness. You're in the present moment. 292 00:15:52,600 --> 00:15:54,400 You know, that's the only highway you can be on to 293 00:15:54,400 --> 00:15:56,440 communicate with God or your higher self. 294 00:15:57,120 --> 00:16:01,560 So if our minds are wired to drift and our addiction thrives 295 00:16:01,560 --> 00:16:06,080 in that drift, then how do we anchor ourselves here and now? 296 00:16:06,080 --> 00:16:08,200 And I want you to go in detail a little bit, if you wouldn't 297 00:16:08,200 --> 00:16:11,760 mind, with some of the things that Eckhart and Oprah said. 298 00:16:11,760 --> 00:16:13,480 And like I said, I encourage everybody to listen to it. 299 00:16:14,000 --> 00:16:15,760 Can you go into a little bit about some of the teaching that 300 00:16:15,760 --> 00:16:19,080 you're learning right now? Absolutely, man, I love that 301 00:16:19,080 --> 00:16:21,640 we're bringing in the evolutional psychology. 302 00:16:22,400 --> 00:16:26,480 Let's say human beings have been this way for three hundred 303 00:16:26,480 --> 00:16:30,680 350,000 years. Let's say we're also interested 304 00:16:30,680 --> 00:16:33,480 involving past, where we're at now. 305 00:16:33,480 --> 00:16:35,240 Where we're at now is what you just talked about. 306 00:16:35,240 --> 00:16:38,880 The mind drifts, it drifts into worry, it drifts into future. 307 00:16:39,040 --> 00:16:41,160 No difference between that and anxiety. 308 00:16:41,400 --> 00:16:44,920 An alcoholic or an addict is the extreme version of that. 309 00:16:45,040 --> 00:16:47,840 I have the worry. We just experienced things in 310 00:16:47,840 --> 00:16:50,120 extreme and I'm excited. I'm super excited. 311 00:16:50,120 --> 00:16:52,400 When I'm down, I'm in the depths of depression. 312 00:16:52,560 --> 00:16:56,400 I'm ready to kill myself. So an alcoholic is a creature of 313 00:16:56,400 --> 00:17:00,880 extreme and it's important for us to remember that it's only 314 00:17:00,880 --> 00:17:03,840 partly personal. This is one of the first tools 315 00:17:04,119 --> 00:17:07,160 with Oprah and Eckhart seminar on a New Earth. 316 00:17:07,160 --> 00:17:10,760 You guys got to go check it out. And my entire life, I was eight 317 00:17:10,760 --> 00:17:12,280 years sober when I first listened to it. 318 00:17:12,640 --> 00:17:15,960 And it was just the flowering of consciousness, the ego cracking 319 00:17:15,960 --> 00:17:22,480 open that I needed. And what what, what I found 320 00:17:22,720 --> 00:17:28,280 initially with that partly personal component was it's only 321 00:17:28,280 --> 00:17:32,160 partly personal. I have a personal past and some 322 00:17:32,160 --> 00:17:37,120 of the worry and anxiety and resentment in the past, fear of 323 00:17:37,120 --> 00:17:39,800 the future is from my personal past. 324 00:17:40,160 --> 00:17:43,880 So that's the personal part. But the partly personal part is, 325 00:17:44,040 --> 00:17:49,240 just like you said, Jake, is the 300,000 years of evolution 326 00:17:49,440 --> 00:17:53,680 hardwired in our mind so that we don't get eaten by a bear or 327 00:17:53,680 --> 00:17:55,760 freeze to death out in the wilderness. 328 00:17:55,960 --> 00:18:00,200 And today in our modern society, that's not happening to us. 329 00:18:00,200 --> 00:18:02,560 Like I don't have to function in anxiety. 330 00:18:02,560 --> 00:18:05,320 I don't have to function in fear non-stop. 331 00:18:05,520 --> 00:18:08,960 The Eckhart Tolle teaching, which is from ancient Chinese, 332 00:18:08,960 --> 00:18:12,360 the ancient Chinese teaching is there's no tiger in this room. 333 00:18:13,240 --> 00:18:17,040 So when I get into fear, when I get into an anxiety, when I'm in 334 00:18:17,040 --> 00:18:22,440 a safe warm bed at night, but I'm having anxiety about the 335 00:18:22,440 --> 00:18:26,400 future or about getting sober, it's very helpful to remind 336 00:18:26,400 --> 00:18:31,200 myself I'm not my thoughts. I'm not my thoughts come back to 337 00:18:31,200 --> 00:18:34,600 the present moment thought form you put in that horizontal 338 00:18:34,600 --> 00:18:39,000 existence 1-2 those the thoughts go in one or two. 339 00:18:39,000 --> 00:18:42,440 It's a situation or it's an emotion conscious aware 340 00:18:42,440 --> 00:18:45,760 presence. The God inside of me does not 341 00:18:45,760 --> 00:18:48,720 feel bad. It is not capable of feeling 342 00:18:48,720 --> 00:18:50,600 bad. It's not capable of being 343 00:18:50,600 --> 00:18:52,760 afraid. It's not capable of anxiety. 344 00:18:53,000 --> 00:18:57,000 It's pure love, it's pure presence all the time. 345 00:18:57,440 --> 00:19:00,800 And we want to get in touch with that more and more often. 346 00:19:01,080 --> 00:19:03,280 So it's very just, it's just very helpful to remember it's 347 00:19:03,280 --> 00:19:06,920 only partly personal. OK, I there's no tiger in the 348 00:19:06,920 --> 00:19:08,360 room. That's literally the mantra. 349 00:19:08,920 --> 00:19:12,040 There's no tiger in this room. There's no tiger in this room. 350 00:19:12,320 --> 00:19:13,440 And. And there's no tiger in. 351 00:19:13,560 --> 00:19:15,360 The room. It's comical for a reason. 352 00:19:15,360 --> 00:19:18,200 The comedy helps crack open the ego. 353 00:19:18,640 --> 00:19:21,040 The only place the ego can exist is in the mind. 354 00:19:21,520 --> 00:19:26,200 So the mind loves when the ego takes over because I'm just 355 00:19:26,200 --> 00:19:28,680 bouncing back and forth one and two and one into a most 356 00:19:28,680 --> 00:19:30,320 situation, worry, situation, worry. 357 00:19:30,400 --> 00:19:33,080 And we need to go a little beyond that in regards to this 358 00:19:33,080 --> 00:19:36,000 next step in. What's the next step in human 359 00:19:36,000 --> 00:19:38,240 evolution? The next step in human evolution 360 00:19:38,240 --> 00:19:41,480 is going to be a conscious one. It's going to be a spiritual 361 00:19:41,480 --> 00:19:43,680 evolution. We're not going to get bigger 362 00:19:43,680 --> 00:19:46,560 and stronger. What we're going to get is more 363 00:19:46,560 --> 00:19:50,240 awake, more connected to God in the present moment. 364 00:19:50,720 --> 00:19:52,040 And so that's what we're talking about. 365 00:19:52,040 --> 00:19:56,040 Some of the other tools that are excellent in the seminar, very 366 00:19:56,040 --> 00:19:59,400 simple, we start with sense perceptions. 367 00:19:59,960 --> 00:20:02,520 Sense perception. So go inside the body. 368 00:20:02,520 --> 00:20:05,200 Can I feel the aliveness in my hands? 369 00:20:05,200 --> 00:20:08,120 It's almost like a tingling. It's almost like a burning 370 00:20:08,120 --> 00:20:11,440 sensation. Can I feel the aliveness in my 371 00:20:11,440 --> 00:20:13,680 hands, feet? We start entering the body. 372 00:20:13,680 --> 00:20:18,120 Can I feel my lungs? Inhale, exhale, sense 373 00:20:18,120 --> 00:20:20,160 perception. So that would be feel we could 374 00:20:20,160 --> 00:20:24,000 we can do touch on anytime. I'm washing my hands underneath 375 00:20:24,000 --> 00:20:26,200 the sink. It's so simple it's almost 376 00:20:26,200 --> 00:20:29,080 stupid, but it's a present moment practice. 377 00:20:29,360 --> 00:20:31,560 Can I just be present with the water? 378 00:20:32,000 --> 00:20:33,960 Can I feel the water on my hands? 379 00:20:33,960 --> 00:20:36,720 Can I feel the soap when I see a sign? 380 00:20:36,800 --> 00:20:42,080 When I see a sign that says I-25 turn left, can I just be present 381 00:20:42,080 --> 00:20:44,280 with the vision? With the sense perception of 382 00:20:44,280 --> 00:20:46,440 vision? Can I read the sign? 383 00:20:46,960 --> 00:20:52,560 I cannot simultaneously be an anxiety about the future if I'm 384 00:20:52,560 --> 00:20:55,920 honoring the sense perception of the present moment. 385 00:20:56,400 --> 00:20:59,600 And so we we start touching that, that part of me that's God 386 00:20:59,600 --> 00:21:02,400 consciousness. We start touching home base with 387 00:21:02,400 --> 00:21:06,880 sense perceptions initially. And then other very helpful 388 00:21:06,880 --> 00:21:10,040 tools, of course, are mantras or prayer. 389 00:21:10,440 --> 00:21:13,520 There's a great Navajo saying. And the Navajo saying is every 390 00:21:13,520 --> 00:21:16,480 step can be a prayer. So let's say I'm struggling with 391 00:21:16,480 --> 00:21:19,040 the present moment. I'm struggling with honoring the 392 00:21:19,040 --> 00:21:21,640 present moment. I'm constantly lost in my mind. 393 00:21:21,640 --> 00:21:24,240 I'm constantly worried about the drug dealer, I'm good, the 394 00:21:24,240 --> 00:21:26,480 liquor store making enough money. 395 00:21:27,240 --> 00:21:30,280 The girl that laughed, Oh my God, I can't get out of fear. 396 00:21:30,280 --> 00:21:34,760 I can't get out of my mind. We enter the present moment with 397 00:21:34,760 --> 00:21:41,480 a mantra to rewire the mind. Helpful mantra is God help me 398 00:21:41,480 --> 00:21:43,880 bring an inner yes to my outer now. 399 00:21:45,080 --> 00:21:48,160 God help me bring an inner yes to my outer now. 400 00:21:48,200 --> 00:21:52,200 And we walk that like a prayer. I used to work at I used to work 401 00:21:52,200 --> 00:21:54,960 in a restaurant industry, in the restaurant industry for 10 402 00:21:54,960 --> 00:21:56,960 years. I started this present moment 403 00:21:56,960 --> 00:22:02,040 practice roughly 8 years ago. And when I would walk through 404 00:22:02,040 --> 00:22:05,560 the restaurant, I would have that mantra and it would match 405 00:22:05,560 --> 00:22:07,920 my steps. So as I would go left foot, 406 00:22:07,920 --> 00:22:11,720 right foot, I would go help me bring an inner yes to my outer 407 00:22:11,720 --> 00:22:14,800 nail, Help me bring an inner yes to my outer nail. 408 00:22:15,000 --> 00:22:19,280 And I didn't really understand then, but I know now I was 409 00:22:19,280 --> 00:22:22,160 practicing not resisting reality. 410 00:22:22,560 --> 00:22:24,520 I'm not resisting the present moment. 411 00:22:24,600 --> 00:22:28,360 If I'm bringing inner yes to my outer nail, I don't have to Like 412 00:22:28,360 --> 00:22:31,080 working at a restaurant. It wasn't the best job in the 413 00:22:31,080 --> 00:22:33,160 world. That place was fucking insane. 414 00:22:33,320 --> 00:22:38,400 But I tried to bring an inner presence, an inner yes to that 415 00:22:38,440 --> 00:22:42,800 outer chaos. And bro, things changed 180 416 00:22:43,080 --> 00:22:46,200 fucking degrees. I became the lead server there. 417 00:22:46,200 --> 00:22:50,880 I became the guy they relied on. And I turned into the type of 418 00:22:50,880 --> 00:22:54,760 individual that can bring peace to a crazy situation. 419 00:22:55,400 --> 00:22:58,520 And that mantra, that sprayer. Yeah, Yeah. 420 00:22:58,520 --> 00:22:59,920 And I was around liquor all the time. 421 00:23:00,160 --> 00:23:03,080 And what you, what we open the podcast with is exactly that. 422 00:23:03,360 --> 00:23:05,240 That's how we start touching freedom. 423 00:23:05,240 --> 00:23:08,840 I could serve alcohol. I could be in that environment 424 00:23:09,120 --> 00:23:13,760 and I'm not in constant worry, fear or fight or flight around 425 00:23:13,760 --> 00:23:16,200 getting drunk around doing drugs. 426 00:23:16,360 --> 00:23:18,120 There was a freedom inside of me. 427 00:23:18,240 --> 00:23:21,160 I was there to serve a purpose. That purpose was to be of 428 00:23:21,160 --> 00:23:25,240 service to that business, to be of service to the clients that 429 00:23:25,240 --> 00:23:29,520 attended that restaurant and IT. And at the same time I was 430 00:23:29,520 --> 00:23:32,400 building something else on the side, I was building my personal 431 00:23:32,400 --> 00:23:34,600 businesses. You guys know I have multiple 432 00:23:34,600 --> 00:23:39,040 businesses around town and that restaurant was a stepping stone 433 00:23:39,240 --> 00:23:41,760 to do those other things really well. 434 00:23:42,040 --> 00:23:44,800 Super grateful I got to be there and I got to honor the present 435 00:23:44,800 --> 00:23:47,960 moment. A sober alcoholic serving 436 00:23:47,960 --> 00:23:51,840 liquor, trying to practice inner peace in an insane restaurant 437 00:23:51,840 --> 00:23:53,120 that stayed open till 3:00 in the morning. 438 00:23:53,120 --> 00:23:56,280 It was like a nightclub. Yeah, I'd been there. 439 00:23:56,280 --> 00:23:58,080 Yeah, multiple times. You already answered where we 440 00:23:58,080 --> 00:23:59,760 met. Exactly. 441 00:23:59,760 --> 00:24:03,120 Yeah, that's amazing. I know you just talked about 442 00:24:03,120 --> 00:24:04,920 like how the present moment heals. 443 00:24:04,920 --> 00:24:07,440 I want to get into a little bit of why the present moment heals. 444 00:24:08,240 --> 00:24:10,880 I kind of want to cause a lot of people will be like a spiritual 445 00:24:10,880 --> 00:24:14,080 bullshit, whatever. So for those of you that that 446 00:24:14,080 --> 00:24:18,720 have that anger inside of you when you realize your addiction 447 00:24:18,720 --> 00:24:22,480 shuts down your prefrontal cortex when you do present 448 00:24:22,480 --> 00:24:25,000 moment awareness, science has proven this. 449 00:24:25,000 --> 00:24:28,280 You can look this up, grab your phone, whatever you have, a 450 00:24:28,280 --> 00:24:30,480 computer, whatever it is, go to the library and look this up. 451 00:24:30,840 --> 00:24:32,560 It activates the prefrontal cortex. 452 00:24:33,240 --> 00:24:36,520 It literally lights up that part of the brain, and that's the 453 00:24:36,520 --> 00:24:38,160 part of the brain I want you guys to understand this. 454 00:24:38,160 --> 00:24:40,480 That's a part of the brain that got hijacked by addiction. 455 00:24:41,240 --> 00:24:43,360 When you're an addict, the prefrontal cortex just shuts 456 00:24:43,360 --> 00:24:46,360 off. And then the opposite side of 457 00:24:46,360 --> 00:24:48,200 that, so your prefrontal cortex is shut off. 458 00:24:48,400 --> 00:24:53,120 You know what's blaring red like a siren just going off and 110% 459 00:24:53,120 --> 00:24:55,920 like a Ferrari as much RPMS as you can. 460 00:24:55,920 --> 00:24:59,800 That's your amygdala. Your amygdala is going crazy. 461 00:24:59,800 --> 00:25:01,080 You know what your amygdala does? 462 00:25:01,640 --> 00:25:05,840 It drives cravings. So when you're in the present 463 00:25:05,840 --> 00:25:08,880 moment, when you practice present moment awareness and you 464 00:25:08,880 --> 00:25:13,680 bring present calm to that fear, that amygdala fear, it centers 465 00:25:14,400 --> 00:25:17,960 the drive of cravings. This is science, guys. 466 00:25:18,040 --> 00:25:19,760 This isn't spiritual. We're just talking about science 467 00:25:19,760 --> 00:25:21,840 right now. And then guess what else happens 468 00:25:21,840 --> 00:25:23,200 in your brain? Neuroplasticity. 469 00:25:23,280 --> 00:25:28,000 Every moment of present moment practice begins to rewire away 470 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:32,200 from the addiction pathways and begins to heal your brain. 471 00:25:32,640 --> 00:25:34,560 For some of you that's done math and stuff like that. 472 00:25:34,560 --> 00:25:38,640 You need healing of your brain. And this is one of the ways that 473 00:25:38,640 --> 00:25:42,000 you can begin to heal your brain because that attacks like when 474 00:25:42,000 --> 00:25:44,000 you've done math and stuff like that begins to attack your 475 00:25:44,000 --> 00:25:46,840 brain. So you said something so 476 00:25:46,840 --> 00:25:49,200 powerful and I want us to ruminate on this. 477 00:25:50,600 --> 00:25:52,400 You said a craving only exists as a thought. 478 00:25:54,000 --> 00:25:55,880 Exactly right and. I want to say it a little bit 479 00:25:55,880 --> 00:25:57,160 more. A craving only exists as a 480 00:25:57,160 --> 00:26:03,320 thought about the future. I now to feel better when you 481 00:26:03,320 --> 00:26:06,200 bring full attention to this moment right now, if you could 482 00:26:06,200 --> 00:26:08,000 calm your brain and just listen to this right now. 483 00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:11,120 When you bring full attention to this moment, cravings lose their 484 00:26:11,120 --> 00:26:15,960 power. And this is the funny part. 485 00:26:16,000 --> 00:26:18,560 And you said this true. You said this earlier. 486 00:26:18,560 --> 00:26:20,800 Your addiction never existed in the present moment. 487 00:26:22,680 --> 00:26:26,120 It only existed in regret about yesterday and fear about 488 00:26:26,120 --> 00:26:27,880 tomorrow. And that's what you said. 489 00:26:27,960 --> 00:26:30,120 I got regret about it. Can I pay the rent? 490 00:26:30,280 --> 00:26:31,600 Can I? Do I have enough money? 491 00:26:31,680 --> 00:26:34,440 What about my drug dealer? That's about yesterday and then 492 00:26:34,440 --> 00:26:36,920 fear about tomorrow. Oh my God, Am I going to be able 493 00:26:36,920 --> 00:26:38,600 to get to the liquor store before they close? 494 00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:40,360 Do I get a ride? You know, how am I going to get 495 00:26:40,360 --> 00:26:41,320 there? Do I have to walk? 496 00:26:42,360 --> 00:26:45,680 You know, all the substance is, whether it's alcohol, drugs, 497 00:26:45,680 --> 00:26:49,960 food for me, whatever it is for you, sex, gambling, it's just an 498 00:26:49,960 --> 00:26:52,000 escape vehicle. That's all it is. 499 00:26:52,280 --> 00:26:54,760 It's an escape hatch. It's the easiest. 500 00:26:54,760 --> 00:26:57,920 It's whatever is your type of addiction that makes it easy for 501 00:26:57,920 --> 00:26:59,400 you. That's what you gravitate 502 00:26:59,400 --> 00:27:01,040 towards. I gravitate towards food. 503 00:27:01,040 --> 00:27:02,680 You happen to gravitate towards alcohol. 504 00:27:03,360 --> 00:27:06,320 And I want you to talk about this because you've done 505 00:27:06,320 --> 00:27:09,400 extensive studies on this. Exodus, the book of Exodus 506 00:27:09,640 --> 00:27:14,880 chapter 3 verses 14 touch it something that I don't think 507 00:27:14,960 --> 00:27:17,760 anybody in 2 words could be so profound. 508 00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:22,560 Of course this is God. So what is God's name? 509 00:27:22,760 --> 00:27:25,000 He said I am. I am. 510 00:27:25,000 --> 00:27:26,920 How fucking present moment is that? 511 00:27:27,480 --> 00:27:30,120 He didn't say not I was or I will be. 512 00:27:30,920 --> 00:27:34,800 It's just eternal present. And when you begin to become 513 00:27:34,800 --> 00:27:40,560 fully present, you touch the divine is Jesus over and over 514 00:27:40,560 --> 00:27:42,400 again. He's don't worry about Caesar. 515 00:27:42,400 --> 00:27:44,400 Caesar give Caesar what Caesar's do. 516 00:27:44,720 --> 00:27:45,760 Don't. Worry about that. 517 00:27:45,760 --> 00:27:48,320 Don't worry about this and that. Constantly. 518 00:27:48,320 --> 00:27:51,400 He was directing people to the now, he said. 519 00:27:51,400 --> 00:27:53,480 Today you will be with me in paradise. 520 00:27:54,240 --> 00:27:58,600 Yes. So when cravings hit, say I am, 521 00:27:58,720 --> 00:28:00,880 those are such powerful words. They're God words. 522 00:28:01,120 --> 00:28:04,160 I am here I am breathing. I am. 523 00:28:04,200 --> 00:28:06,400 And it's not an affirmation as much as it is. 524 00:28:06,400 --> 00:28:10,280 It's an anchoring to the real reality, if that makes sense. 525 00:28:11,040 --> 00:28:14,520 Yes, it's so powerful, brother, getting in law that's exactly 526 00:28:14,880 --> 00:28:17,600 about getting in alignment with the power inside of you, that 527 00:28:17,600 --> 00:28:20,520 God consciousness alignment inside of you. 528 00:28:21,200 --> 00:28:24,880 I love the I am statement. We're reminded in that Exodus 529 00:28:25,360 --> 00:28:29,200 story, which is the foundational story of the Western world. 530 00:28:29,200 --> 00:28:32,880 So it's very important for us if you believe in freedom and if 531 00:28:32,880 --> 00:28:34,960 you believe in resisting the tyrant. 532 00:28:35,520 --> 00:28:37,560 That's exactly what we're talking about right now. 533 00:28:37,920 --> 00:28:43,560 Tyrant alcohol, I become the slave to to this tyrant, and I 534 00:28:43,560 --> 00:28:48,000 have to do its will. And so the thing that said I am, 535 00:28:48,440 --> 00:28:54,200 that's the same thing as the spirit that believes you should, 536 00:28:54,400 --> 00:28:56,720 that the tyrant doesn't get to have control. 537 00:28:57,360 --> 00:29:01,720 And that's the same thing as the spirit that believes your 538 00:29:01,720 --> 00:29:04,840 freedom is most important. And you know what? 539 00:29:04,840 --> 00:29:08,920 You might need to go into the fucking desert and find that 540 00:29:08,920 --> 00:29:11,000 freedom. It's not going to be an easy 541 00:29:11,000 --> 00:29:13,760 walk. You might theft arc the Red Sea 542 00:29:13,920 --> 00:29:16,920 and wander around for a while till you find your way. 543 00:29:16,920 --> 00:29:18,760 But that's what this podcast is all about. 544 00:29:19,040 --> 00:29:22,640 So there's tyrant alcohol, there is, there's tyrant alcohol and 545 00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:23,840 then there's the freedom of spirit. 546 00:29:23,840 --> 00:29:27,240 But that I am statement is so big and so powerful. 547 00:29:27,240 --> 00:29:29,520 You just gave us more mantras to practice. 548 00:29:29,760 --> 00:29:33,520 It's about the grounding, it's about getting back in in touch 549 00:29:33,520 --> 00:29:38,280 with home base, who I truly am. I know from experience, you 550 00:29:38,280 --> 00:29:41,600 guys, that I cannot beat this craving alone. 551 00:29:41,960 --> 00:29:46,320 If it's up to Dwayne and his ego, I fail every time. 552 00:29:46,400 --> 00:29:49,080 I might last a little while. I could put together three 553 00:29:49,080 --> 00:29:51,760 months on my own, but that was 0 prayer. 554 00:29:51,920 --> 00:29:55,680 That was 0 spiritual practice. That wasn't any fellowship or 555 00:29:55,680 --> 00:30:00,520 long term recovery. I our mutual support groups, I, 556 00:30:00,640 --> 00:30:02,440 I wasn't big enough to do it you guys. 557 00:30:02,440 --> 00:30:04,360 I had to get back in touch with that. 558 00:30:04,360 --> 00:30:10,240 I am power and that I am is God. That's the flowering of 559 00:30:10,240 --> 00:30:12,040 consciousness. That's the same thing as I. 560 00:30:12,040 --> 00:30:15,120 I am God. I always was and always will be. 561 00:30:15,360 --> 00:30:17,200 That's the same thing as eternal. 562 00:30:17,520 --> 00:30:20,520 That's the same thing as not subject to birth or death. 563 00:30:20,520 --> 00:30:23,800 That power is always available for us in the present moment. 564 00:30:24,400 --> 00:30:26,280 And I loved what you talked about in regards to the 565 00:30:26,280 --> 00:30:29,400 neuroplasticity, Jake. So why can't I use, if that's 566 00:30:29,400 --> 00:30:32,840 the most powerful thing in the universe, the I am God 567 00:30:32,840 --> 00:30:35,800 consciousness, why don't I tap into that? 568 00:30:35,800 --> 00:30:38,920 Why don't I try using that? So let's say Dwayne's power 569 00:30:38,920 --> 00:30:43,760 isn't enough to stop drinking. Maybe that power is you guys. 570 00:30:43,760 --> 00:30:46,480 When I tapped into that power, everything changed. 571 00:30:46,480 --> 00:30:49,840 I hit my mantra hard. For six months, continuously. 572 00:30:50,040 --> 00:30:52,360 My mantra was God relieve me this obsession. 573 00:30:52,640 --> 00:30:55,240 God relieve me this obsession. And this is what we're talking 574 00:30:55,240 --> 00:30:58,320 about, the neuropathway. Now the neuroplasticity, OK, 575 00:30:58,440 --> 00:31:01,680 great analogies analogy #1 is like a little trail in the 576 00:31:01,680 --> 00:31:05,600 forest. I have gone down Dwayne's Trail 577 00:31:06,240 --> 00:31:10,080 10 1000 fucking times. I know where every bottle is. 578 00:31:10,080 --> 00:31:12,160 I know where every ex-girlfriend is. 579 00:31:12,160 --> 00:31:14,160 I know where every pile of cocaine is. 580 00:31:14,240 --> 00:31:17,240 I've gone down that path 10,000 times. 581 00:31:17,360 --> 00:31:18,720 There's nothing new down that path. 582 00:31:18,720 --> 00:31:22,320 I know how to navigate that path and then there's a fork in the 583 00:31:22,320 --> 00:31:24,360 trail and then there's God's path. 584 00:31:24,600 --> 00:31:27,040 And you know what? I haven't been down that path, 585 00:31:27,160 --> 00:31:27,960 man. I don't know. 586 00:31:27,960 --> 00:31:30,000 It's down that path. I don't really want to go down 587 00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:32,000 that path. But if you're interested in not 588 00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:35,000 dying from your disease, you better take God's path. 589 00:31:35,320 --> 00:31:37,760 Only thing that's going to save your fucking ass. 590 00:31:37,920 --> 00:31:41,960 It is not Dwayne's path that I've taken 10,000 times. 591 00:31:42,120 --> 00:31:45,920 So we have to have the courage and the strength and that comes 592 00:31:45,920 --> 00:31:49,640 from that. I am statement to take that road 593 00:31:49,640 --> 00:31:54,280 less traveled, to take the left hand path, to take God's path 594 00:31:55,040 --> 00:31:58,240 bro down God's path. My life flowered. 595 00:31:58,240 --> 00:32:00,600 My life bloomed. It became something worth 596 00:32:00,600 --> 00:32:03,120 living. I have problems in areas where I 597 00:32:03,120 --> 00:32:05,920 didn't used to have, areas I have to worry about fucking 598 00:32:06,240 --> 00:32:10,040 managing properties and dealing with large repairs. 599 00:32:10,440 --> 00:32:13,960 A lot of people rely on me and I have a lot of responsibility in 600 00:32:13,960 --> 00:32:17,000 my life today, but that gives me a lot of meaning and a lot of 601 00:32:17,000 --> 00:32:19,520 purpose. When I was going down, when I 602 00:32:19,520 --> 00:32:23,360 was going down Dwayne's path, I had 0 fucking meaning and had 603 00:32:23,360 --> 00:32:25,920 zero purpose. I did not have a good reason to 604 00:32:25,920 --> 00:32:29,520 get out of bed in the morning, and recovery has given me an 605 00:32:29,560 --> 00:32:32,840 excellent reason to get up and get out of bed in the morning. 606 00:32:33,040 --> 00:32:35,280 So that's what I found going down God's path. 607 00:32:35,520 --> 00:32:38,240 And then of course, you know the other analogy is good wolf, bad 608 00:32:38,240 --> 00:32:41,920 wolf, good wolf, bad wolf. I have these two wolves and 609 00:32:41,920 --> 00:32:46,160 they're in my mind and they're fighting all the time. 1 is 610 00:32:46,200 --> 00:32:48,040 beautiful. He's majestic. 611 00:32:48,200 --> 00:32:50,280 He knows every turn in the forest. 612 00:32:50,480 --> 00:32:53,480 He only eats what he needs to survive and provide for his 613 00:32:53,480 --> 00:32:55,600 family. He's very kind, he's loving. 614 00:32:56,000 --> 00:32:59,640 He's the leader of the pack. And then the other wolf, he's 615 00:32:59,640 --> 00:33:02,360 nasty. His fur is matted and he's 616 00:33:02,360 --> 00:33:06,560 snarling and he's dripping venom from his things. 617 00:33:06,680 --> 00:33:10,040 He eats everything inside. He needs everything he can find. 618 00:33:10,240 --> 00:33:12,160 And these two are always fighting each other. 619 00:33:12,160 --> 00:33:13,960 Good wolf, bad wolf, good wolf, bad wolf. 620 00:33:14,400 --> 00:33:17,680 And my good buddy asked me, he says, Dwayne, which wolf is 621 00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:19,800 going to win? When I was trying to sober up 622 00:33:20,160 --> 00:33:22,000 and I said, I don't know, man, I don't know. 623 00:33:22,040 --> 00:33:26,160 And he said, the wolf you feed, that's who's going to win. 624 00:33:26,880 --> 00:33:29,960 So I want to turn towards the light when it comes to my 625 00:33:29,960 --> 00:33:32,480 thoughts. I want to turn towards God 626 00:33:32,480 --> 00:33:37,640 consciousness when it comes to rewiring my neuroplasticity. 627 00:33:37,960 --> 00:33:39,920 We can go down a new path, you guys. 628 00:33:39,920 --> 00:33:43,320 We can go down a positive path. We can go down that good wolf 629 00:33:43,320 --> 00:33:46,640 path and we become useful. We become members of society 630 00:33:46,640 --> 00:33:49,080 that contribute. We become men who can handle 631 00:33:49,080 --> 00:33:52,800 responsibility and take care of their family and show up to work 632 00:33:52,800 --> 00:33:55,400 on time and be present and provide. 633 00:33:55,560 --> 00:33:58,320 And that's enough reason for me to get up out of bed in the 634 00:33:58,320 --> 00:34:01,120 morning, bro. That's so powerful, bro so good. 635 00:34:01,120 --> 00:34:04,120 I love the wolf analogy. It reminds me of I'd I'd heard 636 00:34:04,120 --> 00:34:08,080 read a study a while back about the pain body and it like your 637 00:34:08,080 --> 00:34:10,320 nervous system and the traumas that you've experienced and all 638 00:34:10,320 --> 00:34:12,040 that. And one of the things they were 639 00:34:12,040 --> 00:34:15,960 saying is that addiction is pain body's favorite food. 640 00:34:16,960 --> 00:34:18,239 And that's what you were just saying. 641 00:34:18,239 --> 00:34:21,600 When this like that dirty, nasty ego wolf, you got the higher 642 00:34:21,600 --> 00:34:24,880 self wolf that that's majestic. And when Yellowstone, they 643 00:34:24,880 --> 00:34:27,560 followed a wolf, I think for 14 years, he was a leader of the 644 00:34:27,560 --> 00:34:29,960 pack forever. And they were like, people were 645 00:34:29,960 --> 00:34:32,840 like, you know how tag them and then have numbers for them. 646 00:34:33,080 --> 00:34:35,840 And they even wrote a book about this wolf because he was like, 647 00:34:36,040 --> 00:34:38,440 like you were saying the higher self wolf, this majestic wolf, 648 00:34:38,639 --> 00:34:41,159 he kept one partner when most wolves would have tons of 649 00:34:41,159 --> 00:34:44,440 partners. And he was kind and loving. 650 00:34:44,520 --> 00:34:47,920 And at the same time something was bad was happening in the 651 00:34:47,920 --> 00:34:49,880 pack. He would handle it, take care of 652 00:34:49,880 --> 00:34:52,040 it. And he ended up living. 653 00:34:52,080 --> 00:34:53,639 He ended up being the leader till he died. 654 00:34:53,639 --> 00:34:56,880 And he lived a long time. When you see that your addiction 655 00:34:56,880 --> 00:34:59,640 is your pain body's favorite food, and then it just fed on 656 00:34:59,640 --> 00:35:03,160 past resentments and future fears and all the bullshit, the 657 00:35:03,200 --> 00:35:05,680 only thing that starves it, like you were saying, is the present 658 00:35:05,680 --> 00:35:07,040 moment. That's the only thing that 659 00:35:07,040 --> 00:35:09,280 starves it is presence. What are you feeding? 660 00:35:09,280 --> 00:35:12,360 You got to starve that wolf. And one of the things that I 661 00:35:12,360 --> 00:35:15,000 want us to get in, I want us to shift, if you don't mind, and 662 00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:17,200 get into this acceptance versus resistance. 663 00:35:17,720 --> 00:35:19,920 And I was thinking about this when I was in the Marine Corps. 664 00:35:21,320 --> 00:35:23,240 When you go through Marine Corps boot camp, it's probably one of 665 00:35:23,240 --> 00:35:24,800 the worst things people ever experience. 666 00:35:24,800 --> 00:35:27,240 If you went to Marine Corps boot camp now, it'd be for those 667 00:35:27,240 --> 00:35:29,840 that's been in the Marines. It's pretty tough, pretty 668 00:35:29,840 --> 00:35:32,440 horrific. And they always say they want to 669 00:35:32,440 --> 00:35:35,360 break you. And I never understood it till I 670 00:35:35,360 --> 00:35:38,240 went to war. Then once I went to war, I was 671 00:35:38,240 --> 00:35:41,800 like, oh, Marine, this isn't as bad as Marine Corps boot camp. 672 00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:45,680 And I trained a ton. So just your body takes over in 673 00:35:45,680 --> 00:35:46,800 war. It's like I had tons of 674 00:35:46,800 --> 00:35:49,400 training. I've experienced what shit is, I 675 00:35:49,400 --> 00:35:51,760 understand suffering. I got this figured out. 676 00:35:52,040 --> 00:35:54,520 I'm not resisting. You have to accept to be in the 677 00:35:54,520 --> 00:35:56,280 present moment in war. Are you going to die? 678 00:35:56,280 --> 00:35:58,920 I can't be thinking about what do I do here or how does this 679 00:35:58,920 --> 00:36:02,040 work or what should I do or if it's I really fucking hate this. 680 00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:03,240 I don't want to be here right now. 681 00:36:03,280 --> 00:36:04,920 That's not going to work. You're still going to get shot. 682 00:36:05,000 --> 00:36:09,440 You know what I mean? So whatever the present moment 683 00:36:09,440 --> 00:36:11,400 contains, accept it. Now. 684 00:36:11,400 --> 00:36:13,600 Here's the power of the switch for acceptance versus 685 00:36:13,600 --> 00:36:15,960 resistance. If you accept it as if you had 686 00:36:15,960 --> 00:36:19,880 chosen it, what if you just chose it? 687 00:36:20,280 --> 00:36:24,040 This doesn't mean liking it. But what we like to do as 688 00:36:24,040 --> 00:36:27,280 addicts, we like to add the mental suffering to what is. 689 00:36:28,920 --> 00:36:31,040 And that's just all that is, is narcissism. 690 00:36:31,760 --> 00:36:34,280 Yes. And you're not trying to get 691 00:36:34,280 --> 00:36:36,040 somewhere. Even in sobriety. 692 00:36:36,120 --> 00:36:37,960 Everybody says I just can't wait till I get sober. 693 00:36:37,960 --> 00:36:40,560 I can't wait. That's not present moment. 694 00:36:41,320 --> 00:36:45,680 What is asking if you was to stop resisting and accept what 695 00:36:45,680 --> 00:36:50,800 is right now and then learn keyword, learn to be here, to be 696 00:36:50,800 --> 00:36:54,120 the I am. That's the present moment when, 697 00:36:54,120 --> 00:36:55,880 like you said, when your feet hit the floor. 698 00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:58,120 How many affirmations you say the minute that your feet hit 699 00:36:58,120 --> 00:37:01,960 the floor during your addiction? How many did you, how many 700 00:37:01,960 --> 00:37:04,160 affirmations you say throughout the day, Dwayne? 701 00:37:06,080 --> 00:37:09,800 Trying to get silver or trying to get silver My number. 702 00:37:09,800 --> 00:37:12,880 I'm trying to shoot for 3000. Can I get that 3000 a day? 703 00:37:13,280 --> 00:37:16,680 Can I get can I-10? How about 10,000 a day? 704 00:37:16,960 --> 00:37:21,320 You remember the neuroscience that did this study on how many 705 00:37:21,320 --> 00:37:23,560 thoughts a day just normal people have? 706 00:37:23,800 --> 00:37:26,280 Normal people have 60,000 thoughts a day, You guys. 707 00:37:26,640 --> 00:37:31,080 That means I have 60,000 opportunities to touch that. 708 00:37:31,080 --> 00:37:34,200 I am power. I have 60,000 opportunities to 709 00:37:34,200 --> 00:37:38,560 rewire my neocortex and avoid the mental suffering. 710 00:37:40,280 --> 00:37:42,280 But in addiction, when you're in the depths, when you're in 711 00:37:42,280 --> 00:37:48,840 active addiction, those 60,000, I guarantee you 98 to 99% of 712 00:37:48,840 --> 00:37:53,400 them were increasing my suffering, were resisting 713 00:37:53,400 --> 00:37:55,400 reality. I was never practicing 714 00:37:55,400 --> 00:37:59,320 acceptance. I was always the victim of 715 00:37:59,320 --> 00:38:02,480 reality, victim of this should be different. 716 00:38:02,480 --> 00:38:04,200 This should be different. You know what, if you had the 717 00:38:04,200 --> 00:38:07,560 life I had, you drink too. If you had the parents I had, if 718 00:38:07,560 --> 00:38:10,080 you had the jobs, if you had the bosses, if you had the struggles 719 00:38:10,080 --> 00:38:12,960 I had, you would drink too. I was always the victim. 720 00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:17,960 And we know very well in recovery, victims never recover. 721 00:38:18,040 --> 00:38:20,280 You want to keep being the victim and you want to keep 722 00:38:20,280 --> 00:38:21,960 complaining. You're not ever going to get 723 00:38:21,960 --> 00:38:22,960 better. Never. 724 00:38:23,960 --> 00:38:26,000 Yeah, That's so good. I want to, if you don't mind, 725 00:38:26,000 --> 00:38:27,960 Dwayne, I know this will be hard for you because it's been so 726 00:38:27,960 --> 00:38:31,040 long ago. I want to have you step into the 727 00:38:31,040 --> 00:38:33,120 old Dwayne. I don't know if you can do that 728 00:38:33,120 --> 00:38:35,240 because I want to do a little. I think this would be really 729 00:38:35,240 --> 00:38:36,800 powerful and this is going to help people. 730 00:38:37,560 --> 00:38:41,040 So I'm going to give you like 4 little 4 little questions I'm 731 00:38:41,040 --> 00:38:43,840 going to ask, but I want you to respond like when you were old 732 00:38:43,840 --> 00:38:48,280 Dwayne coked up and on and coked up inside Co. 733 00:38:48,280 --> 00:38:49,480 Let me. Bring the. 734 00:38:49,480 --> 00:38:51,760 Battered. Let me bring up the ego. 735 00:38:51,760 --> 00:38:54,400 I'm sure. I'm sure my ego is still there. 736 00:38:55,360 --> 00:38:58,440 So I want you to, if you can remember when the cravings hit. 737 00:38:59,760 --> 00:39:01,840 And then I want to go to this practice because I think this is 738 00:39:01,840 --> 00:39:04,280 going to really help people. So number one is name it. 739 00:39:05,480 --> 00:39:07,960 So name, get clear on your craving. 740 00:39:07,960 --> 00:39:10,200 What was the craving like? Name it. 741 00:39:10,200 --> 00:39:11,960 We'll get into it a little bit with me if you don't mind. 742 00:39:13,000 --> 00:39:17,040 Like my skin is itching. My skin is fucking crawling. 743 00:39:17,360 --> 00:39:19,680 I need to feel something different than this. 744 00:39:19,880 --> 00:39:21,760 This is so uncomfortable. I need to feel something 745 00:39:21,760 --> 00:39:24,600 different. Where did you feel it? 746 00:39:24,600 --> 00:39:28,080 Not thinking about it, but feel it like in my solar, in your 747 00:39:28,240 --> 00:39:28,840 body. Where would you? 748 00:39:28,880 --> 00:39:31,920 Feel it in my solar plexus in my solar plexus like a little 749 00:39:31,920 --> 00:39:34,960 behind my heart and then my stomach is doing figure eights 750 00:39:35,120 --> 00:39:39,120 like I feel the anxiety. I can feel my heart drop down 751 00:39:39,240 --> 00:39:42,680 into my solar Plex into my stomach and then my stomach is 752 00:39:42,680 --> 00:39:44,880 starts to do figure eights. I start to get ill, like 753 00:39:44,880 --> 00:39:47,000 physically I'll. Yeah. 754 00:39:47,000 --> 00:39:48,840 So, yeah. So that that's the name it, 755 00:39:48,880 --> 00:39:50,840 you've named it. So we've got clarity on it. 756 00:39:51,240 --> 00:39:52,720 It's basically a thought about the future. 757 00:39:52,720 --> 00:39:55,000 It's a craving. That's what you and then feel 758 00:39:55,000 --> 00:39:57,680 it. We've identified it where it's 759 00:39:57,680 --> 00:40:00,480 at in the body, where that thought is at in the body. 760 00:40:01,280 --> 00:40:02,960 And this is the cool part. And we we don't have to go 761 00:40:02,960 --> 00:40:05,200 through this part, but the breathe with it. 762 00:40:06,320 --> 00:40:08,960 This is something that science has identified. 763 00:40:09,200 --> 00:40:12,520 Is it that thought in your solar Plex and your heart in that 764 00:40:12,520 --> 00:40:15,280 area, it can't survive 90 seconds of full presence? 765 00:40:17,880 --> 00:40:20,840 If you could be fully present for 90 seconds, that'll all go 766 00:40:20,840 --> 00:40:23,560 away. That craving goes away because 767 00:40:23,560 --> 00:40:26,040 that's what the craze. It would be thought about the 768 00:40:26,040 --> 00:40:30,200 future and then an emotional attachment that you had to part 769 00:40:30,200 --> 00:40:32,960 of the body. So if you can breathe, no matter 770 00:40:32,960 --> 00:40:35,120 how you have to breathe, there's box breathing, there's all 771 00:40:35,120 --> 00:40:37,120 different types, There's hypotropic breathing, whatever 772 00:40:37,120 --> 00:40:39,240 works for you. If you have to breathe really 773 00:40:39,240 --> 00:40:43,560 hard, whatever you got to do, if you can do it for 90 seconds, 774 00:40:43,680 --> 00:40:45,880 try to be present. It's going to help you out. 775 00:40:46,320 --> 00:40:49,520 And then the return after you breathe the return, come back to 776 00:40:49,520 --> 00:40:53,480 what actually here and now. So who is the Dwayne here and 777 00:40:53,480 --> 00:40:55,440 now? What is the Dwayne that just 778 00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:57,600 made? Let's see, let's think about the 779 00:40:57,600 --> 00:41:01,480 Dwayne that realized like, oh shit, I haven't drank for a 780 00:41:01,480 --> 00:41:03,040 month or two weeks or three weeks. 781 00:41:03,160 --> 00:41:05,000 I think it was a pool moment that you had, right. 782 00:41:05,120 --> 00:41:07,960 Yes, yeah. What is that return coming back 783 00:41:07,960 --> 00:41:10,480 to actually seeing that there's hope? 784 00:41:11,320 --> 00:41:15,400 I had a moment of clarity while I was cleaning the pool hint 785 00:41:15,400 --> 00:41:18,520 house. I was landscaping and I was 786 00:41:18,600 --> 00:41:22,800 right around six months and I that that particular moment I 787 00:41:22,800 --> 00:41:25,440 fell to my knees. I started crying. 788 00:41:25,800 --> 00:41:28,920 There was this release. There was this like weight that 789 00:41:28,920 --> 00:41:33,560 had been lifted and a feeling of okayness, a feeling of this is I 790 00:41:33,920 --> 00:41:36,600 I just couldn't believe it, Jay, that I had not been thinking 791 00:41:36,600 --> 00:41:39,000 about alcohol. That was a that was something 792 00:41:39,000 --> 00:41:41,760 that dominated my thoughts. It dominated my waking moments, 793 00:41:41,760 --> 00:41:44,840 my sleeping moments, and I haven't been thinking about, I 794 00:41:44,840 --> 00:41:48,080 don't think I had thought about it for two weeks and it hit me. 795 00:41:48,120 --> 00:41:50,440 It hit me like a Thunderbolt there at the pool. 796 00:41:50,800 --> 00:41:52,560 I hadn't even been thinking about it. 797 00:41:54,120 --> 00:41:57,960 That the grace, the window of grace that was available for me 798 00:41:58,400 --> 00:42:02,720 because of the heavy duty work, the neuro repatterning, the 799 00:42:02,720 --> 00:42:07,240 mantras, the prayer, the right action, the disciplined action. 800 00:42:07,240 --> 00:42:11,000 I didn't want to get up and go to work, but I did it anyways, 801 00:42:11,280 --> 00:42:15,080 behaving like the man I want to be rather than the man I was. 802 00:42:15,440 --> 00:42:19,800 It placed me in a position of neutrality around alcohol. 803 00:42:19,800 --> 00:42:21,920 So what I it was an absolute miracle. 804 00:42:21,920 --> 00:42:23,520 Bro this. I used to see alcohol in the 805 00:42:23,520 --> 00:42:25,480 grocery store and have an anxiety attack. 806 00:42:25,680 --> 00:42:29,440 I used to, my breath would go away and I couldn't breathe and 807 00:42:29,440 --> 00:42:33,480 that that I would fall into the stomach again and start doing 808 00:42:33,480 --> 00:42:36,000 figure eights when I would see alcohol when I was around it. 809 00:42:36,600 --> 00:42:39,720 And after that, no repattering work and the spiritual 810 00:42:39,720 --> 00:42:43,120 development and the conscious awareness and that moment at the 811 00:42:43,120 --> 00:42:46,800 pool, I got placed in position of neutrality and that 812 00:42:46,800 --> 00:42:48,760 neutrality meant I'd feel nothing. 813 00:42:48,760 --> 00:42:52,280 I don't feel supercharged about alcohol when I see it anymore 814 00:42:52,520 --> 00:42:54,160 and I don't feel negative about it either. 815 00:42:54,160 --> 00:42:56,680 Oh, there's the devil's fucking liquid right there. 816 00:42:56,680 --> 00:42:59,160 I'd feel, I just feel nothing. I feel it's. 817 00:42:59,160 --> 00:42:59,840 Boring. Nervous. 818 00:43:00,480 --> 00:43:02,600 System it's it's extremely boring to me. 819 00:43:02,600 --> 00:43:05,720 Yes, it's extremely like I have the same affinity for alcohol as 820 00:43:05,720 --> 00:43:09,000 I do for mayonnaise now and I could get 2 shoots about minis. 821 00:43:09,000 --> 00:43:10,840 They don't care. I don't feel very excited and 822 00:43:10,840 --> 00:43:12,480 I'm not like, oh, the worst thing ever. 823 00:43:12,960 --> 00:43:15,280 And that came from all that work, brother. 824 00:43:15,560 --> 00:43:17,440 And the breath. I want to get into the breath. 825 00:43:17,440 --> 00:43:19,160 What you just brought up is so powerful. 826 00:43:19,160 --> 00:43:24,040 That third item there, Robert Fritz and Gestalt therapy. 827 00:43:24,040 --> 00:43:26,400 He was a neuro, he was a therapist, but he also worked 828 00:43:26,400 --> 00:43:30,160 with neuroscientist and he figured out that the same 829 00:43:30,160 --> 00:43:34,920 chemical reaction in the brain, that fear is the same chemical 830 00:43:34,920 --> 00:43:37,360 reaction in the brain as excitement. 831 00:43:37,840 --> 00:43:42,920 It's just excitement has oxygen and fear doesn't. 832 00:43:43,040 --> 00:43:47,920 When I deprive my brain of oxygen, I go into anxiety, I go 833 00:43:47,920 --> 00:43:51,800 into fear. I can literally transform my 834 00:43:51,800 --> 00:43:56,760 fear into excitement with oxygen. 835 00:43:57,640 --> 00:44:00,040 And then there's another great teaching about the breath. 836 00:44:00,040 --> 00:44:02,680 There are many, but one of the ones that I always share with my 837 00:44:02,760 --> 00:44:08,800 the people that I work with is 1 molecule of blood will travel 838 00:44:08,800 --> 00:44:14,120 through the entire circulatory system twice in under a minute 839 00:44:14,160 --> 00:44:15,880 when you're sitting at your desk. 840 00:44:17,000 --> 00:44:20,120 Now let's say we're in the gym and we're working out and I get 841 00:44:20,120 --> 00:44:23,280 a pump on and I'm moving my body and my heart's fucking going 842 00:44:23,280 --> 00:44:25,200 fast. How fast do you think that 843 00:44:25,200 --> 00:44:28,400 molecule of blood is going through your circulatory system 844 00:44:28,600 --> 00:44:31,200 when your heart is jacked? So it's moving. 845 00:44:31,480 --> 00:44:34,440 And I do a lot of conscious development work with my clients 846 00:44:34,440 --> 00:44:36,160 at the gym while we're working out. 847 00:44:37,000 --> 00:44:42,120 That blood is also carrying oxygen, and oxygen travels in 848 00:44:42,120 --> 00:44:45,000 our blood. I can oxygenate my muscle while 849 00:44:45,000 --> 00:44:48,200 I'm working out with conscious breaths. 850 00:44:48,960 --> 00:44:51,760 There is there are many names for God. 851 00:44:51,840 --> 00:44:57,040 One of the old Jewish names, one of the old Hebrew names for God 852 00:44:57,040 --> 00:45:01,400 is Yahweh. But the way that word is 853 00:45:01,400 --> 00:45:05,600 pronounced in the Hebrew, you can't say it. 854 00:45:05,840 --> 00:45:09,240 It's all syllables. It's it's breath. 855 00:45:09,800 --> 00:45:14,280 So God's name is Breath. The first thing I said when I 856 00:45:14,280 --> 00:45:19,400 was born was God. The last thing I'm going to say 857 00:45:19,400 --> 00:45:26,360 when I leave this world, this 3 dimensional existence is God. 858 00:45:26,560 --> 00:45:30,000 And so we're breathing in and out God all day long. 859 00:45:30,040 --> 00:45:33,760 When we touch source, when we touch breath, we're touching 860 00:45:33,760 --> 00:45:35,160 God. It's no difference. 861 00:45:35,360 --> 00:45:39,480 And it's traveling inside of us at an incredibly fast rate. 862 00:45:39,640 --> 00:45:42,200 You're walking around with the solution inside of you. 863 00:45:42,200 --> 00:45:44,120 You need to tap into that solution. 864 00:45:44,400 --> 00:45:47,320 Use your breath, use your mantras, use your present moment 865 00:45:47,320 --> 00:45:50,240 practice. Yeah, that's so that, that's so 866 00:45:50,240 --> 00:45:53,240 good for all that's so powerful that people could, that's the 867 00:45:53,240 --> 00:45:54,480 cure. That's it, right? 868 00:45:54,480 --> 00:45:55,640 There, that's the cure right there. 869 00:45:56,120 --> 00:45:59,840 And something all day long. Something you said earlier was 870 00:45:59,840 --> 00:46:03,760 throughout your day doing this and, and I learned this, both of 871 00:46:03,760 --> 00:46:06,240 us have multiple businesses and we're really successful. 872 00:46:06,240 --> 00:46:08,680 We work for ourselves. We don't have a boss and that's 873 00:46:08,680 --> 00:46:10,560 freedom and that's the ultimate thing people want. 874 00:46:10,560 --> 00:46:12,680 We go on multiple trips and I'm not bragging, I'm just telling 875 00:46:12,680 --> 00:46:14,920 people we were. We were in addiction. 876 00:46:14,920 --> 00:46:18,080 I was homeless and you were bloody on the side of the side 877 00:46:18,080 --> 00:46:21,040 in Taos, on a snowy Rd. in hospital, almost dead. 878 00:46:21,440 --> 00:46:25,160 What I'm telling people is this is what's work for us and this 879 00:46:25,160 --> 00:46:27,320 isn't just something that you can do and you're good to go. 880 00:46:27,320 --> 00:46:30,760 It's throughout your day, like you said, you know, like you 881 00:46:30,760 --> 00:46:33,760 were basically bringing yourself through the affirmations. 882 00:46:33,760 --> 00:46:36,600 You brought yourself into the present moment, the Navajo 883 00:46:36,600 --> 00:46:39,440 prayer, or there there's a famous Buddhist teacher he talks 884 00:46:39,440 --> 00:46:42,160 about fill each footfall. He. 885 00:46:42,200 --> 00:46:47,000 Says in his mantras while he's walking, he feels each footfall 886 00:46:47,000 --> 00:46:49,280 as it's falling and hit touching to the ground. 887 00:46:49,440 --> 00:46:52,080 And then he says I have arrived, I am home. 888 00:46:52,440 --> 00:46:54,920 That that's his mantra. Some of the things that that 889 00:46:54,920 --> 00:46:57,440 I've been really working on is right when I get up in the 890 00:46:57,440 --> 00:47:00,560 morning to be present, and that's in my practices, like 891 00:47:00,560 --> 00:47:05,320 making coffee, smelling the beans, feeling the texture of my 892 00:47:05,320 --> 00:47:09,800 coffee cup, feeling the water temperature, watching. 893 00:47:09,800 --> 00:47:12,680 Like just being totally present and paying attention. 894 00:47:12,840 --> 00:47:14,360 As an addict, you're not paying attention to anything. 895 00:47:14,480 --> 00:47:17,520 Your brain is just such a squirrel when you talk to 896 00:47:17,520 --> 00:47:21,680 someone, actually being there and listening instead of 897 00:47:21,680 --> 00:47:24,280 planning your responses. How many addicts are in? 898 00:47:25,200 --> 00:47:27,840 I mean, we all gone to meetings. How many addicts are in the 899 00:47:27,840 --> 00:47:31,120 meetings just waiting to talk, You know, instead of just 900 00:47:31,120 --> 00:47:34,040 actually being there. Just that's the moment to 901 00:47:34,040 --> 00:47:36,160 practice is when you're in the meeting, just be there. 902 00:47:36,320 --> 00:47:39,360 Don't plan your response. Don't think even if you don't 903 00:47:39,360 --> 00:47:41,880 like the person, that's even better to practice because that 904 00:47:41,880 --> 00:47:44,760 teaches you even more. And I want to close in this 905 00:47:44,760 --> 00:47:48,760 because I want us to talk about Dwayne, the ultimate truth about 906 00:47:48,760 --> 00:47:52,560 relapse and why people relapse. One, they leave the present 907 00:47:52,560 --> 00:47:54,680 moment. I've been sober for 30 days. 908 00:47:54,680 --> 00:47:56,440 I can have just one. What is that? 909 00:47:56,440 --> 00:47:57,400 That's what you've been thinking. 910 00:47:58,200 --> 00:48:00,000 I can't believe I used for 10 years. 911 00:48:00,000 --> 00:48:03,160 That's past dwelling, right? Can't believe it past future. 912 00:48:03,160 --> 00:48:04,320 There we go. We talked about this a ton of 913 00:48:04,320 --> 00:48:07,560 times. So both pull us out of the only 914 00:48:07,560 --> 00:48:10,480 moment where we have power. Your power lies in the present 915 00:48:10,480 --> 00:48:13,200 moment. Not in the past being a victim, 916 00:48:13,360 --> 00:48:15,960 not in the future thinking about what I'm going to do or how this 917 00:48:15,960 --> 00:48:18,720 is going to get figured out or if I can just have one or I'm at 918 00:48:18,720 --> 00:48:19,880 the party. You know what? 919 00:48:20,320 --> 00:48:24,080 None of that. One of the statements I read 920 00:48:24,080 --> 00:48:26,760 online and I thought it was really interesting is from 921 00:48:26,760 --> 00:48:28,280 spiritual teacher. He said I cannot control 922 00:48:28,280 --> 00:48:33,600 tomorrow and yesterday is dead. And I love that statement. 923 00:48:34,200 --> 00:48:35,920 I cannot control tomorrow and yesterday. 924 00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:40,160 It's dead. But right now in this moment, I 925 00:48:40,160 --> 00:48:44,040 am not using. That instantly brings you into 926 00:48:44,040 --> 00:48:46,600 the present moment. I cannot control tomorrow and 927 00:48:46,600 --> 00:48:50,200 yesterday is dead, but right now, in this moment, you're not 928 00:48:50,200 --> 00:48:51,920 using. Right now, in the moment you're 929 00:48:51,920 --> 00:48:54,280 not using like right now, you're not. 930 00:48:54,880 --> 00:48:59,760 So if you string enough of these together like you did, guess 931 00:48:59,760 --> 00:49:02,760 what you have, You have a life. You have a life that, and that's 932 00:49:02,760 --> 00:49:06,680 what that that myself and you were both instruments of this 933 00:49:06,680 --> 00:49:09,160 practice works. There's two living beings that 934 00:49:09,160 --> 00:49:11,760 are succeeding in life sitting before you or if you're 935 00:49:11,760 --> 00:49:15,480 listening, speaking before you, telling you this works. 936 00:49:15,480 --> 00:49:17,760 This is what it is. It's science, it's spiritual 937 00:49:17,760 --> 00:49:20,800 teachings. It's bundled into one practice 938 00:49:20,840 --> 00:49:23,640 that you can do over and over again and you will begin to live 939 00:49:23,640 --> 00:49:25,520 a life, as Dwayne said, this worth living. 940 00:49:27,000 --> 00:49:28,640 So powerful, brother. I love it. 941 00:49:28,640 --> 00:49:30,760 I love it. That is such a great analogy. 942 00:49:31,440 --> 00:49:33,840 It's one of our favorite definitions of success. 943 00:49:34,320 --> 00:49:39,520 The normal, mundane, daily things that you do all the time. 944 00:49:39,520 --> 00:49:42,520 You have to wake up, you have to go take a shit, you have to make 945 00:49:42,520 --> 00:49:45,800 your coffee, you have to open the e-mail, you have to have a 946 00:49:45,800 --> 00:49:50,320 present moment. Practice if I can nail, if I can 947 00:49:50,320 --> 00:49:54,040 bring God consciousness, if I can bring a present moment, 948 00:49:54,040 --> 00:50:00,600 practice to my normal mundane daily stuff that makes up 85% of 949 00:50:00,600 --> 00:50:03,760 my life. The other 15% are like anomalous 950 00:50:03,760 --> 00:50:06,600 shit. It's like weddings, dance, car 951 00:50:06,600 --> 00:50:09,040 crashes, traffic, that type of stuff. 952 00:50:09,040 --> 00:50:10,400 That stuff doesn't happen all the time. 953 00:50:10,400 --> 00:50:14,280 Vacations. So if I nail 85%, Can you 954 00:50:14,280 --> 00:50:17,880 imagine you guys, if you're out there struggling, drinking, 955 00:50:17,880 --> 00:50:20,120 struggling, fighting your addiction, Can you imagine 956 00:50:20,320 --> 00:50:24,800 having an 85% good life? You're fucking floating. 957 00:50:24,960 --> 00:50:28,600 And then the rest of it becomes other opportunities to practice. 958 00:50:28,600 --> 00:50:30,760 Of course, I don't want to be present on my vacation. 959 00:50:30,760 --> 00:50:33,440 So of course I want to be present in my adventures with my 960 00:50:33,440 --> 00:50:36,240 family that I'm building with the people that all of a sudden 961 00:50:36,240 --> 00:50:38,720 trust me now, because I'm a reliable person. 962 00:50:39,040 --> 00:50:42,560 We, we can transform our lives, guys, but we just do it one 963 00:50:42,560 --> 00:50:44,920 moment at a time. And that's what Jason just is 964 00:50:44,920 --> 00:50:47,320 saying, right? He, you nailed it, bro. 965 00:50:47,560 --> 00:50:51,400 You string these moments together and you can transform 966 00:50:51,680 --> 00:50:53,760 everything in the present moment. 967 00:50:53,760 --> 00:50:56,960 Right now, as long as there's not a needle in my arm or a 968 00:50:56,960 --> 00:51:00,880 bottle up against my lips, I'm good. 969 00:51:01,000 --> 00:51:03,520 Like I'm OK right now. OK in the present moment. 970 00:51:03,680 --> 00:51:06,000 I'm not dying, I'm not fighting anybody. 971 00:51:06,120 --> 00:51:08,680 My bills are paid for, my house is taken care of. 972 00:51:08,760 --> 00:51:11,080 I'm connected to source in the present moment. 973 00:51:11,080 --> 00:51:12,960 You start stringing that together. 974 00:51:13,160 --> 00:51:15,920 If this is a life worth living, this is a this is something I 975 00:51:15,920 --> 00:51:17,200 could do. I could actually do this. 976 00:51:17,280 --> 00:51:19,000 I just have to show up for the present moment. 977 00:51:19,360 --> 00:51:21,800 I want to leave you guys with one more mantra that has just 978 00:51:21,800 --> 00:51:24,160 saved my ass. Works so well for me. 979 00:51:25,520 --> 00:51:29,880 My ego offers fear. My ego offers resentment. 980 00:51:29,880 --> 00:51:34,480 My ego offers comparison. My ego offers superiority or 981 00:51:34,480 --> 00:51:37,400 inferiority. My ego offers these 982 00:51:37,400 --> 00:51:41,080 uncomfortable feelings. But when I'm in the right 983 00:51:41,160 --> 00:51:43,920 dimension, when I'm in vertical dimension, when I'm in 984 00:51:43,920 --> 00:51:48,720 practicing the present moment practice, that's the same thing 985 00:51:48,720 --> 00:51:51,360 as being present, honoring the present moment. 986 00:51:51,360 --> 00:51:53,600 That's the entire thing we've been talking about with you guys 987 00:51:53,600 --> 00:51:58,040 this hour. That's the same thing as the 988 00:51:58,040 --> 00:52:02,640 presence inside of me, the eternal presence, the God 989 00:52:02,640 --> 00:52:05,680 consciousness. So the mantra that has worked 990 00:52:05,680 --> 00:52:09,640 very well for me that I try and still practice today is God help 991 00:52:09,640 --> 00:52:12,320 me offer my presence. God help me offer my presence. 992 00:52:12,320 --> 00:52:15,520 God help me anytime I'm going into a situation, anytime I'm 993 00:52:15,520 --> 00:52:18,880 around my family, anytime I'm around the high-powered people 994 00:52:18,880 --> 00:52:22,120 at work, anytime I'm around any dangerous situation, even a 995 00:52:22,120 --> 00:52:25,840 normal situation, just cleaning with my house, vacuuming, God 996 00:52:25,840 --> 00:52:28,240 help me offer my presence. God help me offer my presence. 997 00:52:28,240 --> 00:52:32,760 God help me offer my presence. The kicker there is when Ioffer 998 00:52:32,760 --> 00:52:37,160 my presence, it's the best thing I can give anyone ever. 999 00:52:38,200 --> 00:52:39,880 I'm not giving them my judgement. 1000 00:52:39,880 --> 00:52:42,800 I'm not giving them my fear. I'm not giving them my anger and 1001 00:52:42,800 --> 00:52:45,280 resentment. I'm just giving them the perfect 1002 00:52:45,280 --> 00:52:48,840 God consciousness, the presence awareness inside of me that 1003 00:52:48,840 --> 00:52:53,320 allows the individual or the situation that I'm with to just 1004 00:52:53,320 --> 00:52:55,280 unfold. You don't have to be any 1005 00:52:55,280 --> 00:52:57,560 particular way. You can just be you. 1006 00:52:57,720 --> 00:53:01,200 I'm not giving you my judgement, I'm giving you my presence. 1007 00:53:01,720 --> 00:53:04,600 So as you go through the world, you guys, as you're in traffic, 1008 00:53:04,600 --> 00:53:06,960 as you're at work, you're trying to sober up, you're trying to 1009 00:53:06,960 --> 00:53:09,600 live a better life. Try and offer your presence 1010 00:53:09,720 --> 00:53:11,360 instead of offering your judgement. 1011 00:53:11,600 --> 00:53:15,600 Try and offer acceptance instead of resisting reality. 1012 00:53:15,880 --> 00:53:18,600 God help me offer my presence. God help me offer my presence. 1013 00:53:18,600 --> 00:53:21,160 God help me offer my presence. When I did that, I was still 1014 00:53:21,160 --> 00:53:24,440 working at the restaurant. People started throwing, sucking 1015 00:53:24,440 --> 00:53:28,320 money at me, bro. They were like, here, my tips, 1016 00:53:28,320 --> 00:53:31,520 my tips tripled overnight because I was offering presents 1017 00:53:32,160 --> 00:53:34,120 instead of offering judgement and fear. 1018 00:53:34,360 --> 00:53:37,240 And people can feel that I want to take these next 4 minutes and 1019 00:53:37,240 --> 00:53:39,360 I want you to respond to this after I say this, but I want to 1020 00:53:39,360 --> 00:53:41,720 give people some quick, deeper teaching if you're really deep 1021 00:53:41,720 --> 00:53:43,360 and you can handle it. Cut this off now. 1022 00:53:43,560 --> 00:53:46,320 After what Dwayne's profound wording was there? 1023 00:53:46,320 --> 00:53:48,560 But if not, I really wanted this real fast because I think it's 1024 00:53:48,560 --> 00:53:50,000 fun and you're going to love this. 1025 00:53:50,560 --> 00:53:52,480 I want you to know you're not your story. 1026 00:53:53,640 --> 00:53:55,800 John the Baptist, and you can read about him. 1027 00:53:55,800 --> 00:53:59,280 Amazing. He was the guy before Jesus. 1028 00:53:59,280 --> 00:54:00,680 He said repent and be born again. 1029 00:54:00,720 --> 00:54:04,240 Now repentance is a change of mind and then you must be born 1030 00:54:04,240 --> 00:54:05,600 again. And then Jesus said this over 1031 00:54:05,600 --> 00:54:06,880 and over again. You see this in the New 1032 00:54:06,880 --> 00:54:09,240 Testament constantly. You must be born again, becoming 1033 00:54:09,240 --> 00:54:12,600 new, being the now. Eckhart Tolle says you're not 1034 00:54:12,600 --> 00:54:14,240 your mind. That's what this is, being born 1035 00:54:14,240 --> 00:54:17,320 again. So I am an addict that roots you 1036 00:54:17,320 --> 00:54:21,120 in a story. Yes, And stories only live in 1037 00:54:21,120 --> 00:54:25,360 past or future in the presence. You were just this. 1038 00:54:25,440 --> 00:54:27,640 You're pure awareness. There's no story in pure 1039 00:54:27,640 --> 00:54:31,400 awareness. So what if recovery isn't about 1040 00:54:31,400 --> 00:54:34,880 building a better story? What if it's about waking up to 1041 00:54:34,880 --> 00:54:38,960 what you are beyond the story? And I'm going to hand it over to 1042 00:54:38,960 --> 00:54:41,360 you, Matthew 62829. I'm going to read the scripture, 1043 00:54:41,360 --> 00:54:43,200 what Jesus said because Jesus words are so profound. 1044 00:54:43,200 --> 00:54:45,280 I encourage you guys to go get a free Bible. 1045 00:54:45,280 --> 00:54:47,600 They're everywhere. You can grab them or you can go 1046 00:54:47,600 --> 00:54:51,040 to Goodwill and get one. Matthew 62829 says this. 1047 00:54:51,040 --> 00:54:54,800 Jesus said, consider the lilies. They do not toil or spin. 1048 00:54:54,920 --> 00:54:56,720 They don't worry about yesterday's weather or 1049 00:54:56,720 --> 00:54:59,160 tomorrow's drought. They just simply are. 1050 00:54:59,360 --> 00:55:01,360 And he said what happens, God takes care of them. 1051 00:55:02,400 --> 00:55:05,640 And that's that's another over and over again. 1052 00:55:05,640 --> 00:55:08,400 Jesus just taught presents, just being present. 1053 00:55:08,400 --> 00:55:10,560 That's what it's about. How do we wake up beyond our 1054 00:55:10,560 --> 00:55:12,960 story? And I'll let you close, Dwayne. 1055 00:55:13,680 --> 00:55:16,120 Thank you so much bro, these beautiful words and someone on 1056 00:55:16,120 --> 00:55:18,520 the mount is just that's my absolute favorite. 1057 00:55:19,360 --> 00:55:22,280 The Eckhart, one of the Eckhart Tolle lines that I've been 1058 00:55:22,280 --> 00:55:24,920 trying to hit a really hard recently too, is be what you 1059 00:55:24,920 --> 00:55:28,960 already are. Just be what you already are. 1060 00:55:28,960 --> 00:55:32,480 That being part of me, that God centered part of me. 1061 00:55:32,880 --> 00:55:37,320 God has already clothed me. God, God, I came down from 1062 00:55:37,320 --> 00:55:40,080 source energy. I already am connected to God. 1063 00:55:40,640 --> 00:55:45,520 So be what you already are. That being part of me can handle 1064 00:55:45,520 --> 00:55:48,480 any addiction. That being part of me can walk 1065 00:55:48,480 --> 00:55:51,320 through this world with some inner peace, with some joy, with 1066 00:55:51,320 --> 00:55:54,760 some freedom. It's not about becoming happy. 1067 00:55:55,000 --> 00:56:00,200 It's about realizing that happiness or that joy already 1068 00:56:00,200 --> 00:56:05,920 exists inside of me, and I have to clear away all the noise and 1069 00:56:05,920 --> 00:56:09,680 all the character defects and all the wreckage in order to let 1070 00:56:09,680 --> 00:56:13,520 that happiness come forward, that joy to come out that's 1071 00:56:13,520 --> 00:56:16,400 already inside of me. Be what you already are. 1072 00:56:16,880 --> 00:56:19,000 Be free. So good, so good. 1073 00:56:19,240 --> 00:56:20,640 Thank you, Dwayne. Thank you guys. 1074 00:56:20,640 --> 00:56:23,160 If you listen to this and you haven't subscribed on YouTube, 1075 00:56:23,160 --> 00:56:25,880 make sure you do that. 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