Dwayne, how's it going? It's been a while.
We've been on vacations, having fun.
You've been looking at purchasing properties.
I've been in Europe. This is abundance.
Yes, yes, traveling the world. I love it.
I want to kind of let people
know if they're listening to this because they're like, oh,
you guys are just bragging and all that shit.
You know, you don't realize what I'm going through, but everyone
that is listening to this is brilliant.
They're capable. If you have an addiction, you're
extraordinary. And if you've been running on
this broken operating system that we're going to talk about
today and that you think exhaustion is normal and that
anxiety, the state of anxiety is just how life is.
And that everything you do, you have to earn just the right to
simply be. And then when you try to work
really hard and do things, it always fucks life up.
Well, we're here to tell you that it's a lie.
It it, it's actually a complete, total soul crushing lie.
You're not a victim to this old programming.
And this is kind of something Dwayne, I want you to get into,
if you don't mind this lie that has been meticulously programmed
into us by well meaning parents, especially like middle class or
lower class parents. Not saying that they're lower
class, but as far as like, you know, society is like you got to
get the house, you got to have the two kids, you got to have,
you know, the car, the mortgage, which is funny in in French,
it's more gauge, which is a death penalty, a death sentence.
So I think that's funny, but work.
Work, work here, work till death.
It's this broken code that's been taught to you and society
profits from our insecurity and every system is designed to make
us feel like we're not enough. Yeah, absolutely bro.
And and you know, just like you said, Jason and I have been able
to to travel the world and, and share this with our loved ones
and, and be present in, in experiencing vacations and
experiencing new areas of, of, of growth.
But our lives didn't always look like that.
Like we, him and I both come from the gutter.
Like we come from the gutter bleeding.
Both been gutter sleeping, I sleeping in my car and I and I'm
pretty. I don't even know if Jason had a
car. What?
I was homeless. So, so, yeah, so we come from
the gutter and we picked ourselves up from nothing by the
bootstraps and we bust our ass and dove deep into a personal
recovery journey that has now birthed a new life.
And that's why we get to share this with you guys and want to
share this with you guys that this is capable.
You're this is, it's available for you as well.
You're capable of transforming your life.
You could be in the gutter right now.
That's probably why you're listening to us.
And there's potential for every single one of us to transform or
alchemize that into something beautiful.
Recovery journeys are great for turning absolute shit into gold.
And some of that, some of that scarcity mindset or, or poverty
mindset that that I grew up with, that was just shit that
was pounded into me unconsciously.
You know, if my parents had known better, they would have
done better. If society was more awake, they
would have behaved more awake. No one can behave beyond their
level of consciousness. And so I was raised to worry
about money. I was raised in a scarcity
mindset household. I was raised where, you know,
I'll give you this money, but it's a burden.
It's a, it's a hassle. I'm pissed about it or, or I'm
angry I have to go to work. I'm upset I have to go to work.
You know, that type of energy was around me a lot and it was
what I knew to bring to work when it was time for me to enter
the workplace. So it's difficult when my
education or my experience surrounding being an adult meant
this sucks, this is negative. I have to worry about this.
Oh my God, I'm more God, it's
going to it's literally going to kill me.
This pain is going to what if we can't make the pain?
You know what I mean? So there's a, there are many,
many other pathways to experiencing life, experiencing
A abundance journey or recovery journey.
And that's what we're going to talk to you guys about today.
Jason and I have that's, that's why he started, you know, with
this. Hey, we're, we just got back
from vacation and we're excited to be here because we used to
live a life where that wasn't possible at all.
Never. It would never be.
I want, I want to start off doing some surgery and I want to
go in deep and, and I know it's going to hurt a little because
the truth always does. But on the other side, I, I
believe this conversation that we're going to have today,
Dwayne, for those that are listening, is freedom.
And it's freedom for people that haven't felt freedom since they
were a child. And, and if you don't mind,
Dwayne, I, I, I want to do this little practice.
I think it'll be kind of fun to start it off.
And I want everybody to do this. If, if you don't mind and that's
put your hand on your chest, can you feel that?
There's like a rhythm under our palm, isn't there?
That's our heartbeat, right? And there's something profound
about the heartbeat. This is something I had to
learn. I didn't earn it.
It's just there. You didn't have to submit an
application for your heart to beat.
You didn't have to prove that, you know, we were productive
enough. I didn't have to be like loving
enough or kind enough or successful enough.
The lungs that are expanding my chest right now.
In fact, this morning I got up early.
You get up early too 'cause I know you do cardio every
morning. And I was here in Santa Fe and
the, you know, this morning sun is so pink and so beautiful and
it rose this morning and it didn't look at me and be like,
I'm not going to shine on you because you were an asshole last
night to your partner or whatever, you know, whatever it
may be. It just does what it does.
And it's the very fact that we exist means that we are worthy,
period, end of discussion, full stop.
We are created beings by God and whether we believe that we think
we're valuable by producing or I'm lovable when I'm perfect.
I'm only safe when I'm in control.
I have to control everything or I can't rest.
I can never like, relax and rest and enjoy a movie because I
haven't earned it yet. That's not God's voice.
That's not anything that has to do with God because abundance is
freely given. It's the everywhere.
It's for us now. And it's that voice, I believe,
of our wounds. It's the voice of our
programming. It's everything that we carried
from our ancestors into this, you know, into this generation.
It's all the sins and the curses and every person that we've ever
dealt with in our life that's made an influence on us has
probably put scarce, to be honest and didn't even realize
it. And the world that we live in,
it's a system designed to extract energy.
It wants to take from you and then give you crumbs.
And I want to hand it over to you because, and I know you know
about this, but Jesus said this in Matthew 626.
And this is such dude, this is this has been really hammering
me the New Testament in Jesus teachings.
But Matthew 626 says this Jesus said, look at the birds of the
year. They do not sow or reap or store
away in barns and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.
And then Jesus said this. Are you not much more valuable
than they? The birds didn't hustle.
They didn't have aposter syndrome.
They didn't wake up at 3:00 AM checking your bank account,
wondering if they're enough and if there's enough in there.
They just exist and they're provided for.
Yes. What did this worth that isn't
conditional. Where did this come from do you
think? Phenomenal, bro, Phenomenal.
I love that we're getting into the Old to the New Testament,
too. Obviously, we're here in the
United States. We're in the West.
The West is founded on judeo-christian beliefs.
One of those Judeo-christian beliefs, I, I would suspect that
it sprung out of the 10 commandments, but it's way older
than that is that there's intrinsically something sacred
inside each and every one of us, a spirit, a soul, a God
consciousness. Even the worst of the worst of
us, even the child rapist, we can't line up outside and just
execute them. Even even the worst individuals
still have a right to trial, still have a that same intrinsic
worth inside each and every one of us.
So that's a, that's a very radical idea that might be a one
of the greatest ideas in history that, you know, there's
something sacred inside of each and every one of us.
You wouldn't hang out with somebody who didn't believe that
you wouldn't hang out with somebody that mistreated you
like you were worthless. You, you wouldn't allow people
to be around you if they didn't honor this intrinsic belief that
there's something very sacred inside of each and every one of
us, which obviously we believe. I believe is my connection to
God, is my connection to to higher power, The inner
consciousness that dwells with inside of me.
You know that that part of me is not subject to birth or death.
That part of me is eternal. So eternal means timelessness,
no time, that means it's forever.
So I'm connected to something very big.
And if that eternal consciousness is not subject to
birth or death, what am I really worried about?
It's like it could, it could get pretty bad.
Like it could get really bad. You could even die in this meat
suit in this 3D dimension. But the consciousness will live
on, that's going to go, that's going to go to the next
experience, that's going to go to the next round.
That's who we are inside. And obviously it's very
difficult if I get stuck in the thinking mind to just be in the
3D dimensional existence and worry and, and, and, and have
scarcity and Oh my God, what if, what if something and death
anxiety, What if something happens to me?
What if something happens to us? What if happens to my money, my
bank account? Worry, worry, worry.
Eckhart Tolle, one of our favorite teachers when it comes
to this type of stuff, he says worry pretends to be necessary.
It pretends to be necessary because it hijacks my thinking.
I can't be in the present moment.
I'm ping ponging around in my mind.
Worry, worry, worry, worry. And then when I'm worrying, I
cannot simultaneously be of use to somebody else.
Not in the present moment. Yes, maybe, maybe that worry
could benefit someone in the future, but I don't have access
to that timeline. God can plan something like
that. I can't plan something like
that. However I am, I'm interested in
living a life of abundance Now on this recovery journey, I am
interested in not being in fight or flight and terrified all the
time. So that also means I'm dedicated
to the present moment. That also means I'm willing to
put my energy where it can be useful.
You know, some of the great, great teachings that we'll get
into very similar to this, to the Sermon on the Mount.
When have I ever not been able to pay for myself or my family?
Like have I ever not been able to pay for myself or my family?
That might be a reality for some of us.
For me, it was in the past, but once I committed to recovery
journey and got my act together and was I was employable at that
point before, you know, I couldn't really hold down a job.
I wasn't really employable, but once I plugged into a recovery
journey and and became somewhat accountable for my behavior, my
actions, my words, I have never not been able to pay my bills
since. I have never not been able to
pay my bills. And that was one of my early
prayers in recovery, one of my early mantras.
I have never not been able to pay my bills or take care of
myself or my family. I have never not been able to
take care of myself or my family.
So we start stuck plugging into the present moment and asking
God to shine His light on the fear surrounding the scarcity.
You know, it's important to distinguish as well, there's
such a thing as financial insecurity and there's also
another thing as fear of financial insecurity.
Those are not necessarily the same thing.
Yes. That doesn't mean that's the
same thing. So I have a lot of fear of
financial insecurity even though all my bills are getting paid.
So that would be the opposite of the birds in the air and the
lilies in the field. They're taken care of.
Why do I think, why do I think I'm not going to be taken care
of? And then it's helpful too.
You could crack the ego open. The ego is the part of me that
worries. The ego is the part of me that's
fearful that judges that is in scarcity.
You can crack the ego open by with comedy and one, one form of
comedic leaf relief is, well, I don't think God saved you from
drowning just to kill you on the beach.
He already saved me from the hard part, bro, my addiction was
kicking my ass. I was dying.
We were in the hospital. We were like as close to death
as I ever want to get from my addiction.
And so that propelled me forward.
That propelled me in a different direction.
That propelled me towards seeking solution.
And what I found in that seeking was God was it was it was a
power greater than myself. Why would that same power want
to then kill me on the beach after saving me?
It's like, no, he lifted me up out of nothing.
And his and and I believe wants me to continue down that path,
wants me to continue to evolve and grow.
If we continue to evolve and grow, we can be of more service
to more people. Extending the grace that was.
Given. Yes, exactly.
Exactly. I I kind of want to get into the
scarcity operating system and explain it to people how it's
affecting their addiction, as you were saying there.
But I got the, I got the new iPhone here and this is
interesting. Yeah, this is interesting.
I they, they said, would you like to be a part of the beta
program? And I was like, yeah, beta
sounds cool. I get the latest, newest stuff
and it's so I downloaded it into my phone, right.
Well, my battery started draining really fast, like crazy
fast. We'll come to find out there was
a bug in the iOS operating system.
So it didn't matter how many apps I downloaded it, it would
just drain my battery if I deleted stuff.
And and it's I was like, something's wrong with my phone.
There was nothing wrong with my phone.
It was the operating system. And it's the same with us.
We've been running on scarcity OS since our childhood, since
our programming and it corrupts everything and that's what's
created the addiction. And, and I want to explain the
scarcity code real quick and, and, and, and then I'll hand it
over to you. But like hoarding things we
don't need just in case. Addicts are really good at that.
Driving across town, this is 1 to save $2.00 on gas.
And I didn't even realize, Dwayne, that I was wasting $10
worth of my time because I'm not good enough, I'm not valuable
enough. So, so that $2.00 thing had to
become an issue because I'm not worthy or I'm not good enough.
I, I have to save this $2.00. I never even thought about my
time as being of something and then feeling guilty when I would
buy something. So when I would buy something,
my attic part would come out and it would be like gambling, like
the addiction of buying, buying, buying, getting packages,
Amazon, everything else. And then no matter how much I
have, there's this feeling of never enough.
And one of the emotional scarcities that I had was, you
know, trying to feel love or, or feel emotions because I couldn't
because I always. So like you said, the worry was
there and there's a limited resource, you know, like she's
going to fuck me over or, you know, I'm going to get into a
business partnership and they're going to fuck me over, you know.
And then there was this time scarcity too, was I could never
rest. I had to keep my nervous system
at the fight or flight because I would always have guilt, you
know, And it wasn't that I didn't have time.
It's that I didn't believe I deserved time, you know, Do you
see what I'm saying? And and then there's this.
The addicts always have. This is self worth scarcity is
that we need external validation to feel OK.
I need you to tell me that I'm doing OK.
I need you to tell me I need this person to love me this
certain way so I feel OK. It's really important for an
addict to feel OK. Well, where's that coming from?
It's self worth scarcity and then this perfectionism.
I, I was trying to, to be the best employee, trying to be the
number one thing, you know, after I got through my addiction
and being homelessness, I would just transferred it to this
because I had a fear of being found out that I would be a
fraud, that if they knew the real me, they would think, Oh my
God, this guy's all fucked up. And then I always had this voice
of like, who do you think you really are, Jason?
And scarcity isn't about what you have.
And you said this scarcity isn't about what you have.
It's about how you think. And, and, and let me stop right
there. I'm I'm going to hand it over to
you and then we'll get into, I have some research from
Princeton and Harvard about this.
That is not woo woo. So, but what do you think about
that? Scarcity isn't about what you
have. It's about how you think.
That's phenomenal. Yeah, that's phenomenal.
One one of our other comedic jokes is you know my brain is a
is a two-part factory. One part manufacturers the
bullshit and the other half buys it.
Yes. Yes.
And so I'm always talking to myself in my head.
We called the itty bitty shitty committee and that, that that's
a big committee. It's hard to quiet that
committee down. You know, it's judgmental, it's
worrisome, especially, especially surrounding finances.
There are great, great tools that we have available to us on
a spiritual journey, especially when it comes to money.
You know, big problems in life happen in relationships, big
problems in life happen in finances and big problems in
life happen in families. And you know, we get to look at
all of those areas once we we start to recover and we get, get
to bring our best version of us forward in those areas.
It's they're extremely helpful, like you said, brother, to
initially just start spotting the thoughts.
We talk about this all the time. You know, I have to be able to
see the crazy thinking. I have to have some part of me
that's capable of observing these scarcity mindset thoughts.
Again, Eckhart Tolle calls that the observer.
Which part of me knows? That's a scary thought.
That's a judgmental thought. Oh, there's a scarcity mindset
thought. That has to be my soul.
That has to be my spirit. That has to be my consciousness.
Human beings have different parts, and often those parts
don't always communicate well with one another.
So I have my ego and I have my spirit, and my ego is the part
of me that's terrified or or ready to fight or keeping score
or judging. And that's also the part of me
that says I can't buy the spinach.
It's fucking $3.85 now. It used to be two.
A Don't talk about ground beef,
Jay. That's up to shoot.
That's almost $20. It used to be thirteen, you know
what I mean? So that's my ego.
That's my ego saying what the hell?
My body's not worth 20. Dollars, yes, yes, exactly this
temple. I couldn't possibly spend $20 on
the 1 meat suit that I get for this lifetime.
So I have my ego and it just, it's just, it is a strategy to
get through life with my ego forefront, but it's a losing
strategy. That strategy puts me in fear.
That strategy puts me in superiority.
That strategy puts me in lack mindset, scarcity mindset,
especially around finances. I Oh my God, avocados 78 cents.
I can't buy that. That's they used to be $0.50.
I'm complaining about less than $0.25.
Bro, I don't even carry quarters.
Like I'm not going to carry 1/4. What the fuck does it matter?
But my mind will still go there. So then there's the spirit part
of me. There's the spirit part of me
that says, yeah, but you're connected to source.
Yeah. But you're a genuine creator.
You can create more money. What's your answer?
What's our answer to inflation, man?
Everything went up in price. Yeah.
Our answer to inflation is make more money.
You, you can find ways to be successful.
We can channel that part of us that is all or nothing in the
right direction. And then of course, invite God
in for some balance that makes us very useful in business.
You know, businesses will bend over backwards for someone
willing to work hard, show up early, do their best, motivate
others, and be honest. Are you kidding me?
Like you, You know how 60% of managers, Jay, cost their
business money? 60% are are are are hurt, are
detrimental to the business. And those are just the managers.
And that is higher for normal employees, so don't.
Bro, the CEO of Ford was on CNBC, the stock stuff.
I watched CEO of Ford, Ford Motor Company.
He said this the other day and I'm going to hand it back to you
after this. He said.
He said I have hundreds of job positions open up that are over
$120,000 a year. Like mechanics are working on
the line. He goes as far as mechanics goes
that we need at Ford, we need mechanics, he said.
You know how many people's applied here the last month?
0. Jesus.
Think about that bro, $120,000 and he can't get anybody to
apply. He's like we're we're hurting.
These factories are needing more and more people that like you
said, they need somebody honest. That'll show up.
And, and the beautiful part about addicts is when we get our
shit together, we're perfect employees.
We're the best employees. We, we, we, we lap people.
We we kind of spin circles around than everyone else
because we're all or nothing. It's like, OK, I'm going to put
my best into this. So anyways, that's that would be
my spirit that I can channel my spirit in the appropriate way
surrounding finances. Obviously, first I have to catch
the thought. The thought comes from the egoic
mind. Worry about this.
If I caught it, then I don't have to go down the rabbit hole
with it. I don't have to identify with
the thought. The Matt Con version is I want
my ego to come to my spirit and say, OK, the way I'm doing it
isn't working. I will serve you, let's do it
your way. And then my spirit says
something like thank you. I will bless you back and as a
result of living a life like this, let's put our heart.
You know what? Love is not an emotion, bro.
Love is an orientation. Love is how I point at
something. So now let's start pointing.
Let's start orienting with our spirit.
Let's start pointing at something with love.
Can I point at money with love? Holy shit.
What type of a what type of a revelation is that?
I had a great spiritual teacher. He told me, Dwayne, money is
just one form of God's love for us.
And I kind of, I cocked my head sideways.
What do you mean? I said.
He said, it's just one way to get shit done.
Like that's God allowing you to get something done.
And then I had, I've been so, so blessed, bro.
You and me both to have good teachers in this realm.
Again, you take that entrepreneurial spirit and you
pray to be hungry and God will direct you and put you in the
right place and with the right people so that you have the
right teachers and then you can educate yourself too.
There is great financial literature on how to become
financially literate in regards to how money works.
A simple tool for us, of course, is send it where the need is,
wherever the need is. That's where I need to send my
money. I need fucking gas.
It's winter here and we're going to be in the 30s next week.
I need to pay my mortgage. I need to have a vehicle to get
to work on time. I, my kids need to have food.
So send it where the need is. I don't necessarily need a brand
new watch. I don't necessarily need to be,
you know, have all new Nike everything.
So start sending it where the need is.
If I make that decision enough times.
Oh my gosh, I have my bank account is starting.
I'm starting to have a little savings here.
What's going on? That's super simple, you know,
send it where the need is. So there are a bunch of little
tools here. First you got to spot it.
Then first you got to orientate towards the right.
You have to have the right orientation towards money.
Love is a very powerful orientation.
Another great tool is human beings it well, in quantum in in
quantum mechanics, you have a particle and you have a wave.
So a particle is matter and a wave is energy, and that energy
is carrying information. What information is being
carried? When I'm thinking about money,
bro, they don't even let me see it anymore.
It's just numbers on my cell phone.
I never hold hold the cash. I never hold the money.
Like I never see it anymore. It's out there in in in the
world doing stuff, generating more income.
But the point is, I never even get to hold it.
It's all energy. Now.
Money is energy. And you know what energy is
supposed to do? Energy is supposed to flow.
It's supposed to flow in and it's supposed to flow out.
It's supposed to flow. So I don't get very far when I
choke the flow of energy with fear.
I don't make a lot of money When I choke the flow of abundance
into my life. Oh my God, I'm not.
I'm so worried. This person better to hire me.
This person better pay me more. I I I have to get an appropriate
orientation so that I can have the appropriate flow of energy.
Did you know I'm connected to infinite abundance?
Did you know I have an infinite access to blue sky?
Excellent tool too. If you're fucked up with money
right now, don't start with money then start with something
else. What do you have a lot of in
your life? I have infinite access to blue
sky. Did you not have infinite access
to green grass? Did you not have infinite access
to an abundance of gym equipment?
I have an abundance of love for my family.
Did you know I have an abundance of love for my dog?
I have an abundance of access to a nice vehicle I can drive to
work. So start small so that you're
getting the appropriate orientation and energetic flow.
And then then start having that same perspective towards money
and things will change. It's not going to happen
overnight, but you have to, you have to kind of go down the
rabbit hole with it in the appropriate way, appropriate
orientation, appropriate energy. The universe can't help but
respond if you're bleeding into the universe.
I'm I'm wildly successful and I'm connected to infinite
abundance. I'm wildly successful and I'm
connected. But it can't be bullshit.
I can't be lying to the universe because Joe Dispenza says then
it just stops at your brain stem.
It doesn't go any further than your brain stem and it doesn't
enter the vortex. It can't, it can't get past, you
know, human beings are like a magnet.
We're emitting energy all the time.
It doesn't come out of my body. It just stops at the brain stem.
So it can't be a lie. I actually do have to be feeling
abundant. I have to be feeling worthy or
successful. And so if you're not successful
with money, maybe you're successful with cleaning your
bathroom or you're successful with driving safely in traffic,
you know, start where you can start.
But the feeling does need to be real.
And then you can that will translate into other areas.
Yeah, and it's so interesting this Princeton and Harvard, say,
I was telling you about both of them with addiction.
They found that the scarcity was the main part with addiction,
along with Trump. So, you know, because we want to
numb the trauma. So we do the drugs, we do the
alcohol, we do the sex addiction, whatever it is, the
gambling, whatever it is to numb.
But it stems from the scarcity because the scarcity impairs our
cognitive function. And when our brain is
preoccupied with not enough, that consumes all the mental
bandwidth. So we don't have any brain power
for planning creativity or good decision making.
All we're doing is running high performance software on this,
you know, computer and it we're trying to use all this
processing power just to kind of find the next hit, find the next
bottle, find the next woman you know, or man or whatever it may
be. And what they call it is
cognitive tunnelling. This is really interesting.
It's where we can only see the immediate problem and everything
else, our family, our friends, you know, our work.
We don't see long term goals. We don't see our values.
That's why we can lie constantly as an addict.
We don't see any bigger vision. All of that disappears into the
periphery. If if with the cognitive tunnel
and it it's not. And I want people to understand,
if you're an addict, it's not that you're stuck.
It's not because you're lazy or broken.
That's the big one. Everybody thinks they're broken.
It's because scarcity is hijacking your prefrontal
cortex. And in the scarcity mindset,
we've talked about this 100 times when you hit that fight or
flight. And we're at that level, that
super high level that we get addicted to, you know, because
it feels good to run from the sabretooth tiger.
And, but instead, what we're running from is this addiction
in this imaginary threats that we've created all around us.
And, and, and I want to hand it over to you, but Proverbs 23,
seven in the Bible says this. I've been reading Proverbs a
lot. It's, it's the wisdom book in
the Bible. You know, even if you don't
believe the Bible or believe God or anything, Proverbs is a great
book because it's just, you know, Solomon, King Solomon at
that time was the wisest guy in the world.
They said, but he wrote this, he said for as he thinks in his
heart, so is he. So our external reality, it's a
direct reflection of our internal operating system.
And this is cool. That means that we can fix it
because like you said, we're the observer, you know of it.
So if we're running the scarcity OS and we're creating scarcity
even when there's tons of abundance all around us, we can
upgrade our operating system. We're not the scarcity, we're
not the drugs, we're not the alcohol.
We're just operating with this old trauma based family taught,
you know, ancestral operating system that caused us in our
high because a lot of people are high functioning addicts, like
in the sense of like you can talk to addicts and they're
super smart, like a lot of us are.
Are we have, you know, like you're super smart.
I'm super smart. We've alchemized it, you know,
and we're we're, you know, creating abundance and doing
great. And most people are in that way
in their addiction and, and, and you know, I want to talk about
the abundance upgrade and upgrading it, but not right now.
I, I want to kind of stay here and talk about, you know, this
observer that you just mentioned, Eckhart Tolle said,
you know, you're not, that you're the observer.
Of that. You're not the thought, you
know. You're not the.
Attention, man. That's man.
All right. We're good.
We're getting deep now. I love we're jumped in the deep
end scarcity mindset is your neo is is is scarcity is hijacking
your neocortex. That's what you said, man,
that's phenomenal. That's exactly right.
The language that I was taught, but it's the exact same thing is
I have an obsession for the alcohol.
I have an obsession for this addiction, whatever it is that
I'm seeking. Basically, an obsession is a
thought that will block out all of the thoughts.
So I can't. My mom's safety doesn't enter my
mind when I have an obsession for alcohol.
My brother's serenity and graduation party doesn't enter
my mind when I have an obsession for alcohol.
All of those things are important to me, but they they
don't matter if they're being blocked out.
And my neocortex is hijacked by the scarcity mindset.
I have to get what I want when I want it, and I when I want it is
now. And so we have to get on the
other side of that. And first and foremost, that
starts with the observer. That starts with, OK, There has
to be more to life than this. There has to be OK, There's got
to be. This is this is not a way to
live. This is a way to die.
I, I scared everyone around me away and I did the majority of
the last years of my drinking alone.
And I can tell you guys, I can tell you guys from experience,
it's heartbreaking to wake up in the morning and ask the people
that are around you what happened?
Did I hurt anybody last night? And it's even more heartbreaking
when the answer is yes, yes, you did.
And I don't want to be around you anymore.
And basically, that was happening to me a lot.
I was getting out of control with my drinking.
I was getting out of control with my addiction.
And so we have to reach a point of willingness to be able to tap
into that observer. Something has to break.
Something has to kind of, you know, people call it hitting
rock bottom when you hit rock bottom.
Well, you hit rock bottom when you put your shovel down and you
stop digging. But unfortunately for us, we
have to go pretty far down in order to be willing to change.
Pain is a good motivator in the in that realm.
Only the drowning will grab grab the life preserve.
You know, if my life and my happiness didn't depend on it,
then maybe I wouldn't have fucking done it.
So I reached the point where my life and my happiness depended
on behaving differently. And what that's what what needed
to happen initially was I needed to start to see, OK, now, now
you're obsessing about alcohol. OK, there's the obsession.
Oh, there's the crazy thought. There's there it is.
There's the fearful thought. Bro, I used to buy brand new
sober. I'm talking like first couple
weeks, even bleeding into maybe a month or two, I would have
panic attacks walking through the grocery store because I knew
where the alcohol was. And I knew if I lifted my head
and turned to the right, I was going to see it and my heart
would be beating through my chest.
And so we're also given very useful tools in recovery to help
manage those obsessions and to help manage the anxiety that
arises from the scarcity mindset.
We talk about it a lot. And one of the greatest tools
I've ever had and still used to this day, not in regards to
drinking, but just for other obsessive thoughts, is God
relieve me of this obsession. God relieve me of this
obsession. So again, I choose to use the
word God. It's very useful for me.
But it's consciousness, it's it's it's shoes of inner being,
it's eternal spirit of the of the universe.
It's something bigger than me. So that has the power I'm
tapping into when I'm trying to catch the thought.
I'm trying to get in touch with the observer.
I'm trying to get in touch with the with the consciousness.
God will leave me of that obsession.
This I the same prayer is OK observer help me.
No, that's not me. That's the same prayer.
I'm saying the same thing. Just what worked for me is God
relieve me in that obsession. God relieve me.
And so I would, I would hit it like a mantra, bro.
I'd say it 300 times just in the grocery store.
And I would get to the cash register and I, I would be
checking out and I would pay for everything that I had because,
you know, I was a thief in my addiction too.
And I and then I would make it to my car and I was like, holy
shit, OK, I didn't, I didn't buy any alcohol.
And you know, it took me 6 months.
It took me 6 months of serious diligent work in the mind,
getting in touch with the observer, with prayer and
meditation, with mantras in order to rewire my neocortex.
So my neocortex was no longer going fight or flight hijack him
and be an obsession. I started to go down a new
pathway and the new pathway I started to go down with was God.
The new pathway I started to go down with was, hey, you can get
to the cash register. You can get to your car without
buying alcohol. And I had to do that over and
over and over again to rewire Dwayne into something new.
Like you said, we can change it. Cognitive science is very clear
that we perceive the world through a story.
If that is the case, which it is, what's the fucking story?
Is the story I'm telling negative, negative, scarcity,
scarcity or is the story I'm telling man, I got a new lease
on life. I get an another chance to be
the best version of me. I get to be of service today.
The more I focus on positivity, the more positive my life gets.
The more I focus on negativity, the more negative my life gets.
And that's what we're talking about in regards to upgrading
your operating system. My operating system used to be
Jack shit. It used to be worry and fear and
constantly hijacked. And now once we get in touch
with the observer, once we get in touch with us, the part of us
that is connected to source, that's the upgrade.
The upgrade is no. Now you can, you can, you can
Orient with God. You can come from this, from a
loving place. Oh my gosh.
You can walk through a death without drinking.
You can get a new job without drinking.
You can leave a job without drinking.
Yeah. We start to, we start to rewire
and we upgrade. And, and God is abundant, you
know, so it becomes this, you know, and, and I want people to
understand this abundance is not what it's abundance is, is God.
And, and that is a fundamental belief that opportunities are
limitless, trusting that we're provided for, like Jesus said,
operating from sufficiency instead of lack because that,
that, that rewiring like you were doing was because there's
an unlimited alcohol, there's more alcohol than you can,
you'll kill yourself with them out.
I mean, just on one shelf at A at, at, you know, a Smith's or a
Safeway's or wherever bonds wherever you're at, just one of
those shelves has Albertsons has more alcohol than you could ever
drink in your whole life. You know, so, so this whole idea
of this false sense of scarcity, like I need this.
I got to have this, you know, I need to steal something, you
know, because I, you know, I can't afford this because I have
no money. You know, we have to have this
belief that there's enough for everyone, including you.
And I'm not, I'm not talking about alcohol or, or drugs.
Those are, those are, you know, symptoms to something.
But it, it, it's kind of this whole idea of I have to, you
know, I used to always think I have to fight for my piece of
the pie. Then with God, I realized I
could bake more pies. I'm a fucking Baker.
I could bake as many pies as you look at.
I remember what when bro you, when were you?
You had like a bacon phase, remember?
That, that was like a year ago or whatever.
A year and a half ago you were like a fucking bacon almost
every night. Banana.
Banana bread. You remember that?
Those pistachio croissants you were.
Doing all kinds of stuff. Yeah.
You were just going on and on and on, you know, And one of the
things I noticed too with abundance is I would see other
people that are successful and that would threaten me instead
of allowing it to inspire me. And the biggest one I think with
addicts is I need to hoard, like you said, where there's energy
going and flowing, I can give freely.
And this is something that I believe, you know, whenever I
understand that the worry that I've had has never paid a bill,
worry has never paid my rent and my anxiety never solved the
problem. It just made the problem worse.
And and Jesus said in another scripture in Matthew 627, he
said this bro, this is so good. Every attic you need to memorize
this first. Matthew 627, can't he?
Jesus said, can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to
your life? So the answer's no worry doesn't
add, it's abstracts, it steals your mental bandwidth, it steals
your peace, it steals your ability to see solutions in your
addiction. And and This is why I love about
abundance. Having this abundance mindset is
it doesn't deny problems. It just approaches them from a
position of the observer, which is that position of God,
creative power. Instead of the Satanic, I'm
going to use the word satanic, paralyzing fear, because Satan
is the deceiver, right? The Bible says that Satan's a
deceiver. He wants to have you in
paralyzing fear. He doesn't want you to realize
in your infinite, in your, when you get past that addiction and
you understand who you truly are as an entrepreneur, you know,
and one of the things that, and, and I don't want to go too deep
in this, but I've you've heard of Neville Goddard, right?
He, he was a a a a he's back in the 1800s, early 1900s, he said
this and, and at first I was like, I don't, I don't think I
could believe this, you know, and it, and it taught, he taught
about the law of assumption. And he says your imagination is
God. And what he meant by this was
the creative power within you, your ability to imagine, your
ability to, to assume, your ability to, to believe, that's
all divine. And that's the mechanism that
you tapped into for six months, which created your new Dwayne 2
point O your new reality. So every circumstance in your
life is a direct reflection, as you said, of this inner
assumption that we keep holding. So if we assume scarcity, guess
what? We're going to experience
scarcity all around us. There's not enough.
I got to get this, I got to steal this.
I got to take this from my mom and my dad.
And you know, when it's so funny is and I'm using it as kind of a
joke. We're using humor when there's
so many bottles in every store. There's more alcohol probably
than water at some stamours. I mean, remember COVID and all
that bullshit how the liquor stores were?
Open and people. Drinking way more so, you know,
if you assume abundance, you'll experience abundance even when
circumstances look limited. And this isn't wishful thinking.
This is what you said, Dwayne, with the quantum because we, we
don't create what we want. We create what we want.
And what we are is determined by what we assume about ourselves.
And here we're going back to the God imagination.
And it's what we, as you said, think about.
So if I assume I'm not good with money, what's going to happen?
I'm going to unconsciously sabotage every financial
opportunity that ever comes to me because the assumption has to
be correct. If I assume that women will
always leave me and they're going to cheat on me and they
don't love me and they really don't like me, what happens?
I will unconsciously push every single one of those away because
the ego always has to validate because that's what creates
safety and scarcity. It has to validate that false
belief. So your subconscious mind gets
obsessed because 95% is subconscious.
Our actions, we, we, we were born on this one.
They said most of your oh, what is it when, when your synapsis
and everything is in your brain and you're learning the most.
It's when we're young, we just absorb everything.
We're like a sponge. And then it's, it's like the old
tape recorders. You're, you're young.
I don't know if you remember those or not, but you could
record on a tape, you know, when it was like a tape recorder,
That's what happened for 10 years, 13 years, 15 years of
your life, you created all that. And then now your subconscious
mind is just obsessed with playing that tape over and over
and over again. And then the ego obsesses, use
the word obsessed multiple times with addiction.
The ego obsesses with being right.
So and, and, and and I'll hand it over to you.
But Neville Goddard said this, He said, don't wish for what you
want. Assume the feeling of already
having it. Don't say I'll hope I'll be
successful someday. And we do this all the time.
Say I am successful. I'm living from that end right
now. And Romans 417 in the Bible, you
know, the apostle Paul, he wrote this, he says call those things
which do not exist as though they did.
Isn't that an amazing abundant scripture in the Bible?
It's the law of assumption. It's in biblical language.
This is true. You're not waiting for
permission to be abundant. You're not waiting for you know
something to to come and externally get you out of your
addiction if you assume the state of abundance.
Let reality conform to that assumption, and that's.
What you did for and it's just evolved from there.
That's what you did to transform your life as well.
We get to write a new story here in on being on a recovery
journey and it's so exciting because I get to birth it into
existence. It gets to come from me.
You know what a great negotiating tool or a great
imagination tool. I love that you talked about the
imagination and that being divine.
There's no difference between imagine what you would like to
have for yourself in the future, and without a vision, the people
perish. People without a vision perish.
So what's your vision? What do you want to be?
What do you want to turn into? And then the negotiation I have
with myself turns into something like, well, you can have what
you want, but you just need to know what it is.
And so I start getting clear on what it is I want in my
imagination, in my visions. Writing it down is super
helpful. I want to make this much a year.
I want to have this type of relationship.
I want to be this successful. I want to be able to travel like
this. Get very specific.
It's almost like a script. Write it out, put that script
down, and then birthing it into existence starts with getting in
the vibration of those things, of that abundance of that type
of behavior. It's a pretty selfish question
to ask myself what type what, what person is right for me,
Jay, what, what person, what type of girlfriend is going to
be good for me? You know, I want a good
girlfriend. I I'm looking for the right one.
I hope I can find the right girl.
That's a very selfish question. Looking for the one that and
addicts, you know, are extremely selfish.
A better question is what type of man do I need to be in order
to attract a good partner? It's an extremely selfish
question to say, well, what is my employer going to pay me?
Are they going to value my hard work?
Are they going to give me enough vacation time?
Are they going to be tyrannical and and make me work overtime?
Am I going to be their slave? Those are all selfish questions.
Why is this that, you know, let's flip the script on it.
Alcoholics addicts are extremely selfish.
A better question is what type of employee do I need to be in
order to impress my boss? What type of employee do I need
to be in order to get a raise? What type of employee do I need
to be to be to to to provide for my family to not have to be
financially insecure? Those are better questions.
So as we start to imagine, as we start to envision what we want
for ourselves this best future forward, call it into existence,
like Paul says, we get pretty clear on how I need to before
perform in my life in order to manifest those things.
It's, you know, faith without works is dead.
I have faith that this is going to happen, but I've got to take
some fucking action, too. I still had to go to the grocery
store. I still had to go to work.
I still had to maintain my life. Yes, I still had to.
Be. To recovery community and so we
take action the the action is up to us, but the results up to
God. And, you know, I had, I had this
vision of what I wanted to be, you know, when I was new sober.
And honestly, I sold myself short.
It's even better than what I had imagined for myself 15 years
ago. It's I have a family now.
OK, so it's so. Yes, yes.
I'm the perceiver of reality and if I focus on positivity, I get
more positivity. If I focus on negativity, I get
more negativity. I want to be really clear on
what I'm focusing on one story, 1 strategy that is available to
me. I have 3 kids, I have a partner,
I have a beautiful house. We live this beautiful life here
in Albuquerque. But I have 3 kids, bro.
They're messy, they're fucking selfish, they're little, they,
they break shit. They, they damage the house all
the time. The youngest is 4.
And I had been, you know, getting irritated with, with all
of them recently because of those reasons.
And the story I was telling myself in my head was nobody
takes care of this house. Nobody, nobody appreciates my
hard work. Do you know how underappreciated
I did? You know, I'm the only one that
is going to pay to fix this stuff.
They're breaking all this fucking shit now.
And I'm going to be the one that has everyone's ungrateful.
Nobody appreciates me. They don't understand how hard I
work. The four year old clogged the
toilet. Then that same evening I've been
like ruminating these this bad story in my head and I, I took
him over the toilet and I was like, what did you do?
Look at what you did. But you know, shit's overflowing
on the toilet. He's and he's like, Oh my God,
he's like, I put why? I said, how many wipies is 6
wipes? I said, you can't put 6 wipes
down a toilet. So what are you thinking?
And you know, I got big, I got loud.
My energy was, was, was crazy. And I was telling a pretty
selfish, pretty bad story in my mind.
Look how ungrateful everybody is.
He just did what a four year old does, you know what I mean?
He made a mistake and I was getting very big, very angry,
and he started to cry and it was very apparent to me in that
moment. I got like a little window of
grace, brother. Like God just gave me this
little window. In that exact moment.
It was very apparent to me. He wasn't crying because the
toilet was clogged. He was crying because he let me
down. You know that in the Bible that
says you must both fear and love God.
I said, well, how do you fear and love God at the same time?
Doesn't sound right. So well, maybe, maybe you love
God so much you fear letting him down.
And that and that was the energy that I was receiving from him.
He loved me so much. He was afraid of letting me
down. And it just broke my heart.
But it broke my heart that I could be this monster with his
four year old like that. And it, it was this beautiful
window of grace because in that moment, the shit is coming over
the walls, you know, and I was, I was, I was like, I was like,
it's OK, buddy. It's OK.
It's just, it's just a toilet. I was like, it's OK, buddy.
I was like, look, I'll show you how to plunge it.
We can fix this. We'll fix this.
He was, I'm sorry. I was like, I'm sorry too.
You know, I'm like, even while, even while shit is overflowing
in this toilet, I have the power to rewrite my story.
Isn't it a better story to tell myself?
Aren't I lucky? I have a child who cares what I
think? Aren't I blessed that I have
people in my life that are around me?
Bro, I have this family. Yeah, they're messy.
Yeah, they break shit. But I'm not alone like I have.
I have responsibilities in my life that gets me up and gets me
moving. I know why I'm at work every
single day. I know I am busting my ass
trying to be the best version of myself, trying to help other
people. These people, this family that
I've been complaining about in my head, they give me more
meaning than I deserve. They give me more responsibility
than I deserve. And and I wouldn't, yes, I
wouldn't have it anywhere. I think that's where Christ
comes in. Yes, absolutely.
The cross yes like we are to be that.
So it's like well Jesus tried to save them and then they killed
him. Well, they, you know, your 4
year old didn't try to kill you, just use too many wipes when
he's shit, you know, but it's kind of like I always go back to
the cross, you know, because it it resets me every single
fucking time is like, look what they did to him.
That why would I think I'm anything special?
You know, I mean he he brought miracles.
I mean the list goes on and on. I want to end in this, bro,
because I think this is really good and we're coming up on the
hour. I want to end be real practical
for everyone. That's that's been patient and
listen to us all the way to the end here.
The biblical principle of stewardship in Luke 1610,
because this is going to help addicts because a lot of people
are saying, well, I don't even have a job, but you know, I'm
homeless or whatever. I got my phone that I got from
the. Government that you.
Can podcast because we're getting a ton and I want to
thank every single yeah, we, we've quadrupled our, our views
and stuff on YouTube and I want to thank everybody for, you
know, our YouTube's been going through the roof and I want to
thank everybody for that. But I, I, I want everybody to
put this verse in their memory. Luke 1610, Jesus said this,
whoever is faithful and very little will also be faithful and
much. And whoever is dishonest and
very little is also dishonest and much and brought this verse
is so fire to me because basically what it's saying is
your character is revealed in the small things and your
capacity for more is determined by your faithfulness with the
little. And I know some of you guys have
little. You don't have anything, but if
you can't be disciplined with $10 and go buy drugs, you're not
going to be disciplined with 10,000.
You're going to kill yourself with 10,000.
And if you let scarcity thinking control your mind when there's
some small inconvenience, you're going to let it control when
there's a big opportunity. And God, universe, whatever you
want to call it, he's testing us in these small moments.
And your addiction is just a test.
That's all it is. I know you, you, I know that you
think I'm downplaying it, but it's not.
It's a test for you in this meat suit because God felt in this
meat suit at this time that you would have it.
Because all things work together for good.
Addiction is there to grow you, evolve you, and make you a
better human. Not at maybe not even in this
meat suit. Maybe you kill yourself in this
meat suit, but the next one, you have graduated from that.
But you know, it's like the small moments.
Do you celebrate when a friend or a family member wins?
Or do you feel threatened even with little?
Do you give generously? Like go pick a flower, you know,
from outside and give it to someone you know?
Do you honor your word? You know, 'cause he said that in
Luke 1610, You know, if we can't even be honest, then how can we?
You know, he, he, he said in Luke 6010.
And whoever is dishonest and very little is also dishonest in
much. You know, you want that perfect
relationship, but you can't even be honest in the small
relationship that you're in now, you know?
So, you know, it's that whole thing.
How are we managing our time, our energy, our resources?
Are we doing it with integrity? And you know this in real
estate, you have to have integrity in real estate because
the government. Oh yeah, quick.
Absolutely. Because you know, and, and, and
I, I want to say this there there was a old guy, James
Allen, and I read this book. It's called as a Man thinketh
and he said this. A man's mind may be likened to a
garden which may be intelligently cultivated or
allowed to run wild, but whether cultivated or neglected, it must
and will bring forth. If no useful seeds are put into
it, then an abundance of useless weed seeds will fall therein.
This is from 1800s so and will continue to bruise their kind
bro and when I read that I was like I'm a gardener of my mind
and and it's going to grow regardless.
So do I want a garden just full of weeds or do I want to have a
grow of abundance of of beautiful flowers and
vegetables. And this is the cool part.
God gave us free will. We get to choose every single.
Moment, man, that's beautiful. We got to get in there and get
out all that the nasty overgrown weeds and start creating this
beautiful garden. And then once I, it was, it was
heartbreaking, bro. I figured out I did this major
overhaul, got fucking sober, did the mantras, did the prayers and
I cleaned up. I said, well look at this
beautiful garden and then little weeds start to sprout back up.
It's like, Oh yeah, you got it. But I would much rather get in
there and clean up these little weeds, bro, then have to do that
big overhaul and RIP everything out and start over again.
So if you guys are there at that big overhaul point, just dig in.
Invite God into the process. If God is the most powerful
thing in the universe, why not use it?
Tap into that power. When it comes time to rewriting
your story, rewrite that story around scarcity mindset.
I do deserve a better life. I do deserve to get sober and
get well. I do deserve this much love,
abundance, and success. And the trick for us with that,
if you're great with little, faithful with little, you will
be faithful with us. The trick for us is, well, the
love, abundance and success is now this is the love, abundance
and success, Bro, I'm sober, bro.
We're on a fucking podcast trying to share spiritual
principles like we're in it now. We're living the love, abundance
and success. Thank you, God, for this moment.
Thank you. And I'd be grateful for just
this moment. How little is that?
Little if you nail so that every everyday mundane things that we
do all the time. Bro, that takes up 85% of our
normal existence at least. The rest is, you know,
birthdays, deaths, A nominal shit, stuff that doesn't happen
all the time, weddings. But if I nail 85%, get good at
get good at your daily routine. Get good at the 85%.
Thank you God for a routine. Thank you God for the ability to
get up in the morning, to brush my teeth, to get my coffee, to
use the restroom, to go to work, to drive safely in traffic.
Start nailing the little shit. Start honoring the little
moments. If you nail that, you have 85%
good life. Do you know how you know many,
few people have 85% good life. So good.
All of us are running around in worry in our head.
But do you guys have the opportunity to rewrite your
story? You have the opportunity to, to,
to heal and to start walking in abundance.
It's now, it's it's in the moment now and you guys have the
tools to do it. That's so good bro.
Let's end in this I. I think this is so good.
Philippians 419 Apostle Paul, he he was talking to he was sending
a letter to this church in Philippi and he said this he
said and my God will meet all your needs according to the
riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
And I and I love this because it said and my God will it said not
my could happen. It said my God will and when you
realize your needs are already met, when you realize that you
are already provided for Jesus said he knows the the hairs on
our heads and he knows when a Sparrow falls out of a nest.
You know, he's like how much more than who you are as a
human, you know, with the soul and a spirit.
You know, I know you more than even that, you know, And so
you're held like regardless if you're homeless or whatever, I
want you to claim this verse saying my God will meet all my
needs according to its riches. You know, and I and I hate when
addicts play small, you know, and I know we we love every
single one of you too much to let you in your addiction play
small. You are not your addiction.
Name it because when you name it, you separate yourself from
it because you are not your addiction.
You are enough and exactly as you are even the way that you
are right now, dirty, gross. You know, Dwayne and I has been
there. Dwayne's been on a ditch bloody.
I've been on a ditch bloody. We've all done it.
You know, so and and it's so beautiful, bro.
And and I'll let you close on this.
But the moment you truly believe that, I think the moment that
you begin to really trust in God and and begin reaching out to
him and pray to him and doing these micro works is the moment
like you did with those six months is that's when.
Everything bleeds into everything we do.
Guys. You have an opportunity to
rewrite your story. Jason and I have your back plug
in plug into the teachings that are available for you.
Check out our other podcasts. We have a course that's
available for you guys online as well.
Check that out. You can go through the workbook.
It'll help with those daily routines with daily practice
with scarcity mindset and and and go on go on I.
I, I, I didn't, I want to tell you this, Dwayne, you haven't
even heard this, but I get DMS all the time from people, you
know. So I got one last week when I
was in Italy on vacation and the guy's like, I was an addict.
I was having issues. I've been listening to your
podcast. So I started because you just
said this. He said, I started a couple
months ago, listened to your podcast every single day.
He's like, I've listened to all your episodes and I'm still
listening to him. He goes, he goes, I got a window
washing job. So what I did was I got these
old headphones that I had and I began to put recovered addict
podcasts on my thing and just listen to it constantly while I
wash windows. And he goes, I'm doing an
awesome job, everything's good. He's like, I finally, you know,
mended some relationships. He's like I'm, he's living with
a partner. He's like all this happened in
just a few months, you know, so it's so important to like we, we
do this, we listen to teachings constantly.
You know, when we're changing lives, our podcast is changing
hundreds and thousands of lives that are out there and each of
you are listening to it. I love those DMSI love those
stories. Would love to to get more of
those, but we get them like every few weeks and it it's so
awesome. And, and I know you're listening
to this and just appreciate you listening to us.
And I'm glad that we helped you and change your life and that
you you're back. Guys, we, we love you.
Go, go do it. Go on your recovery journey.
It might be the greatest adventure you go on of your life
and it might birth something beautiful.
Don't, don't be don't shy away from it.
You guys deserve it. So thank you.