1 00:00:07,200 --> 00:00:10,960 Does the ego dominate you? Always. 2 00:00:11,120 --> 00:00:11,640 No. Just give. 3 00:00:11,880 --> 00:00:16,079 What are they called they call like in the in sexual, like they 4 00:00:16,079 --> 00:00:19,360 have those, I don't want to say deviant, but those things like 5 00:00:19,360 --> 00:00:22,240 some people are into and and I'm not judging any of it at all. 6 00:00:22,240 --> 00:00:24,680 Like some people have different things that they love, you know, 7 00:00:24,680 --> 00:00:27,100 But they have like the Dom or something like that. 8 00:00:27,100 --> 00:00:29,820 And that's the guy that, yeah, he's the dominant guy or 9 00:00:29,820 --> 00:00:31,340 whatever. And then the girl calls him the 10 00:00:31,340 --> 00:00:34,020 Dom or whatever. And then they like, I watched 11 00:00:34,020 --> 00:00:35,540 the whole show. It was so interesting. 12 00:00:35,540 --> 00:00:38,820 I think it was on Netflix and it was like fetishes or something 13 00:00:38,820 --> 00:00:41,420 like that. And like this guy and girl, they 14 00:00:41,420 --> 00:00:44,420 were like totally in love, love each other. 15 00:00:44,460 --> 00:00:47,900 And they just had that like weird relationship, what we call 16 00:00:47,900 --> 00:00:49,580 it weird. But what is weird, you know? 17 00:00:49,740 --> 00:00:53,360 Yeah, But for them, it was like, she called him that and then she 18 00:00:53,360 --> 00:00:55,920 would, like, call him out of the blue and then he have to do 19 00:00:55,920 --> 00:00:59,560 things that she said, you know, and then vice versa, you know? 20 00:00:59,840 --> 00:01:03,120 And it was just so wild. It was like, it's like to me. 21 00:01:03,120 --> 00:01:06,440 I would start laughing. If somebody, if somebody started 22 00:01:06,440 --> 00:01:10,480 like take your pants off, you know, like do this, do that, you 23 00:01:10,480 --> 00:01:12,720 know, I would probably start laughing like because you're. 24 00:01:12,720 --> 00:01:15,280 Just not going to. Maybe I'm boring in the sexual 25 00:01:15,280 --> 00:01:19,160 arena or something, Who knows. But it it's just so funny to me, 26 00:01:19,160 --> 00:01:22,120 you know, when when you think of the word dominant or dominant 27 00:01:22,120 --> 00:01:24,040 and now I've got everybody thinking in a sexual way, but 28 00:01:24,600 --> 00:01:27,920 when I I think of that word, it's like something that's 29 00:01:27,920 --> 00:01:32,200 that's got control over you. It's dominating you. 30 00:01:32,400 --> 00:01:34,400 Yeah. You know, it's like when when 31 00:01:34,400 --> 00:01:40,160 you watch Michael Jordan in that great documentary, I forgot what 32 00:01:40,160 --> 00:01:40,640 it was. The last. 33 00:01:40,840 --> 00:01:41,880 Yeah, the last. Dance. 34 00:01:42,760 --> 00:01:48,940 He's dominating. Like just absolutely next level 35 00:01:49,460 --> 00:01:54,060 on the court in his prime and just running around all nine 36 00:01:54,060 --> 00:01:55,860 guys. I cannot I. 37 00:01:56,740 --> 00:01:58,660 Cannot watch that. I can't watch that. 38 00:01:58,660 --> 00:02:00,780 And then not go play basketball. Yeah, exactly. 39 00:02:01,100 --> 00:02:02,660 I've run out my house with a basketball. 40 00:02:02,660 --> 00:02:05,940 Every time that comes on, you just see total domination. 41 00:02:05,940 --> 00:02:08,300 Yeah, yeah. He dominated his opponent. 42 00:02:08,699 --> 00:02:12,900 And when I think of the ego, it's the Michael Jordan of our. 43 00:02:12,900 --> 00:02:16,630 Brain perfect analogy. Perfect analogy. 44 00:02:16,630 --> 00:02:19,190 It's dominating my thoughts. It's dominating the way I 45 00:02:19,190 --> 00:02:23,070 navigate the world. It's dominating how I treat 46 00:02:23,070 --> 00:02:26,630 others well. I mean, you were bringing up 47 00:02:26,630 --> 00:02:28,510 Calvin and Hobbes, and I was thinking what you were talking 48 00:02:28,510 --> 00:02:33,430 about, that I was thinking of the ego and me like the real me 49 00:02:33,430 --> 00:02:36,110 and the and the ego. Yeah, Calvin is a 5 year old boy 50 00:02:36,190 --> 00:02:38,390 that's learning to navigate the world. 51 00:02:38,470 --> 00:02:42,790 And in, you know, often in in that in that comic series they 52 00:02:42,790 --> 00:02:45,270 talk about Calvin Ball. You want to play Calvin Ball? 53 00:02:45,470 --> 00:02:46,790 What's like? These are the rules. 54 00:02:46,910 --> 00:02:49,750 It's like, no, no, no. As soon as I start losing, I'm 55 00:02:49,750 --> 00:02:52,790 gonna change the rules so that I can win again. 56 00:02:53,070 --> 00:02:55,030 That's the ego and that's. Exactly what the ego does. 57 00:02:55,030 --> 00:02:57,790 The ego just with denial and self deception. 58 00:02:57,950 --> 00:03:00,070 I don't have to look at that. Oh, we can make a different. 59 00:03:00,070 --> 00:03:03,470 No, it's change the rules right now that's not important 60 00:03:03,470 --> 00:03:04,630 anymore. So. 61 00:03:04,790 --> 00:03:06,870 So Calvin and Hobbes would kind of be like a perfect 62 00:03:06,870 --> 00:03:10,010 representation of of you fighting your ego. 63 00:03:10,370 --> 00:03:13,050 And then Hobbs is there, you know, kind of guiding Calvin 64 00:03:13,050 --> 00:03:15,690 along the better path. That would be a spiritual 65 00:03:15,690 --> 00:03:18,010 representation of, you know what, You're not in alignment 66 00:03:18,010 --> 00:03:21,370 with your vertical dimension. You probably don't want to shoot 67 00:03:21,370 --> 00:03:23,250 the slingshot through the neighbor's window. 68 00:03:23,250 --> 00:03:26,890 Don't do that. But that's how we learned. 69 00:03:26,890 --> 00:03:29,210 I was totally I was a Calvin Hobbs kid all the way. 70 00:03:29,770 --> 00:03:32,130 Yeah, it's so wild. And so I want to. 71 00:03:32,810 --> 00:03:35,770 This is Part 2, so I encourage people to go to We're in module 72 00:03:35,770 --> 00:03:39,760 3.1 and Raveling the Ego and we got into a little bit of the 73 00:03:39,760 --> 00:03:44,800 denial and self deception and how the ego engages that and how 74 00:03:44,800 --> 00:03:49,880 it always wants to keyword preserve our self-image. 75 00:03:49,880 --> 00:03:55,560 So when I think of preservation, you know, I used to do, I had a 76 00:03:55,560 --> 00:04:00,320 farm back in the day and we would do preservation in the 77 00:04:00,320 --> 00:04:02,060 sense of canning. Yeah. 78 00:04:02,100 --> 00:04:05,540 So you would get cucumbers and or tomatoes and you could make 79 00:04:05,540 --> 00:04:07,980 tomato sauce and salsa. You could do so many different 80 00:04:07,980 --> 00:04:10,260 things, cucumbers, green beans, like you name it. 81 00:04:10,260 --> 00:04:12,260 So you could just go grab a can anytime you wanted. 82 00:04:12,820 --> 00:04:15,700 You'd pull it off the the canning shelves, you know. 83 00:04:15,700 --> 00:04:19,459 And then you would have meat from your, you know, your cows, 84 00:04:19,459 --> 00:04:22,220 your pigs, chickens, whatever. And so you could always make a 85 00:04:22,220 --> 00:04:25,340 big meal, like you always had potatoes and, you know, all that 86 00:04:25,340 --> 00:04:28,730 stuff. And I thought it was a way to 87 00:04:28,730 --> 00:04:33,690 preserve that vegetable because that vegetable would be rotten 88 00:04:34,490 --> 00:04:37,410 in a couple weeks. Like, I can we both eat a lot of 89 00:04:37,410 --> 00:04:40,170 avocados. I can leave an avocado out and 90 00:04:40,170 --> 00:04:42,410 it's done in a week. Yep. 91 00:04:42,850 --> 00:04:45,290 Now I could put it in the refrigerator and I can get two 92 00:04:45,290 --> 00:04:50,450 weeks, 2 1/2 weeks. The refrigerator preserves the 93 00:04:50,490 --> 00:04:53,010 avocado. I also think of a life 94 00:04:53,010 --> 00:04:55,360 preserver. Ah, yes, yeah. 95 00:04:55,360 --> 00:04:57,320 I'm in the sea. I'm in the stormy sea. 96 00:04:57,560 --> 00:05:00,160 I don't know what's going on. There's a ship, I see a light, 97 00:05:00,400 --> 00:05:03,320 I'm drowning. That life preserver gets thrown 98 00:05:03,320 --> 00:05:04,480 out. That's the window of grace. 99 00:05:04,480 --> 00:05:06,440 But that life preserver gets thrown out at me. 100 00:05:06,920 --> 00:05:09,480 And the what do they call it? A life preserver. 101 00:05:09,480 --> 00:05:14,200 It's preserving my life. It's a mechanism that preserves. 102 00:05:14,240 --> 00:05:18,760 It's keeping it possible the canning system preserves that 103 00:05:18,760 --> 00:05:21,440 vegetable, yes. You know, the boiling, the jars, 104 00:05:21,440 --> 00:05:24,000 the lids, the ceiling, the vacuuming, all that stuff. 105 00:05:24,680 --> 00:05:30,400 So when I when we think of denial and self deception, those 106 00:05:30,400 --> 00:05:36,000 are tools that the ego uses to preserve our self-image. 107 00:05:36,160 --> 00:05:37,720 So now I want us to get into this. 108 00:05:37,960 --> 00:05:40,440 Yes, the self-image. Is false? 109 00:05:41,080 --> 00:05:44,520 Yes, yes, It's. It's the part of me that's 110 00:05:44,520 --> 00:05:48,160 selfish. It's the part of me that is 111 00:05:48,560 --> 00:05:51,680 delusional. It's also the part of me that 112 00:05:51,680 --> 00:05:54,000 hurts others. It causes harm. 113 00:05:55,250 --> 00:05:59,050 How can I preserve being in that behavior? 114 00:06:00,490 --> 00:06:09,770 The ego uses denial and self deception as a catalyst for me 115 00:06:09,770 --> 00:06:11,890 to continue that type of conduct. 116 00:06:12,010 --> 00:06:16,870 What's that game that's like? You can like drag cars and pull 117 00:06:16,870 --> 00:06:18,310 women out of cars? It's kind of. 118 00:06:18,550 --> 00:06:20,870 Oh, Grand Theft Auto. Yes, yeah, I always think of my 119 00:06:20,870 --> 00:06:24,670 ego like the self deception. It's my ego's running around 120 00:06:24,670 --> 00:06:26,950 like Grand Theft. Auto tearing apart, It's just 121 00:06:26,950 --> 00:06:29,910 tearing the world up. All the cars, that's myself 122 00:06:29,910 --> 00:06:30,670 image. On the way. 123 00:06:31,070 --> 00:06:31,910 Yeah. All of them. 124 00:06:31,990 --> 00:06:33,070 Yeah. Yeah, absolutely. 125 00:06:33,070 --> 00:06:34,830 I'm stealing. I'm stealing. 126 00:06:34,870 --> 00:06:37,430 I'm lying. I'm cheating myself. 127 00:06:37,430 --> 00:06:40,750 Image what I have built to the world to preserve. 128 00:06:40,790 --> 00:06:45,500 Here's it Is to preserve myself in this level, not in this 129 00:06:45,500 --> 00:06:50,100 level, right? Inform is for me to do whatever 130 00:06:50,100 --> 00:06:53,380 I need to do to survive. And that if that means me 131 00:06:53,700 --> 00:06:56,820 telling Dwayne a little why lie? You know I can't work out today, 132 00:06:56,820 --> 00:06:59,260 bro. I'm like, you know, not just not 133 00:06:59,260 --> 00:07:02,660 feeling well or you know, I was late to work. 134 00:07:03,380 --> 00:07:06,740 I wasn't being disrespectful. The reality is I was being 135 00:07:06,740 --> 00:07:09,420 disrespectful to my work and to my boss and to everybody, and 136 00:07:10,020 --> 00:07:15,950 instead what I chose to do is wake up late, be lazy, and then 137 00:07:15,950 --> 00:07:20,510 be reactive to everything and made the decision to be late. 138 00:07:20,550 --> 00:07:23,230 I made that decision, but instead I'm going to blame 139 00:07:23,230 --> 00:07:25,590 everything else all around. So what I want to get into is 140 00:07:25,590 --> 00:07:31,030 this self-image, The self. If the self-image is false, what 141 00:07:31,030 --> 00:07:32,870 is the ego really trying to preserve? 142 00:07:33,750 --> 00:07:35,470 Nothing. It's a false. 143 00:07:35,590 --> 00:07:37,390 It's a whole. The whole thing is fucked up. 144 00:07:37,430 --> 00:07:39,790 It's trying to preserve a lie, yes. 145 00:07:40,350 --> 00:07:42,190 And if I'm trying to preserve a lie. 146 00:07:42,640 --> 00:07:46,080 My foundation is built on sand, yes. 147 00:07:46,440 --> 00:07:49,640 I I I crumble. I crumble under pressure. 148 00:07:49,640 --> 00:07:51,360 I I don't know how to navigate the world. 149 00:07:51,360 --> 00:07:53,400 I don't know how to deal with hard shit. 150 00:07:53,880 --> 00:07:55,880 I don't know how to go through that type of stuff. 151 00:07:56,440 --> 00:08:02,800 When life happens, as it has a way of doing, I crumble. 152 00:08:03,710 --> 00:08:06,630 I never my my my dad's parents passed away. 153 00:08:06,630 --> 00:08:07,910 I wasn't even out of high school yet. 154 00:08:07,910 --> 00:08:10,310 But my I was well into my drinking career. 155 00:08:10,630 --> 00:08:13,390 I never mourned them. I never had an opportunity to be 156 00:08:13,390 --> 00:08:16,270 present for their death. I just turned to the bottle. 157 00:08:16,990 --> 00:08:19,830 I remember being there and you know, I've I've made the 158 00:08:19,830 --> 00:08:24,550 appropriate amends to them in a way that works well for me. 159 00:08:24,550 --> 00:08:27,280 This so that I feel. Forgiveness and healing took 160 00:08:27,280 --> 00:08:29,880 place years later. Do you think it was an excuse to 161 00:08:29,960 --> 00:08:31,560 get dive into the bottom? More, it was. 162 00:08:31,880 --> 00:08:37,120 It was just all I knew to do. It was how I had to preserve 163 00:08:37,120 --> 00:08:39,320 myself. I didn't have any other way to 164 00:08:39,320 --> 00:08:43,159 deal with the hand life dealt me at that moment. 165 00:08:43,679 --> 00:08:47,760 And it's delusional because I don't have to look at how 166 00:08:48,760 --> 00:08:52,880 hurtful that was, Not only to them, not only to my dad. 167 00:08:54,970 --> 00:08:56,890 But also to the spirit inside of me. 168 00:08:57,170 --> 00:08:59,810 Yeah, it's almost like when I see this self-image and self 169 00:08:59,810 --> 00:09:01,810 deception. What you're saying, how you were 170 00:09:01,890 --> 00:09:04,690 talking to yourself. It's almost when I see Trump or 171 00:09:04,690 --> 00:09:07,410 Biden standing up there, you know, I always say I'm not right 172 00:09:07,410 --> 00:09:08,690 when you're left. I'm throwing a whole bird out. 173 00:09:10,650 --> 00:09:15,090 You know what they're saying? It's not real like either one of 174 00:09:15,090 --> 00:09:18,050 them. Most politicians, 99.9% of them 175 00:09:18,450 --> 00:09:20,530 tell you a great speech and don't do shit. 176 00:09:21,210 --> 00:09:22,650 Sure, you know and you know that. 177 00:09:22,650 --> 00:09:26,950 All of them have money. They all don't have much, but 178 00:09:27,070 --> 00:09:30,110 well, maybe besides Trump, but they all don't have a lot of 179 00:09:30,110 --> 00:09:33,590 money going into the thing. And then they come out where it 180 00:09:33,590 --> 00:09:34,870 being worth hundreds of 1,000,000. 181 00:09:34,990 --> 00:09:36,470 Yeah, it's like, how does that work? 182 00:09:36,670 --> 00:09:39,750 Where does this money come from? Who is telling me to say what? 183 00:09:39,990 --> 00:09:43,990 And it's so funny because we watched them. 184 00:09:44,910 --> 00:09:47,350 It's like WWE wrestling, WWF, whatever. 185 00:09:47,710 --> 00:09:51,200 You watch them, you know it's fake, yes, but it's still so 186 00:09:51,240 --> 00:09:53,240 entertaining. We watch a movie, we know 187 00:09:53,240 --> 00:09:58,960 they're acting and we're crying. This is there's like cut, cut, 188 00:09:58,960 --> 00:10:00,160 cut, see. Good. 189 00:10:00,160 --> 00:10:01,480 You know, we're on to the next scene. 190 00:10:01,480 --> 00:10:03,240 Green screen wear, green screen up. 191 00:10:04,080 --> 00:10:06,320 There's the the raccoon movie Gardens of the Galaxy, the new 192 00:10:06,320 --> 00:10:07,520 one. Every I haven't seen it yet, but 193 00:10:07,520 --> 00:10:10,160 everybody's telling me that, you know, it's super sad and people 194 00:10:10,160 --> 00:10:12,840 are crying in the theater and I'm like the whole movie's done 195 00:10:12,840 --> 00:10:15,520 on a green screen. But guess who gets emotional in 196 00:10:15,520 --> 00:10:17,920 movies? Me, my dumb ass gets really 197 00:10:17,920 --> 00:10:20,020 emotional. I have to like, kind of hide, 198 00:10:20,020 --> 00:10:22,180 and I don't know why I'm ashamed of it, but I can. 199 00:10:22,700 --> 00:10:24,540 A Disney movie can get me emotional. 200 00:10:24,540 --> 00:10:26,900 Oh yeah. Well, the storytelling 201 00:10:28,220 --> 00:10:32,420 generationally, evolutionally, is how we have evolved as human 202 00:10:32,420 --> 00:10:33,980 beings. So movies are just a great 203 00:10:33,980 --> 00:10:37,780 extension of storytelling. But I understand the point 204 00:10:37,780 --> 00:10:39,700 you're making with That's not real. 205 00:10:40,580 --> 00:10:42,420 That's not real. How come I'm treating it like 206 00:10:42,420 --> 00:10:44,380 it's everything? There you go. 207 00:10:44,380 --> 00:10:48,180 That's the most important thing in my universe and in reality. 208 00:10:49,050 --> 00:10:52,890 It's not even real. That's how powerful my ego is. 209 00:10:53,050 --> 00:10:55,850 That's how powerful my delusional thoughts are. 210 00:10:56,250 --> 00:11:03,810 If I'm identified with the thoughts, the ego can only exist 211 00:11:03,890 --> 00:11:06,770 in the mind. It has a proper place. 212 00:11:07,050 --> 00:11:09,810 It is necessary. I'm never going to get rid of my 213 00:11:09,810 --> 00:11:11,890 ego. But when it's out of control, 214 00:11:11,970 --> 00:11:15,650 when it's unchecked like we talked about last podcast. 215 00:11:16,960 --> 00:11:19,640 I don't know. I'm separate from these 216 00:11:19,640 --> 00:11:22,840 Thoughts. Yeah, it's so funny. 217 00:11:22,840 --> 00:11:26,600 It reminds me, I was watching the whole fiasco right now with 218 00:11:27,600 --> 00:11:29,800 Conor McGregor. I don't know if you heard all 219 00:11:29,800 --> 00:11:33,440 that, but it was like one night or two nights at Miami and he's 220 00:11:33,440 --> 00:11:36,310 like, you know, next thing you know, he's like beats up a. 221 00:11:36,550 --> 00:11:38,830 And I don't know how. I don't know the whole 222 00:11:38,830 --> 00:11:41,590 circumstances, but what. And the news could be false. 223 00:11:41,590 --> 00:11:43,270 This whole story could be like whatever. 224 00:11:43,430 --> 00:11:45,750 But what I was reading and what I heard and I I listened to a 225 00:11:45,750 --> 00:11:48,470 podcast a little bit on it because I like a little bit of 226 00:11:48,470 --> 00:11:51,590 MMAI think it's kind of entertaining and fun was, you 227 00:11:51,590 --> 00:11:54,510 know, he punched out the mascot, you know, during the game or 228 00:11:54,510 --> 00:11:55,870 whatever. And the mascot got hurt, I 229 00:11:55,870 --> 00:11:58,230 guess, and went to the hospital, you know, because he's beating 230 00:11:58,230 --> 00:11:59,230 it up. I don't know if you saw it. 231 00:11:59,230 --> 00:12:01,910 And then he went to a club and then he brought a girl in the 232 00:12:01,910 --> 00:12:04,340 bathroom, you know, and he's married and he's getting his 233 00:12:04,340 --> 00:12:06,060 fourth kid coming on, coming along, you know. 234 00:12:06,060 --> 00:12:07,900 And I don't know whether they have an agreement or something, 235 00:12:07,900 --> 00:12:10,700 Who knows? But you know, here he is. 236 00:12:11,340 --> 00:12:12,220 Top of the world. Yep. 237 00:12:12,580 --> 00:12:15,900 Most popular MMA fighter, king of the world. 238 00:12:16,820 --> 00:12:20,460 Anything he's ever decided to do, he does and does it. 239 00:12:20,540 --> 00:12:22,300 Yep. And he tells everybody to fuck 240 00:12:22,300 --> 00:12:25,620 off and he does it. He took a whiskey that wasn't 241 00:12:25,620 --> 00:12:28,660 that even that good and made a billion dollars off of it. 242 00:12:28,660 --> 00:12:31,020 Proper 12, yeah. And made a billion dollars off 243 00:12:31,020 --> 00:12:33,570 of it, you know so. He's a powerful creator. 244 00:12:33,570 --> 00:12:39,330 And then he goes to Miami and he's not like helping charities 245 00:12:39,370 --> 00:12:41,610 or doing. And he may, I don't know, but I 246 00:12:41,610 --> 00:12:43,570 always see him on his yacht and stuff like that, which is great, 247 00:12:43,570 --> 00:12:45,130 you know, hanging out on your yacht and have fun. 248 00:12:45,610 --> 00:12:49,090 But it's so funny. It's like, here's this person 249 00:12:49,410 --> 00:12:53,250 that is not knowing how to act in this reality. 250 00:12:53,410 --> 00:12:58,610 The only reality I've ever known is to fight yes and scrape and 251 00:12:58,610 --> 00:13:01,570 get through and move on. And now I have all of this 252 00:13:01,570 --> 00:13:03,010 abundance. Yes, yes, yes. 253 00:13:03,210 --> 00:13:05,570 And I don't know how to be responsible. 254 00:13:06,170 --> 00:13:10,690 And it's all of a sudden I have an addiction personality and I 255 00:13:10,690 --> 00:13:13,450 don't know what to do. I've finally got a job. 256 00:13:14,290 --> 00:13:16,970 I finally got, I'm at. I was at level one killing 257 00:13:16,970 --> 00:13:18,730 myself. You know, I've been there and 258 00:13:18,730 --> 00:13:20,730 you've been there. I was at level one killing 259 00:13:20,730 --> 00:13:22,650 myself. Then I got to level 2, and now 260 00:13:22,650 --> 00:13:24,330 I'm going to fuck it up and go back to level one. 261 00:13:24,410 --> 00:13:27,020 Yeah. Yeah, yeah, classic ULP. 262 00:13:27,020 --> 00:13:30,460 Upper limit problem. I don't know how to experience a 263 00:13:30,460 --> 00:13:36,380 leap in vibration. I'm so conditioned to this 264 00:13:36,380 --> 00:13:38,700 heartache. I'm so conditioned to this 265 00:13:39,420 --> 00:13:42,460 delusional existence. I'm so conditioned to having to 266 00:13:42,460 --> 00:13:45,340 struggle through it. Life's supposed to be hard, 267 00:13:45,340 --> 00:13:46,940 didn't you know? Making money supposed to be 268 00:13:47,060 --> 00:13:49,860 hard. I'm supposed to effort, effort, 269 00:13:49,860 --> 00:13:51,420 efforting. That's the same as swimming up 270 00:13:51,740 --> 00:13:58,500 upstream and. Once I make a leap to a higher 271 00:13:58,500 --> 00:14:04,660 vibrational existence, that resonance might feel kind of 272 00:14:04,660 --> 00:14:09,620 weird and subconsciously like Connor just did in Florida. 273 00:14:10,220 --> 00:14:12,620 I might do something to screw that up. 274 00:14:13,140 --> 00:14:16,740 Yes. What can I do to drop myself 275 00:14:16,740 --> 00:14:20,820 back down to my normal level of existence so that I feel OK? 276 00:14:20,980 --> 00:14:22,700 It's a little bit insane. Actually. 277 00:14:22,700 --> 00:14:24,740 It's very insane, but it's normal. 278 00:14:25,060 --> 00:14:28,820 If I'm living in plane one, Plane two, level #1, level #2 279 00:14:28,820 --> 00:14:31,980 situation, energetic response, that's my whole life. 280 00:14:31,980 --> 00:14:33,940 I don't know that I'm separate from those things. 281 00:14:34,820 --> 00:14:39,780 Then those things dominate me and it's very normal. 282 00:14:40,160 --> 00:14:46,080 To behave in my unconscious ego and go back to where I feel at 283 00:14:47,400 --> 00:14:49,880 comfortable. And it's crazy to say that. 284 00:14:49,880 --> 00:14:52,640 It's crazy to say I feel uncomfortable having to 285 00:14:52,640 --> 00:14:53,800 struggle. Yeah. 286 00:14:53,800 --> 00:14:56,240 And I remember Christian Bale, you know. 287 00:14:56,400 --> 00:14:58,920 The same scenario. Classic Batman, yes. 288 00:14:59,840 --> 00:15:02,440 And just amazing to me. He's the best. 289 00:15:02,560 --> 00:15:04,120 I like him the best of all of them. 290 00:15:04,160 --> 00:15:05,520 This last guy is pretty good too. 291 00:15:05,600 --> 00:15:07,840 I like all that. Yeah, they've all done great, 292 00:15:08,160 --> 00:15:11,600 but you know he's getting ready to win an award. 293 00:15:11,840 --> 00:15:15,280 One of the highest grossing films ever and he's in a hotel 294 00:15:15,280 --> 00:15:18,520 room. With his mom and sister, you 295 00:15:18,520 --> 00:15:21,200 think you're fine? You would think, you would 296 00:15:21,200 --> 00:15:22,600 think. But I don't know how to 297 00:15:22,600 --> 00:15:26,800 experience this most love, abundance and success domestic 298 00:15:26,800 --> 00:15:33,640 violence case with his mom and sister and it's an ULP upper 299 00:15:33,640 --> 00:15:38,840 limit problem usually comes on the heels of a great success. 300 00:15:39,200 --> 00:15:41,400 Or victory. Or a good time. 301 00:15:42,040 --> 00:15:47,120 We both have big events coming up in our life and now I'm 302 00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:50,040 looking out for UL P's. I'm traveling out of country 303 00:15:50,040 --> 00:15:52,560 next week. I'm very excited to get to honor 304 00:15:52,560 --> 00:15:55,280 that experience with my wife and have a good time. 305 00:15:55,600 --> 00:15:59,560 And I'm just like worried about spending $40.00 at the grocery 306 00:15:59,560 --> 00:16:03,080 store. UL P's are coming to get me, but 307 00:16:03,080 --> 00:16:06,080 it's my job to just observe the ULP, see it for what it is. 308 00:16:06,200 --> 00:16:07,560 What is that? Is that real? 309 00:16:08,460 --> 00:16:12,940 Or is that a lack based thought? Is that a low vibration thought? 310 00:16:13,300 --> 00:16:15,820 That's not real. That's just a crazy thought. 311 00:16:16,020 --> 00:16:18,860 Well, you said before and it's so, and it really hit me when 312 00:16:18,860 --> 00:16:22,180 you said it last podcast was, and it's such a basic statement. 313 00:16:22,180 --> 00:16:24,180 We've heard it so many times as the universe gives you what you 314 00:16:24,180 --> 00:16:25,420 are. Universe gives you what you are 315 00:16:25,420 --> 00:16:28,060 and so if I'm complaining about 40 bucks then I'm gonna be 316 00:16:28,060 --> 00:16:30,260 struggling for 40. You're the type of person that's 317 00:16:30,260 --> 00:16:32,020 gonna worry about 40 bucks. Yeah. 318 00:16:32,020 --> 00:16:33,020 Yeah, exactly. Yeah. 319 00:16:33,020 --> 00:16:35,660 And so I'm gonna just have $40 all the time, correct? 320 00:16:35,660 --> 00:16:38,940 Yeah, you know, so. So a trip to out of country and 321 00:16:38,940 --> 00:16:42,140 me worrying about the money. I'm not that person. 322 00:16:44,180 --> 00:16:47,620 No, I don't. I don't know how to experience 323 00:16:47,620 --> 00:16:51,700 that type of existence. I need to drop back down to the 324 00:16:51,700 --> 00:16:54,780 level of vibration I'm used to. And what I'm used to is my 325 00:16:54,780 --> 00:16:57,020 addiction. I'm used to worrying about this. 326 00:16:57,020 --> 00:16:59,900 I'm used to my fear. I'm used to my lack. 327 00:17:00,580 --> 00:17:02,620 Yeah. And and this goes right along 328 00:17:02,660 --> 00:17:04,220 and it says this. Listen to this part. 329 00:17:04,640 --> 00:17:08,640 This deflection can create significant barriers to change 330 00:17:08,640 --> 00:17:11,040 in healing. So let's talk about deflection. 331 00:17:13,119 --> 00:17:15,200 I couldn't possibly take responsibility for this. 332 00:17:15,480 --> 00:17:19,400 It's not my fault that this stuff costs $40. 333 00:17:19,839 --> 00:17:23,520 It's frickin Walmart's fault because they hiked their prices 334 00:17:23,520 --> 00:17:25,920 up and now I'm the victim of it's Covid's fault. 335 00:17:25,920 --> 00:17:28,760 It's this, it's that. It's the politicians, it's our 336 00:17:28,800 --> 00:17:31,000 supply chain. I'm just a victim of society 337 00:17:31,000 --> 00:17:34,400 that has inflation and how dare they my toilet paper inflation 338 00:17:34,680 --> 00:17:36,200 just a tax. My toilet paper. 339 00:17:36,200 --> 00:17:38,040 I don't even need toilet paper. Fuck it. 340 00:17:38,040 --> 00:17:41,360 Yeah, exactly. That's deflection. 341 00:17:41,360 --> 00:17:46,520 That's how crazy we get in an ego controlled mind that is 342 00:17:46,520 --> 00:17:48,240 incapable of taking responsibility. 343 00:17:48,360 --> 00:17:50,440 You know what our response is to inflation? 344 00:17:51,320 --> 00:17:56,720 Make more money, get your ass off the couch and get busy and 345 00:17:56,760 --> 00:17:59,920 and that's that's taking responsibility for me, myself 346 00:17:59,920 --> 00:18:02,400 and my family. I just have to stop working 347 00:18:02,400 --> 00:18:04,930 because things went. Through the roof, price wise. 348 00:18:05,130 --> 00:18:07,770 Fuck that. I'm gonna work double, triple, 349 00:18:07,970 --> 00:18:09,530 yeah. I was listening to Rob Dyrdek, 350 00:18:09,570 --> 00:18:11,770 The Skater. But he's like a billionaire now, 351 00:18:12,410 --> 00:18:14,770 and he, he has, like, great spiritual teachings. 352 00:18:14,770 --> 00:18:17,250 You guys should follow him. And he's like, I love living in 353 00:18:17,250 --> 00:18:19,170 Beverly Hills. Yeah, my family loves it. 354 00:18:19,170 --> 00:18:20,650 School systems are great. Everything's great. 355 00:18:20,650 --> 00:18:22,450 I can afford it. I like going to the Ferrari 356 00:18:22,450 --> 00:18:24,970 dealership. My wife likes, you know, doing 357 00:18:24,970 --> 00:18:26,810 all these amazing things. He goes, I love Beverly Hills. 358 00:18:26,810 --> 00:18:29,010 Yeah, I pay 40 percent, 50% taxes. 359 00:18:29,410 --> 00:18:31,290 I just need to make 4050% more. Yep. 360 00:18:31,760 --> 00:18:34,000 Because I'm not moving and I love that. 361 00:18:34,000 --> 00:18:36,640 That's so great where most people be like, you know what? 362 00:18:37,240 --> 00:18:40,000 You know I need to move, save and then. 363 00:18:40,880 --> 00:18:43,440 Yeah, so powerful. But that's the deflection. 364 00:18:43,440 --> 00:18:46,360 That's the I couldn't possibly take responsibility for my life 365 00:18:46,600 --> 00:18:50,160 and what's happening to me. Let me sidestep this and make it 366 00:18:50,160 --> 00:18:53,600 somebody else's responsibility. So do you remember it was the 367 00:18:53,600 --> 00:18:57,480 first or second Captain America movie, and he's on a ship. 368 00:18:58,770 --> 00:19:02,090 And it starts out like hardcore action, like, in a good way. 369 00:19:02,090 --> 00:19:03,970 I love those. Like, I love all the Marvel 370 00:19:03,970 --> 00:19:06,170 movies. And it's a shield in him. 371 00:19:06,810 --> 00:19:08,810 Yeah. And that shield is just going 372 00:19:08,810 --> 00:19:10,930 through like 100 guys. Yeah, yeah, Yeah. 373 00:19:11,010 --> 00:19:13,450 It's like a, it's like a almost like a John Wick movie, but with 374 00:19:13,450 --> 00:19:16,890 his shield. And the Captain America shield 375 00:19:16,890 --> 00:19:21,890 to me, is a perfect reflection of the flexion. 376 00:19:23,610 --> 00:19:27,110 Because I could just hold this thing and deflect everything I I 377 00:19:27,110 --> 00:19:28,510 could. I can hold my ego. 378 00:19:28,510 --> 00:19:33,830 Can hold this ego shield and be like, you know what, my mom. 379 00:19:34,230 --> 00:19:36,310 This is the reason why I'm a drug addict. 380 00:19:36,750 --> 00:19:38,350 You know what? My dad abused me. 381 00:19:38,350 --> 00:19:41,350 Oh, this is the reason why I can't hold the job down. 382 00:19:41,470 --> 00:19:44,870 Oh, you know what? I I'm not good at math just 383 00:19:44,870 --> 00:19:46,310 because I've never been good at math. 384 00:19:47,030 --> 00:19:48,990 You know, like, I I say that all the time. 385 00:19:48,990 --> 00:19:50,230 It's like, well, I'm just not good at math. 386 00:19:50,230 --> 00:19:54,230 I'm not going to learn Excel. Yeah, yeah, I mean with Excel 387 00:19:54,230 --> 00:19:56,990 sheets every day. And I'm like I'm not gonna learn 388 00:19:56,990 --> 00:19:58,990 this cuz I am not good at formulas and math. 389 00:19:59,470 --> 00:20:02,190 So I'm gonna outsource it to somebody else, which is fine if 390 00:20:02,190 --> 00:20:03,950 you don't wanna do something outsource to somebody else. 391 00:20:03,950 --> 00:20:06,990 But it's like I could probably in a few hours learn it. 392 00:20:07,430 --> 00:20:10,550 You definitely could learn it. The deflection, the I'm 393 00:20:10,550 --> 00:20:14,390 deflecting the responsibility. Yes, there you go. 394 00:20:14,430 --> 00:20:17,950 Yeah, that's what I'm using my shield of ego to do. 395 00:20:18,550 --> 00:20:22,950 The ego Shields me from the outside world that is constantly 396 00:20:22,950 --> 00:20:27,010 calling me to responsibility. The, the the paradoxes is when I 397 00:20:27,050 --> 00:20:30,250 answer the call to responsibility, I start getting 398 00:20:30,250 --> 00:20:32,450 a life worth living. That's so funny. 399 00:20:32,450 --> 00:20:35,130 You brought up the Marvel, the Marvel films, bro. 400 00:20:35,290 --> 00:20:37,650 I've shared this story with you, but it's a good story to tell it 401 00:20:37,650 --> 00:20:41,410 again. I work at a gym and I work out. 402 00:20:41,410 --> 00:20:43,770 I have a A7 o'clock hour. That's my hour. 403 00:20:43,770 --> 00:20:46,010 I dedicate that time for me in the gym. 404 00:20:46,010 --> 00:20:47,650 I don't take clients at that time. 405 00:20:49,010 --> 00:20:52,050 I'm going to take care of myself for one hour and the rest of the 406 00:20:52,050 --> 00:20:56,200 day I serve. So I'm there in the gym and this 407 00:20:56,200 --> 00:20:58,640 guy comes in that I've never seen at the gym before, this 408 00:20:58,640 --> 00:21:02,480 bald guy. And he's kind of moving around a 409 00:21:02,480 --> 00:21:05,600 little viciously and he's doing shadow boxing and he's moving 410 00:21:05,600 --> 00:21:08,560 weights really fast and he's just, he's throwing me off. 411 00:21:09,080 --> 00:21:11,880 And I'm a decorated champion bodybuilder. 412 00:21:12,040 --> 00:21:15,240 Like, I don't compete with me, bro. 413 00:21:15,240 --> 00:21:18,280 Don't come in here at my gym and try and dance around me. 414 00:21:18,400 --> 00:21:23,290 And my ego is just sneaking up and my ego wants to be superior 415 00:21:23,290 --> 00:21:28,170 and my ego wants to judge and my ego wants to hold this guy down 416 00:21:30,050 --> 00:21:32,130 because it was an anomaly to the system. 417 00:21:32,250 --> 00:21:36,170 I'd never seen him before. My circuit, my circuitry went 418 00:21:36,170 --> 00:21:40,650 off deep, deep in my my, my subconscious, where I viewed 419 00:21:40,650 --> 00:21:42,690 this guy as a predator. He's a threat to me. 420 00:21:43,370 --> 00:21:46,010 He's doing a whole different workout and and he completely 421 00:21:46,010 --> 00:21:47,890 different from me. I'm separate, separate. 422 00:21:48,330 --> 00:21:55,840 So my ego and my deflection of taking responsibility for my 423 00:21:55,840 --> 00:21:59,680 judgment of this person was just forefront. 424 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:03,240 I was pure form and I was superior. 425 00:22:03,480 --> 00:22:08,560 And screw this guy, I was doing abs on a bench and he was near 426 00:22:08,560 --> 00:22:12,760 me and he's doing a shadowboxing thing and my brain said this 427 00:22:12,760 --> 00:22:16,120 mother, he needs to get away from me now. 428 00:22:18,040 --> 00:22:23,010 I sat up. Not 3 seconds later he came over 429 00:22:23,370 --> 00:22:29,530 in front of me, looked me in the eye and gave me a fist bump and 430 00:22:29,530 --> 00:22:33,250 said looking good my brother and walked away. 431 00:22:34,610 --> 00:22:40,450 He he wanted to be my brother and told me I looked good 432 00:22:41,560 --> 00:22:46,400 simultaneously in the same moment I'm judging him saying he 433 00:22:46,400 --> 00:22:48,720 needs to get away from me. So now. 434 00:22:48,720 --> 00:22:52,200 You're Kane and he's able. He was my ideal. 435 00:22:52,200 --> 00:22:54,200 Your sacrifice. His sacrifice was a He just 436 00:22:54,200 --> 00:22:56,560 wanted to. I was hating what I I was hating 437 00:22:56,560 --> 00:22:58,920 myself in that moment. I was hating what I already am. 438 00:22:58,920 --> 00:23:02,480 He just wanted to be my brother, and I had already thrown him out 439 00:23:02,480 --> 00:23:05,460 of the Kingdom of heaven. Get the hell away from me in 440 00:23:05,460 --> 00:23:08,460 that moment, bro. I just I I felt so crushed. 441 00:23:08,620 --> 00:23:13,500 I put my head down and I hid my tears because I don't want to be 442 00:23:13,500 --> 00:23:16,420 the type of man that just judges someone for existing. 443 00:23:16,940 --> 00:23:20,900 I hadn't done that in a long time, and I was I I I felt so 444 00:23:20,900 --> 00:23:24,460 embarrassed about how forefront my ego was in that moment. 445 00:23:25,100 --> 00:23:27,980 I was working at a upscale restaurant at the time. 446 00:23:28,900 --> 00:23:35,390 Not two weeks later, the same person came upstairs and I made 447 00:23:35,390 --> 00:23:38,310 it a point to have a present moment practice with this 448 00:23:38,310 --> 00:23:40,030 individual every time I saw him at the gym. 449 00:23:40,030 --> 00:23:42,790 After that, we became good little buddies at the gym. 450 00:23:42,910 --> 00:23:44,350 I would always give him a fist bump. 451 00:23:44,350 --> 00:23:48,390 He'd give me a fist bump. We talked and I felt that that 452 00:23:48,710 --> 00:23:52,510 judgment inside of me was removed for this individual. 453 00:23:52,790 --> 00:23:55,190 And he gave me, he gave me a gift. 454 00:23:55,590 --> 00:23:58,990 He gave me a gift in that moment to be spirit 1st instead of ego 455 00:23:58,990 --> 00:24:01,870 first because when I was ego first, it felt horrible. 456 00:24:03,140 --> 00:24:06,060 He came upstairs when I was working at this upscale 457 00:24:06,060 --> 00:24:08,940 restaurant and I'm talking with him and his brother and I said, 458 00:24:08,940 --> 00:24:10,620 So what are you doing man? Tell me what you do. 459 00:24:10,620 --> 00:24:13,140 I know you're here, like in town, but not permanently. 460 00:24:13,140 --> 00:24:16,900 What is it that you do? He's like, I'm like kind of semi 461 00:24:16,900 --> 00:24:19,140 retired. What do you mean retired? 462 00:24:19,140 --> 00:24:20,620 Brother, there's no way you're 40. 463 00:24:20,620 --> 00:24:23,380 What do you mean you're retired? He was like, ah, you know, I do 464 00:24:23,380 --> 00:24:26,020 real estate stuff, but I, I, you know, I dabbled in like 465 00:24:26,100 --> 00:24:27,980 producing and I don't do that anymore. 466 00:24:28,700 --> 00:24:31,780 And his brother nudged him. And his brother said, tell him, 467 00:24:32,060 --> 00:24:34,740 tell him. And he said, well, you know, I 468 00:24:34,740 --> 00:24:40,660 produced 24 Marvel movies and I don't really need to work 469 00:24:40,660 --> 00:24:44,380 anymore. This too is multimillionaire. 470 00:24:44,620 --> 00:24:50,540 He has an Emmy on his mantle in his living room from the Marvel 471 00:24:50,540 --> 00:24:55,020 series that he's helped produce. And I'm there assassinating him 472 00:24:55,020 --> 00:24:58,140 in the gym. Because my ego is forefront. 473 00:24:58,610 --> 00:25:01,210 Because my ego's delusional. Because my ego can't take 474 00:25:01,210 --> 00:25:04,170 responsibility for the judgments in my head. 475 00:25:07,010 --> 00:25:13,650 And think about how many times there's been a misunderstanding. 476 00:25:14,050 --> 00:25:18,450 And we've put that I was. This is so funny because I was 477 00:25:18,450 --> 00:25:20,450 talking to somebody earlier today about this. 478 00:25:20,730 --> 00:25:24,170 I was like, we've create avatars of what we think people are, 479 00:25:24,770 --> 00:25:26,770 Yes. And we don't even know them. 480 00:25:27,800 --> 00:25:29,880 Even if we know somebody, we really don't know them. 481 00:25:29,880 --> 00:25:32,320 I don't know what you think. No, I've never been in your 482 00:25:32,320 --> 00:25:35,280 brain. I have an avatar of what I think 483 00:25:35,280 --> 00:25:38,000 Dwayne is, yes. But I really, really, really 484 00:25:38,520 --> 00:25:42,160 like, deep down don't know you. I don't know what you're 485 00:25:42,160 --> 00:25:44,160 struggling with. I mean, we talk pretty openly, 486 00:25:44,640 --> 00:25:46,720 you know, at the gym and stuff of stuff we're struggling with 487 00:25:46,720 --> 00:25:48,720 or stuff we're working on, spiritual stuff. 488 00:25:48,720 --> 00:25:52,270 But I don't. I don't know know know you like 489 00:25:52,310 --> 00:25:53,790 you, I never know what someone else is. 490 00:25:53,790 --> 00:25:56,830 Thinking and all I know is the avatar of Dwayne that I've 491 00:25:56,830 --> 00:26:02,670 created and my egos part in that, and hopefully my Higher 492 00:26:02,670 --> 00:26:05,510 self is part in that. You know, to create, to love 493 00:26:05,510 --> 00:26:10,750 you, to be to the point to where I can be totally accepting no 494 00:26:10,750 --> 00:26:12,510 judgment. You know, all of those things. 495 00:26:12,830 --> 00:26:15,510 And that's what I really try to do with people that you know, 496 00:26:15,510 --> 00:26:19,030 that I want to be a friend with or close with or whatever. 497 00:26:19,670 --> 00:26:24,190 But I don't really. I have avatars, you know, it's 498 00:26:24,190 --> 00:26:27,470 not the real person. And I I was telling this this 499 00:26:27,470 --> 00:26:30,070 person was talking about a relationship and I and I was 500 00:26:30,070 --> 00:26:34,270 like, you don't know, you're guessing, you're getting upset 501 00:26:34,430 --> 00:26:38,150 and emotional based off an assumption that you think that 502 00:26:38,150 --> 00:26:39,750 this person is thinking about you. 503 00:26:39,750 --> 00:26:40,590 Yes, yeah. Yeah. 504 00:26:40,870 --> 00:26:44,190 Yeah, and now you guys are arguing over each other about 505 00:26:44,190 --> 00:26:47,910 the avatar, but you're but so the avatar you've created 506 00:26:47,910 --> 00:26:50,910 doesn't live up. To the judgment that you've put 507 00:26:50,910 --> 00:26:53,590 on the Avatar because you've created this person to act this 508 00:26:53,590 --> 00:26:55,710 way, but that's not the real person. 509 00:26:55,910 --> 00:26:59,670 A real human's pretty fucked up and a great way to understand 510 00:26:59,670 --> 00:27:01,910 that, which that's why I love the Bible so much, is because 511 00:27:01,910 --> 00:27:05,550 it's open. The Bible shows the flaws. 512 00:27:05,910 --> 00:27:09,550 Yeah, King David was a man after God's own heart and. 513 00:27:10,630 --> 00:27:12,150 Adultery. Murder. 514 00:27:12,150 --> 00:27:14,550 I mean, the list goes on and on, especially the Old Testament. 515 00:27:14,550 --> 00:27:16,230 Yeah, yeah, Old Testament is intense. 516 00:27:16,230 --> 00:27:18,630 And they're never painted as. No. 517 00:27:18,630 --> 00:27:20,030 Pretty Moses. Yeah, yeah. 518 00:27:21,110 --> 00:27:23,070 He didn't even have enough courage to help his wife. 519 00:27:23,150 --> 00:27:26,150 You know, somebody was out. His wife must have been good 520 00:27:26,150 --> 00:27:28,550 looking or whatever. Or was that Abraham or Moses? 521 00:27:29,100 --> 00:27:31,500 I forgot who it was, but and yeah, Abraham lied to. 522 00:27:31,620 --> 00:27:32,900 Yeah. And then he was going to kind of 523 00:27:32,900 --> 00:27:33,980 give up his wife. Yeah. 524 00:27:33,980 --> 00:27:38,020 Yeah, You could have her. Go ahead ticker, just don't kill 525 00:27:38,020 --> 00:27:41,420 me, you know? And then you see that with all 526 00:27:41,420 --> 00:27:43,940 the disciples denying Jesus and the time, you know, and we 527 00:27:43,940 --> 00:27:46,380 always think I'm the man. I could, you know, I would have 528 00:27:46,380 --> 00:27:48,660 stood up and I should have been crucified next to Jesus and 529 00:27:48,660 --> 00:27:50,020 everybody was like, Nope, I'm not here. 530 00:27:50,180 --> 00:27:50,940 You wouldn't. Yeah. 531 00:27:51,100 --> 00:27:54,980 And then simultaneously, it's like Jordan Peterson and his the 532 00:27:54,980 --> 00:28:02,490 studying of the ego and how far that can be taken to an extreme 533 00:28:03,010 --> 00:28:06,010 in the 20th century, Nazi Germany. 534 00:28:06,530 --> 00:28:09,410 And everyone said no, I'd be the one that stood up and said no, 535 00:28:09,410 --> 00:28:10,930 that's wrong. And it's like you're going to 536 00:28:10,930 --> 00:28:14,730 stand up, you're going to say no, you and your family all get 537 00:28:14,730 --> 00:28:16,570 machine gunned. That's you. 538 00:28:17,370 --> 00:28:20,060 Prove it. It's important to know that 539 00:28:20,060 --> 00:28:23,860 that's where my ego can take me and how easily I can get there, 540 00:28:23,980 --> 00:28:29,420 how easily I can turn a blind eye to the destruction and 541 00:28:29,420 --> 00:28:31,900 horror that we're capable of producing. 542 00:28:32,380 --> 00:28:36,260 Oh, we do it all the time. We make compromises to better 543 00:28:36,260 --> 00:28:41,020 our ego all the time. And this is so the deflection 544 00:28:41,020 --> 00:28:45,420 can create significant barriers to change in healing. 545 00:28:46,060 --> 00:28:48,280 So. When you think of significant 546 00:28:48,280 --> 00:28:52,520 barriers in your life, before you felt extreme change or 547 00:28:52,520 --> 00:28:57,000 before you felt extreme healing, what do you think those barriers 548 00:28:57,000 --> 00:28:58,640 were like? I always think of like a 549 00:28:58,640 --> 00:29:00,520 highway, and then they put barriers up. 550 00:29:01,360 --> 00:29:04,040 What do you think those barriers were for you not? 551 00:29:04,510 --> 00:29:06,430 When you were unconscious not to change in healing. 552 00:29:06,470 --> 00:29:07,950 Yeah. It's important to understand 553 00:29:07,950 --> 00:29:09,790 that that's on the other side of the barrier. 554 00:29:09,790 --> 00:29:14,030 What's on the other side of this bear of this blockage while 555 00:29:14,030 --> 00:29:16,390 change in healing is on the other side of this. 556 00:29:16,470 --> 00:29:19,950 So what do I have to what's this bear bear the biggest barrier 557 00:29:19,950 --> 00:29:24,110 for me and for most addicts I would I would take a leap, you 558 00:29:24,110 --> 00:29:25,910 know and guess and say is is fear. 559 00:29:26,910 --> 00:29:30,150 Is fear fear. I often viewed as a like a 560 00:29:30,150 --> 00:29:34,360 concrete wall, exactly like a barrier, and I don't know how to 561 00:29:34,360 --> 00:29:39,160 get through a concrete wall. This is going to hurt, trying to 562 00:29:39,160 --> 00:29:46,120 go through this concrete wall. But if I don't want to die drunk 563 00:29:46,160 --> 00:29:48,880 or if I don't want to behave in my unconscious addiction 564 00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:52,840 anymore, if I don't want to be the type of man that is so 565 00:29:52,840 --> 00:29:57,480 selfish, I constantly harm others to get what I want, I 566 00:29:57,480 --> 00:30:00,120 have to be willing to take a different approach to life. 567 00:30:00,320 --> 00:30:03,560 I have to be willing to go through some fear. 568 00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:07,880 I've been down Dwayne's path 10 million times. 569 00:30:08,040 --> 00:30:10,920 I know every turn in the forest. I know every rock. 570 00:30:11,120 --> 00:30:14,120 I know where every bottle is. I know where all the women are. 571 00:30:14,360 --> 00:30:17,520 I know where the lack of fear, the lack of money, fear is. 572 00:30:18,200 --> 00:30:20,640 I've been down that path 10 million times. 573 00:30:20,920 --> 00:30:25,280 But when I'm asked to go down a new path, a spiritual path where 574 00:30:25,280 --> 00:30:28,570 I'm walking in faith, I don't know the terms on that path. 575 00:30:28,930 --> 00:30:31,490 I don't know the rocks in that forest. 576 00:30:31,650 --> 00:30:34,330 I don't know what's down around the next bend. 577 00:30:35,930 --> 00:30:39,850 It takes courage approaching a new direction in life. 578 00:30:39,850 --> 00:30:42,130 It takes courage to walk a new path. 579 00:30:42,970 --> 00:30:46,570 But when I have the courage and I tap into the God consciousness 580 00:30:46,570 --> 00:30:50,410 inside of me that can make that possible, that can make a new 581 00:30:50,410 --> 00:30:56,470 journey possible, I find out that this concrete barrier, and 582 00:30:56,470 --> 00:30:57,910 it's kind of more like a curtain. 583 00:30:59,070 --> 00:31:04,150 My fear was a lot more like a curtain than a concrete wall. 584 00:31:04,590 --> 00:31:06,190 And I can step through a curtain. 585 00:31:06,230 --> 00:31:10,270 That's the imagery in my mind. I stepped through a curtain into 586 00:31:10,270 --> 00:31:14,990 a New Forest, onto a new trail, onto a new path. 587 00:31:15,310 --> 00:31:16,710 I could step through a curtain, bro. 588 00:31:17,190 --> 00:31:19,070 I could fucking walk around a curtain. 589 00:31:19,150 --> 00:31:23,350 So you think that not only the ego being a bully with fear, but 590 00:31:23,350 --> 00:31:25,190 it was aghast lighting you with fear? 591 00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:27,640 Absolutely. Stay small, stay small. 592 00:31:27,640 --> 00:31:29,640 Don't try that. Don't. 593 00:31:29,640 --> 00:31:32,360 No, no. What we what we're doing, we 594 00:31:32,360 --> 00:31:36,560 know it works. I know a bottle works like that. 595 00:31:37,920 --> 00:31:42,320 I know a fight works like that. I instantly feel different. 596 00:31:43,040 --> 00:31:48,360 Those are old condition patterns for me to get control, to stay 597 00:31:48,360 --> 00:31:52,120 small, to to not heal the what's on the other side of that 598 00:31:52,120 --> 00:31:56,200 curtain change in healing. So change in healing is fearful? 599 00:31:56,280 --> 00:31:58,640 Yeah. Well, well, absolutely. 600 00:31:58,920 --> 00:32:00,440 Especially if I've never done it before. 601 00:32:00,760 --> 00:32:02,480 But all men of faith have courage. 602 00:32:03,760 --> 00:32:05,960 All men of faith have courage. Doesn't matter what I have faith 603 00:32:05,960 --> 00:32:08,440 in, It just matters that I start behaving as such. 604 00:32:09,040 --> 00:32:11,720 Can I act in a way I believe I'm going to be taken care of. 605 00:32:12,240 --> 00:32:15,560 What's taking care of me? The God consciousness inside of 606 00:32:15,560 --> 00:32:17,840 me that's eternal. It's not subject to life or 607 00:32:17,840 --> 00:32:19,600 death. It doesn't even die. 608 00:32:21,240 --> 00:32:26,120 But I'm worried about spending $4.30 at Walmart for spinach 609 00:32:26,560 --> 00:32:29,080 because I have a conditioned fear of money. 610 00:32:30,600 --> 00:32:32,320 It's it's crazy, it's delusional. 611 00:32:32,320 --> 00:32:35,440 But we're very interested in going beyond our addiction. 612 00:32:35,440 --> 00:32:38,000 We're very interested in evolving past that. 613 00:32:38,200 --> 00:32:42,480 What's the next existence? Beyond that, what's this new 614 00:32:42,480 --> 00:32:45,760 journey? Yeah, and I want to get a get 615 00:32:45,760 --> 00:32:48,630 into insights. From some spiritual leaders. 616 00:32:48,630 --> 00:32:50,110 Just we're gonna briefly go over those. 617 00:32:50,390 --> 00:32:53,430 Yeah. And then we'll go into the 618 00:32:53,430 --> 00:32:56,470 disillusion of the ego, especially in addiction 619 00:32:56,470 --> 00:32:58,990 recovery. Carl Jung, one of the. 620 00:32:59,030 --> 00:33:00,630 And I encourage everybody to look him up. 621 00:33:01,110 --> 00:33:03,550 He believed that addiction could be viewed as a misguided 622 00:33:03,550 --> 00:33:07,910 spiritual search. And so I think, and that he 623 00:33:07,910 --> 00:33:10,630 suggests that recovery requires acknowledging our shadow self. 624 00:33:11,260 --> 00:33:12,540 The aspect that we deny or ignore. 625 00:33:12,540 --> 00:33:14,620 So your shadow self is anything that you're not going to share 626 00:33:14,620 --> 00:33:18,500 with anyone else. So your shadow self is that part 627 00:33:18,500 --> 00:33:22,100 of you that you may not like, that super scary part of you, 628 00:33:22,580 --> 00:33:24,900 Like there's like you're not going to share with your mate, 629 00:33:25,180 --> 00:33:26,900 you're not going to share it. And we all have it. 630 00:33:27,060 --> 00:33:29,940 Oh yeah. Whether we have we, it's like, 631 00:33:29,940 --> 00:33:32,620 I'd really like to kill that person, you know, or or I'd 632 00:33:32,620 --> 00:33:35,900 really like to, you know, whatever it may be, like 633 00:33:36,140 --> 00:33:38,980 whatever. The part of us that we're not 634 00:33:38,980 --> 00:33:40,500 willing to share with somebody else. 635 00:33:40,770 --> 00:33:42,930 Because, he says that's the key to the understanding the shadow 636 00:33:42,930 --> 00:33:44,690 self. It's because we always get the 637 00:33:44,690 --> 00:33:46,210 shadow self. Like, I'll share some things 638 00:33:46,210 --> 00:33:48,490 with you, Dwayne. Like, I get pretty personal with 639 00:33:48,490 --> 00:33:49,010 you. Yep. 640 00:33:49,570 --> 00:33:52,170 But there are a few things I'm not going to share with anyone. 641 00:33:52,690 --> 00:33:54,090 Yeah, they'll take it to the grave stuff. 642 00:33:54,170 --> 00:33:55,610 Yeah, yeah, take it to the grave stuff. 643 00:33:55,610 --> 00:34:00,050 So you know, that's the shadow self, and if we deny or ignore 644 00:34:00,050 --> 00:34:04,050 it, he says, we have to acknowledge it, bring loving 645 00:34:04,050 --> 00:34:06,250 awareness to it, and then integrate it with our 646 00:34:06,250 --> 00:34:09,070 consciousness. To achieve and he uses a word 647 00:34:09,070 --> 00:34:11,469 and I think it's really good individuation. 648 00:34:12,270 --> 00:34:13,949 And Rudolf Steiner talks about this too. 649 00:34:14,190 --> 00:34:17,310 But he said it creates A psychological wholeness because 650 00:34:17,630 --> 00:34:21,070 you know as above, so below the dark and the light, the yin and 651 00:34:21,070 --> 00:34:22,550 the Yang. I mean this is virtual 652 00:34:22,550 --> 00:34:25,750 principle. Everywhere the seasons in life 653 00:34:26,350 --> 00:34:29,230 seasons, you see a tree lose its leaves and then gets them and 654 00:34:29,230 --> 00:34:34,400 grows, you know, and then. You see death and reborn babies 655 00:34:34,400 --> 00:34:37,679 and old people die, all of this. We could see it in creation. 656 00:34:37,920 --> 00:34:41,199 We see it in life. We see this whole process of 657 00:34:42,159 --> 00:34:46,600 acknowledging, yes, and I hate to say this, this sounds really 658 00:34:46,600 --> 00:34:49,120 bad when I say this, and a lot of people are gonna disagree 659 00:34:49,120 --> 00:34:52,280 with me on this, but there's nothing really bad or good. 660 00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:56,300 And you're like no. You don't know what happened to 661 00:34:56,300 --> 00:34:58,060 me, Jason. What a lot of bad shit happened 662 00:34:58,060 --> 00:34:59,300 to me, too. I mean, I could share some 663 00:34:59,300 --> 00:35:01,900 things with you that blow people's brains off, you know, 664 00:35:01,900 --> 00:35:04,420 about some super horrific things that happened to me, especially 665 00:35:04,420 --> 00:35:09,260 when I was younger. But at the end of the day, was 666 00:35:09,260 --> 00:35:12,060 it bad? You know? 667 00:35:12,460 --> 00:35:15,060 Am I going to be a victim to it, or am I going to have it as a 668 00:35:15,060 --> 00:35:20,940 learning lesson for me to understand that it's not me? 669 00:35:22,140 --> 00:35:26,220 Just because something was done to me doesn't mean that it's me 670 00:35:27,220 --> 00:35:28,740 that's powerful. You know what I mean? 671 00:35:28,740 --> 00:35:31,780 Or something that I did to somebody else, cuz we've all 672 00:35:31,780 --> 00:35:34,980 done horrific things to people, yeah, And we've all had horrific 673 00:35:34,980 --> 00:35:36,620 things happen to us. Every human has. 674 00:35:36,620 --> 00:35:39,340 That's very you're not special, and other people think they're. 675 00:35:39,380 --> 00:35:42,740 So special you are not unique. It's great bro. 676 00:35:42,900 --> 00:35:44,580 You are not unique in your suffering. 677 00:35:45,300 --> 00:35:47,780 You are unique in how you show up to it. 678 00:35:48,990 --> 00:35:53,750 If I can take responsibility for my perspective of the situation, 679 00:35:54,230 --> 00:35:57,510 if I have a separateness, if I'm separate from the situation, 680 00:35:57,990 --> 00:36:01,830 then it wasn't good or bad. It just is. 681 00:36:02,750 --> 00:36:05,230 It just happened. Yeah, and everybody thinks that 682 00:36:05,230 --> 00:36:07,750 their thing is so unique and individual and so horrific. 683 00:36:08,030 --> 00:36:11,390 I was reading an article about North Korea and women that 684 00:36:11,390 --> 00:36:13,230 defect from North Korea and they have to go through. 685 00:36:13,230 --> 00:36:15,110 It's horrific with dealing with the weather. 686 00:36:15,310 --> 00:36:17,450 So they finally make it. And they get the, you know, the 687 00:36:17,530 --> 00:36:19,330 the, the route that usually goes to China. 688 00:36:20,050 --> 00:36:27,530 Guess what happens when somebody sees this lone super frail woman 689 00:36:27,650 --> 00:36:29,970 and they instantly know she's from North Korea. 690 00:36:30,890 --> 00:36:34,970 Sex slave. It's like 80 or 90% of women 691 00:36:35,210 --> 00:36:37,690 that leave North Korea leave horrific like where they eating 692 00:36:37,690 --> 00:36:41,130 rats and stuff like that. I listen to that one, you know 693 00:36:41,130 --> 00:36:43,610 me Park or whatever her name is that defected and she's here in 694 00:36:43,610 --> 00:36:46,380 the United States now. She was like in the hospital, 695 00:36:46,500 --> 00:36:50,980 sick feeling, and she was watching the rats eat dead 696 00:36:50,980 --> 00:36:53,380 people. In the ward of the hospital 697 00:36:53,500 --> 00:36:55,980 where the beds were. Somebody would die and then at 698 00:36:55,980 --> 00:36:59,580 night time she would hear rats eating the body. 699 00:36:59,740 --> 00:37:02,580 And then people were starving in the hospital, so they were 700 00:37:02,580 --> 00:37:04,660 eating the rats because that's common practice. 701 00:37:04,660 --> 00:37:08,500 They eat rats and they were eating the rats and the rats had 702 00:37:08,500 --> 00:37:11,300 the diseases. So it's killing those people. 703 00:37:11,540 --> 00:37:15,160 So it says. So you think it's bad, right? 704 00:37:15,200 --> 00:37:15,840 Yeah. Yeah. 705 00:37:15,920 --> 00:37:18,640 You think you got it tough? Yeah, yeah, exactly horrific. 706 00:37:18,920 --> 00:37:21,600 Yeah. So, you know, put things into 707 00:37:21,600 --> 00:37:23,440 perspective. Yeah. 708 00:37:23,520 --> 00:37:25,800 Yeah, we've all have David and Goliath in our life. 709 00:37:26,960 --> 00:37:31,520 But the Goliath can be slayed. We see that in that story. 710 00:37:31,880 --> 00:37:34,400 David went to that stream, picked up those small little 711 00:37:34,400 --> 00:37:39,080 stones, he got a little slingshot, and he slewed the 712 00:37:39,080 --> 00:37:41,120 warrior of the world, the giants. 713 00:37:41,120 --> 00:37:42,880 Like, back in those days, they had giants. 714 00:37:42,880 --> 00:37:44,160 They've even proven this, you know? 715 00:37:44,940 --> 00:37:47,300 They've had this giant, this warrior that had killed 716 00:37:47,300 --> 00:37:50,660 thousands of people. Boom. 717 00:37:51,060 --> 00:37:52,660 But that's also. Found the vulnerable. 718 00:37:52,660 --> 00:37:54,740 That's the hero. That's the hero myth as well. 719 00:37:54,740 --> 00:37:58,340 That's the hero story. I have to go into the wilderness 720 00:37:58,700 --> 00:38:01,980 and slay the dragon. What's the dragon? 721 00:38:02,900 --> 00:38:05,100 Well, very cool. We were talking about this 722 00:38:05,100 --> 00:38:09,820 earlier at the gym, you know? Evolution, Evolutionally. 723 00:38:09,820 --> 00:38:12,980 Evolutional psychology. What's been eating primates for 724 00:38:13,140 --> 00:38:16,720 millions of years? Snakes, cats and birds. 725 00:38:16,720 --> 00:38:20,240 We've talked about this before. Now, What's the amalgamation of 726 00:38:20,320 --> 00:38:24,680 a snake, a cat and a bird? It's the ultimate predator. 727 00:38:24,720 --> 00:38:29,560 It's a dragon. And I have to be willing to go 728 00:38:29,560 --> 00:38:33,680 into the wilderness, confront the dragon. 729 00:38:34,960 --> 00:38:37,960 And that's what Young is the talking about when he's talking 730 00:38:37,960 --> 00:38:40,760 about shadow self. What's the dragon? 731 00:38:41,160 --> 00:38:43,240 Is it real? Is there really a dragon out in 732 00:38:43,240 --> 00:38:45,040 my backyard? No. 733 00:38:45,480 --> 00:38:50,760 It's the shadow in my mind that I've been so afraid to look at 734 00:38:50,880 --> 00:38:54,440 that I've been so afraid to take responsibility for those crazy 735 00:38:54,440 --> 00:38:56,400 thoughts. What's the only thing a 736 00:38:56,400 --> 00:39:00,200 monster's not afraid of? Another monster? 737 00:39:01,240 --> 00:39:06,160 I got to turn a little bit into a monster in order to walk into 738 00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:08,400 that wilderness. I got to grow some fucking teeth 739 00:39:09,220 --> 00:39:12,220 and take responsibility for the fear in my mind. 740 00:39:13,020 --> 00:39:17,660 And when I walked through that fear, I realized I don't even 741 00:39:17,660 --> 00:39:20,260 have it that bad. Yeah, definitely not in a 742 00:39:20,260 --> 00:39:22,940 hospital bed dying. Yeah, and I I always think of 743 00:39:22,940 --> 00:39:25,780 Witcher. Yeah, he's part monster. 744 00:39:26,020 --> 00:39:28,140 Yeah, you have. Who's a monster fighter? 745 00:39:28,220 --> 00:39:32,460 You have to be part monster if you're gonna confront the 746 00:39:32,460 --> 00:39:35,180 monster of your mind. Yeah, and I love Rudolf Steiner. 747 00:39:35,180 --> 00:39:37,860 I've been reading a lot of his. I've got three books over there 748 00:39:37,860 --> 00:39:40,490 of him. That I just bought Steiner's 749 00:39:40,490 --> 00:39:43,010 teachings underscored the need for overcoming ego driven 750 00:39:43,010 --> 00:39:45,370 consciousness to atstain spiritual transformation. 751 00:39:46,210 --> 00:39:49,250 And he talks about tonight that aligns with Young's notion of 752 00:39:49,250 --> 00:39:53,250 individuation, but this overcoming the ego driven 753 00:39:53,250 --> 00:39:54,730 conscious and that's what he calls it. 754 00:39:54,730 --> 00:39:59,210 And I love the word that it's driving the car. 755 00:39:59,450 --> 00:40:01,770 Yeah, yeah, it has control, yeah, yeah. 756 00:40:02,290 --> 00:40:06,330 When? When my ego is in the driver's 757 00:40:06,330 --> 00:40:10,530 seat. I've proven it to myself over 758 00:40:10,530 --> 00:40:14,210 and over again. I'm crash and burn like my ego 759 00:40:14,210 --> 00:40:16,290 is not a good pilot. It's just not. 760 00:40:16,730 --> 00:40:22,050 It's a great copilot, but it's a really crappy, really shitty 761 00:40:22,050 --> 00:40:24,130 pilot. We crash and burn every time. 762 00:40:24,250 --> 00:40:28,930 I might like, you know, coast for a while, but eventually my 763 00:40:28,930 --> 00:40:33,760 control and my selfishness run people over and I crash the 764 00:40:33,760 --> 00:40:35,720 vehicle. Yes, I'm trying to get through 765 00:40:35,720 --> 00:40:40,960 the world with, get through this world with if God is forefront, 766 00:40:41,720 --> 00:40:46,920 if vertical dimension is first, that's who I want flying the 767 00:40:46,920 --> 00:40:48,920 plane, that's who I want driving. 768 00:40:49,080 --> 00:40:52,480 That's my pilot. I need to get in touch with the 769 00:40:52,480 --> 00:40:58,120 part of myself that is the pilot of a successful life. 770 00:40:58,320 --> 00:41:00,800 Yeah, I would say that like it says. 771 00:41:01,410 --> 00:41:04,890 God is my Co pilot and my dad would always say that's cuz my 772 00:41:04,890 --> 00:41:06,930 dad was pretty religious, you know, Baptist all that. 773 00:41:07,450 --> 00:41:09,810 But I always like what he said. He's like, that's not the true, 774 00:41:09,970 --> 00:41:11,170 that's backwards. Yeah, he said. 775 00:41:11,170 --> 00:41:13,690 God is your pilot and you're the Co pilot. 776 00:41:13,690 --> 00:41:15,650 You're the Co. I'm a really great Co pilot. 777 00:41:15,690 --> 00:41:18,770 Yes, yeah, exactly. And I really love that analogy. 778 00:41:18,770 --> 00:41:22,290 So whether it's God, herself, universe, whatever, they're the 779 00:41:22,290 --> 00:41:23,610 pilot. What does that look like? 780 00:41:23,610 --> 00:41:26,370 We've talked about it before. That looks like surrendering my 781 00:41:26,370 --> 00:41:29,450 control. I don't need to control the 782 00:41:29,450 --> 00:41:31,090 ship. I don't need to fly the plane. 783 00:41:31,410 --> 00:41:35,210 God, you fly it. Universe, you fly it. 784 00:41:35,690 --> 00:41:41,970 I am prepared to deal with whatever comes, but that comes. 785 00:41:41,970 --> 00:41:44,290 That's because I have a spiritual practice. 786 00:41:44,290 --> 00:41:47,530 That's because I have a conscious aware checklist to get 787 00:41:47,530 --> 00:41:50,570 me through the day. I know I can handle life when it 788 00:41:50,570 --> 00:41:55,170 gets tough because I'm connected to God it. 789 00:41:55,170 --> 00:41:58,320 Where does all source generate from the present moment? 790 00:41:59,640 --> 00:42:02,480 Where does God live the present moment? 791 00:42:03,120 --> 00:42:08,320 Why can I tap into infinite source all power and get through 792 00:42:08,320 --> 00:42:11,400 hard shit? Because I'm connected to the 793 00:42:11,400 --> 00:42:14,960 present moment. So in the moment in that, in 794 00:42:14,960 --> 00:42:19,000 that scenario, in that Copilot scenario, I'm honoring the 795 00:42:19,000 --> 00:42:22,240 present moment, I'm honoring the perfect objective, which is of 796 00:42:22,240 --> 00:42:24,360 God, and I'm heading in that direction. 797 00:42:24,480 --> 00:42:27,310 That's so good. I know I'll never be perfect, 798 00:42:27,510 --> 00:42:29,110 but that's the direction I want to head in. 799 00:42:30,030 --> 00:42:32,910 Yeah, and let's get into for the last few minutes, ego 800 00:42:32,910 --> 00:42:34,950 dissolution in addiction recovery. 801 00:42:36,350 --> 00:42:39,030 So we talked about dominance early, earlier. 802 00:42:39,030 --> 00:42:42,830 But dissolving the ego's dominance allows us to confront 803 00:42:42,830 --> 00:42:45,950 our addiction without deflection or denial, seeing it as a 804 00:42:45,950 --> 00:42:49,430 harmful habit rather than a fundamental part of our 805 00:42:49,430 --> 00:42:51,870 identity. That's good. 806 00:42:51,870 --> 00:42:54,070 It's just a bad habit. It's not who I am. 807 00:42:54,510 --> 00:42:56,430 That's a crazy thought. It's not who I am. 808 00:42:56,950 --> 00:43:00,550 There's another crazy thought. There's no it happens 58,000 809 00:43:00,550 --> 00:43:03,310 times a day initially. So we have to get very good at 810 00:43:03,310 --> 00:43:07,070 spotting the thought. It's almost like another analogy 811 00:43:07,070 --> 00:43:10,510 is just catch it fishing. Catch and release. 812 00:43:11,950 --> 00:43:14,590 Catch the crazy thought, release it. 813 00:43:14,910 --> 00:43:17,630 That's not who I am. Catch the crazy thought, release 814 00:43:17,630 --> 00:43:18,390 it. That's not who I am. 815 00:43:18,550 --> 00:43:21,270 It's dissolving the ego's dominance. 816 00:43:21,810 --> 00:43:25,970 I'm not going to get rid of the ego per se, but I can release 817 00:43:26,010 --> 00:43:29,770 its control over my identity. Yes, 100 percent. 818 00:43:29,770 --> 00:43:31,890 It's no longer dominating my life. 819 00:43:32,130 --> 00:43:34,570 It's no longer steering the boat. 820 00:43:36,810 --> 00:43:40,930 Yeah, that's so good. And and it says seeing it as a 821 00:43:40,930 --> 00:43:43,210 harmful habit rather than a fundamental part of my identity. 822 00:43:43,490 --> 00:43:46,530 The seeing is the hard part, yes, because when you're blind 823 00:43:47,690 --> 00:43:51,760 then you're going off of. The other senses take, you know, 824 00:43:51,760 --> 00:43:54,320 like physically they've said that with somebody that's blind 825 00:43:54,320 --> 00:43:55,840 and maybe we have somebody listening that's blind. 826 00:43:55,840 --> 00:43:58,760 They could better explain this. But they always talk about like 827 00:43:59,880 --> 00:44:02,240 if you can't see, then all of a sudden your nose, you're 828 00:44:02,240 --> 00:44:04,400 hearing. The other senses take control. 829 00:44:04,400 --> 00:44:06,800 Yeah, they'll see for you. Yeah, exactly. 830 00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:13,680 And I always think of this is if I'm looking, if I'm not looking 831 00:44:13,880 --> 00:44:17,390 and seeing. Then I'm allowing other things 832 00:44:17,390 --> 00:44:22,710 to take control, and I'm relying on those other things that are 833 00:44:22,710 --> 00:44:27,350 harmful to me to whether it's a bottle or whether it's a needle, 834 00:44:27,350 --> 00:44:30,910 whatever it may be. I'm relying those things to 835 00:44:31,310 --> 00:44:34,750 reinforce my false identity. Very good, yeah. 836 00:44:34,950 --> 00:44:41,510 Yeah, that's my delusional existence as an addict, seeing 837 00:44:41,510 --> 00:44:45,930 it as a harmful habit. You know, there's a progression 838 00:44:46,250 --> 00:44:50,250 to all spiritual development, of course, and we will continue 839 00:44:50,690 --> 00:44:54,570 that progression. It's a lifetime endeavor that is 840 00:44:54,570 --> 00:44:56,810 is constantly changing and evolving and there's a 841 00:44:56,810 --> 00:45:00,850 progression to that. But initially, initially, for 842 00:45:00,850 --> 00:45:05,730 most issues, especially ego delusionment, I can't see the 843 00:45:05,730 --> 00:45:07,610 truth. My ego is in control. 844 00:45:08,970 --> 00:45:11,850 We kind of get that little window of grace where we 845 00:45:11,850 --> 00:45:14,290 realized, OK, something needs to change here. 846 00:45:14,790 --> 00:45:18,390 Something needs to happen differently in order for me to 847 00:45:18,390 --> 00:45:21,750 heal. And then that ego, same ego, 848 00:45:21,750 --> 00:45:25,590 part of me takes over and says I'll do it, I'll change us, I'll 849 00:45:25,590 --> 00:45:27,070 change us. We need to change. 850 00:45:27,070 --> 00:45:28,070 I'm ready. I'm ready. 851 00:45:28,070 --> 00:45:33,390 I'll answer and and it's still selfish, it's still controlling. 852 00:45:33,590 --> 00:45:38,430 And what ends up happening is I fall on my face because, and I 853 00:45:38,430 --> 00:45:42,030 don't change because I'm still behaving selfishly. 854 00:45:42,230 --> 00:45:47,390 I'm not really killing myself with alcohol anymore, but I'm 855 00:45:47,390 --> 00:45:50,750 destroying every relationship I touch because you're not 856 00:45:50,750 --> 00:45:53,430 behaving the way I need you to behave in order for me to be OK. 857 00:45:54,070 --> 00:45:57,350 And use bounce from, yes, a job relationship to shift my 858 00:45:57,350 --> 00:46:00,150 addiction to the next thing. And what my addiction really is 859 00:46:00,150 --> 00:46:02,670 is this selfish and controlling. I want control. 860 00:46:02,670 --> 00:46:08,100 I want to dominate not only myself but others, so seeing it 861 00:46:08,540 --> 00:46:13,340 is the same as shining laser point awareness, which part of 862 00:46:13,340 --> 00:46:16,580 me has laser point awareness God consciousness. 863 00:46:16,940 --> 00:46:22,860 So if I can shine laser point awareness on this delusion, 864 00:46:23,380 --> 00:46:28,060 shine laser point awareness on this selfishness, sign laser 865 00:46:28,060 --> 00:46:35,940 point awareness on this sin, it's not my ego trying to fix 866 00:46:35,940 --> 00:46:39,220 itself. I'm now inviting the appropriate 867 00:46:39,220 --> 00:46:43,060 power into the situation that's going to give me a real chance 868 00:46:43,060 --> 00:46:46,580 to heal. So we like to say that the 869 00:46:46,580 --> 00:46:51,740 problem is not solved. The problem of of my delusion, 870 00:46:51,740 --> 00:46:55,820 the problem of my selfishness, the problem of my dishonesty, 871 00:46:55,820 --> 00:46:59,580 That problem is not solved. When I bring laser point 872 00:46:59,580 --> 00:47:03,900 awareness to the situation, those parts of my character 873 00:47:04,140 --> 00:47:09,060 begin to dissolve. It becomes to, it begins to 874 00:47:09,060 --> 00:47:11,220 fall. It just kind of falls to the 875 00:47:11,220 --> 00:47:13,460 side. It's dissolved like an Alka 876 00:47:13,460 --> 00:47:15,820 seltzer. It just it just kind of fizzes 877 00:47:15,820 --> 00:47:21,980 out because now I'm seeing it because now I'm shining laser 878 00:47:21,980 --> 00:47:25,940 point awareness on it. God makes that possible. 879 00:47:26,380 --> 00:47:29,380 Dwayne and and his ego can't do that. 880 00:47:29,940 --> 00:47:32,860 What did you say to Jim earlier today about if it was right and 881 00:47:32,860 --> 00:47:36,340 easy? Yeah, that Alex Hormel or 882 00:47:36,340 --> 00:47:38,500 Hermosi or whatever his name was, he was talking about that. 883 00:47:38,500 --> 00:47:41,380 He goes, It was so good. He had a short I encourage 884 00:47:41,380 --> 00:47:45,900 people to follow him and he was talking about if it's if it was 885 00:47:46,380 --> 00:47:48,620 easy and right, you would have already done it. 886 00:47:48,620 --> 00:47:49,580 You I would have already. Done it. 887 00:47:49,580 --> 00:47:52,460 So when you're debate in a debate between what's easy and 888 00:47:52,460 --> 00:47:56,300 what's hard, always pick the hard because you got to go for 889 00:47:56,300 --> 00:47:58,300 the hard because if it was just easy. 890 00:47:59,130 --> 00:48:01,330 In Riot, you would have already done it, if that makes sense. 891 00:48:01,330 --> 00:48:04,290 So if it's just easy, then that's you're probably taking a 892 00:48:04,290 --> 00:48:07,770 shortcut, or you're being lazy, or you're not handling it in the 893 00:48:07,770 --> 00:48:11,010 way that you should by doing the hard thing and the hard thing. 894 00:48:11,010 --> 00:48:12,890 And he talks about that too. Hard things are hard things. 895 00:48:12,890 --> 00:48:14,730 Just accept them. Yeah, the minute you begin to 896 00:48:14,730 --> 00:48:17,530 accept like this is gonna suck. This is gonna be really hard. 897 00:48:17,690 --> 00:48:19,290 Most people don't do hard things. 898 00:48:19,490 --> 00:48:22,260 I'm gonna do hard things. I've got an addiction. 899 00:48:22,460 --> 00:48:25,260 I like to take the bottle. I like to take a needle. 900 00:48:25,260 --> 00:48:29,500 I like men or women or whatever and use their bodies, whatever 901 00:48:29,500 --> 00:48:31,940 it may be. I'm going to do the hard thing 902 00:48:32,300 --> 00:48:34,420 and it's going to be hard. But this is the way it goes. 903 00:48:34,900 --> 00:48:36,460 Listen to this. Seeing it is a harmful. 904 00:48:36,460 --> 00:48:39,660 I have a red than a fundamental part of it any as we silence. 905 00:48:40,300 --> 00:48:44,300 So seeing in silence as we silence the ego, we become open 906 00:48:44,300 --> 00:48:48,020 to accept help change and grow. And I want you to talk about 907 00:48:48,020 --> 00:48:50,020 this because I had talked about this in the gym. 908 00:48:50,600 --> 00:48:52,520 We always have these great conversations in the gym. 909 00:48:52,520 --> 00:48:55,000 We're working out. But we silenced the ego. 910 00:48:55,560 --> 00:48:58,360 And I was telling you earlier about physical, physiological 911 00:48:58,360 --> 00:49:01,880 changes. And as a child, the monster in 912 00:49:01,880 --> 00:49:06,240 the closet, the monster in the bed, yes, and how it changes 913 00:49:06,240 --> 00:49:08,720 your body. But I want us to think of of 914 00:49:08,720 --> 00:49:10,880 higher self, and I want us to think of God and I want to 915 00:49:10,880 --> 00:49:13,600 picture dad. So you're sitting there freaking 916 00:49:13,600 --> 00:49:16,880 yourself out, even to the point of your body changing. 917 00:49:17,320 --> 00:49:20,060 You're in pure terror. Yeah, and and everybody can 918 00:49:20,060 --> 00:49:22,060 remember this as a child because most everybody's been afraid at 919 00:49:22,060 --> 00:49:25,540 some point pure terror. You have given yourself pure, 920 00:49:26,100 --> 00:49:30,340 absolutely pure terror because you have convinced yourself that 921 00:49:30,340 --> 00:49:34,140 in that closet is a big one eyed purple monster that's super 922 00:49:34,140 --> 00:49:37,020 hairy and scary monster. Zinc is really funny with that 923 00:49:37,900 --> 00:49:39,340 great, great movie. I love that one. 924 00:49:39,900 --> 00:49:43,220 But you've convinced yourself this thing is going to come out 925 00:49:43,220 --> 00:49:45,940 of the closet any moment. You've even kind of maybe even 926 00:49:45,940 --> 00:49:48,140 saw the door move a little bit. You've heard a noise. 927 00:49:48,530 --> 00:49:51,050 In there, you've convinced yourself of all this false 928 00:49:51,050 --> 00:49:56,210 reality. You're finally you get enough 929 00:49:57,810 --> 00:49:59,330 hell, I think, Guess what happens. 930 00:49:59,330 --> 00:50:01,690 Dad comes running in, flips the light on. 931 00:50:01,890 --> 00:50:02,610 What's wrong? What's wrong? 932 00:50:02,610 --> 00:50:04,250 What's wrong? You know, half tired. 933 00:50:04,610 --> 00:50:05,690 You know he's trying to get some sleep. 934 00:50:05,690 --> 00:50:07,170 And you know the monster, my cousin. 935 00:50:07,650 --> 00:50:09,450 And he. What is the first thing dad does 936 00:50:09,890 --> 00:50:13,650 with the light on? He opens the door and you look 937 00:50:13,650 --> 00:50:15,970 in the closet and there's your shoes, your clothes. 938 00:50:16,210 --> 00:50:18,170 No monster. There's no monster. 939 00:50:18,980 --> 00:50:22,460 It's the same God or herself is the dad. 940 00:50:23,460 --> 00:50:26,420 He's the one that will, if you're willing to see. 941 00:50:26,700 --> 00:50:31,020 He's the one that comes in and silences the ego because he 942 00:50:31,020 --> 00:50:32,740 flips the light on and opens the door. 943 00:50:32,940 --> 00:50:34,860 So powerful if you know what I. Yeah, yeah. 944 00:50:34,900 --> 00:50:35,820 Literally. Shines. 945 00:50:36,060 --> 00:50:37,180 Literally, Yeah. Yeah. 946 00:50:37,420 --> 00:50:42,260 And you know, not to get too into any religion, but that's a 947 00:50:42,260 --> 00:50:46,500 wonderful starting place. People will say and often judge. 948 00:50:46,500 --> 00:50:51,340 Oh, I'll be I don't like that big bearded man in the sky and I 949 00:50:51,340 --> 00:50:53,300 don't believe. No, no, that doesn't work, and 950 00:50:53,300 --> 00:50:54,780 it's perfectly fine. If it doesn't work for 951 00:50:54,780 --> 00:50:57,740 individuals, we just suggest that you find a pathway to 952 00:50:57,740 --> 00:51:05,380 spirituality that works for you. But this idea of a powerful, 953 00:51:07,140 --> 00:51:16,740 judgmental father figure in the sky, that's a great starting off 954 00:51:16,740 --> 00:51:21,380 place. That's a great OK, well, maybe 955 00:51:21,380 --> 00:51:24,260 I'll do this because that judgmental father, in the 956 00:51:24,260 --> 00:51:28,740 future, it's going to be it. It knows it's better for me in 957 00:51:28,740 --> 00:51:31,540 the future. If I start addressing my fear, 958 00:51:32,100 --> 00:51:34,660 if I start addressing my addiction, if I start having an 959 00:51:34,700 --> 00:51:37,820 aim, what's we human being? Human beings are the only 960 00:51:37,820 --> 00:51:40,500 creatures on planet Earth that can bargain with the future. 961 00:51:41,810 --> 00:51:44,210 I'm going to make a sacrificial decision now. 962 00:51:45,730 --> 00:51:49,730 A hard decision now. That's so good, yes, to address 963 00:51:49,730 --> 00:51:52,530 my addiction. So because it's, I know it's 964 00:51:52,530 --> 00:51:54,810 going to benefit future Dwayne later. 965 00:51:55,450 --> 00:51:58,130 That's so good. Which part of me knows it's 966 00:51:58,130 --> 00:52:00,690 going to benefit future Dwayne later? 967 00:52:01,450 --> 00:52:03,490 Maybe it's that judgmental father. 968 00:52:04,330 --> 00:52:08,400 Why is the father judgmental? Why does the father shine light? 969 00:52:08,520 --> 00:52:11,520 Well, we always say this too, Like religion helps you bring a 970 00:52:11,520 --> 00:52:12,920 system in place. Absolutely. 971 00:52:13,120 --> 00:52:14,800 So you got chaos going on in your life? 972 00:52:14,880 --> 00:52:16,120 Yes? Get involved in a chess, 973 00:52:16,200 --> 00:52:18,280 Absolutely. Our program or whatever, any, 974 00:52:18,280 --> 00:52:21,120 any path is a good path as long as you're touching spiritual 975 00:52:21,120 --> 00:52:24,400 principles. That vertical dimension, that 976 00:52:24,400 --> 00:52:29,320 father figure image, that part of me only wants the best for 977 00:52:29,320 --> 00:52:32,600 me. That's that's what I'm getting 978 00:52:32,720 --> 00:52:35,000 in touch with when I'm bargaining with the future. 979 00:52:35,820 --> 00:52:38,860 So it's a great starting place. They don't hold any prejudice 980 00:52:38,860 --> 00:52:41,940 against any religion and that's one that works for me. 981 00:52:42,220 --> 00:52:44,340 Yeah, 100%. And I think we all have. 982 00:52:44,540 --> 00:52:47,100 I have like a view of Mystic Christianity and stuff like 983 00:52:47,100 --> 00:52:48,820 that. Judaism. 984 00:52:49,260 --> 00:52:51,380 Everybody kind of has a mix of different things that they 985 00:52:51,380 --> 00:52:53,820 believe in or do. So for the next 5 minutes, let's 986 00:52:53,820 --> 00:52:56,220 get into some positive affirmations that people can do. 987 00:52:56,540 --> 00:52:58,700 And you're great at this. These are like great tools, bro. 988 00:52:58,740 --> 00:53:00,300 You're great at this too. You're great at this, too. 989 00:53:00,780 --> 00:53:02,300 But I think you're ahead of me on this. 990 00:53:02,300 --> 00:53:04,860 Let's have a scale here. No, no, on a scale one to 10, I 991 00:53:04,860 --> 00:53:06,940 think I'm probably at a four and you're at A8. 992 00:53:07,260 --> 00:53:10,460 But so let's get into some affirmations real quick before 993 00:53:10,460 --> 00:53:13,490 we go. What are some affirmations? 994 00:53:13,490 --> 00:53:15,210 Besides, you know that's not real. 995 00:53:15,330 --> 00:53:17,530 I use that one all the time. You you taught that one to me 996 00:53:17,530 --> 00:53:18,810 and I love it. What are some of the 997 00:53:18,810 --> 00:53:22,450 affirmations that you use daily? So these are practical tools 998 00:53:22,530 --> 00:53:27,770 that help us navigate our day. Now, if I'm interested in going 999 00:53:27,770 --> 00:53:31,050 through the world, basically we like to say I made a handshake 1000 00:53:31,050 --> 00:53:34,410 commitment with the universe that I'm willing to feel good 1001 00:53:35,010 --> 00:53:37,450 all the time. That's an affirmation. 1002 00:53:37,650 --> 00:53:40,370 That's an affirmation. It's also a radical idea. 1003 00:53:40,780 --> 00:53:42,820 Most people will never make that commitment. 1004 00:53:43,180 --> 00:53:47,380 But if I'm heading in the perfect objective, which is of 1005 00:53:47,660 --> 00:53:53,060 higher self, I'm willing to make that handshake commitment. 1006 00:53:53,060 --> 00:53:56,180 I want to feel good all the time, not just when I get. 1007 00:53:56,220 --> 00:53:57,420 Even when you're in a foreign country. 1008 00:53:57,700 --> 00:54:01,500 Even when I'm in foreign country on vacation, Not just when this 1009 00:54:01,500 --> 00:54:04,980 is perfect, I'll be using it. Trust me, I'm using the tools. 1010 00:54:05,340 --> 00:54:07,540 Not not just when I'm having sex. 1011 00:54:07,540 --> 00:54:09,340 Oh, I don't feel good if I'm getting laid. 1012 00:54:09,460 --> 00:54:12,020 Isn't amazing how present we are only with an orgasm? 1013 00:54:12,060 --> 00:54:15,060 Yeah, yeah, absolutely. You're like a pure presence. 1014 00:54:15,220 --> 00:54:16,340 That's you're not thinking about it. 1015 00:54:16,340 --> 00:54:18,780 That's circular. But I mean, yeah, you're not 1016 00:54:18,780 --> 00:54:23,100 thinking about anything else. Like in that moment you are not 1017 00:54:23,100 --> 00:54:24,620 thinking about anything else? No. 1018 00:54:24,660 --> 00:54:28,300 Very present. And sorry I I took it there. 1019 00:54:28,340 --> 00:54:30,220 It's that's a nice practice as well. 1020 00:54:30,980 --> 00:54:35,750 Yeah, exactly. To bring us present the So the 1021 00:54:35,750 --> 00:54:39,150 handshake, commitment with the universe is all the time. 1022 00:54:39,190 --> 00:54:42,470 That's the radical piece. Not just when I'm orgasming, not 1023 00:54:42,470 --> 00:54:45,470 just when I'm getting a paycheck, not just when being, 1024 00:54:45,470 --> 00:54:49,750 oh, I got the green light at the traffic light all the time. 1025 00:54:50,150 --> 00:54:53,830 So it's independent of my outside circumstances. 1026 00:54:53,990 --> 00:55:00,190 So what I'm getting in touch with is my inner being, my inner 1027 00:55:00,710 --> 00:55:08,160 emotional intelligence. Great affirmation. 1028 00:55:08,560 --> 00:55:10,800 Great affirmation is thank you God for this moment. 1029 00:55:11,560 --> 00:55:13,800 Thank you God for this moment. I use this every single day, 1030 00:55:13,800 --> 00:55:16,400 multiple times a day, usually during cardio. 1031 00:55:16,640 --> 00:55:18,640 But if I'm present enough, it's it's with me. 1032 00:55:18,720 --> 00:55:20,360 That's the that's the struggle. Yeah. 1033 00:55:20,360 --> 00:55:22,680 Thank you, God, for this moment. Thank you, God, for this moment. 1034 00:55:22,680 --> 00:55:26,400 Thank you, God, for this moment. I'm very interested in rewiring 1035 00:55:26,720 --> 00:55:30,960 the neurological synapses that help create my identity, a 1036 00:55:30,960 --> 00:55:32,440 belief. It's just the thought that you 1037 00:55:32,440 --> 00:55:36,460 keep thinking. So our job now with a spiritual 1038 00:55:36,460 --> 00:55:40,340 development practice of expansion practices while start 1039 00:55:40,340 --> 00:55:41,740 paying attention to your thoughts. 1040 00:55:42,220 --> 00:55:44,620 That's the handshake commitment with the universe. 1041 00:55:44,860 --> 00:55:47,940 If I'm going to feel good all the time, I need to start taking 1042 00:55:47,940 --> 00:55:52,300 responsibility for the 6060 thousand thoughts a day that are 1043 00:55:52,300 --> 00:55:55,460 kicking my ass. Thank you God, for this moment 1044 00:55:55,620 --> 00:55:58,370 is a thought. Thank you, God, for this moment 1045 00:55:58,650 --> 00:56:02,530 opens the door for gratitude. I can start to vibrate at a 1046 00:56:02,530 --> 00:56:05,010 level of well, I'm just. I'm just appreciative for this 1047 00:56:05,010 --> 00:56:09,490 moment, no matter what it looks like, independent of my outside 1048 00:56:09,490 --> 00:56:11,410 circumstances. Very powerful. 1049 00:56:11,970 --> 00:56:15,130 Another great one that has worked wonders for me is I am 1050 00:56:15,130 --> 00:56:19,250 wildly successful, not because of my bank account, but because 1051 00:56:19,330 --> 00:56:20,930 I'm connected to the present moment. 1052 00:56:21,410 --> 00:56:25,010 I'm wildly successful. And you're not lying to yourself 1053 00:56:25,010 --> 00:56:26,810 because you're not an addict in the present moment. 1054 00:56:27,050 --> 00:56:29,290 No, you're not Jason Rigby in the present moment, and I'm not 1055 00:56:29,290 --> 00:56:31,090 poor either. No, you're nothing in the 1056 00:56:31,090 --> 00:56:31,970 present. Look at this. 1057 00:56:31,970 --> 00:56:33,490 Look at this. Abundance around me have 1058 00:56:33,490 --> 00:56:35,530 abundance of air. I have abundance of sunshine. 1059 00:56:35,530 --> 00:56:38,490 I have abundance of trees. I have abundance of access to 1060 00:56:38,490 --> 00:56:41,530 loved ones. I have abundance to navigating 1061 00:56:41,530 --> 00:56:42,970 the world. I can get anywhere I want to 1062 00:56:42,970 --> 00:56:43,490 get. Today. 1063 00:56:43,490 --> 00:56:45,530 Tomorrow I could leave and go. Anywhere in the world I want to 1064 00:56:45,530 --> 00:56:46,850 go. I have abundance. 1065 00:56:46,970 --> 00:56:51,260 All around me. I'm wildly successful, not 1066 00:56:51,260 --> 00:56:53,660 because of my bank account, but because I'm connected to the 1067 00:56:53,660 --> 00:56:56,260 present moment. I'm reaffirming my identity. 1068 00:56:56,260 --> 00:57:00,780 I'm tapping into the success that is around me and I'm 1069 00:57:00,780 --> 00:57:02,420 heading in that direction. Yes, I love that. 1070 00:57:02,460 --> 00:57:05,700 That's good. I'm infinitely abundant because 1071 00:57:05,740 --> 00:57:07,820 I'm the flowering of consciousness. 1072 00:57:08,340 --> 00:57:10,620 I'm not infinitely abundant because of dollar signs. 1073 00:57:11,180 --> 00:57:14,980 I'm infinitely abundant. Abundant because I'm the 1074 00:57:14,980 --> 00:57:18,300 flowering of consciousness. Because my consciousness is 1075 00:57:18,300 --> 00:57:23,170 becoming more and more aware, because that's the realm, that's 1076 00:57:23,170 --> 00:57:26,850 the dimension that I want to be more and more in touch with that 1077 00:57:26,850 --> 00:57:41,010 I want. Yeah. 1078 00:57:27,210 --> 00:57:30,730 In the forefront. I'm infinitely abundant. 1079 00:57:31,130 --> 00:57:34,170 How abundant. Infinitely abundant because I'm 1080 00:57:34,170 --> 00:57:38,090 the flowering of consciousness. Those mantras have served me so 1081 00:57:38,090 --> 00:57:40,610 well, and there are countless other. 1082 00:57:41,250 --> 00:57:43,410 And there's, like, you know, in their material we have, I'm not 1083 00:57:43,410 --> 00:57:45,890 defined by my addiction. What are some of yours? 1084 00:57:47,110 --> 00:57:48,230 Yeah, yeah. I use. 1085 00:57:48,310 --> 00:57:53,230 I'm kind of more like in the because of my ulps. 1086 00:57:53,350 --> 00:57:55,190 I found those and I encourage everybody to look that up. 1087 00:57:55,190 --> 00:57:57,350 There's great articles just online if you type in upper 1088 00:57:57,350 --> 00:58:00,470 limit problem. And so I have to say I am worthy 1089 00:58:00,470 --> 00:58:03,510 of yeah, because I feel like I'm not worthy of things. 1090 00:58:04,090 --> 00:58:07,290 I am worthy of success. I am worthy of a great 1091 00:58:07,290 --> 00:58:08,570 relationship. I am worthy. 1092 00:58:08,570 --> 00:58:12,010 So I use the I am worthy. I like anything with I am 1093 00:58:12,010 --> 00:58:15,130 because that's I am that I am you know that's what that's what 1094 00:58:15,250 --> 00:58:17,210 that's God Cause Jesus said yeah I am that I am. 1095 00:58:17,250 --> 00:58:20,490 I say it's total present moment, so whenever I can say you know. 1096 00:58:20,930 --> 00:58:23,890 And it's not like I'm saying false things to myself, It's 1097 00:58:23,890 --> 00:58:27,210 like you know, because my higher self, my true self. 1098 00:58:27,810 --> 00:58:30,250 Is the. I am absolutely so I believe 1099 00:58:30,450 --> 00:58:32,290 those things. Whether you're Christian, you 1100 00:58:32,290 --> 00:58:33,490 believe the Holy Spirit relies in you. 1101 00:58:33,490 --> 00:58:35,050 That Holy Spirit is part of the Trinity. 1102 00:58:35,370 --> 00:58:36,810 That is the I am. Yes. 1103 00:58:36,930 --> 00:58:41,090 So every religion has this, this I am, you know, so that resides 1104 00:58:41,090 --> 00:58:43,290 in me. So the minute that I can tap 1105 00:58:43,290 --> 00:58:46,290 into the I am, I know that I have unlimited power. 1106 00:58:46,410 --> 00:58:48,530 And we talked about it's the power that creates. 1107 00:58:48,690 --> 00:58:51,330 Abraham ticks us about this power that creates worlds. 1108 00:58:51,570 --> 00:58:55,650 But I want to close in this. This is so important to do 1109 00:58:55,650 --> 00:58:57,570 affirmations, and you're so great at this. 1110 00:58:58,030 --> 00:59:05,310 Because it breaks the ego's negative narrative, yes, And 1111 00:59:05,310 --> 00:59:07,790 that's so important. The ego has been giving you a 1112 00:59:07,790 --> 00:59:12,030 storyline and a narrative for however many years old you are. 1113 00:59:12,390 --> 00:59:15,670 So the affirmation breaks that. Yeah, it breaks that. 1114 00:59:15,670 --> 00:59:17,870 Like just like that. It's powerful enough to heal 1115 00:59:17,870 --> 00:59:21,670 generations in the past and generations in the future. 1116 00:59:22,070 --> 00:59:27,730 The repetition of an affirmation can retrain my identity and 1117 00:59:28,130 --> 00:59:29,810 rewire my mind.