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All right, and with that, let's jump into episode 10, which
weirdly starts at the end of episode 9, but we ignored that
because it's weird. So the way episode 10 opens is
Mon waking up in bed by herself, and then she's like, where's
Sam? And I have to note that when
that Sam and Mon have sides of the bed and they stick to it
even on vacation, Mon is on the left side and Sam is on the
right and they stick to it even in the Isle of Lesbos.
So love that for them, dude. In a second, Caitlin.
You know, when I was when I was watching 9, I I think I had
stopped for a moment or like looked away and I was like, OK,
so cuz like you said, it like, goes through the beginning of
episode 10. So then when I ended up starting
episode 10, I was so confused. Yes.
What was happening. I was like, I could have sworn
I'd already watched this. Like how?
What is? Happening right now.
I was so I. Was it's not you.
It's the editing. For the episodes that went on
YouTube. OK, I was like what is
happening? So we're just putting it this
way. I don't know which way is
correct, but this makes sense to me.
So this is how we're doing it. So Mon is like, where's Sam?
Because I came here and Sam and Sam's missing.
So she starts looking about and find Sam out on the beach
staring at water. And I have to say Sam is my
spirit animal because I do this too.
Like, I'm not going to lie. I like where I work is like
literally near the Bay. And so when I need a minute, I
literally go outside and stare at the ocean and then, like,
come back and say I feel Sam, 'cause when she's upset, she's
like or needs a moment. She just goes and stares at the
water. And I love that.
Has to be a nice little break from.
It's the best. It's I don't know how the
government got this property why do actually it used to be a Fort
but yeah so it's yeah it's actually strategic good property
but absolutely gorgeous. Other thing Sam, the way she
puts spice she spices her food. I also feel that because
remember like back when she goes on the date with Kirk and they
get like they're like Ma and choose the food and she takes
them for like pot Thai street food and like Sam pours 1/2 a
kilo of just like hot pepper on her food.
Yes, I feel. I feel that Caitlyn can attest
to that. I also.
Like she Yeah, she tones it down when I visit.
So I feel Sam. Yeah.
So she's like, let me stare at the ocean because I'm.
I'm having a moment. So Mon's like, cute.
And then she goes out there. And the beginning of this proves
how much Mon loves drama. I think it's one of the reasons
she loves sand. Yeah, she gets through the
wringer, but she loves the drama.
So she doesn't just, like, go out there.
She does it in a completely unnecessary, dramatic fashion.
She goes out onto the shore online with Sam 10 yards away
from her, and just stares at Sam for a solid minute before Sam
notices Mon's there. And then Mon's like, cool.
And then she like, is it the stalker in Mon?
Who knows? And she's like, let me just
stare at you while you don't know I'm here and then I'll like
come on over. And then she like, wraps her in
a hug, which is very cute and says good morning darling and
all that kind of stuff. But just the.
Drama of standing 10 yards away from her and staring at her like
a stalker. Mom hasn't given it up yet.
I think that maybe she's just taking in this moment and
wanting to paint this. Picture in her head of how.
Sam looks on the beach because she never gets to see her in
this setting, and she probably looks a little more carefree
than at work, so she just wants to just take it in.
I'm surprised she didn't snap a quick photo for her stalker wall
to really capture the moment. You know, I feel like she wanted
to, but she's like, damn, my phone's in something.
And then Sam. Noticed her and she's like.
Shit. All right, I guess I gotta go
over there. I do like the the screenshot
that you have I I like such the shot of them so far apart it
looks it's a pretty like it's it's almost the the. 3rd's rule.
It is the third's rule, yeah. Why is to show that they're
still divided? I don't know why.
Like aesthetically it's pretty, but like it's pretty is my
question. It's pretty.
Maybe that was. Maybe that's the why?
It's it's like the positioning equivalent of a crossfade is my
assumption. It's because they could, yeah.
That's that's what the girl is. Why did they do so many Dutch
juts 'cause they could? Yeah, I can't read too much into
the cinematography, 'cause I feel like it doesn't actually
have a meaning. They're just like, no, pretty
and I'm sorry. And the most you could do is the
the outfits, yeah. This is this is.
A cross fade basically. So I just had to point it out
because I think it's hilarious and.
No, this one's better than a. Cross fade it is.
Better than a cross fade. I will say that it's pretty.
Anyway, so that happens. And they're more they're
beginning of their mornings. Very, very cute.
And then Sam, now that they're here in Lesbos, is like in her
boyfriend era for this whole trip.
First piece of evidence? The outfits she wears here,
ma'am. We've mentioned she's mask
coated in her behavior, but she fully steps into it for this
trip. Good for you, Mon.
You got eye candy on this trip. And then she's just more
chivalrous than normal when it comes to Mon.
Like she's constantly, like, doting on her, kissing her hand,
things like that. Doesn't let go of Mon like ever.
And she's also instantly jealous of anyone that remotely has a
chance. With Mons, it's very boyfriend
Asia. So the two of them, like, leave
the beach and they head over to wherever breakfast is and they
catch The lesbians that own the inn are just, like, casually
making out in front of their brunch.
And like, Mom and Sam just kind of watch them for a minute until
they figure it out. And then they're like, oh wow,
they're like, why do we? Always get caught.
When we're in the middle of, like, ladies, you're out in the
open in front of their brunch. So funny.
They're not very subtle. They're just constantly all over
each other. They're like, wow, people are
always interrupting us. And like, well, because you're
doing this in front of people all the time.
And also, you're working, you're in public, so you're in your
public on your in on the clock. So they don't have an HR at this
end. They did away.
With that they. They they promote fraternizing
of the employees. Highly.
Yeah, we don't meet other employees, but I'm sure they're
cool with it. All right, so Speaking of being
out in the open, Mon, when they sit down for brunch, Mon is
watching and she notices that Cher has a wedding ring on.
And the two of them, basically the couple explains that they
basically married each other to like as a commitment ceremony,
not a legal ceremony. Because as we talked about
previously and they confirm in the scene at the point in time
this was shot, same sex marriage in Thailand is not a legal
thing. And they also note that like
they mentioned the elders and what the elders think.
So elders, being like the Grand Man's generation, basically,
they're not super accepting of this modern, modern take on
marriage, basically. But Sharon and Risa were like,
well, we felt that our love was important to us.
We didn't want to bring anybody else into this.
So we did this for us because that's who matters in the
marriage, the two consenting adults, right?
And they don't want to keep this a secret.
So basically, like, they're echoing the sentiment that Sam
expressed him on before they left on the trip when she was
like, I want to show my affection to you in public and
treat you with respect. And that's basically what Sharon
and Risa did with their like commitment ceremony that they're
labeling as a marriage because that's how they view basically
their relationship, which is meaningful.
OK, so while this is all sweet and great and I love it, Sam and
Cher are in the same space. So this conversation quickly
devolves into another big gay energy measuring contest between
these two. Because Sam tries to out lesbian
Cher by planning her and Mon's wedding in front of all these
people, to Mon's surprise. And she's like, it's going to be
a grand affair. It's going to be like 1000
people. I was like, Sam, do you know
those people anyway? And and then she's like, oh wait
Mon, do you want that? Do you want all of these things
that I'm planning? Because she's been planning the
wedding for a while, I. Keep saying that.
This came out of this didn't come out of nowhere.
Sam's been thinking about this. She's just cluing Mon in on it.
Mon. Like, if you watch her body
language. Once Sam pivots into this, she
immediately like shrinks and gets very small.
Because Mon still has issues to work through when it comes to
Sam, right? No more eye contact, she shrinks
into herself. And like, First off, she's
confused because they've been dating for less than a month #1
#2. I think the thing that really
gets to her the most is that Sam's behavior and pivot into
this conversation feels like she's just competing with Cher,
which is what she's been doing the whole time, that they're
those two have been interacting. And then #3 Ma just learned 2
seconds ago from this couple that like, love is love and fuck
the haters. So like this is all seemed to
come out of nowhere to Ma and she's like, I didn't know this
love was possible. And then, like, here's Sam
proposing. She's not even proposing, like
presenting the wedding. Yeah, she's.
Presenting the wedding. She's like, I got a caterer.
Like, I I know you're a sigh. So I'm starting the dress
process. I was like.
What the fuck? Like what?
What's happening? Like they pivoted into
Fantasyland very fast from this trip so I'm on declined.
She's like, no Sam because it's feels inauthentic and kind of
kind of came out of nowhere. But also what Mon vocalizes is
I'm not good enough for you because Mons is still very much,
like, aware of their social statuses.
Which is partially why I like in the prior episode when Sam was
like, I'm gonna hold your hand in public Mons like me, a
peasant, a mere peasant. You can't hold my hand.
She's still very much aware of that.
And she's like, you are the Princess and should marry a
Prince. And like, you can't marry me,
like, that's insane. I'm not good enough for you.
And then I love when Cher pipes in and she's like, you're
talking about this. I'm looking at the honorable
lady. I don't see, I don't see it.
Like, why are you putting her on a pedestal?
She doesn't have wings. She's not glowing.
Like, she's not divine. She's just some dumb ass.
Like, are you really declining because her personality is
awful, 'cause that makes more sense to me.
And like, I love that Cher is just like, trashing Sam
immediately. It's so funny.
But the thing like also to keep in mind is that Sam is paying to
stay there. I know.
They're. They're so similar, Herge,
because Sam would do this too if she owned it in.
Uh huh. Well, what I was going to say is
it's funny how quickly Cher is like acting like Sam's friends.
Oh my God, the. Team with all.
Of this, Yeah. Yeah, exactly.
They would all, they would all say this.
They'd be like she's crazy. Like, what are you talking
about? Not nothing special.
No, it's. If it was Sam's friends, it'd be
mine. You're too good for Sam.
Please. Like, they would say that in
front of Sam. That's basically what Cher say.
She's like, I don't know why you're putting this woman, this
woman, on a pedestal. Have you met her?
She's so weird, so funny. But also, yeah, she's your
customer. This is.
They don't have an HR department.
Obviously. Do they have a Yelp reviews?
I know, right? Well I think all it's on like
the queer Yelp. So it like it doesn't matter how
good it is. It's a queer haven.
We're just going to go anyway. That's fair.
Sam is going to go leave a terrible if Sam wait.
Sam only knows how to use Facebook.
Let's she doesn't know he's Yelp.
But if she did what a review. I would love to know.
What do you think in the comments what Sam's review of
this in would be? Because I would love to know
she'd be like hate the inner owner.
Great for a wedding. Beautiful atmosphere.
Innkeeper could have an attitude change.
Yeah, should be fired. She wouldn't even write a
review. She'd be like just.
One star. One star.
Nothing else. Fucking Sam, I would just, yeah,
I would love to hear that review.
No mom would be over her shoulder.
Be like. No be nice.
That's why it would be like dot dot dot but beautiful.
For a like, they would both their they would Sam's initial
take and then Mon's like niceties would both be in the
room. You're right.
That would be Mon holding the gun to Sam be like, say
something nice. Sam.
They're like, fine. I guess the ocean was calming.
I don't know. Anyway, OK.
So basically, OK, so bottom line is that Sam proposes and she's
being serious. And Mon's like, no.
So Sam is crushed because, you know, she's been thinking about
this and is like, wow, OK. I've been, I've been putting it
all out on the line and here and you're not willing to like, meet
me at, you know, So she's like, I'm just, I need to get out of
here and just think. So she leaves to go, like, stare
at the ocean, 'cause that's what cops her 'cause like.
I think for Sam a lot of this trip is like fantasy.
Like from reality to fantasy because they can just live in
this little haven outside of like the real world away from
like the grand man. All the pressure kind of all
that stuff which was the point of them going there.
So like escape reality and like here's reality coming back in
with Mon who like Sam's like, let's just do it.
Let's do what we want to do. And Ma's like, no, but like real
life, Sam like real life. I'm a peasant.
You're a noble woman. That can't happen.
So I think Sam wasn't down with that on vacation.
But but. I'll.
Yeah, go ahead. The The big thing is that it
looks, even if she didn't mean it, to be like Sam was competing
with Cher, Absolutely. Mon.
Like probably doesn't feel like it was being genuine.
It like it was just to compete. And she also wants to have these
conversations together, 'cause, you know, like normal people do.
They probably never even talked about marriage.
I mean, like you said that Sam was planning in her head.
In her head, yeah. And Mon is just sick of Sam
taking the control. She's like equal.
That's. And then it doesn't help her to
feel like she is equal to Sam because it is putting her like
she has more control. Yeah, and and and honestly,
like, controls one aspect. But really, like Mon is just way
too aware of, like, the quote, the gaps, right.
She's just like, well, we can't in real life.
We're not equal. She's like, I I'm a commoner.
You're a noble woman. And then we're about to get into
the conversation with like the two lesbians where they where
money comes up and Mom's like, I don't.
I have remember when they first get together and mom was like,
do you want to date me? And then she goes into the
conversation where she's like, I have no good points.
Like because like in this world where you're courting nobility,
like what the grand mammoth looking for is the points.
That's why she's always like, I did the background check on this
person. I approve of them because she's
going through a checklist of like, the good points that the
person has. Like, not who the person is.
It's like the points comes from a good family has like a stable
business like property, all of that stuff.
Mom's like, I don't have any points.
Like I can't compete with your suitors.
And Sam tells her right then and there and she's like, Mon you're
the best. Like none of that matters to me,
basically. But it's Mon can't separate the
like I I feel like Mon can't like take that seriously from
Sam she's just too much like I don't deserve you like and she
constantly is getting reinforced that she doesn't and then so for
Sam to come here and be like let's plan a wedding fit for a
queen and mon's like I don't how am I gonna afford like she she
doesn't feel like she deserves any of those things based on
like the reality of who she is too.
So I think that's another way that she, like, feels shame a
little bit being with Sam, whereas Sam doesn't think about
those things because she why would she?
She's always had money and all of that stuff, like, you know.
Yeah. Man, you're you're a woman.
You get all the points right. That's what Sam is saying.
She's like, look at you. You have more points that you
know what to do with. Yeah, exactly.
It's like fantasy versus reality is really what this conversation
really boils down to. Yeah.
And I think Sam is very much like, I just want to win this
argument. But also, would you marry me?
Yeah, exactly. Bon is like, whoa, I don't know,
1000 people. Like, how are we going to like,
I don't have anything to contribute to this gigantic
fancy wedding. And Sam's like, wait, wait,
wait, no. But I I just, I'm just wanting
to marry you. Like, what are you talking
about? Like, what is happening?
And they're just exactly what you guys are saying is like,
they're just not, like, communicating.
They're not. They just keep missing each
other with like. But also this conversation comes
out of absolutely nowhere. So like for like Mon was not
ready for this conversation and then to have it come out of a
big gay energy measuring contest with Cher.
Like I would say no to be like well let's go talk in private
because like what is this It's very weird from Mon's point of
view it to be like how did I get into we just came for brunch.
How did I get into conversation about planning a royal wedding?
Like, yeah, just happened. And like the the shitty part
too. Is that like Mon is the one
who's very conscious of like, the reality of their situation.
Sam is in the fantasy. Because Sam, you still haven't,
like told the Grand Man like all your obstacles are still there.
Sam, for this to even happen is are you not inviting the
grandmother to the wedding? Like, how's that even going to
happen? Like Sam's not thinking about
any of that. She's just like, tunnel vision.
She's like, I love Lesbos. She's drunk the kool-aid.
She drank the holy water for lesbian Jesus.
She's not thinking clearly. And I think Mon is like, hold
on, Like, actually think about what you're saying because,
like, obviously Mon does want that.
But, like, to have it come out as an insincere that would crush
Mon because she values honesty from Sam.
And so this feels insincere, I think, to her.
And she's like, Sam, this can't happen.
Like, you know, Yeah, so it's kind of it's kind of shitty and
like, that's why I like the conversation when so so when Sam
Mike drops and gets out of there, goes to the beach, Mon
sits there looking all sad 'cause she is.
And the lesbians are like, well, this is kind of this is, this is
your fault share. So let's go console this little
baby gay who's all upset. They're good queer elders.
I do love them. So they console Mon and it
starts like playful where Cher's like, so that car you have,
like, obsessed with the car. Obsessed the car.
She's like that car. It's a hot car.
Tell me about it. And Iman tells her that it's,
you know, it's Sam's. Obviously I don't have money for
this car, and it's Miss Duan. Penn, I think, says it.
And I love that Sam names inanimate objects, 'cause that's
something that I do. So I had to find that trait
endearing from Sam and apparently brave quail.
That's the name of my vacuum. Your vacuum.
My. Yeah, my Roomba.
Oh, your Roomba. OK, not just this.
I'm like, no, OK, brave quail. That's still odd, but I'll take
it for a like, a thing that moves itself.
Sure we love. That thing Skull was actually
alive. I just wanted to get out of.
Here. Anyway, so I find that really
endearing. And the other thing I love is
that it's very where the name came from.
It came from like a song, which again, is very Sam.
She takes things from media and just like incorporates it into
her life. And I just.
I love that character trait. Not only does she name it, it
has a last name as well, and it's a long.
Last name it is. That's why I just used the first
name. Yeah.
Yeah, very cute. And it comes from a song, which
is just very Sam like TV. She always pulling stuff for
media and I find that adorable. That's relatable, too.
Exactly. Yeah, it makes Sam.
It's a cute character quirk that she has.
OK, so anyway, they're talking and Arissa is like, Oh my God,
Cher. Cher has not showed up about
this car since you guys rolled up in here last night.
And she's like, I guess I got to buy this bisher car, 'cause she
wants to name it like her own thing.
And OK, 'cause she hates Sam's name.
She's like, wow, weird. Yeah, it's Sam.
Leave her alone. And poor Mon is just sitting
there. And she's like, well, it must be
really nice to just be able to drop big money on your
girlfriend whenever you want, 'cause like, again, this is
where Mon is insecure. Like, we've talked a lot about
how Sam is insecure, hence the big gay energy measuring contest
of the Cher she keeps having. That's Sam being insecure.
This is Mon's big insecurity. She's like, she says it to in
this conversation. She's like, I would love to get
Sam, like lavish gifts to show her that I love her like she's
always doing to me, but she's like, I can't and I could never
be in that position to do that. And like that has to hurt so
badly for Mon because it's just like you're constantly.
She's constantly like reminded that she is inferior in that
aspect of their relationship, while Sam doesn't care about it.
Like Mon is very much aware of it.
Because they they. Do come from different, like
coming from different social situations, like you're more
aware of money when you don't have it versus Sam, who always
has it, does not think about it, doesn't cross her mind, but Mon
can. I don't think Mon can get over
it because it's she's like, it's again, reinforcing that.
Like, I would love to buy Sam a car, like you're buying your
significant other a car, but I could never do that.
Sam doesn't pay me enough. Right.
But all she wants is her lips. Right, right.
Exactly Like Sam doesn't care, but Ma is just very aware of
that. And so, yeah, I think that's
just unfortunate for Ma. But I so I empathize with Ma in
this, this moment, you know? Money is difficult, huh?
Money's. Difficult it is.
Because no matter what, money is power and you never want to have
that person, like be able to use it in a fight or something,
yeah. Or even to just divide you like
Mon says it here. She's like, I feel like a sugar
baby, 'cause like Sam's always buying me shit and I can never
repay it. Like, I can never get on equal
footing with her when it comes to this, it's always going to be
1 sided. So yeah, I feel like that's
really shitty for Mon, OK, then she points out.
And then she tries to like again.
So we mentioned last episode, Sharon and Marissa are clear
they're foils to Sam and Mon. It's like what you could be.
This is fantasy world where they're at.
I suppose they're like, this is what you could be if you guys
just follow your hearts or whatever.
And so Mon's like, yeah, I see that and that's all great and
stuff. But she's like, I don't feel
like we're the same because you guys clearly own this business
together. So you guys are equal, right?
Like because like, let's look at Sam and Mon.
They're not Co owners of the company of diversity.
It's like Sam's the owner. Mon's an employee.
Like, again, in balance, right? But she's like you guys look
like equal partners, right? We're not there.
And then the truth comes out and they're like, well we're not
equal either. She's like this bitch right here
that wants the car. She has all the money, buy her
own car share. What the hell?
If you have. All the money and so like
basically they're like, but we didn't care about she's and
Rissa's like, well, you know chairman a lot of like
sacrifices for us to live this life.
Like she would have to give. She probably gave up like a
degree of her social standing, her wealth, whatever, so that
they can create the Isle of Lesbos together and run this in
and be equal. So to me, if they're set up as a
foil that's demonstrating that, like, for Sam and Mom to work
out, Sam's going to have to give up some of her privilege and,
like, make a sacrifice to be with Mon.
Because so far, Sam has not. Yeah, she broke the engagement
with Kirk, but was that a sacrifice?
That's all coming from the grandmother.
So Sam still has to make that step before this can even become
remotely real, like in the real world.
And I like the part where in this conversation where Mon's
like, OK, that sounds great and all, but like, now that you're
married, do you guys have any problems?
Has everything been solved? And Sharon Risson are like, oh,
hell no. They're like we got 99 problems,
but class is a main one. And they're like, you know, we
started from different social, you know, classes.
But like, we don't care about that.
Like money can't buy love is said in this.
And like, that's the whole crux of it.
And that's Sam's whole dilemma, right, Like and and I think that
that's the thing that Mon. I think Mon need to hear that
because that is the thing that she can offer Sam that Sam can't
get with money. Like hence why Sam has been like
a contrarian nightmare for a decade and so isolated and
lonely. It's because that is the one
thing she cannot wield her power and influence and money and
title and all of that stuff. She can't get it it it and and
or or she could but like it would be Kirk where it's like
it's not authentic or reciprocated or genuine.
And so I think like it's important for Mon to understand
like she has value. It's like you can give her
something she can't buy like the woman that can buy whatever she
wants, right. And so I think Mon is like
enamored by this and like feels better after hearing this and
then she's like can you guys tell me your story because like
you guys are so cute. I want to know what happened and
apparently their story is full of romance, drama, comedy and a
bit of horror and idle factory. I'm just gonna throw this out
there, Risa and sheer story sounds like it would make an
amazing TV show. I'm just saying like all the
elements are there. Romance.
Drama. Comedy.
Horror. A little bit of horror.
And they they've done it all, apparently, and I would like to
see it. Personally.
I love them. Yeah.
Yeah, Just throwing that out there.
So at the end, Rissa gives Mom this really sage advice where
she's like, look, Mon, I think you need to just sit for a
minute and kind of reflect on how much you actually love Sam.
Like, how much do you love her, really?
And then if it's a lot, like, go follow your heart because
basically, like, you deserve to be happy.
And, like, if you don't really love her, then we've met her.
Maybe cut your losses and run. She's a lot all right.
So mine is left with that sentiment.
Meanwhile, we cut over to Sam, who's sulking by the sea.
And she gets a call from the grand man.
And the grand man's like, Sam, I'd like to see you today.
Can I go? Smoking by the Sea sounds like a
great movie title. Right.
That alliteration. Thank you.
So that's Sam's movie. So the other way, the grandma
was like, I want to see you today.
And Sam's like, well, I'm not. I'm not.
I'm not in Bangkok right now. I went on a little trip with my
friends, my lady friends. You remember them?
You hate them. And the grandma's like, why
isn't Kirk there? And I'm like, has Kirk and Sam
ever gone on a vacation together?
Like, ever? Why would you ask this?
Like they don't even go on dinner dates.
She was trying to figure out if she's lying.
But why would Kirk? Even.
Be there because she expects them to be everywhere, because
they're going to get married and be so happy together.
But. Kirk doesn't even have dinner
with her when they're in the same city.
So this was a really weird. Ask that we're like, of course
he's not with me, he's never with me.
So anyway, that's kind of beside the point.
But like, it doesn't matter. Her answers don't matter anyway
because the grandma knows she's lying and who she's with.
And really, this is just a test of how loyal is Sam to me,
because that's what their relationship really boils down
to. She's trying to see if Sam's
still going to be honest with her and Sam is not and just
hangs up and it's like, I'll see you later, OK, bye.
And she looks very unnerved at the end of this conversation
because, I mean, she wasn't expecting this, but she should
be, because I think that deep down, Sam knows she has to have
this conversation with her grandmother.
And it's getting to the point where the final boss battle is
like, on the horizon and she can't avoid it anymore, like
it's coming right? And So what does that what does
that do That with the impending awkward conversation with her
grand grandmother that leaves Sam to really figure out, well,
is battling my grandmother really worth it?
How much do I love Mon? Right.
So it it's So by the end of these two scenes, I went
back-to-back, like Sam and Mon are really left with the same
point to reflect. Like, how much do I love her,
basically? How much does Sam love Mon?
A lot. Pintetio.
Yeah, I know. Really, You don't want?
To say your point. All right, I'll say it.
So I mean, it is. It is a good thing that she
didn't pretend like she was with Kurt.
Kurt.
Oh my God. We hate him so much.
I mean, we don't hate him. We such an afterthought.
We can't even remember his name. Kirk.
Well, what? Because he was sitting right
next to the Grand Mam? I don't know why.
I don't like calling her that, but even though Sam respects her
grandmother, she wouldn't want to give her that satisfaction of
thinking she actually likes Kirk.
Yeah, no, I totally agree with that and like.
While. We I get on Sam a lot for like
not actually having this conversation with the
grandmother like earlier. I think it would have been very
insincere for her to have it here on the phone.
Like it's very much I need to be in person with you before I have
this conversation. Like, she could have come clean
and not lied to the grandmother. And I feel like a part of Sam
wants to do it, but, like, on the phone, this isn't a phone
conversation. So.
Well, yeah, the grandmother's like, yeah, she's lying to me.
I don't think Sam would have been honest in this moment out
of respect for the grandmother, you know, Like, this is a big
conversation. It's not a phone conversation.
It's an in person conversation, you know?
Yeah. So that's that.
So yeah, Like Caitlyn said, Kirk, the weasel mole is with
the grandmam and they're conspiring shockingly against
Sam. Yeah, he's so spineless.
It's cold here. That's 'cause we went over to
the grand man's house. It just, yeah.
It's cold. It just got cold.
So anyway, so they're conspiring and the grand man basically
calls out Sam's cheating for what it is it was finally
somebody said it, 'cause she is, she absolutely is.
But Kirk is very much like, well, you know, clearly Mon
makes her happy. I've never seen her passionate,
ever. And here she is like throwing me
across fountains and shit. Like, she's clearly very
emotional and happy and he's like, so as long as she's happy,
I'm cool with it, 'cause, like at the end of the day, he does
care about her. Like they've been, they've
childhood friends, they've been friends for a very long time.
He does care about her. He's not innocent in any of the
stuff he does to like, ruin her life and like quote help her by
taking away her choice and doing what's quote best for her.
But like, he does care about her, you know?
But then again, the grandma only knows about all this shit
because you went to her. Kirk.
We're here because of you. Let's not forget that.
I don't know why I didn't realize that.
And I was just trying to figure out how she found out.
Yeah, so that asshole. Yeah.
This shit's all his fault. That's why he's like, I'm cool
with this. I'm like, Are you The second you
found out you went straight to the grandmother?
If he truly cared about Sam, then he would never would have
told the grandmother, right? Exactly.
Also, that was never his secret to tell you don't out.
People I know, I know. I know.
I don't know. He's a stupid puppy.
Well, I don't think he actually outs her because in this
conversation with the grandmother, she's like, who is
she with? And he's like, you need to hear
that from her. So I don't think he does out her
but he he does, he's like she's cheating on me so like this
bitch but clearly is like I'll find out she's the fucking mafia
here. She's like, I will take care of
this. At the end of the conversation,
I'm like, oh. God, she's going to.
Call a hit out on Maun again. I mean, that's what it started
looking like. Right.
I was like, shit, she's going to kill Maun's family and like, all
this stuff. And she's like, you just sit
there and look pretty. Kirk, do exactly what I said.
Since you're a little bitch about this and you're not going
to take care of it, I'll take care of it.
Just look pretty. My little puppet on my puppet.
Strings. And I was like, well, damn,
'cause like, yeah, I got mafia vibes when she was saying this.
And like, Mom and her family are fucked.
And I I always wonder in the back of my head, did she do this
to Ice's family? Because she was ready to kill
ice in the hospital. And I'm like, and song's dead.
I'm pretty sure she went after that girl's family.
I was expecting mob people to be hiding in the shadows, yeah.
I was expecting them to get back from the trip and Mon's family,
like, the house is burgled. Like somehow they lost their
jobs. Like, yeah, someone's in jail
over like something petty. Yeah, I was.
I was expecting her to go after their family, 'cause that's what
people in power do, so. People in power are weird.
People are. Weird.
Humans are weird. Speaking of weird, Sam is still
sulking by the sea when Mon catches up with her.
You OK, Caitlin? I stuck my finger in this and
now I'm trying to get it out and it's like cutting my finger do.
You need a second? Oh.
I got it. Oh my God, that that hurts.
So why is? Everybody bleeding during these
episodes. No blood yet.
Continue. Sorry.
So Mon find Sam. She wants to forgive her, but
Sam's just like, I can't with this right now.
Because like I mentioned earlier, Sam feels like the
relationship is very one sided when it comes to like, acts of
affection. Because while Sam is terrible
with words, she's amazing with showing Mon.
She cares through her actions and she's like, listen, I've
done all these gestures. I broke up with Kirk.
I took you here. I've been doing all of these
things like big things to show you that I love you.
And like, I'm not getting that from you basically.
And and for and while Sam has a point for Mon to hear this,
she's coming off the cusp of the conversation she just had with
the lesbians, where she was like, I would love to spoil Sam
in the manner in which she deserves, but I don't have the
means, the money, or any of any ways to actually do that.
So this is kind of like a kick to the gut, really, for Mon
where she's like, I'd love to show you, but how the hell am I
going to show you? Like you know, so I don't think
Mon knows what to do here. She, you know, she has no fiance
to break up with. She doesn't have conservative
relatives to battle with, she can't whisk her off to the real
Isle of Lesbos cause a she hates planes and B she doesn't have
money. So, like, what is Mon really
supposed? To do in this situation.
Jumper. What?
Jumper in bed. I mean, yeah, that's all.
That's what Mon has. Mon has the love card, but
that's about it. So yeah.
Anyway, so again, we've been. I've been over this.
But part of the problem is like, Mon again doesn't believe.
I don't. I think on some level Mon
doesn't really. This relationship is real.
Like I think she spent so much time fantasizing about Sam that
I think she's having trouble accepting the reality of Sam and
like how much Sam actually, like, loves her.
I I think she doesn't quite grasp it.
But, like, to Sam's credit, like she keeps doing things that very
much shows Mon like loud and proud.
She loves her. And like, I mean she ditched her
title to come on this trip Mon like she's she's trying to like
even the playing field. But I don't.
Know. I mean, it sounds like their
love languages are different. For sure.
Like so Sam's is definitely like her.
What she wants to do is like acts of service and like
physical touch, I guess. And then Sam is like, I need
words of affirmation and that's the one thing that or mod needs
words of affirmation. And then Sam is like not about
the words she. OK, she tries.
She is getting there. Once she can say the words, like
in the next episode she says all the words.
Once she's able to do it, she does do it.
But she's just like she's very much like I I I I can't.
I don't know how to say the words so I'm just going to show
you with things. So she's trying.
She's trying so hard to like show Mon Sam's Sam.
Sam is a touch starved person though.
I think that physical touch is her like, big thing, which is
why she's always touching Mon. That's for her more so than for
Mon, I think. But yeah, words of affirmation
is Mon's love language and it's the one thing Sam struggles
with. But she she does it for Mon.
Like she gets there eventually. And like, again, she's like
telling Mon she's being very honest, like here, but it's just
like, yeah, Mon's on in a good head space for this
conversation, honestly, because she just, she feels unworthy at
the end of the day and like this relationship isn't real, I
think. So she needs to she needs
unpack, unpack that. And so she tries to, like,
apologize to Sam, but then gets interrupted because T and Yuki
are here. And I really don't understand
why this happened, right? I'm like, OK, well OK, they
obviously didn't plan this because they were like, is that
who I think it is? I think they just coincidentally
showed up. My question, did Sam find out
from this? Find out from T about the
Lesbian Inn. Or did they have a tracker and
was just like, OK, let's go see what the lesbians are up to.
No, it's. I see.
I feel like T brought Yuki here for the weekend.
I thought they knew that they were gonna be there.
I don't think they did, 'cause when they get when T gets out of
the car, she's like, is that who I think it is?
Like, I don't think they knew. I think, like, this is just
where you bring your girlfriend on a weekend.
I think T told Sam about this. OK, you know what?
They probably had a conversation, T said.
I'm going to bring Yuki there this weekend and then.
Sam's just like oh that's a good idea.
I feel like. I feel like this came out when
they were on having the the sex talk for like 10 hours when they
fell asleep and T was like OK and then you bring if you want
to really have amazing sex you take her to the Isle of Lesbos
and like went in detail about this in and how romantic it is
and how you can just be yourself and Sam files all that shit
away. She's a long term planner,
pretty sure TO told her it was a while ago and Sam was like got
it Anyway I just find it really funny.
All the queers are like converging on this.
All of them are converging in this one location which I love.
Yeah, Jim's probably. Sad that she's missing.
Oh my God, Can you imagine when Jim finds out that they were all
here without her? And had a piss.
Well, we're getting to and had the ending scene.
Oh my God. Well, OK.
Jim is cool with Mon though, 'cause she said that before.
She's like, if anybody else was dating Sam, I would.
They can catch these hands. But Mon, you're the exception.
That's fine, I guess. But Jim would.
Jim would have been. So where was Jim T?
He could have brought her. I I want to bring up while
we're. Here I kind of I didn't know you
guys didn't know. I wish I brought it up on while
we're filming. But have the actress who plays
Jim was supposed to be Mon like that?
Just that's insane. I love it.
Thank you for whoever told me that.
That's where all the jealousy comes in from Jim, when art
imitates life. OK.
Anyway, so Speaking of conspiring Mon behind, Sam's
back conspires with all of the queers to wife her.
And I love that. Like, it's night time and like,
everybody's like, here's the plan, go do your thing.
So the the in owners are all like, everybody's got to get in
their best clothes because they're about to have a wedding.
Sam has no idea. And so I love that they're all
over each other like these two when mom shows up.
And I love that they're just like they're like we did
everything you wanted. Mom, we're all ready to go.
How many queer, spontaneous queer weddings happen at these?
And I have to imagine it's quite a bit, 'cause they were just
like, we're ready to go. We have, we've done this before.
They seemed very versed in what's happening, yeah.
I have a side note for this one. Gay marriage is now legal in the
real Isle of Lesbos. I wonder how many spontaneous
weddings will take place there. Now I.
Imagine so many planned weddings are going to happen.
That's where Milan and Sam should go.
OK, But I think it's really adorable that literally
everybody's in on this plan. And like, once Mon starts
setting stuff in motion, Yuki, like, winks at her.
It's the cutest thing. She's like, yeah, let's go.
And like, the whole time they're like conspire.
It's very cute the way they just conspire against.
And Sam is oblivious because it's Sam.
So freaking cute. OK, so the way Mon sets this in
motion is she has to she's she knows.
She knows how to play Sam. Mon's learning, OK?
And Mon's really good at this. So she, like, waltzes in to,
like, they're having dinner outside.
And she, like, kind of waltzes in and then, like, winks at Yuki
and then, like, plays damsel in distress.
She's like, Oh my God, my ankle or whatever.
And, like, falls down. So sure enough, that activates
boyfriend Sam, who runs from the dining room table over to Mon
and, like, immediately. It's like, are you OK?
Do we need to go to the hospital?
She's, like, brushing dirt off of her doing all these things.
I think Mom was like, wow, OK, I knew you were going to come
here, but like this, this like, knight in shining armor thing is
really doing it for me. Sam, 'cause she likes kind Sam.
This is peak kind Sam. And she's like, oh, OK, I should
follow that in wooded areas more often, 'cause this is great.
She's also probably like, OK, calm down.
We have a We have a mission. I think.
I think she forgot the mission. She was like, we should go back
to her room. I mean, Oh yeah, the right.
Sam. I did this for a reason.
Anyway, So she's like, confesses to Sam.
She's like, Sam's like, what Do you wait, does it hurt?
Are you OK? And she's like, no, I'm fine.
I was faking it because somebody was mad at me and I had to prove
you weren't mad at me because you came and rescued me.
And Sam's like, God damn, I think she felt played for like a
second. She's like, she tries to, like
walk away. And then mom's like, no, no, no,
no, like. And then she, like, kisses her
and, like, Sam kisses her back and they're like, OK, you're not
mad at me. Great.
And then the peanut gallery's over.
It T's like, Sam, can you stop being a grumpy son of a bitch?
Just get over here like this is we're having this beautiful
night. Like, stop being an ass.
Which I love. Oh, the friends.
They're so funny. It like it wouldn't.
Be the same without them, right? I'm glad that they're there
because they're just, they're the best.
But just like like they're having a cute moment.
And the way T's like I need to call out Sam.
For being a Dick, yeah. It's so funny and I have to say
that this inn is like should be 5 stars on Yelp because this
dining area is so cute and the way they set up this like whole
dinner thing for them, it just it looks like a fairy tale the
way they have like the twinkly lights.
I think it's. The only people staying here,
right? Did Sam buy out the place for
her and mom? I can see that.
They're like, we know they know each other, They're the only
queers in the area. It's fine.
At like, tea calls and she's like, oh, I want to get a room.
And they're like, it's booked up and he's like, did someone name
Sam the rooms? Like, yeah, like I know that
bitch give me a room. I told I should have told her
about this place anyway. She's paying for me.
Yeah, no, yeah. I want her guest list.
Don't worry about it. Yeah.
No, that's what happened. That's how they ended up there.
And they're like, Oh my. God, you guys are here.
Who knew? All right.
Anyway, this is very cute. And then they have this just
they it starts off with them just having like a queer dinner
together. And it's just it's very cute and
sweet and I just, I love it. The whole thing is cute.
It's. So cute and beautiful.
And just. I love that Sam's oblivious.
All right, So before we get into like the wedding and stuff, the
prelude to it. So Riss is explaining that
tonight's really special. Hence, hence why everything's
all cute and beautiful. It's because it's a special
night. It's the LOI Cratong Festival,
which is a type of Lantern festival and Cher Festival of
lights. Yeah, And Cher tries to like,
run with this and be like, I know everything about every
festival in the world. And like, she tries to like wax
poetic about like the symbolism. She's like the.
Fame is knowledge and it brings us good fortune and like you
know all the stuff. And then Sam is like enough with
the folklore nonsense because she just can't help it when it
comes to out topping share in public and she just she just
can't. And Cher's like, Oh yeah, I'm
the expert on festivals and shit.
She's like ask me anything Sam, I'm better than Google and Mon
is immediately like, Sam, don't you fucking dare.
I will leave you right now. She tries to like give her food.
She's like eat this instead. Shut up.
The screenshot here though she's like that, her face is like I'm
not playing around. She's like, don't you fucking
dare. Like she doesn't say anything
but the way she looks at Sam, she's like, I will leave you and
Rosa's the same way too. She's like, for fuck's sake,
Cher, can we just have one nice dinner without you fighting
random strangers? How many should guess?
Has she, like, fought for power? Right, I'm like, why are you in
the in? Business dear.
Maybe it's theme like it's the theme of the inn is like the
host will top you or out try to out top you what?
Is that as a brochure? Yeah.
Why would Sam look at here? Aren't she?
Sounds like absolutely odd. Sam likes a challenge.
She does, yeah. That's true.
Not from Cher though.
Apparently not. OK, so Speaking of Mon, we then
get to the impromptu wedding. So after after dinner it settles
down, everybody couples up and they they make their wishes,
release their lanterns, and it's very beautiful and very cute.
And we cut to like Mon and Sam and Sam's like, well, what did
you wish for Amman? Which like aren't you not
supposed to say what you wish? I don't know how this works with
like, Lantern festivals, but usually it's like you have to
keep the wish to yourself. Anyway, Sam's like, what did you
wish for Amman? And Mon's like, well, I
basically she's like, I wish that I did all the right things.
I I wish that what I'm doing is right, is basically what she
says, which is to wife Sam in like 5 minutes.
And Sam very adorably admits later that her wish was that
Mon's wish came true. Which is just the cutest.
Fucking thing ever. And like when Sam has game, it's
just like, God damn it, Sam. Like that was so.
Smooth like. She's adorable.
I just. I can't.
She's a dumb ass. But, like, she has her moments
where you're like, wow, OK, Mon is a lucky woman.
So Sam hears this that, like, you know, Mon's basically saying
I'm hoping what I'm about to do is write And Sam's like, what do
you mean what you're about to do?
And mom's like, close your eyes, Sam.
And Sam is like, yes, Mon boss and closes her eyes and then
everybody does their thing. Mon's like let's go.
And so every flower crowns are produced.
I must note that Mons has little pink flowers in it.
Sam's is pure white. And by the time Sam opens her
eyes, the winning has begun. Magic.
I love that. Like tea puts the crown on her
head and then once she opens her eyes, she's like, what is the
Why were you not like? What is this earlier anyway?
It doesn't matter. It's Sam.
She's not the brightest, but she tries.
So I think it's interesting that in the scene, like, OK, so Mon
knew this was going to happen. Not that she was going to come
to Lesbos and wife Sam, but that this particular moment was going
to be a wedding. Sam had no idea.
So I think what they're wearing in the scene is actually really
interesting. Mon elects to wear all white,
which means she brought a dress that's all white, which is weird
for Mon. But here we are, and she has
like a pink ribbon in her hair, but like mostly she's wearing
white, which is like a neutral color, not her main palette.
This is kind of atypical attire for Mon.
Contrast that with Sam, who's mostly wearing white, which she
doesn't normally do. She's black pants on, but she's
mostly covered in white. So it's almost like the two are
like color-coded as like, not themselves a little bit.
They're wearing atypical colors for them.
Maybe they borrowed, but it's. Also, the festival of lights, so
maybe you're supposed to dress lighter because everyone's in
lighter clothing. Did they know there was a
festival of lights when they were gonna go on this trip
spontaneously On this trip? I'm saying no.
I'm just saying reasons Sam Sam chose to wear white.
I'm just saying. My guess is it's borrowed and
multiple people have worn these. Yeah, I think Mon's outfit is
not hers. I agree with you.
I think Mon borrowed this because she's like wedding and
they're like, great. We have many.
We've. Been before, yeah, I think.
That's borrowed. But the fact that Sam wore
white, she chose that, not knowing what's going on, that's.
Boutique in the inn. Huh.
They have a whole wedding. Boutique in the inn.
They do like, OK, here's your options, right?
Exactly. There's like.
Well, we have these flowers leftover from our last impromptu
wedding, the flower. Crown came from another wedding.
Exactly, exactly. But the symbolism here I do.
I like that they get to redo the wedding later when they're in
their own colors or what colors that they choose to wear, which
will get there when we get there.
So I kind of like that this isn't their actual wedding.
Well, this is basically what they feel like they have to do.
Well, I mean visually it's wear white so they are still living
for other people. Their actual wedding is when
they could be themselves and not care about others opinions.
Ding. Which is why I'm glad they get
to do it later. Good job, Caitlin.
Thank you. But all of those that you're.
Welcome. This, it doesn't diminish from
the fact that this is romantic as fuck.
So Mon in her cute little feels Oh my God, she's so nervous.
Is this is the cutest thing ever?
Like because again, she's like, I hope what I'm doing is right.
I think she's petrified and scared and is just like I hope
this works. And she gives Sam this beautiful
speech about how love is real in all the ways.
And then she proposes to Sam who accepts.
And Mon has these cute little matching pink rings for them to
exchange, which cute because it's Mon's color that's now
going to become their color. But also it's the style of the
bracelet also, which I really like.
So it's a way to like, again, engagement wedding jewelry,
which is very, very cute. And my favorite detail from the
whole ring exchanging piece is that Mon is so, like, scared and
like jittery that she struggles to put the ring on Sam's finger.
Like it takes her a while because she's so shaky.
But when it comes, Sam's turn, like Sam is like the steady one
in this scenario. Sam didn't know.
Sam just like walked into her wedding and had no idea.
But yet she's this like the rock in this whole thing, which is
just poetic cinema. I just love.
I love that it's like very Ying and yin and Yang for the two of
them. And it's just so cute and
perfect and I love it. It's very sweet.
Yeah. Yeah.
And then there's a song that plays during the wedding that
doesn't play anywhere else in the show.
And I don't know if you guys know, correct me if I'm wrong,
it sounds like Free and Becky is singing this song.
Do we know any of the lyrics from it?
No, I think it only happens here.
It's another one of those like one and Done songs, but it
sounds like the two of them are singing it, which I hope because
that would be very cute if they sing.
The wedding's on here, but it's definitely a duet between two
women and it sounds like them. It's not important.
They can, they can comment below, but you can look it up if
you want to. OK.
All right, the rest of the wedding basically is just a
bunch of cute dancing, kissing, and just general queer joy from
everyone there until these assholes T and Cher throw Yuki
in the pool. Bad for Yuki.
Like she's just like chilling on a float.
And then these bitches come up and just like, throw her in the
water in front of Sam and Mon, who then laughs.
So poor poor Yuki. She's the the butt of all.
Yeah, poor Yuki. Yeah, like you're not dragged
into this friend group and. Right.
She thought she was going on a romantic weekend with her
girlfriend that gets thrown in a pool by these elder queers.
And I'm like sons of bitches. Any other thoughts about their
wedding or the injustice of what happened to Yuki?
No, I mean, they forget they're married later anyway.
So 100%. Anyway, 'cause this is all
ceremonial and it's very cute and it's it's the more like the
Grand Gesture. Like Sam was looking for the
Grand Gesture for Mod. And like, my mom's like, I can't
buy you a car, but I can give you Maya dying love.
Basically, that's the only currency I have, is like my love
for you. Basically it sounds like, great,
that's what I wanted. This is the best.
So the next day, like, they emerge and the queer elders are
just beaming at them, 'cause like, they're so proud.
They're like, look at the baby gaze.
They figured their shit out. I love that you call them queer
elders. They are queer elders because
they're further along in their queer journey.
They're already married. They're only in.
They said fuck the haters and like they're just living their
best lives. Like, and they're they're here,
they are facilitating A queer wedding like.
You're my queer elder. Thank you.
Everyone needs one. We all need, we all need a
guide, you know? Shouting.
All right, so the happily married couple wanders about
Lesbos, and somehow husband Sam is even more affectionate than
boyfriend Sam, which is insane, because boyfriend Sam was
already very affectionate. So during the morning stroll,
like again, Sam does not let go of Mon once, and she's just
constantly just doting all over her, treating Mon like the
Princess she deserves to be. She basically like again, will
not let go of her hand. She plants little kisses on her
constantly as they're walking. She volunteers to take selfies
with Mon. Since when?
Who is this woman?
Like, wow. Well, she learned to use
Facebook and saw photos of everybody else.
And she's like, well, damn, I need to post photos of Mon.
Like what A step up from like their first date with the with
the photos and Mon's like, let's take photos and Sam's like,
absolutely. I hate taking photos.
She volunteers to do like she's taking photos of Mon first and
then she's like let's take photos to get this was Sam's
idea. So this is like again evolution,
the evolution of Sam. And she's like, no, I want to
remember this moment with you, which is very cute and sweet,
and she doesn't normally do that, so.
Well, I just love to see it. I love to see her, her evolving.
It's really amazing. Her character growth is insane.
Mm hmm. Part of me, I believe when I was
watching this scene the first time, I actually had like a
different reaction to this as it like, yeah, it looks cute on the
surface, but to me it was a Sam knows that things are gonna
change when she goes back. Like, she's like because of the
conversation with her grandmother that happened.
So I was seeing this as she's trying to overdo something so
that Mon isn't noticing that something's weird.
I don't know. I mean, maybe that's not what's
happening, but when I was watching this, I was like, this
seems like over the top for how Sam usually reacts.
Like a little bit more. I don't know.
I so I think from Sam's point of view, she's like, you're mine
now what? Whatever you want one.
I told you everything. But what you're saying to me,
it's like, as the viewer who's been traumatized by queer media,
I'm like something bad's about to.
Happen. This is too.
Cute. This is way too cute.
This is for me to remember when things get sad.
I think that's. What it is?
Maybe. I think that's what it is.
'Cause I don't really do. Go ahead, sorry.
I said I don't think that Sam is thinking about the grand, the
grandmother, based on how she deflates when Nung brings her up
in a second, she said. Oh yeah, the grandma I don't
think she think about. It she tries.
Not to think about it exactly. I think she's just like Mon
loves me. Like she's in the again.
She's been planning the wedding. She just got her wedding.
She's husband Sam now she's she's not thinking about she's
not thinking about the grandmother.
She's like what can I do next for Mon?
Like she's. I'll take pictures of her she
loves look at her. She's taking pictures.
Let's take them together. So maybe I was feeling this is
you feeling? Yes, this is a Toronto.
Attack. This is what queer media has
done to us. What?
Because it's never happy like this.
Not yours. Being heavy, like something bad
is good. Which it does.
So it wasn't.
Wrong. You're not wrong.
It's like this is too happy
right now and it's early in the episode.
Something bad is gonna happen. It's early in the episode.
Right. I'm always like.
It's gonna get bad. So yeah, let's keep going.
OK, so let's let's get to the bad stuff.
All right. So anyway, as they're strolling
about, they run. Into.
Nung Sam's oldest sister, who's still alive, who's apparently a
beach bum, and she's just like chilling, selling, kitschy art
or whatever the queerest looking.
Let's talk about. Let's talk.
About this, hold on, I came up with a theory in my head.
What if Song still alive and they she like, paid the doctor
to fake her death so that way her and Ice could be together
forever, but she just had to traumatize ICE first?
And have a funeral I. Talked.
About her funeral. Caitlin Yeah, I know.
Just pretend like it's a closed casket.
I mean, I'm fine with that. There's a.
No lesbians were harmed in the making of this.
Show well now they weren't. Cause Caitlin changed.
The. But Speaking of queers so Nun
mentions that she's like because Sam's like what are you doing
here here as in the Isle of Lesbos what are you doing here
Nun? And she's like yeah no, like I I
basically travel all over the world and like when I run out of
money I come here and save up some money and then I go
travelling again. So this to me this tells me that
like she's shaking up with some queer on this island and they
have some on again off again thing where she's like I'm broke
take me back in and. Maybe she has this, like,
relationship with Cher and Risa and, like, she's just like,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, Like every once in a while just comes
back, like, because it looks like she's staying there.
Yeah. So maybe they're.
Less I mean. Again, who's to say that Cher
and Risa don't have queer employees and one of them is
shaking up with none? That's true.
She's checking up with so many queer on this island cause no
straight people are here. So, like, what does she?
She says. I keep coming back here, so
there's that. So then she keeps telling us.
That so then Sam's grandmother lost with all of them.
They were all queer as the. Fuck.
And she was always gonna lose. There's.
ATV show there's a book. Actually.
Oh, a book. So.
OK, yeah, it's gonna be ATV show.
There's a trailer out there. Yeah, OK.
Yeah. But the actors are changing
because contracts I think. I believe that's what I read,
but. Yeah, but yeah, so it is Canon.
Right, canonically. But like, without knowing that
they're telling you right here, Yes, that none of Sam's sisters
are straight. None of them.
So yeah, if you follow The Adventures of Nun, apparently
she's yeah, has queer adventures in another book.
Slash soon to be TV show. So anyway, Nung and Sam finally
have a very long overdue conversation because they
haven't seen each other since she left since she was like,
fuck the shit, I'm out grandmother.
She when she did that, she left. She abandoned Sam and all of her
sisters and so they finally have an honest conversation about all
of this. And key points to take away is
that Nung's like, well, you can't blame me for song's death
because Sam says she's like, well, you know when you left,
all the pressure went on song and then eventually on to Sam
and she's like, you can't blame me for her dying.
She was weak and so this reads is really weird.
And I think, I think I know why, 'cause like in the trigger
warning in the book song couldn't take the pressure and
she killed herself. Oh shit.
Yeah. And then in the show they made
her queer and it was she got hit by a car.
So like this almost reads like the book where she's like song
was just weak and couldn't handle it and so she just exited
her own way. That's how this more reads to me
versus like, how was song weak? Because like in the show, a song
stands up to the grandmother, think it's hit by a car that
wasn't. What did that have to do with
anything? So I think that's, that got lost
in translation. But the point is like, you have
to be strong to like, beat, quote, beat the grandmother and
be your own person is basically what she's trying to say.
And she says that basically, like, if you love the
grandmother too much, you're going to have to give up who you
are in order to, like, fully love her because that's what the
grandmother wants. The grandmother wants you and
her image, not who you are at your core.
And see. And basically her sister warns
Sam that, like, you could be next if you don't like woman the
fuck up and, like, actually fight for mom because she's
like, did you tell grandmother about this?
And then that's when Sam deflates and she's like, oh,
yeah, I have to have that conversation.
And I was like, yeah, that's what I thought.
So she's like, you're going to end up like song if you don't,
like, actually fight for what you want and be more like me.
Basically, that's what she's saying.
But I feel like deep down, like Sam because like, Sam was not
happy to see her. She was just like, oh, I I think
Sam feels very abandoned by Nung because, you know, they haven't
seen each other. Like even at, she's like even at
our sister's funeral, you didn't come see me.
Like Nung showed up. She's like, I didn't go inside
because I don't want to see grandmother, but like you could
have like texted Sam and be like, hey, let's meet.
No, she just no contact with Sam too.
So I think Sam feels very abandoned by her And Sam's body
language a lot in this scene, like tells me that as well, the
way she's kind of like, I don't know, she's very clearly
uncomfortable. But also Sam doesn't directly
confront her sister. She's right there.
She can tell her off and like, tell her how she feels, but she
doesn't. And that inaction from Sam only
proves Nung's point that, like, you know, Sam is she's not the
brave one. She's not brave like Nung was
to, like, fight, really. And so, like, it's kind of like
foreshadowing a little bit what's going to go on with the
grandmother because, like, she can't even stand up to her
sister, you know, not going to win against the grandmother who
she has more history and more of, like, an actual, like, bond
with. Because, like, this sister
abandoned her, like, decades ago and she's like, I don't even
know you anymore. But like her and the grandmother
have been tight forever. You know, that's a harder bond
to break. I feel like Sam feels abandoned
by everyone who's not in her life, even if it wasn't their
choice to leave, like all the people who died who were
assuming that more people die than you've actually seen, like.
ISIS family. Oh, parents, yeah, yeah, yeah.
She has abandonment issues for sure.
She tries to hold on tight to the people she still has left.
Mine is Kirk because boys are gross.
But she doesn't want to lose or disappoint grandmother because
she's the last family that she has.
And she would do this is about the grandmother and she'd do
anything for her friends, including learn to dance for
Jim's wedding and she'll when she is told that Jim is
divorcing her husband because he snores, that's.
The funniest thing ever. Yeah, I agree.
Like at her core, like Sam is a very loving, loyal person.
And so the position that she's in right now is really shitty
because she just, she wants to do the right thing.
And like, I feel like no matter what she does, somebody's
getting hurt. Whether it's the grandmother Mon
herself, somebody's gonna get hurt.
And Sam doesn't has been hurt so many times by other people.
I don't think she wants to hurt people.
And so, like, that also leads to her inaction when it comes to
choosing and firmly choosing what she wants or like or or
what she's going to do, you know?
So that's why I think she's very wishy washy a lot of the time
and very easily influenced by, like, whoever she's with, You
know what I mean? She's easily like a pushover to
a lot of different people. The minute she's with mom, she's
like, I want to do what you want.
Then she goes back to the grandmother.
She's like, OK, grandmother, I'll do what you want.
You know, she conforms to whoever she's with because I she
doesn't want to hurt anybody and like and that's a very human
thing, you know, and very understandable.
Well, it also might be like she doesn't know.
How? Like she's never really learned
to stick up for herself or to make those kinds of choices.
Or for like against people that she loves or should love kind of
thing like. Yeah, but also like, she has
examples. So like, look at Nung for
example. So none is here saying, like,
look, I was the brave one, I was the strong one.
I stood up for myself and like, what did that cost her?
She had to leave her abandoned her entire family.
Like she cold Turkey gave up her whole family for what she
wanted. Which is insanely selfish when
you think about it. Like she, like, left her little
sisters to fend for themselves. Because she's like, I don't want
to be controlled by the grandmother the grandmother
won't like. She didn't even try to
compromise with the grandmother. She's just like, fuck this and
like, left which. But that is her right?
I I know, But I'm saying, like, right, Like that is a choice.
She chose to do that. But what was the consequence of
that? She had to give up her entire
family to do that. OK, so you can judge Sam and be
like Sam, why can't you just do what your sister's doing?
But, like, why should you have to give up your family for the
person you love? Like, that's kind of crazy to
ask somebody to do, you know, like that.
That's not so easy for everybody.
Like, Sam has a much deeper bond with the grandmother than her
older sister ever did because the older sister was put in the
she's in the pressure cooker the whole time.
Whereas Sam had more years to, like, bond with the grandmother
and be like the baby of the family.
And like, you know they had an actual like, loving relationship
until she became the focus. Right.
So I think for Sam that's really hard to just be like, I'm just
going to abandon you like and pretend like I don't care.
She does care about her grandmother like.
So for Sam this is a much harder it's much harder for her to be
purely selfish and just choose Mon.
She's in a different position than Nan was in.
And so like to have her sister sit there and judge her like
like Sam like you just abandoned all of us.
Like I'm. I'm not that person that can
just abandoned my family the way you did just to just for what I
want, 'cause it's it is a purely selfish act what Nung did like,
really When you boil it down like, was it the right decision
for her? Did she have the right to do it?
Absolutely. But it is a what she did is very
selfish, like. And that's how Sam sees it.
And I think that's how she's looking at her sister And she's
like, I saw what you did. Then I saw what happened like,
well, Sam saw the consequences. Nung didn't.
She just left. She's she comes back.
She's like, is grandmother even alive?
I don't even know what's going on in our family anymore, you
know. But Sam saw her sister
deteriorate. Like she saw the grandmother get
more controlling. And then the grandmother became
controlling to hurt, Like Sam saw the consequences of what
Nung did like. So I think that it, while Sam
didn't learn how to, like, do what she wanted, she saw first
hand what happens if she does what she wants.
Like, it can have a downstream effect and like, affect other
people. And so I think that's part of
her hesitancy because Sam really does have a big heart.
And I I don't think she wants to hurt anyone.
And so but now she's in a position where like, she has to
pick a lane and it's going to hurt somebody.
And it's just she's having a hard time doing that.
Yeah, so it's easier to shut down and ignore exactly and.
Just go to Lesbos and pretend it doesn't exist, you know like
right? But like it's it's getting to
the point where Sam's got to do something and just like and so I
like when we get to later stages where she's like, I don't know
what to do anymore I I this is situation is impossible.
Like it is really shitty you know.
But. I personally don't find it
selfish what she did, just that she was trying to take care of
herself. Like she isn't responsible for
the people she left behind and who say like if she was still
there, maybe she could. Like she would have not.
She wouldn't be who she is, like she wouldn't be herself.
She wouldn't be able to be who they wanted her to be.
So I I agree with that. I think that from Sam's point of
view, she sees it as a selfish act.
But from Nung's point of view, it was a this is what I need in
order to be myself and to exist and to thrive and to like, even
if it ends up hurting people. Like I can't, like you said, I
can't control this. Like that's that's not on me to
like I can't make, I can't make that my decision based on how
it'll affect other people, 'cause then I'm not gonna be
true to myself, so. Yeah, and Nung definitely thinks
that, which is why she's like, you can't blame song's death on
me, but like you leaving did put Song in that it was connected.
And I think that part of like what where's like our point of
view on this is very skewed by the fact that we live in a
Western culture where like the self is prized above the family
unit the bigger units were attached to.
But like in Eastern cultures, it's the other way around.
The self is not prized, it's the family unit, the, the country.
Like you're part of something bigger.
And so the responsibility that Nung had to her family like from
Sam and the grandmother's point of view is like to take care of
the family. So Nung abdicating for herself
is unusual actually. So, like, it is seen as selfish
in like their culture that they're in.
And it seems to me that like that kind of like is shifting a
little bit, at least the way this the show is presented where
like it's more like, hey, follow yourself.
And that's that's OK Like I. And that's why, like the elders
are having this clash with Sam's generation because Sam's
generation is being westernized by like our.
Because like our mentality is like, yeah, and do do you like
take care of yourself. But like in their culture it's
actually the other way around. What she's doing is abnormal.
Not that it's bad or anything, but mean, like it's atypical
behavior for like the eldest abdicate their whole family.
Like that's very unusual. It's like you're supposed to
sacrifice for the family and like, that's where the
grandmother's coming from, Yeah. But I just.
Wanted to like cover our base and make sure like anybody
listening because like they might have been in a position
where they needed to cut ties of family because of.
But I just wanted to make sure that people weren't reading into
it and thinking that we were calling them selfish as well.
No, I'm not. I mean, it is, but like, it's
not. I'm not saying it's good or bad.
I'm just you're putting yourself first, which is what's the word
selfish means. Like, I'm not saying it in a bad
way or a good way. It's just like that is what
she's doing. Like she's taking care of
herself first, which again is seen as atypical in that.
But like, that's what the show is really trying to show.
It's like again, like the younger generation that is
putting themselves 1st and saying being selfish in these
scenarios is OK Like you have, you do need to take care of
yourself and you you can't conform to what other people
want all the time. Like otherwise you'll be unhappy
and end up like song. You know, versus like, the elder
mentality is like you're supposed to put the family 1st
and like the fact that you're being selfish is like
dishonorable and like shameful. And like, so you're having a
clashing of ideologies that are kind of happening.
And it's interesting the way this all played out in Sam's
family because, like, nobody had a good outcome.
And so that's a lot for Sam to be like, well, I could choose
Mon and say fuck the grandmother, but like, so far
everyone's track record has been pretty shitty when they make
that decision. Like, you know, I don't think
Sam can ignore any of these pieces when she's thinking about
what do I do? Like, the woman is traumatized.
Like she's trying to break the generational curse.
That's what I mean. Like, she is breaking this
generational curse of like, conform and be what the family
needs you to be. Sam's trying to do both, I
think, and I think she does this.
She handles this a lot better than her sisters do.
Well, the sisters are like, I'm just leaving.
Like Sam very much tries to be the mediator between the
generational thinking. And I think she's the one that
breaks the curse because she's like, I don't know, doesn't want
to hurt any. She tries to find the compromise
right, and it seems repetitive, like the cycle they get stuck in
where it's like, Sam, for fuck's sake, we can you make a
decision. It's an impossible decision that
you know, you know, so I think, but I think Sam ultimately was
the right person in the family to be in this position.
Well, it sucked. And she didn't necessarily know
she was going to be like in this position later as like the only
family member, you know, she was the right person for it because
because of those characteristics that she has.
So I have a lot of admiration for Sam.
Like it it seems like it's we get trapped in this pattern with
her. But like, I think it means more
than just like choose your own happiness, Sam.
You know, 'cause she loves her family.
Like that brings her happiness too, in a way.
Even though it's like a complicated relationship.
She has, you know, and she doesn't like Ice Out Nung, she
very easily could have just like slapped her sister and be like,
fuck you, you made my life miserable.
Like you know she doesn't, She tries to be the peacemaker with
all this stuff, you know? Anyway, so Nung is like, enough
with this gloom that you 3 bitches have been talking about
Big Gay energy host. Let's talk about the gay stuff.
She's like, you guys look like you're married.
Are you married? And mom's like and Sam's like,
absolutely fucking yes. This is this is my mom.
This is my mom, boss. My mom.
Boss, my mom, Boss. And so Nung is very proud of Sam
because she's like, wow, OK, it's all of us, I guess.
Welcome to the club. What was in the water?
'Cause like, OK, this is like baby Sam.
Cause like, remember her? She hasn't seen Sam in like
decades. And like, the little baby Sam
was always the one that just did what was the good girl?
She was the good girl of the family, right?
She always did what she was told and like, you know, was like
genuinely happy about it and things like that.
So she's like, wow, you're rebelling against grandmother
too. Like song was like, great job,
Sam. We're all fuck ups.
But OK, again, at this point, she hasn't told the grandmam.
But unfortunately, the grandmam already knows that she has
another song on her hands because she's like, had her.
Her CIA agents trail the two of them and has this packet of
photos of Sam and Mon, just like, talking.
I'm like, how are these incriminating photos like?
They're just like, But also, who's the stalker now?
Mon? Got to taste your own medicine.
The grand man was stalking you, all right.
And then when she's, she gets the packet.
So this is the confirmation because remember, Kirk didn't
tell her who model who Sam was with.
So this is how she finds out she, like gets API to trail her.
And then when she's looking at the photos like she looks really
devastated that like, this is what Sam is doing because like,
song trigger. Song trigger, right.
Remember, song was the big queer.
And how did that end? She had to like watch her die in
a hospital, right. That ended horribly.
So I think that she has PTSD a little bit too.
And I think that's part of it. But I think the bigger part of
it is that, like, Sam's always been the good girl, right?
Sam has always done what she wanted.
Sam was going to marry Kirk. Then all of a sudden, like
overnight she's like, what do you mean she left you Kirk?
Like, like all of a sudden, like Sam left Kirk without consulting
her. Like you would have thought that
I think from the grandmother's perspective, she's like, Sam
would have told me, didn't say anything, just broke up with she
heard it from Kirk, then she trails her and she's like, this
is who Sam is cheating on Kirk with.
Like, I feel like in her mind she's like, wow, I'm losing Sam.
And and I think, I don't think it ever crossed her mind that
she would ever lose Sam because Sam was always the good girl.
But I think the way Sam is insecure and clings when she
feels like she's losing people. I think that's learned behavior
from the grandmother because the grandmother starts doing the
same thing. She's like, crap.
I'm losing my one and only grandchild, my good one, the one
that's always cared for me, and she starts freaking the fuck
out. Because, again, why would she
know? Sam learned from the best how to
hide all this shit? Like she just hit it so well
that it just she's finding out right now.
She's like losing Sam, which is a lot, you know.
I wanted to make comment about the photos.
Please do. They're so weird.
I'm talking about the angle
specifically because the IT really only makes sense if these
people were like literally feet three feet next to them taking
the photo. Because even with a long angled
lens like they would, I don't even know like the position.
It's so it's just a weird angle. Like it literally looks like
they're standing there taking a photo and like, how would they
not see that? Were these photos?
I'm trying to figure out, 'cause I can't, I can't remember, based
on the outfits, were these photos taken outside of the
company, 'cause they don't look like they were taken at the inn.
And so was it, yeah. And one of those employees get
paid cause like or annoy, because noy's into Kirk and Kirk
would be like, listen, sweetie pie, I need you to do me a
favor. So, like, it wasn't somebody
they knew and they were just like, whatever, 'cause they're
not doing anything. They're not even touching.
They're just standing in front of each other having a
conversation. So was it somebody they knew who
was just like click, click click?
Was it Jim and like Jim had it on like a computer or something
and they hacked into it? Was Jim taking photos?
Maybe. I mean, maybe, 'cause I was
thought you were suggesting that Jim was the stalker.
Jim would never conspire. Jim hates the grandmother.
She's always like, come on, you gotta bring weapons when you go.
There she's like. She calls her the final boss.
That's why I love Jim so much. Like she understands what the
grandmother is. But yeah, did they hack into her
computer? You're like, this bitch is
obsessed with my granddaughter. Wow, these are a lot of photos
of. Sam, well, I'm just like
thinking maybe it's like on Facebook because, you know, Sam
puts everything on Facebook. My God, all I had to do was just
go into Sam, 'cause she changed her name.
Just go find Sam's Facebook and be like, who's Mon, 'cause she
very publicly was bragging about having sex with Mon and used her
name. So, like, you don't need to go
through all this. I agree.
I I need to teach her a few things about stalking on the
Internet. She.
She does old school stalking, you know, in person you send out
a. Human.
But yeah, this is that costs a lot of money though.
Money means what is money to her?
True. So before we leave this island,
didn't didn't like ask for like the phone number and then a
whole bunch of money. I think that's in a flashback
later. Oh, is it?
I thought, I think so. I thought she asked for the
phone number at least and like, got.
No, I think it's it's later. It's like a flash.
She gets AI think Mon gets a call.
And they made the flashback of like, Nung asking by herself.
But yeah, while they're on the island, Nung's like, can I get
your number? Because you're way nicer than my
sister. And clearly you're married, so
you have access to her money. Yeah, So I'm a beach bum and I
need help. Yes, they are lovers.
That means she's can borrow the money, right?
When Nung understands us, she's like lovers to Sam means money.
So you're the money. Now I just have to convince you
and you seem nice. My sister is not nice.
She'd be like, go to hell bitch. But mom would be like.
Sure. Yeah, so they exchanged numbers,
basically? She asked.
For. So funny.
The the book is funny too, 'cause she asks Mon and Mon just
gives her the money. It doesn't even tell Sam she's
like whatever, doesn't even tell Sam.
She just gives her the money. Sam doesn't care anyway, so they
leave Lesbos and go home. Unfortunately, and the poor,
poor actually Mon good timing the next day, and thankfully not
when they're at Lesbos. Mon has the worst cramps ever.
So good timing Mon. That would have been really
shitty if it was on your wedding trip.
On your impromptu honeymoon, exactly before the wedding.
The trip that you didn't know you were going on until Sam
dried you in the car, that true? Also, did Sam just have clothes
in the car? Like I I I imagine she packed
like an emergency bag, like with clothes.
Her her clothes for her clothes for mom.
Just be like just in case, just in case we need to go somewhere.
Just in case things get too heated at work.
Right, just in case we need to overnight stay somewhere.
You never know because she's always dragging mom out of work
and then they never go back to work anyway, so I thought that
funny. Anyway, so mom's having cramps
and she feels terrible and her super cool boss lets her stay
home from. Work.
No special treatment here whatsoever.
None. None.
Very cute though. So Mon basically sleeps and then
is rudely woken up by a doorbell and she thinks it's Sam, which
she does multiple times in the show because no one comes to
this house. But.
Why? Let Sam ring the doorbell.
Mon is still living in her Lesbos fantasy.
She is. Mine is like she's half asleep,
so she comes out. She comes out the room just like
pet, naming Sam left and right, and then finds the grand ma'am
sitting at the kitchen table. Why can't we have nice things?
Oh, that woman. So poor Mon is like, well, fuck.
The honorable honorable lady is here.
So out of respect, Sam make or Sam Mon makes her tea and like
serves her the tea. Like it's the respect thing.
And while this is happening, the Grand Mam is just like sizing up
Mon and just disrespecting her left and right.
And then what I hate the most is when she calls, she's like,
you're that kid, Mon. Like how infantilizing to be.
Like calling her a child, first of all.
And then she's like, I know everything about you.
And she reads, she proves to mom that she's a better stalker by
reading her and the reciting the FBI background check she did on
mom. And she's like, I know about
your family, what happened when you were five years old, what
school you went to, your grades, I read your essays, I know it
all. And mom's like, oh fuck, this is
not great. And by the end of it, the
grandma basically accuses mom of stalking Sam, which she was, and
coaxing Sam into a relationship that was planned so she can gold
dig Sam. Which?
She is not. OK, but in the defense of the
grandmother, if I were to get all this information about
someone that I didn't meet and like didn't know, it would seem
very fishy, like she followed every single thing that she did.
She sure did. Yeah, on paper, Mom was stalking
Sam for sure, and mom doesn't answer.
Mom also doesn't answer her. She's like, did you plan this
relationship with my daughter or my daughter, my granddaughter.
And mom doesn't actually. She's terrified first of all.
But like, mom doesn't answer, which like, adds to the
grandmother. And he's like, I knew it.
I knew it. Gosh.
I knew it. I didn't need an FBI.
Agent to tell me this just. Inherently knew it.
I just, I knew it. And then basically by the end of
this conversation, the grandmother was like, this is
all insane. What you guys are doing is crazy
and only people in love do crazy shit, so but she's like, you're
both women so this can't be love and that can't be what's going
on here. I don't understand this.
And poor Mona's just like crushed cause again.
It's like first of all this confrontation should have never
have happened. Sam.
This should be a conversation you're having with your
grandmother not Mon on her own who's having period cramps like
the worst day ever. Like, you know Mona's having the
worst day ever. It's a lot.
And like to have the the grand man basically like reinforce all
of Mon's insecurities yet again that she just dealt with with
the wedding because she's basically saying you're a child
you're not good enough for my granddaughter.
Like you're she says in this conversation too she's like
she's like Sam had a fiance. She had Kirk.
He was perfect. Now he's an outsider and you're
for some reason an insider and you shouldn't.
She's basically saying like you should be the outsider Mon in
this situation. She's just like reading her to
filth and this, like, I feel so bad for Mon in this conversation
because, like, LON has impostor syndrome, really, when it comes
to Sam. That's what it is.
And like, this conversation with the grandmam does not help.
It just, like, brings all that shit back, you know?
Yeah. And then I also agree with like,
this should not have happened. Like this is the biggest reason
why Sam should have told her grandmother like what was going
on ahead of time. So something like this didn't
happen because this is, this is the last.
Like even in a good situation, you don't wanna leave your new
partner or the first time your partner's meeting your family,
whether they like, whether they're gonna be supportive or
not, like to meet them themselves by like by themselves
for the first time. Like, that's a lot, even in a
good situation. No for sure.
And like, once Sam finds out she has feelings about this.
I agree with you, this should have never happened.
But to be fair, at this point, both of them are being are
blindsided by this whole thing. Because while the grand ma'am is
attacking Mon, Kirk is at the office attacking Sam.
So like they both get like double teamed at the same time,
so there's no way they could communicate or like do anything.
Even if even if mom was like Sam, your grandmother's here,
she's too busy battling Kirk at the office who's enacting A
coup, basically courtesy 'cause this is all the grandmother's
doing all of this. So Kirk has all the employees in
that lecture hall or whatever the hell it is, and he's
basically going on and on. And he's like, I am here to like
be righteous by the company rules and the company rule is no
fraternizing. And so I am firing ya and Chin.
But how did he even know? About it, that's an amazing
question. Who's his mole?
Was he watching the security? Did Auntie make?
She had to know. She knows everything.
Did he like schmooze It's NOI. I'm blaming NOI until I know
otherwise because she likes him and would tell him everything.
That's why he could. He could play her, is all I'm
saying. But I thought no one else knew.
That's what I thought. I wonder.
Security cameras. I don't.
Oh no, He caught them in the parking lot.
That's what happened. Oh, but I wonder if the Pi that
was like tailing, cause again, they were at work when they took
those photos. I wonder if the Pi tailing Sam
and Mon was like, I caught this too.
I don't know if it's relevant and like caught the two of them.
But yeah, he tells Sam Laters. Like I caught them in the
parking lot. What was I supposed to do?
I feel like this was planned and then someone found out.
But conveniently that's his story, because Sam's like, what
the fuck? And.
Pulls him into her office and. She's like, she's basically
like, tell me what this he's like?
She's like this. Is really about me and Mon I.
Know it is because you're trying to be like, no, I suddenly want
to follow the office fraternizing rule that you
weren't following with me. Suddenly you're all about this
rule. He's just like this is to put
pressure on me and Mon, isn't it?
And she's like, fine, I'll fire. Mon, right now.
I'll. She's fired.
As of right now. I just did it.
I fired her so I can date her even harder now.
Kirk, is that what you wanted? Which she does.
So, I mean, she was trying to fire her earlier.
I. Know.
She's like this. Is exactly what I wanted.
Anyway, thanks for the. Excuse.
I'll let Ma know she has no more money coming in.
But we're married now, so it doesn't matter.
But in this conversation, I do like when she's telling Kirk
off. About this, she basically.
Says like she says that she loves Mon too.
And so I think this is a reality check for him in a lot of ways.
#1 Sam's reaction where she's still fighting for Mon even when
she shouldn't be, right. According to him and the
grandmother. And then she basically says, I
love Mon and it's like he's like, wow, OK, this is really,
this isn't just you're cheating on me for some college
experiment reasons like you're actually in love with her.
OK, this. Wow.
I think yeah, big 'cause he looks pretty strict during this
conversation. And.
So then I love when she puts it. All together, she has this.
Sick burn at the end where she's like thanks for enlightening me
Kirk like mic drop moment. I love it so much.
But then, Kirk. Follows this up with Well, I'm
just trying to be a good guy. Sam and do what's best for you,
Sam. I'm like, oh God.
If he wanted to be the good guy, he would tell the.
Grandmother. Off and not.
Care about what she does. You wouldn't be in.
He was a. Mole in her life in.
Multiple ways. The mole of the company and then
he's the mole with her love life when it comes to the grandma and
he just reports all of what's going on.
Like the reason we're in this situation is because of you.
Kirk Kidder just walked away. No, you had to be a Dick about
it. So after her impassioned rant.
At Kirk, she just. Leaves and she's like, fuck this
shit 'cause it's middle of a work day, but I don't work.
And she goes home to go see Mon. But mom's not there, it's just
she goes home to an empty house. She looks all.
Over the house and she's like. What the fuck just happened?
So then we cut over to Mon. So Mon left after.
What I was picturing her and playing Marco Polo in the house
for some reason. I'd just be like Marco.
No answer. Mon Mon sham sham jump.
It's. It's getting late here.
That's what's. Happening.
We're in the twilight hours, or we're past that anyway, so mom
goes to her parents. House and she has this
conversation with Nop because Mom is sitting there trying to
process her last scene and she's ignoring Sam, who's currently
blowing up her phone. And Nop is so sweet in this
scene, and basically he he's like, you know, she's calling a
lot. You should probably pick up the
He's like, I don't like Lady Sam.
You and we all know I am not the fan of her at all.
But, like, you should probably like, talk to her.
She's probably losing her mind. She is, because Sam doesn't
know. Sam has no idea why Mom left.
Mom did not tell. Her about the encounter with the
grand, ma'am. So he's like, you should
probably tell her what's happened.
That's a big deal. Like, you should probably tell
her, but mom's, like, not ready to talk to Sam.
She needs to process that because that was a lot.
So I like in this conversation that Nop really steps up and he
he's a good therapist for Ma in the scene and tells her what she
needs to hear. To really?
Like Assuage her insecurity over Sam, and he basically gives her
this pep talk and he's like, you can't let what she's like.
All those horrible insults she was throwing at you, can't let,
can't let her get to you. You know, 'cause Ma, not number
one, is all about eating the rich, which is partially why he
hates Sam, 'cause she's wealthy, and he's not about that.
But he has the same energy when it comes to the Grand.
Man which is like. The grand man's the final boss.
You need to eliminate her. She's.
In the way all. Of that stuff.
And I like one of the things he says and he's like, he's like
Mon, I you feel like you're inferior to Sam.
But he's like our true value doesn't lie in titles and all
the stuff the grandmother's trying to put on you.
He's like, that's old way of thinking.
He's like, your true value lies in your heart, right?
Which is what, like, the lesbians are trying to tell her
also. So like, and I feel like it, it
means a lot coming from him, 'cause he's somebody who, like,
really knows her extremely well and has proven after he finally
got it through his head they weren't gonna be a thing that,
like, he genuinely is looking out for her constantly.
And so I feel like this meant more coming from him versus like
the conversation with like, Risa and Cher at the end, you know?
Yeah, definitely. No, I'm.
I was putting it all together in my head.
I was stuck on the exterminate. That was pretty cool, I see.
I see that I. Did say it in my head.
And I know I can't read that word, not.
That was not a joke for me 'cause I have no idea what's
going on. It will.
Be when you watch Doctor Who with us.
Oh gosh. Anyway.
The Evolution of. Like.
Knop. And Mon's friendship is
something that I I like. I'll say that two evolutions I
really love in this this show. One is Sam's character
development and the 2nd is I actually really enjoy Knop and
and Mon's relationship and the way it like completely shifts
and goes to a very healthy beautiful place.
It's just very special and I love that he.
He knows. How Mon feels.
But he's known for a since the beginning and he knows that it's
reciprocated. Even if Sam fucks up a lot.
Like he does know that Sam loves Ma.
I think he does know that. So he does like in the scene
encourage her to talk to Sam like directly about this instead
of letting it fester and becoming like a misunderstanding
and all that kind of stuff. And he's like you know love
conquers all. Ma Ma, it's gonna be fine.
Just please talk to her. And so he's a very good ally in
the scene. I just it's very sweet.
I like this conversation with her.
Yeah. Once we get the.
Like, this is his second love. Is love, basically.
Yeah, exactly. He's like the first one.
The first time he has that. Conversation.
With her, I really start liking him because, I mean, in the
first episode I was completely against him.
Same he like he's. There to actually.
Help Mon with her problems. But, like, because, you know
Yuki and her parents were not helping.
Yuki apparently doesn't communicate about relationships
whatsoever. The parents are just all about
Sam, and she can do no wrong. Yeah, so I love that.
She has him who, like, has seen the whole.
Thing from like stalker wall to like Sam showing up constantly
like and while he does not like Sam like he doesn't like Sam.
He he knows. That, like, Mom loves her and
that it's reciprocated. But like, I don't think he, he
hates them actually, as a person, 'cause she's, you know.
To him, what's wrong with the world?
Is a rich woman like, she's like wielding her power left and
right. So and I do like that in the
scene Mon does acknowledge that Nob is being a really good
friend. So I like that they they they
they come full circle with their friendship and it gets to a
stronger place. So I do, I do like that for the
two of them? Well, I mean, it was basically
her running away from him in the beginning, so.
Yeah, but like, you think about it like, you know, probably
before puberty. Like, they probably had a really
strong friendship and then it got weird because hormones.
And now, like, I like that it comes back to just being like a
really solid friendship, you know, where she's very seen by
him, you know, which I wasn't expecting.
I would expect this to come from Yuki.
So I do like that it comes from him.
I think it's very sweet. We really don't get much
substance from you. No, we get her.
Crying to Som about this, her crying to Mon.
About boyfriends. And then, like we don't really
hear from Yuki, I wonder if so the.
Actor who? Played Yuki and I think T as
well like they had conflicts with like scheduling for the
show and everything. So I wonder if Yuki I I don't.
I didn't read the book, so I don't know if it's if.
It's. Showing at all in the book, but
I wonder. If it was supposed to be.
Yuki, But they were scheduling conflicts with the actors, and
so Nop ends up taking that role on and it becomes more of a
like, 'cause that kind of it kind of has that same.
Feeling of how Yuki's friendship.
Was with her with with Mon, and then now it's that same kind of
relationship, but with Nop. I can see that.
I do like that it's him though, because.
When Sam shows up because again she can, he can push the
jealousy button with her. That.
Like, Yuki can't push. So I do like that when Sam comes
back and she's like at the gate, like Nop is like physically
comforting him on so that it makes Sam immediately jealous
and she's like, what the hell? Like, is this why you love?
I love that we get those moments because they're so funny.
But. Like, I can't blame Sam in the
scene because she's a wreck. Mom left without saying.
Anything. And she's like, what is this?
And I like that when Sam shows. Up.
We get the shot of her behind the gate, so to me it kind of
depicts how Sam feels in this. Moment, like suddenly.
She's an outsider cause like she's in the she doesn't know
what the Hell's happening and like suddenly Mon flees and like
here's Mon with nop, which is weird.
And like, also it's weird 'cause like not weird.
But it's interesting because like that's actually how Mon
feels, like she feels like the outsider after this conversation
with the grandmother. So they're on the same page for
different reasons, and I like how it's kind of depicted here
and the reason why I love that this.
Is NOP also? He's like, great Sam.
'S here. Perfect.
You bitches need to talk. He's like, call me if this ends
poorly, mod and like. They.
Do like a staring at each other
shit like him. He's like Lady Sam.
Like he just, he hates her. Like, and I just like that we
get these fun interactions with the two of them, 'cause they
don't like each other and like they don't hide that I like that
he was the one to let Sam inside because.
It shows us and Sam that he truly isn't after Mod anymore.
And yeah, so, like, by opening it for her, he's like, all
right, it's your turn. Yeah, I I told her to talk to
you. Yeah, it also kind of shows like
as much as. He doesn't.
Like all that Mon's, like that Mon that Sam like stands for or
like grew up being, he's open to her being a part of Mon's.
Life. Too.
Or trying to be at least 'cause I think he sees that when Mom's
happy, she's. Really happy like I.
Think he know? Like he knows that she cares
about her and that Sam does treat her well, 'cause she
probably hears hears about it from the parents.
He's always there, right? And they're like, well, mom
bought her, AI don't know, Mom bought her clothes.
And like, Mom, she took her out to get all these things.
Like, I think he hears that, like, she treats her well, like
when she's not a crying mess, right?
You know, 'cause, yeah, that's all he saw, all he sees, 'cause
she only comes home when she's. Sad.
That's why she's here now. So yeah, anyway.
So now knot. 'S.
Gone and so. Sam and Mon are alone and.
Sam tries to like reach out for Mon to like comfort her, but Mon
like physically turns away like before Sam can touch her and
like that's never a good sign, Sam, so they go sit down on.
The bench to kind of like. Talk and poor mom, like, I think
she's just so rattled. She just, I don't think she even
knows how to have this conversation.
So which is interesting because Sam does most of the talking,
which is not normal. And she's she tries to make all
the excuses about why she's upset, and Sam calls her out and
she's like, listen, you're you asked for the privilege of me,
telling you how I feel all the time.
Like I would like the same. Courtesy that you tell me how
you're actually feeling, and I think that like, clearly, like
deep. Down like Sam knows Mon.
Well enough to know that, like, you're not being yourself right
now. Something, something's something
is very wrong for you to, like, be so out of character right
now. And so Sam just like, gives Mom
the space to like, 'cause Sam knows what it's like to, like,
struggle with words. And so she kind of, like, gives
Mom the space to, like, figure out what she wants to say and
just like kind of, like, takes her hand and like, holds it.
And I think that that's a grounding gesture.
The two of them do a lot, but in this moment it's really
important because Sam physically holding on to her like pulls Mon
out of her thoughts. Like it gets her out of her like
internal monologue to get more external and like get into the
present moment where Sam is. And after this, that's when Mon
comes clean and she. Tells her like.
Your grandmother stopped by the house today and the look on
Sam's face the minute she says this.
Is just a. Look of just I am an utter
failure. So what you said earlier Cole,
the way like when we said this should never have happened.
This should have been Sam's confrontation.
Sam knows that. So when Mon tells her this, she
just has the her she her immediate reaction was like that
should have been me, not you. Like that's what her face tells
me in this moment. Like she knows but she failed
because she her inaction like led to this scenario basically.
And so Mon comes clean about like what?
The conversation was, and basically she was.
Like, well, she told me to walk away from you completely
basically. And and Sam doesn't say anything
to to this. But she she also doesn't let go
of Mon. In fact she like grabs her hand,
like holds on even tighter. Same reflex with the
grandmother. Right.
I feel like I'm losing you. I'm gonna hold on even tighter.
Like she physically does it here and then she pulls Sam in, pulls
Mon into a hug, right. And to me, this is Sam's way of
admitting without admitting that Mon is like what she wants to
fight for. You know, Mons being the keyword
here that like she's like, fuck, this shouldn't have happened.
And they do sit in this moment for a little bit, which again,
cute. They let them sit in comforting
moments and eventually Sam apologizes like over and over
and over again because I think Sam knows she she really failed
Mon. Like the out of all the things
that Sam has ever done she failed Mon the most in this in
this moment. Because Sam knew this day was
gonna come the way she knew I have to break up with Kirk
eventually. She kept saying that to mom but
she never was. Like I had to tell my
grandmother eventually. I think that she tried so hard
to, like, ignore that more than anything else.
And she was all too happy to just flee to, like, Sharon
Rissa's place and like live in that bubble of just being happy.
And that she ended up being blindsided by the reality of the
situation, which was the grandmother found out on her
own. And then this happened, right?
And and then by doing so, Sam failed on because she wasn't
there when this all went down. You know, I'm really happy that
Sam did keep apologizing. Because she's never really had
to apologize in her life, but now that she found someone that
she truly cares about and knows that she is hurting because of
her, and yeah, I I just didn't understand that.
Word that I. Wrote, and the inevitable, all
she can think about is her, yeah.
Because deep down, Sam Sam's trying.
Not to hurt. Anybody you know?
I think which is why like. It was easier for.
Her as a kid, to just be like, I don't need to be happy as long
as the people around me are happy.
So in a way, Sam's actually the people pleaser like of the two
of them. And Mon's more like stands up
for what she wants, which is very interesting, 'cause that's
not how they read on the surface, you know, All right,
but in the end, at the end of this conversation.
Sam promises. Mon that they'll get through
this, and she gives Mon her word.
They'll get through this together.
Thoughts. Thoughts on this?
Promise by Sam? Wishful thinking?
And it's putting a lot. Of pressure on herself to
confront. The grandmother.
Which brings us to the end of the episode, because
interestingly, in the conversation.
At the beach when the grandmother calls her Sam was
basically like, Yep, I'll come see you later.
So she does. She makes good on the promise.
So Sam was going to meet the grandmother regardless.
So the what the grandmother did is actually pretty fucked up
because she knew Sam was going to come over there on this day.
So then she went behind Sam's back and like enacted her plan
the day before they were supposed to meet.
So, like, to Sam's credit, she was supposed to meet the
grandmother on this day, but now she's like, I'm pissed and so
then she goes over and it ends. With Sam.
And the grandmother like. Kind of having a stare down.
She's like, I need to talk to you.
Oh, grandmother of mine. And then it ends before we can
get to the big confrontation that we've been waiting for.
Dun Dun, Dun Dun. Well, you do see the light
source once. Again, there you go.
Would this be Gap, the series about the light source?
Oh. My.
Goodness, did you put that? CrossFit.
Oh. And there's so many CrossFit.
There's. So many weird ones in this
confrontation. Oh.
Boy, OK, but Caitlin. Who put the?
Spotlight in the grand man's house.
Mom's not there. Oh no, no, no, no, no.
The grand man has people like. There.
Needs to be lighting servant light on her.
She's like 10 servants, so like 1.
Of them is light light crew. Just lighting.
That's.
It one does meals. Other.
One cleans. That's it.
All right, so that concludes episode. 10.
Any other thoughts? Before we close it out here, no,
I have a lot of thoughts for so many thoughts for episode. 11.
And we will get there and get to all.
Of it. So hope you enjoyed this and
until next time, hydrate for lesbian Jesus, bye.