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I'm bringing a word this morning
in the series that we have been 

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doing as a church under the 
incredible Faith, Love and Hope 

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season we've been exploring as a
church God, money and me and who

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who has been who's picked up 
that resource by Paul Dejong in 

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the last number of weeks. 
Phenomenal, phenomenal. 

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It's really going to do some 
beautiful things. 

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It's going to undo some things 
that maybe you need undoing and 

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rebuild some things. 
And this is not just financial. 

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As I've walked through listening
to this book, as I've listened 

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to this book, I have noticed 
that this topic of money is 

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attached to our heart. 
Has anybody else discovered 

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this? 
It is not separate to us. 

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It is absolutely attached to our
heart. 

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And so it is such a beautiful 
and sacred thing to do to walk 

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through the Word of God and 
understand what He says about 

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money over the in the last 
couple of weeks, you may have 

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discovered from the incredible 
words that have come out from 

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Pastor Gray and Pastor Rach last
week, what a word last week. 

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Wow, phenomenal. 
You will have discovered that 

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God has a lot to say about money
in His Word. 

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He lists things about how we are
to steward what He has provided 

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us thousands more times than 
when he's what he speaks about 

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his love, his grace and faith. 
This is huge. 

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This means for you and I, we 
have a lot from God's word that 

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we need to learn. 
If he's got a lot to say about 

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it, we've got a lot to learn 
about it. 

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And so in an unusual my part of 
the series that I'm going to 

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bring today or unpack today, I 
have titled The Wounded Wallet 

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The Wounded Wallet. 
Why? 

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Because I truly believe that God
has to undo some things in us 

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before He begins to build some 
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He's so faithful. 
For those of you who have 

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accepted Jesus as your Lord and 
Savior, you'll know this. 

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He's so faithful and He's so 
good that He doesn't just take 

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the broken mess that you and I 
are or were, and go from here. 

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I can do something with this 
life. 

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No, He says I can redeem and I 
can restore and I can heal and I

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can show you the threat of grace
because God promises you and I 

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that He's been with us always, 
that He's never left us, never 

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forsaken us. 
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know Him, He knew us and He was 
near to us, we just weren't 

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aware or wouldn't acknowledge 
His nearness. 

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Which means for you and I, 
there's been a threat of grace. 

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There is in each of our stories 
all along. 

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That as we undo so gently with 
the Holy Spirit some of the 

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wounds we have. 
And so we're going to look at 

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this in this area today, the 
wounds that we have. 

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We see the threat of grace that 
God has been weaving for all our

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lives because he has a plan and 
a purpose for each and every one

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of us. 
And that is not to harm us to, 

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but to give us a hope and a 
future. 

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So I want to preach a message 
this morning called the wounded 

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wallet. 
And before anybody panics, it's 

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not a message about budgeting 
and it's not going to tackle 

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your after pay balance. 
You got to do that one on your 

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own. 
All right, Although the Holy 

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Spirit this morning might speak 
to you about your Uber Eats 

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spending. 
You know, we have no Uber Eats 

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where we are. 
Graham and I's budget has just 

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so significantly changed it's 
ridiculous. 

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We are totally home cooked meals
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But this message is deeper than 
dollars, all right, because many

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people don't actually have a 
money problem. 

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I know so many of you disagreed 
with that statement, all right? 

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We have a wounded heart that 
money got attached to. 

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And until the wounds heal, the 
patterns continue to repeat. 

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So I want to ask you a really 
deeply honest question. 

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I'm going to ask each and 
everyone of you to shut your 

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eyes for just a moment. 
And I'm going to ask you to have

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a think about this is what to do
with my interns. 

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All right, have a think about 
just for 30 seconds, your first 

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memory of money. 
Was it fearful? 

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Did have conflict? 
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Many of us as children have 
great memories of going to the 

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lolly store. 
Who's got the lolly store memory

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right? 
Lolly store memory. 

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And when I was little, and I'm 
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can beat this, which is awesome.
And you can have those cafe 

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conversations after. 
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remember that $0.05 used to get 
20 lollies. 

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It was a little white bag that 
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like this, and you could go up 
and you could get it. 

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And so to five find $0.05 on the
road was a big deal as a child. 

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If you found $0.20, you were 
loaded. 

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You go one of the big bags. 
Does anybody have those sorts of

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memories? 
Maybe you don't. 

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Maybe your early memories of 
money are actually around lack 

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or embarrassment or instability.
When I was a child, when I was 

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in grade 2, my mum sent me to 
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Who has an experience with the 
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We had a school uniform lady, 
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And this school uniform lady 
scared me. 

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She scared me so much that even 
if I didn't have to go to the 

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school uniform, little booth 
place in our school, if she was 

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walking down the hallway, I'd 
put my head down and I'd walk to

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the side and cross to the other 
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I was so afraid of her because 
she used to walk around with a 

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ruler and she would get girls as
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Some of you guys have this 
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This is really normal for you. 
But when you'd walk past, she'd 

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say kneel and you had to get on 
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She'd measure your skirt versus 
like the ground and all the 

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girls skirts had to actually go 
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And she would measure the boys 
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right up to the kneecap. 
And so she would be feeling boys

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kneecaps and measuring girls 
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And I was so afraid of her that 
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the brand new dresses that we 
used to get at the beginning of 

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the year to let the hems down so
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measured. 
So it's so ridiculous. 

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I've seen in school photos that 
my dress was like here I had a 

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couple of inches gap between the
pulled up socks and the and the 

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dress in Townsville, which is 
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But I have this memory of going 
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I was in grade 2 and because I 
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grown out of my sports skirt and
it was now too short and I was 

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going to get measured. 
So my mum sent an envelope to 

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the school with me in year 2 and
said go to the uniform shop lady

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because she was open before and 
after school before school and 

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give it to her and say I need a 
new sports skirt now. 

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There wasn't mobile phones so 
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So in that era you would go to 
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So I remember being petrified 
and I'd have to go and she was 

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going to measure me and she was 
going to give me a skirt that 

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was too big but I was afraid 
would fall down when I'd run on 

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sports days. 
But all the, all, all of those 

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fears aside, I went to the 
uniform shop and I remember 

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going to the uniform shop and 
saying to the to the uniform 

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shop lady, I'm here to buy a new
sports skirt. 

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My mum has given me this money 
to pay for it and so she eyed me

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off, didn't get a skirt out, 
opened the envelope and took out

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a $50 note. 
Now I didn't know in year 2 what

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that was. 
I didn't know the value of this 

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yet. 
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I graduated school as a 16 year 
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And I have this vivid memory of 
the uniform shop lady saying to 

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a very young child, you stole 
this from your mum, didn't you? 

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And I remember standing there as
a little girl going, no, my mum 

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gave it 'cause I need a new 
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She said I'm going to check, I'm
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And she sent me out of the 
uniform shop and at the end of 

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the day my mum, who was a little
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but if you've met her just as 
fiery, walked in and had what, 2

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with the uniform shop lady. 
And I remember this defining 

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moment as a 7 year old where I 
was clearly, in the eyes of 

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adults, would only possess a 
whole lot of finance if I had 

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stolen it. 
Do you know that that marked my 

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life for nearly 25 years and 
marked the way I did finance? 

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It was so significant, I 
struggled to have large finances

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on me at any time for fear that 
someone would think I had stolen

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it. 
It also spoke to myself worth on

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that I wasn't worth or worthy to
be carrying that level of 

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finance. 
Each and every one of us could 

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have these moments and there 
will be people here today, which

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is why we're bringing a message 
like this who carry wounds 

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around finance now. 
It's so funny. 

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I could remember that when I was
actually preparing and I wrote 

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that question, it was still the 
first memory I remember about 

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finance. 
And yet Fast forward a couple of

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years later, at 12 years old, we
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park, which in Townsville was 
not actually a skate park done 

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by the community. 
It was actually held on the 

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Uniting Church property. 
There was a big half pipe at the

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at the end of the car park of 
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And so all the kids in town used
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us couldn't skate. 
So we would just slide down it 

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on our butts and split our 
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But it was really fun. 
So we, my dad would take us down

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regularly. 
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We'd rollerblade because it was 
the 90s and we'd slide on this 

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half pipe. 
And I remember on this day there

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was the, the shop, everybody 
knows the corner stores in that 

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era, right where you would get 
those lolly bags. 

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And I remember saying to my dad,
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can we go to the lolly shop? 
And I remember him saying to me,

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I actually don't have any 
finance today, but you know 

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what, We're going to God's 
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You never know now. 
God's house wasn't open. 

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It was Saturday. 
We would just go to the skate 

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park attached to God's house. 
But I remember on this day I 

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heard the comment. 
I totally dismissed it. 

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I was 12 years old. 
My little brothers were on the 

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half pipe and I was balancing 
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You know, I'm using myself on 
the car park edges, right? 

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And I was walking and there was 
concrete on this side and grass 

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on this side and all of a sudden
something shiny caught my eye. 

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And right there in the grass was
the brand new $2.00 coins. 

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Not one but a a whole lot of 
coins. 

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I picked it up and I was like, 
and then I started to see 

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sparkles all the way through the
grass. 

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And as I was walking along, I 
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excited. 
And I was like, Dad, Dad, look 

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in the House of God, as my dad 
said to me, but you never know 

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because we're going to the House
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Do you know, in the House of God
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the King of Kings and the Lord 
of Lords. 

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Do you know I walked away with 
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Somebody was skating in their, 
you know, pockets got emptied 

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and I found it. 
But it taught me something that 

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in the House of God there is 
supernatural provision and it's 

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not just for rescue, it's that 
this is the way our God 

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operates. 
My dad said to me when I showed 

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him because I was like, what do 
I do with this? 

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This is a lot of money. 
Do I need to hand it in to 

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somebody? 
Do I, what do I need to do with 

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this? 
And I remember my dad just 

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kneeling down and saying to me, 
Mel, don't ever be worried about

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your finance. 
If you're busy about his work, 

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he'll look after you. 
And I want to say to you, 

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church, if you're busy about his
work, if you're, if you are 

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walking out, what God has called
you to do obediently, faithfully

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being found trustworthy with 
what he's put in your hands. 

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God will provide according to 
his riches. 

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We're not subject to the world's
economy when we come under his 

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economy. 
That's why I wanted to ask you, 

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what is your early memory? 
Because we all have the 

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opportunity to have this 
reframed. 

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Many adults are still making 
financial decisions today from 

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childhood wounds. 
Some people over overspend 

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because they're wounded. 
Some hoard because they're 

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wounded. 
Some avoid finances completely 

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because shame overwhelms them. 
Some strive endlessly because 

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their worth became connected to 
performance. 

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The reality is many people need 
healing before they need to make

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a budget. 
Because your wallet often 

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reveals what your heart is 
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So I'm going to bring this out 
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I want to unpack this because I 
pray this morning that there is 

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freedom found in this place. 
I can testify that God has 

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taken. 
Gray and I are on such a journey

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in this area to see wholeness 
and healing take place that 

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today in our mid 40s, we are 
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That's unheard of. 
When I when I read that 

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scripture that says do not 
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world, I wonder what this looks 
like if we applied that not just

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in behaviours but in our area of
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What does it look like to not 
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world, but instead be 
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His Spirit .1 this morning? 
A wounded wallet is often a 

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wounded heart. 
Proverbs 423 says guard your 

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heart, for from it everything 
you do flows. 

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Everything flows from the heart,
including your relationship with

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money. 
Money is emotional. 

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If you doubt me in it, see how 
you feel or the difference 

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between when you open who's 
still got like a physical wallet

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and it's not just your iPhone 
and you're tapping it, right? 

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Yeah. 
OK. 

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So the difference, the emotional
difference to when you open that

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thing and it's got nothing but 
store cards. 

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And I'm not talking the ones 
that get you anything. 

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I'm talking the loyalty points, 
right? 

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Right. 
When it's got nothing in there 

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or it's just got some silver 
coin in there to when you open 

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that up and there's a whole lot 
of greenback in there, right, 

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there's a different emotional 
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All right? 
Money is emotional. 

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That's why we buy things we 
can't afford, avoid opening 

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bills, panic over small 
expenses, obsess over financial 

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security, or we work until we 
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Or we feel shame around lack. 
Because money is rarely just 

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practical. 
Does anybody feel that it's 

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really just practical? 
It's deeply spiritual and very 

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emotional. 
Maybe growing up, money created 

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conflict in your home. 
Maybe bills created fear, debt 

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created anxiety, addiction 
created instability, gambling 

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destroyed trust, or poverty 
created shame. 

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Some of us inherited more than 
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We inherited fear or scarcity, 
which we've spoken into for the 

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last two weeks, or survival 
mode, and now as adults, we 

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react to money emotionally 
because our hearts were wounded 

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relationally. 
Hear me today. 

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This is really important. 
Your family history may explain 

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you, but it doesn't define you. 
Romans 12 says be transformed by

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the renewing of your mind, 
meaning the cycle can break 

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chaos, fear, lack, debt, 
financial panic, shame. 

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Jesus heals hearts, not just 
habits. 

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All right, which brings me to 
point #2 wounded people build 

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golden calves. 
We're going to go to a passage 

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in the Bible, and it's found in 
Exodus 32. 

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I love this passage and what it 
communicates to you and I about 

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this and what happens when 
people are wounded and they've 

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got to walk forward with wealth,
all right? 

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Wealth doesn't mean that you're 
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In Exodus 32, Israel has been 
delivered miraculously, 

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supernaturally, so significantly
by God from Egypt. 

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All right, They've been 
delivered from slavery. 

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They had the sea parted for 
them. 

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They've walked across on dry 
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God has then fed them 
supernaturally. 

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I just think this is, does 
anybody else get wowed by these 

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stories in the Bible and you go,
does anybody ever pray? 

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God, let us see this stuff 
again. 

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I'd totally wake up to Mana. 
Come on now. 

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Right? 
But then Moses goes up the 

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mountain into the presence of 
God and is delayed, Say delayed.

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Beware of what you do with your 
finances when God tarries 

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according to your time in the 
waiting. 

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When there is delay, let me tell
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Suddenly the waiting exposes 
their wounds. 

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The golden calf that they create
while Moses is up the mountain 

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was not birthed out of atheism. 
It was born from impatience. 

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They didn't stop wanting God, 
They stopped trusting in Him 

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while they were waiting. 
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they built something. 
Here it is that they could 

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control. 
And isn't that what we still do 

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today? 
When life feels uncertain, when 

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God feels silent, when waiting 
feels uncomfortable, we start 

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building substitutes. 
We build hustle, control, 

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accumulation, comfort, image, 
status, endless striving because

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wounded people often trust 
control more than surrender. 

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I'm going to repeat that and I'm
just going to ask you, let that 

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settle in your spirit this 
morning. 

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Wounded people often trust 
control more than surrender. 

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Let me lovingly say this this 
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Sometimes the most spiritual 
looking people are actually 

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highly organised control freaks.
Some of you don't have the gift 

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of administration. 
You have anxiety with a 

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spreadsheet. 
Come on. 

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But healing begins when trust 
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Here's here's the Third Point in
this The gold was never the 

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problem. 
All right? 

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The Israelites made this golden 
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The gold was not the issue. 
This is what wrecks me about 

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this particular story. 
The gold itself wasn't evil. 

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That gold came from Egypt. 
That gold was provision given to

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the Israelites by Egypt as they 
exited. 

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That was ordained by God, right?
God gave it to Israel as they 

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left, and later God tells them 
to use this same gold to build 

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the Tabernacle to house His 
presence. 

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Same gold, 2 altars, one that 
hosted his presence and the 

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other that replaced it. 
And suddenly you realise money 

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itself isn't evil. 
Provision isn't evil, influence 

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isn't evil, success isn't evil. 
The issue is, what is our heart 

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doing with the gold? 
Because wounded hearts can turn 

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gifts from God into substitutes 
for God very quickly. 

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Some people use money to feel 
safe, to feel powerful, to avoid

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dependence, to numb pain, to 
prove worth, and to escape 

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insecurity. 
And we don't melt gold into 

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calves anymore. 
Well, not that I'm aware of, all

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right? 
We melted into endless hustle, 

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emotional spending, status, 
addiction, comfort, self 

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protection, and success without 
surrender. 

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And some idols look really 
spiritual. 

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You can build ministry without 
intimacy. 

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You can build success without 
peace and wealth without trust 

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or productivity without God's 
presence. 

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But God never intended provision
to replace his presence. 

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And so .4 this morning, it's for
each and every one of us found 

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in this room. 
Or if you're listening to this 

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message online, Jesus wants to 
heal our money stories. 

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Is there anybody here has the 
faith to believe that Jesus 

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wants to heal? 
Some of us today are exhausted, 

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not because of money itself, but
because of the fear attached to 

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it. 
Some of us panic every time a 

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bill arrives. 
Some of us avoid our finances 

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because shame overwhelms us. 
Some of us work constantly 

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because you're terrified of ever
feeling powerless again. 

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Some of us are still reacting 
from wounds created 20 years 

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ago. 
But Jesus wants to heal the root

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cause, not just manage the this 
is the symptom. 

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And I believe the Holy Spirit is
saying today you do not need to 

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live in survival mode anymore. 
When I wrote that particular 

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line down, I, I saw a young 
lady, there's a young lady here 

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today and God just wants to say 
to you, you were never designed 

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to live in survival mode. 
You were never designed to live 

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in survival mode. 
You do not need to live in that 

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state any longer. 
You are not trapped in the story

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that you have come from. 
I want to unpack this just a 

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little bit before the team comes
through. 

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An incredible, incredible story 
in the Word of God. 

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It's a parable that Jesus tells 
about a prodigal son in Luke 

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1511 to 32. 
The prodigal son demands his 

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inheritance early. 
Can you hear it? 

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Why? 
Because wounded people often 

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want quick provision without 
healthy process. 

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He took the money. 
And if you've read the story, 

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you know he wasted it, and he 
wasted it quickly. 

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He wasted it recklessly. 
But the greatest loss in this 

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story is not the finances or the
loss of it, it was the loss of 

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his identity. 
As this young man becomes aware 

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that he has nothing, when the 
money runs out, the friends 

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leave, the lifestyle leaves. 
This young man is left with 

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nothing and he finds himself 
working on a farm with pigs and 

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eating the pigs food. 
And this is what he says. 

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And I actually think this is one
of the most heartbreaking lines 

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in the word of God. 
It says I am no longer worthy to

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be called a son. 
When we have a wound in this 

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space, this is what it attacks 
every time is our identity. 

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And so it is not not just the 
patterns that repeat, but 

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actually how we see ourselves. 
And we can't filter and see God 

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and how he sees us because we 
carry this and we go, I'm not 

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worthy. 
We come and we stand to pray in 

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a time that we're going to do 
give tithes and offerings and we

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go, I'm not worthy to stand. 
I'm going to stand. 

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I'm going to put my hands in my 
pocket and I'm going to agree. 

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And you know what? 
I know God's principles to be 

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true, but I just, I can't. 
I'm not worthy to be part of 

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this. 
This is what financial trauma 

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and wounds and pain does. 
It attacks identity. 

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People begin to believe I will 
never get ahead. 

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I will always fail financially. 
There will never be enough. 

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I'm just bad with money. 
Or if I get a better job then 

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maybe things will sort 
themselves out. 

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Or this is how my family has 
always been. 

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Do you know, I believe that over
this series that God is going to

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give individuals in this church 
the faith to come off welfare 

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and not because it's a close 
goal. 

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I actually felt that before we 
began to pray, Graham and I were

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sort of preparing what we were 
going to do this season. 

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And I actually had this sense 
that some individuals are going 

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to walk out of this year who 
completely depended on welfare, 

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on Centrelink. 
And you're going to walk out of 

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this year not because it's just 
been handed to you, but God is 

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going to give you the faith, say
faith. 

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He's going to give you the faith
to believe that there is a 

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different way of living for you.
And this is, please hear me, 

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This is not to say that welfare 
is bad. 

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Welfare is not bad. 
We live in one of the most 

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blessed countries on the planet.
I am so grateful for what the 

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government has actually provided
so that no person actually has 

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to live under like in 
destitution. 

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Yes, people still fall through 
the cracks and we understand all

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of the economy and all of those 
things. 

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The Bible says the poor will 
always be with us. 

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Where to be about that work as 
the church. 

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It's not that. 
It's just Oh well, it'll always 

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be like that and I can't do 
anything about it. 

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No, it calls you and I, the word
of God calls you and I to be a 

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source and an answer and and we 
can only be a source and an 

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answer in these spaces. 
If you and I truly put our faith

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in the Lord and say God you, I 
know you can shift this in my 

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what I know you can heal this 
and so that you would bring 

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enough for me to not just look 
after what I've got to do, but 

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do what you want to do through 
me. 

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I'm always marked by that 
scripture that says he was 

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faithful with the little we'll 
be entrusted much. 

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Grey and I had the privilege and
honour of serving Pastor 

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Rachel's parents for nine years 
before we became the senior 

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leaders. 
And I remember sitting in Pastor

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X office one day and he was 
talking to us about leadership 

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styles. 
And he said this particular 

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leadership principle he shared 
with us, he said you can use in 

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every area, but he said it's 
really powerful when you do this

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financially. 
He said in every situation, when

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you're talking with people or 
when you're, you know, at work 

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and maybe you've got a little 
bit of conflict or whatever's 

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going on, anything you do, but 
particularly finance, he says, 

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remain open handed. 
And it marked Grey. 

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And I, if we didn't hold it, God
could get things to us so he 

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could get them through us. 
And we've had seasons, 

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incredible seasons where we have
done life really, really tight. 

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We've not known where the next 
meal is coming from and yet are 

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marked by God's faithfulness 
that a Bible college year for 

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Gray and I. 
When Gray did college, he we 

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made the decision to step out of
faith and do college and to 

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leave work to do so. 
I was a stay at home mum at the 

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time, actually volunteering for 
Pastor Rick and Jenny and so 

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there was no way possible for us
to do this, but we did know that

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God had asked it of us. 
It always takes a step of faith 

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and you don't know the answer 
ahead. 

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You don't know the outcome 
ahead. 

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You don't actually know except 
that the Lord is ordering your 

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steps. 
When Gray and I did our budget 

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at the end of Bible college 
year, we couldn't explain it. 

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It was one of the first years we
actually went back and audited 

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the year financially. 
Even had to do it when you, like

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most of us, go and do our tax. 
Gray and I earned more finance 

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that year, in a year of choosing
to leave security and step out 

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in faith. 
More money flowed through our 

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world that year than any year 
ever that we had ever 

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experienced. 
And Gray and I had walked some 

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really financially prosperous 
years before that. 

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We can only say it was the hand 
of God. 

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I have the faith to believe that
there are those here today who 

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carry that same faith, who have 
a seed of faith to say it could 

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be different for me, could be 
different for my life. 

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And God wants to do something 
this morning as we humble 

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ourselves, humble our hearts and
open them to him this morning 

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and say, God, you have 
permission to do something here.

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In my story, this is the 
significant thing about this. 

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When the Sun, the prodigal son, 
returns home, the father doesn't

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talk about the inheritance, 
about the money squandered. 

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The Big Brother did. 
Money always reveals our hearts.

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00:36:33,720 --> 00:36:42,520
The Father just saw a son and he
restored identity as the opening

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statement. 
This is what God does with you 

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and I If we'd run to him, even 
if we've got nothing, even if we

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00:36:55,080 --> 00:36:58,320
feel like, if you feel like 
everything's gone and it's 

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00:36:58,360 --> 00:37:05,120
always striving and always never
enough, always the same cycle, 

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00:37:05,120 --> 00:37:09,400
always the same pattern, and 
it's left a mark on you. 

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This is just. 
Will it always be the same? 

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When you come to the Father, the
first thing he's going to do is 

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restore identity. 
He's going to remind you of your

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sonship and put a ring on your 
finger and throw a feast. 

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This is not just a story of 
salvation. 

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This is who our Father is and 
how He operates with you and I. 

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00:37:40,080 --> 00:37:44,440
The Holy Spirit heals identity 
before He rebuilds stewardship. 

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00:37:45,960 --> 00:37:50,200
God is restoring trust where 
money is brought trauma this 

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morning. 
I wonder if you'd close your 

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eyes as I just begin to draw 
this out because I believe that 

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there is going to be ministry 
here this morning and that 

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people are going to respond. 
God is restoring trust where 

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00:38:03,480 --> 00:38:06,080
money's brought trauma. 
There is healing this morning 

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for scarcity thinking, for fear 
based control, for striving, for

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orphan thinking, for shame, for 
anxiety around provision. 

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Because God is not merely trying
to improve your finances. 

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God is restoring sons and 
daughters today. 

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00:38:31,960 --> 00:38:35,840
And so today, I believe there 
are people here who are going to

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receive an identity this 
morning, a moment in the 

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presence of God that is going to
be restorative to your identity,

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not because you're bad with 
money. 

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And I want you to hear that 
church this morning. 

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For those of you who have the 
faith to respond this morning, 

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it's not because you're bad with
money, but because money has 

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attached to pain. 
Somewhere along the journey and 

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maybe today, you realise I don't
actually trust God with my 

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provision. 
I've been living in fear. 

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00:39:17,640 --> 00:39:23,280
I use control to feel safe. 
I have carried financial shame, 

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00:39:24,200 --> 00:39:28,560
but no longer. 
And I'm exhausted from striving.

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00:39:31,280 --> 00:39:35,800
Or I'm tired of living in 
survival moment or survival 

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mode. 
Today I'm going to run to the 

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00:39:39,520 --> 00:39:44,200
Father with every head bowed 
across this place. 

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I want to ask you the question 
again. 

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What is your first memory of 
money? 

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And if this morning it is around
any of these topics? 

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Fear, conflict, stress, lack, 
embarrassment, instability. 

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I'm wondering if in faith you 
would respond by standing today 

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in an act of running to the 
Father. 

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Would you just stand right where
you're at? 

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Nobody's looking around because 
God's going to meet you right 

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00:40:29,200 --> 00:40:31,280
where you're at. 
And there is going to be 

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00:40:31,280 --> 00:40:33,800
incredible healing. 
There's people standing all over

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00:40:33,800 --> 00:40:41,440
this place. 
Thank you Jesus, oh Holy Spirit,

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00:40:42,360 --> 00:40:46,480
Holy Spirit, Holy Spirit, thank 
you Jesus. 

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00:40:46,480 --> 00:40:48,600
Thank you for humble hearts this
morning. 

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00:40:49,360 --> 00:40:52,120
Thank you for people who are 
brave enough to say in faith, 

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you know what, I'm going to 
trust the Lord. 

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00:40:56,080 --> 00:40:59,160
What has been my journey thus 
far does not need to stay the 

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same. 
So for those who have stood so 

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00:41:02,880 --> 00:41:08,280
bravely in faith this morning, 
God, I pray that you would meet 

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them like the Father, met the 
Son and instill and speak 

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00:41:14,040 --> 00:41:18,480
identity, identity restoration 
over them where there has been 

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00:41:18,480 --> 00:41:23,080
great wounds that have come and 
like the enemy does to kill, 

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00:41:23,080 --> 00:41:25,800
steal and destroy. 
Right now. 

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00:41:25,800 --> 00:41:29,600
Lord God, I pray your Holy 
Spirit comes in and gently heals

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00:41:30,160 --> 00:41:35,120
right now, ministers and heals 
right now. 

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00:41:35,120 --> 00:41:38,480
We break yokes that have come 
from generations that have 

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00:41:38,480 --> 00:41:44,280
passed down patterns of lack or 
scarcity or gambling and abuse 

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00:41:44,280 --> 00:41:47,560
or insecurities around this 
fear. 

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00:41:48,320 --> 00:41:53,320
And we break those things in the
name of Jesus Christ, that these

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sons and daughters may walk 
forward with strength and with 

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00:41:57,240 --> 00:42:02,280
vigor and with faith, trusting 
you with your all that you have 

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00:42:02,280 --> 00:42:07,000
entrusted to them. 
I thank you, Lord God, that you 

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are the Father who owns cattle 
on 1000 Hills. 

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What a picture your provision. 
We can't even begin to 

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00:42:19,320 --> 00:42:24,320
understand your storehouses. 
We've never seen with our eyes. 

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00:42:26,400 --> 00:42:31,360
But this morning, we choose to 
lean into Your Holy Spirit's 

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promptings and trust you