1 00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:08,520 Welcome to Peptides for Women. I'm Jennifer Woodward, and this 2 00:00:08,520 --> 00:00:12,280 is your podcast for smart, honest conversations about 3 00:00:12,280 --> 00:00:14,600 peptide therapy and midlife Wellness. 4 00:00:14,960 --> 00:00:19,160 We cover everything from GLP ones to BPC 157, plus the 5 00:00:19,160 --> 00:00:23,240 foundations that still matter, sunlight steps, strength 6 00:00:23,240 --> 00:00:26,280 training, protein and minerals. So if you're ready to feel 7 00:00:26,280 --> 00:00:30,160 better with science, back tools, and natural habits that actually 8 00:00:30,160 --> 00:00:32,920 work, you're in the right place. Let's dive in. 9 00:00:35,040 --> 00:00:37,880 Welcome back to the Peptides for Women podcast. 10 00:00:37,880 --> 00:00:41,000 I'm Jennifer Woodward, and I'm pretty damn delighted to 11 00:00:41,000 --> 00:00:43,960 introduce you to my friend Delaney today. 12 00:00:44,400 --> 00:00:47,440 So we met a couple weeks ago. Maybe I'm being presumptuous 13 00:00:47,440 --> 00:00:50,040 calling you my friend, but we just had a great conversation 14 00:00:50,040 --> 00:00:52,360 before we hopped on the recording today. 15 00:00:52,600 --> 00:00:56,840 You've got a fantastic story. You are multifaceted, and I'm so 16 00:00:56,840 --> 00:01:00,520 excited for people to get to hear about what peptides have 17 00:01:00,520 --> 00:01:03,240 done in your life and what you have done in your life. 18 00:01:03,240 --> 00:01:05,920 So let me tell you a little about Delaney. 19 00:01:06,200 --> 00:01:09,440 She got a divorce two years ago and she started her journey on 20 00:01:09,440 --> 00:01:12,680 peptides. Following that, she's since lost 21 00:01:12,680 --> 00:01:17,080 98 lbs and she's built the life of her dreams while helping 22 00:01:17,080 --> 00:01:21,240 other women reinvent themselves. And I got to see a front row 23 00:01:21,240 --> 00:01:24,880 seat to that you guys. Delaney is the real deal. 24 00:01:25,080 --> 00:01:29,360 She is definitely an open book. And so I am extremely excited to 25 00:01:29,400 --> 00:01:32,080 get to share her story on the Peptides for Women podcast 26 00:01:32,080 --> 00:01:33,720 today. Delaney, thanks for helping on 27 00:01:33,720 --> 00:01:35,680 how you doing. Hi, good. 28 00:01:35,680 --> 00:01:38,840 I'm excited. Thanks for inviting me out to do 29 00:01:38,840 --> 00:01:39,560 this. This will be. 30 00:01:39,560 --> 00:01:40,240 Fun. Yeah. 31 00:01:40,320 --> 00:01:42,400 Thanks for saying. Yes, of course. 32 00:01:42,840 --> 00:01:46,600 OK, You've had an incredible transformation, but I kind of 33 00:01:46,600 --> 00:01:49,280 want to start at the beginning, and I don't mean two years ago. 34 00:01:49,520 --> 00:01:51,640 Tell me about what you were like as a kid. 35 00:01:52,160 --> 00:01:58,800 Like out the womb, Yeah, yes. So I grew up in a, I would say, 36 00:01:58,800 --> 00:02:02,240 a functionally dysfunctional household. 37 00:02:02,280 --> 00:02:04,720 You know, I always had a roof over my head and we were taken 38 00:02:04,720 --> 00:02:06,760 care of. But my parents were very 39 00:02:06,760 --> 00:02:09,880 toxically married. You know, they did get a divorce 40 00:02:09,880 --> 00:02:11,360 eventually. And it was one of those things 41 00:02:11,360 --> 00:02:13,320 where it was a relief to me and my sister. 42 00:02:13,320 --> 00:02:16,560 We were like, celebrating, like, so excited about that, which 43 00:02:16,560 --> 00:02:19,840 probably is not very normal. But I did grow up playing 44 00:02:19,840 --> 00:02:22,280 sports. So my whole identity revolved 45 00:02:22,280 --> 00:02:24,720 around softball. My dad was my coach. 46 00:02:25,080 --> 00:02:28,480 And then I went and got a scholarship to play in college. 47 00:02:28,480 --> 00:02:33,280 And so yeah, I, that was really like my whole life, everything 48 00:02:33,280 --> 00:02:37,000 had to do with softball. And my dad and I were very 49 00:02:37,000 --> 00:02:40,160 close, you know, through him coaching me and stuff. 50 00:02:40,160 --> 00:02:43,480 But he was definitely very, very hard on me as well. 51 00:02:43,480 --> 00:02:45,440 And sometimes that's a good thing, right? 52 00:02:45,440 --> 00:02:48,200 Like, I definitely developed good character skills from that. 53 00:02:48,200 --> 00:02:51,720 But I don't think I had like the, the typical childhood per 54 00:02:51,720 --> 00:02:54,160 SE and probably have some daddy issues. 55 00:02:55,120 --> 00:02:59,640 Definitely, definitely do. But yeah, so my parents got 56 00:02:59,640 --> 00:03:01,560 divorced. It wasn't one of those things 57 00:03:01,560 --> 00:03:04,120 that was like a bad impact on me at all. 58 00:03:04,120 --> 00:03:06,880 It was probably healthier for them to split, actually. 59 00:03:07,200 --> 00:03:12,160 And then went on to college, played for a Division One school 60 00:03:12,160 --> 00:03:15,840 in Baltimore, MD, and it was in the best shape of my life. 61 00:03:15,840 --> 00:03:19,240 But after my career ended is really where, I don't know, I 62 00:03:19,240 --> 00:03:23,080 just went downhill, started, you know, gaining a ton of weight, 63 00:03:23,080 --> 00:03:27,800 just lost all responsibilities. I went from having a team of 64 00:03:27,800 --> 00:03:30,560 women and, you know, structure and discipline. 65 00:03:30,560 --> 00:03:34,840 Like if I didn't show up to practice, I'd lose my tuition. 66 00:03:34,840 --> 00:03:38,240 So having all that accountability and structure 67 00:03:38,240 --> 00:03:41,000 went away overnight after my whole life of having it. 68 00:03:41,000 --> 00:03:44,680 And I just, yeah, went downhill. I don't know how much money to 69 00:03:44,680 --> 00:03:46,960 dive into that. No, no, that's great. 70 00:03:46,960 --> 00:03:49,040 So do you feel like you were lonely? 71 00:03:49,320 --> 00:03:52,480 After I finished, yeah, very lonely. 72 00:03:52,480 --> 00:03:57,320 All my teammates, you bond and build this like sisterhood in 73 00:03:57,320 --> 00:04:00,280 college, and then they're all from all over the country. 74 00:04:00,280 --> 00:04:04,440 So they would go back to where they were from and start their 75 00:04:04,440 --> 00:04:06,920 lives. And I stayed around that area 76 00:04:06,920 --> 00:04:09,960 because my hometown is a small town. 77 00:04:09,960 --> 00:04:14,000 I say bumblefuck, Pennsylvania. It's like all cornfield. 78 00:04:14,000 --> 00:04:16,519 We got a Chick-fil-A like recently, and people lost their 79 00:04:16,519 --> 00:04:18,120 mind. It was like the craziest thing 80 00:04:18,120 --> 00:04:20,320 ever. So yeah, I was like, I'm not 81 00:04:20,320 --> 00:04:23,240 going back there. So I stayed around that area 82 00:04:23,240 --> 00:04:26,480 where I went to school and just didn't really have much 83 00:04:26,480 --> 00:04:29,160 connection. And I think I just sought that 84 00:04:29,160 --> 00:04:33,920 out in the wrong people like met and yeah, just ate my feelings 85 00:04:33,920 --> 00:04:37,960 and blew up well. I mean, you did have an 86 00:04:38,120 --> 00:04:39,920 impactful relationship. I mean, you met a guy, you 87 00:04:39,920 --> 00:04:42,680 actually got married. And so walk us through kind of 88 00:04:42,680 --> 00:04:45,400 the beginnings of that relationship and maybe some of 89 00:04:45,400 --> 00:04:48,320 the toxicity that you saw at the very beginning of the 90 00:04:48,320 --> 00:04:51,280 relationship, but weren't yet equipped to handle or deal with. 91 00:04:51,560 --> 00:04:56,200 Yeah, so I'll talk about I had a relationship before my 92 00:04:56,480 --> 00:05:00,320 ex-husband and I actually like, I got the date tattooed on my 93 00:05:00,320 --> 00:05:03,720 arm the day that I finally got out of it because it was so bad. 94 00:05:03,720 --> 00:05:05,840 It was, it was crazy. It was one of those where I 95 00:05:05,840 --> 00:05:08,640 ended up having to move to another state to get away 96 00:05:08,640 --> 00:05:13,920 because he was like a stalker and just a psycho and very 97 00:05:13,920 --> 00:05:18,360 abusive, cheated on me all the time, just like crazy narcissist 98 00:05:18,360 --> 00:05:22,520 and like, yeah, yeah. And I was like, it took me 99 00:05:22,520 --> 00:05:24,120 forever though. I was kind of addicted to the 100 00:05:24,120 --> 00:05:27,680 chaos in that relationship. Like we'd break up, I'd leave 101 00:05:27,680 --> 00:05:30,360 him, move out, my family would help me move into a new 102 00:05:30,360 --> 00:05:33,040 apartment. And then I'd go no contact for a 103 00:05:33,040 --> 00:05:35,320 month. And then I'd get drunk and send 104 00:05:35,320 --> 00:05:38,280 my location for some late night rendezvous. 105 00:05:38,280 --> 00:05:41,600 And then then he know, then he knew where I lived and wouldn't 106 00:05:41,600 --> 00:05:43,280 leave me alone. And then it would just, it was a 107 00:05:43,280 --> 00:05:46,200 cycle for years. So I finally got out of that. 108 00:05:46,520 --> 00:05:49,800 I actually got sober at the time because my, I'm not sober now. 109 00:05:49,840 --> 00:05:52,920 I just have to preface that it was very situational. 110 00:05:53,240 --> 00:05:56,760 My therapist at the time was like, you need to get sober 111 00:05:56,760 --> 00:06:00,040 because every time you get drunk, you call him up and 112 00:06:00,040 --> 00:06:02,640 you're putting your life at risk because he's crazy. 113 00:06:03,160 --> 00:06:06,640 My therapist was like, in all my 20 years of practice, I've never 114 00:06:06,840 --> 00:06:08,560 told somebody they should go buy a gun. 115 00:06:08,560 --> 00:06:11,680 But I'm telling you, like you, you need to because he was just 116 00:06:12,200 --> 00:06:14,720 like scary and so. Did you did you go buy a gun? 117 00:06:15,120 --> 00:06:16,520 Yeah, yeah. Bought a gun. 118 00:06:16,600 --> 00:06:18,080 Yeah. So there. 119 00:06:18,120 --> 00:06:20,920 I mean, there were times where I would leave after finding out he 120 00:06:20,920 --> 00:06:22,840 was cheating on me. And he would send videos of him 121 00:06:22,840 --> 00:06:26,000 like pouring gasoline all over my items and my clothes, like 122 00:06:26,120 --> 00:06:29,200 I'm destroying your stuff. Like if you don't come home, 123 00:06:29,200 --> 00:06:32,720 Like he was crazy. And the last straw actually, we 124 00:06:32,720 --> 00:06:35,840 went to a casino down the road where I where I lived in 125 00:06:35,840 --> 00:06:41,200 Baltimore and we got in a huge fight And I, I took an Uber home 126 00:06:41,200 --> 00:06:45,000 but got into a car with a random man because I was wasted 127 00:06:45,000 --> 00:06:49,160 thinking it was my Uber driver. And luckily nothing happened. 128 00:06:49,160 --> 00:06:50,880 The guy was nice and took me home. 129 00:06:51,280 --> 00:06:54,920 And then my ex at the time was like, you need to come back and 130 00:06:54,920 --> 00:06:57,160 pick me up right now. And I was like, I'll send an 131 00:06:57,160 --> 00:06:59,200 Uber. Well, I had my dad's car at the 132 00:06:59,200 --> 00:07:02,520 time because I was, my car was in the shop and I drove my dad's 133 00:07:02,520 --> 00:07:06,800 car, totaled it, like drove it into a medium, blew out all the 134 00:07:06,800 --> 00:07:10,720 tires, was driving on rims like all the way to pick him up at 135 00:07:10,720 --> 00:07:13,040 the casino. Drove home parallel park, 136 00:07:13,040 --> 00:07:15,560 smashed the car behind me, smashed the car in front of me. 137 00:07:15,920 --> 00:07:18,280 And then when we got in the house, he took a knife to my 138 00:07:18,280 --> 00:07:20,520 dog's neck and was threatening to kill her. 139 00:07:20,520 --> 00:07:23,880 He didn't obviously, but I immediately switched into this, 140 00:07:24,560 --> 00:07:26,840 oh fuck. I got to go into like whatever 141 00:07:26,880 --> 00:07:30,240 survivor mode and tell him whatever he needs to hear to 142 00:07:30,240 --> 00:07:32,720 make him feel like, I'm so sorry, we're going to work this 143 00:07:32,720 --> 00:07:33,360 out. Like. 144 00:07:33,760 --> 00:07:36,200 And then the next morning I called my family and I was like, 145 00:07:36,200 --> 00:07:39,320 I need help. And I started going to a A and 146 00:07:39,320 --> 00:07:42,480 that's where I started my journey of sobriety for three 147 00:07:42,480 --> 00:07:44,040 years at that point and left him. 148 00:07:44,040 --> 00:07:47,000 That was the last time I ever saw him and I had to move away 149 00:07:47,360 --> 00:07:50,760 to I was in Baltimore at the time, but I moved to South 150 00:07:50,760 --> 00:07:53,480 Carolina with my dad just to start over. 151 00:07:53,480 --> 00:07:56,600 And that's where I then and after really just trying to 152 00:07:56,600 --> 00:08:00,280 focus on me, I came across my then ex-husband. 153 00:08:00,280 --> 00:08:03,840 So we met and he was very stable at the time. 154 00:08:03,840 --> 00:08:07,320 So it was somebody who was a business owner had a shit 155 00:08:07,320 --> 00:08:10,320 together. And I'll be honest, I was at not 156 00:08:10,320 --> 00:08:13,520 my heaviest, but I was definitely like 220 lbs. 157 00:08:13,520 --> 00:08:16,640 My heaviest was 250. But when I met him, I was a 158 00:08:16,640 --> 00:08:19,680 bigger girl. And at the time I remember 159 00:08:19,680 --> 00:08:23,320 thinking like, how in the hell is some guy who's like, you 160 00:08:23,320 --> 00:08:26,360 know, he was in shape and everything, like he wants me 161 00:08:26,360 --> 00:08:28,760 looking like this. And so I kind of just took what 162 00:08:28,760 --> 00:08:31,520 I could get. I, I thought like, Oh my gosh, 163 00:08:31,560 --> 00:08:35,240 you know, so I, so I did, I, we started dating and the red flags 164 00:08:35,240 --> 00:08:38,720 weren't like crazy there in the beginning, but it was after we 165 00:08:38,720 --> 00:08:42,559 had gotten married is when I remember we got married very 166 00:08:42,559 --> 00:08:44,840 quickly. So like probably like we are 167 00:08:44,840 --> 00:08:48,640 engaged 6 months in and then married in that same couple 168 00:08:48,640 --> 00:08:51,680 months after. And I remember the first time he 169 00:08:51,680 --> 00:08:55,240 ever, like, screamed at me and called me, you know, a stupid 170 00:08:55,240 --> 00:08:58,160 fucking cunt, a dumb bit, like just names that I was like, 171 00:08:58,160 --> 00:09:00,800 whoa, I've never been spoken to like that. 172 00:09:00,800 --> 00:09:03,160 I mean, I've been in crazy relationships where I've never 173 00:09:03,160 --> 00:09:06,520 had somebody be so explosive with their anger. 174 00:09:06,920 --> 00:09:08,800 And I felt like I was always on egg shells. 175 00:09:08,800 --> 00:09:10,480 And I was like, who the fuck did I marry? 176 00:09:10,480 --> 00:09:14,360 And then I lost respect. And honestly, you can only be 177 00:09:14,360 --> 00:09:18,920 spoken to like that for so long. It's like a dog being put in a 178 00:09:18,920 --> 00:09:20,560 court. Like, you get barking worked out 179 00:09:20,560 --> 00:09:22,440 for so long before you start barking back. 180 00:09:22,440 --> 00:09:24,640 And, you know, we were together for three years. 181 00:09:24,880 --> 00:09:28,000 And towards the end is where I was like, I fucking hate the 182 00:09:28,000 --> 00:09:31,160 person I'm becoming. I stooped to his level 183 00:09:31,160 --> 00:09:34,960 screaming, you know, calling him all the names in the books too. 184 00:09:34,960 --> 00:09:37,920 And I was like, he is pulling out the worst in me. 185 00:09:37,920 --> 00:09:40,320 Like, I've never had somebody trigger me like this. 186 00:09:40,320 --> 00:09:42,240 I've never. And I, I was like, I got it. 187 00:09:42,240 --> 00:09:44,200 I got to get out. And I, yeah. 188 00:09:44,200 --> 00:09:46,360 So I did finally worked up the courage. 189 00:09:46,360 --> 00:09:49,520 And I mean, there's a lot, a lot of story there, but I don't know 190 00:09:49,520 --> 00:09:52,080 how much. I kind of want to know how you 191 00:09:52,080 --> 00:09:53,800 got out. Like, well, I mean, that that 192 00:09:53,800 --> 00:09:56,440 must have been a little terrifying because you're in a 193 00:09:56,440 --> 00:09:58,080 new place. Like you're not living around 194 00:09:58,080 --> 00:10:00,200 your family, right? You're with the one you've been 195 00:10:00,200 --> 00:10:03,000 with. For my dad, yeah, my, my dad and 196 00:10:03,000 --> 00:10:05,240 I live together. So I moved in with him and then 197 00:10:05,240 --> 00:10:10,080 when I met my ex-husband, my dad is we kind of had a falling out 198 00:10:10,080 --> 00:10:13,160 because I think he felt, I'll be honest, I am the type that when 199 00:10:13,160 --> 00:10:16,240 I fall in love, I get very consumed with that person and 200 00:10:16,240 --> 00:10:18,360 nothing else matters. And my dad took that very 201 00:10:18,360 --> 00:10:22,160 personal and and essentially we didn't, my dad and I didn't talk 202 00:10:22,160 --> 00:10:25,120 then for like 5 or 6 years after I started. 203 00:10:25,120 --> 00:10:27,440 Did he not come to your wedding? Well, we, we ended up going to 204 00:10:27,440 --> 00:10:30,240 the courthouse, we were going to have a full wedding and we were 205 00:10:30,240 --> 00:10:32,760 like, no, let's buy a house with that money instead because it 206 00:10:32,760 --> 00:10:33,960 was so expensive. So we did. 207 00:10:34,440 --> 00:10:38,280 But it's crazy because my relationship started off where, 208 00:10:38,640 --> 00:10:41,680 you know, I didn't have much income of my own at all. 209 00:10:41,680 --> 00:10:44,600 I started network marketing at the time and I, I quit my full 210 00:10:44,600 --> 00:10:48,320 time job to just focus on it. And I had 0 success. 211 00:10:48,320 --> 00:10:52,920 I mean, I think my first year I made $5000 and I spent 8000. 212 00:10:53,640 --> 00:10:56,520 Yeah. So I was like living the dream, 213 00:10:56,600 --> 00:10:58,480 just whatever. But I also wasn't applying 214 00:10:58,480 --> 00:11:01,720 myself like I should have. Looking back, however, yeah, I 215 00:11:01,720 --> 00:11:03,280 was. I had just filed bankruptcy. 216 00:11:03,280 --> 00:11:07,480 So there's so many different parts, but the, the ex that I 217 00:11:07,480 --> 00:11:10,560 had left that was like crazy and, and, and threatening and 218 00:11:10,560 --> 00:11:13,520 everything he actually had opened up, he had his own 219 00:11:13,520 --> 00:11:15,320 business. He was opening up lines of 220 00:11:15,320 --> 00:11:17,520 credit through my social without me knowing. 221 00:11:17,520 --> 00:11:21,520 And so I ended up racking up $35,000 worth of debt. 222 00:11:21,840 --> 00:11:24,400 And yeah, I ended up having to do bankruptcy. 223 00:11:24,400 --> 00:11:26,920 So this was now six or seven years ago. 224 00:11:26,920 --> 00:11:31,000 So yeah, filed bankruptcy, literally got cards, you know, 225 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:33,200 they gave you these cards to rebuild your credit after 226 00:11:33,200 --> 00:11:36,400 bankruptcy. They're terrible re/max all 227 00:11:36,400 --> 00:11:39,520 those out was months behind. I mean, I was just financially 228 00:11:39,520 --> 00:11:44,640 so irresponsible at the time and yeah, had really no income 229 00:11:44,640 --> 00:11:47,160 coming in. And so when I met my now 230 00:11:47,160 --> 00:11:49,840 ex-husband, you know, who had a shit together, he had just 231 00:11:49,840 --> 00:11:53,040 bought a house at the time and I moved into it with him. 232 00:11:53,040 --> 00:11:55,800 So we kind of just really started off very, very fast. 233 00:11:56,640 --> 00:12:00,520 And it was like he was a security, you know, blanket for 234 00:12:00,520 --> 00:12:05,280 me and stability, you know, and so I just, I ignored a lot of 235 00:12:05,280 --> 00:12:07,960 stuff out now would never tolerate. 236 00:12:07,960 --> 00:12:11,520 But yeah, so, you know, and he he did, he helped, he did, I 237 00:12:11,520 --> 00:12:14,280 will say, I mean, he did help me in the beginning, like 238 00:12:14,400 --> 00:12:17,560 financially, paying off debt, getting, you know, my shit back 239 00:12:17,560 --> 00:12:20,080 together. But it was a good investment for 240 00:12:20,080 --> 00:12:22,760 him because I had switched to another network marketing 241 00:12:22,760 --> 00:12:25,360 company at the time. And that's where it all took off 242 00:12:25,360 --> 00:12:27,280 for me. And that's where really my full 243 00:12:27,280 --> 00:12:29,960 career with this whole business model started. 244 00:12:29,960 --> 00:12:34,160 So I joined a company and within, Oh my gosh, my first 245 00:12:34,160 --> 00:12:38,000 year there, I cleared $500,000 and it was like, what the hell 246 00:12:38,000 --> 00:12:39,560 is happening? You know, somebody that's never 247 00:12:39,560 --> 00:12:42,040 had money like that before and girl, I spent it. 248 00:12:43,680 --> 00:12:46,200 I don't have a dollar about like, you know, a lot. 249 00:12:46,200 --> 00:12:48,600 Luckily I make good money now and I'm smarter with it. 250 00:12:48,600 --> 00:12:51,200 But like, at the time, yeah, I didn't tell you where the hell 251 00:12:51,200 --> 00:12:53,560 that money went. I mean, we just lived it up. 252 00:12:54,120 --> 00:12:57,880 But they're off. Yeah, I mean, I, I became kind 253 00:12:57,880 --> 00:13:00,240 of, he had his own construction business and I was, you know, I 254 00:13:00,240 --> 00:13:01,840 did the whole, you quit your job. 255 00:13:01,840 --> 00:13:05,400 You don't have to work like, so, you know, because at the time, I 256 00:13:05,400 --> 00:13:09,560 mean, I had months where we were having $70,000 coming in and I 257 00:13:09,640 --> 00:13:13,320 was like, why go break your back doing all this manual labor when 258 00:13:13,320 --> 00:13:16,000 we're good and we didn't have kids at the time like nothing So 259 00:13:16,360 --> 00:13:19,600 but I feel like that dynamic shift of me almost becoming the 260 00:13:19,600 --> 00:13:22,480 breadwinner, you know, and providing, I don't know if it's 261 00:13:22,480 --> 00:13:24,920 just like it started really going downhill. 262 00:13:24,920 --> 00:13:27,760 And then I'm sitting there like, how are you going to speak to me 263 00:13:27,760 --> 00:13:31,520 and call me a lazy fucking bitch and all this stuff all the time 264 00:13:31,520 --> 00:13:33,200 when I'm bringing all this money? 265 00:13:33,200 --> 00:13:34,960 I've retired you. I bought, yeah, a brand new 266 00:13:34,960 --> 00:13:36,960 truck. So I just was giving, giving, 267 00:13:36,960 --> 00:13:40,240 giving, giving and still felt not appreciated. 268 00:13:40,240 --> 00:13:42,840 I mean, there would be times where I would hit, you know, 269 00:13:42,840 --> 00:13:46,520 huge milestones in my business and he'd be asleep and I'd be 270 00:13:46,520 --> 00:13:50,000 like, Oh my gosh, we just got a $200,000 bonus and he fuck off. 271 00:13:50,000 --> 00:13:52,320 I'm trying to sleep, you know, just not nice. 272 00:13:52,320 --> 00:13:54,560 So not nice. Not nice. 273 00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:57,440 No, it was, it was a lot. But as far as I think you had 274 00:13:57,440 --> 00:14:01,320 asked, like when did it end? I mean, I knew a year and a half 275 00:14:01,320 --> 00:14:03,040 before I left I needed to get out. 276 00:14:03,040 --> 00:14:07,440 I would literally fan fantasize about I wanted to move to 277 00:14:07,440 --> 00:14:10,920 Dallas, TX and live in a high rise with floor, you know, the 278 00:14:10,920 --> 00:14:14,160 ceiling windows and just be able to I was like, Oh my gosh, what 279 00:14:14,160 --> 00:14:17,720 I've been able to do successfully in this business, 280 00:14:17,720 --> 00:14:20,400 you know, while being with somebody like this is crazy. 281 00:14:20,640 --> 00:14:25,360 Imagine if I was by myself with no distractions and could just 282 00:14:25,360 --> 00:14:29,360 focus on me and and my business like it would explode and I just 283 00:14:29,360 --> 00:14:31,840 kept fantasizing. I would look up apartments and 284 00:14:31,840 --> 00:14:36,480 just visualize, but I was so comfortable also at the time to 285 00:14:36,480 --> 00:14:40,400 get out. I think I knew that the moment 286 00:14:40,400 --> 00:14:43,240 that I made the decision and drew the line in the sand, it 287 00:14:43,240 --> 00:14:46,680 was gonna be like, shit, we gotta go to work. 288 00:14:46,680 --> 00:14:48,920 This is gonna be crazy. Because what did end up 289 00:14:48,920 --> 00:14:52,680 happening is I actually went through a lawsuit because that 290 00:14:52,680 --> 00:14:54,440 was the top producer at that company. 291 00:14:54,640 --> 00:14:57,240 Well, look, the company that I made the the big money with, I 292 00:14:57,240 --> 00:15:00,160 ended up getting recruited to another company, offered a big 293 00:15:00,160 --> 00:15:04,040 sign on bonus, left and then got sued because I had such a large 294 00:15:04,160 --> 00:15:07,280 team follow me. Luckily that company that I went 295 00:15:07,280 --> 00:15:10,360 to covered, you know, most of the lawyer fees, which was 296 00:15:10,360 --> 00:15:12,280 amazing. But still though, it's not even 297 00:15:12,280 --> 00:15:15,440 the money. It's the like mental wear going 298 00:15:15,440 --> 00:15:19,760 through like a lawsuit. But yeah, we during that is when 299 00:15:19,760 --> 00:15:22,960 I got the marriage got so toxic and terrible. 300 00:15:23,080 --> 00:15:26,960 My weight was packing on. I now is at 250 lbs. 301 00:15:27,200 --> 00:15:29,520 I had lost my spark with my income. 302 00:15:29,520 --> 00:15:31,920 I you know, I regretted leaving that company. 303 00:15:31,920 --> 00:15:35,120 I felt like I made a rash decision, thought the grass was 304 00:15:35,120 --> 00:15:38,120 greener and it, it wasn't. And so my income plummeted. 305 00:15:38,320 --> 00:15:41,760 And then before you know it, I'm financially, financially 306 00:15:41,760 --> 00:15:44,720 dependent on him again. So now he's back working and I'm 307 00:15:44,720 --> 00:15:47,600 probably bringing in on my own 1500 bucks a month. 308 00:15:47,680 --> 00:15:51,000 And so when I knew I needed to get out, that was my biggest 309 00:15:51,000 --> 00:15:53,520 thing was like, like, how the hell am I gonna afford to 310 00:15:53,520 --> 00:15:57,040 survive on my own? But I I ended up getting back to 311 00:15:57,040 --> 00:16:00,280 that company that I that I had left the. 312 00:16:00,280 --> 00:16:04,320 Original company, yeah. The CEO opened his arms back up, 313 00:16:04,320 --> 00:16:06,920 even though we went through the lawsuit, we, we dropped it all 314 00:16:06,920 --> 00:16:08,920 and I went back and I did, I blew it. 315 00:16:08,920 --> 00:16:10,640 But I knew what I could do there. 316 00:16:10,840 --> 00:16:12,840 Yeah. And after a month there, I was 317 00:16:12,840 --> 00:16:15,480 like, OK, I'm able to, to leave. So I did. 318 00:16:15,480 --> 00:16:18,400 I, I told myself I'm like, I need to get out before my next 319 00:16:18,400 --> 00:16:21,680 big check hits because that's going to be my start over money. 320 00:16:22,000 --> 00:16:24,760 And I did, I was like, but I need like I need. 321 00:16:24,920 --> 00:16:27,040 That was the hard thing is he didn't cheat on me that I know 322 00:16:27,040 --> 00:16:28,360 of. Like there was never that like 323 00:16:28,360 --> 00:16:32,520 hard like I gotta go because you did something so horrible. 324 00:16:32,520 --> 00:16:36,360 It was just like, we are not each others person and you are 325 00:16:36,400 --> 00:16:38,920 horrible to me the way you speak to me and treat me. 326 00:16:39,480 --> 00:16:44,240 So yeah, there was the last fight was November 7th. 327 00:16:44,280 --> 00:16:46,560 Well, the night before, I'll never forget it. 328 00:16:46,800 --> 00:16:49,560 I folded his clothes, put it in a laundry basket next to his 329 00:16:49,560 --> 00:16:51,240 bed. And he got up in the middle of 330 00:16:51,240 --> 00:16:53,400 the night to go to the bathroom and he bumped into the laundry 331 00:16:53,400 --> 00:16:55,080 basket and he just fucking lost it. 332 00:16:55,080 --> 00:16:57,640 Like you dumb fucking retard, how do you do? 333 00:16:57,800 --> 00:16:59,440 How? Why would you put the shit right 334 00:16:59,440 --> 00:17:02,320 here, right where I walk through the clothes everywhere. 335 00:17:02,320 --> 00:17:04,359 And I was like, OK, I didn't care. 336 00:17:04,520 --> 00:17:07,200 Yeah, I was like, I'm done. I knew that morning. 337 00:17:07,200 --> 00:17:10,560 So he left for work and I texted my mom and was like, can you 338 00:17:10,560 --> 00:17:13,760 please come pick me up today? Like, and I grabbed all my 339 00:17:13,760 --> 00:17:17,000 things that I could and my dogs and moved in with my mom for a 340 00:17:17,000 --> 00:17:20,800 couple months while I found and then I did, I moved to Dallas 341 00:17:20,839 --> 00:17:26,200 and I Hi guys, OK, Windows and have since you know, I, I, I got 342 00:17:26,200 --> 00:17:28,280 on the weight loss shot with a terzipotide. 343 00:17:28,440 --> 00:17:29,880 And that's what I want to talk about for sure. 344 00:17:29,880 --> 00:17:32,800 I mean, yeah, from what I gathered, you said like you were 345 00:17:32,840 --> 00:17:35,520 at your highest weight when your marriage ended right around 346 00:17:35,520 --> 00:17:37,200 2:50. If you're looking at your 347 00:17:37,200 --> 00:17:40,000 socials like you're really open with this on your social, as you 348 00:17:40,000 --> 00:17:44,320 can see, not only do you not look super healthy then, but you 349 00:17:44,320 --> 00:17:46,680 can just tell like you're mentally exhausted. 350 00:17:46,680 --> 00:17:48,600 I mean, you're like crying in your videos. 351 00:17:48,600 --> 00:17:52,000 Like you can tell the look in your eyes, you're just like done 352 00:17:52,200 --> 00:17:53,680 right? And then you start to see this 353 00:17:53,680 --> 00:17:56,840 progression towards someone who truly is getting her spark and 354 00:17:56,840 --> 00:17:59,880 her glow back. And So what was the shift for 355 00:17:59,880 --> 00:18:01,120 you? I think I even watched a couple 356 00:18:01,120 --> 00:18:03,240 of your videos like, well, you're taking the shot for the 357 00:18:03,240 --> 00:18:05,680 first time in your leg, like sitting on the floor all worried 358 00:18:05,840 --> 00:18:08,880 about it. So what were those circumstances 359 00:18:08,880 --> 00:18:11,360 that brought you to the point where you're like, this might be 360 00:18:11,360 --> 00:18:13,000 an option for me to go on tours up a time? 361 00:18:13,440 --> 00:18:18,560 Well, so yeah, when I went to leave, my mom was like, I have 362 00:18:18,560 --> 00:18:20,920 never seen you cry so much in your life. 363 00:18:20,920 --> 00:18:23,880 Like, you got to get out. Like, that was her telltale sign 364 00:18:23,880 --> 00:18:25,560 for the divorce, too. With my dad, she was like, I 365 00:18:25,560 --> 00:18:28,360 cried every day. And you're such a happy, fun 366 00:18:28,560 --> 00:18:31,360 person. And I knew that I was miserable 367 00:18:31,360 --> 00:18:34,520 because of my marriage, but I also was miserable because of my 368 00:18:34,560 --> 00:18:37,000 weight. Like, it consumed me every 369 00:18:37,000 --> 00:18:39,960 single day, like, fantasizing. I would lay in in bed and I 370 00:18:39,960 --> 00:18:42,680 would scroll social media looking at other people's 371 00:18:42,680 --> 00:18:46,760 transformations and just like, get, you know, hits of dopamine 372 00:18:46,760 --> 00:18:49,360 and bursts of motivation and then do nothing the next day 373 00:18:49,360 --> 00:18:53,040 with it. And I tried every diet, every 374 00:18:53,040 --> 00:18:55,680 supplement, every, you know, program out there. 375 00:18:55,680 --> 00:18:58,680 And some things would work a little bit, but it was always so 376 00:18:58,680 --> 00:19:01,200 restricting. It was always so like, oh, my 377 00:19:01,200 --> 00:19:04,120 gosh, you know, like, I'm miserable doing this. 378 00:19:04,120 --> 00:19:07,880 Like, yeah, I'm gonna do Weight Watchers and restrict myself, 379 00:19:07,880 --> 00:19:11,120 but like, I'm not happy. I want more food or I'm, you 380 00:19:11,120 --> 00:19:12,760 know, because food was my comfort. 381 00:19:12,760 --> 00:19:14,640 I mean, I've always been a foodie and I still am, even 382 00:19:14,640 --> 00:19:16,120 though I'm on a shot, which I love. 383 00:19:16,960 --> 00:19:20,840 It's just I eat instead of for a family of 6, I eat for a family 384 00:19:20,840 --> 00:19:23,560 of one. But it was literally, I had a 385 00:19:23,560 --> 00:19:27,080 girlfriend who was on it and I had gotten out of the marriage 386 00:19:27,080 --> 00:19:30,760 and a month later I had a, one of my Doctor Who was like a 387 00:19:30,760 --> 00:19:33,520 family friend. He was on it and he was, you 388 00:19:33,520 --> 00:19:35,920 know, really helping a lot of people get set up on it. 389 00:19:35,920 --> 00:19:39,640 And so I was like, OK, I'm going to explore the options at the 390 00:19:39,640 --> 00:19:42,000 time. I mean mine was not covered 391 00:19:42,000 --> 00:19:45,080 through insurance so I was paying $1100 a month. 392 00:19:45,280 --> 00:19:48,840 Hold on, this is even while you're at £250, your insurance 393 00:19:48,840 --> 00:19:51,400 did not pay for it. That is fucking madding to me. 394 00:19:51,400 --> 00:19:54,120 Yeah, yeah, no. You had to have sleep, you had 395 00:19:54,120 --> 00:19:56,560 to have like diabetes and sleep apnea. 396 00:19:56,560 --> 00:19:59,400 You had to have like 2 obesity related conditions. 397 00:19:59,920 --> 00:20:03,560 But my friend who was like 180 lbs was getting hers for $25.00 398 00:20:03,560 --> 00:20:06,560 a month and had no other, you know, it's just her, I guess. 399 00:20:06,560 --> 00:20:08,240 She had really good health insurance. 400 00:20:08,240 --> 00:20:09,080 I don't know. Yeah. 401 00:20:09,480 --> 00:20:12,320 Everything I even went and bought health insurance, like 402 00:20:12,320 --> 00:20:14,680 extra to try and see if that would work. 403 00:20:14,680 --> 00:20:19,360 And no, so I was paying 1100 a month out of pocket, which, you 404 00:20:19,360 --> 00:20:20,840 know, at the time I didn't have it. 405 00:20:20,840 --> 00:20:22,360 I was throwing everything on credit cards. 406 00:20:22,360 --> 00:20:27,400 But I knew I knew that that would be the number one thing. 407 00:20:27,400 --> 00:20:29,760 Like whenever you know those exercises where they're like, 408 00:20:29,760 --> 00:20:31,880 write down all your goals, your top ten goals. 409 00:20:31,880 --> 00:20:35,040 And it was like, now what's the one if you accomplished first 410 00:20:35,320 --> 00:20:38,200 would lead you into achieving all these other goals. 411 00:20:38,200 --> 00:20:39,320 And for me, it was always my weight. 412 00:20:39,480 --> 00:20:42,520 I mean, it was always my weight since college, I had gained, 413 00:20:42,520 --> 00:20:46,320 like 100 lbs. So, you know, I knew that I was 414 00:20:46,320 --> 00:20:50,480 so miserable in my skin, like I had no confidence. 415 00:20:50,480 --> 00:20:52,480 I was just, like, a shell of a human. 416 00:20:52,880 --> 00:20:55,480 And, you know, people always are like, well, I'm the number one 417 00:20:55,480 --> 00:20:57,760 thing I get on my pages. Well, if you would have worked 418 00:20:57,760 --> 00:20:59,720 on yourself while you were married, you wouldn't be 419 00:20:59,720 --> 00:21:01,400 divorced. And I'm like, well, listen, 420 00:21:01,640 --> 00:21:04,400 yeah, I'm like, First off, he met me when I was a big girl, 421 00:21:04,480 --> 00:21:08,560 OK? He's a chubby chaser #2 I left 422 00:21:08,560 --> 00:21:09,360 his ass. OK? 423 00:21:09,480 --> 00:21:13,040 Don't get it twisted. And #3 like, do you know how 424 00:21:13,040 --> 00:21:17,200 hard it is to try to fix yourself and better yourself 425 00:21:17,200 --> 00:21:20,120 when you're in such a toxic, horrible situation at home? 426 00:21:20,400 --> 00:21:23,400 Because for me, that was my one thing I always turn to was food. 427 00:21:23,640 --> 00:21:25,120 I mean it. Food didn't yell at me. 428 00:21:25,400 --> 00:21:27,600 Food made me feel good. And even though it was only a 429 00:21:27,600 --> 00:21:31,080 little temporary hit of, of relief, and then I felt like 430 00:21:31,080 --> 00:21:35,400 shit and guilty again after, it still to me was like something, 431 00:21:35,520 --> 00:21:37,560 you know, that that made me feel good. 432 00:21:37,560 --> 00:21:40,200 And I was addicted to that. And it was this because I'm 433 00:21:40,200 --> 00:21:42,960 like, the thing that's keeping me fat is the only thing that's 434 00:21:42,960 --> 00:21:46,080 also making me feel better for a little bit. 435 00:21:46,080 --> 00:21:49,120 And yeah, so tried everything else out there. 436 00:21:49,120 --> 00:21:52,920 And when I saw my friend get on it, she was dropping weight and 437 00:21:52,920 --> 00:21:55,440 she had no side effects. And she's like, this is amazing. 438 00:21:55,680 --> 00:21:58,160 And because I was considering weight loss surgery at the time, 439 00:21:58,160 --> 00:21:59,800 that's how much I was like, desperate. 440 00:21:59,800 --> 00:22:02,480 I was like, I will drink in battery acid at this point if 441 00:22:02,840 --> 00:22:04,560 you just get the damn weight off me, OK? 442 00:22:04,920 --> 00:22:06,680 Because I knew that was what was holding me back. 443 00:22:06,680 --> 00:22:08,880 And so then I did. I visited my friend who was a 444 00:22:08,880 --> 00:22:12,280 doctor. I was on it and I got on it and 445 00:22:12,280 --> 00:22:15,840 within the first, I mean the first week I lost 5 lbs and then 446 00:22:15,840 --> 00:22:17,920 I dropped almost about 20 lbs my first month. 447 00:22:17,920 --> 00:22:20,880 Now obviously I had a lot to lose so it came off faster, but 448 00:22:21,240 --> 00:22:22,800 it was the whole food noise thing. 449 00:22:22,840 --> 00:22:27,560 I mean like whoa, for the first time ever, I don't have a single 450 00:22:27,560 --> 00:22:29,960 thought about what the hell I'm going to eat at my next three 451 00:22:29,960 --> 00:22:32,960 meals. I'm not like I was a defensive 452 00:22:32,960 --> 00:22:34,680 eater. So like when I would order food, 453 00:22:34,800 --> 00:22:39,240 do not touch my plate to eat anything when on the shot, I'm 454 00:22:39,240 --> 00:22:41,200 like, oh, you guys want to try? You want to try? 455 00:22:41,200 --> 00:22:42,680 You want the oh, yeah, that's fine. 456 00:22:42,880 --> 00:22:46,240 Because I I I didn't need all of it, you know, like I would need 457 00:22:46,360 --> 00:22:48,320 a fraction of what I was used to. 458 00:22:48,680 --> 00:22:50,680 But yeah, it gave me gave me my whole life back. 459 00:22:50,680 --> 00:22:54,520 And then my obsessive thinking about, you know, wanting to lose 460 00:22:54,520 --> 00:22:57,480 weight and fantasizing about wearing sexy little outfits once 461 00:22:57,480 --> 00:23:00,840 I do and how would I carry myself and how would I act and 462 00:23:01,080 --> 00:23:04,360 would I find a new love that, you know, it was like this 463 00:23:04,360 --> 00:23:07,240 healthy relationship. I all all these like thoughts. 464 00:23:07,440 --> 00:23:09,400 I didn't have those obsessing thoughts any. 465 00:23:10,160 --> 00:23:13,000 I just felt like, Oh my gosh, this is so freeing. 466 00:23:13,120 --> 00:23:14,440 You felt normal. You felt like. 467 00:23:14,440 --> 00:23:16,960 You're free. And your body were transitioning 468 00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:20,040 toward what normal people think, like and feel like. 469 00:23:20,200 --> 00:23:22,640 I'm like no wonder it's so easy for some of y'all to like. 470 00:23:22,680 --> 00:23:25,800 I stay all snatched and sexy. 100%. 471 00:23:26,640 --> 00:23:29,320 Like, I can't even imagine. This is what you're like, you 472 00:23:29,320 --> 00:23:31,160 guys. This is normal like that to me. 473 00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:33,880 I didn't know what I was missing until I got on it and I 474 00:23:33,880 --> 00:23:36,120 realized, you know? Oh my gosh. 475 00:23:36,200 --> 00:23:38,160 Yeah. It gave me my whole life back 476 00:23:38,160 --> 00:23:40,520 and then some. I do know exactly what you're 477 00:23:40,520 --> 00:23:42,480 talking about. I often tell that story here. 478 00:23:42,480 --> 00:23:45,920 That same thing like the food noise for me went away in 479 00:23:46,320 --> 00:23:49,120 basically a day, like one day. And for somebody with the 480 00:23:49,120 --> 00:23:52,400 history of bulimia eating disorders for decades, like, 481 00:23:52,680 --> 00:23:57,120 that was so huge for me. I also love your concept of a 482 00:23:57,120 --> 00:23:59,560 defensive eater. If my husband Beau is listening 483 00:23:59,560 --> 00:24:02,480 to this, he knows, like, I grew up with food scarcity in my 484 00:24:02,480 --> 00:24:03,840 house. Like, we just did not have a lot 485 00:24:03,840 --> 00:24:05,800 of money. We didn't go out to eat. 486 00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:07,840 My mom didn't spend a lot of money on food. 487 00:24:07,840 --> 00:24:11,080 And so when I first started dating my husband, like, I'd be 488 00:24:11,080 --> 00:24:12,520 like, no, I don't want any French fries. 489 00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:14,480 I'll just eat some of yours. And then he tried to, like, eat 490 00:24:14,480 --> 00:24:16,960 some of my food and I'd be like, no, no, this is mine. 491 00:24:17,280 --> 00:24:20,560 Like, I don't think so, buddy. And now I just feel like I am 492 00:24:20,560 --> 00:24:27,080 not emotionally tied to food the same way that I was for 40 years 493 00:24:27,080 --> 00:24:29,320 of my life. It is kind of crazy. 494 00:24:29,480 --> 00:24:33,920 It is crazy and I don't even wanna look at how much I spent 495 00:24:33,920 --> 00:24:37,360 on DoorDash at the time, but I swear I kept it in business in 496 00:24:37,400 --> 00:24:40,560 my local area. It was breakfast was, you know, 497 00:24:40,560 --> 00:24:43,200 always like Dunkin' Donuts or Starbucks or Chick-fil-A. 498 00:24:43,240 --> 00:24:45,320 Then lunch was Chipotle or Chick-fil-A. 499 00:24:45,360 --> 00:24:48,280 And then we'd go out to eat for dinner or we'd order pizza and 500 00:24:48,280 --> 00:24:51,080 it was like, that was my life. And that's all I, that was all 501 00:24:51,080 --> 00:24:53,920 that I look forward to was food. Like it was like, let's go out 502 00:24:53,920 --> 00:24:55,240 to eat. Let's do this. 503 00:24:55,240 --> 00:24:58,640 It was the only time I enjoyed having any interaction with my 504 00:24:58,640 --> 00:25:02,720 spouse was around food. Yep, I definitely hear that too. 505 00:25:02,720 --> 00:25:06,080 So I I think it's a really interesting thing that like 506 00:25:06,080 --> 00:25:07,960 shifted for you too. It sounds like there's a lot of 507 00:25:07,960 --> 00:25:11,360 mindset that went into your transformation, almost like your 508 00:25:11,360 --> 00:25:14,400 body was just waiting to catch up to your brain, which was 509 00:25:14,400 --> 00:25:16,360 waiting to catch up to your circumstances. 510 00:25:16,360 --> 00:25:19,880 So you being able to find access to to his appetite. 511 00:25:19,880 --> 00:25:22,480 And then really, I mean, kind of being brave enough to go on it. 512 00:25:22,480 --> 00:25:25,320 This wasn't a huge thing two years ago, right? 513 00:25:25,320 --> 00:25:27,680 Like not certainly not like it is now, no. 514 00:25:27,720 --> 00:25:31,120 And so, you know, having access to a physician, seeing that your 515 00:25:31,120 --> 00:25:33,640 friend went on it without any side effects must have been 516 00:25:33,640 --> 00:25:35,480 really validating and encouraging for you. 517 00:25:35,800 --> 00:25:37,120 And then you just kind of took off. 518 00:25:37,120 --> 00:25:40,920 So walk me through that story of you losing 98 lbs. 519 00:25:40,920 --> 00:25:43,760 I've seen you in real life. You are smoking, like smoking. 520 00:25:44,120 --> 00:25:47,640 So I, I know that it wasn't just like the weight falling off like 521 00:25:47,640 --> 00:25:50,480 you cut your hair, your makeup is gorgeous, like you just. 522 00:25:50,480 --> 00:25:52,440 Walk, I got my titties. Done. 523 00:25:52,440 --> 00:25:55,320 You got your titties done. Actually got my titties out. 524 00:25:55,400 --> 00:25:58,800 So sometimes I'm like, oh, I put my hands up and like, you know, 525 00:25:58,960 --> 00:26:01,200 like, oh, I miss my boobies sometimes, but not really. 526 00:26:02,080 --> 00:26:04,120 You just kind of made this whole shift. 527 00:26:04,160 --> 00:26:07,360 And so walk me through what that looked like maybe every like 10 528 00:26:07,360 --> 00:26:10,360 or 20 lbs that came off like how, how, how did your mindset 529 00:26:10,600 --> 00:26:12,320 change? How did your body change? 530 00:26:13,400 --> 00:26:18,320 Yeah, well, I feel like too, I put a lot of emphasis on my 531 00:26:18,320 --> 00:26:22,600 physical appearance because of how much it impacts my self 532 00:26:22,600 --> 00:26:24,920 esteem, my confidence, my mental state. 533 00:26:24,920 --> 00:26:27,560 And I will tell you, I mean, it is what it is. 534 00:26:27,560 --> 00:26:31,720 You are treated way differently when you and I don't even know 535 00:26:31,720 --> 00:26:34,320 if it's just the size, you know, of me losing all this weight, 536 00:26:34,320 --> 00:26:37,200 but it's how I carry myself. And, you know, if you're, if 537 00:26:37,200 --> 00:26:40,600 you're 300 lbs and you can be that bitch, that confident, own 538 00:26:40,600 --> 00:26:42,760 a room, good for you. But that was not me. 539 00:26:42,760 --> 00:26:45,160 You know, I faked a lot of that confidence. 540 00:26:45,160 --> 00:26:48,600 I was always a fat funny friend, you know, who, who put myself 541 00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:51,680 down before anybody else could, you know, because I, I just, I 542 00:26:51,680 --> 00:26:55,080 hated how I look. I think it's harder to when you 543 00:26:55,200 --> 00:26:59,880 know what it's like to be in shape, you know, having that 544 00:26:59,880 --> 00:27:02,640 background in sports. Like I didn't real, I remember 545 00:27:02,640 --> 00:27:06,160 being 135 lbs and thinking I was so fat at the time and, and 546 00:27:06,240 --> 00:27:09,280 being insecure and God was like, you know what, we're going to 547 00:27:09,360 --> 00:27:13,160 blow your ass up to 250. So then you appreciate it 548 00:27:13,160 --> 00:27:14,440 finally. And I was like, really? 549 00:27:14,440 --> 00:27:16,200 Do we have to go through this for 10 years? 550 00:27:16,200 --> 00:27:18,080 But I hear you. Like I've learned. 551 00:27:18,080 --> 00:27:21,960 And now it's funny because yeah, I lost my 1st 20 lbs, you know, 552 00:27:21,960 --> 00:27:24,960 my first month and I was like, whoa, this is crazy. 553 00:27:25,160 --> 00:27:27,920 For the first time ever, ever, I was like, Oh my God, this is 554 00:27:27,920 --> 00:27:29,600 actually going to work. Like this is real. 555 00:27:29,600 --> 00:27:32,920 Like it's happening. Like all these, like I'm going 556 00:27:32,920 --> 00:27:35,000 to do it one day. It's finally here. 557 00:27:35,200 --> 00:27:37,120 And then it just kept melting off. 558 00:27:37,120 --> 00:27:40,400 I mean, I was just losing and losing and losing and my, it's 559 00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:44,720 crazy because I look back. I mean, even when I hit 210, you 560 00:27:44,720 --> 00:27:47,680 know, I look at myself then as I am now and I look back and I'm 561 00:27:47,680 --> 00:27:49,240 like, Oh my gosh, I was still really big then. 562 00:27:49,480 --> 00:27:53,680 But my whole way of like how I showed up and carried myself. 563 00:27:53,680 --> 00:27:57,440 I mean, I was like dancing everywhere, having a good time, 564 00:27:57,440 --> 00:27:59,240 loving my body, wearing cute stuff. 565 00:27:59,240 --> 00:28:01,040 And I was like, damn, that's crazy. 566 00:28:01,040 --> 00:28:04,560 Because even now, you know, I catch myself because I'm used to 567 00:28:04,560 --> 00:28:07,280 my new body now. I've been here for so long that 568 00:28:07,280 --> 00:28:10,520 I start to get a little nitpicky with myself and then I have to 569 00:28:10,520 --> 00:28:13,960 be like June, remember when you were 250 you would have given 570 00:28:13,960 --> 00:28:18,760 your left tick to be 152 lbs Like that's, you know, cuz 571 00:28:18,760 --> 00:28:21,360 that's where I'm at right now. But sometimes I get a little 572 00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:24,240 nitpicky. But I will say, I remember 573 00:28:24,240 --> 00:28:27,480 hitting 199 and that was the first time in over 10 years that 574 00:28:27,480 --> 00:28:30,240 I had seen that number on the scale and I just lost it. 575 00:28:30,240 --> 00:28:33,480 I was so emotional and again, it was one of those things where I 576 00:28:33,480 --> 00:28:37,720 was like it's, it's real. This is really happening and my 577 00:28:37,720 --> 00:28:40,720 life has been given back and I, I started really marketing that 578 00:28:40,720 --> 00:28:43,440 on social media just being really real and raw with my 579 00:28:43,440 --> 00:28:47,680 journey of healing from divorce, but transforming my my physical 580 00:28:47,720 --> 00:28:51,400 appearance, which transformed my emotional like my spark came 581 00:28:51,400 --> 00:28:53,360 back. I started feeling myself yes. 582 00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:57,600 Then I chopped my hair, which 10 out of 10 recommend if you are 583 00:28:57,600 --> 00:29:00,240 on some sort of healing journey something about that. 584 00:29:00,240 --> 00:29:03,280 I mean, I have beautiful long hair, but I just got the A line 585 00:29:03,280 --> 00:29:07,440 Bob chopped that shit off. And then I actually said the 586 00:29:07,440 --> 00:29:11,160 company I was partnered with, we sold supplements like holistic 587 00:29:11,160 --> 00:29:14,560 supplements and no shade to supplements. 588 00:29:14,560 --> 00:29:16,840 I want to just preface, I think they're important for certain 589 00:29:16,840 --> 00:29:21,680 things, but ain't nobody losing 98 lbs some, you know, turmeric. 590 00:29:21,680 --> 00:29:23,760 Say it again. Say it again for the women. 591 00:29:25,280 --> 00:29:28,600 In the back pounds with some turmeric and cayenne pepper. 592 00:29:28,600 --> 00:29:32,320 OK, Now maybe it helps a little bit with something, I don't 593 00:29:32,320 --> 00:29:35,120 know. But I was in a position where I 594 00:29:35,120 --> 00:29:36,920 was, I was partnered with this company. 595 00:29:37,320 --> 00:29:40,920 It was my full time income, OK. Like I had built my whole 596 00:29:41,040 --> 00:29:43,680 financial independence after divorce on this income. 597 00:29:44,040 --> 00:29:48,040 And I was a top producer there. And I was on the weight loss 598 00:29:48,040 --> 00:29:51,000 shop the whole time and I was not, they knew, but I was not 599 00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:53,240 allowed to talk about it. I was not allowed to share. 600 00:29:53,240 --> 00:29:55,400 And I'm, you know me. I'm an open book. 601 00:29:55,400 --> 00:29:57,680 I don't have any shame. There was never one part of me 602 00:29:57,680 --> 00:30:00,760 that was like, you know, I am embarrassed of being on the 603 00:30:00,760 --> 00:30:02,800 shot. I was like, no, this stuff is 604 00:30:02,800 --> 00:30:04,720 life changing. Everybody needs to hear about 605 00:30:04,720 --> 00:30:06,400 it. But I had handcuffs. 606 00:30:06,400 --> 00:30:08,080 I was restricted. I could not share. 607 00:30:08,080 --> 00:30:10,440 It was against their policies and procedures. 608 00:30:10,440 --> 00:30:14,400 I had put up one post, one time and was immediately like, take 609 00:30:14,400 --> 00:30:16,360 that down like it's a medical claim. 610 00:30:16,360 --> 00:30:19,200 No, no, no. So there I am in this spot where 611 00:30:19,200 --> 00:30:21,080 I'm, like, losing all this weight. 612 00:30:21,080 --> 00:30:24,680 All these people are inspired by my transformation, and they 613 00:30:24,680 --> 00:30:27,240 think that by getting on the supplements that I was selling 614 00:30:27,240 --> 00:30:29,600 at the time, it was gonna produce the same result. 615 00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:32,800 Yeah, it was really hard. It was really hard because it 616 00:30:32,800 --> 00:30:36,640 wasn't for me like just like a side hustle of a couple $1000 617 00:30:36,640 --> 00:30:38,800 that I'd be like, OK, it's fine, I'll give up. 618 00:30:38,800 --> 00:30:42,760 It was like all my, my whole livelihood was dependent on this 619 00:30:42,760 --> 00:30:45,400 and I couldn't sleep with myself and I felt like a fraud. 620 00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:48,880 And I was like, I have to be able to share my truth and get 621 00:30:48,880 --> 00:30:50,880 out of this. And then, you know, that's 622 00:30:50,960 --> 00:30:54,680 telemedicine company came along and I was like, wait a minute, 623 00:30:54,680 --> 00:30:57,680 wait a minute, wait a minute. You can, you can promote the 624 00:30:57,680 --> 00:31:01,000 very thing that changed my whole life that I know works. 625 00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:02,400 Like there ain't no bullshit here. 626 00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:06,440 Like, stuff works and I can actually make even more money 627 00:31:06,440 --> 00:31:09,000 than I'm already making. Then you know what I mean by 628 00:31:09,040 --> 00:31:11,440 aligning with something that is so near and dear to my heart 629 00:31:11,440 --> 00:31:12,760 that actually will work for people. 630 00:31:12,760 --> 00:31:14,840 It's like, Oh my gosh, I thought it was brilliant. 631 00:31:15,000 --> 00:31:17,360 I thought it was so brilliant, the whole concept of it. 632 00:31:17,760 --> 00:31:20,120 So I did. I left it all behind, started 633 00:31:20,120 --> 00:31:21,480 over. I sold everything in my 634 00:31:21,480 --> 00:31:26,280 apartment to survive off of and had like no money in my account 635 00:31:26,280 --> 00:31:29,480 at the time because my income had dropped at that other one. 636 00:31:29,480 --> 00:31:33,120 I think a lot of I'm just gonna be real supplement companies. 637 00:31:33,120 --> 00:31:36,080 I don't know how they're gonna manage if that's all they're 638 00:31:36,080 --> 00:31:39,640 letting people sell, if they're gonna be restrictive because 639 00:31:39,760 --> 00:31:42,200 nothing can compete with peptides, with medical grade 640 00:31:42,200 --> 00:31:45,000 peptides. So it's like you're I saw first 641 00:31:45,000 --> 00:31:47,320 hand the dip there. And then I was like, I got to 642 00:31:47,320 --> 00:31:49,520 get the hell out of here and I got to be able to share my 643 00:31:49,520 --> 00:31:51,520 truth. And then, yeah, I partnered with 644 00:31:51,520 --> 00:31:54,480 our telemedicine company 6 months ago, seven months ago. 645 00:31:54,600 --> 00:31:57,840 And it's been the biggest blessing ever, ever. 646 00:31:57,840 --> 00:32:01,080 Love it, making so much more money, helping, but that's the 647 00:32:01,080 --> 00:32:04,560 other thing is everybody that like I help with this actually 648 00:32:04,560 --> 00:32:07,720 is seeing results and then I actually feel like a good human. 649 00:32:08,080 --> 00:32:10,440 Right, right. Well, and with your background 650 00:32:10,440 --> 00:32:14,320 and your story, not being able to have quality access to 651 00:32:14,320 --> 00:32:16,440 quality peptides when you need them. 652 00:32:16,760 --> 00:32:20,000 I mean, for you to be able to give an opportunity to women who 653 00:32:20,000 --> 00:32:22,400 are hurting and scared and nervous and have their own 654 00:32:22,400 --> 00:32:24,560 vision boards of how they're going to look and show up in the 655 00:32:24,560 --> 00:32:27,440 world when they finally are at their goal weight is really 656 00:32:27,440 --> 00:32:29,640 important. So I agree, I have this 657 00:32:29,640 --> 00:32:32,400 conversation with functional practitioners all the time. 658 00:32:32,400 --> 00:32:35,400 Like there is a point in time when functional medicine stops 659 00:32:35,400 --> 00:32:37,120 working. Like I feel like I can get a lot 660 00:32:37,120 --> 00:32:40,560 of my women 90% of the way there with functional medicine tools 661 00:32:40,560 --> 00:32:42,880 and lab testing and supplements and hormones. 662 00:32:43,120 --> 00:32:48,240 But the last 10% for women and men too, is so incredible that 663 00:32:48,240 --> 00:32:50,240 we finally have freaking tools at work. 664 00:32:50,480 --> 00:32:52,080 And peptides are great. They are, yeah. 665 00:32:52,560 --> 00:32:55,200 Yeah, there's no denying that. There's no denying it. 666 00:32:55,480 --> 00:32:58,200 OK, so we have a physical redemption story. 667 00:32:58,200 --> 00:33:02,120 It's beautiful to see. You've got a brand new social 668 00:33:02,120 --> 00:33:04,800 media account. It grew in four weeks to like 669 00:33:04,800 --> 00:33:08,880 18,000 people, I mean. Almost 13,000 Yeah 13. 1000 in a 670 00:33:09,320 --> 00:33:12,000 couple weeks. I mean your your story is so 671 00:33:12,000 --> 00:33:13,840 impactful. Like even people who probably 672 00:33:13,840 --> 00:33:16,840 have not gone through exactly what you have gone through 673 00:33:16,840 --> 00:33:21,840 resonate with how real and vulnerable and I mean authentic 674 00:33:21,840 --> 00:33:24,800 you are. And that that one is at Dell 675 00:33:24,800 --> 00:33:25,960 after divorce, right? Yeah. 676 00:33:26,320 --> 00:33:28,440 Dell after divorce? Dell after divorce. 677 00:33:28,440 --> 00:33:30,640 OK, make a note, you guys go follow her. 678 00:33:30,800 --> 00:33:33,280 Her page is very, very, very inspiring. 679 00:33:33,600 --> 00:33:36,040 But that's not the only redemption story there is. 680 00:33:36,040 --> 00:33:39,520 I know on your vision board there was like, will I ever fall 681 00:33:39,520 --> 00:33:40,560 in love again? Yeah. 682 00:33:41,040 --> 00:33:42,480 So do you want to share that story about? 683 00:33:43,360 --> 00:33:45,960 It of course that it's actually funny. 684 00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:48,680 So Alex and I, so Alex is my my boyfriend. 685 00:33:49,640 --> 00:33:54,040 We met through the previous opportunity where I was at and I 686 00:33:54,040 --> 00:33:57,000 was, you know, killing it, but couldn't share my truth. 687 00:33:57,400 --> 00:34:01,160 And we met, we fell in love. We built our foundational off of 688 00:34:01,160 --> 00:34:03,520 friendship. Probably we we, he came into my 689 00:34:03,520 --> 00:34:07,480 life four months after the divorce just as a friend. 690 00:34:07,720 --> 00:34:10,440 But obviously feelings started developing. 691 00:34:10,440 --> 00:34:11,880 I was definitely crushing. He was crushing. 692 00:34:11,880 --> 00:34:15,440 And then we had a few company events where we met in person 693 00:34:15,440 --> 00:34:18,760 and then the sparks just kept going. 694 00:34:19,280 --> 00:34:23,000 But it's crazy because he did not know I was on the shot. 695 00:34:23,199 --> 00:34:27,960 And he, it's really funny. He was always anti the shot. 696 00:34:27,960 --> 00:34:30,600 Like he was posting stuff, you know, cuz when you're in a 697 00:34:30,600 --> 00:34:33,800 position where you're marketing something holistic, that's an 698 00:34:33,800 --> 00:34:37,040 alternative to the shot, your marketing position is always, 699 00:34:37,080 --> 00:34:40,320 you know, this is so you're gonna get the same results, but 700 00:34:40,320 --> 00:34:42,199 naturally. And right complete. 701 00:34:42,199 --> 00:34:44,040 Bullshit, and we know that now. But. 702 00:34:44,040 --> 00:34:46,120 Well, in his background he's in, it's in fitness. 703 00:34:46,159 --> 00:34:47,960 Right. Like he's a bodies instructor 704 00:34:48,159 --> 00:34:53,080 and yeah, he's very much more holistic, clean and like really 705 00:34:53,159 --> 00:34:56,600 conscious about what he puts in his body where I'm not as much 706 00:34:56,600 --> 00:35:00,560 like that. But yeah, he would post stuff 707 00:35:00,560 --> 00:35:04,560 and like I was like, Oh my gosh, I could never tell him, but he's 708 00:35:04,600 --> 00:35:06,720 so against it. So he would come to visit me 709 00:35:06,720 --> 00:35:12,200 when I lived in Dallas and I would hide my shot in the closet 710 00:35:12,200 --> 00:35:15,280 in a freaking lunch pail. And I every every like couple 711 00:35:15,280 --> 00:35:17,200 hours I would go swap out the ice pack. 712 00:35:17,200 --> 00:35:20,760 Like it was this whole thing. One time he extended his stay 713 00:35:20,760 --> 00:35:23,680 coming back from trip and I what he wasn't supposed to stay at my 714 00:35:23,680 --> 00:35:26,240 house. So I had my needles in the trash 715 00:35:26,240 --> 00:35:28,320 can, all my syringes in the fridge. 716 00:35:28,560 --> 00:35:33,680 And I was I had to order a pizza to the apartment right when we 717 00:35:33,680 --> 00:35:37,000 got up to the door, send him down to go get the pizza so that 718 00:35:37,000 --> 00:35:39,360 I could run in. And like, I mean, it was crazy. 719 00:35:40,000 --> 00:35:42,960 And so then our relationship progressed so much to where we 720 00:35:42,960 --> 00:35:45,320 were long distance for a while, But he's like, I want you to 721 00:35:45,320 --> 00:35:47,240 move out here. He has two daughters from so he 722 00:35:47,240 --> 00:35:48,960 was also divorced. He has two daughters. 723 00:35:48,960 --> 00:35:50,760 I don't have kids yet, so it made sense. 724 00:35:50,760 --> 00:35:53,040 Like I didn't really have, have anything holding me in Dallas 725 00:35:53,040 --> 00:35:54,720 where he has, you know, daughters out here in 726 00:35:54,720 --> 00:35:57,920 Sacramento. So yeah, I, I ended up being the 727 00:35:57,920 --> 00:36:00,680 one to relocate and move in with him here. 728 00:36:00,680 --> 00:36:02,880 And it's been amazing. So much better than long 729 00:36:02,880 --> 00:36:04,600 distance. But I was like, what am I gonna 730 00:36:04,600 --> 00:36:06,800 do? Move in and like have a storage 731 00:36:06,800 --> 00:36:10,680 unit where I go have a fridge and go shoot up once a week in 732 00:36:10,680 --> 00:36:12,040 there. And like, I can't fucking do 733 00:36:12,040 --> 00:36:15,280 that. So I ended up telling him when I 734 00:36:15,280 --> 00:36:19,160 reached the point too of like, I can't keep, keep this like a 735 00:36:19,160 --> 00:36:21,800 secret anymore. And my finances were already 736 00:36:21,800 --> 00:36:24,560 tanking at that last company. So I was like, OK, I'm gonna 737 00:36:24,560 --> 00:36:25,640 tell him. So I did. 738 00:36:25,680 --> 00:36:26,920 I would FaceTime and I was crying. 739 00:36:26,920 --> 00:36:29,640 I was like so nervous. And then he I said it. 740 00:36:29,640 --> 00:36:32,760 I was like, so I've been on the shot this whole time and that's 741 00:36:32,760 --> 00:36:35,960 how I've lost my 98 lbs. And he was like, oh, I don't 742 00:36:35,960 --> 00:36:37,800 care. I don't care about that. 743 00:36:38,200 --> 00:36:40,280 And then I start crying even more because I'm like, Oh my 744 00:36:40,280 --> 00:36:43,040 God, your reaction was so great. And I thought you were going to 745 00:36:43,040 --> 00:36:44,880 break up with me and hate me and expose me. 746 00:36:44,960 --> 00:36:47,880 We're all yeah, it was this whole thing because literally 2 747 00:36:47,880 --> 00:36:50,760 days before I told him, he shared on his story this other 748 00:36:50,760 --> 00:36:53,680 influencer who was came out about being on the shot and he 749 00:36:53,680 --> 00:36:58,080 was like trash talking her. I'm like, so so your fears? 750 00:36:58,080 --> 00:37:01,560 Were well found everybody in my life screenshot it to me and 751 00:37:01,560 --> 00:37:04,000 said because my friends and family knew I was on it they 752 00:37:04,000 --> 00:37:07,000 were like you better take this shit to the grave girl like no 753 00:37:07,000 --> 00:37:10,560 way no way can you tell him and so then he was actually really 754 00:37:10,560 --> 00:37:13,680 cool about it and then I told him about the opportunity to 755 00:37:13,680 --> 00:37:15,840 partner with the telemedicine company and sell it. 756 00:37:15,840 --> 00:37:18,880 And I was like, I have a friend here making $30,000 a month 757 00:37:19,120 --> 00:37:22,240 selling these peptides. And he was like, like, well, I 758 00:37:22,240 --> 00:37:24,960 mean, it would be a smooth transition for you going from 759 00:37:25,240 --> 00:37:27,480 push and holistic to this. So I did. 760 00:37:28,200 --> 00:37:31,760 And he was so supportive. And then he's like, well, maybe 761 00:37:31,760 --> 00:37:33,640 I want to try a little bit of it. 762 00:37:33,640 --> 00:37:35,520 And I was like, OK, well, you can microdose. 763 00:37:35,520 --> 00:37:39,120 So yeah, he started microdosing, fell in love with it. 764 00:37:39,120 --> 00:37:42,080 I mean, he looks amazing compared to like where he was. 765 00:37:42,080 --> 00:37:44,240 He doesn't even realize it. But I look back on pictures and 766 00:37:44,240 --> 00:37:47,000 videos of him, I'm like, whoa, you're inflammation. 767 00:37:47,000 --> 00:37:49,120 You have a jawline now, like everything. 768 00:37:49,120 --> 00:37:51,360 And so, yeah, he got out and then he started. 769 00:37:51,360 --> 00:37:54,680 I mean, we're both now on 6 different peptides each and he's 770 00:37:54,680 --> 00:37:58,200 full blown peptide like he calls himself Papa Peptide. 771 00:37:58,200 --> 00:38:01,200 That's the whole thing. And we work the business now. 772 00:38:01,200 --> 00:38:04,080 We do full time. He left that company to do this 773 00:38:04,080 --> 00:38:07,840 with me, and we're building it into a huge, you know, empire 774 00:38:07,840 --> 00:38:12,040 here of being peptide dealers essentially. 775 00:38:12,760 --> 00:38:14,400 I love it. I love it. 776 00:38:14,560 --> 00:38:18,280 I mean, just getting to do what you love doing and are clearly 777 00:38:18,280 --> 00:38:22,080 very damn good at, with someone who understands you and loves 778 00:38:22,080 --> 00:38:24,520 you for who you are and what you've been through, I think is 779 00:38:24,840 --> 00:38:27,120 a beautiful transition to your story. 780 00:38:27,120 --> 00:38:30,240 I won't say ending because it's probably only just begun, but 781 00:38:30,240 --> 00:38:33,960 getting to get little glimpses of it as I got to, you know, 782 00:38:33,960 --> 00:38:37,160 when we were at our LA weekend and then just looking at your 783 00:38:37,160 --> 00:38:39,640 social media, you can see just how happy you are. 784 00:38:39,640 --> 00:38:41,720 You're just happy. So happy. 785 00:38:41,720 --> 00:38:43,480 Yeah, I had him on my vision board. 786 00:38:43,480 --> 00:38:47,040 I had after the divorce. I made a vision board and 99% of 787 00:38:47,040 --> 00:38:49,680 everything crossed off like. All right, wait. 788 00:38:49,680 --> 00:38:52,400 What's the 1% I got to know? What's the 1% you haven't? 789 00:38:52,400 --> 00:38:55,240 I had 100,000. I wanted to put in investments. 790 00:38:55,240 --> 00:38:57,440 I haven't reached that yet because I have a spending 791 00:38:57,440 --> 00:39:01,120 problem. I make a lot of money and I 792 00:39:01,120 --> 00:39:03,680 spend a lot of money. So we're working on that 793 00:39:03,680 --> 00:39:06,400 actively 0. My gosh, I actually, I had 794 00:39:06,400 --> 00:39:09,520 Doctor Dean Jones on the podcast and we were talking about GOP 795 00:39:09,520 --> 00:39:12,480 ones for addiction and how they're using it with alcoholism 796 00:39:12,480 --> 00:39:14,960 and substance abuse. And there are even studies 797 00:39:14,960 --> 00:39:18,320 showing that people who are addicted to like shopping shop 798 00:39:18,320 --> 00:39:21,320 less when they're on a GLP one. I was like Doctor Jones, I 799 00:39:21,320 --> 00:39:24,720 actually was waiting for the GLP one to kick in and stop my 800 00:39:24,720 --> 00:39:26,520 shopping habit. That hasn't yet happened. 801 00:39:26,520 --> 00:39:28,280 He's like, maybe you just like shopping. 802 00:39:28,280 --> 00:39:30,200 I was like, oh fuck, I do. I do like. 803 00:39:30,520 --> 00:39:34,240 Because when you get all sexy, you just want to wear sexy, like 804 00:39:34,320 --> 00:39:37,120 fun stuff all the time. I'm like, I'm addicted to it 805 00:39:37,120 --> 00:39:39,680 now, you know? Which you definitely rock. 806 00:39:39,680 --> 00:39:42,880 So do tell me, what are some of your top places to shop now that 807 00:39:42,880 --> 00:39:46,880 you have your revenge body? Well, honestly, boutiques, local 808 00:39:46,880 --> 00:39:51,040 boutiques, because when I was plus size, I was limited to 809 00:39:51,040 --> 00:39:52,560 Torrid. That was like that. 810 00:39:52,560 --> 00:39:55,240 And and if you go to TJ Maxx, they got a little little tiny 811 00:39:55,240 --> 00:39:59,160 rack for you plus size. But now it's like, Oh my gosh, I 812 00:39:59,160 --> 00:40:02,520 can shop at Zara. I can shop at like all the cute 813 00:40:02,520 --> 00:40:07,040 little boutiques I shop at out where I get all my sexy outfits 814 00:40:07,040 --> 00:40:09,960 for like events and stuff is outcast clothing. 815 00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:10,800 I don't know if you've heard of them. 816 00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:12,600 But I have not. But you know, I'm gonna look 817 00:40:12,600 --> 00:40:15,440 them up now. They're very revealing. 818 00:40:15,440 --> 00:40:17,400 Some of it I'm like, is this a dress or lingerie? 819 00:40:18,600 --> 00:40:20,560 You know, it's funny because I had a lot of hate. 820 00:40:20,560 --> 00:40:23,520 My old upline actually was like, I don't talk to her at all 821 00:40:23,520 --> 00:40:26,080 anymore, but she was one of the ones that was like, you just, 822 00:40:26,120 --> 00:40:28,400 you know, you give up pick me energy. 823 00:40:29,200 --> 00:40:32,040 What does that mean? Just like seeking attention 824 00:40:32,040 --> 00:40:34,920 because I was showing up very, you know, I was rocking my new 825 00:40:34,920 --> 00:40:38,600 body, my new titties, I was wearing sexy stuff and I was 826 00:40:38,600 --> 00:40:41,160 like, you know what? Not one ounce of me showing up 827 00:40:41,160 --> 00:40:43,120 like this has anything to do with anybody else. 828 00:40:43,120 --> 00:40:47,280 But when you spend 32 years hating the way you look and 829 00:40:47,280 --> 00:40:50,120 being insecurity, finally fall in love with yourself and you 830 00:40:50,120 --> 00:40:53,840 feel sexy and confident, all you want to do is just bask in it. 831 00:40:53,840 --> 00:40:55,640 I mean, my best friend, it was fine. 832 00:40:55,640 --> 00:40:57,840 We were in the back of an Uber one time and I was watching my 833 00:40:57,840 --> 00:41:01,240 story, my Instagram that had posted and she's like, you know 834 00:41:01,240 --> 00:41:02,440 what? My favorite thing about you 835 00:41:02,440 --> 00:41:03,720 losing the way it is? And I was like, what? 836 00:41:03,720 --> 00:41:07,240 And she's like, you smile at yourself all the time when you 837 00:41:07,240 --> 00:41:10,040 watch videos and pictures of yourself, like you're smiling. 838 00:41:10,560 --> 00:41:12,000 And I'm like, Oh my God, you're right. 839 00:41:12,000 --> 00:41:13,240 Like I do. I can't get enough. 840 00:41:13,240 --> 00:41:17,240 And it's not a boastful thing. It's like, I love how I look 841 00:41:17,240 --> 00:41:19,400 now. I I'm obsessed with myself for 842 00:41:19,400 --> 00:41:20,760 the first time ever. I get it. 843 00:41:20,760 --> 00:41:22,960 You know, I used to think the whole self love thing was so 844 00:41:22,960 --> 00:41:26,520 like rah rah because I was so on the other side of it. 845 00:41:26,520 --> 00:41:28,800 But now that I'm in it, I'm like, oh, I get it. 846 00:41:28,800 --> 00:41:31,800 This is like every woman needs to experience this. 847 00:41:32,000 --> 00:41:35,320 You're to a level where you feel content instead of striving 848 00:41:35,360 --> 00:41:36,960 right? Like you're just kind of settled 849 00:41:36,960 --> 00:41:39,520 finally. Yeah, I feel so good. 850 00:41:39,600 --> 00:41:43,040 Yeah, just great. Yeah, yeah, I, I feel similarly 851 00:41:43,040 --> 00:41:46,160 and I think a lot of my clients kind of say that to me in my 852 00:41:46,160 --> 00:41:48,560 coaching practice. I have this like thing that I 853 00:41:48,560 --> 00:41:51,160 say to my clients like they'll lose weight, they'll feel 854 00:41:51,160 --> 00:41:53,320 better, they'll be sleeping through the night, their 855 00:41:53,320 --> 00:41:55,440 hormones are balanced and they're like, but I just need 856 00:41:55,440 --> 00:41:57,040 another 5 lbs. And so I always say to my 857 00:41:57,040 --> 00:41:58,840 clients, bitches never happy, right? 858 00:41:58,840 --> 00:42:01,800 Like we're just not like we all. There's always something more. 859 00:42:01,960 --> 00:42:03,840 I think that's just the human condition. 860 00:42:03,840 --> 00:42:06,880 Like we're just like created to strive and push. 861 00:42:06,880 --> 00:42:10,440 And so it's very hard to sit in a position of content, 862 00:42:11,040 --> 00:42:13,480 especially when you've achieved some of the things that you've 863 00:42:13,480 --> 00:42:16,480 achieved, like you've hurdled some major mountains, right? 864 00:42:16,480 --> 00:42:20,560 Did you just say you're 32? Now 33, but when I started 865 00:42:20,560 --> 00:42:22,400 hitting the milestones, it was 30. 866 00:42:22,400 --> 00:42:24,320 I had been 32, yeah. OK. 867 00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:27,160 I mean, that's pretty impressive for a young in such as yourself. 868 00:42:27,160 --> 00:42:29,480 So congratulations. Thank you. 869 00:42:29,560 --> 00:42:30,520 But I do. I'm the same way. 870 00:42:30,520 --> 00:42:34,440 I get very like, OK, now I want to get my my ribs contoured and 871 00:42:34,440 --> 00:42:37,880 then he's like, can you stop? Like, I'm like, I want some lipo 872 00:42:37,880 --> 00:42:41,280 here, you know, just I'm never satisfied, but that's good. 873 00:42:41,280 --> 00:42:44,280 I feel like you should always be striving, you know? 874 00:42:44,880 --> 00:42:46,240 Yeah, gotta be something to work, to feel. 875 00:42:46,280 --> 00:42:47,800 Good, you know. Yeah. 876 00:42:47,960 --> 00:42:50,680 And just to keep you motivated and keep you showing up in the 877 00:42:50,680 --> 00:42:52,800 world. We live in a capitalist society. 878 00:42:52,800 --> 00:42:56,520 So working your business and trying to build and grow, I 879 00:42:56,520 --> 00:43:00,560 don't think it's unhealthy, but I do love that, like underlying 880 00:43:00,560 --> 00:43:02,840 theme of contentment for you. And I think if you can be 881 00:43:02,840 --> 00:43:06,800 content in your circumstances, then you can appreciate all of 882 00:43:06,800 --> 00:43:08,400 the blessings all the more, you know? 883 00:43:08,400 --> 00:43:09,280 Yeah. For sure. 884 00:43:09,920 --> 00:43:12,680 OK, so I kind of want to talk about where can people find you? 885 00:43:12,680 --> 00:43:16,600 I've, I've previewed some of your Instagram and there are 886 00:43:16,600 --> 00:43:18,560 other places like a website and whatnot. 887 00:43:18,560 --> 00:43:20,520 So will you share those for our listeners? 888 00:43:20,680 --> 00:43:25,160 Yeah, so I do 99.9% of everything on Instagram. 889 00:43:25,280 --> 00:43:29,800 So my Dell after divorce account is going to be more geared 890 00:43:29,800 --> 00:43:32,600 towards, yes, I show my weight loss, but it's more speaking to 891 00:43:32,600 --> 00:43:35,320 other women who have gone through heartbreak and lost 892 00:43:35,320 --> 00:43:37,840 themselves in, you know, bad relationships. 893 00:43:38,400 --> 00:43:42,200 But I do have my real shock girl shit account still on Instagram 894 00:43:42,520 --> 00:43:47,280 where that's primarily all about the shot and peptides and my 895 00:43:47,280 --> 00:43:51,480 transformation. But on my account, my Dell after 896 00:43:51,480 --> 00:43:55,920 divorce, I wrote a book called Split Happens and it's just it's 897 00:43:55,920 --> 00:43:58,000 everything. It's it's not like a self help 898 00:43:58,000 --> 00:44:00,120 book by any means. It's a bad bitch Bible. 899 00:44:00,120 --> 00:44:02,320 OK, like how to become that bitch. 900 00:44:02,840 --> 00:44:04,560 And it's not just for divorced women. 901 00:44:04,560 --> 00:44:09,040 It's great for any my publisher. She was like, I love my husband 902 00:44:09,040 --> 00:44:11,320 to death. But like I've learned so much 903 00:44:11,320 --> 00:44:13,160 through your book. Like this is so good. 904 00:44:13,160 --> 00:44:16,640 Every woman needs to read it. So yeah, I have that LinkedIn, 905 00:44:16,640 --> 00:44:19,640 my bio on my Dell after divorced account. 906 00:44:19,960 --> 00:44:23,320 And that's really it. I mean, most of my stuff is just 907 00:44:23,320 --> 00:44:26,640 I I share my journey. I mark my provider with my 908 00:44:26,640 --> 00:44:29,120 telmis and company and that's it. 909 00:44:29,280 --> 00:44:30,360 I love it. I love it. 910 00:44:30,360 --> 00:44:34,360 I told you before we hopped on to the recording, but I spent 911 00:44:34,360 --> 00:44:38,320 probably an hour binging your content after after a weekend 912 00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:40,720 away and just walked away feeling empowered. 913 00:44:40,840 --> 00:44:43,120 I really did. So I feel like that you've got a 914 00:44:43,120 --> 00:44:46,120 gift there to share with women. Like, yes, I did this, yes, this 915 00:44:46,120 --> 00:44:50,000 happened to me, but also this is what I learned and this is how 916 00:44:50,000 --> 00:44:52,800 you can do something similar. And it's not out of reach for 917 00:44:52,800 --> 00:44:55,280 you whether you have 10 lbs to lose, whether you have 918 00:44:55,280 --> 00:44:58,040 inflammation you want to lose, or 98 lbs to lose. 919 00:44:58,040 --> 00:45:01,560 Like at least now there are options for women who previously 920 00:45:01,560 --> 00:45:03,760 felt like there were no options. And I think that that is 921 00:45:03,760 --> 00:45:06,360 incredibly empowering. Yeah, well, thank you. 922 00:45:06,400 --> 00:45:08,560 That's that's the goal. I just want everybody to know 923 00:45:08,560 --> 00:45:11,760 it's never too late, you know, to reinvent yourself and start 924 00:45:11,760 --> 00:45:14,520 over and not settle. And if there's anything you 925 00:45:14,520 --> 00:45:16,920 don't like about yourself, you have the power to fix it. 926 00:45:17,000 --> 00:45:20,440 You know, if you tried everything out there, please try 927 00:45:20,800 --> 00:45:23,960 peptides because you know, you had mentioned earlier about like 928 00:45:23,960 --> 00:45:26,200 it's good. You just don't but I was very 929 00:45:26,200 --> 00:45:29,800 hesitant at 1st and I thought I was like Oh my God I grow like a 930 00:45:29,880 --> 00:45:32,760 Unicorn horn out my head getting on these things. 931 00:45:32,760 --> 00:45:36,600 But I was very uneducated is what I learned and I got 932 00:45:36,600 --> 00:45:39,680 educated. I saw the results myself and my 933 00:45:39,680 --> 00:45:41,520 blood work has never been better. 934 00:45:41,520 --> 00:45:44,560 That's another thing, I was like pre diabetic before and now I'm 935 00:45:44,560 --> 00:45:47,200 not so. Yeah, incredible, Incredible 936 00:45:47,200 --> 00:45:48,720 what it does to your body inside now. 937 00:45:48,720 --> 00:45:52,160 OK, so as we closeout, you mentioned right now, you and 938 00:45:52,160 --> 00:45:55,160 Alex are both on 6 peptides. Bo and I are the same. 939 00:45:55,400 --> 00:45:58,400 I talk about my peptide stack all the time, but run me through 940 00:45:58,400 --> 00:46:00,600 really quickly what your peptide stack is right now. 941 00:46:00,800 --> 00:46:04,280 OK, so just started TA-1. Can you say the word I don't 942 00:46:04,280 --> 00:46:05,800 even? Know I miss an A1 for you guys 943 00:46:05,800 --> 00:46:08,040 to go. I forget what I call it. 944 00:46:08,040 --> 00:46:15,480 I just say TA1TA1 BPC 157TB500 The Wolverine stack and then I'm 945 00:46:15,480 --> 00:46:18,480 on GHKCU. Oh my gosh the Holy Grail. 946 00:46:18,480 --> 00:46:22,680 Like my skin glow up is insane. And honestly since adding in the 947 00:46:22,680 --> 00:46:26,480 the BPC because I know that the BPC and GHK together is like the 948 00:46:26,480 --> 00:46:29,800 glow stack, I have noticed my skin has gotten even better. 949 00:46:29,800 --> 00:46:33,040 Adding that into glutathione which I love. 950 00:46:33,400 --> 00:46:36,480 I I can't even describe it but it's just I feel so much better 951 00:46:36,480 --> 00:46:38,280 on it. I'm peeing a lot more so I know 952 00:46:38,280 --> 00:46:42,080 it's cleaning it out. But also if you are a drinker 953 00:46:42,080 --> 00:46:44,880 like I, you know, I like to drink sometimes a few glasses of 954 00:46:44,880 --> 00:46:47,240 wine here and there. I have no hangovers anymore on 955 00:46:47,240 --> 00:46:50,240 that, so that's amazing. That is amazing and a great 956 00:46:50,240 --> 00:46:54,080 trick. Yes yeah NAD obsessed with that 957 00:46:54,200 --> 00:46:58,240 for my energy, so I'm on Tier 2 of that and then cheers appetite 958 00:46:58,240 --> 00:47:00,680 the the wine. I will never, never go without, 959 00:47:00,680 --> 00:47:03,360 not because I have to be on it forever, but because of all the 960 00:47:03,360 --> 00:47:05,400 other, you know, health benefits with it. 961 00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:08,640 So yeah. Good, good stuff, I think. 962 00:47:08,800 --> 00:47:12,240 I think I was 6. Well, oh, he, he does Tessa IPA, 963 00:47:12,600 --> 00:47:15,680 he does Tessa IPA and oh the skin. 964 00:47:15,680 --> 00:47:17,960 I'm on our prescription skin care as well. 965 00:47:18,120 --> 00:47:21,280 Me too, I like that stuff but my husband just ordered his too. 966 00:47:21,280 --> 00:47:23,560 I was like can you please stop taking my prescription skin 967 00:47:23,560 --> 00:47:25,600 care? It was formulated for me. 968 00:47:25,800 --> 00:47:27,960 You need to buy your own. So finally, he did. 969 00:47:28,600 --> 00:47:30,600 Well, that's the problem. He tries every single one of 970 00:47:30,600 --> 00:47:32,200 mine. Yeah, he loves it. 971 00:47:32,640 --> 00:47:35,760 And I'm like, great, I, I literally was like, we're both 972 00:47:35,760 --> 00:47:38,640 on so many like this is crazy. Thank God we're making really 973 00:47:38,640 --> 00:47:42,520 good money here because every time I try a new one I'm like 974 00:47:42,520 --> 00:47:45,800 okay well this is budgeted in for life because how do I go 975 00:47:45,800 --> 00:47:47,680 without this now? That's how I feel. 976 00:47:47,680 --> 00:47:50,680 It is a slippery slope of peptides to be sure. 977 00:47:51,600 --> 00:47:54,280 Girl, that was a fantastic discussion. 978 00:47:54,400 --> 00:47:57,760 I really appreciate you being so open and I mean, sharing all 979 00:47:57,760 --> 00:48:01,320 this information with women. So, Dell Dunham, thank you for 980 00:48:01,320 --> 00:48:03,280 your time today. You know, I'm gonna hit you up, 981 00:48:03,280 --> 00:48:05,600 come back on the show, maybe get Alex on here, too. 982 00:48:05,600 --> 00:48:09,520 Get a couple a couple show on. He's all about the podcast 983 00:48:09,520 --> 00:48:12,960 stuff, so that would be amazing. I love it. 984 00:48:12,960 --> 00:48:15,040 All right. Any final thoughts for our women 985 00:48:15,040 --> 00:48:18,880 out there? No, just do it, be open minded, 986 00:48:18,880 --> 00:48:22,360 take the leap and you will thank yourself later. 987 00:48:22,360 --> 00:48:25,320 I promise you that. But thank you for having me. 988 00:48:25,320 --> 00:48:27,720 This is fun. It was very it just flowed. 989 00:48:28,160 --> 00:48:29,440 Yeah. That we just like to honor a. 990 00:48:30,640 --> 00:48:34,280 Little peptide conversation. I really appreciate you being a 991 00:48:34,280 --> 00:48:35,400 pep talk. Yeah, pep talk. 992 00:48:36,400 --> 00:48:37,760 Oh, my goodness. All right. 993 00:48:38,040 --> 00:48:40,520 Thank you, Delaney. And thank you guys for listening 994 00:48:40,520 --> 00:48:42,920 to the Peptides for Women podcast. 995 00:48:42,920 --> 00:48:46,360 We will be back next week with another great episode, so stay 996 00:48:46,360 --> 00:48:46,720 tuned.