Well, hello ladies and gents, Robert Sykes, Keto, savage.com
and today is going to be basically a follow up to the
last podcast to the last podcast I recorded with Crystal.
We dove into the four of the five pillars of our life with
regard to the tensegrity model, some of the things that we're
excited about post competition and just how we plan on making
those five pillars grow in unison.
But we didn't get a chance to talk about the fifth pillar
which was spirituality because Rigel woke up from his nap and
we got interrupted. So I wanted to record a stand
alone podcast all on spirituality and how that was
massively impacted as a result of this competition prep.
So that is what this podcast entails.
This is 40 minutes of me wading through my thoughts and figuring
out how to verbalize it. So there's no guess on this one.
This is just me talking. This is a topic that I don't
normally talk about on a podcast and I just want to be fully
transparent with y'all. So that is what this is.
Again, this is unrehearsed, unrefined and unpolished.
But that's just the reality. It is very transparent, it's
raw, you get that for sure. So if you have any interest in
that component of the five pillar consecrity model, my take
on spirituality and how that was impacted by this prep, that is
what this podcast is all about. So hopefully you enjoy and take
something from it. I am totally open to suggestions
on anything that I talk about with this podcast.
So if if y'all have found any articles, books, podcast
resources that shed more light on these questions, by all means
send them my way. Thank you very much and I
appreciate y'all listening. Without further delay.
Sit back, relax, enjoy my thoughts on spirituality.
All right ladies and gentlemen, we are live, so I'm super
excited to dive into this podcast.
This is going to be a little bit different than my normal
content. It's not really health and
nutrition related per SE, but it has stemmed from my endeavours
in this last competition prep. So I feel like it is relevant in
that sense. So when it comes to the, the
last podcast I recorded was with Crystal and we talked about the
five pillars of our tensegrity model.
You know, really doubling down on health, wealth, new
relationships, self development and spirituality.
Those are kind of the five core pillars that we believe to be
the most impactful in our lives and just kind of how we separate
everything. But doing so in a way that
everything builds upon the whole via this model of tensegrity as
opposed to a work life balance. Tensegrity being that everything
may put pressure on one another, but that tensional force creates
tensional integrity that makes everything benefit.
So that's kind of how I like to think.
That's the lens I like to look through my life in.
And one of the we we we dove into four of those five pillars
in the last podcast. So definitely listen to that one
if you had not already. But we didn't have time because
Ryja woke up to dive into the fifth one which is spirituality.
So I kind of wanted to do a stand alone podcast on that
specifically because that area, that pillar has seen quite a lot
of change because of this competition prep that I have
just you know, rounded out. So here we go on that topic.
So when it comes to spirituality, I don't normally
talk about this or any of my platforms.
I feel like I don't really talk about anything that's not that
spirituality should be polarizing, but I don't want to
talk about anything that I don't talk about politics.
I don't want to talk about spirituality or religion.
I don't want to talk about anything that has so many
varying points of view and is not my area of expertise.
There's a lot of noise out there online.
Everybody's got their own opinion.
I've got my own opinion on things.
But if I feel like I can't add value to the people listening or
the people consuming my content because I don't know what I'm
talking about or it's not my place, I don't like contributing
to that noise that is out there. So that's why I don't really
talk about the politics and things like that.
Now when it comes to spirituality, that's a chapter
in my life that I'm not opposed to talking about, but most
people are coming to me for advice on natural bodybuilding,
nutrition training, things of that nature.
So kind of a different wheelhouse.
However, this competition prep really acted as an awakening
from a spirituality standpoint and I am trying to incorporate
more of the Live Savage principles into my content.
So it seemed fitting to talk about that aspect of my life on
this podcast rounding out that five pillar consecrity model.
So that is kind of like a long winded introduction as to why
I'm even speaking about this in the 1st place.
I have utmost respect for everybody's points of view.
I'm not trying to be polarizing at all.
I certainly don't have all the answers.
This is me wading through the questions that I have and
learning as I go and just simply being transparent in that
department. So let's talk about my
relationship with spirituality and how it kind of was shaped or
formed as a result of this competition prep.
So when it comes to competitions in general, I've done 5
different competitive seasons and each one has seen me in a
very different chapter of my life.
Each one has been transformative in its own right.
And I've kind of talked a little bit in the past about how each
of those have been impactful in the past.
This one specifically was unique in that all those other areas of
my life, like, you know, the business, the relationship,
moving, all that stuff that took place, college, a career, all
that stuff that took place before now, those were all
during other competition preps and and those preps were hard
because of those massive shifts in life.
Now I've I've got a pretty solid foundation.
I've I've got a wife. I've got a son.
I've got a business. I've got my my foundation is
relatively solid in that I know who I am, what my purpose in
life is, and what I'm called to do.
So I wasn't really battling with those questions.
Throughout this competition. Prep, this prep was
transformative from a spiritual standpoint.
Because I wasn't distracted by those other things, I was able
to just really become inward and reflective and really think
about who I am, what I stand for, what my place is in the
world, what my purpose is in life, and what's it all for in
the 1st place. And I think that may have been
one of the main reasons that this Prep specifically was a
catalyst for this spiritual awakening of sorts.
So that that's my theory there. Plus, when you're in a Prep, you
are incredibly depleted. I mean, I was pushing the
envelope further than I've ever pushed it before.
With this prep specifically, I'd gotten leaner than I'd never
gotten before. I'd gotten lighter than I'd ever
gotten before, and I had gotten just more dialed in than I'd
never gotten before. But I pushed it to a point that
is certainly unhealthy from a sustainable lifestyle.
You know, perspective. I mean right now I don't know
what I am this instant upon this recording, but the last blood
work I got showed my total testosterone to be 86 which is
down in the tank. My calories got down as low as
about 1500 which is incredibly low for me being my maintenance
is around 3033 hundred. My body fat got down to sub 4%.
My hormones were obviously affected.
Lots of physiological changes are taking place when you get
that low, like your hair stops growing as much, your
fingernails stop growing as much, but you're just incredibly
depleted. Like, I'm really dialing in my
water and my electrolytes, but you get lightheaded.
There was a few times where I had gotten really lightheaded
upon standing quickly. There's two times actually where
I legitimately passed out, which I've never had happened before.
So that was interesting and I can talk more about that later.
But all that to say, I was incredibly depleted throughout
this prep and I didn't really let that slow me down.
I mean, I kept doing all the responsibilities that I had to
do. Like I still was a father to
Rigel. I was still maintaining all my
business responsibilities. We were doing a lot of physical
labor while we were going throughout this prep.
So on top of the normal gym training, cardio sessions,
posing routines, which are all very physically demanding, I was
also building a fence, driving T post, digging post holes.
I mean, like doing things that most competitive natural
bodybuilders are probably not doing as deep into a prep as I
was doing. But all that to say, I was
pushing my body and my brain to the NTH degree and that took its
toll on me physically and mentally.
But I liked what resulted from that because when you are so
depleted, nare I say, when you are literally on the brink of
death, you have this new found sense of just self preservation
that takes hold. I mean, you are literally living
minute to minute, moment to moment, like you, you you can't
even begin to fathom what next week or next month is going to
entail because you are just trying to simply get to the next
hour. And I like that state.
I I wouldn't want to stay there indefinitely, but I like that
state because it makes you really appreciate the moment
that you're in there just becomes this sense of of
solitude and presence about you that is hard to describe unless
you've been there before. Like when you are literally
living minute to minute, moment to moment, just trying to get it
through that moment in time. You can't allow distractions
into your life. You have to have a structure, a
plan, a protocol, and you just simply go through life in a very
present state of mind. And that was definitely the case
for me. And in doing that, I just am
able to really become honest with myself, brutally honest,
brutally reflective and just transparent with my own self, my
own thoughts. So many people that are forced
into, you know, a life filled with distractions and outside
noise find it nearly impossible to figure out who they are, what
they're comprised of, and what they're doing here in this
world. And when you strip away all that
noise, all that distraction and all that chaos because you
simply can't physically afford to have it in your life, then
mentally you become enlightened, so to speak.
You have this, this incredible sense of self preservation, self
reflectiveness and just self. You know, honesty like who are
you and what are you doing here? And that said, without or
throughout this prep I I kept finding myself wanting to do
things different than I had done in preps prior.
In preps prior, I put all of the weight on my own shoulders and
that forced me to become a person I didn't want to become.
Like. I would get very aggressive, I
would get very frustrated, I'd be very irritable, I would lash
out at people and I didn't want that to be the case, especially
now that I have a son. I wanted this prep to be
different and I went into it with that mentality.
Like I wanted to be a very positive person throughout this
prep and I was like I never once lashed out and and you can
listen to the podcast today with Crystal and she can attest to
that and I'm very proud of that. But I think one of the main
reasons I was able to accomplish that is because I just leaned in
to this sense of gratitude and awareness and appreciation.
And in doing that, I also leaned into the ability to just simply
let go. Like, I didn't put the weight of
this prep on my shoulders. I did everything that needed to
be done. I didn't deviate from the
macros, the training, or the cardio or the posing or
anything. Like I had a better prep than
I've ever had before and I brought a better package than
never had before. But I surrendered that sense of
just like misery, like I didn't. In the past, I would associate
being miserable with doing the right thing and being intense
and just simply going as hard as I could.
I went harder than I'd ever gone before with this prep, but I
wasn't miserable with it. And the main reason I think that
is the case is because I did surrender that expectation, and
I just simply leaned into the possibility that, hey, this
isn't about me specifically. I am doing this for a higher
purpose. I am doing this for a thing
bigger than me. And in having that approach to
it, I was able to push myself harder than I had ever been able
to push myself individually. Which made me realize that I
couldn't have done what I had just accomplished with this prep
by myself. You know, call that whatever you
may. But I believe that this prep
opened my eyes to the fact that I didn't do it alone.
Like I was able to lean on God to get through it and to get
through it in a way that I'd never been able to get through a
prep before while maintaining my relationships while staying
positive, while help, while helping others.
And that was a pretty big aha moment for me.
So when it comes to spirituality and God and my relationship with
God, I feel like I should give you a little back story here.
So I was not raised in a religious setting whatsoever.
We went to church a few times when I was younger.
My grandparents are my my granny specifically is is highly
involved in the church, but when we moved away from them, that
was not really something that was a part of my day-to-day
life. My dad, whom I love and respect
dearly, is an evolutionary biologist.
Like he does not believe in God and he is a scientist.
He's a researcher. He is a very black and white
analytical type of guy, which I can totally appreciate and
respect 'cause I am that as well.
But he is not a religious type whatsoever.
So I was not raised in a religious setting.
I didn't go to church really much beyond those few times when
I went with my my grandparents. And as I was going through high
school and college and everything, you know, I I tried
to figure out where I stood on that topic.
You know, is there a God? Is there not a God?
Because everybody asks themselves those questions when
they start asking themselves deep questions.
And I never really had much clarity on that.
I didn't know where I stood on it.
I'd I'd gone to a few churches in college kind of individually
just to see if I liked him. None of them really ever
resonated with me. And then I moved off to
Washington State, met Crystal and we just kind of went through
our life, you know, going through our life as as as we
were. Crystal was raised in a
religious setting, so she had that background, whereas I did
not. And as a as a couple, you know,
you want to make sure on the same page with things.
So I felt it prudent for me to figure out more officially
whereas on the topics that we can be aligned in our thinking
and share some common ground. And that became even more
important once we had our son, because we obviously want to
raise him with similar footing, making sure that we're giving
him similar messaging so that he's not confused because that
would be the the worst thing. I wouldn't want to have a
different stance than my wife and then that make his
upbringing confusing for him. That wouldn't be fair to him.
So before he was even born, actually, we, you know, we knew
we wanted to have a kid. But I I knew that I wanted to
figure out where I stood on this from an individual standpoint.
Taking crystal, taking Roger out of the equation.
I just knew that I wanted to figure this out and where I
stood on it. And we had hired A gentleman by
the name of Brandon a few years back and he was working for us.
He worked for us for a couple years and he was incredibly,
incredibly, you know, faithful. He, he, he spoke the language.
He he was just very confident in his faith, more so than I'd ever
experienced anybody before. And I was just kind of confused
by that because up to that point, I hadn't really found any
black and white answers to anything.
And I'm like, man, oh man, how can you be so freaking confident
than any of this stuff? Like you are living and
breathing and dying by by what the Bible preaches.
But how do you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that that is
true? Like, how do you have so much
confidence? So he would talk to me about
that, and I just really respected and appreciated him as
a person. He was an incredibly hard
worker, incredibly good person, great addition to the team when
he was with us there, and I was just really intrigued by his
level of devotion to his faith and in interacting with him as
he was our employee. He started telling me about
something called apologetics, which is basically, you know,
kind of like a philosophical train of thought of reasoning
and reasoning through your arguments from a like, debate
standpoint, which I did like that.
I appreciated that because I wanted to be able to bring.
People with conflicting views together and just hear their
stance on everything I wanted to bring.
I wanted to hear where an evolutionary biologist thought
about something. I wanted to hear how that was in
line or conflicted with what a preacher thought about
something. I wanted to hear perspectives
from people from different religions.
I just wanted to know and compile all the information, get
everybody's train of thought together and just figure out
what made sense to me, how I could assimilate that
information and then move forward from there and
apologetics resonate with him because that's basically what it
is. It's it's like a formal debate
like here is why we think the way we think and then let's
reason through it and then make sense of it from a rational
standpoint. So I like that.
So I kind of started diving into apologetics once.
I met Brandon in hiring him to workforce a few years back and
that went on for that's probably about 2-3 years now.
And while I was going through and listening to all these
debates and apologetics and and whatnot, I just started
consuming as much information as I could.
I would go to a few different churches, see what the preachers
had to say, figure out if I liked what they were saying or
not, if it made sense. I read the Bible cover to cover.
I would dive into other religions and try and figure out
what it was they were thinking. I would dive into a lot of the
evolutionary discussion and textbooks and science to figure
out what its argument for anything and everything was.
You know, did we all come from some Big Bang?
Did we all come from the hand of God?
You know, how old is the earth? Is it 6000 years old?
Was it a gazillion years old? Like all of these questions that
we start asking ourselves when we start going down this rabbit
hole, I've been asking for the last several years and just
diving into the information deeper and deeper and deeper.
And again, I'm going to be the first to tell you that I don't
have all the answers and I'm not confident in saying that this is
that or this is how old the earth is or in that stuff.
I'm just in the process of figuring all this out myself.
And honestly, I am a very black and white person.
I am a very analytical, data-driven, data oriented
person. That's why I like what, you
know, I dive into with regard to nutrition and reading these
research studies and testing and trialing different macro
nutrients and micronutrients and training philosophies to figure
out what works and what doesn't from an unbiased, objective
approach. That's what I like to do, like I
don't like to bring in biases. I don't like to bring in, you
know, quote UN quote religion to nutrition because I just like to
figure things out from a scientific, objective
standpoint. But the thing about spirituality
and faith and religion and and science is that all of this
stuff is. I mean, this all happened long
before we were ever born. So we can't really look at it
from an objective scientific standpoint of here is the
scientific experiment, let's replicate it and figure out the
outcome. Because all of this happened
long before we came into the picture and we can't really go
back in time and create a model that showcases exactly what
happened. So we're all kind of giving
forth our best guesses and assumptions, and nobody has all
the answers. No human has all the answers.
So whether you are on the hardcore religious side or the
hardcore scientific side, at some point you have to have, I
mean, you have faith in one or the other, but either way you
have faith. Like you have faith that it's
all coming through natural evolution and it can be
explained via that route or through the hand of God in some
spiritual form. But either way, you have to have
faith in that belief because you can't really look at it through
an objective scientific lens in the sense that you can create a
model and duplicate it and then see it occur and take place like
you could in a Petri dish of a traditional scientific
experiment. So either way, there is faith.
That said, I don't think there has to be this mutually
exclusive approach. Like obviously there is a lot to
be and it can be explained through the lens of science.
And science is great. Like, I love science.
That's why I'm constantly consuming scientific research
studies on nutrition and other things, because I just love
science. I think the pursuit of science
and knowledge is an incredibly valuable thing, but I don't
think that should discount the fact that there are things that
cannot be explained through the scientific method alone.
There are things that we can't put our finger on with 100%
degree of clarity and confidence.
There are things that we just simply can't explain, like love.
How is that emotion something that we could explain through a
scientific experiment? You can't.
You just feel it. You know it to be true and you
know it to be good. And I think life kind of like
the whole five pillar thing. Everything may seem to be
counter to one another, but it all works in symbiosis.
It all creates something that betters the whole.
And I think the same can be said with regard to science and
spirituality and faith, like everything can meld together and
create something better than it would be in isolation.
There doesn't have to be this mutually exclusive approach to
things, but I'm kind of going off on a tangent here.
So all that to say, I I've been diving deeper into all of these
things, trying to figure out where I stood on things, trying
to figure out the answers, trying to figure out how to be
objective, how to lean into these thoughts and emotions I've
had and just how to be, you know, more confident in my own
beliefs and approach. But through this prep and
through being so incredibly depleted and in having such a
rigid structure to my life, there was a few things that I
would do that just became very tangible.
So I would, towards the end, you know, I said I was very
depleted. I was doing one meal a day.
I would train, I would do my cardio.
I would pose. And then before I would allow
myself to eat, I would take a moment to allow my body to
return to a parasympathetic state.
I would go over to the mats. I'd find a corner.
I'd find, like this little spot that was away from everybody
else. I would put my head down.
I would kneel on the ground kind of in like some yoga pose.
And I would just simply focus on letting my breathing return to
normal and return to that parasympathetic state.
Because when you are that depleted and you're that hungry,
you just get like in this feeding frenzy and you just want
to eat and you can't really focus on the world that like
that becomes a distraction. And that is oftentimes the
trigger for a lot of binging and just not having control over the
food. So from a very tangible
standpoint, I wanted to avoid that, and I wanted to be in the
right frame of mind before I allowed myself to eat.
So I would do this little practice after doing the
training, and I would let my body return to this
parasympathetic state, and I would just focus on breathing
with my head down, stretched out on the floor.
And I found myself starting to pray when I was in that
position. And at first, I don't really
know what I was praying for. You know, I was praying for, you
know, just to be able to get through the prep.
I would pray for, You know, clarity is to know what I should
do throughout the day. Pray for having a healthy
relationship with food. I'd pray thanks for what I had
in life, my family, my friends, just all the things I was
grateful for. And what I realized in doing
that over the course of several months is that as I got more and
more depleted and the prep got further along from a
physiological standpoint, that prayer time was incredibly
beneficial. Like, it allowed me to maintain
a healthy relationship with food.
That's one. But it allowed me to just go
through the day in the right frame of mind without
distractions. Like I would have that moment
and then I would be able to get up from that and just go through
the day positively with direction, with clarity.
And that was great. That was honestly one of the
reasons I probably didn't get irritable and rude and and
negative throughout this prep. From a physiological standpoint,
I would come out of that, or I'd be in that prayer and I would
be. I'd breathe dizzy.
I would. There's a couple times, like I
said, where I'd get up from it too quickly.
And I I passed out twice. And I would have these, like
weird shakes all over my body because, you know, electrolyte
manipulations, fluid manipulations, just simply being
depleted, being in a position where my head was down and then
standing up too quickly, having a blood rush.
Like there'd be like these just strange physical things that
were happening. And, you know, you can explain
that through whatever means. That's just simply a matter of
being so depleted. But in having those tangible
physical phenomena that you don't typically have when you're
not in that deep of a deficit, it made me just recognize the
brevity of life that much more. You know, when you are that
depleted and you are on the brink of death, you have a much
closer relationship with how short life is.
And I became just incredibly grateful for every moment that I
was given. And I was doing everything I
could do in life to the best of my ability with that prep, to
the point where if I were to die in that moment, I would be at
peace with my life. I had made peace with crystal,
with my life, with with what I was trying to do.
I didn't have any regrets. I don't have any regrets.
And I just felt really good about it.
Like, I obviously don't want to die this young, but I realized
in one of those moments that if I were to die in this instant, I
would be at peace. And that was a very calming
thing. And I would have those physical
phenomena take place. And then it started to shape
more of my psychological thinking of what I'm
experiencing. This piece that I have this
profound sense of just, you know, gratitude, love, peace,
presence. This is all something beyond me.
In the past, when I tried to shoulder this burden myself, I
found myself being miserable, negative and just derogatory.
Whereas now I have peace, love, gratefulness and appreciation.
And the main shift was in that was that I let God shoulder that
burden. The prep no longer became this
thing that I was trying to do for myself for some sense of
self righteousness. It became this thing of, hey, I
am doing this as a vehicle for something bigger than me.
I want to help, inspire, educate, motivate people and I
can't push myself to the point that I need to if I shoulder
that burden alone. So I'm going to surrender it to
God, and everything that I accomplished through this
journey and endeavor is done to glorify God.
And when I made that shift, I had that newfound sense of
peace. And I can't explain that.
I can't explain what that means. I can't explain how that works.
I can't explain a lot of things. This is just me trying to be
transparent and wade through these thoughts and realizations
as I'm experiencing them. So bear with me here on that.
But I enjoy that sensation. I lean into that and I have
become better for it and I am focused now the competition is
over on continuing that relationship, learning more and
figuring it out on a deeper level.
I think, you know, now the shows are over and I'm not as depleted
and I don't have that weight. It's easier to let those
distractions creep back in and not have that sense of clarity.
And one thing that I've been doing is trying to maintain the
structure routine that I did throughout my prep to keep that
connection close. So I'm still doing that moment
of prayer after my training, before I allow myself to eat,
and just simply focusing on having that moment throughout
the day at different times when I feel distractions creep in and
when I feel like I am disconnected from the reality of
the world that we live in and the present moment.
And that has been a very good thing for me.
And again, I don't know. I I don't have all the answers.
I don't know a lot of the questions.
There's a there's so many questions that I have and I
don't even know if I'm meant to have the answers.
But what I have noticed is that in surrendering that way, in
being more present, in praying to a higher being than myself, I
feel a sense of peace that I have never had before.
And I am tangibly becoming a better person.
Like I'm surrounding myself with people that also seek that out
and are striving to become better.
And that like there's a lot of abstractness in religion and
spirituality. There's a lot of hypocrites in
religion and spirituality. There's a lot of hypocrites in
all walks of life, and I don't know.
I don't know. I'm going to say I don't know
several times on this podcast. But what I do know is that the
deeper I dive and the more I lean into this newfound sense of
faith and confidence, that there is something out there greater
than me. And I want to glorify that more
than my own selfish desires. The better I become as a person
in a very tangible way. I want to continue to learn all
the different things. I want to learn what the science
is saying and showing and be objected towards that.
I want to understand and learn why different people from
different walks of life with different upbringings and
different religions and faith-based systems think the
way they do. And I want to understand why
they think that way. And I want to understand, you
know, like the more commonly accepted form of religion here
and America, at least you know, Christianity grand.
There's different variations of that.
Why people in the church think the way they do what what the
Bible says, what the Bible shows, what that means from a
historical standpoint, from an apologetic standpoint, from a
faith-based standpoint. Like I just want to know all of
these things. I've been going to several
different churches, trying to figure out what message they're
preaching, trying to interact with the people and what their
stance is on things. Reading the Bible, having
devotions, praying, figuring out what that means, how it makes me
feel, what it's suggesting I do, and how I live my life.
These are all things that I am in the process of figuring out.
But what I can confidently say is that the deeper I dive into
it, the more compelled I am to live a life that I am more
confident is a better life. Like, I see myself becoming a
better person and that is a very tangible thing.
So while I don't have all the answers and there is a lot of
questions, which is hard for me, being as black and white and
analytical and data-driven as I am, I can tangibly say that I am
leaning into this with more confidence and flourishing as a
result. And that is worthwhile and I am
very happy and excited to keep learning.
For that reason alone, I can confidently say that what I
accomplished through this prep and the framework and the
mindset that I had to adopt in order to get through it
throughout through some of the the lows that I experienced,
through some of the highs that I experienced could not have been
done had I gone through this prep like I had in the past.
And the primary difference was that I let go and put my faith
in God to help me get through it.
And that made all the difference.
When I look at what I've learned thus far from diving deeper into
this, the primary message that I've gleaned from it is to love
one another, to glorify God, and to love His existence and what
he stands for with all of your heart, mind, and soul.
There is so much self centeredness in the world, so
much negativity, so much selfishness and lack of
gratitude. I'm a happy person and I'm happy
because I'm grateful for all that I've been blessed with.
I have so much to be grateful for.
We all do. If you are listening to this
podcast, you have so much to be grateful for.
And if the primary message that I've gleaned from at least the
Christian standpoint is to love God with all your heart, mind
and soul, and love others, that is a pretty solid message that
we can all get behind. So I'm definitely going to get
behind that, and I'm also going to keep diving deeper to figure
out where I stand on all this. But I'm grateful for the
opportunity to do so. I'm grateful that I have found
my calling in life because. I feel like we all have a
responsibility to go through life and simply add more value
than we take. I think, you know, I don't want
to be a Leech on society. I don't want to be, you know, a
a a negative. I don't want to be a drain.
I just simply want to leave this world better than I found it.
Because I'm so grateful for the opportunity to have lived in it
in the 1st place. And I am grateful to have found
my calling and purpose. And I want everything that I do
to glorify God and His higher purpose for me.
I feel like there's so much opportunity out there and so
many people are stuck in a life that they're not passionate
about and they're living in a mundane way because there is a
lack of passion there. I love my life and everything
that I'm doing has the opportunity to act as a vehicle
to add more value to those I interact with so that I can love
them more and add more value to them as well.
And I think if I do that to the my best ability then I can leave
this world better than I found it.
Glorify the God that put me here and I can be at peace with them.
So ladies and gentlemen, that is my, whatever you want to call
it, My my discussion on spirituality, our relationship
with God, what I've tried to figure out and learn and just
decipher over these past several months or honestly several
years. So again, I do not have all the
answers. I've got more questions than
I've got answers, but all of this has kind of come to light
as a result of this competition. Prep and I have tried to be
incredibly transparent with all things related to the prep, the
blood work, the training, the nutrition, the hormones, the
psychology. So it only seemed fitting to be
incredibly transparent with this awakening as well.
So thank you all for tuning in, thank you all for listening.
Much love to every single one of you and I will talk to you next
time.