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What's going on? 
Ladies and gents? 

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Robert Sykes? 
Keto Savage.com. 

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And today I've got special 
guest, Rebecca Farmer on the 

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line. 
Rebecca has an amazing amazing. 

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Amazing story. 
I remember talking with her way 

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back in 2017. 
She looked incredibly emaciated 

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because she was, she was 
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She was battling with a 
whirlwind of health issues, 

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ranging the board from Lyme 
disease to c-diff to slow 

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Transit. 
I mean, literally everything 

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that you could have an Who is 
she was having an issue with it?

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She was down to an incredibly 
low weight, like 60, something 

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pounds and she was able to 
reverse all of those symptoms 

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via a carnivore diet and then 
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But in she's incorporating more 
fermented foods. 

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Now, some yogurts kind of a 
ketogenic diet now, but her 

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journey from where she was then 
to where she is now is nothing 

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short of amazing. 
And I really just wanted to 

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bring it on the podcast and tell
that story to inspire and 

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Empower others that could be 
going through. 

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Something similar, or just 
simply to anybody is going 

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through. 
Anything is hard. 

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I mean, this this story's gonna 
give you some perspective, so, 

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hats off to Rebecca. 
I mean, she's done. 

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Like I said, nothing short of 
amazing here. 

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Incredible Journey, incredible 
story and I was happy and proud 

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and excited to get it out there 
to the public. 

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So without further Ado, sit 
back, relax and enjoy the 

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podcast with Rebecca farmer. 
And we are live. 

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Rebecca. 
How are you? 

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I'm awesome. 
I'm excited to be here. 

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Thank you. 
Yeah, I'm excited to have you. 

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We have talked numerous times, 
but it's been a long time. 

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I remember shoot, I guess when 
we had that phone call, we were 

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corresponding via email. 
That was back in 2017. 

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That sound right? 
All right, that's right. 

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And a lot has changed in your 
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just to kind of give the 
listener some context I You 

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reaching out asking for help on 
some nutrition stuff and like, 

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you didn't even look, like the 
person that you are today. 

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I saw a recent picture of you 
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It's like, you are two different
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from the inside out. 
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So I'd love to kind of just pull
the curtain back, dive into your

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past, your history, kind of 
where you've been where you're 

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at right now, where you're 
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But yeah, just kind of give the 
listeners some context as to 

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what life was looking like, for.
You when we were talking back in

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2017. 
Yeah, I remember that day too 

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risky. 
I was around that time. 

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I was misdiagnosed with an 
eating disorder and I was held 

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against my will and an eating 
disorder unit for an entire 

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month. 
My entire family thought that I 

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had an eating disorder. 
I was diagnosed with chronic 

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lyme disease. 
And I have recently, worked 

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started working with functional 
medicine, doctors and we 

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uncovered a plethora of 
autoimmune disease. 

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Digestive issues, two major mood
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I had recently gotten off of 
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All from, has a pan and the end,
but at that point, in my life, I

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was, I can't remember being more
hopeless and I got on the phone 

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with you and Crystal and I was, 
I remember, I was on a walk. 

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It was the boardwalk Trail in my
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And I remember even where I was 
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It was by a cow pasture on that 
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And you guys told me that if I 
wanted to become an entrepreneur

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and I wanted to get out on my 
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just remember like stopping in 
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When you guys spoke that into my
life because it was like that's 

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what I needed to hear. 
No one believed it. 

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Everyone thought I had an eating
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work at the time. 
But you guys, even though you 

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knew that you knew the contacts,
both of you, just you and 

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Crystal just very, very clearly 
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And I will never forget that and
I held onto that. 

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Well, here I am now and you 
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Like, that's what I'm doing 
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I'm a full-time health, and life
coach and I am healed. 

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That's awesome. 
I'm very grateful to hear that 

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because We haven't really been 
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just here recently. 
When I'm like I'll get you back.

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I got to get you on the podcast 
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obvious way back then that you 
were going through a lot and for

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me like I don't ever I don't 
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thing. 
I don't ever want to say 

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something that that leads 
someone astray and you don't 

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always know what the that should
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So I remember talking with you 
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to say all the right things, not
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So I'm glad that the right 
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I hope our I wish I could have 
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that time since we've kind of 
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much but it seems as though you 
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you've absolutely succeeded in 
gotten past whatever, you know, 

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past struggles, you've dealt 
with because you're a Absolutely

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killing it right now. 
It seems. 

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Yeah, thank you. 
And you guys said, just enough. 

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I think that God calls us to 
speak and to also be silent at 

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the right times and you guys 
didn't overstep, but you were 

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bold enough to stay what you 
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And that's that's so powerful to
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And I could sense that I could 
sense that you guys were also 

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purposely, not saying too much. 
Like I almost wanted you to say 

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more but you Nothing more to say
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to be responsible for myself. 
Like, okay, as much as this 

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whole situation sucks. 
And a lot of it is outside of my

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control, how I react is my 
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reminded me of that. 
And that's really powerful. 

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That is powerful. 
I'm glad to hear that's how it 

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was received for sure. 
For people that did not know 

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our, do not know what you were 
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Like, if someone was to see you 
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this is what happened when you 
Were you know put out eating 

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disorder clinic? 
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an eating disorder. 
I mean you were incredibly like 

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you were some 100 pounds Ryan. 
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If I'm lowest recorded way at 
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Five foot, six, five foot, six, 
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And what age were you then? 
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So I was like 27. 
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lighter than 59 pounds. 
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That was may have 2019. 
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So, when we were on the phone, I
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varied between 60 and 70 pounds 
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So when people see somebody that
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mean, honestly, like the best 
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to like a holocaust, you know, 
get them at that's in a 

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concentration camp. 
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malnourished. 
You look like you were starving 

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yourself, people see that, and 
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you are dealing with an eating 
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That your that. 
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anorexic. 
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going on and why was your body 
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the phone and during the times 
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lowest recorded weight, that is 
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infection. 
See, this is a bad bacteria that

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takes over the good bacteria in 
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depleted me, hype. 
Believe I had this for years 

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before I was dying because I 
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rapid amount of weight and I was
on a ketogenic diet, but I have 

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been on a ketogenic diet for 15 
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I literally grew up on keto and 
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I started dropping weight and I 
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much I ate and most people 
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but it had To be due to the 
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So that's primarily why I was so
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I had diarrhea 9 times a day, 
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I could not keep up and what I 
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wasn't being absorbed. 
I mean, my gut was destroyed and

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before that which isn't talked 
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is when I did go through. 
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withdrawals, I was on Adderall 
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I was taking eighty five 
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day. 
I was in fight or flight mode 

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all the time. 
I would go five days without 

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sleeping at a time. 
So there was also a season in my

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life where I wasn't eating 
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restricting. 
I was just depressed and I was 

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in a funk and I was running on 
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So that was the first time I was
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have pictures so far as for the 
people, that knew me like my 

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family and my friends, they had 
seen me go through something 

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like that before. 
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they thought it was an eating 
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why people would think that 
especially with me eating a 

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ketogenic diet, but I did that 
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symptoms that I was dealing with
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I had non-epileptic seizures. 
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is what helped me to get out of 
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Fatigue. 
I had the brain fog was insane 

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and eating carbs was not an 
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If I wanted to get out of bed, 
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I had to be somewhat ketogenic. 
Now, when you were going through

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these phases, when you're going 
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there ever a period in which you
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disorder, like where you ever 
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Was there ever time or people 
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like? 
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going on now. 
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So after the eating disorder 
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will in the eating disorder unit
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disorder inside that treatment. 
I was told things that that was 

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totally I was told that gluten 
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I was told that, you know, I 
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I was told that seed oils were 
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orthorexia for being concerned 
about these things and when I 

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came out of there it was so 
traumatizing because my family 

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and my friends, all wanted it to
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It's like they wanted that to be
the solution and it came to the 

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point where I was so desperate 
to have a life again and to be 

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free of all this autoimmune 
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seat. 
If that I have literally tried 

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to convince myself that it was 
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tell myself it must be on my 
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If I can just gain some weight. 
I'll get my life back. 

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My family will accept me again. 
My friends will want to hang out

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with me again and Did develop a 
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I would look in the mirror and 
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sight of my emaciated body. 
And so that's when I developed 

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binge eating, but it was not in 
this manic way that a lot of 

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people might imagine. 
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organized and that's the type of
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I am. 
I am at like a triple, A type 

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personality. 
I would put towels on my couch. 

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I would set up water bottles 
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And I would fix myself a bunch 
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ketogenic meals, you know, 
coconut cream stuff, avocado 

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stuff meat-based, but it was a 
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eat as much as possible without 
getting sick and I would 

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literally stay up from 7 p.m. 
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Eating because I was prohibited 
the work, my life was being 

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functional medicine doctors and 
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I had severe autoimmune system. 
I developed ulcerative colitis, 

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which was making me 
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So that was really triggering 
because I would try to eat and 

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then I would be growing up and 
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It's like that's like the enemy 
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and I feel like I actually lost 
my mind for a time we ever 

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heard. 
So all these things just made it

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so difficult for me to eat, but 
the biggest pain in my ass was 

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nice. 
Elf putting the pressure on 

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myself to be normal because it's
like, look, it looks like I have

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an eating disorder and my life 
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putting on some weight. 
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became really, really dark and 
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after I was treated in an eating
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After I was misdiagnosed after 
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believe in this autoimmune 
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We think the root of it is an 
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That's really, really hard to 
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you. 
The most. 

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Well, was that was what was 
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A time where you were, like, 
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see how many calories your 
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Like, what was that laughing? 
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So I one point I was actually 
eating 6,000 calories and this 

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is when I started making my 
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It was like egg yolks and MCT 
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It's still on my feet on 
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If you scroll that far enough, 
this is when I was eating a ton 

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of coconut cream, avocado. 
All the fat I was eating meat 

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with. 
That drenched on top of it. 

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And I was eating this ice cream 
and I was literally hitting 

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6,000 calories per day and still
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It didn't matter how much I ate.
I would go for a walk and have 

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diarrhea like, in the middle of 
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I would have to call my mom and 
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would just like, sit on the 
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without having diarrhea. 
It was that bad all the time. 

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I started carrying like wet 
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for a long time doctors wouldn't
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When you want to test me first, 
eat it for anything. 

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They just said, well, it's 
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ketogenic diet because you're 
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have to do with that. 
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you probably weren't even 6,000 
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years span. 
But I mean, you were eaten, 

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6,000, calories, and still 
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And you were down to 67 69 
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I mean, that's crazy. 
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that, like, that's even. 
People to Fan them out. 

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Like when you're when you're in 
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as emaciated as you as you did 
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malnourished, but you're eating 
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just accusing you of likely, you
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looking like that has to be the 
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the most hardest things you've 
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Like everybody's ridicule on a 
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That's just not true. 
Yeah, and it made me hate 

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myself. 
Because it was like, why can't I

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just pull this together? 
Like when I did start tracking 

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my calories, and I was eating 
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it was shortly after that. 
I was finally diagnosed with 

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cetus and I was so relieved. 
I mean, the first thing you see 

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when you Google C disc the bunch
of emaciated people just like 

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me. 
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a lot of people can die from me,
but it was also a really 

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comforting like boom. 
It didn't start as an eating 

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disorder. 
At least it didn't start this 

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fight. 
And it was a reminder, because I

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would like to say that I've 
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myself, and I knew that I wanted
a real life. 

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I didn't want an eating 
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I didn't want to shrink. 
You know, I had, I had body 

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issues, just like any other 
pubescent girl growing up, but I

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wasn't starving myself to lose 
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I would layer my teens. 
I would work like, really thick 

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fleece leggings under my jeans, 
in the summertime to look 

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slightly normal. 
I would buy Juniors pants that 

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Goodwill because nothing else 
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Like it was very hard to be out 
and ready and just the disbelief

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of everyone. 
Even my neighbors. 

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You know, I went for a lot of 
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I knew they'd all just thought I
was like this exercise freak or 

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just really sick and that really
tiring and it made me think of 

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myself because it was exhaust. 
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if it would make these people 
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right. 
Just say like, okay. 

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It's an eating disorder. 
I was willing to do that. 

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I was literally willing to deny 
myself. 

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If it meant that I could have my
family and my friends back. 

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Yeah. 
What is like if you were to 

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Define CDF for the listeners, 
how would you describe it? 

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Like a beast, like a monster. 
That consumes you. 

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It's exhausting. 
It sucks. 

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The energy out of you. 
And it also feels sort of, like 

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alien. 
Like because what comes out of 

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you is not like normal fecal 
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It's a lot of mucus and it's a 
lot of stuff that doesn't look 

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like it should be coming out of 
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Like, what is going on? 
It can be painful, but mostly, I

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would say it's just exhausting. 
I've really exhaust. 

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You have any idea what like a 
kind of when you're kind of 

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going back in your memory banks.
Like, do you have any idea what 

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the Catalyst could have been for
all of this Myriad of of health 

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issues? 
Like any idea, what to the 

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Tipping Point was? 
The speed of particularly. 

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I had already been to the 
hospital numerous times for like

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gastroenterologist appointments 
figuring out on my digestive 

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issues. 
So I had invasive procedures and

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that is where a lot of people 
can pick up speed. 

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If another reason could be that 
my niece who was a toddler. 

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She was just a baby at the time.
Had moved in to the house that I

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was living and I know that 
toddlers. 

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Have they carry see this? 
They get over it pretty quickly 

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generally, but I can pick it up 
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So I think that's where that 
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But in general. 
I think my gut was just depleted

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from all the antibiotics that 
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So I was diagnosed with 
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So since I was a child, there 
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don't know where that came from.
But my entire life, I was always

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getting sick. 
I had asthma like I was getting 

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kicked out of recess because I 
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Ace. 
I was always getting like strep 

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throat or just viruses and on 
antibiotics on a regular basis, 

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so I know that did a lot to hurt
my gut and then also the 

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medication. 
So I took clonazepam and 

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adderall and Ambience for over 
13 years and clonazepam 

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specifically, I think did a lot 
of damage. 

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That's a benzo padeen, and we 
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longer than 30 days. 
And I took it for over 13 years 

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and without any bread. 
If you like once you have your 

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body builds up Reliance upon it.
Like getting off of those. 

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I'm pretty sure that's what 
Jordan Pederson developed a 

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dependence to that. 
It was a nightmare. 

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That was the hardest thing I've 
ever done getting off that class

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of him. 
How, how do you, how do you win 

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yourself off? 
And then just slowly, and you 

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come up with a plan, which is 
what I did. 

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I had like one of those big. 
I don't know if I can. 

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Tackle box that can sort beads 
into like one of those big ones 

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that carry like you case. 
And I just set that up for like 

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an entire month at a time and I 
got down to like a thin 

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sixteenth of a pill. 
It was literally like a crumb 

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and even at that point it was 
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Like my dependence was insane 
and it was just a matter of 

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accountability. 
So at the time, I was trying to 

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work with my parents and I had 
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I was still unstable. 
And they were, they were 

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helpful. 
But at one point, they actually 

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forced me to bump up the dose 
that I was taking because I've 

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been so impossible. 
So, this one, like I was not a 

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normal person. 
I was losing my mind and that 

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was, like I said, I think that 
was the hardest thing I've ever 

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been through after everything. 
I've been through. 

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I don't even know how I got 
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It was what I can tell people is
you need a support system. 

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You need to be in a safe place. 
And you need to have a plan and 

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the plan probably won't go. 
Exactly as you planned it, but 

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it's good to have, you know, 
it's good to have a plan B. 

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I'm Jordan Pederson talking 
about like when he was getting 

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off of it. 
He just had like these insane 

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body aches that that were just 
insurmountable. 

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Like did you experience 
something similar? 

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Yeah. 
I did. 

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I don't know how much of that 
was the withdrawal because I did

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have fibromyalgia and a bunch of
Connective tissue diseases, but 

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I definitely haven't thing, body
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Like, I was always in pain, I 
would get massages all the time 

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that I couldn't really afford 
because I was losing my mind. 

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I spent a lot of time just 
rolling around on a yoga mat, in

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this little office, my parents 
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I would just roll around on the 
yoga mat all day. 

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I couldn't sit still it, my body
hurt all the time. 

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I think part of a lot of Must be
due to being malnourished and 

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emaciated. 
You know, I didn't have any 

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Christian. 
Obviously, that's really 

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painful. 
But yeah, I think a lot of the 

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withdrawal has to do with that. 
And I'm sure you're probably 

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getting terrible sleep, 
throughout this entire Journey 

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because you're not able to 
really relax at all. 

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Yeah, I didn't sleep. 
I have really bad. 

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Insomnia for a year. 
And I don't I don't even 

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remember like the first day that
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And it never went back to having
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soon as I hit my head to my 
pillow. 

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I'm asleep within 3 minutes. 
It doesn't even take 5 and and I

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wake up refreshed and it's a 
miracle. 

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But yeah, when I was going 
through withdrawal, I didn't I 

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Did look forward to the evening 
because I felt like my central 

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nervous system was a little bit 
more calm and I would just turn 

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on an oil diffuser and I would 
lay next to it. 

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But my face like right in the 
oil and that was like the best 

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part of my day because I had 
privacy and no one was breathing

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down my neck and no one was 
watching me cook in the kitchen 

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or eat my food, and I just got 
to forget about the nightmare 

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that I was living in a couple of
hours. 

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Hours until it started all over 
again, but I did not read. 

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Well, I was lucky to get four 
hours. 

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I'm assuming I mean you must 
have felt just like you had your

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family. 
Your parents that I would 

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imagine. 
You just felt incredibly alone 

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and isolated throughout this 
entire German. 

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Did you have like a you like 
involved in relationship at any 

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point throughout this like was 
like was that even in your mind?

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So when I was diagnosed with 
chronic lyme disease, that was 

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right after I broke up with my 
fiance before, every for shit, 

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hit the fan, use my language, 
but my life was like going 

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pretty good. 
Like I was holding it together. 

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I was on the Adderall and 
everything. 

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I was working in real estate 
full-time. 

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I was engaged planning our 
wedding and that relationship 

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fell apart for multiple reasons.
But that's right when I got 

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sick. 
And so after that I was like 

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that's it. 
I'm never going to fall in love 

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again. 
So I moved back in with my 

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parents and I felt like I got a 
second wind when I decided. 

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Okay, I'm going to get off of 
these medications and when I 

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work with functional medicine 
doctors, so I did meet someone 

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on eHarmony and we dated for 
maybe a month and a half or two 

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months. 
He must my relatives. 

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We had keister at my Of house 
and I actually broke up with him

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in the eating disorder unit. 
I remember talking with one of 

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the nurses and she was just like
it doesn't really seem like I 

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was telling her about my life 
and I was like, I don't have an 

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eating disorder. 
I have autoimmune disease and 

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she's like, it just doesn't seem
like maybe you shouldn't be in a

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relationship right now because 
the guy was coming to visit me 

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and I was just totally burnt out
and it struck a chord and I 

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broke up. 
I remember having that 

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conversation. 
Ation, because like, I was 

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afraid you would say that but I 
needed space to work everything 

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out clearly. 
So any other relationships I 

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had, I did have a couple of 
people from Real Estate that I 

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worked with. 
There was one lady. 

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Her name is Gina. 
She had Lyme disease and she 

451
00:26:16,700 --> 00:26:19,800
really helped me out. 
She told me to get a sauna and 

452
00:26:20,100 --> 00:26:24,200
she taught me a lot of things 
just about giving myself space 

453
00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:27,700
and Grace, and she made me feel 
a lot less alone. 

454
00:26:29,900 --> 00:26:32,800
But I it was really hard for the
most part. 

455
00:26:32,800 --> 00:26:35,800
I lost most of my friends and my
family didn't. 

456
00:26:37,600 --> 00:26:39,900
What were your folks sit on 
everything knowing? 

457
00:26:39,900 --> 00:26:43,600
Do they do they now believe that
it wasn't a diss eating disorder

458
00:26:43,600 --> 00:26:45,000
originally that you were 
battling with her. 

459
00:26:45,000 --> 00:26:47,100
They kind of more on board with 
what actually happened. 

460
00:26:48,000 --> 00:26:50,100
I do. 
I do believe the truth now. 

461
00:26:51,300 --> 00:26:55,000
And and I can also understand 
where they were coming from 

462
00:26:55,000 --> 00:27:00,200
stew, because if I had a child 
who has 69 pounds and on willing

463
00:27:00,200 --> 00:27:04,400
to eat carbohydrates, I would 
probably force them to get some 

464
00:27:04,400 --> 00:27:09,300
treatment as well because I was 
on the Of debt and they were 

465
00:27:09,300 --> 00:27:14,600
willing to do anything. 
After, you know, I mean we went 

466
00:27:14,600 --> 00:27:18,400
through it was almost like a 
year where we even talk and then

467
00:27:18,500 --> 00:27:21,000
I visited with my mom. 
She was the first one I saw 

468
00:27:21,000 --> 00:27:23,200
after I had gotten back up on my
feet. 

469
00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:26,900
I was around like 104 pounds and
we went to the beach together 

470
00:27:26,900 --> 00:27:30,500
and we just went there for a 
couple days and we just cried a 

471
00:27:30,500 --> 00:27:33,900
lot and talked a lot. 
She she's like, I'm just so 

472
00:27:33,900 --> 00:27:36,900
sorry for everything that you 
went through and I said I was 

473
00:27:36,900 --> 00:27:38,800
sorry. 
To because I've put them through

474
00:27:38,800 --> 00:27:42,400
a lot, you know, when I think 
back it's not like who was right

475
00:27:42,400 --> 00:27:44,000
and who was wrong. 
It's like, I'm so sorry. 

476
00:27:44,000 --> 00:27:47,400
This happened to all of us. 
It was traumatizing for 

477
00:27:47,400 --> 00:27:49,700
everyone. 
But yes, they do. 

478
00:27:49,700 --> 00:27:53,500
See now that it had to do with 
my gut and autoimmune disease 

479
00:27:53,500 --> 00:27:57,900
and my family. 
They they have tried carnivore. 

480
00:27:59,400 --> 00:28:01,600
They actually eat a lot of what 
I eat from Billy. 

481
00:28:01,600 --> 00:28:05,800
Do me and my dad is doing its 
end of fasting like it's pretty 

482
00:28:05,800 --> 00:28:10,000
crazy how things have changed. 
And my mom is my best friend. 

483
00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:15,100
I talk to her every day and but 
even still she can't read my 

484
00:28:15,100 --> 00:28:17,500
book. 
I am editing my book and she 

485
00:28:17,500 --> 00:28:19,200
can't read it. 
She says it's too painful. 

486
00:28:20,000 --> 00:28:22,400
So I think that there are going 
to be things that we never even 

487
00:28:22,400 --> 00:28:24,800
discussed and I'm okay with 
that. 

488
00:28:25,300 --> 00:28:28,400
I just want to have a 
relationship with my parents and

489
00:28:28,400 --> 00:28:32,700
we don't we don't hold onto 
grudges and that's good enough 

490
00:28:32,700 --> 00:28:34,600
for me. 
I'm more than happy with that. 

491
00:28:34,900 --> 00:28:37,200
Yeah, and it's huge. 
When is the book coming? 

492
00:28:39,000 --> 00:28:42,900
My goal was actually by this 
spring but my new goal is by the

493
00:28:42,900 --> 00:28:46,400
end of this year, with all of 
the editing and revisions that 

494
00:28:46,400 --> 00:28:48,500
need to be done. 
It's just gonna take more time 

495
00:28:48,600 --> 00:28:51,600
but I've written I've written 
it. 

496
00:28:51,800 --> 00:28:54,500
So technically, I met my own 
goal. 

497
00:28:54,900 --> 00:28:56,400
So I'm hoping by the end of this
year. 

498
00:28:56,400 --> 00:28:59,000
It will be published and then I 
will be working on my cookbook. 

499
00:28:59,500 --> 00:29:01,000
Nice. 
Well, I'm going to copy. 

500
00:29:01,100 --> 00:29:04,300
Let me know when it's out and 
I'm gonna back up absolutely 

501
00:29:04,400 --> 00:29:06,800
everything in it. 
Well, let's talk about some hope

502
00:29:06,800 --> 00:29:07,200
here. 
Like what? 

503
00:29:07,400 --> 00:29:10,800
What was the, what did you start
doing that actually started 

504
00:29:10,800 --> 00:29:13,000
working. 
Like, it seems as though the 

505
00:29:13,000 --> 00:29:15,700
fork in the road occurred when 
you were truly diagnosed with 

506
00:29:15,700 --> 00:29:18,500
c-diff and you could kind of 
point to that draw a line in the

507
00:29:18,500 --> 00:29:19,100
sand. 
Say, okay. 

508
00:29:19,100 --> 00:29:20,700
This is what I've got. 
Now. 

509
00:29:20,700 --> 00:29:22,500
It's fixed. 
So, what did you start doing 

510
00:29:22,500 --> 00:29:24,800
that actually started working? 
Yeah. 

511
00:29:24,800 --> 00:29:29,800
Well, let's see. 
Before I even moved to Illinois.

512
00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:32,500
I had a conversation with Danny 
Vega. 

513
00:29:32,500 --> 00:29:34,200
I know he's got like your best 
friend. 

514
00:29:35,300 --> 00:29:37,200
Danny was the one you like 
planted. 

515
00:29:37,300 --> 00:29:41,300
To see it about the carnivore 
diet and he was like look people

516
00:29:41,300 --> 00:29:43,700
with autoimmune disease do 
really well with carnivore 

517
00:29:43,700 --> 00:29:47,200
because there are anti-nutrients
and even some healthy foods like

518
00:29:47,200 --> 00:29:49,500
avocado. 
And when he told me that I was 

519
00:29:49,500 --> 00:29:52,800
so upset. 
I was like, I cannot give up my 

520
00:29:52,800 --> 00:29:57,300
baby spinach, my avocado and I 
tried that. 

521
00:29:57,300 --> 00:30:01,800
I've tried carnivore eight times
and I felt worse each time and I

522
00:30:01,800 --> 00:30:05,200
kept doing just straight beef 
salt and water, because that's 

523
00:30:05,200 --> 00:30:09,000
what everyone told me to do. 
I actually had strangers on 

524
00:30:09,000 --> 00:30:12,200
Facebook messaging, me saying, 
you just need to do beef, salt 

525
00:30:12,200 --> 00:30:14,000
and water. 
You keep messing it up. 

526
00:30:14,400 --> 00:30:17,600
Just give it a chance and I 
guess I tried it, and I felt 

527
00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:22,900
worse. 
So, finally, in May of 2019. 

528
00:30:23,500 --> 00:30:27,600
I was in my second or I was in 
my third emergency room 

529
00:30:27,700 --> 00:30:30,500
back-to-back. 
I was constantly in there 

530
00:30:30,500 --> 00:30:33,300
because my electrolytes were 
always depleted from the seed of

531
00:30:33,300 --> 00:30:36,400
having diarrhea. 
So, I was in my third emergency 

532
00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:40,300
room. 
At this time, I was in a abusive

533
00:30:40,300 --> 00:30:45,800
relationship with someone not in
contact with my family, and I 

534
00:30:45,800 --> 00:30:50,000
was literally asking them to 
treat me in an eating disorder 

535
00:30:50,000 --> 00:30:53,900
unit. 
Because at this point, I would 

536
00:30:53,900 --> 00:30:56,900
do anything to get away from 
this narcissist that I was 

537
00:30:56,900 --> 00:31:02,300
living with and I had nowhere to
live, I was prohibited to work. 

538
00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:05,600
I was literally just stick out 
of my mind. 

539
00:31:05,600 --> 00:31:07,300
I couldn't. 
I had no choices. 

540
00:31:07,700 --> 00:31:10,500
And it was very hard for me to 
eat without having this 

541
00:31:10,500 --> 00:31:13,300
involuntary throwing up from the
ulcerative colitis. 

542
00:31:13,700 --> 00:31:17,500
I was definitely struggling with
binge eating on the keto trees 

543
00:31:17,500 --> 00:31:20,300
and everything. 
So I've literally told them just

544
00:31:20,300 --> 00:31:22,300
please treat me with an eating 
disorder. 

545
00:31:22,300 --> 00:31:26,300
I've done it before, you know, 
what are my options, but they 

546
00:31:26,300 --> 00:31:30,700
wouldn't allow it because I had 
to see this and so they held me 

547
00:31:30,700 --> 00:31:36,600
in isolation in the eating in 
the emergency room because 

548
00:31:36,600 --> 00:31:41,900
c-diff can be Very contagious. 
So doctors would come in with 

549
00:31:41,900 --> 00:31:45,900
like they would have to put on 
suits and booties and masks and 

550
00:31:45,900 --> 00:31:50,500
gloves. 
It was hilarious and they would 

551
00:31:50,500 --> 00:31:53,600
just bring in trays of food for 
me and just try to stabilize my 

552
00:31:53,600 --> 00:31:55,800
electrolytes and I was there for
a while. 

553
00:31:55,800 --> 00:31:59,200
And so finally, I spoke with the
guy efficient and that emergency

554
00:31:59,200 --> 00:32:03,700
room and I told her everything, 
everything I said, I really want

555
00:32:03,700 --> 00:32:06,200
to do this carnivore diet. 
I think there's something to it,

556
00:32:06,200 --> 00:32:09,800
but I need accountability. 
Will you please just let me eat 

557
00:32:09,800 --> 00:32:14,300
only meat? 
And so she put me in touch with 

558
00:32:14,300 --> 00:32:18,200
the chef in the kitchen at that 
hospital and I was able to order

559
00:32:18,200 --> 00:32:23,500
my own personal meals from the 
chef who would send up trays of 

560
00:32:23,600 --> 00:32:25,700
all the meat and all the hard 
boiled eggs. 

561
00:32:25,700 --> 00:32:29,100
Call the butter that this 
hospital had and so I was 

562
00:32:29,100 --> 00:32:32,300
throwing away the other food, 
which is 75% carves. 

563
00:32:32,300 --> 00:32:35,600
It would just be toils Weight, 
Gainer shakes. 

564
00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:39,300
I would throw that out and then 
eat the stuff at the chef was 

565
00:32:39,900 --> 00:32:44,900
and I gained four pounds in one 
week, the involuntary throwing 

566
00:32:44,900 --> 00:32:49,300
up stop and my blood sugar 
stabilizer and I was having 

567
00:32:49,300 --> 00:32:52,500
really bad blood sugar. 
Like, I would be in the 30s and 

568
00:32:52,500 --> 00:32:58,400
then the 140s it was bad. 
So, everything stabilized and it

569
00:32:58,400 --> 00:33:01,500
came to the point where I was so
stable that they couldn't hold 

570
00:33:01,500 --> 00:33:03,800
me there anymore. 
They were like, we literally 

571
00:33:03,800 --> 00:33:05,500
can't tell the insurance. 
Anything. 

572
00:33:05,500 --> 00:33:07,300
You're stable. 
Your electrolytes are good. 

573
00:33:08,600 --> 00:33:11,400
And so, that's when The 
dietitian told the doctor, what 

574
00:33:11,400 --> 00:33:14,200
happened. 
And the doctor told me go home 

575
00:33:14,200 --> 00:33:17,700
and do your weird all meat diet.
And that's what I did. 

576
00:33:17,700 --> 00:33:22,900
I went back home to this 
narcissist and ever since I came

577
00:33:22,900 --> 00:33:25,600
back, there is like, my brain 
started working again. 

578
00:33:26,100 --> 00:33:28,600
I had a backbone. 
I was not afraid of him. 

579
00:33:28,700 --> 00:33:32,300
I wouldn't take his crap and I 
didn't know how, but I knew that

580
00:33:32,300 --> 00:33:34,700
I was going to get up. 
I knew that guy was going to 

581
00:33:34,700 --> 00:33:38,700
heal me. 
I started taking cold showers. 

582
00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:44,200
I started I just kept my head 
down and figured it out. 

583
00:33:44,500 --> 00:33:48,900
And God provided God provided me
a place to stay from a total 

584
00:33:48,900 --> 00:33:53,500
stranger. 
Who is now my boyfriend and I 

585
00:33:53,500 --> 00:33:55,900
started working. 
I got my certification and I've 

586
00:33:55,900 --> 00:33:58,300
been doing health and life, 
coaching full-time. 

587
00:33:58,900 --> 00:34:03,800
And I have since then reversed 
every single diagnosis with Labs

588
00:34:03,800 --> 00:34:07,000
confirm, I gained Five total 
pounds. 

589
00:34:07,500 --> 00:34:10,699
I gained a little bit extra and 
then my weight leveled out. 

590
00:34:10,699 --> 00:34:12,000
So I'm super stable. 
Now. 

591
00:34:12,000 --> 00:34:14,000
I'm doing CrossFit six days a 
week. 

592
00:34:14,300 --> 00:34:17,600
I sleep like a baby. 
I'm not addicted to anything. 

593
00:34:17,600 --> 00:34:21,100
I'm not dependent on anything 
and I have joy. 

594
00:34:22,300 --> 00:34:24,900
And I'm confident, and I'm 
stable, and my relationships are

595
00:34:24,900 --> 00:34:28,100
restored. 
So I definitely have a message 

596
00:34:28,100 --> 00:34:32,600
of hope that needs to be sure. 
A lot of people know, I think 

597
00:34:32,600 --> 00:34:35,600
your journey is incredibly 
inspiring. 

598
00:34:35,800 --> 00:34:38,100
Credibly empowering. 
I mean, I'm going to have to put

599
00:34:38,100 --> 00:34:42,400
a before and after picture show 
notes because like I've said, it

600
00:34:42,408 --> 00:34:44,199
multiple times in this 
conversation already, but like, 

601
00:34:44,199 --> 00:34:49,000
if people could just see how you
looked before versus how you 

602
00:34:49,000 --> 00:34:50,699
look now. 
I mean, seriously, like a 

603
00:34:50,707 --> 00:34:53,199
holocaust victim is the only way
to put it before. 

604
00:34:53,199 --> 00:34:55,800
And now, I mean, you're 
beautiful, you're thriving, it's

605
00:34:55,800 --> 00:34:59,500
like you've got this Vitality in
your life and in your eye, 

606
00:34:59,500 --> 00:35:02,200
that's like totally different. 
Yeah. 

607
00:35:02,300 --> 00:35:06,400
I'm alive. 
Yeah, so when it comes to I 

608
00:35:06,408 --> 00:35:10,600
mean, this was back. 
When how long ago was it that 

609
00:35:10,600 --> 00:35:12,800
you started doing the carnivore 
that in the context of the 

610
00:35:12,800 --> 00:35:15,500
hospital setting? 
Where they were you stabilize? 

611
00:35:15,500 --> 00:35:18,700
How long ago was that? 
That was made 2019. 

612
00:35:18,900 --> 00:35:23,800
So three years now and since 
then you've been continuing, 

613
00:35:23,800 --> 00:35:25,800
that carnivore diet. 
Yep. 

614
00:35:26,100 --> 00:35:30,200
It hasn't gone back at all. 
Has there been any part of you 

615
00:35:30,200 --> 00:35:34,400
that's been curious to try if 
your body would tolerate a 

616
00:35:34,400 --> 00:35:36,800
broader spectrum of food? 
It's or is it not even? 

617
00:35:36,800 --> 00:35:39,800
Yes. 
Yeah, so I should clarify I mean

618
00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:45,800
so when it started working for 
me part of that, he was to not 

619
00:35:45,800 --> 00:35:48,100
be so strict with the Vista and 
water. 

620
00:35:48,600 --> 00:35:51,800
I actually gave myself more 
flexibility and that's why I was

621
00:35:51,800 --> 00:35:55,600
like, okay, I'm gonna do beef. 
I'm gonna do lamb goat deal. 

622
00:35:55,900 --> 00:36:00,500
That's when I discovered Billy 
do meet and then I realized like

623
00:36:00,500 --> 00:36:05,100
histamines were really holding 
me back with the beef and I 

624
00:36:05,100 --> 00:36:10,200
allowed myself to use Stevia and
My carnivore diet. 

625
00:36:10,200 --> 00:36:13,600
Does it look like the Lions? 
I honestly, I have a lot of good

626
00:36:13,600 --> 00:36:16,200
variety. 
And now I eat. 

627
00:36:16,200 --> 00:36:19,600
Fermented foods. 
I sauerkraut a kimchi. 

628
00:36:19,600 --> 00:36:22,500
I make my own pickles. 
I ate yogurt every day. 

629
00:36:23,500 --> 00:36:28,600
I'm a carnivore brownies and ice
cream with beef protein isolate.

630
00:36:30,100 --> 00:36:32,900
I make hydration slushies with 
electrolyte. 

631
00:36:33,400 --> 00:36:36,600
So I have a lot of variety, like
a lot. 

632
00:36:36,700 --> 00:36:39,200
I have at least five different. 
Current food items like every 

633
00:36:39,200 --> 00:36:43,300
meal and it doesn't take more 
than 10 minutes to make it. 

634
00:36:43,300 --> 00:36:46,800
So I'm definitely what's that 
animal? 

635
00:36:46,800 --> 00:36:48,700
Like a just a traditional 
ketogenic diet. 

636
00:36:49,100 --> 00:36:52,600
Yeah, exactly. 
But I mean, that's how it this 

637
00:36:52,600 --> 00:36:53,700
is. 
How it should have been 

638
00:36:54,000 --> 00:36:56,000
honestly. 
I don't eat. 

639
00:36:56,400 --> 00:37:00,300
I don't eat like vegetables, 
very much at all. 

640
00:37:01,700 --> 00:37:05,100
I do eat like the pickles. 
So I have cucumber and cabbage 

641
00:37:05,100 --> 00:37:09,700
sauerkraut but like finish I 
haven't had spinach for years. 

642
00:37:11,100 --> 00:37:15,500
I don't really do avocado. 
And I might try that again, but 

643
00:37:15,500 --> 00:37:20,400
I just don't crave those things.
And I'm glad because it feels 

644
00:37:20,400 --> 00:37:24,500
like noise to me my body. 
Really, really, crave meat, the 

645
00:37:24,500 --> 00:37:28,200
body, craves me and collagen, I 
eat bones. 

646
00:37:29,500 --> 00:37:33,800
So it's nice that I can trust my
Cravings now because when I was,

647
00:37:33,900 --> 00:37:37,200
you know, I was really close 
down the fat bomb. 

648
00:37:37,500 --> 00:37:42,700
I was really Hooked on, like, 
just the protein deficient 

649
00:37:43,100 --> 00:37:46,000
straight fat things, and that 
can be good for a lot of people,

650
00:37:46,400 --> 00:37:50,000
but for someone who's 69 pounds,
I needed some protein. 

651
00:37:50,300 --> 00:37:53,800
Yeah, totally. 
And so, I was using that 421 

652
00:37:53,800 --> 00:37:58,300
fats, protein ratio, which was 
great for seizures and gray or 

653
00:37:58,300 --> 00:38:01,800
fibromyalgia. 
But like I had, I had more 

654
00:38:01,800 --> 00:38:03,900
issues that needed to be 
prioritized. 

655
00:38:04,000 --> 00:38:06,900
And so, the carnivore diet was 
great because it removes a lot 

656
00:38:06,900 --> 00:38:11,200
of anti-nutrients. 
Baby, spinach and avocado. 

657
00:38:11,200 --> 00:38:15,300
And I was also eating like 
turmeric and sweet potatoes like

658
00:38:15,300 --> 00:38:19,000
those are so-called superfoods, 
but they weren't helpful for me 

659
00:38:19,100 --> 00:38:21,700
at the time. 
And so that allowed me to really

660
00:38:21,700 --> 00:38:26,200
feel my gut. 
So now I do tolerate a variety 

661
00:38:26,200 --> 00:38:29,700
of food. 
I am not afraid of food, like I 

662
00:38:29,700 --> 00:38:32,500
might even try carbs at one 
point just to see how I feel, 

663
00:38:32,600 --> 00:38:36,500
but I don't crave them. 
And that's the best part is that

664
00:38:36,500 --> 00:38:39,500
I have true Freedom food. 
Freedom, I don't I don't think 

665
00:38:39,500 --> 00:38:41,900
about eating all day. 
I don't think about my next 

666
00:38:41,900 --> 00:38:44,500
meal. 
I'm very satiated and my energy 

667
00:38:44,500 --> 00:38:46,500
is good. 
My digestion is good. 

668
00:38:46,900 --> 00:38:50,400
So yeah, I have lots of variety.
Do you ever track your Macros? 

669
00:38:50,400 --> 00:38:52,900
Your counter is not a kind of 
see what you're averaging like 

670
00:38:52,900 --> 00:38:57,400
on typical day. 
Yeah, so I maintain around 2,000

671
00:38:57,400 --> 00:39:04,200
calories, but there are many 
days where I'm only around 1500 

672
00:39:05,200 --> 00:39:07,800
and I will often force myself to
eat. 

673
00:39:08,000 --> 00:39:13,900
Or because I don't want to be in
a deficit once especially like, 

674
00:39:13,900 --> 00:39:17,300
how many times I've lost my 
period or not had a period. 

675
00:39:17,600 --> 00:39:20,200
I never want to allow myself to 
get that place again. 

676
00:39:20,700 --> 00:39:24,800
I'm so thankful to have my 
hormones back to be healthy. 

677
00:39:25,500 --> 00:39:27,900
My hair is not falling out. 
I've already been down that 

678
00:39:27,900 --> 00:39:30,500
road. 
So I am very careful to not get 

679
00:39:30,500 --> 00:39:35,000
into a deficit, even though I 
could easily stop eating 800 

680
00:39:35,000 --> 00:39:37,800
calories, especially when I'm 
eating, like, shrimp and veal. 

681
00:39:37,900 --> 00:39:40,000
It's very protein heavy 
satiating. 

682
00:39:41,500 --> 00:39:46,000
But so I do track my calories 
occasionally to be accountable 

683
00:39:46,100 --> 00:39:50,800
and that way. 
And there are days where I crave

684
00:39:50,800 --> 00:39:54,100
a ton of fat, especially around 
my cycle and I don't track 

685
00:39:54,100 --> 00:39:55,700
because I'm sure that I'm eating
enough. 

686
00:39:55,700 --> 00:39:58,600
But yeah, I do check in with 
myself and I think I think 

687
00:39:58,600 --> 00:40:01,100
that's actually good for anyone 
to do because what you can 

688
00:40:01,100 --> 00:40:02,500
measure. 
You can manage. 

689
00:40:02,600 --> 00:40:06,800
Yeah, and for what I've been 
through I need to be accountable

690
00:40:06,900 --> 00:40:10,300
and one way or another. 
So I know I know what the 

691
00:40:10,300 --> 00:40:12,900
minimum amount of food is that I
have to eat. 

692
00:40:13,000 --> 00:40:17,200
I don't I don't allow myself to 
go below 115 grams of protein. 

693
00:40:17,800 --> 00:40:20,900
I just don't, I don't There, 
unless I'm doing like an 

694
00:40:20,900 --> 00:40:26,700
extended back, which I don't do 
much of anyway, and what is your

695
00:40:26,700 --> 00:40:28,400
weight kind of leveling off at? 
Now? 

696
00:40:28,400 --> 00:40:37,000
I'm around 120 125 and I've been
there for, I was like, 145 in 

697
00:40:37,000 --> 00:40:41,100
October when I had my first 
Retreat last October I was 

698
00:40:41,100 --> 00:40:43,900
around 1:45. 
And then I remember after we got

699
00:40:43,900 --> 00:40:48,800
back from that was like, wow, 
I'm like 135 and I wasn't doing 

700
00:40:48,800 --> 00:40:50,400
anything. 
Anything on purpose. 

701
00:40:51,100 --> 00:40:54,500
And that's when I started like 
measuring checking with my 

702
00:40:54,500 --> 00:40:56,200
calories. 
Make sure I was eating enough. 

703
00:40:56,200 --> 00:41:00,400
I think it's because I started 
CrossFit and I must just be 

704
00:41:00,400 --> 00:41:03,900
burning a lot more, but I feel 
great. 

705
00:41:03,900 --> 00:41:07,900
My energy is great. 
So I've been steady around 120 

706
00:41:07,900 --> 00:41:11,900
125 and I'm seeing more 
definition than I've ever seen 

707
00:41:12,000 --> 00:41:17,000
also, which is really exciting. 
So literally doubled your weight

708
00:41:17,800 --> 00:41:19,800
and then just like So much 
healthy. 

709
00:41:19,800 --> 00:41:22,800
I mean you have zero symptoms of
anything. 

710
00:41:22,800 --> 00:41:24,700
I mean even even Lyme disease is
totally gone. 

711
00:41:25,300 --> 00:41:28,400
Yeah, it's gone. 100% gone. 
Laughs confirmed. 

712
00:41:28,400 --> 00:41:33,100
Hypothyroid Hashimoto's. 
Ulcerative colitis. 

713
00:41:33,100 --> 00:41:36,900
Kressler, own Derma. 
All of these things are gone. 

714
00:41:36,900 --> 00:41:41,700
It's a done deal and my 
cholesterol is even fantastic. 

715
00:41:41,700 --> 00:41:47,600
My testosterone is great. 
Even my rheumatologist ask me 

716
00:41:47,800 --> 00:41:51,700
for my cards. 
Put in his office and he's I 

717
00:41:51,700 --> 00:41:54,700
mean, he just draws whatever 
Labs I want is like you trust. 

718
00:41:55,100 --> 00:41:58,600
He doesn't even understand what 
I did but he's just like, you 

719
00:41:58,600 --> 00:42:03,200
just need to keep doing it. 
So yeah, carnivore works. 

720
00:42:03,200 --> 00:42:06,200
And God is good. 
So for the people that, I mean, 

721
00:42:06,200 --> 00:42:10,600
obviously, you had some kind of,
you know, your story is not the 

722
00:42:10,600 --> 00:42:13,500
same as the general population 
story out there that isn't 

723
00:42:13,500 --> 00:42:17,100
battling with all these but the 
narrative is so oftentimes. 

724
00:42:17,100 --> 00:42:20,700
The case of, you know, it's just
Calories calories in, calories 

725
00:42:20,700 --> 00:42:22,300
out right now. 
The type of food. 

726
00:42:22,300 --> 00:42:25,900
You doesn't Nui. 
Doesn't really matter, you know 

727
00:42:25,900 --> 00:42:28,100
carnivores too restrictive. 
Kiito's to restrict. 

728
00:42:28,100 --> 00:42:29,300
If you got to have a balance 
lamps. 

729
00:42:29,300 --> 00:42:34,000
I'm assuming all of this. 
All of that talk is just noise 

730
00:42:34,000 --> 00:42:37,200
in your mind, sighs. 
It's just excuses. 

731
00:42:37,200 --> 00:42:42,300
Honestly, I think that people 
are I don't know. 

732
00:42:42,300 --> 00:42:45,200
I feel like a lot of people are 
too lazy to actually like do the

733
00:42:45,900 --> 00:42:50,000
Deep digging within themselves 
to see what your what is holding

734
00:42:50,000 --> 00:42:54,500
you back from your goals because
you know, people say they've 

735
00:42:54,500 --> 00:42:57,700
tried everything but they're 
still sneaking, you know, treats

736
00:42:57,700 --> 00:43:00,800
here and there or they're not 
being accountable and that's 

737
00:43:00,800 --> 00:43:03,100
what I was doing. 
I was not being accountable. 

738
00:43:03,100 --> 00:43:05,800
I was addicted to Quito and I 
was unwilling to surrender that 

739
00:43:05,800 --> 00:43:09,400
for a long time or I was to 
being too rigid, you know with 

740
00:43:09,400 --> 00:43:12,600
perfectionism. 
Carnivore diet like, why didn't 

741
00:43:12,600 --> 00:43:15,700
I just give myself face to be 
have more variety. 

742
00:43:16,400 --> 00:43:19,100
So I think that people want 
control and they want it to be 

743
00:43:19,100 --> 00:43:24,600
simple and to draw inside the 
lines, but like we were created 

744
00:43:24,600 --> 00:43:27,200
for so much more. 
There is so much more complexity

745
00:43:27,200 --> 00:43:29,500
and detail. 
We all have bio individual 

746
00:43:29,500 --> 00:43:31,700
needs. 
We're all in a different. 

747
00:43:31,900 --> 00:43:34,700
We're going through something 
different and it's likely to 

748
00:43:34,700 --> 00:43:38,200
change. 
So learning the lesson of like, 

749
00:43:38,200 --> 00:43:43,800
using critical thinking skills 
and Being objective, and being 

750
00:43:43,800 --> 00:43:46,800
honest. 
Those are the best skills that 

751
00:43:46,800 --> 00:43:48,300
you can learn. 
And then you don't have to 

752
00:43:48,300 --> 00:43:51,900
follow like a meal break. 
Okay, that's bad to do. 

753
00:43:51,900 --> 00:43:55,700
I think that's good to have 
accountability and had to have 

754
00:43:55,700 --> 00:43:59,400
guidance. 
But like, my goal is my clients 

755
00:43:59,400 --> 00:44:04,200
is to teach them to understand 
themselves and to gain intuition

756
00:44:04,200 --> 00:44:06,800
in a way that they never have to
pay anyone ever again. 

757
00:44:07,600 --> 00:44:10,300
And so I think that's where 
people get back. 

758
00:44:10,600 --> 00:44:13,900
Is you know, I'm just going to 
count calories or I'm just going

759
00:44:13,900 --> 00:44:17,300
to do this, you know, these 
macro nutrients for the rest of 

760
00:44:17,300 --> 00:44:18,900
my life. 
And I don't think that's a good 

761
00:44:18,900 --> 00:44:20,800
plan. 
I don't think that's 

762
00:44:20,800 --> 00:44:24,100
sustainable. 
I totally totally agree. 

763
00:44:24,400 --> 00:44:26,000
Well, what does the future hold 
for you? 

764
00:44:26,000 --> 00:44:31,200
I mean just in the the you know 
several years that it's taken 

765
00:44:31,200 --> 00:44:34,800
you to go from who you were to 
who you are now, like if the 

766
00:44:34,800 --> 00:44:40,200
next several years are anywhere 
near as you know, dramatically 

767
00:44:40,200 --> 00:44:42,400
different, I mean, there's no 
telling what your future will 

768
00:44:42,400 --> 00:44:43,700
hold. 
Hopefully all for the better. 

769
00:44:44,000 --> 00:44:46,500
But what what does the I do? 
You got your book coming? 

770
00:44:46,500 --> 00:44:48,100
That's going to be a huge thing,
for sure. 

771
00:44:48,600 --> 00:44:50,200
But what else is in the pipeline
for you? 

772
00:44:50,200 --> 00:44:53,900
What are you excited about? 
I'm excited about these Retreats

773
00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:57,400
that I'm doing. 
This is like a lifelong dream. 

774
00:44:57,500 --> 00:45:01,400
And so I had my first one in the
fall and it was awesome. 

775
00:45:01,400 --> 00:45:04,400
Like it's just being with 
like-minded people eating a 

776
00:45:04,408 --> 00:45:08,300
bunch of meat Fellowship 
learning and I'm having another 

777
00:45:08,300 --> 00:45:15,100
one in May and Florida and I'm 
planning to do one retreat in 

778
00:45:15,100 --> 00:45:17,100
the spring and one in the fall 
every year. 

779
00:45:17,600 --> 00:45:21,600
So this is just if God provides 
for it, I will keep doing 

780
00:45:21,800 --> 00:45:25,100
Because my heart is, my heart is
in it to serve help others. 

781
00:45:25,800 --> 00:45:27,300
And there are a lot of lost 
people. 

782
00:45:27,300 --> 00:45:29,300
There are people that need. 
Hope to people that need 

783
00:45:29,300 --> 00:45:33,400
Hands-On learning like how to do
the cooking, how to prepare a 

784
00:45:33,400 --> 00:45:37,700
big piece of meat, you know, how
to think around food, and a 

785
00:45:37,707 --> 00:45:41,700
different way, that's not rigid,
and I want to do this in person.

786
00:45:42,600 --> 00:45:43,900
So, I'm really excited about 
that. 

787
00:45:43,900 --> 00:45:49,300
And then also just traveling my 
boyfriend and I have plans for 

788
00:45:49,300 --> 00:45:53,900
travel, but if we can, if God 
blesses us, to do so, so I would

789
00:45:53,900 --> 00:45:58,800
love to do some of that and just
more helping people, my heart is

790
00:45:59,900 --> 00:46:03,600
Really being called to serve and
love others, whatever that looks

791
00:46:03,600 --> 00:46:06,700
like. 
So and these Retreats are these 

792
00:46:06,700 --> 00:46:10,200
are things that you're hosting, 
local to, you just invite people

793
00:46:10,200 --> 00:46:13,100
that are in your inner sphere. 
How is that kind of structured 

794
00:46:13,700 --> 00:46:15,600
all over? 
So I'm hosting it. 

795
00:46:15,600 --> 00:46:19,200
There's just called the tailored
Seto Retreat and it's just all 

796
00:46:19,200 --> 00:46:20,900
over the place. 
So my last one was in 

797
00:46:20,900 --> 00:46:24,100
Gatlinburg, Tennessee, and the 
mountains, and this one is going

798
00:46:24,100 --> 00:46:27,900
to be in Malabar Beach, Florida.
It's like a tattoo home property

799
00:46:28,300 --> 00:46:32,900
on the beach. 
Super bujji, Ken Berry and his 

800
00:46:32,900 --> 00:46:37,500
wife will be there. 
And the next one, you know, in 

801
00:46:37,500 --> 00:46:39,700
the fall. 
I like to Mountain, so it'll 

802
00:46:39,700 --> 00:46:43,000
probably be somewhere else with 
mountains, but I plan to go all 

803
00:46:43,000 --> 00:46:46,200
over the place eventually. 
I'd like to do International. 

804
00:46:46,900 --> 00:46:49,100
Maybe Greece. 
Maybe Argentina. 

805
00:46:49,100 --> 00:46:51,900
I have people there that. 
I know that would love to host 

806
00:46:51,900 --> 00:46:56,100
me and help out. 
So I'm I want to travel with it 

807
00:46:56,200 --> 00:46:59,500
and anyone is invited anyone 
who's interested. 

808
00:46:59,600 --> 00:47:04,300
And so, and it's also a good 
opportunity to like bring. 

809
00:47:04,300 --> 00:47:07,200
You know, I would love to have 
you and Crystal, I would love to

810
00:47:07,200 --> 00:47:09,900
host you guys and promote you 
guys. 

811
00:47:10,400 --> 00:47:13,200
So yeah. 
Well, if you ever want to host a

812
00:47:13,207 --> 00:47:15,000
retreat in Arkansas, that's 
where we're at. 

813
00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:18,700
So let's make it happen. 
All right, I would love to see 

814
00:47:18,700 --> 00:47:20,100
what you are. 
You guys like the Ozarks. 

815
00:47:20,300 --> 00:47:21,100
Yeah. 
We're in the mountains. 

816
00:47:21,100 --> 00:47:23,500
So it's perfect. 
Oh, that'd be awesome. 

817
00:47:23,600 --> 00:47:28,500
That'd be so cool. 
Well, what what is your type of 

818
00:47:28,500 --> 00:47:30,500
coaching? 
So your And Functional Health, 

819
00:47:30,500 --> 00:47:31,900
you're doing what, what are you 
doing? 

820
00:47:31,900 --> 00:47:34,500
Is happy with your coaching, 
like who is your at your typical

821
00:47:34,700 --> 00:47:36,000
clientele? 
So to speak. 

822
00:47:36,400 --> 00:47:38,800
Hmm. 
I would definitely say that 

823
00:47:38,800 --> 00:47:43,000
autoimmune and Lyme disease are 
is my Niche. 

824
00:47:44,000 --> 00:47:47,800
But I work with people with 
eating disorders, some people 

825
00:47:47,800 --> 00:47:51,400
reach out just because they want
spiritual and emotional piece. 

826
00:47:51,900 --> 00:47:53,500
They say, you know, I see that 
you're alive. 

827
00:47:53,500 --> 00:47:55,900
I see that you have joy, and I 
want that. 

828
00:47:56,600 --> 00:47:59,500
So I very intentional. 
My God. 

829
00:47:59,600 --> 00:48:03,200
My health and life, coach 
certification because I believe 

830
00:48:03,200 --> 00:48:05,100
that you are so intimately 
connected. 

831
00:48:05,400 --> 00:48:08,200
I was certified with the health 
coaches to do and they're very 

832
00:48:08,200 --> 00:48:11,900
rooted in Behavioral Health. 
So that is teaching you to be 

833
00:48:11,900 --> 00:48:14,500
accountable for your actions, 
your environment, your 

834
00:48:14,500 --> 00:48:18,300
lifestyle, because all of that 
is equally as important as 

835
00:48:18,300 --> 00:48:20,900
nutrition. 
That's what I incorporate into 

836
00:48:20,900 --> 00:48:23,200
my coaching. 
We talked about, you know, 

837
00:48:23,200 --> 00:48:28,000
thinking patterns, we talk about
the way that you speak your mind

838
00:48:28,000 --> 00:48:31,000
times height. 
Your Time hygiene, you know, 

839
00:48:31,000 --> 00:48:36,600
sleep hygiene and nutrition. 
So I'm very detailed and 

840
00:48:36,800 --> 00:48:43,400
obviously, my experiences have 
taught me a lot, so I can be a 

841
00:48:43,400 --> 00:48:47,400
Super Geek and look at your labs
and figure out blood work and 

842
00:48:48,700 --> 00:48:54,100
microbiome testing, but I can 
also be provide perspective for 

843
00:48:54,100 --> 00:48:57,800
people that need to get out of 
their own heads or people that 

844
00:48:57,800 --> 00:49:01,000
are hitting a plateau. 
So, Honestly, I work with older 

845
00:49:01,000 --> 00:49:05,100
women. 
I work with younger guys who are

846
00:49:05,107 --> 00:49:09,900
trying to change body 
composition, but I was think the

847
00:49:09,900 --> 00:49:14,200
most common client would be 
autoimmune Spectrum whether that

848
00:49:14,200 --> 00:49:19,100
be skin disorder or Crohn's 
disease or Hashimoto's, 

849
00:49:21,400 --> 00:49:26,200
autoimmune is all over the but 
that is a lot of what I work 

850
00:49:26,200 --> 00:49:28,600
with. 
You've mentioned spirituality 

851
00:49:28,600 --> 00:49:29,900
few times on the spot. 
S. 

852
00:49:29,900 --> 00:49:35,000
Was that something that held a 
big place in your life as you 

853
00:49:35,008 --> 00:49:37,000
were going through all this 
stuff or did that come more? 

854
00:49:37,000 --> 00:49:41,400
So after you've started to 
recover, That was that was 

855
00:49:41,400 --> 00:49:46,900
Catalyst in that emergency room.
I changed my mind because God 

856
00:49:46,900 --> 00:49:50,800
convicted because I was addicted
to get 0. 

857
00:49:51,400 --> 00:49:53,900
Like I said, I was like, I 
mentioned I was struggling with 

858
00:49:53,900 --> 00:49:58,600
binge eating and I would never 
go out and like binge on junk 

859
00:49:58,600 --> 00:50:01,100
food. 
I have never done that. 

860
00:50:01,600 --> 00:50:05,300
I've been judged on keto junk. 
So I was going to the Vitamin 

861
00:50:05,300 --> 00:50:08,000
Shoppe in, getting like Quest, 
nacho chips. 

862
00:50:09,700 --> 00:50:12,800
I was addicted sceeto. 
So in that emergency room God 

863
00:50:12,800 --> 00:50:16,000
convicted and you pretty much 
just twisted my arm and said, 

864
00:50:16,000 --> 00:50:20,400
you have to surrender this crap 
and I knew that I was doing it 

865
00:50:20,400 --> 00:50:22,600
out of a place of fear. 
Instead of faith. 

866
00:50:22,600 --> 00:50:26,300
I was very afraid and that was 
my only sense of control. 

867
00:50:26,600 --> 00:50:31,800
I knew he do back and forth. 
I had almost a dependency on 

868
00:50:31,800 --> 00:50:33,900
seeing that Ketone number 
super-high. 

869
00:50:33,900 --> 00:50:38,200
I was always like 6.0 my blood 
sugar's were always like 65 

870
00:50:39,500 --> 00:50:45,000
Super, you know, just super 
ketogenic and it was almost like

871
00:50:45,000 --> 00:50:49,500
a fault like it was my comfort 
zone, and I needed to surrender 

872
00:50:49,500 --> 00:50:52,500
that to God and God, really 
broke through. 

873
00:50:52,500 --> 00:50:55,300
And then emergency room. 
He was like, look what, like 

874
00:50:55,300 --> 00:50:59,500
this is what this is, what has 
gotten you, what are you doing? 

875
00:51:00,400 --> 00:51:03,100
And so I had to give that up and
just say, I'm addicted to this. 

876
00:51:03,100 --> 00:51:06,300
Do I need to stop it? 
And this carnivore thing makes 

877
00:51:06,300 --> 00:51:07,700
sense. 
So I need to give it back my 

878
00:51:07,700 --> 00:51:11,400
best shot, but I'm gonna Out 
this perfectionism and I'm going

879
00:51:11,400 --> 00:51:14,000
to receive your grace gun and 
you're going to give me the 

880
00:51:14,000 --> 00:51:18,000
strength to do this and he did. 
And that's when I started using 

881
00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:21,900
my critical thinking skills. 
So spirituality is everything. 

882
00:51:22,200 --> 00:51:27,200
My spiritual life. 
My relationship with God is what

883
00:51:28,200 --> 00:51:30,600
compelled me to make any of 
these changes. 

884
00:51:30,600 --> 00:51:34,300
A lot of people are like, oh 
Rebecca, you're a Healer or, you

885
00:51:34,300 --> 00:51:36,500
know, you feel yourself, but 
that's not true. 

886
00:51:36,500 --> 00:51:38,500
God healed, me. 
God gave me the wisdom. 

887
00:51:38,900 --> 00:51:40,100
God gave me. 
The strength. 

888
00:51:40,400 --> 00:51:44,300
I was I chose to be obedient and
I did play a role, but God is, 

889
00:51:44,700 --> 00:51:47,400
God is good. 
And he is the Healer. 

890
00:51:48,100 --> 00:51:50,400
Me, me is the medicine and got a
singular. 

891
00:51:51,000 --> 00:51:53,900
So yeah. 
Faith is everything because that

892
00:51:53,900 --> 00:51:57,900
determines my identity and who I
am, like I said I came home and 

893
00:51:57,900 --> 00:52:02,900
I had a backbone of think for 
myself because I gave up my 

894
00:52:02,900 --> 00:52:06,300
addiction. 
Your story. 

895
00:52:06,300 --> 00:52:09,400
I've said this many times, but 
your story, truly, is inspiring 

896
00:52:09,400 --> 00:52:11,400
me. 
There's so many people that I 

897
00:52:11,400 --> 00:52:14,200
know that they don't know where 
to turn. 

898
00:52:14,200 --> 00:52:18,000
They don't know, you know, they 
have no perspective and I feel 

899
00:52:18,000 --> 00:52:20,400
like, you know, in the moment 
like when you're going through 

900
00:52:20,400 --> 00:52:23,700
all this stuff, like when you're
69 pounds, you would rather be 

901
00:52:23,800 --> 00:52:27,600
anywhere than where you are. 
But the fact that you've been 

902
00:52:27,600 --> 00:52:30,400
there, the fact that you spent 
so much time there, the fact 

903
00:52:30,400 --> 00:52:33,500
that you've gone through the 
hell that you've gone through 

904
00:52:34,100 --> 00:52:36,600
that. 
Makes your story, your journey, 

905
00:52:37,200 --> 00:52:40,000
your perspective, and your 
ability to impart that wisdom 

906
00:52:40,000 --> 00:52:44,600
onto others. 
Just so, so much grander, so 

907
00:52:44,800 --> 00:52:49,800
I've got no doubt that all of 
this will be for a better 

908
00:52:49,800 --> 00:52:51,500
purpose for a bigger purpose 
that you're going to be able to 

909
00:52:51,500 --> 00:52:53,700
touch so many more people's 
lives than you ever would have 

910
00:52:53,700 --> 00:52:56,000
thought possible. 
Thank you. 

911
00:52:56,200 --> 00:52:58,800
I appreciate that and I 
appreciate you guys doing 

912
00:52:58,800 --> 00:53:02,400
Crystal. 
This is forever. 

913
00:53:03,100 --> 00:53:06,100
You guys were there when no one 
else was there and I know you're

914
00:53:06,100 --> 00:53:10,500
still doing that for people. 
So I'm really glad, I'm really 

915
00:53:10,500 --> 00:53:12,900
glad that it worked out in that 
we can have this conversation 

916
00:53:12,900 --> 00:53:14,600
today. 
It's almost surreal. 

917
00:53:15,100 --> 00:53:17,100
It's gone by. 
It feels like yesterday. 

918
00:53:17,500 --> 00:53:20,000
I'll never forget that. 
Well, I feel, I feel bad. 

919
00:53:20,000 --> 00:53:22,500
I mean, it's been a long time 
since 2017. 

920
00:53:23,100 --> 00:53:24,900
I feel like there's probably a 
lot more I could have done in 

921
00:53:24,900 --> 00:53:26,900
that window. 
So I apologize for not doing 

922
00:53:26,900 --> 00:53:28,600
more. 
Not at all. 

923
00:53:29,600 --> 00:53:31,600
Well, Rebecca, where do people 
go to find out? 

924
00:53:31,600 --> 00:53:35,200
More about you follow along on 
this journey, scroll back on 

925
00:53:35,200 --> 00:53:37,100
your timeline and see some of 
these before pictures. 

926
00:53:37,100 --> 00:53:39,200
Like, where do people go to dig 
deeper into your life and what 

927
00:53:39,200 --> 00:53:44,900
you get coming, so my website is
tailored to do DOT health, and 

928
00:53:44,900 --> 00:53:51,300
I'm an Instagram at Taylor, keto
health, and so you can email me 

929
00:53:51,300 --> 00:53:54,000
from my Instagram. 
That's where I'm most most 

930
00:53:54,000 --> 00:53:56,100
active. 
If you're interested in my 

931
00:53:56,100 --> 00:53:57,600
retreat, please shoot me a 
message. 

932
00:53:57,800 --> 00:54:03,300
On Instagram and like I said, I 
have my book coming up and then 

933
00:54:03,300 --> 00:54:06,500
my cookbooks sometime next year 
and then I'll have to retreat 

934
00:54:06,500 --> 00:54:08,400
every year. 
So if you're interested in any 

935
00:54:08,400 --> 00:54:12,900
of those just freaked out and 
then I do one-on-one coaching to

936
00:54:13,300 --> 00:54:16,000
all the time. 
So I'm always here for that. 

937
00:54:16,800 --> 00:54:17,500
Awesome. 
Awesome. 

938
00:54:17,500 --> 00:54:20,800
I will definitely be Lincoln on 
to all those signs will be 

939
00:54:20,800 --> 00:54:22,800
shouting from the rooftops. 
Make it easy for people to find 

940
00:54:22,800 --> 00:54:26,400
you because your story is one 
that needs to be heard Rebecca. 

941
00:54:26,400 --> 00:54:27,600
There's everything I can do for 
you. 

942
00:54:27,700 --> 00:54:30,800
Just just let me know. 
Thanks so much. 

943
00:54:31,300 --> 00:54:33,600
Bye bye. 
Yeah, take care and talk soon. 

944
00:54:34,500 --> 00:54:34,800
All right.