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Ladies and gentlemen. What we're seeing right now
across the West, all these different reports coming in.
And I'm certainly seeing it even down here in Australia, my
little Parish, which is the only English speaking church or I
should say. That's the only church that is
giving English services or any the first Orthodox Church giving
English services on all of Western Australia.
All the other horses Orthodox Churches out here, more ethnics.
So they're doing in Greek or Russian or Serbian or whatever
language of the of the, of the parish So pretty exciting times.
And we're even seeing a big influx of people.
I'm part of a cat in class of 2025.
There's eight or Between 8 and 11 of us, depending on how we
want to count it. Because there's some people from
out of up, north who come in and then And then was already some
new people showed up. We were kind of catechism class
of 2026. So it's very exciting times for
Orthodoxy and of course a big question, a lot of people are
asking is why why why now the church has been around for
thousands of years, you know, even row core who's been giving
services in English? All throughout the West,
primarily the big ones are America.
A lot of these celebrity priests and was, we'll cover a few of
those today, are all American, but you know, it's growing
throughout the world throughout the West.
And some, a lot of people were asking.
Well, why, you know why? Why now, what's, what's really
the the big Drive Okay, Lydia klw says just finished doing my
inhaler hits. I don't know that's code for
something in kli, but I'm glad you've here.
You're inhaled properly inhaled, I'd hate to, have you not
inhaled. So, the question, of course, is
why? Why now, on a personal note?
It was pretty easy for me. Well, easy.
When I had a spiritual awakening in 2020.
I started looking around well. Which church, which tradition
should I go to? I wasn't really thrilled by the
Protestants and what was going on in the Protestant world.
The Catholic would have been easier for me because this all
happened Montreal before I moved here to Australia and and I had
been baptized Roman Catholic as my French Canadian father birth
father, but my grandfather on my mother's side, who is my
surrogate father and who essentially was my father figure
growing up, he was Russian Orthodox.
So in that spirit I was like well I should be looking into
Orthodoxy and that was kind of it.
And luckily for me Orthodoxy is the true church and, and all
that fun, and games. So it was it was an inch, easy
entry point for me. And then, of course, has been
five years of Discovery and getting my head around certain
things. For many others.
It's not going to be that simple.
You may not come from a tradition.
You might come from a Protestant tradition or a non tradition,
maybe you're maybe you're like me and atheist for a long time
so it doesn't really matter what tradition you're coming from,
you have to unpack all that stuff. and yet, men are flocking
towards Orthodoxy now, partly, is because the effectiveness I
think of social media, A lot of podcasts, a lot of great shows,
Buck Johnson, for example, you know, Tommy Tommy Salmons.
This goes on many of my personal friends, people, I call friends
are doing Banger work and bringing people to the church
and bring awareness of the church to people, especially
people who may not even have heard of Orthodox before.
Jay Dyer, Andrew Wilson. Jim Bob.
Hello listener. List goes on the so there's
there's certainly an influx of talent out there drawing people
in But I think it's even more. In some ways I think is more,
obviously, even that we look around.
We see the other Traditions out there and you see you, let's
say, Lutheran's or any of the Protestants and even churches
going towards the woke. I believe, there are convicted
both by the world and all by the, the full pews syndrome.
We'll call that this desire to have full pews if you know,
we're not doing God's work, unless we were the churches,
full every Sunday and they're kind of missing the point
because it's not really about fullness, the church itself, the
the tradition, the religion Christ comes to fulfill things,
and fulfill us in many ways. So this idea that the church
itself has to be full in order to to proclaim the greatness and
the truth and the body of the of the church.
Not so much, you know. There are gonna be times when
the church is going to be full and there's going to be a lot of
people coming out. There's gonna be times when it's
not. There's a great story from one
of the death of the world magazines.
Talking about an old priest who got up one morning and really
didn't want to do liturgy was cold and it was in the middle of
Russia. And you know that no one was
going to be coming because his massive snowstorm outside.
But you know, it's liturgies. Liturgy tradition is tradition.
So he gets up and he goes and he goes to delivery and then he's
he's made by all these people flocking in and the church is
full and and he's met with his almost Heavenly Choir inside the
church. And as he finishes, the Liturgy
looks around and the church is empty again.
And he realized that the Heavenly hosted in there.
They needed the people's the physical body is the people
aren't intending the church. That's not really what you're
doing it for. Obviously, you want to do it for
people. People come to the hospital to
get to, to receive their spiritual medicine to get well,
and being part of liturgy, is part of that.
But even if there's no one in the church, even if this, if the
Liturgy goes on for just the priesthood performing, the
ritual alone. There's worthiness there.
Because it's not about us. It's for us but it's not about
us. We participate but it's not
about us. If you go to liturgy, you find,
you know, famously, they the priest will mostly have his back
to you. Or be you know occasionally
they'll the priest will circle around the the lady, you know.
But whether we're there or not, whether there's two people there
or not, the ritual Remains the Same There's a continuity.
I think that's really what is drawing.
Young men to Orthodoxy above and beyond all else.
Maybe, you know, everyone has their own thing. but essentially
that sense of of unbroken tradition, the search for truth,
the desire for truth, We want, what's true?
What's something that is permanent?
That has stood the test of time, that isn't produced.
We'll get to that in the second half of the show.
But, however, everything we watch is produced and everything
is affecting your thoughts, grabbing your attention,
attention equals worship. And so many of the devices and
modernity. Even these shows I have to
admit, I'm trying to attach myself to your attention.
Give me your attention. Me me, me me, me me.
Spend the next three hours with me.
So then you always have to ask the question.
Well, what am I producing? Am I producing something of
worth value. Not just entertainment wise. but
it's something and not just information or education, but
something that that's the most Evergreen characteristic
specially these lives dreams. And something that I figured out
about last year, it's very much similar to what I was doing was
bartending realizing that, you know, I'm not really selling
drinks the drinks sell themselves.
People come to the bar. They're going to have a drink.
They're what you're really kind of selling is and is it is an
experience. That's what you're in control
of. That's what you can provide and
if you can provide an experience, that is unlike other
people, or that gives people some sort of quality or some
sort of, meaning something bigger to their life then, That
is no worries. It's good.
And people will forget everything else.
You talked about? Maybe they'll hold on to the
little nuggets Fellowship. Exactly.
The fellowship is often what keeps people coming back.
Because it's that's the human part.
We can talk about all these great.
Poetic heroic means salvation Redemption.
These things are important and I'm not trying to downplay them,
but for the majority of people, especially when you're first
coming to the church, you don't you're trying to attach yourself
to, you know, to infinity and beyond to the concept of God.
It's a pretty big. Pretty big thing.
Especially your young girl. I think if you get older, you're
getting closer to the end. So suddenly, you know, that
death thing. It's creeping up behind you.
And brothers it is later than you think.
Hasten. Their for to do the work of God.
That's really what that quote comes from.
And I think it was really what it means.
Some people attach it to the eskaton, to the end times to the
end of civilization or something.
End of the good times. That's partly true.
What it also means is that our end on this Earth.
That's the only thing you can escape from. you can't control
really, you can have some sort of controls be better, so you
know, do all the healthy things and Try to stay out of danger.
Sure. But we're all going to die at
one point or another. That's the guarantee.
And that does a number, I think a lot of specially a lot of
modernists who have more access to what they believe is controls
over their life. They think they're in control.
But we're not. We're only in temporary
influence over certain events and people and things and how
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You enjoy. Some maple syrup.
And there's Brett Hart and you gotta cheer for him because
otherwise they, they ship you off, they used to be.
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Now, if I was prime minister, oh, if I was prime minister of
those, many different things would be happening, but Shall
not happen, shall not be the case unfortunately.
So let's get to Carl Benjamin. Over Lotus Eaters daily.
Ask the question. Why are young men joining the
Orthodox Church? Why?
Is this thing happening?
Well, we're gonna find out. Let me just turn this off.
Okay, so the he's quoting, the BBC article, with Father, Moses
and Pearson Mighty, the mighty Buck Johnson shows up in this
interview as well. They actually went over to
interview Buck, they quote, I think in this, this is the
article, they quote him having two large TVs and actuality
bucks, has informed me that there is he has actually has
three three large TVs. So You know BBC.
Oh he's an accurate. What can I tell you?
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part of the mirroring truck crew here.
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I've been cultivating one of the best shots and best audiences
bar. None.
And now we're pivoting, I've jettisoned quite a few people.
People are big mad about certain things I've done on the channel
recently. Big man and Jim Jim's for some
reason he's not he's not being pro-trump enough for some so
it's I, you know, it is what it is.
We just tell you what we see, and how we see it and comes to
pass. We're off in the notes. and then
people get more big mad because Because not only not only, are
we not telling them what we what they want to hear but we're
telling them is the truth. And that We jettison nicknames
too. No, no we don't know.
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It's still mirror and Chuck. Now the channel is not changed.
But will we'll see. Well, we'll make we'll make
adjustments. I was actually going to wait, I
would have been waiting. I've been you know.
Putting together stuff. I was like, do I wait?
Do I wait, another week? Wait another week.
I was like, nah, you know what? The longer you wait to do the
shows. It's harder to do the shows.
Its. it's, yes, yeah, you gotta like it's a muscle, you know,
and it's what happened to me when I had the original two bid
podcast show like 10 years ago, 11 years ago now, 2414 I think
is when I first started doing stuff, With very original show,
it's still out there, you can find it.
I think on Soundcloud, there's still Because I deleted.
I deleted a whole bunch of stuff, but didn't delete it an
account, and it's still on Soundcloud.
So you can still have access to some very, very early.
Jason trying to do podcasting and and what I was gonna say,
Doo doo, doo. Early show podcasting stuff.
I was doing then. I forget Now nicknames.
Help me out. What was I saying?
Oh, you can go check them out if you want.
Dang it. Completely lost that thought.
Wow. Well, you know. 48 on the
internet folks. I might as well be Methuselah.
So anyways, Where We Are Young, why young men are joined the
Russian churches. Promising, absurd levels of
mailings. Of course, father Moses measures
and who's a, who's a power lifter?
I think he was. Instilled is a power lifter.
Big manly masculine man. Out there with a giant cross.
And this, let's listen to a little bit of Carl says, and
then we'll, we'll do some supplementals some supplemental
watching. Just why are young men in
America joining the Russian? Orthodox Church asks the BBC but
it's fairly self-evident as to what the answer is, isn't it?
I mean, if this is not a phenomenal, reserved purely for
the Americans, either know? Just the Russian Orthodox
Church, for example, in verse. And I know a couple of people
who joined the Greek Orthodox Church, Which is. just something
that is becoming apparent that the Protestant church is of
course failing in its Duty. Now I'm an English atheist.
So I'm a member of the Church of England.
I'm you know what? You know why I'm saying it?
And it's, because just generally Evangelical protestantism has
gone completely seeing a curls because you put Nation over God.
You even trying to put Nation over yourself but you can't
because you want to be connected to it because you're you're
British and you think the you know, or your English I should
say. So now the Church of England
because it's has England in the title.
Well your England, their England and that right?
He's got to be a one-to-one. This is where atheist and
materialist fail, and I can speak from experience as a
former atheist and antitheism. Oh my goodness.
Mr. Biggins now following over on Kik, appreciate you.
As a former atheist in and anti-theist.
I had the same problem you know everything had to look like me.
It had to please me I had to see myself in it.
And if I couldn't see myself in it then it you know oh not my
thing. This the idea of a hierarchy of
being to something bigger than you.
Is really, you know, all you can understand is that there are
people in positions greater than you.
Which is more of a class, kind of warfare kind of mentality.
But the idea of a concept or a state of being being greater
than you, that's impossible. We're all fundamentally the same
people, right? And that's kind of true.
But there's levels to this and the hierarchy of let's say a
being is really measured against yourself.
You can measure yourself against, you know, same pace, so
or any other Saints, or one of the great things that about how
Orthodoxy approaches the Saints is, you actually can do that to
a certain degree because even the Saints, even those who reach
sales, and many of the writings, Approach it, as they are the
worst Christians, they are still Sinners, they haven't freed
themselves from these things. Now, they might be much further
down that path than you are. I I'll speak personally way for
the down that path than me. But that doesn't mean that that,
that that comparison between you and them is is impossible.
Now, of course, don't go walking around thinking, you're you're a
saint. Go to liturgy.
First have a prayer rule, you know, beat sake.
But the understanding that, that Even high ranking positions for
example. The the position has to infer
responsibility duties. A state of being.
So you're priest, for example, has much more responsibilities
than you do. No matter what your position in
the church is, if you're not the priest and you're not, you don't
have that level responsibility, even the responsibility for
priest, baptizing, bring people into the church.
It's a heavy responsibility. If you're doing Orthodox, you
really correctly. You're going to your priest
quite often and asking for advice permissions blessings.
What do I do? How do I do it?
Should I do this? Should I do that?
so your priest in many ways is, you know, your spiritual father
in many ways becomes like, your father but unlike your father
but let's say your father's not a priest.
Unlike your actual father, your your spiritual father also has a
responsibility of your soul. It's a heck of responsibility.
So what the atheist, materialists always fails with
this. I is that this idea that if all
men are born equal and all that separates myself from let's say
Carl or the Prime Minister of England or some other country is
just positioning. And I would like to think.
Because considering the current batch of leadership we have
that, we have out there. That the thing that's separating
me, the, the dividing line or the metric, we're using
shouldn't be because the prime minister of England's, Prime
Minister of England, you know, Keira starmer.
And I would like to believe. And even my most horrible,
horrible, Christian sells. I'm the worst Christian ever.
And I do believe that and all humility.
I like to believe that I might, at least maybe 0.5 0.5.
Of a better human being than Hearst.
On an average metric. and, Give me that one.
Brett screwed Bret, Marin shock. Almost didn't have a Sean
Michael's button on here because you know, Shawn Michaels group
right? Vince?
McMahon's group Brett. Well here, nothing more of it.
Goldberg, this is Goldberg. Goldberg.
From Germany. But you can find an example in
this is actually just the first thing I found on Google because
you know the pattern you can see from The Pride Flags exactly
where this has gone and it's not the Catholics.
Haven't had a bit of a problem with this as well, but is the
Evangelical Protestants that the most guilty of this going, just
completely softened and nobody's got any time for it because what
this means is the entire church, fundamentally doesn't become
about religion, which I think if you're going to a church maybe
it should be about the religion. The secondly, it makes the
entire church female coded. Oh this is about women, gays
transgenders and minorities. Why would I be interested in
going to a church that prioritizes all of the things
that I'm not above me with? External political symbols.
Is so close. It's it's infuriating sometimes.
When you listen to Carl and a few of these, because I think
Carl's a very smart, man. I think he's I and I actually
think he's a good, I think he's a good man. despite atheism and
all the rest of, I honestly think that Carl is a decent
human being who is trying to figure things out and is been
given Who is living in this world and his time like the rest
of us and do it as best. With his with a, with the front
of the worldview that he has adopted or cobbled together.
And I also think that maybe the countdowns on until I mean I
think we've covered this in previous shows but it's it's
starting to sound like he's getting pretty close to at least
going to go to church. His kids are going to church.
His wife is bringing them. I think they're bringing.
Probably bringing to Anglican churches and God bless that.
Well you know we got to hold the anglicans figure it out being
Catholics without a pope I don't know how that's working out for
them. I don't think so.
Well, most of the Anglican churches down here are closing
up shop because they just don't have the attendance anymore.
It's, it's a thing that's happening. and, In terms, of
traditionally, let's say that with the British tradition.
I can understand why people would want to hold on to
something like that because it is part of their something that
you grew up as a child or you knew, you know, your parents or
your grandparents were involved. The Anglican Church, perhaps
there is there's connection there.
There's a lineage. And one of the great, one of the
things that I think is been hollowed out over the last
specifically, over the last 60 years, is that destruction?
Not just of family in the family structure, but of lineage
itself. Most of us oh I shouldn't say
most of us. Quite a few of us myself
included. You only really know you know
you know you go back three generations, maybe maybe four
and then he starts getting murky, doesn't it?
Don't know your great-great-grandparents, his
name. You don't quite know it's
specially if you're coming from a immigrant parents.
Or family you know people who immigrated in the last let's say
100 years. it's pretty murky because records got lost and was
maybe pre-phase, maybe you have some but you know, You know, who
was that? Where they come from?
Would what would Village they come from?
And lost a Time. You can go Dugas, do some
digging and sure. Sure.
But chances are, you may just never know if you're Eastern
European. It's just gone.
So what people have been? I think this is the other aspect
of why people are going back specifically to the Orthodox
Church in this unbroken line. The Apostolic Church.
Where you can trace your priest can trace his lineage, his
teaching lineage, all the way back to one of the Apostles.
Each and every one. There's power in that.
Because when you would join to the church, you're joining a
family. It's a marriage.
You're being married into the church and you're joining that
family. and suddenly, now, your lineage is connected to that
Lydia so away, maybe you don't know your family lineage all the
way back for a few Generations but you have your church And you
know the church is Lynnwood news all the way back 2000 years.
Who first came over? Who first established, etc.
Etc etc. So now, you have permanency.
Something permanent other than death.
We'll get to death either on this show, or in future shows.
It's tied into that is later than you think.
But Christ conquers death. The conquer death for us.
So even death for Christians. Must be just from the Orthodox
perspective. Even, that's not permanent.
We get to live on. One in one place or another.
So, the only thing that becomes permanent.
They don't think you can truly attach yourself to that gives
you self true sense of of bedrock.
Because, you know, your family will move on and things can
happen. So the only thing that really
get can give you permanent is in this life is the church.
Tradition. And a tradition that's not going
to change with the time. The Orthodox Church is not well.
What's their purpose? I I you know, I I highly doubt
that in my lifetime we're going to see Orthodox Churches, flying
these flags. Put it that way.
Because we are in this world, we're not of it.
In fact, one of the missions is to bring death to the world
world, meaning the Passions We bring death to the World by
turning away from the passions by killing them within
ourselves. Passions is just lust.
Thank Glory Pride. Avarice greed.
Gluttony. right now, in this month of August, depending which
calendar you're falling, you've just finished, or you're, you're
in the middle of the donation, fast dormition of the theotokos,
The Virgin Mary, the Mother of God.
This is commemorating her, her death.
She tell us and the Orthodox tradition, we believe that Mary
fell asleep to be. She was reposed dormir right
French Paul sleep. It was brought up to heaven.
So we can. Pray.
Ask her to pray with us. She has a much like the Saints
but she's giving us kind of a special place.
Got you? Got a special. vessel of our
Lord, and What I'm saying. But why I say all these things
is that when you contend with the idea that even death itself,
is not permanent. That breaks the modernist.
Nihilistic atheists. Evolutionists yada paradigm.
And it gives us hope. And that's one thing that
modernity cannot produce cat. Being taking primary purpose,
over the religion itself. Why would I want this?
If I was a young man compare that to this, it's like, well,
which one do you think as a man, I find more appealing.
It's just because I'm such a die-hard xenophobe that I'm not
prepared to join the Russian Church, the Greek Church, It's
because I'm afraid, I have to, like, spiritually support the
Church of England. Even if I kind of hate
everything about what's happening there, but I thought
we just go through this just because this is just funny.
That doesn't make any sense to me. you know, it does it really
makes zero sense to me if I have been inquiring and to the
Russian Church are Ukrainian Church or Roku or whatever and
found. And if it was in you if it was
reversed And the Russian churches were doing all this
stuff. I wouldn't have joined it.
I will things have changed. My grandfather wouldn't
supported that, you know. I would have gone to something
else. Go to where the truth is.
This really matter of his God, England Patriots on it or
Canadian or Russian or whatever. You go, where the truth is.
It's just really, really funny. It's like look you could become
powerless or enjoying the Orthodox Church.
Oh, you could become a power, bottom and stay with the
Protestant church and it's like, yeah, no.
I think I would, I think I would choose the power lift up,
actually. And the thing is, I don't really
know what the the substantive difference in Doctrine is
organized in. San Jose says them be big bad
Russians, though. They're mean, well some can be
you know, generally speaking Slavs just were suspicious of
joy. Those with Slavic hearts are
very suspicious of Joy. It doesn't mean we don't have
joy, we just like to poke it with a stick first.
You're happy, are you? What are you so happy why please
every by the way anyone has any kind of Slavic grandparents or
family or raise around? Eventually gets this advice more
or less in these words. Is like, don't don't smile so
much. Why you smiling so much?
People who smiled this much are either stupid or thieves.
Little so much. so, It's just the way.
The changes between Orthodox and Protestant, right?
I don't actually know how different they are.
Well they're pretty different. Let's see if we get an answer
that question. He saying that he doesn't
understand what the difference between theology is our Ah,
well. Let's let's listen to Father
Moses. Let us know what the difference
between these between Protestant prayer and Orthodox prayer
movie. Name of the father and of the
son of the Holy Spirit. Is a funny saying that a man can
watch three things, endlessly, a fire, the ocean and another man
working. And it's funny because this
brings me back to my first time really ever being in the Divine
Liturgy. I remember my wife and I were in
college, we got exposed to Orthodox, Christianity.
We went to the local Parish which was held in a dentist
office, the priest, father, Jeffrey Corps, Was able to kind
of put this together even though there were very few Orthodox
Christians at the time, there's almost 20 years ago. and they
had this little chapel of stairs, and I remember that we
went inside and there were just some icons and some Candlelight.
And it was funny because it was a drop ceiling but none of the
lights were on it was all natural light.
And I remember looking down and I saw my wife and she was
sitting on the floor because they had no pues, no benches.
I mean it was a very small space, Maybe maybe 20 feet wide,
maybe 30 feet long at most and, She looks so at peace.
So contemplative she just was soaking it in.
And I remember attending liturgy and just not having to do
anything. Just being present.
Just being present and soaking in the prayer.
The icons, the light from the candles.
The incense. Just soaking it in and being
present in the experience and not being a performer.
Not having to do anything, say anything.
Just being there, just being in it. and I remember that we were
attending Divine Liturgy for several months and then we had
to go visit my aunt so we went and visited my aunt and we were
not Orthodox you know we were so we were Protesting inquirer's.
So he went to go and visit my aunt.
We went with my aunt to her mega church, which was held in a
gymnasium and had a full, you know, band up on stage and all
these different things and the worship service started and You
know, within three minutes Boom, the horn section kicked in and
they had all these warn players and they were awesome.
I mean they weren't they didn't lack for Ability or skill, it
wasn't it wasn't bad horn, playing it just was a cacophony
of noise and sound just pounding on my head and I remember
standing there and I said, I can't pray I can't pray because
I can't focus and I can't be present.
Its performance. And you know that's fine.
If you go to a football game and the horns are blasting and the
band is thumping, the drums and getting you hyped up and there's
old there's an energy to it. That's awesome.
I love that as a man. I love that type of intensity.
I love lifting weights. I love blasting metal.
I love that energy. That that ferocity?
That is a true expression of myself as a man and something
that I love, but that is not worship.
Just cut in, maybe he's maybe a father.
Moses, says this litter on, I have watched this but it was a
little last week. The The.
The problem really well. Okay, the main problem with the
Protestant service with the smoke machine and the big bands
and the mega churches and all that stuff.
Is that who are you giving your attention to?
Everyone there, even if they're in their mind, they're saying
we're lifting this up to the glory of God.
We're doing this for God. Right?
The reason why we're congregated here and doing all these things
is to exalt, God and abide in the Holy Spirit, and Whatever
those products might say. Even if that's the intention.
The the effect is pay attention to me.
Look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me.
Look at me, aren't I great? Isn't my rendition of bridge
over smoke. Troubled Water, fantastic.
The pastor in these things are looking at me.
Look at me. Look at me isn't my speech?
Great. Don't deliver well.
Don't I Pace well on the stage and oh, silliness.
The fact that you have a pastor priest of church, father, he's
going to have presents. Of course, she's he's going to I
won't mention the, she's that seems a be taking over the
Protestant world, but He's going to have presence, no matter
what, because he's a priest. Kind of a big, he's kind of a
big deal in and of himself. He's leading the progression.
He's Priest. But it's in a strange way.
It's not even about him. Or shouldn't be about him.
Priests would deliver a homily. Help the instruct, the church as
instruct the laity. Good.
But is it really about him? How wonderful he can write a
homily? How how well the speaker he is?
It's the instruction. And it's all and the reason why
you're being instructed is so that you can one, you can heal,
you can heal your sins and heal your spiritual sicknesses. and
two so you can better, orientate yourself to God.
You know. The reason why you're there.
The big giant reason why you're there.
Otherwise, you could just stay home and listen to him and
whatever. Why go?
well we want to be part of something, we want to feel that
energy of being part of something and that's what
Fellowship out towards is partly for But the journey actual
ceremony your attention really should be on your prayer.
And certain rituals, during during the Liturgy.
And during during sermons, Or Vespers Services.
I should say. But really your attention is
towards God. Even your prayers are really
directing your thoughts. And your Your being towards God.
God's going to do all the big stuff. if you think your priest
is going to fix your life, God fixes your life and he uses you
use it. There are instruments available
to help that along. But yeah. you and this is again,
not You know, father Moses my own priests, all these men are
one of him beings. They should be respected and
giving given those giving their authorities.
That's not what I'm saying. I'm saying, is that God, created
heaven and earth. That's where.
Your that's who you're appealing to. and one of the ways you do
that is by Respecting the higher, give the church.
Those who are chosen to lead. So you submit your authority to
the church and the church is Authority.
In many cases is your is your is your is your priest.
That's it. So the problem with the
Protestant ceremonies, with all these bands and all the rest of
it is well who has Authority here.
Who are you supposed to be giving?
Who are you supposed to be submitting to the band?
Smoke machine. Like, what, what who?
Why is why you're attention being drawn out of all these
things? seems kind of weird way to to
direct your attention and focus towards God.
You're worship to God. so, they look at the Chat for second.
So if you good ones why it's such to my wife and I just
watched this video this evening, it's good one.
Mike Hunt, says my great grandfather, had a great deal
respect for the Russians probably because they smacked
around the autumns a few times and he loathe the Turks.
I saw I I don't I'm not a big Turkish fan myself.
It's in the blood. Organized Insanity says
everything. I've learned and continue to
learn about the Orthodox Church makes or Orthodoxy makes much
more sense to me than I. And then how I was raised, it
helps when you don't constantly contradict yourself.
Yes, Liberalism is the act of stacking up mental
contradictions in many churches of become liberalized in that
sense. And it's, it's a problem.
Studies is I had a Turkish driving instructor.
Don't let sweaty girl out drive any semis.
Let's just put it that way. Yeah, nothing that going on.
Appreciate you. And organizations I'm getting
closer to having the transportation.
I need to get to my nearest Orthodox Church.
Very close. God bless, keep praying.
Okay, God will find a way to get you there.
About work for me. So Organized, since the
glorifies God, right? Yeah, of course glorifies God by
glorifying the Production. We glorify the production to
glorify God somehow. It's just that's how it works,
right? Intermediaries.
It's just And organized says, they had a huge production of
the church when I was a kid. Had people swinging from ropes
and pulleys from the ceiling, all the end times.
It wasn't exactly helpful. Oh yeah.
Cirque du Soleil, but, you know, Christians.
Cirque du Soleil? Sounds sounds awful, really?
I ended up leaving the church service because I just couldn't
pray and I couldn't pray because I couldn't think and I couldn't
be present and I had become accustomed to being present in
prayer. I had become accustomed to being
present in worship. You know, when a man wants to
connect with God, he doesn't go to a music concert, he doesn't
go down into the city. He doesn't go to a Starbucks.
And go. I'm gonna connect with God.
While people are walking around and background.
Music is playing and things are happening.
When a man wants to connect with, God, he goes to the woods,
he goes to the mountains, he goes to a cabin, he turns off
the cell phone, he turns off the notifications.
He gets away from it all. Why?
So that he can be present and he can focus.
This is what the Western World doesn't understand saying the
God speaks in some speaks. In silence.
So it's in silence that we hear God.
About worship worship for a man is not emotional.
When I say that, I don't mean that man isn't emotional.
Man is emotional. But he's not wanting to be
psychologically. Evoked into a state of emotional
frenzy like a concert or something.
To connect with God, that's not how men work.
No, man ever leaves a service and says, oh wow, I wish they
had more drums. I wish they had more annoys.
Men want to be silent with God. This is why when you look at the
monks, I'm out those and I remember reading about this
stuff there, they said that they would go to sleep at whatever
6:00 at night. And then sleep for three hours,
maybe four hours, whatever and get up at 9 or 10 after it was
dark. after it was silent after the whole world and gone to
sleep, when you can feel the gravitational pull, When you can
sense, the Stars, the beauties of the heaven, the darkness.
Where you can see the world at rest.
Peaceful. And these monks would get up and
then they would start praying, and they would do these Jesus
prayers Lord, Jesus Christ have mercy on me on a Prayer rope and
a very simple fashion. And it's interesting because
people talk about in The Gospel making repetition of prayer.
What Christ is talking about is droning on with a bunch of words
that don't mean anything to you. A bunch of nonsense, a bunch of
filler. Talking to God where you're just
blabbering and eventually have nothing more to say after three
minutes. What the monks were doing is
saying the Simplicity of the prayer.
Lord. Jesus Christ have mercy on me,
but they were saying each prayer.
With intensity and focus. When a man prays like this in
the dark of night. When he stands before Christ,
when he opens up his heart to examine Nation. when he's in the
presence of Christ, praying, this is worship. it's
interesting because in the nightly prayers, I part of my
prayer rule. One of them asked forgiveness
for being distracted during prayers.
If you'd let worldly thoughts or distractions and to your mind
while praying. So it's always good to know that
that Special, when interesting Tradition at this point and in
life, it's they've got this figured out.
They got this covered. You know. we know which ones
which which sends and distractions and things that you
that we all fall into and it's better to ask for forgiveness
for all of them because you've likely committed a few of them
without even without even noticing your committing them.
Become so ingrained. So, so ritualized in some ways.
So forgiving in modern society, that is very easy to.
To not even realize your sinning.
To, you know. You gotta.
Part of the Redemption Arc. Is to change your life to be
radically changed by it to go 180.
And that oftentimes is a very harsh examination of what you
what you think is, okay? And realizing that it's not.
Okay, moldy says, only Jason makes me emotional the way.
He power washes, a bar and gets me every time.
Well, stick around. We'll see how much energy I got.
But we'll go. We'll go, we'll go the distance.
And then at the end, if we still have people hanging out, we'll
do some power washing because we haven't done any power washing a
while, if people don't know what I'm talking about.
You, I'm a big fan of the power washer.
Simulator number two is coming out once you're very excited
about this year, but if you, if you stick around, we'll hit some
goals. Help me hit some goals, Philip
that make that red bar, go white.
And then, we'll, we'll talk about some power washing of the
end. So he says, I met a Quaker once
and asked him how these worshiped and he, and he said
they would all sit in their Church in silence for an hour
and that was service. Quakers are interesting people.
I don't know how sitting in silence for an hour. is really
service, but There'll be something I have to ask quicker
about. Organizing he says I know a lady
that grew up Quaker she said it was interesting.
I dated a girl really briefly. Who was a Quaker?
I never really got. As never got into the theology
questions. This is what modern man.
Craves. He craves Stillness.
He craves a little bit of Silence.
The world is so noisy. The expectations for us as men
are unbelievable. They are tremendous.
They are all consuming. They are notifications on your
phone and all hours of the day and all hours of the night and
places to be and scheduling and busyness.
And there's part of us as men that we want to work and we want
to get things done, and that's fine.
But one more always like that. We know we're getting the
oxygen. You know, men need to run that
race and you need to work out their energy.
They need to work hard. But they all need to catch their
breath. That's what worship is.
Worship is when man gets to be before his creator and a humbled
State being present in prayer being present, with the things
that he is speaking from the depths of his heart.
When he's reflecting on his life and his choices and his
decisions. Or the future and the
uncertainty, the things that are happening around him. when he's
just with God, when fathers connect with their sons, they
don't sit down. And just have a long
conversation, it may be part of the aspect of being a father,
but if you're a father you understand a lot of being a
father is just being with your boys or with your girl's.
I mean I have a daughter and it's What I realized maybe it
has partly how I was raised in. My remember is that you you
remember certain lessons, and you remember certain talks and
instances with your, with your parents, or your, my case, my
grandfather, But it really, what you?
What I'm left with the overall impression.
That I'm left with her, or I can.
Let my mind live. Sometimes is just being with
him. You know, there's a comforting
security which is being with him.
And that's what you end up emulating.
In some ways. This Sarah from Sarah of quote,
which is a peaceful peaceful Hearts saves 1,000 Souls.
And it's true. The more peaceful, the more
relaxed. And the more together you are.
And I don't mean just like, you get in stuff done and data your
to-do list is always ticked off? No, no.
It's like it's, it's, it's, it's how you're handling the world.
You know what am I entries? The thing that really softened
me with for towards religion. That was right after my daughter
was born. And I realized I had this angry
these anger issues as rage That's not very attractive.
It's it's quite embarrassing. you know, he just there's a
there's a Saying here in Australia saying like, you spit
the dummy and dummy means a pacifier, it's like a toddler
having a fit. And that's kind of, if you're
really, if you pull him back and watching it really listen to
yourself, that's kind of what you're doing.
You know, here's a grown man. You're a grown man.
Who's supposed to be in control of his faculties and there you
are. You know all about stupidness?
Why? Things are not as as you would
like it, there's your pride being attacked.
Someone's said something to you that you know how dare they say
that to me. How dare they disrespect me?
Maybe it's your wife, maybe it's a loved one, maybe it's some
stranger some schmuck on the street, whatever.
We take it personally because we, we take it person because
we're so centered about ourselves.
That we don't ever just let it go.
At least anger, resentments. Desire for vengeance.
I'm just gonna, Most of this life really isn't about you.
Just like a church service. It's not really about you.
Have some someone's nasty toes because they're maybe they're
nasty person. Maybe they're doing, they're
supper some stuff. You know, this is the same Sarah
from Rose quote, is that the proper position for all
Christians? Believe that you are the worst
Christian. Make us chooses for everybody
else, Christian and on. Excuse their behavior.
In some ways, find forgiveness. constraint on yourself because
the only person who can control your sins, your passions is you
And if you let them affect you, that's you, that's you letting
you letting that happen. Sort of prototype back into what
father, Moses is saying here is that the distractions of the
world and sometimes they're necessary distractions.
They, they, we use them as a substitute for the, for the
internal question, why? Why do I want this?
I want to be successful. Well why?
I want to have a house. Why my wife a child?
Why why do you want these things?
Now, maybe that's self-evident well because they're good things
to have and we ought to have these things.
Continuing the human race and all that kind of stuff.
Sure. But many men have opted out.
When you monastic sir opting out, they don't have a house.
They don't have wife or child. And living.
Holy cave. Pray for Humanity.
So there's options out there. There's many other men, you
know, priests and all the rest of it, but who never get
married, who stay married to church, if you're in Catholic
tradition or other men who just never do that but but work
tirelessly and do great works outside of a marriage and
children. So There are options.
So, the question you have to ask yourself constantly is why do I
want these things? Not just because they're good
and they're good to have and continuation, human race, Etc.
But specifically with you me, why Who you emulating?
Why do you think? Why do you think you ought to
have these things? You know, how is for example,
the big thing I hear quite often people moaning you know, can't
afford a house, you know, like yes, I understand the economic
situation out there is is dire and has been, it's been screwed
up by not very nice people, so fair But here's a big question.
Maybe you should ask yourself, why do you want a house?
How is there a? Can be a pain in the ass.
I'm not saying you shouldn't want one.
I'm just asking you. Why do you want one?
Why do you know? Well, you know we can't get a
date, can't can't find a wife, why do you want to wife?
See how houses. Can be a lot of work.
Be a pain, the hip. Kids.
Kids are wonderful. I I wouldn't trade in being
married or having a house or having a daughter for anything.
Specifically being married and having a daughter.
And I didn't ask the question. Why?
Before I know the answer now? I can speak personally it's
because it makes me want to be better.
It gives me a higher purpose. Other than myself.
To orientate myself with. And when, you know, again
personally, once that happened, then I also needed the church.
I needed God as the even higher positioning.
Because it's all fine and good to say well my my greater good.
My point of meaning is my wife and my child and that's
wonderful but you know again things can happen.
Your wife could divorce you or leave you or you know die or
someone of that child could have to do the same.
And then what do you love with? and even if we don't take the
extreme situation, you are not. Your wife and you will speak of
marriage. your wife and yourself entering this relationship and
it's it's a unique relationship. Are you living together?
You raise a child together. Paying all the bills and all
that stuff. But you have to you have to
manage the A the changes in your life and the changes in you,
whether there's other person. And while modern society, in the
west has made it, able to be able to walk away from these
kind of relationships relatively easy.
That's not a proper way of living your life.
Having that kind of permanency. A relationship that you are
going to fight for. You're going to deal with it.
You're going to go to bed, angry sometimes or maybe not, that's
your rule, whatever. You're going to have periods in
time where you're like, is it over?
I don't know. You're gonna face troubles and
tribulations, that's why the vows are in sickness and health.
Till death do us part. Well, when you make that kind of
vouch yourself and to God, hopefully but even just yourself
like, I'm going to see this through.
That gives you wonderful parameters in your life. so,
when your wife, Your help meet. The coined, the phrase.
Is kicking up a fuss. You have to examine it and go.
Well, maybe she's right. She might have a point.
Gorilla biscuit says going to bed.
Good night, thanks for having me.
God bless God. Bless you.
Thank you for all love and support.
You have to at least listen. To her.
Because you're in this with her till the end.
You make that kind of commitment. and if you're you're
being honest and you're honest person.
Well, Then you're in you're you're gonna ride and die with
it. Say with your kid.
You have to live your children to the end.
No matter what they do, how they do it, you're gonna have to love
them. Always find a space in your
heart for them. That's going to be well.
Paying off the child. Of course, be difficult.
Be present. That's really typical.
And the way so many ways you can you practice this, if you are
younger men and you don't have the wife and you don't have the
kid, you don't have the house, you don't have, you don't have,
you don't have go to liturgy. Because you know what?
Your practice in liturgy, all those things commitment.
Attentiveness. You're listen.
You're making commitments. Unbreakable commitments.
Hell or high water. You're going to get to church?
That's a good practice. So that when you do have your
wife and your child of God bless you with these things, your
house. All these things you have to be
attentive to and you have to sacrifice your time, your
energy, your tensions. You got to know can't play the
video game for 12 hours. You got, put it down, you gotta
go, you know, listen to your kid.
Your five year old talk about five year old stuff which, you
know, riveting is. It is Make it a point, he
present. Because they're not going to be
that kid every forever. Enjoy every single minute of it.
Even this stuff. You don't want to enjoy the
stuff. That's pretty tough to enjoy,
it's not enjoyable. if you gets, Stomach stomach, flu and puking
all over the house. It's like not a party.
But you can be of service to somebody.
Who depends on you? There's your responsibility.
Meet that responsibility each and every day, each and every
way find new ways of doing that. See where that takes you.
And you know that's I think that's a better.
It's a better answer to the why then we'll go to make sure the
white race stays around on Earth and stuff like that's like, I
get it, man. I get it. but at the same time,
that's that's a heavy thing to put on yourself, the existence
of humanity Okay. What else you want to do?
What else? What other magic tricks you want
to pull off today? Not concentrate on what what's
in front of you as much as possible?
Things together. And accomplishing things and
tackling projects. And that's what man desires from
his Heavenly Father. He wants to be present with him.
He wants to know that. God is there.
He wants to know that Christ. Is going through the struggles
with him. He wants to know that he's loved
and that he's a for who he is. He wants to feel that
connection. What the West has lost is this
connection to God. It's about noise.
It's about performance. It's about emotion.
Evoking something that you're not feeling.
Trying to put something on display or use some words or
some terminology to push you emotionally.
To stir your mind. But that's all manipulation.
And men in their hearts. They know that that's why they
can't. Give themselves over to it.
Real men need the Divine Liturgy.
They need to be in the presence of God.
They need to know that God is there, and they need to be still
in their souls. They need to be comfortable
standing in their space and just being present.
Not having a bunch of thoughts. Not having quote unquote, a
bunch of feelings. But just being there with God
and connecting. Its powerful point.
Piece is a word concept. Fouls work.
Concept fallacy. The day.
Peace. Because we often as we use peace
and terms of War, right? Physical involvements.
But a peaceful heart. What is?
saying Sarah from Sarah mean by that, it's not just hear a man.
You're, you're an engines and you're an engine of violence.
You're are part of our fallen nature is violence.
So, feature, not a bug. The bug of creation, let's say,
but Post Falls that's part of us.
We can make violence sacred or you can make it profane.
By either way, it's something that we have to contend with.
And as a man especially, we are uniquely built to deliver some
great, a violence. Perfected.
And violence doesn't necessarily have to be a punch in the nose.
It can be all the other thoughts and inclinations and desires
that lead to the punch the nose, or lead us to cheer the punch of
nose. It all stand around.
Watch a man throwing stones. And oh yes.
What a virtuous righteous man he is.
Throwing stones are behalf. so much of the modern world because
it's all about, you know, don't mean right here, these terms
excitement, Get you all riled up.
But we're know where to put it. We've figured out through
Christendom about transference. You Chris will say.
Is a transference of, of human sacrifice.
It's we View. God. you know, of its bread and
the wine of my body, my blood From more of a strictly.
anthropological ether pathology That word.
Raise Your Heart does a lot of work on this, right?
Understanding the nature of human sacrifice.
Basically in ancient Pagan and other.
Religious ceremonies specially Hindus or brahmins sex.
The office in times sacrificing evolves, eating as a food aspect
to it, imbuing. so, quite often in Let's say.
The more Pagan world. a human sacrifice would be a company
with acts of Canada was We see this transference now both in
the story of Abraham and then later on with Christ Abraham.
You know, God tells Abraham to sacrifice his son comes down and
says, no, don't sacrifices on. In fact, and sacrifice Ram.
Take that as a story, there's many parts of that story.
But specifically from that one aspect is now a commandant said,
there will be no human sacrifice going forward.
If there was a commandment against laws against before now
it's going forward, the children of Abraham will not do that. you
can sacrifice animals and if you're going to do a sacrifice,
And then of course, Christ comes and says, we're no more animals
sacrifices. Even In fact, you're not going
to sacrifice to God, in that sense.
You're going to imbue. The.
So that is this transference. Eating itself is violence.
You don't even eating, you know, vegans or doing violence with
their mouth. Mashing and tearing.
Digestive juices. The whole thing is quite
violent. And what we've done in
Christendom is found other ways to transfer that violence.
Further and further away from direct forms.
We you know, one of the great things of the printing, press
great, bad, whatever, however you feel about it is that
transference of violence from physicality into the word.
So we can you know read this early violent of violence
stories. Get riled up.
By The Narrative, but then have catharsis in the story.
Flash Forge and more, modern versions, you have, you know,
video games, kids playing video games and chat in chat rooms and
stuff of that saying, all kinds of violent, horrible nasty.
Things while committing, you know, Virtual violence.
Again, transference away from the physical world.
Now we can say that that's good or bad.
I think there's plus minuses on these things. but this was the
The direction we were going. And one of the, I think the
biggest missteps, the last really the last 20, 30 years,
but over the last 60 years of his devouring mother aspect has
been trying to Tamp down on all expressions of masculinity and
specifically a violence. So that transference so now of
course, with the gamer situation, you know, longer
allowed to say the No-No words, we're going to police you
bullying and all that stuff. Oh no, can't have any of that.
Because you gotta protect the children agent, they're going to
grow up to be toxic men and all these other things.
But by removing that, That transference.
From physical violence or from acts of let's say more materials
into let's say a virtual space. We we don't get rid of it, we're
just putting a it's a pressure valve. now, the pressure is
building people don't have other ways of expressing this. for
certain to see this course in England and maybe the other
places, this sort of panopticon, Armed against expression.
So, you're not allowed to say what you feel about certain
things happening. Government policies, Etc.
And you know what to speak of. They're all out of speak of
certain groups. Not a lot of these certain
words. Perhaps we can say that's just,
you know, being polite and living in polite Society.
Okay, well that's a trojan horse.
What it really is doing again is that tamping down of any form of
violence and if, as long as it and I would posit this position
and tell me I'm wrong in the comments or something like that,
but Without any other mechanisms to control for this thing,
removing violence from the physical and into, let's say a
more virtual non-physical realm. Overall, probably a good idea.
Probably pretty good. The only downside really on this
is that it it defends your men. So that as long as you're living
in a society where everyone is defanged more or less and is
only projecting their violence into areas where they can't
really do that much real harm. Then good. but when you start
introducing elements into your Society who haven't been
defanged, catch a little bit unawares.
Catch a sleeping. Someone said recently.
And so I was watching that The the downside I'll say it this
way this was an accurate to the quote so please don't ask me one
of the consequences. Let's say of Christians is that
we're naive. Duty.
I know we are looking for the best in people. and expecting
the best in people in some way, shape, or form and some times
were encountering people who That might be a bad idea. you
know, this is why I say, The spirit of this vengeful, son,
this this movement towards the technical father Reawakening.
The problem with it is using the feel good for many people
because they're seeing these injustices, they feel neutered.
They feel as if they can't do anything about it.
And now, and I think suddenly you're going to start seeing
people start doing stuff about it.
It's going to encourage more people to do other things about
it. And so on and so on and so on
and so on. Until the Beggars response from.
From the authorities and they'll do their violence.
We're caught in this Loop. Because the adversary doesn't
care, how he gets you. Just wants to get you.
Watch your feet in those Passions.
Me me, me me. I I well, we'll get back to Carl
in a second, but that idea of, you know, britishness Church of
England. Well, It says, England. as
historical Roots, I must therefore Champion it Without
challenging it. even if The concept of England is now being
an English and British is now been so hollowed out.
By liberalism itself. Because he's going to transcend.
You're going to liberate yourself from all categories
from all oppressions. Well, if the term of British can
oppress one man, Then it must be done away with it must liberate
ourselves from these categories. From Nations itself.
From all order tradition. Good.
The Good, The Beautiful true transcend that.
Into this mush that we existed now.
Which is also, I think why people are returning or you know
any young men are seeking they're seeking truth or seeking
permanents, they're seeking The Good, The Beautiful the true and
they're finding it in Orthodoxy. Because it Orthodoxy, does it
very well? I pray for every man who sees
this video. That you would take the
opportunity to go to a Divine Liturgy.
If you have the opportunity, go to a monastery.
Go to an evening service. Stand in the church and be
silent and be present with God. And fix your mind on nothing but
him alone. The hymn be all glory, honor and
worship the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
Amen. Christ has risen.
All right, let me see some father, Moses McPherson.
Okay, let's get back to. Let's listen to a little bit
more of Carl. I'll be right back.
I'm gonna play this and I'll be right back.
I can't imagine. It's a radically different
interpretations of the teachings of Jesus.
That mean on one hand, you're allowed to be Mandy.
On the other hand, you have to be gay.
I just don't think that the dog trying to difference between the
two, is that significant? I think it's just the culture of
the people who are running it. And so the culture of the people
in the Orthodox Churches. Yeah.
We're just gonna be Chad's actually lift weights.
And praise God. Well, I mean, is there anything
stopping the prostitutes from doing that?
I think the process could do that if they want it.
I think that's actually something they this is an option
that's open to them. I'm rather short.
But again I'm not familiar with the doctoral difference.
So let's carry on. A lot of people ask me, Father
Moses, how can I increase my manliness to absurd levels in a
YouTube video, a priest championing form of viral,
Unapologetic, masculinity. That sounds useful, doesn't it?
skinny jeans crossing your legs, using an iron shaping, your
eyebrows and even eating soup I don't And even eating soup are
among the things he derives to feminine.
Well, I don't my skinny jeans, I don't cross my legs.
I don't use an iron because I have a wife, I don't shape my
eyebrows which you can probably tell and I don't eat soup
because I like meat so I'm not I'm doing pretty well according
to Father, Moses split faces. This are you though Carl?
Are you let's what is this list? What is this list that we speak
of? Let's go back to father.
Moses experienced and listen to his list.
Funny enough, I'm gonna add a few things because I think
there's some things that well that's singing, he's the good
Father's missing, anything of course, but I have a few of my
own little things and Littles, but I'd like to add, you know,
people who've been paying attention.
You know what I'm talking about? yeah, and we'll see if I have
any Even allowed to disagree. I don't know, I wouldn't put it
as a disagreement. Let's put it as a, you know, my
own notes. A lot of people ask me, Father,
Moses, how can I increase my manliness to absurd levels?
Well, today we are going to explore those behaviors, which
will take you up and take you down.
We have this beautiful chart here, that is going to show us
where we place Modern Day activities.
Number one. Look just listening.
He's got a category which go from the top, which is Saint
maxing underneath. That is Lumberjack.
I don't need that. I is, I got my first tribal
tattoo underneath that is I have a Timothy Charlemagne.
Mustache. I'm not even quite sure that
reference but I'm I get the idea, it's one of those little,
you know, dirty mustaches permanent 13 year, old mustache
one man, 33 and the last category is in your mom's
basement. So these are the different
categories which is gonna play some some male behaviors modern,
male behaviors. And we'll, we'll see what we
goes. If your routine includes dying,
your beard using some kind of iron mewing waxing shaping your
eyebrows or any other such thing.
You have a wonderful place in your mom's basement where you
can live and post photos of yourself on Instagram.
Showing a physique or facade. That is ridiculous.
I think the ironing he's talking about here is not clothes
ironing. I think he means like ironing
one's hair or something like that.
I might be wrong. Because I mean, you know,
ironing one's clothes like ironing a shirt.
I don't see the problem with that.
I Know Carl made the comment, I have a wife but for young men
who don't have a wife, you should be able to iron your own
shirt. Basically, this is my advice,
really young man. As your growing, you know as
you're seeking one's wife and seeking ones place in the world.
So the one of the key things you can do, excuse me.
Special kind of while battling these this the curse of
modernity in some ways is, is become very self-sufficient.
One of the curses we've had well on this devouring.
Mother aspect is becoming more and more dependent dependent on
other people's opinions, on other people's on, on the world
around us on the government's, our parents Etc.
So the more you can successfully and successfully do for yourself
and not have to, you know, call a plumber for everything or, you
know, you can fix some stuff around the house.
You can keep the house. Clean and tighty.
You can do laundry, you can you know Iron Ore sure. you know,
there's tons of those little examples.
That makes you less and less dependent on having to go to
someone else to do it. Now, it's no shame.
If you don't know how to sew when you need a button.
So to go with someone who knows how to sew a button, that's
fine. And maybe you're just all
thumbs, I'm like that this before my thumb injury, so, you
know, selling something is just I make a mess of it.
So going to your wife or whoever asking for help if someone can
do something you can't that's not it's not a shameful thing
but also realize that that's that's a dependency on you,
right? Here.
I don't know if you want to call every single dependency of
weakness, but it can be one of the things that led me to living
the family here to Australia, Was that we're going to Second
lockdowns. And in Montreal, my daughter had
just been born. I just had a spiritual
awakening. All these things were happening,
right? Didn't know.
What was what was what was coming down the pike?
And I looked around. I said, okay, take this time to
to Really assess what I have when I don't have and, you know,
my liabilities here. And I, you know, did a quick
tallying, you know, I was like, I'm way Overexposed to life
right now because all the things I was kind of depending on the
the like let's say the binging Canada, it's like Canadians
Canadian and things are more or less stable, and, you know,
governments either good or bad, or kind of indifferent, but
overall, it's kind of okay? And, you know, everything was
was fine. I was living in a 90s mindset
for a very embarrassingly long time.
And also know that got disrupted to such a degree that I had to,
and it wasn't just, you know, my personal life.
I didn't just get fired from a job or, you know, Place clock
closed down or something like that.
No, no, it was like, this is global.
This is happening. This is an environmental, is
extensional and I got to deal with this.
And I just looked around and said, well, you know, really my
immediate family, I have my mom and my aunt who are both
getting, you know, aging out there.
They were living in Montreal all the time.
Not know, they're not now either, but So they weren't
close by. I, you know, was out of work at
the time I had just had this hand injuries.
I was still kind of fixing that. I would didn't even know if I
was going to really be able to use this hand anymore covid was
happening. I didn't know if it was gonna be
like restaurants anymore, all this kind of stuff but so you
tally all those things up you're like, okay.
I've got a lot of things that maybe I can fix one or two of
these things, but there's certain one of these certain
list of these things that is beyond me.
To fix the Aging family is, it was a big one.
And I had a few friends, but it's like they, you know, they
got their own lives and so that you can't depend on other
people. You want to depend on someone in
an emergency, but but life was kind of an emergency at that
point. So, I looked around and I said,
well, what my options and one of the options, my wife's
Australian, she has a much bigger family of much, you know,
younger Sims, especially and so it made sense, that's like,
well, if something were to happen to me, or happened to my
wife or happened to both of us, at least, my daughter would have
some backup family. you know, who could help her raise her,
whatever, whatever the situation might be, Now, I'm a poor choice
for Australia. As I told people, I don't like
the beach and I think wearing shorts is queer.
So it's like I'm screwed here in many ways.
Oh and also, I found out just last year that I have
osteoarthritis and Winters here a cold and damp fantastic
environment for someone with arthritis, by the way, it just
means I'm in pain for about four to five months a year.
Yay, just a cherry on top. but, This wasn't about me.
I mean much further along in this podcasting career of mine,
theoretically, at least if I was in a North American time zone,
kind of helpful. But I'm not.
So I gotta find time to do these things.
Exclude other possibilities, etc.
Etc. Right?
Okay. but then again, we'd say The only reason I have this
podcast and everything else is going on is because God's making
it available, I could get into the money show of that but like
I see it. I don't think any of these
things are coincidence or coincidence is like the last
five years really? I could go Point by point of
going well there's God's hand just moving things around.
And even in when things look the worst and I was in my greatest
despair, as he there he was. Making opportunities open for
me. It was just it was just a month
away. Kirker guards says something.
along the lines of Life can only be understood in Reverse, but
could only be lived forward. Meaning that as you get older
and you can look back on your life and all the things that
happened and life itself. Let's say we extrapolate these
into bigger Concepts, you can only really understand them by
looking backwards and putting these things together.
It's a great book called Hopscotch by Julio cortazar, I
highly recommend it. He's post-modernist, I know
people pooped this but I think in terms of artistic movements,
it's not that bad. There's some good stuff in
there, he also wrote blow up, which is great movie.
He the book itself, when you open up the open up the book, it
says there's this little diagram, all these chapters and
he said, well look, you can read the book from page one to page
300, whatever it is. And there's a book and you read
it that way and that's why, or you can use all you can use this
map and jump around the jump around the chapters.
And essentially, the entire book is a story of a man's life told
you don't within a within a time frame.
And his experience is in Paris, he's Argentinian who lives in
Paris and goes back to Argentina, and, and all that
stuff. But the story then, constructs
his life, not in a linear. And then this, and this, and
this, and this sort of a portrait of an artist of young
men, kind of style, but more like how you would relate if I
was trying to tell you the story of my life, I'm going to You
know, dance around quite a bit. Because I'm reflecting and then
I'll go, oh, yeah, well, this happened, but to understand
this, you'll have to understand all these other things, and
these other relationships, and who are these people.
And I have to explain this. It's much more honest and Frank
attempt at detailing a, I believe a fictional characters
life. Through these little points.
These nodes Highly recommended Hopscotch Julio cortazar go read
it. Was saying this.
Organized in San Jose to send you money but it's being dumb.
Oh, that's that's Which, which is being dumb YouTube or
streamlabs. There's a PayPal link there too.
So if you want to do it that way, it's always appreciated.
Appreciate you. Boss legs.
If your thighs are able to cross perfectly like this, they are
simply not big enough. I don't have anything more to
say about that aren't big enough, you either?
Game Boy. Ah, this is anyone who is
involved, in this Warhammer nonsense, any kind of fictitious
lore, that is taking you 100 of hours, to read Dungeons and
Dragons board games that take four to eight hours Grand.
Theft Auto will fall into this as well.
I'm going to say this is definitely in your mom's
basement. These are activities for people
who don't have anything better to do with their life.
If you're a man with a family, it's fine to have a hobby but
when your hobby consumes you know eight hours of your week
every week preparing and executing for it and it has no
tangible return on investment. I'm going to say this is not the
activity that a married man with children should be engaged in
great deep cuts for many of you. I had plans to talk about death
at the second half of the show, but I mean like, this one's like
probably killing some people. Let me just add on to a little
bit. Scape is an issue.
Escapism is formed where there's TV.
I think he talks about sports at some point gaming, anything,
right? Distractions, we just talked
about, you know, these ceremony being distraction the service B
Construction. Oh, so quite often these things
are trying to pull these passions for you in some way,
right? Gamer rage all the rest of it.
The, the issue quite often is if you're trying, if you're It's a
modality of escapism itself. We it's a whole category, right?
We call it Escapist, you know, kind of films, Marvel movies,
it's Escapist kind of entertainment.
What are you trying to escape from?
Is the question. Your life, the stresses of the
world, all those other things, which is fine.
Sometimes you need those momentary breaks.
You know, I oftentimes play video games, just as a, as a
brain cleanse, it's something like I can just like down, I
don't have to really think about something that doesn't matter.
Right? And that's it.
Can be helpful. We'll play some power washing
later and let me see some power washing, nice, passive thing and
gives you that sense of completion.
Ooh, ding so there's there's that, but if you're spend most
of your life escaping from your life, Then you don't really have
a life. Do you?
All you have is the escape? And that that's an issue.
You also have to then. Also, as the question, what are
you trying to escape from? That's just stressful day.
Yeah? Okay, fine.
Stressful week. Oh, Some months, the stressful
year stressful decade. Hey, Maybe you got to start to
address some things. Why are you?
So stressed out, kid? Sing.
This is the time of the year where we should be committing
ourselves to fasting to being in every prayer service.
Every church service that we can committing ourselves to the
prayers of the church. This is for orthodox, like the
Olympics, where we really put forth, our best effort to be
obedient to the church. And to maximize our time, I will
say nothing will create more of a man out of you, than living
the life of Christ as the final days of great and holy land with
his crucifixion and into the midnight service.
Celebrating his resurrection next to me, talk about the
symbol hard things for second quite often, a lot of things in
Orthodoxy. Is the simple heart thing
fasting. Right now, we're in the door
Nation fast and on the device, my my presumably just to meet
fast not doing the heavy lifting up.
Which is good. Really I'll say this as a side
and don't let me forget what I'm trying to get to.
You can chat could happen the for all these years leading up
to going to to church. Now in the last more or less
than six months four or five months now, It's a cautionary
tale about about. diying Orthodoxy and I'll do a whole
show on this eventually but Quite often what happens is, if
you're, if you're inquiring and you're not going to a church and
talking to a priest, which you should be doing, by the way,
don't do anything else but talk to your priest.
Okay? Big giant caveat.
I'll put a scroll if I have to talk to your priest.
You can ask me some questions, I'll try to answer you as best I
can. If it's something simple but
most likely I'm just gonna say talk to your priest.
You know, Jason shut up. You talk to your priest.
This go talk to a priest. Preferably your priest because
you're going to liturgy and you're involved in this, okay,
so talk to your priest. Because what ends up happening,
quite often is we read all these things and go, oh, well, I have
to, you know, on Wednesdays and Fridays abstain, from all these
things. And, and I'm not saying you
shouldn't, right? I'm assuming saying, talk to
your priest, Okay. Prayer rules all those other
things. Talk to your priest.
LOL banner. I can probably do one rep right
now. Talk to your priest because
Chances are. Yes, there's things to shoot for
but also quite often what we're exposed to online now, is a lot
of texts that are made and meant for monastic.
So it's like, yes you should be doing all these things on Mount
Athos. Right?
Or maybe, if you're 20 30, 40 years in the practice.
Sure. But if your day one and you're
taking and you're lift, you're trying to do all the heavy
lifted. Oh, at once and putting it all
on you, you're just gonna Crash and Burn.
You're going to fail. You're going to fail anyways.
Most likely. You're going to have moments of
failures. It's just gonna happen.
And that's okay. But, you know, fail was a light
load first so that you can get back up faster than trying to,
you know, what the weight of Orthodoxy 2000 years of
tradition, on your shoulders, don't do that.
Talk to your priest. Let's see if I can get a banner
up here. Unity, man, we call this the
church gigachad. This is somebody that everyone
can rely on in the Parish Community.
That is able to help with any task that comes up.
Is utterly reliable helps in the altar.
Helps in the choir, all of these things, this is definitely Saint
maxing. When the priest knows that he
can rely on you, and that you're going to be there.
I will tell you, he will hold you in very high regard and
you're contributions to the parish are absolutely
exceptional, full-time job. One thing I get questioned about
a lot is father, I don't have a very manly job.
I work in computer programming or whatever else should I find
something that's more masculine? The fact of the matter is, if
you're working a full-time job and you're able to create a good
enough Revenue to support having your children, your family.
There is absolutely nothing manly about that, you just may
have talents that residing in a certain realm of life.
So if you got a guy who, Is a programmer making 250k a year.
Is it more manly to stop doing that and go be a roofer for 60k
a year? Absolutely.
Not the full-time job. The hardworking husband, this is
definitely lumberjack. And I say that because it
doesn't matter what you're doing.
You're swinging the axe of your mind or your muscles and you're
providing for your family cold plunges and sauna Ah, I'm gonna
put this under, I got my first tribal tattoo, they're fun.
They're enjoyable. There's some health benefits to
both of them. Obviously, there's more benefits
to sauna but it's one of those things if you're doing video of
yourself, cold, plunging and putting it on Instagram or
wherever else, it's like you're saying, I have the mental
hardness to do something difficult, but I really need
your likes and affection. And if you're doing something
hard, do it in private, don't tell anybody and don't try to
create some kind of pseudo, Instagram Persona out of it.
That is lame watching sports watching sports.
Look again all things in moderation.
If you're the type of person is watching the Super Bowl with
people, that's fine. If you're the type of person
who's has an account on some obscure Message Board, where
you're talking about, you know, I don't know, the Detroit Lions
are whatever every single week and you're arguing about the A
coach's decision and all this sort of stuff.
This is your mom's basement. The people who devote massive
amounts of time to Ball Sports, is ridiculous.
Is it? You know, sports are not bad and
sports are great for children because it builds teamwork and
hard work and effort. But when you're the one who's
watching it and you're not actually participating in it,
it's pretty lame. You can enjoy it.
But when it's taking up, huge amounts of time in your life,
that time needs to be utilized in a much better fashion.
Okay, next One, Thirst trapping, a specialty, male, thirst
trapping, you're under 200 pounds your skinny.
You have a six pack because your skinny, you're not, you know,
you're basically victim weight. You're a zebra in the African
desert. You can't bench 300 of 315
pounds. You're trying to show off your
gains for other dudes on Instagram.
This is a Timothy Charlamagne, mustache.
Okay, this is your trying to show something that you think
you've created but it really is very hurt by this comment, by
the way very, very hurt. I Know one knows this really,
but I used to be, I used to be a very pretty man.
Way back in the day you know I was yeah I nice looking face and
a decent body. That's all gone.
Now it's that's it's it's ancient history.
But at one point, Even my wife missed out that one.
She got much more like pre dad, bought me, which was, you know,
already suffering from years of abuse.
All right, if you need the recognition of other men to
cheer you on, for what you've accomplished, you've got some
massive insecurities that you got to work on which goes with
the next one skinny jeans. I'm gonna drop skinny jeans down
in the Timothy, Shalom, a mustache as well.
Look, if you have quads that are less than 24 inches, and you
have to wear jeans that are tight.
There's something strange going on.
There is a point where you're going to have massive quads and
then jeans are just going to be tight.
That's fine. But when you're trying to show
off your physique, but the physique is just Skin and Bones.
There's not much to show off, cussing.
I'll tell you this. This is I got my first tribal
tattoo. This is the David Goggins.
Trying to be hard. Look, cussing, does not make you
hard. The other thing is too.
If you're a hard and dangerous individual, you don't need to
tell other people that it's always, the people who are
telling everybody about how tough and how awesome they are.
That are the least Coughing. The least awesome.
Okay. So when you're cussing and
you're forcing this kind of, I don't know.
Masculine emotional state on other men, there's nothing
masculine about that. Oh, okay.
So I obviously he's talking about skinny jeans, all, of
course, add shorts in there as my grandfather.
Once told me that shorts are for women children and queers and I
have lived my life. By and large 100% by that, by
that metric, I have worn shorts as an adult, man.
I have broken that my commandment for my grandfather
and every single time I'm like I don't like it.
It feels weird. I can't, I can't, I can't enjoy
this. I can't enjoy this at all.
I feel so, I gotta stop doing it.
Oh yeah, kick stupidness, I see. See people say, oh, I gotta lay
up on the, on the, on the kick moderation and then, of course,
when I do that, only get all this stupidness.
So, Sorry, kick people. That's it is what it is.
Yeah, we won't get into the whole short thing, but, you
know, I've said it on the channel many, many times.
And there you go, you can deal with it on.
I don't care. So just skinny jeans.
Yeah, this tightness, it's it's, it's, it's, it's basically my
the, the, the, the Uh, the resting point on this is, why
are you exalting your body? It's fine to be fit.
It's fine to work out. And obviously, father Moses
does, and it's fine to, you know, all that kind of stuff.
Great how you know, have a body, have b b healthy.
I'm not, you should do that. You know, don't don't follow my
lead on it. It's the look at me, look at me,
look at me, look at me. Look at me, okay.
All right. Even skinny jeans, just try to
show off something. And as father's Moses saying
here, you got nothing to show off their kid.
So what are you trying to show off things?
It's kind of feminine too, right.
That's a skinny jeans. Like what I'm supposed to look
at your ass. Now, what what is this?
The But yeah, it's it's lustful. Vainglory is pride will Behavior
and the same thing with cussing and I'm someone who, you know, I
have always enjoyed a good cuss but I it's it's now I look at
the is a bit of a shameful thing.
You know, I still I still think words are words and should be
used a Sprinkle in things sometimes sometimes, sometimes
it really is just appropriate. There is no other word to be
used. What else you're gonna say?
You gotta say it. That being said it's it's it's
it's showing a lot of control. And as soon as you start losing
control over your mouth, your thoughts, and your mouth.
You're gonna you're one step away from having loss of control
of your actions, and your gearing yourself up too, right?
You're getting yourself. All excited around.
I'm gonna get a route up. this this and that the other thing,
You know, racial evidence, all the other stuff I get it, it can
be fun, there's, you know, hahaha joke, joke, joke joke,
the problem is, it's it goes from being joke, joke, joke to
other things really easily. You know, and it's not about
hurting other people's feelings or being PC or all that kind of
stuff. It's what it does to you on some
level. It's it's again showing its
Whatever I catch myself doing it.
It's just again that feeling of like what are you 13?
Like you can't control your mouth.
What was wrong with you? He calm and peaceful in the
midst of life and all of its stressors and difficulties and
not having to cuss is actually way more masculine having a
large family. We call this.
Having the full quiver of arrows as the psalmist says, this is
Saint maxing. This is when you have completely
given yourself over to the God's design for family life.
And why do I say this? Because having a lot of kids,
takes a lot out of you. As a man, it is an incredible
burden to trust God that he's going to help see you through
it, that you're going to make it that you're going to have the
ability and wherewithal to tackle this, you know, when you
have one or two kids, people normally cut off because it's so
hard and I'm going to tell you from experience, you know,
within the last couple weeks I have had times where literally
children were pooping and vomiting all over themselves,
multiple children. Even at the same time and to go
through an ordeal like this, it does, it pushes you To your
absolute limit of mental fortitude to stay, calm to take
care to clean up everyone to get everyone washed off and back to
bed. This is absolute manly in
service and in action to the people that you love the most
and are the most important to you, your wife and your children
eating Okay, as an add-on to that, I keeping in mind that
what father, Moses, I think his audience here, his intended,
audience is for young men specifically, right?
So we'll keep that in mind because for some of us if you're
older, let's say, your my age right.
God bless you. How is your back feeling?
Not good. I know how was those knees.
Creating a little bit, aren't you?
But if you give us a get an older and you you didn't have
kids or for some other reason you can't have children and
you've chosen with your wife for your your spouse, maybe you're
not married, you didn't adopt or not being involved.
In life of children, on some level is very important for
them. You know, find a way to involve
yourself in the life of a child. and do it dutifully if you're a
stepfather or your, you know, handle that as As much of a
responsibility as you can, right?
It's difficult. We don't live in a perfect
world. So people are going to have come
to this in different ways and your situations are going to be
different and all the rest of it.
But being involved in life of the child, on some on some
primary level on a daily level, or something like that.
It does something to you. Obviously, the most preferred
best way of doing it is with your own kids.
And yeah, maybe having, you know, multiple children is great
but even if you have one like myself and many others, Give
yourself to that child. you know, give your attention, give
your give your give your efforts to the child.
And do it purposely not because you want to be the father of the
year or not because of what it gives you necessary, it will
give you things but that's not really the purpose.
It's that you can't. It's the same thing about why
you want to cultivate peacefulness.
No cussing controls all these things.
Why? Because that's what masculinity
really is. One of the problems we've had in
the modern world. There's even goes back to our
grandparents, my grandparents as for some younger people, your
great grandparents or so. Is that many of the men who
lived through World War One, the Great Depression World War Two?
Even those who maybe didn't go fight in the wars, they were
affected by these things. this is the age of the treble,
though, I talked about, and They're modeling for let's say,
Boomer Boomer men and and their daughters was not complete.
Is also quite often the generation that started to turn
away from God. The Lost Generation Hemingway
and all the rest of those guys, you know, we're openly
atheistic, quite a few of them. Post World War One.
Many people came out of that war with.
Great question is, how can an all-loving all won?
All of them. God do such allows such thing to
happen was so horrific. Now stories out of Korean Wars,
as well. Or men turned into monsters.
One of the other reasons I believe that once the further
you go into Orthodoxy, the something that you search to
encounters that Orthodoxy has suffering front and center,
that's suffering is a very key component to the faith.
That's just Orthodox Christianity.
In general, of course, Christ suffers for us. but the other
way of looking at it, is that when we ask those questions,
why? Did not God not intervene. and
one, I guess the One rebuttal would be.
How do you know he didn't? You think this was bad?
You might lack imagination. Maybe you could have been a lot
worse. the other thing is that, oftentimes, we need to suffer,
we need to In order to be brought to back to God.
And the time frame, may not be even be our lifetime.
Look at all the suffering from the last.
Let's say 120 years that has brought us to this point and now
men young men are flocking to the church. now, I'm not saying
that, I know the designs of God, I don't I'm not even saying that
these this occurrences is the ultimate end of things but it is
a consequence of consequences. And we needed those other things
to happen in order to get us to hear.
Again, this idea that life can only be understood backwards but
must be lived forwards. We are living.
We are always going forwards to the next day, to the next moment
to the next word. So the next thought But yet to
understand these things and where they came from, we can
only do that by looking backwards.
Being informed by that, which had come before and adding on to
that knowledge. Again, one of the curses of
modernity tends to be to vilify the past, and never touch it
again, Bad Evil, things, bad, evil people, bad evil things.
We did battle things to these poor.
Wonderful innocent people. And now we must feel guilt and
shame. And that must be our narrative
going forward. Right.
This one before. We won't even deal with the A
History, A History. The struggle with me the wrestle
with this word. The Non-historical record, how
these things don't make sense in.
If we accept that human beings are basically the same and have
been the same for thousands of years and one way, shape or
another and spiritually. Host Christ.
After death. After the resurrection human
beings have been changed in many ways we interact with the world
or phase and understanding of reality.
But there's also fundamental things about us and our fallen
nature that we're still with us and I've been with us forever.
And we will be struggling with this to the very end and one way
shape or form. so, I realized something I've veered off.
I meant to get back to a point. I've abandoned that point but
there you go. I just lose the other point.
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Okay good. Hockey starts.
We'll get there. Back to large, family, involve
yourself in the life of a child. One way shape or form become a
teacher, a mentor, you know, volunteer.
Go to church, be around the kids there, whatever, right?
And the kind of guy also, by the way, that means you have to
become the kind of person that they people want to leave their
kids around. Here.
Don't be creepy. 2. Listen, if you're eating a soup
that you could not eat with a fork, okay, what I mean is the
soup if the soup does not contain large chunks of meat,
but requires a little spoon that you slurp off of there is
something catastrophically wrong going on.
This is definitely a Timothy shallow, May mustache.
All right, when you eat soup, it should have chunks of protein in
it, it should be basically a watery meal of goodness, a
ancient Scottish braaf. Okay, if it is gold up and you
sit there drinking water by the Spoonful over and over again.
There is something completely a masculine about that last but
not least, I think this is a cultural thing.
You know, I'll let but with that because I love me some good
tomato soup, a good thick tomato soup.
A nice. Broth, it's good, you know,
doesn't always have to have chunks in it abortion, you know,
there's there are chunky abortion, there's more pureed
abortions and I like me like me a good borsche though, with but
you had stuff on top of it, right?
But yeah, I think this is I'm going to leave.
This was a cultural thing. The most beautiful.
accoutrement, a man can have A fanny pack.
Now this definitely goes under Lumberjack and the reason I say
this, Is because only a man who does not care, what anyone
thinks including his own wife. Is able to really rock this with
with pride and sincerity. And you notice too the guys who
want to wear the fanny pack are the same guys with big quads.
It's hard to get things in your pocket.
It's hard to carry everything on you and so you've got to put it
in the fanny pack. This is an ultimate item of
convenience and at the same time exceptionally polarizing and so
it is that only The Lumberjack the man who has reached a Peak
Physical status and is able to handle his business, will rock
the fanny pack with great pride, joy, and no shame that.
I, you know, I'm gonna agree to disagree with a good father here
fanny packs. Where a jacket pockets, you know
this is why we're wearing wearing pants, very useful cargo
pants if you really got a item issue.
First of all, you probably got your probably carrying around
too much stuff. And there's there's that also
that problem, right? Which is why you walking around
with that stuff. See Fanny packed.
Me just means purse, it's just that's just purse.
Yeah. That's saying you know, we're a
jacket whereas sports jacket, it's nice.
They're all utility. Got pockets in them and stuff.
Great that way. Just yeah.
Because see my my thing would be this if I see walking around the
panty panty pack, I'm like, oh well one where's your jacket
two? Why do you need to watch stuff?
What he got in there. Like tampons or what?
What's going on there? Like what, you know.
And I get it, I guess if you're you're so muscular that you're
paying, you can't get things in your pockets like you wear a
jacket. They come with pockets, they're
building. That's amazing thing.
It's a great thing. We're going to say, he says my
beet. Crop was awful this year.
No, borsche for me, unless I try for a fall crops, I love me some
good fresh beets here. Delicious.
Okay, let's go back to Carl. This is only going to take us
what we're only two two hours in folks for a 14 minute video, but
we've watched other stuff. This is how I'm balancing these
things out, you know. Before during the gold streams,
I would just keep talking hammer and yeah, and make a 15 minute
video last five hours. Now, at least I'm doing a
supplementary see Look at, look at the work I do for you.
Send me your money. There are other videos of him
powerfully built, father of five weightlifting to the sound of
heavy metal. Yeah, I wonder why this is a
young man. He was raised as a Protestant
and once worked as roofer. That now, serves as a priest in
the Russian Orthodox church outside, Russia in Georgetown,
Texas. This is a Global Network whose
headquarter in New York. It's been expanding across the
US. Mainly, as a result of
converting people from this is a phenomenon that's really
prevalent role. I find people coming from
outside face, who weren't necessarily clergy and other in
other another phase coming. You know who were quite a few
blue callers, who find their way going to liturgy and find their
way going up the hierarchy until he receives the calling become a
priest or Deacon, or or original.
This happens quite a bit and I'm not well versed in the
Protestant or Roman Catholic World.
Maybe it's maybe it's a phenomenon everywhere.
But I feel that because it's it's special because it's it's a
very much a Because it's an English speaking Church allows
English Services. It's reaching people who weren't
necessarily brought up with a certain tradition with the
Orient. Expectation of you know you're
young you're getting you're going to go into the clergy like
Roman Catholics right here. Go to Seminary.
So there's that difference to people coming to to the faith at
different points in their life and from different backgrounds.
So it's, it's an interesting one.
I think it also helps right now for a lot of people because, you
know, father Moses was roofer. He spent you know, Decades of
his life, not involved in this, he can just from his videos, you
can see he can talk to people to an assumed lady to his assumed
young men audience. Let's say with an ease and a
familiarity that maybe someone who was only raised let's say in
an academic kind of theological school, would maybe have a
struggle with right? He's, he's got the personality,
he can talk to the people and that's I think, overall stray,
not saying that those who are academically money, can't do
that either. But I think, you know what I'm
saying? Like if you know, someone who
works trades or even someone like me working Hospitality, I'm
gonna talk to other people, you know, middle, you know, other,
you know, Wage Slave 4hl, people in a much different way.
Because I've been there, man. I know how it feels.
In the last six months. Father Moses prepared, 75 new
followers for back, doesn't in his church.
The mother of God just north of Austin.
When my wife and I converted 20 years ago, we used to call
Orthodoxy the best kept secret because people didn't just
didn't know what it was. But in a year and a half, our
congregation has tripled in size During Sunday.
Let's see if I've missed his church, I'm struck by the number
of men in their 20s and 30s praying and crossing himself at
the back of the Nave and how this religion seems to attract
young men uneasy with life in modern America.
Well, that's because the tone and tenor of the thing is
Eastern and Massillon and not Weston and feminine.
That's the reason. Software engineer Theodore tells
me, he had a dream and what a job, and a wifey adored, but he
felt empty inside. As if there was a hole in his
heart, he believes that Society has been very harsh on men and
it's constantly telling them, they are in the wrong.
He complains that when men are that maina criticized for wanted
to be the breadwinner and sports, a stay-at-home wife, we
are told that's a very toxic relationship nowadays, that's
not how it should be. And so you see a lot of men who
are like, hmm, actually, don't agree with the work, feminism,
that dominates Western Society. Maybe there's another way of
looking at relationships and I'm surprisingly almost all the
convicts. The orphanage have opted to home
school, their offspring partly, because they believed women
should prioritize their families rather than their careers.
Why shouldn't they? Why shouldn't they?
I mean again, this is just traditional family values as up
until well, you know, the 90s and 1960s in the west, we also
believed in And instead of women being corporate drones whose job
is to increase the GDP, they were actually tasked with
keeping house and raising children and enjoying their
lives. While the men got to go out and
be the Breadwinners. So they had a position of
dignity and the women had the ability to create a much more
sort of lovely society in which we could live.
You know. It's very interesting is the
decline of volunteerism. Since women have fled the home,
the horrible oppressive home and gone into the workforce.
They used to be in like Victorian England and America.
huge numbers of not just Charities, but like, Private
Social Clubs and Endeavors that were run by women in order to
make sure that the society in which we lived was nice and deal
with people, like the poor the sick you know orphanages things
like this. A lot of these would be wrong
privately by women. It's almost certain limitations
on people and terms of where they can even aspire to be let
alone actually fulfill. Kind of good thing.
Orthodox Church. No, pre can get married and have
children. It's the difference from the
Roman, Catholics. However, women are forbidden
from becoming priests. Our deacons are in sub, Deacons.
Now, that doesn't mean that women don't fulfill important
roles within the church. now, not just the priest wife, which
a machuca which is, which is a Sort of almost special term.
But, but for all the other women attending New Jersey.
There's there's roles they can play for me.
They're singing in the choir to helping organize volunteer
groups and charity groups and Outreach and all these other
things, beautifying the church and ways that men probably don't
even think about oh these these wonderful good things they can
do that are just as important in many ways as everything else.
Because it all feeds into it. It's the experience.
Total experience. That's important.
And everyone has a role in that experience.
Even if you're just seeking, so you're staying in the back and
you're, you know, trying to remember when the cross yourself
and about. What are you doing here and Lord
of Mercy. Lord, of Mercy.
Lord of Mercy. All that stuff?
Yeah. Sure.
You're fulfilling a purpose. You just don't know it yet you
don't you. You haven't been given this area
a role yet. That's okay.
Your role is to learn. And to be in the presence of
God, that's there's your role. You're fulfilling it good for
you. Go to church, talk to your
priest, you know. Just the act of going.
You're doing something that a lot, but what?
99% of your population of your standing populations, probably
not doing. You're going in your attending
and you're being a tent full. You're paying attention
listening? You're making it not about you.
or trying to, Taking those first steps.
These are good things. Celebrate them.
So good about that. You're allowed to feel your love
to feel good about that. Can't take that away from you.
That's why I always say about prayer, prayer, prayers is
wonderful thing because it's free.
Do it. Whatever you want.
Do it right now. Lord, Jesus Christ.
And God have mercy measure Center.
Just do it. No one can stop you from doing
it. You just do it in your mind. you
don't have to say the words, just Think them be intentful of
them. It's wonderful to wonderful
gift. It's free.
Easy memorized. Jesus prayer.
Four lines is Lord, Jesus Christ on a God.
Have mercy me a sinner. There you go.
Words off demons, bad, thoughts and tensions.
Keeps you centered? Keep your humble. what's not to,
like, Going to liturgy. Sometimes it's difficult.
I know for me it's takes an hour to get to to church, not always
easy. The demands.
And as you don't, you just don't feel like it Don't feel like the
weird thing too, is you having a prayer rules?
Sometimes you just don't feel like sink in prayer.
Like what's that about? I always say my prayers.
Why do I today? Why do I don't know?
Do I gotta? Think how long you're prayer
rule is probably about 10 10, 15 minutes tops.
Right. I know.
I know there's people there's Ortho chats that in the chat or
I just pray for five hours every night.
Well, good for you but you know, for the for the majority of us,
it's not that long really and even if it's an hour, it's an
hour, half hour, whatever it is. Now you know you you think of
all the other things you waste time on that's what I always
catches me sometimes, right. I'm like oh God I see my
prayers. Like you just watched you just
didn't sit there watching YouTube, been watching wrestling
shoot videos for last hour and a half.
Could've gotten like multiple layers of prayers in this one.
Where's your mind? I'll tell you one, one, where I
fail constantly. There's I multiple points of
failure. Like I said, I'm the worst.
It's the morning prayers in the prayer book.
It says the first, it's the first thing you should do.
You know, get up. And start your prayers.
You know, don't do anything else.
Be present with God. And I fall into check my phone,
the alarm goes off. So then, you know, I'm there.
So scroll, it's just habit Scrolls, Twitter, I go washroom.
I have a smoke, maybe, get the kettle on the boil and then say,
my prayers. That's on me.
Bad bad, bad me. Why?
Where's your orientation? What's going to be important to
you today? This, this is part of it but
this is God show. I've offered it up.
And if you know tomorrow it's like quit the show, I'll quit
the show. It's not on me.
There's the other brilliant part of this.
When you understand that you bear responsibility for your
actions, your thoughts, your words you bear responsibility.
You can give yourself a little bit of a break.
Again, go to church, talk to your priest.
Here's a little bit of a break. You can give yourself in the
modern world if you're just coming to this now, is that you
didn't know. Okay, you're ignorant.
You didn't know what you didn't know.
And you've been saturated. With this.
BS. Your whole entire life.
Materialism. Boom.
GP, go up. Quality boom, individuals and
boom. Distractions, boom?
Pornography, boom. All of it.
Boom, boom. The fact that if you're
listening to this and you're made a decision to break free of
it and go to go to church, talk to your priest.
That one step one step. Is massive in today's world.
You're at zero. You're trying to get to one.
Or let's say you're less than one right?
Trying to get there, trying to get that first step, over the
over the fresh old and then the next one, the next one.
And the next one. I think both gets easier and
harder as you go all these things.
Oh, I think that's where I remember.
I was gonna try to say and now see the threads sometimes, and
my old decrepit. Brain, come together, easy hard
thing. Most of Orthodoxy.
You're going to find out or as I'm finding out, I'll put it on
me and I'm finding out. It's filled with the easy heart
things. Prayer rules easy.
Sometimes very hard. Fasting easy.
Don't eat this. But I won't eat it.
I really want to eat it. First time you fast, you're
gonna find out how how, like bacon Bacon bacon.
But at stake but you don't even have it in front of you like a
boy but she's Burger. I just want a cheeseburger.
You haven't had a cheeseburger in a week.
I'm gonna eat chicken or is it weird things?
Come up. Because you're denying yourself.
And the adversary hates it, when you're denying yourself, because
you're making one step again, that one stone, Small Step of
divorcing, yourself from the world.
Taking a step back, take a step away going.
Ah, what else is on the menu? I can deny myself.
I can get my control, but this. My biggest thing is smoking,
right? If smoke on Stream, So supposed
to be not under advisor. Advisory of my priest is to use
Wednesdays and Fridays on to smoke.
And I have been horrible at that.
So sorry. Father John Here's my public
confession. I suck.
The easiest thing in the world. Is to not do something.
Big. It's like almost like be lazy
about your addiction. Just just don't do it.
God, I'll smoke tomorrow, get around to it.
Or I'll eat that. Cake or whatever it is.
Whatever your thing is, whatever.
The thing is that gets got you in your grip.
Easiest thing in the world is not doing something but it's
also the hardest thing, when it's all, you know, how to do
when it's become part of you in some way.
And that's the hooks You know, I envy those people.
I don't even know if they're telling the truth, but some
people are always like, saying I could just have one cigarette
after a good meal. Oh, So, it's always piss party
people. It's also those same people who
get drunk at the bar. And then, like, smoked half your
pack. Yeah, those, those are the same
people but regardless, I don't smoke.
Oh, he's poking. I'd go buy a new because of you.
You certainly were doing it tonight.
Bob, I don't know what. Anyways, I digress.
Easy hard things. Liturgy.
There's more to it and I really don't want to Debate anything by
making too simplistic but like your first time at liturgy the
first time you go. And, by the way, I Go to
whatever service you can. It was recommended me to go to a
Vespers which is my parish is a Saturday service.
I also kind of recommend that I think it's, I think that's a
good one. Liturgy can be a lot.
There's a lot going on, you know, Vespers depending on your
Parish. Does it tend to be a little
less? Everything.
I have more of a chance to talk to your preset words and so
that's a little bit less demands on.
So, but as you will right again go to church, talk to your
priest. Either way. your first service,
all you need to do is go you go and stand in the back.
You know, maybe you have a if you go into a Russian Orthodox
Church, you the little ladies sometimes.
Right? Who are going to tissue and
they'll tell you Different churches, have different
Traditions or whatever. But chances are, you can just go
in and just stand there in the back and laundry bees and views.
Don't wear shorts and no, not my thing.
But where is shirt and pants? Okay, nice shoes that Sunday
Best. Yeah, do that. we're a big giant
tuxedo, but You know, be clean at least.
Shave. And if you can, Go.
Go and see. Come and see.
And you're at that point, you're only responsibility is to be in
the presence of it. Drink it in.
Easy. Don't go to know what to do with
your hands, you know, try to do the cross when it was someone
else does a cross, do a cross. Someone bows, you bow bow.
They say, Lord of Mercy. Say, Lord of mercies pretty
simple, right? Thank you.
Till you make it kind of thing. Or just stand there in the back,
is your first time. Chances are no one's going to be
paying attention to you, anyways.
It came in quietly. Don't knock over the.
Don't knock over the candles. Come and see just be present.
Simple. I can speak of some experience.
It took me a long time to go to liturgy because I felt unworthy
And I am. I am unworthy. but that feeling
of unworthiness had was like, unworthiness, shame all the rest
of it, like I couldn't I couldn't take that step over the
threshold, mentally. And so, I made every excuse in
the world. Oh, there's on me and all these
others. I had a I guess three years ago
I was up in Perth so I had to do medical exams from my, my visas.
And I could have gone. I was there on a Sunday, easy
peasy could have gone to the Ukrainian Church that's there in
Perth. Canonical church or Russian or
whatever and just gone. Come and see, just could have
gone. And I was planning on it in my
mind I'm like I'm gonna go to liturgy on it.
I'm there might as well wasn't that far.
Keep jumping over, get there. Couldn't do it. day of couldn't
do it. Overcome. with that sense of
inadequacy shame. Prevent me from from there and
you can blame it on the demons. You can blame it on a whole
bunch of stuff, but it's you. so to overcome these things and as
I said to anyone, if you've gone If you're going.
Just to go. is a major accomplishment in the model
World, major Do not understand it in yourself.
Now. Don't go walk around.
Billy badass. Oh, I want to liturgy over.
Really okay. Okay, good.
Go again. Keep going.
Keep going. if I do nothing else with this show, For other things
that I'm doing this thing. If the only thing that this show
ever accomplishes, even if I don't make any money or whatever
have you, right? And I'm forced to other means.
That's fine. The The Hope really is the the
intent and the hope is this is to increase, it's not even to
bring you to church. God's going to do that for you,
okay? It's not to improve your life.
God, your priest. The church is going to do that
for you. They're going to heal you.
These are all the things that can happen when you go.
I'm here, just as your personal cheerleader, man.
We're gonna watch some stuff, clear, some stuff out to get
these doubts, to attack that modern brain to break.
That liberal frame. That part of the show is never
changed. My work, will never change on
that. But it's also just to encourage
you. My story through my journey
through. The journey stories and journeys
of others. And tell you, it's okay.
It's going to be okay. But you got to make those steps.
You gotta do the easy hard things.
And the more you do them. The easier and harder it gets.
Not gonna lie to you. Some aspects of this is really
hard. Confronting yourself. as you
walk down that Royal path, you're going to pass yourself or
so. I'm told I'm not there yet.
But you'll pass this false self. This idea, this worldly self of
you, that is not even you. It's a concoction, it's a, it's
a amalgamation of your parents and your world, your all these
other things. You wear them.
Yes, sir to strip that way. To get to who you are.
I think this is a great work of Father, Moses and others like
that targeting young men about these about these these subjects
because again, we're we've been cursed with modeling broken men.
Who were given the moniker the great generation.
Heroes in many ways they were and I'm not taking anything away
from them. It pains me to even talk about
this stuff because I hold my grandfather of that, generation
of two great regard. But in many ways these men were
broken and were not traditional men.
So when we talk of traditional masculinity we're not even
talking about the same thing. There's your word concept
fallacy. Mask literally, what does it
mean? What is a traditional role?
The father and how the father I'm talking dads, you know, not
just the father or your priest but dads or how we supposed to
interact with our children with our wives, with the world.
What? All are instincts and all our,
let's say almost Christian DNA, has been outlawed or subdued or
made vulgar. And then of course we look okay,
well we look to aspects of our fathers.
Okay well looks at the world we're looking to our dads and to
our grandfathers and we realize that they've been modeling bad
models as well. Oops, and not just their
struggling with their own personal etcs, but their concept
of masculinity has been altered. And I think that's on purpose.
The Revolutionary spirit that luciferian.
Spirit has gone through. These categories has done a
revolution on the idea of the concept of what it is to be
masculine. And over the last 60 years, has
gone through the feminine. And now we're going to go into
the category of the child. I don't think it's by accident,
or by coincidence. That the big thing right now,
Jeffrey, Epstein, PDF files, child Rings, all that stuff.
That's aspect of the child. you know, prunes The transformed.
The medically, transformed. Many of them children.
Prepare you know puberty blockers for those who have not
gone through puberty 13 14 year, olds are you know people are
going through it now. On what happens with those kids,
you know, starting now the next over the next five.
So years when they start to realize what was done to them,
Revolution. In the category of the child.
so, the responsibility did Of Matt of men.
Is to get our heads out of our asses, excuse me.
It's not fair. You're right.
It's not fair. But it is what it is.
There's your responsibility. Here is your time.
You will live it. How do you wish to live it?
Here is your struggle, will you? Will you take up arms against
yourself? Against your own predilections
and lies. And deceits.
It's not all just from adversary, they stem from him.
Sure. The demons love to Feast on it
but we Supply them with a steady stream of it ourselves, don't
we? No more excuses.
Come see. As I progressed along this path,
and as hopefully, as I gain authority to talk to such
matters. Well, we'll talk about spiritual
warfare. Well, be well be anytime soon.
We'll get into it, I'm sure. I don't sound too this you know.
Now people go. You're blocking.
I'm not this is Hope pilling. This is the greatest hope pillow
in the world. You don't have to go anywhere.
Well, go to church. Talk to your priest.
Yes, I'm saying is The Battleground is in somewhere in
the Middle East. Or Ukraine.
If you're not there already. Or in some other country and
some other land or down. The street is here.
You're in it. Bow ground is your soul. and
just like prayer, you can fight these things, these This enemy.
Whatever you want. You don't have to ask
permission. She get advice.
You gotta get prepared. You need this.
You need the protection of the church.
I made this mistake last year. And I got spiritually beaten up
for it. Don't DIY this stuff, man.
It's a reason why there's tradition has been around for
2000 years because it works. And that's why you need it.
To talk of the to give a spiritual answer to Carl.
Why are young men are being attracted to the church?
You talk about truth beauty. Tradition.
Yes. But for many of these young men,
this isn't even their tradition. Why are white?
Why are white Anglo men going to the Greek Orthodox Church?
Many of them probably aren't Greek. or the Roku or, you know,
Why is that happening? Because it's a tradition Beyond
tradition. So, I'll just language and
culture. It's true.
The apocalypse is, his age is revealing all these things.
We're seeing the truth, we're getting more access to it, not
all of it, but we're getting it. And in Christianity, we say,
well, there is there is such a thing as absolute objective
truth. and it came to us as a man, The logos incarnate.
Here's Christ. There's a truth.
As we pursue Christ, as we deepen understanding and our
love for Christ, we also deepen our respect and access to truth.
That's what you want. And you, whether you want it or
not. So what you need, you need
access to reality. This is a sort of a layup too.
I also I want to talk about everything being produced.
Something that Putin we get to speech.
And so it's always stuck with me.
We talked with the Empire of Lies, its propaganda stuff.
Sure. There's a but again, there's a
truth in it. You can't live, these lies
forever. Without either going insane or
going to church or maybe both? we understand now, and I think
the Fatal flaw was trying to get people to man, as a woman, a
woman is a man all these category errors and so
thankfully. By God's grace.
It's enough of us who went that. Know.
Maybe gen xers were put on this on this Earth as a generation.
The West to go. No, no no no no no no, no, no,
no. That what what did you just say
that? No.
I drink out of a garden hose, sir.
Well through my childhood. I'm not buying this.
No, no. You know why?
Because I'm a Bender is the best, it was and the best not
gonna accept this kind of stuff. No, no sir, raise by two heart,
and that's some garbage talk, you know, not gonna do that.
So there's a greater designer. Not just to return to sometime
from before. But a stability of reality.
You can't build on Sand or online doesn't work very well
dolls over we watch people who are exalted anyways. so I think
he has some doubles deals, just think about this, but Will Smith
the other day Will Smith If you're in the night, you know,
in growing up, the 90s. Or, you know, alive during the
90s. Whatever It Will Smith was like
everywhere. Fresh Prince of Bel-Air rapper,
Fresh Prince of Bel-Air got into the movies Independence Day.
That guy was just Home runs racking up W's in the chat.
Every single thing he did was just magnificent, wonderful
great. Until?
He became a victim of his own success in many ways.
Maybe he's hiding. His rumor that he's hiding some.
Secrets. regardless, marries a woman who obviously just hates
him As children who are, you know, his son's now doing weird
acting out stuff. I don't know what's going on
with his daughter. And you see, you know, you just
look at this man, every time you see him every time I see him in
public, I'm like I just feel bad for her.
He'll Man, who has everything right, aim Fortune.
Or who at least had it. and now you're looking like, I almost
feel, I feel the same sympathy for Will Smith as I would with a
homeless person on the street. House that happen.
Oh, because this isn't all there is All the fame in the fortune
attention, all the rest of it, oftentimes destroys people.
More compromises them in another ways leads them into hanging
out. With very compromised, people
who do very compromised things. We get my drift and that's all
coming out now. Well, enough of it.
Enough of that, we can see. Eyes to hear.
There's your eyes to hear, eyes to see.
Here's to hear. We're seeing it.
I mean, we're more or less powerless, to do anything about
it. Authorities don't seem to want
to do anything about it or they're doing a two.
So they're motivations are different.
Or they're doing, or they are reacting to it, but the reacting
to it over here, not over here, where our attention is at, we
want, you know, that's a Epstein to be brought to Justice and
yet, you know, through all the investigation, they're bringing
these other PDF files, too to Justice.
We're not looking over here, we're looking here.
I'm okay, I'm open with that. That narrative.
I'm fine with that. The problem is you're seeking
this Justice, this thing. This truth is this
reconciliation, this catharsis That you're unlikely to ever
get. For one reason or another. so,
The way out of this, is to realize that that catharsis is a
false catharsis. that, unless you the victim of these things,
Or was a victim in general of these things.
That the Justice you want is not even the justice for that act.
You want this Justice for your life?
Just as for the lies, just for the, the for eating the food of
the pigs Justice for being brought low.
For not only just being told lies but believing them and
speaking them. Living them.
How do you get Justice for these things?
In your lifetime. Go to church, talk to your
priest. Return.
Repent redeem. That's how you want to beat
them. I want to be them.
You really want to? Pee.
Oh, the the adversary go to church.
Talk to your priest. Go to liturgy.
Take the step. Continue to take steps.
Submit to the authority of your priest, and of the church.
Do what he says. Well, I've watched a lot of RJ
and I know that your day, one, you're not even day one.
You're you're day, you're you're here your day, almost won.
Go to church, talk to your priest.
People who are doing this. Don't need to hear this.
Oh, they still need encouragement.
I hope they people who are farther along this path than me.
Can tune into the show and find Value out of it.
Here's something that I have back to this.
A little bit of. Bathroom break.
Something that I thought about though, that really hit me.
You know, keeping keeping humble, it's hard. sometimes,
especially if you're, you know, Been giving gifts or you're
this, you're that or you know, these things and you memorize
that sure energies, and Essences sure.
I was saying it liturgy. We'll call it last week was at
some point. And one of the young families
there had been baptized a year ago.
Husband and wife and child and they're little boys, a toddler.
But let's say two years old. They all been baptized and so
that they all can receive communion.
I have not been baptized in here in the Orthodox Faith, so I
can't take me. As I'm in my cat against. and,
It's a nice. It, I don't know why I thought
this but I looked over that toddler.
And realized it that that toddler.
Is more of Orthodox and I am. On my family, I have lineage and
I've read the books and I've yeah. that kid can take liturgy,
you can me. I'm humbling.
Keep those in mind. It's There are layers of this,
there's levels of this, and it's not just because you're going on
the way up, right? Another thing of the majority
that modern is going to have to contend with, it's like it's,
you know, sometimes it's not like you're going to get like an
office, you know, cubicle a corner office or you know major
you know there's your raise Make yourself useful.
Be productive. Stay humble.
And things will just happen all around you.
Opportunities will arise. And and the good.
The great thing is I can't speak for everyone's life and
everyone's opportunities, but by and large are going to be good
ones. Because they're coming from good
places. There's something you're
surrounded by a bunch of people who kind of care about you.
This is not nice. Press play a little bit, it'll
be right back. We'll play a little bit more of
this and then we're going to get to take a little tiny bit of a
break, and then, I'll let you go as well.
We'll turn into the crowd, we'll see what the crowd wants, what
they people, what? What the chat would prefer can
play with a power washing, listen to some stuff, or we can.
A continued on with it, with what I have to say about
everything being produced or we'll figure it out.
We're going into, what? Almost our threes.
So a good time to maybe change things up a little bit.
We'll see. See how you feel.
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of you, okay? I would play a little bit more
of this and we'll get back. Go and do things that they found
to be socially necessary. But because actually they went
just slaves and they won't just change in the home.
They had a vital social role and this is all of course with it
away with women joining the workflow.
So they're too busy to do that now, The kind of socially
important things that you used to be done.
But the, the genuine sort of sinews of the community
together, not just on happening. And so we wonder why Society is
declining, my things feel so Hollow.
Well, there are lots of tangible things that women used to do
that. Just not doing now.
And actually maybe a return to a kind of tradition in this
regard. Might be a wise thing but
whatever, I'm just evil far, right?
Or I've Been Told Father, John Whitford, Whiteford, sorry.
And that's priest. There says that homeschooling in
shows religious education and a way of protecting your children,
while avoiding any talk about transgenderism or the 57 genres
of the month or whatever. And you can see exactly how this
is getting into people's minds. Oh, the Russian Orthodox Church
is not doing these things. But the Protestant Church won't
stop, won't shut up about them. Which one do I choose?
Comparing the millions of worshipers in America's
Evangelical megachurches. The number of Christian Orthodox
tiny and about 1% of the population of course.
But you can see why it would be appealing because they're not
woke. And then not going to reinforce
transgenderism in your children or whatever.
It's and, The whole thing is coded male.
Anyway, a smaller study of 773 converts backs at the trend that
Pew. Research Center found that
suggests Orthodox Christians are up to 64% male which is up, 46%
in 2007. So you can see that the natural
sort of flow of men into the church has rendered it more
massively Ladies If you're looking for a date, Looking for
a good husband, a good man or someone who's trying to be a
good man. That's important too.
You know, wanting to be a good man, making the effort in every
way in every single way, possible reads, you know, it it
really does. And I don't know, I don't know
what young girls are. On about these days.
You know, I see them. I see them around.
I don't know, right? Right my interaction with young,
my definition of young girls now, like five years.
So, you know, It's like they're into she was my daughter's into
blue he or she's been watching. She was really like playing the
hair with her dolls. Like she's obsessed with you
combing hair and so That's my thing.
I don't know what the 20th. Year old girls are in women
young women right into these days or how they're acting.
I see the videos and stuff. I don't know if that's an
accurate presentation as well. You know, I've watched the
whatever podcast and etc, etc, Sure.
Yeah okay. I'm sure there's I'm sure that's
modeling to a humongous percentage of women and you
know, I believe that there's a lot of young men are suffering
from a dating drought and all these other things and etc etc,
I believe that. It was starting to get tough
before I met my wife, you know, but I had more traditional forms
of meeting women. So as a bartender, I I, Met
people all the time. It was easy to do that.
So so if you know you're doing a job where that's not your don't
have access to the public, I can understand how that can be can
be daunting. I don't know, right?
But I I think that as again, we're Desiring reality.
Give it to me real. The more we desire, these
things. Even in her food, you know?
And presentation and traditionalism.
Neo, traditional is the neotrad says, I predictable Are Gonna
Come And there won't be all bad, right?
There's even if the the surface level, you know, Center status
quo, version of these things are going to be annoying.
I think there's can be lots of great hope for for good,
traditionalism to to attract people, to the good stuff.
A good, you know, good Noble desires that that are that do
serve civilization and Humanity better.
But we're not there yet. We're getting there.
The. the, the only thing I can really Advise, you know, general
advice is generally pretty bad. So Do with that, what you will.
but I think the only thing I can ever recommend to people is, you
know, try to find a good person. And that doesn't always mean
someone. You're going to agree with who
likes all your stuff. You know, or well, they have to
be really smart so they can understand all the stuff from
talking about. It's like They can be smart in
other ways and I'll be interested.
They can be super smart and not interested in anything they're
interested in, and that doesn't that doesn't even that shouldn't
even disqualify them. My wife is an interested in any
of this stuff. And it's a nice break.
We don't have to talk about any of it.
It's good. I'm happy for it.
You know, it's a nice break. so, Different quite different
criteria and difficult qualifications for different
people. Sure.
But finding someone who's good, who's solid?
Who, you know, wants good wants who is aspiring to for good
things that aren't purely selfish.
Who has at least some element of humility in them.
These are things, you can seek out.
You know, I know a lot of guys they want they're being told
that you gotta day tens and this and that.
The other thing it's like, He's gotta find a good person who you
think is going to be a good mother.
And the same thing for women. You know.
Finding a man, making six figures and all that stuff.
Yeah, it's great if you can find him good if you find a good man
who has that all that stuff good Lottery. but if you're dating
within relative ages and with modern, men and women, right
now, you're going to find probably a fixer upper And the
great thing about marriage is your commitment to spend the
rest of your life. Fixing yourself and some ways
each other up, which is good. Women.
You want to let your men fix you too sometime, right?
Make you aspire to be better. Quite often.
This is always put on men. and, you know, and maybe in a
traditional sense. That's true.
We should get back to that. We're not there yet.
Now we're have to get out of this false equality, false,
individualism, all these other trappings, liberalism we're
going to break that frame, but it's going to, it's going to
take some time, I think. Because you see some of the more
based. Guys out there.
And they're really good on some points.
And they're breaking frame on this, that, and the other thing
that stuff though, still want that.
Well, not everything. Yeah, that too.
Flies. If you think the lies just
started in 1945 or something like that, you're not paying
attention. 1850? No no, no, no.
Oh, go for the back. Been with us for a long time.
Now. Here's a bitter white pill.
This is good news for all of you, you can do a tremendous
amount of work and it's very short period of time.
But you got to do the work and and the work isn't always
obvious. A lot of the work is just
shaking it out. Get rid of that.
Falseness. Wherever it leads.
And that might come down to, you
have to do some changes in your life sucka.
Good. New challenge.
Get good. It's like Dark Souls but you're
living in it. It's great.
And the old folks Church carries on many Traditions that the
president's lost such as the tradition of having months.
Well, which is interesting, had it the Protestants ever had
those fish. Because this obviously fell out
of favor in the Church of England, with the dissolution of
the monasteries by having the 8th and now it's just become.
Very Limp institution whereas monks are Catholics without a
pope. That's it.
That was the whole thing. Okay.
K. It's just saying, no, we don't
want the pope. We want the king in charge of
things. Okay.
The ultimate Authority rests in the crown and not in the
Vatican. That's it.
Bass preachers is orthodoxies that.
Dark Souls of Christianity. That is accurate.
Yeah. Gotta get good.
That people are taking the religion seriously and so I find
it's all basically knows that. Alright just gotta stay here.
You gotta stats protests in face.
Then you know, maybe one or two other minor stats like was
father, Moses strength obviously.
Oops. J.
Dyer an interesting, you know, intelligence stacked up.
All guitar. The western Mass is, at least
say this is a Holo us other Church me too.
Yeah, I'm right there with you brother.
The Anglo man has had an idea him.
I would like more monks. Monks are cool go and live in,
you know, a monastery somewhere and brew beer and make honey or
whatever it is amongst do while pressing God.
That's that's Definitely a library for all of us.
That's what monks do. How they do other things too.
But they Sanctified purify themselves and pray for all of
us. You're welcome.
Thank you monks. Appreciate it.
Yeah. it's not just like, you know, in cells who like to make
mead, Some, you know, a small sense of young men would want,
right? It gives them something to do
anyway. As you can see this, this is
something that is gaining kind of cultural traction.
Yeah, because something to do Carl.
You're right. Yes.
You know, praying for Humanity all the time.
Yeah, it's you know, it's make work.
Sure. But it's it's humble work but
it's something, right? Of the vastly underserved
demographic of young men, who don't know what they ought to be
doing with themselves. Like there are loads of young
men who are. I mean when you just essentially
cast out of polite Society, if you're not prepared to be
excessively woke and play second Fiddle in your own life to women
in minorities or where do you go?
That's another be an interesting thing to see if this starts
happening, if we start to see an influx of men, choosing the
monastic life, As a downstream effect of this.
I mean, maybe say well look You know, I give up on the idea, you
know, having children and and having a wife and all these
things is kind of been beaten out of me, not interested in
that anymore, you know? whatever the reasons are and I
believe there has to become as a calling because what you're,
what you're going to do is pretty impressive by all by all,
stretch of the mean, That being said, I will be interesting to
see if more men. Get that calling.
I didn't, I looked for this. I didn't mean I didn't say for
me to delete it. There was a guy who made a, I
guess an Instagram post or something like that.
Talking about praising God, for the influx of people coming into
Orthodox, parishes all over the place.
And I've been hearing those reports as well.
Now again, when we talk about these numbers, You know, people
think influencers like 2000s and stuff.
It's like some of these parishes are quite small so suddenly
going from six people to 24, people is huge and it is still a
huge. Jump up in numbers.
And if this trend keeps going, you know, we just we we're just
getting started. So there's lots of reasons to
have a lot of Hope, for the very, the very near future let
alone. What's going to happen 20, 30 40
years from now. The. thing he touched on that
video was you know we need hopefully we have Global Grant
is more resources and by resources, I mean like priests
you know people who can work in the church you know people
couldn't do the can help guide and and you know Minister all
these influx of people You know, again these are things are in
God's hands not in ours but it'll be very interesting to see
if we start to see that kind of influx and the effects that has
on society. Because it won't just be more
more people make me go into church.
That's one thing but it's it's gonna start, I think in some
ways. Imagine in 1050 years from now
or whatever, that it's not weird, it wouldn't be weird to
see men in Orthodox frogs with yours long hair and all the rest
of it just walking on the street, you know, it becomes a
common occurrence like oh, yeah. There's loads of those guys now.
What any one in every town at least?
Wouldn't that be interesting but is that dude people?
or when going to, you know, establishing nunneries
monasteries this becoming like Everyone knows someone.
Who's, who's joining the faith? And In some way, shape or form.
Higher level or more devoted level.
What does that start to do to society?
Because these things are never contained.
They Ripple. Moments man.
The Moses is like well there is a place in the Orthodox Church
for men. The Protestant churches, they
don't really seem to have a place for men, but the old
stocks church as he says here is not necessarily masculine, it's
just normal. It's just normal and so they
don't stigmatize Matt and they don't excessively.
Praise women. And there's just normal as he
says, in the west, everything has become very feminized, some
Protestant churches churches, mainly cater for women.
I don't want to get services that feel like Taylor Swift
concert. You look at the language of
worship music. It's all emotion, that's just
not meant. Yeah.
I mean, in a way and this I think makes perfect sense.
If you can just be normal rather than polluted with do I see a
bit of buck? A little bit of buck Johnson's
head. Come up here.
Let's see if he gets to Buck Johnson.
Bubble you in sectional. Marx says, yeah, Sargon is that
intellect is in that intellectual space when it comes
to God. I wish he would just chat it up
with Jay Dyer, because it feels like they would hit it off on
geopolitics. Yeah, you know, I have the same.
I I if they were to talk, I hope it would be in debate. be a more
of a interview conversation, whatever, and not a debate
because I think I agree with you.
That Sargon, I think is getting to that point where and maybe he
needs it, right? Maybe he needs a debate, I don't
know. But I'm hoping that he's up,
he's at that point that I was at.
Five years ago, where you're seeing stuff and you're like, I
can't really disagree. Like, I can't find an
intellectual. Disagreement here.
Or a cultural one. I mean, yeah.
Okay, I'm an atheist. I still don't believe in it.
Maybe it's just a good philosophy.
Maybe I can interact with it as a philosophy and stuff.
Yeah. Well and then you start seeing
the Jesus prayer and holds and then things start happening.
All those contradictions start to crash.
Again, the what the important thing about the pride flag is it
doesn't state. Concern about kind of person.
What it states is a particular interpretation of thoughts,
which is in sectional, woke Ideology.
Now this fundamentally comes out of the marxists who is actually
lost the argument during the Civil Rights Movement to the
Liberals and have been working their way through the
institutions trying to pervert liberal ideology.
That's not the Marx. Liberalism is intrinsic,
weakness, two marks is lost, okay.
In his book, I try to warn you by Jim George.
Joshua's you go check out our last conversation but in that
book is first chapter is on a And how the left hates hated
him. Still probably hates him.
And she also, this can really politically far more to left in
many, many things. Right.
We're talking about policy and all that stuff.
Yeah, sure. But what it shows is going to
do, he revealed the gulag octopus.
He revealed the great lie. That Soviet communism.
Communism in the Soviet Union was demonic.
Immoral. No basis for any morality in the
system at all and they were doing horrible things to people
their own people. Bass preacher says, I need to
get some rest, you'll take it easy.
Thank you so much. I see there is the number I have
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praise women, maybe but we venerate the mother of God more
gloriously than the Angels point is in Orthodoxy.
The cup overflow with both men and women, True Balance.
Yeah, everyone has a place. I think in them again.
Post-feminism. This idea that women can't be
priests. Is almost profaned the modernist
mind. You know, oh well they don't,
they're not exalting women. It's like no, we're just saying
that. Here's something you can't do.
It's not for you. It's not for me either, I'm a
man I technically right? I could be a priest.
I'm not gonna happen, I don't think I'm not, I'm not made that
way. I have enough heard the call.
To put it my way. Now, work within the church and
how the church and and work my position.
And work me. Yeah.
Work say my Lane, I'm all down for that.
You know, learn some allergy and help teach people and all that.
Yeah. Sure.
The thing that really is the mine worm of of individualism of
liberalism itself and you know, you put it together with liberty
and equality and all these other things.
He's fine, wonderful ideas. Lofty.
Notions is that this idea that you can't just be whatever you
want, whenever you want to be, if you do the work right process
work, either you go to do the work.
Sure you go to do the thing but, you know, if you do the work and
you work real hard and you know that you can achieve and you get
to reposition and the title and the desk and the name thing and
sure. Here we go.
Back to the The Infernal question, why?
Why do you think you deserve? Even in the modern sense.
Why do you think you deserve to be a CEO?
Or how the power of a CEO. Why do you think if it deserves
to have the right to vote? Or an opinion on certain things.
Why? not saying you don't, I'm not
saying you shouldn't not saying it's should be permanently out
of your grass, but necessarily in some cases, but No one
answers, no one asks the question and so there's no
answer to why do you think you deserve x y z?
You know, conserved as a person really bad bad about this by
saying, well you don't deserve it.
Maybe that's true and in certain cases.
And in many cases, Sure. But it's not, it's not really
good of an answer for someone who thinks they deserve
something, right. especially when Let's take the education,
situation situation. when there's just been doing what
they were told to do, Funny enough.
Now it's starting to bite women in the ass and they're all
getting upset about it. You see all these different
videos of women crying going. I'm so crazy in debt.
I have this degree You know, I went and got the degree and, and
now I'm crazy in debt and I can't get a job.
You can't get a job doing program.
All that stem stuff, right? Go to stem.
Women should go into stem, medical Fields, all that stuff,
get degrees. And so, they did, and many of
them can't find a job now. Oops, because they're
Outsourcing it to magical brown people and AI.
Oops, Oh well, you weren't counting on the current year.
Sorry. See again I had the benefit of
age. I remember when it was graphic
design. There was a time when maybe it
was probably still my 20s. When it was, you know, go to
graphic design, graphic design, graphic design.
It was all about graphic design. Learn how to do graphic design
and you'll get a job and be very well paid and graphic design and
graphic design. I knew a lot of guys, wouldn't
you? And they all got out of it
eventually very quickly, they realized, hey, there's yeah.
You can maybe get one of these high-paying jobs, Maybe Chances
are you're gonna be part of the, you know, basically a sweatshop
level of graphic designers working for like Puma or
something Nike. Good.
Perfect, the Swoosh. Can you use swoosh in a
different way? Different color, whatever, you
know. And the money wasn't there.
They just sold as you because that that's what the you know.
Who knows it's speculate wildly but that was what they were
selling people. That point computer design, a
computer programmers, learn to code computer programmer dubba
now they come up. They are you can do it on X
which like the the Sheep subscription.
To basic coding, get me the code for this and, you know, rock
does. Okay.
You just take that and put it in and make the code work.
Oops. Yeah.
You got lied to. deceived or, you know, maybe the people who
are telling this really believed in it, but they were wrong.
And now you're paying the consequence, which is, you know,
being massively in debt and being able to student loans I
got lucky. I don't need to do one year in
college. I I got accepted to journalism,
I wanted to do film school and they got into journalism and did
a year there and then realized that I don't like journalism.
My journalist teachers, all rubbing is kind of weird and
creepy and then for radio in Canada, at that time they were
telling us, well, serious radio Digital radio is coming in, so
it's not gonna be that many jobs.
And if you want to get on, are you're going to go up to White
Horse and work your way back down to the civilization?
I was like, really. Hmm.
I don't know about that. Hey, wait, one thing I did learn
in college, was how to drink. I mean, I spent a lot of time in
bars and I looked around as I can do that.
How much and look at the tip jar?
I'm like Well, that's seems like they're making a lot of money.
And they're doing something that I think I can figure out how to
do. And they have access to alcohol.
This seems like a much better situation then going to White
Horse to talk into a microphone to nobody Essentially.
It came for all Circle eventually, but you know, they
didn't have podcasts. Is that back in 97, 98 some of
that. So, Alice has got a dash.
Got a cat. Glad to catch a little live
stream. We'll definitely catch the
replay. God bless God.
Bless you. Okay, let's finish this up.
We're almost there. So close.
Two minutes, I'm gonna talk about buck.
So let's see. This to happen.
And so there's there's no point trying to get backwards.
Just changing tack is the way to solve this.
But the point being the pride flag is a state of ideological
dominion. And this is why when they're
looking at the woke, the Orthodox Church the same.
Well, hang on a second. This is so obviously not woke.
That accept men as men as in the traditional biblical,
interpretation of men being the man of the house and that's
appealing to a lot of young men, but it's also appealing to a lot
of women. A lot of women don't actually
want to become wage slaves for BlackRock Amazon or some
subsidiary of thereof. They actually don't want to
spend all their time. Filing reports or sending emails
for a boss who doesn't care about them at all.
They actually don't want this. It's actually not desirable to
be sat under the fluorescent lights of the office while, sat
in front of a screen sending as many emails as you can and then
going home to an empty apartment, but at least your
financially independent. Yay.
Well done. And those women who do waste
their time doing during that 20s and early. 30s, the looking
around, going well, hang on a second.
This isn't the future. I was promised.
I was promised satisfaction, and I don't have it.
And now, I'm thinking, well, maybe I want to change my life
and become a wife and mother. Well, maybe you shouldn't have
wasted the last 10 years, not doing that.
But anyway, I don't want to go on to a big rant about it.
The point being, it's not surprising that young men are
looking at anything else other than the native institutions
that have completely, not just fail them, but betrayed them and
said, yeah, you know what, they're actually isn't a place
for you in society. What there is a place for is
those people who don't propagate Society, the people who are not
responsible for producing and rearing the next generation are
going to take precedence in everything that we do.
And for some reason, we don't know why our congregations are
Vanishing and are going over to foreign churches that like, hey
guys, we don't hate you. How about you come in and we'll
lift some weights together? Hey, very close attention to
what these five pastors. Say, interesting how he and I
understand why he doesn't, he doesn't understand these things
and so, okay. But interesting how he says
these foreign churches. Because it's not for, in fact,
Orthodoxy was there in Ireland. And you know, same Patrick Um,
was there predating even Roman Catholicism?
There was a priest Schism time, too, right?
It's because it happens around the Meat of the exact date.
There's a there's debate over the date anyways, but Let's just
call it 1,080. And then, you know, but there
was a church that was out there and flourishing, and being the
church. And what, you know it was just
it was just the church at that point, didn't even have to call
it worth. Yeah, it's that existed.
So It's not that foreign Carl. She's just you you got you got
invaded. By these by those Protestants.
Dang Protestants. Let's not start that.
I made a promise to myself and others to be nice.
Yeah, I don't have to be mean about it either.
You know, look. It's the same thing.
I was saying before, you're raising these lies and these or
even not even lies, but let's say, A deception is brought on
by let's say ignorance both Wilfred on otherwise.
Those passions, man. You know, they do something to
you the pride in vainglory that's like having Tangled bunch
of it, you know, earphones. You know, trying to get through
it. All the more you untangle,
you're like Jesus. There's lots of this.
Yeah. it's been with me for a long time and yeah.
Bye. I don't have it.
I don't have the scroll here, but go to church.
Talk to your priest. Talk to a priest and then making
your priest. And then you can talk to your
priest. Your Church Father, your
spiritual father. Get one Very important, Saint
Herman brought Christianity, Alaska and 1794.
There you go. Been around for bed.
What's interesting and see, I be interesting to see if Carl ever,
really honestly deals of the world of the fox say on any on
any substantial level. Because one of the things that,
I mean, I knew about Orthodox is my family and stuff.
We were not overly religious, so it was more unawareness of.
But, you know, we weren't going to liturgy unless stuff all the
time. Uh so but so I knew it existed,
right? And I but for many of people,
this is like this really weird well-kept secret That wasn't a
secret. You know, during I found that I
thought sort of thing in those a few years ago because I listened
to all the new atheists and and Chris Hitchens, and all that
stuff. And I was here, and of course
Hitchens, quite a bit shamefully.
Well, whatever we go, we go through the things, we go
through. The, the interesting thing about
those guys and they never debated in Orthodox, Christians.
It was Jews and Muslims and and, you know, Protestants Galore,
and maybe a few Roman Catholics in there, I'm sure, but never in
Orthodox Christian. I think that's weird.
Isn't it clean never bothered. Finding Orthodox.
Christian. I'm sure.
In the early 2000 they could have found one or two. you know,
before there was Jay Dyer, I'm sure there was some more trucks
Christians who could do, you know apologetics A new dust it
off and do some debates. Never bothered.
Hmm. Now, I don't know if I was
purpose for it on because again, coming from a more western or
Anglo tradition, maybe they just never encountered it or they
just thought all those are the look, we're talking the Roman
Catholic those Orthotics guys are just crazy Christians.
Like, you know, A lot of beards. Maybe. we're doing a Bible
reading last night, and this is an odd conjecture, but we'll do
this and We'll see how many still hanging in.
To do some power washing. And talk about everything being
produced. What's the link?
I'm trying to make here. I'm being careful.
Know, we'll leave it. That's one though.
I'll think of more Before open my mouth. before I put my Size
10 directly in it. Wiggle my toes.
I'll think about that. That's something that shouldn't
be set off the cuff, but there's an interesting Link in there.
I'll get back to you, focus on that.
Okay, let's take a little bit of a break.
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Let's what do we leave? Let's put this on.
Um, let us put on. Your thoughts are shaping you.
This is from father, Josiah trenham. and it's a little bit
longer but I'm gonna make a coffee and then we'll be right
back and we'll pick it up and maybe do some power washer.
Hey everyone. God bless you.
Thanks so much for tuning in. I am wishing you.
Good strength, and rest as the summer is progressing.
We're about to start the fast of our Lady for her.
Durham Mission August 1st to the 14th, wonderful period of time.
In which we supplicate are usually chanted broccoli seeds
processes to her each day. May she help you in many ways
and good strengths for the for the fast.
Our thoughts, determine our lives in Many many ways I'd like
you to think with me about this about where your mind is and the
impact that the mind and your particular thoughts has on your
whole state of being and totally upon who you are and your
character, what's actually produced in your life, have you
ever walked into a room? Maybe into your kitchen and open
the refrigerator and you don't know why you're there.
You look into the refrigerator and then you remember, you're
just looking for your keys. This, this picture is very much
how we are today. We are overwhelmed with a
collection of thoughts. So many thoughts bombarding us
that we feel overloaded totally and completely distracted.
We don't know where our thoughts begin often.
We don't know how they're developing.
We feel them developing but we're not examining them
carefully and we don't know if and where they're going to.
And we are constantly from morning until night, bombarded
with information, both of it, a waste and much trash were
absorbing information texts, and news, in social media, and
opinions, and arguments, and memes, and messages.
And now, Chat GPT, we're being influenced.
Not only by what is constantly said, but our values are being
fixed without us. Even knowing it are ideas.
Molded and assumptions are constantly being Imbibed by us
without evaluation. This is the issue.
Not everything that we take in is Godly not everything is
worthy of our attention and yet it has an impact.
Some of its not so harmful and it's just kind of like junk mail
A lot, and lot of junk mail, some of its helpful.
A lot of it is destructive, a lot of it, tears us down and we
hardly realizing it misleads us. We become divisive discouraged,
even destructive we often don't realize how much our thinking is
being shaped by these thoughts that are bombarding us from the
outside. So how do we focus?
Our Godly thoughts? How do we put our mind on
beautiful things that please God, and help us and others.
And how do we avoid the evil thoughts?
How can we live a pleasing life to the Lord?
When our minds are constantly bombarded, I want you to think
with me a little bit about that the power of your thoughts to
determine your life. Our life is moving in the
direction of the most potent thoughts that we have.
This is a truth who we are today and tomorrow is largely the
result of what we are thinking. The decisions that we've made
the attitudes, we adopt the character that we develop.
They all begin as thoughts. And these thoughts are powerful.
Think of Proverbs 23:7 as a man thinks in his heart.
So is he our thoughts? They're not just private
matters, they're not just neutral or internal.
They eventually become Expressed, they become external.
They shape how we see the world, how we treat others, how we
handle stress, money, conflict, and everything else.
Think of your mind like a garden.
Whatever seeds you plant. In that Garden are going to grow
and they will produce the crops that you harvest.
If you plant seeds of fear or bitterness, or resentment, or
anger, or lies or corruption, they're going to grow.
If you plant seeds of faith of truth of gratitude of Peace of
Love, they also will grow what we put into our minds produces
who we are. And that space, that mental
space is a massive Battleground. This is where War takes place.
This is the word of Saint Peter. This is in his first epistle
chapter 1 verse 13. Prepare your minds for Action be
sober-minded. For set your hope, fully on the
grace, that will be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus
Christ. There is a beautiful word, don't
let your mind Meander. Give it Direction.
Take custody of your mind, dear ones.
Or it without you knowing it is going to take custody of you,
the intentional be ready. Not a playground, your mind,
it's a Battleground. It's where Satan loves to plant
lies. It's where fear, and anxiety,
and stress takes root. It's where Temptation begins is
in the mind. If the enemy can control our
thoughts, he can influence our life and that's why renewing.
Our mind isn't optional. It's essential think with me
about The cycle of thoughts and how they?
Produce. Destiny.
A thought becomes an action. And action becomes a habit, a
habit, becomes a character, and a character determines Destiny.
So if you want to change your life, change your thoughts,
change, your thinking, that's where to begin.
If you want to destroy, A habit. That's eating you alive.
Get to the source, the thought. The source of that habit, trace
it back to the thought that feeds it.
If we want to be more like Jesus, thing, like Jesus.
This is Saint. Paul's counsel do not be
conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewal of
your mind. Romans 12:2.
Transformation. Starts there starts in the mind
in this world. How do you do that?
How do you actually think, beautiful?
Thoughts that can produce a beautiful life?
They may make a few suggestions and conclusion.
Ask yourself, where is this thought coming from?
Basically screen, your thoughts, evaluate them, put them through
the filter, is that thought from God, or from your flesh, or from
the enemy? Is it leading the you closer to
Jesus helping you to accomplish your task as a person?
Or is it pulling you away? Is it rooted in the truth?
Or is it rooted in fear? Does it build you up?
Or does it tell you down? Use as your example, your filter
Saint, Paul's word in the fourth chapter of his epistle to the
Philippians when he writes to his spiritual children and gives
them a filter. By which they can judge,
thoughts. Whatever is true, whatever is
Honorable, whatever is just whatever is pure, whatever is
lovely, whatever is commendable Think about these things.
This is the Mental security system that you need. this
verse, when I thought tries to enter your mind first, make it
past the test, the Philippians 4:8 test, If it doesn't pass,
don't entertain it. Send it on its way.
That's number one screen, your thoughts.
Number two, select the right thoughts, the thoughts that are
conducive to your goals. We can't always control what?
Thoughts immediately come into our minds, but we can control
the ones that we couple with the ones that we're going to
meditate upon, or let in or let germinate.
Select the thoughts that align with God's word with your goal.
Number three, cultivate beautiful Godly thinking when
God, speaks whether through his word through his spirit and his
people through the church, Through the fathers.
Grab the thoughts and hang on to them.
Don't let them go. Cultivate it water it let it
grow roots. Think about it often, write it
down. I can't tell you how many times
over my life. I have put beautiful thoughts
into my pocket, scripture verses quotes from the fathers that I
want to memorize even goals for my life.
When I first became Orthodox, I put in here become a saint
because I know that's God's will for every service and not his
fanny pack. kept it in there for about five years in every Shirt.
I wore every cassock. I put on, I kept it there in my
pocket so that it would become fixed in my mind, cultivate
Godly thinking. If you sense God calling you to
forgive someone act on, It. If he calls you to take a step
of Faith. Take it.
Don't just hear the words of God.
Apply them. Work them out.
Don't walk. In.
Weeds the righteous man does not.
Walk. In the counsel of the ungodly,
he doesn't stand in the path of Sinners.
He doesn't sit with the unrighteous, his Delight is in
the law of the Lord. And on his law, he meditates day
and night. He's like a tree firmly planted
by streams of water, which yields its fruit in its season
and it's Leaf does not wither and whatever he does.
He Pros prosperous. That's the fruit of cultivating
Godly thoughts of putting your mind on beautiful things.
When we start thinking God's way, we begin to live God's way
and with that comes peace. Peace of God which surpasses all
understanding Paul says, in that same text in Philippians 4, will
guard your hearts and Minds through Christ Jesus.
This is the promise. So, let me ask you in
conclusion, what you've been thinking about lately?
Are you living with anxiety? Doubt, anger with grief guilt?
Or are you walking at peace, purpose and joy, you can't
always control What the world throws at you, but you can
control what you dwell on, what you choose to set your mind upon
and if you don't like the direction that your life is
going, change your thoughts change the way you think.
God has given you his tools, his word, his Spirit, his promises.
You're not a prisoner of your thoughts.
You are the master. Of them, the steward of your
thoughts. So surrender your minds to God
asked him to renew you from the inside and to give you beautiful
thoughts. This is the Battle of our life.
And the victory. Is something that Jesus has
accomplished for us and wants us to share and what?
I know, I'm muted couldn't say it better myself, even if I
thought I could try, Mrs. King pills in here in the chat saying
love love, love this man. Yes, Father just saw a tryna is
one of the good ones, Mr. Pursue saying kill the Bots?
Well look, man. I I know only one way of doing
that on Kik and people complained about it before.
Oh, Because then they couldn't say, no no words in there.
So, you know, I, I can do this. I can ban the Bots. but, But,
you know, you may not like it there, buddy.
If I'll do this here, over here, hang on.
Oh, there's only chat, scrubbers only, chat emotes, only chat,
age account age, restriction and words.
You see here Channel. Chat.
Spam, we got spam up there. Gibberish.
Sexual contents, all that other stuff.
So I don't know, I don't know. I don't know how to do this on
Kik. So, We're gonna just live with
it, sorry. Live with it.
Ignore them. just, The Bots are fine.
They're just did a Digi Demo's demon demos I don't They just
they're just. Did you demons?
Ah, yeah. Well that's true.
So yes, guard, your thoughts. You know, the other thing too,
like think about quite often and this is happening my own life.
We forget about joy, we forget about happiness, these things
are tied to hope we talk about these things, as if we're
supposed to manifest themselves somehow, but we very rarely feel
them anymore. You know, there's the happiness
of a brief thing, your stuffing, you know, you stuff your face
with something, you know, and it gives you Joy, it gives you
happiness, the momentary fleetingness of happiness, and
isn't that nice, but We've kind of forgot.
I'll speak personally on this. You kind of forget it.
What it is to feel happy. And it happened to me, July was
a really weird month where we spend the first almost, well,
over half of it, family was really sick.
You know, difficulties there. Prolong sickness with my wife
and just is a very cool month at the same time on my birthday.
I got to meet with. Archbishop Georg, who's the
Archbishop of Australia and And receive blessings from him.
And, and also, Became a start, my catechism.
I believe that was end of July beginning of August or beginning
of August. and, Got to Spill the devil.
All those things, and I for a good I'm still feeling it, you
know. I've come down to earth a bit
more, but for about two weeks there, I was just happy.
For some of you I'm sure that sounds weird like okay, you're
happy good for you. I'm like, no, no.
I'm not a happy person. I don't do happy.
What? Happy was happy?
No I'm you know, usually begrudged Grumbling in My Soup,
my my my non beefy soup. You know, with the not working
with fanny pack or shorts, but yeah, I'm not happy.
Bye bye. Bye metric.
So to suddenly feel a great deal of of release and joy and
happiness. It was like a strange feeling I
had to kind of accustomed to it. I was like what is what is this?
And it's like you're just happy man.
That's what Joy is all about. Kind of like this.
Well, this is, this is what you guys keep drawing on about.
Yeah. Okay.
I get it. Yeah, that's actually kind of
nice. Not so bad.
This happiness. So yes I said, you know, go to
your go to church, go to liturgy, talk to your Breeze.
Let it transform you because it will many such cases, right?
And it's not just my story. It's I add my story to list of
stories of people saying very much similar similar things.
and, Yeah. Mrs. Says what has what would
you say? Has kept you unhappy for so
long? I have General temperament um,
You know, this list of things probably, if we were, you want
to divulge my entire life story. Really, what happened to me,
when I was 11 touring 12 with my grandfather died and he died of
a pretty nasty case of starting the bowel cancer moved on And I
I hadn't because my my family was religious enough for me to
believe in God and and to read the Bible and to be of the, to
be of some sort of face week, is it was or immature as it was, I
hadn't been let's say spiritually instructed. so, I
couldn't understand that God's love includes suffering and
maybe this is probably Beyond most people and of course,
brought in bring up a broad modern world and you're not
giving that message So I couldn't understand it.
I couldn't understand why my grandfather would have had to
die that way. You know.
It was good man. Why did a good man?
Have to die that way? It was pretty brutal.
And I think that's that's where my split happened, right?
Where I build up anger, and resentment towards God and this
whole concept and I ran with that for, you know, 30 odd
years, And you know, increasingly so right because
the more you turn from him and the more you just reject, the
idea, the more you have to chase something else.
So you chase more modernity and I was probably the single mother
and all those other things and you know, the fact that I'm not
in jail, his pretty amazing. Not that I was really involved
in two Mission nefarious. Whatever.
But like could have easily gone that way, you know, you see.
again, the the benefit of age, look back on your life and you
see these little branching paths, and, I think the
falsehood is that you thought you chose this.
But really one, I think God is directing you in many ways.
But minus that even, you know, where are you making that
choice? How did you make that choice?
I credit my grandfather quite a bit for for supplying me with it
at least enough. Mass with enough mentorship.
When I was young, that there was a North star there, you know?
So even I had rejected, God rejected the church rejected
tradition and I wasn't dealing with that at all.
I was it was to slander and to, and to bad mouth and to
disbelieve, there was still a morality in me enough.
Decency in me that I couldn't go down certain roads, put that
way. And so, you know, if I got his
grace, That saved me from probably having some nasty ends.
And being here today with him. Missing a little bit overweight.
Boorish me but there there you have it.
So When you let go of those things, are you, when you start
to let go of those things in a sort of, let go of that
resentment suddenly what's been holding you to.
Let's say that liberal frame that modernity and it's
different for everybody, or for sections of humanity, but I
think you're going to see similarities and overlaps.
Pleasure promise of, you know, portion.
Exaltation of the cell phone, all that stuff.
And I think quite a bit of it is resentment.
The, the consequence of liberalism ultimately is
resentment because there's it's based on this lie.
Right. That all men are, you know, all
these stacked up lies. All men are born equal, not
true, you know, Liberty and liberty and justice for all.
That's not true either. You know, any he keeps going
down to and go. Well, but it, but they told him
I believed in all this stuff that must be true.
It's just it's gone wrong. It's like no, not really.
It's, it is what it is. It's you Can't Blame a live for
being alive. It's alive.
It does. What lies do it?
Deceives? You.
So in that case, it do its to do a heck of a job in actuality.
So the so then we're brought to this this point now.
Where people's resentments? Are clouding their visions and
everyone's looking for a scapegoat someone to blame.
And no one points the finger back at themselves.
So it's always out there. And again, this is not saying
that there aren't people who deserve some justice in this
world. but, since since you're not in control of that, And this
is gets into a conversation about everything being produced.
since you're not in control of the information, you're giving
and you're not in control of many aspects of your life.
Lies that are told. As for father just said, you
can, you can start to control your thoughts.
And when you can show your thoughts, you can control your
words and you can control your words, you can control your
actions, these all these things flow, This is why getting your
attention and getting those thoughts, invading, your brain
was certain thoughts is Moses up around number one.
You know, but demons have their propaganda too.
Right. They're just not very in some
ways, they're just not very sophisticated, they don't have
to be pretty brutalist. To play along the same, passions
all the time. Why?
Because it works. Now I get them, I give them, I
give the demons a healthy amount of respect.
You should give to a mortal enemy and that if you start
thinking yourself to too big for your britches, and I got this
and they're, they're suckers, whatever that you're in, for
you're in for root Awakening. But because they can come at you
and very creative ways. Creative in terms of you weren't
expecting it. But when you when you look when
you survived it and you look back on it's like they're just
feeding on your pride. There's just, you know They're
just getting you where? They know it's easy to get you
for me. Just get me angry and I shut
off. You know.
Toddler spitting the dummy. Really, I'll relate to the
storage. You because it's late might not
I told us to tell me Sam and his last talked.
I kept it. I kept it, it's a nice reminder.
For me. About why I need to.
Get my stuff under control. And to be, I just be clear.
I've never Hit anyone in my house or not.
So, So, I talked about rage and all those other things will keep
those. It's not that bad, you know?
I do have some control, but I got blistering mad.
Sometime ago. I don't know why maybe selling
my wife said, I don't knows, I don't even remember the the
reason why, but just got, you know, Blind bull mad.
And I had a pot, you know, metal pot.
And I slammed that pot on the sink Edge to the point where
I've been to. I've Benton the bottom of the
pot. I used a pot quite often as a
nice little reminder every time I look at you, stupid, idiot.
Child. Was before I start going
liturgy, by the way, but yeah. Something's like that.
You know why you doing that for? It's because you're not in
control. The modernist is stuck with
death. We're all stuck with death on
someone. Is the ultimate truth.
Non-negotiable. Although we do, we do try.
I think. There's partly a fear of death
going on and partly even bigger than that as a fear of judgment.
You put those two things together and you got complete
abortion, you know, everyone's just averting their gaze.
From the opposite reality of life.
And we see it on TV, and we see it in news reports.
We talk about Russia Ukraine, we see these numbers and like,
well, that's hold horrible, tragic.
Are we see what's going on in Gaza or pick your?
Pick your place? Violence in the streets of your
own home, you know. But it's you're disconnected in
many ways. I think we've become very
disconnected. Unless you're living it
directly. and we analyze it and we talked about it, and we put
our little pose and all that stuff but You know, we forget
that there's real people involved in that.
And we forget it on purpose because I don't think we're we
don't we we don't want to look at it.
So I will go on with the Orthodox school stuff, it's not
just like death of the world, I think it's gonna kind of nice
imagery, you know, it's later than you think.
Which can you talk about the eschaton?
The end of Western Civilization or just the end of you.
Later than you think. Hasten.
Therefore to do the work of God. We're saying the table
constantly. This is a refrain. to be ready
because if you go tomorrow or today or in a minute from now,
And you know you survive the Toll House houses in the future
and you get up, you get up there.
You can counter God. Whichever way that happens.
And Ashok Drake question, like, what were you doing to prepare?
and you're like, well, kind of took some, I kind of did some
fasting and I felt really bad about, you know, some things,
and Went to liturgy when I could, you know?
Did my prayers very well? You know, back, I always in my
prayers. I always did my prayers.
Like, yeah, but you read them pretty fast.
Yeah. Well but I did them though,
right? If it's not changing you. if
you're just doing the fake it till you make it you know,
there's there's something to be said about that.
Maybe your first few times as a secret or as you're seeking,
you're kind of maybe absorbing and that's okay.
But at some point you gotta you, this isn't you can't be fake in
it. it's got a do something to you, it will you just let it it
will but There's there's a, there's a choice in there with
you as well. Have I seen the asthma?
Gold videos of him explaining why he is the way he is.
I think so probably. I remember, I think I first
started following Zack stuff. um, when he lost his mom around
that time, anyways, I became aware of and because he was
doing sort of Frank videos of that.
I think I caught the first few, whether it was, I'm not, I can't
remember now. It was while his mom was sick or
just after she had passed. and that really I guess.
Maybe feel sympathy, man. So I've been there.
I know what it's like to lose family. and, and it's hard, you
know, it throws your world especially I think when it comes
to parents People have held parental roles.
You know, that's my grandfather was very hard was.
My grandmother was also her. I don't want to say gets easier.
But on some level. It does.
How do I put this? But it's on my lost, my Ellen
and was proposed oh that's that was a heck of a story.
I'll tell you that sometime but There was a lot of moving parts
that one. So I think it's it was it was
one of those where you're grateful for her passing and not
because of anything about her, you know, so much, but it was
more like shooting. That was, that was a, that was a
bad one. so, So, in some ways, it gets easier when you go
through them, but at the same time, it does.
It does if you're not prepared for it, if you're, and if
nothing in your world is preparing, you for it.
For your end or your loved ones end.
You know, most people, it's like they lost a pet and that's the
most tragic thing in this happened in their life and I'm
not, you know, I'm not loaded, I'm not getting into that
conversation, right? It is tragically lose your pad.
But your pet's not your dad or your mom.
Right? Your grandpa or whatever.
That your pet is not someone who who literally shares.
Blood with you. No matter how well you raise
your little fur baby. Right. so, it's that.
There's a death of the self that happens with it.
Death of. Some childhood or something like
that. And because we don't have any
rituals or Preparation, generally speaking to prepare
ourselves for those for these things.
In fact, we try to Stave it off as far as possible.
You know, now we stuff our Old people into homes and let other
people take care of them. That's that says something
about. not just our society but our but how our society wants to
even access Access to death. Stuff it away, put it away.
Let someone else deal with it. Not for me.
I work to do. Catch up on this Sue, says he
was the same way very insecure cared a lot about what other
thoughts. You may not have those issues
but eventually just let those things go and stops caring and
accepted things for what they were.
I'm not saying you should accept your anger, not change but
forgiving yourself and accepting your flaws and working on them
which I'll be doing is the first step to relieve and happiness.
Yeah, I mean, there's there's bigger elements at play with
that. It's not just the anger, you
know, it was just the anger. That's, that's where I think
people fall into the false therapy idea where they think
it's all. It's just, it's just anger.
Well, no, it's like, you've been living with this kind of thing
for such a long time that it's no longer just anger, it seeped
into everything. and, The. Orthodox Church is a hospital
it's there for to heal. Spiritual sickness should be
used. It should be almost seen in that
light and the church. And tradition can do a lot of
things and for some people I think it can perform literal
miracles. I don't know if that's the right
orientation for people to take. In terms of yes, you should be
seeking spiritual health. Yes.
You should be going to church to to deal with these things. and
with whatever time you have left, but the idea is not
necessarily to rid yourself of them.
The a the aim is to control them.
To put them in the rightful place.
Because all the passions are inversions of Virtues.
So anger itself is not the issue.
Sometimes anger can be connected to righteousness.
So as you need some fiery righteousness, To be able to
say, no, this is wrong and somebody has to be done.
The problem with rage is it it over it, there's no discernment.
It erases, the ability to be righteous because now all you're
doing is the first thing, you think?
Smash the pot sink. Get a yelling match.
You know, whatever self blow up parts of your life, whatever.
Whatever it is whether manifestation is because you're
in full and rage Wrath. There's there.
There is that vengeance. Want that you're seeking.
For probably a minor infraction. Someone cut you off and traffic.
Road rage. So, you don't necessarily want
to get rid of it. Sin of gluttony.
Right passion of blood, me gluttony being really, the most
pernicious sense in some ways. Somebody all people think it's
pride and that's true. But really the one that we all
all of us even from a very early age, have his gluttony Right to
eat. She really eat.
Yeah, you gotta eat. So where is a discernment of
knowing when to eat when you're eating too much, or not enough,
and too much for me, may not be the too much for you or someone
else. So when does, when does it pass
over into the passion of blood? It's very typical one.
You know, pride is kind of easier to see either exalting
your pride or your suffering from depression.
It's all about you. Not saying that, that's easy,
one to overcome at all. None of these can be easy.
You know. That's why a caution people.
It's like even death the world and these we offer them up.
I think it's good to offer up these things as ideal.
It's nice to try to get to. But we live in this world.
You're a lady. You're not a monk.
Not a priest. I'm not nothing.
Shall be white, though. To your old orders more
orthodox. Right. so, With that in mind.
If you start to put your mind on, I will overcome these things
and get rid of them from my life as I know.
Maybe. Even this idea of the, I don't
care what people think of me. Like mmm.
I get it and it's it's good to to pursue your your ambitions.
even though you might be getting Flack, you know, All the
opposition was the world and all the rest of the people's
criticizing, you know, not Emily.
You shouldn't take that on. Yeah.
But if you don't care enough it's like where does this pass
over to nihilism? Where do you pass on to a point
where then you're not getting married and you don't come in.
A kid is actually be a great dad.
And he's probably convinced himself.
He that that's offer him. Right.
So he's a million. He's a multimillionaire.
Very successful, very good. What he does.
And he's in his 30s. I think right at 37 up.
If he lives in, if he lives another 35 years which is but
he's 35, let's say he's gone. Another yeah, let's say he's got
another 35 years left him just play safe.
That's both a long and short amount of time.
I'm 48. I'm going to be lucky if I got
another 25 in me 30, probably tops.
And probably a lot of those years in the end.
So good. So, do I do this?
For the length of time. Maybe.
It's Incorporated. But is it just this?
This, you know. What do you access Truth?
Where do you access any higher meaning?
You can't just be for work. Lots of things can take work
away from you. Exactly except tomorrow and his
voice doesn't work, kind of screwed.
Happened to me when I was, you know, I was what at that time.
Probably. What 25 years in or whatever.
Into hospitality. Mostly did mostly finding all
the rest of it worked up and down.
All the different places. Hanging up Christmas decorations
on the bar was telling my co-workers that my wife was
pregnant because we just found it.
We gotten past that three month Mark and Because we're telling
people and I went to put my foot back on the ladder.
And I slipped, I came down and put my hand through the back
bar. All these bottles were put, my
hands are about five bottles. Luckily enough not cutting off
my thumb. Or my hand or whatever.
Doing some major damage. And I, you know, for months
after that, I didn't know if I would ever be able to use this
hand again. And my entire career.
Right. And then, and then covid
happened, lockdowns, all the rest of it.
So like, The entire industry that I give him, you know, Blood
Sweat, 80 hour weeks, all the rest of it and I knew how it was
gonna have to change those about to have a child and it was my
life was going to change dramatically and how to do that.
All of a sudden God throws out of me.
Whoa. Dramatic.
Like that. and, That's in. December of 2919 and by October
2020 or really by December of 2020.
So, within one calendar year, I've now made the decision and
talked to my wife and convinced her that we're moving family to
Australia. and had a religious experience, and You know, all
the rest of it. And if we're going to be looking
again, life can only be understood.
Backwards but must be lived forwards. at that time, first of
all, this hurt like hell, Oh, did this hurt?
even when they had you jacked up on drugs, my favorite story is
like so, when the accident happened, we had a Guinness rep,
who was cleaning the lines, and I mean, I'm bleeding and he put
a tree took a rag or, you know, Baraga essentially and tied it
around my arm into a tourniquet and tied it so tight that I just
shut off like Everton. So and he can't really tell the
camera here. But I mean, basically, all
looked like I had cut some superficial cuts on my fingers
and then I had this kind of gash on my hand.
But because it over, because there's no blood running to it,
it didn't look that bad. So I get to the hospital to
emergency. And I show them the guy and I'm
telling them all and but when they when the hospital when the
Amazons picking up, they kind of saw the blood stuff.
So they knew that things were not okay.
And so they hit me with. I don't know what ever pain pain
medication. Probably more.
Maybe more fears, in the So, we get to the hospital and get to
an emergency. And they're asking me what
happened. I'm spilling up the whole thing.
and, He's looking at the hand and they're kind of moving the
hand around like, ain't no, like ain't nothing.
Right. And it's hurting, right?
It's the pains, you know, the pain is coming through, but and
they've taken the tourniquet off, but I had a bandage on.
And so And, and they're not looking at the big gash, and I'm
telling about it, like my hands, pretty open to the sky, right?
But they're not looking at that. They're moving the hand around,
doing these X-rays and stuff. So, I get to this young guy.
And he's peeved because he's been asked to do the stitches
and he wanted to go and do his birthday celebration.
I know this because he freaking tells us like it's like in front
of me, this is happening. and, And they're getting their
flopping. My hand around and it's really
starting to hurt now, right? Like, I'm just I'm just getting
I don't know how this is. Okay, And the guy goes okay,
fine, you know, he's gonna Stitch it up and stitches up the
fingers and stuff and he takes the bandage that was on my hand,
the gauze, whatever and rips it off.
And at that point, it just kind of, you know, turn it kicks off
and all the rest of it. So I start spraying artillery
blood all over the emergency room, just wonderful and I'm
starting to scream now because it hurts. so here I and all, I
hear him cause our cheerleader, bleed the whole Everyone was
pretty kind of chilled, like, no, not doing much, and we're
gonna lie. Whoa.
And they asked me. Do you want ketamine?
And I was like, yes. Shot me with me.
Which by the way? No, I'm not advising any kind of
drug use for anybody else when casual basis.
But if you find yourself in a hospital, with your hand, with
your half, your hand open up to the sky and they offer you
Academy. It was weird because my feet
were pointing towards the emergency door opener, right?
So the doors open like this. and, The ketamine hit pretty
fast. And I'm just like, oh, you know,
I'm looking over my hand like, wow, that looks awful.
I someone should really do some of that.
Do you call someone over? This is pretty bad.
And I looked over and looked at my feet and the doors are open
and close. I'm like, how do we get on the
other guys? I think I asked someone, I
remember correctly. I'm like, how did we get on the
elevator? Because it looked like we were
on an elevator with the doors closing anyways.
That's my, my. Hands story and kind of look
like a Franken Frankenstein hand for a long time.
But yeah, for a while there, I didn't know if I was ever gonna
regain function feelings, I still don't really have much
feeling in part of my hand. Okay, burn it really easy.
I say all this because it's like you don't know right?
You don't know. The next thing is I think the
getting out the bar thing, I done that.
A can't even tell you how many times.
And just There you go. Here's the rest of your life.
Being decided and one little fall.
It is interesting too because I was on such momentum within the
hospitality world. That, that's all I did.
I've gone to different places. I worked some places that closed
down. Me, one or two plays I got, you
know, let go or I quit. I moved around a bit, but, but I
was always in Hospitality world, I was one of those guys, I'm
always gonna open a restaurant talk about open the restaurant
never did. Obviously.
But you established momentum in your life and you just kind of
going forward. because as you do, when you have a disruption
like this, and I had been had situations where I was working
with one place, where with my wife and I and they basically
sold the place out of without telling us And so I was, I think
it was out of work. Took.
I took a year off. because I had, No unemployment and
settlement and all this other stuff, whatever.
So I I could have afford to. So I was like, oh, I had some
and savings and restaurants were taking a year off.
Screw it. But that was different because I
never really thought. Oh, by the way.
Hello. Elwood, when gusto Friend from
South America. Well, you know again it's
already Sue says true. I guess that's what that's went
through. Call it anger management.
But yes, go God calls us to have perfect hatred for things
against him. Hatred can happen without anger.
Anger, kind of like the alarm Bell.
Something's not right. Said you.
Let me is wrong disorder. Demands your attention.
Something you should do something about. and you can,
the let's say the the rightful use of hate and maybe that's
even the wrong word for. but we use a Is emotionless, really?
It's without passion. you know, I hate the devil and the
adversary. For all the good reasons to hate
them. And I take an arm against it my
way. but it's not like, You get an angry at the Devil.
It's like getting angry at error.
Get angry at the demons doesn't do anything.
Angry at yourself? Okay.
Is that motivate you to do? No, do not.
Do the things. You're not supposed to do and do
the things you're supposed to do.
If so. Maybe use it. but true, I think
in some ways it's like true, the closer you get to true love.
It's it's not that endorphin rush and romantic and stuff.
It's just it's it's almost cold. Like, I love my daughter's so
much. In my wife. that I don't, it's
not like a An emotional state. Like I guess it's not a It
doesn't generate. sub feeling, let's say it's just is it's just
an is feeling. I think there's that accurate
point of, you know, if you hate the adversary, you hate it, cold
I mean this is my Slavic heart talking.
Who knows? there's no real motion to
attached to it, for me, it's more like I'm gonna I'm gonna do
some damage to the adversary on my way out.
Even if just, you know but I know I can if I can leave this,
this world knowing that I gave the devil a bad day here and
there. I'll take it.
Not so bad. All right, boys and girls.
Ladies and gentlemen. I'll put it to you whoever's
left in the chat. Anyone wants some power washing?
Now's the time to talk up. We can do some power washer.
We can just sign off for all getting sleepy.
But you think about it? To have your thoughts about it.
Get back to me about it. Let me know in the chat.
I want to see some power washers or some of that I want power
washing. Okay, there's a vote for power
washer. There's a vote.
Do I get two votes? You can vote with your, with
your wallets, too, folks. Make a crack 10 dollars on that
goal and that Griffith goal. Not not very good at this grip
TV. News says not being tolerant
people dangerous to your kids progressives, the most Christian
thing a parent can do. Yeah.
Yeah. there's a you know, understanding where you're at,
right? I think people.
Maybe it's Saturday morning cartoon.
But people get very direct, they think they have to start a
fight. You know, go to the teacher.
And look, I'm not saying maybe that is in.
I can't give you an answer for all possible.
You know, permutations of the other question. but I think,
People use it against you. Again, that anger right again to
wrath anger. You're going to say, you're
gonna say, you're going to think and say and do things that
aren't well thought out. Now, in a moment of danger
crisis. You know, you're not going to
sit there and Ponder. Do I say my child from the tiger
know of course you do, right? But in other situations where
you're dealing with let's say with a system Education system,
right? Easy one.
The. The obvious most direct choice.
May not always be the best one for your situation.
Believe that, right? Everyone tells about
homeschooling home, schooling is a fine answer to this and I'm
not against it. it's honestly think if you have a, if you have
a young boy, Young girls, a little bit different, especially
for elementary, but for young boys, and maybe I'm wrong, maybe
I'm being naive on that. So, you know, again, I don't
know where you're calling from. Maybe it's different for in your
state or whatever that, right, but young, boys.
Yeah, don't if you have an option, if you can make that
work, make it work. Sending your sending young boys
to to through the education system as it is right now,
probably not good. Probably won't be a good idea
for for a bit. It's not stylized for them, it's
not for them. He's 60 years of.
Essentially stylizing it and making it for the promotion of
women. And you know, holding boys back
so that women get outperform and all this stuff and get the stats
into get the numbers. And then you, you know, the
ideology passes into just Behavioral. so it's no longer
something that someone can You know put together is if you ask
them bluntly in with a you know truth serum.
All the rest of they would never admit to that because it's not
what they're what they're thinking.
You know, they just have this. Disdain for young boys and they
don't know why. You know.
Young boys are something wrong with them.
I was thinking of the other day. It's kind of the they got you.
They got both genders coming and going just a different ages
again, maybe this is changed or is, you know, so update me if
necessary. But for young boys, they've been
medicating. Young boys early on young ages,
right? Young good young boy has, you
know, doesn't get along with others, you know, doing some
violence stuff, or whatever. Oh, you know, therapy therapy
therapy when that doesn't work out because of course, it
doesn't work out because you're trying to condition a bear not
to shoot in the woods. Forget me.
Do you put him on medication? And then that starts that whole
trip. For girls.
And again, maybe this is changed. but from my
understanding of it, and when I've seen Is that the girls
didn't get on the medication until they were in their teens?
You know, whether it be the pill or, you know, ssris or
antidepression or whatever. And I think that's really
interesting. because it's like, you want a neuter, the boys
early, And make them more either, make them more feminine
or make them just certainly not making my nan in some ways.
I mean, they're not feminine, but they're not, they're not
acting on masculine impulses and you get them early.
And for girls, you let them develop all that feminine stuff
and then you start to cut them off.
Make themself doubt. Themself hate themselves.
The world. Get them on medication when
they're you know 13 14, whatever it is.
Get them both ways, right? and I think, you know, when we
were talking about people talk about why people don't want to
have kids anymore and all the rest of it, I think the
medications are certainly have something to do with it.
Education, women have heard as a theory.
I'm yeah, I think there's a thing, there's, there's
something to be talked about their You know, probably women
prioritizing you know education and career over young families
and the precursor to having a young to a large family is
usually having kids in your 20s. Whatever. not a guarantee, but
you know, The. butt to look at the sort of that medication and
even that social medication can Go.
Not everyone's on some sort of drug, but they've been socially
medicated. Interviewing on Worthy.
Something is wrong with you. Because you're not fully Jive
in, are you? Something, inside of you is
telling you, this is wrong. But your social medicated,
maybe, if you afraid of being excluded, so, he Pop That.
You know, pills of a different corn. coin coin, kind And then
unworthiness makes you feel that to be unworthy.
As a parent, makes you unfamiliar worthy as a man or a
woman. So then you feel unworthy, as a
husband, and his wife, and his certainly feel unworthy as a
father, as a mother, So you just don't have kids.
Not even one. Or you don't even involve
yourself in life for kids. Because, again, you feel
unworthy, and that's a That's a heck of a thing. you know, as I
was saying earlier, telling the story of You know, knowing I
could have gone liturgy even just the first time.
And feeling like I can't do this because I feel unworthy, I feel
ashamed, still, like I don't belong there.
You know, said too many things Live too much, life and opposite
direction. and, And we're all unworthy, you know?
We're all. In some way shape or form, just
loading a power washer. Get to it.
Pee again. But it's the same thing as
thinking of it as a hospital. You don't go to hospital if
you're well. I mean that's your thing.
Chances are you done? You're going to hospital when
you're sick. And this is your sick.
Well, maybe maybe you've done made some life decisions that
Have made you sicker than you need to be.
But maybe that doesn't really matter.
A second here. Oops.
Maybe, all you have to worry about is getting well.
And give yourself a break. Oops.
Oh, what have I done? Put it over here.
Hmm. Hmm.
Shall we do this? Here.
Sorry folks. we're just setting this up and then we shall do
some power washer and yeah. Yay.
Look at this working out. oh, lovely.
Eram says this edition of young men, started.
When I was in a freshman in high school.
With the first gen iPhone and I touch.
Yeah, I mean it was happening before that.
I think it. The 80s was a, was a kind of a
weird blip. Because they wanted to the big
thing was we're gonna defeat communism, you know.
So the 80s I think if you're younger, he didn't live through
that time. you can look back on with sort of fun, like America,
you know, Arnold Schwarz, now Rambo and, you know, Rocky
movies and very You know, Donald Trump is like really a creature
of the 80s, you know? But the subversions were there.
you know, with father McPherson was talking about, you know, I I
kind of say it just a piss people off, but the whole
wearing shorts and This Carousel.
Let's turn this music off because this is brutal.
The its exaltation, right? The feminization of the masked
and comes. When men start acting start
doing feminine, things like reading about their appearance,
Here, now, there's nothing wrong with with dressing, well, or
dressing to an occasion and all the rest of it.
Turn up a little bit. Okay.
Um, but yeah, feminization even look at Staying alive that movie
Staying Alive. You know you can tell by the
way, I move my walk. You know this stuff and talk
about like you know the Disco culture.
And Men bringing about their hair and the tight pants and all
that kind of stuff. So, this stuff has been with us
for a bit You know, Led Zeppelin, who will, you know, I
have always loved that band but that that means full of demons.
and, He look at what Robert Plant was wearing and so that
during that time, he was super tight pants.
You know, getting lustful eyes from the ladies and probably
from a bunch of the fellows. so, How do you get there, right?
How do you, how do you, how do you instigate this almost need
for medication? Socially.
Otherwise is you speak to subvert, the natural nature of
man and women. You start making the
feminization the more feminized men.
Into sex symbols and to, you know, objects of Desire.
By most women and you know, men desire that too, right?
They don't desire to, you know, They're not a Perry Alpha Man on
this one. But but they certainly desire to
be desired. So they follow suit and then you
kind of let me take control. so, The medication and all that
stuff. I mean, again to me is more
brutalist form of Doing it. But I almost think it's a
response to probably an auto a social or cultural screening
Christian auto immune system. It was trying to kick in.
And you know, make people reject all this stuff and so they then
moved to medication. you know, if you look at look up what they
remains were doing in their prisons, The reason, kenshoo and
his, his wife. Was not allowed to retire.
Not a lot of leave that I'll get on that flight.
They were doing some wacky stuff.
So fair enough. That's when you first notice?
Yeah. The. you know, I think they
learned the Soviets taught the world, a lot of things, a lot of
little dark secrets. and we talked about operation paper
clip with the Germans who came over with the nice little rocket
Technologies. But there's very little talked
about probably what Soviet defectors.
And other things that were learned, Post Falls all of the
Soviet Union. At me many, many were eager to
share to get paid and protection. you know, so How
much did, what's his name? It's a guy from triggered
trigonometry or someone that I forget his name.
His dad was Soviet. Ranking Soviet guy who had a
basically flee with money. Kristin's Kris, Kristen
Christian, I don't know. Not doesn't matter.
That guy, you know, his family is just like yeah there's
probably quite a few of those people who left or fled or
forced out of the Soviet Union at some point.
Especially with Putin coming in. You know, say what you will
about Putin, but he did go and clean up shop.
Especially with the Olive Garden.
A lot of these funny people who are hanging around.
Kissing. That's it calls and seen
kissing. Appreciate you. so, Yeah, the
things they were doing. Check out what they were doing
in Romania. Who's talked about it quite a
bit? He talked about when he was on
my show, as well as Mano from. Study of stuff.
We should get back on. I love me some Nano.
Good Greek Canadian boy, Greek. Orthodox Canadian boy.
Great show too. If you like music, go check him
out. He's doing live shows every
Sundays. I think now, About.
It's hard for me because I always have to do the, the time
math, right? So I I can't remember sometimes
what days I catch these shows on, but so if I tell you Monday,
It's probably a Sunday. I don't know what time is on
your Oh, this level is annoying. Clean up horse butts.
I don't even want to do the thing.
Oh, be here all week. So, yeah, the experiments, they
were doing experiments things were doing in Romanian prisons.
Especially to Orthodox. Christians are pretty perverse,
and I think it was really, to try to separate. man, you know,
man from God, you know, To try to.
To destroy that image Bearer status, you know, to separate.
To bring us down to something. Lower than even a beast.
And it didn't really work ever. In fact, it brought as many more
stories of you know, priests who people men who would then go on
to be priests within Orthodoxy. Who said they found God, In that
suffering. So, See, Rejoice, isn't this a
uplifting show, folks? Like if you want Happy, there's
there's shows. We can direct it to Not saying
I'm going to be unhappy. I'm quite happy actually. but, I
can only, I can only Deliver you?
The real, and one in one tone. It's a deep voice.
What you want? That being said, those who have
been stick around for a bit. What do you think of the show?
New formats. of course, always be tweaks and Little things we
do along the way, but let me know, let's people know.
Let me know. What you think?
Try to be constructive? You got criticisms.
Or just block you. Do you think the rise of
Orthodoxy is a coincidence, or Miracle for lack of a better
word? I, I believe certainly not a
coincidence. There are.
I just don't believe in coincidence is anymore at all.
I certainly do. Think it's divine.
Yeah, I think there is a Like I want to be a signal put out and
maybe this is always a bit of signal, but people just were
picking up on it, or ten is were bent. but, but, certainly by
2020 in the events of 2020 and the lockdowns and all the rest
of it and, you know, not to give that stuff too much credit
because I think it had been building up You know, I think it
has been building up and building up and building up.
because even before, because a trans bathroom stuff had been
building up and You know. they were trying to sell you on this
kind of stuff and I think people specially with the With the
Trump. First term.
With the Russia collusion and all that stuff.
And the lies just kind of got to a point where it was really hard
to stomach. Like, you had to be.
Pretty far gone blue pills, Normie.
To believe the Russia collusion stuff for any length of time.
You know, it never it never sounded sincere or made sense.
And maybe because I just I don't studying, I mean giving it a
breast of Russian news and Putin and all the rest of her for, for
a long time before that. So I was like, yeah, that's not
putting does things so no, no. That's not right.
So was easier for me in some ways.
But I do think it's just like it's like how do you know
someone's lying Without Really knowing their lying?
Like you can't say oh you're lying about this and that the
other thing you don't have proof their line but you know their
line. and I feel like we've just kind of gotten to that point in
the west where the lies of gotten.
So, Almost obvious. That.
And once you scratch one and start to question one, then
you're like, oh wait a minute. If they would lie to you about
this, what wouldn't they lie to you about?
What else they aligned to you about?
And as it turns out, pretty much everything.
You know. I I've said this on the show
many times, so sorry for you heard this one before but for
me, the thing that broke me on a dinosaurs was they have feathers
now and that was like, yeah. No, no no.
I'm not buying it. The older chickens you go from
Raptors a chicken like yeah. No, no why?
Because because Jurassic Park in the movie has Raptors looking a
certain way and like the kind of look.
If you look at them kind of weird.
They look like, you know, bald green birds or something, they
kind of work like birds so that's it.
They're like birds or like just giant green scaly Eagles know.
No, not buying it. Sorry.
If you not doing it. Thank you, come again.
And I guess you think it well, hang on I second.
Even I mean this happened when I was a secularist, it wasn't even
happen to me. You know, this is pre-christian
turn. And I was like yeah that's not
my job in that. So then it gets you question
like well hang on a second. It's gonna lie to you.
Okay maybe they're just lying about dinosaurs, right?
It's a grift. They're just making some stuff
up to, to pay the bills, okay? But then again it gets but no
one's questioning this stuff and you're like and you know, top
Top scientists, you know, Bill neither Science Guy, is over
repeating this stuff, like, well, hang on a second.
Are you all in the grip? You're all buying this.
You're not all buying this one, right?
And yeah, no, no can't. No questions asked.
Whether they're benefiting off a directly or indirectly.
Makes you kind of go, okay? Well, what else could be alive?
You sir, looking into it and go what do you mean they've never
found a complete skeleton ever. Like that.
You think they'd find like one? To substantiate the claim new
new. Well, hang on a second.
I kind of bought into this whole like He kind of think, well,
they found fauna or like, you know, imprints of plants or like
some DNA is like, no, no, no, no, not really.
No, they just they just assume a fraud.
Because they're lizards. So they just think well they're
lizards, they're be cold blooded which again now they've I think
reversed that or challenge that and science court or some of the
whatever. So you know lizards well lizards
live in deserts so or in jungles and stuff so it was probably
really hot. So they probably had like, you
know, really big versions of what we have now.
Why would that? What why would that be true?
Isn't things evolving like What why would I just get smaller if
you're evolving then like plants and stuff would be way
different, right? They wouldn't just be like, palm
trees like really big ones. They'd be like completely
different things or like Proto palm trees or whatever the hell.
Nope. Nope, nope.
Nope. Nope, dinos are fake, my friend.
Get on the dinos. Are fake bandwagon and he'll
clear you write up. We could do this right now.
I'm power washing. So it's gonna hard for me to
come to to do the whole breakdown. but, if you look up a
stegosaurus, And you can find this, the things you still find
this on Google. Look at the stegosaurus pictures
of a stegosaurus from over the last, I guess, what is it?
100 years. Like I knew a Second Source when
I was growing up. Look to certain way.
Apparently they don't look that way anymore.
Like well, okay. They must have found a new
skeleton or something with that. And you look up like, no, no,
no. They have.
They just decided that. That's not actually not how they
that's not how they look. And they look at how they looked
originally and they were standing up on two feet.
Didn't have the The plates and all the rest of it, and just had
some Spike's. Now they've changed into what I
remember them. Having his big plates on their
back and all that stuff. And now that's changed again,
too. Like they have still a place
with their smaller. And they looked different.
And you're like, okay, well obviously they must come from
some proof of new skeletons. Found How how you could tell
that that is still sick of source and I'll just a different
breed of dinosaur world together.
I don't know. Don't ask these questions.
They just decided the story. It's a nice little story.
They're just, you know. Only need to change things
around a little bit. Let's take a source change a
bit. Not to mention let's just talk
about gravity for a second, right?
Because gravity still existed. I'm assuming like a billion
years ago or whatever it was million million, whatever.
How many millions years ago? Right. so if you have a giant
big giant animal, like a brontosaurus like bigger than a
whale, right presumed as large as a great white, whale more or
less, maybe a bit smaller, but on four legs and eating, and
eating plant life, And assuming that there's like more than one
of these things roaming around, you know, the jungle or whatever
it was. Yeah, you that doesn't work
either. The largest ground largest land
animal, we have was as our elephant's.
And those guys can barely move. Like if they got much bigger.
You take the biggest elephant, there is out there and that's
about his big as you can get in Earth's gravity.
Right. Dinosaur movies and toys, and
Museum sales. Exactly. because if you have a
little kid, oh, Oh, they are dinosaurs up my daughter just
told me this morning, she doesn't like dinosaurs or the
other day. So I putting some socks that
have dinosaurs on. She was all dinosaur up.
And I was kind of casually mentioned like oh, you know,
Some people believe there's dinosaurs and other people think
they're not totally true. Not me, of course.
Whatever that run with teachers. but, um, but yeah, you know.
What do I someone asked? Jar of the great says Jason.
What's the craziest thing you think does did exist?
Well, I've come pretty much full on to the idea of Netflix on
him. Now Giants.
Can mean a few things. But I do think there were, I
think there's plenty of weird evidence, right?
Like, not evidence evidence but certainly like, Possible
evidence. Hidden up evidence.
Ooh, conspiracy exiles. Of giant human being. walking
around giant meaning like, you know, Probably nine, you know,
eight nine, ten feet tall. Which would fit into the whole
Nephilim kind of idea. I mean, Giants can also just can
mean something more symbolic than actual like, very large
human beings, but There's that, I think.
I think, dragon's More or less existed.
Now, I don't think there are the fire breathing sort.
I think those things a lot of that gets methodologies.
Oops. But I do think there was
probably large lizards, you know, to that to that part of
the dinosaurs. I think there were large
lizards. Coexisting with human beings.
Probably not that long ago really overall.
Because there's just these tons of these stories.
Now you might say well these are you know mythological
constructs, these symbolic archetypes.
And that's that's there's a I think there's a fair degree
possibility with that as well. Uh, go talk to Jonathan Pasha,
but I also think there's probably more, you know, was it
Saint George? Who's, who killed The Last
Dragon in Britain? Yeah, I think there's probably a
very large lizards that have kind of fallen into mythology.
that were poking around but with humans, and they were not You
know, some prehistoric. Precursors to chickens. so,
because Evolution itself is all bunk anyways.
And I I can I, you know, here's the thing obviously, yeah,
you're crazy. You're Christian creation, is a
sure but that was becoming plain to me even before I become a
Christian. That there was Major holes in
the story. That didn't really add up and he
actually got worse. The more time you put the more
time, you added to the situation, the worst of God.
Because he started understanding that failure is almost a
guarantee. In everything you do, right?
Anything that we do or that anything that happens in nature,
you're more or less guaranteed to fail, you know, animals
oftentimes go hungry, you know, big giant, you know, Predators
like lions and stuff like that, can, you know, or type, you
know, wolf packs and stuff that can literally starve to death
even though there's food around, there's, you know, something
like there's no dear Uh or whatever because they just
didn't catch enough. You know, they go, they go
without a Kill. For long enough and then they
die. And that happens.
Maybe not all the time but it does happen.
So, so failures actually much more likely than success. so,
when you take that, as a as a starting point as a What is up,
you know, as a as a point of reality.
Then you start looking at Evolution like okay so the
chances of a random mutation being disadvantages, you know
being terminal or you know, just having no good effect at all.
Is 99.99999999999 likely. Right.
Because failure is much more likely than success, especially
when you're doing something completely random For No Good
Reason, which is the, which again is the story. you know, I
think they're going to try to modernize this thing and try to
find some sort of evolutionary will But then that just then you
just get into Infinite regrets right?
So it's like okay, but where do the will come from?
Where do the will the amiibo come from to to become more than
just the amoeba? Why was it not satisfied at
being in the best amoeba? It could be, it had to evolve
into something. That was not an Obama to, you
know, we were told to, you know, to ensure survivability and
become better at eating in. Procreating and surviving and
passing his genes on and all that good stuff.
Like okay. Well it could just stopped at
any point before that, right? Like, so, You all the changes in
environments, like yeah. Okay, here's your problem with
changes in environment, if you change the environment too much
to suddenly to to extreme then everything dies.
Right. So they environment would have
to change just enough my newly over time.
And consistently, so consistent change, but very minut.
And we look around the world today that we have and go.
Well, is that does that seem like likely give him just a
conditions we have on Earth today.
No. Oh, okay.
Well Because well because of us, right, we changed things like
nah. These get changed by Nature all
the time, you know? Pretty suddenly dramatically.
So I don't, I'm not buying that story the way it's presented.
Unicorn is the archaic word for Rhino.
Yeah. Someone's trying to tell me how
evolutionary Works Evolution Works.
No no I get it man. The.
Oh wait, this is just a bot. Okay.
Never mind. I thought it was.
I got excited. I was like I'll explain it to
you it's all just math and strategy.
Michael okay and Charles a great ten dollars.
Jarvis. Of good stuff.
I don't know why the things aren't popping up, but the alert
box Notions. I'll have to figure that out.
Okay. You think he got everything?
Figured out, right? Everything's everything's
working and then I was in some just random.
Oh, no, no not gonna work today. Yeah, that one we got.
Oh yeah. Chad Gable.
Oh yeah. Oh, I haven't done this one yet.
Send me some money, honey. we'll give you some soundboard, loving
Watch me get demonetized on YouTube for this.
What else we got? What else we got it, put a whole
new whole bunch of you here. You just made the list.
Jobs a great ten dollars. What is a biggest difference
between Catholic Catholicism and Orthodoxy?
I'm cradle Catholic astray, kind of on the Pagan side.
The weird drift of the online, right?
Towards my birthday is strange what you mean salsa?
Yeah. You know, I'm not a theologian.
But the there's a Schism so we can get into the Philip way.
There's a whole bunch of stuff, obviously between Orthodoxy and
Roman Catholicism, I would say for a modernist though, I would
tell you go go check out J Dyers videos and talks on this.
He's far more learned and better than on this one than I will
ever be. However you got to look into
Vatican too specifically and the changes of Vatican two made to
Roman Catholic. Dogma and it's not good.
It one of the big takeaways and it's something that that Jay got
into with a debate was, I think he's Roman Catholic, I'm not
quite sure apologies. Not too long ago.
Was the fact that with Vatican twos, interpretation of God,
basically saying that we all All Phase Muslims, Jews, Christians,
even, I would say, Hindus and so that all worship the same God
just in different ways. Perhaps in, in perfect ways, but
it's always the same God and I won't, you know, there's,
there's a lot of reasons to think that that's is not just
not just, not true, but heretical and and needs to be
recanted. So, you know, Roman gets all is
him, you know? Hey man, you can have all your
feelings about it. I would truly steer you away
from narcissism it's which is, you know, paganism.
That's all it is. It's just Gnostic beliefs and in
Orthodoxy. It's not that we don't think
that those gods are real. We Think those Spirits are real,
they're just not good spirits as part of that way.
Quite a few of them are Fallen Angels or demonic forces.
So, you know, quite you'll see it pretty obvious and most
Gnostic phase. There is always an element of
human sacrifice. So even with Odin and all their
rest of it, there was Human Sacrifice rituals.
The Romans had different went through different phases of it.
The Romans started moving away from Zeus worship and to worship
of the Czar as a man, you know, man God kind of thing so that
that gets more complicated. But even the Greeks said, you
know, Human Sacrifice rituals so, it's got to keep that in
mind that that quite a few of those Spears.
It's not that they're not real, they're real.
They're just not, they kind of spirit.
She probably want to commune with.
And check out Orthodoxy, man. I think here's the thing is that
Orthodoxy has kind of a little bit for everybody in the
modernist is going to modernist, men are going to find this out
pretty pretty quickly. What's good about it is that if
you if you like the mystical and the spiritual and the sort of
you know, let's say, non philosophy, you know, it's got
that in Spades, you know, tons and tons of mysticism to kind of
get get yourself involved in and the right kind because it's it's
not trying to, you know, kill you and eat you.
So there's that the the other good thing isn't.
It has a philosophy. It has just common practice.
It's got a little bit of everything for everybody.
You know, it's kind of probably why it's survived and thrived
for this is long and why people, you know, when out of their way
to defend it and keep it alive, even when it would have been
probably easier to not do that. I'm talking about, you know,
Sylvia, this Soviet Russia situation and all the rest of
it. It's pretty stunning.
What? People went through to keep the
faith intact, so what makes me so mad sad about, Was zelensky
and them are doing to the Orthodox Faith because really
Ukrainian language culture, all that stuff.
If they're, you know, I know a lot of people want to say that
it's not distinct from Russia, it is it's you know, obviously
has a Russia and ukrainians or cousins in many ways.
But, you know, there is a uniqueness to Ukraine to to
Ukrainian culture. And the reason I was preserved
was because of the canonical Church.
Which zelensky and Cove gone on their way to to harass Outlaw
and other such wonderful things. So, New i7 goes at, how do they
first molecule or sell me in the first unit first or Dimension
created itself concluded. Something has always been, it's
more logical and reasonable to believe in God.
Yeah. Well here's the other thing,
right? Let's get, let's get out of the
materialism for a second because yeah, you're right, you know,
how does the first gas form? Because you're left.
The problem of the materials is always has is You're Building
backwards, right? You have a thing that is.
And so you have to say, well, there if you're saying there's,
there's this thing that that is and presupposing a time.
When this thing isn't, then you have to produce a time when this
thing becomes the thing. So, let's talk about, let's just
say a gas, right? So before the Big Bang, and
before all the building blocks of the universe, suddenly come
into existence, which is, you know, kind of neat that just
does that thing and all these building blocks, all these atoms
or particles or whatever. You know, when they form when
they when they make contact with each other they start to do some
certain things. Now the Audi of this is that the
things that they do just happen to you know come you know work
out in our favor, you know oxygen is a thing.
You know. Rocks form in a way that can be
used as rocks. Like, and you are adding these
sort of Randomness to these to, even the, the particles that are
required to form the basis for a rock.
Like it's one thing to say that. Some fish started developing
legs even though. Okay.
Sure. So then that starts to develop
the skeleton for legs. The need for legs, the desired
legs and over time, it creates legs and crawls itself out of
the sea with like lungs, that can breathe there and all the
rest of it. And you're taking all these
micro adaptations and adding them all up and therefore you
you have, you know, land fish. That's crazy enough as it is but
you're not going to with Is Like Oxygen.
And the fact that an oxygen molecule at some point, didn't
exist and had to somehow come into existence.
And just, you know, happened to find his way to places. instead
of just being localized and one area, you know, it's it's a when
you start adding up to all the things that have to line up that
also have to have the all these building blocks and all these
other, all these other particles that didn't exist at some point,
then just came into existence and just happened to be able to
function together to create, you know, rocks and gas and Sons and
all these other things that you need to even have life on Earth
as a prerequisite. Well, that's a stunning amount
of like whoopsies. Like your coincidence is their
starting to pile up to the point of like ridicule.
Because you're granting yourself particles.
Not only are you granting yourself, particles, you're
granting yourself particles that can work with each other.
Here's the other thing about God in the mind.
And I did the thoughts thing. I don't know if I really thought
about everything is produced. I mean, I'll expand on that in a
future show. But back on, hopefully Monday.
Eastern Standard Time Around the same time.
If that's the plan. The.
The problem with with the assumption is is that you give
yourself mine, right? Even brain chemistry, you're
granting yourself brain, chemistry that can evolve to a
point of Consciousness even though where the only life on
Earth that we know of that has this consciousness.
Right. But the Dolphins yeah they're
not conscious and the same way that we do.
You know sorry that's just not true but Apes.
Well again not conscious. Highly intelligent compared to
other animals. Yeah sure.
Trainable all the rest of it but not conscious in the same way he
was doing. Um, and this isn't a sort of
like, well why are there? You know, we've evolved from
apes while they're still Apes? I'm not doing that kind of
argument, although it's actually not as horrible an argument as
as it first sounded. The only problem is it was made
by a guy's like Kirk Cameron. And you know, it's easy to not
listen to that but Point being since you're just granting
yourself whole categories of Quincy dinks.
That these things just happen to work together.
Here's a big question from my materials friends.
What's the first thought? There, how to be a first
thought? Without the ability, by the way,
because a thought would have had to be a precursor to to speak.
So rudiment I'm not counting like Grunts and groans and, you
know, marks and stuff. As speed as the jit form of
communication, right? Other than the basic things that
animals can do, you know, bought a dog can bark but can't write a
poem. Can't express.
What is thinking even time if a dog could think?
So then you're left with the idea.
Like, okay, what was the first thought?
Can you express a thought without thinking without
thinking it with words? The closest thing you could
maybe get to is pure inspiration.
Like art, like you could draw something without the necessity
of a language like a formalized language or words.
So now we're getting somewhere with that and go well that's
what they drew they drew on the walls and then that got them
thinking and stuff. Okay.
But That's still get you down to, what's the first thought?
What were they trying to express?
Because let's say you take unless you have widespread like
a whole bunch of these proto-humans, not yet.
Humans, still kind of a fish, all kind of having these Proto
thoughts. All at the same time. it was
only one dude strolling on the wall, but again, some bunch of
other Still Apes, who can't understand what the fucking he's
doing, excuse me. Then that doesn't work either.
So you're presupposing a whole bunch of these guys, all having
been with think. Which brings us back to the same
questions, like what's the first thought?
The argument for God, is for the mind.
Is that you don't need to have this sort of kinky dink first
thought Paradox, where you have to have a first thought, what's
the first thought it can? The first kind of thought happen
without a language and in a by only by a very, very small
select few humans. Not yet humans.
How would they express this? How could, how would they even
know what a thought was? A thought if they haven't
thought of thought yet, you know, Becomes Infinity.
Regress on this. but, The. The.
The, the ideal of God is that, well, God gives us God's the
first mine. so, all our thoughts, Which aren't really
ours, anyways. Come from someplace else.
You know, we are mechanisms of discernment of information.
And we can put that information together and kind of unique
novel ways. But you know, any real true
thing that we would consider a thought probably doesn't even
come from us because you couldn't isolate it down to when
did this occur? And that gets a funny fun,
funny, funny, funny and funky stuff.
See this? First molecule cell.
Its kind of wondrous effect of Life exists at all?
Well, I mean it's it's God. So, you know, just thank your
creator. Be thankful be thankful.
Let's see. My dogging as conscious as me
but she's good company. Nonetheless.
Well, I'm sure she is. Jarvis says yeah the silver
awareness of mortality is what drives Arts reproductions the
desire for immortality. Um yeah maybe I mean I think
that's a Again, I think that's a much more of a modernist.
Idea, you know, the the drive. Yeah, you can say that the
Continuation of the species. If you're, if it's where you're
coming from this, right? Like biological imperatives used
to be the word of when I was a kid.
I was a young man. And again, they just grants
himself imperative. You know, you just grant
yourself this whole category that seemingly.
Well, there's this will. Okay, where does the will come
from? Can you, can you find the wheel
where is there an or is there an organ called the called?
The will like, where is this thing?
Where is this will? You know we'll just survive.
We'll to procreate. We'll okay.
Where is it? Where is it?
Where you know? Is it's just, are you just gonna
say well, it's nestled in our DNA somewhere.
It's like, okay. Well, what produced it though?
Did the first, you know, not even yet.
Am I mean amoeba? Because again you're just
granting yourself single cell organism. because this is the
problem, your infinite regress, there is that eventually you
have to get back to like well there was a thing, there was a
time when there wasn't even a single cell organism, Which is a
bunch of proteins coming together.
So was there a will for proteins to come Mingle.
And to create this, you know, to evolve into a single cell
organism. You know well that's just what
it does like. Okay.
But how why? Well, we'll just find.
Oh sometimes Or you can just make some stuff up.
Okay, that's fun too. You'd make it up.
Oh man, this is getting into the minutiae, aren't we?
Collecting the dings though. Folks, we're getting the dings.
All I Want For Christmas is another ding. so really they're
coming out of power washer too similar to You know, how they
can improve on this. Really.
Just a way to repackage, I mean. Sell your new thing for full
price instead of an add-on. Jarvis as there is no organ for
the will to power. My dog has it.
I have it. You have it just not in the same
degree again but but where does it exist?
Is it just if? Okay, so well I will will the
power. I don't know if that's We'll say
we'll just revive right. Which might include power.
Sure. But what manifests?
Right. What makes the single-cell
organism want to survive? Right.
As you're basically, you're just granting a want.
From a thing that has no mind. No mind.
Right? It's a single cell thing.
It's just partnering around in the puddle of goo. but yet, it
must have this will In order to, for your little Theory to work
out, I'm not talking to you jar. I'm not putting you down just
ranting. Ranting against murdering.
Your just happened to be in my way guys.
I got to go to her back. Enjoy the carousel.
So, sometimes my dog has much less will to power comes with
her cute, and I do what she wants regardless of whether or
not. It's good for me or not.
Hmm. Stay away from peanut butter
buddy. I feel like this is, Potential
for the story, going to Dark Places.
All right. Do I finish this?
Where we finish up? I think we finished up.
I I feel like I have run out of things to talk about and we're
of the five-hour Mark, I was gonna go for three hours.
For five. So let me let me just do this.
Oops, ladies and gentlemen. This is no German nuts.
Carousel, music? Why?
Do we do we evolve to make Carousel music?
Was that the whole thing human beings evolved from amoeba just
to create looping tracks of dated and inspect my living
nightmares. Ladies and gentlemen, folks,
thank you so much. Tuning into episode 1, Marin
shark live. We'll be back next week on the
hope. The plan is Monday.
Starting around 9 between 9 and 10 p.m.
Eastern Standard, Time bringing back at the end of the day, the
interview series got Adam. Patrick, if you're a member on
YouTube, you can check that out pre-life stream there.
Next week, be quite likely talking to Thomas 777.
Having him back on the show. So keep an eye out for that and
those episodes be uploaded to all the different places.
So follow me on X to get notifications for that, of
course, we backed with Jim Joshua's next week for more than
a now and I'm starting to see more interviews for Gemini to
talk to and then the live show, you know, once or twice a week,
is the is the plan and I appreciate everyone who Tunes in
this kind of the field, the vibe that we're going for.
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Keep keep the dream alive, the hope alive.
And I will be talking to you again, very, very soon.
Thank you so much. Everyone in the chat.
I'm Jason Merrick. And it's later than you think.