1 00:00:20,530 --> 00:00:25,370 You know, the older and more aware and smarter I get, and I 2 00:00:25,370 --> 00:00:29,570 mean smarter in a lot of areas in my life, in most areas of my 3 00:00:29,570 --> 00:00:34,650 life, actually, the better the quality and you know, just the 4 00:00:35,050 --> 00:00:37,370 basically the quality of people I meet. 5 00:00:37,920 --> 00:00:42,000 And this also means that I'm around better quality men. 6 00:00:42,000 --> 00:00:47,440 I date better men who are also smarter, better, amazing. 7 00:00:47,440 --> 00:00:50,640 And something that I've been realizing a lot even as I've 8 00:00:50,640 --> 00:00:55,200 been dating upwards is that I always go through the same issue 9 00:00:55,360 --> 00:00:58,720 when it comes to me expressing myself emotionally. 10 00:00:58,760 --> 00:01:01,440 And I'm also realizing that this is just something that is 11 00:01:01,440 --> 00:01:05,920 complementary in heterosexual relationships, but maybe it's 12 00:01:05,920 --> 00:01:08,800 something we need to talk about and I want to hear your thoughts 13 00:01:08,800 --> 00:01:10,640 on it. So The thing is, it doesn't 14 00:01:10,640 --> 00:01:14,680 matter how smart the men are that I date, when it comes to me 15 00:01:14,680 --> 00:01:17,240 explaining how I feel emotionally, there's 16 00:01:17,240 --> 00:01:20,200 consistently always an emotional breakdown. 17 00:01:20,200 --> 00:01:22,920 And I'll explain. A few years back, I was dating, 18 00:01:23,200 --> 00:01:26,880 dating, seeing this guy, really, really smart guy. 19 00:01:27,040 --> 00:01:31,080 He was. I mean, I never had to explain 20 00:01:31,080 --> 00:01:34,360 anything to him because he gets things really, really fast. 21 00:01:34,760 --> 00:01:38,800 In fact, we never had any misunderstandings about just 22 00:01:38,800 --> 00:01:41,400 sharing our feelings and thoughts because he got me 23 00:01:41,400 --> 00:01:44,800 really, really quickly. He was, he was such an amazing 24 00:01:44,800 --> 00:01:47,560 understander of me. He gets me even now. 25 00:01:47,560 --> 00:01:51,400 I mean, we still talk once in a while and you know, he really 26 00:01:51,400 --> 00:01:53,720 truly knows me. He has an amazing memory of the 27 00:01:53,720 --> 00:01:56,320 things I like. He would to the point that if we 28 00:01:56,320 --> 00:01:59,320 went to a restaurant together, he would know what to order for 29 00:01:59,320 --> 00:02:01,920 me to a tea, down to the sauces that I like. 30 00:02:01,920 --> 00:02:04,600 So this is someone who gets me completely. 31 00:02:04,680 --> 00:02:09,240 But anytime I would start expressing myself emotionally, 32 00:02:09,560 --> 00:02:12,680 this is where the kizungum kuti would come in. 33 00:02:12,760 --> 00:02:16,200 You see, the reason there's this discrepancy I'm realizing is 34 00:02:16,200 --> 00:02:19,800 that men and women are speaking very, very different languages. 35 00:02:19,800 --> 00:02:22,320 Most times. As a woman, this is me on a 36 00:02:22,320 --> 00:02:24,400 personal level. I'm not saying all women are 37 00:02:24,400 --> 00:02:28,120 like this, but when I feel something, even if the feeling 38 00:02:28,360 --> 00:02:32,840 is making sense or not, I tend to want to express it. 39 00:02:32,880 --> 00:02:36,880 And I'm realizing when I do this around men, they always try to 40 00:02:36,880 --> 00:02:42,240 meet me on a logical level, like to explain why my feelings can't 41 00:02:42,240 --> 00:02:45,920 make sense because they would have to be like this so that it 42 00:02:45,920 --> 00:02:48,080 can make sense. And then this would have to 43 00:02:48,080 --> 00:02:50,520 happen. And I'm always trying to 44 00:02:50,640 --> 00:02:54,080 understand why they do this without realizing that they do 45 00:02:54,080 --> 00:02:56,120 this. But I probably do this from an 46 00:02:56,120 --> 00:02:59,520 emotional standpoint as well without realizing I'm doing 47 00:02:59,520 --> 00:03:02,760 this. There's this group I'm in with 48 00:03:02,920 --> 00:03:06,840 lots of fans of the a few fans of actually. 49 00:03:06,880 --> 00:03:10,440 And in that group we discuss a lot of things about intimacy and 50 00:03:10,440 --> 00:03:12,560 relationships. And this is a discussion that we 51 00:03:12,560 --> 00:03:15,920 were having about how, you know, what does it mean when a woman 52 00:03:15,920 --> 00:03:19,960 is opening up and saying, hey, I feel like, blah, blah, blah, 53 00:03:19,960 --> 00:03:22,480 blah, blah. And the men were really, you 54 00:03:22,480 --> 00:03:25,320 know, eager to learn, to actually learn what it means. 55 00:03:25,320 --> 00:03:28,400 And the women were trying to explain that when a woman does 56 00:03:28,400 --> 00:03:31,920 that, in that moment, she needs you to meet her emotionally. 57 00:03:31,920 --> 00:03:35,200 She needs you to sit in your emotions and hold space for her 58 00:03:35,200 --> 00:03:38,320 emotionally. Listen, I know a lot of men in 59 00:03:38,320 --> 00:03:41,160 this who are maybe closer to my age, especially millennials 60 00:03:41,160 --> 00:03:45,360 going upwards were not granted the space for them to know how 61 00:03:45,360 --> 00:03:48,480 to show up emotionally, especially for people. 62 00:03:48,800 --> 00:03:52,680 And This is why the I, I keep preaching about this because 63 00:03:52,720 --> 00:03:56,440 having emotional intelligence is a human advantage. 64 00:03:56,440 --> 00:03:59,000 It's a human trait. It's not something that is 65 00:03:59,000 --> 00:04:02,160 reserved for women. It's not something that only 66 00:04:02,160 --> 00:04:03,960 women are supposed to be good at. 67 00:04:03,960 --> 00:04:07,960 It's something every human being should be amazing at because it 68 00:04:07,960 --> 00:04:11,040 helps you and it forms the decisions you make. 69 00:04:11,040 --> 00:04:14,640 For instance, I make my decisions solely based off my 70 00:04:14,640 --> 00:04:16,959 emotions. And you'll hear a lot of people 71 00:04:16,959 --> 00:04:20,640 talking about you're too emotional, don't use your 72 00:04:20,640 --> 00:04:23,560 emotions to make decisions. And it makes me wonder why. 73 00:04:23,600 --> 00:04:26,120 Why? As a human being, I have 74 00:04:26,120 --> 00:04:29,120 emotions for a reason. There's a reason these emotions 75 00:04:29,120 --> 00:04:31,120 exist. And ever since I started 76 00:04:31,120 --> 00:04:35,560 trusting the way I feel about stuff, it has helped me learn to 77 00:04:35,560 --> 00:04:39,720 trust my intuition much more. I mean, it doesn't mean that I 78 00:04:39,720 --> 00:04:42,120 shouldn't use my brain. It just means it's not all the 79 00:04:42,120 --> 00:04:43,760 time that things have to make sense. 80 00:04:43,800 --> 00:04:47,240 Sometimes it doesn't make sense, but if it makes me feel good, 81 00:04:47,240 --> 00:04:50,680 why not? And I find people who try to be 82 00:04:50,680 --> 00:04:54,480 logical all the time really struggle with this because even 83 00:04:54,480 --> 00:04:58,480 if, if it feels good, even if it feels really good, as long as it 84 00:04:58,480 --> 00:05:00,760 doesn't make sense, they're going to forfeit it. 85 00:05:00,800 --> 00:05:04,480 And I feel like they're, they're losing out on this side of life. 86 00:05:04,480 --> 00:05:07,000 Why? Because I'm not forfeiting on my 87 00:05:07,000 --> 00:05:10,120 logical intelligence. I'm not saying, hey, I don't 88 00:05:10,120 --> 00:05:12,360 need to be smart. I don't need to know stuff. 89 00:05:12,480 --> 00:05:15,760 I'm learning both sides. I'm learning on the emotional 90 00:05:15,760 --> 00:05:17,800 side and I'm learning on the logical side. 91 00:05:17,800 --> 00:05:21,240 What that does is that it sets me apart from someone who's 92 00:05:21,320 --> 00:05:24,800 locking themselves away from emotions and refusing to learn 93 00:05:24,800 --> 00:05:27,600 or do better. It's putting me way ahead of 94 00:05:27,600 --> 00:05:29,640 them. It's making sure I'm able to 95 00:05:29,640 --> 00:05:32,880 enjoy all sides of this beautiful coin. 96 00:05:32,880 --> 00:05:35,520 And I'm not saying this to say you know I'm better than you. 97 00:05:35,520 --> 00:05:39,160 I'm saying this to say, hey, you can be just as as good as me or 98 00:05:39,160 --> 00:05:43,200 even better than me, so why not? That was just one example of a 99 00:05:43,200 --> 00:05:45,040 guy. Most of the guys I actually 100 00:05:45,080 --> 00:05:48,800 relate with, even on a on a professional level, most times, 101 00:05:48,800 --> 00:05:52,480 I always have to justify why applying my emotions is an 102 00:05:52,560 --> 00:05:55,840 important part of the process. People tend to try and shut me 103 00:05:55,840 --> 00:05:58,960 down because, you know, don't bring feelings into this. 104 00:05:58,960 --> 00:06:02,000 Feelings have no space here, but we're human beings and there's 105 00:06:02,000 --> 00:06:05,080 feelings everywhere. It is my true belief that we 106 00:06:05,080 --> 00:06:08,360 must apply emotions in all the things that we are doing or all 107 00:06:08,360 --> 00:06:12,880 the things we'd love to do because it is through this that 108 00:06:12,880 --> 00:06:15,440 you're able to be very honest with yourself about. 109 00:06:15,960 --> 00:06:19,680 Do you really want to be there? They have an ex. 110 00:06:19,680 --> 00:06:22,920 Let me just out myself. There's this guy I was dating 111 00:06:22,920 --> 00:06:25,840 last year and this man was really amazing to me. 112 00:06:25,840 --> 00:06:29,440 He was such an amazing husband. Let me not even call him 113 00:06:29,440 --> 00:06:33,680 boyfriend because we had already gone out to look at rings. 114 00:06:33,680 --> 00:06:36,360 He wanted me to have his beachfront mansion. 115 00:06:36,400 --> 00:06:39,600 We were making plans to travel. This is just one month into the 116 00:06:39,600 --> 00:06:43,480 relationship and this is because this guy was very intentional. 117 00:06:43,480 --> 00:06:46,400 He knew what he wanted. He knew he wanted to marry me. 118 00:06:46,400 --> 00:06:50,560 But during that time I had to be honest with myself and I'll tell 119 00:06:50,560 --> 00:06:53,360 you what I had to be honest with myself about Don't beat me up. 120 00:06:53,520 --> 00:06:57,280 Well, this guy, he was amazing. He was take me taking me out on 121 00:06:57,280 --> 00:06:59,360 dates. He was communicating any all the 122 00:06:59,360 --> 00:07:01,960 things girls complain about I had no issues with. 123 00:07:01,960 --> 00:07:05,440 For maybe even the first time ever in my romantic life. 124 00:07:05,440 --> 00:07:08,240 This was the perfect boyfriend. He was amazing. 125 00:07:08,240 --> 00:07:11,840 He gave me everything I needed, took care of me, loved me. 126 00:07:11,840 --> 00:07:15,200 He would wash my body, he would buy me everything I needed. 127 00:07:15,200 --> 00:07:18,560 He was actually amazing. And to be honest, I am 128 00:07:18,560 --> 00:07:20,720 materialistic. These are the kind of man I 129 00:07:20,720 --> 00:07:23,280 love. He's absolutely my type. 130 00:07:23,320 --> 00:07:27,240 He was amazing to me. He loved me beyond anything. 131 00:07:27,400 --> 00:07:29,920 He was my friend. You know, we had an amazing 132 00:07:29,920 --> 00:07:33,200 relationship going on and I was happy for most part of the time, 133 00:07:33,400 --> 00:07:35,560 but I was still in love with someone else. 134 00:07:35,640 --> 00:07:39,400 Please Missini Chapas sprinkle sprinkle battalion especially. 135 00:07:39,720 --> 00:07:41,200 I was still in love with someone else. 136 00:07:41,200 --> 00:07:44,360 And I had to sit down with myself and be honest and and 137 00:07:44,360 --> 00:07:48,200 weigh and say, OK, look at all the things I'm going to receive. 138 00:07:48,480 --> 00:07:52,120 I'm going to receive a home. I'm going to receive such a 139 00:07:52,120 --> 00:07:54,440 beautiful life. I don't even have to walk if I 140 00:07:54,440 --> 00:07:56,320 don't want to. I'm set. 141 00:07:56,320 --> 00:07:59,040 I'm going to receive basically everything I want. 142 00:07:59,040 --> 00:08:00,840 He got me even the ring that I wanted. 143 00:08:00,840 --> 00:08:04,880 But I kept thinking about my ex. I kept thinking about making 144 00:08:04,880 --> 00:08:07,760 love to my ex. I kept thinking about my ex's 145 00:08:07,760 --> 00:08:11,240 hands watching me. I kept thinking about how it 146 00:08:11,240 --> 00:08:14,600 felt with his skin on mine. And to the point that even when 147 00:08:14,600 --> 00:08:18,000 I was having sex with this, my boyfriend, I had to think about 148 00:08:18,000 --> 00:08:21,280 my ex to come. I had to make an honest decision 149 00:08:21,440 --> 00:08:25,360 with myself, for myself and just be honest with this guy because 150 00:08:25,480 --> 00:08:28,640 it would be very unfair if I stayed and used him. 151 00:08:28,640 --> 00:08:31,360 And listen, someone else will say, you know what does it 152 00:08:31,360 --> 00:08:33,440 matter? Get the property, get the I 153 00:08:33,440 --> 00:08:35,600 would have. And actually, even if I were 154 00:08:35,600 --> 00:08:38,240 honest with him, he probably would have left me with this 155 00:08:38,240 --> 00:08:40,280 stuff. But I didn't want something. 156 00:08:40,320 --> 00:08:44,159 I didn't want to receive stuff out of pretentious ways. 157 00:08:44,280 --> 00:08:48,520 I didn't want to be the kind of person who stays married to 158 00:08:48,520 --> 00:08:50,560 someone. But it's all I don't feel 159 00:08:50,560 --> 00:08:52,240 anything. I don't feel anything. 160 00:08:52,240 --> 00:08:56,400 And listen, this was an easy decision for someone who thinks 161 00:08:56,400 --> 00:08:58,720 logically. I mean, who doesn't want all 162 00:08:58,720 --> 00:09:01,560 these things that I had been offered on a silver platter. 163 00:09:01,640 --> 00:09:04,360 And you know what? I broke up with that man, not 164 00:09:04,360 --> 00:09:06,720 because he was a horrible person, but because I just 165 00:09:06,720 --> 00:09:09,440 didn't want to live a lie. I broke, broke up with him and 166 00:09:09,440 --> 00:09:11,440 he was very heartbroken actually. 167 00:09:11,640 --> 00:09:14,560 But even through his heartbreak, he still remained very kind to 168 00:09:14,560 --> 00:09:16,720 me. It's not that I didn't love him, 169 00:09:16,840 --> 00:09:19,640 it's just that I didn't love him as much as I loved my ex. 170 00:09:19,640 --> 00:09:24,280 And I, I tried, I mean, I tried, I tried, I stayed, I tried. 171 00:09:24,880 --> 00:09:27,840 There's nothing I didn't do. I tried so hard. 172 00:09:27,840 --> 00:09:30,560 I deleted this guy. I blocked everything. 173 00:09:30,560 --> 00:09:34,120 I stopped speaking to him. I thought I moved on, but 174 00:09:34,120 --> 00:09:37,320 everything just kept bringing me back to him and thoughts of, you 175 00:09:37,320 --> 00:09:39,960 know, how his hands feel on my skin. 176 00:09:40,000 --> 00:09:42,840 I think that's torture. I wasn't about to let myself 177 00:09:42,840 --> 00:09:45,840 live a life of torture. I had to be honest with myself 178 00:09:45,840 --> 00:09:49,840 and pick the options that feels better despite it not making the 179 00:09:49,840 --> 00:09:52,160 most sense. And I say this because I'm a 180 00:09:52,160 --> 00:09:55,600 very materialistic person. So the decision that would make 181 00:09:55,600 --> 00:09:59,320 sense was for me to get all these stuff that I wanted and 182 00:09:59,320 --> 00:10:03,320 just pretend and stay married. And then, you know, after I 183 00:10:03,320 --> 00:10:05,640 acquire this stuff, I can make the decision I want. 184 00:10:05,720 --> 00:10:11,240 You see, me leaving my, my, my boyfriend at that time, I didn't 185 00:10:11,240 --> 00:10:13,720 leave him because, like I said, I didn't leave him because I 186 00:10:13,720 --> 00:10:16,160 didn't love him. I just left him because I loved 187 00:10:16,160 --> 00:10:18,320 my ex more. And I wasn't leaving him because 188 00:10:18,320 --> 00:10:20,160 I was going to get back with my ex. 189 00:10:20,160 --> 00:10:22,360 Nope. Actually, there was no guarantee 190 00:10:22,360 --> 00:10:24,440 I was going to ever speak with my ex again. 191 00:10:24,520 --> 00:10:26,960 There was no guarantee that this guy was ever going to speak with 192 00:10:26,960 --> 00:10:29,280 me again. But I just had to be honest with 193 00:10:29,280 --> 00:10:30,960 myself. And that's the kind of person I 194 00:10:30,960 --> 00:10:32,440 am. I have to to be very, very 195 00:10:32,440 --> 00:10:35,400 honest with myself because my feelings haunt me. 196 00:10:35,400 --> 00:10:37,480 My feelings follow me everywhere I go. 197 00:10:37,640 --> 00:10:42,840 They are every part of me. Anger, jealousy, love, passion, 198 00:10:42,960 --> 00:10:46,720 beauty, happiness, forgiveness, all these feelings are part of 199 00:10:46,720 --> 00:10:49,800 me and I have to accept that. They inform a lot of the 200 00:10:49,800 --> 00:10:52,680 decisions I've had. I've quit jobs just because I 201 00:10:52,680 --> 00:10:54,560 didn't feel good about being there. 202 00:10:54,640 --> 00:10:58,000 I've stopped hanging out with friends just because I felt 203 00:10:58,040 --> 00:11:02,320 something wasn't right and there's no moment my body or my 204 00:11:02,320 --> 00:11:06,640 feelings have ever misguided me or LED me ashay. 205 00:11:06,640 --> 00:11:08,760 They're always very very spot on. 206 00:11:08,880 --> 00:11:11,800 So I find most of the relationships I'm in I'm 207 00:11:11,800 --> 00:11:15,320 consistently trying to justify why my feelings are valid and 208 00:11:15,320 --> 00:11:17,240 they really inform the decisions I make. 209 00:11:17,240 --> 00:11:22,960 So I find that people struggle a lot with emotional intelligence 210 00:11:23,000 --> 00:11:27,840 and when I show up like this I notice they become blank 0. 211 00:11:28,000 --> 00:11:32,560 So most times I have to explain myself over and over and over 212 00:11:32,560 --> 00:11:36,280 and over again. And a lot of times it causes 213 00:11:36,280 --> 00:11:39,480 fights and most times it just ends, you know, at a space where 214 00:11:39,720 --> 00:11:42,560 I'm not being understood. But because I'm the one who 215 00:11:42,560 --> 00:11:46,880 knows how to understand, I take it in, I compromise, I swallow 216 00:11:46,880 --> 00:11:50,680 it and I accept. But nobody says, hey, I 217 00:11:50,680 --> 00:11:53,720 understand you. Also, I feel what you're saying. 218 00:11:53,760 --> 00:11:56,520 I'm consistently invalidated about these feelings that I 219 00:11:56,520 --> 00:11:58,600 have. I feel like a lot of the reasons 220 00:11:58,600 --> 00:12:03,080 why my relationships that have ended and is because I always 221 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:08,600 feel like I'm not being understood and feelings are very 222 00:12:08,600 --> 00:12:12,640 much part of the experience of this life that we're all living. 223 00:12:12,800 --> 00:12:16,320 I wish people would give it as give it some space as much as I 224 00:12:16,320 --> 00:12:19,400 do right now. I have better understanding that 225 00:12:19,400 --> 00:12:23,320 you can't know what you don't know, but you can always try to 226 00:12:23,320 --> 00:12:27,080 learn more about it and find out because that's how we grow. 227 00:12:27,080 --> 00:12:30,440 I'm also realizing that there's some relationships that will end 228 00:12:30,520 --> 00:12:33,640 because there's some people who would rather not understand 229 00:12:33,640 --> 00:12:37,080 anything you're saying or be willing to learn and listen 230 00:12:37,240 --> 00:12:39,320 because misunderstanding you is easier. 231 00:12:39,320 --> 00:12:43,600 And because I've been able to throw myself out there into, you 232 00:12:43,600 --> 00:12:47,200 know, relationships where I can explore being smart in different 233 00:12:47,200 --> 00:12:50,200 ways, I'm learning that the people who love me are just 234 00:12:50,200 --> 00:12:54,760 sticking by me through all the journeys as I fail, as I make 235 00:12:54,760 --> 00:12:59,040 mistakes, as I lose stuff. I don't want anyone to come into 236 00:12:59,040 --> 00:13:03,600 my life and try to solve my emotional issues with logic. 237 00:13:03,880 --> 00:13:06,160 I need people to meet me emotionally. 238 00:13:06,360 --> 00:13:09,560 If I feel something, try to sit with me in my emotions. 239 00:13:09,560 --> 00:13:13,080 Don't try to process it with your logic and try to see if my 240 00:13:13,080 --> 00:13:16,400 problems are making sense. Sometimes they don't, and that's 241 00:13:16,400 --> 00:13:19,960 why they are emotional. Emotions are not things that you 242 00:13:19,960 --> 00:13:23,640 can figure out all the time in some sort of way. 243 00:13:23,640 --> 00:13:27,280 It's not like math. It's not like it's not a logical 244 00:13:27,280 --> 00:13:29,480 equation. It's just an emotion. 245 00:13:29,480 --> 00:13:32,240 And sometimes it doesn't have a solution or it doesn't have. 246 00:13:32,240 --> 00:13:35,360 The only thing it requires is for you to just sit with me and 247 00:13:35,440 --> 00:13:39,480 listen the same way. It would be very, very unfair if 248 00:13:39,480 --> 00:13:44,000 I started showing up to logical issues with emotions and trying 249 00:13:44,000 --> 00:13:47,800 to tell you, you know, feel this way, feel this way. 250 00:13:47,800 --> 00:13:51,840 No, I think it's important to learn to meet each other where 251 00:13:51,920 --> 00:13:55,960 the issue is at without trying to impose the ways with which we 252 00:13:55,960 --> 00:13:59,480 solve our own personal issues onto other people. 253 00:13:59,520 --> 00:14:02,520 I wanted to talk about emotion versus logic. 254 00:14:02,520 --> 00:14:05,720 And I hope that, you know, I'm realizing, I'm realizing that 255 00:14:05,720 --> 00:14:09,320 I'm not always the best at expressing myself the way I 256 00:14:09,320 --> 00:14:12,240 think I am because sometimes things make a lot of sense in my 257 00:14:12,240 --> 00:14:15,720 mind, but when it comes to me speaking or opening up, it 258 00:14:15,720 --> 00:14:17,760 doesn't come out the way I want it to come out. 259 00:14:18,320 --> 00:14:21,480 And this in turn, also causes a lot of conflict within my 260 00:14:21,480 --> 00:14:25,080 relationships. But The thing is, I just blabber 261 00:14:25,080 --> 00:14:28,560 in hopes that whoever gets it gets it and whoever doesn't get 262 00:14:28,560 --> 00:14:31,720 it, get it. But for now, my message is when 263 00:14:31,720 --> 00:14:34,800 I'm having an emotional issue, don't try to solve it with 264 00:14:34,800 --> 00:14:36,720 logic. When I tell you I feel 265 00:14:36,720 --> 00:14:40,720 something, stop trying to understand and psychoanalyze it. 266 00:14:40,720 --> 00:14:43,080 It's, it's not something that needs solving. 267 00:14:43,080 --> 00:14:46,600 It's just something that needs sitting with, acknowledging, 268 00:14:46,600 --> 00:14:50,400 understanding that I'm a human being with emotions. 269 00:14:50,440 --> 00:14:54,080 I feel stuff and I like to express my emotions. 270 00:14:54,080 --> 00:14:58,040 That would make the world a better place for all the people 271 00:14:58,040 --> 00:15:01,120 who are very emotional like me. If you have any questions about 272 00:15:01,120 --> 00:15:04,400 this episode, please feel free to message me and ask me. 273 00:15:04,400 --> 00:15:06,560 Maybe I can do much more clarifications. 274 00:15:06,560 --> 00:15:09,280 But I think I want to end this episode here. 275 00:15:09,280 --> 00:15:11,400 And until next time, Kohedi.