I want to start off by saying all praise be to Allah, the most
gracious, the most Merciful, the most powerful.
It's only Him we worship, only Him we bow down to, and only Him
we turn to when we're in need and also like to send peace and
blessings upon our beloved Prophet Muhammad.
Sallallahu Alayhi wasallam jazakallahu hidden for the
message for inviting me here. We'll lahi.
I'm far from mashir, all from a scholar, all from a estad.
I'm a dusty guy. I'm going to be honest here.
I'm the dust that you see underneath the the shoe of the
shoe. Allahumma, Barack Allahum
Allahumma. I mean, and just because I sit
in front of you in any shape or form, I don't think I'm better
than you in whatsoever. This phobe doesn't make me a
better Muslim than any of you, nor does this beard and so on
and so forth. So don't ever think for once
that I sit in front of you where I think where I think I'm better
than you, a lot more bad. I have to honestly say majority
of the brothers here today, probably no more Quran than me,
more hadith than me. And they probably practice the
Dean better than me. I'm not here to tell you
regardless of whatever you've gone through.
So I want to give a big shout out, a big shout out to all the
sinners because gender is full of sinners.
But those that repented genders not made for people that did
absolutely nothing with their life and they made no mistakes.
Our last panel at Allah says if there was a nation that did not
commit any sins, he would destroy that nation in order in
order to create a nation that sins are repent to our last
panel at Allah. This is Allah's words.
So best believe for the drug dealers and the sinners and the
zanies, whoever may be you rappers and the guys that listen
to music, the guys that are bunning, bro, today could be
your day when you change your life completely.
Today is the day Ramadan's just left.
It is unfair that we put our souls through this detox of
Ramadan, the whole month, the whole month, in order for us to
do what to. Be a monster.
Well, those that are jarhead on aid and I saw this aid.
And it was. Upsetting that Muslims that I
see on the front row reading the Quran throughout, throughout the
salahs, Allahu aklahum. Yeah.
But when aid came, it's like they forgot themselves as a
Muslim and every single aid and be real with you.
And ask yourself, every single aid there's what?
There's brothers that are what, committing suicide on the same
day of aid? There's brothers that are dying
in in car crashes. There's brothers that are
overdosing on drugs, there's brothers that are what, going to
the level of being drunk and now they've drowned.
This is what's happening amongst our communities on Aidbo and
it's unfair that we've made our soul go through the whole of
that month full of a bird. Salah's on time.
We're reading more Quran than any other eleven months that
just went past. Why are we throwing it away?
But like I said, man, I'm not here to tell you or give you any
lessons apart from learn from my mistakes that I've done on the
way here. I spoke to a brother.
The brother's telling me Akhi, my brother's gone sideways and
when we talking about Akhi, he's a bro.
My brother's no longer a Muslim coming from a Muslim household,
a Muslim household where your parents did every single thing
under the sun to sacrifice their happiness, their care, their
money for you, for you to turn your backs on them, let alone
turn your back on the lost panel to Allah.
You ask the brother how comes you went sideways?
Actually the only thing we did at.
Home was pray our five daily prayers.
There was nothing else on Islamic, nothing our father
didn't. Sat us down.
Our mothers, majority of the time she's looking, she's taking
care of us, the house and so on and so forth making sure we're
fed. But our fathers Allah homobaric,
he bought everything other than his family first, his
businesses, making money here, taking the money back home,
making sure he buys some land, making sure he buys a few
properties and guess what the father is disappearing on us,
going back home, getting another wife, 2-3 wives and he forgot
about us. With all due respect to the
uncles, I wish I bought some paracetamol so I couldn't give a
damn. You can have some paracetamol if
I hurt your feelings. This is how we forget our kids
and it happens that most the Muslims for what purpose?
Bro, you feel like you're going past this life like a lost man
of talent is giving you these seconds and these minutes where
you're neglecting your children. Your children are crying out for
you. But don't get me wrong, with a
lot of brothers, especially in this community, I'm not home
about it. I've heard nothing but good
about the adults, about the parents I'm talking about in
general. But this community, yourself and
Milan Keys, what's happening, bro?
Your parents are doing everything under the sun for
you, for you to do what? To displease them.
Brothers come from a good home. Brothers calling me saying you
know. She called me via Instagram.
Salaam alaikum Salaam. Who's this?
I'm just one of your aunties, but my son's going to be at your
talk today. I said, go on, aunty, how can I
help you? You want me to speak to your
son? She goes to.
Me. Amen.
I have found drugs under his mattress.
I have found bullets under his mattress.
I have found a knife. I haven't found the gun, but I
found the bullets and the knife underneath his mattress.
How am I, how am I meant to react to this?
Now I said, auntie, what did you do with the drugs and the
bullets and so on and so forth? Because I am too scared to do
anything towards my son or even open my mouth.
What does the hadith say? One of the signs of Yo Makayama
of the day in judgement is what? When women will give birth to
their masters? What's happening in monsters,
man? Our own parents has become our
slaves. What's going on, Bros?
Why are we neglecting the happiness of our parents when
they sacrificed everything for us?
And I'm going to ask every single one of you here right
now. Yeah, Excluding the uncles or
for the youngsters. Put your hands up.
If you still get your parents around, bro, come on.
Put your hands up. Both your parents put your hand
up. Both all of you or any of you
that have come from a household that your parents are still
married. I love Homo Beddick.
You see those parents? Or you can put your hands down
now. Yeah.
When you go home today, really and truly go and ask your
parents. Yeah.
Was there anything that you would do to give up?
Yeah, in order for me to gain the happiness that you've gained
me, would you, can you go back in time, Mum or dad, can you go
back in time and regret the things that you've done in order
for me to be happy? Your son, your daughter, they
wouldn't regret anything. And Allah, Al Adim has come down
to a time now where auntie is calling me, telling me, begging
me to talk to her son. I said to auntie, with all due
respect, if I come across this scumbag, only Allah knows what
I'm going to do to him. The fact of the matter is the
guy raises his voice on his mum, The guy threatens his mum.
The guy, the auntie even said to me, the guy took out a knife on
his mum. How do you want me to react to
this ball? What am I going to act like?
Oh well, everything's cool, but I'm not here to talk this
brother off because he's not man enough to come forward and tell
me who he is. And the auntie, out of fear of a
love sub Hannibal to Anna, out of fear of Allah.
She doesn't want to expose her kid and look at the length that
the mother is going, bro, in order for you or for her to
protect you. What's going on now?
You want to be a man? Actually, I know men that are in
jail that are doing life in jail.
They are the real men. They did the crime.
So now they're doing the time my man dropped one or two bodies
there in jail now, bro, what lie.
There's no one day. There's there's no sympathy in
his. Heart.
I say to Mama, bro, you did the murder, so do the tarmac.
You claim to be a bad boy. Actually leave that bad boy.
Well, not. I think he calls me, says to me,
but I'm emotional. At that time, bro, let me speak
to you because I was. I can have someone to talk to.
I said, bro, I thought, I thought he was the man on road.
He was getting the money. You had the girls around you.
My man's living like Scarface. His yard is full of paintings,
guns in every wardrobe, money in every what?
In every jump up or sorry, two days gone.
But what? There's no happiness.
So I said to my mother, I could do the time.
You claim to be a man on road to not be a man in jail.
And why are brothers trying to be this guy, man?
Why are brothers trying to go down this path of being this bad
boy? It's not a monster, Sir.
They're etiquettes. They're manners.
They're a clock. I fought from a Muslim.
I spoke to a brother a few days ago on live.
Yeah, he jumped on, he jumped on my Instagram live.
I'm chatting to his out to me, bro.
I don't know what to do, bro, because I'm coming out of Joe in
a few days. Sorry.
In a few weeks. I've done four years in Joe.
The Council and the probation are putting me back in the same
spot. He was a drug dealer.
My man went Joe for stabbing someone.
And I say to him, bro, every single beef that you're backing
today, every single beef that you're backing today, everything
comes down to displeasing the last panel to island whatever
comes with. It you see Allah rabbukum where
Islam dinaqum where Muhammad sallallahu alaihi wasallam
that's enough for you bro forget forget learning the Quran and
the Sunni upon the understanding of the West.
That's not from us. Allah is your rule.
Your Deen is a slam and your prophet that was sent for this
Omaha is who the Prophet Muhammad sallallahu alayhi
wasallam the only prophet that when you go to your Makayama all
of them are going to think about themselves from Adam alayhi
Salam to Jesus to ASA alayhi Salam.
But when you come to the Prophet Muhammad, sallam the man that.
Stood that night times that prayed for my ummah, my ummah.
But the man that was a beast on the battlefield.
But the man that was what betrayed by his own family
members, The man that buried six of his kids, the man that was
spat at and stoned. The man that had animal insides
were thrown at him was the man that still put his head down and
made dua for those that oppressed him.
That's your prophet, that's my prophets on Allahu.
Alayhi will send them the prophets on Allah and they said
was to be here right now. Honestly ask yourselves would he
be happy with you? My brother, I wouldn't even look
at him out of shame I've let him down.
The man that fought day in day out for Islam and he didn't
fought and I'm not talking about physically fighting.
The man fought against his own desires, his own nerfs.
The guy that prayed for the ummah and when he was upon the
companions and he saw Allah and he was seldom said I miss my
brothers. The companions turned away and
was hold on yah Rasulullah, are we not your brothers?
They are my companions. My brothers are those that will
come after me. They believe in me and and
they've never ever seen me. Who's he talking about, bro?
What about you? He's talking about that same guy
that's growing his beard because of the Sunnah of the Prophet
Muhammad saw him. He's talking about the same guy
that's growing his hair because of the Prophet Muhammad saw him
and not because of Chief Keef and all of these pop smoke and
all of these men. No, bro, no, we're here because
of the Prophet Sallallallahu. And they were.
Sell them. We we, we do what?
We roll up our trousers because it was something the Prophet
Muhammad Salallahu. I know what Salaam did.
We sent our Salaam to the brother.
We know what we don't know because the Prophet Muhammad
Salaam said so. You can't pick and choose the.
Theme, bro And nowadays I'm seeing, I'm seeing brothers and
sisters being online. Every single person here has got
social media from the uncles that the guy that's 12 years
old, you name it all got social media.
How many times do you jump online, bro?
And I see it happening today. Today I'm online, I'm seeing
brothers and sisters are beefing each other over what different
man Hedge Somali beefing Somaliland.
You've got the Pakistanis beefing the Bengalis, you've got
the Arabs beefing the rest of them.
Ahmedabadic. What a shame or what?
Then you've got, then you've got.
Then you've got a certain. And I'm going to speak from
Iraq. Yeah, from a man that's come
from Iraq, I can tell you this now.
What, Lahi? There is something that is
severely killing our community and it's amongst every single
community. I couldn't give a damn.
Or whatever colour you are, Black, white, blue, like the
other two. I couldn't care.
Yeah, it's racism amongst our youth.
But do you know where it starts from?
It starts from the adults. It starts from the uncles and
the aunties and the fathers and the mothers.
They can't get you to get married to certain tribe or
certain colour or sis and that, Nah, he's from this country.
Nah, this is what's killing our communities.
I will lie from a man that's come from Iraq, the man that got
married to a black woman. I saw the racism come out from
the my own community. I don't blame them.
I blame their fathers and their forefathers.
Islam came to kill that. And like I said to you this
before, yeah, Islam came to conquer the world.
And I'm not talking about physically.
Islam came to conquer the world through the hearts.
Islam came and conquered your hearts, bro.
I've gone, I've gone to certain countries, in Ireland, Dublin,
white man, bro, white man, ginger hair, the man's Muslim,
first generation of Muslims. And you would wonder why, how
Islam has spreaded and flourished to the day it has to
do. It's going to countries that
I've never heard of. I'm going to be honest with you.
I'm finding out there's a sister that my wife speaks to in Guam,
a country called Guam. Never heard of it.
But you see how Islam spreads. And you know what we have this
ego and arrogance amongst ourselves.
Well, you know what we're doing enough for Islam, my bro.
Let me give you a reality check. Islam will move forward with or
without you, regardless of what you do, no matter how much you
displease a lot or you, no matter how much you please a
lot, how much you know. You could be a sister from Fajr
to Asia. Aki Islam will move forward with
or without you and you and your. Actions but do nothing to guide
anyone because guidance only comes from a last panel to
Allah. I'm not there getting excited,
Marshall. The other day one brother said
Aki, I want to take my shahada. I want to deal with you.
Well, you've got to remember guys, this comes from Allah and
you could have done it with anyone else.
Why are you choosing 1 dusty guy?
Bro? Why you choose me?
Akhi? I made a a lost panel to allow
me to come across you. So today I'm taking my sharda.
I took the Sharda with him. Englishman, first generation of
Muslims. I'm going to say this to you
now. Are we not all jealous of him?
Oh, here we are. Guy has a new baby.
Basically, he is better than a baby.
But ever since we turned into deeds, he seems I've forgiven.
He took the shahada. That is enough for him.
And well, guess what? Everybody's walking around,
everybody's thinking, you know what?
This brother's upon, this manhedge.
This brother's upon. Well, lie.
The guy asked me, bro, I've become Muslim now.
Yeah, I've been hearing a lot of people talking about manhedge.
Where is that? I said to Mikey, stick to the
Quran and the Sunnah and do not, do not associate yourself at
all. And I'm not telling the
brothers, Allah Mubarak, we're upon the Quran and Sunnah and
upon the understanding of the Salaf.
That's it, brothers. I went to a Masjid in the
community. Brother goes to me actually.
So you're Salafi. I said to me, I don't call
myself Salafi. I feel like it's a shame for me
to label myself as a Salaf, the man, the companions that did
everything for this Dean, for us to be here today, how am I going
to put myself on the same level as them?
But I follow the Quran, the sun. Upon understanding the seller,
he goes to me. So you must be seller here.
I said Nah bro, I'm Muslim, leave me be.
He goes to me. But what do you think of so and
so? I said I don't know.
Bro that's a dusty guy. Why?
Why are you coming to asking me questions?
That's got nothing to do with me bro.
You want to do everything. It's like, it's like, do you
know? Do you know what?
It's become with all due respect to the youngsters here, bro,
Yeah. Actually, there could have been
a million people that turned up to this talk today.
Or there could have been one person.
I couldn't give a damn. I'm going to be honest with you.
Yeah, but ask yourselves one lie.
Ask yourself, did you really come to this talk today in order
for. You to learn something and
benefit in order for you to become a good person.
Because nowadays martial arts about a colour, the people with
the big following online, the people with the image, the
people with the most views and the and the likes and the shares
and you name it. And we like to come and see him.
You come and see someone because of the fame that they have.
My brother, the fame of back in my hands nearly got me killed.
Till today, brothers are telling me actually, you're going to
certain massages. Do you not fear that your
enemies could turn up? Do you not fear that your
enemies could turn up? That's the thing, OK?
Every single day, bro, I leave out the house.
I make my Oscar in the morning and evening.
If one of my enemies are here with me right now, may Allah
soften their hearts and a lot of them I'm in.
And if it doesn't, then actually come get rid of me so I can dial
like Malcolm X in shot a lot. You know what I'm saying?
I no disrespect. I no disrespect to the uncles,
Marshall, you know, we don't want to see no violence here,
you know what I'm saying? But my dear, respected brothers
and sisters, yeah, I'll come here to talk to you in about
certain matters. The uncles, they know they're
Dean. But for the youngsters, that's
here today, man, what's making us neglect our Dean?
What's making us forget ourselves?
And the last panel, what Tahala says, and I say this every
single time, we claim we want good.
We claim we want the imam to do something for us as the Muslims.
We claim we want the Muslim leaders to do something because
the Muslims are suffering. We claim the scholars need to do
some more stuff in order for us to what?
Stop suffering as Muslims? I can say this to you as well.
Though a lost panel, Tyler says he would not change the
condition of the people until you change the condition of
yourself. I see a lot of brothers here.
They're addicted to music, they're addicted to drugs.
They're addicted to what I'm going to say out loud, bro, who
would you respect? I'm not here to beat around the
Bush. Brothers are here addicted to
porn. Brother calls me up because to
me actually I'm in love with this girl but I can't do any
care with her because of what I do behind closed doors.
This is the reality of the Muslims bro.
And I say to that brother that called me and I said to him,
bro, how comes your brother went astray?
He said there was no Dean in our house apart from our five daily
prayers. We wasn't gaining knowledge.
We wasn't reading Quran, we wasn't reading the serial of the
Prophet Muhammad sallallahu and he was selam.
We wasn't reading about the scholars of our time and the
scholars that came before. But my brother turned the other
way. I said to him, Akhi, can't you
do some stuff in your character to bring him back to the Dean,
make him fall in love with the Dean again.
He goes, no, Akhi, I don't mean this way.
My brother has become transgender Galilee.
Some brothers are shocked. It could happen to me and you
tomorrow, bro. I said no bro, never that it
could happen. It could happen to anyone.
And this is something that any of us could fall into.
And I remember, I remember many, many, many times.
But I lost panel to Alice saving on so many occasions and
brothers are calling me, saying to me, bro, I've got beef with
so and so and I got beat and I said to him, Aki, put your
problems aside. Pull your problems aside for the
sake of Allah, Aki. I can't do it because I'm going
to find I'm going to carry a knife or I'm going to carry a
gun. He's going to come back to me.
I will either I'm going to kill him or he's going to kill me.
I said to him, Aki, let me tell you on on occasion what happened
to me on one occasion there was a guy that tried to shoot me on
two occasions. Both occasions I ran for my life
as you do. I'm not Superman, bro.
I'm moving like some Clark in I'm dead guy.
No, I'm gone, leaving my shoes, whatever.
Maybe I can run in for my life. On both occasions he tried to
shoot me and then he got into a mad case here in the UK, in
South East London. That's what happens to him next.
He catches a mad case, then he goes back to Jamaica.
This guy, I knew him as well, but he came an enemy when he
went back to Jamaica, when I left it to a last pan over to
Isla, knowing that he's my protector.
This is a law. I leave everything in his hands.
You know what I found that happened to him?
I get a video sent to me. I'm watching the video.
The brothers getting into a shootout, not stuff, not a
brother. The guys getting into a shootout
with the feds in Jamaica. You know what they've done to
him? They shot him up and killed him.
And then they reversed the pickup truck.
They picked up his dead body like a dog and dashed him on the
back of a pickup truck. And I said to myself, Span and
Mellie, look how a lost panel with Tahala humiliates those
that oppress other people. One of my enemies Marshala
Tabala kala 1 down. Somewhere to go, You know what
I'm saying? You leave it to a lost panel.
Tahala. The same guy that stabbed me,
that the same guy that got me stabbed at a train station when
I was on my way towards the train station.
What happened? I'm at a train station, bro.
A train pulls up on the opposite platform.
The guy comes off as him and two of his guys.
Yeah, So there's three of them. He comes on my side of the
platform. He comes and he sees me.
He goes, oh, that's Eamon pulled up.
Salaam alaikum, alaikum Salaam. Like rah Muslim.
Yeah. He goes, yeah, bro, I took my
shahada. I said, all right, cool.
He said. Obviously, he said.
He said when he was in prison, I took my shahada, I became a
Muslim. And Abdullah, I said, OK, OK,
that's good. That's good to know.
But he's like Eamon, what's your stance on road, bro?
Like ain't you, ain't you? Ain't you going to go back to do
your whatever you used to do? I said Nah, I said actually I'm
away from that lifestyle. The only thing I'm going to do
to get my hands dirty is in self defence.
Problem comes to me, bro, physically comes to me.
Actually I'm going to defend myself.
If a man's watching me, the man goes, oh you, where are you
from? Your face looks familiar.
Why are you watching me? I can't put my head down.
Call me a waste, man. Call me a scum.
Well, I couldn't care. I'm putting my head down, bro.
I've got a daughter to go back to your home.
I've got a wife and kids. Go back to your home.
I can't put my head down. Leave it as be.
But my must tell him. All right, I'll rate that My
train pulls up. Now as my trains pulling up,
guess what happens? The guy goes off.
He leaves me. For a little gap.
In the fence I see for a little gap the guy that just salami and
became a Muslim. These times before jail, I broke
his jaw on two occasions. So I said to him, OK, you know
what? My man probably has something
still against me, but now that he's become a Muslim, we have
forgiven each other for the sake of Allah.
That's it. As my train pulls up, I see him
through a little gap. He takes out a knife.
He gives it to one of these guys, a woman.
I'm helping a woman with a buggy onto the train.
As I've helped her onto the train, I buckle, I drop.
I miss my feet in here. So as I've dropped, the guy
behind me tried to stab me. But Subhan and Melik, look how a
lost panel Tyler works. In the process of him trying to
stab me, I dropped into the train.
So now he missed me. I've turned around.
I've gone to fight him. I'm just trying to get to my
dentist appointment because injury.
I didn't look after my teeth. I got a hole here.
A hole here. At times the Gov didn't want to
give him a toothbrush. I'm using my fingers moving like
some knee. In other words, be real.
Yeah. Anyways, yeah.
I couldn't even take a branch to use it as a muskmat.
Subhan Allah, I was on the block.
So these times as the brothers doing that, I have dropped.
I'm trying to close the train. You know, these trains over
ground, they go, they're open and closed.
I'm quite trying to close it. He's opening it, he's putting
his hand there, he's putting his leg in the process of me kicking
him in the chest as he fell back.
Subhan and Melek, he stabbed me right in my knee.
As he stabbed me, he runs away. Human eye.
Yes. First victim.
Well done to you, bro. As he's running at the train,
the woman starts to cry. The woman takes off her blanket
of her baby, gives it to me. I'm wrapping it around.
I'm wrapping it around my leg. And Subhan and Malik, the police
come. I ended up going to the
hospital. I arrive in the hospital, and
this is something Subhan and Malik.
I always say. Yeah.
You really don't know who loves you, cares for you unless you
are in a state of what? Trials and tribulations, you
would see someone's true colours when you were at your nose.
And this is the thing amongst the brothers today, man, you
tend to ride or die for the brother to sitting next to you
because of the votes or you should ride and die for the
brothers to sitting next to you because of la Elahila.
Allah. Put your differences aside, put
your arrogance aside. My brother, come on top of that.
I've come here today, I get another phone call from my
brother, says to me what, bro? He goes to me, Akhi, I'm coming
to your talk, but I feel like my enemies are going to be there
too. I said to him, what?
Akhi, they're Kufaz. Nah, bro, he's a Muslim.
I said to them, Akhi, I don't think Allah will allow Muslims
come in here. They beef each other where
they're both going to take out their Shanks and they're going
to stab each other. He says to me, Nah, bro, it's
going to happen. Yes, we go on.
He says to me, Akhi, during Ramadan, we went to East London,
like to go to different massages to go and pray.
Yeah, I went to East London the same day.
My friends were in East London. They bumped into me and then the
brother jumps on FaceTime with me.
He's from this community. Yeah, the brother jumps on
FaceTime with me and he shows me a scar going like this.
I said to him, what actually, what happened to your face goes
to me. The same brothers from this
community did this to my face because they slapped.
I mean, so they hit me with a bottle and the bottle smashed on
my face. He said to me because of that, I
didn't want to see my mum for the whole of Ramadan.
And now you've got Muslims doing this to one another, bro, I'm
saying this now. You've got the people of
knowledge here, the people that lead your community, the imam,
the Shiuk, They're doing everything in their power to
sacrifice their time away from their family to come here.
They lead you in Salah, but at the same time to listen to the
communities and squash the beef between the Muslims.
But it's the pride and it's a shaitaan that is whispering
things in our ear that's allowing us to go down this path
and this Ave. in thinking we are better than every single person.
We're better than the imam, we're better than the shiur that
come down from a different country to come and lead us
during Tarawiya. We are better than them.
We know they deem better than them.
I'll give you a reality check, bro.
The imams are doing their part, but nothing will improve unless
you improve on yourself. And now I'm going to go into
some fins. Yeah, because ever since this
auntie called me and telling me about her son that's doing drug
dealing and she found bullets underneath the mattress and she
found the knife that's not from her kitchen.
My brothers, I'm going to tell you this now, but those of you
that raise your hands one lie, I am jealous of you.
Actually, I spent nearly what I'm 30 years old now.
I spent nearly 1819 years displeasing a loss of Hollywood
to Isla 19 years displeasing my. Parents bro.
Actually, I thought I was the man.
Until I went to Joe. Amanda thinking you know what
bro, that was your reality check.
You went to prison. Actually I went to prison
because of stupidness, displeasing Allah, displeasing
my parents. I remember I was enjoying my
mother for like the whole sentence, came to see me once,
once in my whole sentence. And after seeing my mother that
one time, I said to myself, never again is my mother going
to come here again ever. I see my man what stuff like I
see I see one random man, my man's over there telling my mum
to stretch her hands out. In the process of stretching her
hands out, he calls a woman a woman Gov.
A woman Gov comes and decides to what?
Touch my mother? My mother that wears hijab, that
establishes the hijab Baki, I'm not talking about this Superman.
I buyers that open like this bro, no head to toe.
No, no, no, this convertible hijab head to toe hijab bro.
It's shameful for me to see my mother in that manner getting
searched by someone else in that in that manner.
Guess what happens? They tell her to go back into a
room. She goes to a room and I said to
my mum what happened Mum? They told me to take off my
hijab. I said what they take.
They told me to take off my hijab so they could see if I
bought any drugs or phone or SIM card.
Whatever for you. So I can smuggle something in
This. This is this is what she said to
me. And in that moment, Aki,
remember, guess what? I got into a fight with one of
the other prisoners about a week before my mum came to see me.
And because I got into a fight, now I'm on closed visits.
So when I saw my mum behind the closed visits, Aki Yeah, there
was a glass window in between US and that there was a reality
check for me, bro, that I'm never, ever, ever going to go
down this path from this Ave. to my parents.
I couldn't even hug my mother, man.
I did one lot. I didn't to the level where I
miss I miss how my mother smoked and my mother goes to me aiming.
Why did you often the situation where now you're fighting every
other week in jail? I was in jail for nearly two
years. Every other day, every other
week, man's fighting. You start, I don't even know,
you start jumping on this bandwagon.
Some brothers that were Muslim, Akhi, I remember in Salah, in
prison, in Juma, well lied the moment we said, but the Imam
didn't even get to, you know, wala doll, he didn't, but he
didn't even say Armenia. One guy punched me in the back
of my head. Muslims that are jumping on the
bandwagon of the Kufaz. Man that don't even wash their
body and be rude. I don't even know how to look
after this of hygiene. No, there's no hygiene.
And what's he doing, bro? You're backing him over someone
that believes in no law because the workers are the street code
and this is what's happening. And no matter what I'm saying, I
get onto the brothers. But when I get onto the sisters,
I've got three sisters, bro, So I might get onto the sisters as
well. You got some?
Some sisters online I hear he goes always bashing so shut up
man blow up man. The sister that you jump on a
profile mark shut the back a law student, but your profile goes
against the law of Allah completely.
Well, not Al Aveen and she asked about who's this gather Akhi, as
Omar Abu Khattab said, we are allowed to judge by what is a
permanent and what is apparent. Bro, it's because our sisters
are going down this Ave. of displeasing a lot.
They're wearing tight clothes. They're wearing Let me not get
into the Flamingo eyelashes. Bro, you know.
What I'm saying let. Me not get into the extensions
and the makeup and so on and so forth, but who do I blame the
most? I don't blame the sisters.
I blame us, the men. Because the men.
We lost our hair bro, we have no shame anymore.
We're doing fins. And like I said this before,
there was a brother that came to me after one of my talks.
He goes to me. Aki guess what bro?
I'm scared for my sister. My sister's going down this Ave.
Every time she leaves the house she jumps in the car.
So by the time I get to the car, the car is driven off.
So I don't know if it's a male or female.
So I'm trying to spy on my sister but Aki, I said to him,
Aki, do you do anything Islamic with her?
He goes, not even bro. I said do you take her to talks
not even as I could you allow her to be around good sisters in
the machine. Not even bro.
I said actually what are you doing as your as her Muslim
brother in order for her to move forward Islamically and is
obedient to a last of handover to Allah.
You know he said to me my man turns her across to him.
Yeah bro, she's best friends with my girlfriend.
The brother said she's best friends with my girlfriend.
Actually one laugh for a minute there.
I'm like, I don't know if I should help, but him or slacker.
I don't know where to begin. Someone, someone say stab Aruth
Villa. Some brothers need some Zamzom.
After that, cleanse your heart. Well, like I said, yeah, the
brother says to me, and I said to him, can you blame her?
You can't blame the sister, bro. When the brother's in the
family, the father's in the family, the cousins in the
family are doing everything that is displeasing to Allah.
They're linking girls, they're bunning weed, they're doing
vaping. Marshall.
Nowadays you got everyone that's doing vaping on the go, Shisha,
Marshall, Allah. I did.
I did some of my research about this vaping and it happens.
I saw some people here in the car park doing it.
So let's be let's be real, brothers are wearing a sober
doing vaping. Come on bro, Islam is your
uniform at least. What does the hadith say?
A loss of Halo to Allah will forgive every single Muslim
apart from who the one that openly sins.
Actually. I understand you want to listen
to music bro. Listen to your music bro.
But don't wind down your window and make it loud for everyone
else to hear it because we're going to vouch against you.
No Makayama, you want to burn your weed?
You want to do your smoking? Actually do it in secret ways
between you and Allah and you for repent.
Repent between yourself and a lost panel to Allah.
I'm not telling you to turn your back on a lot a lost parent, I
will never turn his back on you. And guess what, after the devil
Iblis no regretted Sopano refused to pray one sejna who
aired him Ali Salaam, a lost panel to Allah put him in
Hellfire for eternity. So he made he made an agreement
with Allah that from now to your Makayama, he's going to misguide
the youth, he's going to misguide the Muslims, the
mothers, the father, whoever it may be anyone that's a Muslim.
Yeah. And non-Muslims.
And what did the last panel, what I had to say?
A lost panel. As I say, as long as they turn
to me and repent dearly, I will forgive them every single day.
One lie, I'm sure. And I will show some of these
you every single day I get Adm on Instagram.
Actually, I'm talking to a girl. I love her too much to let her
go. Bro, actually I'm heartbroken.
I stopped speaking to Afua Ramadan.
Actually, that's someone else's. That's someone else's or you're
willing to ride out and pick up a knife.
I'm looking to do some damage for what purpose?
And I kid you not, brothers, no matter what you do in your life,
if it's not pleasing the last panel at Allah, if it's not
pleasing your parents, Allahi will come back to bite you.
And I forgot to mention panic. I know we've got some screens
here. Yeah, I should have said to the
I should have said to the Shiuch here that one of a lot of
people, they decided to ask about my kidnapping people.
But when I was on road after being stabbed on two occasions
after being in hospital, about four or five months after being
injected with a hose tranquilizer in my spinachy
horse tranquilizer. You know how powerful that is
because I'm in so much pain. Yeah.
And I was in and out of Black House when I came out of
hospital. Guess what happens to my
brothers? I got kidnapped.
And in that process of getting kidnapped, bro, they humiliated
me and treated me worse than a dog.
And for the uncles and for the some of the brothers that don't
know about what happened to me when I got kidnapped, actually
they had me stripped naked, tied up to a chair.
They they was forcing me stuff to drink.
So today, I don't know what it was, but a loss of Hanover
Tahala aided me through that. In the process of doing what
every single thing I was consuming, I was vomiting back
out. Everything I was drinking, I
lost. Even when they was trying to
cover my mouth by duct tape, whatever it may be, that's what
was happening coming out of my nose and because of the pain I
was suffering was so severe. Well Lahi, a lost panel at Allah
allowed me to go through the blessing of being blacked out.
My body couldn't hack it. And there was one time I
remember and this is something I haven't mentioned in any talk
until now, that while I was tied up being naked and Demlo was
torturing me. There was one occasion when a
man decided to curse a lost panel at Allah in the process of
me doing what being tortured. And then another guy that was
with him grabbed him, took him to another room.
Bear in mind where I was getting tortured, there was a speaker
right next to me and he was playing music so the neighbours
can't hear nothing in the process of being tortured.
The music was loud. Well, Lorry, when the man
dragged him or so he dragged his friend that cursed a lot,
dragged him into another room. It's like a loss of hand over to
Allah allowed the music to be low.
Am I hearing to be sensitive in things that I want to hear in
the next room And guess what the man that dragged the other
friend did and say he said to his friend, bro, why are you
cursing my God, why are you cursing Allah?
And when I'm hearing this, I'm starting to cry now because of
hand and belly. So one of the guys, at least one
of the guys that is part of this torture and this kidnapping, is
a Muslim. One lie I remember in that
moment. Yeah, One lie.
I remember in that moment, I cried so hard, not because of
the torture. I cried so hard that someone
that is a Muslim could do this to their fellow Muslims.
And I remember crying so hard, yeah, that I blacked out.
And when I woke up, next thing I see I'm in the bathtub getting
burnt with hot water and you name it, to the level they
started taking me and stripping me and putting me in the garden.
In that process of putting me in the garden.
And I'm unconscious. Actually, I woke up and the bag
was ripped off my stomach and I'm bleeding out.
I'm losing blood internally. So I'm vomiting blood.
There's blood coming out of my nose.
Actually, you name it, there's blood coming out of my stomach
because right now the only thing that's covering my stomach is
this bag. So I got a hole in my stomach.
If I were to take off this bag right now there's a hole in my
stomach and the only thing that covers it.
And what happens this is that I can't go do a number two in the
toilet. So nothing comes out of my back
passage. Everything comes out into my
bag. And I said to myself, for 19
years I displeased the last panel to Allah, until Allah put
me in prison, but for. All of these.
Years all I could have put me in jail for life bro I was ready to
ride that with my brethren with my boy with my gang, ready to
ride that and catch a body. But a last panel to highlight
allowed me and distracted me by my mother's phone call and what
happened to me Actually I went home and when I went home my
brother calls me. 6:00 news your.
Eamon come in the room. Guess what's happened bro.
On the 6:00 news, there's been a murder on Sydenham High Street,
2010. Bro.
My boy calls me. No, Amon, I've done it.
But I can hear, I can hear the fear in his voice.
Amon, I didn't mean to kill him. I told Mama don't get involved.
Mama got involved, bro. Mama jumped on the bound wagon.
He thinks he's a Superman. He swung a snooker cube.
And my boy, my boy does just chase him.
Stabbed him once in the back. In the process of stabbing him
in the back. What happened?
He started crawling across the road.
Guess who's in the chicken shop getting a take away where he's
trying to get some help? His mum and baby sister.
He dies in his mum and baby sister's hands.
Bro is this the reality? Of us, another mother from
Camden, north London. So Miley, Auntie bro, this is
the first time I've ever done a talk because of her, she said to
me. You've lived the experience.
You need to come to Cuban Masjid, Cuban Hashi.
You need to give a talk to the youth.
I said to auntie, why? Why are you pressuring me to
doing this? Do you go see me aiming?
I lost two of my sons in the space of six months, bro.
Six months and Somali aunties crying and I can't do nothing,
bro. Her first son got killed from
Camden, stabbed to death. He died on the spot.
She hasn't even read their first son.
The second son gets killed as well.
It's just fear for our mothers, bro.
This is what we've been doing to our communities and now it's
become a competition. The Bengali brothers and the
Somali brothers and EastEnders, they all beefing each other and
brothers are telling me, Boo, stop breathing national anymore.
Shut your mouth as well man. What I'm staying where is we
come from a Muslim background, our mothers and our fathers that
sacrifice, keeping away from the Middle East or from Africa in
order for us to live a good life, well, a good life.
We come here, we jump on this bandwagon of a careful, a
careful disbeliever. And there was a guy, there was a
vote. There will always be a guy.
He claims to be a bad boy against us Muslims.
Until the real gangsters catch up to him.
Bro, look what happened to me. They humiliated me and they
tortured me and they kidnapped me and I got stabbed on two
occasions. What does that do to me, bro?
That makes me turn back to our last panel at the islands.
You're a last time, actually. Forgive me.
Forgive me because I remember when I used to do that to
people. I remember the man of mothers
that I broke their hearts. A man of sisters and cousins and
aunties that I used to make come to the hospital to witness their
child or their cousin or their uncle being in the hospital bed
because of me and my brothers, me and the gang around me.
And guess what happens brothers, no matter what you do, we chase
up with you or lie. Till today my brother says to
me, bro, let me to buy you a vest.
What ACT still got enemies to a limit?
I said to him, Aki, no matter what we do, can only turn back
to a lost panel to Allah. And I remember there was one
occasion. Yeah, I was getting into
argument with my wife. Not that type of argument.
Calm down. Yeah, I think it's physical now.
Calm down. Yeah.
I got into argument with my wife.
Yeah. And my.
And the argument was Amen. You need to get the spot out of
the house. I said there's too big.
I'm not jumping on the train with this.
The pot is big. You know, our cars come from
Middle East and African countries and Asian cars.
We we, we always have this one pot that is big takes up space
for everything and one big fat everyone comes over.
They always cook for most this one dish.
My wife goes to me to get rid of this pot.
I said to her, I can't. I'm not jumping on the train.
This before I was driving. She goes to me.
Please, Amy. We're getting back and forth,
starting to an argument. I said to you, you know what, my
wife pushing me now need to take it out of the house.
I said. I say no more.
I took it on the train, jumped on Victoria, jumped on Victoria
line. Sorry.
I jumped in Victoria, over the ground, went back to southeast
London. I'm going back to Lewisham, near
Lewisham Master. As I'm going there, guess what
happens, bro. Two stops before my stop.
Some enemies jump online. I mean, some jump on the train.
I'm wearing headphones now. Yeah, I'm enemies jumped on the
train. I've paused whatever I'm
listening to the way I wasn't listening to.
OK, I'll pause whatever I'm listening to that.
I've clocked them. They've clocked me, but I'm the
bloody in my head pending to listen to music or something.
Yeah, I'm not there, but I can listen to everything they're
saying. Then I pause.
That's my man. Obviously they're stating my Rd.
name. I'm not going to mention my Rd.
name. Yeah, but they're saying my Rd.
name. Then I pause.
I don't think it's him, you know.
Then I know it's him. 100% it's him.
That's my man's brother. I'm there thinking to myself, Oh
my days. It's about to get cracking, and
the only thing that I have to protect me is the pot that my
wife. I'm rolling naked right now.
I've got no weapons on me, no nothing.
Well, Lyle Adima took out the pot out of the duffer bag, so
it's not. Open the duffer bag.
I put the pot in one hand and the lid in the other hand.
Yeah. One lie, they took out their
knives. So between one station to
another. Yeah.
It's like you go through like an underground where it's just
pitch black. One mahi.
Yes, exactly. They took out their Shanks,
their knives. I took out the pot all right
hand. I took out the lead is a big
lead. Am I not trying to find me Ting
Ting? What's happening?
One lie. They're throwing at me.
I'm licking them with the I'm licking them with the port.
Doing doing this. We get in the head.
Yeah. And I'm thinking to myself,
we're getting back and fooling up.
But you know, the train, it's so tight.
They're not getting close to me. So I'm literally hitting them.
They're hitting me, but nothing is getting to me.
At one point I thought I got stabbed, but like a waste man, I
hit them with the port and the port kind of reflected off them
and hit me in my elbow. So after they stabbed me in my
elbow. I'm like, ah, and I'm trying to
hold on the the shield, I'll say the shield.
Yeah, the lid. They're still trying to stab me.
Once we come out of the tunnel, they they leave Now everybody's
crying, everybody's shouting, ah, you've been stabbed.
I'll ham them down. Never got stabbed.
And the whole journey going to towards Lucia Mosque.
I said to myself, what lie? I kissed the foot and the lid.
I called my wife. I told her what happened.
I said don't panic because of what you did or what you said
for me in order to leave the house where this saved me on
handed and left. And there was three of them, I
believe three or two. Yeah.
And in that process, actually against two or three guys with
knives. I'm not the Superman bro, but
the pot in the lid came in handy.
So our last panel, Tyler, saved you in ways but you would never
imagined. And like I said to you, my dear
respected brothers, Yeah, I know that Asia is very, very soon.
Yeah, I've done a lot of crimes that I'm not happy about.
I've hurt a lot of people that I'm not happy about.
But there's one thing that I can tell you this now, right now, my
brothers, Yeah. While I there isn't a day that
goes by that I don't cry out of what this is my mother.
My mother went to Omra, man, and she passed away in Mecca, 56
years old, and she's never been Omra before.
First time. This is a woman that was
obedient to Allah. This was a woman that sacrificed
her life, her happiness, her care, her love in order to
please our last panel to Allah and do everything under the sun
for her kids. My mother gave birth to 14 kids,
and out of 14 kids, she buried seven of them.
Right now, you think your mother and your father haven't
suffered. Maybe you're having a
miscarriage or haven't buried kids, but they haven't told you
about. Only at my big age.
Now, I found out that my mother's buried seven kids a few
years ago as I spoke to my older siblings.
So I say this to you now. I remember sometimes I used to
sneak up on my mum. And this is something that goes
through our mum's minds. Yeah, and our father's minds.
I remember seeing my mother wash up and I'm creeping up to her.
Me and Mama, we used to do this play in the band.
I like, I like you do. But I remember one time that
broke my heart, man. And I remember while my mum was
washing up, she says in Kurdish. He said, I've had enough,
Yarrub. Keep me, you know, Get Me Out of
this. I'm ready to meet you, Yarrub.
So why those scumbags of kids, those waste men that brought
beef to the four step, the scumbags that traumatized where
when the enemies rolled up in the yard, they even tried to
brick my mum. Is it fair?
I come from Iraq. I come from Mosul, bro.
Mosul, where the city that was the last to fall under ISIS and
America and you name it, everybody was trying to get a
piece of I lost a lot of family members in the process of it.
A year before my mum passed away 2001.
So it's the sound stuff like 2021.
What happens over a sandwich, My uncle and both of my cousins
gets gunned down and in the process of them getting gunned
down, the man that started shooting at them did what killed
his own son. And this is a punishment for the
last panel. To Allah you set pace bro.
Now live with you for the rest of your life.
You're bedridden when you call your own wife looking after you.
But this a message brothers I can fix up.
Be obedient to Allah. Be obedient to Allah and follow
the Sunnah of the Prophet Muhammad.
Sallallahu Alaihi wasallam be the reason why someone falls in
love with Islam, be the reason why someone wants to grow their
beard or hair or or rolling up their trousers or wants to pray,
be that reason. Brothers are messaging me on a
daily basis. Actually, I don't know how to
turn my back on again on the brothers around me.
These are the only brothers I know.
Actually, I told you, I'm not telling you to cut your ties
with them, bro, but stay away from them.
Take a step back, away from the book.
Come to the Machine Brothers here today.
How many of you Salaam people that you didn't know where
Muslims? Bro look around you, everyone's
a different shade, everyone's from a different nationality and
you're all under 1 banner of Laila in Allah.
Enough. Put your differences aside.
If you've got a hate to rule somebody in your committee bro
go to him. Don't tell him why you've got a
hate towards him. Let him actually forgive me.
You was the person that used to back bite.
You was the person that used to be jealous of because you got a
nice car because you know what brother?
One time I did a lot with my gate.
So I was watching your wife go and ask him for forgiveness.
It says charity starts at home and I'm not talking about the
home that you have under the law.
Your community, bro, your community, your imam and the
shioku in your community are doing everything they can, but
they're failing. You know why?
Because we think we're better than them.
We think we're better than them. They sacrificed their time for
the Dean, every single one of them.
And what are we doing bro? We are neglecting the hadith.
We are neglecting the Quran and guess what?
Brothers are losing their Dean over social media.
Your sisters on Live. Actually on live.
Yeah, yeah. Rob, don't kill yourself.
Stuff a lot that you want to commit suicide.
Why? The sister is online showing her
father. And is abusing her father.
Muslim background ball. This is what social media has
come to. 2526 years old. Ask me my father.
You still need to give me money. Your father did enough calling
him every single name under the sun.
Is your sister my sister? Paul, this is the disease of the
social media. So I'm going to tell you this
now. I can't be around anyone that
comes to me and says to me, actually, I don't see them.
Praying that brother can't be around me though, because I find
peace in my Salah. I'm mentally, you know, after
getting stabbed on two occasions, getting shot at on
three occasions, getting kidnapped and tortured, one law
and I've been a lot as my witness.
Actually, I'm finished mentally. I'm destroyed every night.
I cry, I go park up my car, I drive away from the wife, I
drive away from my brothers, I park up.
Actually, I'm a wimp. I turn to a lot.
I cry to him. I can't cry in front of people,
bro. Those same people that you cry
in front of, they're going to use it against you.
And when you stand in front of a lot, every single person that
you think you can ride out for every single person is going to
be speaking against you in your makayama bro, apart from the
sincere ones. The one that.
Really cares for you, the one that really love you.
Rather stay right to me bro. That's my gang act.
They care for me. They're looking to ride out for
me. Actually, the person that loves
you and cares for you is the person that we told you to turn
back to a lost pan of a Tahala. Don't tell me about the person
that's seeking to carry a knife and looking to ride out for you.
That's not your boy bro. That's a shade darnaki.
Keep away from him. One lie brother came to me with
a ramble. Actually.
Ramble. Ramble that he took out like
this actually. Are you waiting for zombies to
come bro? Who are you beefing with a
ramble like this? I sat him down.
I said to Michael. You got beef.
You got enemies? They're like, no, but not even.
But I'm scared if my enemies pull up on me and I'm going to
finish on this because I know time Asia is coming in, he said.
My enemies, I don't even have enemies, but I walk around there
because I'm cool. So I like to take it out and
sometimes we do videos with it actually.
Where is the fear of alarm, man? Mothers are burning weed and
blowing it in their mother's face.
Their sister's face. I can come in front of you.
You're man. You're man enough.
I'm going to do that in front of rude men.
Bro. If see they don't break your jaw
in front of your mother, yell at you.
They're Muslim. Love for your brother.
You love for yourself. If I did that to my mother, I
expect the brother to break my jaw.
What lies I love for you. Brothers are blowing smoke in
their mother's face. And I say this is for my
brother's. Yeah.
You won't give up on the mercy of a lost panel to Aleph.
So many of us neglect everything under the sun because we are
scared that Allah would not forgive us.
Actually every single thing that you do regarding the smoking
dinner, talking to girls, actually let go of that bro.
But turn back to our last Allah to Allah and ask Him for
forgiveness sincerely. And in order for you to become a
better Muslim, start with yourself and being obedient to
Allah and your parents. And it shot a lot.
After the Salat al Asia, should we do Q&A?
Yeah, yeah. After Salat al Asia, inshallah,
we're going to do some Q&A. But when the Q&A comes each
other, we're not going to do anything on the phone or video
in here. So it's between us.
Nothing gets out. So you could speak about, and
I'm going to tell you about certain things as well in detail
that's not on video. Jazaf al khairam Salaam alaikum.
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