1 00:00:00,120 --> 00:00:02,560 Hi, this is Dave Olson. I'm the senior leader of 2 00:00:02,560 --> 00:00:04,600 Heartland Church located in Ankeny, IA. 3 00:00:04,600 --> 00:00:08,039 I hope the following message challenges, encourages, and 4 00:00:08,039 --> 00:00:11,160 ultimately changes you. Thanks for joining us. 5 00:00:11,440 --> 00:00:15,680 I'm thrilled to be here today. I gave Pastor Dave a hard time 6 00:00:15,680 --> 00:00:18,240 that I was going to talk to him about his unexcused absence 7 00:00:18,240 --> 00:00:22,480 later and so via text, he laughed at it, thankfully. 8 00:00:24,120 --> 00:00:29,680 But today I want to talk to you all about the very exciting and 9 00:00:29,680 --> 00:00:34,120 very deep topic of grave clothes. 10 00:00:35,480 --> 00:00:37,320 Yay. Are you guys excited? 11 00:00:37,720 --> 00:00:39,160 You all brought your pom poms, right? 12 00:00:39,680 --> 00:00:41,640 So today we're talking about grave clothes. 13 00:00:41,640 --> 00:00:44,400 We're going to start in John Chapter 11. 14 00:00:44,800 --> 00:00:47,000 And many of you have heard this story. 15 00:00:47,560 --> 00:00:55,240 This is a story about Lazarus and he he was very sick and he 16 00:00:55,240 --> 00:00:58,920 was going to die. Mary and Martha come to Jesus 17 00:00:58,920 --> 00:01:04,680 and say, hey, our brother is sick and dying and we need your 18 00:01:04,680 --> 00:01:08,920 help. We need you to come now and make 19 00:01:08,920 --> 00:01:11,720 sure he doesn't die. That was their request. 20 00:01:11,720 --> 00:01:15,240 Make sure he doesn't die. Well, Jesus heard this and he 21 00:01:15,240 --> 00:01:19,760 thought for whatever reason, OK, I'm not Jesus, but for whatever 22 00:01:19,760 --> 00:01:24,160 reason, He decided to wait and he did not respond immediately 23 00:01:25,360 --> 00:01:26,960 then. So that is the beginning of it. 24 00:01:27,000 --> 00:01:30,640 Then Lazarus dies. OK, so we're going to pick up in 25 00:01:30,640 --> 00:01:36,720 John Chapter 11 on verse 30. I'm in the NLT version if you're 26 00:01:36,720 --> 00:01:39,080 reading along with me, and we're going to read some scripture 27 00:01:39,080 --> 00:01:41,200 here, and then we're going to pray and see what the Lord has 28 00:01:41,200 --> 00:01:44,200 for us today. All right, John Chapter 11, 29 00:01:44,200 --> 00:01:48,880 verse 30, Here we go. Jesus had stayed outside the 30 00:01:48,880 --> 00:01:51,520 village at the place where Martha met him. 31 00:01:51,880 --> 00:01:55,560 When the people who were at the house consoling Mary saw her 32 00:01:55,560 --> 00:02:00,120 leave so hastily, they assumed she was going to Lazarus's grave 33 00:02:00,120 --> 00:02:02,800 to weep, so they followed her there. 34 00:02:03,560 --> 00:02:08,000 When Mary arrived and saw Jesus, she fell at his feet and said, 35 00:02:08,000 --> 00:02:13,120 Lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died. 36 00:02:14,200 --> 00:02:17,440 When Jesus saw her weeping and saw the other people wailing 37 00:02:17,720 --> 00:02:21,360 with her, a deep anger welled up within him. 38 00:02:21,800 --> 00:02:25,080 Remember that point? And he was deeply troubled. 39 00:02:25,640 --> 00:02:27,520 Where have you put him? He asked. 40 00:02:28,360 --> 00:02:32,440 Then Jesus told him, Or they Excuse me, they told him, Lord, 41 00:02:32,440 --> 00:02:35,360 come and see. Then Jesus wept. 42 00:02:36,240 --> 00:02:40,840 Remember that point, the people who were standing nearby said. 43 00:02:41,160 --> 00:02:45,760 See how much he loved him. But some said, this man healed a 44 00:02:45,760 --> 00:02:49,000 blind man. Couldn't he have kept Lazarus 45 00:02:49,000 --> 00:02:54,720 from dying? Jesus was still angry as he 46 00:02:54,720 --> 00:02:58,960 arrived at the tomb, a cave with a stone rolled across its 47 00:02:58,960 --> 00:03:04,000 entrance. Roll the stone aside, Jesus told 48 00:03:04,000 --> 00:03:06,760 them. But Martha, the dead man's 49 00:03:06,760 --> 00:03:10,000 sister, protested. As you can imagine as you hear 50 00:03:10,000 --> 00:03:15,680 what she's going to say, Lord, he has been dead for four days. 51 00:03:16,080 --> 00:03:20,400 The smell will be terrible, Jesus responded. 52 00:03:20,680 --> 00:03:24,000 Didn't I tell you that you would see God's glory if you believe 53 00:03:24,640 --> 00:03:26,280 so? They rolled the stone aside. 54 00:03:26,520 --> 00:03:31,640 Then Jesus looked up to heaven and said, Father, thank you for 55 00:03:31,640 --> 00:03:35,160 hearing me. You always hear me, but I said 56 00:03:35,160 --> 00:03:39,960 it out loud for the sake of all of these people standing here so 57 00:03:39,960 --> 00:03:42,840 that they will believe that you sent me. 58 00:03:43,520 --> 00:03:50,640 Then Jesus shouted, Lazarus come out and the dead man came out, 59 00:03:51,800 --> 00:03:57,520 his hands and his feet bound in grave clothes, his face wrapped 60 00:03:57,520 --> 00:04:02,360 in a head cloth. Jesus told them unwrap him and 61 00:04:02,360 --> 00:04:04,560 let him go. Let's pray. 62 00:04:05,920 --> 00:04:10,480 Father, I just thank you for bringing us all here today to 63 00:04:10,480 --> 00:04:14,200 hear your word as the church. Father, I thank You that you 64 00:04:14,200 --> 00:04:18,839 knew who was going to be here before I was even preparing the 65 00:04:18,839 --> 00:04:21,920 message. Holy Spirit, we just say have 66 00:04:21,920 --> 00:04:24,160 your way in this place. Have your way through me. 67 00:04:24,160 --> 00:04:28,080 And as these words are spoken, I thank you that you are meeting 68 00:04:28,080 --> 00:04:31,560 each person right where they need to be met today in Jesus 69 00:04:31,560 --> 00:04:35,400 name, Amen. So the beginning or the end of 70 00:04:35,400 --> 00:04:38,520 this story is there's a man named Lazarus. 71 00:04:38,640 --> 00:04:41,480 He died, Jesus came. This is short version. 72 00:04:41,520 --> 00:04:45,680 Jesus came, told him to come out of the grave, and then Jesus 73 00:04:45,680 --> 00:04:49,840 told the people around him to unwrap him and let him go. 74 00:04:49,840 --> 00:04:54,800 Well, what does this all mean? Like many of us have heard the 75 00:04:54,800 --> 00:04:58,160 story, Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead. 76 00:04:58,880 --> 00:05:03,240 That's pretty amazing, right? He literally physically raised a 77 00:05:03,240 --> 00:05:06,640 man from the dead, told him to come out of the grave, and 78 00:05:06,640 --> 00:05:08,800 Lazarus did. Isn't that enough? 79 00:05:09,240 --> 00:05:12,280 Well, I think there's more to this story that some of us, 80 00:05:12,560 --> 00:05:16,360 including myself for years, didn't really grasp onto. 81 00:05:16,400 --> 00:05:19,000 And so that's what I want to take a minute to kind of dive in 82 00:05:19,000 --> 00:05:22,400 today, dive into today. There's a lot of meat in this 83 00:05:22,400 --> 00:05:24,920 story. And many of us, like I said, 84 00:05:24,920 --> 00:05:29,040 it's just, oh, Jesus raised him from the dead, which in and of 85 00:05:29,040 --> 00:05:33,240 itself, I don't know how many all have done that, but I have 86 00:05:33,240 --> 00:05:36,040 not done that. Even Jesus working through me, I 87 00:05:36,040 --> 00:05:39,800 have not done that. That's miraculous and enough in 88 00:05:39,800 --> 00:05:41,040 and of itself. Right? 89 00:05:42,160 --> 00:05:45,840 Does everybody agree? OK, yeah, together we agree. 90 00:05:47,160 --> 00:05:52,360 But at the end, as Jesus or as Lazarus is coming out, it says 91 00:05:52,360 --> 00:05:56,400 in verse 44, the dead man came out, his hands and his feet 92 00:05:56,640 --> 00:06:02,160 bound in grave clothes, his face wrapped in a head cloth. 93 00:06:02,320 --> 00:06:04,720 Jesus told them unwrap him and let him go. 94 00:06:05,640 --> 00:06:08,000 This is what I want to talk about today is what grave 95 00:06:08,000 --> 00:06:14,480 clothes do you still have on many of us in this room. 96 00:06:14,600 --> 00:06:19,600 You've accepted Jesus as the Lord of your life and which I 97 00:06:19,600 --> 00:06:22,760 thought was enough. That's only the beginning. 98 00:06:23,960 --> 00:06:27,960 And so today I want to share you share with you about my story of 99 00:06:27,960 --> 00:06:32,080 my grave clothes and the journey, not the destination of 100 00:06:32,080 --> 00:06:35,320 removing the the grave clothes, but the journey of removing the 101 00:06:35,320 --> 00:06:37,120 grave clothes. Are you all with me? 102 00:06:37,840 --> 00:06:42,800 OK, so just a quick recap on who I was. 103 00:06:43,360 --> 00:06:46,360 I was raised in a great home. I had a mother and a father in 104 00:06:46,360 --> 00:06:50,320 the home. I had an older brother, great 105 00:06:50,320 --> 00:06:52,560 family. They, My parents loved me, My 106 00:06:52,560 --> 00:06:55,560 physical needs were met. My parents loved me. 107 00:06:55,800 --> 00:06:59,080 I was involved in soccer, they came to my soccer games, we 108 00:06:59,080 --> 00:07:03,240 prayed before meals and we went to church on Sunday. 109 00:07:04,160 --> 00:07:09,520 It was a great home. My brother, he was cool too, but 110 00:07:09,960 --> 00:07:12,880 that's another story. So I had a great home. 111 00:07:12,880 --> 00:07:14,400 I really have nothing to complain about. 112 00:07:14,640 --> 00:07:17,680 But I did realize as I was growing, actually more so when I 113 00:07:17,680 --> 00:07:22,880 got married, that it's weird how marriage just kind of shows you 114 00:07:22,920 --> 00:07:33,240 some of your issues. I had learned that being raised 115 00:07:33,240 --> 00:07:36,640 in my home that I had, I did not know how to deal with emotions. 116 00:07:37,840 --> 00:07:40,200 I did not know how to deal with conflict. 117 00:07:40,200 --> 00:07:42,200 I did not know how to do conflict resolution. 118 00:07:42,200 --> 00:07:45,560 I did not know how to talk about any tough issues. 119 00:07:45,880 --> 00:07:50,680 And by tough issues, I mean, if I burnt the dinner, like, can I 120 00:07:50,680 --> 00:07:54,120 talk about that and not have be all defensive like this isn't 121 00:07:54,120 --> 00:07:55,760 real tough. But that was tough for me 122 00:07:55,920 --> 00:07:57,680 because I didn't know how to work through it. 123 00:07:58,400 --> 00:08:03,680 And so anyway, I got I was born again. 124 00:08:03,720 --> 00:08:06,360 I'm kind of jumping back and forth because a lot of it is 125 00:08:06,360 --> 00:08:11,080 tied to Pastor Adam, but I was born again at 19 and filled with 126 00:08:11,080 --> 00:08:16,360 the Holy Ghost two days later. So spiritually I was made new. 127 00:08:17,440 --> 00:08:22,160 I was a born again believer. If I died that day, I knew I had 128 00:08:22,160 --> 00:08:24,400 no question in my heart I was going to heaven. 129 00:08:25,680 --> 00:08:31,400 Well, as I kept going, I had no understanding of how to work 130 00:08:31,400 --> 00:08:33,960 with emotions. And then I get born again. 131 00:08:34,480 --> 00:08:38,480 Well, I want you to know, when I got born again, I did not 132 00:08:38,480 --> 00:08:41,360 miraculously learn how to deal with emotions. 133 00:08:43,480 --> 00:08:46,760 I know some of you could fall out over that, but it's true, 134 00:08:46,960 --> 00:08:50,360 OK? I was here and my spirit was new 135 00:08:50,360 --> 00:08:54,120 and God was working through me and I believed in him and I had 136 00:08:54,120 --> 00:08:57,320 all faith and trust that if I died, I was going to heaven and 137 00:08:57,320 --> 00:09:02,040 He was my Lord and Savior. But somehow over here in this 138 00:09:02,040 --> 00:09:07,400 general vicinity where something how I pictured it, my soul and 139 00:09:07,400 --> 00:09:10,560 my body, they were two separate things. 140 00:09:10,560 --> 00:09:15,520 Well, 33 separate things that spiritually my relationship with 141 00:09:15,520 --> 00:09:19,600 is with God and it's spirit, spirit, spirit, spirit, spirit. 142 00:09:20,080 --> 00:09:26,520 And then over here, your soul and your body, which involves 143 00:09:26,520 --> 00:09:29,320 your emotions. Are you following so far? 144 00:09:29,800 --> 00:09:36,840 OK, well in my mind I love the Lord, and I would shove my soul 145 00:09:36,840 --> 00:09:43,080 and my body over here as if they had no reason for existence, so 146 00:09:43,080 --> 00:09:45,680 to speak. In my eyes, it was as if they 147 00:09:45,680 --> 00:09:49,200 were a ball and chain. I'll be very honest, my spirit 148 00:09:49,200 --> 00:09:52,400 was alive in Christ and the soul and the body, they were 149 00:09:52,400 --> 00:09:55,720 pointless and actually, in my eyes, tearing me down, like 150 00:09:55,720 --> 00:09:59,560 pulling me back from everything that God actually wanted for me. 151 00:10:00,200 --> 00:10:03,600 And so I just kept shoving the soul aside, kept shoving 152 00:10:03,600 --> 00:10:06,240 emotions aside. I didn't miraculously learn how 153 00:10:06,240 --> 00:10:11,320 to deal with any of that. And then one day this is a joke 154 00:10:11,320 --> 00:10:14,040 in my marriage. So you don't have to like throw 155 00:10:14,040 --> 00:10:16,360 stones at Pastor Adam by any means. 156 00:10:17,640 --> 00:10:21,280 While we were dating, he gave me a book by a very well known 157 00:10:21,280 --> 00:10:24,280 author called Managing Your Emotions. 158 00:10:26,440 --> 00:10:29,160 I'm going to let you know that book is still on the bookshelf 159 00:10:29,160 --> 00:10:31,360 and not has been. It has not been read by me 160 00:10:31,400 --> 00:10:37,680 whatsoever. But I have learned a lot about 161 00:10:37,880 --> 00:10:42,520 soul and emotions through multiple tracks. 162 00:10:42,920 --> 00:10:46,720 So Adam and I, pastor Adam and I joke about this because he saw 163 00:10:46,720 --> 00:10:51,560 that girl. You got some issues and I didn't 164 00:10:51,560 --> 00:10:53,120 see it. I was defensive. 165 00:10:53,120 --> 00:10:58,040 I had no idea what to do with emotions, with my soul. 166 00:10:58,400 --> 00:11:01,200 I just thought my life with God is spiritual. 167 00:11:01,560 --> 00:11:06,840 Like, what point is that? Well, then a couple years ago, I 168 00:11:06,840 --> 00:11:09,680 don't know how many of you know, but we lived in Texas and God 169 00:11:09,680 --> 00:11:14,400 called us to move to back to Iowa, to Des Moines. 170 00:11:15,240 --> 00:11:19,560 And we were praying about, Lord, what do you have us to do next? 171 00:11:20,200 --> 00:11:25,080 What do you have us to do next? And every part of our life we 172 00:11:25,120 --> 00:11:28,720 fully believed and surrendered to the Lord. 173 00:11:28,720 --> 00:11:32,000 We wanted to do everything the Lord was asking us to do. 174 00:11:32,000 --> 00:11:35,440 So we moved several times. We lived in a hotel for 40 days 175 00:11:35,440 --> 00:11:39,040 with our five kids because we felt like that is this open door 176 00:11:39,040 --> 00:11:40,360 for us. So that's what we did. 177 00:11:40,360 --> 00:11:44,080 It was just, we hear your word, we know it in our spirit, we 178 00:11:44,080 --> 00:11:45,920 move. We hear your word, we know it in 179 00:11:45,920 --> 00:11:49,480 our spirit, we move. Well, when we moved back to Des 180 00:11:49,480 --> 00:11:53,280 Moines, we felt like God was calling us to plant a church. 181 00:11:53,840 --> 00:11:56,120 And so we did. And we actually, there's several 182 00:11:56,120 --> 00:11:58,720 people like Pastor Adam was saying, actually you might have 183 00:11:58,720 --> 00:12:00,200 mentioned it for service. I apologize. 184 00:12:00,440 --> 00:12:03,080 There's several people here at Heartland that moved to Des 185 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:07,360 Moines or came alongside us to help plant the church that God, 186 00:12:07,960 --> 00:12:09,640 that we believe God asked us to plan. 187 00:12:10,280 --> 00:12:12,640 And it was going great. People were getting saved, 188 00:12:12,880 --> 00:12:16,680 people were getting baptized. We had Koinonia like fellowship 189 00:12:16,680 --> 00:12:19,240 around food. And man, if you have fellowship 190 00:12:19,240 --> 00:12:21,960 around food, I'm in. Just so you guys know, if you're 191 00:12:21,960 --> 00:12:24,120 fellowshipping around food, I'm in. 192 00:12:25,400 --> 00:12:29,320 OK, So anyway, I'm in for Koinonia, for fellowship with 193 00:12:29,320 --> 00:12:30,480 food. Love it. 194 00:12:31,280 --> 00:12:34,680 And then the Lord's like, well, well, he didn't really say it 195 00:12:34,680 --> 00:12:39,400 like that, but we felt as we were praying that something just 196 00:12:39,400 --> 00:12:41,280 wasn't right. And I would go to Pastor Adam 197 00:12:41,280 --> 00:12:43,520 after services. I said, something's off, 198 00:12:44,400 --> 00:12:47,880 something is off. Another week we would do you 199 00:12:47,880 --> 00:12:51,000 know, I would lead worship. He'd preach the word or and I'd 200 00:12:51,000 --> 00:12:56,000 come home, something's off. And he's like, I need a little 201 00:12:56,000 --> 00:12:58,640 bit more than that, Heidi. Like what do you got? 202 00:12:58,640 --> 00:13:02,640 Like, what does that mean? Like, did you not eat the right 203 00:13:02,640 --> 00:13:05,320 food yesterday? Did you not get enough sleep? 204 00:13:05,320 --> 00:13:07,600 Like, what do you mean? I'm like, I don't know. 205 00:13:07,600 --> 00:13:12,840 Something's not right. And in this, not because of me 206 00:13:12,840 --> 00:13:16,000 saying something is off, but in this phase, we just kept digging 207 00:13:16,000 --> 00:13:17,640 into the Lord, like, what's going on? 208 00:13:17,640 --> 00:13:19,120 What's going on? What do you have for us? 209 00:13:19,120 --> 00:13:23,840 And we felt like he was asking us to take our Isaac, which was 210 00:13:23,840 --> 00:13:26,160 the church. It was a promise fulfilled to us 211 00:13:26,160 --> 00:13:30,080 and put it up on the altar and say, Lord, this is yours. 212 00:13:30,080 --> 00:13:34,120 It's not ours to do. And he asked us to close the 213 00:13:34,120 --> 00:13:36,960 church. And I'm going to be honest, 214 00:13:36,960 --> 00:13:39,400 we've heard multiple comments from people. 215 00:13:39,400 --> 00:13:40,600 How could that? Be. 216 00:13:40,920 --> 00:13:43,520 Why would you close something that's the Lord's promise? 217 00:13:43,760 --> 00:13:45,960 If it was healthy, you wouldn't close it. 218 00:13:45,960 --> 00:13:49,920 We've heard a lot and we've questioned a lot. 219 00:13:51,160 --> 00:13:53,600 It was a big soul searching time for all of us. 220 00:13:53,600 --> 00:13:56,560 But like I said, everything we were doing, we were doing our 221 00:13:56,560 --> 00:14:01,360 best to hear the voice of the Lord, process it, and then move 222 00:14:01,360 --> 00:14:03,680 on, the voice of the Lord. So we closed the church. 223 00:14:04,920 --> 00:14:09,560 So that was 2022, maybe I think the very end of 2022. 224 00:14:10,440 --> 00:14:17,000 And we started coming here. I didn't know why we were coming 225 00:14:17,000 --> 00:14:19,040 here. And I probably still don't know 226 00:14:19,040 --> 00:14:20,520 a lot of the reasons we're coming here. 227 00:14:20,640 --> 00:14:24,120 And I mean mean that because I think there's multiple reasons 228 00:14:24,120 --> 00:14:28,120 we're here, but one of them is because the Lord needed me to 229 00:14:28,120 --> 00:14:33,520 get healthy in an area that was a grave cloth for me, but I had 230 00:14:33,520 --> 00:14:39,600 no understanding about it. So when we came to Heartland, we 231 00:14:39,600 --> 00:14:42,560 attended a little bit before, we weren't even seeking a job. 232 00:14:42,560 --> 00:14:45,320 He wasn't seeking a job here. But eventually we knew this is 233 00:14:45,320 --> 00:14:47,080 where he was supposed to get hired. 234 00:14:47,360 --> 00:14:50,960 And when he took the job, I told him because I was not. 235 00:14:50,960 --> 00:14:53,920 I told you I was off something wasn't good. 236 00:14:55,040 --> 00:14:59,320 I said, Adam, you can take the job in ministry, but I'm all I'm 237 00:14:59,320 --> 00:15:02,200 doing right now is I'm coming to church and I'm leaving with the 238 00:15:02,200 --> 00:15:05,160 kids like I can't do this ministry again. 239 00:15:06,040 --> 00:15:09,440 This didn't get me first service, but I just I told Adam, 240 00:15:09,440 --> 00:15:14,440 I said I love the Lord. I am not turning from him, but I 241 00:15:14,440 --> 00:15:16,720 can't do ministry right now. Something's off. 242 00:15:16,720 --> 00:15:22,800 I just didn't know what it was. And so he said, OK, let's just 243 00:15:22,800 --> 00:15:24,880 do that for this season. But we still didn't know what to 244 00:15:24,880 --> 00:15:30,720 do, what the reasoning was. Well, come to Heartland and I 245 00:15:30,720 --> 00:15:33,200 knew I was going to cry at some point, so I stuck a handy dandy 246 00:15:33,200 --> 00:15:40,040 Kleenex right in my pocket. So anyway, I still didn't know 247 00:15:40,040 --> 00:15:42,720 what the problem was because I was like, I'm reading your word. 248 00:15:42,920 --> 00:15:46,040 I am praying, I am teaching my kids about the Lord. 249 00:15:46,040 --> 00:15:49,080 I have preached messages before. I have changed dirty diapers. 250 00:15:49,080 --> 00:15:51,800 I have scrubbed toilets for you, Lord, like, what is going on? 251 00:15:52,280 --> 00:15:56,280 I just don't get this. And then I happened to have the 252 00:15:56,280 --> 00:15:58,880 opportunity to share in the women's ministry my testimony. 253 00:15:59,680 --> 00:16:03,240 At this point in my testimony, I was in a pretty raw spot. 254 00:16:03,600 --> 00:16:07,800 I wasn't at the height of who I was in my identity or anything. 255 00:16:07,800 --> 00:16:10,520 I was just kind of broken and I was pretty vulnerable about 256 00:16:10,520 --> 00:16:13,680 that. And during that testimony or 257 00:16:13,680 --> 00:16:15,880 shortly thereafter, I heard about a class called the 258 00:16:15,880 --> 00:16:19,360 Ultimate Journey. Ultimate Journey is a class 259 00:16:19,360 --> 00:16:21,600 Heartland does offer. It is also offered through other 260 00:16:21,600 --> 00:16:28,160 ministry centers in the area. But I took the class and when I 261 00:16:28,160 --> 00:16:33,040 took the class, wouldn't you know it, that is when I figured 262 00:16:33,040 --> 00:16:37,920 out some of my grave clothes. Not super comfortable. 263 00:16:38,120 --> 00:16:40,960 I'm going to be honest with you. It was so not comfortable. 264 00:16:42,320 --> 00:16:45,640 I had it in my head that I learned Scripture. 265 00:16:45,640 --> 00:16:48,560 I preach about God's word. I'd be willing to be used by 266 00:16:48,560 --> 00:16:53,080 God, however, but I kept my soul and my body, like I said over 267 00:16:53,080 --> 00:16:56,880 there and then in the ultimate journey and through multiple 268 00:16:56,880 --> 00:17:01,080 points at this church, I realized, wait a second, they're 269 00:17:01,080 --> 00:17:07,560 all supposed to be integrated. Are you kidding me? 270 00:17:08,040 --> 00:17:13,920 I was born again for like 1520 years and I didn't know that. 271 00:17:14,680 --> 00:17:17,400 I didn't know. Now that's through no fault of 272 00:17:17,400 --> 00:17:22,400 other people or you know, I only could take in at certain points 273 00:17:22,400 --> 00:17:25,880 what I could take in. But I realized, wait a second, 274 00:17:25,880 --> 00:17:31,040 God actually wants my spirit. He wants my soul and he wants my 275 00:17:31,040 --> 00:17:35,520 body all in a sozo experience, all in a whole completely well 276 00:17:35,520 --> 00:17:42,240 experienced, not just my spirit. And this I'm telling you, this 277 00:17:42,240 --> 00:17:46,520 was earth shattering to me. Y'all are not earth shattered. 278 00:17:46,520 --> 00:17:49,200 That's fine. I went through like an earth 279 00:17:49,200 --> 00:17:51,600 shattering experience and I would come home from all through 280 00:17:51,600 --> 00:17:54,680 the journey and I'm not really know how to talk to Pastor Adam 281 00:17:54,680 --> 00:17:56,240 because he hadn't gone through it yet. 282 00:17:56,600 --> 00:17:58,320 And I was like, but this is amazing. 283 00:17:58,320 --> 00:18:03,200 And I've learned that my soul needs cared for and part of my 284 00:18:03,200 --> 00:18:08,040 soul is my emotions. Your soul is made-up of your 285 00:18:08,040 --> 00:18:12,400 mind, your will and emotions. OK, for me, I'm, we're not 286 00:18:12,400 --> 00:18:14,200 really going to talk about the mind and the will today, 287 00:18:14,200 --> 00:18:16,400 although they're vitally important as well. 288 00:18:16,560 --> 00:18:18,840 We're going to talk about the emotions because that's how God 289 00:18:18,840 --> 00:18:21,080 has worked through me and revelation that I have. 290 00:18:21,320 --> 00:18:23,560 So that's what I'm going to give to you today. 291 00:18:23,880 --> 00:18:26,280 OK. So I learned through this 292 00:18:26,280 --> 00:18:33,920 ultimate journey that I had emotions and I didn't know what 293 00:18:33,920 --> 00:18:37,400 to do with them. So for years, I shoved them down 294 00:18:37,400 --> 00:18:39,760 here. OK, we're going to act like 295 00:18:40,000 --> 00:18:41,800 we're in physics class here for a moment. 296 00:18:42,160 --> 00:18:46,840 So for years, I shoved them down here like a pendulum, like over 297 00:18:46,840 --> 00:18:48,200 here. I don't want to have anything to 298 00:18:48,200 --> 00:18:49,560 do. I'm shove, shove, shove, shove, 299 00:18:49,640 --> 00:18:53,320 shove down. OK, Well, when I didn't have the 300 00:18:53,320 --> 00:19:00,080 choice because I didn't have the emotional maturity yet, these 301 00:19:00,080 --> 00:19:03,120 shove, shove, shove down emotions would all of a sudden 302 00:19:03,120 --> 00:19:06,120 go here. They. 303 00:19:06,120 --> 00:19:08,960 Are. You're angry and you have no 304 00:19:08,960 --> 00:19:11,480 control over it 'cause you shove, shove, shove, shove down. 305 00:19:11,480 --> 00:19:13,720 We have so much pressure build up, but it's coming out now. 306 00:19:17,200 --> 00:19:20,480 Can you believe that, that my anger would do that? 307 00:19:21,800 --> 00:19:26,000 And I was like, oh, now you know why Pastor Adam gave me the 308 00:19:26,000 --> 00:19:30,440 Managing Emotions book. And so I said, hey, have you 309 00:19:30,440 --> 00:19:32,920 ever had Pastor Adam on your heart to pray for? 310 00:19:32,920 --> 00:19:36,240 Just pray for him because he has to deal with me and the emotions 311 00:19:36,240 --> 00:19:39,560 that God gave me. But So what I realized in 312 00:19:39,800 --> 00:19:45,520 Ultimate Journey and many counterpoints intersections here 313 00:19:45,520 --> 00:19:49,680 at Heartland is that God actually wants soul and body 314 00:19:50,080 --> 00:19:52,160 just as whole as he wants your spirit. 315 00:19:52,480 --> 00:20:02,680 They're all together. So as we start this journey, as 316 00:20:02,680 --> 00:20:05,920 I started this journey, I was like, wow, I have some pretty 317 00:20:05,920 --> 00:20:09,240 deep emotions about some things. Is that OK? 318 00:20:11,320 --> 00:20:15,880 Because before I've heard all I've heard, which is biblical, 319 00:20:16,200 --> 00:20:19,720 but I heard your you obey the voice of the Lord. 320 00:20:19,720 --> 00:20:23,480 You're led by the Spirit of God. Yes, that is true. 321 00:20:24,600 --> 00:20:27,360 So then I started hearing that I'm like, OK, so emotions don't 322 00:20:27,360 --> 00:20:29,240 matter. I just keep shoving them down. 323 00:20:29,240 --> 00:20:31,360 Even in church settings, I was shoving them down. 324 00:20:31,360 --> 00:20:34,080 I was like, wait, something's not right. 325 00:20:34,080 --> 00:20:38,760 Like I just feel so empty. And so when we closed the church 326 00:20:39,600 --> 00:20:44,320 and then I went through ultimate journey, I realized that I had 327 00:20:44,320 --> 00:20:47,080 not brought my soul and my body before the Lord. 328 00:20:47,440 --> 00:20:52,880 I've worshipped with my hands up, but my soul was like to me 329 00:20:52,880 --> 00:20:56,440 in my eyes, the decrepit part that didn't allow, I didn't 330 00:20:56,440 --> 00:20:59,960 allow to have voice in who I was. 331 00:21:01,360 --> 00:21:06,800 And so as I'm working through this, I'm realizing, OK, God 332 00:21:06,800 --> 00:21:09,640 wants me whole spirit, soul and body. 333 00:21:09,640 --> 00:21:10,840 There's actually scripture for that. 334 00:21:11,080 --> 00:21:14,400 It's in First Thessalonians 523. We're not going to go there. 335 00:21:14,720 --> 00:21:16,920 But he doesn't say. We just want you whole spirit. 336 00:21:17,560 --> 00:21:19,840 He wants to hold spirit, soul and body. 337 00:21:20,160 --> 00:21:23,840 So what does that mean if our spirit is made new the day that 338 00:21:23,840 --> 00:21:27,560 we're born again and our soul and our body aren't necessarily 339 00:21:28,000 --> 00:21:31,840 flipped and made a new that day, What do we have to do with that? 340 00:21:32,280 --> 00:21:37,920 What do we do with our emotions? What do we do with that stuff so 341 00:21:37,920 --> 00:21:41,760 that it can become more like Christ and serve Him as well? 342 00:21:42,920 --> 00:21:45,800 I want to take a look at a couple verses. 343 00:21:45,800 --> 00:21:50,080 The first one we're going to look back at is John Chapter 11, 344 00:21:50,600 --> 00:21:53,240 where we just were in with Lazarus. 345 00:21:53,920 --> 00:22:01,560 OK, I had mentioned my journey was dealing with emotions and 346 00:22:01,560 --> 00:22:05,560 that was my grave cloth. Your journey might be different. 347 00:22:05,920 --> 00:22:11,160 Your journey with grave cloth might involve addictions, it 348 00:22:11,160 --> 00:22:15,600 might involve anger and bitterness towards certain 349 00:22:15,760 --> 00:22:20,600 people or people groups, It might involved involve eating 350 00:22:20,600 --> 00:22:24,840 too much, it might involve shopping to escape the pain. 351 00:22:25,360 --> 00:22:29,640 I don't know what your grave cloth is, but emotions were one 352 00:22:29,640 --> 00:22:32,640 of my biggest to this day that I know of. 353 00:22:33,280 --> 00:22:35,600 Now I'm on this journey. Please know that this is not a 354 00:22:35,600 --> 00:22:38,760 final destination for me. I'm willing to say OK Lord 355 00:22:38,760 --> 00:22:39,960 tomorrow. What do you got for me? 356 00:22:40,440 --> 00:22:45,840 Am I being bound by anything that's not of you because I'm 357 00:22:45,840 --> 00:22:49,800 alive spiritually, but if I'm bound by I'm not meaning you all 358 00:22:49,800 --> 00:22:52,040 are like this. I just keep walking over here. 359 00:22:52,240 --> 00:22:56,240 If I'm bound by anything spiritual or emotionally or 360 00:22:56,240 --> 00:22:59,680 anything that pulls me away from you, that's a grave cloth that I 361 00:22:59,680 --> 00:23:03,120 want to get rid of, OK? I don't want to be alive 362 00:23:03,120 --> 00:23:05,760 spiritually and then wrapped in my grave claws. 363 00:23:07,200 --> 00:23:11,240 Jesus clearly said in the scripture, Lazarus can be made 364 00:23:11,400 --> 00:23:15,120 physically made new and alive, but something on him does not 365 00:23:15,120 --> 00:23:18,240 belong anymore. Something on him to is tying him 366 00:23:18,240 --> 00:23:21,800 back to his old way of life. And Jesus is saying, when you're 367 00:23:21,800 --> 00:23:25,440 made new, when you're born again in the Spirit, we have to check 368 00:23:25,440 --> 00:23:29,080 those grave claws and say, what is tying me back to my old way 369 00:23:29,080 --> 00:23:32,640 of life? What is keeping me in bondage 370 00:23:33,480 --> 00:23:37,480 that I am not allowed to walk in the freedom that Christ actually 371 00:23:37,480 --> 00:23:40,400 purchased for me. This is so much bigger than 372 00:23:40,400 --> 00:23:44,680 spiritual freedom, guys. That is a valid part of it. 373 00:23:45,240 --> 00:23:48,080 And that's where we are. We get to go to heaven, but 374 00:23:48,080 --> 00:23:50,480 there's so much more. There's so much more freedom 375 00:23:50,680 --> 00:23:52,760 that Christ died for. And if we don't look at the 376 00:23:52,760 --> 00:23:57,400 grave clause that we're clinging to or that we're not aware of, 377 00:23:57,600 --> 00:24:01,840 both can be true, then we're walking around in bondage either 378 00:24:01,840 --> 00:24:04,960 in our soul and our body, but spiritually free. 379 00:24:06,080 --> 00:24:08,160 Does that make sense? Y'all tracking. 380 00:24:08,160 --> 00:24:11,920 OK, so we're going to look at John Chapter 11. 381 00:24:13,680 --> 00:24:22,880 And when I started learning about emotions, I was of the I 382 00:24:22,880 --> 00:24:26,280 mentioned already that I didn't feel like emotions were OK. 383 00:24:26,280 --> 00:24:30,000 Like spiritually it wasn't OK, but then I started learning, no, 384 00:24:30,000 --> 00:24:34,440 God has gifted you emotions. God has gifted you emotions so 385 00:24:34,440 --> 00:24:38,640 you can enjoy this walk on earth and so you can understand some 386 00:24:38,640 --> 00:24:43,360 things that actually have weight or meaning to you. 387 00:24:43,840 --> 00:24:47,320 That's part of what grieving is. If we can swing to that for a 388 00:24:47,320 --> 00:24:49,760 minute because sometimes we think, oh, I don't want to deal 389 00:24:49,760 --> 00:24:53,200 with grieving. It shows you what was a value to 390 00:24:53,200 --> 00:24:57,160 you when you grieve something that had value to you. 391 00:24:57,960 --> 00:25:01,720 OK, so as these emotions are brought before the Lord, we get 392 00:25:01,720 --> 00:25:04,600 to decide, Well, first of all, we don't want to be over here 393 00:25:04,600 --> 00:25:09,480 anymore and shoving these not so nasty things down. 394 00:25:09,680 --> 00:25:13,800 But we also don't want to be way over here where we are reacting. 395 00:25:14,400 --> 00:25:17,360 And you know, I know none of you have done this. 396 00:25:17,600 --> 00:25:20,120 I used to do this and now I'm perfect. 397 00:25:20,120 --> 00:25:23,520 So I don't do it anymore. But I used to, you know, if 398 00:25:23,520 --> 00:25:28,440 someone cut you off in the road. You guys have never done this. 399 00:25:28,720 --> 00:25:31,600 I Why are they cutting me off? I have places to go. 400 00:25:31,720 --> 00:25:34,840 I chose to leave 10 minutes late, but they are cutting me 401 00:25:34,840 --> 00:25:36,800 off. So why are they getting in my 402 00:25:36,800 --> 00:25:38,640 way? Because my way prevails their 403 00:25:38,640 --> 00:25:40,480 way. So get out of my way. 404 00:25:40,840 --> 00:25:42,200 Has anybody done that? No. 405 00:25:42,520 --> 00:25:43,960 OK. Oh, I did see some hands. 406 00:25:43,960 --> 00:25:47,720 Wow. OK, so that is one thing. 407 00:25:47,720 --> 00:25:50,560 Coffee pot breaks before you're trying to go to work. 408 00:25:50,640 --> 00:25:54,080 Are you kidding me? I need my coffee before I go to 409 00:25:54,080 --> 00:25:55,520 work. We're over in the reacting 410 00:25:55,520 --> 00:25:56,800 state. Do you understand what I'm 411 00:25:56,800 --> 00:25:59,080 saying? We don't suppress our emotions, 412 00:25:59,720 --> 00:26:02,800 but we also have to learn. Are we reacting to things? 413 00:26:04,120 --> 00:26:06,640 And maybe it's the person that cut you off on the side of the 414 00:26:06,640 --> 00:26:08,960 road or in the road. Maybe your coffee pot broke. 415 00:26:09,280 --> 00:26:14,000 Maybe someone's name got defamed on Facebook and you're like, 416 00:26:14,240 --> 00:26:17,080 yeah, I know it. They need to be torn down. 417 00:26:17,440 --> 00:26:20,400 Whoa. Ouch. 418 00:26:20,760 --> 00:26:23,720 This isn't just the quote negative emotions. 419 00:26:23,720 --> 00:26:27,520 This is some of the like, why are you so excited about that? 420 00:26:29,360 --> 00:26:32,440 So going back to what we don't want to do, we don't want to 421 00:26:32,440 --> 00:26:34,840 suppress their emotions. They're a gift from the Lord. 422 00:26:35,920 --> 00:26:40,160 We don't want to react to them where they have power over us. 423 00:26:41,480 --> 00:26:44,240 That's not an emotionally mature, spiritually LED 424 00:26:44,240 --> 00:26:46,360 Christian. Therefore, you're not a 425 00:26:46,360 --> 00:26:48,040 spiritually more mature Christian. 426 00:26:50,800 --> 00:26:53,560 Did you all hear that part? If you're reacting out of your 427 00:26:53,560 --> 00:26:56,480 emotions, you're not a spiritually mature Christian. 428 00:26:57,360 --> 00:27:01,000 It's impossible to be spiritually mature and be 429 00:27:01,240 --> 00:27:06,200 emotionally immature. It does not work like that. 430 00:27:06,720 --> 00:27:08,520 I don't care what Bible verses you know. 431 00:27:08,800 --> 00:27:10,480 I don't care how long you've been saved. 432 00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:13,400 I don't care how big your church is or what Bible studies you 433 00:27:13,400 --> 00:27:15,800 lead. If you don't emotionally know 434 00:27:15,800 --> 00:27:19,320 how to address your emotions and bring them before the Lord and 435 00:27:19,320 --> 00:27:25,720 not react, we got work to do. And that was me, Yay. 436 00:27:25,720 --> 00:27:27,200 And I think that's a few of you too. 437 00:27:27,200 --> 00:27:30,720 And that's why God is asking me to bring it to the body of 438 00:27:30,720 --> 00:27:36,240 Christ because there's too many times where we have used knowing 439 00:27:36,240 --> 00:27:40,680 a certain scripture and whatever degree you have, whatever Bible 440 00:27:40,680 --> 00:27:43,120 study you've LED as spiritual maturity. 441 00:27:43,840 --> 00:27:47,560 And he's ready for his sons and daughters to say, that's not it. 442 00:27:48,080 --> 00:27:50,880 That's part of it. But He actually wants us to 443 00:27:50,880 --> 00:27:55,760 bring our emotions and our brokenness before Him and say, 444 00:27:55,960 --> 00:27:59,400 now what do I do with this Lord? Because I'm done suppressing it 445 00:27:59,840 --> 00:28:02,240 and I'm also done reacting to it. 446 00:28:02,480 --> 00:28:05,000 I want to be who You have called me to be. 447 00:28:06,120 --> 00:28:07,600 Amen. Even with emotions. 448 00:28:07,960 --> 00:28:11,080 OK, so now we're getting back to John 11, which I've already told 449 00:28:11,080 --> 00:28:15,360 we're going to. I want to take a couple looks at 450 00:28:16,000 --> 00:28:21,320 Jesus in Scripture as he was operating through this earth. 451 00:28:21,920 --> 00:28:25,520 Now one of the things we need to look at about with Jesus, He was 452 00:28:25,520 --> 00:28:28,080 the Son of God. He was also Son of man. 453 00:28:28,080 --> 00:28:31,200 You can go through Scripture, find out that he refers to 454 00:28:31,200 --> 00:28:34,840 himself and others refer to himself as the Son of man. 455 00:28:35,280 --> 00:28:39,200 It's three to four more times than he's referred to as the Son 456 00:28:39,200 --> 00:28:42,160 of God. So there's something in that. 457 00:28:42,160 --> 00:28:46,120 When God starts repeating himself in Scripture, it's time 458 00:28:46,120 --> 00:28:49,520 to hold up and realize, what are you trying to say here? 459 00:28:49,880 --> 00:28:53,760 And when Jesus is being identified more times as the Son 460 00:28:53,760 --> 00:28:57,480 of man than as the Son of God, it doesn't mean that it's more 461 00:28:57,480 --> 00:28:59,640 important, but it does mean it has weight. 462 00:29:00,160 --> 00:29:03,840 And so we need to look at how does Jesus embrace his humanity 463 00:29:04,560 --> 00:29:07,840 so many times. And when we were planting the 464 00:29:07,840 --> 00:29:11,440 church so many times, I was like climbing the ladder of I just 465 00:29:11,440 --> 00:29:15,040 need to see things how God sees them and trying to like get up 466 00:29:15,040 --> 00:29:17,840 and see his perspective. And that's good. 467 00:29:17,840 --> 00:29:21,640 That is part of it. But on the other hand, he wants 468 00:29:21,640 --> 00:29:30,400 to meet me where I am. It's not just about climbing and 469 00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:33,200 striving to see God's perspective. 470 00:29:33,520 --> 00:29:37,840 That is valuable and part of what God says in His Word. 471 00:29:38,160 --> 00:29:39,840 So we need to hold that in this hand. 472 00:29:40,200 --> 00:29:44,160 But what about our humanity? What about our humanity when 473 00:29:44,160 --> 00:29:45,840 we're weak? When we are, we're angry. 474 00:29:45,840 --> 00:29:48,720 When we don't know what to do? What do we do with that? 475 00:29:49,360 --> 00:29:53,920 If Jesus was human, he learned how to navigate this road as a 476 00:29:53,920 --> 00:29:57,920 human in authority, in authority to God with his emotions. 477 00:29:58,440 --> 00:29:59,680 So that's what we're going to look at. 478 00:30:01,080 --> 00:30:03,400 I keep finding more to tell you about this before we go to John 479 00:30:03,400 --> 00:30:08,920 11, but here we are, John Chapter 11 in verse 33, we're 480 00:30:08,920 --> 00:30:13,880 looking at Jesus. Jesus, this was Lazarus, Mary 481 00:30:13,880 --> 00:30:20,120 and Martha, and verse 33 it says Jesus saw her weeping and saw 482 00:30:20,120 --> 00:30:22,000 the other people wailing with her. 483 00:30:22,560 --> 00:30:27,560 A deep anger welled up within him and he was deeply troubled. 484 00:30:28,400 --> 00:30:30,440 Where have you put him? He asked them. 485 00:30:31,960 --> 00:30:34,200 They told him, Lord, come and see. 486 00:30:34,720 --> 00:30:38,520 Then Jesus wept. Here are two to three different 487 00:30:38,520 --> 00:30:44,280 examples of Jesus, the sinless man of God, who we want to 488 00:30:44,280 --> 00:30:46,760 follow and get our examples from. 489 00:30:47,000 --> 00:30:51,840 He's getting angry, He's welling up with anger, He's deeply 490 00:30:51,840 --> 00:30:55,440 troubled, and he's weeping. To me, those are some pretty 491 00:30:55,440 --> 00:30:57,760 deep and expressive emotions, are they not? 492 00:30:59,320 --> 00:31:01,640 Like he just wasn't even keel all the time. 493 00:31:01,720 --> 00:31:05,240 He, he had emotions in him. He was human. 494 00:31:05,240 --> 00:31:08,440 God actually has emotions too, but that's not what we're 495 00:31:08,440 --> 00:31:11,800 focusing on right now. Jesus had emotions welling up in 496 00:31:11,800 --> 00:31:15,880 him when Lazarus died. It's OK to have emotions. 497 00:31:16,080 --> 00:31:19,680 We don't need to suppress them. It's OK to have emotions, we 498 00:31:19,680 --> 00:31:22,720 shouldn't react to them. But what does Jesus do with his 499 00:31:22,720 --> 00:31:25,200 emotions? Because they are a gift from the 500 00:31:25,200 --> 00:31:28,480 Lord. Mostly, and I want to kind of 501 00:31:28,480 --> 00:31:32,400 segue there, God gave us emotions, but the enemy has come 502 00:31:32,400 --> 00:31:34,320 in and twisted and perverted them. 503 00:31:35,520 --> 00:31:38,400 So I just want to take that minute to segue or give that 504 00:31:38,400 --> 00:31:41,200 little side note. It's just like God created the 505 00:31:41,200 --> 00:31:44,040 rainbow. The enemy perverted it and has 506 00:31:44,040 --> 00:31:46,040 done his tactics of darkness with it. 507 00:31:46,400 --> 00:31:50,120 God gave us emotions and they can be used and a gift for us 508 00:31:50,160 --> 00:31:54,560 and for others, but the enemy is trying to come in and make you 509 00:31:54,560 --> 00:31:58,160 suppress them or make you react to them. 510 00:31:58,640 --> 00:32:02,560 So either side of this pendulum, we're doing aerobics today here 511 00:32:02,560 --> 00:32:04,960 too. Either side of this pendulum, 512 00:32:05,160 --> 00:32:09,120 not where God wants us. OK, God wants us in the middle 513 00:32:09,120 --> 00:32:11,920 and we're going to find out how Jesus did this with our 514 00:32:11,920 --> 00:32:15,000 emotions. We're not going to turn there 515 00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:21,560 today, but when you have time to go to John 5, I want to make 516 00:32:21,560 --> 00:32:26,600 sure I give you the right verse. John 5/9/19 Jesus is explaining 517 00:32:26,600 --> 00:32:30,800 He only does what He sees the Father doing and only says what 518 00:32:30,800 --> 00:32:34,320 He hears the Father saying. For years all I thought that 519 00:32:34,320 --> 00:32:38,280 meant was, OK God, you're having me pray for this person. 520 00:32:38,280 --> 00:32:42,320 I can pray for that person. OK God, I'm going to be your 521 00:32:42,320 --> 00:32:44,920 vessel to preach this message. I can do that. 522 00:32:45,800 --> 00:32:48,680 But I think it's a little deeper and a little more expansive than 523 00:32:48,680 --> 00:32:51,440 that. I think if Jesus was looking at 524 00:32:51,440 --> 00:32:56,000 this as a spirit, soul and body experience, he's going to God in 525 00:32:56,240 --> 00:32:59,760 events in his life and wondering, OK, God, I got anger 526 00:32:59,760 --> 00:33:01,400 here. What's going on? 527 00:33:01,400 --> 00:33:03,000 What do I need to be doing with it? 528 00:33:03,400 --> 00:33:07,640 And then he's waiting on God to say, this is what we're doing. 529 00:33:07,760 --> 00:33:11,080 This is what you're saying. Jesus never got into the point 530 00:33:11,080 --> 00:33:16,200 of reacting out of emotions. It's impossible for him to do 531 00:33:16,200 --> 00:33:22,200 that because he was sinless. He never sinned once, therefore 532 00:33:22,200 --> 00:33:25,800 he never got out of the authority of God once. 533 00:33:29,440 --> 00:33:31,000 There's a pretty big weight to that. 534 00:33:32,120 --> 00:33:37,200 We are not of that nature. We have sin, but it doesn't mean 535 00:33:37,200 --> 00:33:41,560 we can't loose our grave clothes and figure out God. 536 00:33:41,560 --> 00:33:44,440 What do you have me doing with my emotions so I can do what 537 00:33:44,440 --> 00:33:47,800 you're asking me to do and say what only you are telling me to 538 00:33:47,800 --> 00:33:50,040 say? Not suppress them or react. 539 00:33:50,320 --> 00:33:56,160 React to them anymore OK so Jesus is sitting there he has 540 00:33:56,480 --> 00:34:04,000 anger and he's troubled then in verse 35 he weeps it is OK if 541 00:34:04,000 --> 00:34:07,920 you guys cry. The strongest man alive cried. 542 00:34:08,760 --> 00:34:17,120 The strongest man alive got angry in verse 38 after someone 543 00:34:17,120 --> 00:34:19,960 said to Jesus, man, you've healed a blind man. 544 00:34:20,199 --> 00:34:23,040 Couldn't you even keep Lazarus from dying after they started 545 00:34:23,040 --> 00:34:27,280 jabbing him verbally for what he wasn't doing? 546 00:34:27,719 --> 00:34:33,199 He was still angry. And 38, he didn't just supersede 547 00:34:33,199 --> 00:34:40,120 it spiritually, which was my problem before I became so 548 00:34:40,120 --> 00:34:44,639 robotic with verses and I don't have them all memorized. 549 00:34:44,920 --> 00:34:49,520 But I knew what to say for the moment to get me spiritually on 550 00:34:49,520 --> 00:34:52,880 with my way so I could preach another message, so I could care 551 00:34:52,880 --> 00:34:55,120 for my kids again, so I could cook another meal. 552 00:34:55,440 --> 00:34:59,240 But I didn't allow myself to address the emotion in the 553 00:34:59,240 --> 00:35:03,080 moment that God was asking me to address, nor did I then say, 554 00:35:03,080 --> 00:35:06,440 God, what do I do with? This. 555 00:35:09,360 --> 00:35:12,920 And Jesus, look at this, he was still angry in verse 38. 556 00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:17,640 And then he says part way through 41, he starts talking to 557 00:35:17,640 --> 00:35:20,120 God. Jesus wasn't out on his own 558 00:35:20,120 --> 00:35:22,880 doing this. He was having a relationship 559 00:35:22,880 --> 00:35:26,520 with the Father in this moment to figure out, OK, God, what are 560 00:35:26,520 --> 00:35:28,080 we doing? Lazarus is dead. 561 00:35:28,720 --> 00:35:31,040 These people are jabbing at me with their words that I'm not 562 00:35:31,040 --> 00:35:33,440 doing enough. They're defaming my identity, 563 00:35:33,440 --> 00:35:36,800 basically, and Jesus is starting to well it up. 564 00:35:36,800 --> 00:35:41,800 He had human emotions, and he's going to God and saying, OK, I 565 00:35:41,800 --> 00:35:45,400 want you to do what we'll do, whatever we're supposed to do. 566 00:35:45,680 --> 00:35:49,440 And that's when he commanded Lazarus to come forth and then 567 00:35:49,440 --> 00:35:52,800 told the people around him to take the grave claws, grave 568 00:35:52,800 --> 00:35:55,560 claws off. Jesus was not outside of 569 00:35:55,560 --> 00:35:57,960 authority when he commanded these things. 570 00:35:59,520 --> 00:36:02,480 Now I want to bring up another Scripture that many of you have 571 00:36:02,480 --> 00:36:05,120 heard of that we're not going to turn to many of you have heard 572 00:36:05,120 --> 00:36:06,680 of. It's been on Facebook so many 573 00:36:06,680 --> 00:36:10,400 times. If Jesus can turn the tables in 574 00:36:10,400 --> 00:36:16,760 the temple, I can do that too. OK, here's the problem. 575 00:36:16,800 --> 00:36:21,440 You can't do it out of reaction and be following God. 576 00:36:22,680 --> 00:36:26,400 You can't do it out of out of suppression and be following 577 00:36:26,400 --> 00:36:29,760 God. You have to take that anger and 578 00:36:30,080 --> 00:36:33,440 give it to the give it to God and say, what am I supposed to 579 00:36:33,440 --> 00:36:36,680 do with this? What are we doing with this now? 580 00:36:36,680 --> 00:36:40,200 He didn't not address the anger. He understood you all know the 581 00:36:40,200 --> 00:36:43,200 story of the temple. He's going to the temple and he 582 00:36:43,200 --> 00:36:45,800 sees tax collectors and money exchangers in the temple. 583 00:36:45,800 --> 00:36:48,040 And that's not how the temple was supposed to be used. 584 00:36:48,640 --> 00:36:50,880 And he knew when he saw it, that's not it. 585 00:36:50,960 --> 00:36:53,200 That's not God. We can't have that here. 586 00:36:53,440 --> 00:36:55,560 So anger started welling up in him. 587 00:36:56,680 --> 00:37:02,080 Well, he didn't react and say get out because he only does 588 00:37:02,120 --> 00:37:04,720 what he sees the Father do, and he only says what he hears the 589 00:37:04,720 --> 00:37:07,520 Father say. So he had to go to the Father 590 00:37:07,520 --> 00:37:10,360 and say, what are we doing about this God? 591 00:37:10,760 --> 00:37:12,880 What are we doing about this Father? 592 00:37:13,360 --> 00:37:16,560 And so it doesn't say it in all the Gospels, but in one of the 593 00:37:16,560 --> 00:37:20,360 gospels, he goes and makes a whip before he turns the tables 594 00:37:20,360 --> 00:37:22,560 in the temple. What does that mean? 595 00:37:22,840 --> 00:37:26,080 God and Jesus are making a whip because of the anger. 596 00:37:26,080 --> 00:37:31,440 It's not Jesus making a whip out of his own fleshly reaction, nor 597 00:37:31,440 --> 00:37:34,880 is it Jesus suppressing the anger, saying they're screwing 598 00:37:34,880 --> 00:37:36,000 up. This is not what the temple 599 00:37:36,000 --> 00:37:39,160 supposed to be using, and I'm just going to deal with it. 600 00:37:39,560 --> 00:37:43,320 He had to do something, but he had to respond out of God's 601 00:37:43,320 --> 00:37:46,160 word. He had to respond out of God 602 00:37:46,160 --> 00:37:50,720 what God was asking him to do, not just, well, today I'm going 603 00:37:50,720 --> 00:37:53,400 to say forget about it. Tomorrow I'm going to say I get 604 00:37:53,400 --> 00:37:56,280 to freak out because I'm Jesus. He didn't get that. 605 00:37:56,880 --> 00:38:01,720 He had to come under authority, but he had to choose to do it 606 00:38:02,360 --> 00:38:06,040 every day with his emotions every day. 607 00:38:06,040 --> 00:38:10,360 And so when he was getting anger, angry, excuse me, he was 608 00:38:10,360 --> 00:38:13,280 going to God. OK, what are we going to do 609 00:38:13,280 --> 00:38:16,320 about this? When you start feeling emotions, 610 00:38:16,720 --> 00:38:21,920 it's your chance not to suppress them or react to them, but to 611 00:38:21,920 --> 00:38:28,720 invite God into the situation and say, why am I feeling this 612 00:38:28,720 --> 00:38:32,320 anger towards this situation or this person? 613 00:38:33,280 --> 00:38:36,240 Why am I feeling happy that their name just got defamed on 614 00:38:36,240 --> 00:38:39,000 Facebook? That's a valid question to ask. 615 00:38:39,000 --> 00:38:42,120 Holy Spirit. Why am I excited that they got 616 00:38:42,120 --> 00:38:45,520 the ticket on the road and I didn't even know I was going 20 617 00:38:45,520 --> 00:38:47,360 over the speed limit? Why? 618 00:38:47,360 --> 00:38:50,280 That's a valid question. So when we start having these 619 00:38:50,280 --> 00:38:53,480 emotions, it's not that they're all true and scriptural. 620 00:38:54,200 --> 00:38:58,360 It's that it's an open door for us to invite God in and say, why 621 00:38:58,360 --> 00:39:00,040 am I angry? Why am I happy? 622 00:39:00,040 --> 00:39:02,480 Why am I sad? And that's where he meets you 623 00:39:03,000 --> 00:39:06,440 and comforts you when necessary and gives you the right 624 00:39:06,440 --> 00:39:10,120 direction from there after that so that we're not stuck in these 625 00:39:10,120 --> 00:39:14,120 two pendulums anymore trying to figure out life on our own 626 00:39:14,440 --> 00:39:18,120 because that's not God's intent. We are an integrated being. 627 00:39:18,120 --> 00:39:19,880 This isn't just spiritual people. 628 00:39:20,520 --> 00:39:23,040 This is involves our soul as well. 629 00:39:23,040 --> 00:39:28,520 This involves our emotions. And so we get to bring those to 630 00:39:28,520 --> 00:39:33,560 the Lord and say, OK Lord, I'm feeling anxious about this. 631 00:39:35,960 --> 00:39:37,760 And here is why you want to do this. 632 00:39:38,920 --> 00:39:41,600 You can use the Scripture, which is true. 633 00:39:41,760 --> 00:39:46,240 Be anxious about nothing. If I'm starting to feel anxious 634 00:39:46,960 --> 00:39:51,200 and I only use the scripture now you guys need to put your your 635 00:39:51,400 --> 00:39:53,600 ears on and hear what my heart is on this. 636 00:39:53,880 --> 00:39:57,400 If I'm only using the Scripture and telling myself be anxious 637 00:39:57,400 --> 00:39:59,400 about nothing, be anxious about nothing, be anxious about 638 00:39:59,400 --> 00:40:01,480 nothing, be anxious about nothing, be anxious about 639 00:40:01,480 --> 00:40:03,680 nothing, be anxious about nothing, be anxious about 640 00:40:03,680 --> 00:40:07,600 nothing, and I just quote the Scripture, which is weaponry 641 00:40:07,600 --> 00:40:11,440 that we have to quote the Scripture, but I never go to the 642 00:40:11,440 --> 00:40:14,640 Lord and ask Him why the heck am I anxious? 643 00:40:15,720 --> 00:40:19,320 He's like, girl, do you even get it? 644 00:40:19,640 --> 00:40:22,840 You had an appointment at 8:00 and then you had a dentist 645 00:40:22,840 --> 00:40:25,840 appointment at 8:30. And then at 8:45 you had to call 646 00:40:25,840 --> 00:40:27,440 your mom for your weekly check in. 647 00:40:27,640 --> 00:40:29,360 And then 9:00 you had to rush home. 648 00:40:29,360 --> 00:40:31,120 And because so and so is sick from school. 649 00:40:31,120 --> 00:40:33,920 And then you had to rush home. And then at 9:30 you started 650 00:40:33,920 --> 00:40:35,960 thinking about, Oh, I want to redecorate my home. 651 00:40:35,960 --> 00:40:37,880 So we're going to get on Pinterest and start redecorating 652 00:40:37,880 --> 00:40:39,760 home and do all these Pinterest boards and dah, dah, dah, dah. 653 00:40:40,040 --> 00:40:41,640 And then at 10:00 you had another meeting. 654 00:40:41,840 --> 00:40:45,920 And at 11:00, you had this, and he's like, sister, what the heck 655 00:40:45,960 --> 00:40:48,840 are you doing? You're quoting scripture, but 656 00:40:48,840 --> 00:40:50,560 you're weaponizing it against me. 657 00:40:54,760 --> 00:40:56,320 And that's exactly what the enemy does. 658 00:40:57,200 --> 00:41:00,560 He uses scripture to weaponize it against the Lord. 659 00:41:02,040 --> 00:41:04,960 Scripture matters. You have to use it in context. 660 00:41:05,160 --> 00:41:07,560 This is a living, breathing document. 661 00:41:08,560 --> 00:41:12,360 It divides the soul and the spirit and the joint from the 662 00:41:12,360 --> 00:41:14,400 marrow. That's what this does. 663 00:41:14,640 --> 00:41:18,520 But if you don't invite God into your situation, he could be, 664 00:41:18,680 --> 00:41:22,400 He's like, well, all you have to do is simplify your calendar. 665 00:41:22,400 --> 00:41:25,040 Heidi. Meanwhile, I'm just be anxious 666 00:41:25,040 --> 00:41:26,760 about nothing. Heidi, be anxious about nothing. 667 00:41:26,960 --> 00:41:29,720 Be anxious about nothing. Be anxious about nothing, be 668 00:41:29,720 --> 00:41:31,240 anxious about nothing, be anxious about nothing. 669 00:41:31,400 --> 00:41:33,440 And I go to all my 30,000 appointments. 670 00:41:33,440 --> 00:41:36,080 I come home stressed. I'm not able to give to my 671 00:41:36,080 --> 00:41:39,760 husband and my kids what they deserve because I'm weaponizing 672 00:41:40,840 --> 00:41:45,040 the scripture and not allowing God to meet me where I was at in 673 00:41:45,040 --> 00:41:53,160 my soul. Scripture matters. 674 00:41:53,840 --> 00:41:55,760 Scripture and context matters more. 675 00:41:56,520 --> 00:42:01,200 Spirit matters. Spirit, soul, and body matter. 676 00:42:01,560 --> 00:42:04,280 I don't want to say more, but they matter a lot. 677 00:42:04,720 --> 00:42:09,040 We can no longer be segregating our spirit from our soul and 678 00:42:09,040 --> 00:42:11,480 body. It's a, it's an integrative 679 00:42:11,480 --> 00:42:15,480 thing that the Lord has given us on purpose. 680 00:42:15,760 --> 00:42:19,880 He knew we would have this. It wasn't a it wasn't a surprise 681 00:42:19,880 --> 00:42:21,600 to him. Oh, my gosh, they're angry. 682 00:42:21,600 --> 00:42:23,680 I can't believe it. Jesus. 683 00:42:23,680 --> 00:42:26,160 He's not sitting up in heaven saying, why are they angry? 684 00:42:26,160 --> 00:42:27,960 I can't believe they even have this emotion. 685 00:42:28,520 --> 00:42:29,920 That was actually a very feminine voice. 686 00:42:29,920 --> 00:42:31,960 So I'm sorry, God. Yeah. 687 00:42:32,400 --> 00:42:35,400 Anyway, do you understand? He's not surprised by your 688 00:42:35,400 --> 00:42:38,120 emotions. We can bring them to the Lord, 689 00:42:38,280 --> 00:42:42,080 but what we want to stop doing is suppressing or reacting to 690 00:42:42,080 --> 00:42:45,080 them. Those are the enemies territory. 691 00:42:45,720 --> 00:42:50,760 God's territory is saying, OK, I'm anxious, help me navigate 692 00:42:50,760 --> 00:42:54,520 what the heck I'm doing. OK, I will use the scripture, 693 00:42:54,760 --> 00:42:57,560 but if I need to cancel appointments because I am 694 00:42:57,560 --> 00:43:02,040 presenting, I am causing this myself, then that's an issue. 695 00:43:02,080 --> 00:43:06,760 He's giving me the way out today. 696 00:43:08,480 --> 00:43:11,840 We've talked a lot about emotions, and that was part of 697 00:43:11,840 --> 00:43:13,880 my story. I didn't know that they were OK. 698 00:43:14,800 --> 00:43:16,880 I didn't know how to deal with him in a godly way. 699 00:43:16,880 --> 00:43:21,120 I was either suppressing or reacting, and I usually didn't 700 00:43:21,120 --> 00:43:23,840 have control over when I reacted because I would get triggered 701 00:43:23,840 --> 00:43:27,840 off of something. And then it's like those old 702 00:43:28,280 --> 00:43:33,240 things where it's like like those snakes or something shoved 703 00:43:33,240 --> 00:43:34,360 in a can. Then all of a sudden they're 704 00:43:34,360 --> 00:43:37,960 like everywhere and you have no control over when it comes out. 705 00:43:38,360 --> 00:43:42,200 That's kind of where I was. And again, he got to deal with 706 00:43:42,200 --> 00:43:43,560 it. My kids got to deal with it. 707 00:43:43,760 --> 00:43:48,640 But I'm so grateful that now God is like, hold up, Heidi, you 708 00:43:48,640 --> 00:43:52,040 have a soul on purpose. I didn't mistake when I made 709 00:43:52,040 --> 00:43:54,800 your soul. It's not a mistake. 710 00:43:55,880 --> 00:43:59,960 It's not a problem in the factory setting. 711 00:44:00,880 --> 00:44:03,680 He knew you had a spirit, soul and body. 712 00:44:03,760 --> 00:44:05,480 He knew the purpose of all of them. 713 00:44:05,600 --> 00:44:09,600 He wants them integrated and all serving him together. 714 00:44:09,880 --> 00:44:14,400 As in my case, Heidi, my soul serving him. 715 00:44:14,920 --> 00:44:19,720 My soul submitted to his authority, not separate and in 716 00:44:19,720 --> 00:44:24,080 the enemy's territory. That was one of my grave clothes 717 00:44:24,080 --> 00:44:27,440 was emotions. You guys might have some other 718 00:44:27,440 --> 00:44:30,080 grave clothes. Maybe you didn't necessarily 719 00:44:30,080 --> 00:44:31,720 identify with the emotional part. 720 00:44:31,720 --> 00:44:36,080 Maybe you had a great upbringing and you've known how to stay in 721 00:44:36,080 --> 00:44:38,320 the middle row with your emotions from your beginning, 722 00:44:38,560 --> 00:44:41,280 which I highly doubt. But I will give you the benefit 723 00:44:41,280 --> 00:44:43,760 of the doubt. That's fine, you can take it to 724 00:44:43,760 --> 00:44:45,600 the Lord. OK, I'm not here to tell you 725 00:44:45,600 --> 00:44:49,280 what it is, but my story was emotions. 726 00:44:49,280 --> 00:44:51,360 That was my grave cloth. One of them. 727 00:44:52,880 --> 00:44:56,800 I know that this is a journey with God, so if He shows me 728 00:44:56,800 --> 00:45:00,560 another grave cloth, you better expect me to know that I am 729 00:45:00,560 --> 00:45:03,120 going to be going to God and say, how do we get rid of this 730 00:45:03,120 --> 00:45:04,360 one? Because I don't want to be 731 00:45:04,360 --> 00:45:07,080 living in the bondage that the enemy has meant for me this 732 00:45:07,080 --> 00:45:10,880 whole time, even though I thought I was free, right? 733 00:45:11,520 --> 00:45:14,440 So I'm going to ask the ministry team to come up as we close 734 00:45:14,440 --> 00:45:18,840 today. Some of you have probably grave 735 00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:22,800 clothes on and maybe you came in here today not knowing. 736 00:45:23,160 --> 00:45:28,320 That's fine, I have no judgement towards you because none of us 737 00:45:28,480 --> 00:45:32,240 have it all figured out. None of us have come been have 738 00:45:32,240 --> 00:45:36,120 been completely perfected and are walking sinless like Jesus. 739 00:45:36,560 --> 00:45:39,880 Not one. So my grave cloth, my biggest 740 00:45:39,880 --> 00:45:44,400 one that I have found to date is not knowing how to submit my 741 00:45:45,600 --> 00:45:49,520 submit my emotions to the Lord. Your grave cloth could be 742 00:45:50,320 --> 00:45:54,480 watching porn, something that's keeping you in bondage outside 743 00:45:54,480 --> 00:45:57,040 of God's freedom. That's what we're talking about. 744 00:45:57,040 --> 00:46:01,080 Grave clothes. You could be shopping to escape 745 00:46:01,080 --> 00:46:03,680 pain. I know shopping isn't 746 00:46:03,680 --> 00:46:06,840 necessarily a bad thing, but if you're using it to escape pain 747 00:46:06,840 --> 00:46:10,240 and not address soul stuff with the Lord, it's a problem. 748 00:46:11,760 --> 00:46:15,200 You might be running to the bottle to escape pain, to not 749 00:46:15,200 --> 00:46:17,120 deal with your soul with the Lord. 750 00:46:17,880 --> 00:46:22,080 These are just some examples. There's so many examples that I 751 00:46:22,080 --> 00:46:25,720 mean, if we interviewed everybody, they would probably 752 00:46:25,720 --> 00:46:27,640 have oh, and I did this and I did this. 753 00:46:28,360 --> 00:46:33,920 Let's figure out what the grave clothes are so God can show us 754 00:46:34,200 --> 00:46:39,160 and loose us today through our ministry team so that we can be 755 00:46:39,160 --> 00:46:43,080 walking in the freedom that God has provided us since we were 756 00:46:43,080 --> 00:46:45,120 born again. We just didn't we weren't aware 757 00:46:45,120 --> 00:46:48,240 about. OK, as we close today, I want to 758 00:46:48,240 --> 00:46:50,920 tell you one thing. At the end of John Chapter 11, 759 00:46:52,720 --> 00:46:56,920 this is a story about Lazarus. Lazarus came out of the grave. 760 00:46:57,240 --> 00:47:01,000 The dead man came out, his hands and feet bound in grave clothes, 761 00:47:01,360 --> 00:47:03,400 his face wrapped in a head cloth. 762 00:47:04,480 --> 00:47:06,480 So he was still bound with his grave clothes. 763 00:47:06,960 --> 00:47:13,240 And Jesus told the people around Lazarus to lose him, to unwrap 764 00:47:13,240 --> 00:47:15,520 him. What does this tell me? 765 00:47:15,880 --> 00:47:18,880 This is not just about you and Jesus. 766 00:47:19,480 --> 00:47:24,520 This is about a community, a people, a body, a ministry team 767 00:47:24,840 --> 00:47:30,600 that is here to help you be loosed into the freedom that 768 00:47:30,720 --> 00:47:34,320 Jesus has provided for you. Thanks for listening to our 769 00:47:34,320 --> 00:47:36,040 podcast. If you'd like to help more 770 00:47:36,040 --> 00:47:38,680 people hear this message, you can get the word out by 771 00:47:38,680 --> 00:47:41,000 subscribing and sharing it on social media. 772 00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:43,840 If you'd like to support the ministries of Heartland Church, 773 00:47:44,040 --> 00:47:47,600 you can do so at Heartland Church online.com/give.