1 00:00:00,040 --> 00:00:02,080 Hello lesbians. Hello lesbians. 2 00:00:02,960 --> 00:00:04,560 Lesbians. I'm joined today. 3 00:00:04,560 --> 00:00:07,080 It is Freya with Farrell. It's Hegarty, right? 4 00:00:07,200 --> 00:00:08,640 Yeah. Is it Irish? 5 00:00:08,840 --> 00:00:11,080 Yes, right. It's a weird name. 6 00:00:11,080 --> 00:00:14,280 It's a double whammy of Weird A. Far Farrell Hegarty. 7 00:00:14,280 --> 00:00:16,239 Yeah, I really like it. FH Farah Hegarty. 8 00:00:16,280 --> 00:00:17,560 Someone will always get it wrong. 9 00:00:17,560 --> 00:00:19,200 Or Pharrell. People say Pharrell all the 10 00:00:19,200 --> 00:00:20,080 time. Yeah, I was. 11 00:00:20,200 --> 00:00:22,960 I did say this is it Pharrell? She's like, like what? 12 00:00:22,960 --> 00:00:24,040 Like Williams? Like Williams? 13 00:00:24,040 --> 00:00:25,080 Yeah. No, no, it's not. 14 00:00:25,080 --> 00:00:26,760 It's never one. It makes me sound cooler though 15 00:00:26,800 --> 00:00:28,000 I think when people say Pharrell. 16 00:00:28,160 --> 00:00:29,760 I think Farrell's cool. Do you? 17 00:00:30,080 --> 00:00:32,200 Thanks, I'll roll with it. No choice. 18 00:00:33,000 --> 00:00:35,480 I'll introduce you. You are an amazing actress. 19 00:00:35,480 --> 00:00:37,360 She's also a content creator as well. 20 00:00:37,520 --> 00:00:43,040 One of us gay and I have I've been following you for a little 21 00:00:43,040 --> 00:00:46,480 while and I've been watching your tick tocks, your reels, and 22 00:00:46,480 --> 00:00:49,200 I'm sure those who are listening and watching right now has also 23 00:00:49,200 --> 00:00:52,640 seen it pop up because everyone does so well and the amount of 24 00:00:52,640 --> 00:00:55,400 your videos that get sent over to me directly as well. 25 00:00:55,680 --> 00:00:58,560 Yeah, all the time. And and so I'm I'm sure that you 26 00:00:58,560 --> 00:01:00,720 guys have already bear witness to barrel. 27 00:01:00,760 --> 00:01:03,200 Good. But if you haven't, then welcome 28 00:01:03,200 --> 00:01:04,800 and thank you so much for coming on barrel. 29 00:01:05,040 --> 00:01:07,800 Thanks for having. Me, yeah, I wanted to, I wanted 30 00:01:07,800 --> 00:01:11,240 to say just first of all, how relatable your videos are. 31 00:01:11,240 --> 00:01:13,600 Oh, thanks. As someone who is quite hectic 32 00:01:13,600 --> 00:01:17,120 in the brain, gay like. Is this me? 33 00:01:17,120 --> 00:01:20,560 Yeah, no, literally over 30s disorganised. 34 00:01:21,520 --> 00:01:23,720 Disorganised. All of this is just like ticking 35 00:01:23,720 --> 00:01:25,440 a box for me and I'm like, yeah, that's brilliant. 36 00:01:25,560 --> 00:01:26,200 Oh, that's genius. The. 37 00:01:26,200 --> 00:01:29,080 Disorganised stuff is I have it's have a rage bait, a 38 00:01:29,080 --> 00:01:31,560 relatability. I'll get messages being like, 39 00:01:31,840 --> 00:01:33,240 this is stressing me out. I've did. 40 00:01:33,240 --> 00:01:37,440 I once filmed my my desktop, yeah, of like the chaos nurse. 41 00:01:37,440 --> 00:01:40,000 And I had like the Sony message being like, can I just come over 42 00:01:40,000 --> 00:01:41,240 to your house and just organise your life? 43 00:01:41,240 --> 00:01:43,840 And I was like, yes, please. It's just, yeah, I'm just one of 44 00:01:43,840 --> 00:01:45,120 those. It's actually quite a good way 45 00:01:45,120 --> 00:01:48,040 to get some like free PA OH. Yeah, and it's not painting. 46 00:01:48,040 --> 00:01:49,760 Can you come over and start out please? 47 00:01:50,160 --> 00:01:51,960 I need. Help Too far. 48 00:01:51,960 --> 00:01:55,000 I'd gone out with my best friend for like a lunch and I was 49 00:01:55,000 --> 00:01:57,400 talking to her about it and I had my laptop on and actually 50 00:01:57,680 --> 00:02:01,240 like audibly gasped. She's like, how do you live like 51 00:02:01,240 --> 00:02:03,520 this? Like, and then The thing is when 52 00:02:03,520 --> 00:02:05,600 you organise it, I can't find anything that's not on my 53 00:02:05,600 --> 00:02:06,640 desktop. So it takes. 54 00:02:07,040 --> 00:02:08,919 So then the organising is a waste. 55 00:02:08,919 --> 00:02:10,680 Why would you do that? I'm just going to have to refind 56 00:02:10,680 --> 00:02:12,360 it all over again now I know my mess. 57 00:02:12,480 --> 00:02:13,560 Thank you. So my mess. 58 00:02:14,040 --> 00:02:16,160 I know it's underneath this file somewhere. 59 00:02:16,160 --> 00:02:18,400 There it is. Oh, I'm like, I'm chaos. 60 00:02:18,600 --> 00:02:22,040 No, but the way that you deliver the relatability is what's so 61 00:02:22,040 --> 00:02:24,160 good about it. I also get so sucked into all 62 00:02:24,160 --> 00:02:27,280 the different characters that you do because I'm watching it 63 00:02:27,280 --> 00:02:29,920 and I'm like fully believing that it's no longer you doing 64 00:02:29,920 --> 00:02:32,440 all the. Sometimes I do watch myself and 65 00:02:32,440 --> 00:02:34,480 I'm like, you know, I am straight man. 66 00:02:34,480 --> 00:02:35,680 Jonathan. That's yeah. 67 00:02:35,680 --> 00:02:38,360 And I've, I was like, because for me, I'm like, OK, in this 68 00:02:38,360 --> 00:02:41,720 scene, I'm going to, you know, be I don't know, man. 69 00:02:41,720 --> 00:02:44,680 And then I just put a hats on. I'm like, I'm lady with glasses 70 00:02:44,680 --> 00:02:48,040 now, just like. And I when I watch some people's 71 00:02:48,040 --> 00:02:51,640 content, they're like, they've got like full wig for like full. 72 00:02:51,760 --> 00:02:54,320 You know, the art department department has gone all out and 73 00:02:54,320 --> 00:02:56,480 I've just put a hat on. You just like put on like a 74 00:02:56,480 --> 00:02:59,080 checkered shirt or you put on like a suit jacket and you're. 75 00:02:59,080 --> 00:03:01,840 Like the girl I film with Jess, I literally go into the room, I 76 00:03:01,840 --> 00:03:03,480 come out as I write different characters now and she's like, 77 00:03:03,480 --> 00:03:06,680 wow, you're unrecognizable. And I've just like put my hair 78 00:03:06,680 --> 00:03:09,920 back. So it's like, ah, glasses. 79 00:03:09,920 --> 00:03:11,640 She was like, do we think non glasses for this? 80 00:03:11,640 --> 00:03:13,480 I was like, I'm thinking that no glasses. 81 00:03:14,000 --> 00:03:16,320 Like sometimes I don't use a different voice. 82 00:03:16,320 --> 00:03:19,000 I'm just like it's fine. But it works. 83 00:03:19,080 --> 00:03:20,920 This is what I'm saying. I don't know how you've managed 84 00:03:20,920 --> 00:03:22,360 to make it work. That's just fine. 85 00:03:22,360 --> 00:03:23,480 I'm. Driving a school train and I'm 86 00:03:23,480 --> 00:03:26,520 like, it's the same voice, just a different look. 87 00:03:26,760 --> 00:03:28,840 If I faced a different way, you'll never know. 88 00:03:30,040 --> 00:03:31,680 Train, I love that. And I was just saying to you 89 00:03:31,680 --> 00:03:35,320 before we were rolling that like I value funny over everything. 90 00:03:35,320 --> 00:03:37,920 So I love the way you're able to just like portray just like 91 00:03:38,240 --> 00:03:41,600 normal day shit, like especially like the train ticket prices, 92 00:03:41,600 --> 00:03:43,080 which I struggle with all the time. 93 00:03:43,200 --> 00:03:46,520 Or, you know, and just find a way to do it and make it and 94 00:03:46,520 --> 00:03:48,240 make it good. Because I've always got these 95 00:03:48,240 --> 00:03:50,240 ideas in my head and then I'm lazy and I don't actually. 96 00:03:50,240 --> 00:03:52,280 Do that. And also it's, it's, it's, it's 97 00:03:52,280 --> 00:03:53,880 work. Sometimes I'm doing that. 98 00:03:53,880 --> 00:03:55,800 I'm like, well, have I written this long idea? 99 00:03:56,480 --> 00:03:58,880 And it's like, you know, I'm, I've got and got myself to 100 00:03:58,880 --> 00:04:00,080 blame. Yeah, I've written this like, 101 00:04:00,080 --> 00:04:03,040 oh, OK, I reckon 5 characters. I've written something for radio 102 00:04:03,040 --> 00:04:05,720 at the minute and I've written and I've put like 6 characters 103 00:04:05,720 --> 00:04:07,160 in and I'm like, why have I done this? 104 00:04:07,280 --> 00:04:08,720 And I've got to play them all. Stretch. 105 00:04:08,720 --> 00:04:11,400 Yourself and. I'm just like never got two 106 00:04:11,400 --> 00:04:14,160 weeks like rehearse it and I'm just and it's my own fault. 107 00:04:14,160 --> 00:04:16,320 Yeah, but I feel like this is good though, because obviously, 108 00:04:16,320 --> 00:04:17,880 I mean, you've been in actress for how long? 109 00:04:19,240 --> 00:04:22,760 Well, I went to drama school, graduated like 2010, so I've 110 00:04:22,760 --> 00:04:26,960 been trying to be an actress for a long time. 2010 Was that 111 00:04:26,960 --> 00:04:28,640 graduated? Was that in London? 112 00:04:29,320 --> 00:04:30,640 Yeah, I went to drama school in London. 113 00:04:30,800 --> 00:04:33,720 How was that? Do you remember I? 114 00:04:34,640 --> 00:04:38,560 Was like BC like I was. I loved it. 115 00:04:39,000 --> 00:04:42,160 When I look back now, I'm like, there were so many things about 116 00:04:42,160 --> 00:04:43,920 it was probably quite problematic. 117 00:04:43,960 --> 00:04:45,320 Yeah. But I was just like la, la, la, 118 00:04:45,400 --> 00:04:47,840 la I I make like met loads of great friends there. 119 00:04:47,840 --> 00:04:49,640 Yeah. Like there, it was a lot of hard 120 00:04:49,640 --> 00:04:51,440 work. It wasn't like normal uni where 121 00:04:51,440 --> 00:04:54,280 I, some of my friends went, oh, you went to a lecture, you know, 122 00:04:54,280 --> 00:04:56,520 for like an hour and then have two days off. 123 00:04:56,560 --> 00:04:58,040 Yeah. We were like, it was like 9 to 124 00:04:58,040 --> 00:05:01,040 half six every day. And if you didn't come, it was 125 00:05:01,040 --> 00:05:02,880 like, where are you? Are you dead? 126 00:05:03,000 --> 00:05:04,400 Yeah, because you have you. Just yeah, Yeah. 127 00:05:04,400 --> 00:05:06,640 And also you got into drama school, which was like, you just 128 00:05:06,640 --> 00:05:07,680 got yourself looking. Yeah. 129 00:05:07,760 --> 00:05:11,040 Definitely. 100% and also you're there was a bunch of thespians, 130 00:05:11,080 --> 00:05:12,760 everyone's thespians and I'm quite keen. 131 00:05:12,920 --> 00:05:15,120 They are, yeah. Keen to impress? 132 00:05:15,200 --> 00:05:17,400 That's a gagging for it. Yeah, yeah. 133 00:05:17,920 --> 00:05:20,240 I imagine how they feel though, the ones that are like that, you 134 00:05:20,240 --> 00:05:21,920 know, when you hear those stories of like, just like 135 00:05:21,920 --> 00:05:25,480 working in a, in a cafe and then this director just came up to me 136 00:05:25,480 --> 00:05:28,360 and I bet they're. Not I've been in my like 137 00:05:28,920 --> 00:05:32,760 audition for like 4 years on the trot to get in or they'd be like 138 00:05:32,800 --> 00:05:36,520 been like trying for ages or, or got in a bit later, which was 139 00:05:36,520 --> 00:05:39,400 then like 24, but that was like oh, you're an older student, 20. 140 00:05:39,560 --> 00:05:41,600 40 God, I remember that. Yeah. 141 00:05:41,640 --> 00:05:43,680 Yeah, and so you've been mainly soap. 142 00:05:43,680 --> 00:05:45,840 So you've been like Coronation Street and also Emmerdale as 143 00:05:45,840 --> 00:05:47,400 well as I? Did an episode of Emmerdale. 144 00:05:47,440 --> 00:05:48,840 Yeah. I mean, it was in the crossover. 145 00:05:49,320 --> 00:05:51,920 In the crossover, yeah. It was like 2014. 146 00:05:51,920 --> 00:05:55,560 I just had like one app where I was someone's one night stand. 147 00:05:56,960 --> 00:05:59,960 I just had a scene where I just was in in the kitchen in the 148 00:05:59,960 --> 00:06:01,080 morning and she was like, who are you? 149 00:06:01,080 --> 00:06:02,680 And I was just like and then walked off. 150 00:06:02,680 --> 00:06:05,520 I'd like 2 lines. Fantastic breakthrough. 151 00:06:05,800 --> 00:06:09,440 That's And then how did you get onto Coronation Street? 152 00:06:10,240 --> 00:06:12,200 Do they see you after the one night stand? 153 00:06:12,480 --> 00:06:16,560 They were like, yes, yes, get that one night stand slagging, 154 00:06:16,560 --> 00:06:21,400 get her in like yeah, no, just on you send like, well, nowadays 155 00:06:21,400 --> 00:06:24,360 you send a self tape off and then and also you don't really 156 00:06:24,360 --> 00:06:27,560 think anything of it because you do you do so many auditions. 157 00:06:27,560 --> 00:06:29,920 You just like, I never get my hopes up. 158 00:06:30,360 --> 00:06:32,640 I'm like, you know, people are like, oh, I manifested this. 159 00:06:32,640 --> 00:06:35,080 I'm the opposite. I'm like, I'm like, Nah, I won't 160 00:06:35,080 --> 00:06:36,440 get it. And then they're not always 161 00:06:36,440 --> 00:06:38,400 pleasantly supply prize if something comes up. 162 00:06:38,400 --> 00:06:40,880 Yeah, so and then you go for a screen test. 163 00:06:40,880 --> 00:06:43,400 So on the screen test day, they they put you up because it was 164 00:06:43,400 --> 00:06:46,480 for a new couple. And so they put you up with like 165 00:06:46,480 --> 00:06:50,040 it was like 5 girls, 5 boys. And so you went in and like read 166 00:06:50,040 --> 00:06:50,960 with. So I was there. 167 00:06:50,960 --> 00:06:52,280 You saw it, saw your competition. 168 00:06:52,440 --> 00:06:56,920 Oh, when I never run up. So then you go in and do a whole 169 00:06:56,920 --> 00:06:59,520 screen test like on set, which is quite scary. 170 00:06:59,640 --> 00:07:01,680 That is no. Full scene, obviously like 171 00:07:01,680 --> 00:07:03,640 people. And your competition is that 172 00:07:03,640 --> 00:07:05,680 they're watching it, too. Yeah, or they don't watch. 173 00:07:05,680 --> 00:07:09,840 But they were good. You don't see how people do but 174 00:07:09,920 --> 00:07:10,800 do. You know what though? 175 00:07:10,800 --> 00:07:13,400 So brutal. But why do I want it like to 176 00:07:13,400 --> 00:07:14,480 have to sit there and watch them? 177 00:07:14,480 --> 00:07:15,880 You'd have loved drama school auditions. 178 00:07:15,880 --> 00:07:17,360 Loads of drama school auditions were like that. 179 00:07:17,360 --> 00:07:19,960 Oh yeah, no, I did. I did drama at school and I did. 180 00:07:20,280 --> 00:07:22,520 You were like, Lap just got no competition in me. 181 00:07:22,520 --> 00:07:26,200 Yeah, you know, you go through. I'd always got first. 182 00:07:26,800 --> 00:07:29,960 Well, get it done, get it done. I just thought I was the dog 183 00:07:29,960 --> 00:07:35,400 Spollocks because I got a role as the lion in the Motown 184 00:07:35,400 --> 00:07:37,960 version of the Wizard of Oz. It was called the Wiz. 185 00:07:38,120 --> 00:07:40,840 Yeah, I know the Wiz. I was in a like an amateur 186 00:07:40,840 --> 00:07:43,280 production when I was like total me. 187 00:07:43,800 --> 00:07:46,520 Oh, I was like ensemble. Oh, I was like, I was the lion, 188 00:07:46,520 --> 00:07:47,720 actually. So I don't know. 189 00:07:47,720 --> 00:07:50,040 I don't know what to tell you. Yeah, don't brag, but I was 190 00:07:50,480 --> 00:07:52,720 like, I was like a background person 3. 191 00:07:53,440 --> 00:07:56,120 Yeah, no #3 yeah. The lion that's big. 192 00:07:56,640 --> 00:07:58,480 It was a big deal. Yeah, it's a big deal. 193 00:07:58,480 --> 00:08:00,080 I made it a big deal. I made it A1. 194 00:08:00,080 --> 00:08:02,600 Problem in it like no it's on my TV. 195 00:08:02,760 --> 00:08:05,040 It's honestly one of the best things I've ever fucking done. 196 00:08:05,280 --> 00:08:07,560 But Joy, tell everyone, yeah, I'm going to say footage. 197 00:08:07,560 --> 00:08:08,520 I'm. Going to say it was on 198 00:08:08,680 --> 00:08:10,400 somewhere. It was going to dig that up. 199 00:08:10,640 --> 00:08:14,360 What? I think it was like 20. 200 00:08:14,520 --> 00:08:18,200 I'd say like 2009. OK, I reckon, but someone. 201 00:08:18,240 --> 00:08:20,400 Got it. Somewhere they some home camera? 202 00:08:20,400 --> 00:08:23,280 Yeah, in somewhere. In a dusty shelf somewhere. 203 00:08:23,280 --> 00:08:25,800 My mum is going to watch this and be like got in. 204 00:08:25,960 --> 00:08:28,800 It Yes, it's under the bed. Yeah, in the shoe box. 205 00:08:29,720 --> 00:08:32,000 No, it was bad, but I used to love acting. 206 00:08:32,400 --> 00:08:34,960 But then I was I was more into music, so I was like trying to 207 00:08:34,960 --> 00:08:36,799 go down more of the music route and all that. 208 00:08:36,880 --> 00:08:38,799 Yeah, whatever. I mean, I just, I was like, 209 00:08:38,919 --> 00:08:40,159 what's going to make me no money? 210 00:08:40,240 --> 00:08:41,840 Music drama. Music drama. 211 00:08:41,840 --> 00:08:44,280 Oh, you know, and. Someone was, I was working in a 212 00:08:44,280 --> 00:08:46,680 restaurant and she was like, oh, were you an I was telling about 213 00:08:46,680 --> 00:08:48,200 being an actress. It was like the owner's wife or 214 00:08:48,200 --> 00:08:49,560 something. She said, oh, did you go into 215 00:08:49,560 --> 00:08:51,080 that because you want to be rich? 216 00:08:51,240 --> 00:08:53,840 I was like, you're on drugs, right? 217 00:08:53,880 --> 00:08:57,480 And no one goes into like you hope to maybe one day earn a bit 218 00:08:57,480 --> 00:09:01,080 of money. Like my first job was for £150 219 00:09:01,080 --> 00:09:04,680 and I was like, Oh my God, guys, you can't. 220 00:09:04,680 --> 00:09:06,320 We couldn't afford to eat. Most actually. 221 00:09:06,320 --> 00:09:09,040 I knew like you scrimp and say like there's no money in it 222 00:09:09,040 --> 00:09:12,480 until you're in something and even then like. 223 00:09:12,480 --> 00:09:15,120 Yeah, and even then they're a bit like, oh, but actually Jacob 224 00:09:15,120 --> 00:09:17,280 Belaudi is in this and he's getting paid five millisecond up 225 00:09:17,280 --> 00:09:18,360 on the budget. So you, how much you? 226 00:09:18,440 --> 00:09:19,840 Want do you put away? Yeah. 227 00:09:20,360 --> 00:09:21,760 Like. It's happy for the experience. 228 00:09:21,920 --> 00:09:25,600 Yeah, I'm just happy to be here. Like, oh, I think yeah, people 229 00:09:25,600 --> 00:09:27,120 are a bit. Sometimes I think people are a 230 00:09:27,120 --> 00:09:28,520 bit naive, just like stuff like that. 231 00:09:28,520 --> 00:09:32,200 Like, because it is like a job enactor is a thing, like, and 232 00:09:32,200 --> 00:09:34,280 also you kind of get one role. I've got to know so many of my 233 00:09:34,280 --> 00:09:37,480 friends that have like been doing amazing, amazing things. 234 00:09:37,920 --> 00:09:40,560 Like was on the West End or then they went and did a big show and 235 00:09:40,560 --> 00:09:42,160 did it. And then in the summer comes and 236 00:09:42,160 --> 00:09:45,080 they're like, oh, I'm just back working in an ice cream bar, 237 00:09:45,440 --> 00:09:47,080 which he's like, there's nothing wrong with that. 238 00:09:47,160 --> 00:09:50,360 But people are like, oh, oh, how the mighty have fallen. 239 00:09:50,600 --> 00:09:53,960 I'm like bitch I need. To survive, people need to 240 00:09:53,960 --> 00:09:56,080 survive, that's the thing. And also, you might be earning, 241 00:09:57,200 --> 00:10:00,440 you know, 50 grand in six months, but then there might be 242 00:10:00,440 --> 00:10:01,840 two years we haven't worked actually. 243 00:10:01,880 --> 00:10:04,880 Like that doesn't even match. Do the baths on that mate, do 244 00:10:04,880 --> 00:10:06,160 you know what I mean? So it's like. 245 00:10:06,200 --> 00:10:08,320 Yeah. So what like talking about that? 246 00:10:08,320 --> 00:10:11,760 What's your now current kind of situation then within acting 247 00:10:11,760 --> 00:10:13,280 you? Did you leave Coronation Street? 248 00:10:13,280 --> 00:10:18,240 So I was in it for six months and then my character went to 249 00:10:18,240 --> 00:10:20,400 prison. Prison sheet. 250 00:10:20,800 --> 00:10:22,960 I mean, I love it. From one night stand to prison. 251 00:10:23,160 --> 00:10:25,360 I know. You do it so well. 252 00:10:26,200 --> 00:10:27,640 I was like, is that an uphill climb or is that? 253 00:10:30,080 --> 00:10:34,560 Do more of you just in prison. Well, I was like, so that they 254 00:10:34,560 --> 00:10:36,080 call me back and they were like, we're going to do a prison 255 00:10:36,080 --> 00:10:38,200 storyline, which he's just finished airing. 256 00:10:38,760 --> 00:10:41,120 And I in my head, I was like prison storyline. 257 00:10:41,120 --> 00:10:42,880 I was like, am I going to be in bad girls? 258 00:10:43,640 --> 00:10:46,040 I was like, am I? I was like, I'm thinking, you 259 00:10:46,040 --> 00:10:48,840 know, do you remember bad girls? I do remember bad girls. 260 00:10:48,920 --> 00:10:51,040 I've like a lot of stuff went on. 261 00:10:51,040 --> 00:10:53,240 I was like, I imagine I was like, they're going to call me 262 00:10:53,240 --> 00:10:55,360 back. You gonna see me back in prison? 263 00:10:55,600 --> 00:10:58,440 I've like gonna be hanging off the handkerchief of like the 264 00:10:58,440 --> 00:11:00,600 Butch girl who like runs the prison. 265 00:11:00,640 --> 00:11:02,400 You're not gonna be the Butch girl, because that would be a 266 00:11:02,400 --> 00:11:05,440 really funny turn. She's six months and she's like. 267 00:11:05,680 --> 00:11:07,440 She's a big. Boob, she's orange. 268 00:11:07,440 --> 00:11:09,080 Is the new black. Yeah, yeah, yes. 269 00:11:09,080 --> 00:11:13,120 You're running ship. Yeah, she's got a few tattoos. 270 00:11:13,120 --> 00:11:14,520 Yeah, she's just like, bad bitch. 271 00:11:14,600 --> 00:11:16,120 Yeah. I was like, I had all these 272 00:11:16,120 --> 00:11:17,560 ideas. They were like, no, it's not. 273 00:11:17,600 --> 00:11:19,720 It's not that storyline. I was like, OK, well I mean my 274 00:11:19,720 --> 00:11:21,280 character is super straight to be fair. 275 00:11:21,560 --> 00:11:22,920 OK, well, we need to start a petition. 276 00:11:23,480 --> 00:11:25,640 I'm sorry. She's so straight, she's in 277 00:11:25,680 --> 00:11:26,560 prison. So many. 278 00:11:27,400 --> 00:11:29,480 Hello. How many happens? 279 00:11:31,400 --> 00:11:32,800 Yeah, I might. I might pitch it. 280 00:11:32,800 --> 00:11:35,080 I was like, look, we're going to bring come back to prison. 281 00:11:35,320 --> 00:11:38,280 There's a few things I want to put written into my contract 282 00:11:38,280 --> 00:11:40,400 that I think need to happen. Scissoring, yeah. 283 00:11:41,840 --> 00:11:43,640 Like at Farrell, it airs at 7:30. 284 00:11:44,080 --> 00:11:46,640 Like listen, it's called Give the people what they want. 285 00:11:46,720 --> 00:11:47,800 It's called equality. Yeah. 286 00:11:47,800 --> 00:11:51,280 Sorry, I don't know what to say. And so you're playing straight 287 00:11:51,280 --> 00:11:52,480 characters. I see. 288 00:11:52,840 --> 00:11:54,880 Did you have to do that in your real life as well? 289 00:11:54,880 --> 00:11:57,120 I want to know a little bit about your your queer 290 00:11:57,120 --> 00:11:59,840 experience. Is it bad? 291 00:11:59,840 --> 00:12:01,960 It sounds bad by the cough that you just. 292 00:12:02,640 --> 00:12:07,760 Well, it's a set up for this one. 293 00:12:07,760 --> 00:12:09,880 I need to take it in, take a breath and like, really settle 294 00:12:09,880 --> 00:12:12,520 into my emotions. Yeah. 295 00:12:12,520 --> 00:12:16,320 I mean, I dated, I guess mainly men for quite a long time. 296 00:12:16,760 --> 00:12:20,680 I think I had AI had a girlfriend when I was 1516. 297 00:12:20,880 --> 00:12:21,800 Oh wow. So yeah. 298 00:12:21,800 --> 00:12:24,600 I was like in the mix of it, yeah. 299 00:12:24,600 --> 00:12:27,680 And then then after that, I sort of don't know what happened 300 00:12:27,720 --> 00:12:28,960 really. I'm really good friends with my 301 00:12:28,960 --> 00:12:30,920 first girlfriend. She's like, what happened? 302 00:12:30,920 --> 00:12:33,080 And I'm like, sorry, she was like, was it me? 303 00:12:33,240 --> 00:12:38,200 Like it's not your fault. I can't blame you for the and 304 00:12:38,200 --> 00:12:41,560 then like sort of dated like I stayed women and men. 305 00:12:41,560 --> 00:12:44,880 And then I think when we never, it never happened. 306 00:12:44,880 --> 00:12:48,560 I think I looked back and I was dating like the people that I 307 00:12:48,840 --> 00:12:51,840 don't I think we're from. I just it didn't just didn't 308 00:12:51,840 --> 00:12:52,720 work. Yeah. 309 00:12:52,840 --> 00:12:56,160 So you went through this, this period of life where you were 310 00:12:56,160 --> 00:12:58,000 dating both sexes. So were you just saying that you 311 00:12:58,000 --> 00:13:00,320 were bisexual? But I think no, yeah. 312 00:13:00,320 --> 00:13:03,240 So I was bisexual. I was out by for like a long 313 00:13:03,240 --> 00:13:05,520 time. And then I got with someone, I 314 00:13:05,520 --> 00:13:08,960 got with a guy. And then we, it's because I 315 00:13:08,960 --> 00:13:12,000 really, I don't really speak about this on my channel at all. 316 00:13:12,000 --> 00:13:13,640 And I've only spoke about it once. 317 00:13:14,800 --> 00:13:17,120 But so we were together for six years and we got married. 318 00:13:19,480 --> 00:13:22,640 So I'm divorced but we were married for six months, which in 319 00:13:22,640 --> 00:13:25,160 my head sounds really bad but at the time it felt like a lot. 320 00:13:25,240 --> 00:13:26,480 Oh my God, first of all, divorced. 321 00:13:26,480 --> 00:13:27,840 Hot. I'm a divorcee. 322 00:13:28,160 --> 00:13:30,280 Yeah, right. So you were married for six 323 00:13:30,280 --> 00:13:31,240 months. How long were you together 324 00:13:31,240 --> 00:13:33,000 before? It sounds so bad. 325 00:13:33,280 --> 00:13:35,640 I was like in my that's what I say. 326 00:13:35,640 --> 00:13:37,440 I was like, I'm basically like a Kardashian. 327 00:13:37,440 --> 00:13:39,960 I don't know if you've heard everyone's like, you know, but I 328 00:13:39,960 --> 00:13:42,760 like it's got to the point now where I like kind of own being a 329 00:13:42,760 --> 00:13:44,120 divorcee. I quite like. 330 00:13:44,120 --> 00:13:46,880 It I think it's. Like I'm divorced and like I see 331 00:13:46,880 --> 00:13:49,760 myself when I'm older. Like talking about it like with 332 00:13:49,760 --> 00:13:52,040 like pearls and like a fur jacket with like a long 333 00:13:52,040 --> 00:13:54,680 cigarette holding like my second marriage. 334 00:13:54,680 --> 00:13:56,560 Yeah, I think everyone should get divorced once. 335 00:13:57,080 --> 00:13:59,920 Just try and give it a go. You know how it goes. 336 00:13:59,920 --> 00:14:01,320 The first have a. Nice day. 337 00:14:01,320 --> 00:14:03,960 Yeah, it's always been like great wedding, not so great 338 00:14:03,960 --> 00:14:08,040 marriage, but yeah, it just. How long were you together 339 00:14:08,040 --> 00:14:09,400 before you got married? Six years. 340 00:14:09,400 --> 00:14:11,240 Oh, OK, that was six years and six months. 341 00:14:11,240 --> 00:14:13,160 There's a theme going on here. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 342 00:14:13,720 --> 00:14:16,120 Was like any working sixes. OK, How old are you? 343 00:14:16,120 --> 00:14:18,480 When you got married? Oh God, how old am I now 344 00:14:18,920 --> 00:14:23,640 30313132? You were 3132 when you got 345 00:14:23,640 --> 00:14:25,520 married. Yeah, so this wasn't going to 346 00:14:25,520 --> 00:14:27,040 go. I got divorced at the start of 347 00:14:27,040 --> 00:14:28,400 22. OK. 348 00:14:28,440 --> 00:14:31,120 So it's been four years. OK, this is pretty exciting for 349 00:14:31,120 --> 00:14:31,400 me. Yeah. 350 00:14:32,120 --> 00:14:34,440 So I'm just trying to like wind it back. 351 00:14:34,440 --> 00:14:36,000 So what kind of wedding was it? Was it like a big? 352 00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:36,760 Wedding. It was big. 353 00:14:36,760 --> 00:14:38,080 Yeah. Big, big yeah. 354 00:14:38,080 --> 00:14:40,200 I had a great dad, great time. Just didn't. 355 00:14:40,320 --> 00:14:42,560 I've got the fear. Be listening, sorry. 356 00:14:43,840 --> 00:14:46,560 I just didn't, yeah, it just didn't wasn't good. 357 00:14:46,560 --> 00:14:49,360 It wasn't great. But The thing is, from 358 00:14:49,400 --> 00:14:53,160 experience of talking to people, I feel like they want me to be 359 00:14:53,160 --> 00:14:55,920 like, oh, you were gay and that's why you got divorced. 360 00:14:55,920 --> 00:14:58,280 And I was like, I don't think that's what happened. 361 00:14:58,520 --> 00:15:02,240 I think I got divorced because of miserable and I didn't have a 362 00:15:02,240 --> 00:15:03,360 great time. It was not fun. 363 00:15:03,360 --> 00:15:06,800 It was really, really hard. And then when we broke up, I was 364 00:15:06,800 --> 00:15:08,840 like, right, OK, ready to start dating again. 365 00:15:09,000 --> 00:15:10,240 Who do I want to date? Is it? 366 00:15:10,440 --> 00:15:12,680 And I was like, in my head I was like, right, I'm bi, so I date 367 00:15:12,680 --> 00:15:15,120 men and women and then men just never happened. 368 00:15:15,400 --> 00:15:18,400 And then the idea of ever being with a man again just makes me 369 00:15:19,920 --> 00:15:23,800 feel like I'm on the nemesis, like. 370 00:15:24,160 --> 00:15:29,040 This can happen, right? And I think the worst thing, 371 00:15:29,040 --> 00:15:30,920 from what I can kind of understand of like what you've 372 00:15:30,920 --> 00:15:34,200 been through on that, though, is how people will invalidate your 373 00:15:34,200 --> 00:15:36,440 experience of that being a shitty marriage. 374 00:15:37,400 --> 00:15:39,000 Yeah, if that makes sense. Yeah. 375 00:15:39,000 --> 00:15:40,800 Because then they're like, no, it wasn't. 376 00:15:40,960 --> 00:15:43,680 You're just gay. And I think that would be very 377 00:15:43,680 --> 00:15:44,800 frustrating for me to. Hear. 378 00:15:44,800 --> 00:15:47,200 Yeah, well, I think this is what happened because everyone's 379 00:15:47,200 --> 00:15:50,840 like, oh, like, oh, you left because you were gay. 380 00:15:50,840 --> 00:15:53,520 And I'm like, but like, I didn't leave because I I left because 381 00:15:53,520 --> 00:15:54,880 I'm happy. But don't get me wrong. 382 00:15:54,880 --> 00:15:57,400 Look, I've looked back now and there's so many things that I 383 00:15:57,400 --> 00:16:00,880 did and said and thought about in that situation where I was 384 00:16:00,880 --> 00:16:06,240 like, oh, that's like, I think I blamed a lot of my thoughts of 385 00:16:06,440 --> 00:16:09,360 being bi. I think also maybe just the 386 00:16:09,360 --> 00:16:12,080 signs were there, and I think that they're really, really 387 00:16:12,080 --> 00:16:14,400 difficult to see when we've grown up in such a 388 00:16:14,400 --> 00:16:17,200 heteronormative society. Yeah, you know, and there is 389 00:16:17,200 --> 00:16:21,160 that level of indoctrination there in a sense. 390 00:16:21,200 --> 00:16:25,880 And I also do think that I think we're like a similar age. 391 00:16:25,880 --> 00:16:28,480 I'm 32 now. Like the world was very 392 00:16:28,480 --> 00:16:30,160 different when we were growing up. 393 00:16:30,680 --> 00:16:32,960 There is definitely more representation now, still not 394 00:16:32,960 --> 00:16:35,320 enough, but more than there ever was. 395 00:16:35,640 --> 00:16:37,120 So I think it's really, really difficult. 396 00:16:37,120 --> 00:16:42,120 I think as well what we kind of knew as lesbians were the types 397 00:16:42,120 --> 00:16:44,920 of Ellen, Rosie, O'Donnell, etcetera, that were very like 398 00:16:45,200 --> 00:16:48,200 lesbian, right? And, and you know that, you 399 00:16:48,200 --> 00:16:50,360 know, the thought of sleeping with a man or something would 400 00:16:50,400 --> 00:16:53,800 utterly repulse them. And This is why I try and say on 401 00:16:53,800 --> 00:16:55,640 here, it's not that black and white. 402 00:16:55,640 --> 00:16:58,800 It's not the fact that it's absolutely disgusting and 403 00:16:58,800 --> 00:17:01,000 vulgar. That's that doesn't mean that 404 00:17:01,000 --> 00:17:04,359 you're not not gay if you don't feel that way when you're 405 00:17:04,400 --> 00:17:05,960 sleeping with them. Does that make sense? 406 00:17:06,480 --> 00:17:09,319 But but it's about actually having a connection with a woman 407 00:17:09,319 --> 00:17:13,400 and that deeper love. And there is definitely, I mean, 408 00:17:13,400 --> 00:17:15,760 I would say would would suspect that there's more desire there, 409 00:17:15,760 --> 00:17:17,800 etcetera. But it's not about being like 410 00:17:17,800 --> 00:17:19,520 utterly repulsive. It's just like something just 411 00:17:19,520 --> 00:17:21,680 isn't right. Right, Yeah. 412 00:17:21,760 --> 00:17:24,240 And it's been difficult from coming out of it as well. 413 00:17:24,240 --> 00:17:29,160 I think that because from dating women and I did have like some 414 00:17:29,160 --> 00:17:33,520 difficult experiences of like I didn't realise how hard it would 415 00:17:33,520 --> 00:17:37,800 be for some people to date someone who's had so much of A 416 00:17:37,800 --> 00:17:41,600 past with men or with one man or stuff like that. 417 00:17:41,840 --> 00:17:45,760 It's almost like this like how, how can you do that and then be 418 00:17:46,120 --> 00:17:47,600 be this like, I don't trust that. 419 00:17:47,600 --> 00:17:49,200 There's a lot of trust issues there. 420 00:17:49,400 --> 00:17:52,760 And I didn't think that because I was like guys, I in my head, I 421 00:17:52,760 --> 00:17:57,880 was like, I'm a sure bet I but I just landed whole mountain like 422 00:17:57,880 --> 00:18:00,600 I did just like dip my toe in. I went in. 423 00:18:00,600 --> 00:18:03,400 You were dedicated. I was dedicated and I'm still 424 00:18:03,400 --> 00:18:05,200 here being like, I don't want any of that. 425 00:18:05,240 --> 00:18:08,640 Yeah, I'm here. Yeah, guys, for somebody, 426 00:18:08,680 --> 00:18:11,200 believe me, I was. Like I'm a sure bet guys, I 427 00:18:11,520 --> 00:18:12,840 don't want to go back to my life. 428 00:18:14,000 --> 00:18:16,560 So like dating, I thought was like difficult, as I said 429 00:18:16,600 --> 00:18:20,640 before, it was like this thing of I found a lot of it was how 430 00:18:20,640 --> 00:18:23,480 could you not know from, you know, I've got friends that or 431 00:18:23,480 --> 00:18:26,000 people, people were like, oh, I knew since I was 8. 432 00:18:26,000 --> 00:18:27,680 How do you not know that? I knew since I was 10 or 433 00:18:27,680 --> 00:18:29,120 whatever and I was like, I'm not you. 434 00:18:29,120 --> 00:18:30,600 I'm not a. Fucking competition. 435 00:18:30,640 --> 00:18:34,520 No, I'm like, and it I found that really difficult because 436 00:18:34,520 --> 00:18:39,640 I've got so many queer mates who came out at, you know, 1617 and 437 00:18:39,640 --> 00:18:43,160 have, you know, being queer all the life and they don't have the 438 00:18:43,160 --> 00:18:45,760 same thought as as people are dated. 439 00:18:45,960 --> 00:18:47,280 They were just like, what? Why does it matter? 440 00:18:47,640 --> 00:18:50,240 Like date you're on a date like does if you came out yesterday. 441 00:18:50,240 --> 00:18:52,680 I don't care that as long as there's a connection or 442 00:18:52,680 --> 00:18:54,080 whatever. It's like a journey for 443 00:18:54,080 --> 00:18:55,800 everyone. Like everyone's experience is so 444 00:18:55,800 --> 00:19:00,400 entirely different. Like I know I'm categorically so 445 00:19:00,440 --> 00:19:02,720 fucking gay. It's actually getting a bit 446 00:19:02,720 --> 00:19:05,840 outrageous, right? But I used to sleep with men and 447 00:19:05,840 --> 00:19:08,520 I used to be with men. Just because that happened does 448 00:19:08,520 --> 00:19:12,880 not in any way invalidate me or my queerness or whatever. 449 00:19:12,880 --> 00:19:15,360 Just fucking let them as well. Like just say what you fucking 450 00:19:15,360 --> 00:19:17,120 want. Be like, yeah, all right, all 451 00:19:17,120 --> 00:19:18,520 right. But then when you are actively 452 00:19:18,520 --> 00:19:20,040 trying to date though that must have been annoying because 453 00:19:20,040 --> 00:19:25,440 you're like why would I lie as? Well, and I just, yeah, it was 454 00:19:25,680 --> 00:19:28,320 difficult. Like I remember my first date. 455 00:19:28,320 --> 00:19:30,480 I think I'd been like single like 8 months. 456 00:19:30,480 --> 00:19:32,080 I was like, right, I'm ready. I'm only going to go on a date 457 00:19:32,080 --> 00:19:32,880 now. I'm On this date. 458 00:19:32,880 --> 00:19:36,200 It was someone absolutely lovely and like she's we kind of still 459 00:19:36,200 --> 00:19:37,760 a bit in contact and she was great. 460 00:19:38,160 --> 00:19:41,240 And she's only really happy relationship now and we bonded 461 00:19:41,480 --> 00:19:49,080 over like she'd come out at like 32 and and then I was coming out 462 00:19:49,080 --> 00:19:51,800 of this marriage. So we were bonded over like 463 00:19:51,800 --> 00:19:55,160 Arabic at the list of rejection. We'd she was like, just like 464 00:19:55,520 --> 00:19:57,520 people don't want to date me because I've like, I'm new here. 465 00:19:57,520 --> 00:20:01,320 But I was like, it took me a long time and I'm sorry and, but 466 00:20:01,480 --> 00:20:03,640 it's funny because I don't want people to hear this and like 467 00:20:03,640 --> 00:20:05,640 think about like coming out and be scared of it because I was 468 00:20:05,640 --> 00:20:07,600 like, for one person who doesn't want to date you, there's like 469 00:20:07,600 --> 00:20:11,600 1000 people who were just like. Not you are like, I don't care 470 00:20:11,600 --> 00:20:13,720 where you come from. I don't care what your back 471 00:20:13,720 --> 00:20:14,440 story is. Yeah. 472 00:20:14,600 --> 00:20:17,120 Like if I like you, I like you and that's it is that should be 473 00:20:17,120 --> 00:20:18,280 all that. Literally. 474 00:20:18,280 --> 00:20:21,240 It really is that simple. And if someone doesn't want to 475 00:20:21,920 --> 00:20:23,560 date you, like I've always like let them. 476 00:20:23,640 --> 00:20:25,080 And I, I think I learned that the hard way. 477 00:20:25,080 --> 00:20:27,160 I should have just, I went dating someone and it was 478 00:20:27,160 --> 00:20:30,160 difficult and I should have just been like, oh, this is not you 479 00:20:30,160 --> 00:20:32,120 don't want me. Instead of like being a bit of a 480 00:20:32,120 --> 00:20:34,280 beg. I think as well, like totally 481 00:20:34,280 --> 00:20:35,960 right. It's like either you like me or 482 00:20:35,960 --> 00:20:38,680 you don't. Yeah, I just, I couldn't care, 483 00:20:38,680 --> 00:20:41,160 you know, and and that is the thing when you're getting to 484 00:20:41,160 --> 00:20:44,600 know somebody, that part should be then completely irrelevant. 485 00:20:44,600 --> 00:20:46,960 And but what it does all come down to though, is insecurity. 486 00:20:47,360 --> 00:20:49,800 So you know that that person that's initially got a problem 487 00:20:49,800 --> 00:20:52,400 with you for being with a man before they're going to be a 488 00:20:52,720 --> 00:20:55,720 fucking night time for? That I always think I'm, like, 489 00:20:55,920 --> 00:20:58,520 listening to a conversation like this is because you're insecure. 490 00:20:58,520 --> 00:20:59,840 But I can't say that word to you. 491 00:21:00,080 --> 00:21:02,200 Yeah, I'm like, OK, we'll work on this. 492 00:21:02,200 --> 00:21:05,040 Let's talk it through. Like that Sounds like a you 493 00:21:05,040 --> 00:21:07,440 problem, yeah. Yeah, that sounds like a you 494 00:21:07,440 --> 00:21:09,840 problem. Again, I'm like how do I reword 495 00:21:09,840 --> 00:21:12,360 this so it sounds nicer? But if it's something that you 496 00:21:12,360 --> 00:21:14,600 can't change, you can't change your past, it's not ever 497 00:21:14,600 --> 00:21:16,800 something that you should apologise for or have to grovel 498 00:21:16,800 --> 00:21:17,360 for. I have to. 499 00:21:17,360 --> 00:21:18,120 Prove. Yeah. 500 00:21:18,280 --> 00:21:20,720 And I think I learned that as well, 'cause I think coming out 501 00:21:20,720 --> 00:21:23,000 of it, I feel like I was like, Oh my God, you need to like 502 00:21:23,680 --> 00:21:25,960 delete all this. I raise this, not talk about 503 00:21:25,960 --> 00:21:29,200 this, not, not do this, like, you know, not address it. 504 00:21:29,200 --> 00:21:31,240 And I'm like, but that was a part of my life. 505 00:21:31,520 --> 00:21:33,800 And I am a bit like, well, I didn't get here without doing 506 00:21:33,800 --> 00:21:35,560 all that. As much as you might not like 507 00:21:35,560 --> 00:21:37,520 it. Like I'm a hard Rd. 508 00:21:37,520 --> 00:21:42,360 I mean, I went, yeah, I went, I went reverse back. 509 00:21:42,880 --> 00:21:45,040 Bumped into a few posts. They're like actually accepting 510 00:21:45,040 --> 00:21:48,600 that yourself though. Was there like a moment or? 511 00:21:48,960 --> 00:21:50,720 Like it was talking of like a slow burn. 512 00:21:51,360 --> 00:21:54,640 I remember since I was with my friend when I was about dating 513 00:21:54,640 --> 00:21:56,400 again, I was like, right, I think I'm ready to start dating 514 00:21:56,400 --> 00:21:58,360 again. I remember saying to me, she was 515 00:21:58,360 --> 00:22:01,600 like, when are you dating again? Are you what are you looking 516 00:22:01,600 --> 00:22:02,680 for? Are you looking for men and 517 00:22:02,680 --> 00:22:05,240 women? And I was like, I don't think 518 00:22:05,240 --> 00:22:06,640 I'm going to date men. I just think I'm going to date 519 00:22:06,640 --> 00:22:08,160 women. And she looks at me. 520 00:22:08,160 --> 00:22:10,880 Shrem, It's obviously your choice, but Shrem, you know 521 00:22:10,880 --> 00:22:12,520 you're gay, right? And I was like, Oh my. 522 00:22:12,520 --> 00:22:14,560 God, I love that. And she went, obviously you can 523 00:22:14,560 --> 00:22:15,800 if you want. And I went, I don't want to. 524 00:22:15,800 --> 00:22:16,960 She went, I know you don't want to. 525 00:22:16,960 --> 00:22:19,320 And I don't know why you're even like even slightly contemplating 526 00:22:19,320 --> 00:22:21,120 it because like you don't want to she. 527 00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:22,080 Was just like you. Just really. 528 00:22:22,080 --> 00:22:23,320 Don't want to do she just got back. 529 00:22:23,400 --> 00:22:24,560 I mean, I've noticed since I was 16. 530 00:22:24,560 --> 00:22:27,400 So she was like, you do know? No, but that's a good friend. 531 00:22:27,520 --> 00:22:29,040 Yeah, that's a really good. She was like, I don't want to 532 00:22:29,040 --> 00:22:30,960 see you have a man again. I was like, I don't even. 533 00:22:31,760 --> 00:22:34,800 Do you think that you kind of like pushed the bisexual thing 534 00:22:34,800 --> 00:22:37,800 for longer because of that? Like did you struggle ever 535 00:22:37,800 --> 00:22:39,560 coming to? Town, I think, you know, comp 536 00:22:39,840 --> 00:22:43,160 compare yeah Oh my God, I relate to that so much when I read 537 00:22:43,160 --> 00:22:44,560 about it. So I was like came up on Tiktok 538 00:22:44,560 --> 00:22:47,120 and I was like, what is this? And then I was like, there was a 539 00:22:47,120 --> 00:22:49,840 girl like explaining that I was like, Oh my God, this is, I 540 00:22:49,840 --> 00:22:53,400 relate to that so much of like feeling like, I remember being 541 00:22:53,680 --> 00:22:57,080 like in my early 20s and I'd gone on a date, a dating this 542 00:22:57,080 --> 00:22:58,640 girl went on like 5 dates or something. 543 00:22:59,360 --> 00:23:01,920 And I remember having this feeling of like, well, it 544 00:23:01,920 --> 00:23:03,840 doesn't matter because I, I will end up with you. 545 00:23:04,400 --> 00:23:07,160 And I had this thing of like, you'll marry a man, you will be 546 00:23:07,160 --> 00:23:09,200 with a man. And I think if I'd have sat in 547 00:23:09,200 --> 00:23:12,600 it or been a bit, or that would have happened in my 30s, I 548 00:23:12,600 --> 00:23:14,760 probably would have sat with it a bit more and be like, but is 549 00:23:14,760 --> 00:23:17,120 this what you want? Or is this what you think other 550 00:23:17,120 --> 00:23:20,440 people want for you? Or like, you know, there's all 551 00:23:20,440 --> 00:23:24,160 that thing of like when a man finds you attractive, it's 552 00:23:24,160 --> 00:23:27,200 almost like this psychological thing you've like, oh, maybe do 553 00:23:27,280 --> 00:23:29,560 I your validation or like, do I fancy him back? 554 00:23:29,560 --> 00:23:31,200 And it's like, do you fancy him back? 555 00:23:31,200 --> 00:23:33,120 You probably didn't. You just like the attention a 556 00:23:33,120 --> 00:23:34,760 bit. Or like this feeling of like, 557 00:23:34,920 --> 00:23:39,040 well, we've been taught like we, we like to feel liked or 558 00:23:39,040 --> 00:23:41,840 something, rather than being like, actually, I fancy you make 559 00:23:41,840 --> 00:23:44,040 Claire so. Claire's Claire. 560 00:23:44,440 --> 00:23:46,600 Yeah. Is Claire single or something? 561 00:23:47,800 --> 00:23:50,160 No, but it is true. I remember doing that for so 562 00:23:50,160 --> 00:23:52,920 long. Like I remember wanting to get 563 00:23:52,920 --> 00:23:55,640 that validation from men even though I wasn't interested in 564 00:23:55,640 --> 00:23:58,400 them at all. Like I do not categorically want 565 00:23:58,400 --> 00:24:00,960 to sleep with you, but do I want you to want to sleep with me? 566 00:24:01,200 --> 00:24:05,400 That's fucking and now I'm like, I can just block out because I 567 00:24:05,400 --> 00:24:08,000 think I think it takes some time to really remove that though. 568 00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:12,600 That took me so long to actually I had to like brainwash myself 569 00:24:12,600 --> 00:24:16,080 to be like, OK, because it is just always fed into like if you 570 00:24:16,080 --> 00:24:19,240 think about it every single day, like Disney movies or it's like 571 00:24:19,240 --> 00:24:22,400 having the Prince that's rescuing and any film, like 572 00:24:22,640 --> 00:24:25,240 literally any kind of like content that you would consume. 573 00:24:25,400 --> 00:24:26,360 Miss magazine. Oh. 574 00:24:26,640 --> 00:24:31,360 My God, I don't like sugar. Yeah, I was like I was make the 575 00:24:31,360 --> 00:24:33,920 guy like you in 10 easy steps. I know. 576 00:24:34,160 --> 00:24:37,400 You're 14, well, your shortest shirt, and you're like. 577 00:24:37,440 --> 00:24:39,160 Get your tits out. Yeah, I'm 12. 578 00:24:39,560 --> 00:24:41,800 Yeah. Yeah, remember the push up brows 579 00:24:41,800 --> 00:24:42,720 as well. I used to wear I. 580 00:24:42,760 --> 00:24:44,560 Used to have one of those that pulled together. 581 00:24:44,840 --> 00:24:45,560 Did you? Yeah. 582 00:24:45,560 --> 00:24:47,440 I had a wonder bra that like pulled together. 583 00:24:47,720 --> 00:24:50,000 I got pictures of me like going to like an underage night and I 584 00:24:50,000 --> 00:24:51,360 was like 14. I was like, I look like an 585 00:24:51,360 --> 00:24:52,200 absolute hurt. Yeah. 586 00:24:52,800 --> 00:24:54,840 Yeah. Oh, and now I'm like, I wanna 587 00:24:54,840 --> 00:24:59,280 wear the comfortable shoes. Yeah, I I like fall on like what 588 00:24:59,280 --> 00:25:01,880 would we go around snogging boys and we talk about how many boys 589 00:25:01,880 --> 00:25:04,720 would. And now I'm like, what was 590 00:25:04,840 --> 00:25:08,600 what's that about? And also I look back, this is 591 00:25:08,600 --> 00:25:12,440 like for every session as well. I've evaluated like every IA Lot 592 00:25:12,440 --> 00:25:15,280 of the guys that I dated was because I found out they liked 593 00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:17,120 me first. Do you know me? 594 00:25:17,120 --> 00:25:18,840 And I'm like the validation thing. 595 00:25:18,840 --> 00:25:20,040 I'm like, oh, so and so fancies you. 596 00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:22,320 You know, I'm like, oh, cool, let's give him a go. 597 00:25:22,720 --> 00:25:24,880 Let's date for three months. Even though you don't want to 598 00:25:25,080 --> 00:25:29,680 get married, let's get married. Oh, gosh, Bless him. 599 00:25:29,720 --> 00:25:30,920 Oh, God. Yeah. 600 00:25:30,960 --> 00:25:33,000 But. You've come out the other end, 601 00:25:33,040 --> 00:25:35,400 I've come out the other end and you have a lovely girlfriend as 602 00:25:35,400 --> 00:25:36,880 well. How long have you guys been 603 00:25:36,880 --> 00:25:39,880 together? 2 1/2 years. 604 00:25:39,880 --> 00:25:42,000 Well done. It's 50 years in lesbian years. 605 00:25:42,000 --> 00:25:44,800 It's. 50 years, It's 100 when you're a long distance. 606 00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:48,000 Yeah, I wanted to talk to you about this because lesbians we 607 00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:49,520 all know. It so gay, isn't it? 608 00:25:49,680 --> 00:25:52,640 We all know long distance so well, so well. 609 00:25:52,640 --> 00:25:55,240 It's like a rite passage. You're like having to tick all 610 00:25:55,240 --> 00:25:56,640 the boxes as soon as you came out of that. 611 00:25:56,640 --> 00:26:00,360 My mate was like, I remember she said to me she was like, I've 612 00:26:00,360 --> 00:26:04,240 been gay since I was 16 and I've done some gay shit but this is 613 00:26:04,240 --> 00:26:05,280 the gayest thing I've ever heard. 614 00:26:05,520 --> 00:26:07,920 Oh, it's deep. It's deeply gay because not only 615 00:26:07,920 --> 00:26:10,600 is she long distance, she's also long distance Australia, right? 616 00:26:10,600 --> 00:26:12,760 She's in Australia, everyone's like where she is. 617 00:26:12,800 --> 00:26:16,640 It like Edinburgh, long distance like I wish a car journey. 618 00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:20,560 I've got 2424 hours on a grand and a half later. 619 00:26:20,600 --> 00:26:23,520 So I had to know how did this start so. 620 00:26:24,880 --> 00:26:27,760 It gets gayer. We met outside Manchester Pride 621 00:26:27,760 --> 00:26:31,280 at 1:00 AM outside Vanilla Bar. Right, that'll do it. 622 00:26:31,720 --> 00:26:32,960 Manchester is already gay enough. 623 00:26:32,960 --> 00:26:34,640 Tick. Vanilla bar, tick. 624 00:26:34,640 --> 00:26:36,160 Pride tick. My. 625 00:26:36,400 --> 00:26:37,160 She's Australian. Tick. 626 00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:40,440 That's also is she Australian? She, no, she's originally from 627 00:26:40,440 --> 00:26:42,960 Stafford, but she's, she's lived there for quite a long time. 628 00:26:42,960 --> 00:26:43,880 She's lived there about 10 years. 629 00:26:43,880 --> 00:26:45,440 OK, all right, so talk me through it. 630 00:26:45,440 --> 00:26:47,480 So you met her outside of a club, my friends? 631 00:26:48,640 --> 00:26:53,920 I went to your Manchester Pride and my mates, a gay couple, I 632 00:26:53,920 --> 00:26:56,760 think everyone's going home and they were like, we'll take you 633 00:26:56,760 --> 00:26:58,320 to where the lesbians are because I've never been to 634 00:26:58,320 --> 00:27:01,200 Manchester Pride before. This way it's like followers are 635 00:27:01,200 --> 00:27:02,520 like, right, take us to the lesbians. 636 00:27:02,520 --> 00:27:05,320 And there is literally a corner of Manchester Pride where all 637 00:27:05,320 --> 00:27:08,200 the lesbians just stand. And I was like, because you go 638 00:27:08,200 --> 00:27:10,360 through and it's just like a mixture of everyone and then you 639 00:27:10,360 --> 00:27:12,600 just get to this corner. All of a sudden it's just a flux 640 00:27:13,200 --> 00:27:16,400 of flux of women. I was like, oh, hey, guys, it's 641 00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:18,880 like, and you just have to and everyone knows everyone because 642 00:27:19,080 --> 00:27:20,520 we've gone the year after as well. 643 00:27:20,520 --> 00:27:22,600 And this everyone's like, oh, hey, how you doing? 644 00:27:23,240 --> 00:27:24,760 Oh, yeah. And like everyone's like the X 645 00:27:24,760 --> 00:27:27,400 is X is X. It's so incestuous. 646 00:27:27,480 --> 00:27:33,840 I'm just like, but we walked past each other and I would say 647 00:27:33,840 --> 00:27:35,840 it's quite romantic. But then in my head I'm like, 648 00:27:35,840 --> 00:27:36,960 well, we just really, really drunk. 649 00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:39,120 And we just actually walked past each other. 650 00:27:39,120 --> 00:27:41,600 And as we walked past, we kind of like half pumped shoulders 651 00:27:41,640 --> 00:27:44,680 and we grabbed each other's hands from behind and then 652 00:27:44,680 --> 00:27:50,040 turned and we both did this weird like, no, none of us had 653 00:27:50,280 --> 00:27:53,000 had was brave enough to speak. So we just stared at Shivan just 654 00:27:53,000 --> 00:27:55,360 went. And I think she said that my 655 00:27:55,360 --> 00:27:58,400 first line was you're hot. Are you single? 656 00:27:58,680 --> 00:28:00,600 It's real poetry. That is really. 657 00:28:00,600 --> 00:28:02,920 That's real. Yeah, that's going to do it. 658 00:28:03,200 --> 00:28:05,440 So that would work on me. You're hot. 659 00:28:05,480 --> 00:28:06,600 Are you single? Straight in there? 660 00:28:06,720 --> 00:28:07,520 It's 1:00 AM. Show me. 661 00:28:07,680 --> 00:28:10,840 It's 1:00 AM I was out. Probably levered. 662 00:28:11,880 --> 00:28:13,360 I actually really like the hand, I think. 663 00:28:13,640 --> 00:28:16,800 I don't think that is like a gay thing, a gay thing, a drunk 664 00:28:16,800 --> 00:28:17,680 thing. Yeah. 665 00:28:17,760 --> 00:28:19,800 I think maybe looking at each other for a little bit before 666 00:28:19,800 --> 00:28:22,960 speaking was probably a bit of like both gay and drunk. 667 00:28:23,040 --> 00:28:24,800 Just. I've had that though as well. 668 00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:26,560 You know, when you're like, you think someone's really 669 00:28:26,560 --> 00:28:28,000 attractive and all of a sudden I. 670 00:28:28,120 --> 00:28:29,960 Just say it. All the call has gone out the 671 00:28:29,960 --> 00:28:31,160 window though for me. That's the thing. 672 00:28:31,160 --> 00:28:34,240 I will say it, but I did not in a, not in a call, no. 673 00:28:34,600 --> 00:28:36,800 It wasn't. It's like, hey, have you had A 674 00:28:36,800 --> 00:28:38,560 and I had nothing, had nothing. You're hot. 675 00:28:39,040 --> 00:28:40,720 It's like in a drunk, he's not of an accent as well. 676 00:28:40,720 --> 00:28:43,160 You're single love. It's like someone's dad, like, 677 00:28:43,240 --> 00:28:45,080 oh God. Did you give it your phone back? 678 00:28:45,240 --> 00:28:47,120 Put. Your number on there like give 679 00:28:47,120 --> 00:28:51,000 it like a tissue kissed it. What happened after that? 680 00:28:51,000 --> 00:28:53,200 Was she like? I remember just like, I remember 681 00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:55,720 she was with two friends and you know, you're like trying to 682 00:28:55,720 --> 00:28:59,840 gauge the situation of like. And also she, I would say this 683 00:28:59,840 --> 00:29:01,480 afterwards, she gives nothing away. 684 00:29:01,680 --> 00:29:04,680 So I was like, I don't know if you're like instantly in love 685 00:29:04,680 --> 00:29:06,880 with me or you hate my guts. I don't know. 686 00:29:07,240 --> 00:29:09,840 She's because she's she's like, I'm no a diversion. 687 00:29:09,840 --> 00:29:13,000 I can't know what I'm doing. And so she we just sort of 688 00:29:13,000 --> 00:29:15,600 stared at each other. I was like, So what you what you 689 00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:17,000 do? We had no chat. 690 00:29:17,000 --> 00:29:20,240 It was so bleak. And then we stopped numbers and 691 00:29:20,240 --> 00:29:22,120 then I went back to my friends because you know, you're like, I 692 00:29:22,120 --> 00:29:24,120 don't want to just hang out with you and your mates because you 693 00:29:24,120 --> 00:29:25,960 could be like, what you doing here? 694 00:29:26,080 --> 00:29:29,120 Don't be a don't be a latch. So I went back to my friends and 695 00:29:29,120 --> 00:29:31,280 I remember my friends were like, what are you still doing here? 696 00:29:31,400 --> 00:29:32,520 Why aren't you talking to the hot girl? 697 00:29:32,520 --> 00:29:33,960 I was like, I can't ditch my mates. 698 00:29:33,960 --> 00:29:36,960 I'm not that sort of person. And they were like, fuck off, we 699 00:29:36,960 --> 00:29:38,280 don't care. And it was like, we've been 700 00:29:38,360 --> 00:29:39,840 together. They've been together 10 years. 701 00:29:40,040 --> 00:29:41,440 I'm like, we want to go home and have a cup of tea. 702 00:29:41,440 --> 00:29:43,400 We don't want to be here. We're just here for you. 703 00:29:43,400 --> 00:29:45,600 And I was like, oh, I'm like, oh, we're going to go home now. 704 00:29:45,600 --> 00:29:46,840 I was like, oh, where's she gone? 705 00:29:47,400 --> 00:29:50,640 So they're like, don't find her. And anyway, I just, I left and I 706 00:29:50,640 --> 00:29:51,880 was like, I'm just going to go home. 707 00:29:51,880 --> 00:29:53,920 And there's a point where I was just like, why are you going to 708 00:29:53,920 --> 00:29:55,360 go home when you know you have that? 709 00:29:56,360 --> 00:29:57,880 I had the beer. Yeah, like I. 710 00:29:57,880 --> 00:30:00,080 Can do this. So I just text her and I 711 00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:02,480 remember I had to go out and find signal because there's no 712 00:30:02,560 --> 00:30:04,040 signal because obviously there's only people there. 713 00:30:04,280 --> 00:30:07,720 So I stood on the street for ages trying to get signal acting 714 00:30:07,720 --> 00:30:09,400 real cooler. Hey, I was just hanging out for 715 00:30:09,400 --> 00:30:10,000 a drink. I wasn't. 716 00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:12,240 Meanwhile, you're like this. I was stood on the street corner 717 00:30:12,720 --> 00:30:15,400 waiting for single, like waiting for the dots as she's typing. 718 00:30:15,400 --> 00:30:17,760 I was like, oh, maybe if you want to have a drink tonight, 719 00:30:17,760 --> 00:30:21,000 like we could hang out. I think I told her I was like, 720 00:30:21,000 --> 00:30:22,760 yeah, we swept about. I was like, no, I went. 721 00:30:22,760 --> 00:30:25,360 I was actually standing on the street corner waiting for you to 722 00:30:25,360 --> 00:30:27,040 text you back or I was gonna go home. 723 00:30:27,040 --> 00:30:29,040 You've uploaded like a story that's like you and your 724 00:30:29,040 --> 00:30:31,080 friends, Amelia being like still going. 725 00:30:31,440 --> 00:30:34,080 Yeah, really just stood on your own. 726 00:30:34,080 --> 00:30:36,160 I was like, like a pride and. This is adorable. 727 00:30:36,160 --> 00:30:39,600 Though I was like, well, I'm only it's like now or never, 728 00:30:39,600 --> 00:30:42,640 because also she told me at that point that she lived in Sydney. 729 00:30:42,640 --> 00:30:44,600 So I was like, this is not going to go anywhere. 730 00:30:44,600 --> 00:30:47,920 But I was like, let's hang out. And her and her friends had gone 731 00:30:47,920 --> 00:30:51,200 to this bar in the Northern Quarter, which it was a 732 00:30:51,240 --> 00:30:53,600 straightest bar. I was like, it's pride. 733 00:30:54,160 --> 00:30:57,040 There's like gays everywhere and we're surrounded by there was I 734 00:30:57,040 --> 00:30:59,760 remember there was a we were sat talking and there was a man sat 735 00:30:59,760 --> 00:31:02,360 next to us and this woman was like straddling him, snogging. 736 00:31:02,720 --> 00:31:05,160 I was like, where are we she? Was really turned on by all 737 00:31:05,160 --> 00:31:07,960 those gay men in like the hot pants and the lesbians walking 738 00:31:07,960 --> 00:31:08,600 around. She's like, coming. 739 00:31:08,680 --> 00:31:11,720 Hey, Jonathan. I was like, it was weird because 740 00:31:11,720 --> 00:31:15,840 we talk about it now and we, we kind of were like quite awkward 741 00:31:15,840 --> 00:31:17,600 with each other. Her friends said to I can't 742 00:31:17,600 --> 00:31:19,480 believe you spoke to someone because she was like, I never 743 00:31:19,480 --> 00:31:21,040 speak to anyone. Like the idea of speaking to 744 00:31:21,040 --> 00:31:23,800 someone. So the I think I was drunk 745 00:31:23,800 --> 00:31:25,400 enough that I was quite brave speaking to you. 746 00:31:25,400 --> 00:31:27,120 And then we spent three weeks together. 747 00:31:27,360 --> 00:31:30,520 Wow, all that is Joe. What just gets gayer and gayer, 748 00:31:30,520 --> 00:31:32,480 doesn't it? Three weeks not even leave. 749 00:31:32,480 --> 00:31:36,440 Well, she had three weeks left of her trip, so I was like, well 750 00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:40,040 come and stay with me in London and then do this and do that and 751 00:31:40,040 --> 00:31:42,880 we just spent the whole time. Actually, that is cute. 752 00:31:42,880 --> 00:31:45,040 OK. And then she then goes back over 753 00:31:45,040 --> 00:31:47,720 to Sydney. How are you now maintaining this 754 00:31:47,720 --> 00:31:48,840 and like, how are you finding it? 755 00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:51,000 Do you have any tips for the lesbians that are in long 756 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:53,760 distance relationships? Like that's a, that's a hefty 1. 757 00:31:54,400 --> 00:31:56,640 It was, I think at the beginning it was kind of like we're just 758 00:31:56,640 --> 00:31:58,920 going to see how it goes. And I was like, should I go out 759 00:31:58,920 --> 00:31:59,960 and see? I was like, well, I may as well 760 00:31:59,960 --> 00:32:02,840 see like if this is something. And I was just like, oh, do you 761 00:32:02,840 --> 00:32:04,760 know what? I'm going to just book a flight. 762 00:32:05,560 --> 00:32:08,040 Luckily I was quite freelance at the time, so if I knew if I had 763 00:32:08,040 --> 00:32:09,360 a nine to five job, it wouldn't have worked. 764 00:32:09,360 --> 00:32:12,880 No, I think it worked because I was working like 2-3 days a week 765 00:32:12,880 --> 00:32:15,000 and I could tight that time off. I think if you had a nine to 766 00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:16,360 five job you couldn't. No. 767 00:32:16,440 --> 00:32:17,880 So like the trick is quit your job. 768 00:32:18,080 --> 00:32:20,040 Yeah, quit your job. Go freelance. 769 00:32:20,480 --> 00:32:22,200 That's only a way you can make it work. 770 00:32:22,200 --> 00:32:25,440 I flew out in the over Christmas. 771 00:32:25,440 --> 00:32:28,320 We met in the August and then I flew out in the Christmas. 772 00:32:29,080 --> 00:32:31,480 And yeah, on the third day I was like, well, I'm in trouble. 773 00:32:32,240 --> 00:32:34,200 Yeah, that's what this is going to be. 774 00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:38,200 It's when you're out there, yeah, 'cause that will do it, 775 00:32:38,440 --> 00:32:40,040 'cause then you're in their space. 776 00:32:40,120 --> 00:32:43,440 Yeah, and it's like Suns out. Yeah. 777 00:32:43,480 --> 00:32:45,760 Like, that's doing all these fun things on the beach and like, 778 00:32:45,760 --> 00:32:49,520 hey, gay. Go hold hands and skip on the. 779 00:32:49,520 --> 00:32:51,400 Beat, yeah, yeah. And I was like, I'm in trouble 780 00:32:51,400 --> 00:32:52,640 there. And then he just carried on. 781 00:32:52,720 --> 00:32:54,120 But there was always an end game. 782 00:32:54,120 --> 00:32:56,640 I think with long distance you have to have an end game. 100%, 783 00:32:56,640 --> 00:32:57,600 yeah. Because I think it was just 784 00:32:57,600 --> 00:32:59,800 like, oh, we're just going to do long distance forever. 785 00:33:00,160 --> 00:33:01,880 I think I'd have been like, I can't do this. 786 00:33:02,040 --> 00:33:03,720 When did you decide like an end game though? 787 00:33:03,720 --> 00:33:06,120 Because I feel like you can't set that straight away. 788 00:33:06,120 --> 00:33:09,720 Before I, when she went back the first time, like after I like 3 789 00:33:09,720 --> 00:33:13,320 week fling, yeah, she'd was like, I've always thought about 790 00:33:13,320 --> 00:33:16,440 moving back to the UK. I'm just waiting to wait for my 791 00:33:16,440 --> 00:33:18,800 passport because I've got, I can get 2 passports because I've 792 00:33:18,800 --> 00:33:21,480 been there that long and then I'm going to come back. 793 00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:25,200 So she like planted the seed. Wow, you're like I love you. 794 00:33:25,520 --> 00:33:27,320 How long did it take you until you said I love you? 795 00:33:28,000 --> 00:33:31,600 I said it when she came over this a second time, so like 6 796 00:33:31,600 --> 00:33:34,040 months maybe technically, but technically this is only like 797 00:33:34,040 --> 00:33:37,800 the second date because we had like a three-week date, a 798 00:33:37,880 --> 00:33:39,640 three-week date and then do you know what I mean? 799 00:33:39,640 --> 00:33:41,800 No. But you find that I think long 800 00:33:41,800 --> 00:33:43,960 distance relationships as well, they can be more, I think 801 00:33:43,960 --> 00:33:47,120 they're more intense than we. Had a lot of phone talking. 802 00:33:47,120 --> 00:33:50,400 Yeah, because you you are forced to communicate a lot more. 803 00:33:50,400 --> 00:33:50,880 This is. Why? 804 00:33:50,880 --> 00:33:53,200 I think it's like because when you think you get into a 805 00:33:53,200 --> 00:33:55,880 relationship and also like when it's the beginning and you just 806 00:33:55,880 --> 00:33:58,760 like get into it, you go out and do fun things, you have loads of 807 00:33:58,760 --> 00:34:01,800 sex and then all of a sudden you're like, I've been in this 808 00:34:01,800 --> 00:34:05,120 weeks and I know nothing about you, but I know what you look 809 00:34:05,120 --> 00:34:06,800 like naked. And that's all I need. 810 00:34:06,800 --> 00:34:10,480 It's great. But with this I, we just had so 811 00:34:10,480 --> 00:34:12,600 much time where we're like, right, OK, we actually have to 812 00:34:12,600 --> 00:34:14,600 like we were just having phone conversations. 813 00:34:14,600 --> 00:34:15,880 We knew so much about each other. 814 00:34:15,880 --> 00:34:19,360 So then when we do see each other, it's like we always worry 815 00:34:19,360 --> 00:34:21,159 that he's going to tell he's like an old married couple 816 00:34:21,159 --> 00:34:24,400 because we just, we haven't got this like. 817 00:34:24,760 --> 00:34:25,960 Five. I don't know. 818 00:34:25,960 --> 00:34:27,960 I think, I think it's really fun. 819 00:34:27,960 --> 00:34:31,760 Like, I remember I was in my first ever lesbian relationship. 820 00:34:31,760 --> 00:34:33,199 Was a long distance 1. Long distance. 821 00:34:33,320 --> 00:34:35,400 Yeah, it was Brazil. Oh wow. 822 00:34:35,719 --> 00:34:37,760 Yeah, I mean, I'm like, oh wow, Sydney, wow, I. 823 00:34:39,159 --> 00:34:41,960 Mean it was 11 hour flight so like it was still pretty long. 824 00:34:42,280 --> 00:34:44,840 Half the time. Half the time still, yeah, I 825 00:34:44,840 --> 00:34:47,080 know. And I was like 19. 826 00:34:47,080 --> 00:34:49,480 I was in that relationship for a few years and. 827 00:34:50,120 --> 00:34:53,880 Was there an end game? No, yeah. 828 00:34:54,360 --> 00:34:58,640 And I was just so young too. Like, I wasn't really thinking, 829 00:34:58,640 --> 00:34:59,520 would you ever move? Would you? 830 00:34:59,520 --> 00:35:01,040 Did you contemplate moving to? Brazil. 831 00:35:01,040 --> 00:35:04,720 I did, yeah. I actually, it was so weird. 832 00:35:04,720 --> 00:35:08,720 I was working for Joe Malone at the time and I was like, they've 833 00:35:08,720 --> 00:35:10,720 got an office that they're opening up over in Sao Paulo, 834 00:35:10,720 --> 00:35:12,640 blah, blah. And I was like, I actually went 835 00:35:12,640 --> 00:35:15,640 and spoke to one of them. And then I think they realized 836 00:35:15,640 --> 00:35:19,440 pretty quickly I couldn't speak any fucking Portuguese but 837 00:35:19,440 --> 00:35:24,840 English, but English, yeah. And I really, I, I thought for a 838 00:35:24,840 --> 00:35:26,760 second I wouldn't. And I would have genuinely have 839 00:35:26,760 --> 00:35:27,960 loved to have lived there. To be fair. 840 00:35:27,960 --> 00:35:30,400 I loved it there. But there's just so many things 841 00:35:30,400 --> 00:35:31,640 at play. And it's very scary, especially 842 00:35:31,640 --> 00:35:33,080 when you're that young. Like, I just didn't. 843 00:35:33,240 --> 00:35:34,400 And I also just didn't know myself. 844 00:35:34,400 --> 00:35:36,960 Like, I wasn't out either. Like, there was just loads of 845 00:35:36,960 --> 00:35:38,760 different things that that came to it. 846 00:35:40,000 --> 00:35:41,920 And my girlfriend now, she lives in Barcelona. 847 00:35:41,920 --> 00:35:44,600 So that's a very quick long distance. 848 00:35:44,600 --> 00:35:46,360 Yeah. Which is like not too bad. 849 00:35:46,360 --> 00:35:48,280 That you could have done that. Barcelona. 850 00:35:48,360 --> 00:35:49,680 Yeah. Well, no, he doesn't. 851 00:35:49,680 --> 00:35:50,360 Now. Yeah, now. 852 00:35:50,560 --> 00:35:51,600 Yeah. Oh, so you're in long? 853 00:35:51,600 --> 00:35:54,440 Distance, yes, yeah, but not nowhere near as long as yours. 854 00:35:54,760 --> 00:35:58,120 But then I feel like hearing my story might make you be like, 855 00:35:58,120 --> 00:36:01,400 it's not that far two hours. I would like I. 856 00:36:01,440 --> 00:36:04,000 Really don't think it's far, I'm genuinely like no two hours is 857 00:36:04,000 --> 00:36:06,160 nothing and also she comes over like pretty much every week for 858 00:36:06,160 --> 00:36:08,440 work anyway so I'm like oh but it doesn't really feel like. 859 00:36:08,520 --> 00:36:12,800 And also, if you think about it, if A2 hour flight you, if 860 00:36:12,840 --> 00:36:15,400 someone lived in Scotland, it would be the same amount of 861 00:36:15,400 --> 00:36:16,480 yeah, yeah. Yeah, it's just because it's 862 00:36:16,480 --> 00:36:18,440 like a different country. They're like that. 863 00:36:18,440 --> 00:36:22,040 I I do think that that is nicer to kind of have that connection 864 00:36:22,040 --> 00:36:24,520 a little bit more like over communication. 865 00:36:24,520 --> 00:36:26,560 And it is really fun, like when you see each other again and 866 00:36:26,560 --> 00:36:27,360 have that. Oh yeah. 867 00:36:27,360 --> 00:36:29,320 I also think it stops that like crazy. 868 00:36:29,320 --> 00:36:31,720 U-Haul, like the next level U-Haul that like a lot of 869 00:36:31,720 --> 00:36:33,440 lesbians do get into really. Really easily. 870 00:36:33,480 --> 00:36:35,000 She's not that sort of person anyway. 871 00:36:35,160 --> 00:36:36,960 Yeah. She's like, this is the this is 872 00:36:37,440 --> 00:36:40,200 this is the biggest thing she's been in since junior, I think. 873 00:36:40,360 --> 00:36:43,880 Yeah, but she's and it's weird to me because she talks about 874 00:36:43,880 --> 00:36:46,320 herself. She's like like this is unheard 875 00:36:46,320 --> 00:36:49,800 of for me because I'm just like, no, I'm not your commitment foe. 876 00:36:49,800 --> 00:36:52,320 But I just don't see that side of it because I think sometimes 877 00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:54,720 if you meet someone that you just get on with. 878 00:36:54,800 --> 00:36:57,600 Yeah, yeah, You're like, I can't imagine you being any other way. 879 00:36:57,600 --> 00:36:59,440 Being like avoidant. Yeah. 880 00:36:59,840 --> 00:37:02,000 And I was like, I bet you were. You know, I don't. 881 00:37:02,000 --> 00:37:05,560 I can't imagine that side of someone, but like, it's just 882 00:37:05,560 --> 00:37:07,240 like anything. I can always, I would say like 883 00:37:07,240 --> 00:37:08,920 you, you can be someone completely different in the 884 00:37:08,920 --> 00:37:11,320 relationship before 100. Someone's like, Oh my God, that 885 00:37:11,320 --> 00:37:13,160 person's like really avoided. I'm like, no, they were just, 886 00:37:13,200 --> 00:37:15,600 they can be just avoided with some person or they can be like 887 00:37:15,760 --> 00:37:18,520 really clingy or whatever. Yeah, and also different, like 888 00:37:18,520 --> 00:37:20,320 attachment styles can like, trigger other ones. 889 00:37:20,320 --> 00:37:22,680 So if someone's like, really anxious, then it's gonna trigger 890 00:37:22,680 --> 00:37:24,760 an avoidant, you know? Yeah, massively. 891 00:37:25,120 --> 00:37:27,280 So, yeah, it depends on who you're with, like what the 892 00:37:27,280 --> 00:37:29,240 situation is. It can always just like vary. 893 00:37:29,240 --> 00:37:31,640 And I think that's what works best if you're doing on this 894 00:37:31,720 --> 00:37:34,760 distance because you have to have that bit of secure stuff 895 00:37:34,920 --> 00:37:36,320 because you don't want people to do it. 896 00:37:36,680 --> 00:37:38,000 I'm like, oh, like I'll bring in. 897 00:37:38,000 --> 00:37:39,840 She's like, oh, I'm out with these people, like people and 898 00:37:39,840 --> 00:37:42,640 I'm like kill. And she's really like, I 899 00:37:42,640 --> 00:37:45,440 couldn't deal with because I've had it before in the past where 900 00:37:45,440 --> 00:37:49,600 like who, who you out with? I'm like, do you want me to name 901 00:37:49,600 --> 00:37:51,680 everyone on the table? They're all boring. 902 00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:53,240 Take a photo, send it to there's. 903 00:37:53,240 --> 00:37:56,720 Like 17 people from work that I don't know know this guy. 904 00:37:56,920 --> 00:37:59,600 She's new. I can't handle my friends. 905 00:37:59,760 --> 00:38:02,240 I cannot handle jealous or controlling. 906 00:38:02,320 --> 00:38:04,360 Like those are the two things that I'm like, this is just too 907 00:38:04,360 --> 00:38:06,520 much of me. Like there is obviously like a 908 00:38:06,520 --> 00:38:08,960 natural bit of jealousy that I do think that just happens in 909 00:38:08,960 --> 00:38:10,680 like relationships when you love someone. 910 00:38:10,680 --> 00:38:13,800 There is that, but like real jealousy and like controlling. 911 00:38:13,800 --> 00:38:17,000 I'm like, oh this is rough but that's why I don't want to be 912 00:38:17,000 --> 00:38:18,600 like. You know, but you get, I feel 913 00:38:18,600 --> 00:38:20,480 like when you get into those relationships, you don't realise 914 00:38:20,480 --> 00:38:22,400 it's happening until you're like so far. 915 00:38:22,400 --> 00:38:24,400 And because I've been in like relationships like that when I'm 916 00:38:24,400 --> 00:38:28,480 like, Oh my God. And you don't like I, I was in 917 00:38:28,480 --> 00:38:33,000 something that was like I had, I had, I had rules, but they were 918 00:38:33,600 --> 00:38:35,880 rules, rules that were like overshadowed. 919 00:38:35,880 --> 00:38:39,400 These are my boundaries. And I'm like, I look back now. 920 00:38:39,400 --> 00:38:40,800 I'm like, no, no, they were, they were rules. 921 00:38:41,080 --> 00:38:43,200 Yeah. Because like, you can't, you you 922 00:38:43,280 --> 00:38:44,840 can't deripies. Yeah, yeah. 923 00:38:44,920 --> 00:38:47,080 Like these are boundaries. I'm like, I look back, I'm like, 924 00:38:47,080 --> 00:38:49,040 they were rules. Like you can't do this or 925 00:38:49,040 --> 00:38:50,120 something. But I was like, oh, OK. 926 00:38:50,600 --> 00:38:52,200 It's not. OK, To ever control somebody 927 00:38:52,200 --> 00:38:54,400 like that, Like, why do people feel like once they're in a 928 00:38:54,400 --> 00:38:56,840 relationship with somebody that they genuinely own them? 929 00:38:56,920 --> 00:39:00,200 They're like, no, this is my dog now, and I'm you. 930 00:39:00,200 --> 00:39:01,760 You must obey everything that I have to say. 931 00:39:01,760 --> 00:39:04,240 But it happens all the time. And I'm thinking, where is this 932 00:39:04,240 --> 00:39:06,040 coming from? No, I was. 933 00:39:06,040 --> 00:39:09,160 I was actually talking to someone like a girl that I'd met 934 00:39:09,160 --> 00:39:13,240 really recently and I don't know much about her drinks Friday 935 00:39:13,240 --> 00:39:15,120 night and she was there and she was having difficulty with her 936 00:39:15,120 --> 00:39:17,720 boyfriend. And I was a level of drunk where 937 00:39:17,720 --> 00:39:19,760 I just went in. I was like, I don't know you and 938 00:39:19,760 --> 00:39:21,760 I don't know him, but I'm going to tell you now. 939 00:39:21,760 --> 00:39:22,560 You need to get out. I. 940 00:39:22,880 --> 00:39:24,440 Was like get out. Get out now. 941 00:39:24,520 --> 00:39:25,800 I was like, he's never going to change. 942 00:39:25,800 --> 00:39:27,280 She's like, well, he does this, he does this. 943 00:39:27,560 --> 00:39:28,920 He won't let me see my he has to. 944 00:39:29,040 --> 00:39:30,760 I was like, you have to give a list of every single friend 945 00:39:30,760 --> 00:39:33,320 you're with. She had to give her every single 946 00:39:33,320 --> 00:39:36,800 friend she was with. Acting, kissing, screen kisses. 947 00:39:36,800 --> 00:39:38,680 They're both actors. I was like, but you have to 948 00:39:38,680 --> 00:39:39,880 kiss. Because you're an actor not 949 00:39:39,880 --> 00:39:42,240 allowed to kiss on screen. No, but he's also an actor. 950 00:39:42,840 --> 00:39:45,640 What the fuck? I was like, but that's you're an 951 00:39:45,640 --> 00:39:47,480 actor. And also if you can't deal with 952 00:39:47,480 --> 00:39:50,560 that, don't date an actor. But you're also one, so you have 953 00:39:50,560 --> 00:39:52,360 to kiss people anyway. And like, yeah, it's not nice. 954 00:39:52,360 --> 00:39:54,280 But as a partner, you just say don't watch it. 955 00:39:54,280 --> 00:39:58,480 No, my partner, I've had to snog boys on Corrie and she's just 956 00:39:58,480 --> 00:40:00,320 like is OK, I just don't wanna watch that episode. 957 00:40:00,440 --> 00:40:01,840 Fine, babe. Yeah, I get that. 958 00:40:01,840 --> 00:40:03,160 You don't wanna see me snogging a man. 959 00:40:03,240 --> 00:40:05,880 Fine, absolutely. Fine, I don't want to see that. 960 00:40:05,920 --> 00:40:08,000 Yeah, I'm like, I did that. Yeah. 961 00:40:08,040 --> 00:40:10,880 But like, absolutely fine. But like you can't come for me 962 00:40:10,880 --> 00:40:12,880 because it's like your job. I'm not going to turn up to set, 963 00:40:12,880 --> 00:40:15,720 but like Page 3 of the script. No, that's right. 964 00:40:15,720 --> 00:40:17,960 Vital to the story. I don't want to do it. 965 00:40:18,040 --> 00:40:20,040 I'm like. Get a double in. 966 00:40:20,160 --> 00:40:22,120 Get a double in. It ain't me, not my lips. 967 00:40:22,120 --> 00:40:24,160 Like what you gonna do when I'm on sex education? 968 00:40:24,160 --> 00:40:26,240 I've got her like, get the baps out and have a rhyme. 969 00:40:26,240 --> 00:40:28,880 Do you know what I mean? She can't do this thing. 970 00:40:29,160 --> 00:40:30,280 Am I? You can't. 971 00:40:30,560 --> 00:40:32,480 So anyway, I I went in, I'd had a drink. 972 00:40:32,480 --> 00:40:34,400 I was like, listen, I don't owe him anything. 973 00:40:34,720 --> 00:40:36,920 Yeah, dump the chump. Yeah, as you should. 974 00:40:36,960 --> 00:40:38,760 I think more people people should do that in all honesty 975 00:40:38,760 --> 00:40:40,960 because I think sometimes it takes being told by someone, 976 00:40:41,200 --> 00:40:45,680 even a total stranger that's like objectively this is fuck to 977 00:40:45,680 --> 00:40:47,840 what's going. On here also friends don't do 978 00:40:47,840 --> 00:40:51,400 that because when I was in something not it was it was 979 00:40:51,400 --> 00:40:56,160 toxic. My friends, like they're just, 980 00:40:56,160 --> 00:40:58,920 they're just quiet. A little things like, I mean, 981 00:40:58,920 --> 00:41:01,200 this doesn't sound great. Like are you OK? 982 00:41:01,200 --> 00:41:04,000 And just little things like that because you can't go in. 983 00:41:04,000 --> 00:41:06,920 Because they know that it will just usually push the person 984 00:41:06,920 --> 00:41:08,480 further. Toxic partner. 985 00:41:08,480 --> 00:41:10,600 And then they're like, yeah, and then you have no one. 986 00:41:10,600 --> 00:41:12,760 Yeah, yeah. So that's almost what they want 987 00:41:12,840 --> 00:41:15,080 as well. And I'd started to like, I 988 00:41:15,080 --> 00:41:20,320 didn't mean to at the time, but I'd started to like, choose that 989 00:41:20,320 --> 00:41:25,240 person over friends just because I was told that that's what I 990 00:41:25,240 --> 00:41:27,680 should be doing because you're not putting me first. 991 00:41:27,680 --> 00:41:29,760 And for you it was just easier than kind of always getting in 992 00:41:29,760 --> 00:41:31,240 trouble. Yeah, well, I just. 993 00:41:31,240 --> 00:41:33,200 Can't be asked to the argument. I was always in trouble. 994 00:41:33,560 --> 00:41:35,080 Yeah. So I was in trouble so. 995 00:41:35,120 --> 00:41:37,040 And then then it's my friends were like, well, you've just 996 00:41:37,200 --> 00:41:40,560 you've blown us off and I'm like, I can't make 2 sets of 997 00:41:40,560 --> 00:41:43,000 people happy and all like this is so and it shouldn't be like 998 00:41:43,000 --> 00:41:44,680 that it. Should be like like that. 999 00:41:44,680 --> 00:41:46,960 If you're listening to this and this is your relationship, get 1000 00:41:47,160 --> 00:41:47,680 get. Out. 1001 00:41:48,120 --> 00:41:48,880 Get out. Get out. 1002 00:41:49,680 --> 00:41:53,160 Joe Yeah, leave right now. It's like what I said to this 1003 00:41:53,160 --> 00:41:54,920 girl the other day. I was like, it won't get better 1004 00:41:54,920 --> 00:41:57,520 because you're already in it and you've already set the rules of 1005 00:41:57,920 --> 00:42:01,760 what your relationship is. And I went, what I bet you're 1006 00:42:01,760 --> 00:42:03,120 doing is this. I was like, now you've started 1007 00:42:03,120 --> 00:42:05,600 to slightly lie to him because you are at the pub. 1008 00:42:05,600 --> 00:42:08,200 We've seen people that he knows. You're I was like, you're going 1009 00:42:08,240 --> 00:42:11,040 to get more shit. And then you're saying, oh, 1010 00:42:11,040 --> 00:42:13,280 you're not at the pub even though you are because. 1011 00:42:13,440 --> 00:42:14,760 And then he's like, you've lied to me. 1012 00:42:14,760 --> 00:42:16,560 So then you look bad because you're the lighter, but you've 1013 00:42:16,560 --> 00:42:19,120 only lied to them because you know that being at the pub is 1014 00:42:19,120 --> 00:42:21,040 not acceptable. Which is bullshit because you're 1015 00:42:21,040 --> 00:42:21,880 allowed to go to the fucking pub. 1016 00:42:21,880 --> 00:42:23,800 You're mates. Oh my God, you're allowed to be 1017 00:42:23,800 --> 00:42:26,680 anywhere. Honestly, it feels it's that's 1018 00:42:26,680 --> 00:42:30,560 hell, that is hell that if I if there is a hell. 1019 00:42:30,800 --> 00:42:33,360 That's and I know my partner should be like hey babe where 1020 00:42:33,360 --> 00:42:34,880 are you? I'm like the pub of some mates. 1021 00:42:35,040 --> 00:42:37,000 Oh cool, hell have time. Bye. 1022 00:42:37,000 --> 00:42:38,800 See you tomorrow. Yeah, literally. 1023 00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:40,520 That's, that's how it should be like. 1024 00:42:40,720 --> 00:42:43,160 It's insane. And it's like the easy thing I 1025 00:42:43,160 --> 00:42:44,560 mean. Well, I'm glad that you found 1026 00:42:44,560 --> 00:42:47,960 someone now that she's like, respects you and yeah, she's. 1027 00:42:48,000 --> 00:42:51,200 A breeze in my life. And do you feel like there's any 1028 00:42:51,200 --> 00:42:53,720 kind of like cons to long distance or do you feel like 1029 00:42:53,760 --> 00:42:55,800 they're kind of battled? I mean, just not being with our 1030 00:42:55,800 --> 00:42:58,200 first dance might. Be yeah, it's Oh my God, I have 1031 00:42:58,360 --> 00:43:00,760 bad days where I'm just like, why are you here? 1032 00:43:00,760 --> 00:43:04,440 It's normally like the lead up to my period, which that's never 1033 00:43:04,440 --> 00:43:07,560 unheard of. Luteal has been fucking. 1034 00:43:07,640 --> 00:43:09,440 Dead. Yeah. 1035 00:43:10,440 --> 00:43:13,200 Yeah. Before your period, that moment, 1036 00:43:13,200 --> 00:43:15,880 right? Like a week or two weeks before, 1037 00:43:16,440 --> 00:43:19,600 but it manages to get me every single month without me 1038 00:43:19,600 --> 00:43:20,760 realising that that's what it is. 1039 00:43:20,840 --> 00:43:23,080 What is that about? I'm like why am? 1040 00:43:23,080 --> 00:43:25,400 It's like I'm here again. I'll convince myself that it's 1041 00:43:25,400 --> 00:43:26,360 not that. Yeah. 1042 00:43:26,360 --> 00:43:29,200 Oh, well, I've just gone fully suicidal, actually. 1043 00:43:29,200 --> 00:43:31,520 That's what I get. Like, I get like, life is not 1044 00:43:31,520 --> 00:43:34,480 worth living anymore. This is awful. 1045 00:43:34,480 --> 00:43:36,680 Everything's shit. The sky is great. 1046 00:43:36,680 --> 00:43:39,240 Like it's like, it's great. I get to the point where I don't 1047 00:43:39,240 --> 00:43:41,640 know what my girlfriend's like. Are you? 1048 00:43:41,640 --> 00:43:44,480 Are you? Do 1 babe, I'm like, no, it's 1049 00:43:44,480 --> 00:43:45,760 not about that. She's like you do you want. 1050 00:43:45,760 --> 00:43:48,440 I'm like yes, I am, but it's nothing to do with these are my 1051 00:43:48,560 --> 00:43:50,520 real feeling. I am valid. 1052 00:43:51,320 --> 00:43:54,040 She's like, OK. See, it's managed to help me 1053 00:43:54,040 --> 00:43:56,200 now, like sussing out whether it's because I'm doing my 1054 00:43:56,200 --> 00:43:58,720 period, I'll go. No, I was like, I know because 1055 00:43:58,720 --> 00:44:01,520 I'm like due on because I think before I was really spiralling 1056 00:44:01,520 --> 00:44:04,200 thinking, oh, now I'm getting to the dark space again, you know? 1057 00:44:04,200 --> 00:44:06,320 And like if you've ever suffered with any like mental health 1058 00:44:06,320 --> 00:44:09,240 problems, like having a moment like that can sometimes be a 1059 00:44:09,240 --> 00:44:11,440 little bit triggering because you're like, am I going back 1060 00:44:11,440 --> 00:44:13,280 into that depressive spiral? I can't be arsed. 1061 00:44:13,560 --> 00:44:14,880 Don't have the time for it, you know. 1062 00:44:15,720 --> 00:44:17,040 Things have got. Shit to do. 1063 00:44:17,160 --> 00:44:20,080 I literally got upset the other day for like, for like an hour 1064 00:44:20,400 --> 00:44:21,800 and I cried and I was like wasting my morning. 1065 00:44:21,800 --> 00:44:23,720 Now it's more like, this is my day to be productive. 1066 00:44:23,720 --> 00:44:25,520 I've taken an hour of every time because I've had a SOB. 1067 00:44:25,520 --> 00:44:27,920 Yeah, but I was like, you know, I love doing that to do the 1068 00:44:27,920 --> 00:44:29,960 thing you have the SOB. Let's have the SOB. 1069 00:44:30,200 --> 00:44:33,200 And especially when you clearly have like a very busy brain, I 1070 00:44:33,200 --> 00:44:34,840 feel like it's probably a lot like mine. 1071 00:44:34,840 --> 00:44:37,080 And I think it's great though, that you have that creative 1072 00:44:37,080 --> 00:44:39,200 outlet too. I mean, what made you go from 1073 00:44:39,200 --> 00:44:41,520 the acting into content creation? 1074 00:44:41,560 --> 00:44:44,280 Was it just kind of using the 2? I'd literally just. 1075 00:44:44,600 --> 00:44:47,400 It was completely random. I didn't set out to be like a 1076 00:44:47,400 --> 00:44:51,120 content creator or like that's the influence then. 1077 00:44:51,120 --> 00:44:52,960 I hate that word. Oh, do you know what's? 1078 00:44:52,960 --> 00:44:56,560 Horrible I'm an influencer. Might sound like a knob mate. 1079 00:44:56,560 --> 00:45:02,000 Like sorry, he influenced it. What could we call it instead? 1080 00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:05,800 I don't know, I'm like I do videos I. 1081 00:45:05,920 --> 00:45:09,760 Like I'm a TikTok actress. Oh no, like even Tik Toker I'm 1082 00:45:09,760 --> 00:45:14,360 like oh like it makes me sound like I'm like trying to be 23. 1083 00:45:14,520 --> 00:45:16,680 Yeah, but. It is due to tick tock. 1084 00:45:16,720 --> 00:45:17,600 It's. Hard though, because it's. 1085 00:45:17,600 --> 00:45:19,280 I mean, content create is fine. I think that's. 1086 00:45:19,360 --> 00:45:21,680 Yeah, I go with content create. Yeah, yeah, it makes me doesn't 1087 00:45:21,680 --> 00:45:28,240 make my like stomach fart now. Yeah, I like just made real. 1088 00:45:30,120 --> 00:45:31,320 I I don't know why I even did it. 1089 00:45:31,320 --> 00:45:33,000 I just was like, oh, this would be quite funny. 1090 00:45:33,000 --> 00:45:34,760 And then I was going to put it on Instagram and I was like, I 1091 00:45:34,760 --> 00:45:36,600 can't put it on Instagram because people will laugh at me 1092 00:45:37,080 --> 00:45:38,720 because it's like my peers were on Instagram. 1093 00:45:38,920 --> 00:45:41,720 So I made a TikTok page that I didn't know. 1094 00:45:41,720 --> 00:45:44,080 I didn't know anyone on TikTok. So I was just like, I just make 1095 00:45:44,080 --> 00:45:45,400 a TikTok page. Save space. 1096 00:45:45,520 --> 00:45:48,560 And yeah, I don't know anyone. I don't need to impress anyone 1097 00:45:48,560 --> 00:45:51,320 here. And yeah, it did really well. 1098 00:45:51,640 --> 00:45:54,040 You'll usually find that you do the best when you don't give a 1099 00:45:54,040 --> 00:45:55,600 fuck. I did not give a fuck. 1100 00:45:55,600 --> 00:46:02,000 And now, yeah, the best advice I got once was like, no one, no 1101 00:46:02,000 --> 00:46:03,360 one gives a bigger fuck than you. 1102 00:46:04,440 --> 00:46:06,320 So I was like, well, I'm nervous about this, nervous about that. 1103 00:46:06,320 --> 00:46:07,800 Most he's like, I was talking to this guy. 1104 00:46:07,800 --> 00:46:10,640 He's like, most people do this. Yeah. 1105 00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:13,120 And so you've put so much time and effort inside. 1106 00:46:13,280 --> 00:46:14,360 Oh, what about this? Is this good enough? 1107 00:46:14,360 --> 00:46:17,120 Is that funny enough to do it? Most people don't give a fuck. 1108 00:46:17,200 --> 00:46:19,560 Like no one does feel like that was really funny or like, oh, I 1109 00:46:19,560 --> 00:46:20,840 hadn't seen that 10. Nice. 1110 00:46:20,840 --> 00:46:22,080 What? Like they literally. 1111 00:46:22,640 --> 00:46:24,680 So they would. He'd just like just keep 1112 00:46:24,680 --> 00:46:25,600 posting. Just keep going. 1113 00:46:25,760 --> 00:46:27,320 Just keep going. If you think it's a bit shit, 1114 00:46:27,320 --> 00:46:28,840 post it anyway. Then the next one might be 1115 00:46:28,840 --> 00:46:30,400 better. Just keep going. 1116 00:46:30,400 --> 00:46:32,400 And it's so true. Because the ones that I think 1117 00:46:32,920 --> 00:46:35,440 I've taken a time that I'm really proud of might be like. 1118 00:46:35,440 --> 00:46:37,600 And then the ones that I'm like, oh, is that all right? 1119 00:46:37,800 --> 00:46:39,000 Yeah. Sometimes can do well so. 1120 00:46:39,000 --> 00:46:41,200 I'm like, you never know what's going to work. 1121 00:46:41,560 --> 00:46:44,240 Sometimes it just happens. And it could be timing. 1122 00:46:44,240 --> 00:46:45,880 It could just be the, it could be anything. 1123 00:46:45,880 --> 00:46:48,360 But I think I remember once somebody said as well, they were 1124 00:46:48,360 --> 00:46:50,200 like, if it flopped and nobody saw it. 1125 00:46:50,200 --> 00:46:50,960 Good. No one's all right. 1126 00:46:51,040 --> 00:46:51,880 Yeah. That's. 1127 00:46:52,240 --> 00:46:53,080 True. Like, OK, cool. 1128 00:46:53,640 --> 00:46:55,360 No one, no one cares. It just. 1129 00:46:55,360 --> 00:46:57,000 Doesn't matter. There's so many fucking people 1130 00:46:57,000 --> 00:46:59,600 on the earth and like TikTok is just like a, it's just like 1131 00:46:59,760 --> 00:47:02,480 constant like this. I mean, and if you can have 1132 00:47:02,480 --> 00:47:05,960 something that you can use your creativity, your skills for, why 1133 00:47:05,960 --> 00:47:08,200 wouldn't you do it? Like the way in which you create 1134 00:47:08,200 --> 00:47:12,040 it is just great and it's so. I think as well, especially at 1135 00:47:12,040 --> 00:47:16,040 the minute social media and just life is so dark. 1136 00:47:16,320 --> 00:47:18,240 Yeah. Like you go online, I wake up 1137 00:47:18,240 --> 00:47:20,280 this morning, I was like, oh, Trump's done this. 1138 00:47:20,280 --> 00:47:22,360 Now I'm like, the world's on fire. 1139 00:47:22,360 --> 00:47:25,360 I'm like, and it's going to be so consuming and there's so many 1140 00:47:25,360 --> 00:47:28,160 people who are like, it's it's over. 1141 00:47:28,160 --> 00:47:30,640 It's so overwhelming that I think if you can just go on and 1142 00:47:30,640 --> 00:47:33,800 just do a bit of just like, that was a funny thing about an air 1143 00:47:33,800 --> 00:47:37,640 freshener turning you gay. Like it's so stupid and like. 1144 00:47:38,480 --> 00:47:40,920 We need stupid right now. Funny, only stupid. 1145 00:47:40,920 --> 00:47:43,320 And there's people being like, when I follow people who just do 1146 00:47:43,320 --> 00:47:46,200 out on stupid dancers, I'm like, yeah, just do a dance in your 1147 00:47:46,200 --> 00:47:47,040 kitchen. Sit. 1148 00:47:47,040 --> 00:47:48,520 The world's about to end in a fucking minute. 1149 00:47:48,600 --> 00:47:50,680 I don't give a shit anymore. I'm I'm done. 1150 00:47:50,920 --> 00:47:53,560 This is what my friend says and she she invites me to the pub 1151 00:47:53,560 --> 00:47:56,240 midweek. I'm like, oh, it's Tuesday. 1152 00:47:56,400 --> 00:47:58,720 She's like, babe, the world's on fire, come for a pint. 1153 00:47:58,720 --> 00:48:00,880 I'm like you are. Right, I just go Bubble 3 come 1154 00:48:00,880 --> 00:48:04,880 from Yeah, yeah, we love, we love a wee day pint. 1155 00:48:04,880 --> 00:48:06,480 Yeah, to be fair, this was a Monday. 1156 00:48:06,800 --> 00:48:08,560 I was like, it's Monday. Oh, we went for a pint 1157 00:48:08,560 --> 00:48:10,840 yesterday. I mean, I'll have 1 today. 1158 00:48:10,840 --> 00:48:13,880 And he said no. I said no at lunch because my 1159 00:48:13,920 --> 00:48:15,120 friend was. I was like, we're having a 1160 00:48:15,120 --> 00:48:16,400 drink. She was like, no, I was like, of 1161 00:48:16,400 --> 00:48:17,960 course not. I was like, oh God, I. 1162 00:48:18,280 --> 00:48:20,080 Was only asking I don't know why if you were OK. 1163 00:48:20,080 --> 00:48:22,440 Yeah, I would never drink on a Tuesday lunchtime. 1164 00:48:22,440 --> 00:48:25,960 That'd be ridiculous. But yeah, I'll just find it. 1165 00:48:25,960 --> 00:48:29,200 So I just think there's so much shit going on right now. 1166 00:48:29,200 --> 00:48:31,120 And it's nice to have joy. It's nice to have joy. 1167 00:48:31,120 --> 00:48:34,760 It's nice to like scroll and like see, like doesn't my stuff. 1168 00:48:34,760 --> 00:48:37,240 But like other people just put in out like just this is a 1169 00:48:37,240 --> 00:48:38,880 stupid thing. I did today a funny thing 1170 00:48:38,880 --> 00:48:43,400 because I think if you there was a RuPaul thing recently, he was 1171 00:48:43,400 --> 00:48:49,040 on podcast or something and he said you can, he said you can 1172 00:48:49,040 --> 00:48:51,320 look at you can look at the darkness, but don't stare. 1173 00:48:52,080 --> 00:48:53,720 I love that. And he's like, you cut. 1174 00:48:53,840 --> 00:48:55,800 He was like, because if you stare too long, you'll go crazy. 1175 00:48:55,800 --> 00:48:59,080 He was like, you need to create music and fun things and dancing 1176 00:48:59,080 --> 00:49:00,320 and comedy. And he was like, you need to do 1177 00:49:00,320 --> 00:49:02,720 all the fun things because otherwise it'll just consume you 1178 00:49:02,720 --> 00:49:04,880 have to. I was like, oh, I'm gonna get on 1179 00:49:04,880 --> 00:49:07,080 a T-shirt, Rupert. The whole thing. 1180 00:49:07,280 --> 00:49:09,320 But that's the thing. It's like you can be aware 1181 00:49:09,320 --> 00:49:11,160 because I'm aware. I'm so tuned into it all. 1182 00:49:11,160 --> 00:49:14,600 I know everything that's going on, but yeah, in an instance 1183 00:49:14,600 --> 00:49:17,520 where there's fuck all you can do and you've done everything 1184 00:49:17,520 --> 00:49:20,280 that you can, you have to enjoy life to its fullest. 1185 00:49:20,280 --> 00:49:21,880 Yeah. And bring that joy on to other 1186 00:49:21,880 --> 00:49:24,160 people because that kind of energy is so contagious as well. 1187 00:49:24,160 --> 00:49:26,160 And you never know who say that you're going to make better just 1188 00:49:26,160 --> 00:49:27,840 by doing that one thing, you know? 1189 00:49:27,840 --> 00:49:30,240 And like using humour, I mean, I've always used humour to get 1190 00:49:30,240 --> 00:49:32,400 through pretty much fucking everything in my life, you know? 1191 00:49:32,720 --> 00:49:34,280 And I always think that's a skill. 1192 00:49:34,280 --> 00:49:35,920 I love it when other people do it as well. 1193 00:49:36,280 --> 00:49:40,240 And yeah, I think if we're going to have something literally 1194 00:49:40,240 --> 00:49:44,440 called TikTok, let's take the fucking piss and just do a video 1195 00:49:44,440 --> 00:49:45,480 come. Up with that name. 1196 00:49:45,480 --> 00:49:48,200 Yeah, someone who's very, very rich right now. 1197 00:49:48,200 --> 00:49:49,320 And I wish. Oh, yeah. 1198 00:49:49,560 --> 00:49:51,560 I mean, well, one of your reels I did love. 1199 00:49:51,720 --> 00:49:54,440 And it was the one of your dad making a dad joke, which I know 1200 00:49:54,440 --> 00:49:56,760 did very well on on your reels. Oh, yeah. 1201 00:49:56,760 --> 00:49:59,280 And so I know that I have asked you to prepare some dad jokes. 1202 00:49:59,280 --> 00:50:01,000 I have some of my. Oh my God. 1203 00:50:01,040 --> 00:50:02,560 The thing is though, you can't laugh. 1204 00:50:02,920 --> 00:50:04,240 I'm going to try and not laugh at yours. 1205 00:50:04,400 --> 00:50:06,480 I don't think you're going to naturally laugh at mine anyway. 1206 00:50:06,960 --> 00:50:10,840 I sometimes laugh out of like awkwardness, pity with dad 1207 00:50:10,840 --> 00:50:14,320 jokes. Yeah, if it's that bad, then it 1208 00:50:14,320 --> 00:50:15,920 makes that. Jokes aren't meant to be bad 1209 00:50:15,920 --> 00:50:16,720 though. Yeah, that's the. 1210 00:50:16,720 --> 00:50:18,840 Same thing. They're meant to be awful, I. 1211 00:50:18,880 --> 00:50:21,440 Think I quite like a long winded one as well, like. 1212 00:50:21,800 --> 00:50:24,600 Oh my God, my dad will literally start sentences and The thing is 1213 00:50:24,600 --> 00:50:26,880 with my dad, when he's tell the judge he can't get to the 1214 00:50:26,880 --> 00:50:30,560 punchline without laughing, it was like right man walks into a 1215 00:50:30,560 --> 00:50:35,760 bar and his face will go red like his eyes closed like his 1216 00:50:35,760 --> 00:50:37,560 teeth, like he's got false teeth as well so. 1217 00:50:37,560 --> 00:50:38,680 Something they're half coming out. 1218 00:50:38,720 --> 00:50:40,400 Yeah, his teeth's actually amazing out. 1219 00:50:40,800 --> 00:50:43,920 And then we're sat there waiting for his. 1220 00:50:44,200 --> 00:50:46,600 His eyes will roll. I'm like, Dad, I'm gonna you 1221 00:50:46,600 --> 00:50:48,120 need to get there. And like it wasn't. 1222 00:50:48,200 --> 00:50:49,600 That's funnier than the punch line. 1223 00:50:49,640 --> 00:50:53,360 Yeah, no, but I love that. I love that I'm gonna get him on 1224 00:50:53,360 --> 00:50:54,600 and I want him to just do a whole. 1225 00:50:54,600 --> 00:50:56,360 Sent me some. He sent you some. 1226 00:50:56,400 --> 00:50:59,600 OK, so so you're gonna. I will do a, I'll do 1, you do 1227 00:50:59,600 --> 00:51:02,160 1, I do 1. OK, OK, so don't give me 1228 00:51:02,160 --> 00:51:05,560 offended if I don't. Some of his though were like, oh 1229 00:51:05,720 --> 00:51:07,960 dad May. Thank you very much, Dad. 1230 00:51:08,280 --> 00:51:09,760 Go on. Start dark on mine. 1231 00:51:10,240 --> 00:51:12,880 Oh. You've already have heard this 1232 00:51:12,880 --> 00:51:15,320 one. What's the worst part about 1233 00:51:15,320 --> 00:51:19,280 having sex in a cemetery? I don't know you're. 1234 00:51:19,800 --> 00:51:21,840 Not allowed to laugh, Farrell? Close your mouth. 1235 00:51:24,400 --> 00:51:26,760 What is the worst thing about having sex in it? 1236 00:51:26,760 --> 00:51:28,720 It's the worst part about having sex in a cemetery. 1237 00:51:30,080 --> 00:51:31,320 Which made me laugh. Now I don't know why. 1238 00:51:31,320 --> 00:51:34,360 Because I feel it back to you. I heard my own joke and I was 1239 00:51:34,360 --> 00:51:36,960 like, that's funny shit. That's some funny shit. 1240 00:51:37,360 --> 00:51:44,080 All the fucking digging. If you ever if I was on last one 1241 00:51:44,080 --> 00:51:46,920 laughing I would be out. OK, let's do it. 1242 00:51:46,920 --> 00:51:48,920 Let's do a role play. We are on last one, Laughing. 1243 00:51:49,400 --> 00:51:51,760 You are not allowed to laugh. You have to give me these bad 1244 00:51:51,760 --> 00:51:53,960 jokes straight. You'll be fucked. 1245 00:51:54,160 --> 00:51:58,120 Mind OK, it's my dad actually did this and we were in a 1246 00:51:58,120 --> 00:52:03,880 restaurant once and the waiter came over and said so today's 1247 00:52:03,880 --> 00:52:08,600 specials we have the cured salmon and he said cured was it 1248 00:52:08,720 --> 00:52:19,650 was it I'll that is like the face classic dad. 1249 00:52:19,850 --> 00:52:23,250 That is. I was like, but also I was like, 1250 00:52:23,450 --> 00:52:24,210 funny look. At that. 1251 00:52:24,210 --> 00:52:25,170 No, that is funny. OK. 1252 00:52:25,210 --> 00:52:27,490 Classic Dad. That's classic Dad, have you? 1253 00:52:28,160 --> 00:52:29,200 We're going on then. All right. 1254 00:52:33,040 --> 00:52:34,600 I forget about the no laughing part. 1255 00:52:34,760 --> 00:52:36,120 It's really, it's actually quite difficult. 1256 00:52:36,120 --> 00:52:42,200 It's really difficult. OK, I'm I'm choosing the one 1257 00:52:42,200 --> 00:52:46,680 that I want to say. What do you call a man with 1258 00:52:46,680 --> 00:52:50,520 nobody and no nose? I don't know. 1259 00:52:51,320 --> 00:52:57,360 Nobody knows. Oh, it's rough. 1260 00:52:58,000 --> 00:53:00,560 I'm doing, it's rough. I'm doing that thing that they 1261 00:53:00,560 --> 00:53:03,600 do when they just pull the face. I'm lost on laughing. 1262 00:53:05,520 --> 00:53:07,480 I'll get my Mike Hegarty's list out. 1263 00:53:07,880 --> 00:53:09,880 Why is everything way funny when you can't laugh? 1264 00:53:10,240 --> 00:53:11,600 This is hell. I'm sweating. 1265 00:53:14,840 --> 00:53:19,080 Some of these are bleak. 2 Lions walk through a shopping centre. 1266 00:53:19,680 --> 00:53:22,240 1 says server It's quiet today, every Saturday afternoon. 1267 00:53:29,320 --> 00:53:30,800 Was that like a delayed response? 1268 00:53:31,560 --> 00:53:34,240 No, I just. It was just so bad. 1269 00:53:34,240 --> 00:53:35,600 It's so bad. That's why I laughed. 1270 00:53:35,600 --> 00:53:36,720 It's so bad. Anita. 1271 00:53:37,480 --> 00:53:39,600 I'm trying to rein this in. I'll be off this show. 1272 00:53:39,800 --> 00:53:41,080 Yeah, right. OK. 1273 00:53:41,840 --> 00:53:45,840 It's hard, isn't it? Last one laughing when Ramesh. 1274 00:53:46,280 --> 00:53:49,640 Ramesh it is. Oh my God. 1275 00:53:50,400 --> 00:53:54,120 But also he needs like the thing of like the things of like you 1276 00:53:54,120 --> 00:53:57,120 can't laugh at it. So it made it funnier and then 1277 00:53:57,120 --> 00:54:00,720 that the Gordon Brown joke. Amazing, amazing and. 1278 00:54:00,720 --> 00:54:03,400 Just reading out things that he'd been called that was just 1279 00:54:03,400 --> 00:54:06,560 like that was a genius. And his face was Oh my God, 1280 00:54:06,560 --> 00:54:08,160 he's. Hilarious how he just says them 1281 00:54:08,160 --> 00:54:09,000 all out. Amazing. 1282 00:54:09,000 --> 00:54:11,360 He's like, he's like, I'd like you now to read them, say them 1283 00:54:11,360 --> 00:54:12,920 to my face. Incredible. 1284 00:54:12,920 --> 00:54:15,760 Oh my God, he's like, his eye looks like it's been in a 1285 00:54:15,760 --> 00:54:17,560 dishwasher. I was like. 1286 00:54:18,240 --> 00:54:19,960 I loved. It I could not. 1287 00:54:20,440 --> 00:54:24,840 That is such a good tactic. So good, right? 1288 00:54:25,240 --> 00:54:29,280 I think I got one more. This is what we say in the house 1289 00:54:29,280 --> 00:54:31,800 and you go when you stand up to leave, you go, Right, I'm off. 1290 00:54:31,880 --> 00:54:32,880 I thought I could smell something. 1291 00:54:32,880 --> 00:54:38,600 So. Fucking liver. 1292 00:54:39,040 --> 00:54:42,480 That bad you've got to be. That's bad, but I want to use 1293 00:54:42,480 --> 00:54:43,600 it. The first thing that came into 1294 00:54:43,600 --> 00:54:45,920 my head was, yeah, that's really good. 1295 00:54:47,120 --> 00:54:48,880 You can't get away with anything in my house about. 1296 00:54:48,960 --> 00:54:51,560 No, without a pun or like a joke coming. 1297 00:54:51,560 --> 00:54:53,680 Yeah, I like that. No, that is good. 1298 00:54:53,680 --> 00:54:57,280 Yeah, I'm going to use that. I like learning things like and 1299 00:54:57,280 --> 00:54:59,840 I clogged my head today. I've learned something today. 1300 00:55:00,400 --> 00:55:02,680 What what's the one thing you're going to take away from today? 1301 00:55:06,240 --> 00:55:10,160 Do your your I'm just reading the ones you sent me the. 1302 00:55:10,560 --> 00:55:13,520 The lesbian mom he's a. Lesbian mom. 1303 00:55:14,360 --> 00:55:16,840 Yeah, this is this is very. Oh my God, my. 1304 00:55:17,320 --> 00:55:19,320 I thought of someone I think. OK. 1305 00:55:19,360 --> 00:55:21,080 All right, I'll give it to you. Go on all. 1306 00:55:21,240 --> 00:55:25,560 Right. What's worse than two lesbians 1307 00:55:25,560 --> 00:55:28,160 running with scissors? I don't know. 1308 00:55:29,680 --> 00:55:36,320 Scissoring with the runs. That's not fair. 1309 00:55:36,760 --> 00:55:38,400 It's also just facts to live by, isn't it? 1310 00:55:39,120 --> 00:55:40,560 My. If you've ever had to worry 1311 00:55:40,560 --> 00:55:43,200 about what you should do when you have the runs, probably just 1312 00:55:43,200 --> 00:55:44,840 don't scissor. Don't do that. 1313 00:55:44,840 --> 00:55:47,680 Don't do that, no. Oh, Can you imagine? 1314 00:55:47,680 --> 00:55:49,600 What a mess. Oh, it's the only thing that 1315 00:55:49,600 --> 00:55:52,080 comes into my. Head Oh, he's got to clean up 1316 00:55:52,080 --> 00:55:56,000 that my brother, right? Really, really. 1317 00:55:56,000 --> 00:55:58,720 Recently we sat around the dinner table and bearing in mind 1318 00:55:58,720 --> 00:56:02,600 my grandma's there and my grandma, I think my grandma, my 1319 00:56:02,600 --> 00:56:04,960 grandma and grandda was there, My mum and dad were there and he 1320 00:56:04,960 --> 00:56:08,160 literally just sat on the table and he said in front of 1321 00:56:08,160 --> 00:56:10,680 everyone. It was like, what do you call a 1322 00:56:10,680 --> 00:56:11,760 lesbian dinosaur? Oh. 1323 00:56:12,520 --> 00:56:15,120 I know this one. Lick a lot of puss. 1324 00:56:16,880 --> 00:56:19,080 How did that go? Imagine that round the table. 1325 00:56:19,080 --> 00:56:24,160 I was like, you fucking bastard. I was like, and we all just 1326 00:56:24,160 --> 00:56:26,640 looked at each other and he looked at me and was like, and 1327 00:56:26,640 --> 00:56:31,760 he's just this reminder of like, do you know what I mean? 1328 00:56:31,760 --> 00:56:33,800 I'm just like, oh, there's nothing better than a like 1329 00:56:33,800 --> 00:56:37,800 you're thinking about. You're thinking about licking 1330 00:56:38,160 --> 00:56:39,400 me. I was like, are you? 1331 00:56:39,560 --> 00:56:41,560 We're all, I'm like, oh, this is horrible. 1332 00:56:41,600 --> 00:56:43,680 And we all just sat there and my dad would like, I could see my 1333 00:56:43,680 --> 00:56:46,280 daughter go and then like trying not to laugh. 1334 00:56:46,480 --> 00:56:48,520 My mum was that I remember was like cutting carrots or 1335 00:56:48,520 --> 00:56:50,040 something. She was like you could see a 1336 00:56:50,040 --> 00:56:53,840 shaking front behind and I think I don't think my grandma got it. 1337 00:56:53,840 --> 00:56:55,960 I was like, never mind my grandma moving on. 1338 00:56:55,960 --> 00:56:57,920 Oh my God, save me, swallow me whole. 1339 00:56:58,240 --> 00:56:59,760 This is horrendous. Why is? 1340 00:56:59,920 --> 00:57:01,680 It it's always at the dinner table. 1341 00:57:02,000 --> 00:57:06,000 Always at the dinner table. Yeah, hate crime central dinner 1342 00:57:06,000 --> 00:57:08,200 table. That was a hate crime and he 1343 00:57:08,200 --> 00:57:09,640 knew what he was doing his well, he was like. 1344 00:57:10,400 --> 00:57:11,760 Well, I used. To make that a joke with. 1345 00:57:11,760 --> 00:57:13,520 My sister. Then I came out as gay. 1346 00:57:13,640 --> 00:57:15,120 That was the bit. And then I became the joke of 1347 00:57:15,120 --> 00:57:17,440 the family. Because your sister's gay as 1348 00:57:17,560 --> 00:57:18,200 well. Yeah. 1349 00:57:18,320 --> 00:57:25,400 So she came up first. Oh yeah, I am. 1350 00:57:25,400 --> 00:57:28,720 I'm really, really mad for that. Oh God, yeah, she's going to be 1351 00:57:28,720 --> 00:57:32,320 a dyke for AIM Doc Martins. I was like, what do you mean? 1352 00:57:32,760 --> 00:57:33,360 Yeah, again. And. 1353 00:57:33,760 --> 00:57:37,440 Like read the room, it is true. I'm like, yeah, I am, but also 1354 00:57:37,440 --> 00:57:39,320 why? Why are you slurring at me? 1355 00:57:39,480 --> 00:57:41,960 Yeah, when you're a lesbian. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 1356 00:57:42,480 --> 00:57:43,840 It was actually quite funny, to be fair. 1357 00:57:43,840 --> 00:57:45,920 I'll give her. That well, you can she actually. 1358 00:57:45,920 --> 00:57:48,640 Was two of you? No, there's three of us, so 1359 00:57:48,640 --> 00:57:50,120 there's the straight one in the middle. 1360 00:57:50,960 --> 00:57:52,480 A sister. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 1361 00:57:52,480 --> 00:57:54,840 So 3 girls, 1 straight. Debatable though. 1362 00:57:54,880 --> 00:57:55,800 Never know. There's always time. 1363 00:57:56,480 --> 00:57:59,360 How old is she? Yeah, yeah. 1364 00:57:59,400 --> 00:58:00,240 How old? 2 old. 1365 00:58:00,240 --> 00:58:04,120 Them Oh, it's too old to become. She's 30, 737. 1366 00:58:04,240 --> 00:58:05,720 Oh well, now there is still time. 1367 00:58:05,840 --> 00:58:07,920 There is. I reckon she's about to pop out 1368 00:58:07,920 --> 00:58:09,720 her third so probably after that. 1369 00:58:09,720 --> 00:58:11,760 After that, get the get the kids out. 1370 00:58:11,760 --> 00:58:13,840 Yeah, get all the kids out and then just move. 1371 00:58:13,840 --> 00:58:15,320 On see the light. Yeah, yeah. 1372 00:58:15,320 --> 00:58:16,520 I don't think it will take her a lot. 1373 00:58:16,520 --> 00:58:17,720 See the light. Yeah. 1374 00:58:17,720 --> 00:58:19,520 Come on, Lauren. Just carry on dating men, you'll 1375 00:58:19,520 --> 00:58:23,560 figure out. Yeah, I think she's close, to be 1376 00:58:23,560 --> 00:58:24,840 honest. Yeah, Yeah. 1377 00:58:26,160 --> 00:58:30,080 But I always think whenever you hear talk about like dinner 1378 00:58:30,080 --> 00:58:32,680 table conversations as well though, like having a straight 1379 00:58:32,680 --> 00:58:34,920 sister, used to having a lesbian sister, but when the straight 1380 00:58:34,920 --> 00:58:36,720 sister sits down with like the husband and they're like, we're 1381 00:58:36,720 --> 00:58:39,840 trying for a baby, I'm like, so you're having sex. 1382 00:58:39,840 --> 00:58:42,240 Is that what you're trying to? Is that what you're trying to 1383 00:58:42,240 --> 00:58:45,160 announce to the table? It's always funny, isn't it, 1384 00:58:45,160 --> 00:58:47,760 when people are like, I would like to announce that we're 1385 00:58:47,920 --> 00:58:49,560 trying for a baby. So you just announced at dinner 1386 00:58:49,560 --> 00:58:52,160 table that you're raw dogging. Yeah, that's what's happening. 1387 00:58:52,640 --> 00:58:54,400 You're announcing in front of grandma. 1388 00:58:54,480 --> 00:58:56,560 We've all thought about. There's no protection. 1389 00:58:56,560 --> 00:58:57,960 Yeah, You're just raw dogging everything. 1390 00:58:58,080 --> 00:59:01,440 And thank you for sharing that. Yeah, I eat my potatoes. 1391 00:59:01,800 --> 00:59:04,840 Before, I mean, Farrell, it's been so nice to get to know you 1392 00:59:04,920 --> 00:59:07,760 and and just understand a little bit more about like where you've 1393 00:59:07,760 --> 00:59:09,960 come from as well. Like, it's so nice to see this 1394 00:59:09,960 --> 00:59:12,440 after I've seen all the different content of yours and, 1395 00:59:12,440 --> 00:59:15,320 and you're acting and just knowing kind of the person 1396 00:59:15,320 --> 00:59:18,000 behind all of that. It's always so nice to see. 1397 00:59:18,040 --> 00:59:20,080 And you are an absolute babe as well. 1398 00:59:20,120 --> 00:59:22,640 You're so lovely. And you never know how someone's 1399 00:59:22,640 --> 00:59:23,960 gonna be. You never. 1400 00:59:23,960 --> 00:59:27,400 Know yeah, yeah. And you're like people, and 1401 00:59:27,400 --> 00:59:29,360 you're like. You're one of the first people 1402 00:59:29,360 --> 00:59:31,400 I've actually had on that I've never had like an actual 1403 00:59:31,400 --> 00:59:32,520 conversation. Oh, really? 1404 00:59:32,840 --> 00:59:33,800 Yeah. Oh, yeah. 1405 00:59:33,800 --> 00:59:35,800 It's always a risk, isn't it? It was a risk. 1406 00:59:35,800 --> 00:59:39,200 It was a message, Yeah. No, I'm very pleasantly 1407 00:59:39,200 --> 00:59:41,600 surprised and I love hearing about your story as well. 1408 00:59:41,600 --> 00:59:43,960 I think in a way it's kind of nice because the other guests 1409 00:59:43,960 --> 00:59:45,720 that I have on, I'm like, okay, I kind of know. 1410 00:59:45,880 --> 00:59:48,200 Pretty much all of this. Already, So I'm like locked in 1411 00:59:48,200 --> 00:59:50,840 listening, but is there anything else that you wanted to talk 1412 00:59:50,840 --> 00:59:53,320 about before you go? No, I don't think. 1413 00:59:54,120 --> 00:59:55,720 Have you got anything coming up that? 1414 00:59:55,720 --> 00:59:57,760 You're what have I got coming up? 1415 00:59:57,920 --> 01:00:01,040 I'm just, I'm just fanning about online. 1416 01:00:01,160 --> 01:00:03,640 Yeah, funny what I'm doing some days. 1417 01:00:03,640 --> 01:00:05,480 I'm like, why is this my job? It's so wild. 1418 01:00:06,040 --> 01:00:08,080 Yeah. Just like, what is life? 1419 01:00:09,120 --> 01:00:10,240 Yeah. No, it's nice to come out and 1420 01:00:10,240 --> 01:00:13,560 stuff like this and like just share like because it's as I 1421 01:00:13,600 --> 01:00:17,960 said recently, like, oh, I'm going to try and like talk more 1422 01:00:17,960 --> 01:00:20,160 about. Myself, you know, makes me like 1423 01:00:20,640 --> 01:00:25,280 die inside, but I did, I talked about something really recently 1424 01:00:25,560 --> 01:00:28,560 and then I had someone reach out to me and be like, oh, I 1425 01:00:28,560 --> 01:00:30,920 literally left my husband like, oh, I've just come out of a 1426 01:00:31,200 --> 01:00:33,680 straight relationship at like I think she's like 39 or 1427 01:00:33,680 --> 01:00:35,320 something. She was like, I love hearing 1428 01:00:35,320 --> 01:00:38,200 stories like this because it like, gives me, like, hope. 1429 01:00:38,200 --> 01:00:40,560 And I was just like, OK, maybe I do need to like, talk about, 1430 01:00:40,560 --> 01:00:43,480 like, coming out and also being, like, super like, happy. 1431 01:00:43,680 --> 01:00:45,600 Yeah. Like, I've never been as happy 1432 01:00:45,600 --> 01:00:47,720 as, like, I didn't know, like, you know, like the queer joy. 1433 01:00:47,720 --> 01:00:51,680 I'm like, you're so gay. And I'm like, I know it's been 1434 01:00:51,720 --> 01:00:54,080 great. I was like, I'm so happy because 1435 01:00:54,080 --> 01:00:55,800 I never knew that this could be a feeling. 1436 01:00:55,800 --> 01:00:56,440 So like. Yeah. 1437 01:00:57,360 --> 01:01:00,000 That's amazing that I'm so. Glad you've been start finding 1438 01:01:00,000 --> 01:01:01,080 your wife. Exactly. 1439 01:01:01,200 --> 01:01:03,640 Amen to that. No, but that that is the thing. 1440 01:01:03,640 --> 01:01:06,040 And we've always said that like on this pod as well, like we 1441 01:01:06,040 --> 01:01:08,600 talk about a lot of experiences that we've already gone through 1442 01:01:08,600 --> 01:01:10,960 like maybe like years ago. So sometimes we can kind of 1443 01:01:10,960 --> 01:01:13,200 brush over a little bit because we're like, but for somebody 1444 01:01:13,200 --> 01:01:17,640 else listening that said right now, you know, so it doesn't 1445 01:01:17,640 --> 01:01:20,920 hurt to like go into that and there will be women listening to 1446 01:01:20,920 --> 01:01:24,320 this now that are in that situation or have been or are 1447 01:01:24,400 --> 01:01:26,840 thinking about it, you know, that haven't even made that step 1448 01:01:26,840 --> 01:01:27,280 yet. So. 1449 01:01:27,360 --> 01:01:31,480 Or if you're in the mix of it, it does get better. 1450 01:01:31,480 --> 01:01:32,720 Oh my God, it gets so much better. 1451 01:01:32,800 --> 01:01:35,360 Yeah, it always does. It always does. 1452 01:01:35,360 --> 01:01:36,560 It's going. To be great. 1453 01:01:36,920 --> 01:01:39,880 Better with a woman, I'm sorry. Yeah, you can have a great time. 1454 01:01:40,480 --> 01:01:42,640 It's going to be. Fantastic and do the long 1455 01:01:42,640 --> 01:01:44,840 distance thing. Try it out, you know, or do 1456 01:01:45,200 --> 01:01:48,080 throw yourself into different cultures, different experiences. 1457 01:01:48,080 --> 01:01:50,120 I think that that's always what's so nice about long 1458 01:01:50,120 --> 01:01:52,360 distance relationships to it really like broadens your 1459 01:01:52,360 --> 01:01:54,840 horizons on a different way of life. 1460 01:01:54,880 --> 01:01:56,880 And also I feel like when it feels, when you feel something 1461 01:01:56,880 --> 01:01:59,880 feels right, like, you know, like I also think for me when I, 1462 01:01:59,960 --> 01:02:03,560 I was ignoring so many like gut feelings of like, I'm happy. 1463 01:02:03,560 --> 01:02:06,440 I promise I'm happy in both women and women. 1464 01:02:06,440 --> 01:02:09,320 Like you know that thing and like if it's not right, go. 1465 01:02:09,320 --> 01:02:12,040 Don't waste your life. It's you don't have I mean Katty 1466 01:02:12,040 --> 01:02:14,240 on the the episode just before this was just like normalize 1467 01:02:14,240 --> 01:02:17,360 breaking up. Yeah, like it's OK. 1468 01:02:17,560 --> 01:02:19,520 That is OK. Like this is really shit. 1469 01:02:19,520 --> 01:02:22,000 I'm not happy. Like you shouldn't be sad all 1470 01:02:22,000 --> 01:02:25,320 the time and you shouldn't be have that feeling in your 1471 01:02:25,320 --> 01:02:27,440 stomach where you're like worried about stuff. 1472 01:02:27,440 --> 01:02:29,440 It should just be like. Was on edge, walking on egg 1473 01:02:29,440 --> 01:02:31,240 shells, whatever. That is the worst. 1474 01:02:31,560 --> 01:02:34,880 But I'm so glad that you finally found your way out of that. 1475 01:02:34,880 --> 01:02:37,800 And it really also doesn't matter like what age you were or 1476 01:02:37,920 --> 01:02:39,560 don't listen to anyone who has to say that. 1477 01:02:39,560 --> 01:02:42,640 Sorry, I had that song. I had that then when I've been 1478 01:02:42,640 --> 01:02:44,280 lurking, but that's where my brain went. 1479 01:02:44,280 --> 01:02:45,800 I started clicking and then just didn't do. 1480 01:02:45,800 --> 01:02:47,400 Anything. I already tried to diagnose you 1481 01:02:47,440 --> 01:02:49,560 earlier. Oh, I'm done diagnosed. 1482 01:02:49,680 --> 01:02:52,920 Oh. I my DMS are literally, I get a 1483 01:02:52,920 --> 01:02:55,520 message at least twice a week. We're like, have you got any HD? 1484 01:02:55,520 --> 01:02:58,560 I'm like, I'm like, I'm undiagnosed. 1485 01:02:58,560 --> 01:03:00,400 I didn't fill out the form. It's too complicated. 1486 01:03:00,920 --> 01:03:02,200 It's 11 pages. What do you want? 1487 01:03:02,200 --> 01:03:04,600 Me to do. I swear that's the test if you 1488 01:03:04,600 --> 01:03:07,000 don't send the form back and they just send you a 1489 01:03:07,000 --> 01:03:08,280 certificate. So you guys? 1490 01:03:08,600 --> 01:03:12,080 Are you still waiting for it? I just get a messages being like 1491 01:03:12,080 --> 01:03:15,040 you never filled out the form far and I'm like I know. 1492 01:03:15,240 --> 01:03:18,680 Do you know what my, my private assessment that I went through? 1493 01:03:18,960 --> 01:03:21,760 I love it because they like cater their emails obviously to 1494 01:03:21,760 --> 01:03:24,280 like ADHD people. I was, I might have ADHD, but 1495 01:03:24,280 --> 01:03:27,120 I'm not fucking 12. Like the emails are just like 1496 01:03:27,120 --> 01:03:29,600 loads of emojis and they're like, we've got your follow up 1497 01:03:29,600 --> 01:03:33,000 letter. It's like mailbox letter big :) 1498 01:03:33,040 --> 01:03:34,520 well, I've done so much and I'm like, oh. 1499 01:03:34,880 --> 01:03:37,600 My, I think I'd appreciate that. I'm like, oh, thank you. 1500 01:03:38,400 --> 01:03:40,840 It's just like we're only going to send you one sentence in this 1501 01:03:40,840 --> 01:03:43,040 e-mail. If one thumbs up, I'm like hack, 1502 01:03:43,040 --> 01:03:43,920 thank you. Yeah. 1503 01:03:43,920 --> 01:03:48,600 I'm like I've got like text messages like long text messages 1504 01:03:48,960 --> 01:03:52,880 or when people if you send me like 4 messages before doing a 1505 01:03:52,880 --> 01:03:55,000 bit of information, I'm only reading the last one. 1506 01:03:55,040 --> 01:03:56,600 So I can do. It I miss shit. 1507 01:03:56,800 --> 01:03:58,640 Yeah, I miss everything. I feel like you haven't read 1508 01:03:58,640 --> 01:03:59,480 that message. I mean, I'm like. 1509 01:04:00,160 --> 01:04:01,600 No, I can't do it with voice notes. 1510 01:04:02,160 --> 01:04:03,840 I can do it with messages, but not with voice notes because if 1511 01:04:03,840 --> 01:04:05,880 I can't like see it all there, I've already forgotten what the 1512 01:04:05,880 --> 01:04:08,040 first voice out. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, I'd write 1513 01:04:08,040 --> 01:04:10,320 notes. Obviously what you said about 1514 01:04:10,320 --> 01:04:11,840 the first, I've forgotten it already. 1515 01:04:12,120 --> 01:04:14,640 You're there, glasses on another day, it's like 10. 1516 01:04:14,640 --> 01:04:16,320 Minutes. Roll yeah. 1517 01:04:16,560 --> 01:04:20,480 Going back to your first point. No, that is literally how I have 1518 01:04:20,480 --> 01:04:23,360 to respond in the end because I have to like really strategize 1519 01:04:23,360 --> 01:04:26,320 myself and so I end up like sounding like I'm in a fucking 1520 01:04:26,320 --> 01:04:29,760 board meeting whenever I try and replace anyone. .1 Yeah. 1521 01:04:30,640 --> 01:04:33,440 Fucking dump him. Yeah, but thank you so much. 1522 01:04:33,440 --> 01:04:36,200 Well, it was so nice to meet me. And where can the lesbians find 1523 01:04:36,200 --> 01:04:38,800 you? They can find me at Pharrell 1524 01:04:38,800 --> 01:04:40,960 Hegarty on both TikTok and Insta. 1525 01:04:41,120 --> 01:04:42,520 Amazing. I'll also put it in the Lincoln 1526 01:04:42,520 --> 01:04:44,480 bio as well. But thanks again and I can't 1527 01:04:44,480 --> 01:04:46,040 wait for you guys to see her if you haven't already. 1528 01:04:46,440 --> 01:04:48,320 Thank you babe. Goodbye lesbians. 1529 01:04:48,480 --> 01:04:49,960 We'll speak to you next week. Love you.