1 00:00:02,700 --> 00:00:06,400 This is the nourishing, Amy podcast and I am your host, Amy 2 00:00:06,400 --> 00:00:09,100 Rankin. I'm an emotional intelligence 3 00:00:09,100 --> 00:00:12,900 and well-being coach and a mum. And I am here to help you to 4 00:00:12,900 --> 00:00:16,100 find your sparkle. Again, we are going to chat 5 00:00:16,100 --> 00:00:20,100 about mindset, mum life, self-development pulling 6 00:00:20,100 --> 00:00:23,200 yourself out when you need to, because life isn't perfect, 7 00:00:23,200 --> 00:00:25,600 right? And basically learning to become 8 00:00:25,600 --> 00:00:30,700 a happier version of you think of this as your time, For you, 9 00:00:30,900 --> 00:00:34,200 I'm here to help you understand yourself, more feel, less 10 00:00:34,200 --> 00:00:36,300 overwhelmed, and more self-confident. 11 00:00:36,300 --> 00:00:40,000 And to navigate the ups and downs of life, if you're ready 12 00:00:40,000 --> 00:00:43,400 for all of that and more, let's get into today's episode. 13 00:00:48,600 --> 00:00:52,500 Hello and welcome to episode 121 of the nourishing. 14 00:00:52,500 --> 00:00:56,600 Amy podcast, today's episode is going to be a little life update 15 00:00:56,600 --> 00:00:58,500 for you. I know I mentioned in the last 16 00:00:58,500 --> 00:01:04,400 episode that I've had some time off, things have felt really out 17 00:01:04,400 --> 00:01:07,200 of control. I would say in the last few 18 00:01:07,200 --> 00:01:11,100 months, really busy really crazy. 19 00:01:11,100 --> 00:01:14,000 I felt a little bit crazy for a little while there. 20 00:01:14,600 --> 00:01:19,000 Yeah, look, it's just been a lot and I want to talk Through some 21 00:01:19,000 --> 00:01:21,500 things that I've really been enjoying some habits that have 22 00:01:21,500 --> 00:01:24,500 been helping me to get back to myself and be feeling really 23 00:01:24,500 --> 00:01:27,000 good. Again, some podcasts. 24 00:01:27,000 --> 00:01:28,600 I've been listening to some books. 25 00:01:28,600 --> 00:01:33,700 I've been reading updates on different habits, that the kids 26 00:01:33,700 --> 00:01:37,400 have things, like, you know, eating breastfeeding, sleep 27 00:01:37,400 --> 00:01:38,800 routines, all that kind of stuff. 28 00:01:38,800 --> 00:01:42,100 Basically, all of the questions I get over on my Instagram. 29 00:01:42,100 --> 00:01:45,900 I want to go through them with you and yeah just do a bit of an 30 00:01:45,900 --> 00:01:48,400 update. I also want to talk about my My 31 00:01:48,408 --> 00:01:50,700 personal experience with postnatal depression. 32 00:01:50,900 --> 00:01:53,600 Of course, this is going to be different for everybody, but 33 00:01:53,600 --> 00:01:56,200 it's another topic that I have been getting questions about 34 00:01:56,200 --> 00:01:59,100 whenever I pop up a question box on my Instagram as well. 35 00:01:59,600 --> 00:02:03,200 So I'll dive into what it looked like for me or also what it 36 00:02:03,200 --> 00:02:06,700 currently looks like for me and how I'm navigating some 37 00:02:06,700 --> 00:02:09,500 different warning signs that I noticed coming up for me and 38 00:02:09,500 --> 00:02:12,500 what eventually led me to actually going and making an 39 00:02:12,500 --> 00:02:17,500 appointment with my daughter? So I mean look as you know, from 40 00:02:17,500 --> 00:02:20,800 my last episode, We have welcomed beautiful little Lila 41 00:02:20,800 --> 00:02:24,500 into the world and it's just been a bit of a ride. 42 00:02:24,500 --> 00:02:27,300 So I am actually back at work now. 43 00:02:27,300 --> 00:02:31,800 So, Lila is 8 months old, I went back to work having my 44 00:02:31,800 --> 00:02:33,900 one-on-one clients back in January. 45 00:02:33,900 --> 00:02:37,100 So Lila was nearly six months old, so she was five and a half 46 00:02:37,100 --> 00:02:39,800 months. When I went back, I was quite 47 00:02:39,800 --> 00:02:44,600 emotional about it at the end of last year, but I think I'm glad 48 00:02:44,600 --> 00:02:48,300 that I made that decision and gave myself about a month and a 49 00:02:48,308 --> 00:02:49,600 half. A half or two months to really 50 00:02:49,600 --> 00:02:51,400 get used to the idea of going back. 51 00:02:51,400 --> 00:02:54,400 What seemed so soon to me? Because I didn't actually go 52 00:02:54,400 --> 00:02:57,600 back taking one-on-one clients with Ali until he was about nine 53 00:02:57,600 --> 00:03:01,600 months old and so she's at daycare. 54 00:03:01,600 --> 00:03:04,100 So, both of the kids are at daycare Mondays and Tuesdays, 55 00:03:04,100 --> 00:03:08,000 which means that Mondays and Tuesdays are a lot of the time 56 00:03:08,000 --> 00:03:10,500 during the week some of my favorite days of the week 57 00:03:10,500 --> 00:03:14,000 because anybody that has kids knows that they are very 58 00:03:14,000 --> 00:03:17,800 unpredictable and things can really just hit the fan at a 59 00:03:17,808 --> 00:03:20,700 minutes notice. S and Mondays and Tuesdays are. 60 00:03:20,700 --> 00:03:25,000 Now my days that I really enjoy. Like I'm a routine person. 61 00:03:25,000 --> 00:03:27,500 I love structure. I love to know what's going on. 62 00:03:27,700 --> 00:03:30,800 If you have listened to any of my other podcast or heard me 63 00:03:30,808 --> 00:03:34,300 talking about the certainty driver in our hoop, incites 64 00:03:34,300 --> 00:03:38,200 human, psychological needs, I very much lean towards that 65 00:03:38,200 --> 00:03:41,100 certainty driver and I definitely lean away from the 66 00:03:41,100 --> 00:03:45,800 variety driver. So yeah, there's been a lot of 67 00:03:45,800 --> 00:03:51,700 challenges with my certainty. I've a feeling very pushed to 68 00:03:51,700 --> 00:03:56,500 its limits and not really met a lot of the time recently which 69 00:03:56,500 --> 00:03:58,700 has meant that I've had to really Embrace that variety 70 00:03:58,700 --> 00:04:01,900 driver. So my Mondays and Tuesdays, 71 00:04:02,100 --> 00:04:04,400 they're my two days that I know their structure. 72 00:04:04,400 --> 00:04:07,400 I know this routine, like, if a client is booked in at 10 a.m. 73 00:04:07,400 --> 00:04:09,600 I know exactly what I'm doing. At 10 a.m. 74 00:04:09,600 --> 00:04:12,500 I know who I'm talking to, I've got a general idea of what we're 75 00:04:12,500 --> 00:04:16,399 going to be talking about and I just feel like they're my two 76 00:04:16,399 --> 00:04:18,200 days that I'm like, right? I know what? 77 00:04:18,399 --> 00:04:20,700 A happen on these days and that feels really good. 78 00:04:20,899 --> 00:04:24,300 But also what I've really enjoyed is that also allows me 79 00:04:24,300 --> 00:04:27,900 to lean into that variety driver and that variety side of myself 80 00:04:28,000 --> 00:04:31,800 on the other days of the week without feeling like, it's too 81 00:04:31,800 --> 00:04:33,900 much variety. So I feel like, I've got a 82 00:04:33,900 --> 00:04:35,600 pretty good balance at the moment. 83 00:04:35,700 --> 00:04:39,200 I've also been doing some workshops, which I'm absolutely 84 00:04:39,200 --> 00:04:41,300 loving. I'm partnered with a few 85 00:04:41,800 --> 00:04:46,200 beautiful, Pilates studios and gyms on the Central Coast where 86 00:04:46,200 --> 00:04:48,000 I live and I just absolutely love it. 87 00:04:48,000 --> 00:04:50,900 I love I love being able to be back in front of people again. 88 00:04:50,900 --> 00:04:53,800 Now that we're not in lockdowns and just creating that 89 00:04:53,800 --> 00:04:56,500 connection talking to people about, you know, what lights 90 00:04:56,500 --> 00:04:58,100 them up, what? They might be struggling with 91 00:04:58,100 --> 00:05:00,700 some mind catching mindset changes that we can be bringing 92 00:05:00,700 --> 00:05:05,200 in and, of course, lots and lots of admin that I've been doing. 93 00:05:05,200 --> 00:05:09,000 I also have been leading into doing a bit more content 94 00:05:09,000 --> 00:05:11,500 creation. So I'm really, really lucky to 95 00:05:11,500 --> 00:05:14,200 have a little bit of a Following over on Instagram. 96 00:05:14,200 --> 00:05:17,100 I would say it's very much in the micro micro influencer 97 00:05:17,100 --> 00:05:21,100 field, but Partnered with some really fantastic brands that I 98 00:05:21,100 --> 00:05:24,400 am absolutely loving, at the moment, I won't partner with 99 00:05:24,400 --> 00:05:27,600 anybody that I don't that doesn't align with me or that I 100 00:05:27,600 --> 00:05:29,600 don't actually use myself anyway. 101 00:05:29,900 --> 00:05:32,600 So it's kind of a win-win because I'm like, I mean, I'm 102 00:05:32,600 --> 00:05:35,700 using your products or Services anyway yes. 103 00:05:35,700 --> 00:05:39,100 I would love to make a real. I have a very creative side to 104 00:05:39,100 --> 00:05:42,100 myself. I used to own an online clothing 105 00:05:42,100 --> 00:05:47,600 store and I loved the Photoshop aspect in the creating back then 106 00:05:47,600 --> 00:05:50,500 it on in Graham, it was very much about creating static 107 00:05:50,500 --> 00:05:53,500 posts. So I love doing flat, lays and 108 00:05:53,500 --> 00:05:57,700 being creative in that way and styling, and getting onto 109 00:05:57,700 --> 00:06:00,500 Photoshop and, you know, putting text onto my photos and all of 110 00:06:00,508 --> 00:06:03,500 that kind of stuff. So I guess content creation is 111 00:06:03,500 --> 00:06:06,900 just like an extension of that. It's like my creation has 112 00:06:06,900 --> 00:06:10,500 evolved as the technology around us is evolving as well. 113 00:06:10,500 --> 00:06:13,400 So that's something that I'm really enjoying. 114 00:06:13,600 --> 00:06:16,100 Also just getting out of the house to do. 115 00:06:16,100 --> 00:06:20,600 My admin is something that I'm finding is really helping me to 116 00:06:20,600 --> 00:06:24,600 thrive at the moment. So instead of like, I don't know 117 00:06:24,600 --> 00:06:27,400 about you, but I just feel like when I've got a lot of admin to 118 00:06:27,400 --> 00:06:30,800 do, and I'm in my office and you may have seen, I did a bit of a 119 00:06:30,800 --> 00:06:33,500 office. Oh my gosh. 120 00:06:33,500 --> 00:06:36,000 It's pouring rain. It literally just started 121 00:06:36,000 --> 00:06:38,300 pouring rain. It's sunny outside. 122 00:06:38,600 --> 00:06:41,700 And I just hung a load of washing out on the line. 123 00:06:41,700 --> 00:06:44,500 Oh, anyway. That's not the point back to 124 00:06:44,500 --> 00:06:46,800 what I was talking about. I don't know about you, but I 125 00:06:46,800 --> 00:06:48,900 get really distracted. When I'm Working at home. 126 00:06:48,900 --> 00:06:51,900 So like I was saying, I did a office refresh and I love my 127 00:06:51,900 --> 00:06:55,800 office space, I find that because like all of my work that 128 00:06:55,800 --> 00:06:59,500 I do is working from home with my clients and my admin that I 129 00:06:59,500 --> 00:07:02,300 need to have a space, that feels really inviting for me. 130 00:07:02,300 --> 00:07:05,600 So I did that and I did a big Kmart Hall at the start of the 131 00:07:05,608 --> 00:07:08,100 year and just reset my office space and I love it. 132 00:07:08,100 --> 00:07:12,600 But I do find that because I'm at home I just get so 133 00:07:12,600 --> 00:07:14,400 distracted. I'm like oh I'll just quickly 134 00:07:14,400 --> 00:07:17,700 pick up the kids toys or I'll just quickly vacuum and mop or 135 00:07:17,900 --> 00:07:20,600 I'll just Really quickly do this or cook dinner for tonight. 136 00:07:20,600 --> 00:07:23,000 So, it's ready. And I just get so distracted. 137 00:07:23,000 --> 00:07:27,900 And I started to notice that when I was on my way home from 138 00:07:27,900 --> 00:07:31,500 dropping the kids to daycare, if I had a little bit of a break in 139 00:07:31,500 --> 00:07:35,300 between one-on-one clients, I would take myself to a cafe and 140 00:07:35,300 --> 00:07:39,000 take my laptop and I am so productive. 141 00:07:39,000 --> 00:07:43,400 I could do be there for two hours and do a whole entire days 142 00:07:43,400 --> 00:07:45,800 worth of admin, that would normally take me a whole day at 143 00:07:45,800 --> 00:07:47,600 home. So, that's another thing that 144 00:07:47,600 --> 00:07:49,500 I've been. Really enjoying and something 145 00:07:49,500 --> 00:07:53,000 that I think comes under the episode that I was talking about 146 00:07:53,000 --> 00:07:56,300 last episode, as well of just being really intentional with 147 00:07:56,300 --> 00:07:57,900 the things that I'm doing for myself. 148 00:07:57,900 --> 00:08:01,900 Like, Timmy getting out of the house having time for myself and 149 00:08:01,900 --> 00:08:04,000 being really productive and getting a lot of work done. 150 00:08:04,000 --> 00:08:07,300 That feels really good for me and so, I definitely don't take 151 00:08:07,300 --> 00:08:09,700 that for granted. I'm really Mindful and like I 152 00:08:09,700 --> 00:08:13,000 find it a bit of a treat if I'm going to go and order myself a 153 00:08:13,000 --> 00:08:15,600 coffee which is a decaf coffee at the moment. 154 00:08:15,600 --> 00:08:17,700 Again, if you follow me on Instagram, you would have seen 155 00:08:17,700 --> 00:08:19,300 that. I've actually Giving up caffeine 156 00:08:20,100 --> 00:08:24,400 for a little while and I am feeling amazing. 157 00:08:24,500 --> 00:08:27,300 I actually don't know if I'm going to go back to drinking 158 00:08:27,300 --> 00:08:30,000 coffee, but I'm going to do a whole nother episode on that. 159 00:08:30,000 --> 00:08:34,400 Maybe next episode, I'm going to talk about just ways that we can 160 00:08:34,400 --> 00:08:37,000 change our habits and habits that you might notice that 161 00:08:37,000 --> 00:08:39,700 aren't serving you as well as what they used to and what to 162 00:08:39,708 --> 00:08:44,300 do, if you want to change them. So, yeah, that is me some things 163 00:08:44,300 --> 00:08:47,100 that I have been really enjoying lately. 164 00:08:47,100 --> 00:08:49,800 I am obsessed. East with Tick-Tock. 165 00:08:50,100 --> 00:08:54,000 I'm probably a little bit late on the bandwagon, like but I 166 00:08:54,000 --> 00:08:58,400 just, I love it. I am following some amazing 167 00:08:58,400 --> 00:09:02,400 content creators on there and I just, I don't know, I was I feel 168 00:09:02,400 --> 00:09:05,400 like I learned so much and like there for you page. 169 00:09:05,400 --> 00:09:09,100 Their algorithm is just on point. 170 00:09:09,100 --> 00:09:11,200 So I'm really, really loving that. 171 00:09:11,200 --> 00:09:15,900 I follow a mixture of like lifestyle influences and videos 172 00:09:15,900 --> 00:09:21,700 and like Kmart halls and Mindset staff and inspirational. 173 00:09:21,700 --> 00:09:24,300 I don't know. I just I just love it and I've 174 00:09:24,300 --> 00:09:27,200 also actually in the last few weeks, really gotten back into 175 00:09:27,200 --> 00:09:33,200 creating over on Tick-Tock again to I feel a lot more authentic 176 00:09:33,200 --> 00:09:35,300 on Tick Tock. I don't really know if that 177 00:09:35,500 --> 00:09:38,700 explains it, I don't know. I just feel like Instagram for 178 00:09:38,700 --> 00:09:41,800 me has always been a place that's been quite curated. 179 00:09:41,800 --> 00:09:45,800 And, you know, it was the OG place for like filters and all 180 00:09:45,800 --> 00:09:48,100 of that kind of stuff. And I love that. 181 00:09:48,200 --> 00:09:50,400 Curation. I love that creative side of me 182 00:09:50,400 --> 00:09:53,000 where I'm like, all that would be a really nice photo. 183 00:09:53,000 --> 00:09:56,000 Like, that's nice aesthetic. But Tick-Tock, I'm like, you 184 00:09:56,008 --> 00:09:57,500 know what? If I'm just getting out of bed 185 00:09:57,500 --> 00:10:00,000 and I've got no makeup on and I don't feel that great. 186 00:10:00,000 --> 00:10:02,600 I am still more than happy to record a video if there's 187 00:10:02,600 --> 00:10:05,500 something on my mind. So they're just a bit of a 188 00:10:05,508 --> 00:10:07,300 different vibe. So if you don't follow me on, 189 00:10:07,300 --> 00:10:09,700 Tik-Tok, maybe come and check it out and just see if you maybe 190 00:10:09,700 --> 00:10:13,700 prefer that Vibe and some other things, I'm enjoying just 191 00:10:13,700 --> 00:10:15,200 getting out and having some fresh air. 192 00:10:15,200 --> 00:10:18,100 I'm really feeling like that is so important. 193 00:10:18,200 --> 00:10:21,000 My mental health, the differences that I'm noticing 194 00:10:21,000 --> 00:10:24,000 with the transition from one to two children. 195 00:10:24,000 --> 00:10:27,500 The biggest thing that I'm noticing is I feel like because 196 00:10:27,500 --> 00:10:31,600 Oleum, Lila nap, most of the time at different times or 197 00:10:31,600 --> 00:10:35,500 they'll overlap a little bit. I used to have what felt like a 198 00:10:35,500 --> 00:10:40,200 lot more time on my hands with just one to be able to like get 199 00:10:40,200 --> 00:10:43,200 out and go for a walk. Like if Ali was I knew going to 200 00:10:43,200 --> 00:10:45,300 have an awake window for like two and a half hours. 201 00:10:45,300 --> 00:10:48,200 I could jump in the car and go for a walk or pop him in the The 202 00:10:48,208 --> 00:10:51,000 carrier and go for a walk and I can't really do that now. 203 00:10:51,000 --> 00:10:53,300 All he doesn't like this prayer many more which is fair enough, 204 00:10:53,300 --> 00:10:56,500 he's two and a half. So I kind of can't really go for 205 00:10:56,500 --> 00:10:58,900 a walk walk with him. I could maybe go like down the 206 00:10:58,900 --> 00:11:02,600 end of the street but it's not the point of for me, going for a 207 00:11:02,608 --> 00:11:06,300 walk is clearing my head space and it's my mindset refresh. 208 00:11:06,300 --> 00:11:10,400 So that's something that I have found really challenging because 209 00:11:10,400 --> 00:11:13,800 getting out in the fresh air was something that really, really 210 00:11:13,800 --> 00:11:16,600 drastically improved. My mental health after I had Ali 211 00:11:16,600 --> 00:11:20,100 and it's something that I am finding a lot more difficult 212 00:11:20,100 --> 00:11:24,100 this time around. So even if for me at the moment, 213 00:11:24,100 --> 00:11:27,400 it's just like popping our picnic blanket outside on the 214 00:11:27,400 --> 00:11:30,400 grass, and taking the kids outside, and that's my fresh air 215 00:11:30,400 --> 00:11:33,100 for the day. I'm really, really mindful of 216 00:11:33,100 --> 00:11:36,100 that and really enjoying that. And I also find the kids, a lot 217 00:11:36,100 --> 00:11:37,300 of the time. If they like having some 218 00:11:37,300 --> 00:11:40,300 meltdowns inside, they're a lot happier outside as well. 219 00:11:40,300 --> 00:11:43,500 And it's just like change of scenery, get some fresh air, all 220 00:11:43,500 --> 00:11:46,800 that kind of stuff. What else am I enjoying? 221 00:11:46,800 --> 00:11:51,000 I have the most Full group of mom friends and it's such a 222 00:11:51,000 --> 00:11:54,900 mixture of all these original mother's group, my new mothers 223 00:11:54,900 --> 00:11:56,600 group. Some beautiful women that I've 224 00:11:56,600 --> 00:11:59,200 met along the way through those beautiful friendships that I've 225 00:11:59,200 --> 00:12:02,800 created as well. And of course, my original 226 00:12:02,800 --> 00:12:06,300 friends that have children themselves that I now have a 227 00:12:06,300 --> 00:12:10,400 whole brand new appreciation for I just and loving my mum 228 00:12:10,400 --> 00:12:13,700 friends. I'm absolutely loving my 229 00:12:13,800 --> 00:12:16,100 girlfriend's, as well. Again, my original girlfriend 230 00:12:16,100 --> 00:12:17,700 group like we just, I don't know. 231 00:12:17,700 --> 00:12:21,800 I just Feeling so grateful for my friendships that I have in my 232 00:12:21,800 --> 00:12:26,000 life at the moment. Maybe because I feel like I have 233 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:29,200 been so busy and bogged down with work and the kids that 234 00:12:29,300 --> 00:12:33,300 rather than quantity time with my friends, it's quality time. 235 00:12:33,300 --> 00:12:36,900 And so I really again I feel like this is a running theme and 236 00:12:36,900 --> 00:12:39,900 exactly why I did that podcast episode last week and that topic 237 00:12:39,900 --> 00:12:44,400 is I'm just so much more Mindful and present and intentional when 238 00:12:44,400 --> 00:12:47,300 I'm spending time with my friends, because it does feel so 239 00:12:47,300 --> 00:12:49,600 rare at the Want to be able to do that. 240 00:12:50,000 --> 00:12:52,200 What are some other things? I'm enjoying all, I am doing 241 00:12:52,200 --> 00:12:58,200 coaching sessions for myself and oh my God, it has been 242 00:12:58,500 --> 00:13:02,000 absolutely without a doubt, the most life-changing thing I've 243 00:13:02,000 --> 00:13:04,700 ever done and I know I said that about coaching sessions like 244 00:13:04,700 --> 00:13:08,400 before I had Ali but it's probably the first time in the 245 00:13:08,400 --> 00:13:10,700 last probably three years since I was pregnant with Ali that 246 00:13:10,700 --> 00:13:14,600 I've really prioritized my personal development for myself. 247 00:13:14,900 --> 00:13:17,700 That's not doing something like studying or just reading a book 248 00:13:17,700 --> 00:13:21,100 like Actually really deep diving into coaching sessions and it 249 00:13:21,100 --> 00:13:25,700 has been so transformational the things that I have worked 250 00:13:25,700 --> 00:13:30,400 through is like stuff that I didn't even know has been just 251 00:13:30,500 --> 00:13:34,600 sitting there. So it's just been so interesting 252 00:13:34,600 --> 00:13:37,300 and like, you guys know I'm so passionate about this stuff 253 00:13:37,300 --> 00:13:40,600 anyway, and I love being able to do this with my clients, but to 254 00:13:40,600 --> 00:13:43,700 actually be able to prioritize myself and give myself the space 255 00:13:43,700 --> 00:13:45,400 to work with a coach to do this too. 256 00:13:45,400 --> 00:13:49,600 Is just The best thing that I could have done for my mental 257 00:13:49,600 --> 00:13:52,100 health issue. Something else I'm really 258 00:13:52,100 --> 00:13:56,200 enjoying is just having a really, really simple and basic 259 00:13:56,200 --> 00:13:58,400 morning routine, but again, being really intentional with 260 00:13:58,400 --> 00:14:00,900 it, so I get up. If Lila has already awake, I'll 261 00:14:00,900 --> 00:14:04,100 give her a feed and then pop it back down in her cot and then I 262 00:14:04,100 --> 00:14:07,000 will have a shower. I have a really nice body wash 263 00:14:07,000 --> 00:14:11,900 that I use and I give my face a really, really nice cleanse and 264 00:14:11,900 --> 00:14:15,500 then I get out and I do my skincare and I really love doing 265 00:14:15,500 --> 00:14:17,500 my skincare. That's like myself Care for me 266 00:14:17,500 --> 00:14:20,100 in the mornings. If I'm feeling like it'll pop a 267 00:14:20,100 --> 00:14:23,200 podcast podcast on, maybe I might listen to like this quiz 268 00:14:23,200 --> 00:14:26,400 so that I can update myself with just like news and what's 269 00:14:26,400 --> 00:14:28,800 actually been happening in the world, because a lot of the 270 00:14:28,800 --> 00:14:30,900 other podcast I've been listening to lately are very 271 00:14:30,900 --> 00:14:35,500 much like what's the word that I'm trying to think of like pop 272 00:14:35,500 --> 00:14:38,700 culture and just like kind of not nothing podcast. 273 00:14:38,700 --> 00:14:41,600 But you know, it's not like information heavy podcast be and 274 00:14:41,600 --> 00:14:44,400 I'm just, I'm really loving it. I think because I'm feeling 275 00:14:44,400 --> 00:14:47,400 quite over stimulated and overwhelmed in like All day 276 00:14:47,400 --> 00:14:49,500 today. So my pop culture podcasts are 277 00:14:49,508 --> 00:14:51,900 like, let's just switch my brain off and just have some fun and 278 00:14:51,900 --> 00:14:53,600 listen to something really light-hearted. 279 00:14:55,400 --> 00:14:58,600 So yeah, and that is literally my morning routine, if the kids 280 00:14:58,600 --> 00:15:00,900 are still not awake after I've done that or do my workout in 281 00:15:00,900 --> 00:15:04,600 the morning and that's a 28-minute transform work out 282 00:15:04,600 --> 00:15:07,200 with feeders, which I'm still obsessed with. 283 00:15:07,800 --> 00:15:11,000 I'll talk about actually being sick in, just a minute and talk 284 00:15:11,000 --> 00:15:14,000 about working out and stuff like that and what my healthy habits 285 00:15:14,000 --> 00:15:17,500 of looked like but speaking of podcasts, As well. 286 00:15:17,500 --> 00:15:19,400 So podcast, I've been listening to that. 287 00:15:19,400 --> 00:15:22,000 You would have probably already heard me talking about but just 288 00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:25,000 in case you're new here or you haven't heard me talking about 289 00:15:25,000 --> 00:15:27,000 other podcasts that I like to listen to before. 290 00:15:27,200 --> 00:15:33,600 So my pop culture e ones is, so dramatic Shameless outspoken and 291 00:15:33,600 --> 00:15:35,800 life uncut. So they're probably my top 292 00:15:35,800 --> 00:15:38,500 listen to ones at the moment. Just because like I said, 293 00:15:38,500 --> 00:15:41,100 they're just really light-hearted and fun, but I 294 00:15:41,100 --> 00:15:44,800 also got really addicted to these two crime podcasts. 295 00:15:45,200 --> 00:15:49,600 I was already talking about, Teacher's pet before I had my 296 00:15:49,600 --> 00:15:55,000 little podcast Hiatus and I just, I'm so obsessed with that 297 00:15:55,000 --> 00:15:57,900 podcast. I just can't get enough of it, 298 00:15:58,000 --> 00:16:01,800 but that also led me on to listening to another podcast 299 00:16:01,900 --> 00:16:05,300 that is created by the Australian which is chandi 300 00:16:05,300 --> 00:16:08,800 story. And I'm really, really invested 301 00:16:08,800 --> 00:16:10,700 in this podcast. I'm probably about 3/4 of the 302 00:16:10,700 --> 00:16:14,500 way through and I just really enjoy like, having a bit of a 303 00:16:14,508 --> 00:16:16,900 storyline to follow and having my own life. 304 00:16:17,000 --> 00:16:20,200 Opinions or perspectives on what I think happened. 305 00:16:20,200 --> 00:16:22,400 Yeah, I don't know. It's just, I love it. 306 00:16:22,400 --> 00:16:26,500 I kind of pop my ear pods in when I am cooking dinner, if 307 00:16:26,500 --> 00:16:29,400 it's like a bit noisy or all, he's got one of his TV shows on 308 00:16:29,400 --> 00:16:31,300 that. I don't like, I'll put my ear 309 00:16:31,300 --> 00:16:33,700 pods in and just like cook dinner, and listen to one of 310 00:16:33,708 --> 00:16:35,800 those episodes or clean the house and listen to that. 311 00:16:35,800 --> 00:16:39,100 And I love it. I also really enjoy our catch 312 00:16:39,100 --> 00:16:42,400 Killers with Gary jubilant. He does some really, really 313 00:16:42,400 --> 00:16:45,100 interesting interviews. Very much crime related. 314 00:16:45,400 --> 00:16:49,200 He is a Detective in the Australian federal police. 315 00:16:49,200 --> 00:16:51,900 So super interesting with that. Something else. 316 00:16:51,900 --> 00:16:55,800 I'm really enjoying is just absolute nothing family. 317 00:16:55,800 --> 00:16:59,600 Time on Sundays, like, Sunday's is our day that we try and not 318 00:16:59,600 --> 00:17:03,200 book anything in Saturday's is generally busy ish because we've 319 00:17:03,200 --> 00:17:05,300 got all these swimming. And most of the time we'll have 320 00:17:05,300 --> 00:17:06,900 something after that. We might go and catch up with a 321 00:17:06,908 --> 00:17:08,900 friend or have like I don't know, an event or like a 322 00:17:08,908 --> 00:17:11,599 birthday party or something on Sundays. 323 00:17:11,599 --> 00:17:15,700 We try to keep free and we just are really enjoying at the 324 00:17:15,708 --> 00:17:17,200 moment, like getting up. Up. 325 00:17:17,700 --> 00:17:21,500 Going down to the Waterfront and like, grabbing a coffee, or a 326 00:17:21,500 --> 00:17:23,500 hot chocolate. Great, getting an egg and bacon, 327 00:17:23,500 --> 00:17:27,200 roll for breakfast. Ali takes his bike down, and we 328 00:17:27,200 --> 00:17:28,700 just get out of the house, again. 329 00:17:28,700 --> 00:17:30,800 I think it's just that fresh air, and then we're just like, 330 00:17:30,800 --> 00:17:33,500 okay, what do we want to do? Am I going to be doing like the 331 00:17:33,500 --> 00:17:35,900 meal planning and meal prepping? Do I do a click and collect 332 00:17:35,900 --> 00:17:38,700 order? Like, do we have a little picnic 333 00:17:38,700 --> 00:17:43,800 this afternoon, just very chill and quality time with the kids 334 00:17:43,800 --> 00:17:46,900 and I'm loving it. The very last thing that I'm 335 00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:50,200 Leave really enjoying and that I've really gotten back into and 336 00:17:50,200 --> 00:17:54,300 I'm totally obsessed with these reading and I have a books 337 00:17:54,300 --> 00:17:58,500 highlight over on my Instagram. So I actually won't go into too 338 00:17:58,500 --> 00:18:01,200 much detail, the books that I've been reading recently that I've 339 00:18:01,200 --> 00:18:04,600 been really really loving because it's all over on that 340 00:18:04,600 --> 00:18:07,500 highlight and it'll take me forever I think I'm up to book 341 00:18:07,500 --> 00:18:10,500 like 25 for this year already and it's only March. 342 00:18:10,500 --> 00:18:16,000 So yeah, I just have found that I'm watching less and less TV 343 00:18:16,000 --> 00:18:19,600 because Cuz I'm really intrigued in the stories that I'm reading 344 00:18:19,600 --> 00:18:25,400 in the books that I'm reading. I'm very much a fiction girl. 345 00:18:25,400 --> 00:18:30,400 So all of the like not true stories, they're like chick lit, 346 00:18:30,400 --> 00:18:34,900 the like kind of romance. I've recently gotten into the 347 00:18:34,900 --> 00:18:36,400 Thriller side of things actually. 348 00:18:36,400 --> 00:18:40,100 One that I will mention is verity by Colleen Hoover. 349 00:18:40,300 --> 00:18:43,300 If you have not read that. I mean I'm guessing you probably 350 00:18:43,300 --> 00:18:45,500 have because it's been everywhere for the last like two 351 00:18:45,500 --> 00:18:47,200 years. But again, I was To the 352 00:18:47,208 --> 00:18:50,300 bandwagon and I could not put it down. 353 00:18:50,300 --> 00:18:51,900 I think I read it in like two days. 354 00:18:52,500 --> 00:18:54,900 But yeah, go and check out the Instagram highlight if you're 355 00:18:54,900 --> 00:19:00,300 after some new books to read. And yeah, that's about it for 356 00:19:00,300 --> 00:19:02,800 what I've been enjoying something that I have been 357 00:19:02,800 --> 00:19:06,900 really trying to focus on is prioritizing myself only in the 358 00:19:06,900 --> 00:19:10,400 last probably week and a half, because I've been really, really 359 00:19:10,400 --> 00:19:12,100 sick. I thought daycare bugs were 360 00:19:12,100 --> 00:19:15,600 going to be finished after a year of Ali being a day care 361 00:19:15,600 --> 00:19:19,000 last year. They're not, they are back with 362 00:19:19,000 --> 00:19:22,300 absolute Vengeance. It's been about seven weeks that 363 00:19:22,300 --> 00:19:24,700 are in, and I have both been really sick for. 364 00:19:25,200 --> 00:19:27,700 We didn't get tested for it, but RSV was going around the 365 00:19:27,700 --> 00:19:30,800 daycare, we had gastro twice, we got the flu. 366 00:19:30,800 --> 00:19:34,500 It just has not been an enjoyable time in our household 367 00:19:34,700 --> 00:19:37,300 to the point where I actually said to my code to the other 368 00:19:37,300 --> 00:19:39,900 day. I feel like our house needs a 369 00:19:39,900 --> 00:19:42,700 cleanse because the vibe is just not. 370 00:19:43,000 --> 00:19:45,700 It's just not a Vibe at our house at the moment. 371 00:19:46,000 --> 00:19:50,200 So I found also that because I was so sick. 372 00:19:50,200 --> 00:19:54,700 I didn't have an appetite, I just wasn't feeling well at all. 373 00:19:54,700 --> 00:19:58,300 I had no energy Lila went through her 4 month regression 374 00:19:58,300 --> 00:20:01,600 which she's now 8 months old and it's been four months that she 375 00:20:01,600 --> 00:20:04,700 has not been sleeping well. For she was teething, she went 376 00:20:04,700 --> 00:20:07,200 through a regression. She was teething now she's in 377 00:20:07,200 --> 00:20:10,600 her eighth month regression. It's just I've been so 378 00:20:10,600 --> 00:20:15,500 sleep-deprived and it was really kind of just before this that I 379 00:20:15,500 --> 00:20:19,200 started to get get clear on my postnatal depression as well. 380 00:20:19,200 --> 00:20:21,800 So I just feel like it was just one thing after the other for 381 00:20:21,800 --> 00:20:25,100 probably the last like three or four months really and it just 382 00:20:25,100 --> 00:20:28,700 all started to pile up and felt like a lot, and I just fell into 383 00:20:28,700 --> 00:20:30,100 some bad habits. I wasn't eating. 384 00:20:30,100 --> 00:20:33,000 Well, I was back into that habit of just like eating The 385 00:20:33,000 --> 00:20:35,600 Leftovers of what was like on all these played or what Lila 386 00:20:35,600 --> 00:20:38,300 hadn't eaten. I wasn't exercising because I 387 00:20:38,300 --> 00:20:42,200 literally just out there was days that I was having two naps 388 00:20:42,200 --> 00:20:44,500 like I would have a more a morning nap when Lila had her 389 00:20:44,500 --> 00:20:48,200 nap and I would set my alarm. It was just like 20 minutes. 390 00:20:48,200 --> 00:20:50,400 I would set my alarm and then be like right what else do I need 391 00:20:50,400 --> 00:20:52,600 to do for work? Because it was like my brain 392 00:20:52,600 --> 00:20:56,400 just was not functioning and then I was having an afternoon 393 00:20:56,400 --> 00:21:00,000 nap on some days as well and I just wasn't myself. 394 00:21:00,000 --> 00:21:05,300 So I have gotten back into the last like week and a half really 395 00:21:05,300 --> 00:21:07,300 focusing on me but in small ways. 396 00:21:07,300 --> 00:21:10,600 So like how am I nourishing my body with every meal? 397 00:21:10,600 --> 00:21:14,200 Like one of the really, really good tips that my nutritionist. 398 00:21:14,300 --> 00:21:16,800 Sorry naturopath taught me last year. 399 00:21:16,900 --> 00:21:20,000 Was every single meal. Like, don't worry so much about 400 00:21:20,000 --> 00:21:22,200 like whole list. Like overall, what your meals 401 00:21:22,200 --> 00:21:25,200 look like, because that can feel overwhelming, just focus on 402 00:21:25,500 --> 00:21:28,800 every single meal. Is there something healthy or 403 00:21:28,800 --> 00:21:32,100 nourishing in that meal? So like have toast if you want 404 00:21:32,100 --> 00:21:34,800 to have toast or like have I don't know Cheerios or Fruit 405 00:21:34,800 --> 00:21:38,600 Loops or caught, Coco Pops, whatever but add something else 406 00:21:38,600 --> 00:21:41,400 into that meal as well. That is nourishing that you know 407 00:21:41,400 --> 00:21:45,200 there's like good vitamins and minerals and it's replenishing, 408 00:21:45,200 --> 00:21:50,000 your body with nutrients that It is lacking so that was really 409 00:21:50,000 --> 00:21:52,100 something that I was like yeah I can do that. 410 00:21:52,100 --> 00:21:54,000 That's just focusing on one meal at a time then. 411 00:21:54,000 --> 00:21:56,800 So that's something I've gotten back into this week. 412 00:21:56,800 --> 00:21:59,600 I started to move my body again and oh my God. 413 00:21:59,700 --> 00:22:04,500 So I did the postpartum transform program and level 1 414 00:22:04,600 --> 00:22:09,000 program before I got sick. And so when I was like, I want 415 00:22:09,000 --> 00:22:11,500 to get back into moving my body. Again, I'm actually feeling like 416 00:22:11,500 --> 00:22:13,700 I've got energy and I'm feeling really good this week. 417 00:22:14,100 --> 00:22:19,100 I was going to start level 2 and I was like, I think I'm trying 418 00:22:19,100 --> 00:22:21,000 to push myself a little bit too hard. 419 00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:23,700 Let's just start with level one for, like a week or two and see 420 00:22:23,700 --> 00:22:25,500 how I go. And then, if I want to up it to 421 00:22:25,500 --> 00:22:29,200 level 2, I'll do that. I've done two days of level 1 422 00:22:29,300 --> 00:22:33,100 and literally, I could not walk properly last night when I had 423 00:22:33,100 --> 00:22:38,300 to get up and go to the court to feed Lila my bum, my legs like 424 00:22:38,300 --> 00:22:44,400 my arms, my shoulders just everything was hurting and it 425 00:22:44,400 --> 00:22:48,600 was like this is so good like the Faction of like I'm back 426 00:22:48,600 --> 00:22:52,200 into really working on becoming a stronger and healthier version 427 00:22:52,200 --> 00:22:57,900 of myself is so satisfying, but also like the reassurance that 428 00:22:57,900 --> 00:23:00,900 like okay, level one is enough for you, right now is also 429 00:23:00,900 --> 00:23:03,900 really good. So I'm loving that I do have a 430 00:23:03,908 --> 00:23:06,000 discount code for the transform program as well. 431 00:23:06,000 --> 00:23:09,000 So if you're interested jump over onto my Instagram and all 432 00:23:09,000 --> 00:23:12,300 my discount codes are over there in my bio for you. 433 00:23:13,500 --> 00:23:17,200 I've also really been trying to focus on hydration because does 434 00:23:17,200 --> 00:23:21,800 my milk supply has been so low this whole entire phase with 435 00:23:21,800 --> 00:23:25,000 Lila like newborn and all the way up this last eight months or 436 00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:28,400 so hydration is something that has been really really important 437 00:23:28,400 --> 00:23:31,900 to me and just rest like I've really I'm not really someone 438 00:23:31,900 --> 00:23:35,800 that allows myself the time to rest and not feel guilty about 439 00:23:35,800 --> 00:23:38,500 it but it's something that both Aaron and I have really had to 440 00:23:38,500 --> 00:23:42,500 lean into the last seven weeks and look, it was frustrating at 441 00:23:42,500 --> 00:23:47,000 times but we got there something else that I've been doing to Our 442 00:23:47,000 --> 00:23:50,700 ties, myself is a been booking in for regular haircuts. 443 00:23:50,700 --> 00:23:54,100 Not actually getting my hair colored but I've got short hair 444 00:23:54,100 --> 00:23:57,600 again and I love it. But I find that it gets quite 445 00:23:57,600 --> 00:24:00,300 irritating quite quickly because I don't like it when it starts 446 00:24:00,300 --> 00:24:03,000 to, like, tuck into the back of my collars and things like that. 447 00:24:03,100 --> 00:24:06,500 So, I've been booking in probably once, every two months 448 00:24:06,700 --> 00:24:10,700 to get a trim, and it's just like, there's just something 449 00:24:10,700 --> 00:24:13,800 about seeing a haircut booked in for your week and like, I might 450 00:24:13,800 --> 00:24:16,400 stop in and get like a decaf coffee on the way, or like 451 00:24:16,400 --> 00:24:18,000 myself. A cup of tea and drink that in 452 00:24:18,000 --> 00:24:21,800 my car, on the way there, I might just go in like listen to 453 00:24:21,800 --> 00:24:25,000 a podcast and go and sit down at the waterfront or at the beach 454 00:24:25,000 --> 00:24:27,600 after I finish for like 10 minutes and then go back home. 455 00:24:27,700 --> 00:24:31,200 It's just it's my time, you know. 456 00:24:32,400 --> 00:24:35,100 And something else that I did two weekends ago because I 457 00:24:35,100 --> 00:24:38,300 really did not feel like doing our meal planning and food 458 00:24:38,300 --> 00:24:41,200 shopping was. I went and got my nails done so 459 00:24:41,200 --> 00:24:44,900 I went and sat down. I got a pedicure and I did all 460 00:24:44,900 --> 00:24:46,700 of my meal planning I took my notebook. 461 00:24:47,200 --> 00:24:51,300 Did my whole click and collect shop and I just felt like this 462 00:24:51,300 --> 00:24:54,800 is time for me, but it's also doing things that I'm finding 463 00:24:54,800 --> 00:24:57,100 really monotonous at the moment that I don't want to do. 464 00:24:57,100 --> 00:25:01,100 So that is actually called habit stacking and look like I'm not 465 00:25:01,100 --> 00:25:03,400 going to go and spend my money on getting my nails done every 466 00:25:03,400 --> 00:25:06,800 single week so that I can be doing something that feels good 467 00:25:06,800 --> 00:25:10,700 and getting tasks done that I can't be bothered doing but it's 468 00:25:10,700 --> 00:25:13,300 just like a little treat yourself thing every now and 469 00:25:13,300 --> 00:25:18,100 then you know, so I really enjoyed that What else have I 470 00:25:18,100 --> 00:25:23,300 been doing? I've been identifying, what I 471 00:25:23,300 --> 00:25:28,300 feel is lacking and taking action like actually doing 472 00:25:28,300 --> 00:25:31,600 something about it. So I feel like I just been 473 00:25:31,600 --> 00:25:35,500 really trying to be responsible for me. 474 00:25:35,500 --> 00:25:38,000 I guess is the best way that I can explain it. 475 00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:41,900 I just think I realized like you know, Aaron started his own 476 00:25:41,900 --> 00:25:45,700 business and he's so busy like he's out doing quotes nearly 477 00:25:45,700 --> 00:25:48,700 every afternoon and When he gets home, he's got to actually like 478 00:25:48,700 --> 00:25:51,200 do all the figures for them, draw them up, get back to 479 00:25:51,200 --> 00:25:55,100 people, chase up companies. Like it's just, he has so much 480 00:25:55,100 --> 00:25:58,000 going on that. I realized, like I was relying 481 00:25:58,000 --> 00:26:02,800 on him for so much, especially when I was really struggling 482 00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:06,200 with my mental health. So I think it's been really 483 00:26:06,200 --> 00:26:11,100 important for me just to try to be responsible for me and not 484 00:26:11,100 --> 00:26:16,200 rely on other people to fix things, you know, like actually 485 00:26:16,200 --> 00:26:18,500 kind of Ian or what can I do here? 486 00:26:18,500 --> 00:26:20,800 What would feel good for me in this instance? 487 00:26:20,800 --> 00:26:23,500 So that's been really, really great. 488 00:26:24,600 --> 00:26:28,300 I guess following on from that my postnatal depression, 489 00:26:28,900 --> 00:26:34,300 diagnosis and anxiety which you know I think looking back at it 490 00:26:34,300 --> 00:26:37,000 is probably something that I struggled with with Ali as well 491 00:26:37,000 --> 00:26:39,800 without actually probably being diagnosed and putting a label on 492 00:26:39,800 --> 00:26:43,100 it. And I don't know that I can 493 00:26:43,100 --> 00:26:47,500 really pinpoint the exact moment that I that things started to go 494 00:26:47,500 --> 00:26:51,000 downhill for me again after I had had Lila, but I think it's 495 00:26:51,000 --> 00:26:53,600 just, it was just such a combination of things for me. 496 00:26:53,600 --> 00:26:56,100 Like, going back into that sleep deprivation. 497 00:26:56,300 --> 00:26:59,200 All he was only 19 months old when Lila was born and I think 498 00:26:59,200 --> 00:27:01,400 it was just such a huge shift for him. 499 00:27:01,600 --> 00:27:05,200 So trying to hold the emotional space for him to navigate that 500 00:27:05,200 --> 00:27:08,200 and the changes that were happening in our household as 501 00:27:08,200 --> 00:27:10,400 well. As I wasn't able to breastfeed 502 00:27:10,400 --> 00:27:12,200 Lila for the Three weeks of her life. 503 00:27:12,200 --> 00:27:15,200 Because we'll what we have found out is that she has a tongue 504 00:27:15,200 --> 00:27:16,600 time. We know that now, but I didn't 505 00:27:16,600 --> 00:27:22,400 know that at the time and it was excruciating to feed her like 506 00:27:22,400 --> 00:27:24,000 I'm talking worse than childbirth. 507 00:27:24,000 --> 00:27:27,400 And I am not over exaggerating when I say that. 508 00:27:28,700 --> 00:27:32,000 So there was just a lot to be navigating in the first like 509 00:27:32,500 --> 00:27:36,200 month or two of Lila's life, which I found very difficult and 510 00:27:36,200 --> 00:27:39,900 just the general like the general holding space of other 511 00:27:39,900 --> 00:27:43,200 people's emotions. And trying to learn how do I 512 00:27:43,208 --> 00:27:45,000 navigate toddler feelings and emotions? 513 00:27:45,000 --> 00:27:47,800 What's the language that I should be using around all of 514 00:27:47,800 --> 00:27:49,300 their sin? Oh my gosh. 515 00:27:49,400 --> 00:27:51,300 It's just, it just felt like a lot. 516 00:27:51,300 --> 00:27:54,100 And I noticed. So the things that I started to 517 00:27:54,100 --> 00:27:58,500 notice Within Myself, the biggest thing for me was, I was 518 00:27:58,500 --> 00:27:59,800 not looking forward to Christmas. 519 00:27:59,800 --> 00:28:01,800 I didn't even care that it was going to be Christmas. 520 00:28:01,800 --> 00:28:05,300 And I started to notice this in about, like, October definitely 521 00:28:05,300 --> 00:28:08,500 in November. If, you know me, personally, you 522 00:28:08,500 --> 00:28:15,500 will know, I am. Christmas is my the best time of 523 00:28:15,508 --> 00:28:17,700 the year like, you can he how I talk about it? 524 00:28:17,700 --> 00:28:20,400 Now, like I get excited thinking about Christmas this year and 525 00:28:20,400 --> 00:28:23,900 it's only March like, I fucking love Christmas. 526 00:28:23,900 --> 00:28:29,100 I just the vibe the whole, like II, start our Christmas 527 00:28:29,100 --> 00:28:33,000 decorations in October, because I want that vibe to hang around 528 00:28:33,000 --> 00:28:38,500 in my house and in, within me for as long as possible, like, 529 00:28:38,500 --> 00:28:41,600 give me the Christmas music. If I'm in a bad mood, Mood I'll 530 00:28:41,600 --> 00:28:43,200 put on my Christmas music playlist. 531 00:28:43,200 --> 00:28:45,600 Like Christmas is my time of year. 532 00:28:45,600 --> 00:28:49,700 I love catching up, I love the connection with friends, I love 533 00:28:49,700 --> 00:28:53,400 the connection with my family. It's probably the only time in 534 00:28:53,400 --> 00:28:57,200 the year that I really get quality time with everybody in 535 00:28:57,200 --> 00:29:00,400 my family and extended family and I'm obsessed, I love it. 536 00:29:00,700 --> 00:29:05,700 So yeah, I wasn't, I didn't care that it was Christmas. 537 00:29:05,700 --> 00:29:08,000 I wasn't looking forward to it. I wasn't listening to Christmas 538 00:29:08,000 --> 00:29:12,000 songs. I just that was with the Moment 539 00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:15,300 for me where I was like I think something might be off because 540 00:29:15,300 --> 00:29:18,600 this is very unlike me. It's was very uncharacteristic 541 00:29:20,000 --> 00:29:23,900 following on from that, I just noticed like I just I didn't 542 00:29:23,900 --> 00:29:27,800 feel happy and I also got to the point that I was like I actually 543 00:29:27,800 --> 00:29:30,800 don't know how to feel happy again. 544 00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:33,900 I was trying all of my tools I was doing my coaching sessions 545 00:29:33,900 --> 00:29:38,300 like but it just I was in this funk and it felt like I was just 546 00:29:38,300 --> 00:29:41,000 under water and I could not get back up. 547 00:29:41,800 --> 00:29:46,900 I was crying at least 10 times every single day and I'm not 548 00:29:46,900 --> 00:29:49,500 even over exaggerating the smallest of things. 549 00:29:49,500 --> 00:29:52,500 Now when I look back at it would just hit me over the edge. 550 00:29:52,500 --> 00:29:56,300 I was so emotional. I was sad all the time. 551 00:29:57,300 --> 00:30:02,600 I was taking everything. Personally, I was so insecure. 552 00:30:02,900 --> 00:30:09,100 I was a shell of me and I started to talk about it with 553 00:30:09,100 --> 00:30:11,000 Aaron a like about a week before. 554 00:30:11,400 --> 00:30:14,900 I went to the doctors and he was like, look, I haven't really 555 00:30:14,900 --> 00:30:18,200 known how to talk to you about this and I know you had a really 556 00:30:18,200 --> 00:30:21,800 hard time after Ali and I was hoping that it would pass, but I 557 00:30:21,800 --> 00:30:24,300 don't know how to help you. I don't know what to do. 558 00:30:25,000 --> 00:30:27,600 Like, you need to tell me how to help you, because I don't know. 559 00:30:27,600 --> 00:30:33,400 And I just, I broke down. And I said, I don't know, I'm 560 00:30:33,400 --> 00:30:36,500 trying so many things and I feel like I've been trying for months 561 00:30:36,500 --> 00:30:39,800 now and I cannot get myself out of this and I think I need to go 562 00:30:39,800 --> 00:30:43,300 to the doctors one of Of my beautiful amazing best friends 563 00:30:43,300 --> 00:30:46,100 had actually encouraged me because she noticed that she was 564 00:30:46,100 --> 00:30:50,000 feeling similar ish and she was probably the turning point for 565 00:30:50,000 --> 00:30:51,400 me. She gave me a phone call and she 566 00:30:51,400 --> 00:30:54,000 said, Amy, you need to go to the doctor. 567 00:30:54,000 --> 00:30:58,300 This has been life changing for me, and I'm on medication and I 568 00:30:58,300 --> 00:31:02,300 think that it might help you to and I am so grateful to her for 569 00:31:02,300 --> 00:31:05,700 saying that to me, because it was probably the first moment 570 00:31:05,700 --> 00:31:08,500 that I actually thought. Okay, maybe I will, I don't 571 00:31:08,500 --> 00:31:11,700 know, I feel like I had a bit of a stigma in my mind like I work 572 00:31:11,700 --> 00:31:14,100 in the mental health space. This is what I help my clients 573 00:31:14,100 --> 00:31:16,100 with. I shouldn't be struggling with 574 00:31:16,100 --> 00:31:18,000 this because I'm a coach, you know? 575 00:31:18,000 --> 00:31:21,300 So I think it just hadn't crossed my mind until she 576 00:31:21,300 --> 00:31:25,500 mentioned and then I went on to the panda website and I did the 577 00:31:25,500 --> 00:31:29,300 questionnaire that they have on their the quiz and it literally 578 00:31:29,300 --> 00:31:32,300 like all signs were pointing to like it's within your best 579 00:31:32,300 --> 00:31:35,800 interest to go and have a chat with your GP and see if you have 580 00:31:35,800 --> 00:31:38,000 some options that you can look into. 581 00:31:38,400 --> 00:31:41,800 And I just found I was the Ellie mum. 582 00:31:41,800 --> 00:31:46,600 Like I was yelling at the smallest of things and I just I 583 00:31:46,600 --> 00:31:49,700 don't want to be that person for my children, you know. 584 00:31:50,000 --> 00:31:52,400 I want to be able to show up for them and hold space and I'm not 585 00:31:52,400 --> 00:31:56,600 saying that I never yell now and that I don't get angry and that 586 00:31:56,600 --> 00:31:58,700 I don't have those big feelings and emotions. 587 00:31:58,700 --> 00:32:02,100 But what I am saying is that with the help of medication and 588 00:32:02,100 --> 00:32:05,300 continual coaching sessions and working on my mental health and 589 00:32:05,300 --> 00:32:08,400 my self development, that I have a lot of different Tools in my 590 00:32:08,400 --> 00:32:12,300 tool kit now that I'm actively using and Medicaid, And for me, 591 00:32:12,700 --> 00:32:16,100 has helped me to think more clearly and to be a more 592 00:32:16,100 --> 00:32:20,100 level-headed and grounded version of myself so that I can 593 00:32:20,200 --> 00:32:23,300 more actively use the tools that I have in my talk here. 594 00:32:23,700 --> 00:32:27,000 So I hope that makes sense. Let me know if you have any 595 00:32:27,000 --> 00:32:29,000 other questions. Like if there's specific 596 00:32:29,000 --> 00:32:30,500 questions, that people want me to ask. 597 00:32:30,500 --> 00:32:35,200 I can do a actual separate episode about that. 598 00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:41,300 But apart from that Aaron, and I are going really well now, But 599 00:32:41,300 --> 00:32:46,300 same very similar to after we had Ali we really had to 600 00:32:46,300 --> 00:32:48,700 redefine and communicate our boundaries. 601 00:32:48,700 --> 00:32:51,600 We had to get clear individually on what our boundaries are, what 602 00:32:51,600 --> 00:32:56,800 we need from each other and as individuals and navigating like 603 00:32:56,800 --> 00:32:59,600 what that actually looks like, what self-care looks like for 604 00:32:59,600 --> 00:33:03,100 both of us and what time with our friends and time to just 605 00:33:03,100 --> 00:33:05,600 like recharge. Looks like for us, I think 606 00:33:05,600 --> 00:33:08,300 that's been the absolute biggest thing that we've both had to get 607 00:33:08,300 --> 00:33:13,000 really clear on because if we don't Have that time to recharge 608 00:33:13,000 --> 00:33:16,600 for ourselves individually. We just do not get on and we're 609 00:33:16,600 --> 00:33:20,300 just like at each other's throats because our cups are 610 00:33:20,300 --> 00:33:23,100 empty. So, that's been a really big 611 00:33:23,100 --> 00:33:26,800 thing. We've both had to really work on 612 00:33:26,800 --> 00:33:29,400 our time management and our priority management with both of 613 00:33:29,400 --> 00:33:32,400 us being back at work and really busy with like I was saying 614 00:33:32,400 --> 00:33:35,300 before my clients and my admin and my content creation. 615 00:33:35,400 --> 00:33:38,400 But then for Aaron, like he's quoting and he's like day-to-day 616 00:33:38,400 --> 00:33:41,300 work and like scheduling and Nothing. 617 00:33:41,300 --> 00:33:46,100 It's just it's been a lot for both of us and, you know, like, 618 00:33:46,100 --> 00:33:48,900 relationships are always going to be a work in progress, but I 619 00:33:48,900 --> 00:33:52,500 feel like we're kind of out the other side of the struggles that 620 00:33:52,500 --> 00:33:55,700 we were having a little bit over the previous few months. 621 00:33:56,100 --> 00:33:59,000 And I think that also just comes with feeling more comfortable in 622 00:33:59,000 --> 00:34:02,900 our own routines and like Lila slotting in a little easier now, 623 00:34:02,900 --> 00:34:05,600 like, she's not a newborn. She's got her own kind of 624 00:34:05,600 --> 00:34:07,800 routines happening now that we're a little more comfortable, 625 00:34:07,800 --> 00:34:10,600 weird. So yeah, I remember after I had 626 00:34:10,600 --> 00:34:13,699 Ali, Was around this eight-month period that I did start to feel 627 00:34:13,699 --> 00:34:16,800 like, oh my gosh, like I've got these, I can do this. 628 00:34:16,800 --> 00:34:19,600 Like, I really started to feel a lot more confident within myself 629 00:34:19,600 --> 00:34:22,000 as a mum and a person. Again, I started to get my 630 00:34:22,000 --> 00:34:25,100 identity back a little bit more as well, so I feel like now 631 00:34:25,100 --> 00:34:26,800 Lila's around that eight month, period. 632 00:34:26,800 --> 00:34:28,900 I think, Aaron. And I both individually and 633 00:34:28,900 --> 00:34:33,000 together are starting to feel that Vibe again with Lila, too, 634 00:34:33,000 --> 00:34:36,199 which is really nice but something that I did want to 635 00:34:36,199 --> 00:34:38,600 recommend that has been life-changing. 636 00:34:39,000 --> 00:34:41,199 I'm not finished it yet, but I got recommended Bye. 637 00:34:41,199 --> 00:34:44,699 Beautiful friend of mine is a book called how to not hate your 638 00:34:44,699 --> 00:34:49,400 husband after kids, it's by JC done or June done, I think it is 639 00:34:49,800 --> 00:34:54,000 and it is so good. If you're not into reading 640 00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:57,800 books, I haven't been able to find it as an audiobook but she 641 00:34:57,800 --> 00:34:59,900 has done some podcast interviews. 642 00:35:00,000 --> 00:35:04,400 So if you search JC done in podcasts, you will find some 643 00:35:04,400 --> 00:35:06,900 interviews with her and she'll explain and I actually think 644 00:35:06,900 --> 00:35:08,800 she'll probably convince you to go and buy the book. 645 00:35:09,000 --> 00:35:10,900 I'm probably about halfway through. 646 00:35:11,100 --> 00:35:14,600 And it's just really good talking about conflict 647 00:35:14,600 --> 00:35:17,500 resolution. She talks a lot about the mental 648 00:35:17,500 --> 00:35:21,800 load, the invisible, mental load like life, has a mom and why 649 00:35:21,800 --> 00:35:24,000 that can feel overwhelming overstimulating. 650 00:35:24,200 --> 00:35:26,800 Basically, everything from my mum rage Series. 651 00:35:27,000 --> 00:35:31,000 So if you feel like you resonated with my mum rage 652 00:35:31,000 --> 00:35:35,500 podcast series that I did, I probably think that that book 653 00:35:35,500 --> 00:35:38,600 will resonate with you as well. So it's called how to not hate 654 00:35:38,600 --> 00:35:40,700 your husband after kids, and it's awesome. 655 00:35:41,500 --> 00:35:46,000 What I have found though is, I really especially after doing 656 00:35:46,000 --> 00:35:48,300 these really deep. Dive coaching sessions lately 657 00:35:48,700 --> 00:35:54,000 like my kids at the moment are my biggest teachers, like, they 658 00:35:54,400 --> 00:35:59,700 mirror my triggers and as uncomfortable as that has been 659 00:36:00,200 --> 00:36:03,800 it's just I feel like I'm doing so much work on myself at the 660 00:36:03,800 --> 00:36:05,200 moment that I do. Now. 661 00:36:05,200 --> 00:36:08,800 Find it powerful and I've got find it really interesting. 662 00:36:08,800 --> 00:36:12,300 Now, when I'm getting triggered, whereas Like, a few months ago 663 00:36:12,700 --> 00:36:16,400 it was just like, oh my God, I'm just exploding multiple times a 664 00:36:16,400 --> 00:36:20,500 day and I cannot deal. Now that I'm noticing and I 665 00:36:20,500 --> 00:36:22,900 understand why some of these things are my triggers. 666 00:36:22,900 --> 00:36:26,900 It's really, really interesting, so internally, yes, I'm still 667 00:36:26,900 --> 00:36:30,900 feeling triggered but my reactive behaviors are so much 668 00:36:30,900 --> 00:36:32,700 less. And I just feel like I'm 669 00:36:32,700 --> 00:36:36,000 probably also just feeling a bit more comfortable in holding that 670 00:36:36,000 --> 00:36:39,100 space for big feelings, and toddler feelings with Ali, and 671 00:36:39,300 --> 00:36:41,300 learning to navigate that like, Don't know. 672 00:36:41,300 --> 00:36:43,500 It's always going to be a work in progress, I suppose. 673 00:36:43,500 --> 00:36:48,400 But yeah, I guess like updates on the kids, all these two and a 674 00:36:48,400 --> 00:36:51,000 half now. So I guess he's like your 675 00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:54,900 typical like in quotations like two year old, he's got some 676 00:36:54,900 --> 00:36:59,400 very, very big feelings and we're just trying to work 677 00:36:59,400 --> 00:37:02,600 through that and it is a work in progress. 678 00:37:02,600 --> 00:37:05,100 Every single day. He's going through a very big 679 00:37:05,100 --> 00:37:09,900 mummy preference at the moment which is I hope starting to die 680 00:37:09,900 --> 00:37:13,200 down a little bit now. But yeah, that's been 681 00:37:13,200 --> 00:37:18,100 interesting to navigate. He's very big on being 682 00:37:18,100 --> 00:37:21,200 independent, so he loves to make his own decisions, he wants to 683 00:37:21,200 --> 00:37:23,500 do everything himself again, it's all the typical 684 00:37:23,500 --> 00:37:28,000 two-year-old things. But on top of that, he's just so 685 00:37:28,000 --> 00:37:30,400 funny. Like he's hilarious. 686 00:37:30,400 --> 00:37:33,900 His little voice, his little sayings, his little quirks that 687 00:37:33,900 --> 00:37:36,900 he has. He has such an imagination now. 688 00:37:36,900 --> 00:37:40,800 He's really into imaginative play and pretend play, which I 689 00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:43,600 Find so cute and just like, I don't know. 690 00:37:43,600 --> 00:37:47,800 It's just like you are actually a human like a tiny little human 691 00:37:47,800 --> 00:37:53,300 and it's so cool. He's bedtime routine is 692 00:37:53,600 --> 00:37:55,800 definitely still a work in progress. 693 00:37:55,800 --> 00:37:59,600 He has gone from you guys. If you have heard me talk 694 00:37:59,600 --> 00:38:03,800 previously about his sleeping, a really big struggle when he was 695 00:38:03,800 --> 00:38:07,300 young until he was 9 months old. And then we actually work with a 696 00:38:07,300 --> 00:38:09,900 Sleek consultant, which was the best fucking thing we ever did 697 00:38:09,900 --> 00:38:13,600 in our lives. And He went instantly sleeping 698 00:38:13,600 --> 00:38:18,500 through the night until he was about one and a half, maybe two. 699 00:38:19,000 --> 00:38:22,200 And the last six months has just been really rough. 700 00:38:22,200 --> 00:38:26,300 Really, really rough again, with that Independence and just like, 701 00:38:26,500 --> 00:38:29,600 I think needing less sleep as well and just also realizing 702 00:38:29,600 --> 00:38:32,100 like there's a world outside of me now. 703 00:38:32,100 --> 00:38:35,200 Like I don't just go to sleep in the world, doesn't stop that. 704 00:38:35,200 --> 00:38:37,200 Mom and Dad are still awake. I still want to be spending 705 00:38:37,200 --> 00:38:38,800 time. I still want to be doing things 706 00:38:38,800 --> 00:38:43,400 like yeah. So That's a lot and he's eating 707 00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:47,300 has also really changed a lot. So he used to pretty much eat 708 00:38:47,300 --> 00:38:50,000 anything that I made him which was absolutely amazing. 709 00:38:50,000 --> 00:38:52,900 And I think I took that for granted because I didn't realize 710 00:38:52,900 --> 00:38:56,700 how much it was going to change. Like, there's some nights he 711 00:38:56,700 --> 00:38:59,300 just will refuse. Absolutely refuse to even eat 712 00:38:59,300 --> 00:39:01,000 dinner at all. And there was like, I think 713 00:39:01,000 --> 00:39:03,300 three or four nights in a row that he did that last week and I 714 00:39:03,300 --> 00:39:07,100 was like, are you not hungry? Like I don't understand. 715 00:39:07,400 --> 00:39:10,800 So I definitely find that frustrating myself. 716 00:39:11,000 --> 00:39:14,800 I'm like, I just made you this food like it's like, I don't 717 00:39:14,800 --> 00:39:17,800 know, I guess the triggering. Me finds a little bit 718 00:39:17,800 --> 00:39:19,800 disrespectful and a little bit frustrating. 719 00:39:19,800 --> 00:39:22,200 I'm like I just spent this time making this for you and you're 720 00:39:22,200 --> 00:39:26,300 not going to eat it but then the mom side of me and like the 721 00:39:26,300 --> 00:39:29,900 toddler mum learning side of me knows that this is all normal 722 00:39:29,900 --> 00:39:32,900 and I'm trying to work around it and work with it. 723 00:39:34,100 --> 00:39:34,900 Yeah. I don't know. 724 00:39:34,900 --> 00:39:37,600 I guess like I don't really want to share too much about my kids. 725 00:39:37,600 --> 00:39:40,800 I know I do share a lot of things like with my life. 726 00:39:41,000 --> 00:39:43,700 On like Instagram and Tick-Tock and on my podcast. 727 00:39:43,700 --> 00:39:46,200 But you know, I'm worried that they're going to be their own 728 00:39:46,200 --> 00:39:48,500 people and they're going to listen to these things and 729 00:39:48,500 --> 00:39:51,100 probably watch these things back when they get older. 730 00:39:51,100 --> 00:39:53,900 So I think that's enough of an update with Ali. 731 00:39:54,200 --> 00:39:56,800 Lila. Lots and lots of questions 732 00:39:56,800 --> 00:40:00,500 around Lila and like just basically in the whole last 8 733 00:40:00,500 --> 00:40:03,400 months, her breastfeeding Journey. 734 00:40:03,400 --> 00:40:06,800 Like I was mentioning was really rough at the start and I was 735 00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:09,500 exclusively pumping for three weeks, we had a lactation 736 00:40:09,500 --> 00:40:12,600 consultant appointment. So Lila actually had a racist 737 00:40:12,600 --> 00:40:15,800 jaw when she was first born, which is why she couldn't feed 738 00:40:15,800 --> 00:40:18,000 properly. And now we also know she has a 739 00:40:18,008 --> 00:40:19,900 tongue tied. That's only been a recent thing 740 00:40:19,900 --> 00:40:23,000 that we've learned. So we're working on that but it 741 00:40:23,000 --> 00:40:24,900 just makes a lot of sense around. 742 00:40:24,900 --> 00:40:28,200 Why are breastfeeding Journey? This time around has been so 743 00:40:28,200 --> 00:40:31,700 difficult and so different to Ali's. 744 00:40:33,100 --> 00:40:37,500 I basically only breastfeed her now overnight and Nate maybe 745 00:40:37,500 --> 00:40:40,500 sometimes, but it's definitely been dropping off the first feed 746 00:40:40,500 --> 00:40:45,200 in them. Mornings apart from that, she is 747 00:40:45,200 --> 00:40:48,400 Formula feeding and having bottles and she is absolutely 748 00:40:48,400 --> 00:40:50,800 thriving. But don't get me wrong. 749 00:40:51,300 --> 00:40:54,800 It was a very, very big mental challenge for me to get my head 750 00:40:54,800 --> 00:40:57,400 around that I think because there was so much comparison 751 00:40:57,400 --> 00:41:01,000 coming up for me with my breast, feeding Journey with Ali, and he 752 00:41:01,000 --> 00:41:04,100 never took a bottle. He just never wanted to not for 753 00:41:04,100 --> 00:41:08,400 lack of trying, and he was just an absolute boob monster. 754 00:41:08,500 --> 00:41:13,700 And I think that set my expectations, Chen's that the it 755 00:41:13,700 --> 00:41:16,200 was just going to be the same with Lila and it has not been 756 00:41:16,200 --> 00:41:19,900 the case at all. I have had not really much of a 757 00:41:19,900 --> 00:41:22,600 letdown for months now and I think that's been really 758 00:41:22,600 --> 00:41:26,700 difficult for Lila as well and like they're just different 759 00:41:26,700 --> 00:41:29,400 babies. Like they're just different and 760 00:41:29,400 --> 00:41:33,200 that has been a lot for me to understand as well and to really 761 00:41:33,200 --> 00:41:36,000 start to be like okay like I see what everyone means now. 762 00:41:36,000 --> 00:41:39,600 When they say every baby is different, it's so true like her 763 00:41:39,600 --> 00:41:41,900 sleep. I can literally Pop her down for 764 00:41:41,900 --> 00:41:44,100 her naps. During the day, she has a dummy 765 00:41:44,100 --> 00:41:46,800 again, Ali never really took a dummy wasn't interested. 766 00:41:47,500 --> 00:41:53,300 I can pop her in her court with her dummies and her little 767 00:41:53,300 --> 00:41:54,900 comforter with the dummies tied to it. 768 00:41:54,900 --> 00:41:56,200 So, she always knows where they are. 769 00:41:56,200 --> 00:41:57,800 And she will literally roll over. 770 00:41:57,900 --> 00:42:00,700 Grab her dummy, put it in her mouth and she's asleep. 771 00:42:01,500 --> 00:42:05,800 Ali never like, never the self settling. 772 00:42:05,800 --> 00:42:07,900 I had to do with him, the self settling. 773 00:42:07,900 --> 00:42:10,800 I had to do to try and get him to link his sleep cycles. 774 00:42:11,200 --> 00:42:15,700 Just like absolute worlds apart. And it's not, I have not done 775 00:42:15,700 --> 00:42:19,100 anything different with Lila. It just is really simply the 776 00:42:19,100 --> 00:42:22,100 fact that all babies and children are different. 777 00:42:22,300 --> 00:42:27,100 And yeah, she just like sleep more than Ali did even with her 778 00:42:27,200 --> 00:42:29,300 regular night wakes. Now, she's waking probably three 779 00:42:29,300 --> 00:42:31,200 or four times a night. That's nothing. 780 00:42:31,200 --> 00:42:33,500 Compared like Ali was 12 or 13 times a night. 781 00:42:33,500 --> 00:42:37,600 When we had this lead consultant with him so you know, she's not 782 00:42:37,600 --> 00:42:39,400 sleeping great. And yes, she's in another 783 00:42:39,400 --> 00:42:42,500 aggression and she's been teething But in comparison to 784 00:42:42,500 --> 00:42:48,100 Ali, it's really fine in saying that we are going to be putting 785 00:42:48,100 --> 00:42:50,300 her into her own room. So we're still renovating the 786 00:42:50,300 --> 00:42:52,800 house. We're getting very close. 787 00:42:52,800 --> 00:42:54,700 We're probably. I would say a bit more than 788 00:42:54,700 --> 00:42:57,100 three quarters of the way done. Now, which is really exciting. 789 00:42:57,500 --> 00:43:00,200 And her room is not completely finished yet, which is why we 790 00:43:00,200 --> 00:43:01,700 haven't moved her into her own room yet. 791 00:43:01,700 --> 00:43:04,000 So we're going to be working on that over the next few weeks. 792 00:43:04,400 --> 00:43:07,800 And we're going to transition her and her own room and see how 793 00:43:07,800 --> 00:43:10,500 that goes. And if she's still not sleeping 794 00:43:10,500 --> 00:43:13,400 through the night, Then we'll be looking into getting that same 795 00:43:13,400 --> 00:43:16,600 sleep consultant again. So for those that Wonder because 796 00:43:16,600 --> 00:43:18,000 I do get asked about this a lot as well. 797 00:43:18,000 --> 00:43:20,900 We used Mary and Sayers so you can find her. 798 00:43:20,900 --> 00:43:23,000 She's got a website. You can find her on Facebook. 799 00:43:23,000 --> 00:43:26,300 I'm not sure if she's on Instagram but she just 800 00:43:26,300 --> 00:43:29,000 absolutely changed our world with Ali and his sleep. 801 00:43:29,000 --> 00:43:33,300 And I cannot wait to have a night that I sleep through the 802 00:43:33,300 --> 00:43:35,900 night. Although Ali might throw a 803 00:43:35,908 --> 00:43:37,700 little bit of a spanner in the works with that because he 804 00:43:37,700 --> 00:43:40,300 hasn't been sleeping through the night again either, but that's 805 00:43:40,300 --> 00:43:42,100 okay. We're We're working with it feel 806 00:43:42,100 --> 00:43:44,500 like that's just like my life motto in the moment at the 807 00:43:44,500 --> 00:43:47,200 moment is like I'm working with it or let's just roll with it. 808 00:43:47,200 --> 00:43:50,300 Like I don't know. I just think what has come with 809 00:43:50,300 --> 00:43:55,200 my second time around and second baby is just really embracing 810 00:43:55,200 --> 00:43:58,200 the fact that like this is only a phase. 811 00:43:58,200 --> 00:44:01,000 This is going to pass. There is going to be a time. 812 00:44:01,000 --> 00:44:03,300 When Lila does sleep through, there is going to be a time when 813 00:44:03,300 --> 00:44:06,300 Lolly is not scared of the dark, and he is sleeping through. 814 00:44:06,300 --> 00:44:08,800 And, you know, just all of these different things that we're 815 00:44:08,800 --> 00:44:10,800 going through as frustrating as they can feel. 816 00:44:10,900 --> 00:44:14,000 And in the moment I know that they are going to pass and I 817 00:44:14,000 --> 00:44:16,900 think that's just like mud that motto that I keep trying to 818 00:44:16,900 --> 00:44:19,300 remind myself of life. I'm just rolling with it. 819 00:44:19,300 --> 00:44:22,500 Like I'm just going with it and just going to see what happens. 820 00:44:22,800 --> 00:44:25,000 It's just helped me to feel a lot more relaxed. 821 00:44:25,000 --> 00:44:29,500 I think as a mum and just a lot less anxious and a lot less 822 00:44:29,500 --> 00:44:35,100 paranoid about things. But yeah, I feel like look guys, 823 00:44:35,100 --> 00:44:38,700 that's like 45 minutes of me rambling about my life and my 824 00:44:38,700 --> 00:44:40,500 life updates. I hope that there's been some 825 00:44:40,500 --> 00:44:43,000 things. In this episode that you have 826 00:44:43,000 --> 00:44:46,000 found interesting. At least maybe there's been a 827 00:44:46,008 --> 00:44:48,400 few little things that you feel like you want to start doing for 828 00:44:48,400 --> 00:44:52,000 yourself like reading having a really simple morning routine. 829 00:44:52,000 --> 00:44:54,100 I don't know. Maybe there's some things that 830 00:44:54,100 --> 00:44:57,400 you have found interesting or enlightening around postnatal 831 00:44:57,400 --> 00:44:59,600 depression or doing some things for you. 832 00:44:59,600 --> 00:45:02,100 That feel really good for you. Let me know. 833 00:45:02,100 --> 00:45:04,200 I will pop. 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