1 00:00:02,680 --> 00:00:05,000 I'm Brandon. And I'm Jesse we're. 2 00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:09,040 Cannabis school having cannabis infused conversations with 3 00:00:09,040 --> 00:00:09,920 everyday. People. 4 00:00:10,120 --> 00:00:12,080 Cannabis companies. Celebrities. 5 00:00:12,360 --> 00:00:15,280 And your mom? Welcome to the sesh. 6 00:00:17,000 --> 00:00:19,480 Go crazy. And a lot of it comes from our 7 00:00:19,480 --> 00:00:21,400 childhood. A lot of it comes from I didn't 8 00:00:21,400 --> 00:00:25,040 get this, I didn't get that. And unknowingly, I turned my 9 00:00:25,040 --> 00:00:28,200 kids into spoiled brats. But a lot of people have. 10 00:00:28,320 --> 00:00:31,840 See ya, I always didn't do much. And Susan? 11 00:00:31,840 --> 00:00:35,680 'S family always got a million like or second Christmas and it 12 00:00:35,680 --> 00:00:37,920 was coming around like, all right, what do we do? 13 00:00:37,920 --> 00:00:42,920 Because Haley's two. Yeah, so already at 2, she's got 14 00:00:43,720 --> 00:00:46,400 this many presents from Nana, from us, from all. 15 00:00:46,400 --> 00:00:48,480 Like look at this mountain of presents. 16 00:00:49,440 --> 00:00:52,600 What are we going to do next year and the year after and the 17 00:00:52,600 --> 00:00:54,080 year after? Yeah, we're going to keep doing 18 00:00:54,080 --> 00:00:55,000 this. What are we going to do? 19 00:00:55,000 --> 00:00:56,520 Because and we watched. What was it? 20 00:00:56,520 --> 00:01:01,160 Oh, Harry Potter and it has that little fat greedy fuck kid who's 21 00:01:01,160 --> 00:01:04,360 like, there's only 34. There was 35 last year. 22 00:01:04,360 --> 00:01:06,800 And I'm like, that would bug the shit out of me. 23 00:01:06,800 --> 00:01:08,680 I don't want to raise that as a child. 24 00:01:09,480 --> 00:01:11,080 I know. So it was like, how do we do 25 00:01:11,080 --> 00:01:12,360 this in a way that doesn't do it? 26 00:01:12,360 --> 00:01:14,440 I was like, well, Jesus, got 3 gifts. 27 00:01:14,440 --> 00:01:16,560 So our kids get 3 gifts. That's it. 28 00:01:17,080 --> 00:01:19,640 It can be more expensive because whatever, but three gifts 29 00:01:19,640 --> 00:01:22,000 because honestly, do they need more than three? 30 00:01:22,320 --> 00:01:24,040 Because they're still going to get one from family. 31 00:01:24,240 --> 00:01:27,160 Like whatever, there's still stuff from every fucking other 32 00:01:27,160 --> 00:01:28,680 place. Yeah. 33 00:01:29,120 --> 00:01:33,360 And you know, the thing too about it is when they get the 34 00:01:33,360 --> 00:01:36,360 gifts, the gift that was thoughtful isn't always the most 35 00:01:36,360 --> 00:01:39,000 expensive, and it usually gets pushed off to the side. 36 00:01:39,800 --> 00:01:42,200 And and that's something I've been thinking a lot about, too. 37 00:01:42,200 --> 00:01:44,400 For this next Christmas, I'm just like, look, let's just get 38 00:01:44,400 --> 00:01:47,320 them the things that we know that they would enjoy, get them 39 00:01:47,320 --> 00:01:49,440 a couple of dinky things and that's it. 40 00:01:49,440 --> 00:01:51,080 We don't need to go crazy overboard. 41 00:01:51,880 --> 00:01:55,000 Yeah, And I mean, dude, for like me this last year, what did I 42 00:01:55,000 --> 00:01:56,440 get? I don't even remember what I 43 00:01:56,440 --> 00:01:57,600 got. It was something. 44 00:01:57,840 --> 00:01:59,520 I I was sure that my parents did. 45 00:01:59,520 --> 00:02:04,560 As we got older, they would buy more family things like a, a 46 00:02:04,560 --> 00:02:05,720 foosball table. Cool. 47 00:02:05,840 --> 00:02:08,120 This is our family gift. This is part of Christmas. 48 00:02:08,120 --> 00:02:11,320 And as a family now we can all play this together. 49 00:02:11,640 --> 00:02:14,400 We can do these things. And it's a, it's not just like 50 00:02:15,200 --> 00:02:17,680 one thing for one individual. It's like, this is a present. 51 00:02:17,680 --> 00:02:19,400 Yeah, it's the family. And everyone's still got their 52 00:02:19,400 --> 00:02:23,320 own small individual stuff, but it was like just getting used to 53 00:02:23,320 --> 00:02:28,000 not feeling that need of like, oh, I only got a few presents. 54 00:02:28,080 --> 00:02:29,560 Right. Does that matter? 55 00:02:30,080 --> 00:02:31,400 Why are you feeling you need more? 56 00:02:31,520 --> 00:02:35,600 I, I remember very distinctly as a kid, but I, I probably got 57 00:02:35,600 --> 00:02:40,040 like four or five presents every year and I was so grateful. 58 00:02:40,040 --> 00:02:42,000 If that, yeah, it was so grateful. 59 00:02:42,080 --> 00:02:43,920 It was like the coolest thing was like, Oh my gosh, look what 60 00:02:43,920 --> 00:02:49,800 I got Scripture, just like all sorts of this stuff. 61 00:02:49,800 --> 00:02:51,880 But it was like, oh cool, this is mine. 62 00:02:52,000 --> 00:02:54,760 It was this excitement. Not like, oh, I did. 63 00:02:55,120 --> 00:02:57,080 And granted, there was times that it was like, man, I really 64 00:02:57,080 --> 00:02:59,960 wish I had gotten this remote control car 'cause my friends 65 00:02:59,960 --> 00:03:03,680 got these Nerf guns and this and that and I got a pair of pants 66 00:03:03,680 --> 00:03:07,480 and like this and I got, you know, whatever it was, but it 67 00:03:07,480 --> 00:03:10,200 wasn't ever the same as theirs. But it was still like. 68 00:03:10,680 --> 00:03:13,880 You're appreciative. Yeah, and some years, like I did 69 00:03:13,880 --> 00:03:16,480 get an RC car one year and I was like, oh shit, like what? 70 00:03:16,800 --> 00:03:18,600 Yeah, and you probably loved it was the. 71 00:03:18,600 --> 00:03:22,560 Coolest thing I ever fucking had and we use those things non-stop 72 00:03:22,560 --> 00:03:25,320 all the time. But it was because we didn't get 73 00:03:25,760 --> 00:03:28,840 everything under the sun. I like that statement you just 74 00:03:28,840 --> 00:03:31,200 made where you're the coolest thing I ever had because I don't 75 00:03:31,200 --> 00:03:34,920 think kids get that fulfillment and wonder like they used to 76 00:03:34,920 --> 00:03:37,360 because now there's just so much fucking shit. 77 00:03:37,760 --> 00:03:42,920 Like, I think the worst thing is gift cards now, because a gift 78 00:03:42,920 --> 00:03:45,920 card's like, fuck, I don't know, just give you some money and you 79 00:03:45,920 --> 00:03:47,600 go get it. And yeah, at first you're like, 80 00:03:47,600 --> 00:03:49,280 cool, I got money, but what do you spend that on? 81 00:03:49,640 --> 00:03:52,640 Kids spend it on fucking shit at Mavericks. 82 00:03:52,640 --> 00:03:55,240 Slipping chips and shit, whatever random. 83 00:03:55,600 --> 00:03:57,000 Shit, that doesn't make any sense. 84 00:03:57,000 --> 00:04:01,480 You know, it's, it's like I, I would prefer if my kids felt 85 00:04:01,520 --> 00:04:05,840 more excited just about the day. Like I don't want to spend an 86 00:04:05,840 --> 00:04:08,200 hour and a half opening fucking presents. 87 00:04:08,640 --> 00:04:10,800 I want. To go through it quick and I 88 00:04:10,800 --> 00:04:14,480 want to go back to bed or I want to fucking chill and watch my 89 00:04:14,480 --> 00:04:16,760 kids do. Like now they're so much older, 90 00:04:17,200 --> 00:04:18,800 they just do their own fucking thing. 91 00:04:18,880 --> 00:04:20,720 The only one who wants to play is Phoenix. 92 00:04:20,720 --> 00:04:24,160 It's because everyone else it's like yeah half Addie will play 93 00:04:24,160 --> 00:04:28,080 with me sometimes but half the time she's doing her own shit 94 00:04:28,280 --> 00:04:32,160 talking to her friends on her phones par Roblox playing for it 95 00:04:32,200 --> 00:04:33,880 like something cuz she's at that. 96 00:04:33,960 --> 00:04:37,120 She's also 12 1/2. Which is awesome, right? 97 00:04:37,120 --> 00:04:39,560 She's getting a that's exactly like Aria now. 98 00:04:39,920 --> 00:04:43,040 Aria is like that. She's got friends, she's going 99 00:04:43,040 --> 00:04:44,560 to their. Houses and you're happy for 100 00:04:44,560 --> 00:04:45,400 them. Totally. 101 00:04:45,400 --> 00:04:47,840 You just kind of miss him. Oh, yeah, you miss him a little 102 00:04:47,840 --> 00:04:49,160 bit. Like Max and I are finally 103 00:04:49,160 --> 00:04:51,440 getting a relationship now where he talks to me a lot. 104 00:04:51,440 --> 00:04:53,880 Like, did he did the most random thing for me? 105 00:04:53,880 --> 00:04:57,080 Yeah, totally. Because I was like, well, lawn 106 00:04:57,080 --> 00:04:59,360 needs cutting. It hasn't been done this last 107 00:04:59,360 --> 00:05:00,680 weekend. So I got to get it done. 108 00:05:01,200 --> 00:05:05,440 So I went got a fucking I, I started getting it all ready, 109 00:05:05,440 --> 00:05:09,000 was going to prep it. And then before I know I was 110 00:05:09,000 --> 00:05:11,640 going to the I was going in the backyard to like pick up shit. 111 00:05:12,080 --> 00:05:14,680 Max already went out there, picked up all the dog shit, any 112 00:05:14,680 --> 00:05:17,520 of the toys of the kids left out there, sticks, all that. 113 00:05:18,000 --> 00:05:21,160 And then he started mowing it and not only did he mow it, but 114 00:05:21,160 --> 00:05:23,440 he did a really good fucking job This time. 115 00:05:23,760 --> 00:05:25,960 It didn't look like that. Remember the meme I was telling 116 00:05:25,960 --> 00:05:27,440 you? Yeah, and there's mohawks and 117 00:05:27,440 --> 00:05:29,320 yeah. Oh, it's the first time you have 118 00:05:29,320 --> 00:05:31,520 your kids mow it. Like when I had to add emo at 119 00:05:31,520 --> 00:05:33,960 the first time and I taught her and she's like, oh, I'm done. 120 00:05:33,960 --> 00:05:37,040 I'm like, I mean, you did good, but there's a Mohawk there, a 121 00:05:37,040 --> 00:05:39,560 Mohawk there, Mohawk there. If you'd go get those then 122 00:05:39,560 --> 00:05:41,880 that'd be good. Yeah, Max said he goes, well, 123 00:05:41,880 --> 00:05:43,560 how do you fix that? And I'm like, sometimes you need 124 00:05:43,560 --> 00:05:45,720 to go over that same area twice. Yeah, that's it. 125 00:05:45,720 --> 00:05:48,000 But that's OK. Is that it helps to grow evenly. 126 00:05:48,440 --> 00:05:51,400 And he used to get pissed off at this last time because I've been 127 00:05:51,840 --> 00:05:56,680 improving my relationship understanding and in the and and 128 00:05:56,840 --> 00:05:59,280 I know I've gone a lot on about shapes, but I think it's just 129 00:05:59,280 --> 00:06:01,280 behaviors that I've been so excited about. 130 00:06:01,720 --> 00:06:04,320 And that's why I like with Max, I've been seeing a massive 131 00:06:04,320 --> 00:06:07,040 change in his behavior. But my wife has said, you know, 132 00:06:07,040 --> 00:06:10,600 because you have changed, the house has changed and. 133 00:06:11,200 --> 00:06:13,480 As a dad and and it sucks to say. 134 00:06:14,000 --> 00:06:16,120 It's a huge. Responsibility, well, but we 135 00:06:16,120 --> 00:06:20,600 hold this power over the home and so it does. 136 00:06:20,600 --> 00:06:24,200 It kind of puts everyone under that home in this umbrella of 137 00:06:24,200 --> 00:06:29,240 like, you know, I'm sure with Grandma Holt, it was grandma was 138 00:06:29,240 --> 00:06:31,880 the power. You know, there's always this 139 00:06:31,880 --> 00:06:36,560 one of like you have to make sure that that person is happy 140 00:06:36,600 --> 00:06:41,680 because if they snap or whatever, then it's like it, it 141 00:06:41,720 --> 00:06:44,600 instantly isn't a safe, happy, comfortable place. 142 00:06:45,160 --> 00:06:48,000 It's a scared, nervous, like anxious place. 143 00:06:48,040 --> 00:06:51,800 It's like what Richard said, you know, you are creating, you need 144 00:06:51,800 --> 00:06:53,480 to create a safe space in your home. 145 00:06:53,480 --> 00:06:58,320 And before he kind of explained it from their perspective, it 146 00:06:58,320 --> 00:07:01,840 was very eye opening in the sense of going, Oh yeah, why 147 00:07:01,840 --> 00:07:04,680 provide a safe home? Like I will hurt anybody that 148 00:07:04,680 --> 00:07:07,600 comes into my home. I will take care of my family 149 00:07:07,880 --> 00:07:09,320 because I have this trend. No. 150 00:07:10,000 --> 00:07:15,760 Are you caring for your kids? Are you giving them a safe home? 151 00:07:16,040 --> 00:07:18,680 Are you teaching them safe practices and and how to 152 00:07:18,680 --> 00:07:21,280 interact with other people? That something really 153 00:07:21,280 --> 00:07:25,640 interesting on that actually, Emily sent me this TikTok and it 154 00:07:25,640 --> 00:07:29,920 was, oh, I don't remember who it is, name is. 155 00:07:29,920 --> 00:07:31,440 I'm terrible with actors and actresses. 156 00:07:31,440 --> 00:07:34,320 But she said it's the guy who's married to Kristen Bell. 157 00:07:35,200 --> 00:07:36,760 Oh, Dax Shepard. Yeah, that guy. 158 00:07:36,840 --> 00:07:39,320 Yeah, armchair experts. Yeah, so they were. 159 00:07:39,320 --> 00:07:43,040 He was talking about how couples argue when they have kids. 160 00:07:43,600 --> 00:07:48,560 And oftentimes what happens is they argue and the kids see the 161 00:07:48,560 --> 00:07:51,520 argument, but the kids never see the makeup. 162 00:07:52,120 --> 00:07:55,120 They never see how it was actually resolved and what 163 00:07:55,120 --> 00:07:57,360 happened. So what that teaches our kids is 164 00:07:57,360 --> 00:07:58,600 they know how to escalate things. 165 00:07:59,000 --> 00:08:01,800 They know how to get in fights, and they don't know how to 166 00:08:01,800 --> 00:08:05,200 resolve them. And it was like, so in that 167 00:08:05,320 --> 00:08:08,840 video, he's like, So what we do is, you know, yeah, maybe we go 168 00:08:08,840 --> 00:08:12,560 and we resolve it later. But then I tell my kids, hey, 169 00:08:12,840 --> 00:08:16,520 Dad said this to mom and this is what she said, and this is what 170 00:08:16,520 --> 00:08:18,600 we felt. And this is how we, you know, 171 00:08:18,600 --> 00:08:21,360 and then I said, I'm sorry or like whatever it was to help 172 00:08:21,360 --> 00:08:24,920 them understand how to navigate that because instead of just 173 00:08:24,920 --> 00:08:28,080 going this is how you fight, this is how you escalate 174 00:08:28,080 --> 00:08:29,440 something. This is how you get mad. 175 00:08:29,480 --> 00:08:32,120 It was like, this is how you work past that. 176 00:08:32,280 --> 00:08:34,080 This is how you resolve those issues. 177 00:08:34,240 --> 00:08:37,679 And this is how you work to have like a healthy relationship with 178 00:08:37,679 --> 00:08:40,919 your partner and teach that to your kids so they can have 179 00:08:40,919 --> 00:08:43,880 healthy relationships with their friends and their partners. 180 00:08:44,080 --> 00:08:47,080 Isn't that kind of funny where we, we want to show like, I 181 00:08:47,080 --> 00:08:49,800 mean, and this happened just reflecting and maybe, you know, 182 00:08:49,800 --> 00:08:53,400 you have something similar, but the way we perceived ourselves 183 00:08:53,400 --> 00:08:56,600 before was that we're the parent, we're right. 184 00:08:56,960 --> 00:08:59,320 And this is the way it goes. And when you're a parent, you 185 00:08:59,320 --> 00:09:02,000 can make those decisions because this was said to us constantly. 186 00:09:02,000 --> 00:09:05,160 When you're an adult. Yeah, once you're an adult and 187 00:09:05,160 --> 00:09:08,280 instead of being able to like, even call it out, like even 188 00:09:08,280 --> 00:09:10,880 saying you're sorry, like my parents would rarely say they're 189 00:09:10,880 --> 00:09:12,640 sorry to me if they were really. Upset. 190 00:09:12,960 --> 00:09:14,240 Did your parents say they were sorry? 191 00:09:15,080 --> 00:09:18,000 Every once in a while, the one time my dad really said sorry to 192 00:09:18,000 --> 00:09:21,360 me was when he came in the room. I was talking to my mom. 193 00:09:21,360 --> 00:09:26,600 I was being an asshole. My mom went to slap me doing 194 00:09:26,600 --> 00:09:29,840 martial arts for a long time. So when I see a fast movement, I 195 00:09:29,840 --> 00:09:33,120 react Yeah. And so it and I grabbed her hand 196 00:09:33,920 --> 00:09:37,800 and we both do this like kind of movie look like we both look at 197 00:09:37,800 --> 00:09:38,960 that. And she went to go hit me with 198 00:09:38,960 --> 00:09:42,440 the other one and I went and my mom looks at me like this. 199 00:09:42,440 --> 00:09:48,840 Now imagine you're the husband. You come into the room, your 11 200 00:09:48,840 --> 00:09:52,360 year old son is as tall as your wife is holding her by the 201 00:09:52,360 --> 00:09:56,680 wrists. He grabs me by my hair like. 202 00:09:57,240 --> 00:10:00,680 Boom. Peels me off, I let go 203 00:10:00,680 --> 00:10:03,080 immediately and he pulls his first way back. 204 00:10:04,800 --> 00:10:06,560 Yeah, that scares the shit out of you at 11. 205 00:10:07,080 --> 00:10:10,000 Oh dude, it was halfway to me. My mom grabbed it. 206 00:10:10,640 --> 00:10:14,600 She says no, no, I was trying to hit him and he stopped me. 207 00:10:15,520 --> 00:10:19,160 And then I thought about that now and I'm like, I want you to 208 00:10:19,160 --> 00:10:21,000 go back and think about what you just said there. 209 00:10:22,640 --> 00:10:25,480 No, no, it's OK. I was trying to hit him and he 210 00:10:25,480 --> 00:10:30,000 stopped me. Hitting your kid shouldn't be 211 00:10:30,000 --> 00:10:33,640 the first interaction. That should be a deterrent away 212 00:10:33,640 --> 00:10:35,520 from something that they're not stopping. 213 00:10:35,520 --> 00:10:38,760 If your kids on top of another and he's beating the shit out of 214 00:10:38,760 --> 00:10:41,840 them and you can't get them off, yeah, you're going to have to do 215 00:10:41,840 --> 00:10:44,760 something to stop them because they're so in. 216 00:10:44,760 --> 00:10:47,760 Line, but even then I think about like, you know, and and 217 00:10:47,760 --> 00:10:49,520 hitting. I don't think hitting would ever 218 00:10:49,520 --> 00:10:51,880 be my first reaction. I think I would try and tackle 219 00:10:51,880 --> 00:10:55,280 someone because hitting them, well, that's just violence with 220 00:10:55,280 --> 00:10:59,120 violence, but a tackle is more of like a restraint to go, hey, 221 00:10:59,200 --> 00:11:02,680 slow it down. The the only the only reason why 222 00:11:02,680 --> 00:11:06,120 I'm going, I might say that just based off of experience with 223 00:11:06,120 --> 00:11:10,200 like the construction, it's the well, no, no, it's it's the 224 00:11:10,200 --> 00:11:14,560 strength that once somebody is in that spot, like a for 225 00:11:14,560 --> 00:11:17,720 instance, this patient was trying to RIP out the eye of a 226 00:11:17,720 --> 00:11:24,120 nurse and he had scraped all of the skin off of her fucking face 227 00:11:24,160 --> 00:11:26,920 to the skull. Dude, it was bright white here. 228 00:11:27,320 --> 00:11:31,560 Blood's pouring down her face. Reason why he wouldn't she 229 00:11:31,560 --> 00:11:34,200 wouldn't let him go out for his smoke and his coke. 230 00:11:35,000 --> 00:11:39,960 So he mentally unstable, loses his shit, starts doing that. 231 00:11:40,000 --> 00:11:41,160 You know what other people were doing? 232 00:11:41,200 --> 00:11:44,960 They're trying to pull him off. He was a small, skinny 65 year 233 00:11:44,960 --> 00:11:47,120 old man. Oh no, you can't try and pull 234 00:11:47,120 --> 00:11:48,200 him off. I would, that's what. 235 00:11:48,200 --> 00:11:50,600 I said I Oh no, no. I would run and tackle. 236 00:11:50,600 --> 00:11:52,120 They were, they were trying that. 237 00:11:52,160 --> 00:11:54,920 This is multiple times like when they've got the adrenaline 238 00:11:54,920 --> 00:11:58,000 going, they don't feel anything. So when the there were these 239 00:11:58,000 --> 00:12:01,480 women trying to pull him off, but he was so angry and he was 240 00:12:01,480 --> 00:12:03,680 holding on to it. And then, and I'm not saying all 241 00:12:03,680 --> 00:12:05,080 kids would do that and I wouldn't have to go to this 242 00:12:05,080 --> 00:12:08,320 point, but when I got there, I went to pull his hand off and he 243 00:12:08,320 --> 00:12:12,200 went to bite me. So reaction, I went across and I 244 00:12:12,200 --> 00:12:14,200 elbowed him in the back of the head, then grabbed him by his 245 00:12:14,200 --> 00:12:17,560 hair. And then I said, take her and 246 00:12:17,560 --> 00:12:20,480 his hand shot him and I slammed him on the ground and put him in 247 00:12:20,480 --> 00:12:24,400 a crazy wrist lock. And he's like, who's doing that? 248 00:12:24,400 --> 00:12:26,920 And I get down there. It was me, you motherfucker. 249 00:12:27,800 --> 00:12:29,680 It's a Skinhead. I mean, he's crazy, right? 250 00:12:29,680 --> 00:12:34,480 But he is in such a mode that when he finally came to, he came 251 00:12:34,480 --> 00:12:36,560 back to me. His name is George Moon was 252 00:12:36,560 --> 00:12:39,760 George Moon. He goes, hey, Jesse, I'm really 253 00:12:39,760 --> 00:12:41,360 sorry I called you a fucking Skinhead. 254 00:12:41,360 --> 00:12:43,640 I know you're Mexican and you're a Skinhead. 255 00:12:43,640 --> 00:12:46,640 I'm like, hey, can't attack women like that, dude. 256 00:12:46,720 --> 00:12:48,400 Like I don't care. People like that. 257 00:12:48,640 --> 00:12:52,120 Well, I, I, I have a a very, very like you're shut. 258 00:12:52,200 --> 00:12:53,160 With women, yeah. No. 259 00:12:53,480 --> 00:12:55,800 I'm not. I was raised like you don't hit 260 00:12:55,800 --> 00:12:57,240 a woman you don't like, you don't put. 261 00:12:57,240 --> 00:12:59,080 Your hands on. That's not how you do it. 262 00:12:59,200 --> 00:13:01,200 And it wasn't by fear, it was respect. 263 00:13:01,200 --> 00:13:04,160 And just how I was raised. My daughter thinks it's a it's a 264 00:13:04,160 --> 00:13:07,240 ticket to hit her brothers. I'm like, hey, yeah, I won't 265 00:13:07,240 --> 00:13:09,640 beat your ass, but I'll make your life hell yeah. 266 00:13:09,960 --> 00:13:12,600 Do not instigate that. Yeah. 267 00:13:12,600 --> 00:13:14,800 And like, because it's not OK for you to hit them just because 268 00:13:14,800 --> 00:13:17,240 it's not OK for them to hit you. Zander asked me. 269 00:13:17,240 --> 00:13:18,600 He goes, when could I hit my sister? 270 00:13:18,600 --> 00:13:20,640 And like, she has a knife and she's really going to hit you. 271 00:13:20,880 --> 00:13:24,280 Get you fucking Decker, dude. Yeah, fucking Decker. 272 00:13:24,280 --> 00:13:26,760 Any woman does that. If they have a weapon, deck them 273 00:13:27,120 --> 00:13:29,040 if you can. But that's more of like I'm 274 00:13:29,040 --> 00:13:30,800 trying not to die in this second. 275 00:13:30,800 --> 00:13:32,880 Exactly like you have to have nowhere to. 276 00:13:32,880 --> 00:13:35,400 Go some crazy weird in like, yeah. 277 00:13:35,680 --> 00:13:38,360 It's it's the same thing like with knife tech cause Rich and I 278 00:13:38,520 --> 00:13:44,720 are very much agree this seems scary but it's really not. 279 00:13:44,760 --> 00:13:46,400 The guy doesn't know what he's doing. 280 00:13:46,400 --> 00:13:49,120 And when I overcomplicate things, which is usually an 281 00:13:49,120 --> 00:13:52,600 argument with your kids or your wife or whoever, then now you're 282 00:13:52,600 --> 00:13:55,480 both getting cut. But if I'm simplistic about it 283 00:13:55,480 --> 00:13:57,840 and I'm just saying, look, all I need to do is meet just like 284 00:13:57,840 --> 00:14:01,120 what you were saying, I need to meet them and stop them from 285 00:14:01,120 --> 00:14:04,720 where they're at to mitigate their movement so that they can 286 00:14:04,720 --> 00:14:08,200 chill the fuck out. It's the exact same thing and, 287 00:14:08,240 --> 00:14:10,880 and and reason why I even said that because yours is very 288 00:14:10,880 --> 00:14:12,200 valid. Very, very valid. 289 00:14:12,200 --> 00:14:15,680 Like it's your kid I just immediately go back to and I 290 00:14:15,680 --> 00:14:19,200 have a lot of CPSCP. CPTST. 291 00:14:19,200 --> 00:14:22,320 C PS: Yeah, that one. I have a lot of that from the 292 00:14:22,320 --> 00:14:25,040 state hospital. A lot I can imagine. 293 00:14:25,720 --> 00:14:29,200 Like because you take 10 years? Well, plus you've been in like 294 00:14:29,400 --> 00:14:32,160 all the fights growing up. And and then training. 295 00:14:32,160 --> 00:14:35,960 And bouncer, like there's all these things that compound. 296 00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:39,480 Yeah, violence was my home. It was. 297 00:14:39,480 --> 00:14:43,680 It's a very sweet home too, because I'll push myself further 298 00:14:43,680 --> 00:14:46,480 and farther than anything else. I would have been a stupid 299 00:14:46,480 --> 00:14:48,480 soldier. I would have been a stupid 300 00:14:48,480 --> 00:14:49,400 soldier. Really. 301 00:14:49,720 --> 00:14:54,960 Last thing I'll say Sean Shrek McPhee. 302 00:14:55,000 --> 00:14:59,680 He is a Delta Force operator. He was on the Sean Ryan show and 303 00:14:59,680 --> 00:15:03,200 is by far one of the most fucking hilarious and 304 00:15:03,200 --> 00:15:06,160 psychopathic podcast I've ever heard. 305 00:15:06,760 --> 00:15:11,160 He does not care and he talked about. 306 00:15:11,440 --> 00:15:15,760 About anything. No, he cares, but he was raised 307 00:15:15,760 --> 00:15:20,160 in such an abusive climate that he didn't care anymore. 308 00:15:20,240 --> 00:15:24,760 And he put himself through school growing up, got good 309 00:15:24,760 --> 00:15:28,120 grades, not because his parent dad was an alcoholic and mom was 310 00:15:28,120 --> 00:15:29,760 a drug addict. It was just him and his brother 311 00:15:30,240 --> 00:15:31,440 and they took care of these cells. 312 00:15:31,680 --> 00:15:34,680 They left home at 12. Geez. 313 00:15:34,760 --> 00:15:39,000 Lived in a brothel from this prostitute that put him up 314 00:15:39,000 --> 00:15:41,360 because she liked them because they knew each other. 315 00:15:41,360 --> 00:15:45,800 Was in South Chicago and he went back and live with his mom from 316 00:15:45,800 --> 00:15:48,520 when he was 17 until he left for the for the Army. 317 00:15:48,560 --> 00:15:52,360 And dude, he served over 20 years in the Army and he thought 318 00:15:52,360 --> 00:15:55,320 everything was great. He thought it was awesome, all 319 00:15:55,320 --> 00:15:57,440 the abuse they threw him. And he's like, because this guy 320 00:15:57,440 --> 00:16:01,040 had suffered so many horrors growing up that he's like. 321 00:16:01,560 --> 00:16:04,480 Yeah, this is nothing. If they hurt him, he's like, 322 00:16:04,480 --> 00:16:05,120 man, it's OK. Yeah. 323 00:16:05,760 --> 00:16:07,800 My dad used to beat the shit out of him every time he'd come home 324 00:16:07,800 --> 00:16:09,520 drunk. I knew I was getting fucked up. 325 00:16:09,880 --> 00:16:11,120 Yeah. He's like, why are you crying 326 00:16:11,120 --> 00:16:12,640 about it? That's your life. 327 00:16:12,640 --> 00:16:15,760 Just fucking deal with it. And I'm just like, God damn, you 328 00:16:15,760 --> 00:16:17,720 know what he did to fucking combat this? 329 00:16:17,720 --> 00:16:20,040 What he says he did. But for him, it worked. 330 00:16:20,040 --> 00:16:22,240 I don't know if it worked for all of his guys, but he's like, 331 00:16:22,240 --> 00:16:24,240 he asked me because do you have PTSD? 332 00:16:24,240 --> 00:16:25,840 He goes, ah, fuck, yeah. I mean, of course I do, you 333 00:16:25,840 --> 00:16:27,600 know, all that shit. But you know what got rid of a 334 00:16:27,600 --> 00:16:29,960 lot of it. Every time one of my guys would 335 00:16:29,960 --> 00:16:34,040 kill somebody, I'd take him over there and I cut the shirt off 336 00:16:34,040 --> 00:16:36,240 and I'll be like, here's your grouping, dude, you did a good 337 00:16:36,240 --> 00:16:38,120 job. Good job, man. 338 00:16:38,480 --> 00:16:41,560 That's a human body. And they're fucking holes in 339 00:16:41,560 --> 00:16:44,320 them. And he would go over there, cut 340 00:16:44,320 --> 00:16:47,480 the shirt off just to show them your grouping is on point. 341 00:16:48,040 --> 00:16:50,360 That's a marksman. Good job, buddy. 342 00:16:50,560 --> 00:16:53,600 And when they got back to base, that's when they would drink and 343 00:16:53,600 --> 00:16:55,880 they would celebrate them and tell them thank you for saving 344 00:16:55,880 --> 00:16:59,240 us. And he's like, surprisingly my 345 00:16:59,240 --> 00:17:03,680 guys never had shell shock because they normalized the the 346 00:17:03,680 --> 00:17:07,319 killing. They go, oh, this is my job 347 00:17:07,880 --> 00:17:09,960 instead of I'm trying to survive. 348 00:17:10,520 --> 00:17:13,480 And it made sense. But you have to have a very 349 00:17:13,480 --> 00:17:15,040 special leader to teach you that. 350 00:17:15,440 --> 00:17:20,640 And Tim Kennedy, who is another famous special forces guy, he 351 00:17:20,640 --> 00:17:23,440 used to be UFC fighter. Yeah, he used to be UFC fighter. 352 00:17:23,560 --> 00:17:25,839 He was the UFC fighter before he joined the army. 353 00:17:25,960 --> 00:17:27,880 And then he joined the army randomly. 354 00:17:27,920 --> 00:17:29,280 And then he's like, yeah, OK, bye. 355 00:17:29,920 --> 00:17:32,760 So he was AUSC fighter, joined the Army black belt in jiu 356 00:17:32,760 --> 00:17:37,960 jitsu, fucking crushes it in the Army, becomes a green Beret and 357 00:17:37,960 --> 00:17:42,280 then gets pulled over to Delta because they met each other at a 358 00:17:42,280 --> 00:17:45,360 jiu jitsu school in the middle of base. 359 00:17:45,880 --> 00:17:48,000 And Tim Kennedy was getting this guy all the time. 360 00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:49,440 And he's like, who the fuck is this guy? 361 00:17:49,440 --> 00:17:51,400 He goes, hey, what do you do? He's like, hey, you want to come 362 00:17:51,400 --> 00:17:53,000 over over here to the task force? 363 00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:56,520 And he's like crazy. But Tim Kennedy even said he 364 00:17:56,520 --> 00:18:00,960 goes, if there's ever been a more perfect war fighter in ever 365 00:18:00,960 --> 00:18:04,400 of history, it's Sean Shirk, Shrek McPhee. 366 00:18:04,880 --> 00:18:07,080 He's like, he's not going to teach you about how to be a good 367 00:18:07,080 --> 00:18:09,000 human. Matter of fact, he's not a good 368 00:18:09,000 --> 00:18:11,200 role model for that. But if you want to be a war 369 00:18:11,200 --> 00:18:17,160 fighter and you have the mind and the spirit for it, he is the 370 00:18:17,160 --> 00:18:20,240 most deadly war fighter I have ever heard of or seen. 371 00:18:20,320 --> 00:18:22,640 And he served with him multiple times. 372 00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:25,240 He's been in conflicts all over the world. 373 00:18:25,560 --> 00:18:29,240 He's in Bosnia before that when he didn't go to Somalia, he was 374 00:18:29,240 --> 00:18:32,960 like right after Somalia. So he's just like, dude, when 375 00:18:32,960 --> 00:18:34,960 you listen to him, you're like, this is bullshit. 376 00:18:34,960 --> 00:18:36,400 This is got to be bullshit, right? 377 00:18:36,720 --> 00:18:39,200 This is bullshit. But then you listen to Tim 378 00:18:39,200 --> 00:18:42,440 Kennedy was a very respected guy in the Special Forces community. 379 00:18:42,440 --> 00:18:46,760 They're like, he's feared the Taliban terrified of him. 380 00:18:46,960 --> 00:18:51,200 He would go on solo missions in in Afghanistan and Iraq. 381 00:18:53,560 --> 00:18:57,080 Solo mission in general sounds. All he would do, he wouldn't 382 00:18:57,080 --> 00:18:59,520 even talk. No, he'd just go there and he'd 383 00:18:59,520 --> 00:19:02,240 make noises like he was crazy and they'd just push him along. 384 00:19:02,240 --> 00:19:05,880 He had a guy pushing an AK right into his chest, 'cause he's 385 00:19:05,880 --> 00:19:09,560 like, what are you doing here? And he's like, and just kept 386 00:19:09,560 --> 00:19:11,440 talking, walking toward him because I could get at him and 387 00:19:11,440 --> 00:19:12,720 Sean's like, you must have been freaking out. 388 00:19:12,720 --> 00:19:15,400 He goes fuck yeah, I. Was yeah, no shit. 389 00:19:16,040 --> 00:19:17,760 But he said, and it made sense too. 390 00:19:17,760 --> 00:19:20,560 Dude, you want to get into places, Shut the fuck up. 391 00:19:21,280 --> 00:19:22,920 Just walk through. 'Cause it's like when you 392 00:19:22,920 --> 00:19:25,600 pretend or try and have a pod do it. 393 00:19:25,880 --> 00:19:27,080 Yeah. Oh, it's OK. 394 00:19:27,080 --> 00:19:28,880 I have a podcast. What? 395 00:19:28,920 --> 00:19:31,000 Oh yeah, come on in. Right. 396 00:19:31,080 --> 00:19:32,280 Sure. Fuck it. 397 00:19:32,280 --> 00:19:34,680 It works everywhere, dude. It works everywhere. 398 00:19:35,040 --> 00:19:36,520 And if not, it'll make them laugh. 399 00:19:36,520 --> 00:19:38,840 They'll go what? Like, yeah, I got them a 400 00:19:38,840 --> 00:19:40,560 podcast, dude. Come on in, man. 401 00:19:40,560 --> 00:19:41,880 That's cool. That's cool. 402 00:19:42,440 --> 00:19:43,920 All right. Anyways, I got on too long. 403 00:19:44,000 --> 00:19:45,240 I have. No idea, I just wanted to. 404 00:19:45,240 --> 00:19:47,480 We kind of just roll with it and this is our session and say fuck 405 00:19:47,480 --> 00:19:50,000 it, let's do it. I just don't know where you go 406 00:19:50,000 --> 00:19:52,000 from there. It's just been kind of a random 407 00:19:52,600 --> 00:19:54,960 all over. Well, you know, I'm like I I. 408 00:19:55,640 --> 00:19:58,560 And these conversations are I, I don't know, I think about that a 409 00:19:58,560 --> 00:20:00,160 lot. Like I, I was thinking about 410 00:20:00,160 --> 00:20:04,000 some of the stuff you were talking about before and being 411 00:20:04,360 --> 00:20:06,920 more light hearted, you know what I mean? 412 00:20:06,920 --> 00:20:09,280 Like when we were talking about content that we want to develop 413 00:20:09,280 --> 00:20:12,080 for this skits and stuff like that, I started thinking a lot 414 00:20:12,080 --> 00:20:14,120 about life too. And. 415 00:20:14,800 --> 00:20:17,160 We get so caught up and being so serious all the time. 416 00:20:17,160 --> 00:20:19,360 Like I know we try to take breaks and play video games, 417 00:20:19,360 --> 00:20:20,920 stuff like that. But the one thing that we don't 418 00:20:20,920 --> 00:20:25,760 do enough is we don't tell our families that we are going to 419 00:20:25,760 --> 00:20:29,120 have our own time and go do something right? 420 00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:31,960 And, and those of you that are listening, you're like, yeah, I 421 00:20:31,960 --> 00:20:33,960 got a really good friend. I got a group of friends that we 422 00:20:33,960 --> 00:20:37,000 never hang out anymore. But here's why I'm thinking it's 423 00:20:37,000 --> 00:20:41,640 so important is that the more that we can be able to get 424 00:20:41,640 --> 00:20:44,360 outside of ourselves because our conversations are really good. 425 00:20:44,840 --> 00:20:46,400 Oh yeah, I love our conversations. 426 00:20:46,400 --> 00:20:50,480 They think that is probably what's helped keep me halfway 427 00:20:50,480 --> 00:20:51,040 sane. Me. 428 00:20:51,080 --> 00:20:52,120 Too. Me too. 429 00:20:52,880 --> 00:20:56,160 Because you know what The thing is, is it's like something that 430 00:20:56,280 --> 00:20:59,520 Sean Shirk had talked about. Sean Shrek. 431 00:20:59,880 --> 00:21:01,320 Sean. Sean McPhee. 432 00:21:01,760 --> 00:21:03,480 Maybe he's a we'll just call John. 433 00:21:03,600 --> 00:21:07,920 John. John Shrek McPhee is John St. 434 00:21:07,920 --> 00:21:09,880 Sean. Some guy who's great at killing 435 00:21:10,240 --> 00:21:15,360 but. It was this idea that you you 436 00:21:15,360 --> 00:21:22,480 need to be able to take life little less serious and just be 437 00:21:22,840 --> 00:21:27,680 because when we we have our discussions, it's never anything 438 00:21:27,680 --> 00:21:30,800 about something super serious, but it then it turns. 439 00:21:30,800 --> 00:21:34,480 Into it, but we segue through. It, yeah, but. 440 00:21:34,960 --> 00:21:37,400 Through it, it never like stays there. 441 00:21:37,400 --> 00:21:40,280 No, no, no. No, we just always we segue 442 00:21:40,280 --> 00:21:43,360 through so many different topics within a conversation. 443 00:21:43,360 --> 00:21:45,760 Yeah, like in a short period of time and that a lot of that has 444 00:21:45,760 --> 00:21:47,480 to do with. Or a long period, like we talked 445 00:21:47,480 --> 00:21:48,880 for two hours yesterday on the phone. 446 00:21:49,040 --> 00:21:50,320 And see, I didn't even realize that. 447 00:21:50,440 --> 00:21:53,040 I didn't either until I looked, I'm like doing shit, I'm gonna 448 00:21:53,040 --> 00:21:54,720 go. And then I was like, fuck, like 449 00:21:54,720 --> 00:21:57,120 that says what? Oh yeah, dude, like I started 450 00:21:57,120 --> 00:21:59,800 the whole thing. Like I went to to Walmart and 451 00:21:59,800 --> 00:22:04,800 then from Walmart I went to Costco and Costco, the majority 452 00:22:04,800 --> 00:22:07,000 of the time I spent there was with you in the parking lot 453 00:22:07,000 --> 00:22:08,720 because I knew I didn't have reception inside. 454 00:22:08,720 --> 00:22:10,640 Wow, that's hilarious. And I kept losing you because 455 00:22:10,640 --> 00:22:12,520 I'd walk around because I can't keep still. 456 00:22:12,640 --> 00:22:14,360 Yeah. And I kept. 457 00:22:14,480 --> 00:22:15,720 I would lose you. I'm like oh fuck. 458 00:22:15,760 --> 00:22:19,600 So I knew like 4 points and. I love walking though when I and 459 00:22:19,600 --> 00:22:23,440 this when we talk I'm unless I'm sitting down working and sending 460 00:22:23,440 --> 00:22:25,000 emails where I'm doing something. 461 00:22:25,000 --> 00:22:28,800 Yep, I'm usually wandering the house, the whole me. 462 00:22:28,800 --> 00:22:30,640 Too. Me too. 463 00:22:30,920 --> 00:22:35,040 And that's that's where I was just like, OK, I really, really 464 00:22:35,040 --> 00:22:38,200 need to be able to spend that time outside and it and it with 465 00:22:38,200 --> 00:22:39,680 people that you can be really open with. 466 00:22:39,680 --> 00:22:44,360 I feel that I even though that we may have emotions, like, you 467 00:22:44,360 --> 00:22:48,680 know, we, we had some pent up feelings with each other and all 468 00:22:48,680 --> 00:22:52,560 the shit that's going on, like it can't all be but but it's OK 469 00:22:52,560 --> 00:22:55,000 though, right? I mean, I think that's one thing 470 00:22:55,000 --> 00:22:58,840 that I've noticed more about like our relationship being more 471 00:22:58,840 --> 00:23:02,400 open is by allowing us to be upset. 472 00:23:02,560 --> 00:23:05,760 That's OK to be upset. And it's OK for you to be 473 00:23:05,760 --> 00:23:08,200 frustrated with me and for me to be frustrated with you because 474 00:23:08,200 --> 00:23:11,160 it's only our perception of what is going on. 475 00:23:11,160 --> 00:23:14,400 And then we can decide what our perspective is after. 476 00:23:14,400 --> 00:23:17,920 Not necessarily that the other person is right or wrong, just. 477 00:23:18,160 --> 00:23:19,600 I guess just the feeling. Yeah, I get it. 478 00:23:19,600 --> 00:23:21,480 I I get it. I understand where you're coming 479 00:23:21,480 --> 00:23:24,520 from and like it's OK to feel you know? 480 00:23:24,680 --> 00:23:27,640 Yeah, and that's the thing. I don't think a lot of friends 481 00:23:27,640 --> 00:23:30,480 allow their other friends to just feel, to do that. 482 00:23:30,840 --> 00:23:32,160 Like, I'll, I'll hear people going. 483 00:23:32,160 --> 00:23:37,200 Look, I had a friend of mine who I was talking to and she was 484 00:23:37,200 --> 00:23:39,480 going on about her woes, you know, doesn't have a job or 485 00:23:39,480 --> 00:23:42,800 anything like that. And I'm a pretty sensitive guy. 486 00:23:42,920 --> 00:23:44,520 And you would say yeah around the tip of your. 487 00:23:44,520 --> 00:23:46,480 Dick, right, I guess. No, I wasn't even up. 488 00:23:46,480 --> 00:23:50,520 My mind was actually on a whole another side tangent was like 489 00:23:50,520 --> 00:23:54,760 rich and like emotional abuse and all this other shit right 490 00:23:54,760 --> 00:23:56,560 second. I'm like, it's just been in my 491 00:23:56,560 --> 00:23:58,960 mind so much. Yeah, ever since our interview 492 00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:00,360 with him. Yeah, 'cause. 493 00:24:00,840 --> 00:24:03,640 OK, OK, I'll, I'll finish my thought and then we'll go into 494 00:24:03,640 --> 00:24:05,960 that because I like that. But when I was talking to my 495 00:24:05,960 --> 00:24:10,240 friend, she was just like telling me Oliver woes, right? 496 00:24:10,240 --> 00:24:13,560 Used to be making a lot of money, used to doing this, used 497 00:24:13,560 --> 00:24:16,120 to doing that. Now she's terrified and she 498 00:24:16,120 --> 00:24:19,040 doesn't know what to do. And it's one thing when it's my 499 00:24:19,040 --> 00:24:23,800 terror because I because violence has either been a part 500 00:24:23,800 --> 00:24:26,600 of my life because I chose or because it was in, it was 501 00:24:26,600 --> 00:24:29,360 introduced, right? Like where I grew up, I had no 502 00:24:29,360 --> 00:24:31,080 choice on that. And people go, oh, there's 503 00:24:31,080 --> 00:24:33,000 nothing tough in Utah. There's tougher things 504 00:24:33,200 --> 00:24:35,160 everywhere. There's probably tough places in 505 00:24:35,160 --> 00:24:37,000 Beverly Hills. Who knows? 506 00:24:37,000 --> 00:24:40,520 It could be the kind of rich guys you know, the guys who only 507 00:24:40,520 --> 00:24:43,120 make 2 million a year. Like their houses are so fucking 508 00:24:43,120 --> 00:24:46,120 tiny. Yeah, they only drive like the 509 00:24:46,120 --> 00:24:50,000 cheap end of the Tesla or like the the C Class Mercedes. 510 00:24:50,000 --> 00:24:51,720 Dude, that's so. Fucking three series. 511 00:24:51,880 --> 00:24:53,920 I'll have to tell you something about the C series because that 512 00:24:53,920 --> 00:24:58,320 that's actually pretty funny. That's funny, but the idea that, 513 00:24:58,440 --> 00:25:01,960 so she said she started to tell me all these things and I start 514 00:25:01,960 --> 00:25:05,080 to feel them because I'm feeling them at that very moment 515 00:25:05,080 --> 00:25:07,360 already. And she called me and I started 516 00:25:07,360 --> 00:25:09,960 to tell her I'm like, I feel the same ways. 517 00:25:09,960 --> 00:25:12,200 And I started to get emotional but I'm holding it back. 518 00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:15,160 But you can hear my voice breaking a little bit and she 519 00:25:15,160 --> 00:25:19,040 says, hey, hey, hey, I call you when I can't get up because I 520 00:25:19,040 --> 00:25:22,480 know that you can pick me up and anybody else I could be like, 521 00:25:22,480 --> 00:25:24,560 oh, that's fucked up. But now think about that kind of 522 00:25:24,560 --> 00:25:26,440 responsibility. If you are doing that. 523 00:25:26,440 --> 00:25:30,520 Not all of us can be that. Not all of us should be that. 524 00:25:30,520 --> 00:25:33,520 But if you have inspired somebody and they look up to you 525 00:25:33,520 --> 00:25:36,560 and you come to them going, hey, I feel life too. 526 00:25:36,680 --> 00:25:38,200 You shouldn't feel ashamed of that either. 527 00:25:38,440 --> 00:25:40,120 And I started to feel ashamed of it. 528 00:25:40,560 --> 00:25:42,160 I'm like, fuck, yeah, you're right. 529 00:25:42,160 --> 00:25:44,880 I'm the happy go lucky guy that has good tattooed on his 530 00:25:44,880 --> 00:25:47,000 fucking. No, has nothing to do with that. 531 00:25:47,000 --> 00:25:52,120 It's and when she said that, I was like, there's a separation 532 00:25:52,120 --> 00:25:56,880 of close friendships. There's work friends, there's 533 00:25:57,040 --> 00:25:59,840 social friends and there's close friends. 534 00:25:59,960 --> 00:26:02,960 Well, and even within that, it's probably every relationship. 535 00:26:03,160 --> 00:26:05,840 How honest with the other person are we? 536 00:26:05,840 --> 00:26:08,680 How open with that other person are we? 537 00:26:09,120 --> 00:26:15,920 How much of the true version of our self is shown or seen by our 538 00:26:15,920 --> 00:26:19,720 family, our friends, our partners or whatever, You know, 539 00:26:19,720 --> 00:26:21,360 because it's like, well, what about these thoughts? 540 00:26:21,360 --> 00:26:22,840 What about this? Are they going to judge me? 541 00:26:22,840 --> 00:26:24,440 Like are they going to treat me different? 542 00:26:24,440 --> 00:26:27,520 Is this going to be like, is this going to be a deal breaker? 543 00:26:27,840 --> 00:26:30,720 Like 'cause. Everything's quid pro quo. 544 00:26:30,720 --> 00:26:31,920 Yeah, and it's like, oh shit, this. 545 00:26:31,920 --> 00:26:33,600 Is what I give you. You have to give back. 546 00:26:34,520 --> 00:26:37,840 Like or or just like. That version of me might not be 547 00:26:37,840 --> 00:26:39,400 lovable. I never thought of it that way. 548 00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:41,560 That version of me might not be OK. 549 00:26:41,800 --> 00:26:43,760 Or do you does that? Does that? 550 00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:47,520 Is that a concern of yours? I think it was for a while, way 551 00:26:47,520 --> 00:26:51,280 more when I after I got, yeah, after I was married and got 552 00:26:51,280 --> 00:26:54,960 divorced, then it was like I didn't know who I was, so. 553 00:26:54,960 --> 00:26:55,920 How could you? Yeah. 554 00:26:56,160 --> 00:26:59,040 And so it was, you know, it took a while and then when I figured 555 00:26:59,040 --> 00:27:02,280 out more of who I was, I'm like, I'm not going to hide this. 556 00:27:02,600 --> 00:27:06,840 I'm not going to be ashamed of who I am and go, yeah, well, I 557 00:27:06,840 --> 00:27:10,960 don't use cannabis or I'm, I'm like, I I'll go to church for 558 00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:13,280 you or I'll do this. But like if I don't believe 559 00:27:13,280 --> 00:27:15,720 these things or if I don't like, if there's things that I'm like, 560 00:27:15,920 --> 00:27:17,880 yeah. And I'm like that's but that's 561 00:27:17,880 --> 00:27:20,680 not, is that me? Is that truly me? 562 00:27:20,680 --> 00:27:22,960 Or am I just doing it to appease someone else? 563 00:27:22,960 --> 00:27:25,840 And am I doing that motion? And if so, if they truly love 564 00:27:25,840 --> 00:27:28,640 me, would they make me do that if they knew that it didn't make 565 00:27:28,640 --> 00:27:33,000 me happy and where I want to be? Because if I knew that they 566 00:27:33,000 --> 00:27:35,240 weren't happy doing these things, would I make them do 567 00:27:35,240 --> 00:27:37,240 those things because it made me happy? 568 00:27:37,560 --> 00:27:39,560 Or where'd I go? They really hate this. 569 00:27:39,560 --> 00:27:42,280 This actually, this doesn't make them happy here. 570 00:27:42,280 --> 00:27:46,280 I find happiness and I can do this thing without them and 571 00:27:46,280 --> 00:27:48,880 still find my joy. There's all these other things I 572 00:27:48,880 --> 00:27:52,800 can do, you know, but like, and, and there's, there's things that 573 00:27:52,800 --> 00:27:55,240 it's like, OK, well, this doesn't bother me. 574 00:27:55,240 --> 00:27:57,400 Like, yeah, it's not my favorite, but I, I don't mind. 575 00:27:57,440 --> 00:27:59,960 Like Whoopi Doo, I'll go do that, you know? 576 00:27:59,960 --> 00:28:02,360 But there's other things that you're like, I don't, that's not 577 00:28:02,360 --> 00:28:04,520 my thing. Yeah, totally. 578 00:28:04,520 --> 00:28:07,320 And it it's so hard. I think it should be OK to go 579 00:28:07,320 --> 00:28:10,560 like, yeah, that's fine. Like, you don't need to be 580 00:28:11,240 --> 00:28:14,200 everything of this you can find, you know, like, you and your 581 00:28:14,200 --> 00:28:15,960 wife, you have different hobbies, different things. 582 00:28:16,160 --> 00:28:20,880 And to imagine that you would have to be every stupid little 583 00:28:20,880 --> 00:28:23,960 thing is like I think both of you would become overwhelmed. 584 00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:26,880 It would be boring as shit for me, dude, because for me it's 585 00:28:26,880 --> 00:28:30,720 variety, you know? But here's the problem with me 586 00:28:31,000 --> 00:28:35,480 before was I love variety, but as long as it fits within the 587 00:28:35,480 --> 00:28:40,640 social construct that I know. So back in the day, if I was 588 00:28:40,640 --> 00:28:45,920 with like I was dating this one woman, I stayed with her because 589 00:28:46,560 --> 00:28:49,440 we were living together, but I didn't stand. 590 00:28:49,440 --> 00:28:53,440 I couldn't stand her for fucking five months of the nine that we 591 00:28:53,440 --> 00:28:54,800 were together. Yeah. 592 00:28:55,480 --> 00:28:57,080 Right. I mean, we were together for 593 00:28:57,080 --> 00:29:00,800 like a month and then we were able to start, we started 594 00:29:00,800 --> 00:29:04,800 becoming intimate like after two months, for like 2 months of 595 00:29:04,800 --> 00:29:08,120 that. And then the rest of it, yeah, 596 00:29:08,240 --> 00:29:10,680 nothing. And she's still living in my 597 00:29:10,680 --> 00:29:13,360 fucking apartment and I'm like what the fuck? 598 00:29:13,880 --> 00:29:19,000 This is so stupid and it just because and I and I look back 599 00:29:19,000 --> 00:29:20,880 because I go, ah, what the fuck was wrong with me? 600 00:29:21,160 --> 00:29:23,840 No, it was a my intellectual status. 601 00:29:23,920 --> 00:29:26,920 And again, why is it so important to have close friends 602 00:29:26,920 --> 00:29:30,120 that you can be able to talk to and be honest with and take 603 00:29:30,120 --> 00:29:34,280 their feedback, say hey, man, I fucking think this is going on. 604 00:29:34,320 --> 00:29:37,040 Like our conversations that we've had when we've been upset 605 00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:40,840 with each other could have been real easily gone to fuck you. 606 00:29:40,840 --> 00:29:43,400 I'm not talking to you anymore like any other person. 607 00:29:44,080 --> 00:29:45,880 I mean, we're not talking like crazy stuff. 608 00:29:45,880 --> 00:29:47,640 Like dude, I can't believe you fucked my wife. 609 00:29:47,640 --> 00:29:49,560 Something like that. No, no, because that's your 610 00:29:49,560 --> 00:29:51,240 cousin and that would be even weirder. 611 00:29:51,440 --> 00:29:55,800 Yeah, and also my ex is nuts, so I don't know why you would, you 612 00:29:55,800 --> 00:29:57,480 know? So either way, I feel like that 613 00:29:57,480 --> 00:29:59,000 would have been weird on all levels. 614 00:29:59,000 --> 00:30:01,000 Right. But I mean, it's, it's like, you 615 00:30:01,000 --> 00:30:04,920 know, differences of opinion on, on certain things or perceptions 616 00:30:04,920 --> 00:30:07,400 that we have of the other one that maybe we're not clear on. 617 00:30:07,840 --> 00:30:10,960 And you know, like our last combo, like it was hard. 618 00:30:11,040 --> 00:30:13,360 It was hard for you to tell me certain things. 619 00:30:13,640 --> 00:30:16,440 And I understood that. And I was glad that I was in a 620 00:30:16,440 --> 00:30:19,360 place where I could understand it and really reflect on it 621 00:30:19,360 --> 00:30:23,840 because I, I truly felt like I was like, OK, now I better 622 00:30:23,840 --> 00:30:27,480 understand your position. Now I better understand your 623 00:30:27,480 --> 00:30:30,720 frustration. Now I understand what I am doing 624 00:30:30,720 --> 00:30:35,680 and becoming more self aware over time and finding new things 625 00:30:35,680 --> 00:30:37,960 to add to this. You know, organizational 626 00:30:37,960 --> 00:30:40,680 behavior crap in my head. Oh, it's constant. 627 00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:42,480 It's constant. Now it's like all these 628 00:30:42,480 --> 00:30:45,800 conversations and it's been even over the last God, three years. 629 00:30:45,800 --> 00:30:50,040 I've even the show I'm like and also on that tangent. 630 00:30:50,120 --> 00:30:55,000 By the time this airs will have hit 200 episodes, 200 episodes. 631 00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:58,640 And for everyone who has been along for the ride and like come 632 00:30:58,640 --> 00:31:00,080 along, that's. Hey. 633 00:31:00,680 --> 00:31:04,440 That's a huge like. That's awesome. 200 episodes. 634 00:31:04,720 --> 00:31:07,520 Well, I've done 200 episodes. That's a fuck ton of episodes. 635 00:31:08,280 --> 00:31:12,040 That's a lot of that be too for for you to watch the I don't 636 00:31:12,040 --> 00:31:14,600 know how long it would take to watch our entire catalogue, but 637 00:31:14,600 --> 00:31:16,200 it would it would take a long ass time. 638 00:31:16,480 --> 00:31:19,600 And if you are listening to that much, thank you. 639 00:31:19,840 --> 00:31:23,560 That's cool. Yeah, but at the same time too, 640 00:31:24,360 --> 00:31:26,240 it's weird man, how much time goes by. 641 00:31:26,240 --> 00:31:29,680 But the the evolution of what's going on, if you look at our our 642 00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:32,240 episodes back in the day, totally different from now. 643 00:31:32,360 --> 00:31:36,240 Or listen to them even like I think the way we probably sound 644 00:31:36,240 --> 00:31:39,880 in our flow, even in like our our confidence in the mic. 645 00:31:40,040 --> 00:31:42,480 Oh yeah. But it's like so different. 646 00:31:42,480 --> 00:31:45,080 But isn't that funny too now because it's it's different. 647 00:31:45,080 --> 00:31:47,160 Like if I'm a guest on a podcast, you're a guest on a 648 00:31:47,160 --> 00:31:49,920 podcast. Like we just flow, but when 649 00:31:49,920 --> 00:31:52,000 we're I. Find it's easier for me to guest 650 00:31:52,000 --> 00:31:56,080 on a podcast honestly than it is for me to like interview happier 651 00:31:56,080 --> 00:31:58,920 headspace Oh yeah yeah yeah. Headspace because I'm like. 652 00:31:59,040 --> 00:32:01,880 'Cause you're in your head, yes. And and I talked about. 653 00:32:01,880 --> 00:32:03,480 That's how I am with how to get along with humans. 654 00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:07,400 Yesterday on the hike with my dad and my brother and they were 655 00:32:07,400 --> 00:32:09,400 asking about life and stuff and how everything's going. 656 00:32:09,400 --> 00:32:12,600 And I was like, you know, I've been doing this and I was like, 657 00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:15,400 it's really hard for me to actually record that. 658 00:32:15,400 --> 00:32:17,640 And they're like, really. I'm like, yeah, I just, I don't 659 00:32:17,640 --> 00:32:20,120 feel like I'm an expert. I'm like, I don't like to 660 00:32:20,120 --> 00:32:23,240 usually talk on something unless I don't have to be an expert. 661 00:32:23,240 --> 00:32:26,160 But I feel like I have to know enough that I can actually talk 662 00:32:26,160 --> 00:32:29,200 from a place of knowing something and mental health. 663 00:32:29,200 --> 00:32:31,960 I don't feel like I have enough education or experience. 664 00:32:32,120 --> 00:32:36,160 But then and I realized the purpose of the show is not to 665 00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:39,680 have me be the expert. But it's up here that I'm like, 666 00:32:40,200 --> 00:32:42,000 I shouldn't be speaking about this. 667 00:32:42,800 --> 00:32:45,760 It's the same way with like growing up in the church and I 668 00:32:45,760 --> 00:32:49,400 was mid 20s and married and it was like, I got a calling to 669 00:32:49,400 --> 00:32:53,840 teach 1415 year olds. And I'm like, I don't even know 670 00:32:53,840 --> 00:32:56,120 if I believe this, let alone know this that much. 671 00:32:56,120 --> 00:32:58,400 Why am I up here teaching other people this? 672 00:32:58,760 --> 00:33:01,160 You should have someone who actually understands this 673 00:33:01,560 --> 00:33:05,800 teaching this, not someone who has no fucking clue going up 674 00:33:05,800 --> 00:33:08,720 there and going, yeah, well, this you're probably not going 675 00:33:08,720 --> 00:33:11,320 to gain as much from this because I'm the one teaching you 676 00:33:11,680 --> 00:33:14,640 versus someone who knows what they're doing, probably is 677 00:33:14,640 --> 00:33:17,400 better spoken, actually feels comfortable in doing this. 678 00:33:17,840 --> 00:33:20,760 And it's fine because like maybe that helped in some way. 679 00:33:20,760 --> 00:33:25,120 But I don't feel like I actually gained skills in that time that 680 00:33:25,120 --> 00:33:27,920 I that I did that. And it was more because it was 681 00:33:27,920 --> 00:33:30,040 forced upon, not because it was something that I was. 682 00:33:30,400 --> 00:33:33,480 Well, because you felt obligated. 100% yes. 683 00:33:33,560 --> 00:33:35,720 That was why. Because people always say, like, 684 00:33:35,960 --> 00:33:40,000 I remember that, like in the church early on, like when I 685 00:33:40,400 --> 00:33:44,080 came back into the church when I was 28 years old, and when I 686 00:33:44,080 --> 00:33:45,560 came back in, there was kind of funny. 687 00:33:45,560 --> 00:33:47,800 Like one guy said to me, he goes, yeah, dude, if you get a 688 00:33:47,800 --> 00:33:49,120 calling, you just take it, right? 689 00:33:50,120 --> 00:33:53,600 And I'm like, no, if it doesn't fit me, I don't take it. 690 00:33:53,800 --> 00:33:56,000 And at first I did, dude. I was taking care of like little 691 00:33:56,000 --> 00:33:58,640 kids and I was going around talking to members of their 692 00:33:58,640 --> 00:34:01,160 community and stuff like that. I did too much. 693 00:34:01,200 --> 00:34:02,000 See. It was just. 694 00:34:02,120 --> 00:34:05,640 The only reason, and this is all it was kind of snowballed. 695 00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:08,719 Yeah, it's a guilt thing. It was my brother and my whole 696 00:34:08,719 --> 00:34:11,960 family were they were going to the temple once a month. 697 00:34:12,040 --> 00:34:15,360 My parent like it was a big thing and my parents would take 698 00:34:15,360 --> 00:34:18,920 everyone to dinner after and me and my wife were the only family 699 00:34:18,920 --> 00:34:21,280 members that weren't going because we weren't sealed in the 700 00:34:21,280 --> 00:34:23,840 temple. And my youngest brother was the 701 00:34:23,840 --> 00:34:26,679 only one to go on a mission and he was leaving to go on his. 702 00:34:27,320 --> 00:34:29,719 He was like, I challenge you guys to go through the temple 703 00:34:29,800 --> 00:34:33,159 and that's weird. It was like, that's weird. 704 00:34:33,239 --> 00:34:36,080 It was weird. And and so we like. 705 00:34:36,080 --> 00:34:39,480 I challenge you to be faithful. Like we, we weren't going to 706 00:34:39,480 --> 00:34:42,440 church all the time or whatever. And so they were like, all 707 00:34:42,440 --> 00:34:44,800 right, so we went in. It was like, well, the Bishop, 708 00:34:44,800 --> 00:34:48,080 in order to go to temple, we had to do all these things. 709 00:34:48,400 --> 00:34:50,239 And he was like, well, you need to have a calling. 710 00:34:50,239 --> 00:34:53,239 So I'm going to give you this and you need to do this and you 711 00:34:53,239 --> 00:34:55,120 need to do this. You need to go to these classes 712 00:34:55,120 --> 00:34:56,400 and you need to be here every week. 713 00:34:56,400 --> 00:34:59,600 And, and I was like, OK, so we did all of that and we went 714 00:34:59,600 --> 00:35:04,560 through and like we got sealed. Yeah, and that funny 'cause it 715 00:35:04,560 --> 00:35:06,800 kind of feels like the same processes back in the day when 716 00:35:06,800 --> 00:35:09,320 you'd crossed the border from Mexico and to the United States. 717 00:35:09,320 --> 00:35:11,720 All you had to do was hold up your ID and say United States 718 00:35:11,720 --> 00:35:12,920 citizen and they got gone through. 719 00:35:13,640 --> 00:35:15,320 That sounds like exactly what the process was for. 720 00:35:15,320 --> 00:35:19,280 You but it was like it was so weird and then after we did it 721 00:35:19,720 --> 00:35:25,120 and we had moved to a new ward and my ex-wife was like hey the 722 00:35:25,120 --> 00:35:28,520 Bishop is the Bishop called. Don't know why they called her, 723 00:35:28,520 --> 00:35:31,200 but they called her and they were like, oh, they want to have 724 00:35:31,200 --> 00:35:33,760 us come in and talk to him. And I'm like, I'll go in and 725 00:35:33,760 --> 00:35:36,640 talk to him. But just so you know, I'm not 726 00:35:36,640 --> 00:35:39,200 accepting a calling and I will not talk in church. 727 00:35:39,400 --> 00:35:41,520 And I'm going to tell him that. And she's like, you can't do 728 00:35:41,520 --> 00:35:43,280 that. I'm like, yes, I can. 729 00:35:43,280 --> 00:35:45,760 And I'm going to. And we sat down and the Bishop 730 00:35:45,760 --> 00:35:47,680 was like, hey, welcome to the ward. 731 00:35:47,680 --> 00:35:51,720 I'm like, hey, nice to be here. And he was like, I'd love to ask 732 00:35:51,720 --> 00:35:53,280 you to speak. And I'm like, you're welcome to 733 00:35:53,280 --> 00:35:55,240 ask me to speak. My answer's going to be no. 734 00:35:55,440 --> 00:35:57,520 You can ask her to speak and she'll tell you what her answer 735 00:35:57,520 --> 00:36:00,000 will be. And I'm like, and if you asked 736 00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:02,840 me to have a calling, I already did this in the last word and I 737 00:36:02,840 --> 00:36:04,560 learned that that didn't make sense. 738 00:36:04,560 --> 00:36:06,840 So you're welcome to give me a calling, but the answer is going 739 00:36:06,840 --> 00:36:09,360 to be no as well. Wow, how'd that go? 740 00:36:09,360 --> 00:36:10,760 Was he cool about it or was he kind? 741 00:36:10,760 --> 00:36:12,920 Of what was he going to say? There was nothing he would say 742 00:36:12,920 --> 00:36:15,280 that would change my mind. Right, And that's the the 743 00:36:15,280 --> 00:36:18,680 problem with it is it perpetuated within it is that 744 00:36:19,040 --> 00:36:21,760 you feel obligated instead of called to because just like 745 00:36:21,760 --> 00:36:25,120 recently I went and talked to, you know, my pleisigastical 746 00:36:25,120 --> 00:36:28,040 leader and my Bishop and I went to him and I said, Hey, man, I 747 00:36:28,040 --> 00:36:31,240 need you to put me to work. I said, I feel a strong calling. 748 00:36:31,240 --> 00:36:34,480 I want to serve other people. And the only reason why I felt 749 00:36:34,480 --> 00:36:36,160 that was because it was it was cool. 750 00:36:36,160 --> 00:36:39,160 This girl got up and said, you know, hey, little girl, she's 751 00:36:39,160 --> 00:36:41,560 like, if you ever feel bad about what's going on in your life, 752 00:36:41,560 --> 00:36:44,000 and this is just a good philosophical thing, you ever 753 00:36:44,000 --> 00:36:46,480 feeling really bad about what you're doing in life or where 754 00:36:46,480 --> 00:36:50,320 you're at, go serve, serve somebody in the smallest way or 755 00:36:50,320 --> 00:36:53,480 the largest way. And so I started doing that like 756 00:36:53,480 --> 00:36:56,160 I was just like, she's right. And so I told him I was like, 757 00:36:56,160 --> 00:36:59,080 hey, on Sunday, I want to, I want to do something, I want to 758 00:36:59,080 --> 00:37:00,920 do something I want to. And I said, don't stick me in 759 00:37:00,920 --> 00:37:04,200 something where I'm teaching a bunch of little kids on some 760 00:37:04,200 --> 00:37:06,560 type of dogma that you guys wanted me to push on. 761 00:37:06,560 --> 00:37:08,560 No, I want to just I want to have discussions. 762 00:37:08,680 --> 00:37:10,200 I'm better in the discussion role. 763 00:37:10,600 --> 00:37:13,480 So put me in that role, put me with adults, put me with 764 00:37:13,480 --> 00:37:15,560 teenagers and I'll I'll do great. 765 00:37:15,760 --> 00:37:18,880 But so you love that, like public speaking, having that, 766 00:37:18,880 --> 00:37:23,760 leading that and for me and at that age, 100% that was not me. 767 00:37:23,960 --> 00:37:26,800 Oh dude, it it's probably still like, I mean, imagine this 768 00:37:26,800 --> 00:37:29,000 'cause you, I don't know if you've ever experienced that. 769 00:37:29,000 --> 00:37:30,560 Have you ever spoken in front of a large crowd? 770 00:37:31,240 --> 00:37:33,840 Define large. Like couple 100 people. 771 00:37:33,920 --> 00:37:36,320 Maybe 100? Like you speak. 772 00:37:36,320 --> 00:37:39,280 But that was to me still. No, it's still a lot of people. 773 00:37:39,280 --> 00:37:42,280 Do you spoke at graduation? Yeah. 774 00:37:42,440 --> 00:37:44,000 Which? What do you valedictorian? 775 00:37:44,400 --> 00:37:46,880 So no I. This is funny. 776 00:37:46,880 --> 00:37:47,680 We got to go there. This. 777 00:37:47,680 --> 00:37:50,840 Is hilarious of all things. So I had gotten kicked out of 778 00:37:50,840 --> 00:37:52,120 temp view for not going to class. 779 00:37:52,520 --> 00:37:54,120 So I got sent to this private school. 780 00:37:54,160 --> 00:37:59,960 I had gotten kicked out of the private school because it was a 781 00:37:59,960 --> 00:38:02,280 LDS based private school and there was. 782 00:38:02,280 --> 00:38:04,000 I didn't. Know you got kicked out of 783 00:38:04,000 --> 00:38:06,320 there. Not kicked out. 784 00:38:06,320 --> 00:38:10,920 I got set to home school, so I got to watch the DVD version of 785 00:38:10,920 --> 00:38:14,760 the classes, The DVD version 'cause they would record them 786 00:38:14,760 --> 00:38:16,960 and they would send them out around the around the world I 787 00:38:16,960 --> 00:38:18,480 think. And people would pay and do 788 00:38:18,480 --> 00:38:22,800 their home classes there. And yes, I did it all over and 789 00:38:23,120 --> 00:38:25,280 'cause that's how I started in there because I wasn't able to 790 00:38:25,280 --> 00:38:27,800 get into a spot. So after I got kicked out to Tim 791 00:38:27,800 --> 00:38:30,520 View, I did like 3 months of home school watching their 792 00:38:30,520 --> 00:38:34,120 videos, doing that at home. And then from there I was able 793 00:38:34,120 --> 00:38:36,880 to get into the class and I was there for the rest of that 794 00:38:36,880 --> 00:38:39,920 school year, rest of sophomore year and then junior. 795 00:38:40,320 --> 00:38:43,120 Oh no, it wasn't 'cause they're like most of sophomore year. 796 00:38:43,720 --> 00:38:46,400 And then there was this like it wasn't even a school event. 797 00:38:46,640 --> 00:38:49,240 I was just hanging out with like four of the kids that were from 798 00:38:49,240 --> 00:38:53,440 the school and they were all inhaling air duster cause air 799 00:38:53,440 --> 00:38:54,880 duster. They're getting high. 800 00:38:55,040 --> 00:38:57,760 It makes your voice go really low and you sound funny and you 801 00:38:57,760 --> 00:39:00,600 go, it's like the opposite of helium. 802 00:39:00,680 --> 00:39:04,280 Yeah, there's a compressed air. I know, but the there's a gas. 803 00:39:04,400 --> 00:39:07,120 It that's in there, I don't. Yeah, that that causes that. 804 00:39:07,320 --> 00:39:08,880 Is it like laughing gas? Is it? 805 00:39:09,360 --> 00:39:11,280 Is it nitrous oxide? No, no, no. 806 00:39:11,880 --> 00:39:14,320 But it will lower your voice. Yeah, so. 807 00:39:14,600 --> 00:39:16,800 So like. Yeah, so we were doing that. 808 00:39:17,320 --> 00:39:19,720 We weren't at the school, we weren't at a school event, we 809 00:39:19,720 --> 00:39:24,560 weren't anything somehow out of that group of people that were 810 00:39:24,560 --> 00:39:28,160 all there doing it. That got back to the principal 811 00:39:28,160 --> 00:39:30,360 at the school. And because it's an LDS based 812 00:39:30,360 --> 00:39:34,800 school, well, she pulled me in to talk to her and she was like, 813 00:39:34,800 --> 00:39:39,640 Hey, I heard that you and so and so and so and so and so and so 814 00:39:39,640 --> 00:39:41,720 were doing this. And I was like, I, I don't know 815 00:39:41,720 --> 00:39:45,880 where you heard that. I did, but I, I'm not a fucking 816 00:39:45,880 --> 00:39:49,080 snitch. And so because I didn't, because 817 00:39:49,080 --> 00:39:51,920 I didn't rat out all the other people, she kicked me out and 818 00:39:51,920 --> 00:39:55,600 sent me to be home schooled. And so I was homeschooled the 819 00:39:55,600 --> 00:39:58,040 rest of that school year and then the beginning of the next 820 00:39:58,040 --> 00:40:01,600 school year. Yeah, but I had been grounded 821 00:40:01,600 --> 00:40:04,440 for six months at Tint View because, you know, my grades 822 00:40:04,440 --> 00:40:07,400 were below B minus. And so once they went downhill 823 00:40:07,400 --> 00:40:09,600 and I was grounded to stop giving any care like. 824 00:40:10,400 --> 00:40:13,120 Yeah, that's such bullshit. Didn't bother with anything. 825 00:40:13,120 --> 00:40:17,560 So at that point I was like, yeah, I I don't don't care to go 826 00:40:17,560 --> 00:40:19,040 to class or try and pay attention. 827 00:40:19,040 --> 00:40:21,200 Like I'm grounded anyway, what are you going to do? 828 00:40:21,680 --> 00:40:25,440 And then so when I got kicked out of there in Leahona, like 829 00:40:25,960 --> 00:40:29,000 after I was there, so my junior year, I was there all year. 830 00:40:29,600 --> 00:40:33,440 And after that, like I stopped getting in trouble because the 831 00:40:33,440 --> 00:40:36,520 first year I got in trouble for like talking too much, chewing 832 00:40:36,520 --> 00:40:40,040 gum in class, you know, like stupid, stupid things. 833 00:40:40,640 --> 00:40:43,520 And then I got kicked out for the air duster thing. 834 00:40:43,520 --> 00:40:48,640 And so, but then I was there sophomore year, junior year and 835 00:40:48,880 --> 00:40:54,000 I became friends with like all the goody like whatever kids, 836 00:40:54,320 --> 00:40:56,360 but I was also friends with the other kids. 837 00:40:56,360 --> 00:41:00,640 Like I was just more friendly. And then it became they ran for 838 00:41:00,640 --> 00:41:03,800 like student president and stuff, but I didn't want to. 839 00:41:04,160 --> 00:41:08,440 I was doing soccer, I was doing basketball and I was working and 840 00:41:08,440 --> 00:41:11,040 I'm like, shit, I don't have time to do student council. 841 00:41:11,400 --> 00:41:14,120 Like there's no way that I have time to add that into it. 842 00:41:15,000 --> 00:41:19,480 And so I just, I ran for King instead. 843 00:41:19,720 --> 00:41:22,320 So I just put up posters of like, vote Brandon for King 844 00:41:22,960 --> 00:41:24,760 because I'm not going to run for president. 845 00:41:24,760 --> 00:41:26,400 What does King do? He doesn't do anything but just 846 00:41:26,400 --> 00:41:28,960 tell people what to do. Like, that's fine, I'll do that. 847 00:41:29,240 --> 00:41:32,280 So I put up posters and did all that shit and I was like, yeah, 848 00:41:32,280 --> 00:41:34,600 I'll run for King, but I'm not running for school president. 849 00:41:35,120 --> 00:41:38,760 And then like the whole next year, I did a lot better. 850 00:41:38,760 --> 00:41:41,160 And for some reason, the principal at the end of the year 851 00:41:41,160 --> 00:41:44,280 was like, hey, we'd love to have you speak at graduation. 852 00:41:45,280 --> 00:41:47,320 Like what? What? 853 00:41:47,480 --> 00:41:50,200 Were you the King? Me, No, no. 854 00:41:50,200 --> 00:41:55,440 It's just like they for some reason out of like everyone that 855 00:41:55,440 --> 00:41:58,840 graduated, like I was one of the people that they asked to speak. 856 00:41:59,600 --> 00:42:01,680 I never. I couldn't do it then. 857 00:42:02,200 --> 00:42:05,720 Oh, I couldn't. I didn't prep for it and I got 858 00:42:05,720 --> 00:42:08,560 up and I was like, hey, as most of you guys know, I am great at 859 00:42:08,560 --> 00:42:11,720 procrastination, so obviously I didn't write anything down. 860 00:42:11,880 --> 00:42:13,760 And everybody laughed. And yeah, and then I went on 861 00:42:13,760 --> 00:42:15,960 with like a couple things and then I ended a few minutes 862 00:42:15,960 --> 00:42:17,960 later, like, I'm not here to speak and that shit. 863 00:42:17,960 --> 00:42:20,800 And it was like, I don't know why I'm even up here. 864 00:42:20,800 --> 00:42:24,440 Was was your heart racing right? When you got yeah, it was like I 865 00:42:24,600 --> 00:42:26,680 I have been asked when I was young. 866 00:42:26,680 --> 00:42:28,720 I was asked to speak once in church. 867 00:42:28,720 --> 00:42:32,680 I was 14 and I got up and it was the worst thing. 868 00:42:32,680 --> 00:42:35,800 And I felt so shaky and my heart's pounding in my chest and 869 00:42:35,800 --> 00:42:38,680 I'm standing up there and of course it's Utah, so the entire 870 00:42:38,680 --> 00:42:42,600 congregation is full and there's probably at least 100 people in 871 00:42:42,600 --> 00:42:45,560 that one. And I was like, all right, this 872 00:42:45,560 --> 00:42:48,160 was awkward. And then graduation was awkward. 873 00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:50,440 Graduation I felt more comfortable in because I was 874 00:42:50,440 --> 00:42:53,040 just being a smart ass, which I'm very good at. 875 00:42:53,560 --> 00:42:56,760 And then, you know, so going, and I think it's fine if it's 876 00:42:56,760 --> 00:43:00,560 just me talking, but it's in an educational stance where I'm 877 00:43:00,560 --> 00:43:03,240 like, I don't feel confident or feel like this is something I 878 00:43:03,240 --> 00:43:06,600 really should be because I, I wouldn't feel like I should go 879 00:43:06,600 --> 00:43:08,720 up and educate people on something I don't know anything 880 00:43:08,720 --> 00:43:09,640 about. Yeah. 881 00:43:09,640 --> 00:43:12,280 But I mean, sometimes it's not even the education part because 882 00:43:12,280 --> 00:43:16,160 you look at individuals such as like people that I look up to 883 00:43:16,160 --> 00:43:18,000 within like the marketing community, right? 884 00:43:18,000 --> 00:43:21,360 Like Seth Godin. I'm a big fan of Seth Godin. 885 00:43:21,720 --> 00:43:24,200 He speaks, but he doesn't do anything anymore, like he 886 00:43:24,200 --> 00:43:28,120 doesn't do marketing, OK. What he does is he's. 887 00:43:28,440 --> 00:43:29,640 He doesn't do any of that anymore. 888 00:43:29,840 --> 00:43:34,320 No, no, he speaks and he sees trends and then he writes books 889 00:43:34,320 --> 00:43:37,520 on the trends that he's seeing and he's prophesying that come 890 00:43:37,520 --> 00:43:41,720 true. And what's pretty much pretty 891 00:43:41,720 --> 00:43:43,920 much like, that's the way I perceive him, right? 892 00:43:44,520 --> 00:43:47,080 And then there's other people like Gary Vaynerchuk. 893 00:43:47,080 --> 00:43:51,040 Like, at first they very much seem like somebody that you want 894 00:43:51,040 --> 00:43:54,080 to follow. Yeah, but he's like the Paris 895 00:43:54,080 --> 00:43:57,400 Hilton of the entrepreneurial world. 896 00:43:57,400 --> 00:43:59,640 And I fucking hate saying that 'cause I think he's a cool guy. 897 00:43:59,640 --> 00:44:01,040 And that makes makes sense. Are they? 898 00:44:01,800 --> 00:44:04,640 God, yeah, makes sense. It's fucking funny because he 899 00:44:04,640 --> 00:44:08,360 isn't like, oh, he said something so profound. 900 00:44:08,640 --> 00:44:12,480 Take care of your people. Like, fucking everybody says 901 00:44:12,480 --> 00:44:15,040 that shit. Like, tell me how, motherfucker. 902 00:44:15,040 --> 00:44:18,680 And he's like just take care of him and say fuck all the time. 903 00:44:18,920 --> 00:44:21,280 I mean I can do that. I do it all the time anyways, 904 00:44:21,600 --> 00:44:25,960 but it's that idea that we, you know, I, I like looking up to 905 00:44:25,960 --> 00:44:28,480 these individuals, but they don't necessarily have to be 906 00:44:28,480 --> 00:44:31,160 experts. And that's that that common 907 00:44:31,160 --> 00:44:35,240 problem that we have is that expert bias where they have to 908 00:44:35,240 --> 00:44:39,000 either have a alphabet behind their name or they've got to be 909 00:44:39,000 --> 00:44:41,760 wearing certain things right. It always takes me back to like 910 00:44:41,760 --> 00:44:43,160 Dave. Chappelle I still don't feel 911 00:44:43,160 --> 00:44:44,920 like an expert with cannabis anything. 912 00:44:45,000 --> 00:44:49,040 No, but it's, you know, even in this one, I feel not like an 913 00:44:49,040 --> 00:44:52,200 expert, but I at least feel enough that I can, I'm educated 914 00:44:52,200 --> 00:44:54,800 enough that I can speak on it. Well, and not only that though, 915 00:44:54,800 --> 00:44:57,200 but here's the thing. There's a lot of other podcasts 916 00:44:57,200 --> 00:44:59,240 like ours. There's lots, there's hundreds 917 00:44:59,240 --> 00:45:02,200 of these types of podcasts. That's the reason why there's 918 00:45:02,240 --> 00:45:03,960 hundreds, I mean, well in the state. 919 00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:07,360 But here's the thing, the reason why we've done so well on that 920 00:45:07,360 --> 00:45:10,080 one is that we have learned a lot about it. 921 00:45:10,080 --> 00:45:13,440 We learned a lot about what we want to talk about. 922 00:45:13,520 --> 00:45:17,000 And even though we may not see ourselves as experts because 923 00:45:17,000 --> 00:45:19,680 we're constantly learning, there's a lot of people out 924 00:45:19,680 --> 00:45:22,480 there that have had like massive aha moments when we were 925 00:45:22,480 --> 00:45:25,080 talking. And the cool part is that how 926 00:45:25,080 --> 00:45:27,760 much they engage with it because they are like, yeah, I want to 927 00:45:27,760 --> 00:45:29,800 know more about it. Like it's like that conversation 928 00:45:29,800 --> 00:45:32,200 we had yesterday with that in particular individual that was 929 00:45:32,200 --> 00:45:36,240 talking about how how upset he was that, you know, his nephew 930 00:45:36,240 --> 00:45:40,640 found out through a conversation that he was using cannabis. 931 00:45:40,640 --> 00:45:43,600 And, and I just got I got really frustrated with him and said, 932 00:45:43,600 --> 00:45:45,640 hey, man, either you're going to become a part of the problem or 933 00:45:45,640 --> 00:45:48,720 part of the solution. But if you aren't being able to 934 00:45:48,720 --> 00:45:52,440 be open enough around everybody that you use cannabis, it's not 935 00:45:52,440 --> 00:45:56,720 heroin, bro. It's not hookers, right? 936 00:45:56,720 --> 00:45:59,000 If you came to somebody going I have a problem with hookers. 937 00:45:59,080 --> 00:46:02,880 Or if you hear them like making a comment about cannabis that's 938 00:46:02,880 --> 00:46:07,160 incorrect, you're like, oh hey, I'm going to not allow that to 939 00:46:07,160 --> 00:46:09,560 be a problem. I'm going to help change that 940 00:46:09,560 --> 00:46:13,760 with maybe a simple education and going dude. 941 00:46:14,360 --> 00:46:18,240 Do you remember that part in What's that one Dave Chappelle 942 00:46:18,240 --> 00:46:20,400 movie? Half baked. 943 00:46:20,760 --> 00:46:25,280 Half baked, Yeah, When he goes to rehab and he goes up and 944 00:46:25,280 --> 00:46:26,720 talks and he goes, man, I've been. 945 00:46:27,240 --> 00:46:29,280 Addicted to pot? Everybody's like. 946 00:46:29,520 --> 00:46:30,440 What? Yeah. 947 00:46:30,760 --> 00:46:32,360 Addicted to pot? That's not addicted. 948 00:46:32,600 --> 00:46:35,640 They go and and let's just. Say suck Dick for pot. 949 00:46:35,640 --> 00:46:42,040 Yeah, he goes no, Boo this man. That's the first thing that gave 950 00:46:42,040 --> 00:46:45,960 in my head was that seed when when this guy I know was saying 951 00:46:45,960 --> 00:46:49,560 these things and I was just like, but that goes kind of on 952 00:46:49,560 --> 00:46:50,960 to. I mean, I know this podcast has 953 00:46:50,960 --> 00:46:53,360 gone all over the place, but it's just like an open dialogue, 954 00:46:53,400 --> 00:46:56,440 You know, we're just gonna go. But it, it honestly made me 955 00:46:56,440 --> 00:47:00,880 think like, why do I need to? I mean, it's like being really 956 00:47:00,880 --> 00:47:02,560 like, oh, man, they finally found out. 957 00:47:02,680 --> 00:47:04,320 Like what? Like I drink. 958 00:47:05,960 --> 00:47:07,600 I picked up one of these liquid deaths. 959 00:47:07,600 --> 00:47:09,800 Slaughter Berry. It's just water. 960 00:47:10,040 --> 00:47:13,520 Yeah, it's it's an iced tea. The first time I had had one was 961 00:47:13,520 --> 00:47:15,440 at a hotel. They had a bit in the room and I 962 00:47:15,440 --> 00:47:17,720 was like, oh, OK. I thought mine was broken 963 00:47:17,720 --> 00:47:19,280 because it didn't have any tingle. 964 00:47:19,840 --> 00:47:21,080 It wasn't sparkly. Yeah. 965 00:47:21,080 --> 00:47:23,480 And then I'm like, oh, it's iced tea you fucking retard. 966 00:47:23,600 --> 00:47:25,280 That's funny. But it was nice because I was 967 00:47:25,280 --> 00:47:29,080 looking for something with low sugar and I needed something to 968 00:47:29,160 --> 00:47:31,600 pick me up a little bit because I didn't get to bed till like 2. 969 00:47:31,600 --> 00:47:37,120 AM last night and. I was up at 6, so 4 hours, but I 970 00:47:37,120 --> 00:47:40,000 feel great. But when I I had that, it's not 971 00:47:40,000 --> 00:47:42,240 like somebody's going to go like, oh shit, they found out I 972 00:47:42,480 --> 00:47:44,760 drink liquid that honestly they're going to think I'm a 973 00:47:44,760 --> 00:47:47,120 pretentious fuck. The first times I saw it I just 974 00:47:47,120 --> 00:47:49,640 thought it was like either a beer or. 975 00:47:49,640 --> 00:47:51,480 I know it looks like a. Beer an energy drink. 976 00:47:51,600 --> 00:47:53,480 But it's brilliant. It's brilliant advertising. 977 00:47:53,480 --> 00:47:57,800 You've taken water, sparkling water, and just created a brand 978 00:47:57,800 --> 00:48:01,160 around it, which is cool. Like, hey, if you want to buy 979 00:48:01,160 --> 00:48:03,920 it, it's not crazy outrage. I mean buying bottled water is 980 00:48:03,920 --> 00:48:06,880 stupid, but we still do it anyways. 981 00:48:07,280 --> 00:48:08,920 Because it's convenient. Yeah. 982 00:48:08,920 --> 00:48:12,400 I only buy it when I don't have my like refillable one with me 983 00:48:12,400 --> 00:48:14,120 too. Like if I don't have my steel 984 00:48:14,120 --> 00:48:14,760 one with me. Yep. 985 00:48:15,080 --> 00:48:16,960 Yeah. But you think about that. 986 00:48:16,960 --> 00:48:20,080 Like, I shouldn't be ashamed of drinking this water or eating a 987 00:48:20,080 --> 00:48:24,120 certain type of food or maybe and enjoying a certain type of 988 00:48:24,120 --> 00:48:26,520 entertainment, you know, like video games. 989 00:48:26,520 --> 00:48:30,080 Like, I think I get more, I, I would probably get more shit if 990 00:48:30,080 --> 00:48:32,400 I went to an entrepreneurial like gathering, like a 991 00:48:32,400 --> 00:48:35,160 networking thing. And if we were there and we were 992 00:48:35,160 --> 00:48:37,960 talking about, like when we talk about being cannabis guys, dude, 993 00:48:38,280 --> 00:48:40,360 we're surrounded by people. It's funny. 994 00:48:40,600 --> 00:48:43,680 They just want to talk to us the whole time about getting high 995 00:48:43,680 --> 00:48:45,520 and what? Everything else. 996 00:48:45,520 --> 00:48:46,880 Yeah, they just tell us everything. 997 00:48:46,880 --> 00:48:48,360 All of a sudden we turn into priests. 998 00:48:48,640 --> 00:48:50,040 Oh, you get high. Yeah. 999 00:48:50,040 --> 00:48:53,480 This one time I had this like 3 prostitutes with me and they 1000 00:48:53,480 --> 00:48:56,320 were all named Sarah and I couldn't tell which one was 1001 00:48:56,320 --> 00:48:58,560 doing what's. Whenever I say Sarah do this, 1002 00:48:58,560 --> 00:49:00,040 they would all do it, you know, like. 1003 00:49:00,160 --> 00:49:02,640 Am I absolved of my sins now? And I'm like no but I feel like 1004 00:49:02,640 --> 00:49:05,440 I should go get high so. I think I need to take a shower 1005 00:49:06,400 --> 00:49:10,520 that that's fucking gross, dude. But no, it definitely is. 1006 00:49:10,520 --> 00:49:13,640 It's just this weird thing, like you, it doesn't necessarily got 1007 00:49:13,640 --> 00:49:18,120 to be proud of it. Like we wear things to go about 1008 00:49:18,120 --> 00:49:20,120 cannabis. I was actually almost going to 1009 00:49:20,120 --> 00:49:22,400 wear that today. That's fucking hilarious. 1010 00:49:22,400 --> 00:49:24,040 That would have been awesome. I need to wear it next time. 1011 00:49:24,360 --> 00:49:26,200 It's my favorite sweatshirt that we have. 1012 00:49:26,440 --> 00:49:29,720 It is it's got the highest quality, the best print. 1013 00:49:30,200 --> 00:49:31,360 I loved it. I still. 1014 00:49:31,360 --> 00:49:32,880 Want to get Miguel to do our stuff? 1015 00:49:33,040 --> 00:49:35,000 I do too. Somebody. 1016 00:49:35,480 --> 00:49:37,120 Yeah. Have you got a promo company? 1017 00:49:37,280 --> 00:49:39,720 But really good quality, because that was The thing is this like 1018 00:49:40,320 --> 00:49:42,640 as long as it's good high quality stuff. 1019 00:49:43,120 --> 00:49:45,000 Well, and that's the other thing we were trying to do, like we 1020 00:49:45,000 --> 00:49:48,280 were talking about, we want to partner with like a, a, some 1021 00:49:48,280 --> 00:49:51,920 type of merch company that wants to be able to be a part of 1022 00:49:51,920 --> 00:49:55,720 cannabis school, get in front of those individuals and for us to 1023 00:49:55,720 --> 00:49:58,120 have really cool looking merch that people would want to wear 1024 00:49:58,120 --> 00:50:02,280 like this is cool. I, I see the cannabis school 1025 00:50:02,560 --> 00:50:07,880 tells people it's OK, it's OK that you not just enjoy this, 1026 00:50:07,880 --> 00:50:11,240 but that you use this for specific reasons and it helps 1027 00:50:11,240 --> 00:50:14,120 you because I think about all those people that just get high. 1028 00:50:14,240 --> 00:50:16,440 I feel bad. Yeah, I feel like they're 1029 00:50:16,440 --> 00:50:19,160 missing out on a lot. Yeah, you're getting shorted big 1030 00:50:19,160 --> 00:50:20,960 time. It's not like heroin. 1031 00:50:21,080 --> 00:50:24,320 Like, oh dude, have you ever tried heroin at a water park? 1032 00:50:24,720 --> 00:50:26,400 Because that's badass. Not. 1033 00:50:26,400 --> 00:50:28,960 Tried it there either. Dude doing that is the same as 1034 00:50:28,960 --> 00:50:31,560 doing pills. Like I remember back in the day 1035 00:50:31,560 --> 00:50:34,800 when I was doing stupid stupid shit like I was to pop in a 1036 00:50:34,800 --> 00:50:37,480 couple of lower tab 10s and then going to the bar. 1037 00:50:38,080 --> 00:50:40,160 If I would have gone to sleep I would have fucking died. 1038 00:50:40,480 --> 00:50:42,800 I had a very good friend of mine in high school. 1039 00:50:43,280 --> 00:50:46,200 After high school went to the I went to the military, came back. 1040 00:50:46,360 --> 00:50:48,520 He died weeks before I came home. 1041 00:50:49,120 --> 00:50:51,160 That sucks. He went drinking with some 1042 00:50:51,160 --> 00:50:55,480 friends, came home popped a couple Tylenol before he went to 1043 00:50:55,480 --> 00:50:57,400 sleep to so he didn't have a headache when he woke up. 1044 00:50:57,920 --> 00:50:59,680 He never woke up. Mom found him dead. 1045 00:51:00,800 --> 00:51:04,120 He was a cool dude too, one of the coolest guys I've ever met 1046 00:51:04,840 --> 00:51:09,480 and it was really sad and but the pills only make you feel 1047 00:51:09,480 --> 00:51:11,920 like pills. The only thing that I know I've 1048 00:51:11,920 --> 00:51:16,400 been able to get into when I use alcohol and drugs together is 1049 00:51:16,400 --> 00:51:18,120 problems. Right. 1050 00:51:18,320 --> 00:51:20,040 Yeah, lots of problems. It was mostly. 1051 00:51:20,320 --> 00:51:21,240 Alcohol. It was just girl. 1052 00:51:21,240 --> 00:51:24,000 Problems for me, Yeah, girls problems all the time. 1053 00:51:24,320 --> 00:51:27,320 I'm just way more likely to like, strip down and get naked. 1054 00:51:27,320 --> 00:51:29,760 Yeah, yeah or yeah. Dude, we're never doing that 1055 00:51:30,480 --> 00:51:32,480 ever. Well, I mean, it's, it's 1056 00:51:32,480 --> 00:51:35,960 allowing yourself to be OK with it and it's not even allowing 1057 00:51:35,960 --> 00:51:38,200 yourself. Just saying like there's nothing 1058 00:51:38,200 --> 00:51:41,040 wrong with this. The way I use cannabis is the 1059 00:51:41,040 --> 00:51:46,280 same way I use my food. I like to have good food, I like 1060 00:51:46,280 --> 00:51:50,480 to have good weed, and if I have good weed I feel pretty good. 1061 00:51:50,800 --> 00:51:52,920 Me too. And I'm able to calm myself down 1062 00:51:52,920 --> 00:51:55,320 if I need to be calm or if I'm just like, you know, I got to 1063 00:51:55,320 --> 00:51:57,360 focus on something. I need to get this shit done. 1064 00:51:57,880 --> 00:52:00,360 Like I told you, man, I was able to knock out a fuck ton of work 1065 00:52:00,360 --> 00:52:04,200 yesterday. And I use, I mix Durbin poison 1066 00:52:04,240 --> 00:52:08,120 and cat and cheetah piss and concentrate. 1067 00:52:08,320 --> 00:52:10,240 I just put them on that same thing and put them in the 1068 00:52:10,240 --> 00:52:13,160 banger. And dude, that was really nice. 1069 00:52:13,560 --> 00:52:16,240 That sounds fantastic. Did you know that Durbin poison, 1070 00:52:16,240 --> 00:52:19,640 I mean Durbin poison is really good for GI problems, totally 1071 00:52:19,640 --> 00:52:21,360 crazy. Yeah, and it has pain relieving. 1072 00:52:21,360 --> 00:52:23,760 Problems so that really helps after you've done like your Med 1073 00:52:23,760 --> 00:52:25,840 and that for the week. Oh yeah dude. 1074 00:52:25,840 --> 00:52:28,160 And sneak peek. Total crazy thing that I found 1075 00:52:28,160 --> 00:52:30,600 out. You know what helps out with GI 1076 00:52:30,600 --> 00:52:33,160 problems more than THC? CBD. 1077 00:52:33,640 --> 00:52:35,680 Really. So I tested it and because my 1078 00:52:35,680 --> 00:52:37,760 guts are all fucked up because. And it helps. 1079 00:52:38,640 --> 00:52:40,520 Totally dude. Within 30 minutes, my guts. 1080 00:52:40,520 --> 00:52:42,360 Felt a lot better. That's huge. 1081 00:52:42,360 --> 00:52:44,240 And I was like. You just got to do it in 1082 00:52:44,240 --> 00:52:46,840 conjunction. I bet the two together do 1083 00:52:46,840 --> 00:52:49,040 fantastic. Things what the THC does is it 1084 00:52:49,040 --> 00:52:53,640 helps your mind to take it off of the pain and to but it 1085 00:52:53,640 --> 00:52:56,320 doesn't get rid of the pain, but the CBD, it's the inflammation. 1086 00:52:56,360 --> 00:52:57,440 Yeah. And I was like. 1087 00:52:57,440 --> 00:52:58,880 Well, this is massively inflamed. 1088 00:52:59,440 --> 00:53:01,280 Well. If you do a tanger, it's a lot 1089 00:53:01,280 --> 00:53:03,360 easier to do that too because it's going inside. 1090 00:53:03,520 --> 00:53:08,040 When Years ago when I was going back down to Texas and that all 1091 00:53:08,040 --> 00:53:10,480 the time, my ex-wife was diagnosed with Crohn's. 1092 00:53:11,040 --> 00:53:16,040 And yeah, and one of the trips when I went down, her mother had 1093 00:53:16,040 --> 00:53:18,640 Mersa and she was diagnosed with Crohn's. 1094 00:53:19,120 --> 00:53:21,040 Wait a minute, is this the bath bomb? 1095 00:53:21,600 --> 00:53:25,160 No, no, so I but I brought a pen down and the pen just had an 1096 00:53:25,160 --> 00:53:29,760 untwistable lid on like top. And so her mother had had 1097 00:53:29,760 --> 00:53:33,000 actually gone to like Colorado and it had edibles before for 1098 00:53:33,000 --> 00:53:35,360 her pain. And I was like, well, if you do 1099 00:53:35,360 --> 00:53:38,240 that, this is the exact like I'll just put a tiny drop in 1100 00:53:38,240 --> 00:53:41,480 your coffee. And she did that and it helped 1101 00:53:41,480 --> 00:53:44,000 with her pain and it was great. And I did the same thing for my 1102 00:53:44,000 --> 00:53:45,960 ex-wife because she hadn't eaten for days. 1103 00:53:45,960 --> 00:53:48,760 Really. She was sleeping great and she I 1104 00:53:48,760 --> 00:53:51,040 passed out in the car for like an hour and a half. 1105 00:53:51,160 --> 00:53:53,600 I've been hungry. Well, I took my daughters to 1106 00:53:53,600 --> 00:53:57,520 gymnastics and then after that she was starving and ate like an 1107 00:53:57,520 --> 00:54:00,240 entire thing of lasagna and a bunch of breadsticks and stuff. 1108 00:54:00,680 --> 00:54:04,160 And it's like, holy shit. It made a massive difference in 1109 00:54:04,160 --> 00:54:05,800 the impact and the ability to eat. 1110 00:54:06,280 --> 00:54:10,600 And it's like, yeah, I can imagine that that with CBD or 1111 00:54:10,600 --> 00:54:13,720 something would just. CBD and CBD are really good for 1112 00:54:13,720 --> 00:54:19,320 for gut, but that, that's cool is that I know that now, right? 1113 00:54:19,320 --> 00:54:22,120 And, and learning these things and applying them and testing 1114 00:54:22,120 --> 00:54:25,160 them on myself and knowing what works, what doesn't work, makes 1115 00:54:25,160 --> 00:54:27,440 an impact. Well, it's like glazed apricot 1116 00:54:27,480 --> 00:54:28,120 Gelato. Oh yeah. 1117 00:54:28,520 --> 00:54:32,040 You told me you tried. That mixed it and it was great, 1118 00:54:32,320 --> 00:54:36,520 but alone for me it just makes me uncomfortable. 1119 00:54:36,520 --> 00:54:38,640 A lot of tightness when I was just by itself. 1120 00:54:38,640 --> 00:54:41,000 And here's the thing, it's because we've used so many 1121 00:54:41,000 --> 00:54:45,320 different strains, we know how it makes us feel that when we 1122 00:54:45,320 --> 00:54:49,640 get something like that, to a a layperson who's not really into 1123 00:54:49,640 --> 00:54:52,720 cannabis as much as we are and they're starting to get in, I 1124 00:54:52,720 --> 00:54:55,880 could see using any cannabis as like, yeah, I'm going to get 1125 00:54:55,880 --> 00:54:58,920 because you remember the first times you used it, you'd get 1126 00:54:59,080 --> 00:55:01,600 wicked high. Because you feel high because 1127 00:55:01,600 --> 00:55:04,600 it's more of like you don't notice the terpenes or the 1128 00:55:04,600 --> 00:55:06,680 experience. And you might if there was like 1129 00:55:06,680 --> 00:55:09,920 a specific one that made you feel more focused or some 1130 00:55:09,920 --> 00:55:13,080 specific way. But like, I feel most of it is 1131 00:55:13,920 --> 00:55:16,680 at the beginning, most people are not noticing that because 1132 00:55:16,680 --> 00:55:19,920 all they're feeling is, well, they've not felt high. 1133 00:55:19,960 --> 00:55:22,240 And all of a sudden there's this whole new experience. 1134 00:55:22,240 --> 00:55:26,760 And if they're doing it in a way that is to get high, not just 1135 00:55:26,760 --> 00:55:30,160 like a very low medicinal like microdose, they don't actually 1136 00:55:30,160 --> 00:55:33,240 feel euphoric. They feel like most of them are 1137 00:55:33,240 --> 00:55:34,640 just experiencing those first highs. 1138 00:55:34,640 --> 00:55:36,800 And it's like, whoa. Yeah. 1139 00:55:36,800 --> 00:55:39,120 Oh, dude, I remember those first times after you gave me that 1140 00:55:39,120 --> 00:55:41,400 pen. Like, you know, there's very few 1141 00:55:41,400 --> 00:55:44,440 moments in my life where I can go back and look real fondly on 1142 00:55:44,440 --> 00:55:45,840 it going, yeah, that was a good day. 1143 00:55:46,040 --> 00:55:48,120 And I can still go back to it. And I remember that day and. 1144 00:55:48,120 --> 00:55:49,880 That's when you were mowing the lawn on the moon. 1145 00:55:49,880 --> 00:55:52,800 Yeah, dude, it was, it was the best like when I used it the 1146 00:55:52,800 --> 00:55:55,920 first time. Do you remember when we we were 1147 00:55:55,920 --> 00:56:02,240 down at Remember My Provo home and you came over and we were 1148 00:56:02,240 --> 00:56:06,840 playing a video game together on my TV but we just sat there 1149 00:56:06,840 --> 00:56:08,600 smoking our carts the whole time? 1150 00:56:09,520 --> 00:56:12,240 Yeah, we did about a lot more when you lived close. 1151 00:56:12,480 --> 00:56:16,200 Yeah, it was a lot easier than. But no, dude, even then, like we 1152 00:56:16,200 --> 00:56:18,720 need to make that time. We need to make that time to 1153 00:56:18,720 --> 00:56:22,720 hang out whenever. And, you know, for me, what I 1154 00:56:22,720 --> 00:56:25,600 think it is for me is I'm like also worried because we're such 1155 00:56:25,600 --> 00:56:29,840 in a stressful point in our life where I'm like worried that, you 1156 00:56:29,840 --> 00:56:31,680 know, my wife's going to be upset that I'm going to do 1157 00:56:31,680 --> 00:56:34,200 something because I, I'm very, very hard on myself. 1158 00:56:34,880 --> 00:56:37,600 And I just let it go because. It's a feeling of like I don't 1159 00:56:37,600 --> 00:56:41,520 deserve to do that because I haven't accomplished what I 1160 00:56:41,520 --> 00:56:45,800 should do to be a man because being a man means I should 1161 00:56:45,800 --> 00:56:49,880 support my family in the way that I feel like equates being a 1162 00:56:49,880 --> 00:56:52,240 man. And that's, but that's OK. 1163 00:56:52,240 --> 00:56:55,960 I mean, at least you were aware of that and that you want to do 1164 00:56:55,960 --> 00:56:57,960 something different. Right now. 1165 00:56:57,960 --> 00:57:01,040 They are been doing statistical data on it and they've been 1166 00:57:01,040 --> 00:57:03,680 finding that a lot of men are not working, period. 1167 00:57:03,680 --> 00:57:04,920 And they're choosing not to work. 1168 00:57:05,160 --> 00:57:06,800 They're choosing to stay at home. 1169 00:57:07,080 --> 00:57:10,400 They're choosing to play video games and get on assistance and 1170 00:57:10,400 --> 00:57:13,960 they're getting it. I was surprised to see, yeah, 1171 00:57:13,960 --> 00:57:18,760 there's something that it was like the amount of men that live 1172 00:57:18,760 --> 00:57:24,280 at home, it's like from over the last 20 or 30 years is gone. 1173 00:57:24,280 --> 00:57:28,760 It was like around 10 or 12% I think about 20 years ago. 1174 00:57:28,760 --> 00:57:32,680 And now it's now it's up over 25 or so. 1175 00:57:32,680 --> 00:57:35,280 And I'm like, holy shit. Like it's a massive increase. 1176 00:57:35,280 --> 00:57:38,920 But at the same time, cost of housing has gone up a lot. 1177 00:57:38,920 --> 00:57:42,320 Like there's there's a lot of factors that I'm sure also play 1178 00:57:42,400 --> 00:57:44,920 into that. Well, then the other part too is 1179 00:57:44,920 --> 00:57:47,440 that people don't want to get a job that they feel is beneath 1180 00:57:47,440 --> 00:57:49,000 them. It's not necessarily the pay. 1181 00:57:49,000 --> 00:57:52,960 It's it's, it's the status, because our world is has become 1182 00:57:52,960 --> 00:57:55,920 a lot about status and it's slowly going away from that, 1183 00:57:55,920 --> 00:57:57,800 right? People know that the influencer 1184 00:57:57,800 --> 00:58:00,920 on on Instagram is not a real person, right? 1185 00:58:01,080 --> 00:58:05,960 The girl that you follow on Only Fans really isn't always about 1186 00:58:05,960 --> 00:58:09,560 putting as many objects into all of her holes that that's not 1187 00:58:09,760 --> 00:58:13,280 that she doesn't wake up going a thicker diameter that'll 1188 00:58:13,280 --> 00:58:15,240 increase the profits. No. 1189 00:58:15,240 --> 00:58:18,960 In fact, the the ones that I do know that are on there, every 1190 00:58:18,960 --> 00:58:24,080 time that I meet with them, talk with them, see them, I don't 1191 00:58:24,080 --> 00:58:28,880 think there's a single comment or discussion ever about that. 1192 00:58:29,360 --> 00:58:32,040 Which is funny because don't don't you think that more 1193 00:58:32,040 --> 00:58:34,880 professionals would probably have a better life if they 1194 00:58:34,880 --> 00:58:36,840 didn't talk about their fucking job all the time? 1195 00:58:36,840 --> 00:58:38,360 Because I talk about my job all the time. 1196 00:58:38,760 --> 00:58:41,400 I talk about it all the time. And the only reason why is 1197 00:58:41,400 --> 00:58:46,000 because I'm so fixated on it. Because I want to make something 1198 00:58:46,000 --> 00:58:49,200 out of it. Like I I actually envy people 1199 00:58:49,200 --> 00:58:52,080 who hate their jobs in that sense because they just go fuck. 1200 00:58:52,080 --> 00:58:56,680 That I'm done. I've done my 8 hours, my you 1201 00:58:56,680 --> 00:58:59,240 know, whatever. Yep, I am off the clock. 1202 00:58:59,240 --> 00:59:03,840 Fuck off. I am just chilling and I can't 1203 00:59:03,840 --> 00:59:06,720 turn it off and that sucks sometimes. 1204 00:59:06,800 --> 00:59:10,480 The only times I get to turn it off are when I'm playing games 1205 00:59:10,480 --> 00:59:11,880 with you and that's it. It's. 1206 00:59:12,000 --> 00:59:14,520 Because I know most of the time there's a lot of other shit of 1207 00:59:14,520 --> 00:59:16,240 like, oh wait, what about this? What about this? 1208 00:59:16,240 --> 00:59:17,560 What about this? What about this? 1209 00:59:17,920 --> 00:59:21,760 Even I mean, and no, no, it's with you and my wife. 1210 00:59:21,760 --> 00:59:23,520 That's it. That's the only time I've been 1211 00:59:23,520 --> 00:59:25,520 doing better, though. I've been creating those times 1212 00:59:25,520 --> 00:59:28,880 like I go lifting with my boys at least four times a week. 1213 00:59:29,080 --> 00:59:30,560 Yeah, you're doing that a lot more now. 1214 00:59:30,640 --> 00:59:33,560 Yeah, because we got that like HOA neighborhood. 1215 00:59:33,920 --> 00:59:36,320 Or community gym. And it's a really nice one. 1216 00:59:36,320 --> 00:59:38,120 I was like totally shocked because usually it's like some 1217 00:59:38,120 --> 00:59:41,960 shitty machine and some like mixed match looking weights and 1218 00:59:41,960 --> 00:59:42,880 stuff. That meal. 1219 00:59:42,880 --> 00:59:44,240 Yeah, that's all fucked up and you're. 1220 00:59:44,440 --> 00:59:47,640 Like, all right, Yeah, yeah, it makes Claypen in the corner. 1221 00:59:47,840 --> 00:59:51,600 Yeah, there's. And it's like awful and it's got 1222 00:59:51,600 --> 00:59:54,920 boogers all over the fucking side and the toys are all like 1223 00:59:54,920 --> 00:59:58,400 slobbered on and sticky and you're like, I don't want my kid 1224 00:59:58,400 --> 00:59:59,760 touching this fucking Petri dish. 1225 01:00:00,120 --> 01:00:02,800 But no, dude, it, it literally has because now I've been trying 1226 01:00:02,800 --> 01:00:06,240 to force it's not. No, I'm going to say that I have 1227 01:00:06,240 --> 01:00:10,480 been forcing myself to take more time away from those thoughts. 1228 01:00:11,080 --> 01:00:14,400 Like I don't have to constantly be listening to books about. 1229 01:00:15,160 --> 01:00:18,880 Business or behavioral science or consumer psychology or 1230 01:00:18,880 --> 01:00:20,560 anything like that. Just because I find it 1231 01:00:20,560 --> 01:00:22,760 fascinating doesn't mean that I need to do it all the time. 1232 01:00:23,240 --> 01:00:26,400 And there was a day where I was like, I don't know what strain I 1233 01:00:26,400 --> 01:00:31,120 smoke, but it was just like, no, no, turn that off, dude. 1234 01:00:31,680 --> 01:00:32,600 Turn it off. Nice. 1235 01:00:32,800 --> 01:00:36,040 Just listen to whatever, but don't listen to this right now, 1236 01:00:36,160 --> 01:00:37,400 all right? That's cool. 1237 01:00:37,640 --> 01:00:39,320 I was like yesterday going on the hike. 1238 01:00:39,360 --> 01:00:41,200 Yeah. I was like, oh shit, I don't 1239 01:00:41,200 --> 01:00:42,840 know. And I was actually stressing, 1240 01:00:42,840 --> 01:00:45,120 thinking like, I don't, I don't know if I can do this. 1241 01:00:45,440 --> 01:00:47,600 I don't know if I'm going to actually have time or be able to 1242 01:00:47,600 --> 01:00:50,120 get this in because I was like, shit, I don't know what to do 1243 01:00:50,120 --> 01:00:52,240 with Addie. Like how am I going to get her 1244 01:00:52,240 --> 01:00:54,320 home from school? And yeah. 1245 01:00:55,000 --> 01:00:58,040 Yeah, dude. I mean, and it's it's. 1246 01:00:59,160 --> 01:01:01,880 But that was like the best just disconnect. 1247 01:01:02,080 --> 01:01:04,120 To detach. Oh my gosh, yeah. 1248 01:01:04,120 --> 01:01:07,200 I'm like I have not done this. It's what I like about what 1249 01:01:07,200 --> 01:01:09,920 Jocko says, you know, when he's talking about the laws of 1250 01:01:09,920 --> 01:01:12,800 combat, he talks about this first law of combat is 1251 01:01:12,800 --> 01:01:15,720 detachment. And so in order for you to be 1252 01:01:15,720 --> 01:01:18,680 able to really get a view of what's going on, you need to 1253 01:01:18,680 --> 01:01:21,040 step back. And that's an easy thing to say. 1254 01:01:21,040 --> 01:01:24,880 But when I put this in my mind now and I've imprinted it there 1255 01:01:24,880 --> 01:01:26,880 where I go, I'm going to detach right now. 1256 01:01:27,560 --> 01:01:31,560 So like I had a really difficult conversation with a client and 1257 01:01:31,560 --> 01:01:34,120 it was a hard one, and they gave me a lot of really negative 1258 01:01:34,120 --> 01:01:37,000 feedback. And it normally it would have 1259 01:01:37,320 --> 01:01:41,160 made me mad because instead of feeling sad, I feel mad. 1260 01:01:41,760 --> 01:01:45,480 And then I get defensive. How dare you say that these 1261 01:01:45,480 --> 01:01:47,680 things actually happened? So I'm just like, all right, 1262 01:01:47,680 --> 01:01:50,040 fine, fuck it, I'm just going to go with it. 1263 01:01:50,040 --> 01:01:53,040 But I detached. I'm like, you're not here and 1264 01:01:53,040 --> 01:01:55,960 you need to take a step back and see their perspective and not 1265 01:01:56,240 --> 01:02:00,440 respond with your emotion. And when I just said like in my 1266 01:02:00,440 --> 01:02:04,400 head, and this sounds stupid too, I hear Han Solo's voice. 1267 01:02:04,400 --> 01:02:08,480 I hear Harrison Board's voice in my my mind from like Empire 1268 01:02:08,480 --> 01:02:10,800 Strikes Back where they like take the Millennium Falcon and 1269 01:02:10,800 --> 01:02:14,560 attach it to this Imperial ship. And he goes detach and they 1270 01:02:14,560 --> 01:02:16,000 float away. That's what I think. 1271 01:02:16,000 --> 01:02:19,760 I said detach in my head and I float away and I go, OK. 1272 01:02:20,560 --> 01:02:22,680 And that was cool. So when you think about 1273 01:02:22,680 --> 01:02:25,920 detaching and being able to be a part of it, then you can go, no, 1274 01:02:25,920 --> 01:02:28,960 it's OK if I do this, what's the worst that's going to happen to 1275 01:02:28,960 --> 01:02:33,320 you if you go on this hike? Your dad'll go way too fast. 1276 01:02:33,320 --> 01:02:36,840 Oh. My God, he's got so much energy 1277 01:02:36,840 --> 01:02:39,680 for being, for being 60. Yeah. 1278 01:02:39,880 --> 01:02:42,520 And after having all these crazy ass surgery, yeah. 1279 01:02:42,960 --> 01:02:43,880 Holy. Shit, right? 1280 01:02:43,880 --> 01:02:47,000 That guy's probably got more scars than Pinhead does in Hell 1281 01:02:47,000 --> 01:02:48,800 Raiser. Yeah, I was surprised. 1282 01:02:48,840 --> 01:02:50,840 He's probably. Got wicked scars all over. 1283 01:02:50,840 --> 01:02:55,480 Dude for my younger brother who plays, I don't know if he plays 1284 01:02:55,480 --> 01:02:59,160 soccer anymore, but he played soccer for 15 years. 1285 01:02:59,160 --> 01:03:02,320 Probably Thomas Alec. Oh yeah, yeah. 1286 01:03:02,520 --> 01:03:07,080 And me and Alec were the ones on the hike with him and going hey 1287 01:03:07,640 --> 01:03:11,120 we're probably OK doing like 70% of this speed even. 1288 01:03:12,080 --> 01:03:15,000 We passed every single person on the trail going up like 1289 01:03:15,040 --> 01:03:17,160 everyone. We were walking faster then. 1290 01:03:18,000 --> 01:03:20,000 That's not enjoyable. I was like, Oh my God. 1291 01:03:20,520 --> 01:03:22,720 But even then, like. I was glad I was smoking. 1292 01:03:23,480 --> 01:03:24,920 Oh well, it makes it a lot easier. 1293 01:03:24,960 --> 01:03:28,280 Then I was like, it's. Cool, what pen did you have with 1294 01:03:28,280 --> 01:03:30,040 you? I was rocking. 1295 01:03:30,040 --> 01:03:33,000 Oh my God, I'd have to go look at what that. 1296 01:03:33,240 --> 01:03:36,320 No, hang on, let me think. I was using when I went on my 1297 01:03:36,320 --> 01:03:37,960 hike. What did I get? 1298 01:03:38,480 --> 01:03:42,400 It's not Otter pop, it's it's an it's a hybrid. 1299 01:03:42,920 --> 01:03:45,920 I was doing banana banana kush. Oh, that would be nice. 1300 01:03:46,120 --> 01:03:47,960 Yeah, I. Puffed on that thing the whole 1301 01:03:47,960 --> 01:03:49,880 way up. Like no shits given. 1302 01:03:50,360 --> 01:03:53,200 Like I'd probably say like every quarter of a mile I was taking a 1303 01:03:53,200 --> 01:03:56,280 hit. Mine was definitely more quarter 1304 01:03:56,280 --> 01:03:58,720 mile, yeah. About that I mean almost. 1305 01:03:58,720 --> 01:04:01,440 To it could have been every. You know, maybe a little less. 1306 01:04:01,840 --> 01:04:03,440 Mine could have. It was never more like. 1307 01:04:03,520 --> 01:04:05,960 That mine definitely could have been more no. 1308 01:04:05,960 --> 01:04:09,280 No, no distance wise. Oh yeah, no. 1309 01:04:09,440 --> 01:04:12,680 I mean, I'm only telling this because I'm trying to make it 1310 01:04:12,680 --> 01:04:15,600 sound less than it was, because it's not like somebody was just 1311 01:04:15,600 --> 01:04:19,040 like, dude, impressive. You ate that entire package of 1312 01:04:19,040 --> 01:04:20,960 Oreos. Like nobody fucking says that. 1313 01:04:21,320 --> 01:04:25,320 Nobody said that one one really. You know, gluttonous person 1314 01:04:25,320 --> 01:04:26,960 doesn't look to another one going fucking. 1315 01:04:26,960 --> 01:04:30,000 Hey bro, good job taking down that burger. 1316 01:04:31,720 --> 01:04:33,440 No, you did it. Mission accomplished. 1317 01:04:33,440 --> 01:04:35,280 Yay. Unless it's like going to that 1318 01:04:35,280 --> 01:04:37,640 restaurant and it's the challenge they have because it's 1319 01:04:37,640 --> 01:04:42,520 like that 10 LB burger. We call this the colon Buster. 1320 01:04:43,320 --> 01:04:46,400 That's what it should be. But you know, it's, I don't 1321 01:04:46,400 --> 01:04:48,680 know, At the end of the day, we need to give ourselves a little 1322 01:04:48,680 --> 01:04:53,720 bit more, a little bit more slack on if we're going to die 1323 01:04:53,720 --> 01:04:57,680 or not really take that time to be able to get that just be 1324 01:04:58,400 --> 01:05:00,840 whether it's a hike, playing video games, doing something. 1325 01:05:01,240 --> 01:05:03,320 Hell, maybe if your thing is just smoking weed and looking 1326 01:05:03,320 --> 01:05:06,240 off your porch, fucking A yeah, why not, right? 1327 01:05:06,280 --> 01:05:10,200 You should get high and just hang out because you're probably 1328 01:05:10,200 --> 01:05:12,760 moving way too fast in your mind and you need to slow the fuck 1329 01:05:12,760 --> 01:05:14,720 down. And maybe everywhere else in 1330 01:05:14,720 --> 01:05:17,520 life, because sometimes you know, we are really moving like 1331 01:05:17,520 --> 01:05:19,960 1,000,000 miles a minute, so. So take a break. 1332 01:05:20,720 --> 01:05:23,200 Smoke strain. Yeah, and find your perfect 1333 01:05:23,200 --> 01:05:25,640 strain. Go through our entire catalog 1334 01:05:26,080 --> 01:05:28,200 and find the strain that you like the most. 1335 01:05:28,200 --> 01:05:31,480 Hey, even here's a good idea. See if you want us to do a 1336 01:05:31,480 --> 01:05:34,480 follow up review on any of those strains and we'll see if we can 1337 01:05:34,480 --> 01:05:37,400 find them again. Oh, and in the comments below, 1338 01:05:37,400 --> 01:05:42,480 let us know your favorite strains of all time because I'm 1339 01:05:42,480 --> 01:05:46,000 very curious to go see what ones we haven't done, what ones we 1340 01:05:46,000 --> 01:05:49,720 haven't even tried, and what ones become our new favorites. 1341 01:05:49,760 --> 01:05:52,040 So. Yeah, no, there's so many really 1342 01:05:52,040 --> 01:05:57,120 good ones out there. Still jonesing for black amber? 1343 01:05:58,160 --> 01:05:59,600 Yeah, that was amazing. It's a bit. 1344 01:05:59,640 --> 01:06:00,800 More. Yeah, we got it. 1345 01:06:00,800 --> 01:06:02,920 I'm going to get some more of that eventually. 1346 01:06:02,920 --> 01:06:04,520 Soon. And you can get some more of us 1347 01:06:04,520 --> 01:06:08,200 guys by tuning in next week. Yeah, hey, and support the show. 1348 01:06:08,200 --> 01:06:11,600 Go down there below, just click on it and start helping us out. 1349 01:06:11,720 --> 01:06:15,600 And final thought is if it's hot, don't touch it. 1350 01:06:18,080 --> 01:06:18,880 See you next week.