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Hey, hey, my sparkly friends, 
it's Carol Jean here and this 

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episode is a little different. 
There's no prepare the soil or 

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water and nourish, no route to 
practice for you this week. 

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Just a moment of reflection, 
real talk, and a hello from one 

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human navigating life's curve 
balls to another. 

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Step out of the shadows. 
Feel the power of eyes. 

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Catch the spark inside you. 
Let your spirit fly beyond the 

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chronic Corona Carol jeans your 
guy find your step being real a 

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nice joy on the tide. 
So wish forward, bright and 

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bold. 
Leave the bird up behind. 

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In this journey hearts unfold. 
How is yours seeking find? 

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So I got stung by a bee last 
Thursday. 

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It was really, really scary. 
I'm allergic and I also have M 

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cast. 
So if you've been around for a 

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bit, you know that. 
So the usual go to treatments 

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like epinephrine or steroid 
pack. 

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They're just not an option for 
me because I also have POTS and 

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it it all of that really just 
doesn't work with my chemistry. 

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So I'm left with just a, you 
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And let me tell you, it's been a
rough four days. 

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Today I woke up and I felt a lot
better, but holy cow, this has 

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been brutal. 
Honestly, yesterday was bad. 

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Like Sunday I felt better and I 
was like, oh, good, I'm on the 

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upswing, right? 
And then yesterday, oh, Oh my 

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gosh, yesterday was bad. 
Like I, I think looking back 

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over the last couple of days, 
probably four or five days, I, 

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two of those days I basically 
slept the whole time and you 

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know, oh, that, that's a little 
frustrating because I'm like one

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of those people. 
I'm like stuff to do and I want 

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to be out there outside, you 
know, playing in my plants and 

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this kind of stuff. 
But you know what's interesting 

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is when I was stung, my husband 
and I were going into town to go

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pick up my new blood pressure 
medicine, right? 

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And I guess this bee, it was 
either in the Jeep or maybe I 

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walking out to the Jeep, but it 
gotten on my dress. 

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And when I sat down, we were 
maybe halfway to the stop sign 

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from our driveway. 
All of a sudden I got stung on 

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the inside of my thigh. 
Y'all, I got stung like 15 years

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ago was the last time I was 
stung by anything and it was by 

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some Wasps and same spot. 
So I'm like, OK, well, of course

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the first thing I do in my 
little woo woo world is I go, 

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what's the spiritual meaning of 
a bee sting? 

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And it's, you know, 
transformation and, you know, 

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all these different things. 
And I'm like, OK, this is 

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tracking. 
You know, there's the full moons

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coming up on the 11th tomorrow. 
Well, the day that this podcast 

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airs and it's a strawberry moon,
but it's also this season of 

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shedding of like purging and 
getting rid of things. 

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And so I was like, huh, OK, so 
I'm going to pay attention to 

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that. 
But here's the thing. 

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Instead of getting completely 
derailed by this bee sting or 

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trying to power through or push 
through, I made a choice to 

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treat it as an opportunity to 
deeply care for myself. 

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That didn't mean like one big 
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It meant checking in with myself
constantly over the last few 

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days, not just once in the 
morning. 

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You know, like oh, how do I feel
when I first wake up? 

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Because by the way, that is 
never a good barometer 

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necessarily because I'm always 
like 5 minutes later I feel 

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totally different. 
Not just when things felt hard 

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throughout the day, but over and
over again. 

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I kept asking myself what do I 
need right now? 

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What's changed since, you know, 
like maybe an hour ago or the 

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last time I checked in. 
What does support look like for 

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me in this moment? 
Because our needs are fluid, 

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especially in a body and a 
nervous system like ours. 

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If you are also a trifecta 
patient or you have Co occurring

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health conditions. 
So we had an accelerate circle 

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office hours today. 
That's my small group for the 

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unveiling method and we delve 
into a beautiful rich 

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conversation about something. 
I think every single one of us 

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needs to practice more listening
to the truth underneath our yes,

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no and maybe. 
So we used three questions to 

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guide our conversation today. 
The first one was when I feel 

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the urge to say no, what signals
physical, emotional, sensory or 

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intuitive do I notice in my body
or my mind? 

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Now, we also ended up applying 
this across the board to like, 

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well, when I feel the urge to 
say yes, what signals do I 

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notice in my body or mind, you 
know, And if there's a maybe, if

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I'm not really sure, how does 
that feel for me in my body, in 

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my emotions, right? 
The second question we dove into

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was in moments of uncertainty, 
how can I pause and ask myself, 

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is this a true yes, a no? 
Or maybe it needs more time or 

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information? 
I feel like a lot of us, we say 

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yes to things because we want to
people, please, we don't want to

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rock the boat. 
We feel like, oh, it's not that 

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big a deal. 
I'll just say yes or oh, that 

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sounds really fun. 
If you feel like me and your 

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audio HD, you're like, oh, that 
sounds really great. 

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That's exciting, yes. 
And then you're like, oh, but 

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then I've got like all this 
other stuff on my plate already.

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The third question we kind of 
dove into and really I love how 

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we took the conversation. 
What simple language or phrase 

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feels safe and true to begin 
expressing a no or even a maybe 

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while honoring both my needs and
my nervous system. 

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This was one I really had to 
lean into a lot the last couple 

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of days, and not with other 
people so much as more with 

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myself. 
I had to find the language to 

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like pause to check in, to make 
sure I was honoring my needs and

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my nervous system. 
What unfolded in this 

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conversation and just sort of in
my practice of this and my 

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exploration, I should say 
compassionate curiosity, was 

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this beautiful unraveling of 
patterns we've all held onto in 

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those patterns, like people 
pleasing going along to get 

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along, conflict avoidance, that 
nervous system freeze, or fond 

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response that so many of us, 
especially autistic women, know 

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all too well. 
And here's what really surprised

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us. 
It wasn't just hard to say no to

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other people. 
It was just as hard, if not 

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harder to notice how often we 
say yes to things we never even 

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checked in with ourselves about.
Are you feeling that you're not 

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alone? 
Like projects we didn't want to 

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take on to do lists that aren't 
actually ours. 

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They might belong to our 
partner, our boss, our Co 

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worker, our kids. 
They're not necessarily ours, 

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but we took them on task. 
We're doing out of obligation, 

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not desire. 
We realized the real personal 

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power comes from pausing from 
actually creating space. 

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Before the automatic, yes. 
Before the avoidant? 

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No. 
Before the freeze and when we 

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paused, we got real about what's
a hell yes, what's a not now, 

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and what's something that just 
doesn't belong to us anymore. 

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So maybe this episode meets you 
where you are today, in the 

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messiness, in the magic, or 
somewhere in between. 

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Especially for those of you 
heading into summer with kiddos 

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at home and routines flipped 
upside down. 

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It might even more. 
It might even be more important 

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to pause and check in than you 
realized. 

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Say yes when it lights you up 
and it gives you that hell yes 

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feeling. 
Say no when your body says 

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please not that again, and let 
the maybes breathe until they 

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find their answer. 
You're not alone in this. 

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The messy middle can also be 
your magic. 

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And as always, we're right here 
walking with you. 

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Just know that sometimes it's 
not the maybe. 

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It's just not now. 
Sometimes it's just about the 

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timing. 
It's like maybe tomorrow 

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afternoon at 2:00, it'll be a 
yes or a hell yes. 

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But right now it's a not now. 
And you know, that's something 

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that kids don't always love. 
My kids did not love it when I 

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would just say not now. 
Like, OK, mom, but when? 

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Well, I don't know when yet, and
that's OK because I think that's

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part of the conversation that we
start to model and really have 

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with not just our kids, but 
maybe with ourselves a little 

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bit more. 
You know, it's OK to not know, 

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to have a not now, but to have 
this feeling like, you know, I 

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feel like it'll be a yes, but 
I'm just not sure when that is 

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yet. 
But I'll let you know. 

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So I'll see you next time and 
take care of that beautiful self

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of yours, your sparkly beautiful
light. 

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Just pause anytime throughout 
the week. 

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Check the show notes below. 
I'll have those 3 reflective 

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questions that we had in our 
accelerate circle today and just

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begin to check in with the why 
behind your yes, your no, your 

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maybe or even embracing the not 
now. 

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Take care. 
Thanks for being here. 

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