Some winters don't arrive with memory.
They arrive with change. A shift in the air, a new warmth
in an ordinary day, a color you didn't expect to see.
They say life turns slowly in your mid 20s.
Quiet mornings, familiar routines, days blending into the
next. But sometimes, without warning,
someone steps into the stillness and the world feels different.
It wasn't a moment meant to stay just the winter afternoon, a
thrift store and the stranger who carried.
The kind of brightness you notice before you understand why
this is winter's last melody. The colors that found me.
After graduation, Harrow split his days between his
grandfather's farm in BA and home in Ataro.
The work was steady, familiar, the kind of life everyone
assumed he would settle into. But that winter, Mr. feels quiet
and covered in snow. Something in him felt restless.
He began taking the train into Sapporo on his free days, just
to see more of the world than the 1 he grown up inside.
That was when he spotted it. A small thrift shop on the side
street, warm light spilling onto the snow, a hiring flyer taped
to the window. Haru paused without knowing why.
Maybe it was the worms, maybe the colours inside, maybe
something else entirely. He stepped inside, Warmeyer
wrapped around him immediately, old wood, worn fabric and the
clean, calming scent of Hinoki drifting from the small diffuser
behind the counter. The man behind the counter
looked up, I Sprite expressive, already assessing him.
I saw the hiring flyer outside. Oh, you're here for the job?
He leaned in, elbows on the counter.
Great, we actually need someone. Let's see, you're wearing a lot
of Brown. Harold blinked back.
Is that a problem? The man pointed at him like he
was highlighting evidence. Brown coat, brown sweater, brown
scarf, and brown back. Did you do that on purpose, or
did Brown win the fight this morning?
Harold flushed slightly, caught between amusement and
embarrassment. I wasn't trying to match
anything. The man nodded in a mock serious
way. By the way, I'm Mitsuki, coat
off. I have to make sure you can
reach shelves. Harrow hesitated briefly, then
took off his coat. Isuki watched him, not rudely,
just observant. Then he nodded.
Perfect, you'll do. Harrow blinked.
Wait, you're hiring me? Isuki laughed.
Absolutely not. I have 0 authority.
He tapped the counter twice. But I can put in a very
confident good word. Haru didn't know why, but that
was the moment the shop felt a little warmer, the moment
something shifted, and the moment color began inching into
the edges of his winter. Isuki pulled out a deep green
net. This hold still.
Before Haru could react, Itzuki stepped right into his space and
lifted the sweater against Haru's chest, tilting his head
to study it. Haru felt his breast catch, not
dramatically, just enough that he hoped Itzuki didn't notice.
Itzuki definitely noticed. Hmm.
He murmured. Green wakes you up.
You have good skin, but the brown is killing it softly.
Haru stared at the sweater instead of Itzuki's face.
Is this part of the interview? You could say that.
Izuki replied, swapping the sweater for an olive turtleneck.
And also our customer service. We need to look approachable.
His eyes flicked back to Haro's brown sweater.
Not like we're blending into a wooden floor.
Haro couldn't help it, he let out a small laugh.
Izuki froze for half a second, then he smiled, slow and
satisfied. The way someone smiles when a
puzzle piece clicks. There it is.
He said. Much better.
Haru blinked. What is your laugh?
I just needed to see what colour it was.
Haru stared at him, unsure how to respond.
Isuki didn't wait for an answer. He held up a maroon cardigan.
Next. No, this is too heavy.
All right, try that green one I gave you.
You mean change right here? Why not?
Sookie cut in. Are you afraid I'll judge your
fashion choices? He smirked.
Don't worry, I already did that at the door.
Harrow sighed. I'll use the fitting room.
He said firmly. Come on, I need to see the color
on you. Harrow hesitated.
He excelled softly. Fine.
He pulled his brown sweater over his head, folding it neatly in
his hands. Isuki eye sprouts lifted.
Oh wow. He murmured.
You actually have a body under all that brown.
That's good to know. Haru ignored that, slipping the
green net over his head. When he looked up, Isuki was
watching him with a surprising seriousness.
That is your color. Isuki said quietly.
Haru blinked, thrown off by the sincerity, smiling before he
realized he was doing it. Isuki pointed at Haru with a
quick, triumphant gesture. There it is again, that smile.
That's the second time today. Haru stiffened slightly.
I smile all the time. No, you smile politely all the
time. This one, you're not hiding it.
Before Haru could react, the shop doorbell chimed at the
entrance. A customer walked in.
Isuki leaned close enough that Haru felt a brush of warm air
near his cheek. Watch and learn.
He whispered lightly. And just like that, Haru's
winter began to change color at home.
His grandfather called it irresponsible, and his parents
called it a face. But the warmth he found here,
the way Itsuki moved through winter like he could blend the
cold into something bright, made Haru feel for the first time
that he wasn't running away from his life, but towards something
he hadn't known he was allowed to want.
Winter settle into rhythm before Haru even notice it happening.
Days in the shop pass quietly stitched together by small
routines. The sound of hangers sliding
across wrecks, the soft scrape of Izuki scissors trimming loose
threats, the slow, steady warms rising from the old heater by
the window. Some afternoons, Haru would
glance up from a book and find Itzuki hunched over a worn coat.
Hatching fabric was the kind of intensity that made the whole
room seem to pause. Other days, portfolio pages lay
open across the counter, bright colors layered without
confidence Haru never would have imagined for himself.
It was easy, somehow, falling into step beside him, working in
comfortable silence, sharing warm tea during breaks, watching
snow drift down the glass as the days folded quietly into one
another. And every night, when the lamps
dimmed and the shop finally closed, they walked together
toward the station. Haro waited at the Otaro bound
platform while Itsuki stood a step behind him, hands deep in
his pockets, as if deciding whether to say something he
never quite voiced. The train always arrived too
soon. The doors always closed before
Haro could linger, and whenever he looked back through the
window, Yizuki was still there. The season split itself in two
around him. Sapporo days filled with swarms
and noise, Otaro nights wrapped in quiet and cold.
Two different worlds. And slowly, quietly, Yitsuki
began to fill the space between them.
Snow pressed softly against the window, muffling the city beyond
dead. Yizuki suddenly straightened,
untied his apron, and turned toward Haru with a brightness
that didn't match the grey outside.
Haru blinked in surprise. Do you know what today is, Haru?
Past mid fault. Isuki pointed at Haru with a
kind of theatrical urgency. Today makes one months exactly
since you started here. Haru opened his mouse, but
nothing came out. Isuki continued.
And because you haven't run away yet.
And because you felt better than my last three Co workers
combined. And because his voice softened
just a touch. You make the shop nicer to walk
into every day. We need to celebrate.
Celebrate what? Izuki didn't miss a beat.
The fact you're still here, which means dinner tonight.
Haru blinked once, twice. He could feel the cold waiting
outside the door. He could picture the train
timetable he always checked. He could hear his own quiet
habits whispering the predictable choice.
But something about the way Yitsuki looked at him like he'd
been waiting for this day tilted the moment Haru excel softly.
Dinner. Yitsuki grinned.
Yeah, dinner you're buying, and I'll buy the beer after.
And just like that, winter shifted again.
Dinner passed in blur. Warm dishes, low lights, the
kind of laughter Haru didn't realize he was capable of
sharing with someone he hadn't known for long.
Maybe it was the heater, maybe the food, maybe the beer Izuki
insisted on ordering. It wasn't until they stood to
leave that Haru realized the bill was already gone.
It's our anniversary, Izuki said.
There was something in the way he said it, Light but sincere.
Whatever the reason, Haru felt lighter as they stepped back
into the night. The cold hit instantly.
They walked. The city had quieted, snow
falling and thin silver lines under the streetlights.
Haru felt the warmth from dinner fading too fast, slipping from
his hands first. Instinctively, he curled his
fingers into his sleeves. Isuki noticed, He always did.
Seriously. He bumped Haru's shoulder.
You didn't bring gloves. Yizuki stepped in front of him.
Give me your hands. Haru hesitated only for a second
before offering them. Yizuki wrapped Haru's fingers in
his own palms, warm and certain. He didn't rush, didn't joke,
didn't smirk. He simply breezed against Haru's
knuckles, slow and steady, until warm spread into Haru's skin
like something intentional, something deliberate, something
meant. A quiet shift pulsed through
Haru's chest. Isuki didn't let go.
He guided 1 of Haru's hand into the pocket of his coat, slipping
his own hand in after it. Their fingers curled naturally,
held securely in the small shared space there.
Isuki murmured, low from the beer and the cold and the
closeness. Haru's pulse stilled, then
rushed. In a quiet, dizzy hour, the
restaurant Swarms was gone. The city was silent around them.
But here, in this pocket, in this borrowed heat, something
settled and flared all at once. Whatever it was, Harrow felt the
spark move fast. They reached a narrow St. that
branched off toward the station. The 1 Harrow always took, but
tonight he didn't turn immediately.
A soft glow spill from tiny bar nearby.
Haru passed just for a breath. Yizuki stopped beside him,
breasts rising in soft clouds. You OK?
He asked, voice low from the cold and the drinks.
Haru nodded, He meant it. He wasn't cold anymore, he
wasn't tired, just warm in places he hadn't felt warm in a
long time. Yizuki stepped a little closer,
not enough to startle, just enough that Haro felt the shift
in the air. You don't have to rush home.
Yizuki said softly. That sentence brushed something
loose inside Haru. Snow drifted between them,
catching in Haru's hair, melting against Yizuki's coat.
For a moment, the city faded into a kind of winter hush.
Yizuki reached up, brushing A stray snowflake from Haru's
cheek was the back of his knuckle.
It was nothing, a tiny touch, barely anything at all, but it
was enough. Haru couldn't tell who leaned in
the first, or how close they were before that moment.
All he remembered was the worms, Isuki's breast mixing with his,
the faint taste of winter air between them, snow melting on
their lips as one heartbeat slipped quietly into another.
The kiss wasn't slower, hesitant.
It wasn't careful. It wasn't shy.
It was sudden, fast enough that Haru only caught the shape of
it, the Press of mouses, Izuki's hands slipping behind his neck,
the way Haru's fingers curled instinctively into the front of
Izuki's coat. Haru's mind didn't capture the
details, just the impact. And when they finally pulled
apart, breezing lightly, the street felt different.
Isuki's eyes lingered on Haru. You're not going home.
He murmured. It wasn't a question, not a
comment, just a truce hanging in the colt.
Haru didn't answer. He didn't need to, because
whatever had just sparked had already shifted his night in a
direction that didn't include train tracks, timetables, or
Otaru. Just snow warms, and the boy
standing in front of him, and the door of whatever came next.
Isuki unlocked the apartment door with one hand while the
other stayed wrapped around Haru's wrist.
The hurried click of the lock, the worms rushing out from the
entryway, and then the moment the door shut behind them,
everything changed. Speed.
Isuki pressed him against it, the kind of kiss that stole the
leftover cold from Haru's lips, the kind that didn't ask for
permission because the permission was already in the
way. Haru's melted into it.
Haru tried to shrug off his coat, but Izuki caught the
collar, pushing it back from his shoulders in one smooth motion.
The coat hit the floor, their breath tangled.
Snow melted down the back of Haru's neck as Izuki kissed him
again. It felt like being pulled into
worms too quickly, too completely, like stepping out of
a winter and straight into a blaze.
Itsuki murmured something Haru didn't fully hear, already
tugging him forward by the front of his sweater.
They barely made it past the entryway.
Haru stumbled a step, only to be caught at the waist.
Itsuki hands were warm, decisive, sliding on the fabric,
pulling him closer. Haru caught the glow of a small
lamp and the faint hollow off the heater, but even in the low
light, Haru could feel the brightness in Itsuki, the
urgency, the hunger, the certainty of someone who knew
what he wanted the moment he touched it.
Their mouths met again, stronger, deeper, no hesitation
anywhere in it. Haru's back hit the wall softly.
He Suki's fingers tangled in his hair, shirts lifted, half
tugged, half pulled and searching, greedy and warm, the
kind of closeness that didn't come in slow steps.
It came in urges, in rushes, in heat that didn't want to wait
for understanding. Harut didn't remember the order
of things, not the exact moment they made it to the mattress
now, which kiss blurred into which touch, not when his breast
turned into something soft and unsteady in the dark.
He remembered only the feelings, Issuki above him, looking down
with heat in his eyes, with the hunger that pulled at him with a
kind of gravity Haru couldn't resist.
The night answered for him. All he knew was the heat of the
moment, the rush of being wanted, the collapse of distance
between two bodies moving fast and without hesitation.
And somewhere, in the blur, in the rise and fall of forms, in
the urgency that didn't slow down, in the breathless Press of
skin, Haro felt something he hadn't felt in a very long time.
The word. The outside was winter.
Inside, the night burnt. The weeks that followed slipped
in quietly. A few nights blurred into
several, several turn into most, and before Haro realized it,
their closeness had a woven itself into the rhythm of the
season. Some evenings he stayed after
closing, sitting on the counter while Itsuki finished repairs,
the heater washing warm air over them as supper darkened outside.
Other nights they walked together without discussing
plants, their bodies turning in the same direction, steps
falling into the same pace. Then one night, with the blinds
half drawn and snow pressed against the window like a second
curtain, they slipped into the changing room.
He didn't remember how they ended up pressed together, just
the heat of being pulled close. The way Itsuki kissed him like
the day had been waiting for it. The way Winter stayed outside
the door while something much harder filled the room.
After that, the shop became part of their story too.
A kiss stolen behind the curtain when the street outside was
empty. A breast shared in the dark seam
of the repair table. The kind of intimacy that didn't
fit into daylight, but found room anyway.
And as the weeks went on, how was world shifted around those
moments? But beneath the warmth,
something else stirred. A quiet ache.
A sense that closeness this fast carries shadow he wasn't ready
to look at yet. Still, he stayed.
Night after night, they planned their Otaro trip.
It began lightly, almost carelessly.
They took the afternoon train, windows fogging as the coastline
blurred into long stretches of white.
Itsuki leaned into the glass, ice bright at each passing
harbour town, cheek swarming from the heater.
Harrow found himself watching the reflection of that
brightness more than the scenery outside.
Otado was cold in a way Sapporo rarely was.
Sea, wind, cold. The kind that wrapped around the
bones. They walked the canal first.
Lamplight brushed the water with gold.
Snow drifted gently, collecting in folds of their scarves.
Itzuki slowed his pace, taking in the rows of warehouses, the
stone arches, the quiet afternoon hum.
Further down, a faint melody threaded through the street, a
row of music box stalls. Itzuki lingered there.
Haru watched him without asking. They wandered a little longer by
the time they reached the platform entrance and electronic
chime sounded overhead. A scrolling notice lit the
signboard in harsh shred. All trains operation suspended
lines to supper temporarily halted due to the severe
weather. Itzuki stared at it, shoulders
lifting was a small excel he didn't fully release.
Harrow glance at the storm building across the tracks, snow
swallowing the far end of the line, wind bending into long
arcs. There was no choice.
He turned gently toward Izuki. The decision didn't need words.
A short walk later, Haru unlocked the door to his home.
Warm air drifted out. Izuki stepped inside slowly,
brushing snow from his hair, his gloves, the hem of his coat.
Haru's mother stepped out from the kitchen, surprised for only
a heartbeat before her gaze shifted to the storm outside the
window. Issuki bowed quietly.
Harrow's mother hid a small smile and stepped aside so they
could pass. Her voice followed.
Tea will be ready. Harrow gave a small nod of
gratitude, then opened his bedroom door.
Issuki stepped in silently. Harrow's room held its usual
warmth, books lined neatly, heater humming gently, the faint
scent of laundry still clinging to the air.
Izuki sat his back down and paused.
His eyes had caught something on the shelf.
A small wooden box, soft edges gently worn, the carved
silhouette of two trees touching at their branches.
Without asking, he reached for it.
He turned the key once. A quiet melody filled into the
room. Haru stood still, watching the
way Itzuki expression shifted. Then came a faint knock.
The door slid open just enough for Haru's mother to slip inside
and steady around the tray of tea.
She set the tray on Haru's desk when she left, closing the door
softly behind her. The room grew still again.
Just the music. Haru watched him, something
tightening gently in his chest. Before he could stop himself,
the word slipped out. Do you want it?
Isuki looked up, surprised. He lifted the box fully into his
hands. He didn't know what the box
meant, He didn't know what winter lived inside it, but he
accepted it, and Haru let him. Isuki looked at the music box
again, then at Haru. Thank you, I like it.
When the last note faded, Isuki finally excelled.
There's something I need to tell you.
I got a job offer in Tokyo. The words landed quietly,
without decoration. Haru blinked.
Tokyo designer position. Yizuki said.
Silence moved between them. When a week.
The heater hummed. Snow pressed harder against the
siding. Haru, step forward, come here.
Yizuki didn't smirk this time. He simply moved.
Haru wrapped his arm around him, holding him fully, steadily.
A careful, anchoring embrace. Isuki leaned in, exhaling
against Haru's shoulder, fingertips curling into the back
of Haru's sweater as if steady himself.
Haru held him a little tighter, and Itzuki let himself be held.
Some winters stay with you. Not for their storms, but for
the worms. No one expects to find the quiet
moments, the softness that pulled you forward.
Oh, Haru, this was a winter he never forgot.
The days that found him and stayed.
This was winter's last melody. Chapter 2, The colors that found
me. And if you'd like to walk deeper
into the memories Haru kept, there's more waiting.
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