5 echoes one city, a love that slipped between what was said
and what stayed silent. Some stories are loud.
This one lingers. This is the Echo Between Worlds
Part 1. What remains after the tram
doesn't stop here anymore, but I do.
Every night, same time, same silence.
I sit on the stone bench where we first said nothing, where
your hand brushed mine by accident or on purpose.
I never asked. You said Lisbon is a city that
remembers too much. I didn't answer, but I remember
that the tiles cracked the day you left.
The lights flickered like they knew.
Even the sea pulled back a tide that refused to return.
I talked to you here, not out loud, but the kind of talking
where every breath is a name and every name is yours.
Somewhere in this city, the hallway still echoes your
footsteps. Somewhere a cafe keeps your
table open. Somewhere I still turn toward
the light, even though I know the light doesn't wait.
If you ever waited for someone who never came back, you already
know what the next echo sounds like.
We were in the same room once. You were brushing sugar off a
table. I was watching your hands like
they were telling me how to stay.
The coffee had gone cold. We drink it anyway.
And then nothing broke. Nothing burned, no goodbye.
Just the door clicking shut like it had always done.
But now when I speak, there's a pause before the silence, A
hesitation, like a voice trying to reply from the other side of
a mirror. Would you turn around or keep
walking? Maybe I'm the glass.
Maybe you weren't the hand. And this is the echo of
something that never happened, but keeps repeating like it did.
Some memories never happened, and some places were never on
the map. There's a hill in Lisbon where
the bells don't reach. The tourists walk past it, the
maps forget it. But we knew, you said it felt
like an island suspended in someone else's dream.
We kissed there once, lips pressed like they were trying to
memorize the shape of the other. I don't remember the day, only
the heat of your hand and the silence after.
Even the birds didn't speak. Even the wind seemed to pass.
That street doesn't have a name, or if it does, it isn't 1 I ever
remembered. I walked there again tonight.
My footsteps didn't echo. Maybe that's what it means to
forget. Or maybe it's what it means to
be remembered only by shadows. Rain remembers things we pretend
we've left behind. It rained the day I stopped
looking for you. Not the romantic drizzle that
justifies a kiss. No, the kind of rain that soaks
all the way through until the only thing left to hide is your
voice. I passed your building.
I timed it. The six O 4 tram had just gone
by. I knew it because the tracks
were still humming, like something had just left me
behind. The cafe downstairs had new
flowers. I hated that.
I stood in the doorway, not knocking, not moving, just
letting the rain do what I couldn't.
Wash it all. Clean some rooms, forget, some
refuse to. The moment you leave, they
rearrange themselves, pull new light across the floor, close
over what was there but not mine.
It still holds your shadow against the wall, still curves
the air around your name like it's afraid I'll stop saying it.
I moved the furniture I threw away the cup you always used.
The chipped 1 was the gold rim. Still, every time I reach for
something I expect to find you already holding it.
Once I lit a candle to close to your side of the bed, the flame
flickered so suddenly I whispered sorry without
thinking. No one was there, the air
answered. That's what it's like now.
Not haunted, just full. Full of all the things we didn't
get to finish. Maybe the room is waiting.
Maybe I am too. The first time I spoke your name
out loud, no one was there to hear it.
But the air changed, like Lisbon passed just long enough for me
to notice I was still here, still waiting.
They used to ask, Why don't you leave?
I'd say because some cities remember for you, and some
silence don't stop echoing even after you do. 5 echoes, one
city. A love that wasn't lost, just
never returned the way it left. This is the Echo Between Worlds
Part 2. When silence answered back, you
didn't slam the door, you clicked.
It shot like punctuation at the end of a sentence neither of us
wanted to finish. I remember the sound.
It was too careful to final. I told myself it was mutual,
that letting go quietly meant we both understood.
But I stayed in the same city. The candle you lit that morning,
Sandalwood and citrus. It followed me down the stairs.
I haven't lit it since I walk into the cafe that afternoon.
Didn't order, just sat trying to feel free.
But freedom didn't feel like wind or wings.
It felt like weight redistributed to everything you
left behind. I checked my phone once for your
name, once for a time. Neither said what I needed, and
that's what the exit really was. No silence, but the absence of
an answer. If you ever left and still look
back through every window after you already know what the next
echo sounds like. Your toothbrush is gone.
So is your book on the night stand.
No reason to cook for two anymore.
I played music, not because I felt like dancing, just to
remind the room that someone still lived here.
The breeze touched everything, but it moved.
Nothing like it didn't believe in me yet.
I arranged the furniture without planning to desk by the window
chair at the corner. You never liked a single mug in
the cupboard. I didn't know where to put the
quiet, kept sliding into the spaces you used to fill.
I took a photo off the bed, empty, posted it without
explanation. The comments said it looked
peaceful. I didn't know peace and
loneliness used the same silence.
I still sleep on my side, the left, even when I'm alone.
Some rooms don't need furniture to feel full, just the memory of
someone who made gravity. I looked through old photos.
Not for you, for me to remember what I looked like when I was
being looked at with love. Your shirt's still in the
drawer. I wear it on days I don't want
to explain myself. It doesn't smell like you
anymore, but I still check. I saw someone today, same walk,
same coat. My heart jumped like it forgot,
like it still thinks you might turn around.
Freedom doesn't always taste like sweetness.
Sometimes it's just what's left when the cup is half full and
you still set out two mums some morning.
Don't need words to be shared, but once they go quiet it's hard
to make them ours again. I told a joke at dinner.
No one laughed. You would have.
You always knew when I was being sarcastic and when I was just
tired. The city hasn't changed, but I
feel misplaced in it, like a bookmark in the wrong chapter,
Still inside the story, but not where I'm supposed to be.
I walked past our Old Street again.
It's quieter now. Maybe it's just me.
I hummed The song you used to play, Got halfway through the
silence, remembered the rest. I started talking to strangers,
not for company, just to hear my voice bounce back.
Someone asked me about Lisbon. I said it's a city of Windows.
Because even now, every time I look through one, I wonder if
someone's looking back. That's what it felt like was
you. You were always looking, just
never at the same time. Some silence.
Don't need translation. But the ones we shared, they
still speak, especially when no one else does.
I passed the cafe, didn't look in, didn't stop.
But the chair. You always turn sideways, still
angled like you might come back and sit down like you used to,
half open, half waiting. The glass next to it still had a
faint ring. Something warm was there, maybe
memory, maybe just a good espresso.
You didn't chase me, but you didn't close the door either.
You just left it ajar, and sometimes that's more dangerous
than goodbye. I walked to the ocean since the
tide comes in like it always does.
Unapologetic, unchanged. I whispered your name once the
wind caught it but didn't return.
And I thought maybe the door never closed because part of me
still lives on the threshold. The Echo Between Worlds, Part 3,
where the hurt hides. Some echoes don't return all at
once. They slip in sideways, through a
window left ajar, through our breasts held too long, through
the name He stopped saying until it's spelled out by accident.
He thought the echoes were done, thought silence had finished
what memory started, but the hurt had only hidden.
But Lisbon kept holding him, with its cracked tiles and it's
rooms that refused to forget, and he's still here, still
listening, still mistaking silence for healing.
It was just there, that's what I told myself.
A breeze brushing past the curtain.
Not a memory, But I should have checked the window, should have
closed it should have noticed the way it leaned open, like
something was still trying to get in.
I thought I packed everything, the photos, the charger, even
the jacket you hated wearing. I left the muck, the chipped
one. It felt fair, something to keep
you company. Grief doesn't knock.
It waits for the half open window, the half deleted
playlist. The scent that shouldn't still
exist crawled in last night while I was brushing my teeth.
I looked up and you were there, just a version of you my mind
keeps in the mirror. I almost said your name, not for
you, but to see if I still could.
They say it gets easier, that love fades like bruises, but
this one didn't fade. Climbed in through the window I
forgot to close. I said your name today.
Not out loud, but I heard it in my head.
In that split second between waking and remembering you're
gone, it startled me. Like it didn't belong in my
mouth anymore. Like I borrowed someone else's
grief. I used to say it easily, in
cafes, in grocery stores, in the middle of a crowd.
Like the name would find you faster than I could.
Now it feels different, heavier, sharp at edges, like something
that should only be whispered into a room that still misses
you. I tried writing it down just
once, but my hand shook as if the ink knew it wasn't supposed
to remember you this clearly. You're still here, aren't you?
In the ache behind my teeth, in the pause before I speak, In the
name I carry but can't say without splintering.
They say the first step to healing is naming the pain.
So I tried, and your name was heavier than I remembered.
I didn't mean to end up on our street.
I told myself I was heading somewhere else.
A bookstore, a lookout, anywhere.
But somehow every street lead to you.
Every wrong turn wasn't wrong at all.
It was memory. I passed the corner where we
used to wait for the tram. Your shadow wasn't there, but
mine stretched long enough for both of us.
I kept walking. Saw the bakery you loved, the
one that spelled your name wrong on the receipt.
I still have it. It's folded in a book I haven't
touched since. You're in everything here.
The bench, the street lamp, the sound the rain makes on those
red tiles. I keep thinking I'll turn a
corner and forget you, but Lisbon doesn't work like that.
It folds you in and I'm too tired to fight the map anymore.
I looked in the mirror tonight, not to fix anything, just to
see, but I couldn't tell if the person looking back was still
me. I used to joke that you could
read my face like subtitles. You always knew what I was about
to say, even when I didn't. And now?
Now I stare at myself like I'm waiting for someone else to
speak. I tried practicing what I say if
you were still standing there, but every sentence started was
your name and ended before you could land.
I thought the mirror might answer, might reflect something
back that felt like truth. Instead, it just watched me
crack a little. The silence in this room used to
be ours. Even when we didn't speak, we
understood it. Now it's just quiet, too quiet,
like the air is afraid to remember you out loud.
I keep waiting for the mirror to blink first, but it doesn't.
It just stays there. I replayed it again.
That moment, the one we both knew should have been the end.
We were on the stairs. You were holding the railing
like you needed it to stay balanced.
Like maybe you weren't sure if you should leave or asked me to
stop you. I didn't say anything.
You didn't either. We just stood there, trying to
look casual while everything underneath us cracked.
That was the moment we should have stopped, should have left
it there before we started hurting each other in new ways,
before the silence got mean. But we didn't.
We kept going, stayed just long enough to forget why we loved
each other in the 1st place. I remember the night you told me
you didn't know how to be in the room with me without feeling
like you were vanishing. I said nothing.
I should have said I know, because I was vanishing too.
I still walk past the stairwell sometimes.
It's nothing now, just stairs. But for me, it's still the place
where we made the worst mistake love can make.
We kept going when we already knew we shouldn't, and now even
memory hurts more than it heals. Some stories don't end with
goodbye. They echo in rooms, in cities,
in people who keep listening even after the silence begins.
This is the Echo Between worlds, a quiet love story that ended in
pieces, in memories, in the space between what was said and
what stayed unsaid. It began in Lisbon.
Two people, one love that fractured quietly.
Each part has followed the echo from different side of the loss.
Now the silence has shifted. Some might call it healing or
freedom. Some just call it quiet.
Lisbon still remembers. I didn't plan to go anywhere
today, just walked. The air felt clear, not light,
but not heavy either, like the a cat finally stopped checking in.
The city looked the same, tile still chipped in the same
corners. Shutters still have open on Rue
de Flores. Even the cafe across from the
post office still put out 2 sugar packets with every
espresso. I used to wonder if it hurt him
to the remembering. Now I don't wonder.
Not because I know, just because I don't need to.
I walked past the old bookstore, didn't stop, didn't even glance
at the window where his reflection used to land.
Everything's quieter now, not because I forgot, but because
for getting stopped feeling urgent.
There's a kind of silence that doesn't ask questions anymore,
just walks beside you like a shadow that learned not to speak
first. Today felt like that.
Maybe that's all Freedom is not the end of the memory, just the
part where it stops pulling. The waiter asked if I wanted
anything sweet. I said just a tart.
I didn't mean it like that one. Pastel di nata 1 bika the view.
Everything was fine, warm, light table facing the water.
I took a bite too sweet, and then the coffee bitter.
I smiled like it meant something.
No one noticed. There was a time when this would
have been a perfect morning. A place to pause, to talk, to
laugh at how the espresso always too strong.
I even imagined you sitting there, just for a second.
Same chair, elbow on the table, head tilted like always.
You weren't there, of course, but the quiet was shaped like
you, like the cafe had saved the place.
Not for a person before, feeling you used to leave behind.
I didn't linger, didn't take a picture, didn't even finish the
tart. But I kept thinking, who taught
me to sit like that? To sit slowly, to face the
river? Not the waiter, not the view.
Some habits aren't yours. They just live in your hands
after someone else is gone. I stopped at the bakery, bought
a small loaf, still warm. Not because I was hungry, just
because it smelled good, because it was there.
Then I passed the flower stand, picked 1 white delicate.
Didn't ask for the name. I told myself it was a kind
gesture, something soft to carry, something simple to
choose, something without needing permission.
That's what freedom is, right? Doing things for no one, not
explaining them, not performing. I didn't need the bread, didn't
care about the flour, but I bought them anyway.
Maybe I just needed something to carry that wasn't memory,
something to hold that didn't hurt.
Someone laughed behind me, and for a second I smiled too.
No reason, just the sound of it. I turned, expecting someone to
meet my eyes, to share the moment, to let it land.
But there was no one. Just footsteps fading, the river
still moving, a plastic bag caught in a tree.
That's what I miss. Maybe not the love, not even the
touch. Just having someone to look at.
When the world surprised me, I walked a while.
The past curved gently beside the water.
Tiles shifted under my feet. There were couples, tourists.
An old man was a cane who looked like he'd done this every day
for decades. They moved around me like I
wasn't there, Not in a cruel way, just like I wasn't part of
it. I passed the railing and
stopped. I thought I was done with it,
thought I could walk through the city without thinking of you.
But the laughter, that smile, it didn't belong to me.
I just borrowed it, and it didn't stay.
The apartment was darker than I remembered, like it had been
holding its breath, waiting for me to come back.
I set the bread on the counter, the flower beside it a quiet
room and the version of myself I hadn't heard from all day.
Funny, I spent the whole day feeling like I was past this,
past you, past everything. But the space didn't care.
It remembered. It remembered how you used to
leave a book open on the couch, how the window latch never sat
quite right, how I always pause just before turning on the
light, like you might already be there.
I sat down without turning anything on, just said in the
same place you once stood, saying something I've forgotten
in a voice I still remember. People think moving on feels
like closing a door, but sometimes it's just sitting in
the same chair with different silence.
The kind that doesn't hurt anymore but still looks like you
when the lights are off. Ellie, some stories don't begin
where you expect. This one began in silence. 5
echoes in Lisbon. Memories spoken unanswered,
carried through streets that remembered too much.
First we heard one side than the other, and for a long time one
name was never spoken. Until now.
Ellie. We know him now, not just as a
voice in the quiet, but as the one who stayed, the one who ate,
the one still finding how to breathe again.
This part belongs to him, and though the ache is not fully
gone, Lisbon is beginning to sound different.
Not healed, not finished, but lighter.
I heard it, my name, not loud, not clear, but enough to stop me
under the street lamp. No one has called me that here
in so long. Lisbon only knew me through
silence, through absence. But tonight, for a moment, the
city remembered me. Matthios.
I waited. Like maybe the air would answer,
like maybe he would turn the corner, like maybe saying it
aloud could bring him back. But nothing came.
Just the night, just me. And somehow, that was enough.
It startled me, saying it. The name felt heavier than I
remembered, but not unbearable, not like before.
I think I could carry it now, carry him not as a wound, but as
something that happened, something that mattered.
The ache is still here, but lighter, not gone, just
shifting. For the first time, I felt like
I might be able to keep walking without breaking.
I dreamt you said my name. Not the way it used to be.
Half a laugh, half a secret. This time it was slower,
uncertain, like the word itself wasn't sure it belonged here
anymore. In the dream, we were in the
kitchen. The light was too warm, the air
to still. You were standing by the
counter, one hand on the chipped cup, the one I thought I threw
away. You looked at me like no time
had passed, like nothing had broken.
I tried to answer, but the dream didn't wait.
It blurred the edges, turned the room sideways, pushed me back
into silence. I reached out my hand, didn't
find yours. It found the empty pillow.
I woke with your name in my mouth, not spoken, but almost
like the dream had tried to finish what I couldn't.
They say time heals when you're awake, but maybe sleep knows
better. Maybe sleep remembers the things
I try not to. And maybe tonight the dream
spoke first, so I didn't have to.
I started with the band. The sheet still carried you even
after all this time. The scent wasn't yours anymore,
not really, but my body kept remembering every time I lay
down. The silence felt like a shape I
couldn't sleep beside. So I bought new bedding.
Clean, unfamiliar. Not ours.
The old set. I didn't fold it, didn't wash
it. I tied it into a bag and threw
it away. It felt wrong, like erasing
proof that you were ever here. But when I spread the new fabric
out, the bed looked lighter. I told myself it was just
cotton, just fabric, nothing sacred.
But maybe letting go on one thing is enough to remind me I
can't keep going. I didn't stop with the bed.
The sheets were only the first thing, but once they were gone,
I saw everything else that still carried you.
The curtains. They smelled of nights we left
the window open, of rain that once blew in When we didn't
care. I pulled them down, bought new
ones, clean, plain, nothing that remembers, and the pajamas the
pair you left behind have crumpled in the bottom drawer.
I thought about keeping them, just one thing, but the thought
of wearing them felt like pretending you might walk in
again. So I folded them, and this time
I let them go. Piece by piece, I try to erase
you. Not cruelly, not angrily, just
because I needed to breathe again.
And for a moment the room felt lighter.
Not healed, not finished, but mine.
The candle was next. I had kept it longer than I
should have. The same scent.
Sandalwood and citrus, the one you lit that morning before the
door clicked shut every time it burned.
I swore I heard your voice in the crackle every time it
flickered. I thought maybe the room still
remembered you tonight. I let it burn down.
No saving it, no trimming the Wick, just sitting beside it
until the light faltered. When the flame finally
disappeared, the room felt darker, but not heavier.
I told myself it was just wax, just scent, nothing sacred.
But I didn't leave the room in shadow.
I lit another, a different scent, something clean,
something unfamiliar. The air felt differently this
time. Not haunted, not heavy.
Just mine. For the first time.
The flame didn't carry you, it carried me.
The chipped cup. I thought I could throw it away.
The one that stayed when everything else was gone.
I picked it up, ready to let it go, but my hand stopped halfway.
Instead, I poured it one last drink, let it hold worms again,
even if no one would touch it. I sat across the table, watching
the steam rise like it was breathing.
Poor thing, already damaged, already marked.
What will be the point of breaking it further?
So I left it there. Maybe tomorrow, maybe then I'll
be cruel enough to throw it away.
Some stories began in silence, in echoes that belong to only
one voice. 1st we heard Ellie, the one who stayed, who carried
absence in every room. Then we heard Matthios, the one
who left, lighter, freer, but still turning back.
Now their names have been spoken.
Ellie, Matthios. Not just voices in the quiet,
but people, each holding a different side of what was lost.
This part belongs to Matthios, to the one who walked away from
wait but still find absence waiting in the corners of his
freedom. The Echo Between Worlds isn't
only about endings. It's about what remains after,
and how even freedom carries a shadow.
This is Echo Between Worlds part 6.
What the walls remembered. 5 echoes.
One church that has stood through centuries.
One man who is learning that moving forward doesn't mean
forgetting. I stopped beneath the towers.
They looked heavier than they felt.
All stone, all history, but the sky leaned on them like it
trusted they wouldn't break. I thought about how long they've
stood here. Centuries of weather.
Of people who left and never came back.
Even silence must echo when it's carried.
This time, for a moment, I didn't feel small.
I felt untethered, Like the towers were holding the weight
of remembering for me so I didn't have to.
Freedom is in wings. Not really.
It's the ground not asking you to explain why you're still
walking. It's being able to stand in
front of walls this old and not feel their questions pressing
into your chest. I didn't think of Ellie at
first. Not in the carving shaped like
ropes, not in the Rose window that caught the sun.
For once, the silent wasn't pointing me back to him.
It was just stone, stone that had seen everything and didn't
need me to add my story. I let myself look up until my
neck ached. The sky spilled between the
towers, so open it almost felt careless.
And I thought, maybe that's all freedom is.
Not forgetting, not erasing, just standing under the towers
of something that has lasted and realizing the weight is theirs
to hold, not mine. Inside, the air shifted cooler,
heavier, as if it had been waiting centuries for someone to
notice. The light poured through the
glass and fell across the floor. Not loud, not commending, just
steady. Like it had made peace with the
stone. I walked the center aisle, not
hurried, not looking for anything, just watching the
light lean against the columns like a hand finding a shoulder.
For once, I didn't feel out of place.
The ceiling stretched too high to touch, but it didn't make me
small, It made the silence bigger, and in that space I
could breeze without rushing. I thought about how light
doesn't belong to anyone. It falls where it wants, across
wood, across stone, across the seat that might have been his.
But today was only wood in sunlight, and I wondered if
that's what freedom is. Not feeling every absence, not
explaining every shadow, but letting light fall where it does
without asking it to mean more than it is.
I sat for a moment in the sun, let it land on my hands, let it
tell me nothing. And for the first time in a
while, that was enough. The courtyard was open, but not
empty. Stone on four sides, but The
Archers made space for the sky to lean in.
I sat near the fountain. Not because I was tired, but
because I wanted to hear water instead of my own thoughts.
The carvings wound their way around the arches.
Robes, shells, leaves, all these details someone cared enough to
shape, even though the sentries had already promised to wear
them down. I wondered if they thought about
time, or just the quiet joy of tracing stone into something
alive. It didn't feel like a place for
grief. The silence here wasn't asking
for memory, wasn't reminding me of absence.
It was just silence, the kind you can lead back into like sun
against your shoulders. I let myself sit without
answering to anyone, without holding or naming what wasn't
here. I thought of Ellie briefly, the
way absence always tries to pull at the corner of things, but
here even that thought softened, as if the arches caught it and
held it still until it faded. The Chapel was darker than the
nave, stone pressing close, shadows leaning in.
I lit a candle, not because I had words, but because sometimes
silence needed its own shape. I didn't say his name, not here,
not to the walls, not even to myself.
The flame didn't need it. It burned without asking,
without tying itself to memory. For a moment I thought about
prayer, about how it's supposed to rise up out, carried by fire
and smoke. But this candle just stayed.
It didn't reach it didn't plead. It only burned, quiet and sure,
like it knew the dark was enough.
I could have named Ellie. I could have let the flames
speak for me. But freedom isn't always saying
less. Sometimes it's knowing silence
is enough. So I left it a candle without
words, a flame without claim, and for a moment, walking away
felt freer than naming anything at all.
The cafe smelled of sugar and cinnamon.
I told myself it was just habit to order the tart, to sit by the
window, to watch the sun spill across the plate.
It was ordinary, sweet, warm, golden.
Something small to remind me that not every silence has to be
heavy. I looked up, and through the
glass I saw him. Not clear, not long enough to
hold. Just Ellie, his shape caught in
the light, passing by as if the street was the only place he
ever belonged. My chest froze.
The spoon stopped halfway. For a second the cafe felt
quiet, the tart forgotten, the air itself waiting.
I pushed the chair back. I ran out the door, heart
beating like it still knew his name.
The street was already empty, just the rivers light, just the
sound of galls. Just absence.
Patient as ever. I stood there, brass caught
between freedom and longing, and knew he was gone, or maybe he
never been there at all. But the tart would still be
waiting inside. The light would still fall
across the plate and die. I would still walk forward,
carrying both the freedom and the echo like the river carries
its tide. Some echoes linger, others fade,
But the most stubborn ones, they live in the choice we repeat.
This is the Echo between worlds, a quiet love story told across
the city that remembers everything, told in pieces, in
footsteps, in the pauses between names.
It began with Ellie, the one who stayed, the one who carried
silence in every room. Then we heard Matthios, the one
who left, Lighter, freer, but still looking back.
They shared no reunion, only a memory that drifted through
doors, over water, on their windows, left ajar.
In the final moment of Part 6, Matthios passed by a silhouette
a second to late. Ellie never saw him.
And maybe that was the point. Because this isn't a story of
return. This is the final echo, the one
where Ellie no longer walks in memories.
Shadow, where he doesn't whisper the name that used to stop his
breath, Where the cup, the candle, the bed are just objects
again. And Lisbon.
Lisbon still remembers, but this time at least choose not to echo
Today. The pattern didn't repeat.
This is the Echo Between Worlds Part 7.
The square didn't echo back. I passed through the square this
morning. Didn't plan to, didn't avoid it
either. The light was already warm on
the stone, those black and white patterns curling beneath my
steps. Lines, I used to think were
traps, circles that always pull me back to the same questions.
Where did you go? Why didn't I follow?
What would have happened if I had?
But today, the pattern didn't repeat.
It was just pavement, just stone warm by the sun.
People passed around me, couples, an old man with a dog,
someone carrying coffee. No one saw me, and for once I
didn't feel the need to be seen. I used to come here with hope,
as if the city would return something I lost, As if every
tile, every shadow might echo your name back to me if I stood
still long enough. But now, now I stood in the
middle of the square and it was quiet.
No memory in the corners, no voice in the wind.
Just Lisbon being Lisbon. I thought about sitting, about
letting the lights soak in, but I didn't need to linger.
The silence wasn't asking me to stay anymore.
It was still trying to teach me something.
It was just silence, and I was just walking through it.
I didn't leave with grief, I didn't leave with answers.
I left with nothing in my hands, and that felt like freedom.
I didn't plan where to go after the square, I just walked.
No headphones, no list, no need to make it mean anything.
The streets used to trick me. Every turn felt like a loop,
like if I walked the same pass enough times, you might round
the corner again, laughing, distracted, not knowing I was
waiting. But today the city didn't pull
the street we used to take to the bookstore.
I passed it, didn't pause, didn't look for your reflection
in the glass, the alley near the cafe where you used to stand
just to feel the sun hit your face.
I kept walking, not to prove anything, not out of avoidance,
just because I didn't need to go back.
There's a rhythm to Lisbon, a beat in the stones, in the sway
of laundry, from open balconies, in the scent of bread and salt
on the breeze. I used to think the city was
singing your name today, just hung, and I let it.
Some streets still remember us, but they don't belong to us, not
anymore, and I think I finally stopped asking them to.
I stepped into the left slowly. Metal gates closed was a sound
that used to make me flinch, but today I only heard the rhythm of
motion upward as the elevator climbed.
Lisbon unfolded beneath me, first the pattern stones, then
the rooftops, then the layers of city stitched into hills and
memory. I watched the woman adjust her
laundry line. A boy kicked the ball into a
narrow alley. Someone opened the shutter to
the sky. So ordinary, so alive.
I used to feel like a ghost among these streets, always
passing through, always afraid I'd be seen or wouldn't.
But now I stood still, halfway up.
My reflection flickered in the glass, and I didn't look away
this time. There was a version of me hoping
someone would call out my name, but he's not here.
I kept rising. I let the egg stay with me, but
I didn't let it stop me. And as the doors opened and the
city met my eyes again, I understood something I had
finally outgrown to silence. I didn't expect the quiet to be
this full up here. The wind find you first.
It brushes past my collar, slips through my fingers as I hold the
railing like a pulse. Light but alive.
Lisbon spreads beneath me like a map I no longer need to read.
Red roofs, faded blue tiles, a line of light where the river
bends, and far in the distance, a sound.
Farrow, maybe, or just memory and song.
I used to wonder if Matthios ever stood here, if he ever
looked out at the same sky and thought of me.
I guess I'll never know. But today, that absence doesn't
ache like it used to. It's just part of the city now,
like the rusted corners of this rail, like the names carved into
wood and metal, people who pass through hoping to be remembered.
I'm not here for that. I'm here to listen.
The wind, the light, my own breath.
Steady for once. For a long time I thought
healing would feel like a door slamming shot, but it doesn't.
It feels like air. I asked for a quiet table and
they gave me this. By the wall, under the warm
flicker of an old ball, close enough to hear the music but far
enough to stay unnoticed. Battle fills the room like
candlelight, low, aching, honest.
There's a red wine in my glass, 1/2 full one across from it.
I've never been to this place before, but it doesn't feel
unfamiliar. Maybe because Lisbon finally
doesn't scare me, Maybe because tonight I'm not waiting for a
ghost to walk in. He was introduced by a friend,
said he'd be passing through the city.
We don't know what this is, or if it will be anything but He
smiled when I said yes to wine. He stepped away.
For a moment. I stayed seated.
I don't check my phone. I just let myself be here.
The sound of strings and sorrow, a candle between US and the
quiet relief of not searching anymore.
Some echoes never returned. Some ended where the city left
them, at least stayed. Mateos left, and still Lisbon
carried them both through rooms that remembered too much,
through walls that held silence longer than voices.
But today, the silence has shifted again.
Not toward absence, not toward longing.
Just toward the weight of stone and the open water that never
asked for names. This is the Echo between the
Worlds, Part 8. What the river still carried.
The last of the echoes. The one carried not by waiting,
but by walking. I stopped beneath the tower.
It didn't look like it was waiting for me.
Not like the rooms, not like the streets that used to echo his
name. This was stone, centuries of
tide rising and falling, and still it stood.
For once, I didn't feel smaller. I felt steadier, like the tower
was carrying the memory for me so I didn't have to.
I leaned against the railing, watching the river stretch out.
The water wasn't asking questions, it just moved
forward, out to the sea like it had always done.
And I saw. Maybe that's what I wanted all
along. Not answers, not echoes.
Just the sense that world keeps moving without me.
Freedom isn't forgetting. It's standing under stone, this
old, this patient, and realizing I don't need to hold everything
anymore. The street always pull me before
every corner felt like it might turn back into him.
Every client dragged my thoughts down, even when the stones push
my body up. But today the climb was only a
climb. Just stone steps, just light
hitting past the walls, just they are moving through a city
that didn't belong to us anymore.
I used to walk here like a ghost, chasing shadows, counting
how many turns it took before memory broke me.
But this morning, the city didn't take.
It gave breath, rhythm, the simple weight of my body moving
uphill. Without asking for permission, I
stopped at the shop on the corner, bought bread, a few
vegetables, nothing special, just enough for later.
And carrying that bag, I realized something I wasn't
buying for anyone else. Not for a memory, not for a
ghost, only for myself. Maybe freedom is this.
Not silence, not forgetting, just letting the climb be a
climb instead of a trap. The tower gave me the river, the
hills gave me the climb. And now the stairs led me higher
still, not toward the city, but toward myself.
There was a time when these steps felt like weight every
Creek off the railing. Every shadow on the wall pressed
down harder than I could bear. I used to pause halfway, unable
to keep climbing, wondering if the silence inside my door would
swallow me whole. But today, the stairs didn't
resist me. They lifted me, step by step, as
if they had been waiting. Not for him, but for me to
return. I realized the climb wasn't
about who I find at the top, it was about reaching it at all and
letting the light through the window follow me instead of
memory. The bag from the shop rested on
the table. Bread, a few vegetables, enough
to remind me of something simple.
I didn't need a recipe. The steps were already me.
Water, salt, chopped the onions, let the garlic soften in oil.
It felt almost like memory, but not of him, not of loss.
Just off all the kitchens I ever stood in, watching hens work,
listening to Pence whisper, smelling food that promised
ordinary worms. For so long this room carried
shadows, but now it only carried sound.
The knife, the spoon, the steam curling up into sunlight.
Cooking wasn't for him, it wasn't for us.
It was just for me. And in that, there was no shadow
left, only a meal waiting to be made.
I set the bowl down. Steam curled upward, but the
chair across from me stayed empty.
I ate slowly, each spoonful warm, steady, ordinary.
It filled my body, but it didn't fill the room.
I caught myself thinking, what if?
What if the seat wasn't empty? What if laughter still echoed
against the plates? What if this meal was mine
alone? But the what if didn't change
the taste, didn't change the bread on my tongue, the worms in
my hands, the food I had chosen for myself.
The eggs stayed. So did the silence.
The room didn't soften just because I wished it would.
But I understood something then. This was how it ended.
Not because it had to, but because I chose it to.
I chose to walk here. I chose to climb.
I chose to cook, and now I chose to eat alone, not waiting, not
asking the chair across from me to fill itself with a ghost.
It was my choice for it to end, and maybe that was enough.
The tower gave him stone, the hills gave him breath, the
stairs brought him home, the kitchen filled with swarms, and
the meal ended with silence that was supposed to empty and
chosen. Mateos did not leave Lisbon
unchanged, and Lisbon did not keep him prisoner.
The echoes had followed him through walls and courtyards,
through streets that turn his breast heavy, through rooms that
once answered back. But when he placed his spoon
down, he realized the ache would remain.
So would the silence. Yet neither could keep him from
living unless he let them. The river moved outside the
window. It had always carried more than
one story. Ellie's silence, Matteo's
absence. 2 halves of a wait that no single person was meant to
hold alone. Ellie had found his ending in
the square. When the pattern no longer
repeated, Matthios found his here at a table with one chair
filled and 1:00 left empty by choice.
Both endings were different. Both belong to Lisbon, and
Lisbon in turn carried them equally, not erasing either, not
binding either, but letting both become part of its streets, its
walls, its river. This was the echo between the
worlds, a story of stone and silence, of absence and return,
of what is carried forward long after voices fall quiet.
Not a story of forgetting, not a story of erasing, but a story of
living. Even when echoes remain, new
stories are waiting. New voices, new characters.
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