Hi, everyone. It's Breon.
And I'm back for episode 5 of the lesbian dating app disasters
podcast. Wow.
I have a whole hand of episodes now, and when I tell y'all life
be life in. So here's to choosing self
practicing in maintaining balance practicing consistency.
So many things, but I have not forgotten about this little baby
that I've created. I have more listeners and other
countries. So welcome, thank you.
So much, can't believe that still the first four episodes
have gone as well as they have. So, let's jump into this story
today. So this woman I do not remember
her name. I did not remember her name when
I got to her house and just know, I don't even really
remember what she looked like, but this woman was the okay.
So back story, I had a girlfriend, we live together
things. Hit the fan shortly after we
moved in. And when things were finally
finally over, like truly split this, The first woman that I
could find that would that I felt remotely interested in, and
I remember going on the her app and it was maybe about say nine
between like 9 and 10, we started messaging by 1 a.m.
I was at her house, you know, because lesbian shit moves
quick. And I don't know how we were
both just so trusting that this was not going to go awry but I
ended up in her home. She was local to where I was.
I was living up in Ann Arbor at the time I get there she's like
off in the college campus area. So her home was really modern
cute. Living room cute.
She had roommates but because it was about 1:00 in the morning,
everyone was asleep. Cool.
Love a sneaky. E-link.
We sit on the couch, we Bond over watching Broad City.
We watched maybe an episode of Broad City smoke a little weed
and then you know that that moment happens where it's should
we go to your room now? Should we like, do you want to
stay here on the couch? Like what's the deal sis?
We go to her room. And you would think, even though
this was so sudden and abrupt, like you had a little notice,
you had maybe a solid 40 minutes before I got there.
You would think she would clean her room?
She did not, she did not green her room.
It was a pigsty. The rest of the house was
beautiful, which told me like this wasn't like, there's a
community of people that like, keep this.
Area like a certain way and maybe like everyone else is
rooms just like do girl do that. Everyone does their own thing
but I'm already here so I'm like all right let me just get in and
get out so we're kissing. It was not good.
I remember it being like very dry almost like kissing a fish.
And her her, you know, when you meet someone and you hook up
with someone in the intent, the attraction is so like intense
that, you know, when their body touches yours, it's almost like
electric or people when you're with someone and your body just
fits so well and there's this was not it.
This was not it at all. I was awkward and clunky and I
also couldn't stop thinking about your room.
Umm, it's like I'm looking at Coke cans, Coca-Cola, cans, and,
and papers, and just clutter in this, by dark dingy room.
It did not match the rest of the, like, essence of the home,
and it's just like, uh, she might have been a college kid.
I mean I wasn't in college at this time.
I couldn't. I don't remember.
So we're kissing clothes. Come off.
And she tells me. As we are both laying their
booty butt naked, not naked naked.
That she has never slept with a woman before.
I get all the way naked and you go to tell me you have never
slept with a woman before. And I, I don't know.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
If I get up and leave. It's like ah why would you get
up and leave? But like staying was not
appealing especially when I look back on it.
Like if you haven't slept with a woman before I'm not really
looking to be the first one for you.
That's not that's not something that I'm trying to be.
I don't want to be I don't know II.
And after this Situation. I have refused to be that for
any any woman. I just don't know.
And no, that's just I don't want that burden or I don't.
Is it a burden? I don't know what it is, but
whatever piece of like life that holds and emotions.
I don't want it. So She says this and I say,
okay, have you kissed a woman before?
She's just like, yeah, a couple times when I was so drunk and
I'm just like, how did I get here?
How did you get me here? And you don't actually like
sleep with women like, or at, you know, at that point it
wasn't an active piece of your life and I don't remember how
the conversation went. I would probably have to like I
don't even think I have, I don't have an account anymore that I
could like activate. But we must not have, you know,
sent bold text messages or, you know, messages on the app
because I would have figured it out, you know, if you would, you
can't be bold in a text ma'am. Then that's going, that might
show me what I need to see. So I'm faced with the decision.
Do I leave dress? Take my leave dress.
I do, I leave. Do I stay.
I stayed. And it had some of the worst
sex. I think that was the start of
us. The slew of women.
That was that was the start of really bad sex.
Really like women, that were not emotionally connected to
themselves, not emotionally available so many, so many
things. The the pattern of women that I
started to come into my life. That weren't exactly.
Who I was looking for. I'm not gonna say like, who
know? They just weren't who I was
looking for, but I still entertain them.
Hence, why I started this show and I don't remember.
I remember, going down on her in my listening to her and I was
like, I don't, I don't feel this.
Like this does not feel good to me.
I've never been a person that's really good at random hookups
or, like one night stands or anything like that because I
want to like, know you or something.
You know, I want to have some sort of I don't know, rope
tether pull something to you that that that's that's what you
know would draw me in and making that makes me want to do, do the
sex to you and that just wasn't there and it's it was such a
concept. I don't know if I wrote about it
after that, I was like, Hey, did I just take her like gay
virginity even though? Virginity is a social construct,
we all know this. Like what did I just did?
I just do that and like I don't even know what she thought.
I don't even really know she thought about it because she sex
is happening. She claimed she you know, had an
orgasm, I think it was bogus. I've heard enough for them to
hear you know, a fake one and like If you could also look at
it, like, well, but of that, this one, if you really doing
this, this and this, but I didn't, she didn't deserve any
of the works of any kind, you know?
Like girl, you just like con artist calm, man.
Me and this man in this mug, like, I'm really just trying,
not to be rude at this point. She tried to do sex to my body.
I would just feel like that. It's my current Frazee that I
like to use and I just like, no, no, no.
I didn't even want her to touch me.
I remember laying. And looking up at the ceiling.
Just straight boarding like my whole body, not moving, just
being like, I want to get out of here and I remember her asked
me. She said, are you okay?
And I was like, yeah. And then I like, Got put my
clothes on and I left, and I never spoke to her again.
I never messaged her. I think I would hope that she
knew that that was not, that was not it.
And one decision on my part, like I was just so hurt, so
lost, so sad and just trying to find Feeling in another person
that I you know went and hooked up with someone that just felt
completely wrong to be there. What does I'm?
What a time. Yes, it's woman.
Waited up until we were a booty butt naked to say she had never
done anything sexual with a woman and I had to be either
first one and I was coming out of like a relationship and it
was this was like my biggest relationship. and, you know, I
don't even I don't even think in this is just being, you know,
constructive criticism towards. So I mean, I don't even think
that I was all of that at that point, like I was very much,
still navigating different types of women.
Different types of wants different levels and, you know,
if, you know, you know, where all that stuff flies.
So it's just like, I hope I didn't sour her on women or
hooking up with women but that just wasn't a good situation
like just there was no genuine attraction, it was just kind of
like you want to hook up. You want to hook up.
Okay, let's hook up. And to be so fast and I don't
want to use the word desperate, but like, that's the only word I
can think about. And, oh, it's just tragic.
Tragic, tragic, tragic to think about So yeah.
That isn't time that I hooked up with this woman who waited until
we were no clothes to say, she ain't never hooked up with a
woman. And me realizing in this moment
that that was the start of all of the women situations that
have happened to me through at thus far.
Wow. Wow.
Thank you all so much for
listening to episode 5 of the lesbian dating app disasters,
podcast. That is all for this episode.
I think we're and by we I mean it's just me.
I want to start to incorporate, guess into the show, so we'll
see when we can get some Other stories.
So if you have a story in you would like to submit
anonymously. I think I would like to hear
those stories. I just need to figure out how
you can get it to me anonymously and I will read them on out
loud, like, you know, like a 90s radio show.
And see where that goes. I would love love to hear
stories from all over the world, like, fourteen plus countries
like double digits High Teens, maybe even 20 countries.
Now I would love to hear Global lesbian and queer stories
because wowza, it is a time. It is such a time.
So again, thank you all so much for listening.
I'll talk to He said, bye. He said, bye.