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Hi, welcome to the latest 
episode of Mr. Smea's Dungeon. 

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I'm your Hostess, Mr. Smea, and 
today it's just me all alone 

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with a special guest. 
Charles. 

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Slave boy, bitch. 
Yeah. 

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All right, so I know we're going
to have to do a shout out for 

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Steve because Steve so wants to 
be with me here. 

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You know, like rubbing my feet, 
doing all sorts of things for 

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me. 
He does. 

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There's some jealousy going on. 
No, I think admiration. 

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Yeah, that's a lot to admire. 
He's got a good point. 

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You have awesome feet and it's a
pleasure to rub him. 

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Oh, OK. 
All right. 

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Well, I thought today you told 
me it's the total package though

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it's not just the the feet. 
It's the total package, all 

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right. 
Defeat or a lovely bonus. 

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OK, good to know. 
So I'm just going to read a 

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little e-mail that I had gotten 
and I thought it was really 

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flattering. 
It was sweet, he said. 

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Hi Mr. Smea, just a quick note 
to tell you how much I love the 

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podcast. 
As someone new to listening to 

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podcasts, I'm glad I found 
yours. 

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Now all I need to do is figure 
out how to work it. 

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I somehow got all of yours to 
come in all in a row and I binge

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listen to all of them so it 
sounds like it's not a bad 

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thing. 
Honestly if you can tolerate us 

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that long, or tolerate me I 
should say. 

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Need to figure out how to be 
able to watch the videos. 

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Your insights are right on. 
You have this early 60s 

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submissive figured out without 
even meeting me. 

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Almost eerie. 
Guess we're all similar. 

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It is awesome to listen to 
someone that is so free with 

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their kinks. 
The Griswolds were awesome too. 

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If I lived in the area I would 
definitely be at those parties. 

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The public beatings are awesome.
The parties sound awesome. 

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Thanks for taking the time to do
the podcast. 

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So the. 
Public meetings. 

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Yeah, I think I talked about 
some public beatings on a couple

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of episodes. 
OK. 

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Yeah, we got to talk about that,
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The Fucked Up Fridays are the 
ones that come to mind from me. 

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Yeah, yeah. 
And you've been there, done 

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that. 
I have I have been beaten quite 

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a few times. 
Unless you're cuted hair removed

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forcefully. 
Forcefully, yeah. 

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I don't think Steve would be 
jealous about that. 

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He got to give it a shot, 
though. 

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It's yeah, I'm I'm going to fuck
Steve up. 

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If he doesn't shave, I'm sure 
he. 

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Will be fucking Oh Steve, you 
got to shave everything. 

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I will find a hair. 
She means fucking everything. 

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Everything. 
She will find it. 

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What is that? 
Eyebrows and down. 

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Leave his eyebrows. 
Yeah, eyebrows and some facial 

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hair. 
As long as the facial hair looks

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good though. 
But if? 

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You have hair on your taint, 
you're going to pay. 

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Yeah. 
So you better get be getting 

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down on your hands and knees 
spreading it. 

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You know, Charles actually sent 
me a funny little picture 

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because before he came over to 
see me, he got on all fours. 

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He's in the shower. 
He's craving his craving. 

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Yeah, craving too. 
But he's shaving his his bits 

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and pieces there. 
And he looks at the shower head 

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faucet handle. 
Right, the faucet, the faucet. 

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And it said P Fister. 
And I thought of Maine in center

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of pictures. 
Yes, I haven't fished your pee 

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pee, but you never know it's. 
Probably on the list. 

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It's probably on the list, Yeah.
Abby was putting away some tools

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for me tonight in the big 
cabinet that we have a lot of 

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stuff. 
And she says, Mia, why do you 

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have knitting needles? 
And I said because I like to 

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take knitting needles and shove 
them down guys penises. 

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Jesus, I didn't see that part. 
No, you were. 

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You stepped out. 
I'm glad I missed that part. 

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Yeah, you missed that. 
But it's for men who want it. 

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OK, Yeah. 
You guys are like sounding. 

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Oh, yeah, yeah. 
All right. 

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So a lot of people really don't 
know too much about you. 

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I mean, they they hear you on 
the podcast at different times. 

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We've talked about the parties, 
we've talked about different 

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things, but a lot of people 
don't really know the you, the 

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Charles, the Intrepid 1. 
So you cross dress and you used 

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to do that quite a bit before we
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Oh yeah. 
So tell us about your cross 

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dressing journey because it's 
really important because of so 

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many listeners, they want to 
cross dress and they can't. 

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OK, well I can relate to that. 
I guess I started when I was a 

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kid around like 14, and I'm not 
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but, you know, I always like the
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And you like seeing stuff like 
Wonder Woman was a big influence

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on me, especially for bondage. 
But I always loved that outfit 

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and I like seeing a woman in 
that outfit, but I was kind of 

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curious what it would be like to
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So when you're young, you don't 
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So yeah, I'm ashamed to admit 
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pantyhose and tried them on and 
that felt fucking awesome. 

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And then, you know, later on I 
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bikini and tried that and I just
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And I really didn't do anything 
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because I repressed it because I
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hardcore Bible belt, 
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So I just buried it for a long 
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joined the military, went out to
California and everything 

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started firing up out there 
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BDSM, you name it. 
Nothing was weird. 

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So you leaped. 
Really. 

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You went, leaped from left, 
left. 

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He went from there to there. 
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you be compelled to get on 
stockings in the first place? 

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They well, it was just a look. 
I remember when I was young 

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walking to like the grocery 
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You remember the the eggs with 
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It Oh yeah, those are legs. 
That was the brand. 

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And they had these commercials 
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beautiful legs and smooth and 
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And I would see women walking 
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look one that looks sexy but 
they look comfortable as hell. 

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Now, do you remember 3's 
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I do see you remember that. 
Do you remember how they took 

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Suzanne Somers and she was, 
like, bent over and like a pair 

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of yellow shorts? 
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Yeah, those long, beautiful. 
Legs. 

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thought because they did a leg 
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Oh well, they had a lot of that.
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Then there was Barbara Palmer's 
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She's got legs and she knows how
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Oh, yeah. 
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Just. 
I guess it was just imagery. 

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You know, women have fantastic 
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And this pantyhose just set them
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And I was just what it felt 
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And it was kind of innocent in 
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know, getting where I grew up. 
It was kind of I, I, I pushed 

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it. 
I repressed it severely. 

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And that's why I jumped ahead to
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it for that long. 
I was curious when I was young. 

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And I'm like, OK, people can't 
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I have to hide this. 
And when I got to California? 

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Hold on, did you masturbate in 
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Not at first. 
Wait a minute. 

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No, not at first. 
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Have to. 
Think about that. 

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It was curious. 
OK, I cannot rule that out. 

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OK. 
All right. 

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So you might have. 
I might have you had repressed 

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to a lot of. 
Shit, I was gonna say you might 

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have repressed that memory. 
I masturbated a lot in high and 

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in high school. 
OK, so once I discovered that, 

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you know, 12 years old, am I? 
Oh my God this thing does so 

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much more than P. 
Oh my God, yeah. 

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Can't tell you what all I was, 
you know, enticed by. 

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It was pretty much everything. 
It was just you just have a hard

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day. 
I got to make just go away to go

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to school. 
I mean, just then a whole lot of

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reason to put thought into why a
teenage boy masturbates. 

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Yeah. 
Why the ducks quack. 

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It's just you're going to do it.
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So you go to the military and 
then you decide to do what? 

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Well, I went to a went to a sex 
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in Mississippi and a bunch of us
southern boys were out there. 

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I know a guy from Oklahoma and 
we went to this sex store and it

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was like, holy shit, there were 
stuff everywhere. 

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And I remember the first thing 
we saw was this giant fist on 

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the wall and we stood there for 
like 10 minutes going what in 

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the fuck are we looking at? 
We went to the back where the 

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magazine section were and that's
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and they had one called Shaved 
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That was my particular favorite,
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You like some hot Asian girls? 
I do have. 

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Oh God I was stationed in Asia 
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Fuck yes I love Asian women. 
I love Asian women, actually, 

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ever since high school when I 
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didn't have any Asian women in 
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And I'm like, oh, they're 
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It's just the eyes and the hair.
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there, yes, I was in fucking 
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I believe it, but. 
It's what the crossdressing it 

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all kind of reawoken all at one 
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Everything. 
Like when I was younger, I was 

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also curious about BDSM from 
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She would get tied up or she 
would tie other people up and I 

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was interested on both ends of 
those. 

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And when I was real young, I 
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with jump rope to see what it 
felt like. 

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But again, this was young. 
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through my high school and 
college years. 

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And then for whatever reason, I 
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it's just, everything came back,
started reading BDSM magazines 

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and just got curious about all 
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All at one time. 
It all came flooding in. 

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And maybe it's because I was 
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And, you know, we still had to 
be careful with it because it 

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was the service. 
So, you know, we could do some 

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stuff, you know, me showing up 
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panties. 
Was it going to fucking happen? 

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But it just, it just all sparked
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So what you want to talk about 
more cross dressing? 

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At that point when I started 
kicking, yeah. 

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Yeah, that's what I'm I'm. 
You're more curious about when 

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did you really start it again as
your adult? 

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What I started doing, since we 
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had to be careful. 
So every once in a while I were 

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to go to Victoria's Secret and I
would look at something that 

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looked kind of nice and I would 
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room for a night and I would 
wear like stockings or a teddy 

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or something. 
I would always buy something a 

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little bit different and weren't
not often at all. 

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I mean like every several 
months. 

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And it wasn't, it wasn't even 
completely sexual at first. 

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It was trying it on to see how 
it felt and how it looked and I 

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didn't really, I can't, I like 
the feel of it, but I didn't 

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like the look because I had real
hairy legs, hairy chest and I'm 

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like, OK, this feels all right. 
But you know, it's just just 

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just doesn't look very cool. 
It didn't really turn sexual 

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until I get out of the service 
because I, I started thinking I 

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might have been bisexual in the 
military and it, it really 

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started in my early 20s where I 
just kind of had some thoughts, 

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but I was really good at, you 
know, repressing shit. 

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So I kept everything down and 
said I left active duty. 

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And then again, it was another 
eye opening experience because I

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allowed myself to have a first 
bisexual experience. 

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And how old were you then? 
I was probably about 26 for the 

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first one. 
So. 

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So what would actually lead to 
that if you'd never even thought

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about it, right? 
I'd well, I was thinking about 

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it in the military, but I 
repressed it because I couldn't 

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go out and do it because it was 
court martial able at the time. 

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OK. 
Did you think about? 

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Yeah, I was gonna say, did you 
think about it as a kid, though?

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No I didn't. 
OK, I knew I like girls but they

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didn't really like me in high 
school until I got like around 

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16 and 17. 
Gotcha. 

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But I never ever thought about 
guys in that way and honestly I 

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still don't. 
I'm not attracted to guys, I'm 

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attracted to Dick. 
Oh yeah, it's all about the 

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cock. 
But it's only like, sometimes 

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I've said women 90% and 10% 
male. 

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And even then it kind of comes 
and goes in cycles, you know, I 

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male it. 
I don't know what you want to 

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call it. 
It's definitely bisexual, but 

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it's heterosexual with a touch 
of flexibility. 

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Yeah. 
But at this point, it's only 

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like when I cross dress because 
the idea of doing something just

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as a naked male but another male
is just, it doesn't do anything 

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for me. 
But I'm just saying why with 

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women though, it has. 
It's not just any woman. 

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It's got to be a specific woman 
and we have to do something 

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interesting because I told you 
before, regular mom and 

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Pennsylvania fucking just 
doesn't do it for me. 

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That's why I'm in a dungeon 
tonight. 

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Right. 
The cross dressing. 

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It was a fun time in the dungeon
tonight, but that's for a 

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different story. 
It was a great. 

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Different episode. 
They usually are, yeah, but the 

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cross dressing didn't really get
heavy until after I left active 

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duty. 
And I did have a lot of 

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thoughts, a lot of thoughts, but
I was held it down and I had to 

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be careful because I don't know 
what it's like now. 

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They're a lot more tolerant now.
They were not tolerant then. 

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They had just started the don't 
ask, don't tell shit. 

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So I notice you've always 
analyzed everything, you know, 

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and you have a tendency to like,
overanalyze, overthink things 

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and, and that's cool, you know, 
but did you ever find yourself 

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like, you're around all these 
guys in the military and, you 

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know, you're in the locker room?
No, it's not that way, OK. 

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So how is that way? 
Because women are different. 

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Well, it's it's, it's like this.
You. 

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You. 
What's up with basic training? 

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OK, You're taking a shower over 
50 other guys. 

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You're not. 
It's nothing sexual about it. 

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You. 
Nobody's everybody's away from 

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home. 
You're up all fucking day. 

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You're exhausted. 
You. 

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It's business. 
You get in, you get out. 

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You know, it, it just wasn't 
anything sexual about it. 

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It's, they call it boot camp. 
I mean, it's it's not pleasant. 

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No, they call it Boot camp for 
a. 

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Reason, I mean, you're 
exercising all the time, you're 

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working out constantly. 
Drill starters are always up 

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your ass. 
You have to study for tests. 

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It is not vacation. 
And so when I'm going to shower,

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I really the last thing I'm 
thinking about is, you know, 

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even looking under the guy's 
Wang, but I'm lucky because I'm 

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blind as a bat without glasses. 
It's all I had to do is we just 

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walk around the shower and get 
the hell out. 

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But it it wasn't anything sexual
to it and I'm sure maybe there's

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some guys that wear it is, but 
to me it was. 

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It's just business is something 
we had to do. 

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OK, So what is it? 
You know when you're laying in 

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bed at night and you're 
thinking, Huh? 

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Not during basics. 
But at some point, when did you 

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start thinking about being 
bisexual? 

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With couples that I heard were 
actually swinging and they 

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weren't supposed to be. 
And then somebody mentioned a 

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girl was talking about pegging 
this guy with a strap on and 

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that's when it started with 
strap ONS. 

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And I'm like, OK, because I was 
always curious about that. 

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And then I did try it with a 
dominatrix once out there and 

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it's pretty fucking awesome. 
I'm like, but you know, in the 

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South, we just I'm sure people 
try it went back in those days, 

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but they're always, you know, so
taboo. 

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But it feels really good if you 
do it right. 

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And then later on I'm like, 
shit, no guy might not be that 

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bad. 
And it was like a curiosity. 

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Anything but the strap bump. 
Anal felt good when done right. 

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And anal feels terrible when 
done wrong. 

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And I think that's why so many 
women don't do anal because they

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get a guy who doesn't know what 
he's doing and then Ouch. 

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And then she tells her friends 
and they don't like anal if you 

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do it right. 
Oh shit. 

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But that ties in partially with 
a cross dressing. 

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I think it started with the 
dressing and then expanded 

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outward, you know, But after 
that I started dressing more. 

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It wasn't just about, you know, 
lingerie and stockings. 

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I would try to go for the, the 
full look, but never to be 

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completely passable. 
I've never done that. 

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But I would meet up with a 
dominatrix since they would, you

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know, put on makeup and put on a
wig. 

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I met a woman in in Thailand 
that did that one night. 

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They dressed me for, you know, 
head to toe. 

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Felt awesome, you know, and then
they, I mean, that was great. 

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I think that was the first time 
I was fully dressed. 

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And then when I got back to the 
South, I met a few people on 

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alt.com and Collar Space, and it
was still intermittent. 

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I mean, like every couple of 
years I would meet up with a 

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couple and they would dress me 
up or I would start dressing up.

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And then I want to have usually 
a sexual experience with a male 

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dressed as a woman. 
And I really enjoyed that. 

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But I still would dress up on my
own once in a while. 

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But it's never really been where
I'm sitting around an apartment 

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dressed up because I'm always 
been or I've had some kind of a 

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job that was related to defense.
And later on, I was in the South

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where I'm surrounded by family 
and they show up at all hours, 

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you know, so I can't exactly be 
around and, you know, wearing a 

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French maids outfit. 
So I've always had to travel to,

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you know, go dress up and, you 
know, just just have a good 

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time. 
But I guess it's like an 

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intermittent thing that I like 
maybe if I grew up in California

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as a kid, maybe I'd be like one 
of these, you know, trans 

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ladies, whether they wanted to 
transition or whatever. 

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But for me, it's always been 
like a segment of my 

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personality. 
And I just let it out once in a 

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while. 
Like even here, I've only 

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dressed up here like one time. 
And that's what we've done each 

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other a year now. 
But for I'd say two or three 

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years after the pandemic, yeah, 
I did it fairly often. 

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I would go meet people on 
different in Georgia and 

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Louisiana and in Alabama. 
And I had a pretty good time 

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with it. 
So why do you think it's 

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intermittent? 
Most things with me are I'm not 

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into one thing or the other. 
You know, I've done just like 

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the parties. 
I've actually switched. 

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I'm very sub to you, but that's 
because our dynamic, I'm very 

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submissive towards you. 
But with some of the other 

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couples I've switched with, it 
depends on my mood at the time 

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and things constantly shift. 
It's like I'm not always into 

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pain and I've taken a lot of 
pain for you guys, but it's not 

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like I want it constantly. 
But sometimes when the mood is 

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right, yeah, Ruby would be out 
there beating the shit out of me

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and I can take it. 
And sometimes somebody will flip

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me on the ball and it's over 
with, you know? 

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It's just, you know, it's just 
intermittent. 

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So they talk about the whole 
binge and purge with cross 

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dressing. 
I've done that a few times. 

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OK, One was from necessity 
because I was in New Zealand and

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I had a a kit with me. 
I went to meet a couple there 

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and we had a good time. 
But something happened in the 

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suitcase, got completely wet and
I had to dry it out and 

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everything was just ruined. 
So I tossed that. 

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That was a purge by necessity. 
Another time, there was several 

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years where I didn't have time. 
I was working on my own. 

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I was running my family's farm 
when my father had his stroke. 

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So I had it was working seven 
days a week, like 12 hours a day

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constantly. 
And that was my life for this 

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foreseeable future. 
So one day I was like, fuck it. 

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And I threw everything away 
because there was no way I could

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drive, you know, a couple of 
hours to go do this, you know, 

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where I could be free to do 
this. 

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So I quit for a while. 
It's, I purged then. 

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And I think there was one of the
time, but I can't recall right 

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now. 
That's when I would save up 

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clothes. 
I would buy an Amazon or, you 

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know, something like that. 
I, I only went into the store a 

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few times and bought clothes 
because I was always kind of 

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embarrassed about it. 
I did go to Atlanta and go to a 

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store there and bought a lot of 
things. 

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And that was, that didn't bother
me because I knew I wasn't going

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to run into anybody I knew. 
And that was kind of fun. 

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But most of the time I would go 
on like Amazon or something like

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that and just, you know, order a
cute dress or lingerie or 

393
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whatever and you just try it on 
when I had time. 

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But I haven't purged in quite 
some time. 

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I keep everything now when I 
it's done a purge, I get rid of 

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stuff that doesn't fit me 
anymore. 

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I think somebody else might 
like, like, I've given you quite

398
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a few things for your dungeon. 
Yeah. 

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That pink Sissy dress which is 
just too big for me, and that 

400
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leopard skin thing which just 
just didn't work. 

401
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But I'm keeping my cheerleader 
outfit. 

402
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It actually fits. 
So you know, whenever I have 

403
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crossdressers come to the 
dungeon, I always ask them, do 

404
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you want to feel like a slutty 
woman or do you want to feel 

405
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like a slutty girl? 
You know? 

406
00:20:42,440 --> 00:20:47,640
So what are your thoughts? 
Slutty young woman I My 

407
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preference is definitely for 
dressing as cheerleader or 

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Catholic schoolgirl, but I also 
have other outfits. 

409
00:20:56,680 --> 00:20:58,640
What's the end of the black 
dresses? 

410
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A little more elegant look, but 
slutty is better for me. 

411
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That's kind. 
I kind of prefer that it's. 

412
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Like bubbly? 
Yeah. 

413
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Elegant once in a while. 
But like, a lot of my wigs have 

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pigtails just because, yeah, it 
feels fucking nasty to wear it. 

415
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And I like that. 
And some are like, you know, a 

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little Bob wig and that goes 
with like, a black dress, but 

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nothing too serious. 
And I really don't have any 

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casual wear. 
You like, we know some trans 

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women that, you know, that they 
dress like a woman, They're 

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comfortable. 
I don't have anything like that,

421
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really. 
I have to go through and look. 

422
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So what do you think? 
Shopping spree would be fun. 

423
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Not at this point. 
I've got what I've got and it's 

424
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enough because it's really, it's
a partial interest. 

425
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I still want to try it a little 
bit. 

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I want to try it here with you 
some more, but I'm pushing 50 

427
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and it's just the urge just 
isn't as strong as it used to 

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be, you know, once in a while 
it's the same as everything else

429
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that I do. 
You know, we've done things with

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pain and sometimes I'm into it, 
sometimes I'm not. 

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I just don't see the need to go 
out and make a huge investment. 

432
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You know, I've got a a good size
collection now and I'm really, 

433
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I'd probably be thinning out 
instead of adding to it at this 

434
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point, but I still have several 
outfits that I do like. 

435
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You know, I'll wear them again. 
I'm part of. 

436
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I know I'll be wearing a few of 
them very shortly. 

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You know, like the e-mail I just
read at the beginning of the 

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episode now, I don't know if 
he's cross dressing or not, but 

439
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he said, you know, you've got 
this 60 year old pegged, you 

440
00:22:25,240 --> 00:22:28,720
know, and he's like, we all must
be pretty similar. 

441
00:22:28,720 --> 00:22:31,440
And you know, the thing of it is
I think everyone's similar. 

442
00:22:31,440 --> 00:22:37,720
I think we all have our kinks. 
But I think that, you know, all 

443
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cross dressers, they reached 
that point where it's like, 

444
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that's why I want to keep doing 
this. 

445
00:22:43,400 --> 00:22:44,600
Yeah. 
You know. 

446
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I'm kind of there it because 
it's part of it is the age 

447
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thing. 
It still feels good to wear 

448
00:22:50,080 --> 00:22:51,600
certain things. 
I'm still going to like 

449
00:22:51,600 --> 00:22:56,040
pantyhose and stockings because 
sometimes it's just comfortable.

450
00:22:56,040 --> 00:23:00,080
It feels nice. 
But the full dressing up it, it 

451
00:23:00,080 --> 00:23:02,000
can be kind of a hassle 
honestly. 

452
00:23:03,160 --> 00:23:06,120
And just the the older you get, 
the harder it is like right now.

453
00:23:06,360 --> 00:23:09,320
So I've gained weight in my 
shoulders, so a lot of my 

454
00:23:09,320 --> 00:23:13,040
dresses aren't fitting right and
it's it really pissing me off. 

455
00:23:13,360 --> 00:23:15,320
But I guess a lot of women get 
through that too though. 

456
00:23:15,360 --> 00:23:18,240
Oh God, yeah, 100%. 
And it's just one of those 

457
00:23:18,240 --> 00:23:20,120
things, it's like, I get rid of 
this. 

458
00:23:20,160 --> 00:23:22,880
There's two cute dresses I had 
because they just won't fit over

459
00:23:22,880 --> 00:23:26,800
my arms anymore, you know? 
You know, imagine, you know, 

460
00:23:26,800 --> 00:23:30,800
every month, you know, for one 
hazard period, you know, nothing

461
00:23:30,800 --> 00:23:33,160
fits, right? 
It's all uncomfortable. 

462
00:23:33,280 --> 00:23:34,880
I could see how it would piss 
you off. 

463
00:23:34,880 --> 00:23:37,680
Yeah, it is you. 
Had this nice dress that fit 

464
00:23:37,680 --> 00:23:39,080
last month and like, God damn 
it. 

465
00:23:39,120 --> 00:23:42,160
But the same point. 
I used to love corsets, but now 

466
00:23:42,160 --> 00:23:44,520
I'm like, God damn it, this 
thing used to fit. 

467
00:23:45,840 --> 00:23:48,080
God, yes, it whatever. 
You know, it's just one of those

468
00:23:48,080 --> 00:23:50,480
things I have to shop for, one 
that fits better now. 

469
00:23:50,720 --> 00:23:52,600
Yeah. 
And, you know, bodies change. 

470
00:23:53,960 --> 00:23:56,680
You know, I'm not in my 20s. 
It was a lot easier to do shit, 

471
00:23:56,680 --> 00:24:00,480
you know, get stuff to fit. 
Now it's like, and I know we're 

472
00:24:00,480 --> 00:24:05,360
worn here last week at your 
house and man, that thing got 

473
00:24:05,360 --> 00:24:08,800
snug. 
I mean, it happens, you know? 

474
00:24:09,160 --> 00:24:11,080
Yeah, You know, we have this one
guy at the party. 

475
00:24:11,080 --> 00:24:12,680
He comes to me. 
He's like, you know, I got 

476
00:24:12,680 --> 00:24:16,960
married and he's like, I just, I
just don't want to get dressed 

477
00:24:16,960 --> 00:24:18,400
up anymore. 
I've, I've put the cross 

478
00:24:18,400 --> 00:24:21,880
dressing to the side. 
I'm like, why you enjoy it? 

479
00:24:21,960 --> 00:24:24,120
You know, she'll like it. 
She's cool with it. 

480
00:24:24,520 --> 00:24:27,760
And so many wives, so many women
would not be cool with her 

481
00:24:27,760 --> 00:24:28,800
husband's dressing. 
No. 

482
00:24:28,800 --> 00:24:32,520
No, the women I dated would have
been into this at all. 

483
00:24:32,520 --> 00:24:35,320
I had to keep it from him and I 
tried to introduce some of them 

484
00:24:35,400 --> 00:24:38,920
to just the smallest little 
aspects of BDSM. 

485
00:24:38,920 --> 00:24:41,480
I don't even get to the cross 
dressing and they were just put 

486
00:24:41,480 --> 00:24:43,920
off immediately. 
It's so sad. 

487
00:24:44,040 --> 00:24:47,080
And so I was never afraid I I 
was never going to be OK in a 

488
00:24:47,080 --> 00:24:50,120
vanilla relationship because 
they just were not into it. 

489
00:24:50,560 --> 00:24:54,600
And I have this client and I 
haven't seen him in probably a 

490
00:24:54,600 --> 00:24:58,240
year and a half and I don't know
if he's still with us or not, 

491
00:24:58,320 --> 00:25:02,800
but he was older, he was pushing
early 70s. 

492
00:25:03,840 --> 00:25:07,760
And he told me that he was 
married to his wife for almost 

493
00:25:07,760 --> 00:25:13,800
50 years and that he's always 
been a cross dresser, but he's 

494
00:25:13,800 --> 00:25:17,920
been extremely limited, you 
know, and when he can dress and 

495
00:25:17,920 --> 00:25:19,440
so. 
He had to hide it. 

496
00:25:19,600 --> 00:25:23,360
Yeah, so about seven or eight 
years ago he had, he'd started 

497
00:25:23,360 --> 00:25:28,000
getting stuff from online and 
he'd have it sent here and then 

498
00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:30,840
he would come here and he would 
make a day out of it. 

499
00:25:31,200 --> 00:25:34,280
Yeah, a lot of guys do do that. 
Yeah, and he had to wait until 

500
00:25:34,280 --> 00:25:37,920
his wife left town. 
And the saddest thing of it was 

501
00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:42,200
all he wanted to do was dress up
in a prom dress with his opera 

502
00:25:42,200 --> 00:25:44,800
gloves. 
And, you know, he wanted to play

503
00:25:44,800 --> 00:25:48,360
and have fun and, you know, put 
on makeup and we just had the 

504
00:25:48,360 --> 00:25:50,640
best time. 
But yeah. 

505
00:25:51,040 --> 00:25:54,320
But he told me, he says, you 
know, I'd watch my daughters go 

506
00:25:54,320 --> 00:25:56,680
off to prom and I would be so 
jealous. 

507
00:25:57,120 --> 00:26:00,160
I don't know, in Vegas, in New 
Orleans, they have these places 

508
00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:02,800
where they have a makeover where
you can go on there and they'll 

509
00:26:02,840 --> 00:26:06,360
give you an outfit and a wig, 
you know, and the makeup, and 

510
00:26:06,360 --> 00:26:09,080
they can take you out for the 
day and charge good money for 

511
00:26:09,080 --> 00:26:10,360
this. 
Because a lot of guys are in the

512
00:26:10,360 --> 00:26:12,840
same damn boat. 
Because you can't be yourself. 

513
00:26:13,320 --> 00:26:16,600
A woman can go out. 
Well, I think it's getting 

514
00:26:16,600 --> 00:26:20,360
better now, OK, At the next 
generation, I don't think 

515
00:26:20,360 --> 00:26:21,720
they're going to have to put up 
with this shit. 

516
00:26:22,320 --> 00:26:24,640
People in their 50s and 60s, 
they've been dealing with this 

517
00:26:24,640 --> 00:26:27,920
crap, especially if you live in 
the Deep South or, you know, 

518
00:26:28,240 --> 00:26:30,520
even in California. 
So if you're in Bakersfield, 

519
00:26:30,520 --> 00:26:32,360
somebody would give you shit or 
they would have. 

520
00:26:32,360 --> 00:26:34,840
I don't know about now, but but 
the older generation, yeah, they

521
00:26:34,840 --> 00:26:37,280
had to hide this stuff because 
back in the day that would have 

522
00:26:37,280 --> 00:26:39,320
gotten you in real trouble in 
some places. 

523
00:26:39,640 --> 00:26:42,440
It's, it's getting better, but 
it's not, you know, it's not 

524
00:26:42,440 --> 00:26:43,960
there yet. 
It's not there yet, huh? 

525
00:26:44,560 --> 00:26:47,080
But you can come to places like 
here and you can do what you 

526
00:26:47,080 --> 00:26:48,360
want. 
And but the guys that are 

527
00:26:48,360 --> 00:26:50,520
married, yeah, they've got to 
watch your butt sometimes, you 

528
00:26:50,520 --> 00:26:51,960
know? 
And I get that because they're 

529
00:26:51,960 --> 00:26:53,160
wide. 
I just don't understand. 

530
00:26:53,200 --> 00:26:55,760
And I had girlfriends that I 
couldn't even introduce the 

531
00:26:55,760 --> 00:26:58,160
idea. 
Like one of them, God money for 

532
00:26:58,160 --> 00:27:01,080
her missionary was kinky. 
She wouldn't do anything other 

533
00:27:01,080 --> 00:27:02,960
than missionary. 
So that was a good thing we 

534
00:27:02,960 --> 00:27:06,000
didn't stay together based on 
the shit that I've gotten into. 

535
00:27:07,680 --> 00:27:09,720
Wow, you would have had a 
boring, miserable life. 

536
00:27:10,240 --> 00:27:13,800
Oh God, the last one was 2017 
and she was the one where I 

537
00:27:13,800 --> 00:27:17,480
tried to push a little bit more 
and I finally mentioned strap 

538
00:27:17,480 --> 00:27:19,880
ONS and she's like, well that 
sounds kind of gay. 

539
00:27:19,880 --> 00:27:22,720
And she did not say it in a good
fucking way. 

540
00:27:22,720 --> 00:27:25,160
And I introduced, you know, a 
few things too. 

541
00:27:25,160 --> 00:27:27,840
But see, I introduced her to 
anal sex because she never had 

542
00:27:27,840 --> 00:27:29,520
it before. 
And the first time I fucked her 

543
00:27:29,520 --> 00:27:32,360
in the ass, she came hard. 
So yes, she was hooked. 

544
00:27:32,400 --> 00:27:34,360
And then I showed her what 
analingus was. 

545
00:27:34,360 --> 00:27:37,400
She loved that for a girl who 
had only done missionary before 

546
00:27:37,400 --> 00:27:39,480
I got got a hold of her. 
She came a long way. 

547
00:27:39,640 --> 00:27:42,360
But when I mentioned the strap 
ONS, Rut Row headed for the 

548
00:27:42,360 --> 00:27:43,840
hills. 
Wow. 

549
00:27:43,960 --> 00:27:46,760
God damn it, you liked anal, you
came from it. 

550
00:27:46,760 --> 00:27:50,760
So what the fuck can I like it? 
But it's that Deep South. 

551
00:27:51,280 --> 00:27:53,440
Mentality. 
God damn it, I know. 

552
00:27:53,520 --> 00:27:55,440
It's crazy, people. 
Don't realize. 

553
00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:58,280
She took it in the ass and I 
licked her butt and she came her

554
00:27:58,280 --> 00:28:01,440
brains out and I also use that 
little magic strap on with her. 

555
00:28:01,440 --> 00:28:04,920
She had no objections whatsoever
and she did learn to give great 

556
00:28:04,920 --> 00:28:07,720
head, I'll give her that. 
Well, good, but when it came to 

557
00:28:07,720 --> 00:28:12,560
kink shit, no, I tried and I 
just, I didn't get to the good 

558
00:28:12,560 --> 00:28:14,560
shit. 
I just started with the basics. 

559
00:28:14,560 --> 00:28:17,160
With the second I mentioned 
Peggy, that was ball game. 

560
00:28:17,160 --> 00:28:21,000
Wow, good God. 
Anyway, yeah, fuck vanilla. 

561
00:28:21,680 --> 00:28:24,720
Fuck vanilla. 
I'm not doing it teach his own. 

562
00:28:24,720 --> 00:28:26,880
It's not for me. 
Just not my cup of tea. 

563
00:28:27,320 --> 00:28:30,840
Yeah, it's sad. 
It's really sad that people have

564
00:28:30,840 --> 00:28:34,800
to be like that, you know? 
It is what it is. 

565
00:28:35,240 --> 00:28:37,880
It is, and that's why I don't 
have any more vanilla friends, 

566
00:28:37,880 --> 00:28:41,600
because they just don't get it. 
I've got a few, I just leave 

567
00:28:41,600 --> 00:28:43,960
them out of it. 
I can't problematize everything 

568
00:28:43,960 --> 00:28:45,360
though. 
You know it. 

569
00:28:45,360 --> 00:28:48,760
To me it's just not any fun, you
know, If I can't be myself, you 

570
00:28:48,760 --> 00:28:50,320
know? 
Well, I'm probably telling a few

571
00:28:50,320 --> 00:28:52,320
family members some of the 
things I'm into. 

572
00:28:52,440 --> 00:28:54,560
And that's good that they're 
still supportive. 

573
00:28:54,920 --> 00:28:57,680
You know, brother and sister are
the older ones. 

574
00:28:57,840 --> 00:29:00,760
I'm not telling them they can go
to their graves and not know. 

575
00:29:00,760 --> 00:29:02,560
And I haven't told these two 
everything. 

576
00:29:03,120 --> 00:29:05,240
I've told them some of the 
shenanigans we get up to at the 

577
00:29:05,240 --> 00:29:06,720
parties. 
Not every single. 

578
00:29:06,720 --> 00:29:08,640
They don't know I'm going to be 
at the next one dressed as a 

579
00:29:08,640 --> 00:29:10,920
cheerleader. 
Oh, that's going to be fabulous,

580
00:29:10,960 --> 00:29:13,080
right? 
And hot though, so I might not 

581
00:29:13,080 --> 00:29:14,520
be in that damn thing along. 
We'll see. 

582
00:29:14,520 --> 00:29:16,880
It's supposed. 
To be cooler that evening so you

583
00:29:16,880 --> 00:29:18,840
never know. 
But you have a pool and those 

584
00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:22,080
fake titties of mine are 
flotation devices, so oh, we're 

585
00:29:22,080 --> 00:29:23,840
going to find out anyway. 
Fuck yeah. 

586
00:29:24,360 --> 00:29:27,440
Look at you then we'll see OK 
floating titties we're going to 

587
00:29:27,440 --> 00:29:29,440
leave it on that. 
That's been, that's been pretty 

588
00:29:29,440 --> 00:29:30,240
interesting. 
Yeah. 

589
00:29:30,240 --> 00:29:32,560
We're going to have to talk more
about different things because 

590
00:29:32,560 --> 00:29:35,440
you've floored so much. 
You really have. 

591
00:29:35,600 --> 00:29:37,280
I have dipped my two and many 
ponds. 

592
00:29:37,880 --> 00:29:40,840
And many ponds. 
I like it all right. 

593
00:29:41,440 --> 00:29:43,600
All right. 
Until then, thank you for 

594
00:29:43,600 --> 00:29:46,080
listening. 
May all your fantasies become 

595
00:29:46,080 --> 00:29:46,960
realities.
