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Hi, welcome to the latest 
episode of Call Me Mistress. 

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I'm your Hostess, Mistress Mia, 
and today I have a special guest

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with me. 
I have someone who has not yet 

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been on the show, but we met 
years and years ago. 

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So today I want to introduce you
to Whitney. 

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So Whitney, tell us how it all 
began. 

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You're a cross dresser. 
Yes, ma'am. 

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And it started probably when I 
was younger and I was, you know,

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I would dress up summer trying 
different stuff and, you know, I

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never thought anything of it. 
And then as I got older, I 

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started realizing I enjoyed 
wearing dresses and different 

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shoes. 
And I really like kids. 

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They're super cute. 
That's, that was when I was 

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growing up. 
That's what all the girls wore 

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too. 
And it just kind of made me 

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realize that I like dressing 
this way. 

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Like I prefer it. 
Like I don't really like having 

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to be a be a man. 
It's it's honestly kind of 

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terrible. 
I'm sure a lot of people could 

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relate to that. 
You know, you first came to see 

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me and you were in college and 
you were quite the little 

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handsome, sexy thing I must say 
when you were in, when college, 

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when you were was this 19? 
Yeah, I think so. 19 or 20? 

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Yeah, and so you came to see me 
in the dungeon for the first 

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time, and of course you were 
your kids. 

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You bought me a pair of black 
kids and you came in, you told 

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me you had the KED fetish, and I
was like, now wait a minute. 

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I think there's more to this 
than just kids. 

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Yes, ma'am. 
And ultimately, we did this 

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scene together, and I remember 
putting you in the swing and you

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were dressed up and we're doing 
all sorts of dirty things that 

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you do in the dungeon. 
And I said, I bet you want a big

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black cock in your mouth. 
And you're like, no, no, I'm not

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gay. 
I'm not a fag. 

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Yes, I remember that. 
You remember that? 

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I mean this has been probably 7 
years ago. 

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Yeah, probably. 
It might be a little bit longer.

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Yeah. 
And then you, you say this and 

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you looked at me very perplexed,
like I was the dumb one. 

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And then ultimately, ultimately 
you said, well, how did you 

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know? 
How do you know these things? 

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Because you came back a year 
later and you're like, Mistress,

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you were right all along. 
Yep. 

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And it just honestly, it kind of
took somebody forcing that out 

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of me, you know, And it's and 
it's true. 

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I do, I mean prefer penis now 
like predominantly like trans 

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women or other crossdressers, 
but like, yeah, I just. 

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But when I'm in girl mode, it's 
kind of whatever, as long as I 

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mean, to be honest, there's a 
penis involved, so. 

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You know, is it just about the 
penis or is it would you be in a

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relationship with a man? 
Adam's still trying to discover 

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like if let me digress for a 
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If a woman wanted me to be with 
a man 100%, but I'm still in 

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that where I want to be told 
what to do kind of because it's 

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it's a part of my learning. 
Like if because of course I'm 

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not just going to be like, OK, 
I'm going to go dad a man, but 

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like, yeah, a girl like a good 
friend or a mistress was like, 

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no, you're going to then yeah, I
would. 

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And then that could help evolve 
me more. 

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Like I wasn't open to penis 
until you basically told me I I 

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was into it and you honestly put
one down my throat. 

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Like then that's when I was 
like, OK, you know, so it's 

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like, I don't know trans women 
100%. 

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Like they're, they're so 
gorgeous. 

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But it's, I mean, and then a 
woman with a strap always, 

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always and forever. 
But I think it is more like not 

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as maybe it's sad to say or bad 
to say, but maybe it's not as 

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much the relationship with the 
man as it is just like being 

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able to be a girl, be Sissy, be 
controlled and have a penis 

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somewhere in me. 
Does that make sense? 

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It does. 
Do you know why you have these 

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feelings the way you do? 
I have never been able to figure

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it out honestly, but I've 
started to embrace them. 

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You know, a lot of times we do, 
we embrace what we crave because

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it makes us feel better. 
But ultimately, you've had an 

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emotional disconnect in your 
life. 

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And psychologists will have 
their own opinion, but I mean, 

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reasonably so. 
Between 8:00 and 12:00, 

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prepubescent years, I should 
say, and, and how you get your 

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sexual development. 
But you know you're not a 

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passable woman. 
But you want to be, I take it? 

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Yes, ma'am. 
And it's normally because, you 

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know, you want to feel special 
and maybe escaping as a man, 

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taking the real pressures of 
your life, you know, turning you

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into a woman you think are going
to make those things disappear. 

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But I know you're very 
submissive. 

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So what was your relationship 
like with your mother and 

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father? 
It was, honestly, it was, it was

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great. 
You know, there was, it was my 

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normal upbringing. 
Mom and dad both had solid jobs.

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I mean, we're not completely 
wealthy by any means, but we we 

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were wealthy enough to where I 
played baseball when I wanted 

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played football, all the sports,
you know, they all the cookouts,

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everything really wasn't the 
only the only thing from my 

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childhood that I remember was 
when I was like 8 years old, I 

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used to jump out of the fishing 
boat to my dad in the garage. 

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And it's funny now I went in at 
all, Mom still don't think it's 

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funny, but I was jumping to my 
dad about to, but my mom called 

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him and he turned and looked and
I jumped and I landed and hit my

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head and knocked me out. 
I had to go to the hospital. 

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And you know, it took me like 
they said, I had a concussion 

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and something else. 
I was too young. 

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I can't remember, but yeah. 
So, but then it took me like 2 

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weeks later, I was back to, you 
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about two months later, I'm 
sorry, before I could play 

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baseball and stuff again and 
T-ball and then. 

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But as I grew up, you know, 
still playing sports, life was 

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good. 
So I had great parents. 

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It wasn't really like that. 
Now they're very Southern, you 

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know, and Methodist, you know, 
very not sheltered. 

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But obviously this way life was 
not ever talked about, you know?

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Do you remember life before the 
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Vaguely small memories, you 
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remember that long ago at this 
age, but and just, you know, 

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when you're younger, you with 
your, your brain development and

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everything, some memories get 
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But I don't remember much 
before, probably 7-8, other than

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I know I played base, T-ball and
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do. 
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suppressing memories from before
that? 

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I don't think so. 
And the only reason is because I

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did, you know, I did go to 
therapies, kid, just because of 

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ADHD and stuff. 
And I've talked to therapists 

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over the years and, you know, 
they've tried to crack into it 

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and, you know, they say that 
it's they don't, they don't 

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speculate that there was any 
trauma prior to that. 

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That's interesting. 
You know, it's I've known people

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that have always been, you know,
trans or cross dressers, you 

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know, and there's always been 
some type of emotional 

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disconnect, some type of trauma.
Sometimes they were raised in a 

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highly dysfunctional situation, 
but you know only you will be 

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able to know. 
You know why you feel the way 

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you do at some point, but you 
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As a man you have a desire, 
obviously, to submit to. 

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Is it primarily black men or 
just cops in general? 

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Yes, ma'am, but also mainly for 
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my main thing is to serve a 
woman. 

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Like I mean, I have a perfect 
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probably probably won't happen. 
But it would be nice, but I'm 

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not going to bore you all with 
that but. 

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It's important what what is the 
scenario 'cause you got married?

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I did and. 
Is it fulfilling? 

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Yeah, I mean, I love her. 
I really do. 

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You know, there's some intimacy 
is not really there as far as 

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sexual intercourse. 
But I mean, we, we do love each 

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other and I do everything for 
her, but she's not very dominant

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and she doesn't mind me dressing
when we share a closet. 

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But there's just certain things 
that I wish that I could have in

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life that I'm probably not. 
Like that? 

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Well, I've always told myself 
like I would love to find a very

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Pretty Woman or just a, you 
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who is dominant, who basically 
wants to turn her man into a 

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woman and wants to make him 
dress up, force him to go out 

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with her, have girls nights, you
know, force, force him to take 

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estrogen. 
Like, you know, like literally 

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force truly force feminized to 
be who I am. 

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Like and of course there's other
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obviously, you know, being 
somewhat degraded and whatnot, 

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but I just, it would be nice to 
and you know, to have a woman 

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who literally makes me even if I
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Do you feel like if a woman 
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the guilt away from you? 
More than likely, yeah. 

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And it is kind of like I want to
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it's not as easy. 
So if a woman takes it from me, 

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you know I'm going to be 
submissive to her anyways. 

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So if if she literally would 
take it from me, then I would it

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would be phenomenal. 
I know that may not make sense 

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to a lot of people. 
Or maybe it does it. 

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Could very well people 
experience the same things. 

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But I mean, like, and I told 
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I've, I've made some, I've made 
some good choices in life and 

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very well financially stable. 
And and so, you know, and I 

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didn't joked with myself saying 
I'm going to find a woman who 

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wants that. 
I'm going to support her. 

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And all she's got to do is 
literally, you know, transition 

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me and force me to do these 
things and force me to try 

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things, whatever she wanted, 
basically. 

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So, but I guess I just kind of 
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mean, where I live, it's really 
hard to find. 

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You know, the harder things that
you really want can be very 

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difficult to find, and that's 
just part of life, 

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unfortunately. 
But you know, when I first met 

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you, I was like, don't get 
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Don't do it. 
You did anyway. 

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And that's partly too like, I 
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is my life now, like, or because
of my job and what I do and what

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I have done between, you know, I
was in the military and, you 

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know, I was like, well, I'm 
going to be a man's man and get 

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married. 
And, you know, and it was done 

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with for a little while. 
You know, I was able to suppress

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those the true, true things I 
wanted to do. 

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And yeah, I guess just over 
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out. 
And and then I accidentally got 

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on the Internet and saw a video 
of a mistress forcing a man to 

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be a woman and basically, I 
mean, pegging him, crushing his,

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his clit like, and I was like, I
want to be that girl or you 

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know, that that Sissy, like 
that's, that's who I am. 

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And it's just evolved and it's, 
it's just banging on the door 

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right now to get out. 
And it's just, it's terrible. 

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Like again, and some of the 
kinks that I've really thought 

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about that I want to do or just 
they're banging to get out. 

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Yeah, you know, the cravings are
just going to get worse, 

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unfortunately. 
Yeah, and I think the kinks, I 

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can eventually, you know, try or
do some of them. 

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One of them is a little silly, I
guess, and it obviously involves

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cats, but it's. 
Yeah, to to the listeners, we 

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have to reiterate this. 
You're always sending me 

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pictures of you and cute little 
kids. 

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Yes, ma'am. 
So that in itself is adorable. 

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Just saying but. 
But, you know, if I can, you 

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know, get a few of these things 
to happen, you know, it may help

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push me to that next step. 
Or, you know, if I or if I find 

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even a female friend that will 
literally just be like, hey, now

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you're going to do this, you 
know what I mean? 

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Even non sexually like this is 
what you're going to do, then 

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that would be phenomenal. 
You know what I mean? 

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Find a woman who I can share 
shoes and clothes with, you 

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know, And that would be, I mean,
that would be enough to, I 

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guess, keep the pot from boiling
over, so to speak. 

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Yeah, you have to find your true
happiness. 

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You really do. 
I know how difficult it is for 

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you because I see it with so 
many people and struggle. 

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The the whole concept of 
struggling through this, it's 

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difficult. 
Yes, ma'am. 

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I know, but. 
I guess we'll see. 

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You know, I'm I'm still, you 
know, I'm still fat, obviously. 

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And, you know, hopefully, you 
know, I can meet a female in 

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there that that would like a 
friend like me and, you know, 

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would not take no for an answer,
you know, but like, and I 

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thought I'd found one a while 
back. 

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It was probably a couple years 
ago. 

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But she was well, you don't want
to hear about that. 

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But it just didn't work. 
No, it's OK. 

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Go ahead and tell your story. 
I am I am very giving, like I 

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love to help others and and do 
things for others. 

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That's just who I am. 
Even before Whitney truly, you 

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know, over evolved, but you 
know, I met this one lady and 

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she was kind of what I wanted. 
She wanted, she wanted me to 

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transition and we happen to wear
the same size shoes and clothes.

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And so I was I would buy her. 
I probably bought her like 15 

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pairs of shoes, of course like 6
of them were cats. 

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But then I bought her a couple 
outfits and stuff like that and 

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then she just ghosted me. 
And I'd also paid her a little 

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bit of money and she just 
ghosted me. 

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And so it kind of that hurts 
because it's like some of these 

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women though, I don't, I don't 
mind. 

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Like I want to spoil a woman who
makes me, but it's almost like 

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though I want her to be able to 
enjoy this journey and want this

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to happen. 
And then but that's why I get 

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kind of shallow on that because 
a lot of women just want money. 

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Like they don't, they'll say 
what they have to do and they 

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cut shoes, clothes, whatever. 
And it's just like it, it almost

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like I know that like I've where
I'm at, I feel like this is 

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weird and and quirky and stuff, 
but that right there where it's 

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supposed to be, you know, it's 
supposed to be a place where I 

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can be myself really does push 
me back in the closet sometimes 

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because it's like, you know, you
basically just, you know, lied 

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to me and made me feel like like
shit, you know. 

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Yeah, I know. 
So. 

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People get wrapped up into it 
and then when it gets too real 

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and too deep, you know, they 
just, they shy away, you know, 

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they don't want to really deal 
with the whole realism. 

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And like the concept of this man
really wants a vagina and he 

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wants to be an HRT and he wants 
to go all the way, you know? 

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And it's harder when you're such
a sexy man. 

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If you were ugly, might be 
easier. 

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Yes, ma'am. 
And like, you know, I'm I'm 

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obviously talking with my my, 
you know, voice, but when I do 

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throw in a pair of jeans and 
boots and a shirt and you know, 

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I got really muscular. 
That's another problem too is 

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like I've gotten I know and you 
know, the muscles in the 8 pack 

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look great and jeans and boots, 
but not in a dress. 

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And you know, if a woman too 
wanted best of both worlds, like

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I could, I could compromise too.
That would be another thing. 

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Like obviously I'm going to be a
protector regardless of what I 

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do and I really don't have to 
transition. 

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But you know, if every once in a
while come home, you know, she's

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like, take that off, you're 
going to be with me, put this on

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and we're having a girls night. 
You know, best of both worlds. 

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You can have a a guy friend and 
a girlfriend, you know, husband 

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and wife, because if she did 
that, I'd be doing all the 

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chores, all the cleaning. 
I would want to do all the 

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chores because I could have you.
Talked to her about this. 

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Yes. 
And she so she tried to strap 

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on, she didn't really like it 
and she wore heads and let me 

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make out with them and stuff. 
And it just you could tell she 

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went into it and it was never 
brought up again. 

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So that's why though she's OK. 
Like if I had a female friend, 

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she don't mind if I go shopping 
or stuff like that because she's

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not into that. 
But she is open enough to let me

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have female friends and not 
think of it in a sexual way. 

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Because I mean, and honestly, I 
wouldn't, you know, I wouldn't 

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betray that, you know, because I
just, I want to be one of the 

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girls and you know, and then 
with those female friends, I'm 

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still one of the guys that I 
need to be, you know, so it's 

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just it is a different dynamic. 
And there there may be one 

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person out there that 
understands how I feel about it,

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but. 
If I'm like that, I know there's

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someone out there. 
I mean, right now I have a 

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lovely little Sissy slave 
because my husband, he's, he's 

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not a Sissy slave. 
So I have a nice little Sissy 

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slave and I dress him up and 
make him pretty and make him 

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wear high heels. 
You know, you can do this. 

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You can find someone like this. 
You know I'm going to look and 

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heck, maybe I just need to come 
back down here and clean your 

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house for you. 
I don't know. 

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Yes, you can come here anytime. 
I will dress you up. 

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You know, the alternative is I 
knew this, this one couple, 

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they're very good friends of 
mine, very sweet people. 

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They're both submissive, but 
they're best friends. 

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They got married, they fell in 
love. 

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So they basically draw their 
little love out of a hat. 

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Kind of. 
OK, whose night is it going to 

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be? 
You know, what are, what are we 

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going to do? 
Who's going to dominate who? 

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You know, the best thing of it 
is if you truly love your wife 

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and she truly loves you, you 
said, you know, you're lacking 

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intimacy, you're lacking sex. 
Does she not want to have sex? 

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Is it you not wanting to have 
sex? 

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It's me and I mean I want to, 
but it just now it just doesn't 

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work when I want to for that. 
Like it works for other things. 

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Like granted, I keep it locked 
up a lot, like it's locked up 

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right now, but it's like I 
tried, but I just I can't. 

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But like if a dominant woman, 
you know, if she was dominant, 

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it probably would. 
But I just, I've been alpha of 

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my entire life in the, you know,
in the real world, not in what I

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am. 
And it's just like, I'm tired of

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being alpha and tired of being 
dominant and I literally just 

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want to be someone Sissy bitch. 
And like, I need a woman to tell

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me, hey, you're going to do 
this. 

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And that could get me sexually 
aroused. 

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But we, we just don't. 
I just can't really do it. 

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It's embarrassing. 
I wish I could, but just can't. 

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00:21:50,360 --> 00:21:53,240
Yeah, it's a sad situation. 
It really is. 

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Ultimately, you're gonna have to
make a a decision that's gonna 

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have to impact yourself and her 
life. 

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Yeah. 
And I've been, you know, I've 

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talked to my counselor about 
that and I know that if, if 

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things do plays, you know, I've 
got a, it's, I've got a lot set 

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up for her because I do love her
and want to still be friends. 

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But, you know, there's, but I 
made sure no matter what, that 

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she's going to be taken care of.
So I mean, I've, I've got, let's

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just say I've got a hefty nest 
egg put away that it's, we do 

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split. 
She won't have to probably do 

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anything the rest of her life. 
That's wonderful for you to do 

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that, you know, again, have you 
maybe thought tell her, hey, let

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me bring a guy home for you? 
Would you like to see her have 

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sex with another man? 
Almost definitely like. 

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Exactly. 
But she I have tried that and 

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she doesn't want to. 
She's even even in this light 

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with Whitney, she still doesn't 
want a polyamorous type 

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relationship. 
So I mean, she'd rather us be 

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monogamous and not have sex than
you know, So it's, I mean, I'm 

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still working on it to see 
because like, I mean, heck, if 

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she was like, hey, I'm, I'm 
going to suck somebody's Dick to

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get the house clean before I get
home, Lord, I would be so happy.

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Like that would be heaven, you 
know, and then she'd come home, 

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tell me about it. 
Then I probably would want to 

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fuck her, you know, but but it's
a lot of, it's a lot of very 

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unstable bridges I'm trying to 
cross, you know, so. 

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That is, it's difficult. 
I find the more that you put in 

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towards your relationship, you 
know, women do waver. 

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You know, they, they ultimately 
they give in. 

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You know, if they truly love 
their partner, you know they're 

365
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going to do what makes them 
happy on so many levels. 

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You know there has to be an 
equal compromise between you and

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her. 
Yeah, and, and I have made a 

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little progress, like I said, 
with being able to have female 

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friends and, you know, and I'm, 
I'm fixing to have the talk with

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her that I want to, you know, go
to a friend of mine's, you know,

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go out of town, maybe to a 
friend's house. 

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And I'm just going to have a 
girls weekend and dress up. 

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And I'm not even going to bring 
men's clothes at all. 

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So even if, you know, she wants 
to go somewhere like to lunch or

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something like that where I have
to wear that, like that's. 

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And so I'm going to, I'm going 
to talk to her and be like, hey,

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I really do need this and just 
see what happens. 

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00:24:31,080 --> 00:24:35,200
Yeah, I totally understand that.
I totally do. 

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Like I said, you're more than 
welcome to come down here. 

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You know, I'm happy to give you 
an entire weekend of any type of

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fun you want to do. 
We will do it. 

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Yeah, I will. 
I will hopefully take you up on 

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that for sure. 
I would love to do that with 

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you. 
So and then of course, you know,

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as long as I can clean and do 
chores. 

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00:24:58,280 --> 00:25:00,960
Oh absolutely. 
And maybe suck some cock for me 

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and. 
Whatever you want, honestly, I 

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mean literally, it'll be 
whatever you want as long as I'm

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dressed up and you make me, It's
literally whatever you want me 

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to do. 
I mean absolutely. 

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And that's how I love to be. 
I love to, I literally just want

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to serve a woman. 
Like I literally want to do 

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whatever she whatever she asks. 
Like that's that's what makes me

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happy. 
That's what makes me feel my 

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purpose. 
Like, yeah. 

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And as long as I can dress up 
like I literally whatever it's, 

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it's my happiness is being able 
to accomplish things for others,

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you know, and let them enjoy it.
You know, if a woman loves 

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seeing a Sissy suck a cock, well
then I'll do it. 

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If she wants me to take a cock, 
well, I'll take one like it. 

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00:25:44,480 --> 00:25:46,560
You know, as long as she's 
happy, then I'm happy. 

402
00:25:46,880 --> 00:25:48,800
Love it, couldn't make me 
happier. 

403
00:25:50,520 --> 00:25:56,440
Yes, and we can match our kids. 
Exactly, but my feet have gotten

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smaller, so you're going to have
to give me a new pair. 

405
00:25:59,160 --> 00:26:01,960
What size do you wear now? 
I'm like a nine. 

406
00:26:02,640 --> 00:26:04,400
I used to be a 10. 
I'm back. 

407
00:26:04,480 --> 00:26:08,520
I'm like a 90. 
Honey, I'll wear size, you know,

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00:26:08,520 --> 00:26:11,560
9 to 10 roughly because 
remember, I wore 10's and I 

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think those kids I got, you were
an 11. 

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00:26:13,640 --> 00:26:16,440
They were, yeah. 
We can still put them to good 

411
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use, but I'll get you an. 
Yeah, give me a new pair. 

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00:26:19,960 --> 00:26:22,880
I'd like them in red or pink, 
just FYI. 

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I've got a pair size 9 in pink, 
so I'll get you I'll I'll, I'll 

414
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bring those to you and I'll get 
you some red ones. 

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00:26:31,040 --> 00:26:32,840
Perfect. 
It'll get you any shoes you 

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want, man. 
Oh, look at you. 

417
00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:37,080
Come on now. 
But I weren't married. 

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But we'll go to the salon, we'll
get all our nails done and like 

419
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I said, we'll get some cocks 
lined up. 

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I'm down to clown, you know me. 
Yes, ma'am. 

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And if you honestly, if you have
a party or something and you 

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want to make me serve for it, I 
will, you know? 

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Well, so I'm, I'm having one 
that is going to be like a 

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commitment ceremony for some 
friends the 13th of next month. 

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And then after that I'm doing 
one probably in November. 

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So it's entirely up to you. 
OK, well I would love that. 

427
00:27:14,720 --> 00:27:18,600
Like I think too, like if you 
ever like I would, and I'd 

428
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probably honestly, I would, I 
would fund the whole party. 

429
00:27:21,440 --> 00:27:23,640
If you just had a bunch of girls
over there and I just had to 

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serve them, we could do like a 
kid's party. 

431
00:27:26,760 --> 00:27:29,160
I'm just kidding, hey. 
We can do that. 

432
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Serious. 
You think I'm. 

433
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Yeah, I'm down. 
I would not complain about that 

434
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at all. 
Well, we'll, we'll figure it out

435
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and I'll buy have whatever 
ladies want to come. 

436
00:27:39,760 --> 00:27:42,320
I'll buy their kids and their 
size and then we can just have a

437
00:27:42,880 --> 00:27:45,280
little, little party. 
All right. 

438
00:27:45,360 --> 00:27:48,400
But but yeah, I'm, that's, 
that's the stuff I need. 

439
00:27:48,440 --> 00:27:52,160
That's what I need to kind of, 
you know, fulfill my happiness. 

440
00:27:52,760 --> 00:27:57,600
Wonderful, but I can still grope
you and feel your abs. 

441
00:27:58,040 --> 00:28:01,560
Oh, 100%. 
OK, and I'll call you my sweet 

442
00:28:01,560 --> 00:28:04,960
sexy little girl. 
Play with your Dick while you 

443
00:28:04,960 --> 00:28:06,720
suck a cock. 
We'll be down. 

444
00:28:07,360 --> 00:28:09,520
Well, can we call it a clip 
because it just makes. 

445
00:28:09,760 --> 00:28:11,960
Yeah, we'll call it a clip. 
Thank you I'm. 

446
00:28:12,360 --> 00:28:14,160
Sure, it's not that big now is 
it? 

447
00:28:14,480 --> 00:28:16,520
The cages have really helped it 
shrink a little bit. 

448
00:28:16,520 --> 00:28:21,320
Too perfect and I want to get 
into a flat cage. 

449
00:28:21,320 --> 00:28:23,280
I found one that's got vagina 
lips on it. 

450
00:28:23,280 --> 00:28:25,120
It's all. 
That the pink ones. 

451
00:28:25,280 --> 00:28:30,000
Oh yeah, I love it. 
But yes, but whatever, whatever 

452
00:28:30,000 --> 00:28:32,720
you want, like I said, whatever 
you want to do, like I'll 

453
00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:35,480
anything. 
Let's do it. 

454
00:28:36,160 --> 00:28:43,720
Yes, ma'am. 
So, but I'll say yeah, so we'll 

455
00:28:43,720 --> 00:28:46,560
definitely. 
And then like, oh God, Ked's 

456
00:28:46,560 --> 00:28:50,280
party would be soap on. 
You got it. 

457
00:28:50,280 --> 00:28:52,520
We'll do it. 
And don't worry, I won't be 

458
00:28:52,520 --> 00:28:54,440
trying to kiss all their kids 
so. 

459
00:28:55,880 --> 00:28:59,160
I'll share you. 
Yes, ma'am, I'm going to. 

460
00:28:59,360 --> 00:29:02,160
Share you sexy bitch. 
Why not? 

461
00:29:03,040 --> 00:29:04,800
That's a fact. 
It is. 

462
00:29:04,960 --> 00:29:06,400
It's true. 
And I'm telling you. 

463
00:29:06,400 --> 00:29:09,280
You know how many of my friends 
would love to fucking grope you 

464
00:29:09,280 --> 00:29:10,920
and do dirty things to you? 
Yeah. 

465
00:29:11,360 --> 00:29:12,840
Why is that? 
Just because. 

466
00:29:13,320 --> 00:29:16,200
Just because they love fucking 
crossdressers? 

467
00:29:17,120 --> 00:29:17,920
Oh yeah? 
Well, lovely. 

468
00:29:17,920 --> 00:29:19,840
Well, I need to meet them too 
then, yeah. 

469
00:29:19,880 --> 00:29:21,160
You do? 
Yeah. 

470
00:29:21,160 --> 00:29:23,560
We can do a sexy scene, we can 
spank you. 

471
00:29:23,560 --> 00:29:25,400
We'll do all sorts of dirty 
things to you. 

472
00:29:26,240 --> 00:29:28,040
Smell literally whatever y'all 
want to do. 

473
00:29:28,600 --> 00:29:32,960
All right, I can't wait. 
So thank you for joining us as 

474
00:29:32,960 --> 00:29:36,280
always. 
And until then, this has been 

475
00:29:36,280 --> 00:29:39,680
the latest episode of Call Me 
Mistress.