1 00:00:13,040 --> 00:00:15,480 What's up guys? My name's Alexis, your host with 2 00:00:15,480 --> 00:00:19,040 praises in the pod, and I'm so excited to have Lindsay Walker. 3 00:00:19,320 --> 00:00:23,280 We went to high school together and we this girl has seen me at 4 00:00:23,280 --> 00:00:26,400 my worst, but we are going to be talking about her today. 5 00:00:26,480 --> 00:00:28,480 So we are super excited about that. 6 00:00:28,480 --> 00:00:30,440 Let's start off in prayer and then we're going to jump right 7 00:00:30,440 --> 00:00:31,120 in. So here we go. 8 00:00:31,680 --> 00:00:34,640 Lord Heavenly Father, thank you for today and all of your many 9 00:00:34,640 --> 00:00:37,000 blessings. Dear God, thank you for allowing 10 00:00:37,000 --> 00:00:40,240 us to meet in a different season of our lives, Lord God, and just 11 00:00:40,240 --> 00:00:44,960 watch each other grow. I'm just so like encouraged by 12 00:00:44,960 --> 00:00:48,000 Lindsey story and I just pray that others see some 13 00:00:48,000 --> 00:00:50,760 encouragement and get pushed closer to Christ because of the 14 00:00:50,760 --> 00:00:53,960 way that she lives for you. Lord God, we just pray that you 15 00:00:53,960 --> 00:00:56,720 speak to us and through US today and let this glorify you. 16 00:00:56,720 --> 00:00:59,680 In Jesus name I pray Amen, Amen, Amen. 17 00:00:59,680 --> 00:01:03,680 So like I said, Lindsay doesn't see me in high school y'all and 18 00:01:03,680 --> 00:01:07,280 I y'all have heard about me BC and it was not nice. 19 00:01:07,280 --> 00:01:10,360 OK, it was not good. But before we jump in, I just 20 00:01:10,360 --> 00:01:12,840 want to say like I kind of told you a little bit about this 21 00:01:12,840 --> 00:01:16,480 before we started, but like watching you in high school, you 22 00:01:16,480 --> 00:01:19,360 already lived a set apart life like you could. 23 00:01:19,360 --> 00:01:22,160 You radiated. Jesus did radiated. 24 00:01:22,160 --> 00:01:23,200 Yeah. Is that the right word? 25 00:01:23,200 --> 00:01:24,480 That's it. You. 26 00:01:24,480 --> 00:01:29,080 Just had that glow about you and not that you ever condemned 27 00:01:29,080 --> 00:01:32,400 anybody or you like shamed anybody for the way that we were 28 00:01:32,400 --> 00:01:35,200 living or anything like that. But truly when I was around you, 29 00:01:35,200 --> 00:01:39,640 I was convicted because the Lord was just all over you, right? 30 00:01:39,640 --> 00:01:42,560 And like when we get around certain people, you know, and 31 00:01:42,560 --> 00:01:46,040 they really are walking it out with the Lord, that conviction 32 00:01:46,160 --> 00:01:48,600 is on yourself. Like, you see, you should be 33 00:01:48,600 --> 00:01:51,520 living in a different capacity. And so when I was thinking about 34 00:01:51,520 --> 00:01:54,840 you coming on, I'm like, yes, like I want to hear more of your 35 00:01:54,840 --> 00:01:57,800 story and just see like how you fell in love with the Lord at a 36 00:01:57,800 --> 00:01:59,680 young age. So that's what we're going to. 37 00:01:59,760 --> 00:02:01,280 Do absolutely all right. Happy to share. 38 00:02:01,360 --> 00:02:02,880 Yes. Let's jump right in, girl. 39 00:02:02,880 --> 00:02:05,280 Start us a little bit at your childhood and we'll work our way 40 00:02:05,280 --> 00:02:07,880 up, OK? Yeah, So I was raised in a 41 00:02:07,880 --> 00:02:10,360 Christian home. Both of my parents growing up 42 00:02:10,360 --> 00:02:13,360 were believers. My mom actually became a 43 00:02:13,360 --> 00:02:14,640 believer when she was pregnant with me. 44 00:02:14,640 --> 00:02:16,720 Oh, wow. So I tell people I was baptized 45 00:02:16,720 --> 00:02:17,480 twice. Amen. 46 00:02:17,520 --> 00:02:19,520 In her belly. And then, like, when I got 47 00:02:19,520 --> 00:02:20,600 baptized. That's good. 48 00:02:20,600 --> 00:02:23,120 And then my dad was not raised in a Christian home. 49 00:02:23,720 --> 00:02:27,600 He got saved in college. And so growing up, I knew the 50 00:02:27,600 --> 00:02:30,360 Bible. We were in church all the time. 51 00:02:31,080 --> 00:02:33,600 I knew all the right things to say. 52 00:02:33,600 --> 00:02:36,160 I knew the Gospel. I knew what it meant to have a 53 00:02:36,160 --> 00:02:40,560 relationship with Jesus. I was a chronic people pleaser 54 00:02:40,880 --> 00:02:43,200 and not at the fault of my parents. 55 00:02:43,200 --> 00:02:44,240 They never taught me to be this way. 56 00:02:44,240 --> 00:02:46,400 I think it's just my natural sin nature. 57 00:02:47,000 --> 00:02:51,160 I sought the approval of people, my parents. 58 00:02:51,160 --> 00:02:53,440 First of all, I live to please my parents. 59 00:02:53,440 --> 00:02:56,840 I live to please anybody in authority over me, my teachers, 60 00:02:57,160 --> 00:03:00,720 people at church. And it was like it was to the 61 00:03:00,720 --> 00:03:04,560 point to where I I knew I didn't have a relationship with Jesus. 62 00:03:04,560 --> 00:03:07,560 I knew that. And as long as everybody else 63 00:03:07,560 --> 00:03:10,520 that I did, I was OK. That's kind of like how I lived. 64 00:03:10,560 --> 00:03:14,760 And when I was 8, my dad got called into the ministry. 65 00:03:15,400 --> 00:03:19,600 So he was a teacher and a coach and then felt calling to go be a 66 00:03:19,600 --> 00:03:21,160 pastor. And so he became a pastor. 67 00:03:21,560 --> 00:03:24,520 And that just like upped the ante for me. 68 00:03:24,760 --> 00:03:28,080 I felt even more like I had to perform, that I had to be good. 69 00:03:28,440 --> 00:03:34,200 And it was exhausting. I looking back around probably 70 00:03:34,200 --> 00:03:37,840 the age of 1011, God really started working on my heart. 71 00:03:37,840 --> 00:03:39,560 The Holy Spirit really started to pursue me. 72 00:03:39,960 --> 00:03:42,520 And I didn't know it then, but looking back like that's what it 73 00:03:42,520 --> 00:03:45,920 was, it got to the point there was no peace in my life. 74 00:03:45,920 --> 00:03:50,520 Even as a kid, like 10 years old, I couldn't sleep at night 75 00:03:50,840 --> 00:03:54,520 because just the thought of eternity, the thought of my 76 00:03:54,520 --> 00:03:56,120 relationship with Jesus was constantly on my mind. 77 00:03:56,120 --> 00:03:59,400 It was a burden on me performing, being fake, all of 78 00:03:59,400 --> 00:04:01,840 that. It was such a heavy sin burden 79 00:04:01,840 --> 00:04:05,760 to carry. And it all just kind of 80 00:04:05,840 --> 00:04:07,800 culminated to a point where I couldn't do it anymore. 81 00:04:08,200 --> 00:04:12,720 And as a 10 year old little girl, my pride was keeping me 82 00:04:12,720 --> 00:04:17,360 from Jesus. And one night I just, I was 83 00:04:17,360 --> 00:04:18,399 exhausted, couldn't do it anymore. 84 00:04:18,399 --> 00:04:20,279 I went and got my dad. I told him I was like, I got to 85 00:04:20,279 --> 00:04:21,920 get saved. And he was like, well, you know 86 00:04:21,920 --> 00:04:23,560 what to do. And I was like, I do. 87 00:04:23,560 --> 00:04:26,560 And so that's when I confess my sin. 88 00:04:26,800 --> 00:04:29,760 And I chose to be in a relationship with Jesus, like 89 00:04:29,760 --> 00:04:34,360 genuinely and just the burden lifted. 90 00:04:34,560 --> 00:04:36,840 Peace. You know, you hear people talk 91 00:04:36,840 --> 00:04:39,680 about peace beyond understanding like that was it. 92 00:04:40,760 --> 00:04:44,080 Which is so, like, it's so beautiful to think of a like a 93 00:04:44,080 --> 00:04:45,200 10 year old to. Yeah. 94 00:04:45,840 --> 00:04:48,560 And it wasn't even like you're in like this church service 95 00:04:48,560 --> 00:04:51,920 where, yeah, emotions are high and the, and the, the Holy 96 00:04:51,920 --> 00:04:53,880 Spirit's moving like you're alone. 97 00:04:53,920 --> 00:04:56,440 Yeah, at your, like in your house, I'm guessing. 98 00:04:56,440 --> 00:04:58,080 Yeah. And like you're like, Lord, 99 00:04:58,320 --> 00:05:00,120 today's the day. You know what? 100 00:05:00,120 --> 00:05:03,680 I it's all of it. And the song, the blood, I keep 101 00:05:03,680 --> 00:05:05,520 singing it all the time. And it's like, and when you're 102 00:05:05,520 --> 00:05:07,360 talking about it, it's not about performance. 103 00:05:07,360 --> 00:05:11,040 Like we can, we can know what the word says, but until you 104 00:05:11,040 --> 00:05:14,680 truly surrender and give it up, it's, it is performance. 105 00:05:14,680 --> 00:05:16,200 Yeah. When you're when you're holding 106 00:05:16,200 --> 00:05:19,000 on to your life and you're just trying to make it look like this 107 00:05:19,000 --> 00:05:20,800 perfect bow, that is performance. 108 00:05:20,800 --> 00:05:23,080 Yeah, and it's exhausting. Yeah, I bet your dad was like, 109 00:05:23,200 --> 00:05:24,560 oh. Oh, he was shocked. 110 00:05:24,560 --> 00:05:25,800 Yeah, he was. But. 111 00:05:25,840 --> 00:05:28,200 You know what that that's good though, girl. 112 00:05:28,200 --> 00:05:31,120 I bet he was shocked, but he was like, that ain't the lawyer. 113 00:05:31,160 --> 00:05:33,160 Yes, he was. Yeah, absolutely. 114 00:05:33,480 --> 00:05:37,800 And I'll be honest, like even still throughout my journey, 115 00:05:37,800 --> 00:05:41,440 even still today, like that's something that Satan will use to 116 00:05:42,240 --> 00:05:45,800 kind of just mess with my, my mind because I, I took that 117 00:05:45,800 --> 00:05:49,480 people pleaser mentality into my relationship with Jesus. 118 00:05:49,480 --> 00:05:53,960 Like I, I equated that kind of spilled over into my spiritual 119 00:05:53,960 --> 00:05:56,360 life. And even sometimes I'll revert 120 00:05:56,360 --> 00:05:59,640 back to that where I, I think I'm very much like a checklist 121 00:05:59,640 --> 00:06:02,440 person. And so sometimes if I'm not 122 00:06:02,440 --> 00:06:06,320 careful, Satan will use that and it'll become a checklist like, 123 00:06:06,320 --> 00:06:08,440 well, I have to read my Bible and read this much and do this, 124 00:06:08,440 --> 00:06:12,360 this and this, you know, or am I really even following the Lord 125 00:06:12,360 --> 00:06:15,560 if I'm not doing all of that, you know, And, and like, that's 126 00:06:15,560 --> 00:06:19,000 why it's so important that I preach the gospel to myself 127 00:06:19,400 --> 00:06:23,280 constantly, you know, regularly, because if I don't, Satan will 128 00:06:23,280 --> 00:06:27,160 use that and I go back to that. And so I, I'm actually doing a 129 00:06:27,160 --> 00:06:30,920 study on Romans right now and chapters one through 5 is so 130 00:06:30,920 --> 00:06:33,560 good. It's such a beautiful display 131 00:06:33,560 --> 00:06:36,000 and reminder of like what the gospel truly is. 132 00:06:36,000 --> 00:06:38,440 And it is. It has nothing to do with me. 133 00:06:38,720 --> 00:06:41,800 It has nothing to do with me. I can't be good enough. 134 00:06:41,920 --> 00:06:44,800 I can't do anything. My obedience, my faithfulness, 135 00:06:45,080 --> 00:06:47,160 it's not enough like that. That's not what saves me. 136 00:06:47,360 --> 00:06:50,760 Those are a byproduct of my salvation, right, but it doesn't 137 00:06:50,760 --> 00:06:52,640 save me. And so just reminding myself 138 00:06:52,640 --> 00:06:56,080 like it was all Jesus, right, everything that he did, that's 139 00:06:56,080 --> 00:07:00,240 the gospel and just reminding I have I have to stop and remind 140 00:07:00,240 --> 00:07:02,680 myself of that. Otherwise, you know, and it and 141 00:07:02,680 --> 00:07:06,240 it's a pride thing like I, I put my trust in myself instead of 142 00:07:06,520 --> 00:07:08,480 the work of. Jesus, I'm glad you mentioned 143 00:07:08,480 --> 00:07:11,000 like about reading and you're like, it's not about me. 144 00:07:11,000 --> 00:07:13,400 Like you know when I'm nothing is about me. 145 00:07:13,560 --> 00:07:15,800 And there's so many times that we open up the Bible, right? 146 00:07:15,800 --> 00:07:18,960 And we're looking for the answer that we're seeking and we're 147 00:07:18,960 --> 00:07:21,440 like trying to make about us. Like. 148 00:07:21,720 --> 00:07:24,520 We are Lord. Are you going to answer me? 149 00:07:24,920 --> 00:07:27,160 Are you going to answer what I'm asking you? 150 00:07:27,160 --> 00:07:31,120 Because I've been bad about this like of like truly where I'm 151 00:07:31,120 --> 00:07:33,960 seeking, seeking, seeking, and I'm only reading to find that 152 00:07:33,960 --> 00:07:35,440 answer. Where where are you speaking to 153 00:07:35,440 --> 00:07:36,760 me? Where are you like? 154 00:07:36,760 --> 00:07:38,280 So that's good that you said that. 155 00:07:38,280 --> 00:07:39,680 I love that. That's a good nugget, right? 156 00:07:39,680 --> 00:07:40,840 There, absolutely. It's good. 157 00:07:41,080 --> 00:07:43,000 All right, going up, girl. Yeah, so. 158 00:07:43,800 --> 00:07:47,280 Moving into like middle school, high school, middle schools, 159 00:07:47,280 --> 00:07:50,480 when I started reading God's word for myself for the first 160 00:07:50,480 --> 00:07:54,200 time, I started really studying Scripture and I, I wasn't doing 161 00:07:54,200 --> 00:07:57,320 anything fancy. I was waking up early before 162 00:07:57,320 --> 00:07:59,480 school. I would read a chapter of the 163 00:07:59,480 --> 00:08:01,120 Bible and then I would just journal. 164 00:08:01,160 --> 00:08:03,880 I would just write, you know, what do I think this is speaking 165 00:08:03,880 --> 00:08:05,520 to me about? What do I think God's saying 166 00:08:05,520 --> 00:08:09,120 here? And that transformed my life 167 00:08:09,120 --> 00:08:11,200 like that is when my faith went to the next level. 168 00:08:11,200 --> 00:08:14,360 When I started reading God's word, I fell in love with his 169 00:08:14,360 --> 00:08:19,240 word and moving into high school, like I, my Christian 170 00:08:19,240 --> 00:08:22,360 walk was like very consistent. I never really had a rebellious 171 00:08:22,360 --> 00:08:26,400 streak or a rebellious stage. And I, I truly think it's 172 00:08:26,400 --> 00:08:28,560 because I was in love with God's word. 173 00:08:28,560 --> 00:08:32,120 Like I was waking up every morning and reading it and 174 00:08:32,120 --> 00:08:35,600 studying it. And I paired with that, like my 175 00:08:35,600 --> 00:08:39,159 parents prayed a lot for me and I, I know that they prayed I 176 00:08:39,159 --> 00:08:41,720 would be surrounded by godly people. 177 00:08:41,720 --> 00:08:45,600 And you know, I believe I wrote their prayers 1000%. 178 00:08:45,600 --> 00:08:49,800 And so middle school and high school, like me and Jesus, we 179 00:08:49,800 --> 00:08:51,200 were tight. We walked close together. 180 00:08:51,480 --> 00:08:56,320 And I, I still struggled with the people, people pleasing side 181 00:08:56,320 --> 00:09:00,320 of things. And more so probably in college. 182 00:09:00,320 --> 00:09:04,600 As I moved into college, I kind of saw it. 183 00:09:05,000 --> 00:09:08,280 No longer was I in my little bubble of, you know, my church 184 00:09:08,280 --> 00:09:10,880 friends or even my, even my parents. 185 00:09:10,880 --> 00:09:13,120 Like nobody was telling me to wake up and go to church on 186 00:09:13,120 --> 00:09:15,080 Sundays. Like not that was like my choice 187 00:09:15,080 --> 00:09:16,480 now. You came out from that umbrella. 188 00:09:16,600 --> 00:09:18,920 Right, correct, which was a which was great for my faith. 189 00:09:18,920 --> 00:09:23,600 It really became my own and I still battled that people please 190 00:09:23,600 --> 00:09:26,520 your side of me, especially in like dating, relationships, 191 00:09:26,760 --> 00:09:30,120 friendships, like even to the point where I would lose myself 192 00:09:30,120 --> 00:09:32,280 a little bit, it would make me a little bit insecure. 193 00:09:33,680 --> 00:09:36,040 But I mean, I was still pursuing the Lord. 194 00:09:36,040 --> 00:09:40,840 I was still in my Bible, you know, for the first time as I 195 00:09:40,840 --> 00:09:43,920 was making new friends, people that were believers, people that 196 00:09:43,920 --> 00:09:47,600 weren't believers, I was asked to like go out and party and 197 00:09:47,600 --> 00:09:50,440 like join that scene. And I never really got asked 198 00:09:50,440 --> 00:09:52,440 that in high school 'cause I think people just knew, like 199 00:09:53,040 --> 00:09:55,520 they knew my answer I was, it wasn't going to happen. 200 00:09:55,680 --> 00:09:58,560 So if you know, for the first time in college, I have to tell 201 00:09:58,560 --> 00:10:01,880 people like, I don't do that. And I had to know why and give 202 00:10:01,880 --> 00:10:04,440 reasons for that and give reasons for why I do what I do 203 00:10:04,440 --> 00:10:05,440 and why I believe what I believe. 204 00:10:05,760 --> 00:10:10,320 So that was that was good. It was a it was a good step in 205 00:10:10,320 --> 00:10:13,040 my faith, I would say. So, yeah. 206 00:10:13,040 --> 00:10:19,520 Moving into like, so I graduate college and I get my first 207 00:10:19,520 --> 00:10:21,080 teaching job. I went to school to be a teacher 208 00:10:21,960 --> 00:10:25,920 and I'm working at a local middle school here and about a 209 00:10:25,920 --> 00:10:29,680 year in I meet my now husband Joey. 210 00:10:30,240 --> 00:10:35,440 He's also a teacher there and I coached softball and he asked if 211 00:10:35,960 --> 00:10:40,040 I needed help coaching softball. So I mean, he had his 212 00:10:40,040 --> 00:10:42,480 intentions, whatever. But at the point I was like, 213 00:10:42,480 --> 00:10:47,080 yeah, of course I need help. And so pretty quickly I, I 214 00:10:47,080 --> 00:10:51,000 figured out, OK, he's interested and I friend zoned him hard, 215 00:10:51,120 --> 00:10:53,640 real hard for the first year. Yes. 216 00:10:53,640 --> 00:10:56,280 And, and the reason being like I'm at a point in my life now 217 00:10:56,280 --> 00:11:01,120 where like the next guy I marry, I've dated like he, I want to 218 00:11:01,200 --> 00:11:04,880 find my husband and I knew I wanted to marry somebody that 219 00:11:04,880 --> 00:11:09,800 could lead me spiritually. And I at the time, honestly, I 220 00:11:09,800 --> 00:11:11,560 just wasn't sure if that was Joey. 221 00:11:11,760 --> 00:11:15,160 He grew up in a home that he was taught about the Lord. 222 00:11:15,160 --> 00:11:18,240 He was taught about God, but he was never really taught about 223 00:11:18,640 --> 00:11:20,080 how to have a relationship with Jesus. 224 00:11:21,360 --> 00:11:24,360 And so he had actually gotten saved in high school through an 225 00:11:24,360 --> 00:11:27,080 FCA event. Yeah, which is really cool to 226 00:11:27,080 --> 00:11:28,240 our whole story a little bit there. 227 00:11:28,640 --> 00:11:31,920 Yeah. He got saved at AFCA event in 228 00:11:31,920 --> 00:11:35,760 high school and was never discipled. 229 00:11:35,760 --> 00:11:39,160 Like no one ever came along and just, you know, taught him how 230 00:11:39,160 --> 00:11:41,360 to read scripture or how to walk with the Lord. 231 00:11:41,680 --> 00:11:44,680 And so when I met him, he was so very much like a baby Christian. 232 00:11:45,560 --> 00:11:51,600 And so that's partly why he got friend zoned and so over we 233 00:11:51,600 --> 00:11:53,160 developed a really, really good friendship. 234 00:11:53,280 --> 00:11:57,920 And through that we had good gospel conversations. 235 00:11:57,920 --> 00:12:00,800 We talked about the Lord. And on his own he started to 236 00:12:00,800 --> 00:12:03,840 come to church. He got involved in a small 237 00:12:03,840 --> 00:12:05,480 group. I was not involved in that. 238 00:12:05,480 --> 00:12:07,160 He got involved in his out group, is he? 239 00:12:07,360 --> 00:12:09,680 Coming to your church? Yes, he's coming to my church 240 00:12:10,080 --> 00:12:14,720 and he started reading scripture and he like he was like a 241 00:12:14,720 --> 00:12:17,760 sponge. He just soaked it up and he dove 242 00:12:17,760 --> 00:12:19,720 in. He like got a commentary. 243 00:12:19,720 --> 00:12:25,520 He was like studying and he within like that year. 244 00:12:25,720 --> 00:12:29,400 I tell people, you know, it takes people 1020 years. 245 00:12:29,400 --> 00:12:32,640 So like I thought he fit 1020 years of walking with Jesus in 246 00:12:32,640 --> 00:12:34,600 like a year. He just, his faith exploded. 247 00:12:35,880 --> 00:12:40,800 And so OK, I re evaluated and I was like, OK, he loves the Lord, 248 00:12:40,800 --> 00:12:44,560 He's following the Lord. You know, he's sharing his 249 00:12:44,560 --> 00:12:47,080 testimony and his story, sharing the gospel. 250 00:12:47,080 --> 00:12:49,960 And so we started dating shortly after that. 251 00:12:50,240 --> 00:12:55,680 We got engaged and at that point I was like, OK, we are about to 252 00:12:55,680 --> 00:12:58,400 be married, living together, then we're going to be working 253 00:12:58,400 --> 00:13:00,000 together now we're going to be coaching together. 254 00:13:00,000 --> 00:13:01,400 That's a little too much. That's a lot. 255 00:13:01,400 --> 00:13:04,280 That's a lot. So I was like, all right, so I 256 00:13:04,280 --> 00:13:08,600 moved to a different school and during our engagement, you know, 257 00:13:08,600 --> 00:13:10,920 you talk about all the things and we knew we wanted to have 258 00:13:10,920 --> 00:13:18,880 kids pretty pretty quickly. And so I had told him, like when 259 00:13:18,880 --> 00:13:21,840 we start having kids, I want to keep working. 260 00:13:21,960 --> 00:13:24,160 Like I don't want, I don't want to be a stay at home mom. 261 00:13:24,200 --> 00:13:27,160 Yeah, my plan is I'm going to keep working. 262 00:13:27,360 --> 00:13:29,400 I love my job. My passion was teaching. 263 00:13:29,400 --> 00:13:30,760 I loved it and I want to keep doing it. 264 00:13:32,000 --> 00:13:33,520 Go hate on stay at home moms y'all got? 265 00:13:33,640 --> 00:13:35,800 Absolutely not, y'all are fantastic. 266 00:13:35,800 --> 00:13:38,920 But you know, some people do like you, just your mental 267 00:13:38,920 --> 00:13:41,720 health personally, you don't seem like the person that you 268 00:13:41,720 --> 00:13:43,840 could like you, not that you couldn't. 269 00:13:44,400 --> 00:13:46,960 I'm I'm digging a hole. But anyway, you know, like you 270 00:13:46,960 --> 00:13:49,360 just have that personality. Like I don't think I personally 271 00:13:49,360 --> 00:13:51,720 could or I'd run myself crazy. Yeah, you know, so. 272 00:13:51,720 --> 00:13:54,680 Well, just wait. We make plans and then, you 273 00:13:54,680 --> 00:14:01,680 know, God has other plans. So I said that's line in the 274 00:14:01,680 --> 00:14:06,360 sand. And at this new job, I start out 275 00:14:06,360 --> 00:14:07,920 and I am just absolutely miserable. 276 00:14:08,880 --> 00:14:13,240 And I cannot to this day I can't tell you why, because I love 277 00:14:13,240 --> 00:14:16,080 teaching. I love the school, I loved my 278 00:14:16,080 --> 00:14:18,520 admin, I love the people that I was working with. 279 00:14:18,840 --> 00:14:23,520 I was miserable. And I had a friend at the time, 280 00:14:23,520 --> 00:14:27,840 she ran the half day preschool at my church, the weekday 281 00:14:27,840 --> 00:14:30,400 preschool. And I had kind of shared, you 282 00:14:30,400 --> 00:14:33,560 know, what was going on and she just randomly asked me one day 283 00:14:33,560 --> 00:14:36,120 she was like, do you would you want to come teach kindergarten 284 00:14:36,120 --> 00:14:38,920 at the half day preschool? Actually, matter of fact, yeah. 285 00:14:39,800 --> 00:14:41,280 Well, at first I was like, absolutely not. 286 00:14:41,560 --> 00:14:45,240 Like, no, I cannot do that. That is not responsible because 287 00:14:45,240 --> 00:14:48,280 it'd be a huge financial cut. We know we want to have kids 288 00:14:48,280 --> 00:14:49,480 pretty quick. They're expensive. 289 00:14:50,600 --> 00:14:54,120 And it just didn't seem like the responsible decision. 290 00:14:54,120 --> 00:14:56,400 Like I am fully capable of working part time. 291 00:14:57,120 --> 00:14:59,080 We don't have any kids now. We're not even married yet, you 292 00:14:59,080 --> 00:15:03,760 know, and why would I leave my perfectly good full time job to 293 00:15:03,760 --> 00:15:07,160 go work part time? Like it just didn't make sense. 294 00:15:07,320 --> 00:15:10,080 And it honestly seemed irresponsible, maybe a little 295 00:15:10,080 --> 00:15:12,200 lazy. Like I'm, I could work full 296 00:15:12,200 --> 00:15:15,000 time. And so my initial response was 297 00:15:15,000 --> 00:15:18,640 no, no. And I went back and kind of, you 298 00:15:18,640 --> 00:15:21,760 know, mentioned it to Joey. Like, let me tell you what she 299 00:15:21,760 --> 00:15:23,760 said. And he immediately was like, you 300 00:15:23,760 --> 00:15:25,600 should do it. Wow. 301 00:15:25,600 --> 00:15:27,640 I was like, what? But that's him. 302 00:15:27,640 --> 00:15:30,440 Like, he is just, he's all in, right? 303 00:15:30,720 --> 00:15:32,320 And he has so much faith. He's incredible. 304 00:15:33,080 --> 00:15:34,440 You should totally have him on your podcast one day. 305 00:15:34,440 --> 00:15:37,080 We should have done it. Together, we'll circle back. 306 00:15:37,080 --> 00:15:41,080 We'll circle back. So and I'm always the hesitant 307 00:15:41,080 --> 00:15:44,520 one, right? And he was like, yeah, you 308 00:15:44,520 --> 00:15:46,160 should do it. And I just started listening off 309 00:15:46,160 --> 00:15:48,040 the reasons like no, absolutely like. 310 00:15:48,040 --> 00:15:50,920 This, this, this and this. And he's like, Lindsay, you're 311 00:15:50,920 --> 00:15:53,960 miserable. You know, if at least explore, 312 00:15:53,960 --> 00:15:55,920 maybe this is a door like the Lord's opening. 313 00:15:56,680 --> 00:15:59,240 And if the Lord opens the door, like he's going to provide, like 314 00:15:59,240 --> 00:16:01,120 we're not going to have to worry financially like he's going to 315 00:16:01,120 --> 00:16:06,120 provide for us. And so I told him I would pray 316 00:16:06,120 --> 00:16:07,480 about it and I did. I prayed about it. 317 00:16:07,480 --> 00:16:11,960 And honestly, for about a month, month and a half, I struggled 318 00:16:12,120 --> 00:16:17,520 with that decision just because there wasn't like a clear yes or 319 00:16:17,520 --> 00:16:19,120 no. I wasn't getting a clear yes or 320 00:16:19,120 --> 00:16:22,120 no. Like logically I knew that it 321 00:16:22,560 --> 00:16:27,360 didn't make sense to like leave my full time job and go work 322 00:16:27,360 --> 00:16:29,440 there. And so financially it just 323 00:16:29,440 --> 00:16:33,560 didn't make sense. And more than anything, like I 324 00:16:33,560 --> 00:16:36,520 wanted to do God's will. Like I if God's will was for me 325 00:16:36,520 --> 00:16:38,960 to stay and work full time, like that's what I was going to do. 326 00:16:39,360 --> 00:16:43,800 And if it was to to quit my job and work part time, like I was 327 00:16:43,800 --> 00:16:48,080 OK with doing that too. And so I just couldn't get a 328 00:16:48,080 --> 00:16:51,440 clear answer. And I remember talking to my dad 329 00:16:51,560 --> 00:16:55,760 and I kind of shared with him my struggle and, you know, told him 330 00:16:55,760 --> 00:16:57,600 I just want to do what God's will is. 331 00:16:58,040 --> 00:17:01,800 And I remember him telling me like, stop overcomplicating 332 00:17:01,800 --> 00:17:05,440 God's will. Like we make it so complicated. 333 00:17:05,960 --> 00:17:09,480 He was like, if it's if you are not getting a clear yes or no, 334 00:17:09,480 --> 00:17:11,440 just go back to Scripture and do what you know, you're supposed 335 00:17:11,440 --> 00:17:12,880 to do. And God's will for everyone's 336 00:17:12,880 --> 00:17:15,280 life is to know him and to make him known. 337 00:17:15,640 --> 00:17:18,960 He's like, so can you do that at, you know, this new job? 338 00:17:18,960 --> 00:17:22,319 Can you do that? Well, I was like, yeah, I yeah. 339 00:17:22,359 --> 00:17:23,839 And he was like, well, then there you go. 340 00:17:23,839 --> 00:17:25,760 Like, that's good. He's like, you can't. 341 00:17:25,839 --> 00:17:29,400 And it, and I was making it about me again, you know, like I 342 00:17:29,400 --> 00:17:32,920 was going to mess up God's plan. Like, you know, like we can't 343 00:17:32,920 --> 00:17:34,560 even really mess up his plan, right? 344 00:17:35,440 --> 00:17:39,200 Which you know my one of my life first is Matthew 630 thirty seek 345 00:17:39,200 --> 00:17:41,160 first the Kingdom and all of his righteousness and all those 346 00:17:41,160 --> 00:17:42,320 things will be added to you as well. 347 00:17:42,840 --> 00:17:48,200 And truly, if we're seeking first that God's will life if 348 00:17:48,200 --> 00:17:51,760 we're making him known and we are truly sharing the gospel and 349 00:17:51,760 --> 00:17:54,880 trying to live a holy and pleasing life to him, we're in 350 00:17:54,880 --> 00:17:57,880 God's will. Yeah, there is so many times 351 00:17:57,880 --> 00:18:00,960 where I have thought that too. And I'm like, wait, wait, am I 352 00:18:00,960 --> 00:18:02,880 stepping outside of God's will if I go this way? 353 00:18:02,880 --> 00:18:06,320 And it's like, but if I should have those true like, like your 354 00:18:06,320 --> 00:18:10,440 intentions and like, I think this is what's going to like 355 00:18:10,440 --> 00:18:13,680 make him proud, then you're in God's will. 356 00:18:13,680 --> 00:18:15,160 Absolutely. So Amen. 357 00:18:15,240 --> 00:18:18,760 That's so good and that's so freeing, yes, because it's like 358 00:18:19,040 --> 00:18:22,480 takes it, I don't know, takes that off of us, you know, And so 359 00:18:22,480 --> 00:18:25,520 that him telling you that was exactly what I need to hear. 360 00:18:25,520 --> 00:18:27,600 Very freeing. And so that's what I did. 361 00:18:27,760 --> 00:18:32,600 I quit working full time and I started working part time 362 00:18:32,680 --> 00:18:36,280 teaching kindergarten and I got a lot of different comments 363 00:18:36,280 --> 00:18:37,800 about it. People were like, how do you go 364 00:18:37,800 --> 00:18:39,600 from teaching middle school to kindergarten? 365 00:18:40,040 --> 00:18:44,040 And I'm like, look, content wise, yes, it's different, but 366 00:18:44,360 --> 00:18:47,320 you'd be shocked at how similar kindergarten and middle 367 00:18:47,320 --> 00:18:51,840 schoolers can be maturity wise. And then other people were like, 368 00:18:52,360 --> 00:18:55,600 you know, you're not even, you're not pregnant yet. 369 00:18:55,640 --> 00:18:57,000 You don't know if you're going to get pregnant. 370 00:18:57,000 --> 00:19:01,200 Like what if you do this and then you don't end up pregnant? 371 00:19:01,200 --> 00:19:03,120 Like, what are you going to do? Then I was like, I don't know. 372 00:19:03,320 --> 00:19:06,320 But I feel like this is what I'm the Lord's leading me to, you 373 00:19:06,320 --> 00:19:08,280 know, I feel confident. So I'm going to do it, taking 374 00:19:08,280 --> 00:19:10,960 it. I was truly a leap of faith and 375 00:19:12,440 --> 00:19:17,440 it looking back now like, Oh my gosh, God has just absolutely 376 00:19:17,960 --> 00:19:22,680 blown me away with just how my yes and my obedience to take a 377 00:19:22,680 --> 00:19:27,000 leap of faith. He has just used it so, so much 378 00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:29,960 in my life. And that first week of like pre 379 00:19:29,960 --> 00:19:34,400 planning that we had for the weekday part time job, I found 380 00:19:34,400 --> 00:19:36,920 out I was pregnant. So that was just like the Lord 381 00:19:36,920 --> 00:19:39,520 just confirming to me like this is what I have for you. 382 00:19:40,280 --> 00:19:45,920 And so now I, I had the opportunity to, you know, still 383 00:19:46,480 --> 00:19:50,360 scratch my itch of teaching like that passion, but then also like 384 00:19:50,360 --> 00:19:53,920 be at home with my baby. And I got to bring her with me 385 00:19:53,960 --> 00:19:56,520 to, you know, the preschool. And now I have two kids and they 386 00:19:56,520 --> 00:19:59,720 both come with me to school and then I'm able to be with them 387 00:19:59,720 --> 00:20:02,160 for the rest of the day. And it's just, it's truly a 388 00:20:02,160 --> 00:20:05,040 dream come true. It's not at all what I thought I 389 00:20:05,040 --> 00:20:06,120 wanted. Yeah. 390 00:20:06,520 --> 00:20:08,560 Because I was so firm on like, I love teaching. 391 00:20:08,560 --> 00:20:09,800 I love my career. I'm going to keep going. 392 00:20:09,800 --> 00:20:11,640 And God just completely changed my heart. 393 00:20:12,120 --> 00:20:15,880 And, and some moms like they teach and they work full time 394 00:20:15,880 --> 00:20:18,280 and they do the mom thing and I'm blown away by them. 395 00:20:18,280 --> 00:20:22,320 They're incredible. And so God just blessed. 396 00:20:22,320 --> 00:20:27,000 And, you know, it also freed me up to go on staff with FCA. 397 00:20:27,000 --> 00:20:31,200 So now I, I wasn't working full time and I went on staff to, to 398 00:20:31,200 --> 00:20:33,320 work with FCA, which was like a dream come true. 399 00:20:33,640 --> 00:20:37,360 It has played such a huge part in mine and Joey's life. 400 00:20:37,360 --> 00:20:41,640 I was always a part of FCA in high school, and then when I 401 00:20:41,640 --> 00:20:44,800 taught at middle school, I led the FCA huddle there. 402 00:20:44,800 --> 00:20:49,360 And so now, like full circle, I got to be on staff and you know, 403 00:20:49,360 --> 00:20:53,080 Joy was safe through FCA. And so it was just really cool 404 00:20:53,080 --> 00:20:56,680 to be able to pour back into a ministry that like poured into 405 00:20:56,920 --> 00:21:00,320 my family so much. With Now hang on because I ain't 406 00:21:00,320 --> 00:21:03,200 got a little lost. Yeah, sorry, have you? 407 00:21:03,320 --> 00:21:06,600 So are you still doing the part time teaching? 408 00:21:06,640 --> 00:21:09,200 Yes, so I'm actually now. I'm like, I thought you were 409 00:21:09,200 --> 00:21:12,040 doing full time FCA stuff. Yeah, no, I'm not full time 410 00:21:12,360 --> 00:21:14,720 FCAI. Yeah, no, that's just like I'm 411 00:21:14,720 --> 00:21:16,640 actually not even part time. I'm like below part time. 412 00:21:16,800 --> 00:21:18,040 It's called an ambassador position. 413 00:21:19,320 --> 00:21:21,760 So now I'm still at the weekday preschool. 414 00:21:21,760 --> 00:21:23,200 I'm not teaching now. I'm the director of the 415 00:21:23,200 --> 00:21:24,840 preschool period. Yeah. 416 00:21:24,840 --> 00:21:29,320 And so and really like, God even has used that because he's put 417 00:21:29,320 --> 00:21:32,280 me in like leadership positions, which is totally out of my 418 00:21:32,280 --> 00:21:34,440 comfort zone. But that has like really 419 00:21:34,480 --> 00:21:36,520 chiseled away at that. People, please are part of me. 420 00:21:36,960 --> 00:21:39,320 And because you can't be in leadership and like, be a people 421 00:21:39,320 --> 00:21:42,640 phaser, it just doesn't work. And so even in that, like, God 422 00:21:42,640 --> 00:21:46,520 has taken me from somewhere I never thought I would be. 423 00:21:46,840 --> 00:21:50,360 And he has just woven this story that if you would have asked me 424 00:21:50,440 --> 00:21:53,600 five years ago, I would have just told you you were crazy. 425 00:21:53,960 --> 00:21:56,240 But he's used it and it's been wonderful. 426 00:21:57,480 --> 00:22:01,600 So yeah, I'm still there. And all that career change, you 427 00:22:01,600 --> 00:22:07,440 know, took place in while we were still engaged within our 428 00:22:07,440 --> 00:22:09,840 first year marriage is when I got pregnant and I had my first 429 00:22:09,840 --> 00:22:14,040 born. And then a year and a half 430 00:22:14,040 --> 00:22:17,200 later, my oldest was a year and a half, I got pregnant with our 431 00:22:17,240 --> 00:22:20,880 2nd and it was Joey's turn to go through a career change. 432 00:22:21,160 --> 00:22:24,360 And his his, our experience with his his career change was a lot 433 00:22:24,360 --> 00:22:28,000 different from mine. Everything with mine seemed like 434 00:22:28,000 --> 00:22:31,040 nice roses and beautiful flowers and it all worked out good. 435 00:22:32,720 --> 00:22:36,800 His was a little different. He had been at the middle school 436 00:22:36,800 --> 00:22:38,960 coaching. He went on to the high school to 437 00:22:38,960 --> 00:22:40,240 coach. He was an assistant baseball 438 00:22:40,240 --> 00:22:43,320 coach at high school here. And the head coaching job just 439 00:22:43,320 --> 00:22:46,280 kind of like fell into his lap. And so we agreed to do it. 440 00:22:47,280 --> 00:22:52,960 And that first season of him coaching was a struggle for me. 441 00:22:53,360 --> 00:22:58,920 I struggled, you know, I grossly underestimated the time 442 00:22:58,920 --> 00:23:01,800 commitment. He was gone all the time. 443 00:23:02,200 --> 00:23:06,400 And you know, my oldest was a year and a half almost, she 444 00:23:06,400 --> 00:23:09,440 turned 2 during the season. And I mean he wouldn't see her 445 00:23:10,160 --> 00:23:11,840 during the week. You know, he'd be gone before 446 00:23:11,840 --> 00:23:13,440 she woke up. He wouldn't get home till she 447 00:23:13,440 --> 00:23:17,160 was in the bed and he'd see see her on the weekends. 448 00:23:17,160 --> 00:23:19,520 And it was a struggle. I was like 8-9 months pregnant 449 00:23:19,520 --> 00:23:21,480 with her. Second, I truly felt like a 450 00:23:21,480 --> 00:23:23,000 single mom. Shout out to the single moms. 451 00:23:23,000 --> 00:23:25,720 Y'all are incredible. Like I truly felt like a single 452 00:23:25,720 --> 00:23:28,200 mom and I struggled. I struggled physically, mentally 453 00:23:28,200 --> 00:23:32,120 with it, spiritually with it and it was hard. 454 00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:34,440 And because it was so hard on me, like it was hard for him 455 00:23:34,440 --> 00:23:35,480 too. Oh yeah. 456 00:23:36,720 --> 00:23:42,240 And so we, we got to the end of, of that season and I, I was 457 00:23:42,240 --> 00:23:44,960 ready for him to be done. I'll be honest, I was like, 458 00:23:44,960 --> 00:23:46,680 there's no way this is what the Lord has for us. 459 00:23:46,680 --> 00:23:51,760 It gets this hard. And so that summer we actually 460 00:23:51,800 --> 00:23:56,600 went to FCA throws a camp every summer for coaches and their 461 00:23:56,600 --> 00:23:59,200 families. It's in Saint Simons. 462 00:23:59,200 --> 00:24:01,720 It's it's kind of like the best way to describe it. 463 00:24:01,720 --> 00:24:05,080 It's kind of like the church retreat, but for like coaches. 464 00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:08,400 And so it's for all coaches in the in the state of Georgia. 465 00:24:09,480 --> 00:24:11,560 And so it's a Monday through Friday camp. 466 00:24:11,560 --> 00:24:16,840 And honestly, like, I wasn't looking forward to it that much. 467 00:24:16,880 --> 00:24:18,200 And I'm like on staff of the FCA. 468 00:24:18,200 --> 00:24:22,440 So this is probably terrible, but I had a 2 year old and a 469 00:24:22,440 --> 00:24:25,640 two-month old. And so I, it's just, if you 470 00:24:25,640 --> 00:24:27,200 know, you know, it's just hard to take them anywhere. 471 00:24:27,920 --> 00:24:32,200 But we went and Oh my gosh, God changed my heart. 472 00:24:32,640 --> 00:24:36,400 He there was a sermon one night, I don't even remember who the 473 00:24:36,600 --> 00:24:42,000 camp pastor was that week, but he spoke about Nehemiah and 474 00:24:42,400 --> 00:24:46,000 God's purpose and mission on Nehemiah's life was to build 475 00:24:46,000 --> 00:24:48,200 Jerusalem's walls back, the city walls. 476 00:24:48,520 --> 00:24:52,920 So the Israelites have been exiled from Jerusalem and they 477 00:24:52,920 --> 00:24:55,640 were returning back and they were to build their city walls 478 00:24:55,640 --> 00:24:57,760 back. And so that was Nehemiah's 479 00:24:57,760 --> 00:24:59,120 calling. That was his mission. 480 00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:03,760 And he told us to kind of think about, you know, the purpose and 481 00:25:03,760 --> 00:25:07,440 mission God has for our life as our city walls. 482 00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:11,520 And he kind of went through the whole story of Nehemiah and told 483 00:25:11,520 --> 00:25:15,480 how for all of us, they are like the mission of our life. 484 00:25:15,480 --> 00:25:17,440 There was, you know, coaching. Like, that's what we were there. 485 00:25:17,560 --> 00:25:20,000 That's my husband's job. That's what his ministry is. 486 00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:23,480 And so for all of us, we were picturing like our city walls. 487 00:25:23,480 --> 00:25:25,920 I was like coaching. And, you know, he said 488 00:25:25,920 --> 00:25:29,280 Nehemiah's, he had a lot of critics while he was building 489 00:25:29,280 --> 00:25:31,920 the wall, he had haters. You know, when in coaching, 490 00:25:31,920 --> 00:25:34,080 you're going to have critics. You're going to have haters like 491 00:25:34,120 --> 00:25:37,920 build the wall anyways. You know, it's time consuming. 492 00:25:37,920 --> 00:25:40,080 Nehemiah didn't build the wall in in a day. 493 00:25:40,080 --> 00:25:44,160 It took years and it took a lot of effort and a lot of hard 494 00:25:44,160 --> 00:25:45,600 work. And he was like, that's how 495 00:25:45,600 --> 00:25:47,400 coaching is. You know, it's it's going to 496 00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:50,400 take a long time for you to build the culture you honor. 497 00:25:50,400 --> 00:25:54,000 There are to reach, you know, the heart of athletes and it's 498 00:25:54,000 --> 00:25:56,200 going to take time and a lot of hard work and effort. 499 00:25:56,200 --> 00:25:59,000 It's like not easy work. It's like hard work. 500 00:25:59,000 --> 00:26:00,840 You're in the trenches. He's like do it anyways, like 501 00:26:00,840 --> 00:26:03,400 build the wall anyways, like Nehemiah, he talks about how you 502 00:26:03,400 --> 00:26:05,560 need community. Nehemiah need it took a lot of 503 00:26:05,560 --> 00:26:08,040 people to build the wall like you need people around you. 504 00:26:08,560 --> 00:26:11,040 He was like, you know, it's going to take it's like 505 00:26:11,040 --> 00:26:13,960 Nehemiah, everything that he had, you know, he couldn't even 506 00:26:13,960 --> 00:26:15,880 do it in his own strength. He had to rely on the Lord. 507 00:26:16,120 --> 00:26:18,400 It's the same thing, you know, as you're building your wall, 508 00:26:18,600 --> 00:26:20,440 rely on the Lord's strength. It's going to take everything 509 00:26:20,440 --> 00:26:22,720 you have. And then I think his last point 510 00:26:22,960 --> 00:26:25,840 was building the wall is always worth it. 511 00:26:25,840 --> 00:26:28,440 It's always worth it. And so, you know, even when you 512 00:26:28,440 --> 00:26:31,720 lose, keep building the wall. Even when you're frustrated, 513 00:26:31,720 --> 00:26:33,480 keep building a wall. Even when nothing's going your 514 00:26:33,480 --> 00:26:35,800 way, keep building the wall. Even when you're winning, keep 515 00:26:35,800 --> 00:26:39,200 building the wall, Right. And so I don't know, that just 516 00:26:39,200 --> 00:26:45,440 totally changed our perspective on on coaching and, and we view 517 00:26:45,440 --> 00:26:50,440 it now as our family's ministry and coaching is so much more 518 00:26:50,440 --> 00:26:53,040 than baseball. Like that's a big part of it, 519 00:26:53,120 --> 00:26:56,480 obviously. But he's coaching hearts and 520 00:26:56,480 --> 00:27:00,640 he's coaching men, boys to be men. 521 00:27:00,640 --> 00:27:03,280 And he's teaching them how to be men and he's teaching them how 522 00:27:03,280 --> 00:27:05,560 to be functioning members of society. 523 00:27:05,560 --> 00:27:09,760 And so, so much goes into it more than just, you know, 524 00:27:09,760 --> 00:27:12,120 teaching of skill and, and, and that kind of thing. 525 00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:16,440 It's truly coaching the heart. And that's our family's ministry 526 00:27:16,440 --> 00:27:18,600 now. And that, and that changed that 527 00:27:18,600 --> 00:27:20,680 week at camp, changed our perspective on it. 528 00:27:20,680 --> 00:27:24,840 And it's it's our whole family's involved. 529 00:27:24,840 --> 00:27:27,440 Like any chance we get to be at a game, we're going to be there. 530 00:27:27,480 --> 00:27:30,960 And that's to support Joey. But it's also so that his team 531 00:27:30,960 --> 00:27:34,920 can see what a biblical family unit looks like, so his team can 532 00:27:34,920 --> 00:27:38,280 see him interact with me. And like what a godly husband 533 00:27:38,280 --> 00:27:40,920 looks like, you know, what a godly dad looks like to our 534 00:27:40,920 --> 00:27:42,800 kids. We have them, his players to our 535 00:27:42,800 --> 00:27:45,480 house often so they can see you know what? 536 00:27:45,480 --> 00:27:49,360 Does that look? Like, and so we've embraced that 537 00:27:49,360 --> 00:27:52,240 and it's not easy. And I think the big lesson I 538 00:27:52,240 --> 00:27:55,720 learned through that is just because God calls you to do 539 00:27:55,720 --> 00:27:57,360 something, it doesn't mean it's going to be easy. 540 00:27:57,440 --> 00:28:01,120 Come on, right? And so I don't know, I feel like 541 00:28:01,760 --> 00:28:05,040 a lot of things in my life that I was obedient to, it kind of 542 00:28:05,040 --> 00:28:08,320 worked out and it was easy. And we think that if it's hard. 543 00:28:08,480 --> 00:28:10,360 It's not from. God then it's not from God. 544 00:28:10,400 --> 00:28:12,200 Yeah. And like, if you read Scripture, 545 00:28:12,200 --> 00:28:15,240 that's so silly, right? And it's literally the opposite, 546 00:28:15,520 --> 00:28:19,040 yes, for everyone. And so I, I learned that lesson 547 00:28:19,040 --> 00:28:23,120 that, you know, sometimes when God being obedient doesn't mean 548 00:28:23,120 --> 00:28:26,400 it's going to be easy and it doesn't mean it's going to be 549 00:28:27,000 --> 00:28:29,080 roses and sunshine and beautiful, right? 550 00:28:29,080 --> 00:28:32,960 It might be hard, and it's going to be hard work, but do it 551 00:28:32,960 --> 00:28:34,480 anyways. Keep going right because it's 552 00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:35,640 worth it. It's eternal work. 553 00:28:35,680 --> 00:28:38,560 Yeah, it made me like, when you're just talking about that, 554 00:28:38,560 --> 00:28:42,240 I think about Hopkins, right? Like, yeah, he was such a like, 555 00:28:42,280 --> 00:28:44,600 big person in high school for us. 556 00:28:44,600 --> 00:28:46,760 Like, I mean, he coached us, but then he was a baseball coach and 557 00:28:46,760 --> 00:28:51,160 now I go to church with him and I see him, you know, just be he 558 00:28:51,160 --> 00:28:54,480 pours in all these kids lives and even on socials, like we see 559 00:28:54,480 --> 00:28:59,160 how he has his team over and how he's really trying to have his 560 00:28:59,160 --> 00:29:02,520 team be like on mission itself. But that is ministry. 561 00:29:02,800 --> 00:29:04,920 And so like that's what I was just thinking about is like, you 562 00:29:04,920 --> 00:29:09,000 do have an opportunity pour because you spend so much time 563 00:29:09,360 --> 00:29:13,240 with this team, right? Like Joey is with them all the 564 00:29:13,280 --> 00:29:15,680 time. And so like being able to be 565 00:29:15,680 --> 00:29:18,720 that spiritual leader to these kids and be like, hey, maybe you 566 00:29:18,720 --> 00:29:21,840 don't have this at home. Maybe you don't know what it's 567 00:29:21,840 --> 00:29:25,200 like to be a spiritual leader or know of the Lord, but he's 568 00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:27,360 having that opportunity to pour into them. 569 00:29:27,720 --> 00:29:29,360 So good. Absolutely, absolutely. 570 00:29:29,360 --> 00:29:33,000 And I do love how you said, you know, for him to show what it's 571 00:29:33,000 --> 00:29:36,360 like to be a biblical husband, a spiritual leader for you and the 572 00:29:36,360 --> 00:29:38,720 kids and stuff like that. Because there is so many times 573 00:29:38,720 --> 00:29:42,280 where we don't see like a loving home or that we don't see where 574 00:29:42,280 --> 00:29:44,840 there's affection or like not saying you're like full on 575 00:29:44,840 --> 00:29:46,720 making out. Oh no. 576 00:29:47,920 --> 00:29:51,360 Like to walk over and just give your wife a hug love and just 577 00:29:51,360 --> 00:29:54,000 show that like we don't see that much. 578 00:29:54,000 --> 00:29:56,280 So it is just good. I love that girl. 579 00:29:56,480 --> 00:30:02,880 And God has like done really cool things through just his 580 00:30:02,880 --> 00:30:05,720 impact and, and through that ministry. 581 00:30:05,720 --> 00:30:08,480 And it's all the Lord, like all the Lord, because my heart was 582 00:30:08,480 --> 00:30:10,720 not in the right place. And he worked despite it. 583 00:30:10,920 --> 00:30:12,960 So he called Jersey. Asked them kids. 584 00:30:12,960 --> 00:30:16,520 Absolutely he did, yes. And so, and there's still 585 00:30:16,520 --> 00:30:19,240 moments where I struggle and still moments where I have to 586 00:30:19,240 --> 00:30:22,680 remind myself, you know, and I go back to to Nehemiah store and 587 00:30:22,680 --> 00:30:25,720 I go back to that message a lot to remind myself that it's hard 588 00:30:25,720 --> 00:30:27,640 work, it's eternal work, but it's worth it. 589 00:30:28,400 --> 00:30:31,320 And so that's we're still in that phase now. 590 00:30:31,800 --> 00:30:35,520 And I don't know how long we're going to be in it, but what year 591 00:30:35,640 --> 00:30:37,160 is he head coach? Five. 592 00:30:37,440 --> 00:30:38,960 OK, four. I don't know. 593 00:30:39,000 --> 00:30:42,240 I lose count. Yeah, they all at 4-5 somewhere 594 00:30:42,240 --> 00:30:44,000 in there somewhere. So we're going to keep doing 595 00:30:44,000 --> 00:30:46,320 until, you know, the Lord tells us not to. 596 00:30:46,320 --> 00:30:47,280 That's so. Good. 597 00:30:47,720 --> 00:30:49,640 Yeah. And so that's kind of where 598 00:30:49,640 --> 00:30:52,120 we're at now. We're like in the throes of that 599 00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:56,480 and I'm in the trenches of motherhood, which is so 600 00:30:56,480 --> 00:31:00,040 beautiful but so hard at the same time. 601 00:31:00,080 --> 00:31:04,760 And it is has shown me all of my flaws. 602 00:31:05,680 --> 00:31:07,960 I thought I had self-control and then I had children. 603 00:31:08,320 --> 00:31:11,640 The the pruning's still going. On the pruning is so sanctifying 604 00:31:11,960 --> 00:31:17,880 but like such good, good work and something like the Lord just 605 00:31:17,880 --> 00:31:21,400 really been putting on my heart lately is just how important it 606 00:31:21,400 --> 00:31:26,080 is to be intentional and I struggle with that because I am 607 00:31:26,120 --> 00:31:31,600 I'm not emotional. I am logical and so I it's so 608 00:31:31,600 --> 00:31:34,320 easy for me to get caught up as I've talked about before and 609 00:31:34,320 --> 00:31:36,560 like the checklist of life. This is what we need to get done 610 00:31:36,560 --> 00:31:40,160 today where I miss like intentional moments to share the 611 00:31:40,160 --> 00:31:44,200 gospel with my child or whatever it might be. 612 00:31:44,480 --> 00:31:50,080 And so just being so intentional and it's easy in today's age to 613 00:31:50,080 --> 00:31:53,760 be a checked out lazy parent. And there's a lot of people that 614 00:31:53,760 --> 00:31:55,360 are, and I don't even think they mean to be. 615 00:31:55,400 --> 00:31:59,800 It's just, it's easy with social media and with the TV and it's 616 00:31:59,800 --> 00:32:04,920 just easy to be checked out. And so I've just tried to be so 617 00:32:04,920 --> 00:32:08,040 intentional about that and intentional about how I 618 00:32:08,040 --> 00:32:10,800 discipline and to discipline, you know, and, and the spirit 619 00:32:10,800 --> 00:32:13,600 and not the flesh and how I correct and how I teach. 620 00:32:13,600 --> 00:32:18,000 And, you know, it's, it's hard work and it's a lot of times 621 00:32:18,000 --> 00:32:20,520 inconvenient. And I think that's what gets us 622 00:32:20,520 --> 00:32:22,960 a lot because we like comfort and we like things to be easy 623 00:32:23,360 --> 00:32:25,160 and like that's just not biblical parenting. 624 00:32:25,600 --> 00:32:30,480 And so that I have to be so careful and that's what has 625 00:32:30,480 --> 00:32:33,280 really got to just put on my heart to be and to do. 626 00:32:33,280 --> 00:32:36,200 And so that's what I've been striving to do and to be. 627 00:32:36,200 --> 00:32:38,720 And when I. Like it's so crazy you say that 628 00:32:38,720 --> 00:32:42,560 because like I set goals for myself, but then I saw this 629 00:32:42,560 --> 00:32:45,160 video the other day and it was like, I'm not setting goals. 630 00:32:45,160 --> 00:32:49,360 Like I just have 3 words for the year basically. 631 00:32:49,360 --> 00:32:51,560 And one of mine that I started thinking I was like, well I want 632 00:32:51,560 --> 00:32:53,440 to do this. So like I still have my goals, 633 00:32:53,440 --> 00:32:57,400 but I want some words and like intentional is like really one 634 00:32:57,400 --> 00:32:59,400 of my words because there's so many. 635 00:32:59,480 --> 00:33:02,440 Sometimes we're doing scrolling will take you and get you in a 636 00:33:02,440 --> 00:33:06,280 headlock or like that shows good or like you're just in passive 637 00:33:06,280 --> 00:33:09,160 conversations, you know, like we're not even being intentional 638 00:33:09,160 --> 00:33:10,720 with the conversations that we're having. 639 00:33:10,720 --> 00:33:13,240 We're just had that small talk type thing. 640 00:33:13,640 --> 00:33:16,920 And so this is just really dwelled in my spirit more 641 00:33:16,920 --> 00:33:21,280 recently of like when Jesus was on the mission, like I think it 642 00:33:21,280 --> 00:33:25,240 was the little girl was dying. And you know, he's they're like, 643 00:33:25,240 --> 00:33:28,640 come on, come on, we got to hurry, you know, and he's like, 644 00:33:28,640 --> 00:33:32,120 no, like he stops. And was this when she touches 645 00:33:32,120 --> 00:33:37,960 the hem of his garment stops. And like, even if the rush of 646 00:33:37,960 --> 00:33:41,400 life is getting crazy, like all of this, he was intentional 647 00:33:41,400 --> 00:33:43,240 about that moment with that woman. 648 00:33:43,480 --> 00:33:46,600 Like, yes, was that little girl dying and all this stuff or 649 00:33:46,600 --> 00:33:48,680 maybe even already dead. I'm maybe not quoting this 650 00:33:48,680 --> 00:33:52,040 right, but he still stopped and made time. 651 00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:57,000 And that's something that like we all can in in 2026, we can 652 00:33:57,000 --> 00:33:59,160 all go into that. Like be intentional about your 653 00:33:59,160 --> 00:34:00,920 time, being intentional with your kids. 654 00:34:00,920 --> 00:34:04,640 Like, yeah, you, you need to show them what it's like to 655 00:34:04,640 --> 00:34:08,760 really set aside time for the Lord and be that person so they 656 00:34:08,760 --> 00:34:10,880 can look up to you and learn from you. 657 00:34:10,880 --> 00:34:13,560 Because, I mean, I didn't have that growing up, you know, I 658 00:34:13,560 --> 00:34:17,120 didn't have someone that was actually full force running 659 00:34:17,120 --> 00:34:19,639 towards the Lord and could show me what it looked like to be a 660 00:34:19,639 --> 00:34:22,280 follower of Christ. And so being that to our kids is 661 00:34:22,280 --> 00:34:24,199 so important. Being intentional, yeah. 662 00:34:24,520 --> 00:34:26,040 And really with any relationship. 663 00:34:26,040 --> 00:34:29,880 Because. 100 yeah. And you know, you don't just you 664 00:34:29,880 --> 00:34:31,679 don't wake up one day and have a beautiful marriage. 665 00:34:31,679 --> 00:34:33,520 You don't it doesn't just happen, right. 666 00:34:33,520 --> 00:34:35,520 You have to be intentional about your marriage. 667 00:34:35,520 --> 00:34:37,520 You have to be intentional about your kids and even your 668 00:34:37,520 --> 00:34:39,880 relationship with the Lord. Like you don't just you don't 669 00:34:39,880 --> 00:34:44,239 wake up and you're like deeper in my face, you know, like it, 670 00:34:44,320 --> 00:34:47,679 You have to be so intentional to be in God's word and, and to be 671 00:34:47,679 --> 00:34:50,840 in tune with the spirit. And so that is just what I'm 672 00:34:50,840 --> 00:34:55,239 trying to do is be intentional. And it's hard. 673 00:34:55,239 --> 00:34:57,320 It's hard for me. And I hate to admit that, but it 674 00:34:57,320 --> 00:34:59,680 is because I, I'm a checklist person. 675 00:34:59,680 --> 00:35:01,000 I'm a getter done type of person. 676 00:35:01,000 --> 00:35:04,720 And so I can get so caught up in that that I miss intentional 677 00:35:04,720 --> 00:35:07,200 moments. And so that's where I'm at. 678 00:35:07,560 --> 00:35:10,160 And yeah. OK. 679 00:35:10,600 --> 00:35:14,520 Well, as we begin to close, I usually end with three 680 00:35:14,520 --> 00:35:18,240 questions, right? So maybe you were in your car 681 00:35:18,720 --> 00:35:21,840 right across the street and you're like, I really want to 682 00:35:21,840 --> 00:35:24,200 talk about this, but I haven't got the opportunity to talk 683 00:35:24,200 --> 00:35:27,600 about that. Or you can give a word of advice 684 00:35:27,760 --> 00:35:30,800 to whoever you want to address in this or three. 685 00:35:30,800 --> 00:35:33,000 What has God taught you more recently? 686 00:35:33,000 --> 00:35:35,440 Maybe you were reading something and that light bulb went off and 687 00:35:35,440 --> 00:35:37,120 something made sense for the first time. 688 00:35:37,360 --> 00:35:39,160 Like how would you want to close this today? 689 00:35:39,600 --> 00:35:46,640 Yeah, so I would say probably two things #1 the biggest thing 690 00:35:46,640 --> 00:35:48,640 that has changed my life is God's Word. 691 00:35:49,320 --> 00:35:51,440 God's word has just absolutely changed my life. 692 00:35:51,440 --> 00:35:52,960 And I've seen it change my husband's life. 693 00:35:53,520 --> 00:35:56,960 And so I would just challenge anybody, you know, if you're 694 00:35:56,960 --> 00:36:02,400 looking wherever you're at in your faith, you know, get into 695 00:36:02,400 --> 00:36:04,200 God's word and fall in love with it. 696 00:36:04,600 --> 00:36:08,320 And it is, it has, it's has something new for me every time 697 00:36:08,320 --> 00:36:10,960 I open it. It's, it's alive and it's, it's 698 00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:13,520 a living and breathing word of God and it's so good. 699 00:36:13,520 --> 00:36:16,560 And so I would just challenge you to get into God's Word and. 700 00:36:18,000 --> 00:36:20,240 Can I can I absolutely right real quick. 701 00:36:20,520 --> 00:36:23,320 All right, so mystery, which is one of my spiritual leader. 702 00:36:23,320 --> 00:36:27,720 She's been on here and she was on a in an unequally yoked 703 00:36:27,720 --> 00:36:30,960 marriage for like over 30 years really struggled, but she has 704 00:36:30,960 --> 00:36:33,120 the Potter's house. For any of y'all that haven't 705 00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:34,840 listened to her episode, please go listen to it. 706 00:36:34,840 --> 00:36:36,080 It's called the Potter and the clay. 707 00:36:36,440 --> 00:36:38,320 But she has the Potter's house now. 708 00:36:38,320 --> 00:36:41,160 And one of the things that she always says is like when women 709 00:36:41,680 --> 00:36:44,160 fall back into addiction after they leave the Potter's house, 710 00:36:44,160 --> 00:36:47,280 or maybe like they just like derail really bad. 711 00:36:47,520 --> 00:36:49,120 She's like, did you get out of God's word? 712 00:36:49,920 --> 00:36:53,080 And that is the number one question that she's always asked 713 00:36:53,080 --> 00:36:55,120 them as soon as they call and they're like mystery, I'm not 714 00:36:55,120 --> 00:36:56,640 doing good, like whatever. And she's like, what's your 715 00:36:56,640 --> 00:36:59,360 prayer life look like? Are you in his word? 716 00:36:59,400 --> 00:37:02,520 And like that really gets me because sometimes life gets a 717 00:37:02,520 --> 00:37:05,640 hold of me, you know, the rest of us, like there's things that 718 00:37:05,640 --> 00:37:07,280 happen and days will go by or something. 719 00:37:07,280 --> 00:37:11,160 I'm like, Oh my gosh, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. 720 00:37:11,160 --> 00:37:15,160 And I feel awful. But your minds like you start 721 00:37:15,160 --> 00:37:17,480 thinking different thoughts automatically, like you're 722 00:37:17,480 --> 00:37:20,400 letting the enemy get a foothold into your life and stuff like 723 00:37:20,400 --> 00:37:22,440 that. And so it's like, stay in his 724 00:37:22,440 --> 00:37:24,520 word, you know, don't make it a checklist. 725 00:37:24,520 --> 00:37:28,840 Me and my girls, I lead high school girls and I talk about 726 00:37:28,840 --> 00:37:31,360 all the time and they're always like you gave us a shout out and 727 00:37:31,360 --> 00:37:34,880 I'm like, I did because they really do pour into me just as 728 00:37:34,880 --> 00:37:38,240 much as I pour into them. Like they help me grow my faith. 729 00:37:38,600 --> 00:37:41,600 They true like this younger generation, there's something 730 00:37:41,600 --> 00:37:44,000 going on with the they have a revival going on. 731 00:37:44,160 --> 00:37:48,560 But anyway, sorry, but I tell them all the time. 732 00:37:48,560 --> 00:37:51,080 I'm like I always say, get in a rhythm. 733 00:37:51,520 --> 00:37:53,720 Is that a rhythm? No, no, no routine. 734 00:37:54,400 --> 00:37:56,000 OK. I usually say routine and 735 00:37:56,000 --> 00:37:59,600 they'll clock me and they say no, a good rhythm because we 736 00:37:59,600 --> 00:38:01,200 don't want to get into a routine. 737 00:38:01,200 --> 00:38:03,320 There it's like checklist. Yeah, we want to get into a 738 00:38:03,320 --> 00:38:05,640 rhythm where we're like, we're moving and growing up, you know, 739 00:38:05,680 --> 00:38:09,080 we, we. So I think that's just so good 740 00:38:09,080 --> 00:38:11,560 to really think, like fall in love with this word. 741 00:38:11,600 --> 00:38:13,920 You're not going to always understand every single thing 742 00:38:13,920 --> 00:38:17,560 you read, but deep dive Like try to learn more, try to figure it 743 00:38:17,560 --> 00:38:19,040 out. Yeah, and you'll be shocked at 744 00:38:19,040 --> 00:38:22,120 what? God, you may not understand 745 00:38:22,240 --> 00:38:24,440 everything, but you'll be shocked at what God can do with 746 00:38:24,440 --> 00:38:26,600 like just a little bit, you know, and what he can do in your 747 00:38:26,600 --> 00:38:27,560 life. Or when that light bulb 748 00:38:27,600 --> 00:38:29,560 eventually goes off and you're like, what? 749 00:38:29,840 --> 00:38:31,720 Right. Absolutely, absolutely. 750 00:38:32,080 --> 00:38:36,720 And we all go through seasons, like I said, I'm in a season of 751 00:38:36,720 --> 00:38:38,200 motherhood. And I'll be honest with you, 752 00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:40,920 like there are times where I don't get into God's word and 753 00:38:40,920 --> 00:38:42,520 there's seasons where I don't get into God's word. 754 00:38:42,840 --> 00:38:44,240 This literally happened this week. 755 00:38:44,240 --> 00:38:47,680 I, I wake up early to read my Bible for my kids, get up, I 756 00:38:47,680 --> 00:38:50,480 open my Bible, I read the first word and my 2 year old starts 757 00:38:50,480 --> 00:38:52,560 screaming. So you know, doesn't happen that 758 00:38:52,560 --> 00:38:54,400 day, right? And so there's grace there, 759 00:38:54,400 --> 00:38:57,400 absolutely. But just making it a priority in 760 00:38:57,400 --> 00:39:00,680 your life, right when, when you can, when you have the chance, 761 00:39:00,680 --> 00:39:03,960 like get into his word and make it a priority. 762 00:39:03,960 --> 00:39:06,960 You'll be shocked at when you make things a priority. 763 00:39:06,960 --> 00:39:08,960 How? How all the all of a sudden you 764 00:39:08,960 --> 00:39:11,080 have time for things? I don't know, it blows my mind. 765 00:39:11,080 --> 00:39:14,440 So the other day, like we're just rambling at this. 766 00:39:14,440 --> 00:39:16,120 Point. I'm sorry y'all, but the. 767 00:39:16,120 --> 00:39:19,520 Other day, like I really was running late and I did it 768 00:39:19,520 --> 00:39:22,040 myself, you know, like I was like, oh, I'm going to go 769 00:39:22,040 --> 00:39:24,720 upstairs in a few minutes and I'll read then like whatever. 770 00:39:24,720 --> 00:39:28,760 Well, then time got a hold of me and I'm like, I got to be there 771 00:39:28,760 --> 00:39:32,120 in like 15 minutes, you know, or like, but it wasn't like a 772 00:39:32,120 --> 00:39:34,440 strict, it was what I put in my own mind. 773 00:39:34,440 --> 00:39:36,160 It wasn't like I had to be there in 15 minutes. 774 00:39:36,160 --> 00:39:39,000 But I'm an early person so I'm like whatever, but I came up 775 00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:41,600 here and I spent some time with the Lord and somehow I was still 776 00:39:41,600 --> 00:39:43,920 there on time. I didn't feel rushed. 777 00:39:44,120 --> 00:39:47,800 Then a situation happened, but I had already spent time with the 778 00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:51,760 Lord and He already ordained that whole situation, you know, 779 00:39:51,760 --> 00:39:54,720 like I didn't have to go in there frazzled and worried and 780 00:39:54,720 --> 00:39:56,320 all this stuff like wants to happen. 781 00:39:56,320 --> 00:39:59,240 Like I had that piece of you know what? 782 00:39:59,440 --> 00:40:02,120 He guides my steps. Go ahead, go ahead, go ahead. 783 00:40:02,120 --> 00:40:03,160 Absolutely. That's good. 784 00:40:03,600 --> 00:40:08,400 The second thing. Yeah, so probably what God has 785 00:40:08,400 --> 00:40:11,120 been reminding me of lately is, you know, we just came out of 786 00:40:11,120 --> 00:40:15,240 the Christmas season and so I was reading, you know, Luke in 787 00:40:15,240 --> 00:40:20,000 the Bible and he reminded me, you know, anytime he calls us to 788 00:40:20,000 --> 00:40:22,640 something or he has something for us, like he always gives us 789 00:40:22,640 --> 00:40:24,400 everything we need to accomplish it. 790 00:40:24,880 --> 00:40:29,000 And as I, as I was reading the story of Mary, you know, she 791 00:40:29,000 --> 00:40:30,680 found out she was pregnant with Jesus. 792 00:40:30,720 --> 00:40:36,200 And I can only imagine like how scared she was, like can't even 793 00:40:36,200 --> 00:40:39,360 imagine. But God provided Elizabeth for 794 00:40:39,360 --> 00:40:41,560 her. And you know, Elizabeth was 795 00:40:41,560 --> 00:40:44,760 there for her, probably physically to walk her through 796 00:40:44,760 --> 00:40:49,200 it emotionally, spiritually. And, and God provided that for 797 00:40:49,200 --> 00:40:53,080 Mary. He provided probably every, 798 00:40:53,120 --> 00:40:56,240 everything she needed and then and then beyond to take, to even 799 00:40:56,240 --> 00:40:58,320 like take care of her mental health because Elizabeth was 800 00:40:58,320 --> 00:41:02,120 there to walk her through that. And, and also in providing Mary 801 00:41:02,120 --> 00:41:06,640 for Elizabeth, you know, and so it's just a reminder that, you 802 00:41:06,640 --> 00:41:08,840 know, when God calls us to something, you know, we can be 803 00:41:08,840 --> 00:41:12,720 obedient because he's, he's got it and he's going to provide 804 00:41:12,720 --> 00:41:17,040 everything we need for it. And a reoccurring thing God 805 00:41:17,040 --> 00:41:19,920 continues to remind me of is that it's just not about me. 806 00:41:20,120 --> 00:41:21,600 You know, it's just not about me. 807 00:41:21,960 --> 00:41:25,800 And you know, he just wants my obedience and he wants my heart. 808 00:41:25,800 --> 00:41:31,920 And so, and when I make it about myself, that's when that's when 809 00:41:31,920 --> 00:41:35,960 I get into checklist mode or that's when I get into thinking 810 00:41:35,960 --> 00:41:37,600 logically instead of thinking by faith. 811 00:41:37,600 --> 00:41:41,640 And so I don't know, that's just been a reoccurring theme in my 812 00:41:41,640 --> 00:41:43,080 life. And something that God continues 813 00:41:43,080 --> 00:41:45,640 to remind me of is that, you know, when he calls me to 814 00:41:45,640 --> 00:41:48,800 something, but even if it's something small, you know he's 815 00:41:48,800 --> 00:41:51,880 going to, He's going to provide everything I need to accomplish 816 00:41:51,880 --> 00:41:53,560 it. What we, I was actually talking 817 00:41:53,560 --> 00:41:55,120 about this in my small group this week. 818 00:41:55,120 --> 00:41:59,160 And you know, even the little things of like going to talk to 819 00:41:59,160 --> 00:42:02,440 someone like we, we're like, we don't know what it'll say. 820 00:42:02,640 --> 00:42:05,520 What am I going to say? But sometimes we, when we're 821 00:42:05,520 --> 00:42:07,440 obedient, the Lord will give you the words. 822 00:42:07,640 --> 00:42:10,440 He'll give you the knowledge. Like sometimes, like I've prayed 823 00:42:10,440 --> 00:42:13,680 with one of my students before and this was the very first time 824 00:42:13,680 --> 00:42:16,280 like someone had opened up to me about something. 825 00:42:16,280 --> 00:42:19,280 And I, she, you know, she was crying. 826 00:42:19,280 --> 00:42:21,640 She's like, I need to talk to you and I need, I need to tell 827 00:42:21,640 --> 00:42:24,920 you about some stuff. And I'm like, like, I don't do 828 00:42:24,920 --> 00:42:27,520 this right now. Don't let me go get someone 829 00:42:27,520 --> 00:42:29,600 that's further down the line more qualified. 830 00:42:30,160 --> 00:42:33,600 But you know what she told me? And I instantly like, there was 831 00:42:33,600 --> 00:42:37,160 just a piece about that conversation and the Lord truly 832 00:42:37,160 --> 00:42:40,120 did lead me in that. Then all of a sudden I had never 833 00:42:40,120 --> 00:42:44,320 even really like prayed that much, like out loud with people. 834 00:42:44,480 --> 00:42:47,000 And all of a sudden I'm doing like this full on like prayer, 835 00:42:47,000 --> 00:42:51,160 like just truly being a prayer warrior in that time. 836 00:42:51,160 --> 00:42:52,600 And I'm like, where did that come from? 837 00:42:53,120 --> 00:42:56,120 I thought, oh, OK. But you know, like even in those 838 00:42:56,120 --> 00:42:59,720 little situations God provides, we always think about God 839 00:42:59,720 --> 00:43:04,240 providing in just financial settings or like anything like 840 00:43:04,240 --> 00:43:08,400 invangeable, tangible. Yeah, no, like the piece he 841 00:43:08,400 --> 00:43:10,920 provides, the piece he provides, the words he provides the nolly. 842 00:43:10,960 --> 00:43:13,200 All of it. Just be obedient because you 843 00:43:13,200 --> 00:43:17,480 don't know what who's waiting on your obedience for their life to 844 00:43:17,480 --> 00:43:21,600 change. We go in there though. 845 00:43:21,960 --> 00:43:23,600 We go in there. Thank you so much girl. 846 00:43:23,600 --> 00:43:24,640 This was so good. Thank. 847 00:43:24,640 --> 00:43:27,160 You for having me? I hope you all enjoyed this as 848 00:43:27,160 --> 00:43:28,800 much as I have. Make sure you like, share, 849 00:43:28,800 --> 00:43:30,480 comment, all that good stuff anywhere. 850 00:43:30,960 --> 00:43:33,920 Anyway, stay tuned, stay blessed and we'll see you guys later. 851 00:43:34,040 --> 00:43:34,360 Bye.