1 00:00:09,700 --> 00:00:12,620 What's up guys, My name's Alexis, your host with praises 2 00:00:12,620 --> 00:00:15,980 in the pod and we are celebrating our one year 3 00:00:15,980 --> 00:00:19,980 anniversary of PITPI. Cannot believe the year has come 4 00:00:19,980 --> 00:00:21,540 so fast. Oh, I know. 5 00:00:21,580 --> 00:00:24,820 And to think that it started out as just a joke. 6 00:00:24,860 --> 00:00:28,620 I really did, just sitting. Over in the student center and 7 00:00:28,620 --> 00:00:32,820 put this stuff on and this is but God had a plan a whole time. 8 00:00:33,800 --> 00:00:36,000 Well, if y'all did not know, this is my mom. 9 00:00:36,200 --> 00:00:38,320 She recorded the very first episode. 10 00:00:38,320 --> 00:00:41,000 He knows my name. And so if you haven't listened 11 00:00:41,000 --> 00:00:43,400 to that, go and check it out. She's also been in another 12 00:00:43,400 --> 00:00:47,320 episode, Seek First the Kingdom. So she's been on and I was like, 13 00:00:47,320 --> 00:00:49,800 you know what? How else can we celebrate one 14 00:00:49,800 --> 00:00:51,320 year? Bring back my mom. 15 00:00:51,520 --> 00:00:53,480 All right, so we're going to start off in prayer and then 16 00:00:53,480 --> 00:00:56,080 we're going to jump right in. So here we go Lord Heavenly 17 00:00:56,080 --> 00:00:59,160 Father, thank you for an incredible year. 18 00:00:59,160 --> 00:01:03,160 Lord God, above all else, I grew closer to you and that was my 19 00:01:03,160 --> 00:01:08,160 main goal of PITP is just to be held accountable, but also teach 20 00:01:08,160 --> 00:01:11,000 people and tell people what all I've learned and how I've 21 00:01:11,000 --> 00:01:14,320 experienced you. Lord God, you have just blown 22 00:01:14,520 --> 00:01:17,400 everything that I could have ever dreamed of out of the water 23 00:01:17,400 --> 00:01:19,600 for this. And I just pray that it always 24 00:01:19,600 --> 00:01:22,280 glorifies you. I pray that Lord that you just 25 00:01:22,280 --> 00:01:26,080 speak to us and through US today and that you let's continue to 26 00:01:26,080 --> 00:01:28,240 use this ministry. Thank you for all that you're 27 00:01:28,240 --> 00:01:31,040 doing, all that you've done and all that you're going to do that 28 00:01:31,040 --> 00:01:33,680 we have no idea about. Lord God, thank you. 29 00:01:33,760 --> 00:01:36,600 In Jesus name I pray, Amen, Amen. 30 00:01:37,080 --> 00:01:39,080 Amen, brother. Ben, I guess I'll start. 31 00:01:41,120 --> 00:01:43,200 Off, OK. First, I would like to say how 32 00:01:43,200 --> 00:01:49,560 proud I am of you and how I. It's amazing to watch where you 33 00:01:49,560 --> 00:01:57,640 started and where God has you now and what he's done through 34 00:01:57,640 --> 00:01:59,760 this. Yeah, you know, did not think 35 00:01:59,760 --> 00:02:02,520 that we were just joking and playing, but he. 36 00:02:03,160 --> 00:02:05,960 God's always in control and has a plan. 37 00:02:05,960 --> 00:02:12,880 And so it's just been I, I've just been awe of what God's done 38 00:02:12,880 --> 00:02:16,520 in your life and I am super proud of you so. 39 00:02:16,520 --> 00:02:19,360 I think, like when we recorded the very first episode, which 40 00:02:19,360 --> 00:02:22,440 was your testimony, like you ended with something like that, 41 00:02:22,440 --> 00:02:24,800 you know, like, I'm excited to see where this goes, like, 42 00:02:24,800 --> 00:02:26,880 whatever. But like, at that point, we were 43 00:02:26,880 --> 00:02:30,600 just thinking this is for fun. That was fun, yeah. 44 00:02:30,760 --> 00:02:33,720 It wasn't fun for me. No, we didn't even have video 45 00:02:33,720 --> 00:02:36,520 back then because she panicked the whole time. 46 00:02:36,520 --> 00:02:38,800 She wouldn't look at the camera. It was just. 47 00:02:39,040 --> 00:02:41,280 And then later on she's like, oh, y'all are just having 48 00:02:41,280 --> 00:02:43,880 conversation. Like I'll still panic. 49 00:02:43,880 --> 00:02:47,040 Yeah, yeah, for sure. I'm not very comfortable. 50 00:02:47,040 --> 00:02:49,840 Yeah, you can't. You can't tell because I mean 51 00:02:49,880 --> 00:02:51,320 the. Red light came on and you. 52 00:02:51,320 --> 00:02:52,920 Were like, well, let me. Start. 53 00:02:53,440 --> 00:02:57,280 Yeah, that, yeah. Anyway, so I thought it would be 54 00:02:57,280 --> 00:03:00,920 cool if we kind of come on here and talk about ministry because 55 00:03:00,920 --> 00:03:03,240 we've already talked about you having sisters of faith and 56 00:03:03,240 --> 00:03:06,920 that's your ministry and like how it gets started, I guess. 57 00:03:06,920 --> 00:03:10,080 Because like, I'm sure so many people think that they want to 58 00:03:10,160 --> 00:03:13,360 start something, that they want to dive into it, but they let 59 00:03:13,360 --> 00:03:16,360 their doubts kind of take that and then they don't. 60 00:03:16,360 --> 00:03:21,960 Jump So yeah. So I think that God puts the 61 00:03:21,960 --> 00:03:27,920 desire and the vision long before it's ever created. 62 00:03:29,040 --> 00:03:33,240 On the way over here, I was thinking even as a young girl, 63 00:03:33,240 --> 00:03:35,440 I've always wanted to help people. 64 00:03:36,400 --> 00:03:40,160 You know, through some trauma that I went through at the age 65 00:03:40,160 --> 00:03:44,320 of 11, I always thought I would help children through 66 00:03:44,720 --> 00:03:49,400 molestation and stuff like that. But I knew that God was going to 67 00:03:49,400 --> 00:03:53,000 use me. I didn't know where, but as I my 68 00:03:53,000 --> 00:03:57,320 life continued and went through some more things, I knew that I 69 00:03:57,320 --> 00:04:02,720 was supposed to help women. And so that started years and 70 00:04:02,720 --> 00:04:05,560 years ago. I mean, like 1012 years ago, I 71 00:04:05,560 --> 00:04:11,640 started praying about it and, and really had given up because 72 00:04:11,640 --> 00:04:15,600 I didn't see a way to do it. But God knew. 73 00:04:15,600 --> 00:04:18,760 And so, you know, I just kept pushing forward. 74 00:04:18,760 --> 00:04:23,160 I've always, always help people. And so that's what I, I want to 75 00:04:23,160 --> 00:04:24,080 do. Well, I. 76 00:04:24,080 --> 00:04:27,760 Want to like kind of lean into like where you didn't see how it 77 00:04:27,760 --> 00:04:30,760 could ever be feasible, like right, Like there's so many 78 00:04:30,760 --> 00:04:34,680 times that we don't understand how a situation in our life can 79 00:04:34,680 --> 00:04:37,680 play out, but God works miracles. 80 00:04:37,680 --> 00:04:40,600 Like, and I've talked about this before, like he's a God of 81 00:04:40,600 --> 00:04:43,800 suddenly, like suddenly that ministry could start. 82 00:04:43,800 --> 00:04:47,520 Suddenly you got gifted a house. Suddenly we started doing 83 00:04:47,520 --> 00:04:50,240 different things that made it possible that God made a way. 84 00:04:50,240 --> 00:04:54,360 So what is it like where he, God's, the Lord provides? 85 00:04:54,400 --> 00:04:56,920 So if it's God's will, it's God's bill. 86 00:04:57,200 --> 00:05:01,400 And so, yeah, I did get a house very quick. 87 00:05:01,480 --> 00:05:04,800 And then before I knew it, people were jumping on board, 88 00:05:04,840 --> 00:05:07,920 helping. And then I had my first girl. 89 00:05:08,320 --> 00:05:13,080 And so still, I look back like, wow, I don't see how that 90 00:05:13,080 --> 00:05:17,880 happened so quickly. And now, you know, I do have a 91 00:05:18,040 --> 00:05:22,160 lot to be grateful for because not only one house, there was 92 00:05:22,160 --> 00:05:24,440 another their house and it, they're full of women and 93 00:05:24,440 --> 00:05:28,920 children. And so God continues to suddenly 94 00:05:28,920 --> 00:05:32,040 surprise. You because there's no way we 95 00:05:32,040 --> 00:05:35,520 would think that we would have all these girls, all this stuff 96 00:05:35,520 --> 00:05:40,160 going on like, oh, OK, so Matthew's birthday last week, 97 00:05:40,520 --> 00:05:43,960 that is an amazing testimony and a testament of God's 98 00:05:43,960 --> 00:05:48,880 faithfulness and how he's LED through this ministry, I think. 99 00:05:48,880 --> 00:05:54,200 One of God's winks sometimes is for you to stand back and see 100 00:05:54,640 --> 00:05:58,640 what really is going on. Because when you're in it, you 101 00:05:58,640 --> 00:06:03,120 get so caught up in everything, the stress of life, you, I think 102 00:06:03,120 --> 00:06:07,200 sometimes you miss what God's doing even when you're in it. 103 00:06:07,600 --> 00:06:11,680 So we had a Matthew, which is our house, Mom's son. 104 00:06:11,680 --> 00:06:16,920 We had him his 12th birthday party at Olympia and every girl 105 00:06:16,920 --> 00:06:21,920 that has been touched or come through sisters of faith showed 106 00:06:21,920 --> 00:06:25,960 up with their children. And one of the girls looked up 107 00:06:25,960 --> 00:06:30,680 at me and said, hey, this is the you're obedience. 108 00:06:30,680 --> 00:06:35,480 This is the fruit. And I had to stand back and look 109 00:06:35,480 --> 00:06:38,000 at it. And that is the fruit of 110 00:06:38,000 --> 00:06:41,400 obedience. When you step out not knowing 111 00:06:41,680 --> 00:06:45,080 what it's going to look like, suddenly God moves you. 112 00:06:45,080 --> 00:06:48,800 You're, you're in awe, but at the same time you don't realize 113 00:06:48,800 --> 00:06:53,640 the impact that you have until you look at something like that. 114 00:06:54,160 --> 00:06:57,960 And I'm telling you it, it was the best feeling ever. 115 00:06:58,160 --> 00:07:01,840 Not for me, not what I've done, but what for God's, what God's 116 00:07:01,840 --> 00:07:04,200 done? Because that's nothing I've 117 00:07:04,200 --> 00:07:07,440 done. I just was obedient to him. 118 00:07:07,880 --> 00:07:11,560 Because everything from redoing all the houses to the girls 119 00:07:11,560 --> 00:07:14,480 coming to the girls getting jobs, all of that, like he has 120 00:07:14,480 --> 00:07:17,280 paved the way for all of those things to happen. 121 00:07:17,280 --> 00:07:21,160 You just were like, hey, I'll, I'll be the person to be 122 00:07:21,160 --> 00:07:23,960 obedient to that. Just use me. 123 00:07:24,480 --> 00:07:25,760 I heard Louis say this last week. 124 00:07:25,760 --> 00:07:29,360 When we're at Passion, we underestimate what God can do in 125 00:07:29,360 --> 00:07:32,080 10 years. Like we don't think of all the 126 00:07:32,080 --> 00:07:36,040 miracles he can perform, all the ways of life that will change in 127 00:07:36,040 --> 00:07:40,200 10 years, but we over estimate what can be done in one year. 128 00:07:40,400 --> 00:07:43,600 Like we always think that it's got to be here and now. 129 00:07:43,840 --> 00:07:47,880 Like we got to have this perfect podcast studio set up for the 130 00:07:47,880 --> 00:07:50,400 very first time. We have to perfect our 131 00:07:50,400 --> 00:07:53,640 conversations, all this stuff like we need it to be perfect 132 00:07:53,640 --> 00:07:56,480 within one year. Well, your ministry didn't start 133 00:07:56,480 --> 00:08:01,040 until what, last year and you were in your 50s Louis Giglio, 134 00:08:01,040 --> 00:08:04,120 the Passion, Passion City Church, it didn't start until he 135 00:08:04,120 --> 00:08:06,600 was 50. So it's like, stop trying to 136 00:08:06,600 --> 00:08:10,600 think that life has to have this perfect bow on it within one 137 00:08:10,600 --> 00:08:13,520 year. You know, like he has his own 138 00:08:13,520 --> 00:08:16,240 timeline. We don't have to have something 139 00:08:16,400 --> 00:08:20,640 come together when we're 20 and 30, like and think that's it, 140 00:08:20,800 --> 00:08:22,360 that this is what God has for me. 141 00:08:22,360 --> 00:08:24,960 I have to do it now. He can have something for you, 142 00:08:24,960 --> 00:08:28,520 but it doesn't come for to fulfilment until when it's the 143 00:08:28,520 --> 00:08:31,520 perfect timing for him. Oh, yeah, And it's never in our 144 00:08:31,520 --> 00:08:32,159 time. No. 145 00:08:32,320 --> 00:08:35,679 Because like I said, when I was a young girl, I thought I would 146 00:08:35,679 --> 00:08:36,640 be doing this. Yeah. 147 00:08:36,840 --> 00:08:40,600 And here I am. I'll be 55 this year and it's 148 00:08:40,600 --> 00:08:46,000 just now starting and there's still so much more like I, you 149 00:08:46,000 --> 00:08:49,560 know, there is more God's got for me and sisters of faith. 150 00:08:49,840 --> 00:08:54,840 But I think the biggest thing is, is teaching me you can't 151 00:08:54,840 --> 00:08:58,280 have, everything's got God's got for you because you're not 152 00:08:58,280 --> 00:09:01,600 ready. And so that's where the pruning 153 00:09:01,600 --> 00:09:05,520 comes in. Even with me, I've been very sad 154 00:09:05,520 --> 00:09:09,080 about girls coming in and then me having to ask them to leave 155 00:09:09,800 --> 00:09:11,960 where, you know, I love their children. 156 00:09:13,080 --> 00:09:15,760 But that's, you know, you have to follow the rules. 157 00:09:16,000 --> 00:09:21,120 But also it's teaching me things that I have to know to move 158 00:09:21,120 --> 00:09:27,480 forward and I think to grow your ministry bigger and bigger. 159 00:09:27,480 --> 00:09:32,120 It's a growing season for the person that's, you know, made 160 00:09:32,120 --> 00:09:35,840 the decision to do this. So even today, I mean, you know, 161 00:09:35,840 --> 00:09:39,280 there's things that, I mean, you brought it to my attention this 162 00:09:39,280 --> 00:09:44,240 week about being slow to anger things that happened. 163 00:09:44,920 --> 00:09:48,880 God is still trying to get things from each of us, you 164 00:09:48,880 --> 00:09:52,640 know, and I think each time we're tested and we passed the 165 00:09:52,640 --> 00:09:58,240 test, God shows more favor. And I think the times that we 166 00:09:58,240 --> 00:10:02,480 don't pass the test, guess what? We're going to be tested again. 167 00:10:02,920 --> 00:10:07,400 And so that's very hard to get. But to God puts people in your 168 00:10:07,400 --> 00:10:09,920 life to show you. And I think that's a big thing 169 00:10:09,920 --> 00:10:13,640 with you, how you'll call me. A lot of people don't, but you 170 00:10:13,640 --> 00:10:18,880 see me at my best and at my worst and you will call me on 171 00:10:18,880 --> 00:10:21,440 it. And so at the moment I get very. 172 00:10:21,440 --> 00:10:24,880 Defensive. Well, everybody usually will. 173 00:10:25,280 --> 00:10:27,680 And you know, I don't want to hear it because you're my child, 174 00:10:27,680 --> 00:10:30,400 you know, you're you know my daughter, you don't tell me. 175 00:10:30,840 --> 00:10:34,720 And I have to realize that God puts these things in our life to 176 00:10:35,880 --> 00:10:40,560 like I said, prunas and one thing I'll tell you, we've 177 00:10:40,560 --> 00:10:45,400 started a life group on Wednesday night at sisters with 178 00:10:45,400 --> 00:10:51,480 a a dear friend, Miss Joyce, and we are studying experiencing 179 00:10:51,480 --> 00:10:54,120 God. And so the other night, 180 00:10:54,360 --> 00:10:59,000 something that is really stuck out to me and I ponder on and 181 00:10:59,000 --> 00:11:03,960 think about every day is she said people can produce a lot of 182 00:11:03,960 --> 00:11:06,280 leaves. And you look over there in the 183 00:11:06,280 --> 00:11:10,280 tree is full of leaves, but when you get up on it, there's no 184 00:11:10,280 --> 00:11:14,880 fruit. And so that really made me stop 185 00:11:14,880 --> 00:11:19,160 and think like in ministry period, it might look good, but 186 00:11:19,160 --> 00:11:23,080 if you're not producing fruit, it's not of God. 187 00:11:23,600 --> 00:11:27,240 And sometimes to produce fruit, you have to be pruned. 188 00:11:27,640 --> 00:11:32,720 And so each time a girl comes in, one graduates, one maybe 189 00:11:32,720 --> 00:11:37,480 leaves, you know, God is growing me in those areas to teach me to 190 00:11:37,480 --> 00:11:40,440 have how to handle, handle situations better. 191 00:11:41,080 --> 00:11:44,880 So, so you know, yeah. That is that's good because 192 00:11:44,880 --> 00:11:47,560 they're, you know, Satan will use that. 193 00:11:47,560 --> 00:11:51,680 He makes us think that, oh, look at that person's ministry. 194 00:11:51,680 --> 00:11:54,800 Look how it's flourishing, like all this stuff and then you get 195 00:11:54,800 --> 00:11:58,080 in it or whatever and you see that it just looks good. 196 00:11:58,080 --> 00:12:01,320 Like there's not really growth. People aren't growing closer to 197 00:12:01,320 --> 00:12:02,120 Christ. Stuff like that. 198 00:12:02,400 --> 00:12:05,720 Not even just ministry in itself, you know, just a person 199 00:12:05,720 --> 00:12:08,640 in general. Like you can look like a 200 00:12:08,640 --> 00:12:11,760 Christian, but is your walk and your talk and the the way your 201 00:12:11,760 --> 00:12:16,280 actions and everything looking like Christ, that's more of like 202 00:12:16,280 --> 00:12:19,800 the, the the trees beautiful, but there's no fruit. 203 00:12:19,800 --> 00:12:23,160 Yeah. There's no fruit and two, with 204 00:12:23,160 --> 00:12:27,480 me and my ministry, so I'll be very transparent. 205 00:12:28,240 --> 00:12:34,360 So the mission for me was I want the girls to get here and I want 206 00:12:34,360 --> 00:12:36,680 them to grow closer to Christ. That's number one. 207 00:12:37,600 --> 00:12:43,240 But I also want them to stand on their own, meaning not depend on 208 00:12:43,240 --> 00:12:48,640 anybody, save their money, you know, learn to walk it out on 209 00:12:48,640 --> 00:12:52,800 this side of Jesus, but mainly not depend on someone. 210 00:12:53,440 --> 00:12:58,840 And so God had to show me after the first six months of my 211 00:12:58,840 --> 00:13:03,040 ministry that I was talking out of both sides of my mouth. 212 00:13:03,920 --> 00:13:10,160 So how could I lead a ministry and teach these women to put God 213 00:13:10,160 --> 00:13:12,120 first? In which I do put God first. 214 00:13:12,480 --> 00:13:18,320 But I had made a decision back in 2020 that I don't believe 215 00:13:18,320 --> 00:13:22,640 that was God's will, but I made it seem like it was. 216 00:13:22,640 --> 00:13:25,120 And God did work beautiful things out of it. 217 00:13:25,480 --> 00:13:31,240 But I had to realize that I was doing exactly what I was trying 218 00:13:31,240 --> 00:13:36,200 to teach these girls not to do. And so the more I walked it out 219 00:13:36,200 --> 00:13:39,880 and the more I would looked at my life from the outside looking 220 00:13:39,880 --> 00:13:43,040 in, I was like, Lord, I need to change. 221 00:13:43,320 --> 00:13:47,040 Not only do I need to teach these girls, this did put you 222 00:13:47,040 --> 00:13:51,080 first and it depend on you only I have got to do it. 223 00:13:51,120 --> 00:13:53,480 Yeah. And so some big changes has come 224 00:13:53,480 --> 00:13:58,760 in my life over this last year, year and a half, where I've got 225 00:13:58,760 --> 00:14:02,800 more in line with God and God's word than I have ever been in my 226 00:14:02,800 --> 00:14:06,080 life. But I think, you know, we start 227 00:14:06,080 --> 00:14:09,840 out by wanting to help other people, but God's like, hey, I 228 00:14:09,840 --> 00:14:13,760 got to help you first. You need to realize that you're 229 00:14:13,760 --> 00:14:18,120 doing exactly what you're trying to teach other people not to do. 230 00:14:18,120 --> 00:14:22,120 Well, it goes to the scripture of don't call out the plank in 231 00:14:22,120 --> 00:14:25,400 someone else's eye when you got the spec, you know so or like a 232 00:14:25,400 --> 00:14:27,680 worldly little thing as you're calling the kettle black. 233 00:14:27,680 --> 00:14:31,920 Yes. So it is like, I think he really 234 00:14:31,920 --> 00:14:35,560 does put us in these situations so that we can grow and that we 235 00:14:35,560 --> 00:14:41,840 can also get closer to him. But he call us out on things so 236 00:14:41,840 --> 00:14:43,920 that we can continue to help people that are doing the same 237 00:14:43,920 --> 00:14:46,520 thing as us. But he's also pruning us in that 238 00:14:46,520 --> 00:14:49,320 same time. So after some time, you realize, 239 00:14:49,320 --> 00:14:51,520 like, man, I'm preaching to the choir like. 240 00:14:51,920 --> 00:14:54,080 Most. I'm I need to be taking this for 241 00:14:54,080 --> 00:14:56,480 myself instead of just saying it for others? 242 00:14:56,480 --> 00:14:58,600 Yes. Because you can't, you know, 243 00:14:58,600 --> 00:15:02,800 they say lead by example, you know, and I was like, Lord, I 244 00:15:02,800 --> 00:15:07,800 just kept feeling like pressure on me because what it looked 245 00:15:07,800 --> 00:15:10,240 like from the outside, you know what? 246 00:15:10,800 --> 00:15:13,840 And I know in my heart that I was trying to stay in line with 247 00:15:13,840 --> 00:15:20,040 God, but at the same time, was I totally depending on God or was 248 00:15:20,040 --> 00:15:24,480 I depending on man? And so I had to realize that at 249 00:15:24,480 --> 00:15:27,840 some point I was doing exactly what I was telling the girls not 250 00:15:27,840 --> 00:15:30,560 to do. So, you know, that's learning. 251 00:15:30,880 --> 00:15:35,880 So just since the ministry started till now has been a huge 252 00:15:35,880 --> 00:15:40,240 leap of faith for me. Like, OK, God, here I am. 253 00:15:40,240 --> 00:15:45,120 It's me and you. And so today I can honestly say 254 00:15:45,120 --> 00:15:48,160 I'm not even the same person that I was when I started the 255 00:15:48,160 --> 00:15:52,600 ministry. And so it amazes me of like, I'm 256 00:15:52,600 --> 00:15:56,240 so excited to see what God does in the next year. 257 00:15:56,240 --> 00:15:59,680 Yeah, you know, for real. Because it's like in the in just 258 00:15:59,680 --> 00:16:02,640 this time span, like how much you've changed, just think about 259 00:16:02,640 --> 00:16:05,920 how much more and how many more doors will be open, more 260 00:16:05,920 --> 00:16:08,920 opportunities and just more girls that come in and that 261 00:16:08,920 --> 00:16:10,920 their life can be changed as well. 262 00:16:11,080 --> 00:16:14,440 And you being able to see that and experience that, that like 263 00:16:14,680 --> 00:16:18,920 fuels it almost too. It's like you're seeing the 264 00:16:18,920 --> 00:16:22,560 fruit of your obedience, but it's for Christ and you're 265 00:16:22,560 --> 00:16:25,800 knowing that you're growing it, that generations are being 266 00:16:25,800 --> 00:16:28,080 changed because of your obedience. 267 00:16:28,880 --> 00:16:31,000 Yeah. And just like you with your 268 00:16:31,000 --> 00:16:35,520 ministry, Yeah, like you're getting to meet people and talk 269 00:16:35,520 --> 00:16:40,000 and, you know, grow in areas that you've needed to, you know? 270 00:16:40,000 --> 00:16:42,480 Well, I think it's funny because I was having a conversation with 271 00:16:42,800 --> 00:16:45,040 somebody the other day, and I won't say who, but they were 272 00:16:45,040 --> 00:16:48,160 like when you started the podcast, Like I basically was 273 00:16:48,160 --> 00:16:52,000 like, Oh no, you know, like they thought that I wasn't really 274 00:16:52,000 --> 00:16:54,080 ready to start one. Like, what are you going to be 275 00:16:54,080 --> 00:16:56,160 talking about? And then they, you know, 276 00:16:56,160 --> 00:16:59,320 finished it and they were like, you've blown, blown it out of 277 00:16:59,320 --> 00:17:02,040 the water. Like you've grown spiritually so 278 00:17:02,040 --> 00:17:04,960 much and just talking to you. I can see that. 279 00:17:04,960 --> 00:17:07,880 And so sometimes I go to say that like not to toot my horn or 280 00:17:07,880 --> 00:17:11,319 anything, I just go to say that because no, was I necessarily 281 00:17:11,319 --> 00:17:14,160 ready to step out? No, but I knew that God had 282 00:17:14,160 --> 00:17:18,240 called me too tell people what he'd done in my life. 283 00:17:18,240 --> 00:17:21,280 Yes, like I did. I have all the answers when 284 00:17:21,280 --> 00:17:23,920 people were messaging me and asking me stuff, I had no idea. 285 00:17:23,920 --> 00:17:26,400 I'm like, honey, please seek God. 286 00:17:26,800 --> 00:17:28,880 Like I don't know. That's what I was told. 287 00:17:29,120 --> 00:17:31,120 You know, that's what's jump started this for me. 288 00:17:31,120 --> 00:17:33,680 Charmel told me to seek God and then all of a sudden I'm like, 289 00:17:34,120 --> 00:17:36,600 here I am Lord, like I'm ready. I'm sorry. 290 00:17:36,600 --> 00:17:39,320 I surrender. So even when we don't feel like 291 00:17:39,320 --> 00:17:42,840 we're ready to lead a ministry or start something or whatever, 292 00:17:44,160 --> 00:17:47,840 step out of the boat, keep your eyes on God, keep your eyes on 293 00:17:47,840 --> 00:17:51,720 him and move forward because He's going to provide and clear 294 00:17:51,720 --> 00:17:55,760 every, every distraction, everything that could possibly 295 00:17:55,760 --> 00:17:57,800 get in your way if you're staying in line with Him. 296 00:17:58,080 --> 00:18:02,480 Yeah, and it teaches you to to seek him more because when 297 00:18:02,480 --> 00:18:06,200 people are questioning you or when you bring in somebody on 298 00:18:06,200 --> 00:18:09,720 the podcast, you want to know that you know, that you know, 299 00:18:09,720 --> 00:18:13,000 that you've studied God's word and that you're not going to 300 00:18:13,000 --> 00:18:14,440 mislead anybody. Yes. 301 00:18:14,440 --> 00:18:19,280 So I think, I think that's why God started this for you is so 302 00:18:19,600 --> 00:18:21,520 that you could seek him more. Yeah. 303 00:18:21,760 --> 00:18:26,040 Not that you know you wouldn't, but maybe in deeper areas that 304 00:18:26,040 --> 00:18:28,640 you wouldn't have if this hadn't come to pass. 305 00:18:28,760 --> 00:18:32,040 Well, I think in the first like few weeks, when I first moved 306 00:18:32,040 --> 00:18:37,440 the studio home, I made a video and I said like, hey, I well, I 307 00:18:37,440 --> 00:18:39,280 didn't make a video. I talked to God about it first 308 00:18:39,280 --> 00:18:43,320 and I was like, I commit six months like because I'm one of 309 00:18:43,320 --> 00:18:46,400 those people want to get good at something and then I'm like, I'm 310 00:18:46,400 --> 00:18:49,480 good, Like I figured it out. I'm doing well, like whatever. 311 00:18:49,680 --> 00:18:52,720 But with this, I was like, no, this can hold me accountable 312 00:18:52,720 --> 00:18:56,800 because you don't want to jump on here and just have beautiful 313 00:18:56,800 --> 00:19:00,640 trees, beautiful leaves and not actually bear fruit. 314 00:19:00,880 --> 00:19:03,200 And so I was like, this will hold me accountable because I'm 315 00:19:03,200 --> 00:19:04,880 not going to get on here and look stupid. 316 00:19:04,880 --> 00:19:07,160 You know, like I want to truly be in line. 317 00:19:07,480 --> 00:19:11,640 And so that has that's been one of those things and going into 318 00:19:11,640 --> 00:19:17,120 that too, being held accountable is so important from a community 319 00:19:17,120 --> 00:19:22,120 of like minded people. Like our ministries couldn't run 320 00:19:22,160 --> 00:19:24,840 if we didn't have other spiritual leaders, other 321 00:19:24,840 --> 00:19:29,400 spiritual sisters around us that's praying for our ministry, 322 00:19:29,400 --> 00:19:33,640 that's interceding and you know, helping us grow iron sharpens 323 00:19:33,640 --> 00:19:36,600 iron. And so if we didn't have that, I 324 00:19:36,600 --> 00:19:40,560 mean, it would just fall apart. Like we need people that are on 325 00:19:40,560 --> 00:19:43,160 board and that are seeing it through with us. 326 00:19:43,160 --> 00:19:44,840 Yes. I guess since you were talking 327 00:19:44,840 --> 00:19:47,400 about the mission of Sisters of Faith or whatever, I'll bring in 328 00:19:47,400 --> 00:19:50,480 what I started praises in the pot for and what my mission is. 329 00:19:50,480 --> 00:19:53,000 And it kind of just all came together more recently when I 330 00:19:53,000 --> 00:19:55,440 was just kind of like talking about it and I realized like it 331 00:19:55,440 --> 00:19:57,080 kind of it kind of flowed pretty good. 332 00:19:57,480 --> 00:20:01,560 But it's like I started this to have a real raw and relatable 333 00:20:01,560 --> 00:20:05,560 podcast that glorifies God. And I want people to see what 334 00:20:05,560 --> 00:20:09,520 how we've experienced God. So then they are eager to have 335 00:20:09,520 --> 00:20:12,520 that kind of same thing happen to them and God to reveal 336 00:20:12,520 --> 00:20:15,160 himself to them. Because there's so many times 337 00:20:15,160 --> 00:20:19,560 that like we look at pastors more so, right, Pastors or men 338 00:20:19,560 --> 00:20:22,840 of the church, people high in the church, women, all the stuff 339 00:20:23,240 --> 00:20:26,120 speakers. And we're like, they didn't go 340 00:20:26,120 --> 00:20:27,880 through it, like they didn't live there. 341 00:20:28,000 --> 00:20:32,720 They just were automatically born into like being a Christian 342 00:20:32,720 --> 00:20:34,280 and their family probably grew up. 343 00:20:34,600 --> 00:20:37,560 I wanted to show the real wrong, relatable side of it. 344 00:20:37,560 --> 00:20:41,600 Like, you know, my mom was an addiction for over 30 years. 345 00:20:41,600 --> 00:20:43,800 I was raised by my grandparents. I was about by my stepdad. 346 00:20:43,800 --> 00:20:46,200 Like my dad's still an addiction, all this stuff, my 347 00:20:46,240 --> 00:20:49,200 biological father. And so it's like I'm a real 348 00:20:49,200 --> 00:20:52,720 person having real raw struggles. 349 00:20:52,720 --> 00:20:55,360 And let's talk about it because there's so many times that we 350 00:20:55,360 --> 00:20:59,400 brush over those struggles that we're having, you know, whether 351 00:20:59,400 --> 00:21:05,000 that be drinking, just drugs, pornography, abusive 352 00:21:05,000 --> 00:21:08,160 relationships, miscarriage, abortions and options, all this 353 00:21:08,160 --> 00:21:11,360 stuff like we don't talk about those things enough. 354 00:21:11,800 --> 00:21:13,400 And that's why I wanted to start it. 355 00:21:13,560 --> 00:21:17,000 You know, and people need to see the real Yeah, because they're 356 00:21:17,000 --> 00:21:19,680 scared of Christianity. They're scared of the church, 357 00:21:19,960 --> 00:21:23,200 you know, they're not. They've got to clean up or 358 00:21:23,200 --> 00:21:28,480 change, but they can come in. But so to draw more people, you 359 00:21:28,480 --> 00:21:30,320 have to be transparent. Yeah. 360 00:21:30,440 --> 00:21:34,320 Like this is life. And even though I'm jacked up, 361 00:21:34,600 --> 00:21:39,040 God can still use me, just like I said earlier, like I from the 362 00:21:39,040 --> 00:21:43,080 outside looking in, like I wasn't living the the life that 363 00:21:43,080 --> 00:21:45,480 I should have been living, leading a ministry. 364 00:21:45,480 --> 00:21:47,840 But God knew that he was going to get that. 365 00:21:47,840 --> 00:21:51,240 Yeah, you know that he was going to teach me how to depend on 366 00:21:51,240 --> 00:21:53,600 him. And so I think it's so important 367 00:21:53,600 --> 00:21:57,840 when we can come in and just be raw like this is who I am. 368 00:21:58,000 --> 00:22:01,360 But but God loves me and he is going to use me. 369 00:22:01,680 --> 00:22:05,880 And while he while he is using me, he's going to clean me up. 370 00:22:06,400 --> 00:22:09,640 He's going to prune me. He's going to make me produce 371 00:22:09,640 --> 00:22:13,560 fruit and not just leaves. And I was thinking like that too 372 00:22:13,560 --> 00:22:16,440 in the past, more so since I started the podcast up until 373 00:22:16,440 --> 00:22:19,640 about 5 months ago. But like with Greg, you know, 374 00:22:19,640 --> 00:22:22,480 like I felt like such a hypocrite because you come on 375 00:22:22,480 --> 00:22:24,640 here and you're, you're ministering to these people, 376 00:22:24,640 --> 00:22:27,160 you're telling them about God and then you're at home and 377 00:22:27,160 --> 00:22:29,520 you're like, I can't even minister my own husband. 378 00:22:29,720 --> 00:22:31,320 Like I can't even bring my own husband in Christ. 379 00:22:31,320 --> 00:22:35,320 So like, it was like almost a spiritual warfare or internal 380 00:22:35,320 --> 00:22:37,360 battle. I don't know what it was, but 381 00:22:37,360 --> 00:22:41,040 like I was just so torn. I'm like, who am I to be telling 382 00:22:41,040 --> 00:22:43,600 people how great God is and what all he's done? 383 00:22:43,800 --> 00:22:46,000 And then I'm just sitting here and I can't even help my 384 00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:49,240 husband. But like, that wasn't my war to 385 00:22:49,240 --> 00:22:51,920 fight. Like God was going to do it 386 00:22:51,920 --> 00:22:54,320 regardless. I just had to be obedient. 387 00:22:54,920 --> 00:22:57,600 I had to continue to wake up and go to church. 388 00:22:57,600 --> 00:22:59,840 I had to continue to come on the podcast and talk about it. 389 00:23:00,160 --> 00:23:02,480 And you know what? Every single episode he was 390 00:23:02,480 --> 00:23:06,880 listening. So I go to say that as in people 391 00:23:06,880 --> 00:23:10,640 are watching. If you are a follower of Christ 392 00:23:10,640 --> 00:23:12,960 and you're being bold for him, people are watching your 393 00:23:12,960 --> 00:23:14,920 actions. They're listening to your words. 394 00:23:15,160 --> 00:23:17,120 They're trying to find some flaws. 395 00:23:17,320 --> 00:23:21,520 But if you're steadfast and you stand firm in Christ and you're 396 00:23:21,520 --> 00:23:26,680 online, people are going to see, oh, hang on, maybe she is who 397 00:23:26,720 --> 00:23:29,120 you know, she says she is. Maybe she is walking it out the 398 00:23:29,120 --> 00:23:30,480 way she's supposed to be walking it out. 399 00:23:30,720 --> 00:23:33,520 And if God's doing that in her life and now I'm obedient, what 400 00:23:33,520 --> 00:23:35,080 can he? What can? 401 00:23:35,320 --> 00:23:39,080 How can my life change? Because we forget so many times 402 00:23:39,080 --> 00:23:41,360 that just because we're in this situation doesn't mean that 403 00:23:41,360 --> 00:23:44,760 situation lasts forever. No, it's a season, yes, but 404 00:23:44,760 --> 00:23:48,880 sometimes we don't see that. But it's just amazing to me that 405 00:23:48,880 --> 00:23:52,880 Greg is a miracle. I think about it all the time. 406 00:23:52,880 --> 00:23:58,040 Like if you would have told me six months ago, Greg will quit 407 00:23:58,040 --> 00:24:03,040 drinking, go to church. Like I see him, he comes to the 408 00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:06,800 church, pulls up, Celebrate Recovery every Thursday. 409 00:24:07,000 --> 00:24:09,080 I, I thought Greg would never change. 410 00:24:09,360 --> 00:24:13,160 But see, we don't see the big picture of what we're doing 411 00:24:13,320 --> 00:24:17,400 influences others. And so for you like to, to work 412 00:24:17,400 --> 00:24:21,200 at the church and be so involved and have a podcast and help me 413 00:24:21,200 --> 00:24:24,400 with my ministry. Greg has witnessed every bit of 414 00:24:24,400 --> 00:24:29,320 this and so now I, I mean, now he's in a life group. 415 00:24:29,720 --> 00:24:32,240 I may help. Serve at the church as long as. 416 00:24:32,240 --> 00:24:37,200 Coffee and I'm just like wow yeah you know so that that makes 417 00:24:37,200 --> 00:24:40,800 me want to continue to do this even more yeah because if it 418 00:24:40,800 --> 00:24:45,040 changed Greg well then it changed my way yeah I mean not 419 00:24:45,040 --> 00:24:48,560 just Greg I mean I don't like oh Greg I know they you know in 420 00:24:48,560 --> 00:24:54,000 general like keep moving yeah God has got such a big plan yes 421 00:24:54,040 --> 00:24:56,880 but like so for the last the past you know couple weeks I've 422 00:24:56,880 --> 00:25:03,840 been under a lot of stress with the ministry but I know that I 423 00:25:03,840 --> 00:25:08,720 know that I know that God has this and I know that sisters of 424 00:25:08,720 --> 00:25:13,640 faith will continue I know he's got big plans there is already 425 00:25:13,640 --> 00:25:20,200 big plan and so I know walking it out continuous continuously. 426 00:25:20,400 --> 00:25:23,560 Matthew 633, we talk about it all the time. 427 00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:28,760 So today, more than ever, I stand on that verse. 428 00:25:28,760 --> 00:25:31,360 Yeah, because I am putting him first. 429 00:25:31,360 --> 00:25:33,960 I'm asking him, I'm yielding to Him. 430 00:25:34,480 --> 00:25:37,920 And so, so that other people's life can be changed. 431 00:25:38,120 --> 00:25:40,240 It's not about me. It ain't. 432 00:25:40,240 --> 00:25:42,720 It's not about you. It's not about this podcast. 433 00:25:42,720 --> 00:25:46,160 It really isn't about sisters. It's about walking it out and 434 00:25:46,160 --> 00:25:50,520 showing everybody that God is first in our life and everything 435 00:25:50,520 --> 00:25:54,720 else is going to come together. I think going off of that too is 436 00:25:54,720 --> 00:25:58,720 like somebody told me this when I first started the podcast, 437 00:25:59,080 --> 00:26:03,240 Chris Clark huge like he has just really influenced me and 438 00:26:03,240 --> 00:26:06,400 LED me and like showed me what it means to start something and 439 00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:08,680 continue on. Like he's just all in the media 440 00:26:08,680 --> 00:26:10,400 realm and just like such inspiration. 441 00:26:10,680 --> 00:26:13,440 But he told me right when I started, he was like when you 442 00:26:13,440 --> 00:26:16,920 feel like quitting and like you're tired of it, maybe the 443 00:26:16,920 --> 00:26:20,480 hyperfixation done wore off and you're just over it pushed 444 00:26:20,480 --> 00:26:22,200 through because breakthrough is coming. 445 00:26:22,600 --> 00:26:27,680 And when he said that, I like, I clung to that because I remember 446 00:26:27,680 --> 00:26:30,920 at one point it was probably about seven months in, I'm like, 447 00:26:31,560 --> 00:26:34,240 OK, like I'm tired of editing the episodes. 448 00:26:34,520 --> 00:26:36,960 I'm tired of like planning and all this stuff. 449 00:26:36,960 --> 00:26:41,160 But I was like, I remember that. And so he planted a seed that he 450 00:26:41,160 --> 00:26:42,720 didn't even realize that he planted. 451 00:26:42,840 --> 00:26:45,440 I had a meeting with him yesterday and I told him because 452 00:26:45,440 --> 00:26:47,160 he was like talking, we're talking about the podcast and 453 00:26:47,160 --> 00:26:49,840 stuff. I said that what you told me is 454 00:26:49,840 --> 00:26:53,960 what has held me on this long because I knew that if I keep 455 00:26:53,960 --> 00:26:55,480 going that God was going to use it. 456 00:26:55,720 --> 00:26:58,520 That when I started getting tired and when I was felt like I 457 00:26:58,520 --> 00:27:01,320 was like, I'm going to call it like it's good. 458 00:27:01,640 --> 00:27:05,920 I pushed through. And just thinking like like 2 459 00:27:05,920 --> 00:27:09,840 months ago is when I did the episode about opportunities to 460 00:27:09,840 --> 00:27:12,040 seek God and it just like exploded. 461 00:27:12,320 --> 00:27:15,240 And now all these women are, you know, talking to me more about 462 00:27:15,760 --> 00:27:16,960 their struggles and stuff like that. 463 00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:19,760 And it's like if I were to quit, how are those women ever going 464 00:27:19,760 --> 00:27:23,680 to see that people go through the same struggles that they 465 00:27:23,680 --> 00:27:26,720 were dealing with, the same unequally yoked marriage or just 466 00:27:26,720 --> 00:27:29,560 all these other things? It's like when you think that 467 00:27:29,560 --> 00:27:34,000 you're at the end of the road, push through, seek God and push 468 00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:35,640 through because He's going to give you the strengths. 469 00:27:35,640 --> 00:27:39,680 We know that, like we know that his, it's his strength, not 470 00:27:39,680 --> 00:27:41,440 ours. Like we can't continue. 471 00:27:41,520 --> 00:27:45,760 We need his strength. Yeah, that that plays a big part 472 00:27:45,760 --> 00:27:50,640 with me because I literally sometimes thank God, am I 473 00:27:50,640 --> 00:27:54,680 supposed to be doing this? Especially when the girls come 474 00:27:54,680 --> 00:28:01,160 and they go and then to the enemy will use your character 475 00:28:01,160 --> 00:28:05,720 defects or your struggles to make you feel like you're not 476 00:28:05,720 --> 00:28:09,760 worthy. And so just, you know, with the 477 00:28:09,760 --> 00:28:14,160 last girl, you know, sometimes I do get aggravated and I do get 478 00:28:14,160 --> 00:28:19,440 very angry because I invest so much like I love on these girls. 479 00:28:19,560 --> 00:28:24,040 I, I mean, I am investing my life in them and then they give 480 00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:28,160 up so easily. And so then I get angry and then 481 00:28:28,160 --> 00:28:31,800 I, I, I really have to stop because then I'm like, am I 482 00:28:31,800 --> 00:28:34,280 doing this for me or is this for you, God? 483 00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:38,440 So, so many times the enemy attacks me and I have to 484 00:28:38,440 --> 00:28:41,200 remember once again, it's not about me. 485 00:28:42,080 --> 00:28:46,080 It's not about, you know, God is teaching me, you know, you don't 486 00:28:46,080 --> 00:28:49,560 start out being the best leader you can be from the jump. 487 00:28:49,560 --> 00:28:53,000 Just like we talked about earlier, it's a process. 488 00:28:53,040 --> 00:28:57,400 And so when I can realize that, I know that not only is God 489 00:28:57,400 --> 00:29:01,640 going to grow my ministry, His ministry through me, yeah, He's 490 00:29:01,640 --> 00:29:06,000 going to grow me in areas that sometimes I don't even see. 491 00:29:06,120 --> 00:29:10,480 I think that I get angry because I've invested so much in you and 492 00:29:10,600 --> 00:29:12,560 you're just giving up. And I'm mad with them because 493 00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:15,920 they're giving up. But I have to remember 30 years, 494 00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:20,280 I give up, you know, I, it looked really good for me many 495 00:29:20,280 --> 00:29:23,960 times in my life to other people, but I didn't get it. 496 00:29:23,960 --> 00:29:27,320 And I give up, you know, And so I have to remember that and 497 00:29:27,320 --> 00:29:32,680 remember that God is in this. This ain't about Rhonda saving 498 00:29:32,680 --> 00:29:35,960 and helping girls. It's about God bringing them to 499 00:29:35,960 --> 00:29:40,560 me and, and feeding me what I need so I can help them. 500 00:29:41,080 --> 00:29:43,360 But it's changing me in the process. 501 00:29:43,680 --> 00:29:47,280 And it was feel good. I was thinking that too is like, 502 00:29:48,440 --> 00:29:53,280 it's so hard because you want something for somebody so bad. 503 00:29:53,680 --> 00:29:56,840 And then it's even harder when you know that they've 504 00:29:56,840 --> 00:30:01,040 experienced God, but they're they're like the Israelites. 505 00:30:01,040 --> 00:30:05,400 They forget the miracles that was going on that they just 506 00:30:05,400 --> 00:30:07,360 witnessed. Like literally, they walk into 507 00:30:07,360 --> 00:30:10,600 the promised land just already forget or they were forgot that 508 00:30:10,600 --> 00:30:13,680 they were supplied mana every single day and never went 509 00:30:13,680 --> 00:30:16,400 without. And it's like we often forget 510 00:30:16,400 --> 00:30:20,560 those miracles and then we're in this one valley, and then we run 511 00:30:20,560 --> 00:30:23,280 back to what we knew, and Satans got us again. 512 00:30:23,560 --> 00:30:26,800 Yeah, because we all we know is what we left. 513 00:30:27,160 --> 00:30:29,480 We don't want to see what God has for us. 514 00:30:29,640 --> 00:30:31,880 It's too hard. Oh, it's work. 515 00:30:32,240 --> 00:30:34,680 You know, you got to change. You got to want it. 516 00:30:34,960 --> 00:30:39,240 So you missed the mark of this is good. 517 00:30:39,640 --> 00:30:43,120 So you're still so much living in the past that it's easier to 518 00:30:43,120 --> 00:30:47,000 go back. And so us as the leaders, we see 519 00:30:47,000 --> 00:30:48,880 that and we're trying to push them through. 520 00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:54,520 But I guess what I don't realize sometimes is it's not, it's not 521 00:30:54,520 --> 00:30:56,960 their time. You know, it's not. 522 00:30:57,240 --> 00:31:00,320 I can't see that because I see all the good that's coming out 523 00:31:00,320 --> 00:31:04,040 all this, but I do believe God's like they're not ready. 524 00:31:04,360 --> 00:31:05,960 Let them go back in the wilderness. 525 00:31:05,960 --> 00:31:07,880 Let them you know, they're not done yet. 526 00:31:08,360 --> 00:31:11,360 They're not completely broken and crying out yet. 527 00:31:11,880 --> 00:31:16,560 And so I'm, I'm learning to see that, that it's not, it's not 528 00:31:16,560 --> 00:31:19,320 what I'm doing. You know, I think sometimes the 529 00:31:19,320 --> 00:31:21,760 Lord, what could I done? You know, could I done anything 530 00:31:21,760 --> 00:31:24,000 different? Could I said anything? 531 00:31:24,000 --> 00:31:25,880 Could I made life better for them? 532 00:31:26,160 --> 00:31:29,760 But I have to remember, it's not, it's not that, it's that 533 00:31:29,760 --> 00:31:32,080 they're not done. Well, then you would have been 534 00:31:32,080 --> 00:31:34,400 trying to take take it into your own hands. 535 00:31:34,400 --> 00:31:37,160 If you're trying to maneuver all that, manipulate all these 536 00:31:37,160 --> 00:31:39,920 situations, then you were doing it, you know, like you were 537 00:31:39,920 --> 00:31:42,760 trying to take it wasn't God that was really doing it. 538 00:31:42,760 --> 00:31:46,120 So I keep thinking when you were talking about that and you can't 539 00:31:46,120 --> 00:31:48,240 see the future and you don't know what's going to happen. 540 00:31:48,240 --> 00:31:50,200 And that's what scares people because they don't know what's 541 00:31:50,200 --> 00:31:52,080 coming next. And it takes me back to the 542 00:31:52,080 --> 00:31:55,520 verse of like the lamp, them to your feet, like he's the lamp. 543 00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:57,440 Right. Yeah, right. 544 00:31:57,520 --> 00:32:00,240 A light into your, a lamp into your feet, a light into your 545 00:32:00,240 --> 00:32:02,760 path. Yeah, so it's up your feet. 546 00:32:02,760 --> 00:32:06,600 But as you walk. You see more and more, yes, like 547 00:32:06,600 --> 00:32:09,680 that's what I'm picturing in my mind, but it's like you're 548 00:32:09,680 --> 00:32:13,760 walking and he doesn't light up the whole thing for you to see 549 00:32:14,040 --> 00:32:17,760 the the whole story, your whole chapter, your whole life. 550 00:32:17,920 --> 00:32:21,000 Like he shows you what you need to see and God always provides. 551 00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:24,320 I told you this when I came back from Passion because God spoke 552 00:32:24,320 --> 00:32:29,320 so boldly to me and he and I was like, man, they started singing 553 00:32:29,320 --> 00:32:32,880 the Lord will provide and I started like laughing, but I was 554 00:32:32,880 --> 00:32:36,600 like in awe of God's humor because he had just answered 555 00:32:36,600 --> 00:32:39,360 something so big to me. But I was just laughing because 556 00:32:39,360 --> 00:32:42,400 I was like, I always think the Lord will provide in like just 557 00:32:42,400 --> 00:32:47,160 financial settings or, or in this situation or whatever. 558 00:32:47,160 --> 00:32:51,640 I don't think that he provides enough knowledge for me to move 559 00:32:51,640 --> 00:32:53,800 forward. Like every single time. 560 00:32:53,800 --> 00:32:57,000 Maybe I'm seeking him about something like he gives me just 561 00:32:57,000 --> 00:32:59,000 enough. Like he's like, I'm not giving 562 00:32:59,000 --> 00:33:01,520 you the whole cookie here, but here's a crime, you know, 563 00:33:01,520 --> 00:33:04,760 continue and I'm going to keep putting that puzzle together. 564 00:33:05,120 --> 00:33:08,160 Because if you look at it and you see that whole path lit up 565 00:33:08,160 --> 00:33:10,360 and you know the way, you don't need him anymore. 566 00:33:10,800 --> 00:33:14,200 You know, I said that too. I was like, well, if he gives us 567 00:33:14,200 --> 00:33:18,000 like one of my friends, she said I opened the Bible and I did the 568 00:33:18,000 --> 00:33:20,280 thing that you said about opening the Bible to a ram spot 569 00:33:20,280 --> 00:33:21,800 in red and he didn't really give it to me. 570 00:33:21,800 --> 00:33:23,760 And I was like, well, he doesn't do it every single time. 571 00:33:23,760 --> 00:33:25,240 And when I said that, it clicked. 572 00:33:25,240 --> 00:33:29,360 And it's like if he spoke and told us the what we're looking 573 00:33:29,360 --> 00:33:31,960 for at the moment that we're looking for it, we would stop 574 00:33:31,960 --> 00:33:35,120 seeking him because we already know or I'm only going to run to 575 00:33:35,120 --> 00:33:39,160 you when I need something. So in that brokenness of staying 576 00:33:39,160 --> 00:33:41,680 broken, Pat talks about this all the time, time being broken 577 00:33:41,720 --> 00:33:44,800 open, not just broken, but when we're broken open and talk about 578 00:33:44,800 --> 00:33:46,920 our struggles, we talk about the things that we're going through 579 00:33:47,280 --> 00:33:49,640 and just continuously seeking him. 580 00:33:49,640 --> 00:33:51,800 That's when God continues to reveal Himself. 581 00:33:51,920 --> 00:33:54,600 Yeah, because he don't want, like I said, he's not going to 582 00:33:54,600 --> 00:33:56,720 give you more than you need at that moment. 583 00:33:57,040 --> 00:33:59,680 We want it all because that's who we are. 584 00:33:59,680 --> 00:34:02,360 I want to know what I know, you know, I want to see what it 585 00:34:02,360 --> 00:34:05,040 where I'm going. But he's not going to do that. 586 00:34:05,040 --> 00:34:07,680 And that is the hardest thing. And I tell the girls all the 587 00:34:07,680 --> 00:34:10,639 time. That's when you yield, you yield 588 00:34:10,639 --> 00:34:13,199 to to him. You get behind him, let him pass 589 00:34:13,239 --> 00:34:17,520 you and you get behind him. I friend, a friend, Sandy, she 590 00:34:17,520 --> 00:34:20,000 always tells me, Rhonda, get get behind God. 591 00:34:20,280 --> 00:34:23,120 You're in front of him. You're telling him your plans. 592 00:34:23,440 --> 00:34:27,560 And so it's so important. But it it's because we need him 593 00:34:27,560 --> 00:34:30,520 every minute that he don't show us everything. 594 00:34:31,120 --> 00:34:34,400 You know it keeps us seeking Him first. 595 00:34:34,400 --> 00:34:36,840 It does. So I guess as we begin to close 596 00:34:37,239 --> 00:34:41,719 and wrap this up, what would maybe be some piece of advice, 597 00:34:42,040 --> 00:34:46,600 maybe a something that God's revealed to you more recently or 598 00:34:46,639 --> 00:34:48,159 how would you, how do you want to end it? 599 00:34:48,880 --> 00:34:53,400 Well, just to say, if there is a calling on your life, just be 600 00:34:53,400 --> 00:34:57,120 obedient. Just shield to Him and just 601 00:34:57,120 --> 00:34:59,400 don't give up. Don't give up before the 602 00:34:59,400 --> 00:35:03,360 miracle, because if God has put something in your heart and you 603 00:35:03,360 --> 00:35:06,320 know that, you know that you know that it is from the Lord. 604 00:35:06,920 --> 00:35:10,560 It might not be when we think it's going to be, but He is 605 00:35:10,560 --> 00:35:13,840 going to make a way. And so don't give up. 606 00:35:13,880 --> 00:35:17,880 Keep pressing forward, keep seeking Him, and keep serving. 607 00:35:17,880 --> 00:35:19,560 Yes, I'm going to piggyback off of that. 608 00:35:19,560 --> 00:35:24,600 So I'm going to say, and don't think that it has to be some big 609 00:35:24,600 --> 00:35:28,160 elaborate ministry. Wherever you are, wherever God 610 00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:30,280 has placed you, that is your ministry. 611 00:35:30,280 --> 00:35:34,640 You can literally shine light to people around you, at the 612 00:35:34,640 --> 00:35:39,440 grocery store, in your workplace, wherever you are. 613 00:35:39,920 --> 00:35:41,920 Shine the light of Christ. Yes. 614 00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:46,720 Light be obedient in that give people compliments, be be that 615 00:35:46,720 --> 00:35:49,680 servant to people. Maybe if you see somebody in 616 00:35:49,680 --> 00:35:51,680 need. Those are the little things that 617 00:35:51,680 --> 00:35:54,840 make a ministry. Not praises in the pod, the 618 00:35:54,840 --> 00:35:58,920 name, not Sisters of Faith, not because we're out here, you 619 00:35:58,920 --> 00:36:03,640 know, doing things like this. We should be also leading a 620 00:36:03,640 --> 00:36:06,200 ministry when we're just walking through Publix. 621 00:36:06,200 --> 00:36:09,640 Yes, I am, yeah. That's that's good. 622 00:36:09,680 --> 00:36:13,080 Yes, that is good. Thank you so much for having me. 623 00:36:13,080 --> 00:36:15,960 And you gonna come back on or? Well, don't plan it. 624 00:36:16,200 --> 00:36:18,840 Has this. Scares me and it's nerve 625 00:36:18,840 --> 00:36:20,840 wracking because you know I'm not. 626 00:36:23,240 --> 00:36:26,680 OK, whatever. Well, all right, guys, thank you 627 00:36:26,680 --> 00:36:30,600 so much for an incredible, incredible year. 628 00:36:30,880 --> 00:36:36,160 I am just blown away, honestly. Like God has used this ministry 629 00:36:36,160 --> 00:36:38,040 and I pray that he continues to use it. 630 00:36:38,040 --> 00:36:41,920 I pray that above all else, not even just this room and this 631 00:36:41,920 --> 00:36:44,800 setting or the your streaming device that you're listening on. 632 00:36:44,960 --> 00:36:48,520 I pray that he uses me as a vessel and I just pray that I 633 00:36:48,520 --> 00:36:50,960 can shine light into y'all's lives and people's lives 634 00:36:51,080 --> 00:36:55,400 physically around me. So all right guys, stay tuned, 635 00:36:55,400 --> 00:36:57,320 stay blessed, and we'll see you guys later. 636 00:36:57,480 --> 00:36:58,080 Bye.