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What's up guys? 
My name's Alexis, your host with

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praises in the pot, and I'm so 
excited to be in the studio this

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fine morning with Madison 
Bradshaw. 

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We're going to be talking about 
what God has done in her life 

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and what her and her husband 
have experienced and how y'all 

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encountered the Lord and just 
how y'all had life change. 

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And so we're going to start off 
in prayer and then we're going 

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to jump right in. 
So here we go. 

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Lord Heavenly Father, just thank
you for today. 

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Thank you for all of these 
little mini blessings throughout

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our lives. 
Lord God that brought us to 

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where we are today. 
We're so thankful for these 

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struggles that we had, even if 
in the midst of it we weren't. 

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But it brought us to where we 
are today in our lives, but most

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importantly, where we are in our
relationship with you. 

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Lord, we just pray that you just
go before us in all things that 

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we do and we yield to your 
Spirit that you lead us and 

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guide us. 
And we just pray that today as 

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we're talking about what you've 
done in our lives, that you 

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speak to us and through US and 
let this episode glorify you. 

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In Jesus name I pray, Amen. 
Amen. 

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Amen. 
So. 

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Little fun fact, me and Madison 
went to school together, weren't

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really like friends, but knew of
each other. 

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And so we're just going to sit 
down and chat about you today. 

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OK, That's good. 
OK, so tell us a little bit 

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about how you're raised. 
What's your childhood look like?

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Let's start there. 
OK so I was raised in the family

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and my parents were divorced at 
an early age. 

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I was 6 when they got divorced 
and I went to church with family

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members who had brought us, got 
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Jesus. 
And so we would, we lived across

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the street from my aunt and she 
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always take us. 
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early age when I was about 
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8, but I didn't really have a 
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that time. 
We kind of started. 

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Do y'all now you're saying we 
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So do you have siblings? 
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OK, so. 
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he is, he's three years younger 
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And we, we lived together at 
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5th grade, he was in the 5th 
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to live with my dad. 
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for a little bit of time and 
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on the weekends. 
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So you start going to church at 
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regularly with your aunt? 
Like she was taking you pretty 

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or just like. 
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would do like vacation Bible 
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church events and things like 
that or would just come kind of 

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if we were with my mom that 
weekend, then you know, she 

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would take us. 
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we kind of wouldn't do much of 
going to church. 

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And that's always hard when, you
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are divorced and 1, you know, 
you sometimes go because I know,

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like in my small group, my 
numbers fluctuate every week 

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because they'll be with one 
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and stuff. 
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a kid, you know, growing up 
being in a divorce because it's 

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just different every week. 
It was. 

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Hard, you know, you have 
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and you know, different 
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house and then different spouses
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early and so that that was a big
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And then we just, we just did 
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know, trying to my extended 
family members would try as much

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as they could to get us into the
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But as far as like what I saw as
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know, things like that, it was 
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but doesn't mean that it was bad
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want it. 
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that either. 
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Like, I love both of my parents 
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And I think that they were did 
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raising us, you know, and I 
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that. 
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We do not take it that way. 
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certain parts of your story that
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foundation. 
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like negative. 
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preface the childhood aspect. 
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So tell us a little bit about 
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school. 
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Are you still just kind of going
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Do you know the Lord? 
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relationship. 
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It's still kind of a a hit and 
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So thankfully I had gotten into 
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relationships with the Lord and 
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And so I would say middle school
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and miss and it wasn't until 
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And my sweet friend Emily 
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well. 
She they had a, they had an 

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event at their church called 
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She had invited me to go to that
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of re accepted the the Lord as 
my person and and started a new 

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relationship there. 
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of even with and without Emily 
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that point. 
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drive myself like I, I would go 
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I would just go to and sit with 
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church. 
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this church at the time. 
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It did help that she was going 
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With so I'm kind of jumping a 
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you're at Harvest right now. 
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attend. 
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which is your pastor's daughter 
on recently and her episode was 

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a fresh anointing from the Holy 
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Basically, she said she grew up 
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She she accepted Christ as a 
young age, but she had this like

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revelation at a new point where 
she saw the Lord for a whole new

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like experience. 
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new way. 
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saying to like you knew of him, 
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see him differently, like you 
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where another thing is like God 
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little spurts because we can't 
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glory. 
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seen him in a different aspect, 
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Definitely at different spots in
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You know, I would say that that 
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you know, through, through high 
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But then college was another 
walk in the park where I felt 

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more away from him and I did not
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You know, I went to College in a
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Americas I am. 
There was not a whole lot to do 

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or, you know, anything like 
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And it was hard to find 
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I'm in a church down there was 
very hard and I found myself 

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coming home a lot. 
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met my husband. 
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in high school? 
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we knew each other's names, but 
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paths crossed in that kind of 
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We just, you know, we had some 
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then we never just got together.
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graduated high school and just 
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started dating towards the end 
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I'm about to go to college 
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you know what I mean? 
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college, our relationship was 
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And so I did find myself like 
coming home a lot from college 

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just so that AI could, you know,
see Connor and family and but BI

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was just having a really hard 
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You know, I was not, I did not 
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experience where I just loved 
being in college, you know what 

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I mean? 
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that I did like about college 
and that I miss, but as far as, 

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you know, finding the reason 
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hard. 
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So you and Connor, like you 
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pretty much you graduated high 
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And so tell us about those early
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relationship with the Lord? 
Was he raised kind of with with 

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a family with the Lord or how 
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Yes. 
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in a family that had the Lord 
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So we were both kind of coming 
in here very blind, like neither

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one of us had relationships with
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We knew we wanted one. 
We knew who he was and we knew 

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that this was something that we 
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And so even before we got 
married, we did do like marriage

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counseling. 
And so we we wanted that for our

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marriage. 
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here and we thought that we were
going to go start attending that

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church like after we got 
married, but that pastor had 

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moved away after our wedding. 
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for us. 
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we were back to square 1 and 
looking for a church and things 

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like that. 
And so we got married in March 

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2020. 
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world the next day. 
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So we didn't know if we were 
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honeymoon or anything like that,
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2020. 
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down March 16th, 20. 
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pick us up from our honeymoon 
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passengers and brought people 
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So the fact that we were able to
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all before the world was 
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was crazy. 
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was going to happen or we were 
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And so our first year of 
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And the fact that we were 
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like everyone was home. 
I was learning how to, I was 

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still in grad school. 
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work from home and go to school 
and I wasn't getting paid very 

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much because we, I was, I was in
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start my internship. 
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lot of money on the side by 
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that before starting grad 
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What did you go to school for? 
School psychology. 

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OK, so essentially test kids to 
see if they have a disability. 

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I knew after we had gotten 
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wait a whole long time before 
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But I had a hunch that it may be
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previous history as a as a young
girl, you know, And so I had a 

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feeling that that was going to 
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regulating my periods and things
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so bad. 
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in attempts to try to have a 
period and I did it for a very 

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long period of time. 
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recommended that I go in and see
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And so I never, I hadn't gone to
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for a very like since I was 
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And I just started my period for
the very first time, and they 

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essentially diagnosed me with 
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PCOS, is what most people know 
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And during that first year and 
while we were quarantined, I had

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gained a lot of weight. 
I had been unhealthy just 

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physically, mentally, in a lot 
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I was not myself. 
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diagnosis, a lot of those things
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high school and even in that in 
College in those early times 

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that Connor and I were married 
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It started to, you know, check a
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And I was relieved to finally 
have like a diagnosis that kind 

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of like fit everything that was 
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immediately, tried to start 
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And since I did not have a 
period, they had to kind of make

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me do that. 
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medication that would do that. 
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once I had the period, they had 
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make me ovulate because that's 
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still showed that my body was 
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Now with these medicines, most 
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few friends that have had to 
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that, but also I had Rachel 
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triplets because you know, she. 
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You won't have multiples. 
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those and it still wasn't yet 
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allowing you to ovulate or 
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taking me was letrozole, but I 
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so many factors at that point 
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against. 
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really knew what was going on, 
you know what I mean? 

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We were just here, take these 
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best, you know what I mean? 
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really knew the nature and the 
scope of it, you know, and I, 

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and at that point I was going 
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I felt like I've just learning 
about PCOS and what that meant 

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for my body and what that meant 
for our future, you know what I 

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deep dive. 
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and it was, it was not the risk 
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as much of an increase as it is 
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So I guess it totally depends on
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letrozole and I was on the 
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and it was still not working for
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We went to a fertility 
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The first couple rounds that we 
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time, my grandmother passed away
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January of 20/22, she passed 

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with our situation of going 
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trying to have a baby so that 
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really, really hard for me. 
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her see the baby, not 
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didn't know that then, but but I
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grandparents to be able to, to 
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And so that was January of 2022.
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OB and then they referred us to 
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Savannah and Augusta. 
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them and it was still kind of 
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responding to any of the 
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maybe a second opinion, you 
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I'm sure this is like, it's 

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already a difficult season to 
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but now it's going through like 
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you've been seeing specialists, 
you've been taking this medicine

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and all this, like you're 
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Like tell us what your walk look
like at this moment. 

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Like are you walking with the 
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Like are you crying out to him? 
Like what does it look like? 

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At this point, I so January 2020
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timeframe, I would say that was 
when I got the urge for Connor 

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and I to start like seeking out 
a church, you know what I mean? 

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So like we were still church 
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And so we weren't and not going 
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know, like just kind of like 
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And so it was still a very much 
a season of just an unknown and,

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and always, you know what I 
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Like we still weren't really on 
the path that I know that God 

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wanted us to be on, you know? 
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they were still doing the online
services. 

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And then Connor was like, OK, 
like, let's go, you know what I 

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mean? 
And so we went and never kind of

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turned back. 
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also got a second opinion with a
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phenomenal resources. 
You know, she had just he, she 

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had gave us more resources. 
And I felt seen and heard and 

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validated while going through 
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And then we were kind of in a 
time frame where we were working

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on things with this doctor, but 
not an active treatment with 

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this doctor. 
So we weren't actively trying to

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get pregnant, but we were doing 
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other words. 
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when we started going to 
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And so we started going there 
and immediately felt like home 

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for us and we started serving. 
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ministry there. 
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following year in May ish of 20.
Two we did. 

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That is so sweet. 
We did. 

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Oh I love. 
That so Connor had actually been

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baptized as a child, but he 
recommitted his faith and and 

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got baptized with me at Harvest 
and May of 2024. 

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And so that was a really sweet 
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couple and we really appreciated
that we joined us couples small 

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group and that was just that has
been so good for us during this 

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journey. 
I think that's been one of the 

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the greatest things about our 
our fate and our journey in this

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infertility. 
Having a group of people that is

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just surrounding you, that's 
praying for you, that you can 

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talk to, that's so important, 
yes. 

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And it brought us friends that 
have a similar path as not in a,

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not in an infertility way, but 
brought us friends that also 

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want to be close to the lawyer, 
also want to be. 

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They're raising families like 
that, you know, and so everyone 

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in in our small group had had 
kids and things like that. 

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So it was at first a little hard
because we felt different, 

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difficult to connect with some 
of them. 

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But the same time, I feel like 
God placed those group of people

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at that time there because he 
knew that we needed them to pray

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for us and that we needed them 
to be there for us when we 

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didn't get pregnant that much or
when we didn't get the answer 

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that we wanted, you know, And so
those group of people were just 

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a big role in our infertility 
journey. 

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And so I, one of my friends, 
even in that group, she knew 

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down to the second about my 
appointment times and what would

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happen that month. 
And she would say a prayer right

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before and then check on me 
right after. 

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It was very, very. 
I was very appreciative. 

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Of that so after y'all get 
baptized, you join a small 

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group, you're serving like 
you're doing all the things and 

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so like your postures kind of 
changing right, like you're not 

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necessarily just like focusing 
solely on getting pregnant like 

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it's now like you're just 
wanting to be close to the Lord.

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Like that's a big shift right, 
because there's so many times 

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that that starts like that's our
main focus is like we got to get

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pregnant. 
We got to get pregnant and so 

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that's sweet that you are now, 
you know, following the Lord and

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just doing this together to like
that is so special. 

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But tell us a little bit about 
you know, because we know that 

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you have a baby now. 
Sorry, spoiler alert. 

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So tell us how you kind of get 
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OK, so about August 2024 we 
start to start doing treatment 

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again. 
And so we are we started back 

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from the basics and started with
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time my body is responding to 
it. 

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And so, yes, so my body is 
actually responding to it and it

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we're, we are ovulating, you 
know, like we are, we have 

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chances of actually conceiving. 
And so we did this August, 

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September, October and November.
And we in October, we had a 

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church event, Radiant every 
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I'm sorry, November, every year 
we do a church event at radiant.

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And it is a sweet time where all
the women get together and we 

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just talk about, you know, 
what's going on in our lives, 

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how we need to seek the Lord 
more. 

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And you know what's, what's on 
our hearts. 

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You know, it's just a time for 
us to be very vulnerable and, 

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and to worship Jesus. 
And so at that, at that event 

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out, you know, was knee deep and
the infertility journey and I 

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had been praying prayers that 
were just my prayers were 

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changing. 
And so it was more so not for 

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the fact that I want a baby, but
it was more so like, even if I 

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don't get pregnant, like God is 
still good, you know? 

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And so it may have even been 
that that wasn't the plan for 

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God for me. 
It wasn't a plan. 

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Like that's how I was feeling, 
you know what I mean? 

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I was like, I didn't know 
whether or not like, maybe God's

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plan wasn't for me to be a mom, 
you know what I mean? 

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And so I had to, I needed to be 
OK with that. 

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And so that's kind of what I 
was, I was putting on my heart. 

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I was putting on the table, you 
know what I mean? 

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And, and my friend Heather had 
at this event had talked about a

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time in her life where she 
stayed faithful tithing through 

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a difficult season in her 
finances. 

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And so that was the one thing 
that Connor and I had not done 

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at in our in our walk with the 
Lord. 

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And so we were very nervous with
that because like I said, we did

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not grow up, you know, in that 
way, you know what I mean? 

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And so, and it wasn't that we 
didn't want to give to others. 

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It was more so like, can we pay 
for this fertility treatment? 

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You know what I mean? 
Like we were just, it's, it was 

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expensive and the, and the new 
Doctor that we had did not have 

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any coverage with insurance. 
And so everything was out of 

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pocket for us. 
And so it was more so like, can 

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we afford to do both, you know 
what I mean? 

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And so she had presented that to
us at that event. 

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And so, you know, we, we prayed 
about it and we started tithing 

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and we just did what we could or
what we felt like we could do at

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that time. 
And then also around that time 

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we had had a, a consultation 
about IVF and if that was going 

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to be an option for us at this 
time, we were just kind of doing

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an IUI to try to get pregnant. 
But we had a consultation with 

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our doctor about whether or not 
we were going to pursue with 

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IVF. 
And so that, that consultation 

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pretty much broke me because 
when we did figure out how much 

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it was going to cost us, that we
felt that that was so far out of

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reach that it just, it seemed 
impossible, you know, And so of 

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course, I'm crushed. 
I'm crying. 

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I don't think that this is going
to work out for us. 

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And continued with those prayers
of if not, you're still good. 

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And I'm, I'm going to be OK, you
know what I mean? 

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Because I had this relationship 
with the Lord after that week 

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that I had that consultation 
with, with our doctor, umm, Jen,

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our pastor had come up, Allie's 
mom had come up to us and she 

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was like, how are things going? 
Like I feel like I need to pray 

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with you. 
And so I just started bawling my

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eyes out in that moment. 
Sorry, tried not to do this with

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crying but in that moment was so
hard for me because. 

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She didn't know how much I 
needed that, but she prayed for 

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the outcome and she prayed that 
that would not have to be an 

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option for us. 
And, and it just, it's a really 

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sweet moment that meant a lot to
us and that we needed it. 

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So I love just. 
How God winks that stuff like 

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this, like you're going through 
such a tough time, like you are 

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carrying a heavy, heavy burden. 
You don't know what God's 

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calling you to do. 
You can't discern what's going 

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on. 
You don't know. 

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But then he sends someone at 
that moment, at this time to 

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just talk to you. 
And this is where it's so 

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important about people's 
obedience because what if Jen 

447
00:27:30,120 --> 00:27:34,560
like heard this or like felt 
that nudge from God and she's 

448
00:27:34,560 --> 00:27:38,080
like, you know, but you needed 
it. 

449
00:27:38,080 --> 00:27:40,560
And it's because of her 
obedience you heard from the 

450
00:27:40,560 --> 00:27:43,840
Lord, like you felt his presence
in that moment. 

451
00:27:43,880 --> 00:27:47,160
And it's just so important to 
when we do feel those nudges, 

452
00:27:47,160 --> 00:27:49,880
when we do feel like we need to 
reach out and talk to someone to

453
00:27:49,880 --> 00:27:51,400
do it. 
Because God's. 

454
00:27:51,400 --> 00:27:54,640
Pushing you to. 
Do that, yes, I agree. 

455
00:27:54,640 --> 00:27:58,840
I think it is. 
So I, I, I think it's important 

456
00:27:58,840 --> 00:28:02,040
that she knew that, how 
important that was, you know 

457
00:28:02,040 --> 00:28:03,800
what I mean, being on the other 
side of that. 

458
00:28:04,880 --> 00:28:11,040
And so she, she prayed for us. 
And then we did, after that 

459
00:28:11,040 --> 00:28:13,960
consultation, we decided to 
change up some medication a 

460
00:28:13,960 --> 00:28:17,720
little bit and fix some things 
that may be an issue or may not,

461
00:28:17,720 --> 00:28:21,360
you know what I mean? 
And just try one more round and 

462
00:28:21,360 --> 00:28:23,720
that before moving to the IVF 
option. 

463
00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:29,280
And so I went into that last 
cycle kind of with very low 

464
00:28:29,280 --> 00:28:31,080
expectations, you know what I 
mean? 

465
00:28:31,080 --> 00:28:38,280
I was just not very hopeful and 
not very thankful, you know, 

466
00:28:38,280 --> 00:28:41,600
that this is going to work out. 
And so this was December of 

467
00:28:41,920 --> 00:28:48,440
2023. 
And so we did our last IUI on 

468
00:28:48,440 --> 00:28:50,600
Christmas Eve. 
Oh, OK. 

469
00:28:50,600 --> 00:28:53,000
Yes, Christmas Eve. 
Because, you know, fertility 

470
00:28:53,000 --> 00:28:55,520
doesn't care about holidays and 
things like that. 

471
00:28:55,520 --> 00:29:01,160
So our last IUI was on Christmas
Eve and I found out I was 

472
00:29:01,160 --> 00:29:06,560
pregnant with Hudson on January 
3rd, 2024 and I had my second 

473
00:29:06,560 --> 00:29:12,200
IVF consult on January 7th 2020.
Wow, Oh, my goodness. 

474
00:29:12,800 --> 00:29:16,640
Just it's so crazy because you 
said like, you go into this 

475
00:29:16,640 --> 00:29:18,600
appointment and you just aren't 
even hopeful. 

476
00:29:18,640 --> 00:29:22,440
Like you just are basically 
doing it because at this point 

477
00:29:22,440 --> 00:29:24,240
it's scheduled. 
We got to do it. 

478
00:29:24,240 --> 00:29:28,040
But you know, God don't need 
every. 

479
00:29:28,120 --> 00:29:31,000
He doesn't need any circumstance
to be a good circumstance. 

480
00:29:31,000 --> 00:29:32,800
Like he can make anything 
happen. 

481
00:29:32,800 --> 00:29:36,920
I'll talk about this a lot about
he's a God of suddenly, suddenly

482
00:29:36,920 --> 00:29:40,920
you were pregnant, you know, 
like, yeah, it didn't happen 

483
00:29:40,920 --> 00:29:45,160
when we wanted it, where, when, 
why, like all these situations. 

484
00:29:45,480 --> 00:29:49,600
But God used that moment, that 
prayer that Jen said, that 

485
00:29:49,600 --> 00:29:52,320
moment of just you being like, 
I'm being obedient. 

486
00:29:52,320 --> 00:29:56,760
Here I go special. 
After finding out that week that

487
00:29:56,760 --> 00:30:00,360
I was pregnant, of course, like 
my friend Heather, she knew the,

488
00:30:00,600 --> 00:30:03,360
the day I got pregnant because 
she was like, have you started 

489
00:30:03,360 --> 00:30:04,800
testing yet? 
You know what I mean? 

490
00:30:04,800 --> 00:30:07,680
Like she was just, she knew 
every part of the cycle. 

491
00:30:07,760 --> 00:30:12,840
But as soon as we found out, I 
went back to gym and she, she 

492
00:30:12,840 --> 00:30:15,960
immediately knew when I went to 
go find her that that was the 

493
00:30:15,960 --> 00:30:18,520
answer. 
And it was just another sweet 

494
00:30:18,520 --> 00:30:21,360
moment that of, of an answered 
prayer. 

495
00:30:21,360 --> 00:30:26,640
And so I know that they were 
continuing to pray with us 

496
00:30:26,640 --> 00:30:29,680
throughout the pregnancy because
I, I can't say that my anxiety 

497
00:30:29,680 --> 00:30:33,080
stopped there, You know, like 
once we got pregnant, because I 

498
00:30:33,080 --> 00:30:35,240
had never gotten a positive test
before. 

499
00:30:35,240 --> 00:30:38,640
So I didn't know if we were 
going to have other issues like 

500
00:30:38,640 --> 00:30:41,240
being able to sustain the 
pregnancy and, you know, 

501
00:30:41,240 --> 00:30:45,120
carrying term. 
And once he got here, you know, 

502
00:30:45,120 --> 00:30:47,160
like when all of that like 
entailed. 

503
00:30:47,160 --> 00:30:52,640
And so they were our church and 
our and our small group was 

504
00:30:52,640 --> 00:30:56,880
another big advocate in praying 
with us and through each each 

505
00:30:56,880 --> 00:30:58,840
step of the way till till he got
here. 

506
00:30:59,720 --> 00:31:04,760
So when you know, you, you have 
Hudson and all of this. 

507
00:31:04,760 --> 00:31:06,680
I mean, you're still plugged in 
at your church. 

508
00:31:06,680 --> 00:31:10,920
You're still doing these things.
What, you know, you made this 

509
00:31:10,920 --> 00:31:14,480
comment earlier. 
It's like you just appreciate 

510
00:31:14,480 --> 00:31:17,960
and just love, you know, And I'm
not taken away from moms that do

511
00:31:17,960 --> 00:31:21,240
this naturally or other things. 
But like, truly, you've 

512
00:31:21,240 --> 00:31:23,760
experienced such a miracle in 
your life. 

513
00:31:23,760 --> 00:31:27,920
So tell us a little bit about 
like, you know, how you receive 

514
00:31:27,920 --> 00:31:30,160
that? 
Like, does that make sense? 

515
00:31:30,160 --> 00:31:31,000
Yeah. 
Yeah. 

516
00:31:31,160 --> 00:31:32,360
I don't know. 
It's like so. 

517
00:31:33,760 --> 00:31:39,200
I I'm definitely very 
intentional with my time with 

518
00:31:39,200 --> 00:31:44,400
Hudson and so I even like 
they're halfway through our 

519
00:31:44,400 --> 00:31:47,920
pregnancy. 
I was serving with threes and so

520
00:31:47,920 --> 00:31:51,880
I got very hard physically to 
serve with three-year olds. 

521
00:31:51,880 --> 00:31:55,360
Yeah. 
And so I had to step back for a 

522
00:31:55,360 --> 00:31:59,800
little bit because I was just 
getting too big and too tired 

523
00:31:59,800 --> 00:32:03,000
after too, you know what I mean?
And it was hard, like physically

524
00:32:03,440 --> 00:32:07,360
to keep up with them. 
So I took a step back and did 

525
00:32:07,360 --> 00:32:09,520
that. 
And I had a hard time at first 

526
00:32:10,720 --> 00:32:17,040
jumping back in to serving 
because I, I needed to serve my,

527
00:32:17,080 --> 00:32:19,760
my child, you know what I mean? 
I was, and now I was being 

528
00:32:19,760 --> 00:32:21,560
called to serve in a different 
way. 

529
00:32:21,560 --> 00:32:25,960
And so it took me, it took me a 
little bit before I, I was able 

530
00:32:25,960 --> 00:32:28,040
to do that. 
And I just recently started back

531
00:32:28,040 --> 00:32:33,520
into, into serving. 
And so I was very appreciative 

532
00:32:33,520 --> 00:32:37,600
of my time with him. 
And I did not want anyone to 

533
00:32:37,600 --> 00:32:41,440
take that away from me. 
And even I, I leave work at 

534
00:32:41,440 --> 00:32:44,520
work, you know, and I, I don't 
try to bring that home with him.

535
00:32:45,040 --> 00:32:48,120
I also make it a point to take 
Hudson to church. 

536
00:32:48,600 --> 00:32:52,640
He has learned to love these 
people that that care for him at

537
00:32:52,640 --> 00:32:55,680
church and it's it's good for 
our whole family. 

538
00:32:56,120 --> 00:32:57,600
I always. 
Think it's so sweet when the 

539
00:32:57,600 --> 00:33:00,600
kids like coming to church and 
like they like run and they just

540
00:33:00,600 --> 00:33:03,320
like love the people because 
they see them every week and now

541
00:33:03,320 --> 00:33:07,160
that's a church family to them. 
They just know like this is 

542
00:33:07,160 --> 00:33:09,720
where I go. 
You know, I, after going through

543
00:33:09,720 --> 00:33:14,760
this, I, you know, I, I made a 
promise to the Lord that my kid 

544
00:33:15,320 --> 00:33:17,120
would know the Lord. 
You know what I mean? 

545
00:33:17,120 --> 00:33:20,800
I was like, if I ever got one of
my prayers during that time was 

546
00:33:20,800 --> 00:33:25,520
if I ever got the chance to be a
mom, is that my baby would know 

547
00:33:25,600 --> 00:33:27,560
the Lord and have a relationship
with him. 

548
00:33:27,560 --> 00:33:32,840
And so we wanted that for him. 
And so he's, he's gotten 

549
00:33:32,840 --> 00:33:39,720
baptized since then and or 
dedicated to the Lord and he is 

550
00:33:40,320 --> 00:33:45,160
and he enjoys going it's and 
it's a family affair and we want

551
00:33:45,160 --> 00:33:49,040
him eventually to get involved 
in our church and, and have that

552
00:33:49,040 --> 00:33:51,680
relationship with him as well. 
That's so good, girl. 

553
00:33:51,960 --> 00:33:57,880
When you, you know, are looking 
back at that season of 

554
00:33:57,880 --> 00:34:04,840
infertility, like, do you see it
in a different lens now? 

555
00:34:04,840 --> 00:34:08,880
Like, it's such a hard time, 
right? 

556
00:34:09,199 --> 00:34:12,199
And in that moment, you don't 
know why you're going through 

557
00:34:12,199 --> 00:34:14,320
it. 
You don't know how you're going 

558
00:34:14,320 --> 00:34:17,560
to get through it. 
But now are you just seeing like

559
00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:22,880
God's hand through that season? 
Looking back on it now. 

560
00:34:22,960 --> 00:34:27,920
Yes, not in the middle of it. 
Then I was so hard, but even 

561
00:34:27,920 --> 00:34:33,880
like even that month leading up 
to like conceiving with him, I 

562
00:34:34,400 --> 00:34:37,440
saw God the most that I've ever 
seen him. 

563
00:34:37,719 --> 00:34:41,760
Then that's when I kind of 
started to like really put the 

564
00:34:41,760 --> 00:34:46,400
pieces together. 
But it wasn't till after Hudson 

565
00:34:46,400 --> 00:34:50,679
arrived that I really saw like, 
oh God, God was working this 

566
00:34:50,679 --> 00:34:53,840
whole time. 
So, you know, way back before we

567
00:34:53,840 --> 00:35:00,080
even started the fertility 
journey, I got a promotion at 

568
00:35:00,080 --> 00:35:03,760
work that essentially allowed me
to work 12 months instead of 10 

569
00:35:03,760 --> 00:35:09,280
months like most educators do. 
And so that gave me a financial 

570
00:35:09,280 --> 00:35:13,920
increase that would allow me to 
afford some of the fertility 

571
00:35:13,920 --> 00:35:17,440
treatment. 
And it would give me some extra 

572
00:35:17,440 --> 00:35:20,080
time off for maternity leave. 
Like I was able to use some of 

573
00:35:20,080 --> 00:35:25,000
that time that I incurred to 
stay home on maternity leave. 

574
00:35:25,000 --> 00:35:29,720
And then that was 1 moment, you 
know, and then like I said, our 

575
00:35:29,720 --> 00:35:33,440
small group, I felt like God 
placed those people there 

576
00:35:34,160 --> 00:35:37,120
because he knew that we couldn't
go through that season alone. 

577
00:35:37,640 --> 00:35:42,440
Like we, we would have not been 
able to do that this season 

578
00:35:42,440 --> 00:35:46,120
without their prayers, their 
constant check insurance there. 

579
00:35:46,320 --> 00:35:51,520
You know, they brought us meals 
after Hudson was born and we 

580
00:35:51,520 --> 00:35:53,800
just wouldn't have been able to 
do that without them. 

581
00:35:54,960 --> 00:35:57,760
And then, you know, our church 
and their prayers. 

582
00:35:57,760 --> 00:36:02,880
I mean, we all of the things 
like he knew we needed to chase 

583
00:36:02,880 --> 00:36:07,680
after him before he, he, he knew
that we needed to chase after 

584
00:36:07,680 --> 00:36:09,640
him the way that we were chasing
after it, but. 

585
00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:13,320
That'll preach, honey, that'll 
preach. 

586
00:36:13,320 --> 00:36:15,840
That's good. 
And that, I think was the whole 

587
00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:16,920
point. 
You know what I mean? 

588
00:36:16,920 --> 00:36:21,480
I think that was just really 
like what God wanted us to do. 

589
00:36:21,480 --> 00:36:25,000
He wanted us to go after him the
way that we were going after 

590
00:36:25,000 --> 00:36:28,760
having a baby. 
And so we were we, we changed 

591
00:36:28,760 --> 00:36:31,160
our whole lifestyle to have a 
baby. 

592
00:36:31,160 --> 00:36:33,520
We needed to change our whole 
lifestyle for the Lord. 

593
00:36:33,520 --> 00:36:37,680
And so I think that's a hard 
pill to swallow sometimes, You 

594
00:36:37,720 --> 00:36:41,520
know what I mean? 
In, in our culture, I think it's

595
00:36:41,520 --> 00:36:44,520
really hard to most people don't
want to do that. 

596
00:36:44,520 --> 00:36:46,440
You know what I mean? 
Most people don't want to do 

597
00:36:46,440 --> 00:36:51,040
that for a medical diagnosis or 
for for a relationship with the 

598
00:36:51,040 --> 00:36:53,760
Lord. 
And so I think that was, I think

599
00:36:53,760 --> 00:36:56,680
that was the whole point. 
That was good, girl. 

600
00:36:56,760 --> 00:36:59,520
That was good. 
So we're going to start closing 

601
00:36:59,520 --> 00:37:03,160
on that. 
OK, I give. 3P or three. 

602
00:37:03,520 --> 00:37:07,960
Ways we can close one, maybe you
were in your car driving here or

603
00:37:07,960 --> 00:37:10,400
leading up to this Like you're 
like, man, I really wanted to 

604
00:37:10,400 --> 00:37:12,360
say this. 
I wanted to talk about this and 

605
00:37:12,360 --> 00:37:13,880
I haven't gave you the 
opportunity to do so. 

606
00:37:13,880 --> 00:37:17,800
It just didn't really come up. 
Maybe a word of advice to 

607
00:37:17,800 --> 00:37:20,200
someone that maybe is going 
through something that you've 

608
00:37:20,200 --> 00:37:23,320
went through, or maybe just some
random piece of advice that 

609
00:37:23,320 --> 00:37:24,880
you've just heard and you get 
stuck. 

610
00:37:25,400 --> 00:37:28,440
Or three, what's something that 
God has revealed to you or 

611
00:37:28,440 --> 00:37:33,280
taught about himself to you more
recently that that light bulb 

612
00:37:33,280 --> 00:37:34,880
went off? 
You know, like maybe you read 

613
00:37:34,880 --> 00:37:37,520
the scripture over and over 
again and finally it just 

614
00:37:37,520 --> 00:37:39,040
clicked. 
How do you want to end this 

615
00:37:39,040 --> 00:37:42,960
today? 
If I had to give advice as far 

616
00:37:42,960 --> 00:37:48,840
as people who are going through 
this infertility journey, I, I 

617
00:37:48,840 --> 00:37:52,320
would definitely say like, like 
I had kind of mentioned is that 

618
00:37:52,440 --> 00:37:54,200
you need to chase after the 
Lord. 

619
00:37:54,400 --> 00:37:57,120
You know, the way that you're, 
you're chasing after this 

620
00:37:57,120 --> 00:38:01,960
positive pregnancy test because 
what you're going to find is 

621
00:38:01,960 --> 00:38:06,400
that this relationship with the 
Lord is so much better and so 

622
00:38:06,400 --> 00:38:11,320
much more rewarding than your 
what you're doing, what the 

623
00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:14,080
worth that you're putting in 
this positive yeah test. 

624
00:38:15,240 --> 00:38:19,480
And I'm not saying that to 
invalidate anyone's feelings 

625
00:38:19,480 --> 00:38:23,200
going through this journey 
because it is it's hard and it's

626
00:38:23,200 --> 00:38:28,680
lonely and it's sometimes very 
traumatic to think about. 

627
00:38:28,680 --> 00:38:32,320
You know what I mean? 
When you're constantly told like

628
00:38:32,320 --> 00:38:38,440
no or not yet, but to keep also 
using that as motivation in your

629
00:38:38,440 --> 00:38:40,560
faith to keep going. 
That's good. 

630
00:38:41,120 --> 00:38:43,120
That's good. 
This isn't so good today, girl, 

631
00:38:43,120 --> 00:38:46,360
Thank you for so much for thank 
you so much and whatever. 

632
00:38:46,680 --> 00:38:48,440
Thank you so much for coming to 
share. 

633
00:38:48,640 --> 00:38:51,560
And I just know that someone is 
going to take something from 

634
00:38:51,560 --> 00:38:53,600
this and just push them closer 
to the Lord. 

635
00:38:53,600 --> 00:38:56,000
And it's going to be used in a 
mighty way because we don't go 

636
00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:57,840
through this, these things for 
nothing. 

637
00:38:58,240 --> 00:39:00,400
Revelation 12/11. 
We overcome the enemy by the 

638
00:39:00,400 --> 00:39:02,480
blood of the Lamb and our word 
of our testimony. 

639
00:39:02,480 --> 00:39:05,080
And you have a powerful 
testimony and it's going to be 

640
00:39:05,080 --> 00:39:06,280
used. 
So thank you SO. 

641
00:39:06,280 --> 00:39:08,320
Much thank you, this is fun. 
Yay. 

642
00:39:08,680 --> 00:39:11,640
All right, guys, I hope you have
enjoyed this as much as I have. 

643
00:39:11,920 --> 00:39:14,520
Make sure you stay tuned, stay 
blessed, and we'll see you guys 

644
00:39:14,520 --> 00:39:15,360
later. 
Bye.