1 00:00:11,240 --> 00:00:13,760 What's up, guys? My name's Alexis, your host with 2 00:00:13,760 --> 00:00:17,120 praises in the pot, and I'm so excited to be in the studio with 3 00:00:17,120 --> 00:00:19,800 Kim Butler today. We're going to be talking about 4 00:00:19,800 --> 00:00:22,920 her testimony, our friendship, all of the above. 5 00:00:22,920 --> 00:00:24,800 But first we're going to start off in prayer, and then we're 6 00:00:24,800 --> 00:00:27,320 going to jump right in. So here we go Lord Heavenly 7 00:00:27,320 --> 00:00:29,720 Father, thank you for all of your many blessings. 8 00:00:29,720 --> 00:00:33,080 Dear God, thank you for bringing me and Kim together and giving 9 00:00:33,080 --> 00:00:36,640 this friendship to me. Lord God, I am just so thankful 10 00:00:36,640 --> 00:00:40,400 for it and thankful that you have just made our paths 11 00:00:40,400 --> 00:00:42,560 crossed. I just pray that you speak to us 12 00:00:42,560 --> 00:00:45,240 and through US today. You continue to lead and guide 13 00:00:45,240 --> 00:00:47,880 our lives and let this episode glorify you. 14 00:00:48,160 --> 00:00:50,480 In Jesus name I pray Amen. Amen. 15 00:00:50,880 --> 00:00:53,680 Amen. So before we jump in, I was just 16 00:00:53,680 --> 00:00:56,240 trying to think like the first time that we started talking and 17 00:00:56,240 --> 00:00:59,600 that was Jingle Jam at our church, y'all, And we just had 18 00:00:59,600 --> 00:01:03,120 like a brief conversation. Her husband will get there, but 19 00:01:03,120 --> 00:01:05,440 works at the church. And so like we work together and 20 00:01:05,440 --> 00:01:08,560 I've talked about Kim and talked to you like briefly. 21 00:01:08,560 --> 00:01:12,080 Like Instagram DMS? Instagram DMS and then I'm like, 22 00:01:12,080 --> 00:01:14,200 you know what? Like I'm about to find her 23 00:01:14,200 --> 00:01:16,960 number in our database and I'm going to ask her to coffee and 24 00:01:16,960 --> 00:01:20,440 then and did. And so like I literally we have 25 00:01:20,440 --> 00:01:24,520 talked every day since like the next week I ask you to go to 26 00:01:24,520 --> 00:01:27,800 Winter Jam with me. Like something like that? 27 00:01:27,800 --> 00:01:29,920 I offered to help like whatever you're doing. 28 00:01:29,960 --> 00:01:32,000 I was like, can I be there? Can I help? 29 00:01:32,120 --> 00:01:33,640 Can I do something just to hang out? 30 00:01:33,680 --> 00:01:37,080 Like you could just see that like God knew when you moved 31 00:01:37,080 --> 00:01:38,520 here, like we were going to be besties. 32 00:01:38,520 --> 00:01:41,680 So this has been so great. But anyway, we're going to get 33 00:01:41,680 --> 00:01:45,040 to all of that eventually, but let's start off a little bit 34 00:01:45,040 --> 00:01:47,120 about your childhood and maybe growing up and stuff. 35 00:01:48,200 --> 00:01:50,640 We moved here right before I turned 5. 36 00:01:50,640 --> 00:01:52,520 S Warner Robins is really all I know. 37 00:01:52,720 --> 00:01:56,720 My dad is Air Force, so that's what brought us here. 38 00:01:56,720 --> 00:02:01,640 And then my parents have always been together. 39 00:02:01,640 --> 00:02:05,320 They've been married, I want to say 37 years. 40 00:02:05,480 --> 00:02:07,440 Wow. Forgive me if I said that wrong. 41 00:02:07,440 --> 00:02:10,479 Maybe it's 38, but roughly in that time range. 42 00:02:10,919 --> 00:02:13,920 So we had a healthy family dynamic. 43 00:02:14,080 --> 00:02:17,680 I have an older brother who also works at Southside and then my 44 00:02:17,680 --> 00:02:22,080 younger sister, she's also she's married to someone in the Air 45 00:02:22,080 --> 00:02:24,520 Force and now she does not live here, but we're very. 46 00:02:24,520 --> 00:02:27,040 Close. We're gonna get into that too, 47 00:02:27,040 --> 00:02:31,520 because we've already recorded an episode for with Kim and her 48 00:02:31,520 --> 00:02:34,720 sister and her sister and their testimony and everything else. 49 00:02:34,720 --> 00:02:36,120 But not to straight away from you. 50 00:02:36,240 --> 00:02:40,800 Let's go, girl. So I think I was probably around 51 00:02:40,800 --> 00:02:43,560 7:00 or 8:00 when we started going to Southside. 52 00:02:43,600 --> 00:02:48,440 So that really is our home church for a whole upbringing 53 00:02:48,480 --> 00:02:53,760 that I can remember and always was there every Sunday, every 54 00:02:53,760 --> 00:02:58,040 Wednesday. I served in back when it was 55 00:02:58,040 --> 00:03:01,440 kids Town. Oh wow, yeah, back back in the 56 00:03:01,440 --> 00:03:04,200 day, yes. And then worked in the nursery. 57 00:03:04,200 --> 00:03:08,360 All those things, I back the backup, I guess. 58 00:03:09,120 --> 00:03:12,520 We always went to private school during elementary school. 59 00:03:13,280 --> 00:03:17,200 Around the time I was, I think I was 8, I started asking 60 00:03:17,200 --> 00:03:21,360 questions about, you know, salvation and wanting to be a 61 00:03:21,360 --> 00:03:24,800 Christian. And so I was asking my parents 62 00:03:25,240 --> 00:03:27,880 and they said, OK, you know, tomorrow, like, let's take you 63 00:03:27,880 --> 00:03:30,560 up to the church and you can talk to a pastor about your 64 00:03:30,760 --> 00:03:32,360 different questions about salvation. 65 00:03:32,800 --> 00:03:37,720 So the very next day was actually September 11th, 2001. 66 00:03:38,560 --> 00:03:42,280 And my parents, my mom had come picked us up from school and, 67 00:03:42,280 --> 00:03:44,120 you know, we're watching the news and seeing what's going on. 68 00:03:44,120 --> 00:03:47,240 And she was like, no better time than to drive up to the church 69 00:03:47,240 --> 00:03:48,800 right now and ask your questions. 70 00:03:48,800 --> 00:03:52,280 And if you want to get saved today, like, now's a great time. 71 00:03:52,720 --> 00:03:55,800 That is just such a like. I don't forget that day. 72 00:03:55,880 --> 00:03:58,240 Yeah, no, because. And then it's so crazy because a 73 00:03:58,240 --> 00:04:00,760 lot of people do remember exactly where you were in that 74 00:04:00,760 --> 00:04:02,640 moment. And for you, you're like, that's 75 00:04:02,640 --> 00:04:04,960 the day I got saved. You know, and it wasn't like a 76 00:04:04,960 --> 00:04:07,800 fear thing because it really was the day before. 77 00:04:07,880 --> 00:04:11,840 It was like searching and you know, what does that exactly 78 00:04:11,840 --> 00:04:14,480 mean? And like, am I not already saved 79 00:04:14,480 --> 00:04:16,839 like that kind of thing? Because I knew I loved Jesus 80 00:04:16,839 --> 00:04:18,959 knew, you know, that he had died for my sins and everything. 81 00:04:18,959 --> 00:04:22,680 But to go back that far, I don't know what the questions were, 82 00:04:22,680 --> 00:04:25,360 but I know I had enough that she was like, I want you to talk to 83 00:04:25,360 --> 00:04:27,560 a pastor like we don't want I don't want to do this at home. 84 00:04:27,560 --> 00:04:33,440 So I talked to Dennis Clark the next day and did get saved and 85 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:37,800 like I said, always stayed in church, always loves Jesus. 86 00:04:38,800 --> 00:04:45,200 Nothing like really standoutish about I guess my upbringing. 87 00:04:45,200 --> 00:04:48,640 That was dad. I mean, I had to me, I love my 88 00:04:48,640 --> 00:04:51,560 childhood. I look back at like our 89 00:04:51,560 --> 00:04:53,360 neighborhood that we grew up in was great. 90 00:04:53,360 --> 00:04:56,600 Like the kids were fun. And then every summer for the 91 00:04:56,600 --> 00:04:59,200 month of July, we'd go over to my mom's side of the family up 92 00:04:59,200 --> 00:05:03,880 in Minnesota where we had a cabin up there and we just were 93 00:05:03,920 --> 00:05:07,960 wild children all summer. So it was kind of an idyllic 94 00:05:08,400 --> 00:05:10,640 childhood. That's awesome because 95 00:05:10,640 --> 00:05:13,920 sometimes, you know, there are things that are really big and 96 00:05:13,920 --> 00:05:17,320 they mold us and shape us into like where we just go off the 97 00:05:17,320 --> 00:05:19,320 deep end. But for you, like it was pretty 98 00:05:19,320 --> 00:05:22,160 consistent. Y'all were in church like you 99 00:05:22,160 --> 00:05:24,560 knew the Lord at a young age, like all this. 100 00:05:25,200 --> 00:05:28,120 And then high school comes around and I know a little bit 101 00:05:28,120 --> 00:05:29,800 something bigger happens in high school. 102 00:05:29,800 --> 00:05:30,920 So tell us a little bit about that. 103 00:05:31,200 --> 00:05:34,800 So my senior year, I was hanging out with friends and I did not 104 00:05:34,800 --> 00:05:36,520 drink. I don't like wasn't doing any 105 00:05:36,520 --> 00:05:38,920 kind of drugs. Nothing crazy that night. 106 00:05:38,920 --> 00:05:43,400 But we were at my friend's house and we were on their golf cart, 107 00:05:43,400 --> 00:05:46,280 which is like a workhorse. So it's more of like a trunk in 108 00:05:46,280 --> 00:05:51,080 the back, not really seats. We were riding around and we'll 109 00:05:51,080 --> 00:05:54,160 make this story really brief, as brief as I can, but it is a 110 00:05:54,160 --> 00:05:57,280 standout moment because it did kind of change some trajectory 111 00:05:57,280 --> 00:06:01,640 in my life and where I ended up. But the guy who was driving was 112 00:06:01,640 --> 00:06:05,520 going too fast and thought he was being funny and he swerved. 113 00:06:05,520 --> 00:06:12,080 And I just, I was a very petite little girl for 17 and I just 114 00:06:12,080 --> 00:06:16,040 straight catapulted right into the roof and just perfectly, if 115 00:06:16,040 --> 00:06:21,240 you're watching, you could see that I smashed my 5 bottom front 116 00:06:21,240 --> 00:06:24,640 teeth out and the top front teeth were hanging. 117 00:06:25,360 --> 00:06:28,640 I didn't realize at the time that I was missing that many 118 00:06:28,640 --> 00:06:31,520 teeth or I could taste the blood and everything and was like, 119 00:06:31,520 --> 00:06:32,840 we've got to go to the emergency room. 120 00:06:32,840 --> 00:06:37,160 We need to get this fixed. I had 5 surgeries following that 121 00:06:37,160 --> 00:06:40,320 just for just debridement and getting bone grafts and tissue 122 00:06:40,320 --> 00:06:42,080 grafts and everything just to fix that. 123 00:06:42,200 --> 00:06:47,440 But really I look back at that and just like see like my dad 124 00:06:47,440 --> 00:06:49,840 always frayed the hand of protection or hedge protection 125 00:06:49,840 --> 00:06:52,800 around like all of his kids. And that is just one of those 126 00:06:52,800 --> 00:06:56,520 nights that you look back and then like I for sure could have 127 00:06:56,520 --> 00:06:58,360 died. Like it's like a such as it 128 00:06:58,360 --> 00:07:00,880 seems silly to say that because I'm like, well, I only lost 5 129 00:07:00,880 --> 00:07:03,760 teeth, but I mean just a couple inches away from my neck. 130 00:07:03,760 --> 00:07:06,560 And that would have just been it for me. 131 00:07:06,560 --> 00:07:07,880 That would be the end of my story. 132 00:07:08,680 --> 00:07:13,320 So I'm always grateful and think about like how much my dad has 133 00:07:13,320 --> 00:07:16,840 prayed over each of our, our lives and our now our kids 134 00:07:16,840 --> 00:07:19,080 lives. So I do look back and see that 135 00:07:19,080 --> 00:07:22,720 God was protecting me and Fast forward because that was my 136 00:07:22,720 --> 00:07:26,400 senior year of high school. You know, you start, what am I 137 00:07:26,400 --> 00:07:28,680 going to do with my life? Like what do I want to do? 138 00:07:29,120 --> 00:07:32,240 And it just really gave me a passion for dentistry. 139 00:07:32,840 --> 00:07:36,320 I wanted to help patients that felt like me, where it was like 140 00:07:36,720 --> 00:07:39,320 the smile is what everyone looks at when they talk to you. 141 00:07:39,680 --> 00:07:42,360 So I wanted to see those transformations happen. 142 00:07:42,360 --> 00:07:44,800 I wanted to help people. I have a heart for people. 143 00:07:44,800 --> 00:07:48,280 So I kind of look at it as my ministry now is I have 8:00, 144 00:07:48,520 --> 00:07:51,200 about 8 patients every single day that I get to interact with 145 00:07:51,200 --> 00:07:55,560 a new person on the hour and make a difference, whether it's 146 00:07:55,560 --> 00:07:59,520 just encouragement or it's I always listen to worship music 147 00:07:59,520 --> 00:08:01,200 in the room. So I just find that that's my 148 00:08:01,200 --> 00:08:04,560 ministry and it's all because of an accident when I was 17. 149 00:08:04,640 --> 00:08:08,240 Literally, this is what changed the trajectory of things. 150 00:08:08,240 --> 00:08:10,320 Like you never know what you could have gone into, but that 151 00:08:10,320 --> 00:08:12,600 happened and you had a passion for it right off the RIP. 152 00:08:12,600 --> 00:08:15,920 Like, you were like, I want to go and be that for someone. 153 00:08:15,920 --> 00:08:18,560 And yeah, that is so awesome, girl. 154 00:08:18,560 --> 00:08:21,120 Like, that is such a terrible experience. 155 00:08:21,360 --> 00:08:22,920 Like, so bad. Like. 156 00:08:22,920 --> 00:08:25,400 And I didn't even know that until we started, like, to sit 157 00:08:25,400 --> 00:08:26,800 down and we kind of talked about a few things. 158 00:08:26,800 --> 00:08:28,560 And I was like, oh, I had no idea. 159 00:08:28,560 --> 00:08:30,880 Most people don't, which is, again, another blessing. 160 00:08:30,880 --> 00:08:34,159 I had phenomenal doctors who were able to fix it, and it is. 161 00:08:34,440 --> 00:08:36,400 My top teeth are natural, the bottom teeth are not. 162 00:08:36,720 --> 00:08:39,520 Yeah. Nice people pay thousands and 163 00:08:39,520 --> 00:08:40,960 thousands and thousands for that now. 164 00:08:40,960 --> 00:08:46,080 So you got it done early. OK, so that happens, you 165 00:08:46,080 --> 00:08:50,160 graduate. What does early years after that 166 00:08:50,160 --> 00:08:53,200 look like? So that was when I was 17 and 167 00:08:53,600 --> 00:09:04,920 when I was 21, I kind of was in a weird spot of I didn't get 168 00:09:04,920 --> 00:09:06,240 into the program that I wanted to. 169 00:09:06,320 --> 00:09:11,920 So I was, I am not sticking around Warner Robins to just 170 00:09:12,320 --> 00:09:14,800 figure out what I wanna do or if I'm even gonna get into the 171 00:09:14,800 --> 00:09:18,640 program next year. So the next year of my life was 172 00:09:18,640 --> 00:09:20,440 really just kind of an open book. 173 00:09:20,480 --> 00:09:23,600 And like I said, we always went to Minnesota every summer. 174 00:09:24,000 --> 00:09:26,240 I loved it up there. That felt like my second home. 175 00:09:26,360 --> 00:09:29,480 That's where my grandma was. That's where a couple of my 176 00:09:29,480 --> 00:09:32,080 cousins were. It's beautiful up there. 177 00:09:32,080 --> 00:09:33,800 And so I'd always said I wanted to move up there. 178 00:09:33,800 --> 00:09:36,040 My dad's like, you cannot make it in their winters. 179 00:09:36,040 --> 00:09:38,560 So when I move the week of Thanksgiving. 180 00:09:39,120 --> 00:09:42,400 But that's also your personality too, where it's like, oh you, I 181 00:09:42,400 --> 00:09:43,360 can't do it. Watch. 182 00:09:43,360 --> 00:09:45,440 Me. Like I will clean that snow off 183 00:09:45,440 --> 00:09:50,360 my car myself. Yes, but as you know, we make 184 00:09:50,360 --> 00:09:51,600 plans. God laughs. 185 00:09:52,440 --> 00:09:57,680 About 3 weeks before I was moving, Seth Butler damned me 186 00:09:57,680 --> 00:10:01,680 and asked me to go to a concert with him and I had had a crush 187 00:10:01,680 --> 00:10:04,840 on him for a while but had never talked to him. 188 00:10:05,080 --> 00:10:07,280 Now did y'all know each other? He. 189 00:10:07,760 --> 00:10:10,400 Somewhat like from church? Is that what it was? 190 00:10:10,400 --> 00:10:14,720 Not really. I mean, the only I got caught 191 00:10:14,720 --> 00:10:19,760 checking him out on a Sunday and one of our like youth leaders 192 00:10:19,760 --> 00:10:22,760 when I was in the youth group, he went up to Seth and was like, 193 00:10:22,760 --> 00:10:26,120 hey, you know, Kimberly Coleman. And he was like, no. 194 00:10:26,120 --> 00:10:27,680 And I think he was dating some of the time. 195 00:10:27,680 --> 00:10:30,640 So he, you know, didn't even try to like go introduce himself or 196 00:10:30,640 --> 00:10:32,680 anything. But then I believe my 197 00:10:32,680 --> 00:10:35,560 sister-in-law put in his ear after those two had broken up, 198 00:10:35,960 --> 00:10:38,360 put it in his ear cuz he was talking about going to a concert 199 00:10:38,360 --> 00:10:40,200 and he was like, well, I've got 2 tickets now. 200 00:10:40,200 --> 00:10:43,320 And she was like, Oh, my sister-in-law Kimberly. 201 00:10:43,320 --> 00:10:46,680 So he messaged me and like I said, I'm all excited. 202 00:10:46,680 --> 00:10:48,800 So I'm like, oh, like I had a crush on him. 203 00:10:48,800 --> 00:10:51,800 But then I thought, oh, I'm moving. 204 00:10:53,200 --> 00:10:55,440 And I and I was really stubborn on this one. 205 00:10:55,440 --> 00:10:58,040 I was like, I'm not letting this guy change my mind on this. 206 00:10:58,040 --> 00:11:03,840 Yeah, I'm going. So we went on a date and I came 207 00:11:03,840 --> 00:11:05,200 home that night and told my sister I'm pretty. 208 00:11:05,200 --> 00:11:06,240 Plus I'm going to marry that guy. 209 00:11:06,240 --> 00:11:07,760 Oh. My gosh, right off the. 210 00:11:07,760 --> 00:11:12,320 Rail that night, Seth was not as fast on that decision, he said. 211 00:11:12,320 --> 00:11:16,760 I said like a lot of time and it was almost a deal breaker. 212 00:11:16,920 --> 00:11:19,440 Oh my. Gosh, that's crazy. 213 00:11:19,440 --> 00:11:22,640 Yeah, that is so crazy because I remember when we went to coffee 214 00:11:22,640 --> 00:11:24,000 the first time you were telling me you're. 215 00:11:24,000 --> 00:11:25,680 I was like, how did you and Seth meet and all this? 216 00:11:25,680 --> 00:11:28,840 And you're like, well, really? We hung out for three weeks and 217 00:11:28,840 --> 00:11:33,440 then I moved and all this and I was like, wow, like that's got 218 00:11:33,440 --> 00:11:36,240 to stink. But I mean, that's a big thing. 219 00:11:36,240 --> 00:11:38,920 Like for y'all to have made it through a move and everything 220 00:11:38,920 --> 00:11:41,080 else. Get married, have kids, like be 221 00:11:41,080 --> 00:11:43,200 where you are today just because of three weeks. 222 00:11:43,200 --> 00:11:46,120 Like don't shy away from it if it feels right, just test. 223 00:11:46,120 --> 00:11:48,680 It out. Just test it out, pray about it. 224 00:11:48,800 --> 00:11:52,000 Yeah, for sure, Yeah. But it definitely worked out. 225 00:11:53,360 --> 00:11:55,080 We've been married for almost 8 years now. 226 00:11:55,320 --> 00:11:58,040 So we dated all the way through while I was on my hygiene 227 00:11:58,040 --> 00:12:00,120 program and while I was in college. 228 00:12:00,240 --> 00:12:06,040 And then he proposed to me about the fall semester right before I 229 00:12:06,040 --> 00:12:09,680 was gonna graduate, and we got married a year to the day later. 230 00:12:10,000 --> 00:12:12,000 Wow. So we had been together about 2 231 00:12:12,000 --> 00:12:17,080 1/2 years and got married and about a year later we were 232 00:12:17,080 --> 00:12:20,280 moving up to Miller, Georgia. Small, small town. 233 00:12:20,360 --> 00:12:24,520 Very small, but Seth had been working part time at Southside 234 00:12:24,920 --> 00:12:29,640 and I had been working full time at a dental office that I was 235 00:12:29,640 --> 00:12:35,440 just very, very unhappy with. And it just, it was my first, 236 00:12:35,440 --> 00:12:37,760 one of my first jobs out of hygiene school and it just was 237 00:12:37,760 --> 00:12:39,320 not what I had thought it was going to be like. 238 00:12:39,640 --> 00:12:41,680 So I started praying for doors to open. 239 00:12:41,920 --> 00:12:45,360 I kind of wanted to get back out of Warren Robins again, but that 240 00:12:45,360 --> 00:12:47,080 wasn't necessarily what I was looking for. 241 00:12:47,720 --> 00:12:50,240 But I was kind of, that is what you know, when you ask for a 242 00:12:50,240 --> 00:12:52,840 door to open, it's not necessarily for the office next 243 00:12:52,840 --> 00:12:55,160 door. It's maybe a little A. 244 00:12:55,680 --> 00:12:57,080 Little different. A little different. 245 00:12:57,080 --> 00:13:01,040 So sure enough, I mean we're talking within weeks of that 246 00:13:01,040 --> 00:13:06,000 prayer Rock Springs was asking Seth if he was interested in in 247 00:13:06,000 --> 00:13:08,840 moving and coming up there. It is technically a different 248 00:13:08,840 --> 00:13:11,400 denomination. So we did want to go check it 249 00:13:11,400 --> 00:13:15,800 out and we went up there I think 3 Sundays in a row in their 250 00:13:15,800 --> 00:13:18,360 evening services and we just loved it. 251 00:13:18,560 --> 00:13:24,360 I mean absolutely loved it. It just felt like a new home. 252 00:13:24,760 --> 00:13:27,160 There was nothing like I will have to get used to this or this 253 00:13:27,160 --> 00:13:30,760 is any different. It just felt like that's where 254 00:13:30,760 --> 00:13:35,320 we were supposed to be. So we prayed about it and we 255 00:13:35,320 --> 00:13:41,200 moved fairly quickly. And I think we were celebrating 256 00:13:41,200 --> 00:13:45,520 our first anniversary there at our new home, so I'll move. 257 00:13:46,040 --> 00:13:49,040 Really fast. I love that because in I want it 258 00:13:49,120 --> 00:13:52,920 in 2019. So that's that shows 2018 my 259 00:13:52,920 --> 00:13:55,920 2019 my mom starts going to the Potter's house and the Potter's 260 00:13:55,920 --> 00:13:59,040 house is on the same property as Rock Springs. 261 00:13:59,320 --> 00:14:03,120 And so that's how I got to know about Rock Springs and I love 262 00:14:03,120 --> 00:14:04,480 it. So like when I hear like you 263 00:14:04,480 --> 00:14:07,800 say, like when you walked in and it you knew like this feels like 264 00:14:07,800 --> 00:14:09,480 home, like there was nothing to get used to. 265 00:14:09,480 --> 00:14:12,960 Like every time I visit I'm like man, I love this place. 266 00:14:12,960 --> 00:14:16,960 Like the atmosphere, the worship, the past, like all of 267 00:14:16,960 --> 00:14:20,560 the above. I love it so. 268 00:14:20,560 --> 00:14:23,560 But that's your 2018. Y'all are there for what, 5-6 269 00:14:23,560 --> 00:14:24,640 years? Ended up being there for. 270 00:14:24,640 --> 00:14:27,360 Six years, six years, OK. And so tell us a little bit 271 00:14:27,360 --> 00:14:30,360 about that, that time period being there? 272 00:14:31,680 --> 00:14:35,240 We were really happy. It was a little, it was 273 00:14:35,240 --> 00:14:37,960 different because I mean, we're talking, I had lived my whole 274 00:14:37,960 --> 00:14:40,480 life and just being right in Warner Robins, which everything 275 00:14:40,480 --> 00:14:42,800 is about 10 to 15 minutes apart from each other. 276 00:14:43,080 --> 00:14:45,640 And now you're in this little town that everything is a 20 277 00:14:45,640 --> 00:14:49,160 minute drive. So I was a little bit like 278 00:14:49,320 --> 00:14:52,280 annoyed about that. I always had a commute when we 279 00:14:52,280 --> 00:14:55,080 lived there and we're talking like a 35 minute commute at the 280 00:14:55,080 --> 00:14:58,040 very least. And it turned out that the grass 281 00:14:58,040 --> 00:15:00,640 was not greener when it came to jobs. 282 00:15:01,160 --> 00:15:06,240 I was really, really struggling up there and started to kind of 283 00:15:06,560 --> 00:15:09,960 get mad about it. Like I prayed this big prayer 284 00:15:09,960 --> 00:15:11,000 and I thought you had answered it. 285 00:15:11,000 --> 00:15:13,200 You answered it for Seth. You didn't answer for me. 286 00:15:13,200 --> 00:15:18,680 So I had a little bit of a bitter view on the move. 287 00:15:18,680 --> 00:15:22,760 And even though I was so happy for him, I truly was, was happy 288 00:15:22,760 --> 00:15:24,520 for him and how much he was loving it there. 289 00:15:25,000 --> 00:15:27,520 I just was not super thrilled that first year. 290 00:15:27,640 --> 00:15:32,760 And I remember thinking that a baby would fix that. 291 00:15:32,760 --> 00:15:35,440 And it was again, I'm, I don't want to be a cliche of saying, 292 00:15:35,440 --> 00:15:37,680 oh, a baby's going to fix this. It wasn't marital problems. 293 00:15:37,680 --> 00:15:42,320 There was never really marital problems going on that a baby 294 00:15:42,320 --> 00:15:44,520 will fix this. It was just like I was unhappy 295 00:15:44,520 --> 00:15:47,560 with my life. I remember coming home and 296 00:15:47,560 --> 00:15:49,880 saying, OK, I think I'm ready, Like I think we're ready to have 297 00:15:49,880 --> 00:15:53,160 a baby, blah, blah. And he immediately, like the 298 00:15:53,160 --> 00:15:55,280 very next day got a hold of a real estate agent. 299 00:15:55,280 --> 00:15:57,920 He was like, we are not having a baby while we are renting a 300 00:15:57,920 --> 00:16:00,320 house. Like that was his next move. 301 00:16:00,320 --> 00:16:03,240 So he starts diving into that. And so it was a while before we 302 00:16:03,240 --> 00:16:07,520 ever really decided to talk about it again, but he wasn't 303 00:16:07,520 --> 00:16:10,280 against it for sure. So it kind of was in the talks. 304 00:16:10,640 --> 00:16:12,640 So it was put on the back burner a little bit. 305 00:16:12,640 --> 00:16:14,280 Like it wasn't at the forefront of our minds. 306 00:16:14,280 --> 00:16:20,200 Like I wasn't baby crazy. So Fast forward to January 2019, 307 00:16:20,560 --> 00:16:25,520 I did get pregnant, found out on Valentine's Day weekend. 308 00:16:25,520 --> 00:16:27,800 And so we were very excited. That was going to be our first 309 00:16:27,800 --> 00:16:31,880 baby. Just, I mean, truly like beyond 310 00:16:31,880 --> 00:16:36,800 excited because it wasn't like a whole thing of having to try 311 00:16:36,800 --> 00:16:39,480 and, you know, getting emotionally tied to that 312 00:16:39,520 --> 00:16:42,400 situation. So we were super excited, told 313 00:16:42,400 --> 00:16:51,560 the family about it, and then it was what, 8 weeks when COVID hit 314 00:16:51,680 --> 00:16:55,200 and I stopped working. So I had about a week off of 315 00:16:55,200 --> 00:16:59,400 working and all of a sudden I just kind of felt like the 316 00:16:59,400 --> 00:17:03,480 little symptoms that I was having were not really even 317 00:17:03,520 --> 00:17:08,520 noticeable anymore. So I remember like Friday night, 318 00:17:09,440 --> 00:17:12,839 of course, it's a Friday when you know, something goes wrong 319 00:17:12,839 --> 00:17:15,160 And so you're kind of forced with you're either going to the 320 00:17:15,160 --> 00:17:16,880 emergency room or just deal with it. 321 00:17:17,359 --> 00:17:24,400 And so I told Seth that night that I was bleeding and, and I 322 00:17:24,400 --> 00:17:27,480 called the the nurse and she said I really wouldn't go 323 00:17:27,480 --> 00:17:30,240 anywhere if I were you because I don't want you to go into the ER 324 00:17:30,240 --> 00:17:33,440 and get COVID just to find out like whether you are or not, 325 00:17:33,440 --> 00:17:36,760 you'll know. So we kind of waited out that 326 00:17:36,760 --> 00:17:38,800 weekend and of course it was a weird time. 327 00:17:40,760 --> 00:17:43,520 So of course I'm just on the edge of my seat trying to figure 328 00:17:43,520 --> 00:17:45,440 it out. This was the very first weekend, 329 00:17:45,440 --> 00:17:47,640 like I said, of like everything being shut down. 330 00:17:48,440 --> 00:17:51,960 Sunday, Seth had to go into work and was. 331 00:17:51,960 --> 00:17:57,040 Filming like their services and I'm just dwelling and sitting in 332 00:17:57,040 --> 00:18:02,280 it and just like, I don't think I'm pregnant anymore and just 333 00:18:02,280 --> 00:18:05,120 feeling really sick. And that afternoon when Seth 334 00:18:05,120 --> 00:18:07,720 came home, I told him what I was like, how I was feeling is I 335 00:18:07,720 --> 00:18:10,840 just don't, I think the baby's alive anymore, which is a really 336 00:18:10,840 --> 00:18:14,880 weird thing to say at 9 weeks pregnant because you're not 337 00:18:14,880 --> 00:18:19,240 feeling really anything yet, but you are tied to that soul. 338 00:18:19,240 --> 00:18:21,120 So you there is a part of you that knows. 339 00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:28,600 So the afternoon I did end up passing the baby and it was just 340 00:18:29,280 --> 00:18:31,680 probably just the worst emotional pain I've ever been 341 00:18:31,680 --> 00:18:37,720 in. And I don't ask people for help 342 00:18:37,920 --> 00:18:39,560 like ever. I don't want to bring up my 343 00:18:39,560 --> 00:18:43,600 problems to people. But that was like the the first 344 00:18:43,600 --> 00:18:46,960 time that I finally was like, you can't do everything on your 345 00:18:46,960 --> 00:18:48,200 own. You can't carry this on your 346 00:18:48,200 --> 00:18:50,440 own. And you have to turn it over to 347 00:18:50,440 --> 00:18:52,960 God. And God puts people in your life 348 00:18:52,960 --> 00:18:55,000 that can help you carry those things. 349 00:18:56,280 --> 00:19:00,920 And that is one of my things that I look back on Rock Springs 350 00:19:01,000 --> 00:19:03,920 most is just how many people gathered around us, like 351 00:19:03,920 --> 00:19:09,680 bringing me encouragement cards or asking if I needed anything 352 00:19:09,680 --> 00:19:11,960 as far as like, how can I pray for you? 353 00:19:13,160 --> 00:19:16,520 And like I said, this is a weird time of like being isolated by 354 00:19:16,520 --> 00:19:19,920 yourself. And I just remember because 355 00:19:19,920 --> 00:19:22,320 Seth, like I said, he was still going to work and I'm staying at 356 00:19:22,320 --> 00:19:24,000 home. I just remember this just like 357 00:19:24,920 --> 00:19:29,560 oppressive spirit in the house with me and I called him. 358 00:19:29,560 --> 00:19:31,480 It was like I'm really scared of you by myself. 359 00:19:31,480 --> 00:19:32,720 It wasn't I was going to hurt myself. 360 00:19:32,720 --> 00:19:35,880 It's just I felt this darkness just trying to sit over me. 361 00:19:37,920 --> 00:19:44,400 So we had asked another couple on staff to talk with us and I 362 00:19:44,400 --> 00:19:48,120 just felt so overlooked by God. I had three other close friends 363 00:19:48,120 --> 00:19:51,400 that were all pregnant at the same time. 364 00:19:52,240 --> 00:19:56,840 I'd gone to college with and it just not that I wanted that to 365 00:19:56,840 --> 00:19:59,400 happen to them, but it was why is this happening to me? 366 00:19:59,400 --> 00:20:01,600 What did I do? We've been obedient. 367 00:20:01,640 --> 00:20:02,960 We're doing what we're supposed to do. 368 00:20:03,200 --> 00:20:08,800 And it was just devastating, obviously. 369 00:20:09,320 --> 00:20:12,240 But he that night, that couple had told us he was like, you 370 00:20:12,240 --> 00:20:14,920 know, God carries you through these things. 371 00:20:14,920 --> 00:20:21,760 He sees you in every detail and. I, I remember leaving the night 372 00:20:21,760 --> 00:20:25,080 and just feeling like, OK, like I can, I can keep moving me 373 00:20:25,080 --> 00:20:26,680 through this. Like God is going to carry me 374 00:20:26,680 --> 00:20:31,360 through this. And even if he doesn't make it 375 00:20:31,360 --> 00:20:34,200 go away quickly, he's going to carry me through this. 376 00:20:36,000 --> 00:20:39,200 And this is just one of those times that I can look back on 377 00:20:39,200 --> 00:20:43,480 and say like. God did see me. 378 00:20:43,800 --> 00:20:47,840 God, I've never felt more peace and comfort and like it was 379 00:20:47,880 --> 00:20:50,720 after getting everything off my chest to telling him how mad I 380 00:20:50,720 --> 00:20:54,400 was and how I didn't understand why this is happening, then all 381 00:20:54,400 --> 00:20:57,680 of a sudden I just felt like this lightness of like peace and 382 00:20:57,680 --> 00:21:00,320 comfort and I had never felt that before. 383 00:21:00,320 --> 00:21:06,360 Even when I was 17 and had that bad accident, I didn't realized 384 00:21:06,360 --> 00:21:09,760 the weight of that accident at the time, but I was realizing 385 00:21:09,760 --> 00:21:12,960 and feeling the weight of how much God loved me and he sees 386 00:21:12,960 --> 00:21:20,400 me. So I remember sharing that with 387 00:21:20,400 --> 00:21:26,040 like I had moved, had gone through like healing and praying 388 00:21:26,040 --> 00:21:30,560 about it and really not asking why anymore. 389 00:21:30,640 --> 00:21:33,440 Like that's not what matters. I'm not going to know on the 390 00:21:33,440 --> 00:21:37,280 side of heaven, but I was healing from it. 391 00:21:37,280 --> 00:21:40,280 And I just felt really late on my heart of like going through 392 00:21:40,280 --> 00:21:43,280 all of this during isolation. I wanted to share the story. 393 00:21:43,760 --> 00:21:47,040 And so I had shared it and another girl at the same time 394 00:21:47,040 --> 00:21:49,800 was going through the same thing I was and she didn't have anyone 395 00:21:49,800 --> 00:21:52,600 who understood. And so I had felt like, OK, if 396 00:21:52,600 --> 00:21:57,280 it helped one person like that, it matters that our baby matters 397 00:21:57,600 --> 00:22:00,480 right after, I think it was after I made that post and like 398 00:22:00,480 --> 00:22:02,960 had shared because I would have been through my first trimester. 399 00:22:03,240 --> 00:22:06,040 You're supposed to, you know, wait a cycle before you try 400 00:22:06,040 --> 00:22:08,200 again. And sure enough, after I had 401 00:22:08,200 --> 00:22:11,600 shared that and I really like I said, that was not an attention 402 00:22:11,600 --> 00:22:14,720 seeking post. I always feel like this is going 403 00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:16,720 to come across as attention seeking, but it really was to 404 00:22:16,720 --> 00:22:20,840 help somebody. I think it was within days of 405 00:22:20,840 --> 00:22:23,080 that post I found out I was pregnant again. 406 00:22:23,360 --> 00:22:27,200 So I just felt like that was like a God wink of being like 407 00:22:27,240 --> 00:22:28,640 you. You did what I asked. 408 00:22:28,640 --> 00:22:31,240 And I'm not saying like this is how life works at all. 409 00:22:32,120 --> 00:22:35,480 But it just felt like, OK, God sees me. 410 00:22:35,480 --> 00:22:38,360 God sees my obedience. God sees that I'm not angry at 411 00:22:38,360 --> 00:22:40,000 him. He loves me. 412 00:22:41,960 --> 00:22:44,360 But then you just start to doubt again and you start to get 413 00:22:44,360 --> 00:22:46,320 worried. Yeah. 414 00:22:47,200 --> 00:22:49,200 And even like the day you find out you're pregnant, like you 415 00:22:49,200 --> 00:22:53,280 still just don't even want to like fall in love again. 416 00:22:53,880 --> 00:22:57,840 And the very next morning I have like, I still have this e-mail 417 00:22:57,840 --> 00:23:01,680 saved, saved on my phone, the Proverbs 31 like devotionals 418 00:23:01,680 --> 00:23:04,320 that popped up. And it was about how God sees 419 00:23:04,320 --> 00:23:07,320 you in every single detail. And it was about another girl 420 00:23:07,320 --> 00:23:12,720 who had gone through a miscarriage and just kind of 421 00:23:12,960 --> 00:23:16,040 like very similar stories. But I just thought like, it's 422 00:23:16,040 --> 00:23:19,000 been one day and and you're already letting me know how much 423 00:23:19,000 --> 00:23:21,480 you love me and how much you already love our baby. 424 00:23:22,480 --> 00:23:26,360 I'm not saying that anxiety did not follow me through that 425 00:23:26,360 --> 00:23:29,520 pregnancy. I was very anxious with Cohen 426 00:23:30,400 --> 00:23:33,040 because like I said, you just are nervous that you're going to 427 00:23:33,400 --> 00:23:36,760 lose again. But I kept picturing myself 428 00:23:38,120 --> 00:23:42,640 holding Cohen and his nursery and singing and the goodness of 429 00:23:42,640 --> 00:23:46,680 God. That's truly my favorite song 430 00:23:46,760 --> 00:23:51,960 and it would calm me down like. Because if I could. 431 00:23:51,960 --> 00:23:54,320 Visualize like God is going to give me this baby. 432 00:23:54,480 --> 00:23:58,200 He's going to be earth side. Like that's what gave me peace. 433 00:23:59,520 --> 00:24:02,560 So naturally it's just like most poems. 434 00:24:02,760 --> 00:24:10,240 I made a labor playlist and I literally pushed out going not 435 00:24:10,440 --> 00:24:17,280 like it was on shuffle. He came onto this earth to the 436 00:24:17,280 --> 00:24:21,800 song the Goodness of God and like to me, I just was like, but 437 00:24:22,280 --> 00:24:24,720 I think it was that night that I'm telling you something like 438 00:24:25,160 --> 00:24:27,720 he sees us in every single detail. 439 00:24:28,560 --> 00:24:31,520 Like we matter. The littlest things matter and 440 00:24:33,080 --> 00:24:34,960 not. So I just look back on that time 441 00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:39,520 of, like, how old I was. Yeah. 442 00:24:40,200 --> 00:24:45,360 And like I said, it just is like it goes back to the Sparrow is 443 00:24:45,360 --> 00:24:49,080 if he cares so much about the Sparrow, like how much he cares 444 00:24:49,080 --> 00:24:52,520 for us, every hair in our heads, my little redheads. 445 00:24:53,280 --> 00:25:00,920 He cares, he loves them so much. No, but like that's a lot girl, 446 00:25:00,920 --> 00:25:07,040 like y'all, cuz this whole chapter of y'all moving it's 447 00:25:07,040 --> 00:25:10,880 already starts where like you're kind of feeling a little bitter 448 00:25:10,880 --> 00:25:13,880 about things like it's not going, it's an answered prayer, 449 00:25:13,880 --> 00:25:16,280 but it's definitely not looking the way you want it to. 450 00:25:16,640 --> 00:25:21,520 You know, a year or so goes by, y'all have a get pregnant and 451 00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:24,840 then you lose your baby and you're just like in this season 452 00:25:24,840 --> 00:25:28,760 of sadness and grief and don't really know where to turn. 453 00:25:28,760 --> 00:25:31,320 But in that you start seeing the light. 454 00:25:31,320 --> 00:25:36,720 Like those things start making a little bit more sense. 455 00:25:36,720 --> 00:25:38,040 I guess that's not the right thing. 456 00:25:38,040 --> 00:25:42,720 But you know, like you start seeing his goodness, I guess 457 00:25:42,920 --> 00:25:45,640 following you. And I mean, obviously I'll never 458 00:25:45,640 --> 00:25:48,280 know what what it would have been like being here doing all 459 00:25:48,320 --> 00:25:50,800 going through all of that. But the community that he gave 460 00:25:50,800 --> 00:25:55,520 us at Rock Springs is what I see when I look back there because 461 00:25:55,520 --> 00:25:59,240 we, I mean, the Learning Center where our kids went to, they 462 00:25:59,240 --> 00:26:01,400 still check in on the kids. They loved our kids. 463 00:26:01,600 --> 00:26:06,200 We're so invested in our kids. The staff there, they still, you 464 00:26:06,200 --> 00:26:07,920 know, are offering Seth his job back. 465 00:26:09,840 --> 00:26:14,160 But we really, we were loved there and we loved it there. 466 00:26:15,640 --> 00:26:23,120 I feel like our marriage grew spiritually so much there and it 467 00:26:23,120 --> 00:26:27,120 was just being under and it not that again, it couldn't have 468 00:26:27,120 --> 00:26:30,440 done that at Southside, but I think we were exactly where 469 00:26:30,440 --> 00:26:33,840 we're supposed to be. All of it really was like, This 470 00:26:33,840 --> 00:26:36,280 is why we are where we are right now. 471 00:26:36,640 --> 00:26:41,960 So you have Cohen to a goodness of God, like wow, what a 472 00:26:41,960 --> 00:26:44,120 testament. Like I feel like that song for 473 00:26:44,120 --> 00:26:47,080 you is probably the same. It is for about beautiful name. 474 00:26:47,080 --> 00:26:49,880 Like that's just my song. Like when that song comes on, I 475 00:26:49,880 --> 00:26:52,240 know it's me and God's moment. I feel like someone needs to 476 00:26:52,240 --> 00:26:55,080 tranquilize me when the goodness of God comes on. 477 00:26:55,720 --> 00:26:57,880 For sure. She needs sedation. 478 00:26:57,880 --> 00:26:59,760 She needs to calm down. Calm. 479 00:27:00,120 --> 00:27:02,360 OK, so that was just such a blessing though. 480 00:27:02,360 --> 00:27:04,920 Like Cohen is such a blessing. A little fiery redhead. 481 00:27:04,920 --> 00:27:07,680 Love it. But then you have another one. 482 00:27:07,760 --> 00:27:09,360 Yes, miss. Mallory. 483 00:27:10,520 --> 00:27:16,080 She was definitely more planned. We were. 484 00:27:16,520 --> 00:27:23,040 I kept on Seth a lot asking when we could have another one, but 485 00:27:23,320 --> 00:27:32,280 she was kind of a hard pregnancy as far as I think starting week 486 00:27:32,280 --> 00:27:37,760 5:00 every single day I was sick multiple times a day on on the 487 00:27:37,760 --> 00:27:41,080 way to work on the way home from work in the parking lot, all the 488 00:27:41,080 --> 00:27:45,960 things and so it's she was just wearing on me a lot, but we were 489 00:27:45,960 --> 00:27:48,960 still very excited. I always have a good attitude 490 00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:51,920 about pregnancy because I know what it's like to not have them. 491 00:27:52,280 --> 00:27:55,120 So I kept on talking. It's fine. 492 00:27:55,120 --> 00:28:00,840 Everything's fine and at her twenty week ultrasound, I you 493 00:28:00,840 --> 00:28:04,600 know, of course I'm always on edge at these appointments now 494 00:28:05,080 --> 00:28:08,920 and I'm watching her scanning and scanning and I am like I 495 00:28:08,920 --> 00:28:11,360 know my eyes are just getting bigger and bigger and it's not 496 00:28:11,360 --> 00:28:13,720 because I see something, it's just I notice that she keeps 497 00:28:13,720 --> 00:28:17,560 going over and over at a certain area and honestly, it was her 498 00:28:17,560 --> 00:28:20,280 heart more than anything. So as soon as she left the room 499 00:28:20,280 --> 00:28:22,640 because she didn't say anything like anything like super 500 00:28:22,640 --> 00:28:25,520 encouraging, like healthy baby, like no big deal, don't worry. 501 00:28:26,080 --> 00:28:31,160 And so as soon as she left the room and I'm like looking at 502 00:28:31,160 --> 00:28:33,240 something, like something's wrong, something is wrong. 503 00:28:33,240 --> 00:28:35,440 And she she didn't she didn't say anything. 504 00:28:35,440 --> 00:28:36,520 She's not allowed to say anything. 505 00:28:36,520 --> 00:28:38,960 But I'm just like having a full on meltdown. 506 00:28:40,080 --> 00:28:41,400 And he's like, you need to calm down. 507 00:28:41,400 --> 00:28:44,680 Like I didn't say anything. Like just let's go to the room. 508 00:28:44,680 --> 00:28:47,040 I said you didn't notice. Like she kept scanning her 509 00:28:47,040 --> 00:28:50,840 heart. And he's like, OK, yeah. 510 00:28:50,840 --> 00:28:53,160 I mean, I did notice that a little bit, but it's OK. 511 00:28:53,760 --> 00:28:58,800 And so we go into the room with OB and she tells us that there's 512 00:28:58,800 --> 00:29:04,720 a cyst on her brain. Now, everyone likes to tell you 513 00:29:04,720 --> 00:29:07,640 what is normal in pregnancy and like a little variation of 514 00:29:07,640 --> 00:29:12,040 normalcy. It is not helpful because once 515 00:29:12,040 --> 00:29:15,720 you hear something's wrong, like you are just going off the deep 516 00:29:15,720 --> 00:29:18,160 end. And so she's like, we will send 517 00:29:18,160 --> 00:29:20,600 you to a specialist. It could be, you know, six weeks 518 00:29:20,600 --> 00:29:23,520 out and I'm not. No, ma'am. 519 00:29:24,200 --> 00:29:27,200 And tomorrow, yeah, I would like to have an answer on this 520 00:29:27,200 --> 00:29:30,400 immediately. But she really was encouraging. 521 00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:33,800 Like, this happens all the time. These go away, no big deal. 522 00:29:34,320 --> 00:29:36,680 But again, that is not what was sitting with me. 523 00:29:36,680 --> 00:29:40,920 So I get in the car and I just just lose it, like, can stop 524 00:29:40,920 --> 00:29:42,240 crying. And I don't know if I stopped 525 00:29:42,240 --> 00:29:45,440 crying for a couple of hours. Like I didn't even want to like 526 00:29:45,440 --> 00:29:47,400 call my mom to tell her what happened. 527 00:29:48,560 --> 00:29:51,480 I'm pretty positive I sent her a text and was like, please don't 528 00:29:51,480 --> 00:29:53,800 call me. Like not because I'm mad, like 529 00:29:53,800 --> 00:29:54,880 not because I don't want to talk to you. 530 00:29:54,880 --> 00:29:57,200 It's just I can't talk about this right now. 531 00:29:58,760 --> 00:30:04,200 So like I said, I mean, I just had a good cry for a couple of 532 00:30:04,200 --> 00:30:08,120 days and then just all of a sudden it just was just 533 00:30:08,120 --> 00:30:12,200 remembering God cares about my babies even more than I care 534 00:30:12,200 --> 00:30:17,720 about my babies, which seems so impossible, but he does. 535 00:30:17,760 --> 00:30:20,640 He loves them so much more than I could ever love them because 536 00:30:20,640 --> 00:30:22,480 he sacrificed his own son for my babies. 537 00:30:23,320 --> 00:30:27,960 So we had everybody praying. I mean, truly everybody on the 538 00:30:27,960 --> 00:30:31,360 staff was praying. And I think I immediately told 539 00:30:31,360 --> 00:30:34,360 that Pastor Benny needs to know, like tell him he needs to be 540 00:30:34,360 --> 00:30:38,760 praying because I knew like if he Pastor Benny knows he's gonna 541 00:30:38,760 --> 00:30:42,040 be praying and he just has special in I'm convinced. 542 00:30:42,800 --> 00:30:44,640 Absolutely, I'm convinced. There you go. 543 00:30:45,440 --> 00:30:47,880 It turned out that we didn't end up having to wait the full like 544 00:30:47,880 --> 00:30:49,280 6 weeks. I don't even know if we waited a 545 00:30:49,280 --> 00:30:52,400 full 4 weeks. We got called in pretty quickly. 546 00:30:52,880 --> 00:30:56,640 I got lucky as far as I'm pretty flexible with work and I told 547 00:30:56,640 --> 00:31:02,000 them like I'm going anyways. But we went in and the 548 00:31:02,000 --> 00:31:06,040 ultrasound tech was like, what am I supposed to be looking for? 549 00:31:07,360 --> 00:31:11,880 And I was just like, there's a cyst on her brain And she goes, 550 00:31:12,680 --> 00:31:14,880 maybe I should get someone else to look because she's not seeing 551 00:31:14,880 --> 00:31:20,680 anything. And the the specialist comes in 552 00:31:20,680 --> 00:31:24,400 next and she's looking and she's like, it is, is there. 553 00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:26,960 It's so tiny. And she was like, I was more 554 00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:29,640 concerned about making sure there's nothing on her heart. 555 00:31:29,640 --> 00:31:31,800 Your genetic testing came back perfectly clean. 556 00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:34,440 All the thing that she's like, your baby is going to be 557 00:31:34,440 --> 00:31:36,560 completely healthy. There's nothing wrong. 558 00:31:38,480 --> 00:31:41,960 So it was just another moment where I just knew like like even 559 00:31:41,960 --> 00:31:44,080 before, don't get me wrong, the day of I was a little bit 560 00:31:44,080 --> 00:31:47,200 anxious, but even I just knew everything was OK. 561 00:31:48,480 --> 00:31:50,760 And it just is, like I said, God. 562 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:53,760 God sees you. God sees your babies even when 563 00:31:53,760 --> 00:31:56,400 you can't see your baby yet. He just loves you. 564 00:31:57,520 --> 00:31:59,640 When we first went and got coffee, you kind of mentioned 565 00:31:59,640 --> 00:32:03,000 how at one point y'all were considering coming here or like 566 00:32:03,040 --> 00:32:06,960 we're offered the opportunity to come to Southside, move back 567 00:32:06,960 --> 00:32:08,880 here. So tell us a little bit about 568 00:32:08,880 --> 00:32:11,760 that, maybe how that timing of all of that? 569 00:32:12,200 --> 00:32:17,400 So Mallory was born November 25th and we're talking January. 570 00:32:17,400 --> 00:32:22,680 Matt had contacted Seth, asking him out to lunch and just, let's 571 00:32:22,680 --> 00:32:25,120 just talk and see if this is something you're interested in. 572 00:32:25,560 --> 00:32:28,120 And so we were already going in and starting to pray about it 573 00:32:28,120 --> 00:32:30,800 because we wanted to know, like, if this was the right move. 574 00:32:30,800 --> 00:32:35,280 We had, yes, we had discussed, I mean, we were only an hour away 575 00:32:35,320 --> 00:32:38,320 from family, but an hour is a long time when you have a 576 00:32:38,320 --> 00:32:42,480 newborn on the car. And we had missed home. 577 00:32:42,480 --> 00:32:45,920 We had missed, like, being close to letting the cousins be, 578 00:32:45,920 --> 00:32:47,680 growing up together and those kind of things. 579 00:32:47,680 --> 00:32:49,880 But we were really happy at Rock Springs. 580 00:32:50,760 --> 00:32:53,280 I know when we first even brought up even just the option 581 00:32:53,280 --> 00:32:54,640 of moving back, I started crying. 582 00:32:54,640 --> 00:32:57,560 Now that's hormones a little bit, a little bit. 583 00:32:58,080 --> 00:33:00,400 But I was already thinking of all the things that I'd be 584 00:33:00,400 --> 00:33:03,760 mourning like the our house. We had just moved in there for 585 00:33:03,760 --> 00:33:07,800 maybe a little over a year and it was a just the perfect home. 586 00:33:08,240 --> 00:33:12,240 And I finally been pretty comfortable in my job. 587 00:33:12,240 --> 00:33:14,640 I'd been there for almost 4 years by that point. 588 00:33:14,680 --> 00:33:19,440 And then the Learning Center was the was truly my biggest thing 589 00:33:19,440 --> 00:33:21,920 is I just felt like that was such a great foundation for our 590 00:33:21,920 --> 00:33:25,680 kids to be in. And I already like again, 591 00:33:25,720 --> 00:33:28,560 hormones, but I was already grieving as soon as like this 592 00:33:28,560 --> 00:33:31,320 was brought up, almost like I just knew that we were going to 593 00:33:31,320 --> 00:33:36,280 be doing it. And so Seth when I met Matt and 594 00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:39,240 he was praying on the way home and he as soon as he came home, 595 00:33:39,240 --> 00:33:42,160 he goes. I just know that's what we're 596 00:33:42,160 --> 00:33:45,840 doing and start crying and I'm like, I have a 2 month old and 597 00:33:45,840 --> 00:33:50,160 have to pack up our house. And so Seth called or reached 598 00:33:50,160 --> 00:33:52,960 out to Matt and let him know like yes, like we are going to 599 00:33:52,960 --> 00:33:58,040 take the job and Matt is like great, so let's recircle this in 600 00:33:58,040 --> 00:34:01,800 like June. And I felt so much relief from 601 00:34:01,800 --> 00:34:04,480 that because I was like, OK, I don't have to be doing this 602 00:34:04,480 --> 00:34:06,680 while I'm on my postpartum leave, so. 603 00:34:06,920 --> 00:34:09,800 I got a little time. And which again, was just such a 604 00:34:09,800 --> 00:34:12,639 blessing like that. It wasn't like you have to get 605 00:34:12,639 --> 00:34:14,480 every all of your ducks in the line right now. 606 00:34:14,520 --> 00:34:19,280 So but we did start to, you know, do that, but it became 607 00:34:19,280 --> 00:34:21,199 crickets. Like we weren't really talking 608 00:34:21,199 --> 00:34:23,960 about it. It wasn't like things are being 609 00:34:23,960 --> 00:34:27,239 moved into place for set to take the job necessarily. 610 00:34:27,679 --> 00:34:30,520 And so we just kept living our lives like we weren't moving. 611 00:34:30,800 --> 00:34:35,840 And I like I for sure was not telling anyone at work because I 612 00:34:35,840 --> 00:34:37,440 just didn't know what was going to happen. 613 00:34:37,679 --> 00:34:43,520 So Fast forward, I think it was like May that Matt says I'm 614 00:34:43,520 --> 00:34:44,880 ready. Like when you're ready kind of 615 00:34:44,880 --> 00:34:46,320 thing, like just reopen the door. 616 00:34:46,320 --> 00:34:49,280 Like if if you're still interested and stuff like, yeah, 617 00:34:49,280 --> 00:34:54,960 I'm I'm still interested. I think it was June that we, it 618 00:34:54,960 --> 00:34:58,120 was within like a week of like once we finally had like signed 619 00:34:58,120 --> 00:35:00,680 paper saying, yes, we're, we're taking on the job like signing 620 00:35:00,680 --> 00:35:04,720 contracts, whatever. We listed our house on a Friday 621 00:35:04,720 --> 00:35:10,040 morning and by Saturday evening we had an offer and yes, very 622 00:35:10,040 --> 00:35:11,520 quick. So we just looked at us. 623 00:35:11,520 --> 00:35:13,760 Well, this is what God has us doing. 624 00:35:13,760 --> 00:35:16,880 We are moving and this is for sure his plan. 625 00:35:17,320 --> 00:35:23,640 Well, it took them, I want to say that six weeks to sell their 626 00:35:23,640 --> 00:35:25,480 house. They couldn't buy our house 627 00:35:25,480 --> 00:35:27,920 without selling their house. And that's when we started to 628 00:35:27,920 --> 00:35:30,880 really have a lot of doubts of like, was this really what we 629 00:35:30,880 --> 00:35:34,560 were supposed to be doing? And you know, all these things 630 00:35:34,560 --> 00:35:37,160 are happening at Rock Springs as far as like their growth that 631 00:35:37,160 --> 00:35:39,560 all of a sudden it kind of had us feel like we want to be here 632 00:35:39,560 --> 00:35:44,400 for that selfishly, because we loved seeing what God was doing 633 00:35:44,400 --> 00:35:46,640 at Rock Springs. We loved being a part of what 634 00:35:46,640 --> 00:35:50,240 God was doing at Rock Springs, like feeling like you're going 635 00:35:50,240 --> 00:35:52,880 to miss out on what's happening back there. 636 00:35:52,880 --> 00:35:57,760 Exactly exactly. So but there were all these pros 637 00:35:57,760 --> 00:36:03,560 on moving to South side to and said, and I actually was feeling 638 00:36:03,560 --> 00:36:07,320 like I was being ministered during the services for a couple 639 00:36:07,320 --> 00:36:10,080 weeks leading up to that decision was that, you know, 640 00:36:10,440 --> 00:36:15,400 Seth had been being formed during all those like the six 641 00:36:15,400 --> 00:36:18,320 years at Rock Springs. He was being made into a leader 642 00:36:18,400 --> 00:36:20,440 to be able to lead at South side. 643 00:36:21,000 --> 00:36:24,640 If Seth had would've been given this job at South side six years 644 00:36:24,640 --> 00:36:27,600 ago, he wouldn't be the same person at all. 645 00:36:28,480 --> 00:36:32,720 So I was feeling like, OK, like I know I'm getting like pushed 646 00:36:32,720 --> 00:36:35,280 into the South side like this is this is the answer. 647 00:36:35,960 --> 00:36:38,560 But like I said, your your flesh kind of starts to make you doubt 648 00:36:38,560 --> 00:36:42,400 everything which he mentioned. That like when he came, he was 649 00:36:42,400 --> 00:36:45,760 like saying I was given this gift. 650 00:36:45,760 --> 00:36:50,600 I was like, you know, brought up to be able to bring it here, to 651 00:36:50,600 --> 00:36:54,360 grow to like, it's not just like a selfish thing to leave it 652 00:36:54,360 --> 00:36:56,520 there. Like I wanted to bring all the 653 00:36:56,520 --> 00:37:00,880 things that I have learned to Southside and like truly been a 654 00:37:00,880 --> 00:37:02,560 blessing. Been a big blessing. 655 00:37:02,840 --> 00:37:06,480 So yeah. So y'all are in this like limbo 656 00:37:06,480 --> 00:37:09,040 of waiting though of when you are coming because you are 657 00:37:09,040 --> 00:37:12,480 waiting on their house to sell and waiting on all this stuff. 658 00:37:12,480 --> 00:37:14,520 So you're just like going back and forth. 659 00:37:14,520 --> 00:37:18,000 But you said that you're like getting messages basically from 660 00:37:18,000 --> 00:37:20,440 God during this time. Like signs I guess. 661 00:37:20,440 --> 00:37:22,320 Yes. Like a good word. 662 00:37:22,680 --> 00:37:24,720 A good word, A fresh word. Yes. 663 00:37:25,800 --> 00:37:30,480 So that it was kind of out of the blue that all of a sudden 664 00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:34,920 their house just starts getting like people popping in like 5 or 665 00:37:34,920 --> 00:37:36,720 6 showings all in one week. And then all of a sudden they 666 00:37:36,720 --> 00:37:40,280 get an offer and like everything just boom, boom moves into place 667 00:37:40,280 --> 00:37:45,800 again. So we moved, I think, I think we 668 00:37:45,800 --> 00:37:49,480 closed in like 3 weeks after they had gotten their offer if 669 00:37:49,480 --> 00:37:52,040 we were able to move it up more than, you know, just during the 670 00:37:52,040 --> 00:37:54,520 month. And so we moved here Labor Day 671 00:37:54,520 --> 00:38:00,360 weekend, and I had already lined up like kind of a dream job 672 00:38:00,360 --> 00:38:04,280 situation two weeks before we were even moving. 673 00:38:04,880 --> 00:38:07,680 And I just remember like crying the whole way home because I had 674 00:38:07,680 --> 00:38:09,840 driven down to Warner Robins for the interview and driving back 675 00:38:09,840 --> 00:38:12,720 home and just been like, this is what I've been wanting. 676 00:38:12,720 --> 00:38:15,560 This is the family oriented job that I wanted. 677 00:38:15,560 --> 00:38:20,400 This are the hours that I needed to be a more at home mom than I 678 00:38:20,400 --> 00:38:23,280 have been. I won't be spending 45 minutes 679 00:38:23,280 --> 00:38:27,600 on 75 praying that I don't get into another car accident. 680 00:38:27,840 --> 00:38:32,560 And it feels like bragging now when I like think about at first 681 00:38:32,560 --> 00:38:35,760 it was not super easy. That's a whole other thing with 682 00:38:35,760 --> 00:38:38,680 our three-year old. He's 4 now, but he did not have 683 00:38:38,800 --> 00:38:42,840 an easy time with moving at all. But now I can look at it and it 684 00:38:42,840 --> 00:38:45,080 just feels like bragging on like all the different ways. 685 00:38:45,080 --> 00:38:49,160 This is like helped our family and been such a blessing and 686 00:38:49,480 --> 00:38:55,320 even just in friendships, but but just between how much more 687 00:38:55,320 --> 00:38:57,760 I'm at home. Cohen had an amazing teacher 688 00:38:57,760 --> 00:39:01,600 this past year too that has really helped him with all of 689 00:39:01,600 --> 00:39:04,520 the changes that were happening. It was almost on a daily basis. 690 00:39:04,520 --> 00:39:06,880 He was asking us when we were moving our back to Rock Springs, 691 00:39:06,880 --> 00:39:09,360 which I just did not anticipate our three-year old being so 692 00:39:09,360 --> 00:39:11,640 worried about or like holding on to it for a. 693 00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:14,840 Very long time because I mean like he really just stopped that 694 00:39:14,840 --> 00:39:17,440 more recently. I was worried months ago. 695 00:39:17,440 --> 00:39:20,480 Yes, I was worried about him because even still on Sundays, 696 00:39:20,480 --> 00:39:22,680 I'll still watch Rock Springs while I'm getting ready for 697 00:39:22,680 --> 00:39:25,440 church. And sometimes that kind of, you 698 00:39:25,440 --> 00:39:27,800 know, Piques's interest of. So are we going to Rock Springs 699 00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:29,240 today? Yeah, No. 700 00:39:30,240 --> 00:39:35,080 Sorry, no, Yeah, when we first started talking or whatever, I 701 00:39:35,080 --> 00:39:39,080 like asked you about coming on and you were like, honestly, I 702 00:39:39,080 --> 00:39:42,640 don't really feel, you know, like this is the time for me to 703 00:39:42,640 --> 00:39:45,400 like, let me continue to pray about it and all this stuff. 704 00:39:45,720 --> 00:39:49,920 So honestly, this is like kind of fresh to me. 705 00:39:49,920 --> 00:39:52,920 Like I have no idea what happened or like where it went. 706 00:39:52,920 --> 00:39:55,880 But you know, a few weeks ago we kind of revisited the idea and 707 00:39:55,880 --> 00:39:58,080 you're like, I'm ready now. I'm in a different place than I 708 00:39:58,080 --> 00:40:00,080 was. So can you talk a little bit 709 00:40:00,080 --> 00:40:03,400 about that, maybe what that deciding factor was or what you 710 00:40:03,400 --> 00:40:07,720 were going through on as much as you want to so so you asked. 711 00:40:08,240 --> 00:40:11,760 Like 24 hours after we met, I knew. 712 00:40:11,760 --> 00:40:15,840 Y'all like I knew we sat down at coffee and I literally trauma 713 00:40:15,840 --> 00:40:17,640 dumped. I told Kim everything about my 714 00:40:17,640 --> 00:40:21,360 life and then I left and I'm like hey I'm so sorry. 715 00:40:21,360 --> 00:40:25,040 Like I do that. So anyway I just knew. 716 00:40:25,040 --> 00:40:27,800 But 24 hours after So when you were asking. 717 00:40:27,880 --> 00:40:31,240 Like we said, that's about Christmas time, so I could 718 00:40:31,240 --> 00:40:36,240 pretend that it was a busyness thing, but I feel like I did 719 00:40:36,240 --> 00:40:38,560 exactly. And I didn't realize it until I 720 00:40:38,560 --> 00:40:41,720 was out of it. But I was honestly bitter all 721 00:40:41,720 --> 00:40:49,440 over again about moving. It was just that I I probably 722 00:40:49,440 --> 00:40:55,160 was just getting through like the worst of changing like jobs 723 00:40:55,160 --> 00:40:57,960 and everything. This job, like I said, has been 724 00:40:57,960 --> 00:41:02,320 a huge blessing, but it was a humongous change for me. 725 00:41:02,520 --> 00:41:07,400 I'd gone from one dentist and working with one other hygienist 726 00:41:07,440 --> 00:41:10,560 to now I was one of 10 hygienists working for for a 727 00:41:10,560 --> 00:41:12,680 dentist. And it was a lot of different 728 00:41:12,680 --> 00:41:14,520 personalities for an introvert like me. 729 00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:17,880 And I just was not really finding my pace yet. 730 00:41:18,600 --> 00:41:22,160 And so that was kind of a hard thing of all of a sudden you 731 00:41:22,160 --> 00:41:24,600 start looking back and going, well, my grouse was pretty 732 00:41:24,600 --> 00:41:26,320 green. Even though I wasn't being. 733 00:41:26,320 --> 00:41:30,480 Treated well all the time I was it was OK, I could deal. 734 00:41:30,480 --> 00:41:32,600 With it. OK, this is new. 735 00:41:33,040 --> 00:41:37,800 And, and like I said, we could make a whole other episode about 736 00:41:37,800 --> 00:41:40,640 Cohen and what all he was going through, but he was going 737 00:41:40,640 --> 00:41:44,760 through it and it was really wearing on me emotionally and 738 00:41:44,760 --> 00:41:49,480 spiritually, just in the fact of like, I was truly questioning, 739 00:41:49,480 --> 00:41:53,560 like, why did God give me these two incredible babies? 740 00:41:54,320 --> 00:41:55,680 But am I equipped for it? I. 741 00:41:56,400 --> 00:41:59,680 Just felt like I was not doing a good job. 742 00:41:59,680 --> 00:42:04,080 And then of course you are doubting yourself like he's 3. 743 00:42:04,320 --> 00:42:07,080 But should I have uprooted him like like the way we did? 744 00:42:07,080 --> 00:42:09,000 Because he was already going through all the changes of 745 00:42:09,000 --> 00:42:15,000 Mallory, our youngest, and. I just was honestly, just 746 00:42:15,000 --> 00:42:16,720 probably. Being way harder on myself than 747 00:42:16,720 --> 00:42:20,440 I needed to be, but it was shutting me down spiritually as 748 00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:24,360 far as like, I didn't really want to face it or ask God, you 749 00:42:24,360 --> 00:42:26,920 know, 'cause He's sovereign and he brought us here. 750 00:42:26,920 --> 00:42:29,440 And like I said, now looking back, I can. 751 00:42:29,440 --> 00:42:32,880 See all the blessings and it all but man, that was a stretching 752 00:42:32,880 --> 00:42:36,760 season and it was a painfully stretching like it was not like 753 00:42:36,760 --> 00:42:41,320 oh that that felt nice. So I was not in a good place 754 00:42:41,520 --> 00:42:43,720 spiritually. I feel like I was really hiding 755 00:42:43,800 --> 00:42:48,520 at that point. It kind of felt like Jonah is 756 00:42:48,520 --> 00:42:52,680 like you're being asked to do something to glorify God and I 757 00:42:52,680 --> 00:42:55,200 just was like, I don't really want to talk about that right 758 00:42:55,200 --> 00:43:01,800 now, so just keep on hiding. So I, I like I said, have said, 759 00:43:01,800 --> 00:43:07,240 you know, I have found blessings and the moving here is one thing 760 00:43:07,240 --> 00:43:11,680 I was really lacking up there was, you know, community outside 761 00:43:11,680 --> 00:43:15,880 of our staff. Truly, I was still in. 762 00:43:16,120 --> 00:43:19,600 And it's harder when you are like a mom and I always call it 763 00:43:19,600 --> 00:43:23,440 single mom life on Sunday mornings just because you are 764 00:43:23,440 --> 00:43:25,640 getting them ready for church. So you really are getting there 765 00:43:25,640 --> 00:43:27,880 right on time. And then you do pretty much pack 766 00:43:27,880 --> 00:43:29,880 it up and go because I call it a nap sandwich. 767 00:43:29,880 --> 00:43:31,960 Mallory likes to sleep before church and then she goes to 768 00:43:31,960 --> 00:43:35,120 sleep again afterwards. So it really is like, I'm here, 769 00:43:35,120 --> 00:43:40,160 I did it, you saw me back. And so I feel like I wasn't 770 00:43:40,160 --> 00:43:46,240 necessarily really growing either, but I have since then 771 00:43:46,240 --> 00:43:50,960 like found a good Bible study with moms that their kids are 772 00:43:51,280 --> 00:43:55,200 roughly like my kids age. So that has helped tremendously. 773 00:43:55,520 --> 00:43:59,160 I'm doing the Bible recap and I cannot recommend that more of 774 00:43:59,160 --> 00:44:01,880 just like really getting to know God. 775 00:44:01,880 --> 00:44:03,240 That's something I had never done. 776 00:44:03,280 --> 00:44:06,120 I always felt so intimidated by the Bible. 777 00:44:06,120 --> 00:44:10,120 It's a pretty big book and I love books, but if you let the 778 00:44:10,120 --> 00:44:13,480 world tell you about the Bible, they make it seem like it's 779 00:44:13,480 --> 00:44:15,760 going to be real boring. It's not going to be, it's going 780 00:44:15,760 --> 00:44:19,640 to be a lot of rules and God is a mean God. 781 00:44:19,640 --> 00:44:22,400 Just you can really let the world talk you out of reading 782 00:44:22,400 --> 00:44:28,000 the Old Testament real quick. And I have just been absolutely 783 00:44:28,000 --> 00:44:30,000 loving that. Just like really pouring into 784 00:44:30,000 --> 00:44:33,080 that. And it's just giving me a whole 785 00:44:33,080 --> 00:44:35,080 fresh insight. And like I said, you know, you 786 00:44:35,080 --> 00:44:38,640 read about Jonah and you realize I'm an Israelite. 787 00:44:38,760 --> 00:44:42,440 I I'm a griper is as soon as you deliver me from what I asked you 788 00:44:42,440 --> 00:44:50,160 to deliver me from it's this is what I thought looking good and. 789 00:44:50,160 --> 00:44:52,360 How funny it is. That we always do look at back 790 00:44:52,360 --> 00:44:54,720 at their complaining and being like, Oh my God, like there, 791 00:44:54,720 --> 00:44:57,080 you're so ungrateful and then here we are. 792 00:44:57,320 --> 00:45:01,760 Yeah. So that's how I identify myself 793 00:45:01,840 --> 00:45:05,440 now. It's an Israelite, but truly 794 00:45:05,800 --> 00:45:08,600 that honestly that that was the reason that was what I was going 795 00:45:08,600 --> 00:45:11,520 through. You and I have truly like have, 796 00:45:11,760 --> 00:45:15,280 you know, had a a positive impact on each other. 797 00:45:15,280 --> 00:45:19,640 But I would say even more so you for me on just bringing me out 798 00:45:19,640 --> 00:45:22,160 of that shell. I am usually pretty introverted. 799 00:45:22,240 --> 00:45:26,080 I think moving these two times has really taught me it's not 800 00:45:26,080 --> 00:45:29,600 going to get you too far as far as building a community around 801 00:45:29,600 --> 00:45:31,400 you. You can't keep on expecting 802 00:45:31,400 --> 00:45:34,440 people to come to you. I always have felt that way is 803 00:45:34,440 --> 00:45:36,200 like, well, they'll come to me. And if they don't, then we 804 00:45:36,200 --> 00:45:41,160 weren't meant to be friends. So it just is is pouring into 805 00:45:41,160 --> 00:45:43,320 others. They'll pour back into you. 806 00:45:43,320 --> 00:45:49,000 And truly, and I will say Seth has been huge like since we 807 00:45:49,000 --> 00:45:50,560 moved. I feel like I've never been more 808 00:45:50,560 --> 00:45:53,720 like social of like trying to get to Bible studies, trying to 809 00:45:53,720 --> 00:45:59,080 go to like the well with you and hanging out and he so he's been 810 00:45:59,160 --> 00:46:02,240 real good about picking up that slack for me so that I until 811 00:46:02,240 --> 00:46:04,720 some days when we're. Like multiple times and he's 812 00:46:04,720 --> 00:46:07,600 like hang on, wait no y'all just hung out. 813 00:46:07,720 --> 00:46:09,160 Just hung out it's. Fine. 814 00:46:09,160 --> 00:46:11,200 And then we haven't even touched on the fact that, like, now I'm 815 00:46:11,200 --> 00:46:12,600 10 minutes down the road from my mom. 816 00:46:12,600 --> 00:46:15,000 Yeah. So like it just is, is so many 817 00:46:15,000 --> 00:46:17,400 things have come out of this move. 818 00:46:18,680 --> 00:46:22,160 And like you said, I feel like Seth is really growing A-Team 819 00:46:22,160 --> 00:46:25,240 and he's really happy with that. And I've even asked Seth like, 820 00:46:25,240 --> 00:46:27,520 do you miss it? Do you regret like that we moved 821 00:46:27,520 --> 00:46:29,920 or anything like that? And he's like he knows that he's 822 00:46:29,920 --> 00:46:30,960 exactly where he's supposed to be. 823 00:46:30,960 --> 00:46:34,480 He's growing this team and teaching them new things and 824 00:46:34,480 --> 00:46:37,280 they are really hungry for it. That's the cool part is that 825 00:46:37,280 --> 00:46:39,920 they are wanting to learn what what he's got. 826 00:46:40,320 --> 00:46:46,280 So it has been a tremendous like change, I think for the both of 827 00:46:46,280 --> 00:46:49,640 us, well, all of us, our whole family in the past about seven 828 00:46:49,640 --> 00:46:52,600 months. But just for myself spiritually, 829 00:46:52,600 --> 00:46:55,120 I feel like this has been like the best I've been in a couple 830 00:46:55,120 --> 00:46:58,960 of years there's. Been so many times where over 831 00:46:58,960 --> 00:47:01,600 our lives, we're always in that stretch and it's like, Oh my 832 00:47:01,600 --> 00:47:03,200 gosh, like what's going to come from this? 833 00:47:03,200 --> 00:47:04,560 Like I'm tired of being stretched. 834 00:47:04,560 --> 00:47:08,080 But like when we acknowledge why we were being stretched and 835 00:47:08,080 --> 00:47:11,200 where we gotten today because of that, that's where it's like we 836 00:47:11,200 --> 00:47:15,360 see that goodness of God, we get to see all the times that he was 837 00:47:15,360 --> 00:47:18,640 right there that we didn't feel like he was, but he was there. 838 00:47:19,040 --> 00:47:22,080 And so, like, stories like this and our testimonies, you know, 839 00:47:22,080 --> 00:47:25,080 they're just so powerful because so many people probably have 840 00:47:25,080 --> 00:47:28,240 experienced miscarriages. They've experienced these moves 841 00:47:28,240 --> 00:47:30,600 and times of loneliness and stuff like that. 842 00:47:30,600 --> 00:47:32,840 And we're even going to talk about a little bit of that, like 843 00:47:32,840 --> 00:47:36,240 with your sister in two weeks. We've already recorded that 844 00:47:36,240 --> 00:47:39,320 episode. But, you know, other people 845 00:47:39,320 --> 00:47:41,120 experience these same exact things. 846 00:47:41,120 --> 00:47:43,800 And that's why it's so important to tell, like, what's going on 847 00:47:43,800 --> 00:47:45,560 in our lives and what we've endured. 848 00:47:45,560 --> 00:47:48,200 And it's important for us to do things like this. 849 00:47:48,200 --> 00:47:52,320 So I'm so happy that you decided to come on and talk the last 850 00:47:52,320 --> 00:47:55,200 thing, whatever you really want to say. 851 00:47:55,200 --> 00:47:57,480 Maybe God's laid it on your heart about something more 852 00:47:57,480 --> 00:48:01,440 specific or maybe something that we never even touched on, or 853 00:48:01,440 --> 00:48:03,880 just a word of advice or something God's revealed to you. 854 00:48:04,240 --> 00:48:06,720 You tell me. I really. 855 00:48:06,720 --> 00:48:10,640 Do think I'm just going to like one more push for the Bible 856 00:48:10,640 --> 00:48:14,800 recap because truly it was something that I seriously did 857 00:48:14,800 --> 00:48:16,800 like all the time was I should do that. 858 00:48:16,800 --> 00:48:18,240 I'm going to do that, I'm going to do that. 859 00:48:18,240 --> 00:48:21,280 And then it finally was like, no one's doing it for you. 860 00:48:21,280 --> 00:48:24,040 No one's going to open it up for you, Just just open it. 861 00:48:24,480 --> 00:48:26,960 And it's so much easier this way. 862 00:48:27,040 --> 00:48:32,000 It's so much like less like I said, it is intimidating to just 863 00:48:32,000 --> 00:48:35,360 open it and hope for, you know, this is going to be what I need 864 00:48:35,360 --> 00:48:38,440 today. You are going to find God in 865 00:48:38,440 --> 00:48:40,840 every single chapter. It's actually a really quick 866 00:48:40,840 --> 00:48:43,720 moving book. I didn't realize that sometimes 867 00:48:43,720 --> 00:48:46,200 I'm like, well, that happened real fast. 868 00:48:47,080 --> 00:48:50,960 We're already moving on from that, but it it is so incredible 869 00:48:50,960 --> 00:48:52,760 to know God on light in this way. 870 00:48:53,320 --> 00:48:57,240 So if you've been on the fence about it, I really could not 871 00:48:57,240 --> 00:48:58,560 recommend it more. Yeah. 872 00:48:58,560 --> 00:49:01,160 And I don't work for the Bible Recap, but maybe one day. 873 00:49:01,280 --> 00:49:06,920 Sponsored ad actually. No, but really in the Bible 874 00:49:06,920 --> 00:49:10,800 recap, they also have videos on there and that is very helpful 875 00:49:11,120 --> 00:49:14,120 because sometimes I'm reading and I'm like, what's going on 876 00:49:14,120 --> 00:49:15,800 here? And then when you go watch the 877 00:49:15,800 --> 00:49:17,760 recap, it's like the actual video. 878 00:49:17,760 --> 00:49:21,120 I'm like ah that explains it. Do you watch the video first or 879 00:49:21,120 --> 00:49:22,800 do you read first? I read it first. 880 00:49:22,920 --> 00:49:24,360 Me too. But it puts it in. 881 00:49:24,360 --> 00:49:27,080 The devotion part of it I come back too. 882 00:49:27,080 --> 00:49:29,920 But I want someone. To I want to read it for myself 883 00:49:29,920 --> 00:49:32,120 and then have someone make sure that I understood it. 884 00:49:32,120 --> 00:49:34,880 Yeah, me too. For comprehension. 885 00:49:35,240 --> 00:49:37,760 Yeah. Guys, this has been absolutely 886 00:49:37,760 --> 00:49:39,520 incredible. I hope you enjoyed this as much 887 00:49:39,520 --> 00:49:41,440 as I have and as much as we have. 888 00:49:41,440 --> 00:49:44,880 Make sure you tune in in two weeks because Kim and her sister 889 00:49:44,880 --> 00:49:47,600 are going to jump on and talk about their relationship growing 890 00:49:47,600 --> 00:49:51,600 up and some revelations they've had in the past year or so. 891 00:49:51,600 --> 00:49:55,760 So make sure you tune in, stay tuned, stay blessed, and we'll 892 00:49:55,760 --> 00:49:56,920 see you guys later. Bye.