1 00:00:05,880 --> 00:00:08,240 What's up guys, my name is Alexis Brown. 2 00:00:08,480 --> 00:00:13,040 Your host put praises in the pod and I cannot believe that we are 3 00:00:13,040 --> 00:00:17,880 in our studio. I have worked so hard on the 4 00:00:17,880 --> 00:00:21,920 studio. I have put my blood, sweat, and 5 00:00:22,160 --> 00:00:26,440 tears in this place in the last week and I am so excited to be 6 00:00:26,440 --> 00:00:29,760 able to film episode 3 in this space. 7 00:00:30,320 --> 00:00:33,600 I have prayed in this space, I have worshipped in this space, 8 00:00:33,600 --> 00:00:38,240 and I have made this space welcoming for God's Spirit just 9 00:00:38,240 --> 00:00:41,440 to feel it. And I just am so excited to be 10 00:00:41,440 --> 00:00:43,800 here. So we're going to start out in 11 00:00:43,800 --> 00:00:47,280 prayer and then we're going to jump right in for what we got in 12 00:00:47,280 --> 00:00:55,240 store for today. So here we go, Lord, thank you 13 00:00:55,240 --> 00:00:57,200 for this day. Thank you for all your many 14 00:00:57,200 --> 00:00:59,720 blessings. Dear God, we ask you to come in 15 00:00:59,720 --> 00:01:02,680 this place and fill it. Lord, we want your presence to 16 00:01:02,680 --> 00:01:05,280 be known. I pray that you speak to me and 17 00:01:05,280 --> 00:01:07,400 through me. And I pray for the listeners on 18 00:01:07,400 --> 00:01:10,920 the other side of this podcast, Lord, that it just resonates 19 00:01:10,920 --> 00:01:14,640 with them, Lord, and that they see your goodness and they see 20 00:01:14,640 --> 00:01:17,640 your mercy and maybe try to change some things in their 21 00:01:17,640 --> 00:01:20,400 life. Lord, I pray that you just move 22 00:01:20,400 --> 00:01:24,200 in a mighty way and use this podcast to glorify your name. 23 00:01:24,200 --> 00:01:27,160 Lord, in Jesus name I pray, Amen. 24 00:01:28,280 --> 00:01:33,120 All right guys, so I have been very, very busy. 25 00:01:33,480 --> 00:01:38,440 I am a busy bee. I typically always have plans. 26 00:01:38,440 --> 00:01:42,200 I always have something going on and I'm finally getting on that 27 00:01:42,200 --> 00:01:48,840 downward slope of OK, I can calm down, I can chill out. 28 00:01:49,120 --> 00:01:52,920 I don't have to have plans every day, every weekend. 29 00:01:52,920 --> 00:01:54,520 I don't have to be going somewhere. 30 00:01:54,520 --> 00:01:56,920 I'm ready to sit. I'm ready to be still. 31 00:01:56,920 --> 00:02:02,440 I'm ready to just dive into being at home. 32 00:02:02,840 --> 00:02:07,480 And I'm so excited that now I have this space at home. 33 00:02:08,160 --> 00:02:12,280 So I just want to talk about some things that have happened 34 00:02:12,280 --> 00:02:17,200 probably in the last few weeks and you know, talk about God's 35 00:02:17,200 --> 00:02:21,000 will for us and you know, what he has in store for us and those 36 00:02:21,000 --> 00:02:26,760 good plans that he has and what all has happened and transpired 37 00:02:26,760 --> 00:02:32,440 since I started this podcast because it has been a crazy ride 38 00:02:32,520 --> 00:02:37,800 to say the least. So I mentioned this, if you 39 00:02:37,800 --> 00:02:41,200 don't follow us on Facebook or Instagram, I post like little 40 00:02:41,200 --> 00:02:44,600 updates, maybe some graphics and stuff like that with some 41 00:02:44,600 --> 00:02:47,520 scripture on it. But I posted a video. 42 00:02:48,240 --> 00:02:52,760 I signed up to go to the Ello conference in Louisiana a few 43 00:02:52,760 --> 00:02:58,800 months back and I we had to pick out breakouts and one of the 44 00:02:58,800 --> 00:03:01,640 breakouts was podcasting and media. 45 00:03:02,520 --> 00:03:07,160 Well, I never even thought podcasting was in my realm or 46 00:03:07,160 --> 00:03:09,520 anything that I would ever be interested in because I'm going 47 00:03:09,520 --> 00:03:15,120 to be very honest with you, I have never really listened to a 48 00:03:15,120 --> 00:03:19,880 podcast. Like I really haven't ever 49 00:03:19,880 --> 00:03:23,880 really listened to a podcast. I used to get my lashes done 50 00:03:23,880 --> 00:03:27,320 with this girl and we would listen to a podcast and I don't 51 00:03:27,320 --> 00:03:30,400 even know what it was and I was always going in and out of sleep 52 00:03:30,400 --> 00:03:32,000 or not really trying to pay attention. 53 00:03:32,520 --> 00:03:35,560 Like I just was zoned out. And so I've never really 54 00:03:35,560 --> 00:03:39,400 listened to a podcast, so I didn't know what to expect. 55 00:03:39,760 --> 00:03:46,680 But the and media on the end of that was pretty cool because I, 56 00:03:47,080 --> 00:03:51,840 I'm part of our media team at my church and I'm very interested 57 00:03:51,840 --> 00:03:54,480 in, you know, photos and graphics and just being 58 00:03:54,480 --> 00:03:56,920 creative. So this past year I've learned 59 00:03:56,920 --> 00:04:00,040 that I'm a very creative person. So last week I kind of went over 60 00:04:00,040 --> 00:04:01,800 the colors with you all a little bit. 61 00:04:02,000 --> 00:04:04,040 I don't know where that was going. 62 00:04:04,040 --> 00:04:07,600 I don't, I still don't think that that goes, but you know, 63 00:04:07,600 --> 00:04:10,600 whatever it gives you a paragraph of like about 64 00:04:10,600 --> 00:04:13,320 yourself, Like it basically tells you all about yourself. 65 00:04:14,600 --> 00:04:18,760 And it kept calling me creative. It kept saying creative and I'm 66 00:04:18,760 --> 00:04:23,760 like I'd they sent me the wrong insights like this ain't me. 67 00:04:23,800 --> 00:04:27,240 This is not something that I typically do anyway. 68 00:04:27,680 --> 00:04:33,760 Come to find out a year goes by and now I'm like, I am like I, I 69 00:04:33,760 --> 00:04:38,280 love being creative. I feel like I'm at peace when 70 00:04:38,280 --> 00:04:42,520 I'm being created or creative. Like I feel good when I'm being 71 00:04:42,520 --> 00:04:45,160 creative. So I signed up for that class 72 00:04:45,960 --> 00:04:52,160 and that was about 8 weeks ago. Podcasting had never even 73 00:04:52,160 --> 00:04:54,440 crossed my mind. Like I said, I had never even 74 00:04:54,440 --> 00:04:56,640 listened to a podcast. So now I'm going to be a 75 00:04:56,640 --> 00:04:59,840 podcast. I was like, no, I was going for 76 00:04:59,840 --> 00:05:04,800 the media. And so about a month or more 77 00:05:04,800 --> 00:05:10,960 ago, I might have discussed this in the pilot about how this got 78 00:05:10,960 --> 00:05:13,600 started about me wanting to be a podcast host. 79 00:05:13,600 --> 00:05:16,480 Anyway, me and my mom were sitting in our student building 80 00:05:16,680 --> 00:05:21,120 at church one day and some of our student team was in there 81 00:05:21,440 --> 00:05:23,680 and this is where the equipment was. 82 00:05:23,680 --> 00:05:26,360 And so me and my mom just like, kind of put the headphones on 83 00:05:26,360 --> 00:05:29,040 and we're like in silly, goofy moods, talking or whatever. 84 00:05:29,440 --> 00:05:33,480 And that kind of got the creative juices flowing, you 85 00:05:33,480 --> 00:05:39,160 know? And so I'm like, oh, OK, that's 86 00:05:39,160 --> 00:05:41,680 cool. I even left the building that 87 00:05:41,680 --> 00:05:43,000 day. And I'm like, I'm going to start 88 00:05:43,000 --> 00:05:45,520 a podcast. And everybody's like, OK, you 89 00:05:45,520 --> 00:05:51,480 know, cool, that sounds good. OK, Weeks go by and I'm laying 90 00:05:51,480 --> 00:05:53,160 on my couch. That's the day I'm a little 91 00:05:53,160 --> 00:05:54,720 bored. And I'm like, you know what? 92 00:05:54,720 --> 00:05:57,840 I'm going to go film something. I don't know what it's going to 93 00:05:57,840 --> 00:05:59,720 sound like, I don't know what I'm going to say, but I'm going 94 00:05:59,720 --> 00:06:00,920 to go up there and film something. 95 00:06:02,440 --> 00:06:07,240 So that's how we got here. But to think that over two 96 00:06:07,240 --> 00:06:10,480 months ago when I purchased my tickets to the Ello Conference, 97 00:06:10,960 --> 00:06:15,160 I never once thought about the podcasting aspect of it. 98 00:06:15,160 --> 00:06:20,440 So that was just a fun little thing where I'm like, oh, Romans 99 00:06:20,440 --> 00:06:24,160 828, Romans 828. He works all things out for the 100 00:06:24,160 --> 00:06:26,000 good if you surrender to his will. 101 00:06:26,960 --> 00:06:32,000 And yeah, OK, so anyway, there we go. 102 00:06:33,280 --> 00:06:38,360 So I go to this conference and right off the RIP. 103 00:06:38,560 --> 00:06:45,000 Great time, great speakers. Lisa Harper was there and me and 104 00:06:45,000 --> 00:06:47,760 a friend, me and a Co worker were talking about Lisa Harper 105 00:06:47,760 --> 00:06:50,280 one day and she was like, if you have not listened to her, you 106 00:06:50,280 --> 00:06:52,920 have got to go listen to her. And I kept putting it off, kept 107 00:06:52,920 --> 00:06:54,760 putting it off. I'm like, whatever, send me the 108 00:06:54,760 --> 00:06:59,680 video and I'll watch it. And so she sends me this video 109 00:06:59,840 --> 00:07:03,520 and every day, every few days, something like she's like, did 110 00:07:03,520 --> 00:07:04,880 you watch it yet? Did you watch it yet? 111 00:07:05,400 --> 00:07:07,120 And I'm like, no, I've been busy. 112 00:07:07,120 --> 00:07:11,360 I'll do it, you know, whenever. And so finally a few weeks 113 00:07:11,360 --> 00:07:16,760 later, I watch it. And it was just a perfect moment 114 00:07:16,760 --> 00:07:19,120 to watch it. I have been praying about 115 00:07:19,120 --> 00:07:23,600 certain things and she was preaching out a job and, and I 116 00:07:23,600 --> 00:07:28,520 just threw out a fleece about things and it was just, it just 117 00:07:28,520 --> 00:07:31,080 all flowed together And I was like, This is why I haven't 118 00:07:31,080 --> 00:07:34,560 watched it up until now because this is the time I was supposed 119 00:07:34,560 --> 00:07:36,600 to watch it. And I've also done that with 120 00:07:36,600 --> 00:07:40,440 books too. I'm not a big reader, but I will 121 00:07:40,440 --> 00:07:43,200 read like spiritual books and stuff. 122 00:07:44,120 --> 00:07:47,680 And so there was this one book that I just couldn't pick up. 123 00:07:47,680 --> 00:07:50,640 Like, I mean, I started it and then I put it down one day and I 124 00:07:50,640 --> 00:07:54,120 never picked it back up. And then I kept trying and I'd 125 00:07:54,120 --> 00:07:56,560 be like, ah, and then finally one day I picked it up and it 126 00:07:56,560 --> 00:08:00,160 clicked. Like I got to, I got to the part 127 00:08:00,160 --> 00:08:04,920 where it needed to, you know, speak to me at that point. 128 00:08:04,920 --> 00:08:07,640 And it did and it was great. And then I've done that with 129 00:08:07,640 --> 00:08:09,880 other books too, but it was the same thing. 130 00:08:09,880 --> 00:08:15,160 Like I watched that episode or I watched that message from Lisa 131 00:08:15,160 --> 00:08:17,960 Harper the day that I needed to watch it. 132 00:08:19,080 --> 00:08:22,640 So she was there and I love her. Ever since I watched her 133 00:08:22,640 --> 00:08:26,760 testimony and all that, it's just been I've it's she's just 134 00:08:26,760 --> 00:08:29,720 great. And Catherine Wolf, just amazing 135 00:08:29,720 --> 00:08:33,960 story, amazing testimony. And of course, Sadie just just 136 00:08:33,960 --> 00:08:37,200 kills it every time. So it was a great weekend. 137 00:08:37,280 --> 00:08:44,200 So I go into the podcasting and media breakout session and I'm 138 00:08:44,200 --> 00:08:46,640 talking about this thing is packed. 139 00:08:47,520 --> 00:08:52,640 It is packed with young girls around the age of like 17 all 140 00:08:52,640 --> 00:08:57,600 the way up. I mean, just people everywhere. 141 00:08:57,600 --> 00:09:00,640 There wasn't even enough chairs. People were on the like sitting 142 00:09:00,640 --> 00:09:04,280 on the floor around the walls, Like people were everywhere in 143 00:09:04,280 --> 00:09:07,200 this room. And so I'm like, Oh my gosh, 144 00:09:07,800 --> 00:09:13,040 like I'm not original at all. And really I've watched on 145 00:09:13,040 --> 00:09:16,040 TikTok that like half the thoughts that I have, like other 146 00:09:16,040 --> 00:09:20,120 people have it too. But you know, I was just, I was 147 00:09:20,120 --> 00:09:23,600 starting to get my feelings about it. 148 00:09:23,640 --> 00:09:26,000 I was kind of like, what am I even doing in here? 149 00:09:26,360 --> 00:09:28,960 Because at this point, I already am. 150 00:09:28,960 --> 00:09:32,040 I have started the podcast. And so now I'm like, Oh my gosh, 151 00:09:32,040 --> 00:09:34,880 This is why I signed up for this class is because of the podcast. 152 00:09:34,880 --> 00:09:38,000 But then I look around the room and I'm like, are all of these 153 00:09:38,000 --> 00:09:41,680 people podcasters? Are all of these girls pursuing 154 00:09:41,680 --> 00:09:44,800 the same thing as me? I'm wasting my time. 155 00:09:44,800 --> 00:09:47,520 If that's the case. I really am wasting my time if 156 00:09:47,520 --> 00:09:51,240 every single girl like this is this is a over saturated market. 157 00:09:51,240 --> 00:09:55,160 You know, I'm a business major. So I kind of like think the 158 00:09:55,160 --> 00:09:57,280 logistics and you know, stuff like that. 159 00:09:57,280 --> 00:10:04,120 So I'm just like, Oh no, but the enemy, my flesh, like my flesh 160 00:10:04,120 --> 00:10:07,080 is winning at this point. The enemy's getting in my head. 161 00:10:07,080 --> 00:10:14,200 It's just, it's just crazy. So anyway, about four or five 162 00:10:14,200 --> 00:10:18,120 girls walk up and one of them, you know, she's she's the one 163 00:10:18,120 --> 00:10:21,760 that's running the session. And then there's four girls and 164 00:10:21,760 --> 00:10:24,400 one's Maddie Pruitt, you know, from The Bachelorette. 165 00:10:24,400 --> 00:10:30,960 And she has Stay True podcast. And then the girls from Girls 166 00:10:30,960 --> 00:10:34,360 Gone Bible. And then another girl that she 167 00:10:34,360 --> 00:10:37,120 had a podcast, I guess, with her husband for six years. 168 00:10:37,120 --> 00:10:40,160 And she's now rebranding and making a whole new podcast. 169 00:10:40,160 --> 00:10:45,880 And so I'm like, OK, let's get this thing started. 170 00:10:45,880 --> 00:10:48,320 Let's, you know, let's just hear what they got to say at this 171 00:10:48,320 --> 00:10:50,480 point, like whatever, I'm just feeling down. 172 00:10:51,160 --> 00:10:55,360 And so they start right off the RIP about how they got started. 173 00:10:55,360 --> 00:11:00,120 And instantly I'm like, I'm supposed to be here. 174 00:11:00,680 --> 00:11:03,760 I know that I'm supposed to be here. 175 00:11:05,160 --> 00:11:08,240 So Girls Gone Bible, they start discussing about how, you know, 176 00:11:08,240 --> 00:11:12,560 one of them had grown up Catholic and then one girl had 177 00:11:12,560 --> 00:11:16,120 just came to her faith and just came to know God. 178 00:11:16,120 --> 00:11:21,080 Like she didn't have that background of church or anything 179 00:11:21,080 --> 00:11:25,480 at all. And so she was just not very 180 00:11:25,480 --> 00:11:28,040 confident going into it because she was like, I just don't know 181 00:11:28,040 --> 00:11:29,520 what I'm going to say or whatever. 182 00:11:30,600 --> 00:11:35,280 And as that went on, they just kept talking and I'm like, wow, 183 00:11:35,280 --> 00:11:39,280 that sounds so much like me. Yes, I was raised in church and 184 00:11:39,280 --> 00:11:43,960 I have been going to church and I, I've prayed my whole life, 185 00:11:43,960 --> 00:11:47,840 but I've really only surrendered for the last year and a half 186 00:11:47,840 --> 00:11:50,520 really. So I've just always feel under 187 00:11:50,520 --> 00:11:53,160 qualified, like I just don't know enough. 188 00:11:53,360 --> 00:11:56,440 I don't, I don't, I don't know what I'm going to say. 189 00:11:56,440 --> 00:11:57,560 I don't know what I'm going to do. 190 00:11:57,560 --> 00:12:01,920 I, I just always feel like I'm not, you know, qualified. 191 00:12:02,840 --> 00:12:07,360 They kind of were saying the same things and they were saying 192 00:12:08,360 --> 00:12:13,480 about how Maddie started her podcast and she was saying that 193 00:12:13,480 --> 00:12:18,040 she was praying about it for two years prior before she started 194 00:12:18,040 --> 00:12:22,440 her podcast and how she had a prayer room and how she turned 195 00:12:22,440 --> 00:12:25,240 that prayer room into her podcast room. 196 00:12:25,760 --> 00:12:30,920 And so that kind of sparked my idea to make this space in my 197 00:12:30,920 --> 00:12:39,520 house that we never use into my studio and just things just kept 198 00:12:39,520 --> 00:12:43,600 being said over and over again. And then they did ask, they said 199 00:12:43,600 --> 00:12:50,000 who feels called, you know, to media and influencing and 200 00:12:50,000 --> 00:12:52,120 podcasting, like, who feels called? 201 00:12:52,120 --> 00:12:55,400 And I did raise my hand, and there really wasn't as many 202 00:12:55,400 --> 00:12:57,360 girls raise their hand as I thought there were. 203 00:12:57,360 --> 00:13:01,320 There were a lot, but there wasn't as many. 204 00:13:01,640 --> 00:13:05,800 And so one of the girls spoke up and she said, yes, look around 205 00:13:05,800 --> 00:13:08,040 the room. There are a lot of people that 206 00:13:08,040 --> 00:13:11,600 feel called to this. But your story is different. 207 00:13:11,720 --> 00:13:14,320 You're going to reach different people than the girl sitting 208 00:13:14,320 --> 00:13:17,840 beside you. And I said, oh, my God, that 209 00:13:17,840 --> 00:13:22,120 just answered me again. I'm like, OK, OK, OK, OK. 210 00:13:22,120 --> 00:13:23,040 I got it. I got it. 211 00:13:23,640 --> 00:13:30,600 So then the Girls Gone Bible, they were talking about how 212 00:13:31,400 --> 00:13:34,480 their first 3 episodes were pretty easy, right? 213 00:13:34,560 --> 00:13:38,320 You know, they came out the gate saying we're going to do our 214 00:13:38,320 --> 00:13:41,480 testimony, we're going to talk about, you know, our past. 215 00:13:41,480 --> 00:13:43,760 We're going to do all this stuff and boom, boom, boom 216 00:13:43,760 --> 00:13:45,560 relationships. We're going to hit all that. 217 00:13:46,160 --> 00:13:51,120 And then after that, they're like, what do you talk about 218 00:13:51,120 --> 00:13:54,000 after that? And you know, I had already had 219 00:13:54,000 --> 00:13:56,760 this question too, because I'm like, yeah, I got a great 220 00:13:56,760 --> 00:13:59,400 testimony. My mom has a great testimony. 221 00:13:59,800 --> 00:14:04,960 I can talk about certain things in my life, but how, what am I 222 00:14:04,960 --> 00:14:08,560 going to talk about after that? That's what concerns me. 223 00:14:08,600 --> 00:14:12,080 And she said she had the same thought. 224 00:14:12,600 --> 00:14:15,400 And I said, OK, what's your answer then? 225 00:14:15,680 --> 00:14:19,640 You know, like where what? How do I? 226 00:14:20,640 --> 00:14:23,480 Because I looked and she had hundreds. 227 00:14:23,920 --> 00:14:26,320 Girls Gone Bible has hundreds of episodes. 228 00:14:26,600 --> 00:14:30,080 So I'm like, if you were worried at the beginning, you figured it 229 00:14:30,080 --> 00:14:34,640 out. And she said that she started 230 00:14:35,400 --> 00:14:40,920 praying and fasting and she would fast one day a week for 231 00:14:40,920 --> 00:14:44,320 God to reveal things to her for them to talk about on the 232 00:14:44,320 --> 00:14:48,480 podcast. I'm like, wow, that's good, 233 00:14:48,480 --> 00:14:50,920 girl, because I love a good fast. 234 00:14:50,920 --> 00:14:53,000 I love people that talk about fasting. 235 00:14:53,000 --> 00:14:54,880 I don't think we talk about it enough. 236 00:14:55,640 --> 00:15:02,760 And so I said, OK, so I see God and what he reveals to me, I'll 237 00:15:02,760 --> 00:15:04,720 talk about on the podcast. Simple enough, right? 238 00:15:06,120 --> 00:15:10,720 Well, you know, we're only on Episode 3, so we'll see next 239 00:15:10,720 --> 00:15:12,720 week. OK, We'll see next week. 240 00:15:13,600 --> 00:15:20,600 And so anyway, it was just she said all this and then Maddie 241 00:15:20,600 --> 00:15:24,160 Pruitt, which I think she's married now and she has a 242 00:15:24,160 --> 00:15:26,280 different last name, but I can't think of it off the top of my 243 00:15:26,280 --> 00:15:28,040 head. I think it's Maddie Pruitt 244 00:15:28,040 --> 00:15:34,240 Trout. She said this and it really hit 245 00:15:34,240 --> 00:15:39,480 home and they kept reiterating this throughout the conference 246 00:15:39,480 --> 00:15:43,840 too. And they said God will not give 247 00:15:43,840 --> 00:15:49,640 you a platform in public if you're not seeking him in 248 00:15:49,640 --> 00:15:59,480 private. We OK, Lord, OK Lord. 249 00:16:00,240 --> 00:16:02,920 And that really just stuck with me. 250 00:16:02,960 --> 00:16:08,520 I said, I'm really, you know, I do my quiet time and I do all 251 00:16:08,520 --> 00:16:11,320 this little stuff, but am I seeking him enough? 252 00:16:11,680 --> 00:16:14,960 I don't necessarily say I want a platform, you know, because that 253 00:16:14,960 --> 00:16:18,320 was another thing that they talked about and I'm like, well, 254 00:16:18,320 --> 00:16:22,360 my views are good right now. Am I going to keep them or am I 255 00:16:22,360 --> 00:16:26,200 going to be able to grow this? What if it, what if it fails? 256 00:16:26,200 --> 00:16:28,760 You know, like what if I only get like one or two views? 257 00:16:29,920 --> 00:16:33,880 And they talked about that. They talked about that. 258 00:16:34,400 --> 00:16:42,840 They said if you get 2 views versus 200,000 views, you're 259 00:16:42,840 --> 00:16:46,480 still spreading God's word, you're still spreading his 260 00:16:46,480 --> 00:16:51,400 goodness, you are still being bold and courageous in your 261 00:16:51,400 --> 00:17:00,880 faith. And I'm like OK girlies let's do 262 00:17:00,880 --> 00:17:05,280 this thing then you know what y'all just sparked a bigger fire 263 00:17:05,280 --> 00:17:09,240 in me and I'm ready to get home and I'm going to make my my own 264 00:17:09,240 --> 00:17:11,560 studio. I'm going to paint this room. 265 00:17:11,800 --> 00:17:15,160 I'm going to pray in this room. I'm going to beg God to come 266 00:17:15,160 --> 00:17:17,800 make his presence known in this room. 267 00:17:18,119 --> 00:17:27,160 I am going to give it all I got. And so I come home and I do the 268 00:17:27,160 --> 00:17:31,880 just that I drove from Louis or I didn't drive because if 269 00:17:31,880 --> 00:17:34,280 Michelle and Tanya are listening, thank you for driving 270 00:17:34,280 --> 00:17:38,640 home that night because we left after the service and we drove 271 00:17:38,640 --> 00:17:41,440 through the night. I slept, they drove. 272 00:17:41,840 --> 00:17:48,200 But anyway, thank you. So the next day I slept half the 273 00:17:48,200 --> 00:17:51,720 day and then because we didn't go home till about 7:00 or 8:00, 274 00:17:52,640 --> 00:17:55,560 I slept the whole day. And I'm laying on the couch 275 00:17:55,920 --> 00:18:02,560 again, and I said, I'm not going to paint the upstairs area. 276 00:18:03,840 --> 00:18:07,200 This was the only room in our house really that hadn't been 277 00:18:07,200 --> 00:18:10,520 painted yet. And I'm not doing it. 278 00:18:10,600 --> 00:18:14,840 But I am going to go tape the room off. 279 00:18:15,080 --> 00:18:17,040 I'm going to tape it. I've never taped. 280 00:18:17,520 --> 00:18:20,000 If I've painted, my husband gets mad at me. 281 00:18:20,160 --> 00:18:23,120 He says don't do it again because you make a mess. 282 00:18:23,320 --> 00:18:25,920 You get all over the ceilings, you get all over the baseboard, 283 00:18:25,920 --> 00:18:27,920 you make a mess. You're not a painter. 284 00:18:28,240 --> 00:18:30,480 And I said I'm going, I'm going to do better this time. 285 00:18:30,880 --> 00:18:34,960 I got patience. I got more patience now than I 286 00:18:34,960 --> 00:18:40,720 did the last time I painted five years ago because God has helped 287 00:18:40,720 --> 00:18:43,240 my patience. I'm just not great at patience. 288 00:18:43,560 --> 00:18:47,800 So I come up here and I start painting off the whole room, 289 00:18:47,800 --> 00:18:51,840 right? And I finish it and I'm like, 290 00:18:51,960 --> 00:18:55,560 OK, that ain't bad. I look at the clock and it's 291 00:18:55,560 --> 00:19:01,560 only like 530 on Sunday. And I'm like, OK, OK, OK, I'm 292 00:19:01,560 --> 00:19:04,960 going to paint it. And I said I wasn't going to get 293 00:19:04,960 --> 00:19:09,200 in a hurry about this podcast room because I want to. 294 00:19:09,200 --> 00:19:10,600 I want to make sure it's done right. 295 00:19:10,640 --> 00:19:12,280 I want to make sure it looks nice. 296 00:19:12,280 --> 00:19:16,280 I don't want to just settle and I want to do things right. 297 00:19:17,800 --> 00:19:21,840 Well, I didn't start painting and I finished that night and I 298 00:19:21,840 --> 00:19:24,160 only got a few spots on the ceiling. 299 00:19:24,760 --> 00:19:28,520 And thank you to my husband Greg, because he already fixed 300 00:19:28,520 --> 00:19:30,400 them. He already fixed the spots. 301 00:19:30,400 --> 00:19:32,800 And he said that I did a better job this time. 302 00:19:33,720 --> 00:19:39,280 So anyway, I finished this. The next day I start painting, 303 00:19:39,280 --> 00:19:45,600 you know, the bathroom area in here and I'm like yay, a clean 304 00:19:45,600 --> 00:19:48,520 slate. I have a clean slate to really 305 00:19:48,520 --> 00:19:50,360 make this room into what I want it to be. 306 00:19:52,000 --> 00:19:55,760 I run out and go shopping and I try to find all this stuff, like 307 00:19:55,760 --> 00:19:59,400 I got this image in my head and I'm like, I can make that 308 00:19:59,400 --> 00:20:00,880 happen. I just got to go find stuff like 309 00:20:00,880 --> 00:20:05,480 whatever. And I go in and I find a few 310 00:20:05,480 --> 00:20:08,440 little things, not anything crazy. 311 00:20:08,960 --> 00:20:12,960 I'm really disappointed. And typically when I do a 312 00:20:12,960 --> 00:20:16,600 project like this or I am decorating or something like 313 00:20:16,600 --> 00:20:22,240 that, I will just buy anything at that point to finish the room 314 00:20:22,360 --> 00:20:24,440 because like I said, I'm a check mark person. 315 00:20:24,520 --> 00:20:27,800 I want to check the box. I want to finish the whole 316 00:20:27,800 --> 00:20:29,040 thing. So I ain't got to think about it 317 00:20:29,040 --> 00:20:32,480 no more because what I, what I will buy and put in here, it's 318 00:20:32,480 --> 00:20:35,280 better than what it was. It might not be exactly what I 319 00:20:35,280 --> 00:20:37,320 want, but it's better than it was. 320 00:20:39,000 --> 00:20:42,560 And so I told myself I wasn't doing that this time. 321 00:20:42,760 --> 00:20:45,320 I didn't really find anything I really love. 322 00:20:45,320 --> 00:20:49,120 So I left and I went home. Actually, I think I did buy 323 00:20:49,120 --> 00:20:53,880 these pillows that day because I knew I wanted a pink groom, but 324 00:20:54,800 --> 00:20:56,680 I ended up leaving. I went home. 325 00:20:56,960 --> 00:21:00,040 I said, you know what? I'm not rushing anything I said, 326 00:21:00,040 --> 00:21:02,440 but I am going to go ahead and buy that couch I saw. 327 00:21:02,880 --> 00:21:06,520 So I did do that and I bought my coffee table. 328 00:21:06,680 --> 00:21:09,280 But hey, hey, hey, I didn't buy everything that day. 329 00:21:09,360 --> 00:21:14,360 I didn't buy everything. So, you know, I went to the same 330 00:21:14,360 --> 00:21:17,400 stores. I always go to Hobby Lobby, got 331 00:21:17,400 --> 00:21:21,080 to head up Hobby Lobby, HomeGoods at home. 332 00:21:21,720 --> 00:21:24,560 I used to hit up Kirkland's, but our Kirkland's and Warner Robins 333 00:21:24,560 --> 00:21:27,960 closed, had already went and looked at all these places, 334 00:21:28,040 --> 00:21:32,000 couldn't find anything. And I started getting 335 00:21:32,000 --> 00:21:36,960 discouraged and whatever else. And so I prayed about it. 336 00:21:36,960 --> 00:21:42,320 And you know, I felt like God was saying just chill, just 337 00:21:42,520 --> 00:21:45,160 chill. You haven't even asked Pastor 338 00:21:45,160 --> 00:21:49,520 Jim, our youth pastor, if you can take the podcast stuff home. 339 00:21:49,840 --> 00:21:53,640 Well, Jim was sick. He was sick. 340 00:21:53,680 --> 00:21:59,440 And I'm like, should I call him? Like, I know I'm just kidding. 341 00:21:59,680 --> 00:22:01,680 I wasn't going to call him. He's sick. 342 00:22:01,680 --> 00:22:04,040 He don't want to deal with me. And if he's sick and if he's at 343 00:22:04,040 --> 00:22:05,840 home and he can come to work, you know, he's sick. 344 00:22:06,640 --> 00:22:12,680 So I just sat, you know, I found a few things here and there, but 345 00:22:12,680 --> 00:22:14,880 I didn't try to finish the room all together. 346 00:22:15,400 --> 00:22:20,440 And so Wednesday of this week, it's today's Friday. 347 00:22:20,440 --> 00:22:25,320 But on Wednesday I woke up, I prayed about it. 348 00:22:25,320 --> 00:22:29,120 I said, Lord, let today be the day that Jim's at work and let 349 00:22:29,120 --> 00:22:35,720 me have the perfect opportunity to talk to him and be able to 350 00:22:35,720 --> 00:22:40,240 just speak to me and through me. Go before me, Lord, You know, no 351 00:22:40,240 --> 00:22:44,640 matter if it's me buying the equipment from him, borrowing 352 00:22:44,640 --> 00:22:48,640 the equipment from him or whatever, just let me be able to 353 00:22:48,640 --> 00:22:51,800 leave with it today. Just let me be able to leave 354 00:22:51,800 --> 00:22:57,160 with it today. And I pull up and it's like 8:00 355 00:22:57,160 --> 00:22:59,520 at this point. Like some of the other staff 356 00:22:59,520 --> 00:23:01,800 members aren't there because we were going to a conference the 357 00:23:01,800 --> 00:23:05,040 next day, so they were coming in later and I was able to go in 358 00:23:05,040 --> 00:23:07,800 and talk to him and just like really tell him about what my 359 00:23:07,800 --> 00:23:10,880 vision was and what I wanted and all this. 360 00:23:10,880 --> 00:23:14,520 And he said he agreed. He gave me the green light and 361 00:23:14,520 --> 00:23:20,600 I'm like, OK, cool. So I leave. 362 00:23:21,240 --> 00:23:23,760 I went right on back to HomeGoods. 363 00:23:24,040 --> 00:23:26,280 I went right on back to Michael's. 364 00:23:26,800 --> 00:23:29,400 I don't even know what I went to Michael's for, but I went right 365 00:23:29,400 --> 00:23:32,840 on back to at Home. OK, I had already went to At 366 00:23:32,840 --> 00:23:38,360 Home either Monday or Tuesday and was shopping and looking 367 00:23:38,360 --> 00:23:41,040 around and trying to find stuff. Couldn't find a thing. 368 00:23:41,680 --> 00:23:45,440 Could not find a thing. Went down all the same aisles. 369 00:23:46,120 --> 00:23:51,560 But today, Wednesday, I was feeling that buggy up. 370 00:23:51,880 --> 00:23:54,720 And it was not like I was just filling it up with stuff that I 371 00:23:54,720 --> 00:23:57,400 really didn't want. I was filling it up with stuff 372 00:23:57,400 --> 00:24:02,000 that exactly matched the image that I had in my head. 373 00:24:02,840 --> 00:24:07,960 I found pictures for my bathroom that were 75% off. 374 00:24:09,080 --> 00:24:12,520 I found other pictures for like 50% off. 375 00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:15,720 I found these faces. I found some flowers. 376 00:24:15,720 --> 00:24:18,040 I found like just all kinds of stuff. 377 00:24:18,040 --> 00:24:20,760 Y'all racked it up. I'm talking about my book is 378 00:24:21,040 --> 00:24:23,200 full. I get to the register. 379 00:24:23,760 --> 00:24:28,880 OK, here's another thing. I also only took in $140 for 380 00:24:28,880 --> 00:24:32,440 $150.00 something like that in cash. 381 00:24:32,920 --> 00:24:35,560 And I was like, I just really want to spend on cash. 382 00:24:35,560 --> 00:24:39,320 Like I really don't want to use my card, like whatever it was 383 00:24:39,320 --> 00:24:44,880 $146, all of the stuff that I needed to really complete the 384 00:24:44,880 --> 00:24:47,800 room with the decor and stuff, 146 dollars. 385 00:24:49,600 --> 00:24:54,160 Nice. So it was just it. 386 00:24:54,600 --> 00:25:01,160 So all that goes to say that if you are in God's will, if you 387 00:25:01,160 --> 00:25:06,000 are doing and you are seeking God and you really are seeking 388 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:13,440 the Kingdom and just trying to get in line with God, doors fly 389 00:25:13,800 --> 00:25:19,440 open, things happen that you cannot even explain. 390 00:25:21,320 --> 00:25:31,000 Just it's not a fight. It is not a a hassle is nothing. 391 00:25:31,440 --> 00:25:36,640 If you are truly seeking God and you are seeking his will and you 392 00:25:36,640 --> 00:25:41,880 are doing what he is calling you to do, things will just happen. 393 00:25:42,800 --> 00:25:50,680 Miracles happen because never once did I think, hey, I'm about 394 00:25:50,680 --> 00:25:56,240 to start a podcast and never once did I actually believe like 395 00:25:56,280 --> 00:25:58,920 this room was going to be as beautiful as it is. 396 00:25:59,600 --> 00:26:01,880 I had no idea what was going to come from this. 397 00:26:01,880 --> 00:26:06,520 And now I'm like, well, what else we got in store? 398 00:26:06,520 --> 00:26:11,400 God, Like what else you got up your sleeve? 399 00:26:11,480 --> 00:26:17,600 You know, it was incredible. It was truly incredible to watch 400 00:26:18,200 --> 00:26:22,200 Sisters of Faith Blue. OK, so I remember as a young 401 00:26:22,200 --> 00:26:25,080 girl, my mom talked about a transition home. 402 00:26:25,320 --> 00:26:28,000 I remember, you know, while she was at the Potter's house, she 403 00:26:28,000 --> 00:26:31,800 talked about a transition home. It was such a blessing to watch 404 00:26:31,920 --> 00:26:37,080 my mom's dream and vision that God had given her come to life. 405 00:26:37,520 --> 00:26:41,560 It was absolutely incredible to be a part of that and to still 406 00:26:41,560 --> 00:26:44,160 be a part of that, like, you know, still be able to do all 407 00:26:44,160 --> 00:26:45,360 that stuff with Sisters of Faith. 408 00:26:46,320 --> 00:26:51,040 But it was my mom's. It was my mom's calling. 409 00:26:52,040 --> 00:26:53,840 Yeah. It was my calling to help. 410 00:26:53,840 --> 00:26:58,440 And yeah, God, you know, he planned for us to work together 411 00:26:58,440 --> 00:27:01,840 and do this and everything else. But that was my mom's calling. 412 00:27:02,400 --> 00:27:10,240 And so now that I'm stepping into a more, I've gotten out of 413 00:27:10,240 --> 00:27:13,160 the umbrella. This is the best way to explain 414 00:27:13,160 --> 00:27:15,880 it to me. Now that I have gotten out from 415 00:27:15,880 --> 00:27:22,080 underneath her umbrella of faith and got my own umbrella of 416 00:27:22,080 --> 00:27:28,600 faith, I can now see like where all you know he's leading me to 417 00:27:28,600 --> 00:27:31,920 go. Like I just have a clearer view 418 00:27:32,440 --> 00:27:38,680 of you know what, where to go. I'm not, I just don't feel lost 419 00:27:38,680 --> 00:27:40,920 anymore. I think I mentioned this in the 420 00:27:40,920 --> 00:27:45,240 last video, but if things don't go the way that I foresee them 421 00:27:45,240 --> 00:27:49,360 or I was planning for them to go, like I don't really get all 422 00:27:49,360 --> 00:27:51,960 bent out of shape about it anymore because I know that God 423 00:27:51,960 --> 00:27:57,520 has a bigger plan for me. So I have spoke about many of 424 00:27:57,520 --> 00:27:59,520 the plans already that he has for me. 425 00:27:59,840 --> 00:28:04,280 But here is another one that's been happening over the last 426 00:28:04,280 --> 00:28:08,320 year and a half. And it's one of those things 427 00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:12,600 where it just everything starts to line up the way it's supposed 428 00:28:12,600 --> 00:28:14,800 to be. Like, this didn't work because 429 00:28:14,800 --> 00:28:16,560 this was supposed to happen and so forth. 430 00:28:17,160 --> 00:28:20,880 And so when we came back from ignition camp, I had mentioned 431 00:28:20,880 --> 00:28:23,360 to my mom, like, I really want to work at the church. 432 00:28:24,000 --> 00:28:29,440 I want to work at the church and I want to have more of a like 433 00:28:29,520 --> 00:28:33,680 legit role and everything else. Then I'm talking to one of the 434 00:28:34,240 --> 00:28:39,440 pastor administrators and she also does the data and 435 00:28:39,440 --> 00:28:42,600 everything else. And so I was like talking to her 436 00:28:42,680 --> 00:28:44,280 and she's like, yeah, I'm about to leave. 437 00:28:44,280 --> 00:28:45,760 You know, all this. We're moving. 438 00:28:46,040 --> 00:28:49,560 I said moving. You know, she's just telling me 439 00:28:49,560 --> 00:28:53,160 wherever she's Melody's listening to this. 440 00:28:53,160 --> 00:28:55,800 I'm so sorry. But she's telling me what all 441 00:28:55,800 --> 00:28:58,240 their plans are about how they're going to go here and do 442 00:28:58,240 --> 00:29:00,280 this and then they're going to move there and blah, blah, blah, 443 00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:03,200 blah. I zoned out. 444 00:29:04,800 --> 00:29:09,040 I didn't hear anything after I heard her jobs available, her 445 00:29:09,040 --> 00:29:11,200 jobs available, her jobs available. 446 00:29:11,520 --> 00:29:15,160 And this is weeks after, right? This is just probably like a two 447 00:29:15,160 --> 00:29:21,080 week period. And so instantly I text like the 448 00:29:21,080 --> 00:29:25,680 next day, I think I text our head pastor and I was, and I'm 449 00:29:25,680 --> 00:29:27,440 like, hey, can I meet with you today? 450 00:29:27,440 --> 00:29:31,520 Like, And so I go in there and we're just talking. 451 00:29:31,520 --> 00:29:34,800 And he said, you know, like he's seen a change in me. 452 00:29:34,800 --> 00:29:40,200 And, you know, all this, he was like, I'll talk to, you know, 453 00:29:40,480 --> 00:29:45,440 the pastor that she works with and we'll see what he says. 454 00:29:46,640 --> 00:29:48,800 And so I was like, OK, sounds good. 455 00:29:50,040 --> 00:29:52,760 And I kept praying. I'm like God, you know, if it's 456 00:29:52,760 --> 00:29:55,800 not for me, don't even let them mention it to me. 457 00:29:56,200 --> 00:29:58,760 I said don't even let them mention it to me. 458 00:29:58,760 --> 00:30:03,440 Now, Needless to say, I have already been working up there 459 00:30:03,440 --> 00:30:05,960 like a little bit here and there, but not really like 460 00:30:05,960 --> 00:30:08,760 something that's permanent, that's full time, like whatever. 461 00:30:09,360 --> 00:30:14,440 And so they're going to see me like you, they would probably 462 00:30:14,440 --> 00:30:19,320 say something like whatever. Well, I never heard back. 463 00:30:19,760 --> 00:30:22,320 Perfect. God, thank you. 464 00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:26,800 Because at that point I knew that if they told me about the 465 00:30:26,800 --> 00:30:29,840 position, I would have been like, Yep, I'm taking it. 466 00:30:29,840 --> 00:30:33,080 And it might have not even been for me, you know, like so I just 467 00:30:33,080 --> 00:30:36,640 prayed like, please don't let them tell me about it or talk to 468 00:30:36,640 --> 00:30:38,640 me anymore about it unless it's for me. 469 00:30:38,760 --> 00:30:43,160 So that never came up. OK, So then I, you know, I just 470 00:30:43,160 --> 00:30:45,160 kept chugging along, chugging along, chugging along. 471 00:30:45,160 --> 00:30:53,480 Months later or communications director was leaving and I'm 472 00:30:53,680 --> 00:31:01,520 like, that is the job for me. I said that's why I didn't get 473 00:31:01,520 --> 00:31:06,440 that job with Mel, that I didn't get Melody's position because 474 00:31:06,440 --> 00:31:08,360 I'm supposed to get Deborah's position. 475 00:31:09,160 --> 00:31:11,120 That's what it is. Thank you, God. 476 00:31:11,120 --> 00:31:12,920 Thank you, God. So what do I do? 477 00:31:14,200 --> 00:31:17,240 Hey, Pastor Matt, can I come meet with you? 478 00:31:17,240 --> 00:31:21,440 You know, he's like, here we go. So I'm just kidding. 479 00:31:21,440 --> 00:31:25,600 He, he, he, he's not like that. So anyway, I go in there and 480 00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:29,760 we're talking and he's like, you know, basically telling me the 481 00:31:29,760 --> 00:31:31,360 same thing. He was like, even from the first 482 00:31:31,360 --> 00:31:34,560 meeting, like I've seen you just grow so much in your faith and 483 00:31:34,560 --> 00:31:36,880 you just really came out of your shell and all this stuff. 484 00:31:36,880 --> 00:31:40,480 And so, you know, he was like, I'm, I'm going to have to pray 485 00:31:40,480 --> 00:31:42,480 about it. I'm going to have to talk to our 486 00:31:42,480 --> 00:31:45,480 senior leadership team and figure out what we're going to 487 00:31:45,480 --> 00:31:48,080 do because we've had a few options of what we're going to 488 00:31:48,080 --> 00:31:50,400 do. And I didn't really know exactly 489 00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:54,760 what that meant. So I'm, like, praying about it 490 00:31:54,760 --> 00:31:56,600 constant, like, for the next week. 491 00:31:56,600 --> 00:31:58,360 And he was like, I'll let you know something next week. 492 00:31:58,560 --> 00:32:06,560 I'm like, OK. And so I'm just like, down bad, 493 00:32:06,680 --> 00:32:10,640 OK, I'm down bad. I'm like, I know it's for me, 494 00:32:10,760 --> 00:32:13,120 but I'm gonna be down bad about it, like, all this stuff. 495 00:32:13,480 --> 00:32:18,040 And so Monday rolls around, and he sees me in the hallway, and 496 00:32:18,040 --> 00:32:21,480 we're talking. He's like, hey, you know, we're 497 00:32:21,480 --> 00:32:24,640 going to let you do something. I, I can't remember what it was, 498 00:32:24,640 --> 00:32:28,160 but I ended up just becoming our social media manager. 499 00:32:28,160 --> 00:32:33,600 I did not get the whole position of the communications director. 500 00:32:33,760 --> 00:32:38,400 And so I remember going to my first meeting with the 501 00:32:38,400 --> 00:32:43,720 communications director because we worked hand in hand and I was 502 00:32:43,720 --> 00:32:48,880 a little upset and he was already on our on our staff. 503 00:32:48,880 --> 00:32:52,960 And so like they kind of gave the position more towards him 504 00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:55,880 and incorporated different things and whatever else. 505 00:32:56,160 --> 00:32:59,040 And so, you know, he was like, I don't want there to be any hard 506 00:32:59,040 --> 00:33:00,880 feelings. Like, you know, whatever. 507 00:33:01,400 --> 00:33:04,840 I was hurt. OK, I was hurt. 508 00:33:05,120 --> 00:33:09,840 But I've always lived by this motto of if you say no, you 509 00:33:09,840 --> 00:33:13,000 never get asked again. That's in friendships. 510 00:33:13,000 --> 00:33:15,640 That's in all kind of things. Like if somebody asks you to 511 00:33:15,640 --> 00:33:18,400 hang out and you say no, most of the time, you don't get invited 512 00:33:18,400 --> 00:33:22,600 again. And so I knew that I couldn't 513 00:33:22,600 --> 00:33:28,920 say no to the social media part, because if I did, you know, I 514 00:33:28,920 --> 00:33:33,160 probably wouldn't get something down the road anyway. 515 00:33:33,520 --> 00:33:36,800 Time goes by and I'm still kind of discouraged about it. 516 00:33:36,800 --> 00:33:39,160 But you know what? Let me do the best I can. 517 00:33:39,280 --> 00:33:41,880 Let me just just give it all I got, honestly. 518 00:33:42,400 --> 00:33:52,120 And as the months went by, I realized how much I love being 519 00:33:52,120 --> 00:33:55,600 creative. That's when that creative spark 520 00:33:55,800 --> 00:33:58,560 started happening. That's when I started realizing, 521 00:33:59,440 --> 00:34:04,800 oh, I know how to make graphics. Then I'm like, OK, well, I 522 00:34:04,800 --> 00:34:08,520 started taking pictures and I'm like, hang on, I love taking 523 00:34:08,520 --> 00:34:10,280 pictures. I have a long way to go. 524 00:34:10,679 --> 00:34:13,239 I can still improve. You know, I've only been taking 525 00:34:13,239 --> 00:34:17,000 pictures for like probably 6-7 months at this point. 526 00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:20,960 But you know, I started learning things that I love to do. 527 00:34:20,960 --> 00:34:23,520 And then I look back and I'm like, OK, if I would have got 528 00:34:23,520 --> 00:34:31,199 Melody's position, I wouldn't have figured out about, you 529 00:34:31,199 --> 00:34:33,920 know, all this other stuff. If I would have got Deborah's 530 00:34:33,920 --> 00:34:38,639 position or you know, the communications position, I 531 00:34:38,679 --> 00:34:40,440 probably wouldn't have started taking photos. 532 00:34:40,440 --> 00:34:41,800 I probably wouldn't have done graphics. 533 00:34:41,800 --> 00:34:43,520 I wouldn't have probably done all this stuff. 534 00:34:44,040 --> 00:34:49,320 And so again, here it is, you know, I'm starting to see how 535 00:34:49,320 --> 00:34:54,600 God's will is unfolding and how all this stuff didn't happen 536 00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:56,840 because it was supposed to lead me up to this. 537 00:34:58,200 --> 00:35:03,120 And I think many times we forget, we forget about that. 538 00:35:03,680 --> 00:35:07,240 We start thinking, Oh my gosh, I just can't get back up. 539 00:35:07,720 --> 00:35:10,200 I'm just getting knocked down. I'm getting knocked down. 540 00:35:10,200 --> 00:35:11,840 I'm getting knocked down, I'm getting knocked down. 541 00:35:12,280 --> 00:35:18,320 Like when am I going to get up? When am I going to be on that 542 00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:23,840 uphill climb? We have to remember that just 543 00:35:23,840 --> 00:35:27,920 because we feel like we're been in this valley and we have been 544 00:35:27,920 --> 00:35:33,640 in this storm for like so long. Like look at how much you've 545 00:35:33,640 --> 00:35:37,760 learned in the valley. I started feeling like that. 546 00:35:37,760 --> 00:35:41,080 I'm like, I'm getting all these Nos, where's the yes? 547 00:35:41,400 --> 00:35:48,240 Where's the yes? And now, like, I understand, I 548 00:35:48,240 --> 00:35:51,200 get it, but at one point I'm upset. 549 00:35:51,200 --> 00:35:56,360 I'm like, what am I going to do? I was in beauty cells, like I've 550 00:35:56,360 --> 00:35:59,400 said, and I was doing that and I was like, you know, I'm ready to 551 00:35:59,400 --> 00:36:02,360 leave. I am ready to leave this 552 00:36:02,360 --> 00:36:05,120 position. But I was always taught you 553 00:36:05,120 --> 00:36:07,120 don't leave a job until you have another job. 554 00:36:07,920 --> 00:36:12,400 And the more I kept seeking God, I just kept feeling him calling 555 00:36:12,400 --> 00:36:15,200 me to step out. He kept, you know, telling me 556 00:36:15,200 --> 00:36:18,880 that he will provide. He kept telling me, you know, 557 00:36:18,880 --> 00:36:22,440 just trust in me and, you know, and I'm going to make things 558 00:36:22,440 --> 00:36:29,320 happen. And finally, I went to a 559 00:36:29,320 --> 00:36:31,600 conference and I might have spoke about this. 560 00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:35,040 I'm not really sure if I did or not, but I went to a conference 561 00:36:35,040 --> 00:36:40,800 and this lady on stage was talking about how she wanted to 562 00:36:40,800 --> 00:36:45,040 go into full time ministry and how she was at a conference and 563 00:36:45,040 --> 00:36:48,080 a lady told her, you know, like what she didn't, it just just 564 00:36:48,080 --> 00:36:53,560 she felt at peace and at ease about it And she she went home 565 00:36:53,560 --> 00:36:55,560 and she told her husband, she said I'm gonna go into full time 566 00:36:55,560 --> 00:36:58,440 ministry. And he like was like crying. 567 00:36:58,440 --> 00:37:01,480 He was like, yes, thank you. I've been praying for you to do 568 00:37:01,480 --> 00:37:06,560 that. And so that instantly in that 569 00:37:06,560 --> 00:37:10,360 moment when she finished speaking, I looked to my mom and 570 00:37:10,360 --> 00:37:13,560 I said, I'm quitting my job on Monday. 571 00:37:13,560 --> 00:37:18,040 And my mom's like what? Like she knew I had been praying 572 00:37:18,040 --> 00:37:21,320 about it and wanting to when trying to figure it out. 573 00:37:21,640 --> 00:37:24,720 I had already told her that I felt like God was calling me to 574 00:37:24,720 --> 00:37:29,000 step out. And so, you know, just, I just 575 00:37:29,000 --> 00:37:32,520 kept reading following days. It was like 3 and four days 576 00:37:32,520 --> 00:37:36,440 after for the next three or four days, he gave me something every 577 00:37:36,440 --> 00:37:39,880 single day. One day I, I'm reading and it 578 00:37:39,880 --> 00:37:42,320 instantly talks about like stepping out in faith. 579 00:37:42,320 --> 00:37:46,200 I think the top of it, the, the top of my devotion that day said 580 00:37:46,520 --> 00:37:49,920 stepping out in faith. And then I really need to go 581 00:37:49,920 --> 00:37:52,440 back and look in that devotion because I bet I can find it. 582 00:37:53,360 --> 00:37:59,360 And so then I move. I'm worried about doing it even 583 00:37:59,360 --> 00:38:01,560 though I've made-up my mind. Like I'm so worried about it. 584 00:38:01,880 --> 00:38:05,640 And I start reading a scripture in the Bible and it says, you 585 00:38:05,640 --> 00:38:13,160 know, go in peace. OK, OK, I'll stop worrying about 586 00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:17,400 it. But it was scary. 587 00:38:17,440 --> 00:38:21,760 You know, I had been in this position for over five years 588 00:38:21,760 --> 00:38:25,640 now. I mean, this was such a good job 589 00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:28,640 and, you know, a career job with benefits and all this stuff. 590 00:38:28,640 --> 00:38:30,720 And, you know, I've made great money. 591 00:38:31,280 --> 00:38:33,520 And so now I'm just going to give it up. 592 00:38:33,520 --> 00:38:37,840 And so I went and talked to one of our directors at the church. 593 00:38:37,840 --> 00:38:41,480 And, you know, I was telling him that I was going to do this and 594 00:38:41,480 --> 00:38:48,160 he said he was giving me example of what he did in his life where 595 00:38:48,160 --> 00:38:51,600 he kept praying for a principled position and it just wouldn't 596 00:38:51,600 --> 00:38:52,560 come up. It wouldn't come up. 597 00:38:52,640 --> 00:38:55,160 It wouldn't come up. I can't exactly remember. 598 00:38:55,160 --> 00:38:56,760 But he kept praying to God about something. 599 00:38:56,760 --> 00:38:59,000 And then he was like, God, show me a rainbow. 600 00:38:59,400 --> 00:39:02,640 Show me a rainbow. And he's telling me this story. 601 00:39:02,640 --> 00:39:05,880 Like as I just told him I was quitting my job and all this 602 00:39:05,880 --> 00:39:08,120 stuff. He's telling me this is what he 603 00:39:08,120 --> 00:39:09,480 did. So he's like, God, show me a 604 00:39:09,480 --> 00:39:13,080 rainbow. Well, he see, he, he walks out 605 00:39:13,080 --> 00:39:16,720 of a store and he sees like four or five cars of all different 606 00:39:16,720 --> 00:39:19,760 colors, like here's a red, a blue, a green, like whatever. 607 00:39:20,120 --> 00:39:23,320 And he's like, Nah, come on, it's Nance. 608 00:39:24,440 --> 00:39:33,240 And so he leaves and he's driving and a rainbow like the 609 00:39:33,240 --> 00:39:36,040 vacuum cleaner. There was a store and it was 610 00:39:36,040 --> 00:39:41,240 like the rainbow store. And he's like, you know, no, So 611 00:39:41,240 --> 00:39:44,920 he pulls up to this gas station or something and he looks and 612 00:39:44,920 --> 00:39:50,080 there's a rainbow painted on the building that he's sitting in 613 00:39:50,080 --> 00:39:51,600 front of. And he's, he just said, you 614 00:39:51,600 --> 00:39:53,800 know, he, it was just so overwhelming. 615 00:39:53,800 --> 00:39:59,760 He was so overwhelmed. And so I thought that was so, 616 00:40:00,520 --> 00:40:05,480 you know, eye opening. That here it is again, you seek 617 00:40:05,480 --> 00:40:10,280 the Lord, you ask God, God to speak to you and show you the 618 00:40:10,280 --> 00:40:13,640 way because He is our light and He God's our path. 619 00:40:13,640 --> 00:40:16,200 So if you ask him, he's going to do it. 620 00:40:16,200 --> 00:40:22,560 He's going to answer you. It might be yes, no, or wait. 621 00:40:22,720 --> 00:40:28,480 He's going to answer. So right before I went into his 622 00:40:28,480 --> 00:40:33,360 office to talk to him about this or whatever, one of my spiritual 623 00:40:33,360 --> 00:40:37,240 leaders sent me a devotion that I had just read, right? 624 00:40:37,240 --> 00:40:42,680 And as soon as he started talking about rainbows, I 625 00:40:42,680 --> 00:40:50,960 literally started crying because in the devotion that Deborah 626 00:40:50,960 --> 00:40:55,440 sent me, it was talking about rainbows. 627 00:40:55,440 --> 00:41:04,360 And so, and like, Eric had like these concerns for me and he 628 00:41:04,360 --> 00:41:07,040 said that he kept calling out to God to show him a rainbow to 629 00:41:07,040 --> 00:41:09,760 quit his job or whatever he was going to do. 630 00:41:09,960 --> 00:41:13,200 And now here we are again. And God's using, you know, 631 00:41:13,560 --> 00:41:20,920 Deborah to tell me, to tell Eric that it's OK for her to quit her 632 00:41:20,920 --> 00:41:22,040 job. You know, like he's not 633 00:41:22,040 --> 00:41:24,120 obviously telling me, no, you can't quit your job like 634 00:41:24,120 --> 00:41:26,720 something like that. But like, he was just like, Are 635 00:41:26,720 --> 00:41:31,320 you sure? Like, and so like, I don't know. 636 00:41:31,320 --> 00:41:35,920 And I even told him I was like, Eric, this is crazy, but I just 637 00:41:35,920 --> 00:41:38,680 got this text from one of my spiritual leaders about a 638 00:41:38,680 --> 00:41:41,840 rainbow. And I think God's telling me to 639 00:41:41,840 --> 00:41:44,600 tell you it's going to be OK if I quit my job. 640 00:41:46,080 --> 00:41:53,480 And so you know, again, you seek him, he answers, but you have 641 00:41:53,480 --> 00:41:58,160 to, you do have to remember that even when you are seeking him, 642 00:41:58,160 --> 00:42:01,120 it, it's not always a rapid response. 643 00:42:01,720 --> 00:42:04,560 And I get caught up that way too. 644 00:42:05,040 --> 00:42:12,320 I have had to slow myself down because I will ask him something 645 00:42:12,320 --> 00:42:15,840 and I will jump in the word and I'll read. 646 00:42:16,160 --> 00:42:19,440 I will read, right? Like looking, looking, looking, 647 00:42:19,440 --> 00:42:24,160 looking skimming, honestly, sometimes like skimming, not 648 00:42:24,160 --> 00:42:27,760 even retaining what it says, like looking for the answer. 649 00:42:28,480 --> 00:42:33,600 And he had to, he had to, you know, put a stop sign up and say 650 00:42:33,600 --> 00:42:41,480 chill, you need to or a yield sign chill because he's like, 651 00:42:42,160 --> 00:42:44,960 you're only you're only looking for an answer. 652 00:42:44,960 --> 00:42:47,760 You're not, you're not trying to get to know me better. 653 00:42:47,760 --> 00:42:49,880 You're not trying to grow our relationship. 654 00:42:49,880 --> 00:42:53,920 You're just looking for something in return. 655 00:42:54,880 --> 00:43:02,840 Oh, oh, that'll that about slapped me in my face. 656 00:43:02,840 --> 00:43:06,560 I said, oh, no, I am sorry, Lord. 657 00:43:06,560 --> 00:43:09,600 And you know, I do still catch myself doing things like that 658 00:43:10,880 --> 00:43:12,800 sometimes. And I have to remember he's 659 00:43:12,800 --> 00:43:14,760 already taught me I cannot do that. 660 00:43:15,480 --> 00:43:18,360 It's not always about getting something. 661 00:43:18,360 --> 00:43:20,960 It's not always about receiving something. 662 00:43:21,640 --> 00:43:28,160 Just get in the word and read to grow your relationship, to hear 663 00:43:28,160 --> 00:43:31,840 his voice about other things, not just what I'm praying about, 664 00:43:34,600 --> 00:43:37,400 man. And it's, and it kind of stinks 665 00:43:37,400 --> 00:43:42,960 sometimes because you're taught, you know this stuff in church by 666 00:43:42,960 --> 00:43:46,840 spiritual advisors, by spiritual leaders, by your pastors, by 667 00:43:46,840 --> 00:43:49,880 your friends that are in that same walk, like all this stuff. 668 00:43:49,880 --> 00:43:55,520 Like we know these scriptures, we know different things and we 669 00:43:55,520 --> 00:44:01,160 know what he says, the promises he's given us, but our flesh, 670 00:44:02,720 --> 00:44:06,720 they, they forget that stuff. And then now I'm now I'm worried 671 00:44:06,720 --> 00:44:11,080 about things, I'm tripping about things, I'm lashing out in 672 00:44:11,080 --> 00:44:14,560 anger. I'm doing all this stuff that 673 00:44:14,560 --> 00:44:17,880 isn't godly because I'm letting my flesh win. 674 00:44:18,160 --> 00:44:20,000 And then that's the same thing about the Bible. 675 00:44:20,000 --> 00:44:22,800 I'm letting my flesh win when I'm jumping in to read just for 676 00:44:22,800 --> 00:44:26,720 an answer, and I'm not really doing it to get to know God 677 00:44:26,720 --> 00:44:29,600 better. I remember Eric, the same one 678 00:44:29,600 --> 00:44:34,960 that I was talking to about the rainbows, he came up to me and 679 00:44:34,960 --> 00:44:40,480 he asked me one time. He said, as a new believer, have 680 00:44:40,480 --> 00:44:42,400 you been feeling like you're under attack? 681 00:44:43,560 --> 00:44:49,000 No, I am on the mountaintop. I have not. 682 00:44:49,000 --> 00:44:58,080 I have to like, I was going through some stuff, like, yes, 683 00:44:58,080 --> 00:45:02,880 life was going good, but I felt like I was covering up so much. 684 00:45:02,880 --> 00:45:05,840 I was struggling with that. And then with the whole job 685 00:45:05,840 --> 00:45:09,120 thing, like that has really been heavy. 686 00:45:10,640 --> 00:45:13,560 I mean, I love what I do now. Like I love the social media 687 00:45:13,560 --> 00:45:15,840 aspect of it. There's some other stuff that I 688 00:45:15,840 --> 00:45:20,480 do want to do as well. But you know, when the time is 689 00:45:20,480 --> 00:45:26,040 right, he will make it happen. Got to remember when the time is 690 00:45:26,040 --> 00:45:34,960 right, he will make it happen. So, you know, I am just, I, I 691 00:45:35,160 --> 00:45:38,840 sometimes like, I just get so overwhelmed with my emotions. 692 00:45:38,840 --> 00:45:42,200 I get so overwhelmed with my emotions because I just sit here 693 00:45:42,200 --> 00:45:47,160 and I'm in so much just, I have so much gratitude and I have so 694 00:45:47,160 --> 00:45:52,800 much thankfulness and I just, I just feel like thank you, Lord 695 00:45:52,800 --> 00:45:54,920 for giving me the life that I have. 696 00:45:54,920 --> 00:45:59,080 And I just want to, you know, please him and live accordingly. 697 00:45:59,080 --> 00:46:03,920 And just, if I look crazy to people, I look crazy to people, 698 00:46:04,160 --> 00:46:08,800 you know, like I, I know I look crazy to people that the stories 699 00:46:08,800 --> 00:46:10,960 that I tell, it sounds crazy to people. 700 00:46:11,240 --> 00:46:17,440 I cannot make this stuff up. I am just in such a place of 701 00:46:17,440 --> 00:46:21,880 peace and ease. And, you know, I've had some 702 00:46:21,880 --> 00:46:26,200 things go on recently that like, it should have broke me, but I 703 00:46:26,200 --> 00:46:28,880 feel like it's made me lean on God even more. 704 00:46:29,200 --> 00:46:32,600 And that's what we're called to do, is to lean on him and those 705 00:46:32,640 --> 00:46:36,000 in those valleys and those dark times and in those struggles and 706 00:46:36,320 --> 00:46:39,920 all that. And, you know, as I'm setting up 707 00:46:40,280 --> 00:46:43,880 my podcast studio this week, you know, I found out some things 708 00:46:43,880 --> 00:46:46,960 and, you know, it hurt me so bad, but I still had joy. 709 00:46:48,360 --> 00:46:54,480 I still was, you know, faithful. And I still want to seek the 710 00:46:54,480 --> 00:46:56,440 Lord. And I really want to talk to him 711 00:46:56,440 --> 00:46:58,800 about what I've been experiencing and what's been 712 00:46:58,800 --> 00:47:07,160 going on. And, you know, I, I just ain't 713 00:47:07,160 --> 00:47:11,000 nothing going to steal my joy. Oh, let me get my journal. 714 00:47:11,000 --> 00:47:13,680 Hang on. I bet it's on my prayer board 715 00:47:14,760 --> 00:47:17,000 anyway. It's basically saying like, stop 716 00:47:17,000 --> 00:47:22,240 trying to live other people's calling and find find what God's 717 00:47:22,240 --> 00:47:26,960 calling you to do. And that is when the whole 718 00:47:26,960 --> 00:47:31,160 Sisters of Faith thing had hit me and I really realized like, 719 00:47:32,680 --> 00:47:37,320 OK, like this really may be what God's calling me to do. 720 00:47:37,320 --> 00:47:41,960 This may be my ministry, you know, that I want to step into. 721 00:47:41,960 --> 00:47:44,760 And this is the ministry that I want to lead people to Christ 722 00:47:44,760 --> 00:47:48,840 and help them grow in their faith and, and just be able to 723 00:47:48,840 --> 00:47:52,280 grow in my faith. And I think that is so important 724 00:47:52,280 --> 00:47:57,200 to remember is even if no one listens to this, like this is me 725 00:47:57,200 --> 00:48:01,520 preaching to myself at this point, even if nobody listens to 726 00:48:01,520 --> 00:48:06,680 this podcast, I feel like me speaking and saying this stuff 727 00:48:06,680 --> 00:48:09,800 out loud, like I'm preaching to myself, I'm talking to myself. 728 00:48:09,800 --> 00:48:14,280 I am just giving my word, giving myself a word, OK. 729 00:48:14,280 --> 00:48:19,440 And so I like this is helping me grow closer in my relationship. 730 00:48:19,680 --> 00:48:22,000 You know what? I said this in a video too. 731 00:48:22,000 --> 00:48:26,520 So make sure y'all go follow praises in the pod on Facebook 732 00:48:26,520 --> 00:48:31,840 and Instagram because that's where I do like mini clips and I 733 00:48:31,840 --> 00:48:34,440 just talk and kind of just say like what's going on or 734 00:48:34,440 --> 00:48:40,880 whatever. But you know, I episode 1, I 735 00:48:40,880 --> 00:48:46,080 mentioned a hyperfixation and I told myself the other day I 736 00:48:46,080 --> 00:48:49,960 said, even if this is a hyperfixation, even if this is 737 00:48:50,320 --> 00:48:54,800 like I'm going to commit to six months, I hope it's longer than 738 00:48:54,800 --> 00:48:58,880 six months, but I'm at least going to commit to six months of 739 00:48:58,880 --> 00:49:05,000 this every single week. And I am going to really give it 740 00:49:05,000 --> 00:49:06,280 my all. I'm going to give it everything 741 00:49:06,280 --> 00:49:08,960 I got and just really focus on my relationship with God. 742 00:49:09,160 --> 00:49:12,600 It's like I'm just genuinely talking from experience and I'm 743 00:49:12,600 --> 00:49:14,600 talking about what God has done for me. 744 00:49:14,600 --> 00:49:20,000 And that's what I'm best at. That is something that God has 745 00:49:20,000 --> 00:49:25,080 gifted me with is being able to explain what all He's done for 746 00:49:25,080 --> 00:49:27,640 me and explain exactly what's going on. 747 00:49:27,920 --> 00:49:31,960 I am just so blessed and so thankful for all the followers, 748 00:49:31,960 --> 00:49:34,200 all of the people that have reached out to me. 749 00:49:34,520 --> 00:49:39,520 It has been a whirlwind and I am just so appreciative. 750 00:49:39,560 --> 00:49:44,240 I really cannot tell y'all how appreciative I am of all the 751 00:49:44,240 --> 00:49:47,800 love and support. I did get some sweatshirts and 752 00:49:47,800 --> 00:49:50,360 T-shirts made. I'm not really selling them yet 753 00:49:50,360 --> 00:49:53,200 but if it is something that maybe you would be interested in 754 00:49:53,200 --> 00:49:59,040 like getting one of these, I might can add a picture of what 755 00:49:59,040 --> 00:50:01,480 they look like. I might sell them. 756 00:50:02,040 --> 00:50:05,920 PITP is on the front and then on the back it's praises in the pod 757 00:50:05,920 --> 00:50:09,320 with a QR code so you can scan to go to my LinkedIn. 758 00:50:09,320 --> 00:50:13,520 So then you can also get to the podcast, Think smarter and 759 00:50:13,520 --> 00:50:15,040 Harder. That's that business degree 760 00:50:15,040 --> 00:50:19,480 again, because I made the announcement on this past 761 00:50:19,480 --> 00:50:22,560 episode that I was going to have a guest speaker. 762 00:50:22,560 --> 00:50:25,520 Chad, I'm sure you're wondering where he is. 763 00:50:26,880 --> 00:50:30,760 And the door just kept shutting. And then when I moved it home 764 00:50:32,000 --> 00:50:34,120 and I started looking at the space and I started getting a 765 00:50:34,120 --> 00:50:40,640 feel for things I said, I said this is going to be for the 766 00:50:40,640 --> 00:50:44,760 girls. This not the power podcast in a 767 00:50:44,760 --> 00:50:47,040 whole. You know, like I know I'm going 768 00:50:47,040 --> 00:50:51,400 to have male viewers. I know people are going to watch 769 00:50:51,400 --> 00:50:54,240 regardless, you know, whatever. And I want them to don't get me 770 00:50:54,240 --> 00:50:57,720 wrong, don't get me wrong, I want anybody and everybody to 771 00:50:57,720 --> 00:51:02,360 watch this podcast, but I want to have female girls on the 772 00:51:02,360 --> 00:51:04,600 podcast. I want this to be for the girls 773 00:51:05,240 --> 00:51:10,960 and, you know, me moving at home, like, I mean, you know, 774 00:51:11,040 --> 00:51:13,480 yeah, yeah. So I don't really just want guy, 775 00:51:13,480 --> 00:51:15,800 you know, guys coming over to the house to film and stuff like 776 00:51:15,800 --> 00:51:20,000 that. So I I made this podcast for the 777 00:51:20,000 --> 00:51:24,080 girls and it's girly and it's fun and everything else. 778 00:51:24,080 --> 00:51:26,680 And I want this to be all girl thing. 779 00:51:28,280 --> 00:51:31,840 I cannot wait to continue to grow with you and walk with you 780 00:51:31,840 --> 00:51:34,920 and just do this thing called life together with you on this 781 00:51:34,920 --> 00:51:38,000 side of Jesus. So stay tuned, stay blessed, and 782 00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:39,040 we'll see you next week.