1 00:00:01,400 --> 00:00:03,920 What's up guys? My name is Alexis, your host 2 00:00:03,920 --> 00:00:06,800 with praises in the pot, and I'm so excited for this episode 3 00:00:06,800 --> 00:00:08,960 today. It is my full testimony. 4 00:00:08,960 --> 00:00:12,120 And it doesn't look like this. It is actually pre recorded at 5 00:00:12,120 --> 00:00:14,360 my home church at Celebrate Recovery. 6 00:00:14,360 --> 00:00:18,320 I gave it a few weeks ago and it was a it was an incredible 7 00:00:18,760 --> 00:00:21,440 night. There were 11 salvations and I'm 8 00:00:21,440 --> 00:00:26,520 still in awe about it. I cannot believe that God used 9 00:00:26,520 --> 00:00:31,320 me as a vessel to speak to so many lives and have those names 10 00:00:31,320 --> 00:00:33,400 written into the Lamb's book of life. 11 00:00:33,920 --> 00:00:38,280 And I just pray that you know this testimony speaks to you. 12 00:00:38,880 --> 00:00:40,240 Ultimately, I. Pray. 13 00:00:40,240 --> 00:00:46,840 That God reveals Himself to you through my testimony. 14 00:00:46,960 --> 00:00:50,280 So we are going to jump right in. 15 00:00:50,280 --> 00:00:58,160 So here we go. Hello, so I'm going to get to 16 00:00:58,160 --> 00:01:01,840 this in a little bit, but I actually have a podcast and I 17 00:01:01,840 --> 00:01:05,239 have people come on and I question them about their 18 00:01:05,239 --> 00:01:07,760 testimony. And now I understand why they 19 00:01:07,760 --> 00:01:09,600 get a little finicky with it. Come on. 20 00:01:09,600 --> 00:01:11,880 Because I'm like, oh, now I'm in the hot seat. 21 00:01:11,960 --> 00:01:15,520 OK, so and that's actually recorded. 22 00:01:15,520 --> 00:01:17,480 So we can always fix that. But you know what? 23 00:01:17,480 --> 00:01:19,160 God's going to move in a mighty way tonight. 24 00:01:19,160 --> 00:01:22,160 And I'm very expectant and I have been expecting it all week. 25 00:01:24,280 --> 00:01:26,200 So let's start out in prayer and then we're going to jump right 26 00:01:26,200 --> 00:01:30,560 in. Lord, thank you. 27 00:01:31,640 --> 00:01:36,960 Thank you for everything. Lord, thank you for today and 28 00:01:36,960 --> 00:01:39,120 all your many blessings. Dear God, thank you for this 29 00:01:39,120 --> 00:01:41,880 story. That is ultimately your story, 30 00:01:41,880 --> 00:01:46,880 God, and I get to tell it. Lord, I pray for each person in 31 00:01:46,880 --> 00:01:48,960 this room that they hear from you tonight. 32 00:01:48,960 --> 00:01:52,280 Lord God, I pray that you give them the eyes to see you, the 33 00:01:52,280 --> 00:01:55,040 ears to hear you, and the heart to receive you. 34 00:01:55,040 --> 00:01:58,240 Lord God, I just pray that you move in a mighty way. 35 00:01:58,600 --> 00:02:01,800 Lord, speak to me and through me in Jesus name I pray, Amen. 36 00:02:03,400 --> 00:02:08,560 All right, here we go. My name is Alexis Brown and I 37 00:02:08,560 --> 00:02:12,040 was born into the world with the identity of a child of the 38 00:02:12,040 --> 00:02:14,520 addicts. My parents were middle school 39 00:02:14,520 --> 00:02:18,640 sweethearts, but after all the stories I heard, I think they 40 00:02:18,640 --> 00:02:20,120 brought out the worst in one another. 41 00:02:21,080 --> 00:02:25,080 Within 48 hours of my birth, my mom's heroin addiction picked up 42 00:02:25,080 --> 00:02:28,080 right back where it left off. I was dropped off at my Nana and 43 00:02:28,080 --> 00:02:33,800 Papa's for the next 11 years. That's all the consistency and 44 00:02:33,800 --> 00:02:37,800 stability that I would know. My Nana and Papa were everything 45 00:02:37,800 --> 00:02:41,040 to me and I will never be able to thank them enough for all of 46 00:02:41,040 --> 00:02:45,960 those years. While I know I have many good 47 00:02:45,960 --> 00:02:50,200 memories in that home and in my childhood, my memories are very 48 00:02:50,200 --> 00:02:54,560 far few and far between. I do believe God saves us from 49 00:02:54,560 --> 00:02:57,400 some of those memories and feelings and reveals them to us 50 00:02:57,400 --> 00:03:01,560 when the time is right. I have two early memories that I 51 00:03:01,760 --> 00:03:06,160 remember so vividly. My mom was molested by her 52 00:03:06,160 --> 00:03:10,320 stepdad for many years before she told she and my nana's 53 00:03:10,320 --> 00:03:13,720 mission were to make sure that generate generational curse 54 00:03:13,880 --> 00:03:17,160 stopped with me. And while I am so thankful that 55 00:03:17,160 --> 00:03:21,120 it did never happen to me, that is all I remember talking about 56 00:03:21,120 --> 00:03:27,120 as a child. Sorry. 57 00:03:27,840 --> 00:03:31,840 I constantly was being asked, constantly feeling uneasy around 58 00:03:31,840 --> 00:03:35,600 all men and feeling so scared that it would happen to me. 59 00:03:35,600 --> 00:03:40,840 I remember becoming very fearful as a child I was around. 60 00:03:40,960 --> 00:03:44,240 This is another memory. I was around the age of 5 or 6 61 00:03:44,240 --> 00:03:48,720 and my mom was in jail. There was terrible weather and 62 00:03:48,720 --> 00:03:51,400 we had just gotten a tornado warning in the area. 63 00:03:51,400 --> 00:03:54,600 And I was in my aunt, in the hall at my banana and Popeye's, 64 00:03:55,000 --> 00:03:57,880 on my hands and knees crying and praying that my mom would be 65 00:03:57,880 --> 00:04:00,440 safe. And in that moment, I felt so 66 00:04:00,440 --> 00:04:04,280 helpless. My parents were in and out of my 67 00:04:04,280 --> 00:04:06,840 life and I couldn't control when they would come or go. 68 00:04:06,880 --> 00:04:09,000 I couldn't control anything in my life. 69 00:04:09,000 --> 00:04:11,400 I was a kid and I would just wait and watch. 70 00:04:11,400 --> 00:04:13,760 Even when they would come, I wouldn't know if they were going 71 00:04:13,760 --> 00:04:16,839 to be sober or high. I just had to be in a constant 72 00:04:16,839 --> 00:04:20,200 worry and feeling on edge. And I also remember when I was a 73 00:04:20,279 --> 00:04:25,080 child, I just couldn't. Like I couldn't shake the 74 00:04:25,080 --> 00:04:27,680 feeling of if something was going to happen to them while 75 00:04:27,680 --> 00:04:30,600 they were on the streets or not. And so I was always worried. 76 00:04:31,560 --> 00:04:33,720 I had such a good life with my grandparents though. 77 00:04:33,720 --> 00:04:36,880 But once I started school, I always felt like teachers looked 78 00:04:36,880 --> 00:04:38,800 at me a little differently than the other kids. 79 00:04:39,120 --> 00:04:41,960 Now, I will say I do have a great personality even when I 80 00:04:41,960 --> 00:04:44,840 was a kid. And so I understand that OK. 81 00:04:45,160 --> 00:04:50,720 But as I got older, I began to realize that they did know about 82 00:04:50,720 --> 00:04:53,440 the home life that I had. And that's when I would begin to 83 00:04:53,440 --> 00:04:56,880 feel like a charity case. I began feeling like they took 84 00:04:56,880 --> 00:04:59,320 pity on me. And I remember constantly being 85 00:04:59,320 --> 00:05:02,240 asked, how's your mom? Have you talked to her? 86 00:05:02,240 --> 00:05:05,800 Do you know who your dad is? Just those types of questions in 87 00:05:05,800 --> 00:05:09,000 general. So middle school came around and 88 00:05:09,000 --> 00:05:11,320 I was very popular, OK, very athletic. 89 00:05:11,320 --> 00:05:14,320 I played softball, was on the softball team, travel ball, 90 00:05:14,520 --> 00:05:16,760 Warner Robins, Little League, you name it, I played it. 91 00:05:17,320 --> 00:05:21,160 And I was always MVP on my teams and I was team captain. 92 00:05:21,160 --> 00:05:22,760 I just love life for the most part. 93 00:05:23,120 --> 00:05:26,200 My mom was still in and out and she was married to a man when I 94 00:05:26,200 --> 00:05:29,360 was in 6th grade and he adopted me when I was in 7th. 95 00:05:30,040 --> 00:05:31,600 He gave me the best possible life. 96 00:05:31,720 --> 00:05:34,600 He didn't care if she was there, here, whatever. 97 00:05:34,880 --> 00:05:38,720 Life would continue and he made sure that I knew that wherever 98 00:05:38,720 --> 00:05:43,080 he was, was my home. My dad was truly a godsend and I 99 00:05:43,080 --> 00:05:44,760 can't thank him enough for all that he did. 100 00:05:45,280 --> 00:05:47,840 Once I got to high school, this is where it became a little bit 101 00:05:47,840 --> 00:05:50,800 trickier. While I was the best player in a 102 00:05:50,800 --> 00:05:53,960 small pool, I was not the best player in a big pond. 103 00:05:54,320 --> 00:06:00,360 This would take a big toll on my confidence in my identity and I 104 00:06:00,360 --> 00:06:03,160 felt so lost. I would then allow the enemy to 105 00:06:03,160 --> 00:06:05,680 take me down paths that I would never think that I would go do 106 00:06:05,680 --> 00:06:07,320 to watching my parents live that life. 107 00:06:08,360 --> 00:06:11,920 In 9th grade I began riding home from softball practice with a 108 00:06:11,920 --> 00:06:14,120 teammate. She smoked cigarettes and 109 00:06:14,120 --> 00:06:16,960 eventually I would try one and I love that initial head change 110 00:06:17,080 --> 00:06:19,920 like she would call it. And then another girl on my team 111 00:06:19,920 --> 00:06:22,400 lost her virginity and told me about it. 112 00:06:23,440 --> 00:06:26,400 And sadly within months I would turn. 113 00:06:27,720 --> 00:06:31,120 I would then turn promiscuous trying to feel fit in and feel 114 00:06:31,120 --> 00:06:34,800 accepted and feel accepted. I was seeking attention because 115 00:06:34,800 --> 00:06:37,680 I no longer felt like I was getting it from softball and I 116 00:06:37,680 --> 00:06:39,680 just wanted that social acceptance again. 117 00:06:41,480 --> 00:06:44,720 Next to alcohol would begin. And I went my first party with 118 00:06:44,720 --> 00:06:48,480 some seniors and I blacked out and I remember making a total 119 00:06:48,480 --> 00:06:51,600 fool of myself. But when I went back to school, 120 00:06:52,320 --> 00:06:55,240 like I was known as a partier and I was very open about 121 00:06:55,240 --> 00:06:58,760 smoking and drinking and going to the bars at 16 years old that 122 00:06:58,760 --> 00:07:02,200 it looked cool. And so that just fed into that 123 00:07:02,200 --> 00:07:04,440 social acceptance that I had been seeking. 124 00:07:05,000 --> 00:07:08,560 My dad didn't have any other children, so he wasn't sure how 125 00:07:08,560 --> 00:07:11,040 to discipline or even raise a teenager. 126 00:07:11,520 --> 00:07:14,680 I would tell him I was staying at a friend's house and he would 127 00:07:14,680 --> 00:07:19,040 be OK with it as long as my room was clean and I did what I 128 00:07:19,040 --> 00:07:21,200 needed to do and my grades were passing. 129 00:07:22,200 --> 00:07:25,160 He was doing the best that he could, but I would lie and say 130 00:07:25,240 --> 00:07:27,560 that I was staying somewhere I wasn't supposed to be and then 131 00:07:27,600 --> 00:07:29,320 that person. We would just be anywhere and 132 00:07:29,320 --> 00:07:32,960 everywhere so late. Later I would end up smoking 133 00:07:32,960 --> 00:07:35,760 weed, sneaking out with friends at their houses, and blacking 134 00:07:35,760 --> 00:07:39,280 out constantly. I haven't fully come to terms 135 00:07:39,760 --> 00:07:42,800 with what all happened to me in high school or my early years. 136 00:07:42,800 --> 00:07:45,680 After that, I think back on things and remember being with 137 00:07:45,680 --> 00:07:48,400 grown men in situations that should have them in jail. 138 00:07:49,520 --> 00:07:52,640 I think I was just trying and and taking advantage of me. 139 00:07:54,080 --> 00:07:56,480 Graduation comes and finally it's time to grow up. 140 00:07:56,720 --> 00:08:00,000 I got engaged at a short at a young age shortly after high 141 00:08:00,000 --> 00:08:02,880 school and I was the first one of my friends and the first one 142 00:08:02,880 --> 00:08:05,240 to get a big girl job. And I look like the girl that 143 00:08:05,240 --> 00:08:08,680 had it together. I mean, I was looked at as being 144 00:08:08,680 --> 00:08:10,560 successful. This is all I ever wanted. 145 00:08:10,560 --> 00:08:14,440 I wanted people to know that I could be successful even though 146 00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:17,000 my parents, you know, we're drug addicts. 147 00:08:18,640 --> 00:08:22,240 Well 18 year old me was not ready to settle down at all 148 00:08:22,320 --> 00:08:25,280 whatsoever. I ended up leaving my fiance for 149 00:08:25,280 --> 00:08:28,160 a partier and that is where my life would begin to take a 150 00:08:28,160 --> 00:08:32,000 severe turn. That relationship took me down 151 00:08:32,000 --> 00:08:33,559 some of the darkest times of my life. 152 00:08:34,000 --> 00:08:38,080 The mental, mental, physical and emotional abuse would start and 153 00:08:38,080 --> 00:08:42,120 as time went on more and more it would become toxic on both 154 00:08:42,120 --> 00:08:45,440 sides. Even as as subtle as the abuse 155 00:08:45,440 --> 00:08:49,680 would be, it would put a fear inside of me and I would just 156 00:08:49,680 --> 00:08:51,960 lash out and become abusive towards him. 157 00:08:52,720 --> 00:08:54,880 Just as a child. I feel like I couldn't control 158 00:08:54,880 --> 00:08:58,640 this and it would infuriate me. He would drink and drive every 159 00:08:58,640 --> 00:09:00,880 weekend, if not random nights throughout the week and I was 160 00:09:00,880 --> 00:09:03,760 just along for the ride. We found a few bars that would 161 00:09:03,760 --> 00:09:06,800 serve us underage, and as I look back on those nights, I thank 162 00:09:06,800 --> 00:09:09,000 God that He had His hand on my life. 163 00:09:11,200 --> 00:09:14,440 I put myself in the scariest, most dangerous situations for 164 00:09:14,440 --> 00:09:16,360 many years and basically had a death wish. 165 00:09:16,360 --> 00:09:18,680 But God had big plans for me and I didn't even know it. 166 00:09:21,200 --> 00:09:23,520 I remember one night we were very intoxicated. 167 00:09:23,520 --> 00:09:26,520 He was driving to his house and I played Beautiful Beautiful by 168 00:09:26,520 --> 00:09:31,000 Francesca Bassinelli and I cried the whole way home. 169 00:09:31,280 --> 00:09:34,680 I was lost, I was hurting, I didn't want to live this life 170 00:09:34,680 --> 00:09:36,640 anymore. I knew of Jesus, but I didn't 171 00:09:36,640 --> 00:09:39,440 have a relationship with Him. I didn't know how to break free 172 00:09:39,440 --> 00:09:42,400 from this life, but I wanted freedom. 173 00:09:42,680 --> 00:09:46,360 I wish I could say in that moment that it got better, but 174 00:09:46,360 --> 00:09:49,040 it got far, far, far worse for years to come. 175 00:09:49,960 --> 00:09:52,680 That relationship ended after a few years and I spiraled 176 00:09:52,680 --> 00:09:54,960 terribly. I was heartbroken and hurt. 177 00:09:54,960 --> 00:09:58,080 I was desperate for attention and this was the first time I 178 00:09:58,080 --> 00:09:59,600 had been single in my adult life. 179 00:10:00,720 --> 00:10:03,840 It was 2017. I began partying harder than I 180 00:10:03,840 --> 00:10:06,720 ever had before. It become a point. 181 00:10:07,040 --> 00:10:09,080 It came to the point where my friends wouldn't even answer the 182 00:10:09,080 --> 00:10:11,800 phone call anymore because they knew I was either going to go 183 00:10:11,800 --> 00:10:14,600 out partying or they were going to have to come pick me up at 184 00:10:14,600 --> 00:10:18,080 two or three. AMI was a college athlete at the 185 00:10:18,080 --> 00:10:20,840 time, but the party scene had me in a true chokehold. 186 00:10:21,520 --> 00:10:24,600 I played one season and the next year I was kicked off the team 187 00:10:24,600 --> 00:10:28,120 and fell out of school, then spent the next few months 188 00:10:28,120 --> 00:10:31,240 getting intoxicated, crying about my ex, and seeking 189 00:10:31,240 --> 00:10:33,240 attention. For the next nine months I 190 00:10:33,240 --> 00:10:37,520 honestly would tell my friends that I was suicidal, but I felt 191 00:10:37,520 --> 00:10:39,760 like I wasn't. Like when I looked back at that 192 00:10:39,760 --> 00:10:42,840 time I wasn't necessarily suicidal, but I was so desperate 193 00:10:42,840 --> 00:10:45,160 for that chapter of my life to come to an end. 194 00:10:47,320 --> 00:10:50,320 My mom was on the street and strung out again. 195 00:10:50,680 --> 00:10:55,160 Oh sorry, one second. Thankfully, in December of 2017, 196 00:10:55,160 --> 00:10:56,800 God sent my now husband and my life. 197 00:10:58,280 --> 00:11:01,400 He gave me the stability, He gave me the confidence and a 198 00:11:01,400 --> 00:11:04,440 whole new purpose that I had so desperately been wanting. 199 00:11:04,760 --> 00:11:07,600 We had fun, we travelled, we did everything underneath the sun 200 00:11:07,600 --> 00:11:11,680 together and this part of my life finally felt like something 201 00:11:11,680 --> 00:11:15,760 that I had always dreamed of. My mom was on the streets and 202 00:11:15,760 --> 00:11:18,520 strung out again, so this numb the pain that I was feeling. 203 00:11:19,640 --> 00:11:22,560 I was now an adult grieving a relationship with a living 204 00:11:22,560 --> 00:11:27,080 mother. I know my now husband hadn't 205 00:11:27,080 --> 00:11:29,760 even met my mom for the first two years of our relationship 206 00:11:29,760 --> 00:11:32,320 because the street, she was in the streets for most of it. 207 00:11:32,760 --> 00:11:36,120 My mom would call for help in 2019 and say she was ready to go 208 00:11:36,120 --> 00:11:38,720 to the Potter's house. This is where I would begin to 209 00:11:38,760 --> 00:11:42,360 start seeing God in a whole different light, more than I had 210 00:11:42,360 --> 00:11:46,280 ever seen Him before. She was free and she had a true 211 00:11:46,280 --> 00:11:49,280 change about her. She was lighter, brighter. 212 00:11:49,280 --> 00:11:53,920 She had that Jesus glow, so I began dabbling in my own, trying 213 00:11:53,920 --> 00:11:57,920 to have my own relationship with God during her stay there, but I 214 00:11:57,920 --> 00:12:00,280 wasn't ready to give up that life that I was enjoying. 215 00:12:01,440 --> 00:12:04,720 Drinking was still heavily involved on a regular basis, but 216 00:12:04,720 --> 00:12:06,920 it wasn't that toxic drunk that I was used to. 217 00:12:06,920 --> 00:12:09,280 Greg and I actually got along when we drank together. 218 00:12:09,280 --> 00:12:11,880 We love going to Georgia Bob's multiple nights out of the week. 219 00:12:12,200 --> 00:12:14,840 Those nights started becoming a little bit more frequent, 220 00:12:14,840 --> 00:12:16,800 though. I once would go and have a few 221 00:12:16,800 --> 00:12:20,440 beers, but now I'm going and having four and five beers, four 222 00:12:20,440 --> 00:12:23,360 and five liquor drinks, and then I would go home and continue to 223 00:12:23,360 --> 00:12:27,520 drink and that would become a cycle for the next 5 years. 224 00:12:28,000 --> 00:12:29,840 I couldn't just drink one or two anymore. 225 00:12:31,240 --> 00:12:34,400 There were many nights that Greg would beg me to come home and I 226 00:12:34,400 --> 00:12:37,120 would just have to go, or I would just go to another bar or 227 00:12:37,120 --> 00:12:38,840 stay. Unreasonable times with or 228 00:12:38,840 --> 00:12:41,040 without him. If you would have asked me at 229 00:12:41,040 --> 00:12:43,760 that time if I had a problem with alcohol, I would have said 230 00:12:43,760 --> 00:12:46,120 absolutely not. I can quit at any time. 231 00:12:46,800 --> 00:12:50,240 I don't have to drink every single day, but me and my mom 232 00:12:50,240 --> 00:12:54,040 actually challenged me to go a month without alcohol and I 233 00:12:54,040 --> 00:12:57,000 can't turn down the challenge. I am going to put I'm going to 234 00:12:57,000 --> 00:12:59,320 set my mind to something and I'm going to I'm going to get it 235 00:12:59,320 --> 00:13:00,720 done. But I did. 236 00:13:01,240 --> 00:13:04,600 But I cried every single day. I realized that I was in 237 00:13:04,600 --> 00:13:06,600 bondage. This was the first time I 238 00:13:06,600 --> 00:13:08,520 realized that I did have a true problem. 239 00:13:08,520 --> 00:13:11,560 And I remember telling myself there's no way that I can go the 240 00:13:11,560 --> 00:13:13,080 rest of my life without having a drink. 241 00:13:14,160 --> 00:13:18,040 The day I hit 31 days sober, I immediately went to the bar to 242 00:13:18,040 --> 00:13:21,720 celebrate. The drinking would get severely 243 00:13:21,720 --> 00:13:25,400 worse over the next year or so. I would begin falling more and 244 00:13:25,400 --> 00:13:28,920 more, more than usual, and I would get sick and sleep on the 245 00:13:28,920 --> 00:13:31,760 bathroom floor regularly. I was always hungover. 246 00:13:33,320 --> 00:13:35,880 Even though this was the life I was living, I still had a great 247 00:13:35,880 --> 00:13:38,320 career. I had great money, had a 248 00:13:38,320 --> 00:13:41,720 beautiful home, nice vehicles, all the materialistic things 249 00:13:41,720 --> 00:13:44,920 that you could ever want. But I was dead on the inside. 250 00:13:46,200 --> 00:13:49,240 The day after Thanksgiving, I went out with my husband and 251 00:13:49,240 --> 00:13:52,240 some friends as usual. My husband would beg me to come 252 00:13:52,240 --> 00:13:54,720 home with him and I would end up going to another bar. 253 00:13:55,920 --> 00:13:58,760 When I got home that night, I fell and busted my lip open. 254 00:13:59,160 --> 00:14:01,840 I was beyond belligerent. I was knocked unconscious and 255 00:14:01,840 --> 00:14:05,160 just lying in my own blood. When I started to come to, I saw 256 00:14:05,160 --> 00:14:08,480 my stepdaughter walk into the kitchen freaking out. 257 00:14:08,760 --> 00:14:11,240 And I need to preface that she didn't live with us. 258 00:14:11,320 --> 00:14:15,720 She was just deeding some of her friends and just happened to 259 00:14:15,720 --> 00:14:19,280 drive by the house at 2:00 or 3:00 AM, just happened to come 260 00:14:19,280 --> 00:14:21,360 over and she never comes over. So it's crazy. 261 00:14:21,960 --> 00:14:27,080 But God sent her because she was my Angel. 262 00:14:27,080 --> 00:14:30,920 Because when I saw her, I felt, I felt shameful, of course. 263 00:14:30,920 --> 00:14:33,120 Like, how does it feel to see your stepdaughter, you know, 264 00:14:33,120 --> 00:14:35,960 walking in and you're on the floor, can't even get up. 265 00:14:36,440 --> 00:14:39,640 And she kept begging me to go to the emergency room. 266 00:14:39,640 --> 00:14:42,480 She's like, you have got to go. I mean, I was just pouring, 267 00:14:42,480 --> 00:14:46,320 pouring blood and I was just so out of my mind that I just kept 268 00:14:46,320 --> 00:14:50,680 saying no. And so this was the moment that 269 00:14:50,680 --> 00:14:54,560 it got my attention because the next morning I, I thought about 270 00:14:54,560 --> 00:14:55,760 it. I've done a lot of things, 271 00:14:55,760 --> 00:14:58,080 failed plenty of times, but this was different because I began 272 00:14:58,080 --> 00:15:01,080 thinking about all the what ifs. I started thinking about what if 273 00:15:01,080 --> 00:15:02,360 she wouldn't have walked in that room? 274 00:15:02,360 --> 00:15:05,400 What if because my husband was asleep, like all this stuff. 275 00:15:05,400 --> 00:15:07,720 So it's like I just started thinking about all the what ifs 276 00:15:07,720 --> 00:15:10,480 and it scared me. I wish I could say I never drank 277 00:15:10,480 --> 00:15:13,360 again but that would be a lie. I did begin drinking less and 278 00:15:13,360 --> 00:15:16,080 less though. I was cleaning here at Southside 279 00:15:16,080 --> 00:15:19,400 already at the time and felt like an absolute hypocrite. 280 00:15:21,160 --> 00:15:23,680 Around this time my husband and I were trying to have a baby. 281 00:15:26,560 --> 00:15:30,280 Time went on and I went to see a specialist and they told us that 282 00:15:30,280 --> 00:15:32,400 we would have a very difficult time conceiving. 283 00:15:33,120 --> 00:15:35,440 I was devastated. I had always dreamed of being a 284 00:15:35,440 --> 00:15:37,600 mother and now it felt like that was out of my reach. 285 00:15:37,960 --> 00:15:41,160 My mom invited me to go to a woman's retreat with her and I 286 00:15:41,160 --> 00:15:43,080 met a doctor and she was very spiritual. 287 00:15:43,280 --> 00:15:45,800 She was a leader at her church. So I was just like let me just 288 00:15:45,800 --> 00:15:48,640 go see what she says about IVF and maybe our results. 289 00:15:48,640 --> 00:15:52,880 And she didn't say anything that nobody else had told me or 290 00:15:52,880 --> 00:15:56,120 nothing that changed my mind. But she did push me to seek God. 291 00:15:57,680 --> 00:16:02,000 We got back from the retreat and it was April 22nd, 2023. 292 00:16:02,240 --> 00:16:04,920 And I began seeking God. I prayed and prayed. 293 00:16:04,920 --> 00:16:08,600 I wrote in my journal and I said, Lord, please tell me, am I 294 00:16:08,600 --> 00:16:11,240 going to, am I going to become a mother? 295 00:16:11,480 --> 00:16:13,560 Are you going to bless me with a child? 296 00:16:14,680 --> 00:16:17,000 And so my mom had taught me at the time. 297 00:16:17,000 --> 00:16:19,760 She said, you know, just open up your Bible to a random spot, 298 00:16:20,120 --> 00:16:22,600 don't look for anything, just open up and let him speak. 299 00:16:22,640 --> 00:16:29,720 And so I did that and I opened it up and I went to John 113 300 00:16:31,920 --> 00:16:34,920 children born of not natural descent or human decision or a 301 00:16:34,920 --> 00:16:38,720 husband's will, but born of God. I instantly began weeping 302 00:16:38,720 --> 00:16:43,400 because I knew without a shadow of a doubt that God saw me and 303 00:16:43,400 --> 00:16:49,480 he answered me and not, I mean, you can't say that that's just a 304 00:16:49,480 --> 00:16:53,320 coincidence, right? Like that I'm praying about a 305 00:16:53,320 --> 00:16:57,400 child and then I get a scripture literally saying children born 306 00:16:57,400 --> 00:17:01,000 of not natural descent or, or human decision or husbands will, 307 00:17:01,000 --> 00:17:07,119 but born of God. So, you know, I'm feeling good, 308 00:17:07,119 --> 00:17:10,720 feeling great coming off that. Then the next day I started 309 00:17:10,720 --> 00:17:12,200 having an internal battle, right? 310 00:17:12,200 --> 00:17:15,000 Because I'm, we're seeing a specialist and I'm like, well, 311 00:17:15,000 --> 00:17:18,040 God gave us medicine. God gave us a doctor. 312 00:17:18,119 --> 00:17:21,839 He gave us all these things to be able to have a baby. 313 00:17:22,000 --> 00:17:24,920 So should I continue to see a baby or a doctor? 314 00:17:26,160 --> 00:17:29,000 So the next day I'm like, you know what, I'm going to pray 315 00:17:29,000 --> 00:17:30,920 again. I wrote my journal and I said, 316 00:17:30,920 --> 00:17:33,640 God, please, should we continue to see a specialist? 317 00:17:33,640 --> 00:17:36,880 It's going to be so expensive. We had just got options and 318 00:17:36,880 --> 00:17:40,160 plans and they were saying $20,000 and more like it's going 319 00:17:40,160 --> 00:17:44,480 to be so expensive. Well, I opened up my Bible again 320 00:17:44,680 --> 00:17:47,040 and He said, may your money perish with you because you 321 00:17:47,040 --> 00:17:48,840 thought you could buy the gift of God with money. 322 00:17:50,400 --> 00:17:55,520 Acts 820 Again I'm screaming, I'm crying, I'm thanking God for 323 00:17:55,520 --> 00:17:58,360 answering me. He said you will be a mother and 324 00:17:58,360 --> 00:18:00,880 you don't have to do all that. I will make it happen when the 325 00:18:00,880 --> 00:18:04,080 time is right. In that moment I stopped running 326 00:18:04,080 --> 00:18:05,640 from God and started chasing Him. 327 00:18:06,240 --> 00:18:08,000 It wasn't the first time I felt His. 328 00:18:08,120 --> 00:18:11,720 That was the first true time that I felt His presence, that I 329 00:18:11,720 --> 00:18:15,240 heard from him and I knew that He saw me. 330 00:18:16,080 --> 00:18:18,880 It is one thing to know of God and what He can do, but it's 331 00:18:18,880 --> 00:18:23,280 another thing to experience Him. They said to the woman, we are 332 00:18:23,280 --> 00:18:27,040 no longer, we no longer believe just because of what you said. 333 00:18:27,680 --> 00:18:31,720 We now we will hear from ourselves and we know that this 334 00:18:31,720 --> 00:18:33,320 man is really the Savior of the world. 335 00:18:33,560 --> 00:18:37,640 John 442 I began saying yes to everything. 336 00:18:37,880 --> 00:18:40,440 I got invited to be a leader at our middle school camp and 337 00:18:40,440 --> 00:18:42,400 that's where I went and fell in love with ministry. 338 00:18:42,760 --> 00:18:46,240 Watching those kids being fire for the Lord just lit a fire 339 00:18:46,240 --> 00:18:48,920 inside of me. I came back a whole different 340 00:18:48,920 --> 00:18:52,720 person, like completely 180 from that time. 341 00:18:52,960 --> 00:18:56,440 I did drink two more times when I came home, but I felt horrible 342 00:18:56,440 --> 00:18:58,280 about it. I was just at camp telling the 343 00:18:58,280 --> 00:19:01,640 kids how great God is, but then here I am now I'm pulling up at 344 00:19:01,640 --> 00:19:04,480 the bar. The urge and the temptations 345 00:19:04,480 --> 00:19:07,920 began to slowly fade away. The more that I saw the Lord, 346 00:19:08,560 --> 00:19:11,240 the more I spent time in His Word and around like minded 347 00:19:11,240 --> 00:19:13,600 people. He just started replacing the 348 00:19:13,600 --> 00:19:16,120 thirst of alcohol with the thirst for Him. 349 00:19:16,840 --> 00:19:19,480 Jesus answered, anyone who drinks this water will be 350 00:19:19,480 --> 00:19:22,120 thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them 351 00:19:22,120 --> 00:19:24,960 will never thirst. John 413 through 14. 352 00:19:25,520 --> 00:19:28,640 I had my last drink on September 9th, 2023. 353 00:19:29,000 --> 00:19:32,720 I then started to pray and seek the Lord to take the desire from 354 00:19:32,720 --> 00:19:36,280 smoking and vaping from me. I've been a smoker in a vapor 355 00:19:36,280 --> 00:19:39,360 for 12 years and I never saw the day that I would ever stop. 356 00:19:39,720 --> 00:19:43,720 But November 3rd 2023 I put down the vape for the last time and 357 00:19:43,720 --> 00:19:47,000 never picked it back up. God doesn't say it will be easy 358 00:19:47,000 --> 00:19:50,120 to change your life or live for Him, but He does say it will be 359 00:19:50,120 --> 00:19:52,200 worth it and He will be your shepherd. 360 00:19:52,760 --> 00:19:56,280 Today I'm free, so if the sun sets you free, you'll be free 361 00:19:56,280 --> 00:19:58,400 indeed. John 826. 362 00:19:58,880 --> 00:20:01,520 I no longer put my identity in the things of the world. 363 00:20:01,520 --> 00:20:04,720 I put my identity in Christ. I now work in full time 364 00:20:04,720 --> 00:20:06,640 ministry. I'm the media director here at 365 00:20:06,640 --> 00:20:09,480 Southside, I'm a ministry director for Sisters of Faith, 366 00:20:09,480 --> 00:20:11,720 which is a transitional home for women who have overcome 367 00:20:11,720 --> 00:20:14,800 addiction. And I also lastly, I host a 368 00:20:14,800 --> 00:20:16,480 podcast called Praises in the Pod. 369 00:20:17,560 --> 00:20:20,760 God placed it on my heart last summer to start PITP and tell 370 00:20:20,760 --> 00:20:24,000 the goodness of what He's done in not only my life but others. 371 00:20:24,440 --> 00:20:27,480 This is nothing. There's nothing that I want more 372 00:20:27,480 --> 00:20:30,520 in life than for others to experience His love and His 373 00:20:30,520 --> 00:20:33,880 grace the way that I have and truly make Him the Lord and 374 00:20:33,880 --> 00:20:36,800 Savior of your life. I was loud in my sin and I want 375 00:20:36,800 --> 00:20:40,280 to be louder in Christ. I'm so thankful that He left the 376 00:20:40,280 --> 00:20:46,720 99 to come after this one. While I don't have the testimony 377 00:20:46,720 --> 00:20:49,880 of a baby yet, I have the testimony of my faithfulness. 378 00:20:50,200 --> 00:20:52,920 So I will proclaim that it's already been done. 379 00:20:54,400 --> 00:20:59,960 As I close, I want to leave you with the scripture Mark 217 on 380 00:21:00,240 --> 00:21:04,320 On hearing this Jesus said to them, it is not the healthy who 381 00:21:04,320 --> 00:21:07,480 need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the 382 00:21:07,480 --> 00:21:10,920 righteous but sinners. We all have hurts, habits, and 383 00:21:10,920 --> 00:21:13,360 hang ups. You might not do drugs, but you 384 00:21:13,360 --> 00:21:16,760 watch porn. You may not drink alcohol, but 385 00:21:16,760 --> 00:21:20,800 you can't continuously gossip. You may not cuss, but you may 386 00:21:20,800 --> 00:21:24,200 lust after men or women. God isn't calling the righteous. 387 00:21:24,200 --> 00:21:27,000 He isn't. He's looking for sinners who are 388 00:21:27,000 --> 00:21:30,640 in need of a Savior. If we were perfect, we wouldn't 389 00:21:30,640 --> 00:21:32,640 need Him. So tonight, I encourage you to 390 00:21:32,640 --> 00:21:34,640 let down your walls and be vulnerable. 391 00:21:34,840 --> 00:21:37,160 Come talk to Jesus. Repent of your sins. 392 00:21:37,480 --> 00:21:39,640 He doesn't. He doesn't call the qualified. 393 00:21:39,640 --> 00:21:45,120 He qualifies the call so each one of you in this room has a 394 00:21:45,120 --> 00:21:49,160 testimony and a purpose to be used to grow the Kingdom. 395 00:21:49,480 --> 00:21:52,080 Thank you so much for allowing me to share my story. 396 00:21:52,160 --> 00:21:53,960 This is all for Him and His glory alone. 397 00:21:54,240 --> 00:21:57,680 Thank you you. Know it's, it's crazy how you'll 398 00:21:57,720 --> 00:22:00,040 sit there and take all these notes and then right there at 399 00:22:00,040 --> 00:22:02,520 the end, he just changes everything. 400 00:22:03,280 --> 00:22:09,440 Look, you know, I, I did, we can sit there and talk about we just 401 00:22:09,440 --> 00:22:12,440 heard a change life, but it's, it's probably a little better 402 00:22:12,440 --> 00:22:14,120 than that. It's a breakout life. 403 00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:16,960 That's what that's what it is. It's a breakout life. 404 00:22:17,200 --> 00:22:20,560 Now, the righteousness of God. What does that mean? 405 00:22:20,560 --> 00:22:22,960 When you said that, man, it's just like, OK, that's what we, 406 00:22:22,960 --> 00:22:23,960 that's what we're going to talk about. 407 00:22:24,240 --> 00:22:25,920 It's the righteousness of God. You know what that is? 408 00:22:26,000 --> 00:22:31,160 That's the right standing and, and, and it's not, it is 409 00:22:31,160 --> 00:22:34,000 difficult. It will cost you everything, but 410 00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:38,200 like she said, it's worth it. But you have to literally stop 411 00:22:38,320 --> 00:22:42,400 to have this breakout life and to be had the right standing 412 00:22:42,400 --> 00:22:44,720 with God. You have to literally stop what 413 00:22:44,720 --> 00:22:47,520 it is you're doing, what it is you're getting, and you have to 414 00:22:47,520 --> 00:22:50,480 turn. You got to turn. 415 00:22:50,560 --> 00:22:52,040 I was talking to a brother coming in tonight. 416 00:22:52,200 --> 00:22:55,160 We can turn. But once I turn, I got to stay 417 00:22:55,160 --> 00:22:58,360 plugged. I got to stay around the things 418 00:22:58,360 --> 00:23:01,760 that please Him. I got to stay around the things 419 00:23:01,760 --> 00:23:06,000 that glorify him. And I can't go back to what it 420 00:23:06,000 --> 00:23:08,480 is I once was. Why? 421 00:23:08,600 --> 00:23:11,920 Because I met the King, and that's what happens. 422 00:23:12,400 --> 00:23:14,840 So we're not talking about anything new. 423 00:23:15,160 --> 00:23:17,360 We're talking about the only thing that'll change you. 424 00:23:18,320 --> 00:23:22,040 You want those bondage, those chains, You want them broke. 425 00:23:22,480 --> 00:23:25,840 He says I'll break them, but will you have me? 426 00:23:26,720 --> 00:23:30,600 What he means is, will you make me, Lord? 427 00:23:30,880 --> 00:23:33,760 Somebody's here tonight, no doubt. 428 00:23:34,320 --> 00:23:36,720 You've never truly made him Lord. 429 00:23:37,400 --> 00:23:40,440 You're in bondage. You want to be freed up. 430 00:23:41,600 --> 00:23:46,720 And you heard there's a right standing with God, the 431 00:23:46,720 --> 00:23:51,520 righteousness of Jesus Christ, but there's not one. 432 00:23:52,400 --> 00:23:54,360 But there's not one that's like that. 433 00:23:54,640 --> 00:23:59,720 But you can have the King, you can be rightly related, but Are 434 00:23:59,720 --> 00:24:01,960 you ready to give up that old way of living? 435 00:24:02,120 --> 00:24:03,920 Amen. Let me ask you to bow your 436 00:24:03,920 --> 00:24:06,040 heads. You know, with every head bow 437 00:24:06,040 --> 00:24:10,720 and every eye close, would somebody be willing to admit I 438 00:24:10,720 --> 00:24:14,800 don't have the right standing with God? 439 00:24:16,520 --> 00:24:22,960 I need to change my life. I'm always blown away why people 440 00:24:22,960 --> 00:24:27,000 think they come here and then they leave and they go, my 441 00:24:27,000 --> 00:24:33,640 goodness, I didn't know him. So with nobody looking around 442 00:24:34,760 --> 00:24:41,280 for once in a long time, would you be willing to admit man, 443 00:24:42,280 --> 00:24:48,240 I've never truly made him Lord. And I want to stop running 444 00:24:48,240 --> 00:24:54,360 tonight because once and forever I hear him calling me. 445 00:24:55,200 --> 00:24:58,440 If that's you and nobody's looking around, would you be 446 00:24:58,440 --> 00:25:02,360 willing to admit I am ready to break the chains? 447 00:25:02,960 --> 00:25:06,640 I want to change my life. I want to surrender to Jesus 448 00:25:06,640 --> 00:25:08,000 Christ. If that's you, would you hold 449 00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:11,120 your hand up? Thank you, thank you, thank you, 450 00:25:11,640 --> 00:25:18,320 thank you, thank you. You know, with every head bow 451 00:25:18,320 --> 00:25:23,280 and every eye close, He is so good and He's so faithful. 452 00:25:24,480 --> 00:25:27,920 He desires you. Are you with me? 453 00:25:28,440 --> 00:25:32,600 He desires you. The Bible says he stands and he 454 00:25:32,600 --> 00:25:34,680 knocks. What's he knocking for? 455 00:25:34,720 --> 00:25:42,840 Let him in, Let him in. You ain't got nothing better. 456 00:25:43,600 --> 00:25:46,160 It's just temporary and it fades. 457 00:25:46,960 --> 00:25:51,360 The King desires you, so if you didn't raise your hand and you 458 00:25:51,360 --> 00:25:53,800 know he's calling you, you should have raised your hand. 459 00:25:53,880 --> 00:25:55,840 Would you hold it up now? I want to give my life to 460 00:25:55,840 --> 00:25:57,000 Christ. Thank you. 461 00:25:57,480 --> 00:26:00,920 Thank you. God is so good. 462 00:26:01,880 --> 00:26:06,040 He's so good. He'll use the testimony of a 463 00:26:06,040 --> 00:26:10,800 changed life. What was the what was the 464 00:26:10,800 --> 00:26:13,520 reason? Thank you for that testimony. 465 00:26:13,640 --> 00:26:17,400 So somebody could be persuaded for the good news. 466 00:26:18,880 --> 00:26:20,160 Should you have raised your hand? 467 00:26:20,160 --> 00:26:22,120 It's not too late. If that's you, would you hold 468 00:26:22,120 --> 00:26:24,200 your hand up, man, I heard him call him. 469 00:26:24,200 --> 00:26:25,640 I should have raised my hand. Thank you. 470 00:26:26,280 --> 00:26:28,440 Thank you. Thank you. 471 00:26:28,920 --> 00:26:32,840 It ain't no coincidence. It's real. 472 00:26:33,400 --> 00:26:36,320 That's him. He desires you. 473 00:26:36,720 --> 00:26:38,440 This is going to cost you everything. 474 00:26:39,160 --> 00:26:40,880 OK? Everything. 475 00:26:42,120 --> 00:26:44,320 And he says I'm going to give you the power to pull it off. 476 00:26:44,720 --> 00:26:49,160 And what he means is the world will still pursue you with the 477 00:26:49,200 --> 00:26:52,160 things that the world has, which is of the enemy. 478 00:26:54,080 --> 00:26:59,760 But Jesus says I give you life and I give it abundantly. 479 00:27:00,040 --> 00:27:03,240 Now what's going to happen? The Holy Spirit will come and 480 00:27:03,240 --> 00:27:06,000 take up residence inside. What will you call your body? 481 00:27:06,240 --> 00:27:10,560 He calls His temple and He wants you to treat your body 482 00:27:10,560 --> 00:27:14,040 according. He wants your life to be a 483 00:27:14,040 --> 00:27:19,920 living sacrifice, a worship to the one that died on the cross 484 00:27:19,920 --> 00:27:22,080 for our sins. They buried him, but He got up. 485 00:27:22,840 --> 00:27:26,000 He got up, so he was resurrected. 486 00:27:26,040 --> 00:27:30,320 I fully believe He wants to resurrect you now from the old 487 00:27:30,320 --> 00:27:33,080 dead way that you've been living to the new life in Christ. 488 00:27:33,080 --> 00:27:34,480 It is the most beautiful picture. 489 00:27:35,280 --> 00:27:39,240 So I'm asking you, are you OK with the new life that he's 490 00:27:39,240 --> 00:27:42,600 called you to live and accept it and embrace it? 491 00:27:42,600 --> 00:27:45,960 And you tell the world no. You tell the world no. 492 00:27:46,040 --> 00:27:47,800 Now, I, I don't know if I've ever done this. 493 00:27:48,160 --> 00:27:50,600 I got saved, you know, a year later, I had to quit smoking 494 00:27:50,600 --> 00:27:51,840 cigarettes. And I probably should have told 495 00:27:51,840 --> 00:27:54,720 you that, but I won't. I want to tell you because you 496 00:27:54,720 --> 00:27:56,200 ain't always going to get it right. 497 00:27:57,120 --> 00:27:58,960 But I'll tell you right now, that old Holy Spirit gets to 498 00:27:58,960 --> 00:28:03,240 living in you and you become convicted when you doing things 499 00:28:03,240 --> 00:28:06,080 you ain't supposed to do. And ultimately you got to make a 500 00:28:06,080 --> 00:28:07,560 change. And that's what we do as 501 00:28:07,560 --> 00:28:09,800 Christians. We get convicted, we make 502 00:28:09,800 --> 00:28:14,280 changes, and then other people want what you got and then you 503 00:28:14,280 --> 00:28:16,160 get to tell them about Jesus. Oh, come, get too far. 504 00:28:16,160 --> 00:28:18,600 But you OK with this? Are you ready to change your 505 00:28:18,600 --> 00:28:21,040 life for the cause of Christ? Are you ready to invite Him into 506 00:28:21,040 --> 00:28:24,280 your heart and so that he may come and live and reign and rule 507 00:28:24,280 --> 00:28:25,600 in your life? Are you good with that? 508 00:28:26,240 --> 00:28:28,480 And if you are, I want you to bow your heads and I'm going to 509 00:28:28,480 --> 00:28:30,640 lead you into prayer. And I want you to say this 510 00:28:30,640 --> 00:28:34,480 prayer behind me and you're praying to the only one that can 511 00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:37,680 save you is name is Jesus. And I want you to invite Jesus 512 00:28:37,680 --> 00:28:43,040 into your heart. Father, I admit I'm a Sinner and 513 00:28:43,040 --> 00:28:44,960 I believe you die on the cross for my sins. 514 00:28:47,600 --> 00:28:53,040 I confess all my sins to you and I commit my life to you. 515 00:28:55,360 --> 00:29:01,240 I ask you to come into my heart and save me and change me. 516 00:29:02,120 --> 00:29:05,520 Lord, we love you so much. And I just, I sense, I just 517 00:29:05,520 --> 00:29:07,120 sense that you're just going and getting. 518 00:29:07,760 --> 00:29:09,440 I just sense that you're changing. 519 00:29:10,560 --> 00:29:14,960 We, we, we, we see it, we hear it, we believe it that you do 520 00:29:14,960 --> 00:29:17,640 save. And that's what's happening. 521 00:29:18,360 --> 00:29:22,480 Men and women right now. Their eyes are becoming open for 522 00:29:22,480 --> 00:29:26,560 the first time, and all they're going to know is I was blind, 523 00:29:26,560 --> 00:29:30,720 but now I see. And that's such a beautiful new 524 00:29:30,720 --> 00:29:34,840 life. We rejoice in their decision. 525 00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:37,920 We thank you for what it is you do. 526 00:29:38,840 --> 00:29:42,480 We love you, Jesus Christ, and it's in your name we pray. 527 00:29:42,480 --> 00:29:43,760 Amen. Let's give it up for them. 528 00:30:01,880 --> 00:30:17,000 You are the one with God, the Lord of Most High, Your hidden 529 00:30:17,000 --> 00:30:26,840 glory and creation now rebuilding you, our Christ. 530 00:30:27,440 --> 00:30:34,880 What a beautiful name it is. What a beautiful name it is, the 531 00:30:34,880 --> 00:30:43,760 name of Jesus Christ my King. What a beautiful name it is. 532 00:30:45,480 --> 00:30:52,120 Nothing compares to this. What a beautiful name it is, the 533 00:30:52,200 --> 00:31:08,400 name of Jesus. So Jesus live from heaven. 534 00:31:11,960 --> 00:31:18,880 Down my. Shrimp was great, Your love was 535 00:31:18,920 --> 00:31:22,600 greater. What can shrimper? 536 00:31:24,600 --> 00:31:29,680 Rain us now. What a wonderful name it is. 537 00:31:30,960 --> 00:31:32,640 What a wonderful. Name. 538 00:31:32,880 --> 00:31:39,400 It is the name of Jesus Christ. Mighty. 539 00:31:41,600 --> 00:31:46,520 What a wonderful. Name it is nothing contains to. 540 00:31:46,800 --> 00:31:50,560 This. What a wonderful name. 541 00:31:50,600 --> 00:31:56,080 It is the name of. Jesus, what a. 542 00:31:56,280 --> 00:31:59,680 Wonderful name. It is the name of Jesus. 543 00:32:05,840 --> 00:32:11,120 Well, there's no other. There's no other name like the 544 00:32:11,160 --> 00:32:19,720 name of Jesus. No, death could not hold you. 545 00:32:20,520 --> 00:32:27,640 The veil tore before you. You silence the most of sin, 546 00:32:29,240 --> 00:32:34,880 ingrain. The heavens are roaring the 547 00:32:34,920 --> 00:32:42,160 praise of your glory, for you are raised to life. 548 00:32:42,800 --> 00:32:49,760 Oh. You have no right hope, You have 549 00:32:50,200 --> 00:33:03,680 no equal. Thou in glory, your sister, your 550 00:33:03,680 --> 00:33:07,600 sister the wrong way. Your sister name. 551 00:33:07,640 --> 00:33:20,880 What a powerful baby it is. What a powerful baby it is the 552 00:33:21,080 --> 00:33:29,040 name of Jesus Christ. My, what a powerful baby. 553 00:33:31,680 --> 00:33:32,840 There's nothing can stand to him. 554 00:33:34,480 --> 00:33:40,520 What a powerful name. It is the name of For you have 555 00:33:40,520 --> 00:33:47,920 no, you have no right hope. You have no, no evil. 556 00:33:48,040 --> 00:33:57,840 Thou in glory may thy new evil. But you don't need to be, girl. 557 00:33:59,680 --> 00:34:08,480 Yours is ignoring yours is the name of our own name. 558 00:34:09,719 --> 00:34:17,000 What a powerful name. What a powerful name it is the 559 00:34:18,880 --> 00:34:26,120 name of Jesus Christ. What a powerful name it is. 560 00:34:27,880 --> 00:34:34,320 Nothing can't stand against. What a powerful game it is. 561 00:34:34,440 --> 00:34:38,440 The name of. What a powerful. 562 00:34:38,560 --> 00:34:44,199 What a powerful game it is. The name of. 563 00:34:45,600 --> 00:34:48,840 What a powerful. What a powerful game it is. 564 00:34:48,920 --> 00:35:04,920 The name of Jesus. Lord, we love you. 565 00:35:05,960 --> 00:35:10,240 It is so thick and in here right now with Your spirit. 566 00:35:11,080 --> 00:35:13,920 We know it and I sense it. You're here. 567 00:35:15,880 --> 00:35:17,800 It's what you do. You go and you get. 568 00:35:19,640 --> 00:35:23,320 We want to continue to do this, but you give us more of this. 569 00:35:23,320 --> 00:35:28,320 Let us learn how to worship you more and love and trust You 570 00:35:28,320 --> 00:35:34,000 more. I truly believe we can worship 571 00:35:34,000 --> 00:35:39,080 you by the way we live, by the way we talk, by the way we act, 572 00:35:39,440 --> 00:35:43,920 because we've made you Lord Jesus Christ. 573 00:35:43,920 --> 00:35:46,120 Thank you for what it is you're doing. 574 00:35:46,400 --> 00:35:48,480 It's in your name we pray. Amen. 575 00:35:48,880 --> 00:35:51,640 Well guys, this episode looked a little different and if. 576 00:35:51,640 --> 00:35:54,840 You've stayed this long, I. Truly appreciate all the love 577 00:35:54,840 --> 00:35:57,040 and support that you guys continue to give me. 578 00:35:57,400 --> 00:36:00,200 This is all for Him and His glory alone, and I truly mean 579 00:36:00,200 --> 00:36:04,080 that. I pray that this episode really 580 00:36:04,080 --> 00:36:06,680 spoke to you. I would love to know if maybe 581 00:36:06,680 --> 00:36:11,480 you prayed that prayer. Maybe you said that was for me 582 00:36:11,480 --> 00:36:15,480 and God is calling me. He is trying to get my 583 00:36:15,480 --> 00:36:18,560 attention. And I said I'm ready to quit 584 00:36:18,560 --> 00:36:20,960 running. I'm ready to surrender my life 585 00:36:20,960 --> 00:36:22,480 to you. And if that was you, I would 586 00:36:22,480 --> 00:36:24,800 love to know it. Message me on Facebook and 587 00:36:24,800 --> 00:36:28,200 Instagram. I would just love to talk to you 588 00:36:28,200 --> 00:36:31,600 and you know, maybe be there for you in this new journey. 589 00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:33,000 And I don't have it all together. 590 00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:36,400 I don't know everything, but God does call us to be a part of the 591 00:36:36,480 --> 00:36:39,160 a community. And I want PITP to be a 592 00:36:39,160 --> 00:36:41,920 community. So if that was you, maybe you 593 00:36:41,920 --> 00:36:44,560 can vote on here or comment on here, whatever you feel 594 00:36:44,560 --> 00:36:46,920 comfortable doing. Just reach out. 595 00:36:46,920 --> 00:36:48,960 Don't. Isolate yourself. 596 00:36:49,760 --> 00:36:51,680 Get a community, no matter what, that. 597 00:36:51,680 --> 00:36:55,120 Looks like fine like minded. People to help you walk through 598 00:36:55,120 --> 00:36:58,760 this new life. Well guys, that's it. 599 00:37:00,280 --> 00:37:03,400 Stay tuned, stay blessed, and we'll see you guys next week. 600 00:49:28,920 --> 00:49:30,600 Let's give a warm Celebrate Recovery. 601 00:49:30,600 --> 00:49:33,360 Welcome to our sister in Christ, Miss Alexis Brown.