1 00:00:06,760 --> 00:00:09,640 What's up guys? My name is Alexis Brown, your 2 00:00:09,640 --> 00:00:12,480 host with Praises in the pod. And I'm so thankful that you are 3 00:00:12,480 --> 00:00:14,680 still tuning into Praises in the pod. 4 00:00:15,080 --> 00:00:18,880 It is officially been two months since I started this podcast and 5 00:00:18,880 --> 00:00:23,800 started this journey and just really trying to be bold in my 6 00:00:23,800 --> 00:00:27,120 faith and just come on here week in and week out and discuss 7 00:00:27,120 --> 00:00:30,760 testimonies and things that he's done in my life and what he's 8 00:00:30,760 --> 00:00:33,360 revealed to me. And so I'm just super stoked to 9 00:00:33,360 --> 00:00:36,120 continue this journey with you guys and I hope that you 10 00:00:36,400 --> 00:00:39,240 continue to tag along. So we're going to start off in 11 00:00:39,240 --> 00:00:42,480 prayer and then we're going to jump right in for what we're 12 00:00:42,480 --> 00:00:44,640 going to talk about today. So let's do this. 13 00:00:48,920 --> 00:00:50,720 Lord Heavenly Father, thank you for today. 14 00:00:50,720 --> 00:00:52,440 Thank you for all your many blessings. 15 00:00:52,440 --> 00:00:56,160 Dear God, thank you for allowing me to get on here week in and 16 00:00:56,160 --> 00:00:59,320 week out and just talk about your goodness and what you've 17 00:00:59,320 --> 00:01:01,960 done in my life and what you've done in others lives. 18 00:01:01,960 --> 00:01:06,480 Lord, I just pray that each week I continue to grow closer with 19 00:01:06,480 --> 00:01:09,000 you. Each day I continue to grow 20 00:01:09,000 --> 00:01:12,920 closer with you. I just pray that you know each 21 00:01:12,920 --> 00:01:17,960 person that listens to these podcasts gets 1 little thing 22 00:01:17,960 --> 00:01:22,080 from each each one Lord. I pray that you touch their 23 00:01:22,080 --> 00:01:24,280 hearts and you stir in them Lord. 24 00:01:24,280 --> 00:01:26,040 So they want to grow closer with you. 25 00:01:26,040 --> 00:01:27,480 They want to get to know you more. 26 00:01:27,480 --> 00:01:31,240 Lord, I just pray that every week this glorifies you. 27 00:01:31,520 --> 00:01:35,400 I pray that we deny ourselves and we pick up our crosses for 28 00:01:35,400 --> 00:01:38,280 you. Lord, thank you for all that you 29 00:01:38,280 --> 00:01:40,960 have done and what you're going to do and what you're doing 30 00:01:40,960 --> 00:01:43,800 right now. Lord, thank you in Jesus name I 31 00:01:43,800 --> 00:01:51,520 pray Amen, y'all. I recently I have been kind of 32 00:01:51,520 --> 00:01:54,840 thinking about some stuff about how each week I get on here and 33 00:01:54,840 --> 00:02:01,480 it just sounds like you surrender to God and only good 34 00:02:01,480 --> 00:02:04,160 things happen. You don't struggle, you don't 35 00:02:04,160 --> 00:02:09,720 have these terrible days and you don't go through these hard 36 00:02:09,720 --> 00:02:13,120 times. Like I have talked about how I 37 00:02:13,120 --> 00:02:17,080 open my Bible and God answers me about things. 38 00:02:17,080 --> 00:02:21,160 And I actually was talking to someone, a friend recently and 39 00:02:21,160 --> 00:02:24,800 they were like, you know, I did that and nothing came about it. 40 00:02:25,640 --> 00:02:30,040 And it kind of made me realize that I'm just talking about my 41 00:02:30,040 --> 00:02:33,800 experiences and maybe I haven't been clear about that or maybe I 42 00:02:33,800 --> 00:02:38,400 haven't done a good job of saying certain things and it's 43 00:02:38,400 --> 00:02:41,920 just a learning process. You know, we're still in the 44 00:02:41,920 --> 00:02:47,560 first two months of this podcast and I am learning. 45 00:02:47,560 --> 00:02:51,440 I'm learning and I want to be transparent and I want to be 46 00:02:51,440 --> 00:02:57,520 vulnerable and I want to be raw. And I just, I feel like 47 00:02:57,560 --> 00:03:01,520 sometimes the enemy really does get in my head and he makes me 48 00:03:01,520 --> 00:03:05,440 think that, you know, you're not doing a good job. 49 00:03:05,600 --> 00:03:08,680 I start getting really down on myself about this stuff. 50 00:03:08,680 --> 00:03:12,600 And so I just really want to be transparent with y'all about 51 00:03:12,600 --> 00:03:16,280 some things that I've currently, I went through recently that I 52 00:03:16,280 --> 00:03:21,280 haven't shared with many people or I haven't, you know, really 53 00:03:21,280 --> 00:03:26,920 talked about. So I started going on girls 54 00:03:26,920 --> 00:03:30,400 trips and Bachelorette parties and all this stuff. 55 00:03:30,400 --> 00:03:34,400 Probably like when I was like probably when I was in high 56 00:03:34,400 --> 00:03:36,840 school, I started going on these types of trips. 57 00:03:36,840 --> 00:03:44,880 And so from high school all the way up until last year, I went 58 00:03:44,880 --> 00:03:48,080 on these weekends or these weeks and these vacations and 59 00:03:48,080 --> 00:03:49,880 whatever. And I partied and I partied and 60 00:03:49,880 --> 00:03:53,480 I partied. And I mean, just the whole time 61 00:03:53,480 --> 00:03:56,040 from the time I went on vacation, from the time that I 62 00:03:56,040 --> 00:04:00,120 stepped foot in my Airbnb or hotel or anything like I was 63 00:04:00,120 --> 00:04:04,160 drinking, from the time that I got on vacation, I was going to 64 00:04:04,160 --> 00:04:08,880 drink like I went on vacation to change the scenery to drink. 65 00:04:09,200 --> 00:04:11,400 I was still doing the same things, but now I'm just in a 66 00:04:11,400 --> 00:04:17,000 different area code. And so that I mean, for 10 or 67 00:04:17,000 --> 00:04:21,640 more years, that is all I've done since I started this new 68 00:04:21,640 --> 00:04:25,680 life with Jesus. You know, I'm over a year sober 69 00:04:25,680 --> 00:04:28,920 now. I am coming up on my one year 70 00:04:29,040 --> 00:04:31,800 nicotine free. I quit vaping. 71 00:04:31,800 --> 00:04:36,880 And so I've just had to really learn how to adjust to this 72 00:04:36,880 --> 00:04:41,720 lifestyle. I've had to teach myself how to 73 00:04:44,680 --> 00:04:47,920 live. I've had to teach myself how to 74 00:04:47,920 --> 00:04:53,280 live sober, how to have fun sober, how to not wake up and 75 00:04:53,280 --> 00:04:59,720 think, oh, I was still in school. 76 00:04:59,720 --> 00:05:02,320 Let's let's give an example. This is how my brain used to 77 00:05:02,320 --> 00:05:05,200 work. I would finish a test, I would 78 00:05:05,200 --> 00:05:08,120 finish an assignment and I'll be like, I need to reward myself. 79 00:05:08,120 --> 00:05:11,680 Let me go down to Georgia Bobs. And if you know what Georgia 80 00:05:11,680 --> 00:05:16,400 Bobs is like, is not like the place to be. 81 00:05:16,400 --> 00:05:18,880 Like it's a restaurant and it just has a bar in it. 82 00:05:19,240 --> 00:05:24,720 And I spent so much of my early 20s, all the OR no, I remember 83 00:05:24,720 --> 00:05:29,080 going there before I was 21, as sad as that is like I remember 84 00:05:29,080 --> 00:05:34,760 going. And so from 20 to 28, I, I lived 85 00:05:34,760 --> 00:05:37,760 at Georgia Bob's. Me and my friends used to joke 86 00:05:37,760 --> 00:05:40,120 and we were like, we're paying the light bill to this place, 87 00:05:40,120 --> 00:05:43,880 like we're paying this place's bills because we were there so 88 00:05:43,880 --> 00:05:45,520 much. And so that was my mindset. 89 00:05:45,520 --> 00:05:51,280 Anytime something good happened in my life, anytime I was going 90 00:05:51,280 --> 00:05:55,240 through something like I was upset or I was mad or I was 91 00:05:55,240 --> 00:06:00,520 happy and I was glad and all this stuff I needed to drink. 92 00:06:00,680 --> 00:06:06,440 I, I needed to reward myself. And so this past year, I've 93 00:06:06,440 --> 00:06:12,040 really had to learn to reward myself in other ways. 94 00:06:12,040 --> 00:06:15,400 And not everything does deserves a reward. 95 00:06:16,040 --> 00:06:19,360 I think that's something that I really had to learn is not 96 00:06:19,400 --> 00:06:22,800 everything deserves a reward. Some things are just you're 97 00:06:22,800 --> 00:06:27,960 living like, I went to work today, you know, like it's just 98 00:06:28,280 --> 00:06:32,760 you just live like anyway. So I've had to teach myself 99 00:06:32,760 --> 00:06:35,240 that. So going back to the vacations, 100 00:06:35,760 --> 00:06:39,920 for the last over 10 years, when I've went on vacation, I 101 00:06:39,920 --> 00:06:44,120 associate that with partying and drinking and whatever. 102 00:06:44,440 --> 00:06:48,720 So back in April, I went on my first beach trip and it was 103 00:06:48,720 --> 00:06:51,320 actually a woman's retreat with the Potter's house. 104 00:06:51,320 --> 00:06:55,200 Me and my mom went with them and that was the first time I've 105 00:06:55,200 --> 00:06:56,920 ever been to the beach and I didn't drink. 106 00:06:57,360 --> 00:07:01,160 And so that was great because I'm with people, you know, 107 00:07:02,040 --> 00:07:05,200 that's the same thing. We're in our word constantly. 108 00:07:05,520 --> 00:07:09,040 We're in our word constantly to the point where we're either in 109 00:07:09,040 --> 00:07:12,760 worship, we're singing and dancing, or we're, you know, 110 00:07:12,760 --> 00:07:16,520 like reading the Bible. And we're just in constant good 111 00:07:16,520 --> 00:07:20,600 fellowship. And so this whole summer, I've 112 00:07:20,600 --> 00:07:25,880 been out of town very regularly. And something that, you know, 113 00:07:26,040 --> 00:07:31,120 God has really revealed to me more recently is the devil wants 114 00:07:31,120 --> 00:07:38,400 to keep me busy and to the point where I'm not really focusing on 115 00:07:38,400 --> 00:07:41,280 my relationship with God. I'm checking the boxes. 116 00:07:41,640 --> 00:07:44,160 I'm doing this stuff. But like, I'm not sitting down 117 00:07:44,160 --> 00:07:49,000 and being still in God. I'm not spending that time and 118 00:07:49,000 --> 00:07:53,040 just letting it just just dwell with him. 119 00:07:53,480 --> 00:07:58,640 And so I've realized that and I've tried to take a step back 120 00:07:58,640 --> 00:08:07,520 in my life and I've just realized that I've neglected so 121 00:08:07,520 --> 00:08:13,800 many areas of my life, being so busy and constantly searching to 122 00:08:13,800 --> 00:08:18,800 be busy because if I sit down, I feel like there's too much to be 123 00:08:18,800 --> 00:08:20,920 done. Like, why sit down and waste my 124 00:08:20,920 --> 00:08:24,640 time? And I should be doing something. 125 00:08:24,640 --> 00:08:26,400 I should be going to do something. 126 00:08:26,400 --> 00:08:29,320 I should be going here. I should be doing this, like all 127 00:08:29,320 --> 00:08:33,080 this stuff. And so I've realized that 128 00:08:33,480 --> 00:08:38,080 because I have been so busy, I've neglected so many parts of 129 00:08:38,080 --> 00:08:42,200 my life. And that's been a very tough 130 00:08:42,200 --> 00:08:46,320 thing for me to swallow because I don't want to pull back. 131 00:08:46,320 --> 00:08:50,160 But I know that I have to. I know that God is calling me to 132 00:08:50,160 --> 00:08:52,360 pull back. He's calling me to be still. 133 00:08:52,360 --> 00:08:57,240 He's calling me to just sit down, sit down. 134 00:08:57,680 --> 00:09:00,320 You're, you've been doing too much. 135 00:09:01,440 --> 00:09:07,800 And so that's where I've been. And so back to this is 136 00:09:07,800 --> 00:09:10,520 Bachelorette trip that I just went on recently. 137 00:09:11,760 --> 00:09:17,960 I, it was a great time. I was around all my girls from 138 00:09:17,960 --> 00:09:23,440 church, my best friends. And so I'm in a safe place, OK. 139 00:09:23,440 --> 00:09:26,960 And I really have not been around a whole lot. 140 00:09:27,320 --> 00:09:30,120 I have been in a bubble. I have been in a bubble. 141 00:09:30,240 --> 00:09:34,280 I went from living completely in the world, completely in sin and 142 00:09:34,280 --> 00:09:38,240 all this stuff, and I instantly almost removed myself from that 143 00:09:38,240 --> 00:09:45,640 and put myself in this bubble. And I have not been really 144 00:09:45,640 --> 00:09:50,080 tempted in any type of way because I'm constantly in these 145 00:09:50,080 --> 00:09:56,400 events or these groups and stuff where there's not a whole lot of 146 00:09:56,400 --> 00:10:00,320 my past life in those, you know, areas, right? 147 00:10:00,320 --> 00:10:02,960 So the drinking, the vaping and all that, that's not really in 148 00:10:02,960 --> 00:10:05,720 my day-to-day that I see and I encounter. 149 00:10:06,200 --> 00:10:13,480 And so on this Bachelorette trip, we went on a sunset cruise 150 00:10:14,680 --> 00:10:17,960 and I'm like, this is going to be so much fun. 151 00:10:18,120 --> 00:10:22,120 Whatever. I'm just so I'm stoked, right? 152 00:10:22,480 --> 00:10:27,200 But then it clicked to me when we got on the boat, it's a big, 153 00:10:27,200 --> 00:10:28,920 huge boat, right? And it's got a bar in the 154 00:10:28,920 --> 00:10:32,720 center. And instantly something already 155 00:10:32,720 --> 00:10:35,720 triggered me to think that I needed to go to that bar as soon 156 00:10:35,720 --> 00:10:38,320 as I got on the boat and I had a Red Bull. 157 00:10:38,720 --> 00:10:42,520 And you know, I'm just drinking the Red Bull. 158 00:10:42,520 --> 00:10:44,720 I'm just sitting down. I'm trying to just focus like 159 00:10:44,720 --> 00:10:46,440 out front. And I haven't really turned 160 00:10:46,440 --> 00:10:50,840 around to, to my surroundings. But the people beside me like 161 00:10:50,840 --> 00:10:54,960 they all have alcohol and people are vaping and all this stuff. 162 00:10:54,960 --> 00:11:00,800 And I see this and, and at the beginning it was like, OK, just 163 00:11:00,800 --> 00:11:02,920 put my blockers on, you know, whatever. 164 00:11:03,160 --> 00:11:08,240 I have been on these sunset cruises and these booze cruises 165 00:11:08,240 --> 00:11:12,000 and all this stuff for years. And so this is the first time 166 00:11:12,000 --> 00:11:17,040 I'm in this scenario or this situation, not drinking. 167 00:11:18,240 --> 00:11:23,200 And as time went on while we're on this boat, I know that I'm 168 00:11:23,200 --> 00:11:25,040 struggling. I know that I'm struggling. 169 00:11:25,040 --> 00:11:28,480 Like I've already shut down at this point, like just barely 170 00:11:28,480 --> 00:11:31,680 talking, barely interacting. And I don't want to be that way. 171 00:11:31,680 --> 00:11:34,560 I want to celebrate my bride and I want to celebrate this. 172 00:11:34,560 --> 00:11:41,400 But like I'm having a hard time. And then we got up to go take a 173 00:11:41,400 --> 00:11:45,760 picture in the back of the boat. And so when I turn around and I 174 00:11:45,760 --> 00:11:49,800 noticed how, like drunk everybody was, like there was 175 00:11:49,800 --> 00:11:52,840 music playing and people were dancing and all this stuff. 176 00:11:53,160 --> 00:11:54,600 And I'm like, OK, just go to that. 177 00:11:54,600 --> 00:11:56,880 Just go to the back, go take the photo and then come back and sit 178 00:11:56,880 --> 00:12:00,880 down. Well, I came back, we did that. 179 00:12:00,880 --> 00:12:03,080 And I've just noticed all this stuff, you know, whatever. 180 00:12:03,600 --> 00:12:06,200 And I come back and I sit down. I don't really sit back in my 181 00:12:06,200 --> 00:12:09,000 same spot because women had gotten up to go to the front of 182 00:12:09,000 --> 00:12:12,120 the boat to take a photo, you know, like with the sunset 183 00:12:12,120 --> 00:12:13,920 behind them. So they're kind of my way or 184 00:12:13,920 --> 00:12:16,320 whatever out there. So I kind of sat more back. 185 00:12:16,400 --> 00:12:21,600 Well, as I'm looking around, I see all these couples and they 186 00:12:21,600 --> 00:12:24,400 were drinking and laughing and having a great time. 187 00:12:24,880 --> 00:12:31,840 And for a split second I missed my old life. 188 00:12:34,480 --> 00:12:39,520 I missed going out and doing all that stuff, getting on that boat 189 00:12:39,520 --> 00:12:42,200 and getting drunk with my friends and. 190 00:12:42,960 --> 00:12:46,120 And how me and my husband used to always go out and do these 191 00:12:46,120 --> 00:12:49,880 things and just just drink and laugh and all this stuff. 192 00:12:51,080 --> 00:12:58,480 And I just really, really, really missed it in that split 193 00:12:58,480 --> 00:12:59,840 moment. I missed it. 194 00:13:01,440 --> 00:13:09,680 And then after I realized what I thought I missed, what I, what I 195 00:13:09,680 --> 00:13:15,120 was glorifying and fantasizing about is what God saved me from. 196 00:13:17,160 --> 00:13:19,360 I wasn't a good person back then. 197 00:13:20,400 --> 00:13:24,000 I I was falling down drunk all the time. 198 00:13:24,000 --> 00:13:28,000 My husband would have to beg me to leave the bars or come home 199 00:13:28,000 --> 00:13:32,240 and stuff like that like that. Life was not worth living for. 200 00:13:32,800 --> 00:13:38,600 But here I am on a Bachelorette trip fantasizing of what my life 201 00:13:38,600 --> 00:13:41,200 used to look like and how much I missed it. 202 00:13:41,560 --> 00:13:44,760 And then the guilt and the shame took over. 203 00:13:45,920 --> 00:13:52,680 I literally shut completely down and I just started praying and I 204 00:13:52,680 --> 00:13:56,640 started begging God to forgive me for even thinking of those 205 00:13:56,640 --> 00:14:00,440 things in that type of way and missing that lifestyle and 206 00:14:00,440 --> 00:14:06,640 missing all this stuff. And I that was the first time 207 00:14:06,640 --> 00:14:12,680 that I had truly been tempted. And you know, I, every episode I 208 00:14:12,680 --> 00:14:17,960 talk about community and if I wouldn't have been with those 209 00:14:17,960 --> 00:14:21,600 group of girls, the Lord knows what would have happened. 210 00:14:21,600 --> 00:14:26,320 Like I just, I don't know what would have happened because I 211 00:14:26,320 --> 00:14:29,960 felt so vulnerable. That kind of just made me 212 00:14:30,800 --> 00:14:39,800 realize how easy relapse and, and how easy it is to fall back 213 00:14:39,800 --> 00:14:45,200 into your old life. Because if I wasn't in my word 214 00:14:45,400 --> 00:14:49,160 and I didn't know God's promises for me and I didn't talk to God 215 00:14:49,160 --> 00:14:53,480 on a regular basis, surround myself with those godly women 216 00:14:53,480 --> 00:14:58,280 that build me up. I don't, I don't know where I 217 00:14:58,280 --> 00:14:59,880 would have been. I don't know where I would have 218 00:14:59,880 --> 00:15:02,880 been today because I could have easily fallen. 219 00:15:04,320 --> 00:15:08,080 I could have easily went right back to that life. 220 00:15:08,080 --> 00:15:11,320 I was talking to somebody more recently and they just brought 221 00:15:11,320 --> 00:15:13,840 up, would you ever be able to like drink a drink again? 222 00:15:13,840 --> 00:15:18,480 Would you ever be able to bend about certain things, you know, 223 00:15:18,480 --> 00:15:21,040 like have a beer or two or whatever? 224 00:15:21,480 --> 00:15:27,200 And I just, I, I just can't. And I really do believe that, 225 00:15:28,840 --> 00:15:33,760 you know, that is how people end up falling is because we get in 226 00:15:33,760 --> 00:15:39,160 this place where we see how good we are or how we're not good. 227 00:15:39,320 --> 00:15:43,360 But God, you know, gives us a shrink to break those chains. 228 00:15:43,360 --> 00:15:46,320 And he breaks those chains and he does all this stuff. 229 00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:49,560 And so we get in this good place and we're like, oh, well, you 230 00:15:49,560 --> 00:15:56,200 know, I can have a beer or two. I can, you know, hit a vape a 231 00:15:56,200 --> 00:16:00,440 few times like that doesn't that's not going to affect me. 232 00:16:00,920 --> 00:16:06,880 Sin separates us from God. So the more that we sin, the 233 00:16:06,880 --> 00:16:10,160 more that we do those little things. 234 00:16:10,200 --> 00:16:13,360 He's gradually going to distance himself, right? 235 00:16:13,600 --> 00:16:16,880 Like he's, we're gradually not going to feel his presence 236 00:16:16,880 --> 00:16:22,600 because he can't physically, he cannot be in that darkness. 237 00:16:23,000 --> 00:16:26,480 And sin is darkness. He, he light and darkness have 238 00:16:26,480 --> 00:16:29,480 nothing in common. They are complete and polar 239 00:16:29,480 --> 00:16:33,360 opposites. So when we're sinning and we're 240 00:16:33,360 --> 00:16:37,440 doing all this stuff, we, God can't be present. 241 00:16:38,160 --> 00:16:41,480 And so we start with these little things. 242 00:16:41,800 --> 00:16:46,240 If I were to go have a drink or if I started vaping here and 243 00:16:46,240 --> 00:16:53,280 there again, eventually it would get more and more and more until 244 00:16:53,280 --> 00:16:59,840 the point where I'm completely lost and I am back to where I 245 00:16:59,840 --> 00:17:03,640 started. And that's just something that I 246 00:17:03,640 --> 00:17:07,160 just really can't do. You know, I don't want to even 247 00:17:07,160 --> 00:17:10,800 chance it. I don't want to lose everything 248 00:17:10,800 --> 00:17:14,800 that I have learned and every that not saying that I'm going 249 00:17:14,800 --> 00:17:17,319 to lose it. God is always there. 250 00:17:17,520 --> 00:17:21,200 We can always turn back to Him even as even if we sin and we do 251 00:17:21,200 --> 00:17:23,520 all this stuff, we can always turn back to Him and run back to 252 00:17:23,520 --> 00:17:26,480 him. In a few weeks I'm going to have 253 00:17:26,480 --> 00:17:30,760 an episode all about the Armor of God, and I'm so excited for 254 00:17:30,760 --> 00:17:33,760 that episode because there's actually going to be a big 255 00:17:33,760 --> 00:17:37,920 announcement for praises in the pod before that episodes 256 00:17:37,920 --> 00:17:41,640 released. The episode of The Armor of God 257 00:17:41,640 --> 00:17:44,840 is going to come out November 13th and I'm making a huge 258 00:17:44,840 --> 00:17:49,720 announcement on November 8th about praises in the pod and the 259 00:17:49,720 --> 00:17:53,080 direction that it's going. And I've got to get those final 260 00:17:53,080 --> 00:17:56,560 details worked out. But there's going to be a big 261 00:17:56,560 --> 00:18:00,000 announcement. I have been preparing for that 262 00:18:00,000 --> 00:18:02,600 episode. And so I've been, you know, 263 00:18:02,600 --> 00:18:05,680 diving into this Bible study and there's videos that go with the 264 00:18:05,680 --> 00:18:09,400 Bible study and it's Priscilla Shire. 265 00:18:09,960 --> 00:18:15,880 And she was saying how how the devil disguises himself to look 266 00:18:15,880 --> 00:18:18,960 so close to God's will for our life. 267 00:18:18,960 --> 00:18:22,920 So here is God's will for our life and that the enemy will 268 00:18:22,920 --> 00:18:28,120 make it look almost identical. You won't even be able to tell 269 00:18:28,120 --> 00:18:32,480 the difference between God's will and this be unless you're 270 00:18:32,880 --> 00:18:36,920 so in line with God that you know that this is God's will for 271 00:18:36,920 --> 00:18:39,720 your life. He will make it seem like this 272 00:18:39,720 --> 00:18:43,560 is this is it, this is what you need to choose. 273 00:18:43,960 --> 00:18:47,960 And so I feel like, you know, even though the whole sunset 274 00:18:47,960 --> 00:18:52,800 cruise and all that, like obviously I know God's not going 275 00:18:52,800 --> 00:18:56,600 to call me to drink alcohol and he's not going to call me to, 276 00:18:56,600 --> 00:18:59,720 you know, fantasize about that old life that I used to have. 277 00:19:00,480 --> 00:19:05,920 So that's not, but it could be something as simple as taking 278 00:19:05,920 --> 00:19:11,000 this job versus this job or getting in this relationship 279 00:19:11,320 --> 00:19:15,920 versus getting in this relationship or, or friendship 280 00:19:15,920 --> 00:19:20,080 or something like he will make it look like this is, this is 281 00:19:20,080 --> 00:19:24,520 what God's wanting you to do. And in reality, it can send you 282 00:19:24,520 --> 00:19:27,600 down a downward spiral. It can get you in a chokehold. 283 00:19:27,960 --> 00:19:31,160 And I don't really want to talk so much about all that that I've 284 00:19:31,160 --> 00:19:33,880 been learning because that's just going to be an awesome 285 00:19:33,880 --> 00:19:36,640 episode. But you know, that is just 286 00:19:36,640 --> 00:19:40,680 something that's just really been sitting heavy on me and 287 00:19:40,680 --> 00:19:45,240 just making me realize that I need to, you know, really run 288 00:19:45,240 --> 00:19:49,840 everything that I have in my life under the word of God and 289 00:19:50,320 --> 00:19:54,320 under that light and see if this is what God's calling me to do 290 00:19:54,320 --> 00:19:57,920 and God's wanting me to do this. Because we can get easily 291 00:19:57,920 --> 00:19:59,800 deceived. We can. 292 00:20:00,040 --> 00:20:04,240 We can easily get deceived. And it just makes me think like, 293 00:20:04,240 --> 00:20:07,680 if I was deceived that day on the boat where my life would 294 00:20:07,680 --> 00:20:11,920 have ended up. Now, I don't necessarily always 295 00:20:11,920 --> 00:20:17,560 want to jump on here and act like, yeah, I mean, yes, God 296 00:20:17,760 --> 00:20:21,160 saved my life. He saved my life. 297 00:20:21,160 --> 00:20:25,160 He isn't the ultimate savior. He is the only savior. 298 00:20:25,600 --> 00:20:32,200 He is exactly what save me from that life that I was in, but 299 00:20:32,200 --> 00:20:36,040 he's not only my savior, He's my Lord and the King of my life. 300 00:20:36,040 --> 00:20:39,960 And and he is just so much more than just a savior. 301 00:20:39,960 --> 00:20:44,000 He saved and changed me. I think we get a little confused 302 00:20:44,000 --> 00:20:46,320 about that because we're like, oh, he saved me from that 303 00:20:46,320 --> 00:20:48,240 situation. He saved me there, but where's 304 00:20:48,240 --> 00:20:53,320 the change if we're if we're still living the same life that 305 00:20:53,320 --> 00:20:56,360 we were living, but we're maybe sending a little less and we're 306 00:20:56,360 --> 00:20:59,080 doing certain things like we're still drinking, we're still 307 00:20:59,080 --> 00:21:02,880 partying, we're still cussing, we're still acting the same 308 00:21:02,880 --> 00:21:06,080 exact way, but maybe we're a little bit more conscious of it. 309 00:21:06,360 --> 00:21:10,840 Then then he just saved you and you you're not trying to change. 310 00:21:11,400 --> 00:21:15,800 It's hard. It is so hard to really change. 311 00:21:15,880 --> 00:21:19,240 I'm not going to sit here and act like it was the easiest year 312 00:21:19,240 --> 00:21:21,960 of my life not drinking alcohol and not vaping. 313 00:21:22,280 --> 00:21:26,440 The enemy is constantly attacking me between I've lost 314 00:21:26,440 --> 00:21:33,000 so many friends this year and I have lost so many things that I 315 00:21:33,000 --> 00:21:40,760 cared about so much that like it's so hard to deal with and 316 00:21:40,760 --> 00:21:44,040 it's so hard to always jump on here and act like everything's 317 00:21:44,040 --> 00:21:49,520 OK in my life. And I know it's going to be OK 318 00:21:49,520 --> 00:21:54,680 because I have hope. I have Jesus Christ, I have the 319 00:21:54,800 --> 00:22:00,560 his promises and I am constantly seeking him. 320 00:22:00,560 --> 00:22:05,520 So I know that if I surrender to his will, that everything is 321 00:22:05,520 --> 00:22:10,520 going to workout for my good. I don't see the things that he 322 00:22:10,520 --> 00:22:12,280 has going on right now. I don't. 323 00:22:12,360 --> 00:22:19,280 Sometimes I'm praying and I'm asking for certain things and I 324 00:22:19,280 --> 00:22:23,320 don't see a difference. I don't see him answering those 325 00:22:23,320 --> 00:22:27,640 things and and I'm like, where are you? 326 00:22:28,160 --> 00:22:36,200 But then you're he's so loud and he's so he's so bold with the 327 00:22:36,200 --> 00:22:39,360 things that he said about some things and then other things I 328 00:22:39,360 --> 00:22:45,960 feel like he's silent on. And, and I hear him so clearly 329 00:22:45,960 --> 00:22:49,200 and I feel his presence so clearly about this, these 330 00:22:49,200 --> 00:22:53,360 things. Like I know these, I know these 331 00:22:53,360 --> 00:22:56,720 answers and I know what you said and I know what you promised me. 332 00:22:57,040 --> 00:23:00,080 But then on this end, I'm like, but what about these things? 333 00:23:02,000 --> 00:23:08,360 What about this? You've called me to just step 334 00:23:08,360 --> 00:23:09,680 out. You've called me to start a 335 00:23:09,680 --> 00:23:11,320 podcast. You've called me to do all this 336 00:23:11,320 --> 00:23:14,000 stuff. Can you please answer me for 337 00:23:14,000 --> 00:23:19,920 this? And I have to remember that he 338 00:23:19,920 --> 00:23:22,240 is preparing me. And I talked about this on 339 00:23:22,240 --> 00:23:24,560 Abby's episode. I know he's preparing me for 340 00:23:24,560 --> 00:23:27,920 things. And I know that either of it's 341 00:23:27,920 --> 00:23:35,200 yes, no, or wait. He's answering me and I just, I 342 00:23:35,200 --> 00:23:39,640 don't have all the answers. I don't, but I do have hope. 343 00:23:40,200 --> 00:23:46,720 I know that if I'm doing what God is calling me to do and I'm 344 00:23:47,000 --> 00:23:53,360 and I am being obedient and I am in the word and I'm seeking him 345 00:23:53,360 --> 00:23:56,600 and I'm growing my relationship with Him each and every day, 346 00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:02,400 those answers, if it's yes, no, or wait are going to come. 347 00:24:03,200 --> 00:24:07,320 He doesn't give us an answer right off the RIP. 348 00:24:07,440 --> 00:24:10,640 He doesn't just every single time. 349 00:24:11,000 --> 00:24:15,280 It's not always my time. It's not always when Alexis 350 00:24:15,280 --> 00:24:18,720 needs that answer. It's not always when Alexis 351 00:24:18,720 --> 00:24:21,680 needs to know what's next. It's not me. 352 00:24:21,680 --> 00:24:23,200 And that's one of those control things. 353 00:24:23,200 --> 00:24:25,440 I, I, I need to give this to you. 354 00:24:25,960 --> 00:24:32,520 And this weekend I went to a women's conference and when fire 355 00:24:32,520 --> 00:24:37,080 I'm telling y'all, I am telling y'all, you need to go. 356 00:24:37,200 --> 00:24:41,640 If you are a woman, you need to go to one of these conferences. 357 00:24:41,640 --> 00:24:45,560 Because every single time God reveals himself in such a mighty 358 00:24:45,560 --> 00:24:48,680 way, you can feel his presence as soon as you step on the 359 00:24:48,680 --> 00:24:51,920 campground. The the messages are just they, 360 00:24:52,000 --> 00:24:55,720 they are so amazing and the worship and everything. 361 00:24:55,720 --> 00:24:59,960 It's just such a good weekend as we closed out the final night. 362 00:24:59,960 --> 00:25:05,000 Pam Jenkins is the founder of J Bach and she puts on these 363 00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:08,160 conferences called Wind Fire. And so she's telling us, she 364 00:25:08,160 --> 00:25:15,040 said, put out your hands couple and imagine just the biggest 365 00:25:15,040 --> 00:25:17,920 struggle in your life, the biggest, the heaviest thing that 366 00:25:17,920 --> 00:25:21,120 you're going through, what you're dealing with, put it in 367 00:25:21,120 --> 00:25:24,040 your hand and surrender it to God. 368 00:25:26,200 --> 00:25:30,320 And that night, I, I put something in my hand and I 369 00:25:30,320 --> 00:25:35,080 surrendered it. And within an hour, within an 370 00:25:35,080 --> 00:25:39,240 hour, the same thing that I was trying to surrender, I was 371 00:25:39,240 --> 00:25:45,520 attacked about and, and I lashed out and I did all this stuff 372 00:25:45,520 --> 00:25:51,680 and, and then I'm like, I just surrendered that I just tried to 373 00:25:51,680 --> 00:25:58,080 give that to God. And then I instantly did exactly 374 00:25:58,080 --> 00:26:02,960 what the enemy wanted me to do and start fighting against what 375 00:26:02,960 --> 00:26:08,920 I'm trying to give up to God. And it's just that spiritual 376 00:26:08,920 --> 00:26:11,280 warfare. And that's something that I want 377 00:26:11,280 --> 00:26:15,480 to talk about, you know, on that Armor of God episode. 378 00:26:15,480 --> 00:26:21,120 But the spiritual warfare is so strong and our struggle is not 379 00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:30,200 between flesh and blood. It is evil and good and God and 380 00:26:30,200 --> 00:26:34,120 the enemy they are fighting and it is a battle. 381 00:26:34,400 --> 00:26:37,040 It is a battle because the enemy is trying to win us. 382 00:26:37,240 --> 00:26:39,320 He's trying to win our soul from God. 383 00:26:39,320 --> 00:26:42,120 Once we surrender, He is trying to take us back. 384 00:26:42,360 --> 00:26:45,760 He is trying to get us to fall back into those old ways in that 385 00:26:45,760 --> 00:26:49,280 old lifestyle and how we used to act and how we used to talk. 386 00:26:49,280 --> 00:26:52,800 And I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying about the situation. 387 00:26:52,800 --> 00:26:57,200 And then I fall short. I fall short. 388 00:26:57,200 --> 00:27:00,000 I say things that I didn't mean and I do things that I didn't 389 00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:07,600 mean and and I'm like, when, when is this just going to get 390 00:27:07,600 --> 00:27:10,200 easier? And I know that it will. 391 00:27:10,200 --> 00:27:12,760 I'm going to, I may be in a storm right now. 392 00:27:12,760 --> 00:27:16,880 I may feel like life is just heavy and I don't see an end 393 00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:18,800 insight. I don't see the light in this 394 00:27:18,800 --> 00:27:20,760 situation. I don't know how I'm getting out 395 00:27:20,760 --> 00:27:25,520 of this place that I'm in, but I know that it's possible because 396 00:27:25,520 --> 00:27:29,880 of God and His promises for me. I know it's possible because of 397 00:27:29,880 --> 00:27:34,600 what He's told me and the person that I have become because of 398 00:27:34,600 --> 00:27:38,240 Him. I didn't see how I would ever 399 00:27:38,240 --> 00:27:41,240 get to this place that I'm in here, the place that I'm at 400 00:27:41,240 --> 00:27:43,120 right now. I never saw that. 401 00:27:43,960 --> 00:27:47,360 So even though I don't see how I can get myself out of these 402 00:27:47,360 --> 00:27:50,960 circumstances and feel the way that I feel about certain 403 00:27:50,960 --> 00:27:58,240 things, God can do anything. He can truly do anything. 404 00:27:59,480 --> 00:28:03,200 Who am I to deny what the Lord can do? 405 00:28:03,600 --> 00:28:07,120 Who am I to say that he can't do this? 406 00:28:07,120 --> 00:28:10,040 He can't bring me out of this storm. 407 00:28:10,040 --> 00:28:16,400 He can't save one of these friends that I have or he can't 408 00:28:16,400 --> 00:28:20,480 change this person and he can't restore this friendship and he 409 00:28:20,480 --> 00:28:23,920 can't get me this job and he can't do this for me. 410 00:28:23,920 --> 00:28:27,400 Like who said that? And why are we also always 411 00:28:27,400 --> 00:28:30,200 wanting something? Why can't I just be content 412 00:28:30,400 --> 00:28:34,800 where I am today? Why am I always looking for the 413 00:28:34,800 --> 00:28:38,320 future and what is next? Why can't I just be content with 414 00:28:38,320 --> 00:28:42,040 today? It's it's not easy to deny 415 00:28:42,040 --> 00:28:44,080 yourself. It's not easy to deny your 416 00:28:44,080 --> 00:28:46,000 flesh. It is not easy to pick up your 417 00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:48,960 cross every day and walk faithfully with Him and walk 418 00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:53,760 with Him and grow with Him and change and sacrifice all these 419 00:28:53,760 --> 00:28:57,440 things that look like sacrifices that really aren't. 420 00:28:58,160 --> 00:29:01,640 It's worldly and fleshly things that our flesh is wanting. 421 00:29:01,640 --> 00:29:04,360 Nothing that our flesh wants is good. 422 00:29:04,360 --> 00:29:07,920 Nothing. When something in your life is 423 00:29:07,920 --> 00:29:14,240 good, it's God. So basically I just wanted to 424 00:29:14,600 --> 00:29:22,640 jump on here and just be transparent and show how I have 425 00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:28,680 been struggling without saying a whole lot because you know, some 426 00:29:28,680 --> 00:29:34,640 things I just, it's not that I'm getting on here to try to tell 427 00:29:34,640 --> 00:29:37,040 y'all all about this stuff or whatever. 428 00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:39,720 Like there's some things that you know, is just between me and 429 00:29:39,720 --> 00:29:44,080 God that I, that I'm crying out to him about and that I am 430 00:29:44,080 --> 00:29:48,360 trying to surrender and I'm trying to just just give it to 431 00:29:48,360 --> 00:29:51,840 him. I need to really let go of this 432 00:29:51,840 --> 00:29:54,640 stuff that I'm trying to hold on to and I'm trying to control and 433 00:29:54,640 --> 00:29:57,960 I'm trying to force because nothing that you try to force is 434 00:29:57,960 --> 00:30:00,080 from God. And I've, I've said that so many 435 00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:02,680 times. He is going to make a way when 436 00:30:02,680 --> 00:30:05,000 there seems to be no way. He's going to move a mountain. 437 00:30:05,000 --> 00:30:07,880 He's going to part the seas. He's going to do everything to 438 00:30:07,880 --> 00:30:13,040 get you out of that mountain. If it's his will and it's his 439 00:30:13,040 --> 00:30:15,720 way, he is going to make that stuff happen. 440 00:30:16,000 --> 00:30:17,760 And we're not going to have to force it. 441 00:30:17,760 --> 00:30:20,240 We're not going to have to fight about it. 442 00:30:20,240 --> 00:30:21,800 We're not going to have to do all this stuff. 443 00:30:22,800 --> 00:30:27,120 And I'm trying to let go of so many things, but it's so hard 444 00:30:27,120 --> 00:30:30,440 because it's like I let it go. I let it go. 445 00:30:30,440 --> 00:30:34,640 I acknowledge that this is my flesh trying to make something 446 00:30:34,640 --> 00:30:40,120 happen, trying to make what I picture in my head and what I 447 00:30:40,120 --> 00:30:45,040 want out of my life happen. And over this weekend at that 448 00:30:45,040 --> 00:30:49,040 conference, we were talking about authors and how we want to 449 00:30:49,040 --> 00:30:54,200 write our own story and how we want, we want to determine the 450 00:30:54,200 --> 00:30:58,200 plot and we want to determine this great ending and all this 451 00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:01,280 stuff. It ain't ours to decide. 452 00:31:01,640 --> 00:31:06,440 It's not ours and we're not going to decide it is God's like 453 00:31:06,440 --> 00:31:11,440 he's the author to our story. So that is just one big thing 454 00:31:11,440 --> 00:31:16,720 that I've taken away from this conference was we're not the 455 00:31:16,720 --> 00:31:19,480 author. We're not the author and we need 456 00:31:19,480 --> 00:31:25,200 to live life trying to figure out and trying to surrender, not 457 00:31:25,200 --> 00:31:29,480 figure out, but try to live just what God wants us to do and what 458 00:31:29,480 --> 00:31:33,560 he has for our life because His will for her life is far greater 459 00:31:33,800 --> 00:31:35,800 than the plan that we could ever come up with. 460 00:31:36,360 --> 00:31:37,960 There was just so many takeaways. 461 00:31:37,960 --> 00:31:43,640 And if you follow praises in the pod on Instagram or Facebook or 462 00:31:43,640 --> 00:31:46,840 TikTok, then you saw some of the key points that I really took 463 00:31:46,840 --> 00:31:49,800 away from this weekend. And one of them was, you know, 464 00:31:50,240 --> 00:31:52,280 God may be silent, but he isn't absent. 465 00:31:52,680 --> 00:31:55,240 He's there. And we want to write our own 466 00:31:55,240 --> 00:32:01,480 story, but it God is the author or this is this is one of my 467 00:32:01,480 --> 00:32:04,880 favorite ones. This this was something that 468 00:32:04,880 --> 00:32:08,120 when she said it, it literally her pot y'all was on the floor 469 00:32:08,560 --> 00:32:12,440 because I was like, wow, this nugget that I took from this 470 00:32:12,440 --> 00:32:16,120 weekend was from Deb Chambers. She's the director of the 471 00:32:16,120 --> 00:32:20,240 ministry J Balk. But she spoke and she said 472 00:32:20,560 --> 00:32:25,120 whether you are looking for the positive or the negative, you're 473 00:32:25,120 --> 00:32:27,040 going to find what you're looking for. 474 00:32:27,480 --> 00:32:33,120 And when she said that, I just stopped in my tracks because how 475 00:32:33,120 --> 00:32:36,680 many times do we instantly have a negative attitude and we go 476 00:32:36,680 --> 00:32:40,000 into a situation where we're already negative and then we're 477 00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:41,960 like, exactly. That's why I didn't want to come 478 00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:43,240 anyway. That's why I didn't want to do 479 00:32:43,240 --> 00:32:48,000 this anyway. Because XY and Z, we went into 480 00:32:48,000 --> 00:32:52,920 that situation and we went into that expecting the negative. 481 00:32:53,840 --> 00:32:56,880 There are so many times when I come back from these conferences 482 00:32:56,880 --> 00:32:59,560 and I, I start feeling these attacks. 483 00:32:59,920 --> 00:33:06,440 But I already said that I was going to be attacked after this 484 00:33:06,440 --> 00:33:08,840 conference because that's something that I've always 485 00:33:08,840 --> 00:33:12,560 happened every single time. I always come, come home and I'm 486 00:33:12,560 --> 00:33:15,920 attacked by certain things and certain and the enemy is trying 487 00:33:15,920 --> 00:33:18,120 to get in my head and he's trying to do all this stuff and 488 00:33:18,120 --> 00:33:22,840 he's trying to make me doubt things and, and I'm like, I was 489 00:33:22,840 --> 00:33:24,920 looking for that. I was expecting that. 490 00:33:24,920 --> 00:33:30,000 Why don't we go into these situations with a attitude of 491 00:33:30,000 --> 00:33:33,720 expectancy? We're expecting good things. 492 00:33:34,120 --> 00:33:36,480 We're expecting good positive things. 493 00:33:36,480 --> 00:33:43,240 We're expecting the best. Why do we instantly think, well, 494 00:33:43,320 --> 00:33:45,520 it's always been negative, so it's going to it's going to 495 00:33:45,520 --> 00:33:47,280 remain negative. Why do we do that? 496 00:33:47,920 --> 00:33:51,080 We need to be going into situations every day, even if 497 00:33:51,080 --> 00:33:54,040 we've been doing the same thing over and over and over again, 498 00:33:54,440 --> 00:33:59,040 expecting different results. And honestly, that's insanity, 499 00:33:59,560 --> 00:34:03,000 doing the same thing and expecting different results. 500 00:34:03,680 --> 00:34:06,400 And we need to change our mindset. 501 00:34:06,520 --> 00:34:08,360 We need to change our perspective. 502 00:34:08,560 --> 00:34:14,280 Instead of constantly searching and constantly thinking of the 503 00:34:14,280 --> 00:34:17,080 future, why don't we just be grateful for what we have today 504 00:34:17,080 --> 00:34:21,159 and what God has given us and all these relationships that we 505 00:34:21,159 --> 00:34:25,560 have and the friendships that we have and, and these moments and 506 00:34:25,560 --> 00:34:31,239 our kids and, and our homes. I mean, the Hurricanes just 507 00:34:31,239 --> 00:34:34,920 wiped out all these towns in these cities where these people 508 00:34:34,920 --> 00:34:37,480 have nothing. And here we are complaining 509 00:34:37,719 --> 00:34:42,639 about the color of the walls. We're complaining about all this 510 00:34:42,639 --> 00:34:46,320 stuff that needs to be done around the house and how how 511 00:34:46,320 --> 00:34:48,800 awful it is to do this stuff around the house when people 512 00:34:49,040 --> 00:34:54,320 literally have nothing. We need to be just praising God 513 00:34:54,320 --> 00:34:57,600 for what we have and what what he has delivered us from and 514 00:34:57,600 --> 00:35:01,600 what, what the the hope that we have because of him. 515 00:35:02,560 --> 00:35:05,080 He's enough. We don't need anything else. 516 00:35:05,560 --> 00:35:07,840 He provides everything that we need. 517 00:35:08,640 --> 00:35:11,840 Anyway. That's pretty much all that I 518 00:35:11,840 --> 00:35:15,600 had for today. I I don't even know if I've 519 00:35:15,600 --> 00:35:19,240 gotten to a good closing point or if I just left you hanging 520 00:35:19,240 --> 00:35:21,720 because my memory is just all over the place today. 521 00:35:21,720 --> 00:35:23,840 My mind is all over the place today. 522 00:35:24,320 --> 00:35:28,480 I have had a terrible headache the past few days and so I have 523 00:35:28,480 --> 00:35:33,760 just been like, kinda. Anyway, that is so irrelevant. 524 00:35:33,760 --> 00:35:37,040 That is so relevant to the story guys. 525 00:35:37,480 --> 00:35:40,320 Thank you so much for all your love and support. 526 00:35:40,640 --> 00:35:44,640 I have dropped more merch, so if you're interested in merch, I 527 00:35:44,640 --> 00:35:48,920 can ship it to you. Check it out on our Facebook, 528 00:35:48,920 --> 00:35:53,720 Praises in the pod, our Instagram e-mail me about it. 529 00:35:53,720 --> 00:35:55,800 I will love to send you what I have. 530 00:35:56,200 --> 00:35:59,640 And it is just, it's the start of something awesome. 531 00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:04,480 We just celebrated two months with praises in the pod, and I'm 532 00:36:04,480 --> 00:36:07,000 excited to see where it goes. And I hope that you continue 533 00:36:07,000 --> 00:36:10,160 along with this journey. I'm so thankful for each and 534 00:36:10,160 --> 00:36:14,760 everyone of you. And I pray, I pray, I pray that 535 00:36:15,200 --> 00:36:18,480 God just continues to reveal Himself to you. 536 00:36:19,120 --> 00:36:23,080 You surrender those things that are so heavy and those things 537 00:36:23,080 --> 00:36:26,800 that you just don't see the light in, that you don't know 538 00:36:26,800 --> 00:36:28,920 where to go, where to, what to do. 539 00:36:28,920 --> 00:36:30,960 I pray that you surrender that to Him. 540 00:36:32,080 --> 00:36:36,440 I pray that you find your community and get involved and 541 00:36:36,440 --> 00:36:40,280 really start seeking and searching for God and His love 542 00:36:40,280 --> 00:36:42,480 and His goodness. Because if you search for that, 543 00:36:42,480 --> 00:36:45,200 you search for those positive things and you search for God, 544 00:36:45,200 --> 00:36:48,240 you're going to find Him. You're going to find Him. 545 00:36:48,320 --> 00:36:50,240 He's not hiding. You just got to love. 546 00:36:50,280 --> 00:36:51,920 He's just got to turn to Him and talk. 547 00:36:53,040 --> 00:36:56,040 Stay tuned, stay blessed, and we'll see you guys next week.