1 00:00:13,120 --> 00:00:14,720 What's up, guys? My name's Alexis. 2 00:00:14,720 --> 00:00:17,320 And I'm Abby, and we're your. Host of praises in the pod. 3 00:00:17,320 --> 00:00:19,920 We are going to be talking about what it looks like to walk out 4 00:00:19,920 --> 00:00:24,120 your faith, you know, online in real life, like just what 5 00:00:24,120 --> 00:00:26,840 walking out your faith looks like after you come to Christ. 6 00:00:27,040 --> 00:00:28,720 We're going to start off in prayer and then we're going to 7 00:00:28,720 --> 00:00:31,240 jump right in. So I get where you guys, Lord 8 00:00:31,240 --> 00:00:34,200 Heavenly Father, just thank you for today and all of your many 9 00:00:34,200 --> 00:00:36,320 blessings. Dear God, thank you for who you 10 00:00:36,320 --> 00:00:38,120 are and what you did on that cross. 11 00:00:38,120 --> 00:00:41,800 First and foremost, Lord God, we, we do not deserve it. 12 00:00:41,840 --> 00:00:45,360 We did not earn it, but Lord, you did it for us and we are 13 00:00:45,360 --> 00:00:49,120 forever grateful. We pray that we just use our 14 00:00:49,120 --> 00:00:53,760 lives and us as just vessels for you and your word so that we can 15 00:00:53,760 --> 00:00:57,440 go out and make disciples, that we can help push people closer 16 00:00:57,440 --> 00:01:00,840 to you every time we get behind these mics where God, this is, 17 00:01:01,080 --> 00:01:03,240 this is not about us. This is not about growing a 18 00:01:03,240 --> 00:01:04,800 platform. This isn't about being in the 19 00:01:04,800 --> 00:01:07,920 spotlight. This is so others get to know 20 00:01:07,920 --> 00:01:11,760 you, that they find hope in knowing that you are 21 00:01:11,760 --> 00:01:14,360 restorating. God, you can move mountains, you 22 00:01:14,360 --> 00:01:16,680 can do miracles. You still do the same miracles 23 00:01:16,680 --> 00:01:19,960 today as you did back then. Lord God, thank you for 24 00:01:19,960 --> 00:01:21,800 everything you've done in both of our lives. 25 00:01:21,800 --> 00:01:24,800 We just pray that you speak to us and through US today and let 26 00:01:24,800 --> 00:01:27,120 this episode glorify you in Jesus name I pray. 27 00:01:28,720 --> 00:01:29,080 Amen. Amen. 28 00:01:29,720 --> 00:01:34,680 All right, oh, at this point, episodes are coming out at 6:00 29 00:01:34,680 --> 00:01:39,200 AM now instead of four PMI started it this past week and 30 00:01:39,200 --> 00:01:41,520 this is like. Yeah, because I would love to 31 00:01:41,520 --> 00:01:43,320 listen. To it in the morning in the 32 00:01:43,320 --> 00:01:46,800 morning OK and so at this point y'all kind of know a little bit 33 00:01:46,800 --> 00:01:49,640 about the network and when I was talking to the network and 34 00:01:49,640 --> 00:01:53,880 already signed with them they said, you know, best practice is 35 00:01:53,880 --> 00:01:57,000 the release your episode first thing in the morning and I'm 36 00:01:57,000 --> 00:02:00,080 like, well I'm already making a lot of change when everybody's 37 00:02:00,080 --> 00:02:03,800 driving to yes, I was like, I'm already making a lot of changes. 38 00:02:03,800 --> 00:02:05,840 I cannot make another change like. 39 00:02:05,960 --> 00:02:10,240 So then when the network thing fell through I said you know 40 00:02:10,240 --> 00:02:12,760 what let's move it to 6:00 AM. There ain't been no changes at 41 00:02:12,760 --> 00:02:15,360 this point. So I did it this week. 42 00:02:15,360 --> 00:02:16,800 I didn't announce it or anything. 43 00:02:16,800 --> 00:02:20,680 I just did it and wow like the difference. 44 00:02:20,680 --> 00:02:23,560 Yeah, just because people are, they're getting ready and 45 00:02:23,560 --> 00:02:24,680 they're wanting to start their day. 46 00:02:25,000 --> 00:02:30,520 So going forward, after I record from now on, I really want to, 47 00:02:30,520 --> 00:02:33,720 you know, be intentional about the prayer, praying over 48 00:02:33,720 --> 00:02:36,280 people's day. I didn't just do it right then, 49 00:02:36,320 --> 00:02:39,240 but I'll remember for next time. OK, OK. 50 00:02:39,880 --> 00:02:41,520 Oh, I see, because now it's going to be going. 51 00:02:41,520 --> 00:02:43,280 To be in the morning. OK, yeah, yeah. 52 00:02:43,280 --> 00:02:46,000 So maybe you can remind me next time if you gotcha. 53 00:02:46,360 --> 00:02:48,040 Yeah, I know you got a lot going on though. 54 00:02:48,040 --> 00:02:53,120 So anyway, So what you got what what has it been going on 55 00:02:53,120 --> 00:02:54,680 lately? You. 56 00:02:54,680 --> 00:02:56,720 Always make me start off with my life. 57 00:02:58,800 --> 00:03:03,120 I am I have a A7 week old today She's 7 weeks old today. 58 00:03:03,120 --> 00:03:06,120 Where did the time go? I know I don't know it's going 59 00:03:06,120 --> 00:03:08,720 fast, but it's been it's been a lot. 60 00:03:08,720 --> 00:03:12,240 So it's been heavy this time just having a toddler having 61 00:03:12,240 --> 00:03:15,160 everything and she is had some issues. 62 00:03:15,480 --> 00:03:18,400 We ended up, I don't even know if I talked. 63 00:03:18,400 --> 00:03:20,080 About We did talk about the hospital, the. 64 00:03:20,080 --> 00:03:23,960 Hospital, yes OK so after that it's just been like constant 65 00:03:23,960 --> 00:03:27,720 issues with her stomach and just being in pain and she's really 66 00:03:27,720 --> 00:03:30,840 colicky crying all the time, especially from like 5:00 at 67 00:03:30,840 --> 00:03:33,040 night till about 12-1 in the morning. 68 00:03:33,360 --> 00:03:35,800 We cannot. Like, yeah, I feel like I'm 69 00:03:35,800 --> 00:03:39,640 literally just in the room with her trying to settle her for 70 00:03:39,640 --> 00:03:41,920 hours. And it's just, it's been really 71 00:03:41,920 --> 00:03:44,000 awful. So just trying to make it 72 00:03:44,000 --> 00:03:46,920 through that now. You got to go dairy free. 73 00:03:47,360 --> 00:03:51,080 Yes and I'm about to dairy can't have it. 74 00:03:51,080 --> 00:03:53,640 Oh my. Do they have to be dairy free 75 00:03:53,640 --> 00:03:57,200 because she's got a cow's milk protein allergy. 76 00:03:57,200 --> 00:04:01,360 They found she ended up having blood in her stool so they knew 77 00:04:01,400 --> 00:04:03,800 right in and there that that's what's probably causing all the 78 00:04:03,800 --> 00:04:06,240 tummy issues too. And I think she's got reflux. 79 00:04:06,240 --> 00:04:10,880 So any Mamas out there that dealt with babies like this, I 80 00:04:11,680 --> 00:04:14,720 wholeheartedly feel for you. Because it is. 81 00:04:14,720 --> 00:04:17,160 You're in the trenches. It's rough. 82 00:04:17,440 --> 00:04:19,760 Really rough. Well, but yeah, so now I can't 83 00:04:19,760 --> 00:04:22,240 have any dairy and it's in everything. 84 00:04:22,280 --> 00:04:24,880 You think I'm just not going to drink milk? 85 00:04:24,960 --> 00:04:30,480 No, girl, it is in every packaged item you can think of. 86 00:04:30,920 --> 00:04:34,720 Like anything. It's in literally everything. 87 00:04:34,720 --> 00:04:37,120 That's going to be so hard. It's going to be so hard, but 88 00:04:37,120 --> 00:04:39,120 you're going to be able to. Yeah, I am. 89 00:04:39,120 --> 00:04:42,160 I've already been about a week. Yeah, so I ate it about a week. 90 00:04:42,920 --> 00:04:47,280 So just having to really more or less eat at home and ChatGPT has 91 00:04:47,280 --> 00:04:50,640 become my best friend. Yeah, like if I'm looking at a 92 00:04:50,640 --> 00:04:53,280 restaurant and stuff too, I'm going to ChatGPT. 93 00:04:53,280 --> 00:04:56,680 And thankfully I had some people reach out to me with a bunch of 94 00:04:56,680 --> 00:04:58,640 good recommendations that they've been through. 95 00:04:58,640 --> 00:05:01,840 And I didn't realize how like common it is or how many other 96 00:05:01,840 --> 00:05:04,280 Mamas have had to, you know, go dairy free. 97 00:05:04,600 --> 00:05:07,160 So. Yeah, you know, and that brings 98 00:05:07,160 --> 00:05:09,960 a great point. Other people have walked through 99 00:05:09,960 --> 00:05:13,400 similar things as you and you can ask them questions. 100 00:05:13,400 --> 00:05:15,800 This is what it's like about faith too. 101 00:05:15,800 --> 00:05:19,320 Like we walk certain paths and other people experience the same 102 00:05:19,320 --> 00:05:20,280 things. And now? 103 00:05:20,280 --> 00:05:22,760 They get to tell you what I was going to say about when I think 104 00:05:22,760 --> 00:05:24,960 of faith like, and I don't know if you were going to talk about 105 00:05:24,960 --> 00:05:29,440 this too, but to me it is, it is something that's lived in. 106 00:05:29,760 --> 00:05:34,400 It's not just a one time word that you say or you just say I 107 00:05:34,400 --> 00:05:37,520 have faith in God. It is actually lived in like 108 00:05:37,520 --> 00:05:40,720 your faith. And it's it's it's something 109 00:05:40,720 --> 00:05:43,680 that continually grows. It's something that you have 110 00:05:44,000 --> 00:05:48,040 faith to me is saying, God, I don't understand this. 111 00:05:48,560 --> 00:05:50,720 I don't understand what you're doing. 112 00:05:50,720 --> 00:05:52,200 But I trust you. Yeah. 113 00:05:52,640 --> 00:05:56,040 And throughout everything you go through in your life, kind of 114 00:05:56,040 --> 00:05:58,400 like what I'm going through right now, because it is a hard 115 00:05:58,400 --> 00:06:02,000 season for me, like the hardest season I've probably ever been 116 00:06:02,000 --> 00:06:04,560 in. And I mean, not wholeheartedly, 117 00:06:04,680 --> 00:06:09,240 but I truly am just having to say, Lord, I trust you, like I 118 00:06:09,240 --> 00:06:10,760 trust that you're going to get me through this. 119 00:06:11,040 --> 00:06:12,960 And bringing up what you just said. 120 00:06:13,600 --> 00:06:19,560 I now can relate to so many other Mamas, you know, that have 121 00:06:19,560 --> 00:06:24,160 gone through something similar and share how I got through it. 122 00:06:24,160 --> 00:06:26,880 Share that hope. I was having to talk to Pat the 123 00:06:26,880 --> 00:06:30,440 other day because I just, I just really didn't think I was going 124 00:06:30,440 --> 00:06:33,600 to make it. And I'm like, I need like, what 125 00:06:33,600 --> 00:06:35,800 do you do in this situation? Like, how do you make it? 126 00:06:36,240 --> 00:06:39,160 And he's like, you got to have shared hope, like from others 127 00:06:39,160 --> 00:06:42,960 that have been through it, from him who's, you know, made it 128 00:06:42,960 --> 00:06:45,280 through the other side of so many things in this life. 129 00:06:45,840 --> 00:06:49,560 But that's, that's where your faith grows and continues to 130 00:06:49,560 --> 00:06:51,520 grow. And you see that Lord, you're, 131 00:06:51,520 --> 00:06:54,760 you get me through life and I have, I have complete faith in 132 00:06:54,760 --> 00:06:56,600 you now. Because there's so many times 133 00:06:56,600 --> 00:07:01,640 that we have no idea why we're walking through this. 90% of the 134 00:07:01,640 --> 00:07:04,800 time we never know why we're walking through this or like how 135 00:07:04,800 --> 00:07:06,160 we're going to get through these things. 136 00:07:06,520 --> 00:07:08,920 And even Pat talked about it last night at CR. 137 00:07:08,920 --> 00:07:14,280 Like we don't have to know because God is going to get us 138 00:07:14,280 --> 00:07:17,040 through. Like that is a promise that he 139 00:07:17,040 --> 00:07:20,840 has already given us. Like the you know, no weapon 140 00:07:20,840 --> 00:07:25,560 formed against me shall prosper. Like these weapons aren't just 141 00:07:25,560 --> 00:07:28,920 like give me your money, you know, like guns and blazing like 142 00:07:28,920 --> 00:07:33,320 it is these day-to-day little things that just look like 143 00:07:33,320 --> 00:07:36,120 they're going to take us out. They eat your lunch, they eat 144 00:07:36,120 --> 00:07:38,800 your lunch. It looks like you are not going 145 00:07:38,800 --> 00:07:41,880 to make out of this chapter. And that's what it means. 146 00:07:41,880 --> 00:07:45,520 Like when it says no weapon formed none it the the weapon 147 00:07:45,520 --> 00:07:48,000 still formed. Like don't get that wrong. 148 00:07:48,000 --> 00:07:50,960 You're still going to go through these terrible times, these hard 149 00:07:50,960 --> 00:07:54,760 times, these heavy times, these burdened sometimes, but you're 150 00:07:54,760 --> 00:07:58,560 going to make it. Yeah, one verse that I read last 151 00:07:58,560 --> 00:08:02,520 or probably 2 weeks ago that I've been like every day I just 152 00:08:02,920 --> 00:08:06,200 stick to it is First Chronicles 1611. 153 00:08:06,200 --> 00:08:07,320 Not many. People pull. 154 00:08:07,320 --> 00:08:11,040 From Chronicles I know I was reading in my devotion and then 155 00:08:11,040 --> 00:08:14,560 I ended up reading it in the word 1 morning and I know He 156 00:08:14,560 --> 00:08:17,280 just put it on my heart. But it's the search for the Lord 157 00:08:17,280 --> 00:08:19,800 and for His strength. Continually seek Him. 158 00:08:19,800 --> 00:08:22,720 Remember the wonders He has performed His miracles and the 159 00:08:22,720 --> 00:08:28,240 rulings He is man. Like when I tell you I have no 160 00:08:28,240 --> 00:08:33,000 strength right now, like I have none and I'm like, I have to 161 00:08:33,000 --> 00:08:35,120 have your strength for it to make it through this, because 162 00:08:35,120 --> 00:08:39,080 I'm not going to make it. And every day I just he gives me 163 00:08:39,080 --> 00:08:40,960 his strength to make it another day. 164 00:08:40,960 --> 00:08:44,720 And it's like it's sad that kind of right now you kind of in 165 00:08:44,720 --> 00:08:47,800 those seasons, you count down the days, but he does. 166 00:08:47,800 --> 00:08:50,280 He gives you his strength and helps you daily. 167 00:08:50,600 --> 00:08:52,560 And I can't do it without his strength. 168 00:08:52,600 --> 00:08:56,000 No doubt I'm reading the Old Testament right now. 169 00:08:57,840 --> 00:09:00,120 I'm on my I'm on my dinner with Tasha comms. 170 00:09:00,200 --> 00:09:03,560 No, because no, that's where I did the other one. 171 00:09:03,560 --> 00:09:06,720 So which one is that? That's 365. 172 00:09:06,880 --> 00:09:08,840 Is that 365? OK, so I'm doing the Bible 173 00:09:08,840 --> 00:09:10,520 recap. Or wait, No, I said Tasha. 174 00:09:10,520 --> 00:09:12,520 I I said the. I know what you meant, girl. 175 00:09:12,520 --> 00:09:14,400 By early cobble. Terribly cobble. 176 00:09:14,400 --> 00:09:16,240 I'm in a new thing, even a newborn phase. 177 00:09:16,240 --> 00:09:18,320 I remember the newbie. Yeah, my brain important. 178 00:09:18,320 --> 00:09:20,480 Trenches. Terribly. 179 00:09:20,480 --> 00:09:22,560 Cobble yes. I'm not reading that one, I'm 180 00:09:22,560 --> 00:09:24,920 reading the other one. So I think this one's called the 181 00:09:24,920 --> 00:09:27,640 Bible Recap. I don't know why I chose to do 182 00:09:27,640 --> 00:09:29,400 this one, because everybody does the terribly couple. 183 00:09:29,400 --> 00:09:32,800 Anyway, the. Bible Recap is her. 184 00:09:33,320 --> 00:09:34,960 OK, then I'm reading the other one. 185 00:09:34,960 --> 00:09:35,880 OK, gotcha. Whatever. 186 00:09:35,880 --> 00:09:38,640 The other one is the Bible in a year? 187 00:09:38,640 --> 00:09:41,160 I think yes. OK, but I'm just reading the Old 188 00:09:41,160 --> 00:09:44,440 Testament this year and so I'm going to be really honest with 189 00:09:44,440 --> 00:09:47,960 y'all. I got halfway through Leviticus 190 00:09:47,960 --> 00:09:51,960 and I had to skip. I had to skip numbers too, but 191 00:09:51,960 --> 00:09:55,720 I'm not all. No, no Abby, she's a numbers 192 00:09:55,720 --> 00:09:56,640 gal. I'm not. 193 00:09:56,640 --> 00:09:59,760 I don't want to read all. Although genealogy. 194 00:09:59,760 --> 00:10:04,960 Yes, like that. And just like you can do that 195 00:10:04,960 --> 00:10:06,120 because you have that type of mind. 196 00:10:06,120 --> 00:10:07,880 I can't. I feel like I'm reading the same 197 00:10:07,880 --> 00:10:10,720 things over and over and over again and I'm zoned out. 198 00:10:10,720 --> 00:10:12,640 Like then it's becoming a check the box. 199 00:10:12,840 --> 00:10:15,040 I'll come back, I promise. I'm going to come back. 200 00:10:15,320 --> 00:10:18,720 But I'm reading Deuteronomy. Deuteronomy, whatever. 201 00:10:19,280 --> 00:10:23,160 Yes, Deuteronomy. Yeah, I'm reading that and Signs 202 00:10:23,160 --> 00:10:27,440 and wonders is said so many times through this chapter, 203 00:10:27,520 --> 00:10:31,640 right? Like it's talking about how what 204 00:10:31,640 --> 00:10:35,600 you've already seen from the Lord, you saw him bring you out 205 00:10:35,600 --> 00:10:40,320 of Egypt, you saw him part the Red Seas, you've seen him do all 206 00:10:40,320 --> 00:10:43,240 of these things. Don't forget that. 207 00:10:43,880 --> 00:10:45,360 You've already seen all these miracles. 208 00:10:45,600 --> 00:10:49,120 So why do you think that he's not going to continue to do 209 00:10:49,120 --> 00:10:51,080 those things? You know, because you've seen it 210 00:10:51,080 --> 00:10:53,280 first hand. You saw with your own life, like 211 00:10:53,280 --> 00:10:54,880 all the things that he's brought you through. 212 00:10:55,080 --> 00:10:57,280 So he will bring you through this season too. 213 00:10:57,280 --> 00:10:59,360 Right. And having faith though, that's 214 00:10:59,360 --> 00:11:03,400 that's what true faith is to me. And I, I recently saw or I just 215 00:11:03,400 --> 00:11:07,200 hear this so many times and and it's something I stick to about 216 00:11:07,200 --> 00:11:11,600 Moses and partying the red seat. But he didn't remove the Red 217 00:11:11,600 --> 00:11:14,720 Sea, He didn't remove the difficult situation. 218 00:11:15,000 --> 00:11:18,400 He just made a way through it. And that's just how I literally 219 00:11:18,400 --> 00:11:22,400 feel like in my life right now. He's not going to just remove 220 00:11:22,400 --> 00:11:25,520 and just make everything, you know, hunky Dory for him. 221 00:11:25,520 --> 00:11:27,520 But he's showing me a way through it. 222 00:11:27,640 --> 00:11:31,120 So then we can help disciple and continue to give faith to and 223 00:11:31,120 --> 00:11:33,640 help others with their faith. They are their struggles. 224 00:11:33,760 --> 00:11:37,040 Well. In the seasons of the crushing, 225 00:11:37,320 --> 00:11:41,440 the pressing, that's where the new one comes from. 226 00:11:41,440 --> 00:11:47,360 That's where a whole new outline outlook of life and an outlook 227 00:11:47,360 --> 00:11:51,400 of an understanding of who God is that you appreciate so much 228 00:11:51,400 --> 00:11:53,320 more. But in seasons. 229 00:11:53,520 --> 00:11:55,400 Yeah. I don't know what you were going 230 00:11:55,400 --> 00:11:58,280 to say about what were you going to say about faith, like what it 231 00:11:58,280 --> 00:12:01,840 looks like or Because that was my kind of take on it when you 232 00:12:01,840 --> 00:12:03,000 said we were talking about faith. 233 00:12:03,000 --> 00:12:05,520 And I'm like, man, it is lived in. 234 00:12:05,680 --> 00:12:07,800 Yeah. Well, my faith is, you know, 235 00:12:07,880 --> 00:12:09,920 like what I was going to talk about more. 236 00:12:09,920 --> 00:12:14,360 So is like the seeing isn't always believing or is that 237 00:12:14,360 --> 00:12:16,520 right? Yeah, yeah, yeah. 238 00:12:16,720 --> 00:12:20,600 So like just because you can't physically reach out and touch 239 00:12:20,600 --> 00:12:23,520 God doesn't mean that he's not real. 240 00:12:23,840 --> 00:12:27,840 Doesn't mean just because you don't see how the way the how 241 00:12:27,880 --> 00:12:32,440 the Red Sea is going to be parted doesn't mean that it's 242 00:12:32,440 --> 00:12:33,680 not going to happen. Yeah, 100. 243 00:12:33,680 --> 00:12:38,960 Percent so having faith is not just seeing it like you have to 244 00:12:38,960 --> 00:12:43,360 just rely on God, like look at the little things that he's done 245 00:12:43,360 --> 00:12:45,600 along the way. Yeah, and just know that he's 246 00:12:45,600 --> 00:12:51,040 going to do it again. I like, I kind of thought that 247 00:12:51,040 --> 00:12:54,160 through, but now I'm saying it and I'm like, I don't know how 248 00:12:54,360 --> 00:12:56,040 hard to. Put yeah, because you have to 249 00:12:56,040 --> 00:13:00,000 put 1 foot out. Yeah, and putting your trust in 250 00:13:00,000 --> 00:13:01,640 him. Well, you know, and thinking 251 00:13:01,640 --> 00:13:05,000 about putting that foot out, we think about Peter stepping out 252 00:13:05,000 --> 00:13:07,880 of the boat, right? Come and die, I mean. 253 00:13:07,960 --> 00:13:10,280 Ain't nobody ever seen nobody walk in the water. 254 00:13:10,560 --> 00:13:14,080 Ain't nobody ever tried to walk on water at this point, You know 255 00:13:14,080 --> 00:13:18,920 what I'm saying? So like Peter had to truly have 256 00:13:18,920 --> 00:13:24,200 a relationship with God to know that God said, and he was 257 00:13:24,200 --> 00:13:28,680 everything that he ever said he was or he already did everything 258 00:13:28,680 --> 00:13:32,560 he already said he was going to do that Peter knew that he could 259 00:13:32,560 --> 00:13:36,480 trust him, that he could put his trust in him to step out of that 260 00:13:36,480 --> 00:13:40,040 boat. Now we do know he starts to 261 00:13:40,040 --> 00:13:41,960 sink. And why does he start to sink? 262 00:13:42,200 --> 00:13:44,240 Because he takes his eyes off of the Lord. 263 00:13:44,480 --> 00:13:47,160 Like the Lord is standing right there. 264 00:13:47,160 --> 00:13:50,200 He's willing to walk you through these paths, but you got to keep 265 00:13:50,200 --> 00:13:53,000 your eyes on him. And I think that's so important 266 00:13:53,000 --> 00:13:58,360 of like trust, like, oh, hang on, didn't we talk about this 267 00:13:58,360 --> 00:14:02,080 one time with like the teenager or something? 268 00:14:02,400 --> 00:14:06,480 Like if they always tell you the truth, you kind of you believe 269 00:14:06,480 --> 00:14:09,240 them. They tell you you're going to go 270 00:14:09,240 --> 00:14:11,480 to the mall and they're going to come right back home within an 271 00:14:11,480 --> 00:14:12,680 hour. They've done it their whole 272 00:14:12,680 --> 00:14:15,080 life. They're just so consistent and 273 00:14:15,080 --> 00:14:17,360 being truthful and doing what they've always said they did. 274 00:14:17,680 --> 00:14:21,120 Now, if it was the opposite and they never did, you wouldn't 275 00:14:21,120 --> 00:14:24,120 trust them. But God always stands by his 276 00:14:24,120 --> 00:14:27,120 word. He always keeps his promises. 277 00:14:27,120 --> 00:14:32,000 He's kept his covenants, so why? It may not situations that 278 00:14:32,000 --> 00:14:35,600 you're going through, easier to say, I know, Yeah, we're going 279 00:14:35,600 --> 00:14:37,720 to make it. But what you're talking about, I 280 00:14:37,720 --> 00:14:41,800 had written this down to Second Corinthians 57 for we walk by 281 00:14:41,800 --> 00:14:46,240 faith, not by sight, But it's like trusting God always beyond 282 00:14:46,360 --> 00:14:49,840 what we can see and what we believe or what we think is 283 00:14:49,840 --> 00:14:52,720 going to happen or what we believe is going to happen. 284 00:14:52,920 --> 00:14:55,880 It's just completely trusting him sight unseen. 285 00:14:55,960 --> 00:14:58,160 Yeah. While you're saying that, it 286 00:14:58,160 --> 00:15:03,120 makes me think faith can vary in all aspects of life. 287 00:15:03,120 --> 00:15:07,040 Yes, that is. One of the big takeaways is 288 00:15:07,040 --> 00:15:11,800 because you can have complete 100% faith in the Lord about 289 00:15:11,800 --> 00:15:16,840 this and not in this and this is where like you have to like some 290 00:15:16,880 --> 00:15:20,200 things that perfect. So we're jabbing, OK, we in love 291 00:15:20,200 --> 00:15:21,800 with the Holy Spirit this morning. 292 00:15:23,640 --> 00:15:27,800 You have to give him all of it. But that is part of that 293 00:15:27,800 --> 00:15:31,480 sanctification process where you learn how to surrender. 294 00:15:31,480 --> 00:15:34,520 You learn how to trust him. You learn how to grow closer to 295 00:15:34,520 --> 00:15:37,880 him. And eventually, the longer you 296 00:15:37,880 --> 00:15:41,400 walk with him, the more that you do trust him in this area, in 297 00:15:41,400 --> 00:15:44,680 this area, in this area. Because for the longest time, I 298 00:15:44,680 --> 00:15:47,480 knew without a shadow of a doubt when God told me that I was 299 00:15:47,480 --> 00:15:49,920 going to be a mom. Even to this day, I'm still not 300 00:15:49,920 --> 00:15:53,160 physically a mom. I know without a shadow of a 301 00:15:53,160 --> 00:15:55,440 doubt that promise still hang on the street, right? 302 00:15:56,160 --> 00:16:00,080 But when I was walking in the season with Greg and God kept 303 00:16:00,080 --> 00:16:03,160 telling me, I'm going to deliver him, I'm going to deliver him, 304 00:16:03,240 --> 00:16:06,320 stay steadfast, love him, love your neighbor. 305 00:16:06,560 --> 00:16:09,000 I couldn't believe him in that. I know that's what that's 306 00:16:09,000 --> 00:16:10,400 literally what I was talking about. 307 00:16:10,880 --> 00:16:14,200 Like I think a lot of people think, oh, she's a woman of 308 00:16:14,200 --> 00:16:16,320 faith. She never struggles or have 309 00:16:16,320 --> 00:16:17,200 doubts. Yeah. 310 00:16:17,560 --> 00:16:20,840 And I it's complete opposite for me. 311 00:16:20,840 --> 00:16:26,080 Like yes, there are times where our confidence is unwavering. 312 00:16:26,440 --> 00:16:32,320 We know who he he what we know he is who he said he is. 313 00:16:32,360 --> 00:16:35,480 We know he's going to do what he said he is going to do. 314 00:16:35,480 --> 00:16:38,960 So we aren't, you know, we have those seasons where we're super 315 00:16:38,960 --> 00:16:42,680 confident, but then we really do have those seasons where just 316 00:16:42,680 --> 00:16:47,080 what you said with Greg, you're like how when this doesn't make 317 00:16:47,120 --> 00:16:50,040 sense, you right. Yeah, like literally, I'm 318 00:16:50,040 --> 00:16:53,480 battling with him. Let's say no when it's been 2 319 00:16:53,520 --> 00:16:55,600 years. I feel so unseen. 320 00:16:55,760 --> 00:16:59,880 I feel, and that's one thing right now I'm struggling with is 321 00:16:59,880 --> 00:17:06,800 feeling unseen like Hagar the Abraham and Sarah, the servant 322 00:17:06,800 --> 00:17:12,040 that had Abraham's son. She I remember her specifically 323 00:17:12,040 --> 00:17:15,000 talking how she just felt so unseen and unheard. 324 00:17:15,000 --> 00:17:17,359 And I can't imagine being in that situation and being, you 325 00:17:17,359 --> 00:17:20,640 know, booted out of the situation with Abraham and Sarah 326 00:17:20,640 --> 00:17:24,839 and being on her own. And he came down and basically 327 00:17:24,839 --> 00:17:28,720 said I see you and gave her son his own nation pretty much. 328 00:17:28,720 --> 00:17:32,480 So you can go through those seasons where you truly feel 329 00:17:32,480 --> 00:17:37,440 like where are you? Like, I feel so unseen in my 330 00:17:37,440 --> 00:17:42,840 confidence is lacking, but I think you almost get put in 331 00:17:42,840 --> 00:17:47,200 those seasons and situations to it really. 332 00:17:47,200 --> 00:17:48,760 That's what builds your faith. Yeah. 333 00:17:49,080 --> 00:17:54,400 Because if it, if it has to go to where you really feel like I 334 00:17:54,400 --> 00:17:56,360 have no faith right now. Where is it? 335 00:17:57,360 --> 00:18:00,600 It's almost like it's expanding because now I've made it through 336 00:18:00,600 --> 00:18:04,160 something more difficult then I thought I could make it through. 337 00:18:04,320 --> 00:18:09,320 But here again, you've helped me Here again, you've came through 338 00:18:09,320 --> 00:18:11,560 here again, your word still stands true. 339 00:18:11,760 --> 00:18:14,920 I've made it through that. Now the next valley I'm going to 340 00:18:14,920 --> 00:18:18,600 go through, I just just continues, OK, He got me through 341 00:18:18,600 --> 00:18:20,840 this. Now I I'm going to make it 342 00:18:20,840 --> 00:18:22,880 through this next season or this next valley. 343 00:18:23,760 --> 00:18:29,160 Because if it did happen right away, where, where, where does 344 00:18:29,160 --> 00:18:31,680 that like crushing and the pressing come from? 345 00:18:32,000 --> 00:18:36,760 Where does those long? How does your face strengthen? 346 00:18:36,760 --> 00:18:39,680 Yes, where you're yearning to hear from the Lord, where you 347 00:18:39,680 --> 00:18:42,680 are diving into his word, where you want to be close to him 348 00:18:42,680 --> 00:18:44,720 because you're in a season of uncertainty. 349 00:18:45,120 --> 00:18:47,120 Like you need him to show up and show out. 350 00:18:47,400 --> 00:18:50,720 And so the longer you walk in those, you know, he builds it. 351 00:18:51,360 --> 00:18:52,800 Sometimes I wish they weren't as long. 352 00:18:53,640 --> 00:18:56,000 It's like learning. You learn to trust him. 353 00:18:56,120 --> 00:18:59,520 But man. You're still wrestling, Yeah, 354 00:18:59,520 --> 00:19:02,640 With life. But then when he answers. 355 00:19:02,840 --> 00:19:05,760 When he comes. Is no or like when something 356 00:19:05,760 --> 00:19:08,760 comes to fruition, should I say because he always answers, we 357 00:19:08,760 --> 00:19:12,640 say this all time, yes, no or wait and it's always maybe not 358 00:19:12,640 --> 00:19:15,440 as clear, but you have to, you know, search for that. 359 00:19:15,440 --> 00:19:20,320 You have to seek him for that. But when he does, it's sort of 360 00:19:20,320 --> 00:19:26,360 like that's what keeps bringing you back over and over and over 361 00:19:26,360 --> 00:19:29,640 again because he stayed, he stood true to what he. 362 00:19:29,640 --> 00:19:33,040 Said it's just choosing him every day. 363 00:19:33,120 --> 00:19:36,360 Yeah, and it's not easy, not easy in the slightest. 364 00:19:36,640 --> 00:19:40,920 But you know, one of the things that I also want to talk about 365 00:19:40,920 --> 00:19:44,280 with faith is like living it boldly. 366 00:19:44,520 --> 00:19:48,600 Yeah. Because, yes, we're supposed to 367 00:19:48,600 --> 00:19:50,760 have these quiet times, like in the Secret Place. 368 00:19:50,760 --> 00:19:53,920 Like people don't have to know about your faith, what you're 369 00:19:53,920 --> 00:19:55,560 learning every single time you learn. 370 00:19:55,680 --> 00:19:57,640 Obvious. Well, yeah, they should know 371 00:19:57,640 --> 00:19:59,520 what you're like, right? But it doesn't have the. 372 00:20:00,320 --> 00:20:01,040 Yeah. Others. 373 00:20:01,040 --> 00:20:04,440 Yeah, not that sometimes you just mess up what you're trying 374 00:20:04,440 --> 00:20:05,280 to say. OK. 375 00:20:06,480 --> 00:20:09,400 But like, you don't have to show people you're having a quiet 376 00:20:09,400 --> 00:20:11,800 time you don't have. To prove, prove. 377 00:20:11,840 --> 00:20:16,600 Anything that is in secrecy, your faith as a whole though, 378 00:20:16,640 --> 00:20:19,920 should not, right? This is where we're talking 379 00:20:19,920 --> 00:20:22,920 about this at the Well discipling comes in where other 380 00:20:22,920 --> 00:20:26,920 people are looking at you and you need to show that there was 381 00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:30,240 true life change. If you're still running the 382 00:20:30,240 --> 00:20:34,080 roads with the same people, unless they're equally changed 383 00:20:34,440 --> 00:20:36,840 like me and Abby. But if you're still running the 384 00:20:36,840 --> 00:20:39,840 roads with the same people looking the exact same, doing 385 00:20:39,840 --> 00:20:43,640 the exact same thing. After you, after you say, come 386 00:20:43,640 --> 00:20:46,440 to know Christ. That you have this faith in that 387 00:20:46,440 --> 00:20:49,560 you're walking it out with him. Where is the life change? 388 00:20:49,800 --> 00:20:54,240 Because we see with Paul and Acts, he has this radical, 389 00:20:54,920 --> 00:20:58,200 radical transformation on the road to Damascus. 390 00:20:58,520 --> 00:21:02,480 He literally experiences and sees the Lord and has this 391 00:21:02,480 --> 00:21:05,840 encounter with him that makes him go blind, really. 392 00:21:06,120 --> 00:21:10,200 And for three days we see that he seeks the Lord. 393 00:21:10,200 --> 00:21:12,200 Like he's fasting, he's not eating, he's not drinking, he's 394 00:21:12,200 --> 00:21:15,720 not doing any things. And he goes back to everybody 395 00:21:15,720 --> 00:21:17,880 that knows of him and they're still scared. 396 00:21:17,960 --> 00:21:20,720 And then they think you're lying like. 397 00:21:20,920 --> 00:21:23,160 Yeah, they've seen a complete change in him. 398 00:21:23,160 --> 00:21:26,600 Yes, and that is what it should look like for us. 399 00:21:26,960 --> 00:21:30,680 People should be confused about what is different. 400 00:21:30,680 --> 00:21:34,040 Hang on, what happened? Why is she so different? 401 00:21:34,040 --> 00:21:36,960 Why is she talking different? Why is she dressing different? 402 00:21:36,960 --> 00:21:40,080 Like we shouldn't continue to blend in with the world. 403 00:21:40,160 --> 00:21:44,720 Yeah, no, I believe if we call ourselves Christians and there 404 00:21:44,720 --> 00:21:48,920 has been no life change since you started calling yourself a 405 00:21:48,920 --> 00:21:52,760 Christian, something is wrong. Yeah, something is off. 406 00:21:52,960 --> 00:21:56,560 Yeah, because you can still go to church, you can still put on 407 00:21:56,560 --> 00:21:59,520 that performance attitude one hour on a Sunday. 408 00:21:59,800 --> 00:22:02,840 But what does those other six days out of the week look like? 409 00:22:03,080 --> 00:22:07,560 What does you know, you going to the grocery store look like? 410 00:22:07,560 --> 00:22:09,160 What are you wearing to the grocery store? 411 00:22:09,160 --> 00:22:10,960 What are you listening to? What are you like? 412 00:22:11,000 --> 00:22:13,640 All of these things? That's part of the 413 00:22:13,640 --> 00:22:17,640 sanctification that we talked about last month, is things 414 00:22:17,640 --> 00:22:18,720 begin to change. Yeah. 415 00:22:18,720 --> 00:22:22,040 I don't like the blood. I love the song the blood. 416 00:22:22,760 --> 00:22:25,840 And it this starts out with like, I don't walk like I used 417 00:22:25,840 --> 00:22:27,040 to. I don't talk like I used to. 418 00:22:27,160 --> 00:22:30,680 It's getting harder to recognize the person that I used to be and 419 00:22:30,680 --> 00:22:33,360 think, think, think for a second of who you used to be. 420 00:22:34,440 --> 00:22:38,600 I am disgusted. Like, fun fact, I'm writing a 421 00:22:38,600 --> 00:22:41,960 book and I'm going through all of these things. 422 00:22:41,960 --> 00:22:48,080 And I cried so much yesterday because like the person that I 423 00:22:48,080 --> 00:22:57,080 was and how displeasing that is to God and how I was so lost in 424 00:22:57,080 --> 00:23:01,640 this world that I was just consumed by it. 425 00:23:02,000 --> 00:23:06,120 You know, like I, I'm talking about being at Georgia Bob's and 426 00:23:06,120 --> 00:23:10,560 how that, see at the end as people knew that that was my 427 00:23:10,560 --> 00:23:13,040 seat. How disgusting is it that they 428 00:23:13,040 --> 00:23:16,680 knew that at a bar, Alexis was going to be sitting right there? 429 00:23:16,760 --> 00:23:20,800 I want to be known for the seat that I sit at at church where I 430 00:23:20,800 --> 00:23:24,520 sit and I listen to my pastor teach me the word and sit under 431 00:23:24,520 --> 00:23:26,960 him and learn and grow. I don't want to be known for 432 00:23:26,960 --> 00:23:31,160 that bar stool. And that is something that I'm 433 00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:35,880 like, I feel like this whole book kind of thing came from 434 00:23:36,040 --> 00:23:39,200 from no, from it came from God, because it can't. 435 00:23:39,200 --> 00:23:41,240 You know, I already told you a little bit about it and I'll 436 00:23:41,240 --> 00:23:45,960 talk more probably another time, but I feel like there's going to 437 00:23:45,960 --> 00:23:47,640 be a lot of healing. Yeah. 438 00:23:48,240 --> 00:23:53,240 In writing this for sure, because I read, you know, 439 00:23:53,240 --> 00:23:57,240 chapter 1 to Greg yesterday and it's me and Greg's love story 440 00:23:57,240 --> 00:24:00,600 basically. And it brought back so many 441 00:24:00,600 --> 00:24:04,280 emotions and so many feelings that I didn't even remember 442 00:24:04,280 --> 00:24:07,200 having. And like, then I looked at him 443 00:24:07,200 --> 00:24:10,760 after I read that chapter and I'm so sorry. 444 00:24:10,760 --> 00:24:15,840 That was so disgusting. Like I looked at him and I saw 445 00:24:15,840 --> 00:24:19,440 him in a different light. Like I saw him the way that I 446 00:24:19,440 --> 00:24:24,160 saw him eight years ago. And there's so many times that 447 00:24:24,160 --> 00:24:27,920 we have to do the same thing with the God is like take a 448 00:24:27,920 --> 00:24:33,280 picture of what? Like don't just look at the here 449 00:24:33,280 --> 00:24:36,400 and now. Look at the overall, the where 450 00:24:36,400 --> 00:24:39,560 it started, where you've come, how much you've got to know him, 451 00:24:39,560 --> 00:24:44,600 how you've grown with him. Because there's something so 452 00:24:44,600 --> 00:24:51,760 like emotional, I don't know, like when you see what God's 453 00:24:51,760 --> 00:24:53,680 brought you through. It's healing, yes. 454 00:24:53,680 --> 00:24:56,640 And it that's another way that it strengthens your faith 455 00:24:56,840 --> 00:25:01,840 throughout life and seeing how good He is to us and seeing. 456 00:25:01,840 --> 00:25:04,920 Because sometimes in those moments or when we're just 457 00:25:04,920 --> 00:25:07,240 caught in the here and now, we forget. 458 00:25:07,240 --> 00:25:11,640 Yeah, we truly do. We forget how good he has been 459 00:25:11,640 --> 00:25:15,960 to us because we're only looking forward and trying to see a way 460 00:25:15,960 --> 00:25:16,600 out. Yeah. 461 00:25:16,800 --> 00:25:21,080 And sometimes we have to stop and look back and see how much 462 00:25:21,080 --> 00:25:24,000 he has gotten us through. He's never abandoned me. 463 00:25:24,520 --> 00:25:27,480 And I have to tell myself that you never abandoned me, Lord. 464 00:25:27,480 --> 00:25:32,000 You have never been without me, even though it feels like that 465 00:25:32,000 --> 00:25:36,160 right now. I see how far we have come and I 466 00:25:36,160 --> 00:25:40,840 see how far my faith has grown in you and I see how far and how 467 00:25:40,840 --> 00:25:44,920 close we walk together now compared to how we used how I we 468 00:25:44,920 --> 00:25:48,760 didn't walk together at all. And now that I have that with 469 00:25:48,760 --> 00:25:54,160 you, Lord, and I can see that. Help me to do that with others. 470 00:25:54,720 --> 00:25:58,320 The more we're becoming Christ like and the more we're being 471 00:25:58,320 --> 00:26:03,400 molded in shape, taped into more of him, the more we need to give 472 00:26:03,400 --> 00:26:06,360 that to others and help others along their walk. 473 00:26:06,360 --> 00:26:09,840 And that's just how this whole process I believe is supposed to 474 00:26:09,840 --> 00:26:13,960 go with her faith and discipleship and doing it with 475 00:26:13,960 --> 00:26:15,880 others. You know how you went through 476 00:26:15,880 --> 00:26:18,080 the crushing and the pressing and what you went through with 477 00:26:18,080 --> 00:26:21,920 Greg and how you were able to look back and see how far y'all 478 00:26:21,920 --> 00:26:25,960 have come and having faith in that now that really gives you 479 00:26:25,960 --> 00:26:30,960 faith for other marriages. That should help you to see if 480 00:26:30,960 --> 00:26:33,000 you see somebody and struggling in their marriage. 481 00:26:33,160 --> 00:26:39,240 I'm telling you, I if you just truly sell out to Christ and 482 00:26:39,240 --> 00:26:43,000 you're able to help guide them and disciple them, now you know 483 00:26:43,000 --> 00:26:45,840 without a shadow of a doubt what he can do for their marriage. 484 00:26:46,080 --> 00:26:49,040 And that's just how this whole process is supposed to go. 485 00:26:49,200 --> 00:26:53,560 We so we were talking about the other night and because my mom 486 00:26:53,560 --> 00:26:57,040 spoke at the well, which Jessica Cox, she just gave her testimony 487 00:26:57,040 --> 00:26:59,440 on here a few weeks, a few months, something like that. 488 00:26:59,840 --> 00:27:03,920 So go check that out. But it opened the door for me 489 00:27:03,920 --> 00:27:06,760 and mom to go to the well. So originally we were going to 490 00:27:06,760 --> 00:27:09,760 do it together and share our testimonies together and all 491 00:27:09,760 --> 00:27:13,120 this, but we sat down and Jessica's like, this is too much 492 00:27:13,120 --> 00:27:15,320 to do in like a 30 minute time span. 493 00:27:15,320 --> 00:27:18,440 So we're going to split them up. So mom went the other night and 494 00:27:18,440 --> 00:27:21,640 all of like hers was specifically about the cycling 495 00:27:21,640 --> 00:27:26,320 people and you know, like what that looks like to be a 496 00:27:26,320 --> 00:27:29,400 spiritual leader in people's lives and, you know, because of 497 00:27:29,400 --> 00:27:35,160 sisters of faith, right. And I think on my end, we're 498 00:27:35,160 --> 00:27:37,680 talking about how, you know, generational curses are being 499 00:27:37,680 --> 00:27:38,920 broken. I don't know, we still haven't 500 00:27:38,920 --> 00:27:41,160 sat down, but that was a thing that we kind of talked about. 501 00:27:41,840 --> 00:27:46,680 And usually we see, you know, like a mom, a daughter, like 502 00:27:46,680 --> 00:27:50,880 your kids in a line, but or you just think about your immediate 503 00:27:50,880 --> 00:27:53,160 family. But for me, like I've watched 504 00:27:53,160 --> 00:27:58,200 generational curses being broken from my mom to then her mom also 505 00:27:58,200 --> 00:28:01,480 has found healing in this. And then I start following 506 00:28:01,480 --> 00:28:04,640 Christ. And then for me then Greg, like 507 00:28:04,640 --> 00:28:08,040 it's been a ripple of right. And that is what our face should 508 00:28:08,040 --> 00:28:10,400 look like. It should look like a ripple in 509 00:28:10,400 --> 00:28:13,680 the water where it just continues to grow and grow and 510 00:28:13,680 --> 00:28:16,760 grow. Like it's just expanding into 511 00:28:17,040 --> 00:28:21,200 every aspect of your life, every aspect of your family corners 512 00:28:21,200 --> 00:28:24,200 because you know, we all got these crazy like, well, I'm kind 513 00:28:24,200 --> 00:28:25,560 of related to this person, like whatever. 514 00:28:26,400 --> 00:28:32,080 Until eventually your whole family is consumes by the word 515 00:28:32,080 --> 00:28:35,320 of God, but they're consumes with the Lord and walking 516 00:28:35,320 --> 00:28:38,120 faithfully with him. That's what it looks like for 517 00:28:38,120 --> 00:28:41,440 your faith to be bold. Because if we kept it a secret, 518 00:28:42,600 --> 00:28:46,280 how wouldn't? Anybody Yo, you know how how 519 00:28:46,360 --> 00:28:47,880 that density analogy? How? 520 00:28:47,880 --> 00:28:50,680 Oh, that says that I did. I never. 521 00:28:50,680 --> 00:28:53,520 Heard that. I've never heard she cooked with 522 00:28:53,520 --> 00:28:55,480 that. Yeah, you gotta read it. 523 00:28:55,640 --> 00:29:00,880 I wrote down some notes from it because it hit me hard when she 524 00:29:00,880 --> 00:29:03,760 was talking about when you think about the Dead Sea, how water 525 00:29:03,760 --> 00:29:06,920 flows in it and see this is going to be hard for me to 526 00:29:06,920 --> 00:29:08,840 repeat what she said because it was so good. 527 00:29:08,840 --> 00:29:11,600 I wish I could find it, but you know, with the Dead Sea, water 528 00:29:11,600 --> 00:29:13,520 flows in and nothing. From the Jordan. 529 00:29:13,520 --> 00:29:16,000 Yet from the Jordan River, nothing flows out of it. 530 00:29:16,560 --> 00:29:20,200 And because nothing is flowing out, the salt concentration gets 531 00:29:20,200 --> 00:29:23,960 so high that nothing then can abide and live in it. 532 00:29:24,520 --> 00:29:31,640 And it's, it's kind of like us. We go to church, we read our 533 00:29:31,640 --> 00:29:34,280 word. So many Christians and I fall 534 00:29:34,280 --> 00:29:39,360 into this category so many times and get so full, get so sought 535 00:29:39,360 --> 00:29:44,040 concentrated with Christ and know his word and know 536 00:29:44,040 --> 00:29:47,320 everything and nothing flows out from it. 537 00:29:47,320 --> 00:29:51,320 Nothing flows out from me that is discipling others. 538 00:29:51,320 --> 00:29:53,400 And I'm so full of this knowledge. 539 00:29:53,720 --> 00:29:56,040 And I think that she said that she said to the woman that's 540 00:29:56,040 --> 00:30:01,960 full of Christ, that's full of his knowledge, that's just 541 00:30:01,960 --> 00:30:05,160 sitting there. She said go, because that's what 542 00:30:05,160 --> 00:30:08,080 he says, go now and make disciples. 543 00:30:09,600 --> 00:30:11,400 And I just get chills thinking about that. 544 00:30:11,400 --> 00:30:15,680 It's like, have I just been sitting there playing church, 545 00:30:15,680 --> 00:30:21,280 being a Christian, getting full and not really truly going and, 546 00:30:21,600 --> 00:30:26,120 and, and having it flow out of me completely? 547 00:30:26,120 --> 00:30:29,800 When you think about it, though, if everybody was just consumers, 548 00:30:29,960 --> 00:30:34,600 everybody was consumers, the Bible would have died years, 549 00:30:34,680 --> 00:30:37,640 thousands, thousands of go thousands of years ago. 550 00:30:38,280 --> 00:30:41,760 We have to not just be consumers, we have to be givers. 551 00:30:41,760 --> 00:30:44,400 We have to show the light, We have to give the light, we have 552 00:30:44,400 --> 00:30:47,720 to radiate the light because if we don't, the Bible will die, 553 00:30:48,160 --> 00:30:49,840 Pastor Matt told us more recently. 554 00:30:49,840 --> 00:30:55,920 You know, there is like over 3525 hundred churches closing 555 00:30:55,920 --> 00:30:58,120 down every single year in the United States. 556 00:30:59,120 --> 00:31:03,960 And you know, because we are a multi site campus, we have our 557 00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:06,560 church, we have 5 campuses and you know, a lot of people are 558 00:31:06,560 --> 00:31:08,560 like why do you just keep wanting to get more churches? 559 00:31:08,560 --> 00:31:10,720 Like why do you just like you just want to have a church 560 00:31:10,720 --> 00:31:13,520 everywhere? No, we want to do our part. 561 00:31:13,680 --> 00:31:17,720 We want to make sure that even the 25,000, the 2500 that are 562 00:31:17,720 --> 00:31:21,680 shutting down every single year, we're doing our part and we're 563 00:31:21,680 --> 00:31:24,240 producing more. We're showing people where to 564 00:31:24,240 --> 00:31:25,960 go. That church might have closed, 565 00:31:25,960 --> 00:31:29,360 but here, like we want to help bring the word into our 566 00:31:29,360 --> 00:31:34,600 community so that the Bible, yeah, the Bible, Christianity, 567 00:31:34,600 --> 00:31:38,560 Jesus Christ is known for what he's done, you know, so. 568 00:31:38,760 --> 00:31:40,640 If we bring others hope. Yes. 569 00:31:40,640 --> 00:31:44,280 And if we were only consumers, that wouldn't happen ever. 570 00:31:44,280 --> 00:31:46,280 Yeah, yeah. It's got to flow out of us, 571 00:31:46,520 --> 00:31:50,280 which I know we had kind of talked about, but that's, you 572 00:31:50,280 --> 00:31:53,880 know, and you have a platform that you use to share your faith 573 00:31:53,880 --> 00:31:55,720 and sound like. The word platform gives me the 574 00:31:55,720 --> 00:31:58,920 EXO. I know, OK, I mean you just have 575 00:31:58,920 --> 00:32:03,080 a values, you have avenues how you go about, you know, sharing 576 00:32:03,080 --> 00:32:08,080 your faith. So like when I started being a 577 00:32:08,080 --> 00:32:09,960 young Christian, like a baby Christian, right? 578 00:32:09,960 --> 00:32:14,240 Like I just would share stuff. Like I would post things. 579 00:32:14,240 --> 00:32:16,560 I would post this. I'll post that because it's a 580 00:32:16,560 --> 00:32:20,360 lot easier to post on Facebook. I'm going to be honest and on 581 00:32:20,360 --> 00:32:24,720 socials than having a direct conversation with someone, but 582 00:32:24,720 --> 00:32:28,280 the longer you do it, the more you learn, the more that you 583 00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:32,240 become more confident. Like the more it's really ask 584 00:32:32,240 --> 00:32:34,840 any aspect of life, right? Practice makes perfect. 585 00:32:34,840 --> 00:32:37,720 The more that you do something, the more that you talk about 586 00:32:37,720 --> 00:32:40,000 something, the more you become comfortable with it. 587 00:32:40,760 --> 00:32:44,720 And so, you know, I want I wanted right when I started 588 00:32:44,720 --> 00:32:47,800 really following Christ out, I wanted my platforms to look 589 00:32:47,800 --> 00:32:49,520 different. And when I say that just my 590 00:32:49,520 --> 00:32:52,280 normal social media, it's like I didn't want to have those cuss 591 00:32:52,280 --> 00:32:53,400 words. I didn't want to have this. 592 00:32:53,400 --> 00:32:57,480 I wanted everybody to look at this my page and see Jesus 593 00:32:57,480 --> 00:32:59,880 Christ. Maybe that's scripture, maybe 594 00:32:59,880 --> 00:33:02,760 that's this, maybe that's that the songs I put on there. 595 00:33:03,160 --> 00:33:06,360 I think that's important because if you start doing it there, 596 00:33:06,360 --> 00:33:10,320 it'll overflow into your life. It'll overflow in the here and 597 00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:14,960 now in the in person stuff because I would sit down and I 598 00:33:14,960 --> 00:33:20,600 would record like, you know, like when I read my devotion and 599 00:33:20,600 --> 00:33:23,880 I was not confident in that in the slightest. 600 00:33:23,880 --> 00:33:26,240 But it's editable. You can do that. 601 00:33:26,280 --> 00:33:28,320 Like you can full on record this. 602 00:33:28,320 --> 00:33:30,480 If you didn't like it, you could record it again, whatever. 603 00:33:31,280 --> 00:33:34,920 But it taught me how to talk about what I read. 604 00:33:35,560 --> 00:33:40,400 It taught me to actually think about it other than just blah 605 00:33:40,400 --> 00:33:41,720 blah, blah, blah, blah and close it. 606 00:33:42,080 --> 00:33:45,400 Because how many times do we do read something and we close it 607 00:33:45,400 --> 00:33:47,720 and. My dad is an oily, and that just 608 00:33:47,720 --> 00:33:50,320 brings up this advice that he's always giving me. 609 00:33:51,560 --> 00:33:56,800 Whatever you're thinking, like to learn to grow in it, you got 610 00:33:56,800 --> 00:33:59,120 to speak it out. Yeah, you got to say it out 611 00:33:59,120 --> 00:33:59,960 loud. Yes. 612 00:34:00,520 --> 00:34:03,760 And that's something that I've tried to start doing better at, 613 00:34:03,760 --> 00:34:08,320 like when I'm at home or in my word or praying, like I was just 614 00:34:08,320 --> 00:34:11,639 walking around my kitchen, just praying out loud, like saying it 615 00:34:11,639 --> 00:34:13,880 out loud. So it's almost like you hear it 616 00:34:13,880 --> 00:34:16,679 yourself. And it's not just stuck in 617 00:34:16,679 --> 00:34:19,480 internal, internal, It's not just stuck up here. 618 00:34:19,800 --> 00:34:23,320 And you're practicing that out loud and you hear it and it just 619 00:34:23,320 --> 00:34:26,639 becomes more real or it becomes more practicable. 620 00:34:26,880 --> 00:34:30,040 So yeah, whatever you've got in your mind, you know, start 621 00:34:30,040 --> 00:34:32,239 speaking it out and you'll see a huge difference. 622 00:34:32,520 --> 00:34:36,920 Period. Like I say that like I said that 623 00:34:36,920 --> 00:34:40,080 and you're like, what? Why no about anything and 624 00:34:40,080 --> 00:34:43,199 everything, even these negative core beliefs about yourself. 625 00:34:43,199 --> 00:34:47,040 Speak it because there is freedom in speaking so good. 626 00:34:48,199 --> 00:34:49,719 That's a whole. Different thing, I know. 627 00:34:49,719 --> 00:34:51,800 We must do that now. Wait a minute. 628 00:34:52,120 --> 00:34:55,480 But you know, speak what you have in your mind because you 629 00:34:55,480 --> 00:34:58,600 don't want to be held captive to that, but you also want to bring 630 00:34:58,600 --> 00:35:00,240 it to life. You want to put it into 631 00:35:00,240 --> 00:35:03,040 existence. And that is the only way you 632 00:35:03,040 --> 00:35:06,720 learn how to grow because there is, there's times I'll look back 633 00:35:06,720 --> 00:35:10,240 and I'm like, I had no idea what I was talking about when I got 634 00:35:10,240 --> 00:35:13,880 up there and said that, like. And it was because that was my 635 00:35:13,880 --> 00:35:16,920 first time ever speaking it. That was my first time ever. 636 00:35:16,920 --> 00:35:19,880 Like, it was thoughts that I had, but I didn't know how to 637 00:35:19,880 --> 00:35:22,800 actually voice it. And so that's one of the reasons 638 00:35:22,800 --> 00:35:27,960 why I do miss the monologue episodes with myself because 639 00:35:28,280 --> 00:35:31,080 there was times that I would talk about the scriptures and 640 00:35:31,080 --> 00:35:32,840 what I was learning and everything. 641 00:35:33,160 --> 00:35:36,280 And it was actually teaching me how to talk about it. 642 00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:40,200 Yeah. Doing this is helped me, yeah, 643 00:35:41,280 --> 00:35:45,600 because when I read or we go and listen to something and we got 644 00:35:45,600 --> 00:35:51,080 to talk about it back on it. I've tried to before we even 645 00:35:51,080 --> 00:35:55,080 record, yeah, talk about it out loud or I talk to him about it. 646 00:35:55,120 --> 00:35:58,640 But saying it like, I mean literally is to say it out. 647 00:35:58,640 --> 00:36:00,640 Like speak it not just in your head. 648 00:36:00,640 --> 00:36:03,240 Yes, I'm talking to you out loud. 649 00:36:03,560 --> 00:36:06,680 It helps you to. I don't know how it works in the 650 00:36:06,680 --> 00:36:09,320 brain. It's so weird how it does. 651 00:36:09,320 --> 00:36:13,960 It makes it real. It makes you better know how to 652 00:36:13,960 --> 00:36:16,280 speak it out the next time you talk about it. 653 00:36:17,040 --> 00:36:20,280 Would you I was just about to say that about prayer as well, 654 00:36:20,280 --> 00:36:24,880 because 90% of a room that you're in does not want to pray 655 00:36:24,880 --> 00:36:28,800 out loud and like they they are confident in praying out loud. 656 00:36:29,840 --> 00:36:33,840 Me and someone we went night and bless the food and just prayed 657 00:36:33,840 --> 00:36:40,160 over the the time and you know, she followed it up with man. 658 00:36:40,240 --> 00:36:42,880 I'll just I still say like the Lord's prayer, like God is 659 00:36:42,880 --> 00:36:43,960 great. God is good. 660 00:36:44,080 --> 00:36:47,200 That ain't the Lord's prayer. But you know that prayer that 661 00:36:47,200 --> 00:36:50,360 like that's how she did it. But I said it's a conversation 662 00:36:50,360 --> 00:36:52,120 between you and God, nobody else. 663 00:36:52,120 --> 00:36:54,760 It doesn't matter if it makes sense to anybody else. 664 00:36:54,840 --> 00:36:57,240 It's you and God. And the more that you do it, the 665 00:36:57,240 --> 00:36:59,720 more that you learn, the more that you will feel comfortable 666 00:36:59,720 --> 00:37:01,840 doing it. Because if you go listen to them 667 00:37:01,840 --> 00:37:08,520 episodes one through 10:20, 30-40, what that beginning. 668 00:37:08,840 --> 00:37:12,280 I'm telling you, those prayers give me that I don't. 669 00:37:12,280 --> 00:37:14,600 Know what you're talking? About like at the beginning of 670 00:37:14,600 --> 00:37:17,400 this, like I didn't, I wasn't comfortable praying out loud, 671 00:37:17,720 --> 00:37:20,320 but I knew that it was important because I had listened to 672 00:37:20,320 --> 00:37:23,960 podcasts and at the end they would pray and I know that they 673 00:37:23,960 --> 00:37:26,400 probably do pray before they go live. 674 00:37:26,400 --> 00:37:30,600 Like I pray in the mornings about this stuff, but I don't 675 00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:32,800 ever pray. Like, you know, I want, I want 676 00:37:32,800 --> 00:37:35,440 to start out in prayer. I want to show women and people 677 00:37:35,440 --> 00:37:39,840 that are listening how to pray. And yeah, before anything that 678 00:37:39,840 --> 00:37:42,160 you do pray, right? So I pray. 679 00:37:42,360 --> 00:37:43,640 That you do. Yeah, give it. 680 00:37:43,680 --> 00:37:46,960 Yeah, give it to the Lord, you know, let him lead and guide 681 00:37:46,960 --> 00:37:48,360 you, speak to you and through you. 682 00:37:50,080 --> 00:37:53,440 So the longer that I've done these episodes, the more that 683 00:37:53,440 --> 00:37:55,680 I've prayed. It's become a discipleship tool 684 00:37:55,680 --> 00:37:58,760 for myself where I've learned how to pray. 685 00:37:59,240 --> 00:38:01,920 And now if someone was like, does anybody want to pray? 686 00:38:01,920 --> 00:38:05,080 And nobody says anything. I, you know, I love to give 687 00:38:05,080 --> 00:38:06,800 people an opportunity. I don't want to. 688 00:38:06,800 --> 00:38:09,960 And my group, my small group of girls know if nobody's going to, 689 00:38:09,960 --> 00:38:13,400 nobody's going to volunteer, I'm going to call on you because 690 00:38:13,400 --> 00:38:15,080 it's important to learn how to pray. 691 00:38:15,400 --> 00:38:20,640 And especially as mothers, as women, when I meet with people, 692 00:38:20,640 --> 00:38:23,640 you know, I want to be able to pray over them and for them. 693 00:38:24,360 --> 00:38:27,240 To. Them and I want them to go home 694 00:38:27,240 --> 00:38:29,960 and pray over their children or that situation or whatever. 695 00:38:29,960 --> 00:38:32,200 So it's important to. Pray out loud. 696 00:38:32,240 --> 00:38:35,680 Practice is spiritual discipline for sure. 697 00:38:35,800 --> 00:38:37,800 Yeah, and and helping share your faith. 698 00:38:37,800 --> 00:38:43,160 But in disciple and others. One thing that I've tried to get 699 00:38:43,160 --> 00:38:46,440 better on, like we were at Dexter's grandma's the other day 700 00:38:46,480 --> 00:38:52,800 and she was walking back to sit down and Dexter's Nana was 701 00:38:52,800 --> 00:38:54,000 there. So that's kind of confusing. 702 00:38:54,000 --> 00:38:58,680 His grandma and his Nana were there, but she, his grandma 703 00:38:58,680 --> 00:39:02,520 mentioned something to his Nana like, oh, I used to could do 704 00:39:02,520 --> 00:39:06,080 this or I've been struggling in this way and his Nana just said 705 00:39:06,080 --> 00:39:09,680 something out loud that really hit me that we don't do or 706 00:39:09,680 --> 00:39:12,200 practice enough that we've got to get better at. 707 00:39:12,680 --> 00:39:15,760 She said You want me to pray right now with you, Period. 708 00:39:15,800 --> 00:39:17,320 Period. And that is a period. 709 00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:20,360 And she was serious. She was like, let's pray right 710 00:39:20,360 --> 00:39:22,640 now. Stop what you're doing and let's 711 00:39:22,640 --> 00:39:26,240 just pray. And instead of saying I'm 712 00:39:26,280 --> 00:39:28,200 praying for you, you know. What? 713 00:39:28,200 --> 00:39:30,600 And that just actually sparked me too. 714 00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:36,920 When I was at church the other day, one of my young girls that 715 00:39:36,920 --> 00:39:41,320 I used to lead the middle school, her parents went by and 716 00:39:41,320 --> 00:39:43,480 we just kind of started talking. And they're like, you know, how 717 00:39:43,480 --> 00:39:44,280 are you? This morning? 718 00:39:44,280 --> 00:39:47,880 I'm like, I'm tired. I'm tired, I said, but I'm good. 719 00:39:47,880 --> 00:39:49,840 I'm glad to be here. You know, that that. 720 00:39:50,360 --> 00:39:53,120 But somehow her mom like, broke down a wall. 721 00:39:53,320 --> 00:39:55,040 And I'm like, I just really didn't struggle. 722 00:39:55,680 --> 00:39:59,840 And instantly she said, can we go ahead and pray right now? 723 00:39:59,960 --> 00:40:02,040 Let's go ahead and pray. What else can I pray for you? 724 00:40:02,040 --> 00:40:03,800 And so her and her husband start praying. 725 00:40:04,680 --> 00:40:09,200 Over the situation and just like clarity and for me to sit still 726 00:40:09,560 --> 00:40:13,240 and all this stuff and I thank them so much because I said 727 00:40:13,240 --> 00:40:15,400 there's so many times that I would have been like, oh, I got 728 00:40:15,400 --> 00:40:19,120 to run like tried to speed past that conversation like, oh, I'm 729 00:40:19,120 --> 00:40:20,960 great, thank you so much whatever. 730 00:40:20,960 --> 00:40:23,760 But it was a learning moment for me of don't just say you're 731 00:40:23,760 --> 00:40:25,840 going to pray for somebody. Pray for them right then and 732 00:40:25,840 --> 00:40:30,200 they're in the moment because that is that is something that 733 00:40:30,200 --> 00:40:33,320 we don't do like. And I try to do it when I meet 734 00:40:33,320 --> 00:40:36,240 with people, like when I truly am doing one on ones. 735 00:40:36,480 --> 00:40:40,120 Because there is a reason you came into their path there. 736 00:40:40,120 --> 00:40:45,280 It's a reason they asked you that like it was divine and 737 00:40:45,440 --> 00:40:49,040 there was a reason that they were able to pray out loud for 738 00:40:49,040 --> 00:40:52,280 you. So it's like, yes, if we run 739 00:40:52,280 --> 00:40:56,680 into those situations, he has placed them there either to get 740 00:40:56,680 --> 00:41:01,800 hope from them, like you to get hope from them, or for them to 741 00:41:01,800 --> 00:41:05,520 learn from you, so. Yeah, and people might be a 742 00:41:05,520 --> 00:41:08,800 little weary about like, well, I don't know if they believe in 743 00:41:08,800 --> 00:41:11,720 Christ or not, so I don't really want to ask them to pray. 744 00:41:11,720 --> 00:41:15,320 Like whatever. I have never really experienced 745 00:41:15,320 --> 00:41:19,600 or seen or heard anyone it believe, believer, unbeliever. 746 00:41:19,600 --> 00:41:21,440 They don't really turn down prayers. 747 00:41:22,400 --> 00:41:25,560 No, we were at a Mexican restaurant and the lady that was 748 00:41:25,560 --> 00:41:30,640 checking us out there was, you just get these divine moments. 749 00:41:30,640 --> 00:41:32,320 I don't know. And we were like, how can we 750 00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:34,680 pray for you? Or I think Dexter had asked that 751 00:41:34,680 --> 00:41:36,880 or I was like, you know, how are you doing? 752 00:41:36,880 --> 00:41:40,400 Because we've seen her a few times and she was like, 753 00:41:40,400 --> 00:41:46,760 actually, my car is broken down. I need a whole new transmission 754 00:41:46,760 --> 00:41:49,480 or I can't remember exactly what part it was that she needed. 755 00:41:49,760 --> 00:41:52,520 And she was trying to figure out a way, you know, back and forth 756 00:41:52,520 --> 00:41:57,000 from work and this and that. She had a lot going on and we 757 00:41:57,000 --> 00:41:58,200 were just like, can we pray for you? 758 00:41:58,200 --> 00:42:01,720 And she we didn't know if she was a behavior or not, but she 759 00:42:01,720 --> 00:42:05,240 definitely did not turn it down. And she said absolutely the next 760 00:42:05,240 --> 00:42:08,560 time we saw her, everything had gotten helped out situated 761 00:42:08,560 --> 00:42:11,640 because I think Dexter even gave her a number to somebody to help 762 00:42:11,640 --> 00:42:16,600 with her car. But he had he came through and I 763 00:42:16,600 --> 00:42:19,360 mean it's just yet. Even if you don't know if 764 00:42:19,360 --> 00:42:22,840 they're a believer or not, and even if they did say you know, 765 00:42:23,200 --> 00:42:25,800 no thank you. Well, I am going to be praying 766 00:42:25,800 --> 00:42:28,840 for you, like following up with that like I'm actually about to 767 00:42:28,840 --> 00:42:30,680 be praying for you right now, like. 768 00:42:31,320 --> 00:42:34,080 Or if you run into them again, you know, just checking on them 769 00:42:34,080 --> 00:42:37,640 and and saying, you know, how is everything again and just making 770 00:42:37,640 --> 00:42:41,000 sure that they see you were legit. 771 00:42:41,120 --> 00:42:45,960 Yeah, girl, I'm be honest, this really we took a turn. 772 00:42:46,080 --> 00:42:49,240 I ain't know where we are while we was going to go in this and 773 00:42:49,240 --> 00:42:52,600 it was good. So me neither it was good. 774 00:42:52,600 --> 00:42:56,200 'Cause I came, I heard you cried this morning and I said. 775 00:42:56,640 --> 00:42:58,520 Lord, speak to me and throw. Me, I did. 776 00:42:59,160 --> 00:43:02,320 Before I came, I said Lord, I need your help. 777 00:43:02,480 --> 00:43:05,000 It's because it's got to come from you, 'cause right now I'm 778 00:43:05,000 --> 00:43:08,120 tired, I'm running on no sleep. I have not. 779 00:43:08,320 --> 00:43:10,440 I don't feel prepared. I feel I got. 780 00:43:10,440 --> 00:43:13,720 Stuff to do. I feel prepared in my heart 781 00:43:13,720 --> 00:43:16,400 because of all that you're doing to me, all that I'm going 782 00:43:16,400 --> 00:43:19,320 through not doing to me, but all that I'm going through and all 783 00:43:19,320 --> 00:43:23,000 that you're doing through me. But you got to show up and show 784 00:43:23,000 --> 00:43:25,600 out because I have nothing. I have no words. 785 00:43:25,600 --> 00:43:27,360 But he's given us. He's did it. 786 00:43:27,360 --> 00:43:29,520 He did again, and he never. Fails. 787 00:43:29,520 --> 00:43:32,520 No, and that's that's why it's important. 788 00:43:32,520 --> 00:43:34,360 That is faith right there. Absolutely. 789 00:43:34,560 --> 00:43:40,040 I'm going to show up and no. That is why it's important to be 790 00:43:40,040 --> 00:43:43,720 in line with the Lord though, because maybe you don't feel 791 00:43:43,720 --> 00:43:47,680 qualified, maybe you don't feel like you're prepared, but when 792 00:43:47,680 --> 00:43:51,160 you are walking with the Lord, he lives within you. 793 00:43:52,080 --> 00:43:57,480 He he knows all this, like he knows how to do this, I guess, 794 00:43:57,480 --> 00:43:59,360 you know, like he knows how to lead and guide a conversation. 795 00:43:59,360 --> 00:44:01,640 We just have to say yes. We have to surrender. 796 00:44:02,000 --> 00:44:04,960 We have to give it up to him, say the yes, be the best yes, be 797 00:44:04,960 --> 00:44:07,720 the best version, yes. Whatever faith in this 798 00:44:07,720 --> 00:44:11,160 discipleship, and that's sharing it with others and being 799 00:44:11,160 --> 00:44:16,760 available for others to us all to continue to learn to be more 800 00:44:16,760 --> 00:44:20,200 Christ. Like being real raw and 801 00:44:20,200 --> 00:44:23,520 relatable. Anyway, sorry guys, I hate that 802 00:44:23,520 --> 00:44:25,960 y'all had to hear me sound like this today and I probably had 803 00:44:25,960 --> 00:44:27,880 some sniffles and some whatever's in there. 804 00:44:28,640 --> 00:44:32,680 Winter season As far as sickness, it has been the worst 805 00:44:32,680 --> 00:44:36,080 fishing trip. Tore me up, it's been the worst. 806 00:44:36,200 --> 00:44:39,480 I'm so bad. Anyway anyway guys, I hope you 807 00:44:39,480 --> 00:44:41,240 enjoyed this. Please make sure you're liking 808 00:44:41,240 --> 00:44:43,360 sharing, comment and all that good stuff. 809 00:44:43,360 --> 00:44:46,280 We appreciate every single listener and we pray that this 810 00:44:46,640 --> 00:44:50,520 draws you closer to Christ. Nothing that we say can save 811 00:44:50,520 --> 00:44:53,560 you, but we can introduce you and teach you and show you who 812 00:44:53,560 --> 00:44:57,000 can, and that's Jesus Christ. So anyway, stay tuned, stay 813 00:44:57,000 --> 00:44:58,560 blessed, and we'll see you guys next week. 814 00:44:58,800 --> 00:44:59,480 Bye bye.