1 00:00:09,660 --> 00:00:12,140 What's up, guys? My name's Alexis, your host of 2 00:00:12,140 --> 00:00:15,700 Praises in the Pod, and I am so excited to be here with Rachel 3 00:00:15,700 --> 00:00:18,540 Baxter today. She is actually one of my very 4 00:00:18,540 --> 00:00:21,660 first friends in life, so this is going to be so much fun. 5 00:00:21,860 --> 00:00:23,740 We're going to start off in prayer and then we're going to 6 00:00:23,740 --> 00:00:24,860 jump right in. So here we go. 7 00:00:25,400 --> 00:00:27,520 Lord, Heavenly Father, thank you for today. 8 00:00:27,520 --> 00:00:28,960 Thank you for all your many blessings. 9 00:00:28,960 --> 00:00:32,960 Dear God, thank you for sending Rachel when I was just a child 10 00:00:32,960 --> 00:00:36,640 and just being able to watch her grow over these years and then 11 00:00:36,640 --> 00:00:39,080 bringing in three beautiful boys. 12 00:00:39,080 --> 00:00:41,080 Lord God, we just pray over their family. 13 00:00:41,080 --> 00:00:44,200 We pray over this podcast. We pray that you speak to us and 14 00:00:44,200 --> 00:00:46,640 through us and let this episode glorify you. 15 00:00:46,920 --> 00:00:49,000 In Jesus name I pray. Amen. 16 00:00:49,280 --> 00:00:50,680 Amen. Amen, girl. 17 00:00:50,680 --> 00:00:53,080 So let's jump in. We have a lot of catching up to 18 00:00:53,080 --> 00:00:55,840 do, so in this episode. It's going to be about you 19 00:00:55,840 --> 00:00:58,880 though, so start us off a little bit at your childhood. 20 00:00:59,120 --> 00:01:04,280 OK, so growing up I was, I didn't grow up in a religious 21 00:01:04,280 --> 00:01:07,840 household really at all. I had friends who went to church 22 00:01:07,840 --> 00:01:09,760 and so I would go to church with them. 23 00:01:10,840 --> 00:01:16,080 Some of that was at Southside, but for the most part we really 24 00:01:16,080 --> 00:01:18,480 didn't go to church on Sundays. It wasn't like a foundation in 25 00:01:18,480 --> 00:01:20,840 our household. Yeah, You know, I was telling 26 00:01:20,840 --> 00:01:24,880 you when we first got here, like my Nana would not let me go to 27 00:01:25,400 --> 00:01:28,560 anybody's house growing up, Like I was not allowed to like go 28 00:01:28,560 --> 00:01:29,920 spend the night places or whatever. 29 00:01:29,960 --> 00:01:32,560 You're the only friend that I had in elementary school that I 30 00:01:32,560 --> 00:01:33,880 actually got to hang out with outside of. 31 00:01:33,880 --> 00:01:36,720 School and that's wild I. Know, like Taylor, do you 32 00:01:36,720 --> 00:01:39,960 remember Taylor Pool? So she used to come down to my 33 00:01:40,080 --> 00:01:41,840 house and stuff. But like, even her, I don't 34 00:01:41,840 --> 00:01:45,040 remember very often going to her house, but like yours, I was 35 00:01:45,040 --> 00:01:47,520 there all the time. Yeah, that zip line girl I 36 00:01:47,520 --> 00:01:49,160 forgot about. The zip no way I forgot all. 37 00:01:49,160 --> 00:01:53,040 About that, I was thinking about that last night and like us 38 00:01:53,040 --> 00:01:55,040 going downstairs and doing the karate stuff. 39 00:01:55,040 --> 00:01:58,560 Yeah, he anyway. Anyway, Anyway, memories, yes, 40 00:01:59,080 --> 00:02:02,520 OK, so going into this is where we kind of separate middle 41 00:02:02,520 --> 00:02:04,200 school, you go to a different middle school. 42 00:02:04,200 --> 00:02:06,560 So tell me a little bit about middle and high for you. 43 00:02:06,560 --> 00:02:11,680 So it was a weird dynamic that in middle school, I'm sure you 44 00:02:11,680 --> 00:02:14,320 remember going up, I was tomboy to the Mac. 45 00:02:14,480 --> 00:02:16,560 And so there is this weird transition in middle school 46 00:02:16,560 --> 00:02:18,800 where I was like, I'm going to dress girly. 47 00:02:18,800 --> 00:02:21,320 And so there was that weird transition and then into high 48 00:02:21,320 --> 00:02:24,200 school. I don't know, I don't really 49 00:02:24,200 --> 00:02:26,680 have a lot of like core memories from high school. 50 00:02:26,680 --> 00:02:30,400 I feel like more core memories more so come from college, grad 51 00:02:30,560 --> 00:02:33,400 school, all that stuff, which is kind of weird. 52 00:02:33,400 --> 00:02:34,960 But yeah, that's how it is. Yeah. 53 00:02:35,000 --> 00:02:37,360 So at middle school and high school, are you still like in 54 00:02:37,360 --> 00:02:39,520 and out, like kind of going to church with some friends or like 55 00:02:39,520 --> 00:02:42,560 nothing at all? You know, pretty pretty much 56 00:02:42,560 --> 00:02:43,360 nothing. Nothing. 57 00:02:43,600 --> 00:02:46,000 Yeah. So let's get jump into college 58 00:02:46,000 --> 00:02:47,000 then. Like what? 59 00:02:47,000 --> 00:02:48,960 What really kick start some things for you? 60 00:02:48,960 --> 00:02:53,720 So in college, the first couple years I was a wild child, which 61 00:02:53,720 --> 00:02:57,560 may have come from just my parents were really protective 62 00:02:57,760 --> 00:02:59,840 at home. And so going to college I was 63 00:02:59,840 --> 00:03:01,640 like, I can do whatever I want, yadda yadda. 64 00:03:02,000 --> 00:03:06,200 But in, I think it was sophomore year of college, I ended up 65 00:03:06,200 --> 00:03:10,960 having a roommate and she was really, really devoted to the 66 00:03:10,960 --> 00:03:13,840 ministry that she was in. It was called kudzu. 67 00:03:14,200 --> 00:03:16,760 And she would invite me over and over and over again. 68 00:03:16,760 --> 00:03:19,520 And then it just started like my roast just started turning and I 69 00:03:19,520 --> 00:03:20,720 just started looking into the stuff. 70 00:03:20,720 --> 00:03:23,280 I started reading my Bible, things like that. 71 00:03:23,280 --> 00:03:27,520 And then one day I think she went to Passion and like the 72 00:03:27,520 --> 00:03:31,240 Passion Conference and I was like, well, how was Passion? 73 00:03:31,240 --> 00:03:33,880 And it caught her off guard. She was like, you know, about 74 00:03:33,880 --> 00:03:35,800 passion. I was like, kinda. 75 00:03:36,440 --> 00:03:38,360 And so she was like, and she told me all about it and it was 76 00:03:38,360 --> 00:03:41,200 wonderful and things like that. And just like, well, if you want 77 00:03:41,200 --> 00:03:42,880 to come to kudzu, like you're more than welcome. 78 00:03:43,120 --> 00:03:46,240 And so I took her up on that. And that was really what just 79 00:03:46,240 --> 00:03:50,320 catapulted my whole faith journey, essentially. 80 00:03:50,440 --> 00:03:53,240 Yeah, like passion is such a big thing. 81 00:03:53,240 --> 00:03:55,880 Like I went for the past two years, even though I'm over the 82 00:03:55,880 --> 00:03:57,800 age limit, I don't care. It's amazing. 83 00:03:58,120 --> 00:04:01,640 I'm like, I will be there, but I went the past two years and 84 00:04:01,640 --> 00:04:05,440 watching these young adults like be on fire for Christ in that 85 00:04:05,440 --> 00:04:08,280 arena of like, it was absolutely breathtaking. 86 00:04:08,720 --> 00:04:11,280 And so, you know, a lot of people know about it, but they 87 00:04:11,280 --> 00:04:13,560 never experienced it. So you were watching your friend 88 00:04:13,560 --> 00:04:16,600 knew that she was going checked it out and that like piqued an 89 00:04:16,600 --> 00:04:20,600 interest, you know, but like her inviting you all those times 90 00:04:20,920 --> 00:04:23,400 that just goes to show like how important invites are. 91 00:04:23,600 --> 00:04:26,200 Like even though you kept saying no, like she was adamant, like 92 00:04:26,200 --> 00:04:28,880 she was like, hey, come on, you know? 93 00:04:28,880 --> 00:04:31,880 But then finally you're like, well, well, let me see. 94 00:04:31,920 --> 00:04:33,080 OK. Yeah. 95 00:04:33,720 --> 00:04:34,480 Cool. So. 96 00:04:34,680 --> 00:04:36,080 So y'all were roommates that were? 97 00:04:36,080 --> 00:04:37,000 Roommates. Yeah. 98 00:04:37,960 --> 00:04:39,640 We had a townhouse and she had one of the rooms. 99 00:04:39,640 --> 00:04:41,160 I had one of the rooms. Nice. 100 00:04:41,160 --> 00:04:43,760 OK, So what about after that? Like do you get just fully 101 00:04:44,240 --> 00:04:46,520 plugged in or like does it actually? 102 00:04:46,520 --> 00:04:49,480 Yeah, yeah, it was. And it was a super welcoming 103 00:04:49,920 --> 00:04:51,440 ministry. And so it was really easy to get 104 00:04:51,440 --> 00:04:54,480 plugged in. And then that just kind of 105 00:04:54,480 --> 00:04:55,960 carried me through until grad school. 106 00:04:55,960 --> 00:04:59,480 I went to physical therapy school in Atlanta, and so I was 107 00:04:59,480 --> 00:05:01,640 super close to passion. I ended up going to passion 108 00:05:01,640 --> 00:05:04,240 every single Sunday. Wow, absolutely insane. 109 00:05:04,240 --> 00:05:06,960 Yes. So yeah, I thought was core 110 00:05:06,960 --> 00:05:08,160 memory. It's just passion. 111 00:05:08,320 --> 00:05:11,640 Yes, I'm telling you, I just came back from passion camp for 112 00:05:11,640 --> 00:05:15,360 high schoolers and God spoke so boldly to me while I was there. 113 00:05:15,360 --> 00:05:19,400 I'm like, This is why, like even though I'm over the age limit 114 00:05:19,400 --> 00:05:22,440 for half this stuff, you know, or I'm going as leaders, God can 115 00:05:22,440 --> 00:05:24,440 still speak in those environments. 116 00:05:24,440 --> 00:05:26,320 Like you never know when God speaking to. 117 00:05:26,320 --> 00:05:27,720 You absolutely. So, yeah, so. 118 00:05:27,720 --> 00:05:29,600 Tell me a little bit about your husband. 119 00:05:29,720 --> 00:05:32,040 Like when do y'all meet? How does that start? 120 00:05:32,040 --> 00:05:36,240 So we like true millennials. We met on a dating app. 121 00:05:36,760 --> 00:05:38,960 So I was in PT school in Atlanta. 122 00:05:39,280 --> 00:05:42,240 He was, so he was an Army Ranger in Columbus. 123 00:05:42,240 --> 00:05:45,680 And so our little radius was on like 100 miles and we were, I 124 00:05:45,880 --> 00:05:47,800 don't know, 98 miles from each other. 125 00:05:47,920 --> 00:05:50,840 Why we barely caught each other on the app. 126 00:05:51,080 --> 00:05:53,920 But I cancelled our first date because I was convinced that he 127 00:05:53,920 --> 00:05:55,840 was just going to kidnap me and all that stuff. 128 00:05:55,840 --> 00:05:57,240 And so I was like, we can't do this. 129 00:05:57,600 --> 00:06:01,200 And then I felt bad. And so on our second date, I 130 00:06:01,200 --> 00:06:04,840 went down to Columbus Toronto 5K with him and I was in no shape 131 00:06:04,840 --> 00:06:07,320 Toronto 5K out all whatsoever. I was like, have you seen me 132 00:06:07,320 --> 00:06:08,240 like this? Like we're. 133 00:06:08,240 --> 00:06:10,760 OK yeah, I mean y'all started out strong. 134 00:06:10,760 --> 00:06:14,000 Like I'm not letting a man see me run right off the RIP. 135 00:06:14,000 --> 00:06:17,440 You're like, well, I guess so. And I had like red face, sweaty. 136 00:06:17,440 --> 00:06:19,760 I was like I'm so sorry I should not have done this. 137 00:06:19,760 --> 00:06:22,320 Does he just run 5 KS or this was just out of the blue for 138 00:06:22,320 --> 00:06:24,920 y'all? No, so he so with all his 139 00:06:24,920 --> 00:06:27,440 training and stuff like that, like they would just do like 140 00:06:27,440 --> 00:06:31,320 crazy rocks and just walk 1,000,000 miles with heavy 141 00:06:31,320 --> 00:06:33,440 things on my back and things. So this was like no problem for 142 00:06:33,440 --> 00:06:34,920 him. And so yeah. 143 00:06:35,400 --> 00:06:37,560 And I'm just the polar opposite and dying. 144 00:06:38,640 --> 00:06:41,160 Just a really red face pouring sweat. 145 00:06:41,280 --> 00:06:44,960 That's awesome. Good first memory, so then it 146 00:06:44,960 --> 00:06:47,200 just continues. On yeah, so it took off from 147 00:06:47,200 --> 00:06:51,000 there and then so we dated for, I don't know like a year and a 148 00:06:51,000 --> 00:06:54,800 half, two years and then we got engaged and we got married like, 149 00:06:54,800 --> 00:06:56,280 I don't know, six months after that. 150 00:06:56,280 --> 00:06:59,480 So we had a very short engagement, jumped right into 151 00:06:59,480 --> 00:07:05,160 the into marriage and yeah, that's it. 152 00:07:05,160 --> 00:07:06,480 Like he? Yeah. 153 00:07:06,640 --> 00:07:08,160 Yeah. When did y'all move back to 154 00:07:08,160 --> 00:07:10,320 Warner Robins or when did y'all move to Warner Robins? 155 00:07:10,320 --> 00:07:11,880 Because he's not from here, right? 156 00:07:12,040 --> 00:07:13,720 Yeah, No. So we lived in Atlanta for a 157 00:07:13,720 --> 00:07:16,600 little while after we got married and then we moved down 158 00:07:16,600 --> 00:07:20,080 here probably two years ago now. Yeah. 159 00:07:20,080 --> 00:07:23,720 So we so we knew that we wanted to build a family. 160 00:07:23,720 --> 00:07:26,400 And so we were like, I especially me, I was like, I 161 00:07:26,400 --> 00:07:29,040 don't want to be up in Atlanta by myself when their support 162 00:07:29,040 --> 00:07:32,480 system with a child. And so when it were. 163 00:07:32,480 --> 00:07:34,800 The last three, but that's that's to come. 164 00:07:34,880 --> 00:07:39,200 We didn't. Know it was going to come but so 165 00:07:39,200 --> 00:07:43,360 we moved down here like 2 years ago and yeah and so we got 166 00:07:43,360 --> 00:07:46,920 settled in, got closer to family and then the rest of our 167 00:07:46,920 --> 00:07:48,280 journey. It's just insane, I know. 168 00:07:48,280 --> 00:07:51,040 That's got to be super sweet for you to just be able to bring 169 00:07:51,040 --> 00:07:54,280 your family or come here to start your family because I know 170 00:07:54,280 --> 00:07:56,040 how family oriented your family is. 171 00:07:56,040 --> 00:07:58,200 Like y'all have always been close and all this stuff. 172 00:07:58,200 --> 00:07:59,440 So super close. Yeah. 173 00:07:59,640 --> 00:08:02,120 So that's so nice. So do y'all just instantly start 174 00:08:02,120 --> 00:08:06,040 trying after you get married or? Oh no, we, we waited a while. 175 00:08:06,040 --> 00:08:09,160 We were like, we were not ready as soon as we got married. 176 00:08:09,160 --> 00:08:13,120 And so we waited a couple years and then eventually we're just 177 00:08:13,120 --> 00:08:14,360 like, let's just RIP the Band-Aid off. 178 00:08:14,360 --> 00:08:16,240 Like we're going to move down to Warner Robins soon. 179 00:08:16,240 --> 00:08:18,280 So we'll just go ahead and start trying. 180 00:08:19,080 --> 00:08:25,160 And so it like a year, a year went by and we hadn't had any 181 00:08:25,160 --> 00:08:28,840 luck. And so I have PCOS and so we 182 00:08:28,840 --> 00:08:30,800 were having, I was having problems just actually 183 00:08:30,800 --> 00:08:33,799 ovulating. And so we ended up getting a 184 00:08:33,799 --> 00:08:36,240 little bit of help. I ended up getting on 185 00:08:36,240 --> 00:08:39,840 Lettrizole. So I ended up doing I think 4 186 00:08:39,840 --> 00:08:43,200 rounds of letrozole and I was on the very last round and they 187 00:08:43,200 --> 00:08:47,120 said that if I didn't conceive that round and they are going to 188 00:08:47,120 --> 00:08:48,800 refer me to Emory for infertility. 189 00:08:49,120 --> 00:08:52,680 And so lo and behold, that cycle is the one that I got a positive 190 00:08:52,680 --> 00:08:55,480 test on. So, yeah. 191 00:08:55,480 --> 00:09:00,080 And it is so funny because during that whole period of 192 00:09:00,720 --> 00:09:05,160 having trouble and infertility, I would pray so consistently for 193 00:09:05,160 --> 00:09:09,560 patients because I am the least patient person that you'll ever 194 00:09:09,560 --> 00:09:12,000 meet in your entire life. And so I was like, I just need 195 00:09:12,000 --> 00:09:14,280 to be patient. Like it is God's timing. 196 00:09:14,280 --> 00:09:16,440 It will happen whenever it's supposed to happen. 197 00:09:16,800 --> 00:09:23,360 And now it's like the biggest test of patients for my entire 198 00:09:23,360 --> 00:09:25,040 life, every single day, you know? 199 00:09:25,520 --> 00:09:28,600 Like you thought you needed it back then, now you need yes. 200 00:09:29,000 --> 00:09:31,080 So y'all tried for about a year and then that's when they 201 00:09:31,080 --> 00:09:33,760 referred you to do that medicine, right? 202 00:09:33,920 --> 00:09:36,240 And so I think you mentioned that they were saying like 203 00:09:36,240 --> 00:09:40,560 that's the lowest chance that you would have multiples, so you 204 00:09:40,560 --> 00:09:44,400 were not expecting. Three, no, we, we. 205 00:09:44,600 --> 00:09:48,000 So initially we talked about Clomid, but I did my research on 206 00:09:48,000 --> 00:09:50,680 that and I was like, Clomine is kind of known for multiples. 207 00:09:50,680 --> 00:09:53,280 And I was like, that is really, if we can avoid that, let's 208 00:09:53,280 --> 00:09:54,640 avoid it. And so we're like, let's try 209 00:09:54,640 --> 00:09:57,040 letrozole because it has a lower chance for multiples. 210 00:09:57,520 --> 00:10:00,560 And so we went in for our eight week ultrasound just for 211 00:10:00,560 --> 00:10:03,720 confirmation. And my husband was there, his 212 00:10:03,720 --> 00:10:08,520 name is Dylan in the ultrasound tech doing ultrasound. 213 00:10:08,520 --> 00:10:12,880 She was just super quiet. And so I was like, I had, I was 214 00:10:12,880 --> 00:10:14,920 thinking worst case scenario. I was like, Oh my gosh, there's 215 00:10:14,920 --> 00:10:18,200 like there's no heartbeat, we miscarried, yadda yadda. 216 00:10:19,160 --> 00:10:20,640 But I was like, is everything OK? 217 00:10:20,640 --> 00:10:24,120 Like are they hiding what's happening? 218 00:10:24,560 --> 00:10:27,400 And she was like, everything looks great. 219 00:10:28,360 --> 00:10:32,720 I just see 3 heartbeats. I bet y'all like we're like 220 00:10:32,720 --> 00:10:34,160 statues like. What? 221 00:10:34,160 --> 00:10:37,320 It was silent in that like, and then it would just. 222 00:10:37,320 --> 00:10:39,360 We just started like what? Like are you joking? 223 00:10:39,360 --> 00:10:42,200 Are you serious? And I just like, I don't 224 00:10:42,200 --> 00:10:44,160 remember half of it. I think I almost like fell off 225 00:10:44,160 --> 00:10:46,800 the table. Yeah, so shocked. 226 00:10:46,800 --> 00:10:49,720 And it just rocked our world just like, because like I said, 227 00:10:50,040 --> 00:10:52,480 we chose that medicine to minimize the chances of 228 00:10:52,480 --> 00:10:53,840 multiples. Yeah. 229 00:10:53,840 --> 00:10:55,680 So. Yeah, God said regardless y'all 230 00:10:55,680 --> 00:10:56,720 getting 3 right? Right. 231 00:10:57,280 --> 00:11:00,320 So if anything that I've learned through this whole journey, it's 232 00:11:00,320 --> 00:11:02,240 that God has a sense of humor. Yes. 233 00:11:02,680 --> 00:11:06,040 And it's because it's become so evident over and over and over 234 00:11:06,040 --> 00:11:08,080 again. So in hindsight, it is just so 235 00:11:08,080 --> 00:11:09,840 funny to look back on. Yeah. 236 00:11:09,960 --> 00:11:12,840 What does that season of pregnancy look like? 237 00:11:12,840 --> 00:11:16,600 Like how do you prepare for three? 238 00:11:16,680 --> 00:11:19,800 Like you've never had one, so and now you're having to times 239 00:11:19,800 --> 00:11:21,680 everything by three and try to figure that out. 240 00:11:21,680 --> 00:11:24,560 And then also like, I know you're a physical therapist and 241 00:11:24,560 --> 00:11:26,240 you went to school for that and your husband and stuff. 242 00:11:26,240 --> 00:11:29,480 And like, so you have good jobs, but like, at the same time, 243 00:11:29,480 --> 00:11:31,960 there's got to be a burden, you know, I hate to say. 244 00:11:31,960 --> 00:11:32,720 Burden. No, but. 245 00:11:32,880 --> 00:11:37,360 You know, but financially it's like, Oh, yes, OK, so let's go 246 00:11:37,360 --> 00:11:39,880 through a little bit of that. Yeah, so pregnancy itself 247 00:11:39,960 --> 00:11:42,240 initially. So I've never been pregnant 248 00:11:42,240 --> 00:11:44,200 before, so I don't know what to compare to. 249 00:11:44,520 --> 00:11:46,360 So initially I was like, this is terrible. 250 00:11:46,360 --> 00:11:49,840 Like I like I feel terrible. I was really nauseated. 251 00:11:49,840 --> 00:11:55,640 I didn't really throw up that much, but I had this weird sense 252 00:11:55,640 --> 00:11:57,880 of peace throughout the whole pregnancy. 253 00:11:58,160 --> 00:12:00,960 Like the symptoms weren't fun. When I got through the 1st 254 00:12:00,960 --> 00:12:03,800 trimester. Whenever I started to go into 255 00:12:03,800 --> 00:12:07,640 the second trimester is when we really started to war game 256 00:12:07,640 --> 00:12:09,760 because we were just like, we need to figure this out. 257 00:12:09,760 --> 00:12:12,640 It's going to be a lot more money than we initially planned. 258 00:12:12,640 --> 00:12:17,000 We need 3 of everything. And so my husband actually 259 00:12:17,000 --> 00:12:21,240 switched jobs. He went back into active guard, 260 00:12:21,240 --> 00:12:23,160 so he essentially worked for the guard every single day. 261 00:12:24,360 --> 00:12:27,040 With that came incredible benefits with Tricare. 262 00:12:28,600 --> 00:12:32,760 And then we also ended up moving when I was 25 weeks pregnant 263 00:12:32,760 --> 00:12:37,160 with triplets girl. And that was it was a necessity 264 00:12:37,200 --> 00:12:40,320 because we downsized. We ended up taking like 1000 265 00:12:40,320 --> 00:12:42,680 bucks off the mortgage. We found a house that worked 266 00:12:42,680 --> 00:12:45,600 better because the nurser was right by the kitchen, things 267 00:12:45,600 --> 00:12:48,000 like that. So even in that we just saw 268 00:12:48,000 --> 00:12:51,520 God's hand just working. And then with Dylan's insurance, 269 00:12:51,520 --> 00:12:55,960 with Tricare, with our medical bills, it was like $1,000,000. 270 00:12:55,960 --> 00:12:58,880 Not joking with their Nicki stays at MROI surgery. 271 00:12:59,120 --> 00:13:04,000 So all like total grand total, I can get it at paying like 1500 272 00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:07,600 bucks out of that period. Yeah, yeah, absolutely. 273 00:13:07,600 --> 00:13:10,520 What a blessing, though, for us, like I'm I'm laughing, but I'm 274 00:13:10,520 --> 00:13:12,800 like so serious like that is such a big blessing. 275 00:13:12,800 --> 00:13:15,720 It is and was like that a hard decision for him to go back into 276 00:13:15,720 --> 00:13:18,400 active like that. He knew what he needed to 277 00:13:18,400 --> 00:13:21,000 probably do for his. Family and he didn't as previous 278 00:13:21,000 --> 00:13:22,640 job, he really didn't have benefits. 279 00:13:23,960 --> 00:13:28,760 And so he was in the guard. Prior to that, he was just doing 280 00:13:28,760 --> 00:13:31,400 like every week or one weekend a month, you know what I mean? 281 00:13:32,960 --> 00:13:37,240 But with him going full time, so he drives to Atlanta every 282 00:13:37,240 --> 00:13:40,000 single day, which is an insane sacrifice that he makes for our 283 00:13:40,000 --> 00:13:44,400 family. But All in all, you know, with 284 00:13:44,400 --> 00:13:46,560 his prior job, we couldn't have afford the afforded those 285 00:13:46,560 --> 00:13:48,920 medical bills by Jose. Absolutely. 286 00:13:49,080 --> 00:13:50,240 Yeah. Like you said, it's just such a 287 00:13:50,240 --> 00:13:51,080 blessing. Yeah. 288 00:13:51,480 --> 00:13:56,360 So when did the triplets come? So they were born at 31 weeks. 289 00:13:56,480 --> 00:13:59,920 Wow, that's really awesome. It's good for triplets, Yeah. 290 00:13:59,920 --> 00:14:01,560 Yeah. So I was just praying for like 291 00:14:01,560 --> 00:14:05,280 28 weeks just because they're the all the data and things like 292 00:14:05,280 --> 00:14:08,480 that just say that they do a lot better at 28 weeks when they're 293 00:14:08,480 --> 00:14:10,160 born. Then I ended up going into 294 00:14:10,160 --> 00:14:14,400 preterm labor at 25 weeks, which was probably because all the 295 00:14:14,400 --> 00:14:17,200 stress and moving and just doing a little bit too much. 296 00:14:17,480 --> 00:14:20,560 So I ended up getting taken out of work at 25 weeks, which 297 00:14:20,560 --> 00:14:22,720 again, financial burden. I lost a paycheck. 298 00:14:24,400 --> 00:14:26,560 So then that happened. And then at 27 weeks, I was 299 00:14:26,560 --> 00:14:31,240 hospitalized again for my liver. And then at 31 weeks, my liver 300 00:14:31,240 --> 00:14:36,120 enzymes were like sky high and other things in my blood work 301 00:14:36,120 --> 00:14:38,680 were starting to change. And they're like, we're getting 302 00:14:38,680 --> 00:14:41,440 to that point where it's they'll be better on the outside than 303 00:14:41,440 --> 00:14:43,680 they are on the inside for their health and your health. 304 00:14:44,040 --> 00:14:48,120 And so at 31 weeks, they ended up making the call to go ahead 305 00:14:48,120 --> 00:14:53,280 and do the C-section, which it was kind of expected. 306 00:14:53,280 --> 00:14:55,520 But at the same time, I was admitted on Monday. 307 00:14:55,720 --> 00:14:57,960 They were born on a Tuesday. So we really didn't have a lot 308 00:14:57,960 --> 00:15:00,640 of time to mentally prepare, like the babies are going to be 309 00:15:00,640 --> 00:15:03,760 here in 24 hours. And so we all kind of prepared 310 00:15:03,760 --> 00:15:08,480 at home or like. Kind of I had, because I was off 311 00:15:08,480 --> 00:15:11,040 work, I had more time to get the house together, get their 312 00:15:11,040 --> 00:15:12,920 nursery and they were. Supposed to be resting. 313 00:15:12,960 --> 00:15:15,480 Girls. Said they said you can't go to 314 00:15:15,480 --> 00:15:17,000 work, but you're going to work at home. 315 00:15:17,600 --> 00:15:19,200 Like what? Yeah. 316 00:15:20,480 --> 00:15:24,600 Also the ends, well, they started for long enough, but 317 00:15:24,600 --> 00:15:27,160 yeah, whenever I was off work, I was getting everything together 318 00:15:27,160 --> 00:15:29,640 at the house just to make sure they had clothes, clothes that 319 00:15:29,640 --> 00:15:31,800 were clean when they came home and that their Crips were put 320 00:15:31,800 --> 00:15:34,560 together and we had help of yeah, it's like my mom, my dad, 321 00:15:34,560 --> 00:15:37,800 my brother, my husband, everybody just went all hands on 322 00:15:37,800 --> 00:15:39,400 deck and just helped everything together. 323 00:15:39,760 --> 00:15:44,280 But the good thing, too, it's a busting and a curse because they 324 00:15:44,280 --> 00:15:46,400 had longer NICU stays. They were there for like a month 325 00:15:46,400 --> 00:15:49,000 and a half. I had time to recover, but we 326 00:15:49,000 --> 00:15:51,360 also had more time to get the house together. 327 00:15:51,360 --> 00:15:54,000 Yeah, and prepare for them to come home. 328 00:15:54,240 --> 00:15:57,760 What what was their like weights and stuff when they were born? 329 00:15:57,880 --> 00:15:59,440 So they were, they were good weights. 330 00:15:59,440 --> 00:16:03,840 They were 3 lbs three oz 3 lbs four oz 3 lbs six oz. 331 00:16:03,840 --> 00:16:05,680 Wow, they're right. They're with each other. 332 00:16:06,360 --> 00:16:08,840 And when they, when they came out, they needed a little bit of 333 00:16:08,840 --> 00:16:11,600 respiratory support. So they were on the CPAP for 334 00:16:11,600 --> 00:16:14,720 like a week and then after that they just were feeders and 335 00:16:14,720 --> 00:16:18,240 growers. Wow that's amazing, I love that. 336 00:16:18,480 --> 00:16:21,800 So like, did they all get to come home around the same time 337 00:16:21,800 --> 00:16:24,960 too? Or was it more so like a week 338 00:16:24,960 --> 00:16:27,520 here, a few weeks and then? Yeah, it was. 339 00:16:27,600 --> 00:16:29,680 The first two came home relatively close together. 340 00:16:29,680 --> 00:16:32,080 The first one, Grayson was supposed to come home on 341 00:16:32,080 --> 00:16:36,280 Christmas, which is never been so fun, but he ended up having a 342 00:16:36,280 --> 00:16:38,640 rough night the night before and so like we can't let him go 343 00:16:38,640 --> 00:16:40,440 home. So he ended up coming home 344 00:16:40,440 --> 00:16:44,000 December 28th. And then Gunner, the second one 345 00:16:44,000 --> 00:16:47,440 ended up coming home December 31st, right on on New Year's 346 00:16:47,440 --> 00:16:49,880 Eve. And then Jameson took a little 347 00:16:49,880 --> 00:16:52,240 bit longer. He had a little bit, he was he 348 00:16:52,320 --> 00:16:55,480 and float a little bit more in the NICU and he ended up coming 349 00:16:55,480 --> 00:16:59,280 home January 7th or 8th. One of those, yeah. 350 00:16:59,280 --> 00:17:01,960 Remember. So you got to, like, gradually, 351 00:17:01,960 --> 00:17:04,359 you know, get a wing and then you'll add on. 352 00:17:04,359 --> 00:17:05,400 Yeah. So that's good. 353 00:17:05,440 --> 00:17:07,680 Once they all come home, what does that look like? 354 00:17:07,680 --> 00:17:10,400 Now you go from an empty nester, just y'all. 355 00:17:10,400 --> 00:17:13,839 Then you add in every few weeks. But like, I'm sure that takes a 356 00:17:13,880 --> 00:17:16,000 very big toll on your mental health. 357 00:17:16,280 --> 00:17:18,319 Maybe like, what does postpartum look like for you? 358 00:17:18,319 --> 00:17:20,000 Yeah. The So when they first came 359 00:17:20,000 --> 00:17:23,640 home, it was absolutely wild. We had so much help. 360 00:17:23,640 --> 00:17:25,839 So my mom would come over and she'd like stay the night and we 361 00:17:25,839 --> 00:17:27,880 would do shifts because they were still eating every three 362 00:17:27,880 --> 00:17:32,720 hours at that point. We were not comfortable feeding 363 00:17:32,720 --> 00:17:36,000 all three at once just because they, they were still like 364 00:17:36,000 --> 00:17:37,960 choking on their bottles, their heart rates were dropping while 365 00:17:37,960 --> 00:17:39,760 they were eating things like that. 366 00:17:39,760 --> 00:17:43,640 And so one person would feed 2 at once and then one person 367 00:17:43,640 --> 00:17:45,760 would feed one. We would typically give the easy 368 00:17:45,760 --> 00:17:49,760 feeders to the person feeding 2. And so we just got into a 369 00:17:49,760 --> 00:17:53,000 routine and then my mom would come over and she would make it 370 00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:58,960 so that me and Dylan would both get a six hour stretch of sleep, 371 00:17:58,960 --> 00:18:01,640 which was a game changer, a game changer. 372 00:18:01,640 --> 00:18:05,040 And they always say nap when the baby naps, and that's what we 373 00:18:05,040 --> 00:18:07,040 did. So and typically people don't 374 00:18:07,040 --> 00:18:08,160 listen to that. We're like, I'm going to clean 375 00:18:08,160 --> 00:18:09,520 the house and do the dishes and blah, blah, blah. 376 00:18:09,640 --> 00:18:11,600 But we had no choice. Yeah, we were zonked. 377 00:18:11,640 --> 00:18:14,160 That took a little adjusting eventually about to the point 378 00:18:14,160 --> 00:18:17,000 where we were doing 4 hours between bottles. 379 00:18:17,000 --> 00:18:18,360 And so it got a little bit better. 380 00:18:18,560 --> 00:18:21,240 But then we hit this like funky. And I don't know why it 381 00:18:21,240 --> 00:18:22,880 happened. I don't know why it took so long 382 00:18:22,880 --> 00:18:26,480 to happen, but we hit this funky bump in the road where my moods 383 00:18:26,480 --> 00:18:32,040 just shifted. Like I, I was so touchy, like 384 00:18:32,560 --> 00:18:35,920 irritable. It was, it was just insane. 385 00:18:35,920 --> 00:18:38,720 I didn't expect it to happen at all because I had done great for 386 00:18:38,720 --> 00:18:41,880 like 3 months and then it just hit me like a brick wall. 387 00:18:42,360 --> 00:18:44,520 And I don't know if that was because like I went back on 388 00:18:44,520 --> 00:18:48,120 birth control or something like that, but it just got to the 389 00:18:48,120 --> 00:18:52,800 point where like my husband was like, are you OK? 390 00:18:52,920 --> 00:18:54,840 Like should we talk about something? 391 00:18:55,240 --> 00:18:59,320 And I was starting to act out a little bit, not intentionally, 392 00:18:59,320 --> 00:19:01,680 but it was just like just impulsively. 393 00:19:02,320 --> 00:19:06,480 And it got to the point where like his family was kind of 394 00:19:07,040 --> 00:19:09,320 eerie and iffy. Have even like coming to visit 395 00:19:09,320 --> 00:19:11,680 the boys are like staying the night with us and things like 396 00:19:11,680 --> 00:19:13,080 that. Just because I was just so on 397 00:19:13,080 --> 00:19:16,480 edge. And so it, it got to the point 398 00:19:16,480 --> 00:19:19,360 where and it took a while to get to that point where I was just 399 00:19:19,360 --> 00:19:21,560 like, I need help. Like that's not. 400 00:19:21,920 --> 00:19:24,480 I didn't want that to be my husband's burden to bear. 401 00:19:24,480 --> 00:19:26,640 I didn't want that to be my mom's burden to bear. 402 00:19:27,040 --> 00:19:35,000 And so when I say that postpartum is hard, it is hard. 403 00:19:36,520 --> 00:19:42,040 So I just wanted people out there to know if you know 404 00:19:42,040 --> 00:19:46,760 somebody that is postpartum. Check on them, let them know 405 00:19:46,760 --> 00:19:50,680 that you're there. Let them know that you care and 406 00:19:50,680 --> 00:19:53,160 just do anything that you can for them because that is the 407 00:19:53,160 --> 00:19:56,120 most trying time in my entire life. 408 00:19:56,600 --> 00:19:59,040 And I have dealt with anxiety before, I've dealt with mental 409 00:19:59,040 --> 00:20:02,120 health before, but nothing compares to that. 410 00:20:02,640 --> 00:20:05,400 And so I just want other people to know. 411 00:20:06,760 --> 00:20:10,120 That it is real even for somebody who never ever, ever 412 00:20:10,120 --> 00:20:12,840 anticipated having problems with that. 413 00:20:13,600 --> 00:20:16,880 It just, it hits you like a bus and you feel so helpless and you 414 00:20:16,880 --> 00:20:21,080 feel in like such as in such a dark place and you feel like you 415 00:20:21,080 --> 00:20:22,400 don't really have anywhere to go. 416 00:20:23,080 --> 00:20:26,920 And so even your closest people. And it's just the weirdest 417 00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:28,440 thing. Like you don't feel like you can 418 00:20:28,440 --> 00:20:31,120 confide in your closest people because you don't want to feel, 419 00:20:31,120 --> 00:20:33,000 you don't want to feel weak. You don't want to feel like a 420 00:20:33,000 --> 00:20:37,520 burden, and so get help, even if if you're questioning. 421 00:20:37,520 --> 00:20:41,200 If you're like me and I feel kind of funky, do I need help? 422 00:20:41,680 --> 00:20:45,320 Absolutely get help. That is like because it's hard 423 00:20:45,320 --> 00:20:48,760 to understand when you haven't went through that. 424 00:20:49,040 --> 00:20:51,840 And just so like you saying like it's real. 425 00:20:51,840 --> 00:20:55,000 Like I never thought that I would have these problems. 426 00:20:55,000 --> 00:20:58,560 I never thought I would have postpartum, but I like check on 427 00:20:58,560 --> 00:21:01,080 your people 'cause you don't know, like you probably still 428 00:21:01,080 --> 00:21:03,080 were putting on a brave face every time you're around your 429 00:21:03,080 --> 00:21:06,600 family or friends or like, you know, stuff like that, but 430 00:21:07,360 --> 00:21:09,960 you're still going through it. You know, it's just, and it's 431 00:21:09,960 --> 00:21:13,200 something that you can't really even like, explain, like you 432 00:21:13,200 --> 00:21:16,800 just feel a certain way and it's just like, I don't know what to 433 00:21:16,800 --> 00:21:18,080 do. Yeah, And you're like, I feel 434 00:21:18,080 --> 00:21:20,880 like a crazy woman. Like if I if I say how I'm 435 00:21:20,880 --> 00:21:23,160 feeling out loud, like somebody's gonna be like, well, 436 00:21:23,480 --> 00:21:26,240 yeah, yeah. So it is just is an experience. 437 00:21:26,480 --> 00:21:29,720 And like you said, you don't know how hard it is until you go 438 00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:31,680 through it. And so now I'm just like such a 439 00:21:31,680 --> 00:21:36,240 big advocate whenever, like if I know somebody is postpartum, I'm 440 00:21:36,240 --> 00:21:37,880 like, I check on them. I'm just like, how you doing? 441 00:21:37,960 --> 00:21:41,840 Like I know postpartum is hard. Tell me how you're doing so and 442 00:21:41,840 --> 00:21:44,680 they might not confide in me and that's OK, but I just want them 443 00:21:44,680 --> 00:21:47,400 to feel like like they're seen, you know what I mean? 444 00:21:47,480 --> 00:21:50,360 Absolutely. When you're walking through all 445 00:21:50,360 --> 00:21:54,920 of this, like what was your like relationship with Christ at this 446 00:21:54,920 --> 00:21:56,960 point? Like what did it look like were 447 00:21:56,960 --> 00:21:59,600 like, were you seeking him? Or like it was kind of like, I'm 448 00:21:59,600 --> 00:22:01,920 just so overwhelmed. I can't even seek him. 449 00:22:02,120 --> 00:22:04,280 So it was kind of a mix because I felt like I was so 450 00:22:04,280 --> 00:22:08,240 overwhelmed, but I would still talk to God and the things that 451 00:22:08,240 --> 00:22:10,560 and it is so wild. Like the prayers that I prayed 452 00:22:10,960 --> 00:22:12,680 were honestly like scary prayers. 453 00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:17,400 Like I like, I never want to be in that headspace ever again. 454 00:22:17,640 --> 00:22:23,240 But it just goes to show like God isn't afraid of what you 455 00:22:23,240 --> 00:22:25,600 have to say. God knows what you're going to 456 00:22:25,600 --> 00:22:27,440 say. He knows how you feel. 457 00:22:27,560 --> 00:22:31,480 So bring that to him, you know, take the off your shoulders. 458 00:22:32,680 --> 00:22:37,680 So that's the biggest thing. Like, and there, there was 459 00:22:37,680 --> 00:22:39,240 still, there was still a component. 460 00:22:39,600 --> 00:22:42,760 I'm not going to say that when we found out we were going to 461 00:22:42,760 --> 00:22:44,920 have triplets, like I was over the moon about it. 462 00:22:44,920 --> 00:22:48,840 It took a lot of processing. It took a lot of just wrapping 463 00:22:48,840 --> 00:22:51,320 our heads around it. Even still to this day, like 464 00:22:51,320 --> 00:22:54,400 thinking about the future and planning and how about have you? 465 00:22:54,800 --> 00:22:59,320 And so I'm not going to say that I haven't questioned God, like, 466 00:22:59,640 --> 00:23:03,600 why, why would you give us St. kids whenever? 467 00:23:03,760 --> 00:23:06,760 Like you knew the the burdens that it would put on us. 468 00:23:06,760 --> 00:23:09,800 You knew the the mental toll that it would take on me. 469 00:23:10,000 --> 00:23:15,560 But in hindsight, when I look back at my pregnancy from start 470 00:23:15,560 --> 00:23:19,400 to finish, like I said before, you can see his hand just in 471 00:23:19,400 --> 00:23:21,960 every single aspect of it. So many answered prayers. 472 00:23:21,960 --> 00:23:24,560 There are so many things that could have gone wrong in a 473 00:23:24,560 --> 00:23:29,160 triplet pregnancy with somebody like I am the itty bitty. 474 00:23:29,480 --> 00:23:31,920 Like to find out I was going to have triplets, I was like, 475 00:23:31,920 --> 00:23:33,280 they're not going to have anywhere to go. 476 00:23:33,600 --> 00:23:36,080 They're going to be born at like 24 weeks and we're going to have 477 00:23:36,080 --> 00:23:40,920 medically complex children and so just to see his hand and all 478 00:23:40,920 --> 00:23:43,760 of that to have healthy babies for me to be healthy. 479 00:23:44,120 --> 00:23:47,720 No really no major complications with our C-section. 480 00:23:49,040 --> 00:23:52,800 So in hindsight, just seeing God's goodness is at is so 481 00:23:52,800 --> 00:23:56,520 overwhelming today about. So where exactly are you at 482 00:23:56,520 --> 00:24:00,600 today with all of this? Like, you know, I know you're, 483 00:24:00,600 --> 00:24:03,800 you're still probably learning because how old are the boys 484 00:24:03,800 --> 00:24:04,840 now? They're eight months now. 485 00:24:04,840 --> 00:24:07,120 Eight months, so like you're still in the thick of it, girl. 486 00:24:07,280 --> 00:24:12,200 Like you're in the thick of it, but like, do you feel like maybe 487 00:24:12,200 --> 00:24:14,680 some of that burden has been released a little bit? 488 00:24:14,680 --> 00:24:19,040 For the most part, you've got a routine, I'm sure now like God's 489 00:24:19,040 --> 00:24:22,800 acquitting you right, like you feel so unequipped, like you're 490 00:24:22,800 --> 00:24:25,480 like how in the world, but at the end of the day, like y'all 491 00:24:25,480 --> 00:24:27,320 are making it. The boys are alive. 492 00:24:27,320 --> 00:24:29,880 They're. Doing well, Yeah, they're, yeah, 493 00:24:29,880 --> 00:24:36,600 doing very well. So now I feel like I definitely 494 00:24:36,600 --> 00:24:41,720 have more of a a handle on the boys, especially their routine, 495 00:24:41,920 --> 00:24:44,160 how to manage them. I've gotten to know them better, 496 00:24:44,160 --> 00:24:46,840 they've gotten to know me better, just learning each other 497 00:24:47,120 --> 00:24:48,840 and figuring out what makes them tick. 498 00:24:48,840 --> 00:24:51,240 So it's not like I have three screaming babies and I have no 499 00:24:51,240 --> 00:24:53,240 idea what to do with them and how to soothe them. 500 00:24:53,600 --> 00:24:55,160 So that aspect has gotten better. 501 00:24:55,320 --> 00:24:58,240 I have gotten a lot better with communicating with my people, 502 00:24:58,240 --> 00:25:03,080 like telling them what my triggers are, what makes me 503 00:25:03,080 --> 00:25:09,200 overwhelmed, how to counteract that and just make it a little 504 00:25:09,200 --> 00:25:11,200 less impactful. It's still there. 505 00:25:11,280 --> 00:25:13,000 Like I'm still dealing with things. 506 00:25:13,000 --> 00:25:15,000 I'm still processing things. There are a lot of things that 507 00:25:15,000 --> 00:25:19,480 happened like during during pregnancy, the care that I 508 00:25:19,480 --> 00:25:22,640 received during the hospitalizations, during 509 00:25:22,640 --> 00:25:24,840 delivery. There was, there were a lot of 510 00:25:24,840 --> 00:25:28,840 things that happened that I'm still processing and it is an 511 00:25:28,840 --> 00:25:31,840 ongoing thing. And it's going to be, it's going 512 00:25:31,840 --> 00:25:34,280 to be an ongoing thing for a while just because there's just 513 00:25:34,280 --> 00:25:35,480 so much. Yeah. 514 00:25:35,480 --> 00:25:38,280 So yeah, it's a work in progress, but. 515 00:25:38,880 --> 00:25:41,520 I definitely think that anybody can take away from this like a 516 00:25:41,520 --> 00:25:47,480 triplets, twins, like 1A single. Like as time goes on, you get 517 00:25:47,480 --> 00:25:49,760 better. Like, you know, for me, I don't 518 00:25:49,760 --> 00:25:53,560 have children, so it's like I'm scared to death to have a baby. 519 00:25:53,560 --> 00:25:55,760 You know what I'm saying? I'm like, I struggle with 520 00:25:55,760 --> 00:25:58,720 myself, like taking care of just my house, my dogs, like all 521 00:25:58,720 --> 00:26:00,360 this. How can I bring a baby, you 522 00:26:00,360 --> 00:26:03,080 know, into the world? But like you're saying too, like 523 00:26:03,080 --> 00:26:05,680 girl with three, I'm like, how in the world? 524 00:26:05,720 --> 00:26:09,920 But you learn like God is going to I equipped you if you seek 525 00:26:09,920 --> 00:26:12,560 him and you stay close to him like he's going to show you what 526 00:26:12,560 --> 00:26:13,920 needs to happen. He's going to give you this 527 00:26:13,920 --> 00:26:16,080 drink to get through it. Because as I was thinking about 528 00:26:16,080 --> 00:26:18,400 this, I was like, I know you don't get no sleep, but for you, 529 00:26:18,400 --> 00:26:22,240 you're like you have a community that helps you, your family and 530 00:26:22,240 --> 00:26:24,240 your husband's family, like you know, they all help. 531 00:26:24,240 --> 00:26:27,360 So it like he brings us to what we need. 532 00:26:27,360 --> 00:26:28,760 Like he gives it. Exactly. 533 00:26:28,760 --> 00:26:30,920 And when your back's against the wall, like, you have no option 534 00:26:30,920 --> 00:26:31,840 but to do it. Yeah. 535 00:26:31,840 --> 00:26:36,240 So you can do hard things. You can be strong, but you have 536 00:26:36,240 --> 00:26:38,280 to lean on God. You have to get strength from 537 00:26:38,280 --> 00:26:39,360 him. Absolutely. 538 00:26:39,360 --> 00:26:41,920 And so, yeah, that's the biggest thing that I've learned through 539 00:26:41,920 --> 00:26:44,280 this all. Like, it's going to be hard and 540 00:26:44,680 --> 00:26:47,640 there's going to be times where you're just like, this sucks and 541 00:26:47,640 --> 00:26:51,160 it's OK to think that it's OK to say that, but talk to God. 542 00:26:51,360 --> 00:26:53,160 Talk to God. Bring your worries to God. 543 00:26:53,360 --> 00:26:56,600 Yeah, that's good, girl. So I guess as we begin to like 544 00:26:56,600 --> 00:26:59,800 maybe get ready and close, like do you maybe have something 545 00:26:59,800 --> 00:27:03,960 that's maybe advice for a new mom, maybe of even just triplets 546 00:27:03,960 --> 00:27:08,320 girl, or like maybe God's revealed something to you more 547 00:27:08,320 --> 00:27:11,480 recently or just anything that I haven't gave you the opportunity 548 00:27:11,480 --> 00:27:13,320 to talk about? Like how would you like to close 549 00:27:13,320 --> 00:27:15,720 this episode? I think the biggest thing is 550 00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:19,120 just to reiterate to trek on your people, there for your 551 00:27:19,120 --> 00:27:22,120 people. But then also to encourage 552 00:27:22,120 --> 00:27:25,000 others to just have an open dialogue with God. 553 00:27:25,360 --> 00:27:28,880 He's there for a reason, and it is incredible. 554 00:27:29,080 --> 00:27:31,760 It may not feel like the weight is immediate lift immediately 555 00:27:31,760 --> 00:27:34,960 lifted off your shoulders, but as time goes on, as you create 556 00:27:34,960 --> 00:27:38,680 that pattern and just talking to Him, it just makes a world of 557 00:27:38,680 --> 00:27:40,800 difference. And so, like I said, you're 558 00:27:40,800 --> 00:27:44,000 going to deal with hard things, but you can make those hard 559 00:27:44,000 --> 00:27:46,440 things a little bit easier and you can feel more supportive 560 00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:47,600 than that. That's good. 561 00:27:47,920 --> 00:27:49,840 I was also thinking when you just said that because you were 562 00:27:49,840 --> 00:27:52,640 talking about communication earlier about how like you've 563 00:27:52,640 --> 00:27:55,920 learned to talk about, you know, triggers that you have and open 564 00:27:55,920 --> 00:27:58,520 communicate, but then also with the boys, like learning what 565 00:27:58,520 --> 00:28:00,480 they need. And I think that's a really big 566 00:28:00,480 --> 00:28:04,160 thing that anybody can take away, like learn to communicate, 567 00:28:04,160 --> 00:28:07,440 maybe even have those uncomfortable conversations 568 00:28:07,720 --> 00:28:11,600 because there's no reason that we should maybe be suffering in 569 00:28:11,600 --> 00:28:14,160 silence. Like talk, talk about it, bring 570 00:28:14,160 --> 00:28:18,320 it up and communicate so people can grow around you so that 571 00:28:18,320 --> 00:28:21,920 we're not just like all walking around, like not sure what to 572 00:28:21,920 --> 00:28:24,440 do, like learn how to communicate in those things. 573 00:28:24,440 --> 00:28:26,560 Yes, and it's like the worst thing in the world, just having 574 00:28:26,560 --> 00:28:28,800 people walk around you on pins and needles because they're 575 00:28:28,800 --> 00:28:32,560 afraid to literally do anything. And so like, they don't know 576 00:28:32,880 --> 00:28:34,760 people around you don't know what you need until you tell 577 00:28:34,760 --> 00:28:36,840 them they can't. It's not a guessing game and 578 00:28:36,840 --> 00:28:39,040 everybody is so different, so just help them out. 579 00:28:39,200 --> 00:28:42,440 Yeah, I agree. Girl, this has been so good. 580 00:28:42,440 --> 00:28:45,480 I am just so happy that you came on because when I was thinking 581 00:28:45,480 --> 00:28:47,840 about it a few weeks ago, I was like, man, I'd love to talk to 582 00:28:47,840 --> 00:28:50,160 Rachel, like whatever. And I was like, no, let me 583 00:28:50,160 --> 00:28:52,320 message her right now. And then you were like, let me 584 00:28:52,320 --> 00:28:54,120 get back to you. And you did like, it's because 585 00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:57,040 sometimes people will say that and they, like, put me off for a 586 00:28:57,040 --> 00:28:59,320 while. But you were like, no, I need to 587 00:28:59,320 --> 00:28:59,880 do it. No. 588 00:28:59,880 --> 00:29:02,960 I really didn't think about it. I was like, if there is, if 589 00:29:02,960 --> 00:29:06,840 there's one person that hearing my story would help, then it's 590 00:29:06,840 --> 00:29:09,480 worth it because I have been so reluctant and it sounds so 591 00:29:09,480 --> 00:29:11,840 stupid, but I have been so reluctant to even like share my 592 00:29:11,840 --> 00:29:14,120 story, to share that that we struggled with in for delay 593 00:29:14,120 --> 00:29:17,640 because I feel like there's some sort of stigma around it and the 594 00:29:17,640 --> 00:29:20,560 fact that we used medication to get pregnant. 595 00:29:20,880 --> 00:29:26,200 But being more transparent and sharing what I've been through, 596 00:29:26,720 --> 00:29:30,120 I have, I have just gotten to know other people going through 597 00:29:30,120 --> 00:29:32,120 similar things. And I would never have known 598 00:29:32,120 --> 00:29:35,120 that had I not shared my story. And so it's kind of been 599 00:29:35,120 --> 00:29:38,480 humbling for me like this, this is not about me, it's about 600 00:29:38,480 --> 00:29:41,440 everybody else. Like if it can help them then by 601 00:29:41,440 --> 00:29:42,920 all means. And that's what I try to tell 602 00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:44,240 people too before they come on here. 603 00:29:44,240 --> 00:29:47,560 Like I know like your stress. Most of the time they're like, 604 00:29:47,560 --> 00:29:49,360 I've I've never shared or something like that. 605 00:29:49,360 --> 00:29:50,800 And I'm like, girl, it's a conversation. 606 00:29:51,040 --> 00:29:53,120 Like we're just sitting down talking. 607 00:29:53,120 --> 00:29:56,120 Like people get a little overwhelmed, like the lights and 608 00:29:56,120 --> 00:29:57,800 stuff like that. I'm like, we're just talking. 609 00:29:57,800 --> 00:30:00,560 It's just being recorded. That is just like what I try to 610 00:30:00,600 --> 00:30:03,400 preface to people is like, Share your story because it's going to 611 00:30:03,400 --> 00:30:04,960 help people that are going to the same thing. 612 00:30:04,960 --> 00:30:10,000 Like for you, the multiples of the babies, like somebody might 613 00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:11,680 listen to this and they're pregnant with twins and they're 614 00:30:11,680 --> 00:30:13,280 scared to death. And like, you're sitting here 615 00:30:13,280 --> 00:30:17,160 and you're like, it gets easier. Like it you you figure it out or 616 00:30:17,160 --> 00:30:18,840 postpartum. Like we haven't even talked 617 00:30:18,840 --> 00:30:20,760 about postpartum yet. So this would be the first 618 00:30:20,760 --> 00:30:23,240 episode. And like, just infertility to 619 00:30:23,240 --> 00:30:26,520 like, you have so much that can help so many different people. 620 00:30:26,520 --> 00:30:26,840 Yeah. And. 621 00:30:27,040 --> 00:30:29,280 If there's anybody out there that wants to reach out like I 622 00:30:29,280 --> 00:30:31,320 am more than happy in a chat, by all means. 623 00:30:31,600 --> 00:30:32,720 Nice. I love it, girl. 624 00:30:33,240 --> 00:30:35,280 All right, guys. Well, I hope you enjoyed it as 625 00:30:35,280 --> 00:30:37,160 much as we have. This has been absolutely 626 00:30:37,160 --> 00:30:39,720 incredible. So if you are struggling with 627 00:30:39,720 --> 00:30:41,440 any of this, we just pray over that. 628 00:30:41,440 --> 00:30:44,920 We just pray that God reveals himself to you and gives you 629 00:30:44,920 --> 00:30:48,960 strength in these difficult times and just seek help, reach 630 00:30:48,960 --> 00:30:52,200 out to people, Rachel, me, anybody, just get you a 631 00:30:52,200 --> 00:30:55,600 community and really lean on them during these times. 632 00:30:55,720 --> 00:30:58,400 All right, guys, stay tuned, stay blessed, and we'll see you 633 00:30:58,400 --> 00:30:59,520 guys later. Bye.