1 00:00:13,120 --> 00:00:14,680 What's up guys? My name is Alexis. 2 00:00:14,680 --> 00:00:17,280 And I'm Abby, and we're your. Host with praises in the pod. 3 00:00:17,320 --> 00:00:20,160 Y'all, I'm not even. I say this every time, but this 4 00:00:20,160 --> 00:00:22,920 time we have not recorded in a long time. 5 00:00:23,160 --> 00:00:25,720 We really have not recorded. I personally haven't even 6 00:00:25,720 --> 00:00:27,720 recorded in two weeks. Something off fresh. 7 00:00:27,800 --> 00:00:31,440 I know it's been a while, so we don't really know where all 8 00:00:31,440 --> 00:00:35,520 we're going. We have a few ideas, very few, 9 00:00:35,560 --> 00:00:38,000 very few, but we're just going to let the Holy Spirit lead it. 10 00:00:38,160 --> 00:00:41,160 He always does, always does. And so we're going to start off 11 00:00:41,160 --> 00:00:42,600 in prayer and then we're going to jump right in. 12 00:00:42,600 --> 00:00:45,160 So here we go. Lord, Heavenly Father, just 13 00:00:45,160 --> 00:00:48,840 thank you for today. Thank you for all of your many 14 00:00:48,840 --> 00:00:52,640 blessings, dear God, that you just continue to pour out every 15 00:00:52,640 --> 00:00:55,640 single day. Lord God, we just pray that you 16 00:00:55,640 --> 00:01:00,000 just lead us and guide us in our lives that we don't get ahead of 17 00:01:00,000 --> 00:01:02,520 you. We we stay in step with the Holy 18 00:01:02,520 --> 00:01:05,360 Spirit and we just know what you're calling us to do when 19 00:01:05,360 --> 00:01:07,480 you're calling us to do it. And when you're calling us to 20 00:01:07,480 --> 00:01:11,080 talk about certain things, we pray that you just go before us 21 00:01:11,080 --> 00:01:13,920 and make these doors open. Or if they need to be shut, you 22 00:01:13,920 --> 00:01:16,640 go on and shut them. Lord God, we know that you have 23 00:01:16,640 --> 00:01:21,160 good plans over our lives and you are going to provide in 24 00:01:21,160 --> 00:01:24,080 every way possible that we need, Lord, and we just thank you and 25 00:01:24,080 --> 00:01:26,240 praise you for that. We pray that you speak to us and 26 00:01:26,240 --> 00:01:28,920 through us and let this episode glorify you in Jesus. 27 00:01:29,080 --> 00:01:35,960 I pray Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen. So on the way home from the 28 00:01:35,960 --> 00:01:40,600 beach the other day, I did like AQ and a not AQ and a it was 29 00:01:40,600 --> 00:01:44,600 like one of those ask a question type things on a story where you 30 00:01:44,600 --> 00:01:48,960 slide up and you just got back on Instagram you just so I'll 31 00:01:48,960 --> 00:01:51,560 fill you in. OK, so you can take a picture 32 00:01:51,960 --> 00:01:54,920 and then you put a little thing on there and it says ask me a 33 00:01:54,920 --> 00:01:57,280 question. And so like, I opened it up 34 00:01:57,280 --> 00:01:59,720 where people could ask me a question for the ride home. 35 00:01:59,800 --> 00:02:03,320 Got right. And so one girl wrote wrote in 36 00:02:03,320 --> 00:02:06,240 and was like, have you ever did an episode really talking about 37 00:02:06,240 --> 00:02:09,600 restoration in your marriage and what that looked like? 38 00:02:10,000 --> 00:02:13,520 And then it really did make me start thinking like, we really 39 00:02:13,520 --> 00:02:15,880 didn't you have one. The only place I could have 40 00:02:15,880 --> 00:02:17,240 talked about it, you know, was with you. 41 00:02:17,240 --> 00:02:22,920 Like, I talked about it in the beautifully answered prayer 42 00:02:23,160 --> 00:02:27,680 where we talked about great salvation, but that was fresh. 43 00:02:27,680 --> 00:02:30,320 Like, that was a week after he had been saved there, you know, 44 00:02:30,320 --> 00:02:34,080 had barely been any restoration at that time, You know, like, we 45 00:02:34,080 --> 00:02:36,320 was still trying to fight for his life, right? 46 00:02:36,680 --> 00:02:40,040 And then I've talked about it here and there, but for the most 47 00:02:40,040 --> 00:02:42,880 part, I was like, I haven't talked about it too much. 48 00:02:43,280 --> 00:02:46,320 And then when I was thinking about, you know, you, you have 49 00:02:46,320 --> 00:02:48,520 been divorced and stuff like that. 50 00:02:48,520 --> 00:02:51,920 And so we can kind of talk to both sides of the, you know, 51 00:02:51,920 --> 00:02:55,880 coin, you know, and hit a lot of different women talking about, 52 00:02:55,880 --> 00:03:02,360 you know, for you anyways, you can be like, look at what God 53 00:03:02,360 --> 00:03:05,960 has done through it, you know. Restoration in both 54 00:03:05,960 --> 00:03:08,160 perspectives. Yeah, yeah, yeah, in a different 55 00:03:08,160 --> 00:03:08,800 way. Yeah. 56 00:03:09,280 --> 00:03:12,000 So anyway, let's talk about you. Nope, we're going to start off 57 00:03:12,000 --> 00:03:14,440 with you this time. Well, I thought it was about 58 00:03:14,880 --> 00:03:16,080 your. Marriage I. 59 00:03:16,080 --> 00:03:19,160 Thought it would be good if you talk about it too. 60 00:03:19,200 --> 00:03:22,000 But yeah, I will say like just starting off. 61 00:03:22,320 --> 00:03:28,360 I guess let's kind of start with, you know, you, you came to 62 00:03:28,360 --> 00:03:32,600 know Christ 2 year and it took about two years until Greg 63 00:03:32,600 --> 00:03:38,040 surrendered to Christ, correct. And in that time, you know, you 64 00:03:38,040 --> 00:03:42,680 can kind of touch on that time frame of the valley you guys 65 00:03:42,680 --> 00:03:47,400 went through during that two year and then kind of how he 66 00:03:47,400 --> 00:03:49,640 restored it to where it is and today. 67 00:03:49,920 --> 00:03:52,560 Well, you know, I don't want to tell too much because y'all can 68 00:03:52,560 --> 00:03:55,640 go by the book. Suddenly God restored our 69 00:03:55,640 --> 00:03:57,800 marriage. No, but that really does talk 70 00:03:57,800 --> 00:04:00,520 about all the hurts, the habits, the hang ups, everything that we 71 00:04:00,520 --> 00:04:03,200 went through a lot. But just a brief overview. 72 00:04:03,200 --> 00:04:06,600 Like I y'all this is going to sound so bad. 73 00:04:06,720 --> 00:04:09,800 OK? I hated him and he hated me and 74 00:04:09,800 --> 00:04:13,600 it was very but not at first. No, I'm talking about in the 2. 75 00:04:13,600 --> 00:04:16,839 Years in the two years in the 2. Years like the moment that I 76 00:04:16,839 --> 00:04:19,360 like radically changed. No, I'm not that. 77 00:04:19,360 --> 00:04:22,480 We looked at each other before, you know, like we partied 78 00:04:22,480 --> 00:04:26,240 together before we did all this stuff before we had a like, I 79 00:04:26,240 --> 00:04:30,000 wouldn't say we had a great marriage, but because we didn't 80 00:04:30,000 --> 00:04:34,640 build it on anything except for partying and like go in and 81 00:04:34,640 --> 00:04:37,960 being around people in XYZ. So then when I come to Christ 82 00:04:38,160 --> 00:04:40,920 and it's a radically different, we're on two different sides of 83 00:04:40,920 --> 00:04:44,120 the spectrum. Like I'm running for towards 84 00:04:44,120 --> 00:04:47,800 Christ in every way possible and he doesn't understand. 85 00:04:47,800 --> 00:04:49,840 It almost freaked him out. Yeah, it did. 86 00:04:49,840 --> 00:04:52,800 He's like, I don't understand, like, why are you being this 87 00:04:52,800 --> 00:04:55,440 way? Like, why did why did you have 88 00:04:55,440 --> 00:04:57,680 to change so much? Like, cool, I'm so glad you're 89 00:04:57,680 --> 00:05:00,000 not, you know, black and out getting drunk every day anymore. 90 00:05:00,000 --> 00:05:04,720 But like, really, like you got to get rid of you got what? 91 00:05:04,720 --> 00:05:07,720 Like it didn't make sense until the point where like we had 92 00:05:07,720 --> 00:05:12,560 nothing in common anymore, like absolutely nothing to the point 93 00:05:12,560 --> 00:05:16,120 where we argued every single day all day long. 94 00:05:16,680 --> 00:05:20,600 And I hated coming home. Like, I hated being at home 95 00:05:21,360 --> 00:05:23,440 because I couldn't talk about what I did at work. 96 00:05:23,880 --> 00:05:27,040 I couldn't talk about what I was reading in the Bible because he 97 00:05:27,040 --> 00:05:30,160 didn't want to hear it. And it was just so hard. 98 00:05:30,240 --> 00:05:34,440 You know, and this is so good to talk about or for people to hear 99 00:05:34,440 --> 00:05:38,280 because you think, OK, I'm come to Christ. 100 00:05:38,320 --> 00:05:42,600 I give him my life, I surrender everything to him and now it's 101 00:05:42,600 --> 00:05:44,760 easy from there on out. And it only it got. 102 00:05:44,760 --> 00:05:47,160 Harder, no doubt. For you guys, it didn't get 103 00:05:47,160 --> 00:05:50,960 easier, no like. When I think back into that time 104 00:05:50,960 --> 00:05:54,440 period, I really did have the joy of the Lord, though, because 105 00:05:54,440 --> 00:05:59,840 I was so close to the Lord. I was the closest I've ever been 106 00:05:59,840 --> 00:06:05,560 to him and I loved life, but I hated this chapter like it. 107 00:06:05,640 --> 00:06:09,960 It was so wish you all like it was like I stepped outside, like 108 00:06:09,960 --> 00:06:13,600 I was outside and things are great. 109 00:06:13,680 --> 00:06:15,760 I love life. The moment that I come home, I'm 110 00:06:15,760 --> 00:06:20,400 like, Oh my gosh, like how is God not moving in this area of 111 00:06:20,400 --> 00:06:23,120 my life? Obviously he isn't listening to 112 00:06:23,120 --> 00:06:26,520 me because I've already surrendered all this. 113 00:06:26,520 --> 00:06:28,560 I don't drink no more. I don't smoke, I don't cuss. 114 00:06:28,560 --> 00:06:29,920 I don't listen to this. I don't do this. 115 00:06:30,160 --> 00:06:33,280 And I kept thinking of all the things that he already delivered 116 00:06:33,280 --> 00:06:34,760 me from. And it's like, why aren't you 117 00:06:34,760 --> 00:06:37,520 delivering me from this unequal yoked marriage? 118 00:06:37,920 --> 00:06:42,000 Why are you not delivering me from a husband that doesn't 119 00:06:42,000 --> 00:06:44,840 understand the life that I want to live? 120 00:06:45,280 --> 00:06:49,960 And so it was really hard. I mean that was 2 years. 121 00:06:50,000 --> 00:06:51,960 I wrote this in a message actually because I'm about to go 122 00:06:51,960 --> 00:06:54,360 to Kentucky. By the time y'all hear this, I 123 00:06:54,360 --> 00:06:59,960 had already went to Kentucky. But my message was talking about 124 00:06:59,960 --> 00:07:03,560 how two years we say that and it's just like 2 years and a 125 00:07:03,560 --> 00:07:05,760 snapping fingers like it's just two years. 126 00:07:06,480 --> 00:07:09,600 Two years is a long time when you're living it. 127 00:07:09,640 --> 00:07:12,720 On a day to. Day on a day-to-day, day in and 128 00:07:12,720 --> 00:07:17,480 day out, it's a long two years. And so many times like I'll say, 129 00:07:17,560 --> 00:07:19,720 Oh yeah, you know, I went through that for two years and I 130 00:07:19,720 --> 00:07:23,400 always under play it too. Like because to me I'm like, 131 00:07:23,400 --> 00:07:26,160 there's women out there that are going through this a lot longer 132 00:07:26,160 --> 00:07:28,560 than me. And it sounds so minuscule 133 00:07:28,560 --> 00:07:32,400 compared to their grief. And I think a lot of times us as 134 00:07:32,400 --> 00:07:36,440 women, we always do try to downplay how bad we're hurt or 135 00:07:36,720 --> 00:07:40,440 how much something is hurting us to the point that's what I was 136 00:07:40,440 --> 00:07:43,840 doing in my life. You know, I was really 137 00:07:43,840 --> 00:07:48,720 downplaying how bad I was. Yeah, I love that His word says, 138 00:07:48,720 --> 00:07:51,520 'cause it's so true that the Lord is close to the broken 139 00:07:51,520 --> 00:07:55,360 hearted. Cause in those times when we're 140 00:07:55,360 --> 00:08:01,040 hurting that bad, he feels so far away, but in reality he's 141 00:08:01,040 --> 00:08:03,520 never been closer. Yeah, and we see that on the 142 00:08:03,520 --> 00:08:06,840 other side. Now, I will say for my 143 00:08:06,880 --> 00:08:12,240 situation, you know, starting off, so I've been married twice 144 00:08:12,240 --> 00:08:17,120 now. My first marriage, like yours, 145 00:08:17,120 --> 00:08:20,160 started off just with no foundation. 146 00:08:21,360 --> 00:08:24,120 Not only no foundation very young. 147 00:08:24,400 --> 00:08:29,320 I was 17 when we started dating in high school, 11th grade. 148 00:08:29,800 --> 00:08:34,520 So you, you don't, you don't know anything about life at that 149 00:08:34,520 --> 00:08:39,120 point, even though you think you think me know everything, you 150 00:08:39,120 --> 00:08:41,120 think you're ready to be out on your own. 151 00:08:41,360 --> 00:08:45,920 You think you're ready to graduate, have a job, have your 152 00:08:45,920 --> 00:08:49,160 own house, like you think you're ready for it all and you truly 153 00:08:49,160 --> 00:08:52,240 are not. And that's where I was at and I 154 00:08:52,240 --> 00:08:55,640 truly was not ready for that serious of a relationship. 155 00:08:56,000 --> 00:08:59,840 And that's, you know, kind of it just it just spiraled it. 156 00:08:59,840 --> 00:09:02,880 It went, we got serious very fast. 157 00:09:03,160 --> 00:09:05,080 Yeah. We got married at a very young 158 00:09:05,080 --> 00:09:08,120 age on no foundation of Christ at all. 159 00:09:08,800 --> 00:09:13,800 It was drinking, partying, having fun and just fulfilling 160 00:09:14,240 --> 00:09:16,120 our sinful desires. Yeah. 161 00:09:16,120 --> 00:09:20,680 And it was all about myself, really and truly. 162 00:09:20,800 --> 00:09:24,280 What makes me happy, what brings me fulfillment in this. 163 00:09:25,960 --> 00:09:27,880 He's not doing. What's making me happy. 164 00:09:27,880 --> 00:09:30,360 He's not doing, you know what I want him to do. 165 00:09:30,360 --> 00:09:34,240 I'm trying to control the narrative constantly and still 166 00:09:34,240 --> 00:09:38,160 never feeling fulfilled and, and I don't think in either 167 00:09:38,160 --> 00:09:41,200 situation in the beginning of yours and Greg's relationship in 168 00:09:41,200 --> 00:09:44,720 the beginning of my first marriage, we would have never 169 00:09:44,720 --> 00:09:48,440 found true fulfillment. No, it didn't matter how perfect 170 00:09:48,640 --> 00:09:52,000 they could have been. It was we were living without 171 00:09:52,000 --> 00:09:55,760 Christ in the center of it. Yeah, Because even when you look 172 00:09:55,760 --> 00:10:02,120 at it, when I think about back then, right, we were always with 173 00:10:02,120 --> 00:10:05,880 other people, like including y'all in your first marriage, 174 00:10:05,880 --> 00:10:10,920 you know, like we weren't even like by ourselves much because 175 00:10:10,960 --> 00:10:13,320 we weren't really necessarily like, happy. 176 00:10:13,320 --> 00:10:16,560 I know for me, it's especially like me and Greg were always 177 00:10:16,560 --> 00:10:19,120 around other people. We never were really by 178 00:10:19,120 --> 00:10:21,720 ourselves. We just hung out with people 179 00:10:21,720 --> 00:10:26,120 constantly, you know, And so like even then now I look back 180 00:10:26,120 --> 00:10:29,480 and I'm like, me and Greg spend all the time together like, you 181 00:10:29,480 --> 00:10:31,080 know, and we didn't used to do that. 182 00:10:31,080 --> 00:10:33,360 Like we always used to fill it with other people. 183 00:10:33,360 --> 00:10:35,520 And now we're unless like we're avoiding. 184 00:10:35,680 --> 00:10:38,200 Crossing to just be together with you guys. 185 00:10:39,680 --> 00:10:43,560 But I guess relating this to the Word and how I've seen it, the 186 00:10:43,560 --> 00:10:48,040 last really the last week or so, a different perspective. 187 00:10:49,120 --> 00:10:50,960 The Bible is almost like a love story. 188 00:10:51,880 --> 00:10:56,720 It's a restorative love story between God and his people. 189 00:10:57,000 --> 00:11:00,440 Yeah. I mean, he truly wants to 190 00:11:00,440 --> 00:11:05,080 restore his relationship with us from when it was broken in the 191 00:11:05,080 --> 00:11:08,120 very beginning, from the very beginning with Genesis. 192 00:11:08,480 --> 00:11:13,280 And I, I see that in so many of our relationships that we had, 193 00:11:13,280 --> 00:11:18,000 especially like my first marriage and now my current 194 00:11:18,000 --> 00:11:20,560 marriage. But just having that, how much 195 00:11:20,560 --> 00:11:24,840 he has restored in my life personally and how much he can. 196 00:11:24,840 --> 00:11:27,760 And I hope that that's what somebody takes from this, how 197 00:11:27,760 --> 00:11:31,280 much he can restore their life, no matter how hopeless they 198 00:11:31,280 --> 00:11:34,080 feel. And if they feel they've messed 199 00:11:34,080 --> 00:11:37,400 up or their marriages, you know, it's didn't start off on the 200 00:11:37,400 --> 00:11:41,560 right foundation. Ours didn't now look at you 201 00:11:41,560 --> 00:11:44,720 know, the restoration that God has brought to us. 202 00:11:44,720 --> 00:11:49,400 I love the verse about he'll restore you tenfold with the 203 00:11:49,400 --> 00:11:53,600 locus of stolen. But it's, it's amazing to me to 204 00:11:53,600 --> 00:11:57,960 really see the and look at the Bible as a love story between US 205 00:11:57,960 --> 00:12:02,520 and God and him truly wanting to restore that relationship and 206 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:05,720 just knowing that it's possible with every relationship that we 207 00:12:05,720 --> 00:12:10,880 have or, or what we've done wrong in our life is is it's 208 00:12:10,880 --> 00:12:12,440 hopeful. I mean, it's encouraging. 209 00:12:12,600 --> 00:12:16,840 Yeah, when we're talking about this, because, like for my end 210 00:12:16,840 --> 00:12:20,360 of the story and then yours too, Genesis 5020. 211 00:12:20,360 --> 00:12:22,920 And it says what the enemy meant for evil, right? 212 00:12:22,920 --> 00:12:26,960 Like, that's not what it says. It says what you meant for evil. 213 00:12:27,120 --> 00:12:29,920 The Lord will use for good the saving of many lives. 214 00:12:30,280 --> 00:12:36,200 And truly, if we wouldn't have walked that path that we did, we 215 00:12:36,200 --> 00:12:39,840 wouldn't be dependent on the Lord like we are today because 216 00:12:39,840 --> 00:12:42,400 we experienced him and encountered his. 217 00:12:42,440 --> 00:12:46,880 We saw his grace, we saw his mercy, we saw how he does want 218 00:12:46,880 --> 00:12:50,080 to restore our lives, you know, and if we didn't walk through 219 00:12:50,080 --> 00:12:52,240 that, we wouldn't be where we are today. 220 00:12:52,600 --> 00:12:55,680 I always think about that like really, I have been on this 221 00:12:55,680 --> 00:13:00,800 Genesis 50 kick for 5020 quick kick for like 2 months now. 222 00:13:01,280 --> 00:13:03,640 And it's because I've been preparing for the Kentucky 223 00:13:03,640 --> 00:13:07,080 message and, or I'm doing 3 different sessions, but one of 224 00:13:07,080 --> 00:13:09,400 them is strictly about Genesis 5020. 225 00:13:09,400 --> 00:13:12,960 And so like I'm just like, it really relates to so much like 226 00:13:12,960 --> 00:13:16,240 everything you walk through in life, everything you walk 227 00:13:16,360 --> 00:13:21,520 through and what even when it's bad, like God can use it for 228 00:13:21,520 --> 00:13:23,800 good. And we know that in Romans 828 229 00:13:23,800 --> 00:13:26,920 when he says we, he works all things together for his good. 230 00:13:27,320 --> 00:13:31,800 So there's so many seasons that were in, like for me, those two 231 00:13:31,800 --> 00:13:35,920 years of me and Greg literally bout to fistfight. 232 00:13:36,000 --> 00:13:40,960 Yeah, I appreciate and I love my marriage so much more today 233 00:13:40,960 --> 00:13:45,160 because of it. But even prior to marriage, 234 00:13:45,280 --> 00:13:50,680 let's just go, you know, dating not on a good foundation. 235 00:13:50,880 --> 00:13:54,840 It was never, and maybe this is just me speaking, but it was 236 00:13:54,840 --> 00:13:57,200 never, obviously, it was never great. 237 00:13:58,280 --> 00:14:00,000 There was just always something missing. 238 00:14:00,000 --> 00:14:04,360 Yeah, it felt like, and maybe that's just me speaking for me, 239 00:14:04,360 --> 00:14:09,120 but no, yeah, yeah. It just felt like something was 240 00:14:09,120 --> 00:14:11,600 always missing. And I don't know if that's 241 00:14:11,600 --> 00:14:16,400 because at that point in time we are so self seeking and nothing 242 00:14:16,400 --> 00:14:18,800 will fulfill us. Nothing will fulfill that 243 00:14:18,800 --> 00:14:23,440 emptiness in you. But let's kind of talk about you 244 00:14:24,000 --> 00:14:26,920 had that feeling, but then you get saved. 245 00:14:27,120 --> 00:14:31,320 Was there any aspect to your marriage where you always have 246 00:14:31,320 --> 00:14:36,480 that hope with you and Greg or you know, did things kind of get 247 00:14:36,480 --> 00:14:40,600 better in that two year period where or just kind of took a 248 00:14:40,600 --> 00:14:42,320 spiral and went down the other path? 249 00:14:42,920 --> 00:14:45,440 It never got better. Yeah, it never got better. 250 00:14:46,960 --> 00:14:50,640 I will say that I talked about this at the well last month of 251 00:14:51,320 --> 00:14:54,160 every time I was in such a desperate place. 252 00:14:54,160 --> 00:14:58,680 I'm talking about I was fixing to call and get some papers 253 00:14:58,680 --> 00:15:01,960 started because I'm like, I cannot take this anymore. 254 00:15:02,240 --> 00:15:05,200 I would literally open up my Bible and God would just speak 255 00:15:05,200 --> 00:15:08,840 and he would just say like love your neighbor, submit all this 256 00:15:08,840 --> 00:15:11,160 and listen, I'm still struggling to submit things. 257 00:15:11,160 --> 00:15:14,120 I don't We actually about to record an episode about that, 258 00:15:14,880 --> 00:15:19,920 but the whole thing is at the end of the day, it didn't get 259 00:15:19,920 --> 00:15:23,160 better, but God would give me Nuggets when I needed them to 260 00:15:23,160 --> 00:15:25,720 have hope. I remember 1 morning, I don't 261 00:15:25,720 --> 00:15:28,680 know what happened in my spirit. I was listening to this the 262 00:15:28,680 --> 00:15:32,520 song, I think it's by elevation and it's new thing coming and I 263 00:15:32,520 --> 00:15:35,920 was in the seven brew line and all of a sudden I hear it and I 264 00:15:35,920 --> 00:15:39,640 had this wave of peace over me and I think me and Greg were 265 00:15:39,640 --> 00:15:43,680 probably like literally going through it at this point and I 266 00:15:43,680 --> 00:15:45,760 just was like about to count myself out. 267 00:15:45,960 --> 00:15:48,960 Like I was like, I'm just so over it. 268 00:15:49,320 --> 00:15:51,960 I'm done. I just, I don't understand how 269 00:15:51,960 --> 00:15:57,040 God could literally want me to be this miserable in my 270 00:15:57,040 --> 00:15:58,440 marriage. Like I just don't understand it. 271 00:15:58,440 --> 00:16:00,800 And I just had this overwhelming piece when I was listening that 272 00:16:00,800 --> 00:16:05,200 song of God is going to use your life and what you're doing if 273 00:16:05,200 --> 00:16:09,320 you stay obedient and you stay steadfast and he's going to get 274 00:16:09,320 --> 00:16:12,080 Greg's attention. Like I just knew this the end 275 00:16:12,080 --> 00:16:13,520 listening to the new thing coming. 276 00:16:13,520 --> 00:16:16,400 I just kept having this thing in my spirit, like a new thing's 277 00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:19,120 coming, a new thing's coming, a new chapter's coming. 278 00:16:19,520 --> 00:16:21,760 And it was Celebrate Recovery that night. 279 00:16:22,120 --> 00:16:28,880 And just because God gives you like the the answer, right? 280 00:16:28,880 --> 00:16:32,200 Like that was an answer. I don't know how to explain it 281 00:16:32,200 --> 00:16:33,880 because it wasn't audible. It wasn't anything. 282 00:16:34,080 --> 00:16:36,200 But I just knew Greg was going to get saved. 283 00:16:36,520 --> 00:16:38,720 And that night was Celebrate Recovery. 284 00:16:38,720 --> 00:16:41,200 And when he didn't come to church, I thought that God like 285 00:16:41,200 --> 00:16:43,360 basically lied. I was like, what are you talking 286 00:16:43,360 --> 00:16:44,800 about? You just told me this morning 287 00:16:44,800 --> 00:16:46,760 that a new thing was coming. And then Greg didn't even come 288 00:16:46,760 --> 00:16:50,760 to church. And that probably was like 4-3 289 00:16:50,760 --> 00:16:55,320 or four months before he even got saved, you know, So just 290 00:16:55,320 --> 00:17:00,880 because like you think or you know, that God has told you 291 00:17:00,880 --> 00:17:04,240 something in your spirit does not mean that it's got to happen 292 00:17:04,400 --> 00:17:07,240 right here, right now. Like, right, we want it on our 293 00:17:07,240 --> 00:17:08,599 time. We want it on our time. 294 00:17:08,599 --> 00:17:09,800 Yes. I thought it was about to happen 295 00:17:09,800 --> 00:17:12,760 that night at Celebrate Recovery, but it literally 296 00:17:12,760 --> 00:17:16,000 didn't happen for months later. And I think that's so important 297 00:17:16,000 --> 00:17:20,520 to just know that like God is going to give you those Nuggets. 298 00:17:20,520 --> 00:17:24,640 He's going to give you hope along the way, but you do have 299 00:17:24,640 --> 00:17:27,920 to be actively seeking him to hear those things. 300 00:17:27,920 --> 00:17:32,640 You have to know those things. Yes, I was pulling up about the 301 00:17:32,640 --> 00:17:35,240 verse in Corinthians that came to my mind when you were. 302 00:17:35,440 --> 00:17:39,400 Going through Corinthians girl. No, First Corinthians 716 OK, 303 00:17:42,320 --> 00:17:47,160 but it talks about the your husband says, don't you wives 304 00:17:47,160 --> 00:17:50,200 realize that your husband's might be saved because of you 305 00:17:50,200 --> 00:17:53,360 And don't you husband realize that your wives might be saved 306 00:17:53,360 --> 00:17:55,680 because of you? Each of you should continue to 307 00:17:55,680 --> 00:17:59,080 live in whatever situation the Lord has placed you and remain 308 00:17:59,080 --> 00:18:01,080 as you were when God first called you. 309 00:18:01,080 --> 00:18:06,800 This is my rule for all the churches, but it is so amazing 310 00:18:06,800 --> 00:18:09,560 to see that come to fruition. I mean, I never heard that 311 00:18:09,560 --> 00:18:11,840 before, and I've read the whole New Testament. 312 00:18:11,840 --> 00:18:13,880 I ain't never. You've never heard that verse? 313 00:18:13,960 --> 00:18:16,320 Never heard of that. Came to mind when you were just 314 00:18:16,320 --> 00:18:17,320 telling. Never heard. 315 00:18:17,360 --> 00:18:18,960 When you said that, I'm like, what? 316 00:18:19,200 --> 00:18:22,120 Like I've never heard that. Yeah, like stay in steadfast as 317 00:18:22,120 --> 00:18:26,760 a wife, you have the ability to bring your spouse to Christ. 318 00:18:27,120 --> 00:18:31,200 Wow. And and that came to fruition. 319 00:18:31,600 --> 00:18:35,000 You saw that. And so, you know, I don't, I 320 00:18:35,000 --> 00:18:40,560 think I'm thankful for what happened in my life prior to 321 00:18:40,560 --> 00:18:43,880 coming to Christ because it led me to him. 322 00:18:44,200 --> 00:18:48,640 But there's no telling what would have happened if I would 323 00:18:48,640 --> 00:18:50,920 have stayed. And that's The thing is because 324 00:18:50,920 --> 00:18:55,040 I didn't have Christ in my first marriage and because we were so 325 00:18:55,040 --> 00:19:00,480 deep in the world and I was so deep in, in darkness, it it, it 326 00:19:00,480 --> 00:19:03,280 failed. It never had the opportunity to 327 00:19:03,280 --> 00:19:07,160 make it. And so I truly believe in my 328 00:19:07,160 --> 00:19:12,160 heart, anyone who you know is living in a relationship that 329 00:19:12,880 --> 00:19:15,480 neither one of them have Christ at the center of their heart or 330 00:19:15,480 --> 00:19:18,000 neither one of them had that opportunity to bring their 331 00:19:18,000 --> 00:19:21,560 spouse to Christ or they're both just still living in the world. 332 00:19:21,840 --> 00:19:26,600 It is the enemy's, I believe Job to tear those relationships 333 00:19:26,600 --> 00:19:28,800 apart. I don't see how they would stand 334 00:19:28,800 --> 00:19:33,040 a chance living in the world. And and that's why I'm, I know 335 00:19:33,120 --> 00:19:35,200 wholeheartedly that's how my first marriage failed. 336 00:19:35,360 --> 00:19:38,920 I was 100% living in the world. We both were, were we didn't 337 00:19:38,920 --> 00:19:43,240 have Christ at all in our lives to have a foundation to stand 338 00:19:43,240 --> 00:19:44,840 on. We had nothing to stand on. 339 00:19:45,040 --> 00:19:48,280 It was so easy for the enemy to come in and tear us apart. 340 00:19:48,920 --> 00:19:52,120 What's so funny is like, I even when me and Greg first are 341 00:19:52,120 --> 00:19:55,400 dating, like I would have told people I was a Christian, you 342 00:19:55,400 --> 00:19:59,240 know, like I, yeah, of course I follow Christ. 343 00:19:59,680 --> 00:20:03,760 There is a difference between just knowing who God is and 344 00:20:03,760 --> 00:20:07,400 actually putting Jesus first in your life. 345 00:20:07,400 --> 00:20:10,080 You know, like putting him first in your life and being that 346 00:20:10,080 --> 00:20:12,800 foundation. There is a true, true difference 347 00:20:12,800 --> 00:20:15,880 there because just because you go to church on a Sunday, that's 348 00:20:15,880 --> 00:20:18,000 because maybe we did. Yeah. 349 00:20:18,120 --> 00:20:19,360 You know, that's what I'm saying. 350 00:20:19,360 --> 00:20:22,040 I didn't want to say it, but yeah. 351 00:20:22,040 --> 00:20:24,400 Like, just because you go to church on a Sunday does not mean 352 00:20:24,400 --> 00:20:28,480 that Christ is the foundation of your relationship. 100% not. 353 00:20:28,640 --> 00:20:31,080 Yeah. Well, I thought that you were 354 00:20:31,080 --> 00:20:34,760 going to talk about, you know, the scripture of if the 355 00:20:34,760 --> 00:20:38,760 unbeliever wants to leave, like let them go, but thus the saved, 356 00:20:38,840 --> 00:20:41,480 the believer must stay put in their marriage. 357 00:20:42,240 --> 00:20:46,080 And obviously that doesn't apply to if you're being abused or 358 00:20:46,080 --> 00:20:48,280 anything like that, like that. Let's go ahead and lay the 359 00:20:48,280 --> 00:20:52,200 groundwork there. But in my case, God revealed 360 00:20:52,200 --> 00:20:56,640 that to me multiple times when I was like in the thick of it, 361 00:20:56,760 --> 00:21:00,000 like he's like, hold on to. That is a scripture that I kept 362 00:21:00,000 --> 00:21:01,520 holding on to. I'm like, all right, Lord. 363 00:21:01,720 --> 00:21:03,800 Like if he chooses to leave. Like. 364 00:21:04,960 --> 00:21:08,000 What am I going to do? But you know, I've made that 365 00:21:08,000 --> 00:21:12,440 comment to Jessica at the well. And I just, you know, I was 366 00:21:12,440 --> 00:21:14,400 like, I stayed true to that. Like, you know, if the 367 00:21:14,400 --> 00:21:16,720 unbeliever wants to leave, if Greg decides to leave me. 368 00:21:16,720 --> 00:21:18,880 And towards the end, he had never said it. 369 00:21:18,880 --> 00:21:22,440 And then one day he literally was like, I want a divorce. 370 00:21:22,640 --> 00:21:26,000 Like I can't, I can't stand doing this anymore. 371 00:21:26,400 --> 00:21:28,560 And I think that's where I was kind of like, well. 372 00:21:29,320 --> 00:21:31,120 Here we go. You know, like whatever. 373 00:21:31,600 --> 00:21:38,720 And she was like, but that's not exit door for you to make your 374 00:21:38,720 --> 00:21:42,000 life or your make your husband's life miserable to the point 375 00:21:42,000 --> 00:21:45,640 where he wants to leave. You're still called to love him, 376 00:21:45,640 --> 00:21:47,600 you know, And I wasn't doing that well. 377 00:21:47,600 --> 00:21:52,000 I was not loving him well or leading or being a godly wife at 378 00:21:52,000 --> 00:21:55,520 all. Yeah, I wrote that down about 379 00:21:57,200 --> 00:22:02,840 the greatest commandment is love God, love people or love others, 380 00:22:03,000 --> 00:22:06,120 right? Yeah, others, meaning our 381 00:22:06,120 --> 00:22:10,080 husband, one of her greatest commandment is the one that God 382 00:22:10,160 --> 00:22:13,520 has bonded us with. And if we can't even love him 383 00:22:13,840 --> 00:22:17,320 and respect him the way that we're supposed to, how do we get 384 00:22:17,600 --> 00:22:21,000 that greatest commandment right in any aspect in our lives? 385 00:22:21,320 --> 00:22:24,920 And how powerful the tongue is? That is something I've had to 386 00:22:24,920 --> 00:22:31,600 work on and greatly over the last few years of my walk with 387 00:22:31,600 --> 00:22:38,120 Christ is my tongue can be it can lash out very easily when 388 00:22:38,120 --> 00:22:40,920 I'm frustrated especially or when I'm trying to control a 389 00:22:40,920 --> 00:22:46,520 situation and just learning to be respectful still to my 390 00:22:46,520 --> 00:22:50,600 husband and to who I'm with and loving him the way Christ would 391 00:22:50,600 --> 00:22:55,520 love him. I mean because for me I. 392 00:22:56,280 --> 00:22:58,480 That's something you you went through too. 393 00:22:58,480 --> 00:23:00,280 I don't know those two years learning. 394 00:23:00,640 --> 00:23:03,680 I didn't learn it then, I learned it after because I 395 00:23:03,680 --> 00:23:07,760 cussed him out regularly and when I say cussed out, I might 396 00:23:07,760 --> 00:23:10,520 have said a few cuss words along the way because it was. 397 00:23:10,520 --> 00:23:13,080 This is a Christian podcast and you. 398 00:23:13,480 --> 00:23:16,440 Know what else it is? It's real, raw and relatable, 399 00:23:16,440 --> 00:23:19,040 honey. And I probably did. 400 00:23:19,080 --> 00:23:23,240 I cussed him out a few times and then I was convicted about it 401 00:23:23,240 --> 00:23:25,960 because I'm like, Lord, that didn't just show who you were. 402 00:23:26,400 --> 00:23:30,200 That didn't just show how you have transformed my life. 403 00:23:30,680 --> 00:23:34,320 And he would just work on me the more and more as long as long as 404 00:23:34,320 --> 00:23:38,760 it went to the point where I really had to take a step back 405 00:23:38,760 --> 00:23:41,760 and like acknowledge that like this. 406 00:23:41,760 --> 00:23:45,000 Is not the other day what you're talking about? 407 00:23:45,000 --> 00:23:46,760 You know, we kept having to work on something. 408 00:23:47,120 --> 00:23:52,000 They asked me are we do we how did how did they say it? 409 00:23:53,360 --> 00:23:57,280 Are we keep, do we keep getting a test and failing the test? 410 00:23:57,280 --> 00:23:59,760 Because we're going to keep getting that same test until we 411 00:23:59,760 --> 00:24:03,280 pass it. And it's like that situation. 412 00:24:03,280 --> 00:24:06,800 It's like, here comes that test again, OK, how am I going to 413 00:24:06,800 --> 00:24:09,120 react to this situation? Am I going to react like I 414 00:24:09,120 --> 00:24:12,520 always do and fail that test because it's going to come 415 00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:14,800 again. It's going to keep coming until 416 00:24:14,800 --> 00:24:17,520 we finally pass it. Like a merry go round, just 417 00:24:17,520 --> 00:24:20,680 round and round. It's going to keep on coming and 418 00:24:21,160 --> 00:24:24,600 that is something that I've had to learn in my marriage. 419 00:24:24,720 --> 00:24:28,120 Now with Dexter is OK, here's a test. 420 00:24:28,920 --> 00:24:31,520 Here's how I can react the Word with you at the front and 421 00:24:31,520 --> 00:24:37,040 center, or with my fleshly or desires in my flesh in the in 422 00:24:37,040 --> 00:24:40,240 the forefront. Well, I started realizing that 423 00:24:40,240 --> 00:24:44,480 my tongue was so like, like what? 424 00:24:44,480 --> 00:24:45,480 Harsh. Harsh. 425 00:24:45,880 --> 00:24:48,720 Yeah, harsh because I was so hurt. 426 00:24:49,080 --> 00:24:57,360 Like I reacted out of hurt and I wanted to hurt Greg, like with 427 00:24:57,360 --> 00:25:00,840 my voice, with my tongue, like he had hurt me because he wasn't 428 00:25:00,840 --> 00:25:05,240 living and like measuring up to the man that I needed him to be 429 00:25:05,560 --> 00:25:07,640 and so. He. 430 00:25:07,640 --> 00:25:10,880 Couldn't he couldn't do anything right, you know, like he did 1 431 00:25:10,880 --> 00:25:14,560 little thing and I'm I want to hurt him and say all these nasty 432 00:25:14,560 --> 00:25:18,720 things to him so that he would feel the way that I felt and 433 00:25:18,760 --> 00:25:20,080 I'd. I really didn't. 434 00:25:20,240 --> 00:25:22,960 You're really something to scripture, you know? 435 00:25:23,000 --> 00:25:26,280 Yeah, there is. And it tells you how to be 436 00:25:26,280 --> 00:25:29,240 respectful, respectful wife and loving wife. 437 00:25:29,240 --> 00:25:32,120 And and we're like, hold on. Nope, I can't do that. 438 00:25:32,120 --> 00:25:32,960 Nope. Because. 439 00:25:32,960 --> 00:25:36,200 And the only reason I say that is where does that get us? 440 00:25:36,200 --> 00:25:39,240 Yeah. When we treat them that way 441 00:25:39,240 --> 00:25:41,760 without the respect, where does it get us? 442 00:25:41,760 --> 00:25:43,520 Nowhere. And God knows that. 443 00:25:44,040 --> 00:25:46,560 He knows what we need. He knows how we need to act. 444 00:25:46,560 --> 00:25:48,760 He knows what's going to bring restoration to our 445 00:25:48,760 --> 00:25:51,560 relationships. It's right there in his word. 446 00:25:51,560 --> 00:25:53,600 It's just hard to do it. No doubt. 447 00:25:53,600 --> 00:25:56,680 And I know that was hard for you and Greg in those two years. 448 00:25:56,680 --> 00:26:00,280 Was there ever a point that you felt like you started to pass 449 00:26:00,280 --> 00:26:06,560 the test and I. Mean not maybe closer towards 450 00:26:06,800 --> 00:26:08,240 the litter. Yes. 451 00:26:08,240 --> 00:26:11,320 When I stopped talking. OK, Like litter. 452 00:26:11,920 --> 00:26:14,480 Yeah. I started passing it because I 453 00:26:14,480 --> 00:26:16,800 don't think it's scripture. I think this is just what our 454 00:26:16,800 --> 00:26:19,120 parents tell us. But you know, like, if you don't 455 00:26:19,120 --> 00:26:21,400 have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. 456 00:26:21,640 --> 00:26:25,440 I just stopped talking like genuinely and that wasn't great 457 00:26:25,440 --> 00:26:27,000 either. But you know, like I would come 458 00:26:27,000 --> 00:26:28,960 home and I don't got nothing to say. 459 00:26:29,240 --> 00:26:33,080 I would just if he was talking, I'll let it go in one out in ear 460 00:26:33,080 --> 00:26:36,440 and out the other. And I just got to the point 461 00:26:36,440 --> 00:26:40,400 where it was every time I did talk, it was negative. 462 00:26:40,400 --> 00:26:45,800 So I was like to save my piece. I ain't got nothing really to 463 00:26:45,800 --> 00:26:48,240 say. And that's really hard to get to 464 00:26:48,240 --> 00:26:51,240 a place when you live with someone, you're with someone a 465 00:26:51,240 --> 00:26:52,920 lot, you're with them all the time. 466 00:26:53,320 --> 00:26:56,000 And I just had nothing to say, you know. 467 00:26:56,240 --> 00:27:02,720 But I think towards the end of right before he came to Christ, 468 00:27:02,720 --> 00:27:08,480 like my heart did start shifting a little bit because the moment 469 00:27:08,560 --> 00:27:13,840 that he got sick, it was like, and I acknowledged the sickness. 470 00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:16,400 I started loving him in a whole different capacity. 471 00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:19,360 I started praying for him in a whole different capacity. 472 00:27:19,360 --> 00:27:22,520 Like the prey without ceasing. Wow. 473 00:27:22,880 --> 00:27:28,040 And I don't know, like I don't really know how to explain it. 474 00:27:28,040 --> 00:27:31,040 Like it was the moment that I realized that he was sick and 475 00:27:31,040 --> 00:27:33,200 that I could lose him. And that's when it scared me. 476 00:27:33,600 --> 00:27:37,440 And to the point where I started praying non-stop over and over 477 00:27:37,440 --> 00:27:38,720 again. Like I remember being on my 478 00:27:38,720 --> 00:27:42,320 bathroom floor crying out with my face in the floor. 479 00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:45,720 And I'm like, save him, Lord, save him Lord, save him Lord. 480 00:27:45,720 --> 00:27:49,400 And then I started forcing him like get on your knees and pray, 481 00:27:49,520 --> 00:27:54,480 pray like. So I wouldn't say that I even 482 00:27:55,160 --> 00:28:00,240 did anything right until he got sick, like not at all, you know. 483 00:28:00,240 --> 00:28:06,120 And so I just like my heart for women in these situations is 484 00:28:06,160 --> 00:28:10,360 don't do the things that I do like, love him where you're at. 485 00:28:10,360 --> 00:28:12,920 Start praying for him without ceasing, right? 486 00:28:13,200 --> 00:28:15,280 That's when you felt in solitary. 487 00:28:15,280 --> 00:28:22,680 When I was like, OK, and when I truly did surrender it to the 488 00:28:22,680 --> 00:28:27,240 point where I'm like, Lord, I need you to do it because I 489 00:28:27,240 --> 00:28:28,960 can't do it. I can't do it anymore. 490 00:28:28,960 --> 00:28:31,360 I can't do it. I've been trying to talk to him 491 00:28:31,360 --> 00:28:32,880 about you. I've been trying to do this. 492 00:28:32,880 --> 00:28:34,920 I've been trying to do that. And nothing's worked. 493 00:28:34,960 --> 00:28:37,840 Like, please, in the name of Jesus, I need you to move in a 494 00:28:37,840 --> 00:28:40,760 mighty way. And I mean that. 495 00:28:41,200 --> 00:28:43,720 That's when it really changed for me, right? 496 00:28:44,480 --> 00:28:47,520 OK. So he gets saved. 497 00:28:47,800 --> 00:28:51,480 Yes, that is when everything changed, right? 498 00:28:52,400 --> 00:28:55,160 Yeah. So I will say the moment that I 499 00:28:55,160 --> 00:28:58,320 realized that we were in the hospital and that God was really 500 00:28:58,320 --> 00:29:00,560 going to have to do like this miracle, right? 501 00:29:00,560 --> 00:29:02,800 Like we know that he can't have surgery. 502 00:29:02,960 --> 00:29:05,520 We know that he has to have surgery, but he can't because 503 00:29:05,520 --> 00:29:10,200 he'll die. That is when I knew that God was 504 00:29:10,200 --> 00:29:14,120 moving and I knew that God was going to deliver him from this, 505 00:29:14,120 --> 00:29:15,480 right? Like I just had like this 506 00:29:15,560 --> 00:29:19,720 overwhelming peace, like he just was there all along the way. 507 00:29:20,480 --> 00:29:28,920 And then I just started like actually just trying to be there 508 00:29:28,920 --> 00:29:32,320 for him and talk to him and let him talk and actually do the 509 00:29:32,320 --> 00:29:37,760 little things, you know, because we say this too, like sometimes 510 00:29:37,760 --> 00:29:40,000 people say, well, I used to be on fire for Christ. 511 00:29:40,320 --> 00:29:42,640 OK, think about your honeymoon face, right? 512 00:29:42,640 --> 00:29:45,400 Like you used to be so on fire for your husband. 513 00:29:45,480 --> 00:29:48,280 You loved your husband. You couldn't get close enough to 514 00:29:48,280 --> 00:29:50,320 him. And I, I've been saying this a 515 00:29:50,320 --> 00:29:54,840 lot, but grandma and grandpa had this old truck with a bench seat 516 00:29:54,960 --> 00:29:59,560 right when they rode together, when they went Uptown, Grandma 517 00:29:59,560 --> 00:30:02,760 was loved up on grandpa basically sitting on his lap, 518 00:30:02,760 --> 00:30:05,160 like they were right on top of each other, right? 519 00:30:05,440 --> 00:30:09,320 But then they had a kid and then she kind of slid over and the 520 00:30:09,320 --> 00:30:11,920 kids sat between them and then another kid and they sat. 521 00:30:11,920 --> 00:30:14,640 And then like they start arguing and she's like, I ain't sitting 522 00:30:14,640 --> 00:30:16,840 there. And then eventually she's like, 523 00:30:17,080 --> 00:30:18,760 why don't we sit together anymore? 524 00:30:19,080 --> 00:30:21,000 Like, why don't we sit together like we used to? 525 00:30:21,800 --> 00:30:23,280 And he's like, well, I ain't moved. 526 00:30:23,440 --> 00:30:25,560 He was always still in the driver's seat the whole entire 527 00:30:25,560 --> 00:30:27,120 time. And that's the same thing with 528 00:30:27,120 --> 00:30:31,560 our marriage, too. Like we're letting the world put 529 00:30:31,560 --> 00:30:34,920 things in between our marriage. We're letting our phones, our 530 00:30:34,920 --> 00:30:37,920 social media, like all this stuff come in between our 531 00:30:37,920 --> 00:30:41,560 marriage and then eventually we're going to start drifting 532 00:30:41,600 --> 00:30:44,440 like you have to be intentional with your marriage just like you 533 00:30:44,440 --> 00:30:45,960 are with your relationship with Christ. 534 00:30:45,960 --> 00:30:49,920 Yeah, 100%. Like, if you're not trying to be 535 00:30:49,920 --> 00:30:53,400 close to one another, eventually that time's just going to pull 536 00:30:53,440 --> 00:30:55,120 you apart. You know you have to be 537 00:30:55,120 --> 00:30:58,080 intentional with your marriage and with Christ. 538 00:30:58,080 --> 00:31:02,040 Yeah, I just want to touch back on talking about praying for 539 00:31:02,040 --> 00:31:04,800 your husband. Yeah, when you really, it's 540 00:31:04,800 --> 00:31:10,160 almost like your heart truly. I mean, I'm sure you prayed for 541 00:31:10,160 --> 00:31:13,920 him during that time. No doubt your heart was 542 00:31:14,120 --> 00:31:17,840 connected in a different way when he was sick and and those 543 00:31:17,840 --> 00:31:21,960 prayers didn't feel as forced. It was truly from your heart. 544 00:31:22,560 --> 00:31:26,960 And so I remember when I got, I went through my divorce, not 545 00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:31,600 long after my divorce, I was still completely just living in 546 00:31:31,600 --> 00:31:34,680 darkness and I truly had no self worth. 547 00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:39,560 And I could have sworn at that point in time in my life, I 548 00:31:39,560 --> 00:31:43,920 would never get married again, have a successful marriage. 549 00:31:44,320 --> 00:31:47,080 Anybody would ever look at me the same, anybody would ever 550 00:31:47,080 --> 00:31:50,000 love me the same. And I could just go on and on 551 00:31:50,000 --> 00:31:53,960 and on. But there was a point in time 552 00:31:53,960 --> 00:31:59,080 where and I didn't know who it was, I just started the Lord put 553 00:31:59,080 --> 00:32:02,920 it on my heart to start. This was I got saved and really 554 00:32:02,920 --> 00:32:06,760 gave my heart to the Lord in 2020 and started my 12 step 555 00:32:06,760 --> 00:32:10,400 class and started getting clean and not drinking, not partying 556 00:32:10,400 --> 00:32:13,600 and not doing everything. And that's when for some reason 557 00:32:13,600 --> 00:32:16,440 he just put it on my heart to start praying for my husband. 558 00:32:17,200 --> 00:32:19,720 I didn't know who it was. I would get on my knees every 559 00:32:19,720 --> 00:32:23,000 night and just pray for my husband, my future husband, for 560 00:32:23,000 --> 00:32:25,400 me to be the wife that they need to teach me. 561 00:32:25,400 --> 00:32:29,400 Lord, teach me to be the Proverbs 31 woman that I know I 562 00:32:29,400 --> 00:32:32,000 can be. I know I've completely messed it 563 00:32:32,000 --> 00:32:35,960 up before, but I know that you can restore what's going forward 564 00:32:36,720 --> 00:32:38,600 in my life. And I truly started praying for 565 00:32:38,600 --> 00:32:43,760 my husband with this deep like reverend, like heart, like, I 566 00:32:43,760 --> 00:32:47,880 don't know how to explain it. And not long after that is when 567 00:32:47,880 --> 00:32:52,640 I met Dexter. And so I truly think there is 568 00:32:52,640 --> 00:32:56,640 something with praying for your husband if you were at a point 569 00:32:56,840 --> 00:32:59,400 where you haven't been praying for your husband. 570 00:33:00,160 --> 00:33:03,360 And I can speak for myself that I need to do better about it. 571 00:33:04,480 --> 00:33:10,360 And just truly praying for their mind, praying for the weight 572 00:33:10,360 --> 00:33:12,200 that they carry on their shoulders every day. 573 00:33:13,720 --> 00:33:18,280 Praying that, you know, you help build them up in ways that the 574 00:33:18,280 --> 00:33:20,400 Lord would want you to have them built up. 575 00:33:20,400 --> 00:33:24,400 And helping them to become who they are supposed to be in 576 00:33:24,400 --> 00:33:27,400 Christ really and truly is what we're called to do. 577 00:33:27,400 --> 00:33:31,120 And in praying for them in that way really can make it has a 578 00:33:31,120 --> 00:33:34,600 huge impact. Yeah, when I'm thinking of like 579 00:33:34,680 --> 00:33:37,320 when you're talking about my posture changed with the prayer 580 00:33:37,320 --> 00:33:40,120 basically, or you were praying with the actual reverent heart 581 00:33:40,120 --> 00:33:43,720 or whatever. It felt like some of the times, 582 00:33:43,720 --> 00:33:46,640 like when I was praying for Greg, like I was just, it was 583 00:33:46,640 --> 00:33:49,360 very empty. Like I was just, I know I got to 584 00:33:49,360 --> 00:33:52,320 pray for his salvation. I got to pray for his salvation. 585 00:33:52,320 --> 00:33:54,120 So here I am. I'm praying for his salvation. 586 00:33:54,560 --> 00:34:00,360 But when it changed, when my heart cried out and I knew, I 587 00:34:00,360 --> 00:34:03,200 knew without a shadow of a doubt that God could do it. 588 00:34:03,200 --> 00:34:06,240 Like that's what was so different. 589 00:34:06,240 --> 00:34:09,719 And there's like the incense we talked about, let your incense 590 00:34:09,719 --> 00:34:12,880 rise. Like I was solely dependent on 591 00:34:12,880 --> 00:34:19,280 him where my incense like I was crying out to God and that was a 592 00:34:19,280 --> 00:34:22,880 big turning point. Like, and I would say like the 593 00:34:22,880 --> 00:34:26,120 restoration part, like we really haven't even really talked about 594 00:34:26,120 --> 00:34:30,320 that, like right. But the biggest thing is like 595 00:34:30,320 --> 00:34:33,840 people thought that as soon as we he got saved, we came home 596 00:34:33,840 --> 00:34:36,040 from the hospital like everything was going to be 597 00:34:36,719 --> 00:34:40,520 great. You know, it wasn't because I 598 00:34:40,520 --> 00:34:42,480 had built a whole different life. 599 00:34:42,679 --> 00:34:46,480 Like I had been walking it out with Christ for two years now. 600 00:34:46,719 --> 00:34:50,880 I've done formed all these new friends that you barely even met 601 00:34:51,199 --> 00:34:54,199 and like I have a whole different life. 602 00:34:54,199 --> 00:34:58,480 So when we tried to like mesh those, it was a learning 603 00:34:58,480 --> 00:34:59,640 experience. Right. 604 00:34:59,760 --> 00:35:03,600 So at that point in time, he started going to church with. 605 00:35:03,600 --> 00:35:05,480 Yeah. Like he started going to CR 606 00:35:06,040 --> 00:35:08,400 immediately right off the RIP every Thursday. 607 00:35:08,400 --> 00:35:11,400 We, I think we've missed only because we were out of town, 608 00:35:11,440 --> 00:35:15,640 right? And then slowly but surely, like 609 00:35:16,000 --> 00:35:19,920 I started seeing slow changes. Like he picks up his bottle now, 610 00:35:19,920 --> 00:35:22,400 like he's reading, he wants to talk about it like he wants to 611 00:35:22,400 --> 00:35:27,040 come to church. And that's when I was like, OK, 612 00:35:27,400 --> 00:35:29,680 it doesn't all have to come together right now. 613 00:35:30,040 --> 00:35:33,560 That was the biggest part is like we think that just because 614 00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:35,280 that happened, everything's going to be great. 615 00:35:35,320 --> 00:35:36,960 He's going to be the spiritual leader of the home. 616 00:35:36,960 --> 00:35:39,720 Like he's going to do all these things and like he's having to 617 00:35:39,720 --> 00:35:42,640 grow and mature just like I had been doing it the past two 618 00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:47,240 years, but instead of those two year here, here, hang on, hang 619 00:35:47,240 --> 00:35:52,560 on, hold, hang on, hang on those two years I really grew my 620 00:35:52,560 --> 00:35:55,320 relationship with Christ. I had the foundation that I 621 00:35:55,320 --> 00:36:00,120 needed like I new scripture. I knew how to talk about it like 622 00:36:00,120 --> 00:36:02,520 I was being discipled by people. I was in these groups. 623 00:36:02,520 --> 00:36:07,160 I was doing these things and the moment that he surrendered his 624 00:36:07,160 --> 00:36:13,320 life to Christ, I no longer felt it wasn't about me growing my 625 00:36:13,320 --> 00:36:19,000 relationship with Christ, right? Like I needed to nurture my 626 00:36:19,120 --> 00:36:21,440 marriage. Now. 627 00:36:21,560 --> 00:36:24,280 God didn't take come off the pedestal, you know what I'm 628 00:36:24,280 --> 00:36:25,720 saying? Like he's still up there. 629 00:36:25,720 --> 00:36:28,680 He's still #1 But I had done the work. 630 00:36:28,760 --> 00:36:32,760 I had done the things that I had to focus on myself. 631 00:36:33,680 --> 00:36:36,320 Where, OK, I've grown my relationship. 632 00:36:36,320 --> 00:36:38,400 I have a good foundation. I don't have to be in the church 633 00:36:38,400 --> 00:36:41,160 every time the doors are open. I do I want to be, yes. 634 00:36:41,320 --> 00:36:44,800 But I do know that I got to put my marriage first and I got to 635 00:36:44,800 --> 00:36:49,480 start spending quality time. I've got to Start Stop going to 636 00:36:49,480 --> 00:36:52,000 the church every single time. They're doing every little fun. 637 00:36:52,040 --> 00:36:55,360 French became a yes. Just because I didn't want to be 638 00:36:55,360 --> 00:36:57,720 at home. That is when it switched for me, 639 00:36:57,720 --> 00:37:00,360 the moment that he gave his life to Christ. 640 00:37:00,360 --> 00:37:03,040 And I realized that I should have been like that all along. 641 00:37:03,040 --> 00:37:05,200 Yeah, that's good. That's where I was trying to get 642 00:37:05,200 --> 00:37:06,920 there. That's why I was like, hang on, 643 00:37:07,000 --> 00:37:10,200 how do I say this? I should have been doing that 644 00:37:10,200 --> 00:37:12,960 stuff all along. Yes, I was. 645 00:37:12,960 --> 00:37:15,360 I was investing in my relationship with Christ. 646 00:37:15,360 --> 00:37:17,120 Yes, I was trying to get a foundation. 647 00:37:17,120 --> 00:37:18,040 Yes, I was doing all these things. 648 00:37:18,520 --> 00:37:21,120 But at the end of the day, I still should have brought my 649 00:37:21,240 --> 00:37:24,640 tried to make my husband more of a priority. 650 00:37:24,640 --> 00:37:26,040 I should have been at home a little bit more. 651 00:37:26,040 --> 00:37:27,240 I should have been doing these things. 652 00:37:28,000 --> 00:37:31,160 But you live and you learn. You really you can't tell 653 00:37:31,160 --> 00:37:34,360 yourself nothing. When you're in it when you're. 654 00:37:34,360 --> 00:37:36,360 In it, you can't tell yourself nothing. 655 00:37:36,360 --> 00:37:38,760 People would tell me stuff like that all the time and I'm like, 656 00:37:39,720 --> 00:37:42,800 no, you don't understand, you don't understand. 657 00:37:42,800 --> 00:37:44,880 You ain't been in the house with us. 658 00:37:44,880 --> 00:37:48,240 You ain't seen these knock down drag outs like what we got going 659 00:37:48,240 --> 00:37:51,760 on so. But he is so good. 660 00:37:51,760 --> 00:37:55,520 It's like he knew how to, he knows how to get you there to, 661 00:37:55,640 --> 00:37:59,800 to where you are now and allows us to go through those trials 662 00:37:59,800 --> 00:38:06,240 and he's, he's molding you and forming you and growing you in 663 00:38:06,240 --> 00:38:08,240 those seasons to where you are now. 664 00:38:08,240 --> 00:38:11,600 For you to even realize that, you know, I should have had my 665 00:38:11,600 --> 00:38:17,680 marriage as a priority even in that difficulty then because God 666 00:38:17,680 --> 00:38:21,280 was still at work, even though it felt like he wasn't, he was 667 00:38:21,280 --> 00:38:24,960 still at work. And that's what was going on 668 00:38:25,000 --> 00:38:29,160 before I met Dexter. It did not feel like he was 669 00:38:29,160 --> 00:38:33,120 there that anything was going to come to fruition of my life with 670 00:38:33,800 --> 00:38:36,840 marriage or kids or anything along those lines. 671 00:38:37,600 --> 00:38:39,520 But he was still working everything out in the 672 00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:42,280 background. And I think it's because there 673 00:38:42,280 --> 00:38:44,080 was a heart. Obviously, there was a heart 674 00:38:44,080 --> 00:38:45,880 change. Like my heart truly started 675 00:38:45,880 --> 00:38:50,120 crying out to him and just wanting him at that time and him 676 00:38:50,120 --> 00:38:53,560 to lead my life. And that's when I met Dexter. 677 00:38:53,560 --> 00:38:58,640 But even though Dexter and I met and we had a great foundation, 678 00:38:58,880 --> 00:39:03,080 everything was not easy. It was extremely difficult to. 679 00:39:04,040 --> 00:39:07,440 There was little things that we still held on to worldly 680 00:39:07,440 --> 00:39:11,040 desires. You know, we would still come 681 00:39:11,040 --> 00:39:12,880 hang out with you guys and throw. 682 00:39:13,240 --> 00:39:18,120 Us up in there, God don't cough in the mind now. 683 00:39:18,800 --> 00:39:22,520 No, but I didn't have, Yeah. Yeah, I mean, we, we still, you 684 00:39:22,520 --> 00:39:25,520 know, wanted to go have fun with our friends, but how do we do 685 00:39:25,520 --> 00:39:29,080 that and not, you know, and drink just a little bit, but 686 00:39:29,080 --> 00:39:31,680 then not drink on the weekends because we wanted to go to 687 00:39:31,680 --> 00:39:35,400 church and put Christ first. We were in this weird, you know, 688 00:39:35,520 --> 00:39:39,720 it was this phase of sanctification and, and really 689 00:39:39,720 --> 00:39:43,960 trying to learn to give everything up, regardless of 690 00:39:43,960 --> 00:39:47,240 what that meant, regardless of, oh, wait, are we about to give 691 00:39:47,240 --> 00:39:49,640 up fun? Oh, wait, you know, who are we 692 00:39:49,640 --> 00:39:51,600 going to hang out with? Our parents? 693 00:39:51,960 --> 00:39:54,240 Like we're not going to have anybody to hang out with if 694 00:39:54,240 --> 00:39:56,120 we're not going and doing these things. 695 00:39:56,440 --> 00:40:01,040 And it was us, you know, trying to start a whole new life and, 696 00:40:01,040 --> 00:40:03,760 and wanting to put Christ first, but still kind of. 697 00:40:04,560 --> 00:40:06,080 One foot in and that makes sense. 698 00:40:06,080 --> 00:40:08,040 No doubt. You're still trying to have your 699 00:40:08,040 --> 00:40:11,480 cake and eat it too. Yes, we were for sure, Yeah. 700 00:40:11,520 --> 00:40:14,680 And so we went through a huge learning curve with that. 701 00:40:14,680 --> 00:40:19,560 And I will say, since we did just completely give everything 702 00:40:19,560 --> 00:40:23,920 to Christ, the restoration that we have in our marriage from 703 00:40:23,920 --> 00:40:27,480 anything that we had in the beginning that might have caused 704 00:40:27,480 --> 00:40:31,000 her to one or another. Because we did carry some, I 705 00:40:31,000 --> 00:40:34,360 carried some baggage into the beginning of the relationship, 706 00:40:34,360 --> 00:40:37,600 into the beginning of the marriage as well as him. 707 00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:40,520 I mean, he had some stuff from his past that he brought over. 708 00:40:40,760 --> 00:40:43,800 He's a lot better of a human being than me. 709 00:40:43,800 --> 00:40:46,960 He's a good man, Elizabeth. Good man, Elizabeth. 710 00:40:47,080 --> 00:40:52,880 Hey, is that what he's the best? But, you know, I had brought 711 00:40:52,880 --> 00:40:56,080 over some baggage that I was still working on and working 712 00:40:56,080 --> 00:40:58,560 through and we had to work through that together. 713 00:40:58,880 --> 00:41:03,640 But God has been so good to us. And, you know, just like with 714 00:41:03,680 --> 00:41:07,080 and, and it's not going to stop us working. 715 00:41:07,280 --> 00:41:10,280 It's just going on our marriage. I mean, I'm just saying like 716 00:41:10,280 --> 00:41:13,640 everything to keep growing closer to one another. 717 00:41:13,680 --> 00:41:16,520 That's what I was going to say is like, as long as we're 718 00:41:16,720 --> 00:41:19,800 putting in the work, we're doing these things, this is just like 719 00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:23,800 God still has good plans. We ain't just got this good plan 720 00:41:23,800 --> 00:41:26,680 right here right now. And he's done working like he 721 00:41:26,680 --> 00:41:29,480 has continuously good plans for our lives. 722 00:41:29,760 --> 00:41:32,960 And like I truly have been saying that more recently, just 723 00:41:32,960 --> 00:41:36,480 the closer that me and Greg do get because we're still 724 00:41:36,480 --> 00:41:38,400 learning. Like it's been a year. 725 00:41:38,400 --> 00:41:42,120 Yes, it's been a year, but like, we're still learning each other, 726 00:41:42,120 --> 00:41:45,160 we're still figuring it out. We're still like, he's still 727 00:41:45,160 --> 00:41:49,520 newly fresh to his faith, you know, So like we're learning how 728 00:41:49,520 --> 00:41:51,680 to have a equally yoked marriage. 729 00:41:51,680 --> 00:41:54,600 And I just know the longer that we walk this out, the the more 730 00:41:54,600 --> 00:41:57,240 that we do this with Christ, He's going to continue to bless 731 00:41:57,240 --> 00:42:00,280 and just have good plans over and over and over again. 732 00:42:00,960 --> 00:42:06,040 I guess is there something different in those moments where 733 00:42:06,040 --> 00:42:10,280 now when things get heated or you know, an argument or 734 00:42:10,280 --> 00:42:13,960 something totally different practically that you could say 735 00:42:13,960 --> 00:42:18,240 y'all do versus but you know, prior to both of y'all, I'm 736 00:42:18,240 --> 00:42:20,320 going to be honest. Greg's always been a good man, 737 00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:22,640 OK? He really has always been a good 738 00:42:22,640 --> 00:42:24,720 man. Like he does not like when I say 739 00:42:24,720 --> 00:42:26,440 we was knocking a buck and he wasn't. 740 00:42:26,840 --> 00:42:30,080 I was. I was cussing him at spew. 741 00:42:30,920 --> 00:42:34,040 It's like talking to a wall because he doesn't respond in 742 00:42:34,040 --> 00:42:37,520 that way. Like he doesn't he's a very even 743 00:42:37,520 --> 00:42:40,480 tempered. He is very he's a good man. 744 00:42:40,680 --> 00:42:43,240 He's a good man. He just didn't have the Lord and 745 00:42:43,240 --> 00:42:46,080 you know, that is so that we could do a whole episode about 746 00:42:46,080 --> 00:42:48,160 how you can be a good person, but you still going to go to 747 00:42:48,160 --> 00:42:51,320 hell without the Lord. And so he was a good man, but he 748 00:42:51,320 --> 00:42:54,760 just didn't have the Lord and so he was unfulfilled. 749 00:42:54,760 --> 00:42:58,120 He was searching for the world and so he searched and found 750 00:42:58,120 --> 00:43:02,040 alcohol. And so when we get in these 751 00:43:02,040 --> 00:43:05,160 disagreements, which a lot of the times, like it's just me 752 00:43:05,160 --> 00:43:09,200 aggravated, you know, and I do take a different approach now 753 00:43:09,200 --> 00:43:16,680 because I see him with spiritual eyes, like I see that he is 754 00:43:16,920 --> 00:43:20,480 God's child just like I am, I'm God's daughter, he's God's son. 755 00:43:20,480 --> 00:43:24,760 He's the like, why would I be negative and, and tear him down 756 00:43:24,760 --> 00:43:29,600 the way that I used to over something that it's just a 757 00:43:29,600 --> 00:43:32,440 miscommunication. It's just I'm I'll, I'm the one 758 00:43:32,440 --> 00:43:35,360 that overpacked my schedule. That ain't his fault, you know, 759 00:43:35,720 --> 00:43:37,320 or I'm trying to control something. 760 00:43:37,320 --> 00:43:41,560 So now I do take a second and and I try to re evaluate things 761 00:43:41,560 --> 00:43:45,160 like I'm like, is this a heel I'm really ready to die on? 762 00:43:45,600 --> 00:43:49,400 No, I'm not. And I really have gotten to that 763 00:43:49,560 --> 00:43:53,120 in the past like 2 months, like, and not even just in my 764 00:43:53,120 --> 00:43:54,960 marriage. I'm talking about all things in 765 00:43:54,960 --> 00:43:56,680 life. I think I really am letting go 766 00:43:56,680 --> 00:44:00,040 of some control issues, you know, like the Lord is really 767 00:44:00,040 --> 00:44:03,520 trying to work on me about that because I'm like, yeah, what's 768 00:44:03,520 --> 00:44:06,960 the bigger picture here? This a little micro second. 769 00:44:07,160 --> 00:44:10,720 Ain't nothing like why am I going to get bent out of shape 770 00:44:11,080 --> 00:44:13,080 about this one little second, you know? 771 00:44:13,080 --> 00:44:15,240 Or is. This something that. 772 00:44:15,240 --> 00:44:18,480 Battles really going to argue about now there are some things 773 00:44:18,480 --> 00:44:21,520 that I'm really going to argue about, but a lot of things now 774 00:44:21,720 --> 00:44:24,040 and I think that's got to do with age too. 775 00:44:25,080 --> 00:44:30,320 You know, you start your frontal lobe because mine, mine didn't 776 00:44:30,320 --> 00:44:35,840 develop at 25 that alcohols and that drug and that party and 777 00:44:35,880 --> 00:44:39,400 stuff is is suspended it, it prolonged it for a little bit. 778 00:44:39,400 --> 00:44:41,600 But now it's developed, right, Right. 779 00:44:41,600 --> 00:44:45,040 We start realizing I don't think that's really worth the battle. 780 00:44:46,000 --> 00:44:48,480 No, I know you got to do with that, with kids and stuff. 781 00:44:48,480 --> 00:44:51,400 Girl, girl. At this point I just put Sutton. 782 00:44:51,400 --> 00:44:53,280 Wear to church. I'll let's just walk around like 783 00:44:53,280 --> 00:44:53,960 this. That. 784 00:44:55,400 --> 00:44:57,640 I can't had a little Princess dress on. 785 00:44:58,120 --> 00:45:00,800 I saw it in pictures Mary Beth sent me at church. 786 00:45:02,200 --> 00:45:04,920 So no more like a fairy tale dress or something. 787 00:45:04,960 --> 00:45:07,480 One of her costumes to to church. 788 00:45:08,120 --> 00:45:09,760 Oh, to church. Girl, I thought. 789 00:45:09,840 --> 00:45:11,680 It was a while ago. Well. 790 00:45:13,200 --> 00:45:16,760 You just said you know what? Yes, 100%. 791 00:45:16,760 --> 00:45:21,320 That morning, yes, she was bent on wearing her. 792 00:45:21,880 --> 00:45:25,800 It's like a sleep gown. It's her Princess sleep gown. 793 00:45:25,800 --> 00:45:28,400 It's not even like a drill Princess dress. 794 00:45:28,400 --> 00:45:33,480 I mean, it was her pajamas. Basically to church, she wanted 795 00:45:33,480 --> 00:45:36,080 to show. Her and I said OK, because it 796 00:45:36,080 --> 00:45:39,480 was about to be a knock down dry out that morning. 797 00:45:39,720 --> 00:45:42,480 And I was like, of course you can wear that. 798 00:45:42,480 --> 00:45:45,360 You know what it actually is letting you be very creative. 799 00:45:45,400 --> 00:45:47,480 Yeah. So now I'm trying to learn to 800 00:45:47,480 --> 00:45:51,000 turn it into a positive. But isn't it so funny how like 801 00:45:51,000 --> 00:45:53,320 before you have kids, like because you know, I still ain't 802 00:45:53,320 --> 00:45:55,400 got them. So I'm like, but before you have 803 00:45:55,400 --> 00:45:57,400 kids, you're like, we're going to look so cute. 804 00:45:57,560 --> 00:46:00,880 We're going to have them bozo. We're going to be doing this and 805 00:46:00,880 --> 00:46:03,400 then they don't go to chip pajamas. 806 00:46:03,800 --> 00:46:08,720 So we went to church this past Easter and you know I had the 807 00:46:08,720 --> 00:46:13,600 cutest little outfit for my 3 month old Lily and I had 808 00:46:13,600 --> 00:46:18,080 something in her dress that she had picked out and I was like Oh 809 00:46:18,080 --> 00:46:20,560 my goodness they are going to look so beautiful. 810 00:46:20,560 --> 00:46:26,120 And Mama was done up, too. And I was, I had my dress on and 811 00:46:26,320 --> 00:46:32,600 middle of the service Lily, in all her just comfortable glory, 812 00:46:32,720 --> 00:46:36,560 decided to just blow it out in the middle of church, in the 813 00:46:36,560 --> 00:46:37,920 dead of quiet. You could hear it. 814 00:46:38,160 --> 00:46:41,880 And I was like, oh, my word, we've got to go get up. 815 00:46:41,880 --> 00:46:44,680 Like my mom's holding her. And I'm like, we got to, you 816 00:46:44,680 --> 00:46:47,520 know, get up and go change her. Oh, yeah. 817 00:46:47,520 --> 00:46:50,000 So it gets worse from there. Gets everywhere. 818 00:46:50,000 --> 00:46:52,440 All over her clothes, all over her outfit. 819 00:46:53,520 --> 00:46:55,720 Mind you, we hadn't taken a picture or nothing yet. 820 00:46:56,320 --> 00:46:58,760 She will wear that outfit for just a few more minutes. 821 00:46:59,280 --> 00:47:02,880 I thought I'm saying because it was just a little bit on the 822 00:47:02,880 --> 00:47:06,800 shorts and then Nope it she kept going after we were trying to 823 00:47:06,800 --> 00:47:08,880 change the diaper. It went everywhere, got on 824 00:47:08,880 --> 00:47:12,600 everything and I'm like why? To. 825 00:47:13,040 --> 00:47:18,640 Put myself through all of this to, you know, why, like why put 826 00:47:18,640 --> 00:47:21,960 the stress on yourself? Why even why have the battle 827 00:47:21,960 --> 00:47:25,240 when that's just you know, and you go learn to laugh it off, 828 00:47:25,600 --> 00:47:28,280 which we did. It was funny, but that because 829 00:47:28,280 --> 00:47:31,240 that's not what life's about. You know that's not what? 830 00:47:31,280 --> 00:47:32,960 You're for, you know, just social media. 831 00:47:33,120 --> 00:47:35,160 Right. That is not what life is about. 832 00:47:35,160 --> 00:47:38,840 It is not. It is there because the true 833 00:47:38,840 --> 00:47:43,400 resurrection of Christ. Nothing we do, nothing about our 834 00:47:43,400 --> 00:47:46,800 walk with Christ would have any meaning behind it if we truly 835 00:47:46,800 --> 00:47:48,920 didn't believe He got up and rose. 836 00:47:49,560 --> 00:47:53,040 But he is still living that He is alive right now. 837 00:47:53,320 --> 00:47:55,920 Nothing we're doing having a conversation right now would 838 00:47:56,200 --> 00:47:58,480 have any meaning behind it if that weren't true. 839 00:47:58,560 --> 00:48:00,920 And that's the only reason we were there at church. 840 00:48:01,200 --> 00:48:04,080 But we get so caught up in this world and everything about it 841 00:48:04,320 --> 00:48:07,080 that our focus gets off and girl. 842 00:48:07,720 --> 00:48:10,920 Y'all she just got hyped up. I'm you scared I. 843 00:48:10,920 --> 00:48:14,360 Just got hyped up the. Crazy eyes at me like there 844 00:48:14,360 --> 00:48:15,200 ain't. Nothing. 845 00:48:15,200 --> 00:48:17,080 Nothing. I mean, it is. 846 00:48:17,200 --> 00:48:20,440 I know. So yeah, you'd start realizing 847 00:48:20,520 --> 00:48:23,840 that or you get in the further you walk with Christ, what truly 848 00:48:23,840 --> 00:48:29,040 matters and and things not to get caught up on and and hold 849 00:48:29,040 --> 00:48:33,040 you hostage to realizing how short life is and that this walk 850 00:48:33,040 --> 00:48:37,560 with Christ is supposed to be so joyful and joyous and and fun 851 00:48:37,560 --> 00:48:40,040 and lighthearted. And you know, we need to take 852 00:48:40,040 --> 00:48:41,400 that into our marriage. Yeah. 853 00:48:41,960 --> 00:48:43,800 That's good. We're going to there. 854 00:48:44,920 --> 00:48:46,960 Sorry guys. I hope you have enjoyed this as 855 00:48:46,960 --> 00:48:49,480 much as I have. If you take anything from this, 856 00:48:49,480 --> 00:48:54,840 don't do anything that I did prior, you know, live by the 857 00:48:54,840 --> 00:48:59,000 Spirit, let the Spirit lead and guide you and depend on Christ 858 00:48:59,000 --> 00:49:00,640 that that would be my bottom line. 859 00:49:01,240 --> 00:49:05,000 He's capable of restoring things, really, or really 860 00:49:05,000 --> 00:49:07,440 anything. Anything in marriage, any broken 861 00:49:07,440 --> 00:49:12,360 relationship, any broken single woman out there he can restore. 862 00:49:12,760 --> 00:49:15,800 And can you give you back tenfold what you feel you've 863 00:49:15,800 --> 00:49:18,760 lost? Yes, and it's not on our time, 864 00:49:19,160 --> 00:49:21,800 it's on his. He's got a great, great plan. 865 00:49:22,320 --> 00:49:24,840 All right guys, I hope you have enjoyed this as much as we have. 866 00:49:24,840 --> 00:49:26,720 We will see you next week. Stay tuned. 867 00:49:26,720 --> 00:49:28,400 Stay blessed and we'll see you guys. 868 00:49:28,560 --> 00:49:31,120 What next week? Bye bye.