1 00:00:11,020 --> 00:00:14,140 My name's Alexis, your host with praises in the pod and I am 2 00:00:14,220 --> 00:00:16,500 stoked. I have been at Passion camp. 3 00:00:16,900 --> 00:00:21,060 I just got back today. So if you notice a different in 4 00:00:21,060 --> 00:00:24,740 my voice, that is a literally why I have been worshipping and 5 00:00:24,740 --> 00:00:27,180 singing and yelling and screaming and hollering and 6 00:00:27,180 --> 00:00:29,340 hooping and just all of the above. 7 00:00:30,340 --> 00:00:33,140 It was an amazing week and we're just going to kind of dive into 8 00:00:33,140 --> 00:00:36,000 that that, but first we're going to start off in prayer and then 9 00:00:36,000 --> 00:00:37,600 we're going to jump right in. So here we go. 10 00:00:38,720 --> 00:00:43,400 Sovereign God, you are so good. You are so faithful. 11 00:00:43,400 --> 00:00:48,360 Your plan is far better than what I could ever dream of, Lord 12 00:00:48,360 --> 00:00:49,880 God. And I just thank you that you 13 00:00:49,880 --> 00:00:53,880 continue to remind me of that each and every time that I get 14 00:00:53,880 --> 00:00:57,640 intimate with you and talk to you and just sit in your 15 00:00:57,640 --> 00:01:00,560 presence. Lord God, you just remind me of 16 00:01:00,560 --> 00:01:04,920 how amazing you are. Amazing doesn't even explain or 17 00:01:04,920 --> 00:01:08,600 describe you at all because you are just so holy. 18 00:01:08,600 --> 00:01:13,720 Holy holy Lord, I just pray that I speak to you. 19 00:01:14,200 --> 00:01:16,960 I don't speak to you. Lord God, I pray that you speak 20 00:01:16,960 --> 00:01:21,800 to me, You speak through me and let this episode glorify you. 21 00:01:22,120 --> 00:01:26,400 In Jesus name I pray Amen. Hey man, like you can probably 22 00:01:26,400 --> 00:01:31,240 tell right off the RIP in that intro like I am like tired. 23 00:01:31,880 --> 00:01:36,800 I will say that this week is one of the best weeks, but it's also 24 00:01:36,800 --> 00:01:38,720 just a very long week. OK. 25 00:01:39,080 --> 00:01:45,480 And I have been just going full force all the whole time. 26 00:01:45,840 --> 00:01:50,240 But with that being said, I wanted to go ahead and record an 27 00:01:50,240 --> 00:01:52,840 episode. And while everything's fresh, 28 00:01:52,840 --> 00:01:58,240 while the fire is so hot and like I'm just just stealing so, 29 00:01:58,520 --> 00:02:01,600 so much off from the week. I wanted to go ahead and record 30 00:02:01,720 --> 00:02:04,520 right here, right now. I woke up from a nap and I said 31 00:02:04,520 --> 00:02:08,280 let me go upstairs. I literally got off the van this 32 00:02:08,639 --> 00:02:10,960 afternoon, probably like 4 hours ago. 33 00:02:11,400 --> 00:02:14,760 So anyway, I kind of want to just talk about the week. 34 00:02:15,200 --> 00:02:19,200 I'm actually going to record 2 episodes and this is the episode 35 00:02:19,200 --> 00:02:22,440 that you're going to hear 1st. And then I have one that's 36 00:02:22,440 --> 00:02:24,560 probably going to be a little bit. 37 00:02:24,560 --> 00:02:26,240 I'm going to sit on it for a little bit. 38 00:02:27,440 --> 00:02:32,000 God just spoke to me in such a mighty and big way. 39 00:02:32,360 --> 00:02:35,680 If you have listened to my testimony or you've even 40 00:02:35,680 --> 00:02:41,120 listened to Episode 2, He Has Good Plans or Louder in Christ, 41 00:02:41,120 --> 00:02:44,560 you have heard how God got my attention the very first time 42 00:02:44,920 --> 00:02:50,040 and how He spoke to me. And He did something this week 43 00:02:50,040 --> 00:02:56,680 at camp the same but bigger than what he did two years ago. 44 00:02:57,080 --> 00:03:01,440 And I have been an emotional wreck for the last like 24 hours 45 00:03:03,080 --> 00:03:06,920 with that. So I I'm going to make a whole 46 00:03:06,920 --> 00:03:12,000 nother episode about that. And when it all comes to 47 00:03:12,000 --> 00:03:15,840 fruition, because I know that it will, I know his promise for me. 48 00:03:16,240 --> 00:03:19,400 Y'all are going to hear about it, Y'all, y'all are going to 49 00:03:19,400 --> 00:03:21,600 hear about it. Don't think I'm going to hold 50 00:03:21,600 --> 00:03:24,160 out, OK? I just kind of want to go over 51 00:03:24,160 --> 00:03:26,160 some of the takeaways that I had from this week. 52 00:03:26,720 --> 00:03:31,840 Now, don't forget that this is a student camp. 53 00:03:31,920 --> 00:03:34,320 It's really middle school and high school students. 54 00:03:34,760 --> 00:03:38,800 But for our church, we just take our high school students and 55 00:03:38,800 --> 00:03:45,080 this environment, you can't even describe it like God's presence 56 00:03:45,360 --> 00:03:50,720 and just everything is so intentional about passion camp 57 00:03:51,000 --> 00:03:56,440 and the messages. Y'all know if y'all heard my, my 58 00:03:56,440 --> 00:03:59,760 testimony. I went to ignition camp, which 59 00:03:59,760 --> 00:04:02,880 is our middle school camp two years ago for the first time. 60 00:04:02,880 --> 00:04:07,080 And that's what lit my fire. And so now to be able to still 61 00:04:07,080 --> 00:04:10,880 continue to go back to these camps, ignition and passion camp 62 00:04:10,880 --> 00:04:14,640 and all of this, like it sits with me so much differently 63 00:04:14,880 --> 00:04:19,000 because I know the impact that these camps can have to students 64 00:04:19,360 --> 00:04:23,160 and also adults. So while so many times we're 65 00:04:23,160 --> 00:04:27,000 praying for our students to be moved, I honestly am praying for 66 00:04:27,000 --> 00:04:30,840 life change for our leaders too. Because I went to ignition camp 67 00:04:30,840 --> 00:04:33,560 and I ain't been right since. I mean, I've been better than 68 00:04:33,560 --> 00:04:37,080 right, right? But like, I came back truly a 69 00:04:37,080 --> 00:04:39,040 different person than what I left. 70 00:04:39,280 --> 00:04:40,880 And that's what we should always be doing. 71 00:04:40,880 --> 00:04:44,560 Every message we hear, every camp we attend or every time we 72 00:04:44,560 --> 00:04:49,120 get together for a women's conference, Like truly sitting 73 00:04:49,200 --> 00:04:54,160 in what that speaker has for you, listening to God, God's 74 00:04:54,160 --> 00:04:58,240 voice through them and leaving better than what we came. 75 00:04:58,640 --> 00:05:03,480 Let me tell you this week, I truly do pray that you know, my 76 00:05:03,480 --> 00:05:06,000 fire stays lit. That's one of my biggest things 77 00:05:06,000 --> 00:05:10,200 is like for these students, the camp highs are like so crazy, 78 00:05:10,600 --> 00:05:15,480 like the way that these students worship, the way that they lift 79 00:05:15,480 --> 00:05:20,160 their hands high during, you know, song and, and just get 80 00:05:20,160 --> 00:05:24,240 together for prayer and just you can see that they are trying to 81 00:05:24,240 --> 00:05:28,200 be intentional about their time. I just pray that that flows into 82 00:05:28,680 --> 00:05:31,360 back the school year, going back into the school year, being 83 00:05:31,360 --> 00:05:34,080 around their friends, that they, you know, had all those 84 00:05:34,080 --> 00:05:36,280 distractions put to the side for a week. 85 00:05:36,760 --> 00:05:39,120 And it's just such a beautiful thing. 86 00:05:39,200 --> 00:05:43,080 But I just truly pray that life change really did happen where 87 00:05:43,200 --> 00:05:45,880 when they go back into these environments, they are 88 00:05:45,880 --> 00:05:47,920 different. They, they feel more different. 89 00:05:47,920 --> 00:05:50,080 They feel convicted about the things that they were doing 90 00:05:50,080 --> 00:05:52,520 previously and so forth. And I just pray that for our 91 00:05:52,520 --> 00:05:57,920 leaders as well. And I'm telling you, like every 92 00:05:57,920 --> 00:06:03,880 single message just spoke to me. And let me tell you, when I used 93 00:06:03,880 --> 00:06:06,480 to write notes, notes are different. 94 00:06:06,480 --> 00:06:11,280 Now for me, notes are different. Notes are different. 95 00:06:11,680 --> 00:06:16,920 So used to when I went to conferences or, you know, 96 00:06:16,920 --> 00:06:21,320 sermon, heard sermons, I wrote word for word what they said. 97 00:06:22,000 --> 00:06:25,560 I would look at the screen and I would write what they're writing 98 00:06:25,560 --> 00:06:29,680 on the screen or the, the PowerPoint or whatever. 99 00:06:30,200 --> 00:06:38,520 And now sitting and writing, I'm, I'm doing my, what my 100 00:06:38,520 --> 00:06:40,240 spirit's telling me in those moments. 101 00:06:40,240 --> 00:06:43,520 Like sometimes I'm writing something completely different 102 00:06:43,520 --> 00:06:47,560 than what they're saying because I had a whole like a scale fall 103 00:06:47,560 --> 00:06:51,720 off my eyes in that moment. Like, and so like I'm trying to 104 00:06:51,720 --> 00:06:55,240 reveal what God has revealed to me in those moments. 105 00:06:55,280 --> 00:07:01,080 And I just anyway, so some of the stuff that I say that I 106 00:07:01,080 --> 00:07:04,640 really took away from these are just key points that I feel like 107 00:07:05,480 --> 00:07:08,000 maybe you can take something away too. 108 00:07:08,760 --> 00:07:11,120 So yeah, let's jump into this night. 109 00:07:11,120 --> 00:07:16,280 One came in hot, came in heavy. So Brad, he is one of the 110 00:07:16,280 --> 00:07:20,240 pastors at Passion City and he started off the night with being 111 00:07:20,720 --> 00:07:24,000 you should be eager and hungry for what God has for you, not 112 00:07:24,000 --> 00:07:26,320 just eager. Like what do you do when you're 113 00:07:26,320 --> 00:07:29,120 hungry? You you go after it. 114 00:07:29,360 --> 00:07:32,480 You truly are going after something that you want to eat 115 00:07:32,480 --> 00:07:34,520 or whatever. So just think about your 116 00:07:34,520 --> 00:07:36,720 relationship with Christ that same way. 117 00:07:37,000 --> 00:07:42,080 Continue to be eager and excited for us to come, but also hungry 118 00:07:42,320 --> 00:07:45,880 for that and just do everything in your power to get there. 119 00:07:46,680 --> 00:07:49,520 As I'm saying that, I'm thinking about another message where 120 00:07:49,520 --> 00:07:53,280 they're talking about when you love something, when you love 121 00:07:53,280 --> 00:07:57,400 someone, you're gonna, you're not going to let things get in 122 00:07:57,400 --> 00:07:59,800 the way of that. You're going to push everything 123 00:07:59,800 --> 00:08:04,600 to the side to run after that person you love to run after the 124 00:08:04,600 --> 00:08:09,800 things that just drive you. So with that being said, keep 125 00:08:09,800 --> 00:08:14,320 that same mindset about God when you're tired, when you're when 126 00:08:14,320 --> 00:08:17,360 you don't feel like getting up early to talk, talk to him and 127 00:08:17,360 --> 00:08:21,480 getting the word and to go to church and to just spend more 128 00:08:21,480 --> 00:08:23,880 intimate time with him, to worship, to listen to these 129 00:08:23,880 --> 00:08:26,680 songs and to sing out praise to him. 130 00:08:28,120 --> 00:08:31,720 Give it all you got. You give it all you got for the 131 00:08:31,720 --> 00:08:34,039 things of the world. Why aren't we giving it all we 132 00:08:34,039 --> 00:08:38,200 got for the things that God wants for us for for the 133 00:08:38,200 --> 00:08:42,480 relationship with Jesus? There's there is many times 134 00:08:42,480 --> 00:08:46,920 where I'm tired and I've let the day get ahead of me and, and now 135 00:08:46,920 --> 00:08:51,000 I'm like, oh man, like Tiktok sounds so good. 136 00:08:51,400 --> 00:08:54,520 But I know that I got to run after the father and I got to 137 00:08:54,520 --> 00:09:00,000 run out after what he's saying for me and I've got to make time 138 00:09:00,040 --> 00:09:03,600 for him. Oh, I love that. 139 00:09:03,600 --> 00:09:07,640 Pushing it out of the way. And what drives you there is 140 00:09:08,240 --> 00:09:11,920 there's a good chance that things in the world drive you 141 00:09:11,920 --> 00:09:14,640 right now. Maybe that's money. 142 00:09:14,640 --> 00:09:18,320 Maybe that's people. Maybe that's your situation, 143 00:09:18,320 --> 00:09:21,760 your position, your job, that your ministry. 144 00:09:22,080 --> 00:09:27,840 Trust me, Trust me. Like, I know that ministry can't 145 00:09:27,840 --> 00:09:30,760 get in the way of my relationship with Christ. 146 00:09:30,760 --> 00:09:33,720 I can go and tell everybody about what God's doing and what 147 00:09:33,720 --> 00:09:36,440 he's done for me and everything else, but if I'm not spending 148 00:09:36,440 --> 00:09:39,640 time with him and I'm not trying to seek Him, you know, 149 00:09:39,640 --> 00:09:42,720 ministry's get in the way of that intimate relationship with 150 00:09:42,720 --> 00:09:46,720 Jesus Christ. I had a girl this week, y'all, 151 00:09:47,680 --> 00:09:50,800 When I tell you it's an answered prayer, it's a truly an answered 152 00:09:50,800 --> 00:09:56,840 prayer. I, there's a girl that I sat 153 00:09:56,840 --> 00:10:00,880 with last year and we had some discussions and talked about 154 00:10:00,880 --> 00:10:04,600 some struggles and the temptations and the ifs and the 155 00:10:04,600 --> 00:10:07,160 ands and the buts and all of the above. 156 00:10:07,160 --> 00:10:08,600 And I just didn't really have the answer. 157 00:10:08,600 --> 00:10:11,240 But I've been trying to like walk it out with her as much as 158 00:10:11,240 --> 00:10:15,440 I can. And she gave her life to Christ 159 00:10:15,440 --> 00:10:17,000 this week. Hallelujah. 160 00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:24,120 Praise God, Praise God. I could not believe in this 161 00:10:24,120 --> 00:10:27,760 message. In this message, at the very 162 00:10:27,760 --> 00:10:31,400 end, it was Louis Giglio. And he's like, if you're 163 00:10:31,400 --> 00:10:33,920 struggling and you need prayer and all this stuff, stand up. 164 00:10:34,200 --> 00:10:39,880 And when I looked up, she was standing up and I know her 165 00:10:39,880 --> 00:10:41,880 situation and I know what she's going through. 166 00:10:41,880 --> 00:10:44,120 And my heart hurt. And so I just kept sitting there 167 00:10:44,120 --> 00:10:48,840 and I just kept sitting there and I just had to go pray with 168 00:10:48,840 --> 00:10:50,000 her. Like I had to go touch her. 169 00:10:50,000 --> 00:10:52,480 I had to put my hands on her, you know, and just really be 170 00:10:52,480 --> 00:10:55,680 there for for her in that moment and pray over her life. 171 00:10:56,280 --> 00:11:00,800 And so we end that moment and I go and sit back down. 172 00:11:00,800 --> 00:11:04,800 And then Louis gives an altar call of salvation and opens up 173 00:11:04,800 --> 00:11:07,720 the floor for that and says, you know, if you want to put your 174 00:11:07,720 --> 00:11:10,560 faith in Jesus and you want to be a follower of Christ, you 175 00:11:10,560 --> 00:11:13,040 know, stand up. And she stood up again, y'all. 176 00:11:13,040 --> 00:11:15,240 And when she did like I literally almost lost it. 177 00:11:15,240 --> 00:11:17,560 I sat in my chair and I continue to pray over her. 178 00:11:17,760 --> 00:11:22,120 But then when our another leader that she doesn't know pretty 179 00:11:22,120 --> 00:11:24,880 much at all besides this trip they made for the first time at 180 00:11:24,880 --> 00:11:28,040 this trip went and prayed with her in that moment. 181 00:11:28,680 --> 00:11:32,560 And so I'm talking to our student after the fact, just 182 00:11:32,560 --> 00:11:37,040 trying to like debrief the emotions of the night, making 183 00:11:37,040 --> 00:11:40,320 sure, you know, like she understands the full capacity, 184 00:11:40,320 --> 00:11:43,520 which I know she did. I truly, I know she did, but I 185 00:11:43,520 --> 00:11:45,880 just wanted to kind of talk through that a little bit more. 186 00:11:46,640 --> 00:11:51,400 And she's just crying to me. And she's like, Alexis, I 187 00:11:51,400 --> 00:11:54,760 literally kept praying that if it was from God in that moment 188 00:11:54,760 --> 00:11:58,440 that you were going to come up and pray with me and you just 189 00:11:58,440 --> 00:12:00,000 going to like, you know, hug me and stuff. 190 00:12:00,000 --> 00:12:04,040 And like when she said that, I knew that she was really telling 191 00:12:04,040 --> 00:12:09,640 God that because when she looked over and she saw that it was me, 192 00:12:09,720 --> 00:12:13,280 she started crying so hard in in my shoulder. 193 00:12:13,280 --> 00:12:19,840 Like just truly she lost it because she knew that I was sent 194 00:12:20,760 --> 00:12:23,440 from God. I was being obedient. 195 00:12:23,440 --> 00:12:28,120 I like it was, it was one of my girls, you know, like I wanted 196 00:12:28,120 --> 00:12:31,720 to go pray with her. But sometimes, you know, we see 197 00:12:31,720 --> 00:12:33,560 those students and we don't go do anything. 198 00:12:33,560 --> 00:12:36,160 We're just praying in our seat. But in that moment, I was like, 199 00:12:36,160 --> 00:12:40,000 I got to go be with her. And she was begging God for me 200 00:12:40,200 --> 00:12:42,120 to come be with her in that moment. 201 00:12:42,400 --> 00:12:46,560 She also said in the moment that when she was talking to God, she 202 00:12:46,560 --> 00:12:50,320 was like, please send Alexis or please send a stranger. 203 00:12:50,560 --> 00:12:54,880 The stranger's a little crazy, but you know, she's like, hey, I 204 00:12:54,880 --> 00:12:57,040 want, I want it big, like send a stranger. 205 00:12:57,320 --> 00:13:00,440 And so like I said, the second leader that went and prayed with 206 00:13:00,440 --> 00:13:05,760 her during the salvation prayer, she was a stranger. 207 00:13:05,760 --> 00:13:08,280 They had just met. I don't even think they've ever 208 00:13:08,280 --> 00:13:11,400 talked because when I talked to the student afterwards, she's 209 00:13:11,400 --> 00:13:13,800 like, and then that Lady, so she didn't even know her name or 210 00:13:13,800 --> 00:13:19,640 anything. Being obedient doesn't just look 211 00:13:19,640 --> 00:13:26,160 like obedience of your own life. Sometimes you got to be obedient 212 00:13:26,160 --> 00:13:30,000 for other people's lives. Like I felt the call to go talk 213 00:13:30,000 --> 00:13:31,720 to her or, you know, pray with her. 214 00:13:31,720 --> 00:13:35,920 But if I wouldn't have went, I would have, I would have been 215 00:13:35,920 --> 00:13:41,040 the maybe the stumbling block maybe for her, like she would 216 00:13:41,040 --> 00:13:43,520 have maybe thought like, you know, God didn't see her or 217 00:13:43,520 --> 00:13:45,720 whatever, but God showed himself in a big way. 218 00:13:46,840 --> 00:13:50,520 Oh, man. Another thing that we kind of 219 00:13:50,520 --> 00:13:58,160 talked about this week was humility, and that is something 220 00:13:58,160 --> 00:14:02,520 that I've always struggled with. That is just something that my 221 00:14:02,520 --> 00:14:07,320 pride, I, I used to and I still struggle with it to this day. 222 00:14:07,320 --> 00:14:09,240 I, I've always been a prideful person. 223 00:14:09,240 --> 00:14:10,800 I always thought that I knew best. 224 00:14:10,800 --> 00:14:15,240 I, I can get anything done. I have that personality where if 225 00:14:15,560 --> 00:14:19,080 you give me a task, I'm going to complete it and I'm going to do 226 00:14:19,080 --> 00:14:24,960 better than anybody else. So that has always been one of 227 00:14:24,960 --> 00:14:28,040 my biggest struggles. Maybe not the drugs and the 228 00:14:28,040 --> 00:14:31,720 alcohol and the vaping and the cussing and hooping and 229 00:14:31,720 --> 00:14:35,760 hollering, but it was pride. And I still struggle with that 230 00:14:35,760 --> 00:14:38,920 to this day. I truly have to continue to 231 00:14:38,920 --> 00:14:43,320 remind myself less of me, more of you, less of me, more of you. 232 00:14:43,320 --> 00:14:46,080 It's almost a chant because sometimes I get a little ahead 233 00:14:46,080 --> 00:14:51,680 of myself and I'm like, man, he's using me, babe, this ain't 234 00:14:51,680 --> 00:14:52,640 me. This him. 235 00:14:53,640 --> 00:14:58,440 So the title of one of the sermons was humility looks good 236 00:14:58,440 --> 00:15:01,040 on you. And think about somebody in your 237 00:15:01,040 --> 00:15:02,680 life. We all know somebody that's 238 00:15:02,680 --> 00:15:06,880 humble. We we've like, it's such a joke 239 00:15:07,000 --> 00:15:08,480 to me and some of my girlfriends. 240 00:15:08,480 --> 00:15:11,040 We always just say, man, he's such a humble, humble king. 241 00:15:11,240 --> 00:15:14,920 He said she's such a humble queen, You know, like, and so 242 00:15:14,920 --> 00:15:21,120 like, I think about those people and they truly glow differently. 243 00:15:21,120 --> 00:15:24,320 They have that Jesus glow because they're so humble. 244 00:15:24,320 --> 00:15:27,560 They put others first. They don't care if what they 245 00:15:27,560 --> 00:15:32,160 look like doing things. They're just doing it for others 246 00:15:33,120 --> 00:15:36,720 and everything that looks good on them. 247 00:15:36,720 --> 00:15:38,280 We should be trying to reflect that. 248 00:15:38,280 --> 00:15:42,680 We should be keep trying to look more humble. 249 00:15:42,680 --> 00:15:46,240 We should be trying to be more mindful of others and be 250 00:15:46,240 --> 00:15:50,400 generous and continue to learn. That was one of the things, you 251 00:15:50,400 --> 00:15:52,840 know, he said like never think you know it all. 252 00:15:53,240 --> 00:15:57,000 There's always more that you can learn about every single 253 00:15:57,000 --> 00:15:59,600 subject. I always used to joke around and 254 00:15:59,600 --> 00:16:02,640 say like I'm a Jack of all trades, but you know, like 255 00:16:02,640 --> 00:16:06,040 master of none. And like, even sitting here 256 00:16:06,040 --> 00:16:11,200 right now, I'm like, that's just, there's still a lot for me 257 00:16:11,200 --> 00:16:12,240 to learn. Yeah. 258 00:16:12,240 --> 00:16:15,640 I can try to teach myself things, but like, I never need 259 00:16:15,640 --> 00:16:18,440 to act like I know it. Know exactly. 260 00:16:18,560 --> 00:16:20,080 There's so many times when someone's trying to show me 261 00:16:20,080 --> 00:16:22,880 something, I'm like, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, you know, I yeah, I 262 00:16:22,880 --> 00:16:28,200 already know that. But in that sense, we really 263 00:16:28,200 --> 00:16:33,080 need to let them just explain because what if I just cut them 264 00:16:33,080 --> 00:16:35,880 off and they were going to teach me something that I truly didn't 265 00:16:35,880 --> 00:16:38,080 know. But now, like I stopped them 266 00:16:38,080 --> 00:16:41,120 from telling me because I said that I already know and I will 267 00:16:41,120 --> 00:16:43,960 do that. So now I try to yield, man, my 268 00:16:43,960 --> 00:16:46,760 mom always says this. Yield to the Holy Spirit, yield 269 00:16:46,760 --> 00:16:49,440 to life in general. Stop trying to rush through 270 00:16:49,440 --> 00:16:51,120 life. I'm speaking to me. 271 00:16:51,120 --> 00:16:54,160 I'm speaking, I'm I'm speaking to me in this. 272 00:16:54,160 --> 00:16:57,640 I'm trying to always rush life. I'm always trying to get ahead 273 00:16:57,640 --> 00:17:01,520 of what God has and try to figure out his timeline. 274 00:17:02,400 --> 00:17:09,640 And that's not always that's not one, you know, easy two, half 275 00:17:09,640 --> 00:17:12,200 the time I get it wrong anyway when I think I got it figured 276 00:17:12,200 --> 00:17:16,839 out. So one thing that he just kept, 277 00:17:17,319 --> 00:17:21,160 you know, hitting what humility looks like, He gave I think 5 or 278 00:17:21,160 --> 00:17:24,839 6 points and he said the mind, you know, constantly learning 279 00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:29,360 the eyes being intentional about your purpose and your focus. 280 00:17:29,360 --> 00:17:31,720 Like what are you looking towards? 281 00:17:31,720 --> 00:17:35,160 What are you gazing your eyes upon? 282 00:17:35,360 --> 00:17:37,520 Is it Jesus or is it the things of the world? 283 00:17:38,920 --> 00:17:43,600 Your mouth be thoughtful about your speech, your heart love 284 00:17:43,800 --> 00:17:46,760 genuinely. I'm still having to learn this. 285 00:17:47,280 --> 00:17:54,440 I'm still trying to figure out how to genuinely love because I 286 00:17:54,960 --> 00:18:05,000 because I told somebody recently that I have kind of figured out 287 00:18:05,240 --> 00:18:10,760 that or that I the wool's coming off of my eyes. 288 00:18:10,760 --> 00:18:13,360 I'm starting to really try to reflect on myself and how to 289 00:18:13,360 --> 00:18:17,680 grow and how to be better. And as I look back on the last 290 00:18:18,760 --> 00:18:22,720 30 years, I've learned that I've manipulated a lot of situations. 291 00:18:22,720 --> 00:18:26,200 I've manipulated a lot of people to get the outcome that I want. 292 00:18:26,200 --> 00:18:30,600 I showed love in ways to manipulate them. 293 00:18:31,320 --> 00:18:34,720 And oh, this is like really hard to talk about, to be honest, 294 00:18:34,720 --> 00:18:39,000 because manipulation is such a it's a nasty. 295 00:18:39,120 --> 00:18:42,120 Manipulation is so nasty and it's a nasty term. 296 00:18:42,120 --> 00:18:45,200 It's a nasty word. When you think about 297 00:18:45,200 --> 00:18:48,600 manipulators, you always are just like EW. 298 00:18:49,040 --> 00:18:53,440 And looking at my life, I have noticed that I was a true 299 00:18:53,440 --> 00:18:56,680 manipulator. I would say things I would do, 300 00:18:56,680 --> 00:19:02,000 things I would, I would put situations, I would orchestrate 301 00:19:02,000 --> 00:19:09,400 situations to happen so that my way was better or something 302 00:19:09,400 --> 00:19:15,960 would go in favor of me. For instance, this is something 303 00:19:15,960 --> 00:19:19,280 that has ate me alive and I'm probably going to reach out to 304 00:19:19,280 --> 00:19:22,640 this person after I finished recording this because I don't 305 00:19:22,640 --> 00:19:25,840 know if I've ever truly apologized for this, even though 306 00:19:25,840 --> 00:19:30,960 it happened 12 years ago. Maybe 13 years ago, I was AI 307 00:19:31,640 --> 00:19:36,720 want to say a junior or senior senior in high school and one of 308 00:19:36,720 --> 00:19:40,720 my friends. This is not something that 309 00:19:40,720 --> 00:19:44,760 friends do by chance by by any means, but here we are. 310 00:19:45,360 --> 00:19:48,320 One of my friends. I knew that she wanted to hang 311 00:19:48,320 --> 00:19:51,800 out with me and a few of our friends that weekend and I 312 00:19:51,800 --> 00:19:54,480 manipulated the situation so that she would Dee Dee. 313 00:19:55,960 --> 00:20:00,200 I made sure to talk about what we were doing in a way that 314 00:20:00,200 --> 00:20:03,600 would like She would overhear it and then she would jump in and 315 00:20:03,600 --> 00:20:07,320 then offer. To DD and I manipulated that 316 00:20:07,320 --> 00:20:11,240 situation and that is something that has stood out to me in the 317 00:20:11,240 --> 00:20:15,320 past probably 2 years, probably a lot in the last two years 318 00:20:15,320 --> 00:20:18,120 because that's kind of what made me open my eyes to the 319 00:20:18,120 --> 00:20:20,400 manipulation that I have done in my life. 320 00:20:21,040 --> 00:20:25,320 And that's just one instance. Like I could probably name 321 00:20:25,320 --> 00:20:31,600 hundreds more, but now I'm, I'm always worried when I'm trying 322 00:20:31,600 --> 00:20:39,920 to change, change my personality, change my not 323 00:20:39,920 --> 00:20:45,960 change my personality, but I try to like lean into other 324 00:20:45,960 --> 00:20:50,000 personalities a little bit. And I tried like for a green, a 325 00:20:50,000 --> 00:20:53,440 green, a green, a green. Let's let's talk about this like 326 00:20:53,440 --> 00:20:56,960 a people person, somebody that doesn't like confrontation. 327 00:20:56,960 --> 00:21:00,440 That's just easygoing and all this when I'm talking to them, 328 00:21:00,440 --> 00:21:04,520 like sometimes, you know, I don't come across as dominant 329 00:21:04,520 --> 00:21:06,360 and controlling. Like I'm trying to be a little 330 00:21:06,360 --> 00:21:09,480 bit more. Let me give you time to process 331 00:21:09,480 --> 00:21:12,640 this. And it's hard for me to do stuff 332 00:21:12,640 --> 00:21:16,960 like that because at the same time, I feel like I'm being 333 00:21:16,960 --> 00:21:21,840 manipulative. I feel like I am being a 334 00:21:21,840 --> 00:21:24,880 chameleon in a bad way. Like I'm just trying to fit in. 335 00:21:27,160 --> 00:21:28,960 So I'm having to learn. I'm having to learn. 336 00:21:28,960 --> 00:21:31,720 It's a growing process and I don't think I'm ever going to 337 00:21:31,720 --> 00:21:34,760 fully get it. But I do want to be aware that I 338 00:21:34,760 --> 00:21:39,760 have those tendencies and I want to make sure that God is 339 00:21:39,760 --> 00:21:40,960 glorified in everything that I do. 340 00:21:40,960 --> 00:21:43,000 And manipulation is not going to glorify God. 341 00:21:43,000 --> 00:21:44,720 That's of Satan, that's of the enemy. 342 00:21:45,160 --> 00:21:47,680 That that's deception. No way. 343 00:21:47,680 --> 00:21:50,000 Yes. Oh, that makes me sick. 344 00:21:50,200 --> 00:21:53,360 That makes me sick to my stomach that it just clicked that I was 345 00:21:53,360 --> 00:21:56,920 deceiving people just like the enemy is trying to do with us. 346 00:21:58,160 --> 00:22:00,400 Man, I'm getting fired up, man, I'm getting fired up. 347 00:22:00,400 --> 00:22:03,000 I'm telling you, I'm on a I'm on a camp high that I don't want to 348 00:22:03,000 --> 00:22:07,720 come down from the next one is hands. 349 00:22:08,480 --> 00:22:13,320 Be helpful. Be give services to people like 350 00:22:13,480 --> 00:22:16,920 help them stop trying to just do it about you. 351 00:22:17,600 --> 00:22:20,200 And then the last thing that they said is the feet 352 00:22:20,400 --> 00:22:24,560 consistently going against the grain step by step. 353 00:22:24,720 --> 00:22:26,760 Stop trying to conform to the world. 354 00:22:26,960 --> 00:22:28,800 Stop trying to look like the world. 355 00:22:29,040 --> 00:22:31,160 Be different, be set apart, be holy. 356 00:22:31,160 --> 00:22:33,640 That's what he calls us to do is to be holy. 357 00:22:34,640 --> 00:22:37,680 Going with the flow and doing what everybody else around you 358 00:22:37,680 --> 00:22:40,840 is doing is not being holy. That's not being set apart. 359 00:22:41,840 --> 00:22:46,120 We underestimate. This took me out. 360 00:22:46,280 --> 00:22:50,360 This took me out. We underestimate what God can do 361 00:22:50,360 --> 00:22:58,880 in 10 years and we overestimate what God can do in a year. 10 362 00:22:58,880 --> 00:23:03,600 years from now, where are, where are me and you going to be? 363 00:23:04,160 --> 00:23:08,120 What are we going to be doing? What blessings, what miracles, 364 00:23:08,400 --> 00:23:13,040 what experiences have we had because of God? 365 00:23:14,200 --> 00:23:17,520 And then in a year, stop trying to think that we're going to 366 00:23:17,520 --> 00:23:20,240 have the whole world figured out, that we're going to have 367 00:23:20,240 --> 00:23:24,520 this Christian walk figured out. We're going to be so far in life 368 00:23:24,520 --> 00:23:27,160 like let's stop trying to overestimate that. 369 00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:31,080 Let's set realistic goals and let God blow that out of 370 00:23:31,080 --> 00:23:32,960 proportion. We don't have to blow that out 371 00:23:32,960 --> 00:23:34,880 of proportion. We can anyway. 372 00:23:34,880 --> 00:23:38,400 We can't do any of this. So it's like set realistic 373 00:23:38,400 --> 00:23:43,080 things and don't think that in one year from now, I'm I'm going 374 00:23:43,080 --> 00:23:44,720 to be like Sadie Robertson or something. 375 00:23:44,720 --> 00:23:48,600 You know what I'm saying? Like her, her and her family 376 00:23:48,600 --> 00:23:52,000 have been on TV for years. And for some reason, I get 377 00:23:52,000 --> 00:23:53,920 myself almost comparing myself to her. 378 00:23:54,200 --> 00:23:56,840 And I'm like, why? We're in two different realms. 379 00:23:56,840 --> 00:23:59,520 We're two different people. I'm not saying that God's not 380 00:23:59,520 --> 00:24:03,440 going to use this podcast. I'm just saying like I'm not. 381 00:24:03,440 --> 00:24:06,240 I'm trying to be realistic about things. 382 00:24:06,240 --> 00:24:11,680 I don't want to get my hopes up and then look back and still be 383 00:24:11,680 --> 00:24:17,720 upset that I'm not up here. God is using this in a mighty 384 00:24:17,720 --> 00:24:20,560 way regardless. Regardless. 385 00:24:20,800 --> 00:24:25,520 So I will say that this week has been a very cool week. 386 00:24:25,520 --> 00:24:29,800 Right before we left, it was Sunday and I was having to set 387 00:24:29,800 --> 00:24:31,560 up for an event that we're having a church. 388 00:24:31,560 --> 00:24:36,000 OK, so a lady walked up to me and they have like a women's 389 00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:40,760 ministry for their campus and they're going to have this event 390 00:24:40,760 --> 00:24:42,400 at one of our coffee shops in town. 391 00:24:42,960 --> 00:24:45,240 And they asked me to come be the speaker. 392 00:24:45,440 --> 00:24:49,240 And I'm like, absolutely. So I go ahead and do that. 393 00:24:49,240 --> 00:24:52,800 Well, then Monday, the very next day rolls around and I get a 394 00:24:52,800 --> 00:24:56,480 text from this girl that I know and she's like, hey, we're 395 00:24:56,480 --> 00:24:59,280 having a women's conference at my church and I would love for 396 00:24:59,280 --> 00:25:02,480 you to be one of the speakers. And I'm like, she's like, if you 397 00:25:02,480 --> 00:25:04,440 need to pray about it, like let me know. 398 00:25:05,160 --> 00:25:07,840 I'm getting the details together, the dates and all this 399 00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:10,200 stuff, but I just wanted to talk to you first and see if you 400 00:25:10,200 --> 00:25:13,320 would be open to it. And instantly I responded and 401 00:25:13,320 --> 00:25:16,200 I'm like, absolutely. I don't need to pray about 402 00:25:16,200 --> 00:25:20,160 saying yes. I need to pray and prepare my 403 00:25:20,160 --> 00:25:23,520 heart and posture, my heart correctly for the event. 404 00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:31,200 I don't need to pray and say, God, do you want me to go speak 405 00:25:31,200 --> 00:25:37,120 at this event or not? Like he sent her to give me this 406 00:25:37,120 --> 00:25:42,920 opportunity and to use my testimony or my message or just 407 00:25:42,920 --> 00:25:44,760 use me as a vessel to speak to others. 408 00:25:44,960 --> 00:25:46,520 I shouldn't have to think about it. 409 00:25:46,520 --> 00:25:50,160 God sent me to or sent her to ask me to do that. 410 00:25:50,520 --> 00:25:52,760 So I was just like, absolutely, girl. 411 00:25:52,760 --> 00:25:55,800 So I've already started to get in prayer about that and I'm 412 00:25:55,800 --> 00:25:59,040 really excited. I've only done one message. 413 00:25:59,480 --> 00:26:04,000 OK, here's the thing. So back, so back-to-back, I get 414 00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:05,680 asked to do these two women's events. 415 00:26:05,760 --> 00:26:09,920 And I want opportunities like this. 416 00:26:09,920 --> 00:26:14,880 I want to be able to speak and figure out, you know, how to 417 00:26:14,880 --> 00:26:21,760 lead other women in public and live because listen, this is 418 00:26:21,760 --> 00:26:23,720 recorded. This is recorded. 419 00:26:23,720 --> 00:26:26,400 Sometimes I say the wrong things and I caught it. 420 00:26:26,600 --> 00:26:31,640 Caught it on these episodes when I'm by myself, I do edit these 421 00:26:31,640 --> 00:26:35,040 myself and the other ones I send to our editor. 422 00:26:35,320 --> 00:26:39,000 And so most of the time I'm having one-on-one conversation 423 00:26:39,000 --> 00:26:43,520 with myself in the studio and I realized I said something wrong 424 00:26:43,520 --> 00:26:45,840 and I kind of go back or vice versa. 425 00:26:45,840 --> 00:26:48,440 Maybe you hear something that's a little like she said that 426 00:26:48,440 --> 00:26:50,800 wrong. Maybe I didn't catch it, you 427 00:26:50,800 --> 00:26:53,360 know, or sometimes I'm like, you know what, they'll know what I'm 428 00:26:53,360 --> 00:26:55,240 talking about. So I just leave it in there. 429 00:26:55,840 --> 00:27:00,320 But it's going to be quite an experience to actually prepare 430 00:27:00,320 --> 00:27:05,440 messages and to seek God and see what he has for these women. 431 00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:09,400 So I'm really excited about it. But back-to-back. 432 00:27:09,400 --> 00:27:14,400 And so that's just what I'm saying is like one year ago, I 433 00:27:14,400 --> 00:27:18,400 wouldn't even I thought this like when PITP this episode's 434 00:27:18,400 --> 00:27:21,360 going to come out. I think before our one year, 435 00:27:21,360 --> 00:27:26,280 actually our one year is August 27th of 2025. 436 00:27:26,720 --> 00:27:32,880 That is our 2024 was crazy. I never once thought that I 437 00:27:32,880 --> 00:27:36,280 would keep this podcast going for one year. 438 00:27:36,760 --> 00:27:43,520 I've almost done 52 episodes. What's so it's just incredible 439 00:27:43,520 --> 00:27:49,240 to see what God has done. This is bypassed my goals, my 440 00:27:49,240 --> 00:27:52,720 plans, what I thought God was going to use this podcast for 441 00:27:52,720 --> 00:27:53,920 how I was going to impact people. 442 00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:56,160 I thought this was going to be a small town podcast. 443 00:27:56,640 --> 00:27:59,120 I thought people that I knew we're just going to tune into 444 00:27:59,120 --> 00:28:02,240 this. Do y'all know that like there's 445 00:28:02,280 --> 00:28:08,280 thousands of women and men, but we've I figured out this is 100% 446 00:28:08,680 --> 00:28:12,360 not 100%. This is a very strong dominated 447 00:28:12,360 --> 00:28:15,240 girl podcast and I'm fine with that. 448 00:28:15,240 --> 00:28:17,520 I knew that from pretty much the get go. 449 00:28:17,520 --> 00:28:20,200 And then at one time I was like, well, let's open it up. 450 00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:25,080 Like, let's not restrain anything, y'all this, this for 451 00:28:25,080 --> 00:28:27,120 the girls. Like this is truly for the 452 00:28:27,120 --> 00:28:28,560 girls. I'm here for it. 453 00:28:29,480 --> 00:28:33,240 I mean, there's a flower in the name praises in the pod. 454 00:28:33,480 --> 00:28:35,840 What do you mean? I thought that it this was going 455 00:28:35,840 --> 00:28:40,240 to be a guy podcast too. So it's just funny, you know, 456 00:28:40,480 --> 00:28:43,680 God has just provided in every way possible. 457 00:28:43,680 --> 00:28:48,640 He has blown my vision, my plan, everything that I thought about 458 00:28:48,640 --> 00:28:50,440 this podcast. He has blown it out of 459 00:28:50,440 --> 00:28:53,200 proportion. Not even just the podcast. 460 00:28:53,200 --> 00:29:00,760 My life in general has changed drastically, drastically. 461 00:29:01,840 --> 00:29:08,440 And I can't wait to share what God has revealed to me this week 462 00:29:08,920 --> 00:29:12,440 and just placed on my heart for the last few months. 463 00:29:12,920 --> 00:29:22,200 And y'all, I'm about to cry. Y'all, God is good. 464 00:29:22,960 --> 00:29:26,240 Surrender your life. Surrender your life. 465 00:29:26,720 --> 00:29:29,400 I shared this on Instagram earlier. 466 00:29:30,200 --> 00:29:34,960 You believe in God on this road. OK, let's say you, you're at a 467 00:29:34,960 --> 00:29:37,680 fork in a road and you, the left is you believe in God, 468 00:29:37,720 --> 00:29:39,880 absolutely. But if you take your right, you 469 00:29:39,880 --> 00:29:42,560 obey God. What which way did you go? 470 00:29:43,520 --> 00:29:49,040 Are you obeying God and what he has for you and, you know, 471 00:29:49,040 --> 00:29:51,760 living the life that He's called you to live? 472 00:29:52,080 --> 00:29:54,680 Or are you going to the left and you just believe in Him? 473 00:29:54,680 --> 00:29:56,440 But you're still living your own free will. 474 00:29:56,440 --> 00:30:00,480 You're still living in what you want and your plans and thinking 475 00:30:00,480 --> 00:30:05,920 that you're more more prepared and smarter and you have 476 00:30:06,040 --> 00:30:08,560 everything figured out. Which, which path are you on 477 00:30:08,840 --> 00:30:10,640 now? Listen there, there's times that 478 00:30:10,640 --> 00:30:13,440 you're going to be in between the paths like you're going to, 479 00:30:13,560 --> 00:30:14,760 you're going to go straight ahead. 480 00:30:15,000 --> 00:30:20,400 You're off roading it 'cause there's sometimes that I, I feel 481 00:30:20,400 --> 00:30:24,360 like I'm in God's will, like I feel like I'm, I'm doing what 482 00:30:24,360 --> 00:30:26,720 he's called me to do. But sometimes then I'll look 483 00:30:26,720 --> 00:30:28,200 back and I'm like, man, that was me. 484 00:30:28,200 --> 00:30:32,040 That was my selfishness. That was me determining what God 485 00:30:32,040 --> 00:30:35,840 was wanting for myself. I'm looking out for my 486 00:30:35,840 --> 00:30:40,080 interests, my intentions, and this wasn't even what God wanted 487 00:30:40,080 --> 00:30:45,640 for me from the get go. So reflect on that. 488 00:30:46,000 --> 00:30:49,560 Just really sit back and say, like, am I truly following 489 00:30:49,560 --> 00:30:52,960 Christ wholeheartedly? Am I running after him? 490 00:30:52,960 --> 00:30:57,520 Am I pushing everything out of the way so I can get to him? 491 00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:03,440 Like the woman? Oh, oh, oh, as I, as I just had 492 00:31:03,440 --> 00:31:07,200 this visionary, I'm thinking of the woman that pushed through 493 00:31:07,200 --> 00:31:10,640 the crowd just to touch the end of his cloak. 494 00:31:12,440 --> 00:31:15,640 Y'all, she didn't care who was around him. 495 00:31:15,760 --> 00:31:19,440 She didn't care that hundreds and thousands or whatever people 496 00:31:19,520 --> 00:31:24,000 were all around him. She pushed through and she was 497 00:31:24,000 --> 00:31:27,560 not stopping until she got to him and she was healed when she 498 00:31:27,560 --> 00:31:32,440 touched his cloak. There is more power in the hem 499 00:31:32,440 --> 00:31:34,880 of his garment than the camp of the enemy. 500 00:31:34,880 --> 00:31:37,720 If we can just reach out and touch Him, if we can keep our 501 00:31:37,720 --> 00:31:43,920 eyes on Him, if we can just surrender our life and stop 502 00:31:43,920 --> 00:31:48,720 trying to have everything put together, stop trying to act 503 00:31:48,720 --> 00:31:51,000 like you're this perfect Christian and you know what's 504 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:53,720 going on and you know what God's called you to do. 505 00:31:54,840 --> 00:31:58,440 We're strong in our weakness. When we are weak, that is when 506 00:31:58,440 --> 00:32:01,920 He can make us strong. So guys, I'm going to end on 507 00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:06,080 that because I'm ready to record what God revealed to me. 508 00:32:06,080 --> 00:32:09,640 I'm literally like I want to, I just want to talk about it some 509 00:32:09,640 --> 00:32:11,640 more. It's so big, it's so bold. 510 00:32:11,960 --> 00:32:13,440 I'm so excited for y'all to hear it. 511 00:32:13,640 --> 00:32:17,920 If you have been enjoying this podcast, can you please leave a 512 00:32:17,920 --> 00:32:19,360 rating? Give me a five star. 513 00:32:19,480 --> 00:32:21,800 You know what I'm saying? Come on, help a girl out. 514 00:32:21,800 --> 00:32:24,760 Anyway, leave reviews, leave comments, reach out to me. 515 00:32:24,760 --> 00:32:28,360 I've had emails, texts, comments, videos. 516 00:32:28,360 --> 00:32:32,000 I had a girl literally recap one of my episodes the other day. 517 00:32:32,320 --> 00:32:34,880 That was crazy. I love it. 518 00:32:35,160 --> 00:32:38,120 God is good. He has blessed me beyond 519 00:32:38,120 --> 00:32:43,400 measures, Mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, more 520 00:32:43,400 --> 00:32:45,760 than I ever deserved. So yeah. 521 00:32:45,920 --> 00:32:48,360 Anyway, stay tuned, stay blessed, and we'll see you guys 522 00:32:48,360 --> 00:32:49,240 later. Bye.