1 00:00:00,080 --> 00:00:02,360 What's up guys? My name's Alexis, your host of 2 00:00:02,360 --> 00:00:06,840 Praises and the Pod and I'm so excited to be here with Ariellis 3 00:00:06,920 --> 00:00:09,560 Hauling Shed. We are going to be talking about 4 00:00:09,560 --> 00:00:13,440 so much her, her life in general and something that she just 5 00:00:13,440 --> 00:00:16,840 started walking through really within the last like 2 weeks to 6 00:00:16,880 --> 00:00:19,680 2-3 weeks. So we're going to start off in 7 00:00:19,680 --> 00:00:21,440 prayer and then we're going to jump right in. 8 00:00:21,600 --> 00:00:24,680 So here we go, Lord Heavenly Father, just thank you for this 9 00:00:24,680 --> 00:00:26,440 morning. Thank you for this day. 10 00:00:26,440 --> 00:00:31,320 Lord God, we just pray that you just go before us, that you open 11 00:00:31,320 --> 00:00:34,080 all the doors that need to be open and shut all the ones that 12 00:00:34,080 --> 00:00:36,760 need to be shut. Lord God, we just lift up 13 00:00:36,760 --> 00:00:39,800 Ariella's family to you. Lord God, we just pray for 14 00:00:39,800 --> 00:00:42,800 complete healing. We pray for peace, and we just 15 00:00:42,800 --> 00:00:45,680 pray that you just do a miracle in their lives. 16 00:00:45,680 --> 00:00:49,400 Lord God, we just pray that you speak to us and through US today 17 00:00:49,400 --> 00:00:52,520 and that you just ultimately get all the glory in Jesus. 18 00:00:52,680 --> 00:00:53,960 I pray. Amen. 19 00:00:54,120 --> 00:00:56,520 Amen. All right, if you want to go 20 00:00:56,520 --> 00:00:59,600 ahead and start us off, start a little bit in your childhood and 21 00:00:59,600 --> 00:01:02,760 we'll work your way up. OK, So tell us, did you grow up 22 00:01:02,760 --> 00:01:05,360 like in a Christian household and what your childhood looked 23 00:01:05,360 --> 00:01:09,600 like with God or without God? OK, yes, I grew up in a 24 00:01:09,600 --> 00:01:13,360 Christian household. My parents were pastors for 25 00:01:13,360 --> 00:01:18,160 several years and faith was just always a big part of my life as 26 00:01:18,160 --> 00:01:21,960 a guy and older truly like learning, you know, like the 27 00:01:21,960 --> 00:01:26,720 essence of what it is as a child, teen and now as an adult 28 00:01:26,920 --> 00:01:30,560 mom and wife, it has grown over the years tremendously. 29 00:01:30,560 --> 00:01:34,120 And you know, it takes work. It's not it's not easy. 30 00:01:34,560 --> 00:01:39,760 But, you know, being APK, as they say, it was, you know, 31 00:01:39,760 --> 00:01:43,560 really great. I know oftentimes, you know, we 32 00:01:43,560 --> 00:01:46,800 have this perception of, you know, pastors, children, you 33 00:01:46,800 --> 00:01:50,240 know, that perfect image that we had to obtain and all that. 34 00:01:50,240 --> 00:01:54,440 So, you know, during probably like my teen years, you know, 35 00:01:55,520 --> 00:01:58,880 high school, just learning, you know, becoming yourself, 36 00:02:00,320 --> 00:02:06,160 learning to, you know, to just value who you are, not to be 37 00:02:06,160 --> 00:02:11,720 perfect, but just really finding who, who you are in God and, you 38 00:02:11,720 --> 00:02:16,240 know, trusting yourself and, and even though you know, so and so 39 00:02:16,240 --> 00:02:20,800 is doing this or others are partaking in that you and you 40 00:02:20,800 --> 00:02:25,440 may not, it's OK. I know a lot may relate to that. 41 00:02:25,440 --> 00:02:29,120 You know, I couldn't do sleepovers when I was younger. 42 00:02:29,920 --> 00:02:36,360 You know, my mom was very strict on, you know, people and just, 43 00:02:36,360 --> 00:02:39,640 you know, school in general. But also just, you know, she 44 00:02:39,640 --> 00:02:41,880 always told me there's a place in time for everything. 45 00:02:41,880 --> 00:02:44,840 And I still to this day, really believe in that, you know, not 46 00:02:44,840 --> 00:02:46,320 to get ahead of yourself. Yeah. 47 00:02:46,440 --> 00:02:50,240 Really just enjoy, you know, the time and the moment and the 48 00:02:50,240 --> 00:02:54,200 season that you're in. And, you know, that really, you 49 00:02:54,200 --> 00:02:56,400 know, resignated with me as I got older. 50 00:02:56,400 --> 00:02:59,640 At the time, I may probably not understand a 15 and 16 like mom, 51 00:03:00,040 --> 00:03:02,400 you know, I want to go on spring break or I want to go with my 52 00:03:02,400 --> 00:03:06,120 friends and things like that. But I know, you know, she had a 53 00:03:06,120 --> 00:03:09,200 job, you know us to protect and her safety was was everything. 54 00:03:09,480 --> 00:03:13,960 So now as a mom, I can definitely relate and appreciate 55 00:03:13,960 --> 00:03:17,560 that from her. Just instilling that from so you 56 00:03:17,560 --> 00:03:20,480 know, from such a young age, you know, to be to be true to 57 00:03:20,480 --> 00:03:25,320 yourself to, you know, keep pushing when times get rough and 58 00:03:25,320 --> 00:03:28,880 just no matter what, you know, like beat that light to to 59 00:03:28,880 --> 00:03:30,640 everyone. Yeah, that's good, girl. 60 00:03:30,640 --> 00:03:33,960 I do always hear that of like, you know, because you do 61 00:03:33,960 --> 00:03:38,520 struggle in the sense of like, everybody's looking at you and 62 00:03:38,520 --> 00:03:41,280 trying to be like trying to nitpick you almost. 63 00:03:41,280 --> 00:03:44,840 So you have to feel like the weight of that growing up. 64 00:03:44,840 --> 00:03:45,760 Oh. My God, yes. 65 00:03:46,880 --> 00:03:51,240 And, you know, sometimes you're just like, Oh my gosh, without 66 00:03:51,240 --> 00:03:53,600 even thinking, you know, it's just like a. 67 00:03:53,760 --> 00:03:56,000 Just robotic, almost like it just happened. 68 00:03:56,000 --> 00:03:58,440 Yes, that's Oh my gosh. So everyone's looking at me and 69 00:03:58,440 --> 00:04:02,360 even after, you know, my parents, you know, set the way 70 00:04:02,360 --> 00:04:04,800 for ministry and things like that, it's kind of, you know, 71 00:04:04,800 --> 00:04:06,880 part of me like, Oh my gosh, we will, you know, thinking this, 72 00:04:06,880 --> 00:04:09,160 you know, they know my parents or my past or whatever. 73 00:04:09,160 --> 00:04:11,760 And it's always like, Oh my gosh, Oh my gosh, I can't mess 74 00:04:11,760 --> 00:04:15,440 up. I can't, you know, fail. 75 00:04:15,440 --> 00:04:19,839 I can't fall. I can't, you know, go through 76 00:04:19,839 --> 00:04:22,280 life. Yeah, I can go through the rough 77 00:04:22,280 --> 00:04:25,600 and hard things. But in reality, you know, we're 78 00:04:25,600 --> 00:04:27,440 human, you know, we have feelings. 79 00:04:27,440 --> 00:04:31,480 And, you know, life is, you know, you have the good and the 80 00:04:31,480 --> 00:04:34,320 bad and no matter who you are, you know, like, you still 81 00:04:34,320 --> 00:04:35,560 encounter those things. Yeah. 82 00:04:35,800 --> 00:04:39,640 So you grow up already, you know no one of Christ, you know, 83 00:04:39,680 --> 00:04:43,200 trying to live it out, but carrying that weight of APK and 84 00:04:43,200 --> 00:04:46,080 then you get a little older. Let's go into just go ahead and 85 00:04:46,080 --> 00:04:50,440 go into your maybe after high school and meet, meeting your 86 00:04:50,440 --> 00:04:53,840 husband maybe. OK, yes, high school was such a, 87 00:04:53,840 --> 00:04:57,800 you know, pivotal time. I have to say that was such a 88 00:04:57,800 --> 00:05:01,600 like turning point in my life. You know, my parents ended up, 89 00:05:01,600 --> 00:05:03,200 you know, divorcing during high school. 90 00:05:03,200 --> 00:05:06,520 So that was really really just life changing. 91 00:05:06,520 --> 00:05:09,880 You know, any child going through, you know, through that 92 00:05:10,320 --> 00:05:12,640 isn't easy. But you know, over time, you 93 00:05:12,640 --> 00:05:15,000 know, we've overcome and you know, like healed from that. 94 00:05:15,000 --> 00:05:19,880 So I'm thankful, you know, I can bless and I love my family, you 95 00:05:19,880 --> 00:05:23,240 know, to death. But after that, that season, I 96 00:05:23,240 --> 00:05:28,840 think it was a time I met, you know, my now husband when I was 97 00:05:29,080 --> 00:05:34,400 19, we met and, you know, the time I wasn't looking for, you 98 00:05:34,400 --> 00:05:40,280 know, for relationships, You know, after that divorce, it was 99 00:05:40,280 --> 00:05:42,120 hard. I was really just, you know, in 100 00:05:42,120 --> 00:05:46,600 school at the time, you know, Lord, you know, you know my 101 00:05:46,600 --> 00:05:49,440 heart, you know, of course we all want that relationship and 102 00:05:49,440 --> 00:05:52,760 that, you know, that guy, you know, to work out and things. 103 00:05:52,760 --> 00:05:55,600 And I just need to focus on myself really. 104 00:05:55,600 --> 00:06:00,800 You know, I wasn't in a place to to give myself, you know, to 105 00:06:00,800 --> 00:06:03,480 someone. And I had a lot of healing to 106 00:06:03,480 --> 00:06:06,440 do. You know, a lot of times we we 107 00:06:06,440 --> 00:06:09,480 don't take that like a kind of ability, you know, we go through 108 00:06:09,480 --> 00:06:12,200 things and it's like, OK, well, I want this and this or I want 109 00:06:12,200 --> 00:06:13,720 someone sort of be this way in that way. 110 00:06:13,720 --> 00:06:17,160 But how about ourselves? I wasn't in that position yet 111 00:06:18,000 --> 00:06:21,640 until after, you know, like when I met him and I didn't know what 112 00:06:21,640 --> 00:06:25,760 to extent, you know, like, you know, things would be. 113 00:06:25,760 --> 00:06:28,200 But I knew he was a special person and I knew that I needed 114 00:06:28,200 --> 00:06:32,520 him in my life. And after, you know, after a few 115 00:06:32,520 --> 00:06:35,760 years, I knew he was a person for me. 116 00:06:36,480 --> 00:06:39,800 I know, you know, God sent him and his time wasn't my time, but 117 00:06:39,800 --> 00:06:42,800 sometimes we like to rush things and Oh my gosh, you know, where 118 00:06:42,800 --> 00:06:46,880 is, you know, where's my person or I, I long for that or I want 119 00:06:46,880 --> 00:06:49,440 what so and so has and, and things like that. 120 00:06:49,440 --> 00:06:52,160 But it's just, you know, like being patient and in that 121 00:06:52,160 --> 00:06:56,800 waiting season, even though it's so hard, yes, but it's, it's 122 00:06:56,800 --> 00:07:00,040 rewarding, you know, when, when it's done like the right way. 123 00:07:00,960 --> 00:07:04,480 And, you know, we met and it was really such a awesome 124 00:07:04,480 --> 00:07:07,560 relationship, you know, very healthy, loving. 125 00:07:07,560 --> 00:07:10,320 And you know, of course, like anything, you know, we went 126 00:07:10,320 --> 00:07:12,160 through our things and, you know, go through them. 127 00:07:12,160 --> 00:07:16,400 But overall it was really just what I needed in my life and 128 00:07:16,400 --> 00:07:18,200 what I wanted to. And that's something like I 129 00:07:18,200 --> 00:07:20,440 always prayed for. You know, we all, we all go 130 00:07:20,440 --> 00:07:22,680 through, you know, our relationships and like people. 131 00:07:22,680 --> 00:07:26,320 And I believe, you know, those people serve a season in your 132 00:07:26,320 --> 00:07:29,320 life and then, you know, like you learn from them and the 133 00:07:29,320 --> 00:07:31,960 experiences you go through. But he really just came at the 134 00:07:32,400 --> 00:07:35,920 perfect time for me and I knew that he was special and truly he 135 00:07:35,920 --> 00:07:38,680 was an answered prayer for me, but also my family. 136 00:07:38,680 --> 00:07:40,200 And you know, they adore and love him. 137 00:07:40,720 --> 00:07:46,240 And you know, it was just so unexpected. 138 00:07:46,240 --> 00:07:49,840 So I, I definitely feel that it was, it was from him. 139 00:07:50,720 --> 00:07:52,200 And you know, he's my best friend. 140 00:07:52,200 --> 00:07:53,600 He's my rock. You know, we've been through so 141 00:07:53,600 --> 00:07:56,560 much together. We actually will be 8 years 142 00:07:56,560 --> 00:07:58,880 married this month, 12 years together. 143 00:07:58,880 --> 00:08:01,800 And, you know, we have two beautiful kids and, you know, 144 00:08:01,800 --> 00:08:04,440 it's truly such a blessing learning and growing together 145 00:08:04,440 --> 00:08:07,520 and, you know, going through life with, you know, with the 146 00:08:07,520 --> 00:08:12,040 one that you know, it's worth fighting for, but also who is, 147 00:08:12,040 --> 00:08:13,560 you know, committed to fight with you. 148 00:08:13,560 --> 00:08:17,200 And you know truly, you know, the good and the bad, the ugly, 149 00:08:17,200 --> 00:08:20,040 you know, through sickness and in health and really learning 150 00:08:20,040 --> 00:08:22,960 like the meaning of becoming one and just going through, you 151 00:08:22,960 --> 00:08:25,840 know, together with, you know, with God by our side in the 152 00:08:25,840 --> 00:08:28,280 middle of our marriage. I'm so glad that you said the 153 00:08:28,280 --> 00:08:30,640 sickness and health thing because you we were talking a 154 00:08:30,640 --> 00:08:33,480 little bit before this and there was something pivotal that 155 00:08:33,480 --> 00:08:37,159 happened in 2019 too. So let's jump into that because 156 00:08:37,159 --> 00:08:42,400 you are about what 2 years are so married at that time and what 157 00:08:42,480 --> 00:08:44,280 tell us a little bit about? Oh my goodness, yes. 158 00:08:44,280 --> 00:08:49,080 So we have gotten a married in 2017 and two years later my 159 00:08:49,080 --> 00:08:53,800 husband was diagnosed with Ms. And it was such a pivotal time 160 00:08:53,800 --> 00:08:56,640 in our lives. You know, we didn't realize what 161 00:08:56,640 --> 00:08:58,120 was going on. He was going through these 162 00:08:58,120 --> 00:09:00,960 symptoms and, you know, we were figuring out, Oh my gosh. 163 00:09:00,960 --> 00:09:03,760 You know, he was, you know, very healthy kid growing up. 164 00:09:03,760 --> 00:09:08,520 He played basketball in school. No, no past history, you know, 165 00:09:08,520 --> 00:09:12,160 like health history, his family history was great. 166 00:09:12,400 --> 00:09:16,840 Nothing to indicate anything. So that was also like, oh, my 167 00:09:16,840 --> 00:09:19,760 goodness, you know what, you know what's going on? 168 00:09:19,960 --> 00:09:23,200 You know, his his left side would get numb. 169 00:09:23,200 --> 00:09:26,400 He would have hand spasms. And it was just a trying time 170 00:09:26,400 --> 00:09:28,680 for us, you know, trying to figure out numerous 171 00:09:28,680 --> 00:09:31,000 appointments, neurologist, doctors. 172 00:09:31,000 --> 00:09:36,880 And, you know, after that, you know, spinal taps, MRI's, that 173 00:09:36,880 --> 00:09:44,480 confirmation of Ms. And it was, it was so like, wow, didn't 174 00:09:44,480 --> 00:09:47,520 expect it, you know, of course, so young. 175 00:09:47,760 --> 00:09:49,720 Yeah, so young. We had just gotten married. 176 00:09:49,720 --> 00:09:53,840 We were probably 25 and he was, he's actually one of the 177 00:09:53,840 --> 00:09:57,440 youngest patients that, you know, they have seen with Ms. 178 00:09:57,440 --> 00:10:01,800 where we go to and but even through the mist, you know, he 179 00:10:01,800 --> 00:10:05,520 always stayed strong. You know, his, his positive 180 00:10:05,520 --> 00:10:08,360 lights, he's always, you know, been that person. 181 00:10:08,360 --> 00:10:10,800 You know, you know, we tackle this as we go. 182 00:10:10,800 --> 00:10:13,280 Don't get ahead of ourselves. Unlike me. 183 00:10:13,280 --> 00:10:15,920 I'm here thinking, Oh my gosh, two months on the road, a year 184 00:10:15,920 --> 00:10:19,120 later and, you know, so he brings me back to, OK, we're 185 00:10:19,120 --> 00:10:22,000 going to talk with this day by day and just, you know, really 186 00:10:22,000 --> 00:10:25,920 being together and, you know, going through this together and. 187 00:10:26,720 --> 00:10:29,320 There's there is so many women. I feel like it's just like 188 00:10:29,320 --> 00:10:32,280 almost a woman thing. Like we think about the future. 189 00:10:32,280 --> 00:10:34,040 We think about like. God, yes, this. 190 00:10:34,040 --> 00:10:35,560 Is going to happen. This is going to happen. 191 00:10:35,560 --> 00:10:39,120 None of it is actually probably going to happen, but we just it 192 00:10:39,120 --> 00:10:42,000 happened in our mind. It's like no, it's going to 193 00:10:42,000 --> 00:10:44,200 happen. No if this, but what if this And 194 00:10:44,200 --> 00:10:45,600 it's like no, but what if it doesn't? 195 00:10:45,600 --> 00:10:47,360 I'm like, you know what, you are right, so. 196 00:10:47,800 --> 00:10:49,760 Matter of fact, you're right. Exactly. 197 00:10:49,760 --> 00:10:54,040 But it is good to have a husband that has that, like, balance, 198 00:10:54,120 --> 00:10:57,440 right, and can reel us back in. Yes, yes. 199 00:10:57,840 --> 00:10:59,800 So I'm sure that's a very trying time. 200 00:10:59,880 --> 00:11:02,600 You're 2, you're young, for one, very young. 201 00:11:02,880 --> 00:11:05,720 Two, you're only two years married. 202 00:11:05,960 --> 00:11:09,920 And now you're dealing with something that's very big. 203 00:11:10,000 --> 00:11:13,960 It's not just like, you know, a flu that's for a week or so. 204 00:11:13,960 --> 00:11:16,680 This is like lifelong. Yeah. 205 00:11:17,000 --> 00:11:20,360 And so how, what does that season look like for y'all? 206 00:11:20,360 --> 00:11:24,240 Just like, are, are y'all close with the Lord at this point? 207 00:11:24,240 --> 00:11:28,320 Or like I know that you grew up, you know, you know, with God and 208 00:11:28,320 --> 00:11:30,760 as APK and all this stuff, but like what does that season look 209 00:11:30,760 --> 00:11:35,600 like spiritually for y'all? I think spiritually, you know, 210 00:11:36,040 --> 00:11:39,080 at the time, of course, all the things like, Oh my gosh, you 211 00:11:39,080 --> 00:11:41,840 know, you think why or we don't understand what's going on. 212 00:11:42,400 --> 00:11:46,440 But I think overall, we always just try to stay just strong 213 00:11:46,440 --> 00:11:52,760 and, and know that, you know, he has a plan as as, I guess easier 214 00:11:52,760 --> 00:11:55,360 said than done, you know, Oh my gosh, she has a plan. 215 00:11:55,360 --> 00:11:57,640 Oh my gosh, you're going through such a devastating time. 216 00:11:57,640 --> 00:12:01,320 Like how, how are you trusting? How are you believing? 217 00:12:01,320 --> 00:12:04,960 And so sure, you know, and it's like in the midst of that, truly 218 00:12:04,960 --> 00:12:09,280 just brought us together and our faith has just grown because, 219 00:12:09,280 --> 00:12:13,120 you know, we have, we have no time to, to let our obstacles, 220 00:12:13,160 --> 00:12:15,680 you know, overtake us. We have to go ahead and tackle 221 00:12:15,680 --> 00:12:18,600 and overcome that, you know, and just literally just give it to 222 00:12:18,600 --> 00:12:21,120 God. And, you know, we've cried, you 223 00:12:21,120 --> 00:12:24,960 know, we prayed and, you know, broken down and, you know, all 224 00:12:24,960 --> 00:12:29,560 the things. But I think that's just, you 225 00:12:29,560 --> 00:12:32,400 know, part of our relationship and our marriage that, you know, 226 00:12:32,400 --> 00:12:35,280 despite of what we're going through, the most heartbreaking 227 00:12:35,280 --> 00:12:38,840 thing, it's like, OK, we trust in him and he's going to, you 228 00:12:38,840 --> 00:12:41,400 know, take care of us and he's going to, you know, push us 229 00:12:41,400 --> 00:12:43,400 through and cover us because, you know, we're his children. 230 00:12:43,400 --> 00:12:45,640 He's not going to, he's not going to forsake us right now. 231 00:12:45,640 --> 00:12:47,560 Yeah. That's one thing that I feel 232 00:12:47,560 --> 00:12:50,240 like when we are going through these seasons, like we know the 233 00:12:50,240 --> 00:12:53,440 scripture, but it's we have to continue to tell our ourselves 234 00:12:53,440 --> 00:12:56,120 that because our flesh don't want to believe, you know, that 235 00:12:56,320 --> 00:12:59,680 we're thinking all the bad things we're thinking about what 236 00:12:59,680 --> 00:13:01,000 if this happens? What if that happens? 237 00:13:01,360 --> 00:13:03,560 But he's not going to forsake us. 238 00:13:03,760 --> 00:13:08,200 I was telling one of our actually my boss yesterday about 239 00:13:08,200 --> 00:13:11,480 how the scripture, you know, the weapon will form, but it says it 240 00:13:11,480 --> 00:13:14,120 won't prosper. And sometimes we get in those 241 00:13:14,120 --> 00:13:17,800 situations where we're like, the weapon is about to go off, like 242 00:13:17,800 --> 00:13:20,320 it's about to prosper. It looks like the enemy's 243 00:13:20,320 --> 00:13:23,240 winning it. Looks like no, it does I'm. 244 00:13:23,240 --> 00:13:27,040 Defeated, but the Lord already said it's not going to prosper 245 00:13:27,040 --> 00:13:28,840 and that we just have to steadfast. 246 00:13:28,960 --> 00:13:33,240 So you're saying we, you know, we, we struggled a little bit, 247 00:13:33,240 --> 00:13:35,040 but we steadfast. You know, Amen. 248 00:13:35,040 --> 00:13:36,000 Yes. And that's so true. 249 00:13:36,000 --> 00:13:38,160 And even, you know, we were so young, we just gotten married, 250 00:13:38,160 --> 00:13:41,520 you know, a new wife. It's like, Oh my gosh, all the 251 00:13:41,520 --> 00:13:44,800 things, you know, and really it's like, what can I do? 252 00:13:45,360 --> 00:13:48,920 And really it's just, you know, cover him and prayer and, and, 253 00:13:48,920 --> 00:13:51,240 you know, trust the Lord and just, you know, be there for him 254 00:13:51,240 --> 00:13:52,720 because I know He needs me right now. 255 00:13:53,000 --> 00:13:57,560 Yeah, so you, so that's two years in. 256 00:13:58,240 --> 00:14:01,080 Y'all been married 8 so you have you about two more years and 257 00:14:01,080 --> 00:14:04,280 then you have your son. And so that's just such a 258 00:14:04,280 --> 00:14:06,400 miracle. You know, like y'all, y'all are 259 00:14:06,400 --> 00:14:10,480 new parents and everything else and then life's good around this 260 00:14:10,480 --> 00:14:15,120 time. So we actually, so he went 261 00:14:15,120 --> 00:14:18,840 through Ms. you know, that season of diagnosis early 2019 262 00:14:19,640 --> 00:14:26,000 and I was in school, I graduated the end of the year. 263 00:14:26,120 --> 00:14:30,640 We actually experienced a pregnancy loss, you know, I'm 264 00:14:30,640 --> 00:14:37,080 towards the end and, you know, such a devastating ties because, 265 00:14:37,080 --> 00:14:39,400 you know, during that time I knew you, you know, you just got 266 00:14:39,400 --> 00:14:41,400 married. You wanted to, you know, just 267 00:14:41,400 --> 00:14:43,920 enjoy ourselves and, you know, our marriage. 268 00:14:43,920 --> 00:14:47,000 And, you know, I was still in school and I just knew, OK. 269 00:14:47,000 --> 00:14:50,440 And his timing, you know, it will all it will all work out, 270 00:14:51,240 --> 00:14:52,960 you know, experiences pregnancy laws. 271 00:14:52,960 --> 00:14:55,920 And Oh my gosh, it was, you know, so heartbreaking. 272 00:14:56,440 --> 00:14:58,640 Of course, we just don't understand, you know, the 273 00:14:58,640 --> 00:15:00,560 things. And it was actually a chemical 274 00:15:00,560 --> 00:15:03,680 pregnancy. So I was very early on. 275 00:15:03,680 --> 00:15:05,880 I didn't know that I was, I was pregnant. 276 00:15:05,880 --> 00:15:10,040 And, you know, we're so excited and it was just like, I feel 277 00:15:10,040 --> 00:15:13,600 like I just, you know, got ran over by a bus because we went to 278 00:15:13,600 --> 00:15:16,480 the ER for this pain that I thought it was something else. 279 00:15:16,480 --> 00:15:18,960 And I found out there that I was pregnant. 280 00:15:18,960 --> 00:15:21,480 It was like, Oh my God, like what? 281 00:15:22,200 --> 00:15:25,360 And the nurses is this good? I'm like, no, it's awesome. 282 00:15:25,360 --> 00:15:26,680 Like, yeah, I'm praying for this. 283 00:15:26,680 --> 00:15:28,880 This is oh, my goodness, we're so excited. 284 00:15:28,880 --> 00:15:32,640 And then later, you know, to, to find out that I was miscarrying 285 00:15:32,640 --> 00:15:36,120 and in the midst, Oh my gosh, it was, it was very heartbreaking. 286 00:15:36,440 --> 00:15:39,680 You know, as a woman, you know, something that I was longed for 287 00:15:39,680 --> 00:15:42,760 and wanted and to, you know, for it to just be taken away just 288 00:15:42,760 --> 00:15:45,920 like that was, you know, was really devastating. 289 00:15:45,920 --> 00:15:50,280 And, you know, really praying and interesting him, you know, 290 00:15:50,280 --> 00:15:56,600 Lord in your, you know, in due time, you know, you know, pray 291 00:15:56,600 --> 00:15:59,400 for my heart, pray because of course when you're going through 292 00:15:59,400 --> 00:16:03,040 that season, it's when you see everyone else, you know, like 293 00:16:03,040 --> 00:16:06,320 having that blessing and, you know, realistic is not easy. 294 00:16:06,600 --> 00:16:10,160 But I knew in due time, it was my time. 295 00:16:10,800 --> 00:16:13,640 And I knew I wanted to finish school, you know, because I 296 00:16:13,640 --> 00:16:19,480 wanted to enjoy my pregnancy. So after I found out about, you 297 00:16:19,480 --> 00:16:22,600 know, the you know, you know, the lost and we went through 298 00:16:22,600 --> 00:16:25,360 that little season, I found out it was pregnant on Thanksgiving 299 00:16:26,080 --> 00:16:28,680 and you know the best, you know, best news ever. 300 00:16:29,240 --> 00:16:32,160 And it was actually funny because before graduation, you 301 00:16:32,160 --> 00:16:34,040 know how you have to get tickets for your family? 302 00:16:34,400 --> 00:16:39,200 I went to the student life center and it was literally 303 00:16:39,200 --> 00:16:41,480 confirmation from God because when I went to the student life 304 00:16:41,480 --> 00:16:44,480 center, I saw a rainbow over the word life. 305 00:16:45,400 --> 00:16:51,960 And I knew it was just meant to be AI knew that in his time and 306 00:16:51,960 --> 00:16:55,440 come around graduation, I found I was pregnant and I walked that 307 00:16:55,440 --> 00:16:58,520 stage at six weeks pregnant and I was so ecstatic. 308 00:16:59,400 --> 00:17:03,320 Months later found that we're having a boy. 2 weeks later, 309 00:17:03,720 --> 00:17:06,000 COVID hits. The world should stop. 310 00:17:06,480 --> 00:17:10,520 So that was a time 2020 was very life changing. 311 00:17:10,520 --> 00:17:12,440 It's such a time, you know, in everyone's life. 312 00:17:12,440 --> 00:17:15,839 So but no, he's a rainbow baby and we're just so blessed to 313 00:17:15,839 --> 00:17:16,560 have him. That's. 314 00:17:16,560 --> 00:17:18,079 Amazing. I love that. 315 00:17:18,920 --> 00:17:22,800 So then just moving forward, you know, life's just going well. 316 00:17:22,800 --> 00:17:25,599 How is your husband's like health at this point? 317 00:17:25,599 --> 00:17:29,560 Like is it just here and there? Like he has like flare ups of 318 00:17:29,560 --> 00:17:32,200 things. Or yes, in the beginning he was 319 00:17:32,200 --> 00:17:34,720 taking like our medication like daily. 320 00:17:34,720 --> 00:17:38,640 And it's, it's crazy because he actually had a flare up on the 321 00:17:38,640 --> 00:17:42,520 day that our son was born. And you know, it was very hard, 322 00:17:42,600 --> 00:17:45,200 you know, very difficult. But after that, you know, we 323 00:17:45,200 --> 00:17:49,080 did, he went to see the doctor, you know, had more appointments 324 00:17:49,080 --> 00:17:53,040 and they transferred from oral to like IV infusion. 325 00:17:53,040 --> 00:17:55,920 So now he gets infusions every six months. 326 00:17:56,000 --> 00:17:58,920 So you know, for his Ms. and you know, he'll have follow-ups and 327 00:17:58,920 --> 00:18:00,840 follow up MRI. So kind of, you know, check to 328 00:18:00,840 --> 00:18:03,080 see how he's doing and things like that. 329 00:18:03,480 --> 00:18:07,840 And thank God since then we really have an experience like a 330 00:18:07,840 --> 00:18:12,240 flare up or any Sri anything, you know, you know, drastic. 331 00:18:12,240 --> 00:18:16,640 And then since it's a stronger medication, so I believe, you 332 00:18:16,640 --> 00:18:19,160 know, like everything, it's, you know, working how it needs to 333 00:18:19,160 --> 00:18:22,760 and just trusting, you know, and God, and he's been awesome. 334 00:18:22,800 --> 00:18:25,920 I mean, I think now like he's been such a like great shape in 335 00:18:25,920 --> 00:18:29,280 his life and just, he feels like the best right now. 336 00:18:29,280 --> 00:18:31,480 So he actually has one coming up soon. 337 00:18:31,480 --> 00:18:36,040 So but yeah, it's been, it's been really great so far. 338 00:18:36,040 --> 00:18:39,480 So I'm always, I'm thankful for them, but also checking, Yeah, 339 00:18:39,480 --> 00:18:42,240 I'm checking on him. Yeah, you know, and, you know, 340 00:18:42,240 --> 00:18:45,400 making sure he's doing OK and anything new, you know, here and 341 00:18:45,400 --> 00:18:47,720 there. But overall, you know, he's 342 00:18:47,720 --> 00:18:50,200 doing, he's doing really good. Which you said you're one of 343 00:18:50,200 --> 00:18:52,360 those people that you're going to check and if you have any 344 00:18:52,360 --> 00:18:54,280 like suspicions or something, we're going to go get checked 345 00:18:54,280 --> 00:18:55,560 out. You know, right. 346 00:18:55,560 --> 00:18:57,680 There's some people in the world, they're like, if they 347 00:18:57,680 --> 00:19:00,280 have suspicions, they're like, I'm not going to the doctor. 348 00:19:00,520 --> 00:19:02,240 You're like, we're going to go get checked. 349 00:19:02,240 --> 00:19:03,560 And they can be. You know it is. 350 00:19:03,560 --> 00:19:06,160 You know it is scary because you know the unknown. 351 00:19:06,160 --> 00:19:08,000 You know, so it's like, Oh my gosh. 352 00:19:08,000 --> 00:19:13,080 And just because you seem like outs on the outside fine doesn't 353 00:19:13,080 --> 00:19:15,040 mean that everything's going on great on this. 354 00:19:15,040 --> 00:19:16,160 Exactly. Exactly. 355 00:19:16,160 --> 00:19:18,080 So you bring your daughter into the world. 356 00:19:18,080 --> 00:19:19,760 Now you have the best of both worlds. 357 00:19:19,800 --> 00:19:22,320 You got a boy and a girl. Boy, mom and grandma, which you 358 00:19:22,320 --> 00:19:25,120 know, I, I prayed for both and it's amazing. 359 00:19:25,120 --> 00:19:28,840 I, I wanted a boy 1st and God, you know, God blessed us with a 360 00:19:28,840 --> 00:19:33,720 rainbow baby and then, you know, we prayed for a girl, Amelia 361 00:19:33,720 --> 00:19:35,440 Naomi. And she's been, you know, such a 362 00:19:35,440 --> 00:19:38,440 blessing and brother loves her so much. 363 00:19:38,640 --> 00:19:41,720 So yes, best of both worlds. It's been it's been fun. 364 00:19:42,560 --> 00:19:45,840 More recently y'all started going through a new valley, a 365 00:19:45,880 --> 00:19:49,160 storm if you will. So tell us a little bit about 366 00:19:49,160 --> 00:19:50,440 that. Yes. 367 00:19:50,440 --> 00:19:53,920 So, you know, Emmy was going to call her Emmy. 368 00:19:54,240 --> 00:19:58,960 She was born almost two years ago and, you know, healthy as 369 00:19:58,960 --> 00:20:02,760 can be, you know, such a light. And after a while, you know, she 370 00:20:02,760 --> 00:20:04,960 kind of was sitting a certain way. 371 00:20:05,840 --> 00:20:09,040 And, you know, we didn't know why, but of course, kids, 372 00:20:09,040 --> 00:20:11,840 babies, you know, develop me and growing, you know that they said 373 00:20:11,840 --> 00:20:13,760 they do all the all kinds of things. 374 00:20:13,760 --> 00:20:18,440 And after, you know, we were, you know, looking at her and 375 00:20:18,440 --> 00:20:20,320 things like that, you know, took her to get checked. 376 00:20:20,320 --> 00:20:22,600 Kind of like, OK, she's been kind of sitting like this for a 377 00:20:22,600 --> 00:20:24,760 little bit longer than what? You would. 378 00:20:24,760 --> 00:20:28,720 Think and I would think, and you know, that I do not like to 379 00:20:28,720 --> 00:20:32,240 compare even, you know, my son to her or, you know, other kids 380 00:20:32,720 --> 00:20:34,680 because, you know, every child is different and develops in 381 00:20:34,680 --> 00:20:37,760 their own pace. And after a while, you know, 382 00:20:37,760 --> 00:20:43,120 just noticed she had this lump on her, on her bottom and you 383 00:20:43,120 --> 00:20:44,480 know, she was very uncomfortable. 384 00:20:44,480 --> 00:20:48,520 And even then you didn't show any signs of like any fever or 385 00:20:48,520 --> 00:20:51,840 any like drastic symptoms or anything like that. 386 00:20:52,200 --> 00:20:55,760 But once I saw that and kind of, you know, taking time like, OK, 387 00:20:55,760 --> 00:20:58,320 she's experiencing more pain. We took her. 388 00:20:58,320 --> 00:21:02,320 She was fine at the time. Her mobility was fine and they 389 00:21:02,320 --> 00:21:04,240 were like, OK, but I think changes bring her back. 390 00:21:04,240 --> 00:21:06,880 We're like, OK, you know, I'm kept monitoring her. 391 00:21:06,880 --> 00:21:09,920 After a while, I was like, OK, she's showing more pain, more 392 00:21:09,920 --> 00:21:14,560 discomfort. And something is, you know, was 393 00:21:14,560 --> 00:21:16,440 definitely brewing there. Took her. 394 00:21:16,880 --> 00:21:20,160 And we've had multiple appointments, you know, 395 00:21:20,160 --> 00:21:23,560 different lab work, imaging, you know, testing done. 396 00:21:24,000 --> 00:21:27,120 And every other week was something, you know, dropping 397 00:21:27,120 --> 00:21:30,600 back and forth, you know, not understanding why also, in a 398 00:21:30,600 --> 00:21:34,040 way, rushing the process. Like, Oh my gosh, what's going 399 00:21:34,040 --> 00:21:38,000 on? And after that, I know she had a 400 00:21:38,240 --> 00:21:42,760 MRI biopsy and, you know, we got some, like, preliminary results 401 00:21:42,760 --> 00:21:45,160 confirmation that, you know, like it was cancer. 402 00:21:45,760 --> 00:21:50,800 And that was very devastating. And after that, we literally had 403 00:21:50,800 --> 00:21:54,440 to rush her to the hospital. She was having trouble breathing 404 00:21:55,240 --> 00:21:58,360 all the things. And we got there and they did 405 00:21:58,360 --> 00:22:01,200 X-ray. She had fluid in her lung which 406 00:22:01,200 --> 00:22:04,720 was almost full. I mean, it was heartbreaking to 407 00:22:04,720 --> 00:22:07,880 find that out that it was spreading. 408 00:22:08,080 --> 00:22:12,080 So what we found out she has a rare malignant yolk SAC tumor. 409 00:22:12,080 --> 00:22:17,360 It's the type of germ cell cancer that it originated in, in 410 00:22:17,360 --> 00:22:22,080 her bottom area and it was trying to spread through through 411 00:22:22,080 --> 00:22:27,240 her body in her lung per SE. And because of that build up, 412 00:22:27,240 --> 00:22:30,200 you know, they had to go ahead and drain all that out. 413 00:22:30,200 --> 00:22:35,320 So when I say she has undergone so much in such a short, you 414 00:22:35,320 --> 00:22:40,840 know, time from a central line to a chest tube, oxygen, you 415 00:22:40,840 --> 00:22:42,840 know, she had a fever. She actually had to have a blood 416 00:22:42,840 --> 00:22:46,040 transfusion. And, you know, recently she had 417 00:22:46,040 --> 00:22:48,840 to get her port because she had to start chemotherapy right 418 00:22:48,840 --> 00:22:50,520 away. And, you know, for future 419 00:22:50,520 --> 00:22:52,760 treatments, that's what she'll need to. 420 00:22:53,520 --> 00:22:58,360 But we stay in the hospital 15 days, you know, away from, you 421 00:22:58,360 --> 00:23:02,200 know, our son and family, but still thankful for our village 422 00:23:02,200 --> 00:23:04,640 because, you know, they were there every step of the way. 423 00:23:04,640 --> 00:23:10,080 But when I say it was like a movie, we were in a movie and 424 00:23:10,120 --> 00:23:14,960 you know, doctors, you know, consent forms, Yeah, all the 425 00:23:14,960 --> 00:23:20,080 things tubing and, you know, her crying for us and Oh my gosh, it 426 00:23:20,080 --> 00:23:24,720 was. For you in this moment, I bet 427 00:23:24,720 --> 00:23:28,480 you're just like numb, like you don't have emotions. 428 00:23:28,600 --> 00:23:30,560 I mean, I'm sure you have emotions, right? 429 00:23:30,560 --> 00:23:35,720 But like you're just such in a state of shock because now it's 430 00:23:35,720 --> 00:23:40,080 like your daughter, you know, you're looking at your precious 431 00:23:40,080 --> 00:23:43,440 baby that you I have just loved on like you would die for, you 432 00:23:43,440 --> 00:23:46,320 know, and she's having to go through all of this. 433 00:23:46,320 --> 00:23:48,480 There's nothing you can do. And you probably feel so 434 00:23:48,480 --> 00:23:51,720 helpless in this, like especially having to hear for 435 00:23:51,720 --> 00:23:53,760 her cry out to you like trying, you know. 436 00:23:54,120 --> 00:23:59,920 And so tell us like what, what does this look like for you? 437 00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:03,720 And like, because I feel like this is a difficult time, right? 438 00:24:03,720 --> 00:24:06,000 This is what I told you that I wanted you to talk about is 439 00:24:06,000 --> 00:24:09,960 like, it's a difficult time, but you've been so strong in your 440 00:24:09,960 --> 00:24:15,040 faith and like you know that God has a plan, but are you mad at 441 00:24:15,040 --> 00:24:23,360 God basically? Honestly, no, I'm not mad. 442 00:24:23,840 --> 00:24:28,280 Wow. You just sort of just live, just 443 00:24:28,280 --> 00:24:33,320 walking it out. I'm not I'm not mad at him as 444 00:24:33,760 --> 00:24:38,120 many people may, you know, maybe or you know, may want me to be, 445 00:24:38,120 --> 00:24:44,840 but I'm not, you know, it's it's you know, it's saddening and, 446 00:24:44,920 --> 00:24:48,160 you know, heartbreaking. You know no child should 447 00:24:48,160 --> 00:24:49,760 experience this. No parent. 448 00:24:50,640 --> 00:24:53,520 You know, should experience this with her child, you know, going 449 00:24:53,520 --> 00:24:55,360 through such a like difficult time. 450 00:24:58,040 --> 00:25:03,040 But I know that, you know, this is a season and there's a 451 00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:05,120 purpose. And as part of our testimony, I 452 00:25:05,120 --> 00:25:07,680 really do believe that, you know, he has her wrapped in his 453 00:25:07,680 --> 00:25:11,040 arms and we're going to fight this and beat this. 454 00:25:11,760 --> 00:25:17,200 And it's a season where I truly had to surrender at all. 455 00:25:17,600 --> 00:25:22,120 As someone who loves to take control of things and Oh no, I 456 00:25:22,120 --> 00:25:23,840 got it. Oh no, I take care of it. 457 00:25:23,840 --> 00:25:25,320 If it doesn't get done, I'll do it. 458 00:25:26,200 --> 00:25:32,080 I I had to let go and truly, you know, surrender. 459 00:25:32,080 --> 00:25:36,240 God, I can't do without you. I need you And and not to say I 460 00:25:36,240 --> 00:25:42,200 didn't need him, you know, before or anything, but it's 461 00:25:42,200 --> 00:25:46,280 like in this, in this season, this time it was you have full 462 00:25:46,280 --> 00:25:50,480 control. And I, you know, I, I lift her 463 00:25:50,480 --> 00:25:55,520 up and you have us right now because I know, I know there's 464 00:25:55,520 --> 00:25:56,880 greater. Yeah. 465 00:25:57,240 --> 00:26:01,120 And truly just. And this season he, he wants and 466 00:26:01,120 --> 00:26:04,040 need us, you know, closer to him. 467 00:26:04,960 --> 00:26:08,080 So that's where I'm at right now. 468 00:26:08,120 --> 00:26:12,480 As you know, I have my moments, I have my days, You know, being 469 00:26:12,480 --> 00:26:15,160 in the hospital for so long, it's, you know, hard to process 470 00:26:15,160 --> 00:26:18,000 when you're, you know, taking care in and out nurses and, you 471 00:26:18,000 --> 00:26:21,240 know, all this information. And now, you know, a few days 472 00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:23,520 back at home, you know, it's been great being under the same 473 00:26:23,520 --> 00:26:26,520 roof again and just kind of little by little processing 474 00:26:26,520 --> 00:26:33,280 everything. And, you know, I know it's it's 475 00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:38,240 going to be OK. I just really have have that 476 00:26:38,240 --> 00:26:41,200 faith that, you know, things are going to be OK. 477 00:26:41,760 --> 00:26:43,600 Like I was saying, have my days, have my moments. 478 00:26:43,600 --> 00:26:47,280 You know, I'm just going to be experiencing so much more. 479 00:26:47,520 --> 00:26:50,400 You know, it's going to have a lot of effects from treatment 480 00:26:50,400 --> 00:26:54,000 things that I'm not, I'm not ready for, you know, to see or, 481 00:26:54,360 --> 00:26:57,520 or to go through. But I know that, you know, this 482 00:26:57,520 --> 00:27:00,840 is temporary and I know we're going to we're going to make it 483 00:27:00,840 --> 00:27:03,080 through. Yeah, I love, you. 484 00:27:03,080 --> 00:27:06,760 Know, you said it's not that you never put your trust in him 485 00:27:06,760 --> 00:27:10,920 before, but now you are in a new state of broken that you've 486 00:27:10,920 --> 00:27:14,600 never experienced before. And you're truly just crying out 487 00:27:14,600 --> 00:27:17,040 to him. Like, Lord, I can't do this. 488 00:27:17,040 --> 00:27:19,360 There's nothing. It has to be you. 489 00:27:19,880 --> 00:27:21,880 And I just think that's so beautiful and there's so much 490 00:27:21,880 --> 00:27:26,400 strength in that. We get so caught up in like, we 491 00:27:26,400 --> 00:27:29,040 don't want to look weak. We don't want to, we want to be 492 00:27:29,040 --> 00:27:32,560 strong for our family. But in the times of weakness is 493 00:27:32,560 --> 00:27:36,480 when his strength is shown where he gives us that strength. 494 00:27:36,800 --> 00:27:39,440 And so you just walking through the season, I mean, I went and 495 00:27:39,440 --> 00:27:41,880 looked at your Facebook, you know, and just was scrolling 496 00:27:41,880 --> 00:27:45,160 back And before you even announced what what all was 497 00:27:45,160 --> 00:27:48,920 going on and told people it was like you were putting like, God, 498 00:27:48,920 --> 00:27:51,760 this is you, this is you, this is you just trying to point 499 00:27:51,760 --> 00:27:55,320 everybody to him, to his glory, like this is for you. 500 00:27:55,800 --> 00:27:57,880 And so I just thought that was so beautiful. 501 00:27:57,880 --> 00:28:01,000 And I was like, wow, that's just so much strength that you're 502 00:28:01,000 --> 00:28:03,960 carrying. And it's, you know, it's, it's 503 00:28:03,960 --> 00:28:07,280 truly him, you know, you know the weight, you know, because we 504 00:28:07,280 --> 00:28:10,120 want to carry it all, you know, as as women, we want to do 505 00:28:10,120 --> 00:28:13,440 everything, you know, and you know, we are strong and we are, 506 00:28:13,440 --> 00:28:17,720 you know, superheroes. But you know, he's ultimate. 507 00:28:18,240 --> 00:28:20,880 He's ultimate who can carry us, you know, through everything in 508 00:28:20,880 --> 00:28:25,040 each season. And, you know, it's funny, prior 509 00:28:25,040 --> 00:28:28,720 to all this, I just I thought a heaviness that I just couldn't 510 00:28:28,720 --> 00:28:32,520 explain. And I feel like in a way was, 511 00:28:33,520 --> 00:28:35,720 you know, this is a season that's coming. 512 00:28:36,640 --> 00:28:39,840 And then I also take it as, you know, sometimes we can, you 513 00:28:39,840 --> 00:28:42,440 know, we can be impatient. God, I want to know what's going 514 00:28:42,440 --> 00:28:46,360 on or Laura, show me right now. I can't wait. 515 00:28:46,360 --> 00:28:49,240 I don't want to wait. You know, as you know, the all 516 00:28:49,240 --> 00:28:55,320 these feelings are valid. And I just remember, OK, you 517 00:28:55,800 --> 00:28:59,280 don't want to wait, let's go, let's move. 518 00:28:59,280 --> 00:29:01,280 And when God moves, it's like. Yeah. 519 00:29:02,280 --> 00:29:03,960 You didn't have to move up. It's instant. 520 00:29:03,960 --> 00:29:08,080 And it's like, wow, if we haven't, you know, took her in. 521 00:29:08,080 --> 00:29:10,560 If we haven't done the things we've done in that moment, it's 522 00:29:10,560 --> 00:29:13,200 like I just couldn't imagine. Yeah, you know. 523 00:29:14,000 --> 00:29:18,920 What like, because this is just so fresh too. 524 00:29:19,240 --> 00:29:23,320 What exactly? Like, how has this impacted you 525 00:29:23,320 --> 00:29:27,040 and your husband's relationship? Like, because I know that in 526 00:29:27,040 --> 00:29:30,560 difficult times like this, it can cause, you know, some strain 527 00:29:30,560 --> 00:29:34,040 or you really come together. How? 528 00:29:34,080 --> 00:29:36,520 How do you feel like this has impacted that? 529 00:29:36,960 --> 00:29:41,640 Oh my gosh, if anything has truly just brought us closer and 530 00:29:41,640 --> 00:29:44,600 just deeper to one another, you know, of course there's some 531 00:29:44,600 --> 00:29:48,120 moments, you know, like in the midst of, you know, changing her 532 00:29:48,120 --> 00:29:51,760 or something going on of, you know, learning, you know, all 533 00:29:51,760 --> 00:29:52,800 this newness. Yeah. 534 00:29:52,800 --> 00:29:55,160 And it's like, Oh my gosh, I know I heard something 535 00:29:55,160 --> 00:29:57,120 different. Or he's trying to, you know, 536 00:29:57,120 --> 00:29:58,880 communicate it with me. And I'm like, no, no, no. 537 00:29:58,880 --> 00:30:01,560 Or, you know, whatever the case is because, you know, it's it's 538 00:30:01,680 --> 00:30:05,560 it's new for us, you know, navigating and all the things. 539 00:30:05,560 --> 00:30:12,800 But no, has truly just like wow, like also we need him more. 540 00:30:12,840 --> 00:30:14,360 We need each other more right now. 541 00:30:14,360 --> 00:30:17,040 You know, and, and it's true, you know, when you get married, 542 00:30:17,040 --> 00:30:20,720 you know, you don't realize, you know, in sickness and health. 543 00:30:20,720 --> 00:30:24,480 It's not just individually, but also experiencing this with with 544 00:30:24,480 --> 00:30:27,120 children, with our family. And it's like, wow, really 545 00:30:27,120 --> 00:30:28,840 we're, you know, we're in this together. 546 00:30:29,440 --> 00:30:35,480 And no, it's, it's been just awesome to see us grow, you 547 00:30:35,480 --> 00:30:38,520 know, like day-to-day. And, you know, keep trusting 548 00:30:38,520 --> 00:30:42,320 him, keep trusting each other. And I remember like there was a 549 00:30:42,320 --> 00:30:47,120 point literally in the room, doctors were communicating 550 00:30:47,120 --> 00:30:48,880 already making decisions and all this. 551 00:30:48,880 --> 00:30:52,000 It was like, hey, we decided this, we need consent, we need 552 00:30:52,000 --> 00:30:54,680 this, blah, blah, blah. And you know, in the middle of 553 00:30:54,680 --> 00:30:59,200 just breaking down, he asked me, Do you trust? 554 00:31:02,920 --> 00:31:04,920 He looked me in the eyes and said, do you trust him? 555 00:31:04,920 --> 00:31:11,360 And said yes immediately. OK, proceed doctors because you 556 00:31:11,360 --> 00:31:17,280 know, it was it was wow. He has ultimate say in that 557 00:31:17,280 --> 00:31:23,320 moment, literally everything was just so taken care of and and 558 00:31:23,320 --> 00:31:26,440 you know, the urgency and she made out of everything. 559 00:31:26,480 --> 00:31:28,680 OK. And you're so strong. 560 00:31:37,000 --> 00:31:41,880 And that right there just showed me the type of man that he is 561 00:31:41,880 --> 00:31:46,240 and also that, you know, God bless me with such a wonderful 562 00:31:46,240 --> 00:31:52,000 man in my life. And literally, we're in this 563 00:31:52,000 --> 00:31:55,200 together until until the end. Mm hmm. 564 00:31:56,320 --> 00:31:58,000 MMM. That is so beautiful girl. 565 00:31:59,640 --> 00:32:04,640 Just for, you know, that moment of that of him, do you trust me? 566 00:32:04,640 --> 00:32:07,680 Like do you trust what the decision that I'm going to make 567 00:32:07,680 --> 00:32:10,240 is? And it's like, that's so hard as 568 00:32:10,240 --> 00:32:11,760 a woman. We've been talking about this 569 00:32:11,760 --> 00:32:13,880 the whole episode, like we want to control it. 570 00:32:13,880 --> 00:32:18,640 But in that you were like, you take it, you know, like you make 571 00:32:18,640 --> 00:32:21,520 the decision, you do that. And like that's just such 572 00:32:21,520 --> 00:32:24,520 something that US women, we always want in a marriage. 573 00:32:24,520 --> 00:32:29,640 We want our husband to be like, take, take the range, you know? 574 00:32:29,680 --> 00:32:31,840 Take the lead. Yes, You know, for me to just 575 00:32:31,840 --> 00:32:36,080 hear, you know, hear him, you know, in that moment, just like, 576 00:32:36,480 --> 00:32:38,400 you know, like we were just locked in. 577 00:32:38,400 --> 00:32:40,200 Yeah. And it's like, do you trust? 578 00:32:40,200 --> 00:32:44,360 Him, you know, him above and and what we're doing and it's like, 579 00:32:44,760 --> 00:32:50,360 yes, without a doubt, yes, in the midst of, you know, being 580 00:32:50,360 --> 00:32:55,160 shattered and being, you know, broken because, you know, that's 581 00:32:55,280 --> 00:32:58,600 what we felt and you know, despite of you know. 582 00:32:58,600 --> 00:33:04,960 Anything you know we can't unfill you know that and well, 583 00:33:04,960 --> 00:33:06,920 like that right there was just like a pivotal. 584 00:33:07,480 --> 00:33:09,600 Moment in that. In that. 585 00:33:09,600 --> 00:33:12,360 Picky. Room that you know that we had 586 00:33:12,360 --> 00:33:15,160 that was like wow like solidifying just like our faith 587 00:33:15,160 --> 00:33:17,520 in our. Our continued trust in God. 588 00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:22,200 What does now like, 'cause I know you're a son's older and so 589 00:33:22,600 --> 00:33:25,320 he's been with like maybe y'all's parents or? 590 00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:27,680 Yes. So during this time, he's been 591 00:33:27,680 --> 00:33:31,080 back and forth with my in laws and my mom. 592 00:33:31,080 --> 00:33:35,000 You know, we also took some time to kind of rotate, you know, 593 00:33:35,000 --> 00:33:37,600 just to be with him. Yeah, I know this has been such 594 00:33:37,600 --> 00:33:40,440 a hard, hard time for him too. You know, he's at that age 595 00:33:40,440 --> 00:33:43,200 where, you know, he's curious, he's learning so much. 596 00:33:43,200 --> 00:33:47,440 He's asking all the questions. He sees things and you know, he 597 00:33:47,440 --> 00:33:50,880 even told my mother-in-law was my family coming back and that 598 00:33:50,880 --> 00:33:53,920 just that just broke because everything happened so fast. 599 00:33:53,960 --> 00:33:57,600 We know we took him to school literally, you know, have been 600 00:33:57,600 --> 00:34:00,800 the hospital since and you know, we FaceTime, thank God for 601 00:34:00,800 --> 00:34:03,800 FaceTime. So you know, to see him and see 602 00:34:03,800 --> 00:34:08,719 sis and you know, kind of like talk with him and he doesn't 603 00:34:08,719 --> 00:34:11,920 know everything right now, of course, at this age like we do, 604 00:34:11,920 --> 00:34:14,239 but trying to just, you know, talk with him little by little. 605 00:34:14,239 --> 00:34:17,679 He knows that and he's not feeling good. 606 00:34:17,719 --> 00:34:19,520 You know, she's going to doctors, you know, they're going 607 00:34:19,520 --> 00:34:21,880 to make her feel better, things like that. 608 00:34:22,400 --> 00:34:24,320 But I know, you know, it's an ongoing process. 609 00:34:24,320 --> 00:34:28,400 So as we go, you know, little by little, just continue to talk 610 00:34:28,400 --> 00:34:32,560 with him and kind of, you know, be there for him, spending time 611 00:34:32,560 --> 00:34:36,520 with them also individually. And because it's like we were 612 00:34:36,520 --> 00:34:39,800 gone and he like grew and like changed so much. 613 00:34:39,800 --> 00:34:44,000 I'm like, what in the what, like weird time go, I know, you know, 614 00:34:44,000 --> 00:34:47,159 so it's just very important to still like have that like, you 615 00:34:47,159 --> 00:34:49,960 know, time with him and you know, being, you know, involving 616 00:34:49,960 --> 00:34:52,560 him, you know, like with what we're going through right now, 617 00:34:52,560 --> 00:34:56,760 because I know it's it's a lot and, you know, checking on him 618 00:34:56,760 --> 00:34:59,920 and just giving him all the extra love right now. 619 00:35:00,760 --> 00:35:04,240 Absolutely. So what exactly does the next 620 00:35:04,480 --> 00:35:09,040 foreseeable future look like? Like do y'all have a plan of 621 00:35:09,040 --> 00:35:11,800 like for her treatments and stuff like that? 622 00:35:11,800 --> 00:35:13,960 What's the doctors necessarily saying? 623 00:35:14,040 --> 00:35:16,960 Yeah. So right now, you know, she's on 624 00:35:16,960 --> 00:35:21,240 chemotherapy, she's going to have like 4 rounds, 4 cycles 625 00:35:21,240 --> 00:35:26,160 right now, every 21 days the the treatment would be inpatient. 626 00:35:26,160 --> 00:35:28,760 So we have to be, you know, admitted to the hospital, you 627 00:35:28,760 --> 00:35:31,240 know, for monitoring and you know all that things. 628 00:35:31,880 --> 00:35:37,520 And after that, you know, those says her to possibly have 629 00:35:37,520 --> 00:35:41,800 surgery, you know, to remove the tumor safely because they want 630 00:35:41,800 --> 00:35:45,120 to make sure that it's, it's small enough, you know, for them 631 00:35:45,120 --> 00:35:47,760 to do that. And then she'll undergo, you 632 00:35:47,760 --> 00:35:50,880 know, more imaging. And I'm sure at that state, 633 00:35:50,880 --> 00:35:54,080 we'll kind of, you know, know a little bit more of what's like 634 00:35:54,080 --> 00:35:56,680 what's next. And she's already had her first 635 00:35:56,680 --> 00:35:58,720 round of chemo, correct? Yeah, she. 636 00:35:58,720 --> 00:36:02,200 Had her first round already, literally the next day after we 637 00:36:02,680 --> 00:36:05,880 were rushed because of, you know, everything was so urgent. 638 00:36:05,880 --> 00:36:08,800 She had to start right away. Like, well, we couldn't wait. 639 00:36:09,080 --> 00:36:11,960 So she went through that and, you know, so far so good. 640 00:36:12,920 --> 00:36:15,440 You know, it's five days of treatment. 641 00:36:15,480 --> 00:36:17,840 You know, she's on three different medications, and then 642 00:36:17,840 --> 00:36:20,280 she'll take two for the remainder of the week. 643 00:36:20,880 --> 00:36:25,880 And so far she's, you know, good. 644 00:36:26,440 --> 00:36:29,160 I think after the fact, you know, we kind of noticed a 645 00:36:29,160 --> 00:36:33,840 little bit of, you know, some thumbs here and there and I 646 00:36:33,840 --> 00:36:37,800 know, you know, moving forward to seeing little things. 647 00:36:38,120 --> 00:36:41,400 But so far, you know, we're back home and she's, she's doing good 648 00:36:41,400 --> 00:36:43,120 in good spirits. She wants to do all the things 649 00:36:43,120 --> 00:36:47,480 herself and being sassy. She was a a spicy patient, 650 00:36:48,960 --> 00:36:53,800 wanting all the things and not wanting and you know, but they 651 00:36:53,800 --> 00:36:55,360 loved her and like the care we have. 652 00:36:55,360 --> 00:36:58,640 It's just which was awesome. You know, we also, you know, 653 00:36:58,640 --> 00:37:01,240 praying for that, too. Doctors and staff, you know, the 654 00:37:01,240 --> 00:37:04,640 medical team, her care team, it's really, really great. 655 00:37:04,640 --> 00:37:06,200 Everyone's been on the same page. 656 00:37:06,680 --> 00:37:11,000 So that's, you know, reassuring and also, you know, being at 657 00:37:11,000 --> 00:37:13,880 peace about that, that we're all on the same page about her 658 00:37:13,880 --> 00:37:16,000 treatment and just, you know, her overall health moving 659 00:37:16,000 --> 00:37:18,080 forward. I love how you set it brought 660 00:37:18,080 --> 00:37:21,240 up, you know, the doctors and the pet and the just the care 661 00:37:21,240 --> 00:37:25,640 team in general is I'm like, I just think they probably when 662 00:37:25,640 --> 00:37:28,560 they walk in, they aren't used to seeing people that are 663 00:37:28,560 --> 00:37:31,520 holding the light, right? Like you, you're you, you're 664 00:37:31,520 --> 00:37:35,680 carrying Jesus with you. And you're just like just truly 665 00:37:36,240 --> 00:37:39,800 shining light in this situation that they probably don't see a 666 00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:43,400 whole lot. So being able to use your story 667 00:37:43,400 --> 00:37:47,520 to reach these maybe doctors and these nurses and that just whole 668 00:37:47,520 --> 00:37:51,240 team is just such another now it's part of your ministry. 669 00:37:51,240 --> 00:37:55,200 You're being able to go witness to these people every 21 days 670 00:37:55,200 --> 00:37:58,560 and get to see them. Yeah, this is a terrible 671 00:37:58,560 --> 00:38:00,680 situation. We would never wish or pray this 672 00:38:00,720 --> 00:38:04,880 on anybody, you know, but now you get to be a light in those 673 00:38:04,880 --> 00:38:08,280 rooms and take it into it. Maybe that people, I've never 674 00:38:08,280 --> 00:38:11,560 even heard the gospel or heard anything about God or anything. 675 00:38:11,560 --> 00:38:14,240 So I just love that. No, and I'm just so thankful to 676 00:38:14,240 --> 00:38:17,880 be able to if it's funny, because when I was little, I 677 00:38:17,880 --> 00:38:21,880 always wanted no matter what I did in life, no matter what I 678 00:38:21,880 --> 00:38:26,760 become my career, I just always wanted, you know, to be a light 679 00:38:26,760 --> 00:38:29,800 to impact a life. And I never understood or knew 680 00:38:29,800 --> 00:38:34,760 what that would look like. And I feel like no matter, no 681 00:38:34,760 --> 00:38:37,640 matter what I'm doing, no matter what I'm going through, I can 682 00:38:37,640 --> 00:38:42,120 still do that and be that. And, you know, I'm just, I'm 683 00:38:42,120 --> 00:38:47,800 just thankful, you know, to just be able to, to carry that and, 684 00:38:48,240 --> 00:38:52,480 and in the midst of, you know, our, our situation or, you know, 685 00:38:53,080 --> 00:38:57,080 our life moments that, you know, you can still shine and 686 00:38:57,800 --> 00:39:00,480 everything's going to be OK, ma'am. 687 00:39:01,280 --> 00:39:03,280 All right, girl. Well, as we begin to close, 688 00:39:04,360 --> 00:39:06,360 let's I'm going to give you 3 options. 689 00:39:06,360 --> 00:39:09,480 OK? So 1, you can say something that 690 00:39:09,480 --> 00:39:11,760 maybe I haven't gave you the chance to say, OK? 691 00:39:11,760 --> 00:39:14,480 Like maybe you came here, you drove here and you're like, I 692 00:39:14,480 --> 00:39:16,080 really want to talk about this and I haven't gave you the 693 00:39:16,080 --> 00:39:19,640 opportunity because I will go no, it's OK everywhere. 694 00:39:20,080 --> 00:39:23,200 And then two, you could maybe give a piece of advice to 695 00:39:23,200 --> 00:39:27,360 someone or three, maybe God's revealed something to you more 696 00:39:27,360 --> 00:39:30,840 recently that just has really set in your spirit and dwelled. 697 00:39:30,920 --> 00:39:33,160 You've been dwelling in that and you want to share. 698 00:39:33,280 --> 00:39:35,840 So how would you like to close this episode out today? 699 00:39:37,160 --> 00:39:40,440 Maybe a little bit of. All three, all three together. 700 00:39:40,440 --> 00:39:42,680 Because I'm just, you know, a little bit of it all. 701 00:39:43,920 --> 00:39:47,360 No, but just really, you know, aside from, you know, as a mom 702 00:39:47,360 --> 00:39:52,120 and parents, you know, right now, you know, being such, you 703 00:39:52,120 --> 00:39:55,080 know, like, I mean, such a young age, just advocating for her. 704 00:39:55,560 --> 00:40:01,440 You know, I'm the type if I see, I'll say, you know, and if you 705 00:40:01,440 --> 00:40:03,080 just really feel like something's going on, you know, 706 00:40:03,080 --> 00:40:11,120 just keep on, don't, don't wait. And but also just in this miss, 707 00:40:11,120 --> 00:40:13,240 you know, I'm really learning a lot about myself, a lot about 708 00:40:13,240 --> 00:40:17,240 of, you know, my faith and, and just, you know, believing and 709 00:40:17,240 --> 00:40:21,120 trusting, you know, it's. Having that relationship, you 710 00:40:21,120 --> 00:40:26,280 know, it takes work just like anyone, you know, and but also 711 00:40:26,280 --> 00:40:29,320 it's just has brought me such a piece to that. 712 00:40:31,080 --> 00:40:36,240 I don't know if I've had that in the past and you know, I've, you 713 00:40:36,240 --> 00:40:39,760 know, went through so much before in my life, but this in 714 00:40:39,760 --> 00:40:42,920 this season, like as a mom, you know, it's, it's so different, 715 00:40:42,920 --> 00:40:47,000 but also encouraging other moms, other women out there, you know, 716 00:40:47,000 --> 00:40:52,200 to to, you know, stay true to yourself, You know, don't give 717 00:40:52,200 --> 00:40:53,440 up. You know, like there's still 718 00:40:53,440 --> 00:40:56,480 hope. And you know, he has you wrapped 719 00:40:56,480 --> 00:40:58,400 in his arms. He's not going to leave you. 720 00:40:59,080 --> 00:41:03,120 He loves you and you know he's going to get you through this. 721 00:41:03,680 --> 00:41:06,920 Yeah, that's good. Girl, this has been so amazing. 722 00:41:06,920 --> 00:41:09,520 I love being able to sit down and just talk to you, get to 723 00:41:09,520 --> 00:41:11,520 know you more. To this you've been so good for 724 00:41:11,520 --> 00:41:13,680 everything. All right, guys. 725 00:41:13,680 --> 00:41:15,960 Well, I hope you enjoyed this as much as we have. 726 00:41:15,960 --> 00:41:19,160 We pray that you just take something away from this. 727 00:41:19,720 --> 00:41:22,640 You maybe you're in the middle of a storm or maybe you're going 728 00:41:22,640 --> 00:41:25,680 through something that you do not see where the strength is 729 00:41:25,680 --> 00:41:28,840 going to come from. But we just pray that you seek 730 00:41:28,840 --> 00:41:32,240 God in this above all else. I know that they are going 731 00:41:32,240 --> 00:41:35,160 through a lot right now. They have a GoFundMe and I'll 732 00:41:35,160 --> 00:41:38,000 also be placing that in the caption of this video. 733 00:41:38,000 --> 00:41:41,160 So if you felt led to give, please do so. 734 00:41:41,160 --> 00:41:44,040 They they have a long road ahead of them and we just want to 735 00:41:44,040 --> 00:41:45,600 support them in any way possible. 736 00:41:45,960 --> 00:41:48,760 So stay tuned, stay blessed, and we'll see you guys later. 737 00:41:49,440 --> 00:41:49,520 Bye.