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What is wrong with me and what 
is wrong with me? 

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I used to look in the mirror and
ask that question almost every 

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single day. 
Why am I so broken? 

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Why am I this way? 
Why can't I just be more? 

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Why can't I be enough? 
What is wrong with me? 

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This question it it haunted me 
for years. 

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I carried it. 
It was the silent wait. 

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I whispered it to myself at 
night. 

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It raced through my thoughts. 
But there's a problem with this 

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question. 
It assumes that you are supposed

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to be something different, 
something different than exactly

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who you are. 
And that simply isn't true. 

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My name is Ethan Jewell and 
welcome back to Feel Your 

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Feelings. 
I've had a lot of big feelings 

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over the years. 
Very, very big feelings. 

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I have driven myself almost 
crazy dealing with these 

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feelings and I realized that not
a lot of people talk about it. 

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So that's the whole point of 
this podcast. 

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I don't want to be a doctor 
telling you exactly what science

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says about your mental health. 
I want to be somebody you can 

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trust, a friend just talking to 
you about my own experience with

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mental health. 
So thank you so much for being 

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here and thank you for feeling 
your feelings with me. 

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Feeling anxious doesn't mean 
that something's wrong with you.

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Feeling sad doesn't mean that 
something's wrong with you. 

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Feeling unmotivated, 
overwhelmed, lost, it doesn't 

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mean that something's wrong with
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It just means you're feeling the
weight of being alive. 

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And that's something that every 
single person that has ever 

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existed and every single person 
that will ever exist will deal 

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with. 
There's nothing wrong with you. 

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You're just human. 
And that's a truth that took me 

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5 long, long years to figure 
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I, I used to stay up every 
single night trying to figure 

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out what was wrong with me 
because I was so convinced that 

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something was broken. 
I, I, I was like, I'm so sad all

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the time. 
I'm so depressed, I'm so 

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anxious. 
Why do I feel this way? 

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And then when when I couldn't 
attach a tangible reason to that

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feeling, I simply became 
convinced that I was broken, 

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that something was wrong. 
We live in a world that 

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constantly tells us we need to 
be more, more productive, more 

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confident, more healed, more 
successful, more happy, more 

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right. 
And when you're surrounded by 

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messages that scream be better, 
it's so easy to translate that 

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into I must be worse. 
But feeling like you could be 

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more doesn't mean that you're 
not enough. 

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Now. 
I mean really think about that. 

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Growth doesn't come from self 
hatred, thinking I could be more

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therefore there's something 
wrong with me and I'm not 

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enough. 
I could be healed but instead 

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I'm sad so I must be broken and 
something is wrong with me. 

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That is not where real growth 
happens. 

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Real growth happens from love, 
not from hate. 

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Real growth is when you stop and
you feel those feelings out of 

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love, when you feel that 
anxiety, when you feel that 

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sadness, when you feel that 
depression and you allow it to 

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exist. 
You allow it to be a part of you

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and you learn from it and you 
love yourself Despite that. 

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That is where growth truly comes
from. 

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Growth will never come from self
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Healing doesn't require you to 
label yourself as broken. 

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Wanting to improve doesn't mean 
that you're starting from a 

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place of being defective. 
The feeling that something is 

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wrong with you is just a 
mismatch between your 

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expectations and your reality. 
You're expecting yourself to 

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always know how to be, to always
be stable, to always be happy, 

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to always be everything for 
everyone. 

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And when you don't meet those 
expectations, you feel like 

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you're falling flat. 
You feel like something is wrong

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and you aren't enough. 
But the human experience is 

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literally the opposite of that. 
You're not meant to have it 

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figured out. 
You're not meant to feel good 

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every single day. 
You're not meant to move through

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life without uncertainty or 
doubt or or pain or feelings. 

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So if you're asking yourself 
what's wrong with me, here's 

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another perspective. 
Nothing is wrong with you. 

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A feeling is happening inside of
you, and those are two very 

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distinctly different things. 
Maybe you're tired because 

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you're caring too much. 
Maybe you're anxious because you

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care deeply about something. 
Maybe you're sad because you're 

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grieving something, someone, a 
version of yourself. 

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Maybe you're unmotivated because
your body is begging you, 

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Forrest. 
Maybe you're overwhelmed because

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you've been pretending to be 
strong for too long. 

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That doesn't mean something's 
wrong with you. 

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What you feel is not a flaw. 
It's a function and an 

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incredibly important part of 
being a human being. 

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That perfection we strive for to
quote, fix whatever is wrong 

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with us. 
It isn't realistic and it isn't 

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true. 
Your struggles are not signs of 

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something wrong. 
They are signs that you're 

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alive, you're in motion, you're 
adapting, you're learning, 

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you're human. 
So the next time that question 

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pops into your mind, what is 
wrong with me, try answering it 

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differently instead of saying 
something is wrong with me and I

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need to fix myself. 
I need to stop being sad, I need

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to stop being anxious, I need to
be more motivated, I need to be 

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better. 
Try saying something is 

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happening within me and I'm I'm 
allowed to feel it. 

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This is a moment, not a 
definition of who I am. 

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I don't need to fix myself. 
I need to understand myself. 

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I need to understand these 
feelings. 

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I need to sit with them. 
I need to learn. 

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I need to feel. 
Because what if there was never 

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anything wrong with you? 
What if those feelings aren't an

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indication that something is 
wrong, but simply that you need 

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to feel something? 
Your feelings hold so much power

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within you that they can cause 
you to assume that something is 

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wrong, to assume that there's 
something deeper going on. 

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But sometimes you just need to 
feel. 

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So I encourage you, when you 
feel some kind of difficult, 

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turbulent feeling, instead of 
immediately jumping to the 

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conclusion that something is 
wrong, try to just sit with that

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feeling for 15 minutes in a 
quiet room. 

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Try to sit with it, see where it
comes from, see where you feel 

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it and understand it. 
And then accept that you don't 

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have to do anything about it 
right away, that that feeling 

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can just exist within you. 
Yes, it's uncomfortable, but 

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it's better than thinking 
something is wrong. 

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There is nothing wrong with you.
You are allowed to feel your 

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feelings. 
Thank you so much for being 

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here. 
If you need help feeling those 

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feelings, you should check out 
my music on all platforms under 

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the name of Ethan Jewell. 
I almost guarantee it'll make 

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you cry. 
Also, drop a comment on this 

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episode. 
Let me know what you think about

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this topic and the idea that 
maybe we just need to feel our 

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feelings a little bit deeper. 
So thank you so much for being 

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here. 
Thank you for understanding that

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nothing is wrong with you and as
always, thank you for feeling 

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your feelings. 
I'll see you next time.