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Welcome to Big EARS 
conversations about music. 

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I'm your host Sarah Gilletti. 
In this episode, music 

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journalist Liz Pelley sits down 
with two young songwriters 

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reimagining roots and Americana 
on their own terms, Hayden 

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Pettigo and SG Goodman. 
Pettigo, A fingerstyle guitarist

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and instrumental songwriter, 
reflects on how growing up in 

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Texas shaped his music and how 
it didn't, while Goodman 

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explores her connection to 
Kentucky's storytelling 

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tradition and how ideas like 
Planting by the Signs and 

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regional colloquialisms find 
their way into her songs. 

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The conversation contrasts their
distinct approaches to 

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songwriting while revealing 
their share challenge of 

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transcending expectation and 
genre in a post everything 

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world. 
Both artists will be performing 

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at the Big Ears Festival in 
Knoxville coming up March 26th 

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through 29th. 
Let's take a listen. 

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Hi, I'm Liz. 
I'm a music journalist space in 

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Brooklyn. 
I'm grateful to Big Ears for the

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invitation to speak with you 
both. 

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I've really enjoyed the 
opportunity to get to spend some

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time with both of your most 
recent records and reading a 

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little bit more about your work 
as a result of this. 

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Just to kind of ground us in 
this conversation, if you could 

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each start by just telling me a 
little bit about where you are 

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calling in from. 
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kind of like geographically 
grounding us, maybe if you could

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just tell me a little bit about 
like the season of life that 

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you're in right now? 
I'm hid Pedigo from Amarillo, 

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TX, but moved to Oklahoma City 
last year. 

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That's where I'm where I'm at 
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I make instrumental guitar 
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It's kind of kind of country 
music, maybe like, in the 

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literal sense of like, where I'm
from, don't use much pedal 

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steel. 
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experimental, you know, country 
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I guess I'm probably doing a bad
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That was great. 
We I think I'm there with you. 

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Anyhow, I'm SG Goodman, 
currently chiming in from my 

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kitchen table in Murray, KY. 
I just got off the road about a 

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little less than a week ago with
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So I just woke up about 20 
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that time zone. 
And as far as what I do on a 

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good day, I make noise that 
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But I, I, I guess I consider 
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kind of floating in the world of
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Americana, you know, doesn't 
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But anyway, welcome to my 
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Well, thanks for having us in. 
And Hayden, are you like, in the

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middle of a tour right now as 
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Yeah, I just got back from 
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tour and then and I played in 
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So I got back last night from 
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week U.S. tour in like 7 days. 
Nice. 

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We're just home for a couple 
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We're all in the middle tours 
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I literally I'm on a book tour 
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I. 
Just got really. 

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Poland last night. 
I've basically been traveling 

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since August. 
But anyway, so we have like a 

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whole Zoom room of like fried 
people who are in the middle of 

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touring right now. 
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Well, nice to meet you both to 
kind of like ground this 

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conversation. 
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meeting in the context of big 
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And at big ears, there are a lot
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amazing names on the lineup of 
artists who operate sort of more

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in the realm of improvisation or
maybe musicians that don't have 

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quite the same kind of 
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But there is this thread running
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just like really incredible 
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So I think a part of the reason 
why this conversation is 

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convened just to sort of have 
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highlighting some of the 
songwriting represented on the 

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lineup. 
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also kind of just lends itself 
to this really interesting 

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opportunity to think about maybe
relationship to genre, which 

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obviously is contested and 
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sort of know is like a tool of 
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But also like, I don't know, I 
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your music, I was thinking like 
SG about how I feel like your 

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music kind of seems to like have
this relationship with tradition

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in a way that I think is really 
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And I felt like your music is 
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commenting on genre and, you 
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engaging with it as a tool 
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So I was just wondering if maybe
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there. 
If like you could both sort of 

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reflect a little bit on like, 
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type of music that you make in 
this lineup or like your 

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relationship with the genre as 
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or is it an idea that you like 
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Yeah, You know, I, I, I think 
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is it seems like even with, you 
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considered more in the 
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singer-songwriter, I think 
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left of center quality about the
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Even with the, you know, I guess
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spirit, especially lyrically 
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most recent album Planted by the
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I've written, I really am into 
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form. 
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music has to do that. 
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joke. 
I did say like country, indie or

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whatever. 
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really think I have a lot of 
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that I would consider, you know,
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But I am from the South and I do
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think when I'm speaking with 
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that people really can't get 
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And so even if I came out with 
the most, you know, crunchy punk

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song anybody's ever written, 
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So it doesn't really matter. 
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said, it is really a tool of the
marketplace and it is in a lot 

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of respects, I think can be a 
useful tool, but also a really 

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harmful tool for artists to be 
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like a little bulletin on top of
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Because a lot of people, I mean,
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know if you experienced this 
with describing yours as country

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instrumental, but a lot of 
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trendy thing right now, country 
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likes, you know? 
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describing what I do because, 
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like, especially if you say 
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what it what is that even? 
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umbrella, but I, I think I, I 
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genre because I do kind of see 
its limitations not only for the

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artist, but especially for the 
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You know, takes away a lot for 
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Doesn't give them a chance of 
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It already colors something. 
That's what I'll say about that.

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about this a lot because I feel 
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is sometimes you can get pegged 
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you happen to be from. 
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from Amarillo, TX, which is like
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country place. 
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listening to when I was younger,
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to country music until I found 
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or 17. 
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person to even reference his 
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has that famous quote where he 
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made country music and he said 
what country and, and laughed 

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about it. 
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was a perfect example of that of
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wasn't far from me just doing 
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But it's like the John, the 
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weird because I, I, I have used,
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ambient country or things like 
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recognize that there's an 
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that, by by being willing to be 
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It's kind of a tough thing 
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past few years, it's like I've 
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and less pedal steel on my 
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Like, I like the pedal steel, 
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about it of like pedal seals, 
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cheese or something of like 
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really good. 
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does this need lobster on top of
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And that's not like an insult to
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I love pedal steel. 
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separate myself just a little 
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And, you know, I've had a lot 
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come up to me saying I was 
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Perfect 10 on a James Ferraro 
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That doesn't seem like something
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And it's like for me, I'm just 
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lot of experimental music and 
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came out of. 
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a cowboy hat and press photos 
slightly as like satirical also 

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because I just think it looks 
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I think it it, it, it looks 
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And what's funny is this like, I
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you're from Texas. 
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like, you know, if I wear a 
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Like it would be like really 
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genre, I think we're in such a 
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Everything age now where you 
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came out, I knew it was like all
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finished. 
Like all of these kids are 

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listening to so much terminally.
They're like terminally online 

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listening to everything. 
Everyone knows about everything.

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There's like 14 year olds 
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something because they're on 
richer music, which is cool. 

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But I'm this this will lead to 
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I'm nervous about this post 
Everything age of accessibility,

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because I was thinking about 
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because everyone's so influenced
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really, there's no like there's 
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music anymore. 
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music is like weirdo basement 
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Like that's, that's like 
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It's like some 13 year old kid 
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Baltimore or something, which is
cool, but I don't know what I'm 

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saying. 
I probably need to stop now. 

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No, I, I think that makes a lot 
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regional music, it's, it's one 
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attention to or I don't, I don't
know if I'd do it super 

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purposefully, but I think that's
like the power. 

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You know, I have lyrics in my 
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colloquialisms, you know, things
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But I, I do agree with you. 
It's like, you know, a lot of 

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people tried to imitate, you 
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or whatever, but they do not 
have like an old time voice or 

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history with it, you know? 
And I think that that does come 

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through sometimes. 
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interesting. 
What you said about it may be 

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causing an issue with preserving
actual regional tradition within

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music. 
That's cool. 

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Yeah, well, I think like it 
sounds a bit like I'm 

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complaining a bit, but I do feel
like we are in the Indy twang 

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epidemic where it's like it it's
it's very popular to make like 

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kind of country adjacent music 
with. 

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And you know, sometimes you, you
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personally because you'll see 
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It's like you're not even from 
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Like, you know, it's like I feel
like I can be kind of a hater 

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about it, where it's like for 
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really have an accent, but 
sometimes I feel like I'm able 

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to, you know, it's like I can 
make fun of the cowboy how to 

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wear it because at least, you 
know, like I'm from from that 

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part of the world. 
But I can, I can acknowledge 

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that within the part of the 
world where I'm from, I'm not 

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even that, you know, it's just 
like, you know, I'm just more of

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a normal person from, you know, 
a certain part of Texas. 

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But I don't know, it's, it's a, 
it's a weird time for this kind 

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of music, whatever this kind of 
music means, I don't know. 

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Well, I just want to say back to
the cowboy hat. 

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I think everybody should wear 
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healthy. 
It's just healthier for your 

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skin. 
And I was like a really pale 

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person. 
I think like, you know, we could

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really do a lot of healing in 
our world if we just actually if

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everybody just embraced the 
cowboy hat. 

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I'll never this world without 
saying what you. 

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Mean you kind of touched on this
Interesting. 

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I can't remember the exact 
phrase you said, but you said 

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that like twang is having a 
moment or something like as. 

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Oh, indie. 
Twang. 

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Yeah, Indie Twang is having a 
moment. 

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I guess I I would be interested 
in as musicians here, you know, 

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from Kentucky, from Texas. 
Like, what do you what do you 

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make of this? 
Why do you think that this is 

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happening? 
Well, you know, since my first 

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record came out that I put out 
like in, you know, had a label 

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and things like 2020, which had 
pedal steel on it, you know, 

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went through a press cycle and 
everything. 

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Everybody was like scratching 
their head at how to describe 

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it, whatever. 
So I was called like indie 

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country, a lot country, adjacent
rock, all that these different 

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things is twang. 
And then as the, you know, the 

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boom as as we're describing of a
country, twang or whatever is 

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coming out. 
Most recently, I think it was 

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Brooklyn Vegan. 
They've always been nice to me, 

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but it was so funny where I've 
been called that like Bob 

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publications like that, possibly
even that publication definitely

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wasn't mentioned as that, even 
though I've been described that 

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way since 2020. 
And then it took like Patterson 

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Hood from the drive by truckers 
to like, say, and actually, this

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person is, you know, been doing 
this for a really long time. 

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But I just think that's the way.
I mean, you know, who fucking 

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cares? 
Like it it it does. 

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You know, who fucking cares 
about like what's hot? 

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It always happens. 
You know, just a few years ago 

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it was like pretty cool to see a
bunch of women in like the sad 

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girl guitar music scene, you 
know, like the boy genius stuff 

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and everything. 
I mean, when I was like a 

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teenager or whatever, that was 
like a really male dominated 

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field, you know, of your kind of
like emotional Moody music kind 

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of thing. 
So it's always just flipping and

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flopping. 
And at the end of the day, like 

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the reason I don't really feel 
like just dissecting these 

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moments and these booms, Like, 
good for you if you're riding 

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that wave. 
But at the end of the day, it's 

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like building community with 
your fan base that like what you

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do. 
And because, yeah, that's the 

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only thing that's going to, 
like, outlive a fad. 

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That's very, very true. 
I mean, like, I don't know. 

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I think the reason why it's like
having a moment right now is 

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just like, I think everyone 
hears like a Waylon Jennings 

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record and it's like, wow, this 
sounds really cool. 

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And I don't blame people for 
being like, man, this sounds 

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like really tight. 
I want to incorporate this into 

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my sound. 
And the pedal still sounds cool.

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And you know, everyone wants to 
be Jason Molina, which I don't 

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even, I mean, that guy wasn't 
that Jason Molina wasn't from 

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the South. 
Where was he from? 

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Like Washington or something? 
I don't actually know his 

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origin. 
I mean, I know like he did. 

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Let's see, what was he on? 
Like secretly. 

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Or. 
Did that, which is out of 

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Indiana. 
I think really we're living in a

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world where like, you know, we 
don't trust anything, We don't 

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believe anything. 
So hearing something as pure as 

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a pedal still is about as 
authentic of a sound and 

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reaching back to something that 
you can get almost I mean, other

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than maybe, I don't know, I 
would say like old fiddle music,

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all of a sudden you, you get 
like this little heart tug or 

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something. 
So I think it there's like, you 

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know, there's a shift like 
everybody was losing their mind 

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when who was it? 
Is it Olivia Rodrigo, that 

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artist, big pop star put like an
acoustic guitar in her in her 

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record and everybody's like 
guitar is on its way back, you 

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know, And I I just think it's 
like a cycle of chasing like a 

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roar more true to you sound. 
And I think that when you put 

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that up against society, it just
makes sense. 

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Yeah. 
I think it's more like people 

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are gravitating towards that. 
That's another reason why, you 

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know, which, like, definitely 
not a discussion I think anybody

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should have, like, what's real 
country music? 

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Who gives a shit? 
You know, we're kind of past 

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that now, which is streaming. 
I think it's about people really

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are wanting to grasp onto an 
authentic identity of some sort 

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for themselves, you know, I 
think. 

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Yeah, still looks like that. 
And also, let's say, do you play

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pedal steel? 
I don't, no. 

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Yeah, it's a freaking hard 
instrument. 

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If you are good at that, then 
one, you probably don't have 

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ADHD because there is a lot to 
be paying attention to. 

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You know, it is like a very hard
instrument to master. 

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And the truth is, like I've been
around who I would say is 

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probably the number 2 pedal 
steel player in all of 

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Nashville. 
Which would maybe make him like 

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the number 2 in like the world, 
you know, So if people are 

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really liking like the half 
assed slides to give a little 

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mood, that's really cool. 
Is it, you know, technically are

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those players like savants and 
their instrument? 

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No, they're not. 
Because you know, it's it's an 

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extremely hard instrument to 
master. 

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Yeah, I think it's like the the 
2 levels are like you're either 

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red roads or you're like Jerry 
Garcia. 

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Like Jerry Garcia like was just 
like, oh, like I'm not very good

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at this, but it sounds cool. 
And I think the steel is like, 

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it reminds me of those old like 
pipe organist for churches that 

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are like one of five in the 
world that can play crazy pipe 

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organ music. 
It's like if you want to be a 

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good steel player, you do have 
to like devote your life just to

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that one thing. 
It's not really meant as a 

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secondary instrument, but I 
think it's easy to sound good on

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pedal steel, but it's incredibly
difficult to be like really, 

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really good at pedal steel. 
But pedal steel is a cool 

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instrument. 
I've, you know, I've obviously 

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used it on my on my records. 
Just to like push on the like 

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using genre as a tool kind of 
question one bit further. 

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You know, Hayden, I was 
listening to an interview that 

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you did where you're talking 
about running for City Council 

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and you talked about how it kind
of like started as a joke and 

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then it became serious. 
And I was thinking about that in

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relation to this like photo of 
you kind of dressed as a cowboy.

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And I was wondering if, like you
thought of it in like a similar 

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way. 
Like, is it something that 

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starts started kind of like 
being funny and then became like

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a more serious embrace? 
Or do you still kind of like do 

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you see those in relation to 
each other at all? 

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I would say I don't just because
the City Council thing, I was a 

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lot younger when that happened, 
but that was a thing that 

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started off as a joke and then 
became serious were me wearing a

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cowboy hat and things like that.
I still view it as partially 

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playing into a character. 
I mean, I use a lot of kind of 

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character in my music and you 
know, it's it's just like I 

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can't view that as becoming more
serious because I don't I don't 

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wear the cowboy hat out in my 
like private day-to-day life. 

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I'll wear it for photos because 
I like, you know, how a photo 

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looks. 
But there's there's so much of 

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the music for me that is a 
character. 

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The thing I take very seriously 
is like the composition, 

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recording a record that sounds 
good, that that's what I take 

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like really serious. 
And I mean, it's something 

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that's always shifting is like 
recently when I play on stage, 

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I've been dressing like Jimmy 
Page. 

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I wear like bell bottoms and 
sweater vests and stuff. 

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And it's just like, I'm not 
Jimmy Page that that's like the,

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the extent of it is I thought it
looked cool. 

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There's like not much logic put 
behind it. 

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So it's like outside of, I don't
know, it's just like basically 

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everything I do, be it music or 
what I wear, is this because 

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they either think it looks cool 
or it sounds cool. 

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And that's about as far as I go 
with it. 

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And a lot of the times there's 
not anything super, super deep 

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behind it. 
So I take it very seriously, but

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I also treat it like a joke in 
the sense of like I'm having fun

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with it. 
And there's, there's, there's 

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not much much behind it outside 
of just having having some fun, 

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I guess. 
I don't like often to ask people

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about their album titles because
I know as a artist and then you 

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get asked about a lot, but both 
of you on your most recent 

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records, it's like quite clear 
that the title of your album 

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also like reveal something about
where you come from and just 

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what's influenced you as 
songwriters. 

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So I was wondering if each of 
you could reflect on, you know, 

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the title of your most recent 
record and also kind of what it 

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says about where you come from. 
So my album is my most recent 

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album is called Planting by the 
Signs, which is this old ancient

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belief system that put it really
just short it. 

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It goes back to an old belief 
where the moon effects water and

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a lot of people felt like there 
was a correlation between 

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certain moon phases and how the 
conditions, how that would lend 

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to different outcomes. 
So like for instance, planting 

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crops or say doing tasks like 
putting shingles on your house. 

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Like, for instance, you would 
want to put shingles on your 

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house when the moon is in a dry 
sign instead of what is 

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considered a moist sign. 
So it can get really kind of 

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like in the weeds. 
But one thing I was drawn to 

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about that was my own experience
with it. 

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I was raised by in the signs and
in a more passive way. 

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It's not like we were gathered 
at the kitchen table and said 

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like, all right, well, the moon 
is in this phase or whatever. 

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It would just be like your 
grandma would say you pull a 

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tooth right now, you're going to
bleed a lot because the signs 

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are in the head. 
You know, which would be signs 

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are in Aries. 
You know, I'm from a very small 

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town in Western Kentucky and not
only like my singing style, 

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probably, I would say most 
definitely is a result of the 

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way people moved across the 
state. 

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So are some of the belief 
systems that people either still

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believe or don't believe in my 
little community. 

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And I just thought it was, you 
know, especially in this time I 

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really focused on the stories we
tell ourselves, the stories we 

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believe in, the stories we let 
go of. 

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And to put that into such a old 
ancient belief system that far 

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predates like people being or I 
guess settlers coming to 

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America. 
It also just talks about how we 

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have shifted those old beliefs 
to fit current narratives, which

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is something humans do every 
day. 

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And I'll leave it with this. 
You know, I come from a really 

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conservative background. 
And I say this that I'm 

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definitely probably for the rest
of my life, a recovering 

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Southern Baptist. 
But, you know, I was raised with

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people who doing something like 
yoga was considered, you know, 

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not Christian. 
But, you know, like I just said,

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grandma would say signs are in 
the head, which is a way, you 

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know, the astrological times are
broken up in body parts. 

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That's a very Pagan belief. 
But yet this is practiced by 

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people who are very conservative
Christian, and they have really 

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melded that belief system into 
their own. 

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So not going to say you're going
to listen up to my record and 

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come away with that completely, 
but it could lead you there if 

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you did do a deep dive into 
that. 

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So I thought it was important to
continue, you know, the way I've

445
00:27:45,640 --> 00:27:50,040
always written music and 
something I take very seriously,

446
00:27:50,040 --> 00:27:53,880
which is the South and rural 
places are complex. 

447
00:27:54,480 --> 00:27:59,920
And I feel like it's it's always
important for me to continue to 

448
00:27:59,920 --> 00:28:02,080
use art as a way to portray 
that. 

449
00:28:03,880 --> 00:28:05,480
Yeah, I know. 
I think that just come through 

450
00:28:05,480 --> 00:28:09,520
and maybe before moving on to 
asking Hayden this kind of 

451
00:28:09,520 --> 00:28:13,240
question, there's a song on your
record that, while I was 

452
00:28:13,240 --> 00:28:16,320
listening to it, really stuck 
out to me called I Can See the 

453
00:28:16,320 --> 00:28:18,560
Devil. 
And I felt like that complexity 

454
00:28:18,560 --> 00:28:20,920
kind of came through that song. 
I was wondering if you could 

455
00:28:21,360 --> 00:28:24,760
just talk a little bit about 
what that song is about or what 

456
00:28:24,760 --> 00:28:26,520
you were trying to get out with 
it. 

457
00:28:27,200 --> 00:28:29,800
Yeah. 
Well, you know, like earlier in 

458
00:28:29,800 --> 00:28:33,160
the conversation I talked about 
using colloquialisms. 

459
00:28:33,280 --> 00:28:40,480
And in that song it definitely, 
I would say maybe more than any 

460
00:28:40,480 --> 00:28:44,760
other on the record, really 
paints a picture of how you know

461
00:28:44,760 --> 00:28:47,200
the type of language that I was 
raised in. 

462
00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:52,600
So there is a old belief where 
if you see the sun coming 

463
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:57,280
through the rain clouds, the sun
shining while it's raining, they

464
00:28:57,280 --> 00:29:01,880
would old people would say the 
devil is beating his wife, which

465
00:29:01,880 --> 00:29:04,760
is a really terrible image, you 
know. 

466
00:29:04,760 --> 00:29:08,720
But it's, and I don't know why 
this means like seeing something

467
00:29:08,720 --> 00:29:13,040
beautiful from something out of 
something bad. 

468
00:29:13,480 --> 00:29:16,040
But that is the way it's thought
about. 

469
00:29:16,480 --> 00:29:24,000
And that entire song is about 
kind of being able to, you know,

470
00:29:24,040 --> 00:29:27,800
kind of using sunshine as like a
lot of people do, is like a 

471
00:29:27,800 --> 00:29:31,400
positive thing that we're seeing
through bad moments or hard 

472
00:29:31,400 --> 00:29:34,960
times. 
But that's an instance where, 

473
00:29:35,120 --> 00:29:41,840
you know, I'm using a very 
specific kind of regional 

474
00:29:41,960 --> 00:29:46,280
colloquialism that I think the 
origins are in. 

475
00:29:46,880 --> 00:29:50,280
Like I know the Irish have a 
saying like that. 

476
00:29:50,320 --> 00:29:53,360
And so which would make sense 
for where I'm from, because 

477
00:29:53,840 --> 00:29:57,560
Appalachia moving across to 
Western Kentucky, like there was

478
00:29:57,560 --> 00:30:03,080
a lot of Irish, Scottish 
settlers and you know, it, it 

479
00:30:03,080 --> 00:30:07,000
allows to talk a little bit 
about history and yeah, just 

480
00:30:07,560 --> 00:30:11,560
throwing some regional 
colloquialisms in there. 

481
00:30:12,480 --> 00:30:15,520
I have another follow up, but 
I'm going to go to Hayden 1st 

482
00:30:15,520 --> 00:30:18,640
and then ask it to both of you. 
So, Hayden, could you talk about

483
00:30:18,640 --> 00:30:23,320
the title of your record and how
it sort of maybe speaks to your 

484
00:30:23,320 --> 00:30:27,640
background? 
Yeah, my new record, it's called

485
00:30:27,640 --> 00:30:29,400
I'll Be Waving As You Drive 
Away. 

486
00:30:29,560 --> 00:30:33,120
It's a title of that episode 2 
parter episode of the show 

487
00:30:33,120 --> 00:30:36,800
Little House on the Prairie, 
which I watched that show a lot 

488
00:30:37,400 --> 00:30:40,120
as a as a kid. 
And then I rewatched it again as

489
00:30:40,120 --> 00:30:42,680
an adult and realized how solid 
of a show it is. 

490
00:30:42,680 --> 00:30:46,080
And what's weird is I picked 
that title just because I find 

491
00:30:46,080 --> 00:30:48,200
it so beautiful. 
I mean, just even if you don't 

492
00:30:48,200 --> 00:30:50,640
know the context of the episode,
I'll be waving as you drive 

493
00:30:50,640 --> 00:30:51,880
away. 
It's just heavy. 

494
00:30:52,200 --> 00:30:55,440
Like people reacted to that 
title very intensely even before

495
00:30:55,440 --> 00:30:57,600
I explained what that title came
from. 

496
00:30:58,000 --> 00:31:00,320
But the short version version of
the episode is in Little House 

497
00:31:00,320 --> 00:31:03,400
in the Prairie, the oldest 
daughter, Mary Angles begins to 

498
00:31:03,400 --> 00:31:06,480
lose her eyesight and she goes 
blind. 

499
00:31:06,640 --> 00:31:09,720
The family sends her to a school
for the blind like a stayed over

500
00:31:09,720 --> 00:31:13,160
I believe. 
And for the two-part episode she

501
00:31:13,160 --> 00:31:16,440
meets one of the the teachers at
the school for the blind who's 

502
00:31:16,440 --> 00:31:19,680
this guy around the same age as 
her. 

503
00:31:19,720 --> 00:31:22,640
They fall in love. 
At the end of the two-part 

504
00:31:22,640 --> 00:31:25,320
episode, Mary has to go back 
home to be with her family. 

505
00:31:25,560 --> 00:31:29,440
And at the end, in front of the 
schoolhouse with like, tears in 

506
00:31:29,440 --> 00:31:33,280
her eyes, he's saying to her, 
I'll be waving as you drive away

507
00:31:33,440 --> 00:31:34,880
because they can't see each 
other. 

508
00:31:35,520 --> 00:31:38,440
And every time the end of 
episode gets me, there's 

509
00:31:38,440 --> 00:31:41,480
something insanely gut, gut 
punching about that. 

510
00:31:41,480 --> 00:31:44,080
Even now. 
It's very touching and sweet. 

511
00:31:44,520 --> 00:31:47,680
But what's interesting now 
looking at it the the appeal to 

512
00:31:47,680 --> 00:31:50,000
Little House on the Prairie to 
me, I've realized has a lot of 

513
00:31:50,000 --> 00:31:52,200
similarities with my music. 
Because I view Little House on 

514
00:31:52,200 --> 00:31:56,360
the Prairie is like this 
Disneyland ride version of the 

515
00:31:56,360 --> 00:31:58,920
Western days. 
Like there's something very like

516
00:31:58,920 --> 00:32:01,760
animatronic robot like this is 
how it went. 

517
00:32:02,320 --> 00:32:05,120
Also, I think people don't 
realize how insane that show is.

518
00:32:05,120 --> 00:32:08,440
It's a very bizarre show that 
stands out amongst all other 

519
00:32:08,440 --> 00:32:12,760
kind of melodramatic 70s TV 
because some of the episodes get

520
00:32:12,760 --> 00:32:16,960
really trippy and almost druggy 
with how like strange it goes 

521
00:32:16,960 --> 00:32:19,960
out there. 
And I think that that's 

522
00:32:19,960 --> 00:32:23,600
something I pull from in my own 
music is there's this Disneyland

523
00:32:23,600 --> 00:32:27,880
animatronic ride version of 
Amarillo, TX that I like to show

524
00:32:27,880 --> 00:32:29,800
to people. 
Me and my friend used to have a 

525
00:32:29,800 --> 00:32:33,480
joke about the idea of 
Disneyland opening an Avatar 

526
00:32:33,480 --> 00:32:37,320
ride like the the James Cameron 
movie Avatar, where we said it 

527
00:32:37,320 --> 00:32:41,560
would be like Avatar Wild West 
Saloon, where like the the Navi 

528
00:32:41,560 --> 00:32:45,000
characters would be dressed up 
as Cowboys doing poker or 

529
00:32:45,000 --> 00:32:47,400
something like that. 
I know this doesn't make sense, 

530
00:32:47,400 --> 00:32:49,720
but that's the idea of my music 
is like everything was a 

531
00:32:49,720 --> 00:32:53,360
Disneyland ride with like 
animatronics and it's funny, 

532
00:32:53,360 --> 00:32:57,520
terrifying and disturbing. 
And I think that's what I'm 

533
00:32:57,520 --> 00:32:59,440
trying to do with my music. 
Even with the Little House on 

534
00:32:59,440 --> 00:33:02,040
the Prairie record, as I'm 
pulling your Little House on the

535
00:33:02,040 --> 00:33:05,000
Prairie episode being the title 
of the record is I'm pulling 

536
00:33:05,000 --> 00:33:08,480
from all of these things that 
are completely absurd like, 

537
00:33:08,480 --> 00:33:10,640
well, House on the Prairie is 
not a good way to show someone 

538
00:33:10,640 --> 00:33:13,080
like an accurate representation 
of that time. 

539
00:33:13,280 --> 00:33:16,960
My music is not even a truthful 
representation of what it's like

540
00:33:16,960 --> 00:33:20,080
to be from Amarillo. 
I'm telling like this 

541
00:33:20,080 --> 00:33:22,920
outlandish, cartoony version of 
it, even down to the album 

542
00:33:22,920 --> 00:33:26,120
cover. 
And, you know, like my album 

543
00:33:26,120 --> 00:33:29,160
covers are weirdly disturbing. 
I think like, they're very 

544
00:33:29,160 --> 00:33:33,040
bright and painted and funny, 
but there's, you know, a dread 

545
00:33:33,040 --> 00:33:33,880
to them. 
This. 

546
00:33:33,880 --> 00:33:37,120
This album ended a trilogy 
called the Motor Trilogy because

547
00:33:37,120 --> 00:33:40,560
each cover has a vehicle on it. 
But the second record is me in 

548
00:33:40,560 --> 00:33:43,600
front of a Walmart with a 
burning Nissan behind me. 

549
00:33:43,600 --> 00:33:47,000
The first one is me in corpse 
paint in front of an 18 Wheeler.

550
00:33:47,400 --> 00:33:50,320
And growing up, my dad was a 
pastor at a truck stop in 

551
00:33:50,320 --> 00:33:52,320
Amarillo. 
The Petro truck stop had a 18 

552
00:33:52,320 --> 00:33:54,280
Wheeler that was converted into 
a church. 

553
00:33:54,280 --> 00:33:57,800
So I spent a lot of time out 
there, but it's like I'm taking 

554
00:33:57,800 --> 00:33:59,640
all of these. 
I'm taking all these references,

555
00:33:59,640 --> 00:34:02,680
putting them together, but I'm 
making them like a not truthful 

556
00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:04,320
telling. 
It's not supposed to be 

557
00:34:04,320 --> 00:34:08,199
truthful. 
It's funny and disturbing and 

558
00:34:08,199 --> 00:34:11,440
it's it's it's my way of like 
being dishonest. 

559
00:34:11,440 --> 00:34:13,679
But when I titled the episode of
Little House on the Prairie 

560
00:34:13,679 --> 00:34:16,360
title, it's the most honest 
thing I can tell because it's 

561
00:34:16,360 --> 00:34:19,880
something that I still find very
sweet and touching. 

562
00:34:20,040 --> 00:34:22,440
And for me, when I titled it, 
I'll be waiting as you drive 

563
00:34:22,440 --> 00:34:25,120
away. 
It's a message to the people 

564
00:34:25,120 --> 00:34:27,800
that follow my music. 
It's a weird way of saying, 

565
00:34:27,800 --> 00:34:31,199
like, I wish you well as you go 
on, you know, on your journey in

566
00:34:31,199 --> 00:34:34,600
life, that's this very dark 
funhouse. 

567
00:34:34,719 --> 00:34:38,360
Like, life is this comical 
funhouse of, like, atrocities 

568
00:34:38,360 --> 00:34:41,000
and warped mirrors. 
And we're laughing and crying. 

569
00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:44,440
And what was weird is this 
happens every time that I title 

570
00:34:44,440 --> 00:34:47,120
a record, and then I find out 
what the meaning is later. 

571
00:34:47,120 --> 00:34:49,280
Like, I just choose a title 
because it sounds good. 

572
00:34:49,600 --> 00:34:51,639
But it's like, I titled the 
record I'll be waiting as you 

573
00:34:51,639 --> 00:34:54,000
drive away. 
And then weeks before my album 

574
00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:57,200
came out, I had to go out to Los
Angeles with my parents because 

575
00:34:57,200 --> 00:35:01,400
we found out my aunt was dying 
of cancer. 

576
00:35:01,400 --> 00:35:06,640
She'd like hit it, didn't tell 
anybody and and we had to get 

577
00:35:06,720 --> 00:35:10,480
out there and drive her in a 
rented minivan to Amarillo to be

578
00:35:10,480 --> 00:35:15,200
with my grandmother and family. 
And she like passed literally 

579
00:35:15,200 --> 00:35:17,600
like 2 weeks after we got her 
home. 

580
00:35:17,720 --> 00:35:20,080
It was so weird. 
And it was like titled the 

581
00:35:20,080 --> 00:35:22,000
record I'll be waving as you 
drive away. 

582
00:35:22,160 --> 00:35:25,840
And it was it was intense. 
I played my album release show 

583
00:35:25,840 --> 00:35:29,840
days after she passed and it was
just kind of, it's eerie. 

584
00:35:29,840 --> 00:35:32,400
You're like, Oh my gosh, like 
that album titled directly 

585
00:35:32,400 --> 00:35:35,040
applied to that situation. 
I didn't even know it yet. 

586
00:35:35,400 --> 00:35:38,640
So it's like something you start
off being funny about as a 

587
00:35:38,880 --> 00:35:43,960
Avatar Poker Disneyland ride 
turns into something very 

588
00:35:43,960 --> 00:35:48,000
serious and heavy. 
So I guess that's that's the 

589
00:35:48,000 --> 00:35:51,160
reason why I tell myself that as
it starts off like that sounds 

590
00:35:51,160 --> 00:35:54,280
cool, and then it turns into 
something that applied to me, 

591
00:35:54,600 --> 00:35:57,200
maybe in a way I didn't want it 
to at the time. 

592
00:35:57,280 --> 00:36:01,400
But you realize that that's 
that's why you make art is it's 

593
00:36:01,400 --> 00:36:04,160
a it it represents a period of 
time in your life and you have 

594
00:36:04,160 --> 00:36:07,080
something to attach it to. 
And it all goes back to Little 

595
00:36:07,080 --> 00:36:10,400
House on the Prairie. 
You know, show that I enjoyed a 

596
00:36:10,400 --> 00:36:13,440
lot as a kid and now applies to 
my life now, I guess. 

597
00:36:32,890 --> 00:36:35,530
Something that I'm struck by is 
that it really seems like you're

598
00:36:35,530 --> 00:36:40,090
both sort of like students of 
the the subject matter that 

599
00:36:40,090 --> 00:36:44,650
you're writing about or it just 
feels like you must both do a 

600
00:36:44,650 --> 00:36:48,730
lot of like reading and taking 
in of information. 

601
00:36:49,330 --> 00:36:53,280
I was wondering if that is true,
and if so, if you could tell me 

602
00:36:53,280 --> 00:36:55,960
a little bit about like your 
studies, like the things that 

603
00:36:55,960 --> 00:37:00,080
you read and and take in as 
you're working on music? 

604
00:37:00,360 --> 00:37:04,680
Yeah, well, I come from like a 
philosophy background. 

605
00:37:04,680 --> 00:37:08,440
That's what my degree is in. 
And I've always loved to read, 

606
00:37:08,920 --> 00:37:12,440
but also just maybe been in like
a major dork, you know? 

607
00:37:12,480 --> 00:37:15,960
And and I'm not ashamed of it at
all. 

608
00:37:16,160 --> 00:37:18,080
I kind of love that about 
myself. 

609
00:37:18,080 --> 00:37:23,560
But this, you know, approaching 
like planting by the signs, 

610
00:37:24,280 --> 00:37:30,760
especially when it comes to my 
lyrics, I think that you can 

611
00:37:30,760 --> 00:37:35,000
really tell when something is 
forced in pretty much well 

612
00:37:35,000 --> 00:37:37,680
anything and but especially when
riding. 

613
00:37:38,120 --> 00:37:44,080
And so I knew if I wanted to 
have details about that go back 

614
00:37:44,080 --> 00:37:47,880
to the belief system of planning
by the sun, then I needed to 

615
00:37:47,880 --> 00:37:52,960
just fill up on everything I 
could get my hands on way before

616
00:37:52,960 --> 00:37:56,960
I actually wrote the songs. 
So that when it came down, I 

617
00:37:56,960 --> 00:37:59,840
wasn't, I didn't have a book 
cracked in front of me trying to

618
00:37:59,840 --> 00:38:05,480
fit in this particular detail. 
It was second nature for that to

619
00:38:05,480 --> 00:38:07,880
be in my consciousness, you 
know? 

620
00:38:08,240 --> 00:38:15,000
So I think that's really 
important for my writing and it 

621
00:38:15,000 --> 00:38:24,240
also, you know, I'll say that 
I've done a lot of manual labor 

622
00:38:24,240 --> 00:38:29,000
in my life and I really do well 
creatively when I have that as 

623
00:38:29,000 --> 00:38:35,080
an option. 
And as touring has become more 

624
00:38:35,080 --> 00:38:39,600
and more intense over the years,
I mean, I, I tore away too much,

625
00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:43,400
honestly. 
But it is there's some manual 

626
00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:47,320
labor aspects of going on tour, 
but not really not like what I'm

627
00:38:47,320 --> 00:38:50,160
used to. 
Not enough to get in that moment

628
00:38:50,160 --> 00:38:53,440
where you're kind of like able 
to get out of your way in your 

629
00:38:53,440 --> 00:38:57,000
head. 
And so I think, you know, 

630
00:38:57,000 --> 00:39:02,560
reading and, and giving myself a
subject matter has I've been 

631
00:39:02,560 --> 00:39:05,080
able to kind of tap into that a 
little bit. 

632
00:39:06,960 --> 00:39:11,400
So yeah, I'm you pegged me. 
I'm a reader. 

633
00:39:11,400 --> 00:39:14,200
I don't know. 
Are there any like particular 

634
00:39:14,200 --> 00:39:17,200
books or texts that really 
influenced you while you were 

635
00:39:17,200 --> 00:39:21,520
writing this record? 
Yeah, so there's an old series 

636
00:39:21,520 --> 00:39:26,920
called the Foxfire series that 
are kind of a lot of not only 

637
00:39:26,920 --> 00:39:36,520
how TOS as far as as as far as 
like how to do, you know, kind 

638
00:39:36,520 --> 00:39:41,120
of task in like the mountains, 
like, you know, process a hog or

639
00:39:41,120 --> 00:39:44,320
build a cabin or whatever. 
But it also has a whole section 

640
00:39:44,800 --> 00:39:50,120
on moon planting or planting by 
the signs. 

641
00:39:51,360 --> 00:39:55,240
So that was an interesting text.
And there's there's been a few 

642
00:39:56,800 --> 00:40:02,560
books about, you know, like the 
Farmer's Almanac has things 

643
00:40:02,560 --> 00:40:06,200
about planting by the signs in 
every year, but a lot of that 

644
00:40:06,200 --> 00:40:10,120
too, because this. 
Really is a tradition passed 

645
00:40:10,120 --> 00:40:12,600
down orally. 
You know, that's how it still 

646
00:40:12,600 --> 00:40:19,240
exists right now. 
I went and spoke to people who 

647
00:40:19,240 --> 00:40:25,000
still practice this and asked 
them where it's, you know, how 

648
00:40:25,000 --> 00:40:29,560
they learned about it. 
And I even incorporated voice 

649
00:40:29,560 --> 00:40:34,080
overs, field recordings into 
this record because, you know, 

650
00:40:34,920 --> 00:40:38,320
the nuts and bolts of the record
is, like I said, about the 

651
00:40:38,320 --> 00:40:41,120
stories we choose to believe or 
let go of. 

652
00:40:41,640 --> 00:40:45,680
And I think it I really wanted 
to portray how stories are given

653
00:40:45,680 --> 00:40:48,960
to us as well. 
You know, we got music and we 

654
00:40:48,960 --> 00:40:52,320
have filled recordings of 
people's actual voices. 

655
00:40:53,560 --> 00:40:59,000
So yeah, all those were really 
important. 

656
00:40:59,080 --> 00:41:03,800
And there was, it was a lot of 
fun. 

657
00:41:04,480 --> 00:41:07,080
It was a lot of fun to to do 
that research. 

658
00:41:11,880 --> 00:41:17,640
I well love hearing about the 
research process that went into 

659
00:41:17,640 --> 00:41:19,920
your record. 
Would love to hear more about 

660
00:41:19,920 --> 00:41:26,440
that honestly at some point. 
But Hayden, could you talk a 

661
00:41:26,440 --> 00:41:31,400
little bit about like, you know,
are there any literary 

662
00:41:31,400 --> 00:41:35,320
influences or books that have 
informed your work or in 

663
00:41:35,320 --> 00:41:38,640
general, like what it what does 
studies look like for you? 

664
00:41:40,200 --> 00:41:43,880
I think this most recent record 
it it, it might sound kind of 

665
00:41:43,880 --> 00:41:46,640
boring, but I felt like the 
thing I was drawing from so hard

666
00:41:46,800 --> 00:41:50,640
is I was going back to the 
records in high school that kind

667
00:41:50,640 --> 00:41:55,960
of influenced me so much because
I thought those influences have 

668
00:41:55,960 --> 00:41:58,360
never failed me. 
So I was returning to things 

669
00:41:58,360 --> 00:42:01,200
like old Genesis records and 
prog rock albums. 

670
00:42:01,200 --> 00:42:05,560
And I wrote the majority of this
album during a residency out in 

671
00:42:05,560 --> 00:42:09,400
Wyoming. 
And I was just in in silence. 

672
00:42:09,400 --> 00:42:11,480
They they put me in this house 
kind of out in the middle of 

673
00:42:11,480 --> 00:42:16,000
nowhere. 
And it what was strange is I 

674
00:42:16,000 --> 00:42:18,600
remember calling my parents 
during that residency to write 

675
00:42:18,600 --> 00:42:19,960
this record where I said, it's 
weird. 

676
00:42:19,960 --> 00:42:24,520
I've been like crying multiple 
times and I'm not sure why I was

677
00:42:24,520 --> 00:42:27,680
very confused by because I was 
by myself in this house and I 

678
00:42:27,680 --> 00:42:32,200
realized the silence in this 
home was so intense that was 

679
00:42:32,200 --> 00:42:35,120
flipping me out and I realized I
was like, man, like I'm not I'm 

680
00:42:35,120 --> 00:42:38,040
not exposed to this level of 
silence ever. 

681
00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:41,000
I think most of us aren't. 
So I think it's like for me, the

682
00:42:41,000 --> 00:42:43,160
really the only two things I was
pulling from when I was writing 

683
00:42:43,160 --> 00:42:45,720
this record was the influence of
silence during the writing 

684
00:42:45,720 --> 00:42:47,800
process. 
But then I was going back to 

685
00:42:47,800 --> 00:42:51,320
things like the lamb was down on
Broadway by Genesis, certain 

686
00:42:51,320 --> 00:42:54,480
John Fahey records. 
I mean, but it's like my 

687
00:42:54,480 --> 00:42:57,080
influence is when making a 
record are like really simple. 

688
00:42:57,080 --> 00:43:00,400
It's like I watched like 
American Graffiti again. 

689
00:43:00,480 --> 00:43:02,760
Like I watched American Graffiti
last year. 

690
00:43:02,760 --> 00:43:04,080
I hadn't seen that movie in 
years. 

691
00:43:04,400 --> 00:43:07,040
And I was like, this is the 
greatest film of all time. 

692
00:43:07,040 --> 00:43:10,680
Like I was, I was so enamoured 
again by American Graffiti. 

693
00:43:11,160 --> 00:43:13,720
And it's like when people I was 
like, what inspired this new 

694
00:43:13,720 --> 00:43:14,880
album? 
I'm like, well, House on the 

695
00:43:14,880 --> 00:43:18,920
Prairie, Genesis, American 
Graffiti, like I think that 

696
00:43:18,920 --> 00:43:23,920
might be it, but it it it, it 
sounds kind of boring because I 

697
00:43:23,920 --> 00:43:25,680
don't, I don't have like these 
deep things. 

698
00:43:25,680 --> 00:43:28,000
But again, like I said, it's 
like a lot of them, the 

699
00:43:28,000 --> 00:43:31,120
influences are meaning or things
comes like after the record is 

700
00:43:31,120 --> 00:43:33,720
done, where am I? 
Oh man, I didn't even know I 

701
00:43:33,720 --> 00:43:36,640
was, I was influenced by that. 
There was like something that 

702
00:43:36,640 --> 00:43:39,040
happened. 
So you're working in reverse 

703
00:43:39,040 --> 00:43:41,720
order or something where it's 
just like I make the record and 

704
00:43:41,720 --> 00:43:45,560
become inspired later, or I 
figure out what the inspiration 

705
00:43:45,560 --> 00:43:49,600
was while I was making it. 
But I, I was just, I was really 

706
00:43:49,600 --> 00:43:52,960
obsessed with like making a 
record that sounds nice, you 

707
00:43:52,960 --> 00:43:56,040
know, it's just like it's, it 
always goes back to me saying 

708
00:43:56,040 --> 00:43:58,720
this sounds cool. 
It's just like a fight. 

709
00:43:58,720 --> 00:44:01,400
If I write something that sounds
cool, then I feel good. 

710
00:44:01,400 --> 00:44:05,360
Or if I record something and it 
sounds cool, I try not to really

711
00:44:05,360 --> 00:44:10,640
put too much thought into it. 
But my whole, I guess process 

712
00:44:10,640 --> 00:44:13,880
with everything is when in 
doubt, always go back to the 

713
00:44:13,880 --> 00:44:17,880
things that that worked for you 
originally. 

714
00:44:18,080 --> 00:44:21,760
Like whenever in doubt, I put on
the Genesis record and I 

715
00:44:21,760 --> 00:44:24,240
remember like, OK, that's like 
that. 

716
00:44:24,240 --> 00:44:27,880
That's the root of every single 
thing I do comes from the way I 

717
00:44:27,880 --> 00:44:30,760
felt when I heard a Genesis 
record and it worked. 

718
00:44:30,840 --> 00:44:33,040
It always works. 
It's never failed me. 

719
00:44:33,040 --> 00:44:35,400
And if there's a day where it 
doesn't work, I'll quit music 

720
00:44:35,400 --> 00:44:39,080
because that means like I've 
lost all inspiration I guess. 

721
00:44:39,080 --> 00:44:41,400
But I don't know. 
My role is like only be inspired

722
00:44:41,400 --> 00:44:46,440
by like 3 things at once. 
Otherwise, you know, you drowned

723
00:44:46,480 --> 00:44:49,160
and it's easy for me to drown in
inspiration. 

724
00:44:50,240 --> 00:44:52,080
There's too much to be inspired 
by right now. 

725
00:44:52,080 --> 00:44:54,880
Which is, which is a good thing 
artistically. 

726
00:44:54,880 --> 00:44:58,240
But yeah, I guess like American 
graffiti or something. 

727
00:45:15,080 --> 00:45:17,720
You, you, you, You brought up 
this idea of silence. 

728
00:45:18,080 --> 00:45:23,720
And I saw like a few things that
you posted online about how 

729
00:45:23,720 --> 00:45:27,560
there's a lot of silence in your
live shows and how, you know, 

730
00:45:28,720 --> 00:45:32,680
you feel like maybe one of the 
reasons why people are drawn to 

731
00:45:32,720 --> 00:45:35,920
your music is because it's sort 
of like a quiet place to get 

732
00:45:35,920 --> 00:45:38,840
like some reprieve from like a 
very noisy world. 

733
00:45:38,840 --> 00:45:41,840
Am I getting that like quote 
right of what you wrote? 

734
00:45:41,840 --> 00:45:42,960
Online. 
Yes, yes. 

735
00:45:43,080 --> 00:45:44,880
OK. 
And I was thinking about it 

736
00:45:44,880 --> 00:45:47,600
'cause I was, I was also sort of
thinking about it in relation to

737
00:45:48,040 --> 00:45:51,120
this interview with SG that I 
read where I think it was like 

738
00:45:51,400 --> 00:45:54,520
Rolling Stone sort of called you
a minister of, of grief. 

739
00:45:54,760 --> 00:45:58,920
And I was just thinking about 
how, like, you know, both of you

740
00:45:59,000 --> 00:46:04,040
seem to have this kind of 
relationship to maybe like 

741
00:46:04,360 --> 00:46:10,960
ritual or creating moments in 
your music for people to maybe 

742
00:46:10,960 --> 00:46:14,640
sit with like harder things. 
And I don't know, I was kind of 

743
00:46:14,640 --> 00:46:18,960
wondering if either of you if 
that resonated with either of 

744
00:46:18,960 --> 00:46:22,080
you or if you saw any kind of 
commonality there that you'd 

745
00:46:22,080 --> 00:46:29,480
want to touch on? 
I don't know. 

746
00:46:29,480 --> 00:46:33,800
I guess I, I guess the root, the
root for me, like in the the 

747
00:46:34,680 --> 00:46:38,760
silence thing is, I can, I can 
definitely see it being a ritual

748
00:46:38,800 --> 00:46:42,840
within my shows because I've 
only been playing live really 

749
00:46:42,840 --> 00:46:45,800
since 2023. 
I was really late to touring. 

750
00:46:45,880 --> 00:46:49,400
I like worked normal jobs for a 
long time and was too scared to 

751
00:46:49,400 --> 00:46:52,480
tour. 
But the very first two I ever 

752
00:46:52,480 --> 00:46:55,320
did was opening for Jenny Lewis 
in 2023. 

753
00:46:55,800 --> 00:47:00,080
And those were pretty big rooms.
And by the first show in 

754
00:47:00,080 --> 00:47:03,320
Chicago, I realized I was in 
over my head just as a solo 

755
00:47:03,320 --> 00:47:06,320
acoustic guitar player playing 
these, these larger rooms. 

756
00:47:06,720 --> 00:47:10,560
But I, I, I realized that 
silence is like fire. 

757
00:47:10,560 --> 00:47:13,960
It's like it, it can be used 
good, used for good if you know 

758
00:47:13,960 --> 00:47:17,200
how to control it a certain way.
And so initially I felt like I 

759
00:47:17,200 --> 00:47:19,480
was punishing the audience with 
silence. 

760
00:47:19,680 --> 00:47:22,200
Like I would come out and sit in
the chair and like sit for 15 

761
00:47:22,200 --> 00:47:25,760
seconds before saying anything 
because people start to pause 

762
00:47:25,760 --> 00:47:27,720
and kind of go like, is this guy
OK? 

763
00:47:27,720 --> 00:47:30,880
Like what's he doing? 
And over time, I realized with 

764
00:47:30,880 --> 00:47:33,840
silence, you can use it in a way
of like, I want someone to be 

765
00:47:33,840 --> 00:47:36,680
afraid to open their beer. 
That's the goal. 

766
00:47:36,680 --> 00:47:40,040
Because if people know you take 
pauses in your music, they're so

767
00:47:40,040 --> 00:47:42,280
intentional about when they 
crack that because they hate to 

768
00:47:42,280 --> 00:47:46,160
be the one person doing that. 
But then over time after using 

769
00:47:46,160 --> 00:47:49,520
after using it more in a 
punisher way, people start to 

770
00:47:49,520 --> 00:47:54,080
get accustomed to the silence. 
And I've, I realized that, you 

771
00:47:54,080 --> 00:47:56,240
know, it's like a lot of the 
times, the only times we like 

772
00:47:56,240 --> 00:47:58,600
feel silence in a large group is
like in something really 

773
00:47:58,600 --> 00:48:02,720
terrible has happened. 
And if you can find a way to get

774
00:48:02,720 --> 00:48:05,680
a whole audience to be in 
silence with you for a positive 

775
00:48:05,680 --> 00:48:09,360
reason, it can feel intense. 
And it's still for me feels very

776
00:48:09,360 --> 00:48:11,360
intense when I take these 
pauses. 

777
00:48:11,760 --> 00:48:14,960
A lot of the times I play the 
theme to Brokeback Mountain Live

778
00:48:15,800 --> 00:48:19,080
when I'm playing my shows and I 
like it because the pauses are 

779
00:48:19,080 --> 00:48:22,320
really excruciatingly long and I
have to catch myself because 

780
00:48:22,320 --> 00:48:26,080
there's times I've almost speed 
through them because I get 

781
00:48:26,080 --> 00:48:28,640
uncomfortable. 
But it's kind of like be willing

782
00:48:28,640 --> 00:48:32,640
to take the 10 second pause, 
like there's a reason for this. 

783
00:48:32,640 --> 00:48:35,640
And if you're, if you commit to 
it, the audience will pick up on

784
00:48:35,640 --> 00:48:38,040
that intention and they'll 
respond to it. 

785
00:48:38,160 --> 00:48:41,200
And over time, I've learned the 
audiences, at least my audiences

786
00:48:41,480 --> 00:48:45,160
are, are, are far more willing 
to give than I ever thought they

787
00:48:45,160 --> 00:48:47,560
were. 
Like they're, they want to be in

788
00:48:47,560 --> 00:48:51,360
silence with you. 
And there's a power in that. 

789
00:48:51,360 --> 00:48:54,040
But I mean, there's a silent 
grief in that silence, even 

790
00:48:54,040 --> 00:48:58,320
amidst the positivity of it all.
When you're silent with everyone

791
00:48:58,320 --> 00:49:01,320
you can, you can suddenly feel 
the weight of what everyone's 

792
00:49:01,320 --> 00:49:03,000
caring. 
You just don't know what it is, 

793
00:49:03,000 --> 00:49:15,140
you know? 
Thank you both for your time. 

794
00:49:15,140 --> 00:49:18,740
And this has been, yeah, really 
cool. 

795
00:49:19,220 --> 00:49:22,200
And I'm glad today I have to 
speak with you both. 

796
00:49:22,440 --> 00:49:24,040
So thanks. 
Thank you. 

797
00:49:24,400 --> 00:49:27,160
It was great to meet you all. 
Yeah, absolutely. 

798
00:49:27,160 --> 00:49:29,760
It's so nice to meet you and 
look forward to hearing your 

799
00:49:29,760 --> 00:49:40,160
set. 
Oh, you child. 

800
00:49:40,200 --> 00:49:47,600
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801
00:49:47,600 --> 00:49:50,320
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802
00:49:50,880 --> 00:49:54,240
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803
00:49:54,240 --> 00:49:56,920
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804
00:49:56,920 --> 00:50:01,440
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00:50:04,960 --> 00:50:10,440
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807
00:50:10,880 --> 00:50:14,280
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