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Welcome to the doctor nurse 
podcast. 

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I'm your host dr. 
Sandra Penta, I'm a doctor, Lee 

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prepared nurse practitioner and 
I am so glad you decided to join

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me today. 
The doctor nurse podcast is a 

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podcast for nurses and nurse 
practitioners that are wanting 

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to understand what exactly their
degrees can do for them. 

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After the birth of my son, I had
this aching desire to have more 

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flexibility in my career 
choices. 

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Despite feeling like all the 
alphabet soup, after my name, 

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didn't really afford me. 
Me very many options, I launched

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the podcast to find the answers 
that I, so desperately needed. 

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I also knew I couldn't be the 
only nurse who felt this way. 

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This is sound like you, if so, 
come and hang out with me as I 

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figure out what our nursing 
degrees can give us access to as

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far as career flexibility 
control over our schedules and 

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Entrepreneurship my talking with
NPCs and rs who are doing 

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exactly that. 
Sit back and enjoy the Station. 

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Hi, doctor nurse podcast Nation.
Welcome to another episode. 

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Today we have on Melanie and she
is a graduate of the University 

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of Wisconsin in 2018, with her 
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interesting. 
Little side note for her career,

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she actually did not pass her in
class in the first time, but she

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still became a nurse. 
She's still fabulous, she's 

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doing her own thing. 
She's here to tell you about her

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journey today, and the fact that
you've got to prioritize The 

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things that make you feel alive 
and your career in order to be a

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good nurse. 
So I am so excited to have you 

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on today. 
I've introduced you prior to the

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podcast and give him all your 
little factoids about your 

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degrees and everything else like
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But I'm so happy to have you on 
today Melanie. 

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I am so excited to be here, 
Sandra. 

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This is just so exciting. 
I loving everything you're doing

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and I feel so honored to be a 
guest on your podcast today. 

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Oh my gosh, I was so happy to 
hear that. 

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You've listened to the podcast 
that you're a fan of has cast 

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big banner. 
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That you're all about. 
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of income and yeah, stepping 
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not meeting your needs anymore. 
So you know what you got to do? 

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What's best for you? 
Whatever that looks like. 

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Yeah it looked a certain way and
it look differently at a 

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different point in my time and 
it's okay if plans change and 

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things happen in your life and 
circumstances arises that are 

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may be out of your control. 
But I found that it's what you 

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do with what you have in front 
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That's That's what's most 
important and it's finding the 

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ways to create your own joy. 
And for me, it's finding ways to

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spread my sunshine because I 
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And this world is pretty dark 
and nursing has gotten pretty 

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rough over the past couple of 
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And I really just wanted to 
create a safe space in a 

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community for my friends, is 
what I like to call them to feel

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appreciated, feel heard, feel 
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I think that they may not be 
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their life or their careers or 
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It's just been such a fun 
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to be here talking about it. 
I love it. 

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And I cannot wait to hear all of
what you've been doing with your

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career. 
So, take me through kind of how 

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you see yourself right now. 
What's your current role? 

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Well, it's funny. 
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a crafter because I kind of 
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peace nurse by day and a After 
by night because that's or no, 

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it was the other day. 
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because I was working nights as 
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whenever I would get cancelled 
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crafting because I was getting 
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the couch and, yeah, I just 
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I needed a creative Outlet, so I
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start it. 
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and turned into this happy 
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to call it. 
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When did you leave the bedside? 
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What did you I left to the 
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That's a great place to start. 
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September so six months ago. 
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I was a nurse for almost, go 
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Yeah, almost four years, prior 
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almost four years, and I did it 
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basically, a glorified sitter 
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was still in nursing school, it 
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to get into the facility that I 
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learned a lot and it really 
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to be a pediatric nurse and it 
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was able to go to all the 
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different Specialties and really
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able to kind of pick my poison a
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apply and when I passed my NCLEX
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Where people like this people 
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like oh Mel has it all together 
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really vulnerable story about 
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pass the NCLEX and they do you 
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And what it makes you love your 
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certification a little bit more 
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how you overcame something that 
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second self up for all these 
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career. 
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for four years and then again 
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other on your off time and one 
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talk to people is they they are 
looking for, they loved working 

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bench. 
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getting burned out. 
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and I know you were kind of 
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during covid and all these 
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we're probably. 
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But where they leading to this 
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Like, I don't know how much 
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This is this is wearing me out 
like what was it you that made 

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you kind of start to want to 
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Pediatric population, a lot 
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Did the adult world. 
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closed surgeries were cancelled,
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highly percent of our patient 
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That I saw in the acute care 
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And I was working at the PRN. 
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I was hired on as a PRN nurse 
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So I was working. 
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of what was best for me at the 
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my parent's insurance because I 
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So it all kind of makes sense to
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First, and very often in my unit
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weeks. 
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other floors. 
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of nurses, fighting for 24 beds,
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time. 
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where I was scheduled to work 
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every single for two months for 
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that income, I mean, and as 
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But still, I mean, what if you 
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come to make a little bit, you 
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Now that's some loans I have 
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everyone else my bills. 
I needed something. 

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I was, you know kind of I was 
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I was like where I could go I 
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entrance, scanning and screening
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workers coming in. 
I was checking their temperature

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asking them, their screening 
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I did that a couple of times 
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vaccine clinic where They 
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and they needed to administer 
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I was doing that and then once 
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children's vaccines, I was out 
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clinics. 
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where employees would call if 
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exposed and they needed the 
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You know, I was kind of just 
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I could do to just get hours and
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getting me what They could but 
they also had to share the love 

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because there were other PR ends
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trying to get ours and that were
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And and if you were PRN and you 
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we didn't have PTO or PPL Ernie,
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could help subsequent those that
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Lost. 
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And and there was even programs 
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that if you work full time and 
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like funds that would pay you 
because it was like not your 

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fault that you got cancelled but
I didn't get all of those 

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benefits as well being parents. 
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that I was kind of just trying 
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I couldn't do a job that I love 
that I felt like I was, I always

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thought I was born for the 
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I was very hopeful that I had 
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months less than a year of 
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covid head, which I am looking 
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Very thankful because I Helped 
precept a couple nurses and just

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seeing what these new nurses are
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the bat. 
It is scary. 

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interesting about what you're 
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this. 
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that I always find and all these
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So strange, it's this little 
morsel of difficulty, strain, 

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disappointment something with 
their nursing career. 

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That's just not going, right? 
That leads them to Spend a 

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little more time in silence a 
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that then Sparks them Sparks the
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something for themselves. 
Not here you are sitting on the 

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couch cancelled week after week 
after week and instead of 

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watching just yes hours of 
Netflix and chilling. 

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You're just like and I did that 
or I did that. 

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But I was getting I was losing 
my mind because nurses were busy

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bodies. 
Like I need to do something and 

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I slept all day thinking I was 
going into Work. 

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Because God forbid, I didn't do 
that and then they actually do. 

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Because that happened one time, 
because I was like, oh, I'm not 

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going to go and I might get 
cancelled. 

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Nope, we had a lot of Holland. 
It just was a point where it's 

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like, okay, I had, I had my 
Cricut, I bought a cricket for 

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my wedding that I got married in
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covid Bride. 
And after that was kind of all 

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said and done. 
I still just needed an outlet 

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because thankfully I had that 
creative outlet with my wedding.

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I DIY do, love my wedding signs,
just a cost and did my 

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invitations and just kind of 
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Way and I needed something else 
once that was done and I wasn't 

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getting, you know, my purpose 
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do the job that I may be signed 
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And it honestly started with me 
making like glitter ornament 

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recipes and just trying it out 
like different stupid stuff 

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Tick-Tock and I would video 
record myself and still to this 

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day, my highest viewed video on 
my tic toc account. 

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Is me testing. 
Eating out a glitter ornament 

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recipe. 
Oh my goodness. 

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So you simply just all kind of 
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Yeah, I was just with cricketing
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back to work a little bit more, 
I kind of just wanted something 

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for myself because I had the 
Motions like okay, if you look 

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good, you feel good, you're 
gonna have a good shift. 

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It's, you know, it's going to be
good if I have a bright Rainbow 

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on my shirt. 
Nothing bad can happen today, 

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right? 
So that was, that was my 

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mentality. 
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I put Emo on my on my t-shirt 
and I put peas nurse under it 

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and I walked around my unit and 
got a couple girls are like oh 

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my gosh that's so cute. 
Could you make me one made a 

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couple for the girls in my unit 
and some of the floaters that 

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were traveling all the different
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And that's honestly like how it 
all kind of snowballs. 

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It was getting too overwhelming.
Keeping track of everything in 

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my Instagram DMS and doing like 
a Google sheet and venmo. 

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I was like, you know what? 
I should just build a website, 

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right? 
Like, should I do this? 

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It was a, it was a, it was a big
internal. 

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I was like, I'm going to nursing
school. 

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I did not get a business. 
No, I do not know the first 

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thing about running a business. 
Crafting, could tell you all 

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about, I could tell you how to 
make this, this, and that I 

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could do it for you. 
Whip it up real fast to this is 

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game over, I will see. 
But, but right, right, sales 

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tax, no, all of the above 
thankfully, my husband he is in 

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marketing has a business degree.
So he has been able to help a 

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lot with, you know, help kind of
build some things up. 

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And I Is Shopify and they made 
it so incredibly easy. 

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I built my own website still to 
this day. 

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That's what you see is. 
I built it myself so it's made 

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it really easy and, and 
straightforward. 

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And it's all been a great 
learning opportunity and I'm 

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still learning. 
I learned something new 

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everyday. 
I'm kind of making it up as I go

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along. 
Yeah. 

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No. 
I'm just having so much fun with

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my little. 
Do you miss the bedside? 

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Yeah. 
Dams is the bedside. 

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Yeah, absolutely. 
And if we're talking about other

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like this, Appointments. 
Because that's kind of another 

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reason why, you know, I 
ultimately like took the step 

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back is I had a back injury at 
the beginning of January last 

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year. 
I herniated or what did two of 

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my disks from pulling a portion?
Or what did you caught about to 

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two weeks prior to the straw on 
the camel's back? 

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That put me in the emergency 
room. 

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I had a patient that came in at 
3:00 in the morning. 

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He was a total care patient. 
And he did not have a training 

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system underneath, or transfer. 
To him from the gurney to the 

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bed when he came up from 
admission and, you know, me 

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being resourceful and parents. 
It's late, it's 3:00 in the 

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morning. 
I just want to get my questions 

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done, so I can let you guys try 
to get some sleep because you've

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been in the ER, all day Semion 
and a couple dues got 

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resourceful. 
And we took the corners of the 

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fitted sheet on the gurney and 
we transferred him and I felt 

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something I felt a strain. 
And for two weeks, I worked 

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Christmas Eve. 
I worked, New Year's Eve, and 

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then Then I strong the camel's 
back. 

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I put a pizza in the oven and 
herniated to, of my disks on 

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January 7th, oh my goodness. 
And this little injury, like, 

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you kind of not worth it up at 
work. 

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And this is what I did then I 
didn't told me either. 

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I was just about to say, they 
told me I was young and then I 

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should be fine. 
And I didn't file a report and I

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still have back problems to this
day. 

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From a very yeah, our situation.
And so here we are 30. 

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He's 30s and you hurt on the 
job. 

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Yes. 
And will carry this until the 

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day whatever. 
Yeah. 

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And what did you do for your 
back? 

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Did you end up having to get 
like, you know, they just did 

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like rest or they did an MRI, 
would they thankfully? 

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It wasn't bad enough where I 
needed surgery. 

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They said I was really lucky 
where it wasn't that bad? 

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Could I have gotten surgery? 
Yes. 

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What would that have? 
Maybe been up my recovery. 

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Yes, but it's back surgery. 
My dad has had two spinal 

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fusions in his life. 
And the first one, he was 46, I 

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just turned 28 and I don't have 
kids yet, but I do want a family

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and I do want to live my longest
healthiest life. 

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I want to travel, I want to, I 
want to do all these things and 

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I can't do that with the bad 
back and I'll tell you Sandra, 

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it was, I didn't work for five 
months. 

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It was. 
And I'm going to try to like, 

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not cry but it was like, the 
hardest experience that I've 

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ever gone through in my entire 
life. 

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Physically. 
Mentally emotionally it was 

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trauma was traumatic. 
The whole the whole thing from 

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the actual injury itself to all 
the time that it took all I 

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could really do is physical 
therapy and medication and 

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Chiropractic adjustments, and 
those only went so far. 

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PT destroyed me, it's sucked. 
It made things like, even like 

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worse. 
I wasn't progressing at all. 

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My insurance wouldn't cover 
steroids, which is ultimately 

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what my doctor thought that I 
needed. 

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And I tried like dry needling 
which is basically a elevated 

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version of acupuncture, the 
needles like this long versus 

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this long and they go in and 
they tap your bone to create a 

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micro injury and send signals to
your brain to science. 

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Yeah. 
Try it on science. 

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They had weight restrictions and
was trying to work with my 

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management team on trying to get
me back to work and also get me 

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back to work with a realistic. 
Wait, Action for what we were 

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doing at the bedside. 
Yeah. 

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And there was a couple of times 
where I brought up my 

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restrictions and they're like, 
I'm sorry we can't accommodate 

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this. 
It just be too much. 

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It would be to like step. 
You're too much of a burden on 

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the unit because you're not 
yelling your weight right. 

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Really you're not pulling 
somebody else's weight is really

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what it is. 
I'm pulling my weight but now 

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you're asking me to pull 
somebody else's physical weight 

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and yet now I've been there girl
I know exactly what you're 

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talking about. 
Bingo awful. 

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So ultimately Yeah, I did go 
back. 

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I went back and met from January
and I went back with a weight 

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restriction and even like an 
hour restriction, like I 

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couldn't work 12-hour shifts. 
I'd thankfully being pure and I 

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had the luxury of scheduling 
myself in the holes and pocket. 

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So I was able to kind of break 
my shifts up, which I needed to 

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do. 
Because even with the weight 

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restriction, you're running 
around like a chicken with your 

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head. 
Cut off, you have less 

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resources. 
There were days where I was in 

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charge. 
And I had a full assignment at 

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three patients of myself in 
charge from 15 to 23 with a 

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weight restriction and a bad 
back. 

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Yeah, yeah, no. 
I've been every step you're 

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having pain. 
Every time you bend over to get 

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a urinal from the supply room. 
It's everything. 

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Is pinned it on your back, 
especially in nursing. 

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You've got sciatic running down 
your leg. 

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You're just your constant pain. 
I know exactly what you're 

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talking about. 
I've had it happen to me and 

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more nurses. 
Don't talk about it and I'm so 

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Sorry, I know exactly what 
you're what you dealt with Tango

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and you know what? 
We just keep working. 

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There's just doing it and you're
so tired. 

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And then again, you feel like 
this burden on your unit and yet

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here I am charging taking a team
and I'm hurt, I'm playing her 

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and you nobody acknowledges that
were playing her. 

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You're getting the same pay for 
playing hurt that you get 

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whenever your girl everybody 
already know exactly where you 

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are. 
And so I think it is again, 

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incumbent upon nurses to talk 
about The stuff. 

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So that total systems can start 
to go like oh wait a minute. 

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What are we doing to people 
here? 

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These poor nurses, poor 
theirselves out. 

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Literally, I caught a guy who 
had a brain surgery. 

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He, you know, I was working 
neurosurg. 

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So they're all they're all 
operated on. 

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Everybody is cuckoo everyone's 
either cuckoo or fallen over 

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because there's no surgery. 
And so this guy was both, he was

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cuckoo and falling over. 
And so I looked about like, 

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don't move stay right there. 
I gotta go do something. 

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So, I went to go grab something.
And straddle Both Worlds. 

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And homeboy was like, see you 
later and he just goes to fall. 

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So your natural reaction is to 
catch them. 

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And I'm like, oh my God, my 
back. 

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And then you go to try to get 
help you try to get support and 

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they're like, yeah, we don't, we
need you, we need you in there 

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like in the trenches working. 
I'm like I can't carry So 

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eventually you just end up 
going. 

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So it's either me or you. 
I have to pick myself because if

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not exactly what it came down to
it was I Some some instance came

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to light and I finally had to 
just ask myself, is it worth it?

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And because it was obvious to me
at the time that there were 

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definitely people that did have 
my back and did support me, but 

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there was a lot of people that 
didn't and working a job that's 

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already impossible and not 
having Some of the support that 

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you need. 
It's like, I don't want to see 

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this, my dad doesn't literally 
literally and figuratively need 

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to have your back. 
And when I wasn't feeling that I

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needed to ask myself if it was 
worth it, the cost that I was, 

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you know, bringing up to the 
table, physically, mentally 

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emotionally. 
I have two things to say. 

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First off, what price would you 
put on a bad back? 

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That's pretty much Priceless. 
I'm not gonna like, I couldn't, 

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I have a really high price for 
how much my back is worth, so 

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there's no not there. 
I wouldn't wish it on anybody on

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my worst enemy, it's every move,
right? 

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Every time you reach your touch 
your minutes, everything, right?

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So that's the first thing, the 
second thing, my dad said that I

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thought was critical, as I was 
going through things as a nurse,

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a lot of tough, tough stuff. 
The field of nursing there is 

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too much room for errors for 
people to not have your back. 

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So if you don't have a, my dad 
said that to me. 

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And I didn't quite understand 
because I was really young. 

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That's it going through all this
stuff. 2223 button. 

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It's such a great line and my 
dad, so smart. 

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And just he's just he's very 
smart man. 

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Very smart man. 
And he said that to me, he said,

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Sandra this career. 
There are too many areas where 

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you are vulnerable already. 
Yes. 

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Yes, that is that people don't 
have your back to cover you to 

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go like oh this is Nurse left 
this out or oh my goodness. 

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Sure pump is beeping or only or 
let me know. 

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I'll transferring a patient or 
she needs help transferring a 

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patient or whatever. 
People don't have your literal 

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back and your figurative back 
then that job you can't do it 

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anymore, it's not safe. 
And so when he told me that I 

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realize I needed to leave the 
40's on because I was like, oh, 

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he's right, I am so much more 
vulnerable, not only am I 

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physically vulnerable. 
But now, my in work Dynamics 

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have made me vulnerable as well,
because people don't think I'm 

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pulling my weight. 
People think that I'm constantly

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asking like, hey, can you help 
me in here? 

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Because I can't, I can't live. 
Lift and they're like, man. 

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I've got like my stuff and I got
to do your stuff. 

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Like there's such a dynamic that
if you don't have, you don't 

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want to be the person to that. 
You don't want to be the cause 

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of annoyance. 
That's the last thing I want to 

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do, but I'm not here to annoy 
you. 

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I'm here to try to do my job to 
the best of my abilities. 

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Just like, you are, and I can't 
do my job. 

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If there aren't certain things 
set in place for all of us to be

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successful, not only me, but I 
was, I got to the point And like

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we were saying about safety, not
only my safety was at risk at 

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times, but it was starting to 
get to my patient safety. 

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And that's what I'm not okay, 
with and that's where I had to 

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draw the line because it was, I 
stayed a lot longer than I 

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should have looking back. 
I will, I yeah, it knowing what 

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I know. 
Now, I should have listened to 

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my gut and not my heart because 
in my heart, I was, you know, 

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trying to be the team player 
that I thought. 

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Thought they wanted, and I just 
wanted, you know, everyone else 

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was all going through 
everything. 

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And what they went through, when
I was at home, my leave and what

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they had to endure when they 
were working in covid. 

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00:23:50,500 --> 00:23:55,400
And I was pushed to the covid 
vaccine clinic, it just wasn't 

450
00:23:55,400 --> 00:23:58,900
conducive for anybody. 
And I tried, I really did. 

451
00:23:58,900 --> 00:24:01,800
I worked my management. 
I tried to go in with a positive

452
00:24:01,800 --> 00:24:04,600
attitude and spread my sunshine 
where I could. 

453
00:24:05,000 --> 00:24:07,800
And it just wasn't working 
anymore. 

454
00:24:08,200 --> 00:24:10,100
Melanie had to go. 
Yeah. 

455
00:24:10,100 --> 00:24:13,200
Because you were PRN, do you 
think that you were treated 

456
00:24:13,200 --> 00:24:18,100
differently? 
Yeah. 1000%, any PR, and that 

457
00:24:18,100 --> 00:24:20,300
worked on my floor will tell you
the exact same story. 

458
00:24:20,600 --> 00:24:22,900
Yeah, yeah. 
So your peer and now you're back

459
00:24:22,900 --> 00:24:25,600
is hurt. 
So now you're worth, even less, 

460
00:24:26,000 --> 00:24:30,100
is that there were times when I 
went in for a bonus shift 

461
00:24:30,200 --> 00:24:33,400
because they were just sending 
out calls all the time, like, 

462
00:24:33,400 --> 00:24:34,700
please come and help us were so 
short. 

463
00:24:34,800 --> 00:24:37,400
Short-staffed. 
Because there was a time where, 

464
00:24:37,500 --> 00:24:41,600
when we were so low, in senses, 
a bunch of turn nurses quit 

465
00:24:41,600 --> 00:24:44,300
because they needed to provide 
for their families. 

466
00:24:44,500 --> 00:24:47,000
Especially the pr Runners is 
there like I can't just not 

467
00:24:47,000 --> 00:24:49,800
work. 
So a lot of them left the 

468
00:24:49,800 --> 00:24:53,000
facility and either went into 
different lines of nursing or 

469
00:24:53,000 --> 00:24:57,800
different, you know, places. 
But I was in a position where I 

470
00:24:57,800 --> 00:25:01,900
like could, you know, play it 
out and pick up extra bonus 

471
00:25:01,900 --> 00:25:06,000
shifts here and there and and I 
was passionate about The mission

472
00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:09,900
of the facility and I want it. 
I worked my butt off to get 

473
00:25:09,900 --> 00:25:13,400
there. 
I wanted, I wanted to be there, 

474
00:25:13,400 --> 00:25:19,600
and it's disappointing now. 
And this is where it's like, I'm

475
00:25:19,600 --> 00:25:22,400
not disappointed that it all 
happened because everything 

476
00:25:22,400 --> 00:25:24,000
happens for a reason. 
I'm a very strong believer in 

477
00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:27,900
that. 
And obviously, obviously those 

478
00:25:27,900 --> 00:25:33,400
happened in life, those crusty 
corner has saved my life and 

479
00:25:33,400 --> 00:25:35,600
like, more ways than one. 
I'm not even kidding. 

480
00:25:35,600 --> 00:25:39,100
You it is been such a joy and a 
blessing and to be able to like 

481
00:25:39,100 --> 00:25:42,800
use my creative Outlets to help 
spread that joy to my friends 

482
00:25:42,800 --> 00:25:45,900
who want to receive it. 
That's what I'm here for. 

483
00:25:46,200 --> 00:25:49,000
Yeah yeah. 
It's you know honestly I love 

484
00:25:49,000 --> 00:25:51,200
what you just said, you answered
so many of my questions. 

485
00:25:51,200 --> 00:25:52,900
Looks like the challenge of your
career. 

486
00:25:52,900 --> 00:25:56,000
What drove you to start your own
business. 

487
00:25:56,000 --> 00:25:59,200
What is the morning for you? 
What does it do for you? 

488
00:25:59,400 --> 00:26:02,100
And I'm going to be honest, you 
know you sharing this is giving 

489
00:26:02,100 --> 00:26:06,000
me a level of Brave of Bravery 
to share like I've enjoyed it as

490
00:26:06,000 --> 00:26:08,000
well as a part-time nurse 
practitioner. 

491
00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:11,800
I have not talked about this on 
the podcast because I feel so 

492
00:26:11,800 --> 00:26:14,700
many things that you described 
as well, where you said. 

493
00:26:14,900 --> 00:26:16,600
I just I don't want to be a 
failure. 

494
00:26:16,600 --> 00:26:19,600
I just wanted to keep going, I 
knew in my gut I should have 

495
00:26:19,600 --> 00:26:21,900
left a lot sooner. 
These things that you're saying,

496
00:26:22,100 --> 00:26:24,700
I know other people are thinking
and they feel. 

497
00:26:24,900 --> 00:26:28,100
And so like I'll even share 
awake with my nursing job. 

498
00:26:28,100 --> 00:26:32,200
Currently, I have had issues as 
a nurse practitioner being part 

499
00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:37,200
time with not just Management. 
But the other people that I work

500
00:26:37,200 --> 00:26:40,600
with being upset that, I'm 
part-time as a nurse 

501
00:26:40,600 --> 00:26:43,700
practitioner in this role and 
you're thinking, wait a minute, 

502
00:26:43,700 --> 00:26:46,900
like I'm choosing this. 
I'm taking the pay cut, I'm the 

503
00:26:46,900 --> 00:26:52,200
one that's wanting the balance 
and yet, I'm having so much out 

504
00:26:52,200 --> 00:26:54,000
of my City from those that I 
work with. 

505
00:26:54,000 --> 00:26:56,000
And so you are not alone in 
this. 

506
00:26:56,100 --> 00:27:00,100
This is not something that you 
are you dealing with alone. 

507
00:27:00,100 --> 00:27:02,600
I have never talked about it 
openly on the podcast because I 

508
00:27:02,600 --> 00:27:05,500
felt like oh there's a level of 
Shame, Surrounding this. 

509
00:27:05,500 --> 00:27:07,100
I thought I was alone. 
I thought. 

510
00:27:07,100 --> 00:27:09,800
Wait, why is it my sunshine 
appreciated? 

511
00:27:09,900 --> 00:27:13,700
But again your you telling that 
story I know is making other 

512
00:27:13,700 --> 00:27:17,400
people that are listening. 
Go oh my gosh I wasn't alone. 

513
00:27:17,400 --> 00:27:20,600
I did experience right. 
And so again it had just Spurs 

514
00:27:20,600 --> 00:27:22,400
you to go get your own thing. 
Go do. 

515
00:27:22,400 --> 00:27:25,100
The thing that's going to bring 
you Joy because you're not going

516
00:27:25,100 --> 00:27:27,500
to be appreciated. 
If you're trying to find that 

517
00:27:27,500 --> 00:27:30,200
balance in the hospital setting.
Thanks for listening to the 

518
00:27:30,200 --> 00:27:31,900
episode. 
I hope you're enjoying the 

519
00:27:31,900 --> 00:27:34,300
conversation. 
I wanted to take this time and 

520
00:27:34,700 --> 00:27:37,900
and you to check out the success
and P @c shop. 

521
00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:42,900
It's a shop that I design with 
my best girlfriend, cute nurse, 

522
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anything you could think of, as 

523
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well as adorable, digital 
products, mom life stuff. 

524
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So resources for nurses to come,
we were just excited about our 

525
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It's another way to support the 

526
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527
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Check it out and be sure to tell
your friends about the podcast. 

528
00:28:04,800 --> 00:28:08,500
Rosie as you shop if you'd like.
And when I'm building here, any 

529
00:28:08,500 --> 00:28:13,300
promotion, any sharing helps 
build my audience and I greatly 

530
00:28:13,300 --> 00:28:15,600
appreciate it. 
Now, let's get back to the 

531
00:28:15,600 --> 00:28:17,900
episode, go ahead. 
I just keep preaching, you have 

532
00:28:17,900 --> 00:28:19,700
to do what's best for you, 
whatever that looks like. 

533
00:28:19,700 --> 00:28:22,600
If it works great for you and 
your life, with your work life, 

534
00:28:22,600 --> 00:28:24,700
balance to work part-time, 
that's great. 

535
00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:27,400
If it doesn't work for somebody 
else because they may be their 

536
00:28:27,400 --> 00:28:29,700
financials are different, they 
have to work full-time, okay? 

537
00:28:29,700 --> 00:28:31,500
That's that's what you have to 
do. 

538
00:28:31,700 --> 00:28:33,900
That's what's best for you, and 
your situation. 

539
00:28:33,900 --> 00:28:36,700
That's what? 
And And and it's, it's hard 

540
00:28:36,700 --> 00:28:41,500
dealing with people who have big
thoughts and opinions about 

541
00:28:41,600 --> 00:28:43,700
doing things kind of against the
grid, right? 

542
00:28:43,700 --> 00:28:46,000
And especially like, in nurses, 
and I've gotten a lot, and I'm 

543
00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:49,300
sure maybe you can appreciate 
this, oh, you went through all 

544
00:28:49,308 --> 00:28:52,500
that work of getting that degree
and going through school and 

545
00:28:52,500 --> 00:28:55,100
you're not even, you're not even
a nurse anymore. 

546
00:28:55,600 --> 00:28:58,100
Oh, no, honey. 
I am still a nurse. 

547
00:28:58,500 --> 00:29:00,200
I work really hard for those 
letters. 

548
00:29:00,400 --> 00:29:02,100
They are still behind my last 
name. 

549
00:29:02,600 --> 00:29:04,600
I'm just not practicing, 
nursing, right. 

550
00:29:05,300 --> 00:29:09,800
And arguably, I'm still 
practicing my nursing and other 

551
00:29:09,800 --> 00:29:13,700
just creative ways. 
Come on, come on, come on, doing

552
00:29:13,700 --> 00:29:16,600
a mentorship program with a 
local universe. 

553
00:29:16,600 --> 00:29:19,700
So I have like a mentor that I 
have under my wing and we help 

554
00:29:19,700 --> 00:29:21,400
her out a little ways that I 
can. 

555
00:29:21,400 --> 00:29:24,300
And obviously I have Mel's 
crafty Corner in this just safe 

556
00:29:24,300 --> 00:29:26,400
space and that community that 
it's brought me. 

557
00:29:26,400 --> 00:29:30,800
And yes it's just, it's so 
important and it's really 

558
00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:33,300
interesting that you bring up 
like the vulnerability and being

559
00:29:33,300 --> 00:29:36,000
open and honest. 
It's because it has been really 

560
00:29:36,000 --> 00:29:41,500
hard for me to do and there are 
aspects that I do want to share 

561
00:29:41,600 --> 00:29:47,100
more about but at this point in 
time, I feel like I can't and 

562
00:29:47,100 --> 00:29:51,000
that's really sad because there 
was one point where I did speak 

563
00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:53,200
up a little bit about why I left
the bedside. 

564
00:29:53,400 --> 00:29:57,400
And it took me four months to 
bring up the courage to let my 

565
00:29:57,400 --> 00:30:00,400
community know that I wasn't 
working as a bedside nurse 

566
00:30:00,400 --> 00:30:04,600
anymore. 
For X, Y and Z and then getting 

567
00:30:05,100 --> 00:30:07,900
A lot of love and appreciation 
from other people. 

568
00:30:07,900 --> 00:30:11,000
Saying, thank you so much. 
Like I needed to hear this, you 

569
00:30:11,000 --> 00:30:14,200
know, I was, I'm debating on 
leaving in this helps, you know,

570
00:30:14,200 --> 00:30:15,800
showcase me. 
That there is something better 

571
00:30:15,800 --> 00:30:17,600
out there for me because I'm not
happy. 

572
00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:20,300
And I want to be happy because 
we deserve, we have this one 

573
00:30:20,300 --> 00:30:23,200
life, right? 
Like we deserve everything good 

574
00:30:23,300 --> 00:30:26,400
that it has to offer. 
So like why are we wasting our 

575
00:30:26,400 --> 00:30:30,300
time with negativity and toxic 
environments? 

576
00:30:30,600 --> 00:30:34,300
And just crap we don't need it. 
We don't need it. 

577
00:30:34,400 --> 00:30:36,200
I don't Don't need it. 
If that's something that you 

578
00:30:36,200 --> 00:30:36,800
need. 
Okay? 

579
00:30:36,800 --> 00:30:38,800
Then that's fine. 
You just fester in it but I'm 

580
00:30:38,800 --> 00:30:40,400
not going to let it happen to me
anymore. 

581
00:30:40,800 --> 00:30:46,000
Yeah, I have done no, too much 
rolling over in my life that I 

582
00:30:46,400 --> 00:30:49,200
am not going to let it happen 
anymore because I know it's 

583
00:30:49,200 --> 00:30:53,100
helping other people like you 
said like it's and I do, you 

584
00:30:53,100 --> 00:30:57,900
know, want to be more and I am 
very vulnerable on my especially

585
00:30:57,900 --> 00:31:00,700
my Instagram stories you'll find
me very emotional and obviously 

586
00:31:00,700 --> 00:31:04,500
I was crying earlier in this 
podcast so I am no. 

587
00:31:04,900 --> 00:31:06,700
You know, I always tell my 
friends. 

588
00:31:06,700 --> 00:31:08,600
It's yeah, I'm no stranger to 
emotions, look. 

589
00:31:08,600 --> 00:31:09,800
It's okay to have mixed 
feelings. 

590
00:31:09,800 --> 00:31:12,500
It is. 
Okay, to have feel the sense of 

591
00:31:12,500 --> 00:31:14,200
Shame and guilt. 
And I even went through my own 

592
00:31:14,200 --> 00:31:17,700
sense of identity, crisis of 
like, okay, I have this nurse 

593
00:31:17,700 --> 00:31:20,600
brand, but I'm not practicing a 
nurse. 

594
00:31:20,600 --> 00:31:24,400
I don't go to work in the 
hospital anymore but he's so 

595
00:31:24,400 --> 00:31:26,900
there's there's been a lot of. 
Yeah. 

596
00:31:26,900 --> 00:31:30,000
My own personal like 
self-identity that I'm trying to

597
00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:32,300
still kind of figure out because
I am still a nurse. 

598
00:31:32,300 --> 00:31:34,400
I'm just not practicing that 
aspect anymore. 

599
00:31:34,700 --> 00:31:36,300
Not to say that I'll never go 
back to nursing. 

600
00:31:36,300 --> 00:31:39,000
I do still I miss patient 
interaction. 

601
00:31:39,000 --> 00:31:42,200
So so much. 
I even thought about just doing 

602
00:31:42,200 --> 00:31:44,800
like some home care or 
something, just like find a 

603
00:31:44,808 --> 00:31:46,900
client. 
Just go to their house once a 

604
00:31:46,908 --> 00:31:50,200
week handle their pump settings.
Do I don't know something? 

605
00:31:50,800 --> 00:31:53,600
Because I just I just I just 
miss that, like, that was, that 

606
00:31:53,600 --> 00:31:55,200
was my bread and butter. 
Like, that's why I went to work 

607
00:31:55,200 --> 00:31:57,700
for. 
I didn't go to work for the 

608
00:31:57,700 --> 00:32:01,300
politics or the fluff. 
I went, for my, I went for my 

609
00:32:01,300 --> 00:32:02,100
friends, that's what I call 
them. 

610
00:32:02,100 --> 00:32:03,700
My I call my patients, my 
friends. 

611
00:32:04,700 --> 00:32:08,800
Rendon never room because that's
what I was there for. 

612
00:32:09,300 --> 00:32:13,200
So I do miss that. 
And there are aspects of the 

613
00:32:13,200 --> 00:32:17,200
nursing career that I do miss, 
of course, because that's what I

614
00:32:17,500 --> 00:32:20,800
ultimately went to school for. 
And that's what I want to do. 

615
00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:23,400
That's another reason why I'm 
like, so open and honest and 

616
00:32:23,400 --> 00:32:26,200
vulnerable about it because it 
is okay that your passions and 

617
00:32:26,200 --> 00:32:32,900
your paths can like change or 
skew, or like go back there or 

618
00:32:33,300 --> 00:32:36,200
whatever as long. 
As you're happy on your journey,

619
00:32:36,200 --> 00:32:39,000
that's all that matters because 
there have been too many points 

620
00:32:39,000 --> 00:32:41,600
in my life where I have not been
happy in my journey and I've 

621
00:32:41,600 --> 00:32:44,800
been trying to make other people
happy, oh, come on. 

622
00:32:45,200 --> 00:32:50,300
It has just demolished me in the
end, so yes, and that's what 

623
00:32:50,300 --> 00:32:52,700
I've always done. 
My mistake test is to enjoy the 

624
00:32:52,700 --> 00:32:54,300
journey. 
And at some point, when you're 

625
00:32:54,300 --> 00:32:56,800
not enjoying your journey and 
nursing it's time for a change, 

626
00:32:56,800 --> 00:32:58,800
which is what this case is 
about. 

627
00:32:58,900 --> 00:33:02,200
If you are not happy with what 
you're doing, if you are not 

628
00:33:02,200 --> 00:33:07,200
enjoying nursing, if you are not
Figuring out where your path is 

629
00:33:07,200 --> 00:33:10,600
supposed to go and you're lost 
and confused like come listen to

630
00:33:10,600 --> 00:33:12,900
these nurses that were in 
similar situations that were 

631
00:33:12,900 --> 00:33:15,500
going through stuff that were 
like, but I'm going to make 

632
00:33:15,500 --> 00:33:19,300
nursing work for me and then 
when you do find that Rhythm 

633
00:33:19,500 --> 00:33:21,100
then you find out, oh my 
goodness. 

634
00:33:21,100 --> 00:33:23,400
I'm having to fight against 
people that aren't happy. 

635
00:33:23,400 --> 00:33:27,200
That I'm making nursing work for
me, and it's because maybe 

636
00:33:27,200 --> 00:33:30,700
they're in that situation where 
they haven't done that work. 

637
00:33:30,700 --> 00:33:33,200
They haven't made nursing work 
for them, so they're miserable, 

638
00:33:33,200 --> 00:33:34,900
right? 
And they just want, They're 

639
00:33:34,900 --> 00:33:40,000
unhappy, they're unhappy to see 
you using your skill set, other 

640
00:33:40,000 --> 00:33:42,500
things and you're making nursing
work for you. 

641
00:33:42,600 --> 00:33:44,900
I think that more nurses need 
and I think I'm going to just 

642
00:33:44,900 --> 00:33:48,500
say this as well, more Hospital 
Systems need to be paying nurses

643
00:33:48,800 --> 00:33:51,900
and paying attention to nurses 
that are getting burned out 

644
00:33:51,900 --> 00:33:54,800
tired at the bedside. 
We need to give them 

645
00:33:54,900 --> 00:33:57,800
opportunities to just go like 
hey if you need a break go take 

646
00:33:57,800 --> 00:34:00,900
one. 
Like I made sure that for me 

647
00:34:00,900 --> 00:34:03,600
with raising my children, I 
wasn't going to be a full-time 

648
00:34:03,600 --> 00:34:05,800
nurse practitioner. 
No, certain things are going to 

649
00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:07,400
happen. 
I pay is going to get cut. 

650
00:34:07,500 --> 00:34:09,300
I'm not going to have 
opportunities like other 

651
00:34:09,300 --> 00:34:12,000
full-time nurse practitioners. 
I let those things go. 

652
00:34:12,300 --> 00:34:15,800
But then to receive the Clash of
other people at your job that 

653
00:34:15,800 --> 00:34:18,900
are like, oh, I'm upset that 
you're not here all week. 

654
00:34:18,900 --> 00:34:21,600
It's like wait a minute, but I'm
choosing this. 

655
00:34:21,600 --> 00:34:25,100
I don't have a brand new car. 
I don't have a super, these are 

656
00:34:25,100 --> 00:34:27,300
things that are fine for me, 
that I've decided. 

657
00:34:27,300 --> 00:34:29,600
Right. 
A journey that make me happy and

658
00:34:29,600 --> 00:34:33,500
so I find it. 
So ironic that one, as I moved 

659
00:34:33,500 --> 00:34:37,699
into this space, I And a lot of 
backlash and it sounds like you 

660
00:34:37,699 --> 00:34:40,199
did as well. 
And again, I think oh if we're 

661
00:34:40,199 --> 00:34:43,300
so desperate for nurses or we're
so desperate for healthcare be 

662
00:34:43,300 --> 00:34:45,400
people. 
I literally am waiting to see 

663
00:34:45,400 --> 00:34:48,800
doctors like two, three months 
at a time and you have a nurse 

664
00:34:48,800 --> 00:34:50,600
practitioner to fill some of 
that Gap. 

665
00:34:50,600 --> 00:34:54,699
Even if it's a couple days a 
week, why deny that health care 

666
00:34:54,699 --> 00:34:57,100
for other patients? 
Like it's just this incredible. 

667
00:34:57,100 --> 00:35:00,000
It's so funny. 
Every weird a couple things 

668
00:35:00,300 --> 00:35:01,800
comment that misery loves 
company. 

669
00:35:02,200 --> 00:35:04,700
I'll say that. 
Excuse you, a chance. 

670
00:35:04,900 --> 00:35:10,400
Is, did you hear that? 
He was like, yeah, yeah. 

671
00:35:10,400 --> 00:35:12,900
That's real of company and 
puppies in the back. 

672
00:35:12,900 --> 00:35:16,400
You guys can't see him because 
just a grantee sleepy baby. 

673
00:35:16,800 --> 00:35:20,100
But yeah, it's definitely you're
gonna get back. 

674
00:35:20,900 --> 00:35:23,700
Yes, people have their thoughts 
and opinions like no matter what

675
00:35:23,700 --> 00:35:27,800
you're going to do and I also 
say they weren't talking about 

676
00:35:27,800 --> 00:35:32,500
pay that hospitals, need to kind
of like kicking into gear and I 

677
00:35:32,600 --> 00:35:36,000
can just based off of my 
experience because As I my 

678
00:35:36,000 --> 00:35:39,700
facility with working in 
Pediatrics, we did not get a lot

679
00:35:39,900 --> 00:35:42,800
of the same benefits that other 
adult. 

680
00:35:42,800 --> 00:35:46,200
Hospitals were getting in terms 
of incentives for nurses to come

681
00:35:46,200 --> 00:35:48,100
in extra. 
I had a girlfriend who was 

682
00:35:48,100 --> 00:35:52,200
working at Rush Medical Center 
and was getting Hazard. 

683
00:35:52,200 --> 00:35:59,000
Pay is getting two times pay and
I remove that I never never got 

684
00:35:59,000 --> 00:36:02,600
that. 
You never the most I ever got 

685
00:36:02,600 --> 00:36:06,000
for and it was and this was only
Bonus shift, but she got that 

686
00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:08,200
Hazard pay. 
Like for every shift that she 

687
00:36:08,200 --> 00:36:11,400
was scheduled for for like 
months because it was just 

688
00:36:11,900 --> 00:36:14,000
hazardous for them to work in 
those environments. 

689
00:36:14,600 --> 00:36:16,300
Yeah. 
So they got compensated for it 

690
00:36:16,600 --> 00:36:22,300
and the most I have ever gotten 
for working bonus. 

691
00:36:22,300 --> 00:36:26,600
So picking up an extra bonus 
shift and at the time you had to

692
00:36:26,600 --> 00:36:29,800
like do a program. 
So you had to do like there were

693
00:36:29,800 --> 00:36:33,100
different tiers and the levels 
of bonuses that you got, but it 

694
00:36:33,100 --> 00:36:37,400
was a time and a quarter. 
Or was the most that I got and 

695
00:36:37,400 --> 00:36:39,300
we're going to like open. 
Yeah. 

696
00:36:39,400 --> 00:36:41,900
And then you would get an extra 
fifty to a hundred dollars if 

697
00:36:41,900 --> 00:36:43,600
you picked up an extra four 
hours. 

698
00:36:43,800 --> 00:36:45,500
Wow. 
Like, on top of your pay but not

699
00:36:45,500 --> 00:36:49,600
like I'm our yeah, it's 
something, yeah, it's not worth 

700
00:36:49,600 --> 00:36:51,000
it. 
If your back is hurting and 

701
00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:53,100
you're not being appreciated for
the work that you're doing. 

702
00:36:53,100 --> 00:36:57,200
And so, as much as like, as much
as, yes, what you do with your, 

703
00:36:57,200 --> 00:36:59,600
with your shop, and you're 
bringing joy, and people are 

704
00:36:59,600 --> 00:37:02,100
getting things and they come 
back to the like I love your 

705
00:37:02,100 --> 00:37:05,000
stuff and leave a review and let
that you Work. 

706
00:37:05,000 --> 00:37:08,700
For those things, those are the 
intangibles of work, right? 

707
00:37:08,700 --> 00:37:11,400
Is that the stuff that is all 
appreciate what you're doing? 

708
00:37:11,500 --> 00:37:12,900
Yeah. 
They appreciate that. 

709
00:37:12,900 --> 00:37:16,200
They appreciate the little 
subtle nuances. 

710
00:37:16,200 --> 00:37:18,300
Like, I had a mental health 
collection that I dropped last 

711
00:37:18,300 --> 00:37:19,200
year. 
That's become a while 

712
00:37:19,200 --> 00:37:21,700
bestseller. 
And kind of snowballed a lot of 

713
00:37:21,700 --> 00:37:25,500
my floral designs, but instead 
be kind to your mind, it's a 

714
00:37:25,508 --> 00:37:27,600
floral brain. 
And then I also had a floral 

715
00:37:27,600 --> 00:37:30,700
serotonin. 
That was the first moleculars I 

716
00:37:30,700 --> 00:37:32,600
saw this. 
Happy drug that I did. 

717
00:37:32,900 --> 00:37:36,800
And then I did, I added Dopamine
and oxytocin to that. 

718
00:37:37,000 --> 00:37:40,200
So there are still aspects of 
like Medical, but like, you 

719
00:37:40,200 --> 00:37:44,500
don't have to necessarily be a 
nurse to buy it even though I do

720
00:37:44,500 --> 00:37:49,300
have like nurse murch. 
But yeah, just try to like 

721
00:37:49,700 --> 00:37:53,700
create things that just make 
people happy and that they feel 

722
00:37:53,700 --> 00:37:57,100
good when they wear it. 
So then when I get the comments 

723
00:37:57,100 --> 00:38:02,100
back that, you know, they were 
having a really hard time and 

724
00:38:02,200 --> 00:38:05,100
one time that they decided to 
treat themselves and Themselves,

725
00:38:05,100 --> 00:38:07,900
a new sweater that I made, and 
then their five-year-old son 

726
00:38:07,900 --> 00:38:11,800
comments on them saying that she
looks beautiful and it just like

727
00:38:11,800 --> 00:38:15,500
sends her into like a spiral of 
like Good Feet. 

728
00:38:15,500 --> 00:38:17,500
All the dopamine is running 
through her body and then it's 

729
00:38:17,500 --> 00:38:20,400
running through my mind and it's
just all I'll feel good. 

730
00:38:20,500 --> 00:38:22,900
It's it does it just feels so 
good to ya. 

731
00:38:22,900 --> 00:38:27,800
Be appreciated and not be 
questioned of why we're doing 

732
00:38:28,300 --> 00:38:30,300
what we're doing. 
I did another podcast in the 

733
00:38:30,300 --> 00:38:33,800
asked, you know, what advice I 
would give my younger self and 

734
00:38:33,800 --> 00:38:36,600
it was that I don't know where 
it is. 

735
00:38:37,100 --> 00:38:39,700
You're not doing this for them. 
They're not who you're doing 

736
00:38:39,700 --> 00:38:42,100
this for. 
So I always keep trying. 

737
00:38:42,100 --> 00:38:45,500
What do you mean by that? 
The bullies, the haters, the 

738
00:38:45,500 --> 00:38:48,100
people who don't get it, you're 
not doing it for them. 

739
00:38:48,300 --> 00:38:51,500
You're doing it for the people 
that need and appreciate and 

740
00:38:51,700 --> 00:38:55,000
that are not happy in their 
careers. 

741
00:38:55,000 --> 00:39:00,000
I don't feel fulfilled and their
life and need, you know, some 

742
00:39:00,000 --> 00:39:03,800
sense of community and purpose 
and that's kind of something 

743
00:39:03,800 --> 00:39:05,000
that I've been able to. 
Help. 

744
00:39:05,000 --> 00:39:08,700
Not only my fellow nurses, who 
either struggling with being a 

745
00:39:08,700 --> 00:39:11,500
nurse and all of that, that 
entails or its other small 

746
00:39:11,500 --> 00:39:14,500
business owners. 
Now, who can relate to, you 

747
00:39:14,500 --> 00:39:16,900
know, doing this full time or 
whatever. 

748
00:39:16,900 --> 00:39:20,200
It's I've kind of collected 
people from all walks of life. 

749
00:39:20,700 --> 00:39:23,000
Mmm, fun. 
You know what I was thinking 

750
00:39:23,000 --> 00:39:25,700
when you're talking, I feel like
what you're saying and what I'm 

751
00:39:25,700 --> 00:39:31,500
hearing is find your own tribe. 
Amen, your Vibe is your tribe, 

752
00:39:31,900 --> 00:39:35,200
right? 
Like instead of being I'm so 

753
00:39:35,200 --> 00:39:38,400
bummed that your floor. 
Nurses don't like you or I'm 

754
00:39:38,400 --> 00:39:42,000
getting all this extra hate and 
all this extra and I'm ready and

755
00:39:42,000 --> 00:39:44,200
all these different things or 
maybe they're, you know that 

756
00:39:44,200 --> 00:39:46,800
you're working on isn't for you 
anymore. 

757
00:39:46,800 --> 00:39:50,100
Like if you are a new nurse 
after you started on a floor and

758
00:39:50,100 --> 00:39:54,000
it's just not vibing with you. 
It's not bringing you Joy, it's 

759
00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:55,600
okay to leave. 
You happened. 

760
00:39:55,600 --> 00:39:58,700
Like, and I even try to tell 
some of my newer nurses that 

761
00:39:58,700 --> 00:40:02,900
came on and I could kind of tell
that maybe their heart wasn't in

762
00:40:02,900 --> 00:40:05,600
it. 
And And it's not like they need 

763
00:40:05,600 --> 00:40:09,200
permission but sometimes people 
just need like the okay from 

764
00:40:09,200 --> 00:40:11,500
somebody else that like, no, 
like you don't have to do this. 

765
00:40:11,500 --> 00:40:13,500
It like if you're not happy you 
don't have to be here. 

766
00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:15,900
Like we want you to be 
fulfilled. 

767
00:40:16,100 --> 00:40:18,600
Like, if you're miserable here, 
like, that's not going to help 

768
00:40:18,600 --> 00:40:21,700
anybody. 
It was like we so it's like, 

769
00:40:21,700 --> 00:40:24,400
it's okay. 
Yeah, I even had a girl on my 

770
00:40:24,400 --> 00:40:27,700
newer, nurses that. 
Yeah, she came to me, when I was

771
00:40:27,700 --> 00:40:31,100
in charge, when I was just like,
I just feel so lost. 

772
00:40:31,100 --> 00:40:32,900
Like, I don't know what I'm 
doing, I don't have the support 

773
00:40:32,900 --> 00:40:37,100
that I feel like I need You 
know, I'm running around and I 

774
00:40:37,400 --> 00:40:41,400
just was weighing on her, she 
was feeling the burn out and 

775
00:40:41,500 --> 00:40:45,000
she's only been a nurse for a 
couple months, and only been by 

776
00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:48,300
herself off of orientation for, 
like, two months at the time and

777
00:40:48,300 --> 00:40:51,600
just feeling like lost. 
And I just like swooped her into

778
00:40:51,600 --> 00:40:53,600
a big hugs. 
I know exactly how she felt in 

779
00:40:53,600 --> 00:40:55,200
that moment. 
And like I said, thankfully, I 

780
00:40:55,207 --> 00:40:58,400
had some experience under my 
belt to, like feel, okay, with 

781
00:40:58,400 --> 00:41:03,500
feeling like you're drowning but
I just told her it's okay to 

782
00:41:03,900 --> 00:41:05,900
like that. 
This isn't for you, it's okay. 

783
00:41:05,900 --> 00:41:08,800
That it's not what you expected 
because my expectations have 

784
00:41:08,800 --> 00:41:12,000
changed and that's okay, that's 
time. 

785
00:41:12,100 --> 00:41:14,600
And now it's something that, you
know, that you did and that you 

786
00:41:14,607 --> 00:41:18,800
tried and then you can take the 
experience that you learned from

787
00:41:18,800 --> 00:41:21,600
here and put it towards your 
next Journey. 

788
00:41:22,000 --> 00:41:26,400
Whatever that is exactly and go 
find that thing that again, 

789
00:41:26,400 --> 00:41:28,800
there's so many Avenues to 
nursing, there's Home Care. 

790
00:41:28,800 --> 00:41:30,400
Like, yes. 
Like I just go be a home care 

791
00:41:30,400 --> 00:41:34,100
nurse or I know do infusion pump
nurse or I can go be a vaccine 

792
00:41:34,100 --> 00:41:35,100
yan'er. 
So, I can go. 

793
00:41:35,100 --> 00:41:37,400
Would you tell medicine or I can
go do all these? 

794
00:41:37,400 --> 00:41:38,900
I can go work as an Adjunct 
professor. 

795
00:41:38,900 --> 00:41:42,100
I can go all these different 
things that you can do that. 

796
00:41:42,100 --> 00:41:44,600
Again, go into these systems and
then you might go. 

797
00:41:44,800 --> 00:41:47,000
Oh, these are my people like I 
wasn't. 

798
00:41:47,000 --> 00:41:48,200
Yeah. 
With that group, and that 

799
00:41:48,200 --> 00:41:50,500
doesn't mean any time. 
There's something innately wrong

800
00:41:50,500 --> 00:41:52,400
with me. 
There's nothing inherently wrong

801
00:41:52,400 --> 00:41:55,400
with you is just humor, a square
peg in a round hole. 

802
00:41:55,400 --> 00:41:59,300
You just didn't fit there. 
And so again on top of it, 

803
00:41:59,600 --> 00:42:01,400
great, we'll look at that, 
right? 

804
00:42:01,400 --> 00:42:03,500
Like, it's like nothing wrong 
with me. 

805
00:42:03,500 --> 00:42:05,500
There's just I was home. 
Spot. 

806
00:42:05,600 --> 00:42:07,500
And so. 
Yes, a different points in my 

807
00:42:07,500 --> 00:42:10,400
career, I'm starting to learn 
this and then as I move into 

808
00:42:10,400 --> 00:42:14,100
this kind of entrepreneurial 
space of building these things, 

809
00:42:14,100 --> 00:42:16,000
and I'm like, what is it that 
I'm good. 

810
00:42:16,000 --> 00:42:19,400
I can go and be my full self and
again, using emotional 

811
00:42:19,400 --> 00:42:21,600
intelligence, making sure that 
I'm doing all the different. 

812
00:42:21,600 --> 00:42:25,100
Yeah, we've got our easy for me,
but then also, I got to work on 

813
00:42:25,100 --> 00:42:26,800
it because I'm just not super 
great at these things or 

814
00:42:27,000 --> 00:42:29,500
whatever aspects, right, 
improving myself. 

815
00:42:29,500 --> 00:42:32,800
But for the most part, who I am 
in the way that I am is not 

816
00:42:32,800 --> 00:42:35,900
wrong, I just might have been on
the The wrong space. 

817
00:42:36,000 --> 00:42:38,800
And so I love that you say like 
my sunshine. 

818
00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:43,300
I just want to be how I am and 
yeah, then you found your little

819
00:42:43,300 --> 00:42:45,600
corner that you can craft and 
you could do the things that 

820
00:42:45,900 --> 00:42:48,500
don't worry, that you can be 
yourself, you can fully express 

821
00:42:48,500 --> 00:42:52,100
yourself and not feel like I 
can't do that because I have to 

822
00:42:52,100 --> 00:42:55,800
be a certain person. 
Yeah, exactly. 

823
00:42:56,000 --> 00:42:59,100
As I've done for me but I love 
about it, I love that about it 

824
00:42:59,100 --> 00:43:02,000
because then when you go into 
the hospital setting, You've Got

825
00:43:02,000 --> 00:43:04,400
A Renewed sense of vigor that 
you can have. 

826
00:43:04,700 --> 00:43:07,900
Of a buffer at times to handle 
the stuff that goes on in the 

827
00:43:07,900 --> 00:43:10,200
hospital because you have that 
space where you're fully 

828
00:43:10,200 --> 00:43:13,300
yourself and that you don't 
write be anything else. 

829
00:43:13,500 --> 00:43:16,100
And so writing, the problem then
is that you might start to 

830
00:43:16,100 --> 00:43:18,500
encounter some of these 
interpersonal things that you 

831
00:43:18,500 --> 00:43:21,200
have to deal with other people 
that I did not anticipate 

832
00:43:21,200 --> 00:43:23,100
either. 
So I think it's really good that

833
00:43:23,100 --> 00:43:25,500
we talked about that today on 
the podcast because yeah, I 

834
00:43:25,500 --> 00:43:27,900
think people need to realize 
that that sometimes when you do 

835
00:43:27,900 --> 00:43:30,600
move in that space, you're going
to meet opposition that you 

836
00:43:30,600 --> 00:43:33,600
don't anticipate that you're 
like, wow, I can't believe I'm 

837
00:43:33,600 --> 00:43:37,900
here, and that's okay. 
Yes, then again, I didn't ask to

838
00:43:37,900 --> 00:43:41,700
have a bad back, I didn't ask to
have it herniate, you know, 

839
00:43:41,700 --> 00:43:45,500
covid happened, nobody at nobody
asked for that, but it's taking 

840
00:43:45,500 --> 00:43:48,900
what you have right in front of 
you and using all of the tools 

841
00:43:48,900 --> 00:43:54,500
that you have gathered in your 
life during me and taking it 

842
00:43:54,500 --> 00:43:58,200
wherever you want to go next. 
Wow, I love it. 

843
00:43:58,200 --> 00:44:02,200
I love it. 
Yes, my queen that I will, that 

844
00:44:02,200 --> 00:44:04,400
I will just make is just make 
sure that whatever. 

845
00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:07,300
You do is that you are 
protecting your peace. 

846
00:44:07,500 --> 00:44:11,900
And what I mean by that is, is 
making sure that in this is 

847
00:44:11,900 --> 00:44:13,800
something I have to remind 
myself to is like being a 

848
00:44:13,808 --> 00:44:16,800
business. 
And because there are things 

849
00:44:16,800 --> 00:44:20,700
that have taken some of the joy 
out of it, like answering emails

850
00:44:20,700 --> 00:44:26,200
and like doing returns. 
And taxes are super fun but it's

851
00:44:26,200 --> 00:44:30,800
making sure that I'm protecting 
my piece to and recouping and 

852
00:44:30,800 --> 00:44:33,800
not getting burnt out so that I 
can keep because this is fun and

853
00:44:33,800 --> 00:44:34,700
I want to keep it fun. 
One. 

854
00:44:34,900 --> 00:44:39,600
So I have to remind myself those
times and just, I'm not concept,

855
00:44:39,600 --> 00:44:41,400
goes for everybody, just protect
your peace. 

856
00:44:41,900 --> 00:44:46,200
What whether saying no to 
something or saying, yes to 

857
00:44:46,200 --> 00:44:47,800
something, you know? 
Yeah. 

858
00:44:47,800 --> 00:44:50,600
Goes for setting up those 
systems to protect your piece to

859
00:44:50,600 --> 00:44:53,600
because our systems, you can put
in place that can help kind of 

860
00:44:53,600 --> 00:44:54,900
go. 
Like, I love, I love how you 

861
00:44:54,900 --> 00:44:57,300
told me before the park has. 
You're like, I don't do these 

862
00:44:57,300 --> 00:45:00,200
things on Sunday. 
It's just my it's just my rule 

863
00:45:00,500 --> 00:45:03,000
and the room stick to it. 
You're just like not doing it. 

864
00:45:03,000 --> 00:45:06,300
I protect my PS and so Like 
there are so many things I can 

865
00:45:06,300 --> 00:45:09,400
always be doing, but I'm not 
willing to yes. 

866
00:45:09,600 --> 00:45:11,000
Yeah. 
And you know what and I think 

867
00:45:11,000 --> 00:45:14,200
that even from and I always talk
about the Bible in my podcast 

868
00:45:14,200 --> 00:45:17,100
because I think that it's 
important for life and I you 

869
00:45:17,100 --> 00:45:19,300
know, people think Greer 
disagree with me on yeah 

870
00:45:19,400 --> 00:45:21,200
biblical matters. 
But let me tell you something. 

871
00:45:21,400 --> 00:45:24,100
There was the god of the 
universe worked for six days of 

872
00:45:24,100 --> 00:45:26,900
the of the week. 
And then he rested on one Dame 

873
00:45:26,900 --> 00:45:30,400
and the god of the universe has 
to rest by says all the time on 

874
00:45:30,400 --> 00:45:32,300
my podcast, if the god of the 
universe has to rest. 

875
00:45:32,600 --> 00:45:35,500
What makes you think that you 
can just continue to keep 

876
00:45:35,500 --> 00:45:38,800
working and burn yourself out he
protected against it. 

877
00:45:38,800 --> 00:45:42,300
You are not even God, make sure 
to protect against the burnout 

878
00:45:42,400 --> 00:45:46,600
and it gives room for the 
universe to create opportunities

879
00:45:46,600 --> 00:45:49,200
for you. 
If you are constantly working 

880
00:45:49,500 --> 00:45:53,300
and you want resting when things
happen during rest periods for 

881
00:45:53,300 --> 00:45:55,000
me, I'm like that doesn't make 
any sense. 

882
00:45:55,000 --> 00:45:56,900
I haven't even been right, but 
this show up. 

883
00:45:56,900 --> 00:45:59,600
I haven't even been right. 
It's like, oh, because someone's

884
00:45:59,600 --> 00:46:02,800
taking care of me. 
It's because I'm not in control.

885
00:46:03,000 --> 00:46:06,200
And so I always talk about that.
My podcast that yes, I don't 

886
00:46:06,200 --> 00:46:09,500
love that are doing things and 
you are creating and you are 

887
00:46:09,500 --> 00:46:13,800
working. 
But there is a need for space to

888
00:46:13,800 --> 00:46:17,900
let God work because if you just
continue to burn yourself out, 

889
00:46:17,900 --> 00:46:20,300
you will look back and go. 
Oh, I did it all. 

890
00:46:20,500 --> 00:46:23,600
He didn't do it all. 
And now and you've got to create

891
00:46:23,600 --> 00:46:27,100
that that buffer to allow for 
this verse, for me. 

892
00:46:27,100 --> 00:46:29,900
It's it's God to just work and 
so. 

893
00:46:29,900 --> 00:46:34,900
Absolutely create space for rest
because ye deemed men, He deemed

894
00:46:34,900 --> 00:46:38,600
it appropriate, he shows you, 
what to do, he created you, let 

895
00:46:38,600 --> 00:46:41,100
him show you. 
Hey, listen, I catch you, right 

896
00:46:41,100 --> 00:46:43,100
feign love it. 
Hey, I love it. 

897
00:46:43,800 --> 00:46:46,900
Yeah, we got, we got to do that.
I want you to print and I got, I

898
00:46:46,900 --> 00:46:49,300
feel like we haven't really 
talked about your product, but I

899
00:46:49,400 --> 00:46:53,700
am gonna tell you something, 
Melanie, I, I was not expecting 

900
00:46:53,700 --> 00:46:56,200
the conversation to go in this 
direction and I think it's me, 

901
00:46:56,200 --> 00:46:59,600
neither looking cool, like, 
where we started and where were 

902
00:46:59,600 --> 00:47:01,800
ending. 
Yeah, I just think it's been so 

903
00:47:01,800 --> 00:47:03,500
incredible and I just, I don't 
know. 

904
00:47:03,500 --> 00:47:05,700
I just 30 minutes. 
Wait, for this podcast episode 

905
00:47:06,600 --> 00:47:10,600
because I have felt that it has 
been just me and especially in 

906
00:47:10,600 --> 00:47:14,400
this nurse, entrepreneur realm 
who have left, the bedside. 

907
00:47:14,400 --> 00:47:17,500
And I've had to deal with some 
of the repercussions of that. 

908
00:47:17,700 --> 00:47:21,900
And I don't think it's talked 
about enough and I am happy that

909
00:47:21,900 --> 00:47:25,600
we are both opening up our own 
chapters. 

910
00:47:25,800 --> 00:47:27,400
Yeah. 
And sharing know, it's true 

911
00:47:27,500 --> 00:47:31,200
because I think like you said, 
you do you, you pour yourself 

912
00:47:31,200 --> 00:47:35,000
into the career and to the job 
and then, when you See how it 

913
00:47:35,000 --> 00:47:37,000
all goes down. 
And you leave it like that. 

914
00:47:37,200 --> 00:47:39,100
And then you've got no one to 
talk to about it. 

915
00:47:39,300 --> 00:47:42,300
It just feels like this. 
Like really like Scarlet Letter.

916
00:47:42,400 --> 00:47:45,700
It feels like a Scarlet Letter 
and to like jab, right more. 

917
00:47:45,700 --> 00:47:48,000
That book is cool. 
Yeah, and then whenever you show

918
00:47:48,000 --> 00:47:51,100
your scarlet letter and now I 
just probably where the pain I'm

919
00:47:51,100 --> 00:47:53,700
like, here I am. 
This is like I got burned by 

920
00:47:53,700 --> 00:47:58,100
this career field and I don't 
think I'm a bad nurse. 

921
00:47:58,100 --> 00:48:00,100
I don't think that I'm a bad. 
No partitioner. 

922
00:48:00,200 --> 00:48:03,700
I actually feel like I have a 
level of sunshine that I yes to 

923
00:48:03,700 --> 00:48:07,000
bring to the Airways or to my 
melts crafty corner. 

924
00:48:07,300 --> 00:48:11,200
And if you're working less, then
sometimes be able to provide 

925
00:48:11,200 --> 00:48:14,600
more of that Sunshine because 
you don't know exactly what the 

926
00:48:14,607 --> 00:48:16,400
little bit more. 
Exactly. 

927
00:48:16,400 --> 00:48:19,300
And so maybe that's the answer 
to those other and I think we 

928
00:48:19,300 --> 00:48:22,900
said that we pretty much alluded
to that that's why they are so 

929
00:48:22,900 --> 00:48:26,200
angry and so I do just come out 
of here you tell me this. 

930
00:48:26,500 --> 00:48:30,200
Yeah she she said that to me 
it's like well it's because you 

931
00:48:30,200 --> 00:48:32,900
were pure and we were all 
working full time so it's hard 

932
00:48:32,900 --> 00:48:36,300
coming in with It is easy to 
come in with a positive 

933
00:48:36,300 --> 00:48:38,100
attitude. 
When you're only here one or two

934
00:48:38,107 --> 00:48:40,700
days a week, that's how she 
works ironic, isn't it? 

935
00:48:41,000 --> 00:48:45,300
Maybe you should join me? 
I mean, come on maybe instead of

936
00:48:45,300 --> 00:48:48,000
looking at me adversarially, 
maybe you go to your 

937
00:48:48,000 --> 00:48:50,300
Administration and you go listen
I'm miserable. 

938
00:48:50,700 --> 00:48:52,800
I want what she has Right. 
Comes in here right now. 

939
00:48:52,800 --> 00:48:54,500
I'm miserable so put me out 
there in. 

940
00:48:54,500 --> 00:48:58,600
Y'all are desperate for people, 
do good for people to come in 

941
00:48:58,600 --> 00:49:01,800
here and take care of people. 
So right put me on parents 

942
00:49:01,800 --> 00:49:04,800
status and let me know spend 
some time alone with my Self. 

943
00:49:04,800 --> 00:49:06,500
So I can hear what my soul is 
crying. 

944
00:49:06,600 --> 00:49:08,200
I'm supposed to be changing 
tires. 

945
00:49:08,200 --> 00:49:11,100
I like doing Automotive work on 
top of being a nurse. 

946
00:49:11,100 --> 00:49:14,600
So I'm going to go do that thing
on the days that I'm not working

947
00:49:14,600 --> 00:49:17,700
and now you start side hustle. 
Now, you're doing some other 

948
00:49:17,700 --> 00:49:20,200
stuff and people you don't even 
looking to get paid, you just 

949
00:49:20,200 --> 00:49:22,600
like changing tires. 
So, and then you start doing it,

950
00:49:22,600 --> 00:49:25,300
you work as a nurse couple days 
a week, you go in joyful, you 

951
00:49:25,300 --> 00:49:27,400
leave that comment. 
You do your other thing and all 

952
00:49:27,400 --> 00:49:29,500
of a sudden now you're like wait
a minute, how is it that? 

953
00:49:29,500 --> 00:49:32,000
I'm okay. 
Well, I'd only want to work one 

954
00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:36,000
day a week as a nurse and you 
Again, you were creating the 

955
00:49:36,000 --> 00:49:39,000
life in the journey that you 
want and I'm protecting our 

956
00:49:39,000 --> 00:49:40,400
peace. 
Yes. 

957
00:49:40,600 --> 00:49:43,300
And I think it's beautiful that 
you shared that. 

958
00:49:43,300 --> 00:49:46,500
That's the thing you miss is to 
take into taking care of people 

959
00:49:46,500 --> 00:49:50,200
because I doing there is 
something so beautiful about 

960
00:49:50,200 --> 00:49:53,200
stepping into the trenches. 
When someone is sick and taking 

961
00:49:53,200 --> 00:49:56,700
care of them and seeing them 
become well or them go through 

962
00:49:56,700 --> 00:49:59,500
that journey and being a part of
someone's story as a nurse. 

963
00:49:59,500 --> 00:50:02,600
It's so beautiful. 
I just had my baby like, and 

964
00:50:02,600 --> 00:50:06,300
that was the most important. 
Was the nursing yes that I got. 

965
00:50:06,300 --> 00:50:08,300
Yes. 
Period point blank. 

966
00:50:08,400 --> 00:50:10,700
What were you going to say 
especially working in Pediatrics

967
00:50:10,700 --> 00:50:13,900
to like and especially in my 
population that I worked and we 

968
00:50:13,900 --> 00:50:17,600
had a lot of chronic patients 
that we would see, you know, I 

969
00:50:17,600 --> 00:50:22,800
had one patient that I sat with,
as a sitter, a lot, he was a 

970
00:50:22,808 --> 00:50:25,500
little boy that had lots of 
tubes and like to pull and was, 

971
00:50:25,500 --> 00:50:28,600
you know, just needed somebody 
in there to help keep you safe, 

972
00:50:28,600 --> 00:50:32,500
because if one of those tubes 
without it was an emergency and 

973
00:50:32,500 --> 00:50:36,500
even I got to care for him. 
You know, as a nurse in such an 

974
00:50:36,500 --> 00:50:41,800
grow and and just the resiliency
in children, it just blows my 

975
00:50:41,800 --> 00:50:44,100
mind like the same patient that 
I'm talking about. 

976
00:50:44,100 --> 00:50:45,700
He wasn't even supposed to make 
it out of the NICU. 

977
00:50:45,700 --> 00:50:50,900
And he's turning seven this year
and able and it's and it's being

978
00:50:51,400 --> 00:50:54,500
with those patients and like and
that's what I'm talking about 

979
00:50:54,500 --> 00:50:57,300
like missing the patient care 
and I'll mention this because I 

980
00:50:57,300 --> 00:51:01,700
think it speaks volume to maybe 
the situation when I came back 

981
00:51:01,700 --> 00:51:05,600
with my weight restriction, I 
was putting Addition I took on a

982
00:51:05,600 --> 00:51:10,500
patient that was above my weight
restriction and I it was a 

983
00:51:11,000 --> 00:51:12,800
really tough situation. 
I won't get into like the 

984
00:51:12,800 --> 00:51:16,100
details but ultimately I got a 
daisy nomination out of it. 

985
00:51:16,400 --> 00:51:19,400
And in the valuation, the mom 
even mentioned that. 

986
00:51:19,400 --> 00:51:23,400
She knew that I was not supposed
to be their nurse and she was so

987
00:51:23,800 --> 00:51:29,800
thankful that the universe or 
God put me in with them at that 

988
00:51:29,800 --> 00:51:33,200
time because they don't think 
that they would have gotten 

989
00:51:33,200 --> 00:51:37,400
through it with Anyone else? 
So I knew what I was doing with 

990
00:51:37,400 --> 00:51:40,400
making an impact. 
Yeah, even if I wasn't supposed 

991
00:51:40,400 --> 00:51:43,800
to be doing it and even if she 
was right, all right, and even 

992
00:51:43,800 --> 00:51:46,600
even if I was getting rich 
hours, looking at my garden that

993
00:51:46,600 --> 00:51:50,700
I've collected like yeah, it's 
and I think it also kind of goes

994
00:51:50,700 --> 00:51:54,600
to speak Volume 2. 
For the administrative side to 

995
00:51:54,700 --> 00:51:57,500
is I've seen a lot of good 
nurses. 

996
00:51:57,500 --> 00:51:59,600
Get pushed out. 
Hmm. 

997
00:51:59,800 --> 00:52:03,300
Yeah. 
And they keep rewarding yes. 

998
00:52:03,700 --> 00:52:05,600
Some of the People that have 
today. 

999
00:52:06,300 --> 00:52:09,500
Yeah, the bullies, they reward, 
the bullies, the bullies move 

1000
00:52:09,500 --> 00:52:12,100
out, the bullies, get promoted 
the daisies. 

1001
00:52:12,700 --> 00:52:14,100
Yes, yeah. 
Yeah. 

1002
00:52:14,100 --> 00:52:17,100
They get promoted or they get 
the paper back and we get shoved

1003
00:52:17,100 --> 00:52:18,400
out the door. 
Yes. 

1004
00:52:18,600 --> 00:52:23,900
Yeah, yeah. 
So I and it breaks my heart and 

1005
00:52:24,300 --> 00:52:27,000
yeah I breaks my heart. 
I think it's so incredible to 

1006
00:52:27,000 --> 00:52:30,400
hear your journey and to know 
like the start of your business 

1007
00:52:30,400 --> 00:52:32,700
was the start of you 
prioritizing yourself and 

1008
00:52:32,700 --> 00:52:37,300
putting yourself first, And 
through that, you know, yes you 

1009
00:52:37,300 --> 00:52:39,600
wish you could have kept nursing
and maybe you'll go back. 

1010
00:52:39,600 --> 00:52:41,600
It's not necessarily meaning 
that you're never going to do 

1011
00:52:41,600 --> 00:52:44,000
it. 
But right, there is an element 

1012
00:52:44,000 --> 00:52:48,300
of when you do start 
prioritizing yourself, you'll 

1013
00:52:48,300 --> 00:52:51,700
start to find what brings you 
Joy and you'll be able to move 

1014
00:52:51,700 --> 00:52:55,000
in that space and it might set 
you free from the other stuff 

1015
00:52:55,000 --> 00:52:56,400
that you're doing in the 
bedside. 

1016
00:52:56,500 --> 00:52:59,100
She was totally falling asleep. 
So funny, good. 

1017
00:52:59,300 --> 00:53:02,600
So, for the last part of the 
podcast, which again, I know 

1018
00:53:02,600 --> 00:53:04,900
we've totally got all over the 
place, but I This is where it 

1019
00:53:04,900 --> 00:53:06,100
was. 
I'm loving everything about 

1020
00:53:06,100 --> 00:53:08,200
this. 
So I material with it me as 

1021
00:53:08,200 --> 00:53:10,300
well. 
Please tell my listeners where 

1022
00:53:10,300 --> 00:53:12,600
they can find you, they can find
your little shop. 

1023
00:53:12,600 --> 00:53:14,900
Find You On, Ya G, all the 
little things. 

1024
00:53:14,900 --> 00:53:18,300
Tell me you can find me a lot of
different places you can find my

1025
00:53:18,300 --> 00:53:21,900
shop Mills crafty corner at shop
males, crafty corner.com, you 

1026
00:53:21,900 --> 00:53:24,500
can find me on the loom of my 
Marketplace, I'm actually have a

1027
00:53:24,500 --> 00:53:28,600
couple products posted in there.
It's a platform for healthcare 

1028
00:53:28,600 --> 00:53:31,500
workers, all alike, getting 
resources and different things. 

1029
00:53:31,500 --> 00:53:34,000
So you'll find a couple of my 
products on there. 

1030
00:53:34,100 --> 00:53:36,200
If you You have the Little Five 
Points, you can use it towards 

1031
00:53:36,200 --> 00:53:38,100
that and they run the sales and 
stuff. 

1032
00:53:38,100 --> 00:53:40,000
So that's one place you can 
shop. 

1033
00:53:40,000 --> 00:53:42,900
You can find me a lot on 
Instagram and very vulnerable in

1034
00:53:42,900 --> 00:53:46,000
my stories. 
So definitely watch their you 

1035
00:53:46,000 --> 00:53:49,300
need a little bit of 
vulnerability or feeling like 

1036
00:53:49,300 --> 00:53:53,800
you're you're not alone 
Tick-Tock to I've been sharing 

1037
00:53:53,800 --> 00:53:58,700
more of like my thoughts more on
their little bit more 

1038
00:53:58,700 --> 00:54:01,500
loosey-goosey. 
Yeah I'm living in that era 

1039
00:54:01,700 --> 00:54:04,800
right now, I love it. 
Us live. 

1040
00:54:04,800 --> 00:54:08,200
Say, you can find me on 
Instagram, Tick-Tock find my 

1041
00:54:08,200 --> 00:54:10,100
shop. 
Males crafty Corner comes out. 

1042
00:54:10,100 --> 00:54:14,200
Yeah, be friends. 
I would love that and for the 

1043
00:54:14,200 --> 00:54:17,800
last part of the podcast, well, 
my last part of the podcast is 

1044
00:54:17,800 --> 00:54:19,600
the rapid fire questions 
questions push. 

1045
00:54:19,600 --> 00:54:21,200
Are you ready? 
Are you ready man? 

1046
00:54:21,200 --> 00:54:24,700
Yes, let's do it. 
What is the last thing you 

1047
00:54:24,700 --> 00:54:26,500
watched on TV? 
Netflix and chill? 

1048
00:54:26,500 --> 00:54:29,200
What was it? 
The last of us, the last night's

1049
00:54:29,200 --> 00:54:31,000
of us. 
I think I finished, we finished 

1050
00:54:31,000 --> 00:54:32,800
the series last night's on the 
HBO Max. 

1051
00:54:33,100 --> 00:54:34,900
Have you seen? 
Part of it. 

1052
00:54:34,900 --> 00:54:37,000
Not none of it. 
None of it. 

1053
00:54:37,000 --> 00:54:38,800
My mom game. 
Is it good? 

1054
00:54:38,900 --> 00:54:40,200
That's fair. 
Yeah. 

1055
00:54:40,200 --> 00:54:43,200
It is really good. 
So, little back story. 

1056
00:54:43,200 --> 00:54:46,600
It's based off of a video game 
called The Last of Us where 

1057
00:54:46,600 --> 00:54:49,300
it's, like, apocalyptic kind of 
zombie. 

1058
00:54:49,300 --> 00:54:54,200
But not all this guy and this 
girl that he picks up along the 

1059
00:54:54,200 --> 00:54:57,300
way and try to save her. 
She's supposed to save the 

1060
00:54:57,300 --> 00:55:01,500
universe and hopefully have a 
cure for the apocalypse and kind

1061
00:55:01,500 --> 00:55:04,200
of comes through their Journey. 
It's really good though. 

1062
00:55:04,800 --> 00:55:09,000
I really like shows that I like 
the depth to it though. 

1063
00:55:09,100 --> 00:55:11,600
Like there's some like there's 
not that much, it's not zombie 

1064
00:55:11,600 --> 00:55:14,500
heavy. 
It's more like emotional 

1065
00:55:14,500 --> 00:55:18,700
storytelling back and how is she
the way that she is? 

1066
00:55:18,700 --> 00:55:22,300
Why is he the way that he is? 
Yeah, you're doing a lot of 

1067
00:55:22,300 --> 00:55:25,000
character development dram. 
I love it. 

1068
00:55:25,000 --> 00:55:27,000
I like love it. 
Yes. 

1069
00:55:27,000 --> 00:55:29,800
So that's where you go, when you
want to be alone what do you go 

1070
00:55:29,800 --> 00:55:31,800
to? 
Like just your kind of got a 

1071
00:55:31,808 --> 00:55:33,400
mouse crafty corner and I shut 
the door. 

1072
00:55:35,300 --> 00:55:39,000
I either do that or one of my 
guilty pleasures that I've been 

1073
00:55:39,000 --> 00:55:44,000
trying to do more of for me, is 
massages, especially for my 

1074
00:55:44,000 --> 00:55:46,300
body. 
They've been really with my back

1075
00:55:46,300 --> 00:55:48,300
injury. 
My muscles have never been the 

1076
00:55:48,300 --> 00:55:51,000
same with the amount of spasms 
and sciatica that I've 

1077
00:55:51,000 --> 00:55:54,100
experienced. 
There's not that my massage 

1078
00:55:54,100 --> 00:55:57,300
therapist didn't even know 
existed and she's been doing 

1079
00:55:57,300 --> 00:56:00,800
this for like 25 years. 
So that's been, that's for me. 

1080
00:56:00,900 --> 00:56:02,500
But Mel's crap. 
I'm going to actually say this 

1081
00:56:02,500 --> 00:56:06,500
to you, never, you've got like 
stressed I It manifest yeah like

1082
00:56:06,500 --> 00:56:08,700
physically and so that's 
probably why she's running not. 

1083
00:56:08,700 --> 00:56:11,900
She's ever found before because 
it's a nurse is back that 

1084
00:56:11,900 --> 00:56:14,700
carries the stress of an anxiety
of the floor. 

1085
00:56:14,700 --> 00:56:18,300
So I think it's like as you like
step away for them for their way

1086
00:56:18,300 --> 00:56:21,900
from that stress, you'll get 
stronger as my like, oh yeah, 

1087
00:56:21,900 --> 00:56:25,800
like my little bit who knew like
thoughts and if you could learn 

1088
00:56:25,800 --> 00:56:28,100
any language, what would it be? 
And why. 

1089
00:56:28,700 --> 00:56:33,100
Ooh well I know sign language. 
Fun facts Tom I did not know. 

1090
00:56:33,300 --> 00:56:35,000
Yes. 
That's great. 

1091
00:56:35,100 --> 00:56:37,600
Was my that was my foreign 
language in college. 

1092
00:56:37,600 --> 00:56:41,400
I tried Spanish in high school. 
I passed the first semester year

1093
00:56:41,400 --> 00:56:45,700
to destroyed me. 
I literally the nails that was 

1094
00:56:45,700 --> 00:56:49,000
the only like I had to pull out 
of the class before the 

1095
00:56:49,000 --> 00:56:50,500
deadline. 
Otherwise I would have gotten an

1096
00:56:50,500 --> 00:56:55,300
F on my report card or sure. 
But I would say I was a witch. 

1097
00:56:55,500 --> 00:56:57,000
That's cool. 
Yeah. 

1098
00:56:57,000 --> 00:56:59,800
So I know sign language but if I
would want to like learn one I 

1099
00:56:59,800 --> 00:57:02,500
would love to learn Swahili. 
Is that friend? 

1100
00:57:02,500 --> 00:57:04,900
I'm not from your time and wait 
but that To Kenya. 

1101
00:57:04,900 --> 00:57:06,500
I know that I saw that I went to
Kenya. 

1102
00:57:06,900 --> 00:57:09,300
Yeah. 
With your instructor met her 

1103
00:57:09,600 --> 00:57:13,000
like parents stayed in her Hive.
It was like really unusual. 

1104
00:57:13,300 --> 00:57:14,300
So, I was walking. 
Yes. 

1105
00:57:14,300 --> 00:57:15,900
I went with my College of 
Nursing. 

1106
00:57:16,200 --> 00:57:19,300
Yeah. 
I learned a couple words and 

1107
00:57:19,300 --> 00:57:22,400
phrases but it's just a 
beautiful language and us to 

1108
00:57:22,400 --> 00:57:24,700
learn more cool. 
Well, now again, thank you for 

1109
00:57:24,707 --> 00:57:27,400
coming out to the podcast today.
Thank you for being so much for 

1110
00:57:27,400 --> 00:57:29,400
inviting me. 
Oh my goodness. 

1111
00:57:29,500 --> 00:57:32,000
I honestly, I'm gonna repeat. 
Yes. 

1112
00:57:32,000 --> 00:57:33,500
I was just going to do it 
spilled. 

1113
00:57:34,300 --> 00:57:36,300
Therapeutic for both of us so 
good. 

1114
00:57:36,300 --> 00:57:38,800
I hope that against somebody got
something out of this that we 

1115
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were able to connect to that 
people can see the importance of

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doing something for yourself and
yeah, protecting I do for you 

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girlfriend, love it. 
All the friends. 

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I'm just gonna need all the 
friends, we love you. 

1119
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Thank you so much for having me.
I would love to come back to 

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chat more. 
Maybe more of the topics that 

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you wanted to talk about 
originally, but we kind of got 

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on our own. 
Journey. 

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I think that was what we talked 
about today. 

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I leave it like open like yes, I
have like a structure and I 

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think about certain things, but 
then I'm also like, all right, 

1126
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just guide the conversation, you
were supposed to be and I accept

1127
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it for what it's supposed to be.
So I think this is gonna sound 

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like we both needed a little bit
of this today. 

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00:58:22,000 --> 00:58:24,300
Yeah, yeah. 
I appreciate you so much for 

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allowing me to be in the safe 
space with you and to speak our 

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truths. 
And yes, yeah, I just, I really 

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hope that it helps somebody. 
I know it will so whoever I 

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00:58:33,707 --> 00:58:34,700
think so, huh. 
Oops, you. 

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Thank you for being here and 
listening, allowing us the 

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opportunity to provide insights.
And guys, don't forget to enjoy 

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the journey of your nursing 
career. 

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Thanks for hanging Men by Q. 
So that's a wrap. 

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00:59:26,000 --> 00:59:28,900
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00:59:32,500 --> 00:59:36,000
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00:59:36,000 --> 00:59:36,000
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